Chapter
17
Lisa
had never been to Mrs. Stevens' and Mrs. Stevens was on her best
behavior, which included knowing my name. I had to say I was a little
disappointed.
Lori
and Trish were already there. Lori had cut school after lunch and
I think Trish might have also. The three of them were in the kitchen
making fudge. Mrs. Stevens left Lori and Trish to finish and sat
down with us in the living room. Princess limply wagged his tail
a few times and one of the cats, Nasty, black with a white nose,
slept on the back of the couch.
"I
understand you're going to choose your steady today, Jason."
"Jasper,"
I said. Lisa giggled in the chair across from me. "I think
we have it worked out."
"We?"
As if Mrs. Stevens didn't already know.
"You'll
tell whoever?"
"Tell
who what?" She smiled at me. "I think the ground is almost
dry enough to start digging in the garden."
"I'm
going to be pretty busy, Mrs. Stevens."
She
waved her hand while turning to Lisa. "I have an idea how he
met the other girls, I didn't think Jay . . ."
"Jasper,"
I said.
"Stop
interrupting. Jasper had it in him. But then the scrawny ones are
often surprising in their," she paused, gave a grin, "eagerness,
while the big ones just want to crush you and snore. Wally wasn't
huge."
"Except."
Mrs.
Stevens glared at me. "Thank you. Except in a certain way.
This boy is no match in that department though few were then or
are now."
Lori
and Trish came in. "It's in the oven," Lori said. Trish
sat next to her grandmother; Lori sat on the floor next to my chair.
"Well,"
Trish said, flapping her arms.
"Well
to you too," Mrs. Stevens said to her. "You have the deportment
of a three-year-old."
"It's
Jas' influence."
"Dear,
jazz then or rock and roll now never lived up to their reputations
of turning respectable adolescents into drooling idiots."
"Punk,"
Lisa said. "Rock and roll is acceptable now. Classic rock schmaltz
on the radio 24/7. Part of the fascist conspiracy."
"Funny.
I thought the Nazis wouldn't like rock and roll. Don't fidget dear."
Mrs. Stevens put her hand on Trish's knee.
"I
want to hear what Jas has to say."
Mrs.
Stevens leaned close to her and said loudly, "You need to learn
how to spread your affections more broadly. I think I can smell
the fudge now. Princess? Smell the fudge?"
All
Princess wanted to do was sleep. Nasty looked at me, laid his head
back down. Lori slowly stroked my calf. Lisa winked at me and returned
her attention to Trish and her grandmother.
Everyone
was working at keeping this light. I'd been listless, had a tendency
to drift off, like now, or walk in circles. Mom said I had to make
up my mind and soon or I'd be walking her all hours day and night.
She sat me down after school last week and said, "You need
to do something, Jasper. I'm ready to retire and you'll be my last
walker. If I'm not allowed to retire in grace I'll walk you into
the ground. I mean it. We're all waiting, Tracie included."
But
it wasn't easy to turn away. No easier than it had been for Tracie
as I was learning. Would we ever be back together again? I couldn't
tell from one moment to the next. It seemed crazy to accept such
intimacy as we'd had with another. Not just sex, the intimacy of
sharing my life and theirs. I never would decide yes when I was
eighteen, was not sure like Trish or Lori thought they were. And
not even on the fence like Lisa sometimes thought she was. "I
can't imagine you ever retiring, Mrs. Johnston."
"Barbara."
She smiled. "You're right. There will be other walkers, at
least until Trish turns eighteen, perhaps until Mike does. But I'm
ready to lead a less active role. Marge needs help, she's as old
as my mother and sometimes it's too much for her."
"Jas,"
Lisa said. She stood by me; we were alone in the living room. "They're
taking the fudge out of the oven. Are you all right?"
"I'm
okay."
"Already
having second thoughts?"
"Of
course I'm having second thoughts." I tried to say it so she'd
know I wasn't serious.
"Once
it's cool, we can eat the fudge with or without ice cream,"
Mrs. Stevens said coming into the room. "I hated how Wally
would nod off like you, Jasper." She sat on the couch next
to Princess who wagged his tail. "Though Wally nodded off after
wild sex. Not in the mist of a tea. What's he drinking?"
"Lisa's
her name," I said. "The same tea as usual."
"Jerry
wants that licorice shit again," Mrs. Stevens yelled. Lisa
pulled a chair next to mine.
Trish
brought a cup to Mrs. Stevens, went back into the kitchen.
"What'd
you do to her? She's almost civilized."
"Nothing."
"Whatever
it was, as if I can't guess, it ruined her. I want my widdle girl
back."
"Grandmother."
Trish sat on the couch; Lori handed Lisa and me cups and went back
into the kitchen.
"Same
as me?" I asked Lisa.
"The
Licorice shit? Yes. It smells absolutely revolting."
"Like
Mountain Dew."
"I
don't know how anyone can drink something the same color as piss."
"Piss
isn't that bad," Lori said sitting in Lisa's old seat.
"What
can I say?" Mrs. Stevens settled on the couch. Princess gave
a soft moan and went back to sleep.
"Speechless,
grandmother?"
"No.
I was just remembering that it wasn't until I was a little older
when I knew what piss tasted like. Now fudge . . ."
Trish
had this look on her face. I said, "She was speaking metaphorically,
Mrs. Stevens."
"Still."
Mrs. Stevens took a sip. "Are we all drinking this licorice
shit?"
"Isn't
it funny," I said, "how the conversation here develops
into certain subjects? I'm ready to make my announcement."
Trish jumped up. "I can do without a cheerleading section."
Trish
sat down and crossed her arms across her chest and grinned. "Well?"
"Lisa
and I are going steady." Lori and Trish clapped and hooted.
"Kiss.
Kiss. Kiss." Trish said.
"And."
"You
have to kiss first." Trish pointed. "Or else it's not
official."
"It
takes more than kiss to make it official, dear," Mrs. Stevens
said. "At least it did in my day."
"When
men were men and women were women," Lori said.
"That's
right. When men were men and women were women."
"It's
not like that anymore, Grandmother. Lisa can be a woman or a man."
"I
know. It gets confusing." Mrs. Stevens slowly shook her head.
She had a smile on her face and I think she was working out the
possible permutations.
"And
Trish is also going to be my steady," I said.
"I'll
walk Trish," Lisa said. She took my hand, held it to her lips
and kissed it. "Lori will be my steady."
"And
I'll walk Lori," I said.
"And
mother."
"And
Mrs. Johnston."
"Do
you think the fudge is cool enough?" Mrs. Stevens said.
"I'll
check in a minute," Lori said. "Tell the rest, Jas."
"When
Lisa turns eighteen, Trish and Lori will be my steadies. If I last
long enough. I'll be too busy to walk Mrs. Johnston."
"You'll
be too tired to hold your head up in school." Trish came over
and kissed me. "Thank you." She kissed Lisa and sat between
us.
"Such
shenanigans." Mrs. Stevens put her hand over her eyes. "Well
I never. Go check the fudge."
Trish
came back into the room, gave Princess a pet. "The fudge is
ready."
"I'll
help her," Lisa said.
"What's
her name again?" Mrs. Stevens asked.
"Lisa,"
Lori and I said.
Mrs.
Stevens sat on the couch. "You'll still come and visit me?"
"Of
course we will," Lori said.
"You,
too?"
I
nodded.
"And
you'll take good care of my two sluts?"
I
nodded again.
"I'll
pass it along. Can I watch? After we have our fudge?"
"I
need to go soon to walk Mrs. Johnston."
"Barbara,"
Mrs. Stevens said. "I don't care if you're here. I want to
watch the new girl with my two." She grinned.
"You
get first taste, Grandmother." Trish brought a plate in.
We
watched Mrs. Stevens as she savored a bite. She smiled. "It's
good. Not great, because Mr. Whatshisname came and in and we rushed.
But good."
Lisa
sat next to me and took my hand.
Chapter
18
I
heard a giggle and felt the bed move. My eyes were open and it was
still dark. "What time is it?"
"Time
to get up," Trish said.
They
moved on the bed next to us, the giggling had stopped. Trish held
my arm across her breasts. "I'm too tired to move," I
said. Last night had been one of those that seemed to go on forever.
Walking Mrs. Johnston was never the same twice in a row. Sometimes
it was quick and fun, usually because I'd get to meet someone interesting
or there'd be a party and I'd meet someone I knew who, like me,
couldn't participate because they were too young. "What time
is it?"
"Seven."
I
groaned. Three hours of sleep I was still a growing boy. I fell
back asleep.
When
I woke the second time it was actually lighter. The bed was almost
empty; Lori snored next to me.
"You
two better get up," Trish said, toweling her hair. "The
bathroom is free." She walked across the room, turned on the
lamp by the bed and looked down at us. "You both are pathetic."
"I
feel pathetic."
"My
heart bleeds for you. Wake up Lori. Lisa has breakfast ready."
Trish tossed the towel on the bed and put on a pair of underwear.
My
room had been invaded by all their things, clothes and stuff, and
as near as I could tell it all was pretty much communal. I think
the last time I'd seen those underwear Lori wore them last week.
The nice thing was I didn't have to worry about stuff like cleaning
house, washing dishes and clothes. They did almost everything.
"Get
Lori up." Trish left the room.
"Lori,"
I said. "Time to get up." I watched her face while leaning
on my elbow. I touched her cheek and when her eyes opened, after
that bit of animal fear was gone, kissed her.
Lori
wasn't one to stay still. She wrapped herself around me while we
kissed, body against mine, arm and leg over me.
"Breakfast
is ready," Lisa shouted. Lori and I kissed again. I don't know
why they did this to me since they knew I hated to leave the bed
with a hardon. For some reason I always got to use the bathroom
last. "There's no time, Lori."
It
was never easy to argue with Lori. I was in her and trying to make
it as quick as possible when Lisa walked in the room.
"Isn't
that just like a man? Always having his cock up someone's cunt.
Like we don't have anything better to do."
"I'm
not complaining," Lori said. Her hands pressed on my ass. I
went faster.
"Seven
twenty-seven and counting." Lisa gave my rear a swat and went
to the dresser where she finished dressing. She took the longest;
it was because of her gear as she called it. Chrome pins, chains
and stuff she arranged as part of her costume.
Trish
stood in the doorway. "Are they at it again? You two. Breakfast
is getting cold." She asked Lisa. "Do I need these or
not?"
Trish
usually didn't wear panties. It was a fashion statement or something.
Next she had to decide whether to wear a dress or jeans. She took
almost as long as Lisa to get dressed.
I
gave myself three seconds to catch my breath, kissed Lori and we
went off to shower together. You conserved water that way.
Lisa
knocked on the bathroom door. "Seven thirty-five."
There
was never enough time in the mornings, not even on weekends. I stopped
playing with Lori's soapy breasts and we rinsed off.
Breakfast
was eggs and toast. The eggs were scrambled and didn't taste half
bad almost cold. Lori was dressing; sometimes she did without breakfast
even though we nagged her.
I
finished dressing and grabbed my bookbag as Trish waited impatiently
for me. Lisa and Lori had already left.
Dad
was over at Dawn's which made things awfully convenient for us.
My bedroom wasn't big enough but hardly anyone complained. Lori's
and Trish's parents put up with this because of who Lori and Trish
were, and looked to become. And also because of who Lisa and I were
walkers. Not many people were thrilled with the arrangement,
except for Mrs. Stevens. Mrs. Johnston didn't seem to mind except
she missed seeing her daughter more. I think she was glad to not
have the job of waking Trish up in the mornings.
Trish
dragged me down the steps. Lisa and Lori were on the street, began
walking when they saw us.
We
almost never were late for school and since I hadn't gotten home
until close to four I couldn't see how anyone would have any basis
for complaint.
"Hold
still," Trish said. She straightened my collar. She got that
look on her face, pushed me against the building and we kissed.
The
kiss didn't do anything to that look.
"Say
you love me."
"I
love you. I love Lisa and Lori too."
"Say
you love me." Her hands held the small of my back.
"I
love you." It was true.
The
look blossomed, included every inch of her face, not just her eyes.
The
school bus passed us. I don't know if they were cheering us or Lori
and Lisa a few feet away.
She
let go of me.
"Three
minutes," Lisa shouted.
Lisa's
timekeeping was a joke. We took her seriously, as seriously as she
expected us to. Each of us gave benefits to the group. Among Lisa's
were her determination to be on time and ability to wake up early
in the morning. Lori's were a joyfulness at doing things that no
one else enjoyed, like washing dishes. Trish loved to cook. I don't
know what I offered; it must have been something useful because
they kept me.
Some
readers will say, because of your cock, but it wasn't that. Sex
was an important part of our lives but we all did it with one another
and they could have just as well done without me. Maybe what I offered,
and Lisa too, was something I'd learned as a walker. Whatever it
was I couldn't put my finger on it and it didn't seem to matter.
Trish
held my hand for the last block to school. Besides our abilities
in daily life, each offered something less tangible. Trish had a
fierceness, Lori a lushness and Lisa a playfulness. Again I don't
know what I offered; probably it wasn't at all what I thought it
was and maybe what I was trying to do was actually annoying
at best. If we ever had a minute I would ask them.
In
front of the school, Lori was trying not to see Frank. She was trying
less hard as time passed. Lisa had her art friends, after hugs she
left us.
Mr.
Johnston dropped Tracie off and went to park his car. I had him
for English in a couple of hours.
Tracie
looked good but was probably as tired as I was. She stood on the
sidewalk and seemed a little lost.
Being
Family in high school was probably harder than being a walker. She
wasn't expected to assume full responsibilities, no one was until
they were nineteen or twenty. Tracie's shift in status and because
of her reaching eighteen required a realignment. New friends, new
fatigue, new everything. Graduation was still a month away for her
and was assured, even if she skipped the next four weeks.
She
saw me, and Trish and Lori standing next to me. I couldn't tell
what she was thinking; I was confused myself.
"I'm
going to say hi to my sister," Trish said. She let go of my
hand and left us.
"We'd
better go," Lori said.
"Okay."
I turned from Tracie and let Lori take my hand.
I
wondered what Tracie thought and wondering saw us for a moment from
outside, Trish, Lori and me. We were awfully young and didn't know
what we were doing or the full implications.
Back
in myself I thought about still loving Tracie but needing to stay
away. That was hard. I yearned to be with her, would give up everything
to be with her which wasn't true. I couldn't and wouldn't. I loved
Trish and Lori and Lisa and they were who I had now and who sheltered
me. Like Tracie had.
"Walk
me after school, Jas?" Lori asked.
I
nodded as the bell rung.
"Lisa
and Trish will be there too."
"Okay."
"It'll
be Trish's first time."
I
hadn't known that. Trish was someone whose immaturity was racing
to catch up with their agelessness.
"Don't
rush off," Trish said next to us. "Did you ask him?"
"About
this afternoon?" Trish held my arm; Lori held my other hand.
"Yes."
"And
you will? Great. Now we can ask Lisa." Trish gave my arm a
squeeze.
"What
are you two up to?"
Lori
squeezed my hand, let go. "See you at lunch."
As
she left us I asked again, "What are you two up to?"
"Gotta
go, Jas. Thanks and love you." She left me wondering again
what had I gotten myself into.
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