I did some >ywn posting that quickly got out of hand.

>ywn have anyone care enough whether you're sick or not
>ywn get that weird feel of being home and not at school on a weekday despite you wanting to stay home before you were sick
>ywn have your mind taken off of that because momhorse stayed home from work to be with you even though its just a cold
>ywn have soup for dinner instead of pasta because soup is better for sick fillies.
>ywn have momhorse take your temperature before bed to make sure you are doing better.
>ywn actually get better because of all the extra love and care you received because you were sick
>ywn go back to school the next day after being sick because you got better so fast from all the love and care
>ywn be thankful for momhorse because you don't have that much work to catch up on
>ywn be extra thankful but also guilty because you realize the day you were sick was mother's day and forgot to make her something yet she still took care of you
>ywn apologize to her
>ywn get a hug from her while she whispers "your love is enough"
>ywn feel super extra guilty anyways
>ywn make a mess of the kitchen making spaghetti for her
>ywn see be confused about why she's laughing instead of being mad about the mess
>ywn get hug that works the spaghetti sauce in your coat into hers
>ywn be taught to cook spaghetti the right way by momhorse.
>ywn hear momhorse say a good mare knows how to make a good meal
>ywn be embarrassed about it
>ywn ask momhorse how to do your makeup
>ywn see momhorse cry when she does up your makeup and puts you in a dress she wore to her own mother's wedding
>ywn ask whats wrong and have her tell you that you're beautiful
>ywn still be confused that she's crying but smiling so wide
>ywn give her a hug to make it better anyways
>ywn hear her hum a happy tune while she works to get the makeup back off your face
>ywn realize how happy you are to hear her this happy
>ywn ask her to keep humming when she stops or see the smile she has when you ask
>ywn have momhorse sing to you while getting makeup off of you after she taught you to make spaghetti
>ywn have this happy memory to look back on when you get older
>ywn tell this story to your foals
>ywn have foals
>ywn have a momhorse who loves you this much
>ywn be a momhorse who loves her foals that much
>ywn be the filly that grows up this way

>ywn get a crush on a colt at school
>ywn follow him around like a puppy because you don't exactly understand your own feelings
>ywn see him get made fun of by his friends
>ywn be called his shadow
>ywn get really embarrassed about it
>ywn have your momhorse hear about it from a coworker who's foal goes to the same school
>ywn get even more super embarrassed because momhorse brings it up to you
>ywn kinda get your feelings hurt because momhorse is laughing hysterically about it
>ywn be shocked when you she stops and you see she's crying
>ywn be pulled into a hug and hear her say, "My baby is growing up."
>ywn be really confused, kinda upset and really embarrassed about the whole thing
>ywn go to school the next day kinda feeling embarrassed still
>ywn do the same thing you did the previous day and hover around your crush
>ywn have since figured out your feelings
>sorta
>ywn watch him during recess playing hoofball with the other colts
>ywn be pushed into asking to play by your own friends
>ywn be really nervous on the walk over
>ywn get even more nervous because you crush looks at you
>ywn get more nervous than that and start to think this is a really bad idea because he looks increasingly annoyed the close you get.
>ywn see his friends snickering behind him
>ywn get yelled at by him before you can ask to play
>ywn have your crush yell at you in front of the whole school and call you a weird pony who follows him everywhere
>ywn try to defend yourself but get shouted at more before you can get a word in edgewise
>ywn be called words you don't even know
>ywn be so scared you just kinda lie down and make yourself appear smaller before him
>ywn see your crush storm off
>ywn hear nothing but the silence on the playground as everypony else just looks at you after the exchange
>ywn run away
>ywn run and run until you realize you've made it all the way home
>ywn see momhorse's furious look when she sees you in the doorway not at school
>ywn be scared that another pony is mad at you
>ywn see that furious look melt away when she sees your face
>ywn be pulled into a hug by momhorse and bawl into her chest floof
>ywn have momhorse pet your mane while she tries to comfort you
>ywn hold your momhorse in the open doorway of your house with the light of an equestrian day pours in and hear her singing something
>ywn not be able to stop crying until you go to sleep in her forelegs
>ywn wake up in momhorse's bed
>ywn feel her still holding onto you
>ywn hear her say, "hey sweetie" after a bit breaking the silence
>ywn hear her say that she heard about what happened at school
>ywn feel embarrassment, frustration and despair well up at those words
>ywn pour you heart out to momhorse after some prodding
>ywn get a squeeze of sympathy from momhorse as you tell your story
>ywn hear momhorse give you advice about what you did wrong
>ywn be embarrassed by this
>ywn hear her say "but"
>ywn be told by momhorse that maybe you should move on because you can't force ponies to like you
>ywn be crushed by the realization just kicking in that he doesn't like you back
>ywn be angry at yourself for not realizing it sooner
>ywn be angry that it took him yelling at you in front of everypony for you to get it
>ywn go back to school the next day and see everypony is staring at you and talking about it
>ywn feel really small all of a sudden
>ywn think that going back to school so soon was a bad idea but momhorse made you go anyways
>ywn be comforted by your friends
>ywn be the cause of bigger social drama because friends of friends and so on and so forth are have different opinions about what happened.

>ywn feel really bad about it
>ywn get older
>ywn grow from it
>ywn move on and realize everypony else has also moved on aside from the other friendships that were ruined by that
>ywn realize that that one day while talking with your best friend that she looks really good
>ywn be attracted to your best friend.
>ywn be attracted to mares
>ywn hurt yourself by never making a move because you don't want to ruin what you have
>ywn value a friendship more than yourself
>ywn be hurt when you help her try to impress this colt she likes
>ywn power through it anyways
>ywn do it for her
>ywn be jealous of him
>ywn accidentally treat your friend poorly because of how you feel.
>ywn realize that her coltfriend is an absolute jackass
>ywn see him with another filly between classes
>ywn have your best friend get mad at you when you tell her this
>ywn have her accuse you of trying to break them up
>ywn have your best friend know you liked her the whole time and throw that back in your face
>ywn know that she's right but not be able to prove what you saw to her
>ywn not have a best friend anymore.
>ywn not have any friends anymore because all your friends are her friends and think that you are just trying to ruin her relationship
>ywn sit alone during lunch for the first time in your life
>ywn have people talk bad about you and have no friends to confide in.

>ywn become depressed
>ywn see the sadness in your momhorse because she doesn't know what to do about it
>ywn be alone for quite some time
>ywn slog through school before realizing you just don't care
>ywn have your momhorse get worried because your grades begin to slip
>ywn think one day that maybe you'd be better off not being alive
>ywn start to frequent the dam just outside of Ponyville as a hangout spot because its quiet and secluded and better than just being in your room.
>ywn have taken up drawing because you have nothing better to do with yourself and it relaxes you
>ywn lie on the edge of the dam and draw frequently
>ywn get kinda good at it
>ywn see you ex best friend trot up to your spot and sit next to you
>ywn hear her say you were right all along
>ywn have her awkwardly try to make conversation with you while you give one word responses cause you are still pissed at her
>ywn have her finally apologize to you and offer to take you to out to eat as a peace offering
>ywn decide not to turn down free food.
>ywn end up enjoying it despite yourself
>ywn catch up with an old friend and feel good when you go home for the first time in forever
>ywn end with eating at random places as you and your friend's regular thing
>ywn realize how much you missed her.
>ywn go home and see how relieved you momhorse is that you're happy again.
>ywn realize celebrate your first birthday as an adult with your best friend and momhorse and some of your closest family.
>ywn have trouble finding your own place after you graduate out of school
>ywn have momhorse say you can stay until you find one and that you're always welcome cause you're her baby
>ywn be out eating with your best friend and bring up to her that your momhorse hasn't been looking too hot lately
>ywn come home to find her on the kitchen floor
>ywn panic as you try and see if she's still breathing
>ywn be have the opposing feelings of panic and relief when you realize she is.
>ywn have have to pull yourself away from her side to grab your somepony else to help get her to the hospital because you can't do it alone
>ywn open the door and slam into your best friend who happened to be trying to bring back one of your drawing pads you left at her place
>ywn work together with your friend to carry your momrhorse to the hospital
>ywn be held by your best friend while hospital staff try and figure out what's wrong with momhorse
>ywn be told by a doctor that momhorse's tumor just did something or another to her brain
>ywn not hear the rest of what he said because you are absolutely lost at the word tumor
>ywn faint in hospital waiting room
>ywn wake up on the floor moments later and ask, "what tumor?"
>ywn see the look on his face when he realizes he has to break the news that momhorse has had brain cancer for years now
>ywn start to hyperventilate when a nurse with surgical mask comes in and whispers something to the doctor who just looks at you
>ywn already know what he's going to say

>ywn remember the next several hours as a blur of pain and loss
>ywn be sitting in your house by yourself because your friend is gonna need some things because she'll be staying with you for a few days
>ywn be thankful for her
>ywn lie down on momhorse's bed because it smells like her
>ywn feel really small in her bed
>ywn feel how empty the house is without her
>or her smile
>or her voice
>ywn realize you won't ever here her sing again
>ywn start crying even harder.
>ywn realize she won't be there to hug you and tell you it's ok
>ywn feel forelegs pull you in from behind
>ywn think its momhorse for a split second
>ywn somehow be crushed more when you realize its only your best friend trying to comfort you.
>ywn have that feeling eb when your friend starts humming in your ear as you cry into her
>ywn fall asleep to your in your best friends forelegs while she hums something to you
>ywn draw similarities between this and momhorse
>ywn remember the next few days as a blur of legal stuff as your family comes down to bury momhorse
>ywn run out of tears during that time
>ywn regret running out of tears as you you momhorse is lowered into the ground.
>ywn cry for her later when you have them again
>ywn not know what to do with the money your momhorse left you with.
>ywn have a friend who cares enough to still try and get you out of your funk.
>ywn be dragged out to eat by your by your best friend despite what all has happened
>ywn appreciate her more as it starts to actually work
>ywn get back to drawing
>ywn start to smile again
>ywn get your life back on track with the help of your best friend
>ywn start painting
>ywn realize the only thing you can draw or paint is your best friend
>notthisshitagain.magic
>ywn try to bury those feelings
>ywn see your friend in your art room looking at all the drawings and painting of herself with a heavy blush on her face
>ywn try and fail to explain yourself to her
>ywn be silenced with a kiss
>ywn kiss a mare
>ywn eat out another mare
>ywn have mare tongue your mareparts
>ywn realize all this time going out to eat with her could have been dates this whole time
>ywn realize with hindsight that your best friend had been doing a bit more for those breakfasts, lunches and dinners
>putting her mane up
>putting on a bit of makeup
>etc
>ywn realize all of this while fucking another mare in an art room surrounded by nothing but portraits and paintings of her
>ywn have a blackout orgasm on the same floor.
>ywn never cuddle a mare after having sex.

>ywn go out to another dinner with this mare.
>ywn be nervous about it because it's your first actual date
>ywn have her bump your hip with hers and give you that smile of hers that makes you smile back and relax
>A bit
>ywn have a nice dinner with the mare you lo-
>ywn stop talking mid conversation as you realize that you love her.
>ywn have a friend who stood with you and defended you from others when you were little
>ywn have a friend who you pretty much grew up with
>ywn have a friend who, despite doing you wrong, came back and apologized
>ywn have a friend who made up for what she did and more
>ywn have a friend who was right there with you during the hardest time of your life
>ywn have a friend who helped you bounce back after that time left you in a seemingly bottomless rut.
>ywn have a friend who did all this without asking for anything
>ywn know another pony like this in your life.
>ywn kiss the mare despite her confusion
>ywn go back to your place that night and fuck again
>ywn be surprised about how well she had prepared for this
>ywn be surprised at her assortment of toys or lube.
>ywn see her look when you work one into her ass
>ywn be surprised when she works one into yours
>ywn have another mindblowing orgasm
>ywn clean up in this shower together
>ywn hear her say that she wants to move in with you
>ywn have a mare want to live with you
>ywn go on many more dates with a mare like this
>ywn do all sorts of crazy shit with a mare like this
>ywn be proposed to by a mare like this
>ywn marry a mare like this
>ywn be happy with a mare like this
>ywn ask about wanting foals
>ywn have foals with your mare (because magic fuck you)
>ywn watch your foals grow up
>ywn tell your foals stories about times when you were younger
>ywn get teary eyed when telling your foals about their grandmare
>ywn openly cry a bit while telling your foals about that time your momhorse taught you how to make spaghetti
>ywn have your foals comfort you
>ywn be content with your life as your foals grow older
>ywn go to the doctor and have them tell you that you have cancer
>ywn be told that what your momhorse had was kinda hereditary
>ywn not tell your foals because you don't want them to worry
>ywn realize this is why your own momhorse didn't tell you.
>ywn be content with them not knowing
>ywn know that your foals will be ok in the end.
>You will never ever know what this is like.
>Because you will never be a filly in Equestria.