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hey guys<font color="#CCCCCC"> Shella here now I didn't really</font>

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want to<font color="#E5E5E5"> make this video but I kind of</font>

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feel like at this point I<font color="#CCCCCC"> have to</font><font color="#E5E5E5"> know</font>

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don't worry it's nothing too bad or

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important you know I'm<font color="#E5E5E5"> not leaving I'm</font>

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not setting<font color="#E5E5E5"> up a brilliant paywall on</font>

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the brand new patreon or anything I just

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<font color="#CCCCCC">wanted to talk</font><font color="#E5E5E5"> a little bit about how</font>

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i've been feeling in terms of my youtube

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channel so i don't know<font color="#E5E5E5"> if anyone's</font>

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noticed but<font color="#E5E5E5"> i upload videos on a</font>

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fortnightly basis and for the past month

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i have uploaded nothing nothing at all

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and it's not exactly out<font color="#CCCCCC"> of choice it's</font>

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more due to how I've been feeling I

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don't want to make<font color="#E5E5E5"> this sound really</font>

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dramatic or overwhelming or anything but

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i have not<font color="#CCCCCC"> been in the best place when</font>

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it comes to creativity lately and it

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seems<font color="#CCCCCC"> I am</font><font color="#E5E5E5"> exhausted I'm not blaming my</font>

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<font color="#CCCCCC">YouTube content stall because I don't</font>

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exactly upload on a daily basis or

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anything and it's not exactly a ball and

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chain in terms of funding me to live or

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anything I don't get<font color="#E5E5E5"> paid</font><font color="#CCCCCC"> for this but</font>

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I've been<font color="#E5E5E5"> having quite a tough time to</font>

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want to do anything but<font color="#CCCCCC"> sleep at home</font>

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lately I<font color="#E5E5E5"> just want</font><font color="#CCCCCC"> to</font><font color="#E5E5E5"> let you all know</font>

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that I haven't abandoned the channel

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it's more<font color="#E5E5E5"> of a case of I have no</font>

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motivation to do anything that I

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previously enjoyed it wow that<font color="#CCCCCC"> sounds</font>

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depressing there's also been a few

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privacy issues in terms of my living

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situation that have affected the channel

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massively but you know that's not<font color="#E5E5E5"> much I</font>

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can really do about that unless I become

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a millionaire yeah um<font color="#E5E5E5"> I'm gonna start</font>

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the fun of shiny voice millionaire

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projects so from now<font color="#CCCCCC"> on I will be</font>

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charging 10,000 pounds for each

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Fluttershy online you want<font color="#E5E5E5"> me to do if</font>

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that's okay with you of course<font color="#E5E5E5"> anyway</font>

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yeah I<font color="#E5E5E5"> just wanted to let you all know</font>

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that I need<font color="#CCCCCC"> a little</font><font color="#E5E5E5"> break from</font>

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everything I mean I've been<font color="#E5E5E5"> waking up</font>

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every day for the past month hoping that

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my motivation will pop back into place

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just randomly and it hasn't happened and

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it doesn't seem<font color="#CCCCCC"> to be happening for</font>

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quite a long time so<font color="#E5E5E5"> I might not be</font>

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uploading videos for a while I might you

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know I might wake up tomorrow and just

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think hey I feel awesome again and then

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we'll have like poof poof different

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videos coming up every<font color="#E5E5E5"> second but no</font>

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that's<font color="#E5E5E5"> not going to happen for a while I</font>

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<font color="#E5E5E5">will still</font><font color="#CCCCCC"> be open for voice acting</font>

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collaboration

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if anyone needs me I just need a bit of

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a break from my own content I think I

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think I<font color="#E5E5E5"> could do it a holiday in real</font>

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life to be honest<font color="#E5E5E5"> and as I said it might</font>

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all pop back into place and will be up

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back to normal next week maybe but<font color="#E5E5E5"> until</font>

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then I just didn't want anyone<font color="#E5E5E5"> to think</font>

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that I totally<font color="#E5E5E5"> abandoned the channel or</font>

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that I was<font color="#E5E5E5"> in trouble or anything I</font>

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think it's just<font color="#E5E5E5"> a case that I'm at the</font>

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point in my life where I need change and

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things are<font color="#CCCCCC"> starting to feel a bit</font>

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different than they did before but at

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the same time I feel<font color="#E5E5E5"> totally out of</font>

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control and<font color="#E5E5E5"> powerless to change anything</font>

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and I kind of get the feeling that's

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what has affected me in terms<font color="#E5E5E5"> of my</font>

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creativity and drive to make anything

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fun anymore so yeah bit of<font color="#CCCCCC"> a low note</font>

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but what can you do in the meantime

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though don't be afraid to keep

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requesting songs or suggesting ideas to

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me on what to make next I really

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appreciate every single comment I get

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granted there's quite a few bad ones out

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there but I always<font color="#E5E5E5"> read the good ones to</font>

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cheer me up a<font color="#E5E5E5"> little bit when I've had a</font>

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bit of a bad day so thank you all for

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the support on that I'd it's absolutely

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<font color="#CCCCCC">insane the amount of feedback and I'm</font>

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just talking people<font color="#CCCCCC"> do to me it's it's</font>

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really wow yeah it's amazing I don't

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really know what else<font color="#E5E5E5"> to say on this</font>

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matter to be honest that's about it I'm

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not feeling too good I need a<font color="#E5E5E5"> break I</font>

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can't wait<font color="#CCCCCC"> to</font><font color="#E5E5E5"> come back it's a very</font>

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<font color="#E5E5E5">strange feeling the until the next video</font>

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I guess I should wish you all a

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wonderful day night week whatever<font color="#CCCCCC"> you</font>

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<font color="#E5E5E5">want and I'll see you all in the next</font>

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video whenever that is hopefully not too

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long I'll see you<font color="#CCCCCC"> later yeah</font>