This file brought to you by - http://www.mrdouble.com ================================================================================ Message-ID: <042330Z14101995@anon.penet.fi> Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories From: an355865@anon.penet.fi (Saratonin) Reply-To: an355865@anon.penet.fi Date: Sat, 14 Oct 1995 04:20:30 UTC Subject: The Debate Trip : Saratonin 95' [01/02] (teen,m/f,first time,pla Story : "Debate Trip" by Saratonin (an335865@anon.penet.fi) To start things off right, I'll say that if you are under the age of 18, please read on. There's nothing in this text that you already haven't heard before, so screw Senator Exon..thanks. This story was written line by line with no outline, no rough drafts, and no flow charts. I thought it up as the lines came, and as the thoughts came. Some people may think I go into a little bit more detail than necessary, but for a story to be good for me, It must have a slightly strong character base and a good setting, I'm not claiming I'm a English Major, I mean, I'm only a high school student, so read on, thanks =) Chapter 1 - Blah. First off, about me. I am a 17 year old Junior in high school, and participate in debate. We go on tournaments inside our state, and sometimes out, recently my regular debate partner has been switched out of the class, and I was stranded, I thought about moving to LD debate, which was only for a single debater, while CX debate was compromised of a dual person team, I wasn't sure what I was going to do. I went up to our debate coach and described my dilemma, and she started to tell me about some of the new additions to the class that year. She pointed around the room naming names and grades, and her finger fell upon a girl with her back turned to me, her shining black hair fell just below her shoulders, straight and independent. My eyes scanned farther down her body to find her back tightly exposed by her white body suit. It was tucked into her jeans which were fairly tight. Then as if I had asked her myself, she turned around. Our eyes caught in an instant and she beamed a smile at me. I smiled back eagerly. She reminded me of what Kirsty Alley(sp.) would have looked like when she was in high school. The white lace of her bra shown through the tightly fitting white shirt. Soon after, her direction went beyond me as someone called her name for assistance, "Jessica!". Hmm.. Jessica I thought, and I inquired our coach further. "Oh, Jessica is a sophomore, and a debate newbie, but she's shown promise, I saw her at the summer camp, she has good speaking skills." I told her that I would like to talk to her some, and might consider her for a partner. She looked like a fairly smart girl, not to mention beautiful, and taking on a newbie and showing them how to debate didn't sound bad at all. I turned around to our coach, and she was smiling at me, as if reading my mind, and glanced over at Jessica and nudged me. I walked over to where she was, and said her name. She turned around, and I introduced myself, and she reached her hand out, and I shook it gently. I explained to her my dilemma of my partner leaving, and wondered if she had had any other offers. "no" she replied smiling. And I asked her if she would consider being my partner for the next tournament that next weekend. Her mouth grew wide and she said that would be great! I told her that we had a lot of work ahead of us, and would have to work hard. She nodded her head. I showed her over to the box where I kept all my CX files, and she opened the top and started to thumb through the files. When she bent over to examine one on the other end, I caught a glimpse down her shirt, and mentally slapped myself for being so perverted. I did notice that her breasts must have been around the 36B area I supposed, perfectly shaped and accented her body well. She pulled some baylor counter-plan files, and we went to work, filing, chatting, etc. She was fun to be with, and I felt she would be a great partner all year. Chapter 2 - Preparation. Thorough the 2 weeks before the out of state tournament, we prepared. We got all of our files organized and ready to be debated, we had chosen a case, and had spent time debating people in our own class, and she proved to be more than formidable. I don't know why I never even asked her out on a date or anything non-school, guess I'll never know. When the day of the tournament came, we had it all planned out. We would leave after school Friday, we would get there around 9 o' clock, check into our hotel, prepare, have a meeting, and then debate all Saturday at the local school, and we would leave Sunday morning, and get home around 2 p.m., pretty busy schedule. We had stacked the van with crates and cases on the top. The van was BIG, don't get me wrong, one of those 5 long seat jobs, and we didn't have a large team, so it fit everyone quit nicely, and every team got their own section on the van. Since we left the school, me and Jessica reviewed our files, just as everyone else was. But around 8 o' clock, we both started to get tired, and she laid down on the seat and went to sleep almost immediately, I sat there on that seat and watched all the highway signs until we rolled up to the Radisson. I woke Jessica as we pulled up, and I watched her get up and rub her eyes, and she was so beautiful as she did so, she dutifully got up and we started to unload onto the carriage deal. When we got to our rooms, they were pretty nice, Jessica and all her girlfriends were in the adjoining room, separated by only one of those 2 hotel room connect-o jobs. When we were done unloading, and just about to walk inside. I went up to Jessica and asked her if she would like to join me for a swim in the hotel pool. It just kinda happened, under normal circumstances I'm to shy to even ask such a thing, but something made me do it. She said she was very tired, and sat and contemplated for a second. My heart sank in those few seconds, and was almost sure of being rejected, and had even started make the notion that I was never going to ask another girl out on --. She smiled and said sure. Chapter 3 - The Pool A couple of minutes later we both arrived out of our rooms. Unknown to our disapproving judge of course! We went off to the top floor to find the pool. While we were walking she took her towel and swatted me in the ass once. It surprised me so much I jumped in the air, and turned around to see her laughing at me. So, to return the favor I popped her, which brought her towel down, and I saw her body for all it was worth in her bikini, a pure black skimpy job. Her breasts fit into the top perfectly, tied in a cute little bow in the back, and the bottom glided up into her ass, just the way a thong should, her skin was pale and totally free of any kindove blemishes, scars, or anything. She was like a young super model. We noticed a sign that said POOL . And we followed it. It seemed like we had climbed 40 flights of stairs before we finally reached the top, and we were both huffing. We opened to door to reveal night air, and we both glanced at each other strangely. She got a wild look in her eye and ran past me. I sat for a second, dumbfounded, and ran after her. A LARGE pool sat in the middle of beautiful shrubs and plants, obviously professionally land scaped, and we were all alone! As I looked around I saw buildings as far as I could see. Seattle was beautiful in the night air, and we were among one of the highest buildings! I walked over to where Jessica was, testing the water with her toe. "Perfect temperature!" she said excitedly. "Isn't this beautiful?" I gawked. I then walked over to the hot tub and turned the knob on 40 minutes, and got in. She got the idea and followed me. We sat on opposite sides of the steaming hot tub, looking around, it was breath taking, who ever knew that we would be sitting on top of the Radisson, in a hot-tub, looking out over the city of Seattle, it was just bliss. We talked about debate, life in our small little town, government, and all sorts of things. She was really entertaining company. She looked around, and spotted something on the dimly lit concrete, and called me over. I half walked-swam over to where she was. There on the concrete were two ladybugs, walking around together. She was fixed on them, and smiling, it was a very pretty sight. She caught me looking at her, and looked deep into my eyes. Before I could even control myself, I reached out and kissed her. It started as a simple peck kiss, I didn't want to go to far, but then her own tongue shot out of her mouth and entered my mouth. My mind raced, and so did my heart, as we sat there with only our mouths touching, it was wonderful. She reached a arm out underwater and grasped my waste and hoisted herself up on my knee. Bringing her to my level. I broke the kiss and started to kiss along her chin and cheeks, and worked my way to her ear lobe. She moved her left leg around and wrapped it around my waist underwater. I kept kissing her around her neck area. She leaned her head back in pleasure, and she wrapped her other leg around my waist also. My hard-on started to poke through my swim trunks. I then reached my hands around and pulled on the string on her bikini, and her top fell into the raging water, where it was washed to the other side of the hot-tub. I proceeded to kiss along her neck, and down toward her breasts. I raised my knee up a little, and her chest came above the swirling white water. I leaned down farther and started to kiss along her breasts, and sucking lightly on her nipples. I heard her moaning and whimpering in compliance. I was totally lost at this point, and really didn't care about anything else besides her. I had never really felt like this before. Suddenly her hands came up to my hair and pushed me away. I got a disappointed thought, and she grinned at my evilly. She started to lower down into the water, until her body was again emersed, and then her head. My eyebrows cocked strangely and wondered what the fuck she was up too?? Then I felt a tug on the draw string of my swimming trunks, and they were briskly pulled away from my body. My eyes opened wide as a hand grasped on my rock hard cock, and soon after I felt Jessica's hair brushing against my thighs as she settled into a comfortable rook. Before I knew what happened, her mouth encircled my throbbing cock underwater. My hands grasped the sides of the concrete, and my head flew back. She was sucking as hard as she could on my head.. and nibbling gently at my shaft. Her other hand came up and grasped my balls, moving them around gently. She started to moan, creating an acoustic effect around my cock, intensifying to pleasure by 100%. Argh!! My mind woke up and the adrenaline started to flow as I heard a door open. I grabbed her underneath her armpits underwater, and she rose from the water with a strange and frightened look in her eyes, I winked at her, and pointed towards the door. I found her black top floating around in the water and gave it to her quickly. She understood immediately, and had just tied it, and moved to the other side of the tub when Kevin came around the corner in slacks, ranting how we should be down in the hall sorting through our files, and how he couldn't find the Burma counter-plan, and was in an uproar. "We'll be down in a minute Kevin, ok?" A passionate filled female voice said behind me. Kevin grunted and ran practically through the door. I turned around and sighed heavily, exaggerating greatly. She swam over to me, and wrapped her hands around my neck, and kissed me gently. Then she raised up out of the water. I turned around and watched her intently as she strutted to go get her towel. I got up out of the water, and walked to where she was drying off. She glanced down and started to giggle and said "You had better cover that thing up before the tournament tomorrow, big boy". I glanced down and saw a my cock pushing through the fabric. We both laughed and dried off. We found the elevator this time, and went down to our floor. At the junction, she said good night, and as she turned around, I grabbed her by the back of her bikini, and pulled her closer, and kissed her deeply one more time. When we were done, she looked into my eyes and said "good night" one more time before she knocked on the door, and was let in. I did the same, and crashed on the bed. And slept.well, hard. Continued in next post - debate2.txt --****ATTENTION****--****ATTENTION****--****ATTENTION****--***ATTENTION*** Your e-mail reply to this message WILL be *automatically* ANONYMIZED. Please, report inappropriate use to abuse@anon.penet.fi For information (incl. non-anon reply) write to help@anon.penet.fi If you have any problems, address them to admin@anon.penet.fi ================================================================================ Message-ID: <042304Z14101995@anon.penet.fi> Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories From: an355865@anon.penet.fi (Saratonin) Reply-To: an355865@anon.penet.fi Date: Sat, 14 Oct 1995 04:13:25 UTC Subject: The Debate Trip : Saratonin 95' [02/02] (teen,m/f,first time,pla Chapter 4 - The Morning After. The next morning I was abruptly waken by the phone, screaming into my world of dreams. I picked up the phone fast before 2 other boys in the beds beside me woke up. "Wake up sleepy head.." A bouncing female voice resonated on the other end. Jessica I thought. I immediately smiled. "Ok, I'm gonna go shower, and then you want to meet me for breakfast perhaps?" I said in a rough morning tone. "I would be glad to, even though I'm not much of a fan of those cheap ass continental breakfasts that hotels put on.." she said. I smiled, I couldn't wait to be with her again. I got up and went into the dark bathroom, showered, shaved, and all that jazz. I called her room number when I was done, and she picked up almost immediately. "I'm done, want to meet me outside of my door?". "Allright, cya.". I opened the heavy hotel door to reveal Jessica, waiting for me intently. Her shining black hair was up in a pony tail, and she was smiling as always. She was wearing long jeans, and a plain white T-shirt. She stepped up on her tip-toes and pecked me on the lips and took my hand. We chatted and walked down to the lower floors until we reached the lobby, and there was a table against the wall with a juice machine, fruit, donuts and such. We went and got plates, and got our breakfast and sat and talked over in the far corner. All that was on my mind was what happened last night, and I was hoping she was thinking the same thing. Soon after we were just getting ready to eat, she leaned back in her chair, and her foot made contact with my crotch and started to grind! My eyes flew open and she giggled a bit, but she persisted. I reached down and unzipped my zipper and my hard cock flung out underneath the cheap covered table. We sat there staring at each other, in a loving trance, eating and drinking, our actions underneath the table unknown to the few other early-risers eating breakfast. Her foot movements quickened as she moved all over my cock with her toes, pinching, stroking and pushing. She looked so erotic sitting in that chair, leaning down a bit so she could reach me. I looked down at my watch and alerted her that we had better get back up to our rooms and get ready for the debate this morning. She smiled, and said yes. We walked back up to our rooms, and parted once more with a kiss. Inside I dressed in my suit, and remarked on how handsome I looked in the mirror! When everything was ready, we all gathered in the Radisson lobby. There was Jessica once again, her hair in a business- like yet seductive bun. She was wearing a nice looking brown business suit with a slip. Her pumps made her only about an inch below my height, she was beautiful standing there. We all loaded in the van, and made our way to the local high school. On the way over we prepared files, and talked about topicality strategies and things. It all seemed so different, we were all just mere boys and girls, 16 to 17 years of age, dressed in men's and women's attire, everyone looked a little out of place, except Jessica, she looked in her domain, where she should be. I was honored to have her as a partner, and as a girlfriend. I was proud of the advancements she had made in the last couple of weeks, where she had become a formidable debater, and a great friend. I wasn't sure if I felt love for her, I mean, I had only first laid eyes on her 3 weeks ago, I thought about that a lot. When we got there, we loaded our stuff into the room they had designated for our school, and we all went up to the sheet to see what we were going against. Jessica and I were Affirmative against a team from Texas. We went to our designated room, and set up. The two boys showed up and set up also. We secretly reviewed our Drug trafficking in china case, and waited for the judge to arrive. Previously, we found that I was a 4% faster speaker than Jessica, so I went up to read the case while the other team flowed my case. I read perfectly, w/o any errors, and even had time enough to glance up at Jessica grinning at me, and shot me a wink. When I was done, the Texas team came up and cross examined me. I answered their questions to the best of my ability, and some of their evidence was strong. And they tried to pull a topicality issue. I could tell that this debate wasn't going to be a breeze, but we should be able to win. When the CX was over, we all sat down and prepped. The Texas team gathered their evidence and DA's while me and Jessica feverishly tried to pull up proof of our claims. Then the negative went up to do their speech. The rest of the debate went smoothly, and since they dropped topicality after the first negative constructive, and were not able to supply enough evidence, we won the debate hands down. The judge even disclosed at the end. Jessica and I walked back to our room, smiling in victory, not able to wait to tell our coach. Jessica entered the door first, and I dropped a crate on the ground foolishly, but the lid kept all the precious files from spilling everywhere. I gathered myself and the crate up and entered the room. As I sat the crate down on the desk, Jessica grabbed my waist from behind and pulled me close to her. I could feel her breasts against my back, and she wrapped her left leg around mine, and she flicked her tongue out and traced my ear, and whispered "You did such a good job, I'm very proud of you.." she said in such a seductive silent tone that resonated in my ears because she was so close. "You did a great job for your first ti---, " I was cut off when she reached her hand around and kneaded my dick though my slacks. My knees turned into loose joints as my dick started to grow, and I fell down a bit while she played with my dick though my slacks. We heard voices of joy outside of the door, and she reached away quickly and turned me toward her, and kissed me. Then she went back to filing some of our used files. I wanted so bad to close the door on our teammates faces and lock it, and take Jessica right there on the teachers desk. I wanted to rip that business suit off of her, and watch her let her hair down while she wrapped her legs around me, I would drop my slacks and raise her slip up. I dreamed of how I would enter her virgin hole there on that table, and hear her whimper softly, I could feel her wetness clamping around my hard cock, and I would pump into her again and again, until I came into her over and over again. "Hon, where do these 3 Gorges DA's go?" I woke up from my trance as Tim and Rebecca entered the room, commenting on how well they did. I walked over to Jessica and helped her. We chatted with Tim and Rebecca about their first negative victory, and how good it felt to crush someone else's case. The next debate, we were Negative, and went up against 2 guys that had tubs that had countless Harvard and Baylor camp stickers. I looked at Jessica with open eyes, and she sighed. We put up a battle, but the New York team brought up so many points in such a short amount of time that we were hardly able to flow all they said. We attempted a counter-plan, and a few DA's, but it was hopeless, and we lost, bad. I told her that we really did well, and that those guys really belonged in Varsity instead of JV, and she agreed. Now it was time for lunch, and we ate at the McDonalds across the street, at least this was something that stayed static with home. When it was time to go back, we put on a good show and won both of our matches, utterly destroying a newbie team on the affirmative side, that totally dropped our topicality argument, and lost it on the second affirmative constructive. Our next win was well fought for against a Californian team, which knew what they was doing, but our case was strong, and we made it. We had hopes of breaking into the semi-finals, but our hopes were crushed as we looked on the board and found that there were too many 4-0 teams, and that only 1 3-1 team was let in, and not us. Ugh, well, you lose some you should win, and win some you should lose I told her. And we went back to our staging area. No one broke to the semi's that tournament, but we did bring home one xtempt trophy, and maybe that was worth the whole deal. We went back to the hotel, since it was too late to hit the road, and everyone was very tired. On the way back we all talked about our successes, and all our defeats. That was the first time in my life I felt real companionship for all my teammates, we were all linked in some way, my closest link being that of Jessica. I had only known her little under a month, and she was such an important part of my life. My only hope at this point, was that she felt the same about me, how was I to know? Asking her was a little easier said than done. When we got back to the hotel, our coach announced a meeting for those that wanted to go in her hotel room. We all raised our hands, except Jessica, and soon she reached out and grabbed my biceps and pulled it down, and looked at me intently. We got back to our rooms, and got out of our stiff clothes, and sat on the bed and watched TV until it was time for the meeting, and all my friends left the room, leaving me alone. I went to the door adjoining the girls and boys room, and knocked. I heard a door opening on the other side, and opened mine. There she was again, in all her beauty, staring at me. She came in and we sat on the bed, and talked a little about the debate, and how well we did. On impulse, I reached out and kissed her passionately, she complied, and we laid down on the ruff hotel comforter. We were kissing rigorously, and she climbed up on top of me. She then raised herself and sat on my lap, and took her T-shirt off, revealing her perfectly formed breasts, and then she reached up and undid her hair, and it fell down around her shoulders. I felt my cock growing in my pants, and it pressed up against her. Jessica reached behind herself, and unbuckled her bra, revealing her naked breasts, she tossed the clothing aside and came back down to me and we kissed some more. My hands found their way down to her ass, and I gently caressed it. She started to unbutton my shirt, and it was off. Then she started to kiss down my neck, and to my mid chest, and started to lick and suck lightly on my nipples, and then began to trace her way down to my stomach, kissing as she went. She reached her hands down and unbuttoned my pants, and pulled them off of my feet in one swift movement, then she pulled my boxers off. My cock sprung free and pointed due north. She smiled contentedly and brought her hand up and encircled the base of my dick, and brought her mouth down to its level, she started to plant small kisses all over it, the feeling of her hair laying down on my navel and legs was exquisite while she planted kisses all over my swollen shaft. Then she brought her mouth up to my head, and placed it into her mouth. My hands shot up to the back of her head, and my back arched as her hot wet mouth capture me in her mouth. She possessed control of my whole body by having it in her mouth, she went down as far as she could, and I could feel my cock straining against the back of her mouth. I started to moan uncontrollably everytime she came back up to my head. She reached her other hand up and started to play with my balls lightly. She started to strongly concentrate on my head while her other hand stroked the length of my shaft, I was guiding her into my rhythm with my hands. After a while, I felt that familiar feeling start to brew in my stomach. She came up from my lap and wiped the saliva off her lips, and brushed her hair back with her hand. "Not yet, I'm not though with you by damned.." She smiled evilly and removed her pants and her panties. Then she came beside me and laid down. I maneuvered myself on top of her, and she reached her hand down and grabbed my dick and positioned it at the center of her vagina. "I've never done this before" she timidly said. "Me neither, but I think I have some idea." We both laughed momentarily, and she tugged on me sharply. I pushed my hips in and my head entered her lips, and I pushed farther keeping our eyes locked. She gasped for breath when I was half way in, and squeezed a hand on my arm, and I stopped. A look of relief came upon her face and she smiled. She released her grip, and I continued on. The feeling was ecstasy, her cunt was gripping my cock so tightly, it was just what I had imagined it to be, and I was glad it was with Jessica. I was sure now that I had fallen in love with her. "I love you." I whispered. Her eyes flew open and she said in a sweet lovely voice, "I love you too.". With that I started to slide into her faster. She had me in a death grip on my back, pulling me tightly, and her legs were wrapped around my ass, pulling me deeper into her. "Ohh. I'm go-ooing, I'm going to cumm.." she whimpered inbetween labored breathes. I took this as my queue and started to pump harder, and she dug her nails into my back and gripped my ass with her legs even tighter. Her breath ceased and she held it in tightly, then she let it out in one long gasp, and her head fell back on the pillow. I soon after started to feel the first signs of my own orgasm, and told her, "Keep going, I'm on the pill." A moment of relief and pleasure blew over me as I started to shoot inside of her, I was finally finished after, it was positively the best orgasm I had ever had, and when I was done I came out of her and we slipped underneath the hotel covers and she wrapped her arms around me, and I did too. We snuggled close and she kissed me, and said she had a great time, and I did too. I asked her how long she had been on the pill, and she said not long, that when she laid eyes on me that she thought something might happen, and she took no chances. That was the first time I had ever really felt like a man in my life. This trip had brought me to so many conclusions about my life, and laying there in that hotel room, with Jessica at my side, I felt like I could do no wrong, there was a certain aura emitted from us there together. I couldn't help myself and I fell asleep, holding Jessica. Chapter 5 - The Trip Home "Wake UP!!" a harsh male voice sounded into my ears. I sprang awake in a hotel room to see 3 boys around my bed, snickering. My heart skipped a beat as I came to the realization that I was surely naked underneath those covers, and that Jessica was laying beside me, asleep and being gawked at by my teammates. I looked over to my left and saw a bare spot, and found I was in my boxers. A gush of relief overwhelmed me, Jessica must have left right after I fell asleep. "Hey knuckle-fuck, what the hell do you think you're doing, you totally missed the meeting!" Tim said, "Mrs. James spilled a whole fucking bowl of picante sauce on her lap!" The boys giggled some more. 66"Looks like you had fun in here, sheesh, you missed ALL the fun, go back to sleep." I snickered to myself, and started to remember the events this evening. The only thing that hit me to do was to call Jessica. I picked up the phone, "483", Rebecca picked up and I asked her if Jessica was there, and she said that she was in the shower and she would tell her to call me when she got out. I said OK, and laid in bed and waited for her to call me back. RING!! RRRRIINNGG!! I smiled and picked up the receiver, "hello Jess.." "hi baby, how are you doing? Bet you got a shock when you woke up eh?" she giggled. "Yeah, how about I tell you all about it on the roof?" "ok, I'll meet you up there in 10 minutes, deal?" she said. "ok", and I hung up. I got dressed in simple attire, jeans shorts and a "CyPhErPuNk" t-shirt. I made my way to the elevator, and went up to the roof, when I got there, I opened up the door and saw her standing near the edge. Her hair was blowing in the Seattle air, and she looked so beautiful contrasted against the black night, and the city. She heard me shut the door and turned around, and I smiled. I saw tears in her eyes, streaming down her face, tainting it. I walked closer. "Please don't come any closer." she half cried-said. "I don't understand Jess, whats going on?" "I'm sorry, I didn't want it to come to this, I-I, I, nev", she broke down and started to sob, I thought of running to her and pulling her close to me so I could comfort her for whatever reasons she was so distraught. She whipped her head up and said "Yo-uu, you may not und-er- sstand, most of the time, I don't, but I don't want to be here anymore, don't you see?" she blurted out. "No, I don't understand Jess, come here so I can hold you, we can work this out, please?" I said. I was starting to well up in tears myself, I hated seeing her like this. "I'll tell you right now, that if you come any closer, I'll jump off this roof." She cried. "Jess, NO! I don't want you to jump, please, I don't want you too, why, why-hy are you doing thhis, I don't understand, why?" I screamed. "You don't understand what it's like to be me da-damnit, you just don't un-understnad." She cried. "I never wanted it to be like this, I love you so much, you know that don't you?" she cried once more. "NO! Please don't do this." I knew what she had in mind as she brought a bare foot up to the short stone railing, and the wind increased as she became the highest point on the rail. I had no more time, I had to save her, I would risk anything, I would give my own life to save hers. Before she got any higher, I bolted out for her, maybe I had a chance of keeping her, she's all I ever wanted, I would give anything to have her in my arms right now, anything. I ran as fast as my heart would pump out adrenaline, my eyes never broke away from hers as she raised the other foot up and I knew from there, that it was her decision now, I had no more pull. "I love you." She said, but I barely heard that above my own footsteps, "NOOOO!!! PLEASE! I LOVE YOU! GODDAMNIT!" Her balance gave way to the night and she fell backwards. I lunged out and my hand fell a foot short of her right ankle, and I smashed on the tile hard. The only sound for a few seconds was the bubbling of the hot-tub and the rattle of the heater on the pool. I picked myself up and looked over the edge, just in time to hear a heart shattering scream, echoing up into the pitch blackness of Seattle, and a thud on the concrete. I afforded a quick glimpse down and saw her body sprawled out on the ground, and my mind caught to what actually happened, and I started to bawl uncontrollably. I sat on the ledge and held my face, and was crying. I glimpsed over toward the hot-tub and started to think of what we shared there, I thought of the van where we laughed and joked, I thought of where we shared our most intimate experience together, on that bed. I stood up determined and looked over the edge at the few people starting to gather around her, and I too climbed up onto the ledge, and looked over. A million things raced through my mind at that moment, I considered jumping, I considered falling, and I considered going back to face the world, like a man would. I painfully stepped off that ledge and walked to the door, and went back down to the hotel room, knocked on Mrs. James's door, and told her to go outside to the ground floor. "What's the matter???" she said, noticing my tears. "Just go, please." She ran past me, and I curled into a ball there in front of her hotel room, and I thought of Jess, I thought of myself, and I thought of my future, but probably most of all my past. -- THE END -- by Saratonin, started at 8:00pm on 09/16/95, and finished at 8:35pm on 09/17/95. This is really my first attempt to write any kindove story, or literary work. Hope it was good. AUTHORS NOTE, PLEASE READ.. Some say that every teenager has a dark underbelly, I guess this is where I express mine, or is this my dark underbelly, or is it not, and my dark underbelly lies somewhere underneath all this? I'm not sure, maybe I'll find out later. Is what I'm doing wrong? Why do I write this anonymously, so that I mask my true identity from the world? Am I afraid I will be persecuted for having these thoughts, that I will be an outcast from society? I am different from everyone else, I am an outcast, or do I feel as others feel, do I think as others think, or am I this outcast that thinks of these demeaning and degrading things? Am I glorifying this sexual act that I have had limited contact with, or am I burying it in grime? We as the internet community have been deemed as perverts since TIME released that cyberporn issue, maybe it is not my place to say, but I don't see anything wrong with what is going on here. Writers on alt.sex.stories and of the like are expressing our feelings, and I don't think we are ruining or putting young children in any danger. Cybersex, Netsex, and of the like. No one gets hurt, keep that in mind. All these little innocent electrons race though phone lines, touching our lives, and exciting us. No one gets raped, no one gets pregnant, no one has abortions, no one's heart gets broken, no one gets diseases, besides the occasional virus. In real life, all of these are cautions, please protect yourself. Am I not a sick little boy, hiding behind this computer monitor that fills my room in a phosphorus glow, which is my porthole to society. Am I sick? Do I need help? The outside world disgusts me, and I don't like the people around me, am I just a scared little teenager sitting in my room, thinking thoughts that are forbidden? Shout I be out interacting with my peers? I much more prefer this world of anonymous faces, where no one judges me except for my thoughts, and my ideas. You don't know who I am, I could be that nerdy kid that sits beside you in English, I could be that tall handsome kid that mows your lawn on Saturdays, I could even be your boss, living behind this monitor. Thanks for reading this far, and if you need to get in touch with me, feel free to e-mail me at an355865@anon.penet.fi. It would really entertain me to hear your responses on what you thought of the story, and how I could improve. If there is many replies, I may even write another =) Sorry about the abrupt kinda sudden ending, but it just hit me =) Bye guys.. Another note to the posters and readers of alt.sex.stories. I want to say that in the short amount of time that I have been on that group, that it has become a wasteland, probably only 1 out of 100 posts are true stories! Please take your non-story crap to alt.dumbass, or alt.sex.stories.d, try and keep that place clean, thanks. Saratonin Productions 95' (an355865@anon.penet.fi) --****ATTENTION****--****ATTENTION****--****ATTENTION****--***ATTENTION*** Your e-mail reply to this message WILL be *automatically* ANONYMIZED. Please, report inappropriate use to abuse@anon.penet.fi For information (incl. non-anon reply) write to help@anon.penet.fi If you have any problems, address them to admin@anon.penet.fi