This file brought to you by - http://www.mrdouble.com ============================== SECRETS by: LiLKniGhT =============================== Part 1: The Prolouge File Name: Scrts01.Wri File Archive: Secrets File Writer: LiLKniGhT Publishers: The Kidz Puplishing company for the USENET Prolouge 1994-Summer Claudia walkd quietly into her bedroom in the late afternoon sun. Her father was entertaining some of his drunk friends again as usual on a Friday after the hard week day of work. Even during the weekdays he would usually come home drunk anyways. And sometimes if just a piece of paper was left on the floor he would make her and her younger brother and sister all come downstairs. Then he would take his belt off and make all three pull down there pants or skirts, and underware. Then he would tell them to bend over with there "asses" to him. The Carl Banks would beat his three children with the belt like it was a whip. And if the house was a real mess he would beat them with the buckle end of the belt. The three kids tried there best to keep there "daddy" happy and made sure that they did what he asked. Then Things had started to change for Claudia. It had happend one day about a summer ago when she was seven and her brother and sister were five, being twins and all. It happend on a saturday afternoon after her father was quite drunk. He had walked into her bedroom and told her that she was a bad girl for not keeping the "fucking house" clean. So he had made her pull her panties down and step out of them. Then he told her to take off her whole dress. Claudia had thought that a little strange at the time, but never one to argue with her father Claudia had slipped her dress over her head. It had fallen to the floor and landed by her panties. Claudia was a beautiful little seven year old. With long light brown hair that hung down to the middle of her back, and startling green eyes that were quite a sight to look at. Her lips were pretty full for a seven year old. With a beautiful nose that was slightly turned up at the end. Her chest was flat and had two little pink nipples on it that were puckered because of a draft in the room. She had a flat stomach that was smooth to look at and arms that were long and thin with perfect little fingers at the end. Her hips were non exsistant. She was straight and perfect. Her little cunt looked so smooth and the mound was round and you could see the parting between the lips. It was totally hairless. Her father had told her to turn around and, her little butt was reveled to him. Her back was straight down and then you came to the round ass. One of the best in the world. She was so beautiful and Claudia hated her body. With her back turned to him her father had told her to bend over and put her hands on the bed to hold her self up. Claudia did so with out questioning. She heard the belt buckle come off and then something that she never heard she heard. Her fathers zippers was coming down. Then she heard him stepping out of his clothing. Claudia started to get scared. She was waiting for the belt to start hitting her ass. Then she heard her father approaching and Claudia sighed thinking 'finally he is going to do it and get it over with'. But her father did not start beating her. Instead Claudia felt something on her butt. It was hard and seemed to be sticking up staright. Her father had then said something that Claudia would never forget for the rest of her life. "Spread your legs you little bitch." And with that Clauida spread her legs and learned a new leason. That her father was going to start a new game with her and her only. She felt the hard thing pressing against her seven year old thigh and she started to get panicked. What was that. What was it. She wanted to scream that in his face. Instead she stood there like the good little girl that had to obey or be hurt so badly that she could not move for a week. She felt something against her pussy's lips and she knew it was the hard thing that had been against her thigh a second ago. Her father started to push it inside her totally dry pussy and Claudia started to scream. As it tore into the dryness she screams more and her father yells at her, "Shut up you stupid bitch." Claudia feels the tears start to come out of her eyes and roll down her beautiful young cheeks. Her father spits on his hands and rubs it all around her pussy and starts to push more. His huge cock rams into her small seven year old pussy and it keeps pushing dystroying the pressious hymen and the seven year olds pussy. Tearing the vaginia up. Her father does not care. Blood starts coming out of Claudia's pussy and it drips on the floor and it just helps him more. The blood makes it wetter and he pushes harder till he feels her cervix. Her pussy is so tight and he cannot hold his load inside anylonger. Plus hurting the little "bitch" excited him all the more. Claudia starts to feel something happening to the organ that is inside her. The pain is still throbing in her body. Tears are streaming down her face and rolling on to the sheets of her bed. Her father cums inside her body and he feels his realise and lets his semi hard cock out of her body and washes the blood and cum off on her ass. When not enough comes off he turns her around and says. "Okay bitch Lick it now, lick it clean till all the blood and cum is gone." With that Claudia bends down and licks the organ that her father gives her. When it is totally clean he gets up and dresses and leaves. Claudia can not believe what she just did. Her fathers penis. She had seen it. He had used it on her body. Oh Claudia knew what sex was. She had seen enough of it on t.v. and on her fathers prono films. It all made her feel gross. Not because she was too young. But because it all seemed so vilonet. Now she knew it really was. The room smelled of her fathers sex act. For men it was good for women it was pain. That was how Claudia saw it. She slowly started to clean her room. That started it all. From then on her father would come in her room at least once a week. Then he would fuck her and he would fuck her again. At least twice he would fuck her before he left. He always called her a bitch and he always hurt her a lot. Because it turned him on. end of prolouge ============================== SECRETS by: LiLKniGhT =============================== Part 3: Part one of the Novel: Darkest Hours....Chapter 2 File Name: Scrts03.Wri File Archive: Secrets File Writer: LiLKniGhT Publishers: The Kidz Puplishing company for the USENET Chapter 2 Claudia laid down on her bed again in the room thinking once more on all the things that had changed in her life in the last past year. Oh she was older she was wiser she was everything that you could want a littel girl to be. After the first time her father did her infront of the twins things started to change for everyone. The twins who use to obey her all the time began to slack off. And when their father came home to a house that was a mess he would not take all three and spank them or hit them. Instead he would go straight to Claudia and make her take off all of her clothing, bend over and be fucked. Claudia never objected she always did as she was told. He would always say to her "You slut" or "You bitch" or "You fucking Cunt" he was never kind and Claudia knew that this was how the rest of her life was going to be and that it was all her fault. Yes it had to be all her fault because she was the "slut". He had taught her so. He had made her so. He was her father and he was law. That was how life was going to be and that was how she was going to have to live with it. Claudia had wanted to on the first couple of days to lay in her bed and cry. Not to go off to school and learn. Cause at school she felt unclean she felt dirty. As if something was making her that way. As if she could not get clean enough. Wash though she may. She felt dirty because she was a slut. And sluts had to be dirty. Sluts were dirty. Sluts sudiced there fathers like she had done. Claudia Roberts was a slut and that was the end of that. Any friends she had had she drew away from. And that was not many and they also were not real friends and did not care if she went or stayed. Claudia's grades in school began to fall during the last part of her seventh year. When her father found out he made her give him head with his cock deep throating her seven times. For each year of her "sluty" life he had said. Then he had told her to get better grades or else. So Claudia got better grades. Things began to change. Life became a nightmare. There was no more sleeping no more waking. Dreams were left in the dust. Life became pain. It was to hard. Then she tried to take her life. It had been a fall afternoon and she had just gotten home from school. She was sitting on her bed trying to read a book. Something that she usually did not get to do. But she had finished all the house cleaning early and the twins were out in the backyard of the neighbor's playing a game. So that had left Claudia all alone in the house that was totally clean with nothing to do. That was fine with her. She got some time alone something that she rarely got at all. Claudia after a while got bored of the book and went into the bathroom to use the bathroom. That was when she saw it. In perfect clarity. Claudia had an idea. After she had gone pee she went into her father's bathroom. A place that no one was allowed a place that was a shrine to him. He only let Claudia in once a month to clean it and make sure that it was not a mess. This time she came there for a diffrent purpose. She came there to die. When she reached the bathroom she silently sat down on the tolit and pulled her fathers razor blade out from the razor. She bares one of her wrists like she had seen one of the girls in a horror film do once. Then slowly she pulls the razor back and slides it across her smooth white wrist. At first nothing happens and Claudia wants to scream in frustration. Then she sees it. A drop of blood. One drop of blood. She slides the razor across her wrist again. The skin on her rist comes ripping open. Blood comes pooring out. Some of it hits her in the face with the force of it. She drops her wrist over the sink. The blood begins to drip downwards. Down down down. The blood flows from the wrist. Blood. Life. Slowly she feels herself become drowsey. As if nothing really lives anymore . Nothing matters now. Not the twins hating her and thinking of her as a slut. Not her father rapping her or her accepting it because she was what she was. Not the way her life was becoming a hell hole. Not anything....nothing mattered. Nothing. Claudia wanted the realse from life. It felt like peace. It felt like life. It was never to be. Never to live again. Life comes. Life is gone now. Claudia wants to cry with relife that she will no longer have to live this life. In slow motion it happens. Her father walks into the bathroom. Maybe he had to go pee. Maybe he had to shave. Maybe he just wanted to check on his bathroom. What he saw was the slut. She had cut her wrist. Chris slowly walkes over to where she was and bent down by her and said very slowly. "You slut....you will pay for this. I will not let you kill yourself you stupid bitch." With that he grabs her wrist, the one that is bleeding. He holds it and applys presure. Chris picks Claudia up and carries her to the car. To Claudia it all happens in slow motion. It all happens and she does not want it to happen. She wants to cry. Why does he have to save her life. Why won't he just let her die. Why should it matter she was a slut anyways. Claudia could no longer feel herself. It was as if she was going numb. As if the world was passing out and shades were changing. Everything looked white. No everything looked grey and white. It was getting darker too. Everything was getting darker. Drip....drip...blodd falls on the pavement of the front poarch. He sits her in the passanger seat and starts the engine. At first the car won't turn over. He cuses and she hears the words and thinks that maybe just maybe she is going to escape it all. That she is finally going to be able to die. But then the car starts. It turns over and he starts to pull it out of the drive way. Claudia feels numb. The hospital is only three or four miles away. And she knows that they are going to make it. She tries to pull her wrist away from his hold on it. She tries and he grabs it harder. "Leave it alone Claudia leave it alone. I am not going to let you die. You are mine for life. Do you understand that. Your mother didn't she killed herself just because I beat her and hurt her. You are not going to do that. You are not going to kill yourself. If you do you will go to hell. And that is a lot worse than me." Again he grabs her wrist harder and says. "You are going to learn bitch what it means to be mine." With that they arrive at the hospital. It all happens in a blur. 'sir, sir you can't go back that way you have to.....' ' I don't care what I have to do my daughter is dying she slit her fucking wrist.' Screams when the blood begins to fall from his hand and her wrist onto the floor. Nurses running into the room trying to clean it up. A doctor running over to where she stood. Then Total blackness. totaly nothing. Hours later waking up feeling nothing at all. Pain. Her wrists are tired down. Claudia wants to cry. She is at home. Her father is sitting in a chair by the bed. "If you ever do that again you fucking bitch I swear I will kill you myself. As punishment you will be confined to this bed for two days with no food or water...lets see what you think about that Claudia. You have been out for three days....today is your first day back in the land of living and your first day of a two day hell." With that he had left her in her room. With the door locked from the outside. She was tied down to her bed. She tried at first to struggle to escape. But the straps just burnt her wrists. So there she was in the room with nothing to eat and drink for two days. No one to talk to for two days. No School for two days. She cried. She cried till she fell into a deep sleep. When she woke she felt something in the back of her throat and she knew she wanted something to drink. She knew that she wanted something to eat. She could smell the smell of pizza downstairs. Her father must have ordered pizza. She wanted some. She licks her dry lips and then trys to move. When she feels the straps she starts to cry again. For two days she was in this hell. For two days she pissed in her panties. For two days she did everything laying in a bed. Thank god she had had to take a dump..For two days she cried till no more tears would fall. For two days she realized that she could not kill herself. But maybe she would die in this room. Then came the day that she was free. Her father came in the room and took the straps off and sniffed. "Goddamn Claudia go take a shower and clean this room up now." With that he had left and she had been free and she did clean she did as she was told. She knew she would never be free. She knew that this was the rest of her life. The rest of her life. It was to be dark and lonley and she only would have her self. Better than no one at all. Claudia cried as she washed in the shower. When she took her first drink she wanted to cry but dared not. When she ate she wanted to cry but dared not. It was her life. Never show tears never show pain to Dad or he will hurt you even more. It was life. The only life she would ever know.