Posted originally on the Archive_of_Our_Own at https://archiveofourown.org/ works/1989486. Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Choose_Not_To_Use_Archive_Warnings, Underage Category: M/M Fandom: R5_(Band), Real_Person_Fiction Relationship: Riker_Lynch/Rocky_Lynch Character: Riker_Lynch, Rocky_Lynch Additional Tags: Sibling_Incest, Gay_Sex, RPF, a_little_bit_of_angst Stats: Published: 2014-07-20 Updated: 2014-10-19 Chapters: 5/? Words: 2475 ****** the songs to discribe my feeling ****** by R5mindedgirl Summary Riker and Rocky grew up 'being together'. but when Riker turns 18, he breaks it off so he doesn't break the law, or so he said. he told Rocky that they could be back together when Rocky was 18. Rocky is now 20 and it still didn't happen. he is determinded to find everything out, so he stays voluntarity home with Riker when the rest of the family is on a holiday. what will happen? multiple chapters. just a warning that it isn't over until I say so. poiregourmande, thanks to you I got into the ship. Notes this is kind of a song-fic. I chose a song, and built a chapter around it. it is probably bullshit for the first 6 chapters, but after that, it'll get better (I hope). See the end of the work for more notes ***** Better than this - Ross Lynch ***** *third person POV, from Rocky’s side* It was 5 years ago. 5 years ago, was the last time they were in love. The last time they made love. The last time they had known love. Rocky remembered “the reason” they broke up very well. Riker had said that because he turned 18 and Rocky would turn 15, it was illegal to date and Riker didn’t want to break the law. Rocky had believed him when he said that after those three years, they would be back together. Damn him, of course they didn’t. But what he could see, was hurt. Riker was hurting just as much as Rocky. They both knew incest isn’t accepted by many people. So their family knew of nothing, and both boys were put in the same room. Now, their family was on a holiday. Riker had decided to stay home, and since Riker did, Rocky did too. He had to know the truth why they still hadn’t gotten back together. He got up and noticed Riker wasn’t in his bed. Why would he not be in his bed at….. 2 A.M.???? Rocky heard softly singing coming from the roof. So he sneaked out the window and he sat down in the shadow. He couldn’t be seen now. A new song came up. He recognized it immediately. Better than this – Ross Lynch. Riker had written it for Ross. He said he had a special reason to write the song, but couldn’t bear himself to sing it. So he gave it to Ross. Riker had his headphones on, so Rocky could only hear Riker’s voice. Rocky almost cried by hearing his older brother’s voice. It was full of pain, hurt and honestly. If I could stop the world tonight I would freeze this moment in time Oh if I only could Our bodies dance like the wind over and over again In a perfect sky Hypnotized by the sound I get lost and then found In your eyes 'Cause it doesn't get better than this No it doesn't get better than this Oh if we could stop the world tonight I think that we should try 'Cause it doesn't get better than this Oh, better If we could have one night on repeat this is it Over and over we dance to the beat to exist We're gonna live while we're young So let's wait for the sun Before we go home Lock it all in our minds Memorize it tonight  'Cause we all know That it doesn't get better than this No it doesn't get better than this Oh if we could stop the world tonight I think that we should try 'Cause it doesn't get better than this Oh, better Ha! Ha! I can’t believe how we’re living Always looking up It’s a dream I don’t ever Wanna wake up It’s a scene But I can’t can’t get enough Tonight is all about us So live tonight like it’s your last Like there’s no future in your past Oh if we could stop the world tonight I think that we should try 'Cause it doesn't get better than this No it doesn't get better than this Oh if we could stop the world tonight I think that we should try 'Cause it doesn't get better than this Oh, better Rocky hoped he understood now what the song meant. A song, in wich he wished he could stop the time, because he didn’t want to lose it. It didn’t get better than that. And there was no future in his past. ***** Crazy Sexy Wild - INNA ***** Chapter Summary Riker and Rocky grew up 'being together'. but when Riker turns 18, he breaks it off so he doesn't break the law, or so he said. he told Rocky that they could be back together when Rocky was 18. Rocky is now 20 and it still didn't happen. he is determinded to find everything out, so he stays voluntarity home with Riker when the rest of the family is on a holiday. what will happen? multiple chapters. just a warning that it isn't over until I say so. poiregourmande, thanks to you I got into the ship. Chapter Notes I only now noticed, that I didn't say this the last chapter. DO NOT!! POST A LINK WITH THIS TO R5 OR ANYONE RELATED TO THEM. if R5 still reads this, I'm sorry but I'm just totally in love with the ship. See the end of the chapter for more notes *third person POV, from Rocky's side* When the next song came up, Rocky could almost hear the tears dripping from his face. Unfortunately for Rocky, he could see Riker from the side. Not from the back. Unfortunately, he could now see that his brother’s face was more like a waterfall. It was actually a mystery he could still sing. But boy, how Rocky would’ve liked if Riker didn’t sing. it would make sure he didn't look like a crying little girl now. Rocky Lynch a little crying girl.  And he even didn't try to hold back the tears anymore. The next song…… dear god. It were almost the exact words they were discibed with at The Rage. Crazy Sexy Wild – INNA. Crazy, of course they were! They are Riker and Rocky Lynch for God’s sake! Sexy, it is well known that Rocky thinks that of himself…. But it’s not so known that he thinks that of Riker too. Wild, always too much energy. Always pushing the limits. Always being wild…….. and how innocent Riker may look, even pretty wild in love. Sweet Jesus! Riker’s voice held more than pain, hurt and honestly. It held pure love. Heart beats steady, baby, ready to play Just let the disco light come and take us away I feel the heat like a fire bring it closer to me Just let it out Is like a spark burning steady from the east to the west I feel the bass beating louder bring it out of my chest I like the way that you do it, ’cause you do it the best So glad I’ve found you You and I, will dance until we die Crazy, sexy, wild, we just wanna let it out Touch my body, with the music, baby, you know I want it You and I, will dance until we die Crazy, sexy, wild, we just wanna let it out Touch my body, with the music, baby, you know I want it Move to the right, right Up and down crazy, sexy wild Move to the right, right Pump it loud, sexy wild Move to the right, right Up and down crazy, sexy wild Move to the right, right Up and down crazy, sexy… You and I, will dance until we die Crazy, sexy, wild, we just wanna let it out Touch my body, with the music, baby, you know I want it Heart beats steady, baby, ready to play Just let the disco light come and take us away I feel the heat like a fire bring it closer to me Just let it out You and I, will dance until we die Crazy, sexy, wild, we just wanna let it out Touch my body, with the music, baby, you know I want it You and I, will dance until we die Crazy, sexy, wild, we just wanna let it out Touch my body, with the music, baby, you know I want it You and I, will dance until we die Crazy, sexy, wild, we just wanna let it out Touch my body, with the music, baby, you know I want it You and I You and I You and I You and I   When the song ended, Riker mumbled something. And Rocky is dare enough to bet that Riker mumbled “you and I, Rocky”. Chapter End Notes I repeat: DO NOT!! POST A LINK WITH THIS TO R5 OR ANYONE RELATED TO THEM. ***** Rock me - One Direction ***** Chapter Notes See the end of the chapter for notes *third person POV, from Rocky's side* Do you remember summer ’09? Wanna go back there every night Just can’t lie, was the best time of my life   Lying on the beach as the sun blew out Playing this guitar by the fire too loud Oh my my, they could never shut us down   I used to think that I was better alone Why did I ever wanna let you go Under the moonlight As we stared at the sea, The words you whispered: I will always believe!   I want you to rock me Rock me Rock me, yeah I want you to rock me Rock me Rock me, yeah   I want you to hit the pedal Heavy metal Show me you care   I want you to rock me Rock me Rock me, yeah   Yeah We were together summer ‘09 Wanna roll back like pressing rewind You were mine and we never said goodbye   I used to think that I was better alone Why did I ever wanna let you go Under the moonlight As we stared at the sea, The words you whispered: I will always believe!   I want you to rock me Rock me Rock me, yeah I want you to rock me Rock me Rock me, yeah   I want you to hit the pedal Heavy metal Show me you care   I want you to rock me Rock me Rock me, yeah   R O C K me again R O C K me again R O C K me a – a - again, yeah (I want you to) R O C K me again R O C K me again  R O C K me a – a - again, yeah I want you to rock me Rock me Rock me, yeah I want you to rock me Rock me Rock me, yeah   I want you to hit the pedal Heavy metal Show me you care   I want you to rock me Rock me Rock me, yeah (X2)   Summer ’09… the summer before Riker turned 18… to Rocky it was indeed the best time of his life.   They were on a holiday at some place on the east coast, and they had little houses for 2 persons each.   Mark – Stormie Riker – Rocky Ross – Rydel Ryland – Ratliff   Rock me, they did that a lot.   Under the moonlight as they stared at the sea, Rocky’s best memory ever.   His only worries now were: I used to think that I was better alone Why did I ever wanna let you go   But then again, that last sentence is a sign of regret…   Rocky didn’t had much time to think of the meaning.   The next song came up… Chapter End Notes Reviews are cool ***** This is love - Will.I.Am feat Eva Simons ***** Chapter Summary Riker and Rocky grew up 'being together'. but when Riker turns 18, he breaks it off so he doesn't break the law, or so he said. he told Rocky that they could be back together when Rocky was 18. Rocky is now 20 and it still didn't happen. he is determinded to find everything out, so he stays voluntarity home with Riker when the rest of the family is on a holiday. what will happen? This is love - Will.I.Am feat Eva Simons Chapter Notes IMPORTANT!! I ONLY SHIP THIS SHIP IN FANFICS!!!! NOT IN REAL LIFE!!! IN REAL LIFE THEY'RE THE CUTEST BROTHERS EVER SEEN!!! just so you know. See the end of the chapter for more notes This is love (Will.I.Am ft. Eva Simons) If you love it like I love it And you feel what I feel inside If you want it like I want it Then baby let's get it tonight If you feel it, say hell yeah (hell yeah) Say hell yeah (hell yeah) And say hell yeah (hell yeah) This is love, this is love, this is love Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? This is love, this is love, this is love This is love for the beats Steal it in the streets Love for the melody, notes on a sheet The dope crusader, funky terminator I created me a rocker just so we could rock it later And the way the beat is knocking Got me feeling, alright, cause the DJ got me walking on the ceiling (all night) I got a rocket full of gold, mami's just gold I filled it up with love and then I watch it explode If you love it like I love it And you feel what I feel inside If you want it like I want it Then baby let's get it tonight If you feel it, say hell yeah (hell yeah) Say hell yeah (hell yeah) And say hell yeah (hell yeah) This is love, this is love, this is love Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? This is love, this is love, this is love This is love for the bass, and love for the trouble Love for the orchestra, violin cello, Love for computer beat, hotter than metal House beat housing, bouncing in the ghetto We sip till we smashed up, feeling alright And we rock the ghetto blaster, rocking all night I sent a rocket to the globe, armor just stole I filled it up with love and then I watch it explode Yeah, baby, yeah, alright Can you feel it? Good god, yeah, alright Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? This is love, this is love, this is love This is love, this is love, this is love This is love, this is love, this is love This is love, this is love, this is love This is love, this is love, this is love Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love? Can you feel the love?   Oh yes he could.   Of course he could feel the love.   But why wasn’t there combined love? Loving together?   If this playlist was about Rocky, like he thought, than why weren’t they together?   Couldn’t Riker feel the love radiating off him?   Riker had to either: 1.        Be blind 2.        Be deaf 3.        Ignore it   He wanted neither of them, but if Rocky had to choose, it would be one of the first two. If it was the last one, his heart would be broken and he would go mad.   Not in an angry way, but a crazy way. He would quite possibly be shipped off to a Mental Care Clinic.   Why would Riker do something like that?   Rocky was almost standing up and storming towards his brother when said brother began to sing again and stopped Rocky’s actions……. Chapter End Notes I'm gonna say it again: DO NOT POST A LINK OF THIS TO R5 OF PEOPLE RELATED TO THEM!!!! I ONLY SHIP THIS SHIP IN FANFICS!!! NOT IN REAL LIFE!!! IN REAL LIFE THEY'RE THE CUTEST BROTHERS EVER SEEN!!! ***** How could this happen to me - Simple plan ***** Chapter Summary How could this happen to me - Simple plan Rocky's POV Chapter Notes See the end of the chapter for notes Rocky didn’t know the song, but the meaningful lyrics made more than up for it.   He didn’t even know Riker could sing like this, they really should give him more solos with the band.     I open my eyes I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight   And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away No I can't stand the pain   How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got nowhere to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me   Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound but no one hears me I'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again   So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered And I can't explain what happened And I can't erase the things that I've done No I can't   How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got nowhere to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me   I made my mistakes I've got nowhere to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me     It’s almost like this song was made for them.   I made my mistakes – the mistake of pushing Rocky away   I’ve got nowhere to run –they share the same room, he’s got nowhere to run.   The past five years had to be incredibly painful for Riker. I’m sick of this life. Had Riker hoped all along to get back together too?   It was time for the next song……… Chapter End Notes next chapter will be the last song, then there is a chapter from Riker's side, and I am not going to spoiler more :D End Notes the 6 songs were picked out of my phone's music list. I'm sorry if it isn't your kind of music. Please drop_by_the_archive_and_comment to let the author know if you enjoyed their work!