Posted originally on the Archive_of_Our_Own at https://archiveofourown.org/ works/12248958. Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Major_Character_Death, Rape/Non-Con, Underage Category: F/M, M/M, Multi Fandom: IT_(2017) Relationship: Bill_Denbrough/Pennywise_(IT), Bill_Denbrough/Beverly_Marsh Character: Bill_Denbrough, Pennywise_(IT), Beverly_Marsh, The_Losers_Club_(IT) Additional Tags: Child_Death, Underage_Rape/Non-con, Sexual_Violence, Blood_and_Gore, Temporary_Amnesia, Forced_Voyeurism, Possessive_Behavior, Mocking, Psychological_Trauma, Angst_and_Tragedy, Sad_Ending, Self-Hatred, Dark, Fear_Play Stats: Published: 2017-10-02 Completed: 2017-10-04 Chapters: 3/3 Words: 7557 ****** it will end in tears ****** by julissianna Summary he wakes up in the beast's nest and when he finally realizes what's wrong it's already past too late... Notes attention everyone please! before you read this story please consider that this,is not by ANY means going to be a nice fanfiction. no it's going to contain a massive amount of angst and feels trip and gross underage rape between pennywise and bill. the ending won't be pretty either so basically this entire work is just pain and tears and death everywhere. but i can promise you that the next fanfiction are going to be much easier after this. See the end of the work for more notes ***** i miss the missing ***** The smell of rot and danger is what wakes him up at the end,his nose wrinkled in disgust as his hand covered his nostrils before he could open his eyes properly. When he does open his eyes,his ocean blue pupils go wide to the sight of an endless pile of children floating in the air like sleeping angles,or demons... The look in their eyes is glassy and some are even lacking limbs and pieces of their bodies,and bill,even as he wanted to gulp the uneasiness away,found out his throat is dry like sand paper. He just now realizes he wakes up with his clothes soaked with gross mixture of cold sweat,vomit,mud and dirt and also...blood. Strangely,he finds out every single bone in his body aches horribly and he bits his lip to prevent from the pain going in further,he doesn't quite understands why it hurts so badly though,because he looks down and sees that all this time he was laying basically on a small well made little bed that was a heavy old mattress,not moist or moldy just old with the parts slowly falling apart,a pink worn out blanket covered the mattress,probably used for a newborn baby that was either stolen or tossed away,and a bunch of old unattractive plushies and soft toys to be used as a pillow or a comfort for a child. He's almost impressed,and for a moment he thinks he can relax until a sharp noise pierces the silence. He tilted his head to the side like a confused child,he focuses his attention on a very small sound of robotic toy footsteps and sees from the distance as a tiny little mechanic clown toy that made a tiny steps towards bill. Bill barely bats an eye as he sees the little clown toy walks by itself,really now he had seen a lot more stranger things lately but he does feel disturbed by the clown's creepy cheery laugh,it was anything but cute or funny but dark and ugly and if anything it only made his head hurt. Scared to trigger further pain in his bones he reaches one arm to the mechanic toy when it is close enough to him and grabs it as he examines it up and down to see something strange,but besides it's creepy features and stupid laugh nothing seems so special about it,until.it.locks.it's.eyes.on.billy. "wakie! wakie! sleepy head! wakie! wakie! sleepy head!"  Out of surprise and fear bill tosses the haunted toy away,startled by it's sudden reaction and how it looked at him in an uneasy way. He soon feels a warm heavy liquid hit his already dirty shirt and he shakily pulls his own eyes to see the cause of it,feeling super bad about it. Bill meets a pair of shining yellow eyes stare at him hungrily watching his every move and reaction,he makes a mistake and let out a gasp of horror and soon hears a heavy chuckle from up above him and a very harsh landing on his mattress that makes him move his position and jump a little. He once again opens his eyes to see now a very massive and scary looking creature that was right beside him looking at him with it's burning ember eyes,everything about the creature screamed danger,from it's weird tacky clothing to it's sharp toothy grin,the makeup and even the hairstyle made bill uncomfortable just looking at it. The headache in bill's brain begin worsening and he grabbed his head feeling a wave of unwanted memories flood through him like a storm of chaos.he remembers! he remembers and when he does,he no longer feels fear for the horrifying creature but a pure sheeting anger. the creature resembled the figure and the look of a clown,it was indeed a clown,but a very twisted one too,it looked at billy with the same never ending Cheshire cat grin while it's eyes are puzzled to each different direction,the right one was looking directly at billy and it made a low grotesque giggle when it realizes the change in bill's face. "scaaaaareeeeeed?"  it stretches it's jaw in an inhuman way as it rolls the words on it's mouth,the voice is a mix of a raspy child voice and gleeful animal out of the horror movies,like the same horror movies he and he and richie used to go to and... Oh god... Where the hell is richie? Where the hell is everybody?! Bill forces himself to swallow the fear and anxiety that had built up in his stomach as he remembered how he needed to approach the beast beside him.  "i-i'm not scared o-of you"  he answers with honesty,still stuttering with now a reason to fear for his friends' safety from the nasty ugly creature that feeds of the flesh of a child and uses their fear to make the gruesome taste all better for it's sake. The creature puzzles it's left eye to the side and giggles like a broken record as the laughter going more mad and horrifying,finally it stretches it's slender neck to reach the boy's face trying to get another reaction of fear from him. "a-are y-you s-s-s-sure buh buh billllly boy~" it sings and mocks his stuttering,moving it's head side to side violently,when it finally realizes that bill indeed doesn't intend to give it what it wants,the clown erases it's ruby red smile from it's lips and instead raises it's back forward pulling sharp spikes from the back,tearing the costume and changes the ember yellow color from it's eyes to orange red,now,it was as much as angry as bill was,only much more dangerous.... "well,we'll just have to change that..." the voice was now more vicious and grotesque,scarier more than any monster bill ever heard in his life,and it was serious,and that kind of startled bill,so he turned his head away wishing not to look at the unpleasant clown anymore. But that didn't even last long,the brunette boy felt the razor sharp claws dig into his milky cheeks and pull his face back to look at the sadistic clown,and the expression on it's face was furious and very confusing as well as bill couldn't understand why but it seems like another form of emotion was hidden in those burning red orbs of hatred and fury. Something ugly... Something scary... "i can make you feel scared billy,i can make you feel so scared and hopeless,you would like it billy,you'll love it!" the clown trembled with excitement at it's own sentence like it was the best thing it could hear or say. Billy tried to look away when the monstrous being rolled it's eyes leaving only two big white empty eye balls but the creature knew exactly what it wanted,and it knew his deepest fears and weakest strings and so he knew how to bring the boy to do as it pleased.  "would like you like to know about your friends billy?"  it coos,it's eyes are crystal blue now,it's cheeks are puffy and childish and it's bells jiggle sweetly when it moves it's head to the side.strangely,the clown looked so kid friendly now,almost like a real adorable clown,it sucked bill in into having a little faith about the monster. Billy nods with closed eyes,his heart beats fast and his hand shake,he wants to know. He needs to know... What happened... Where is everyone? Why doesn't he remember anything? Why is he so full of mess and blood and vomit? Bill was too deep in his thoughts that he missed the sharp disturbing smile the child eater had put on it's mouth,obviously the clown had no intention in good,but it knew how fun the play and the game would start and end,it knew if bill knew the truth then he would never forgive himself. And that, Was what, It wanted.... a sickly sweet smile covered the shark teeth of the monster as it held billy's hand lovingly,stroking it and too close to it's mouth. "okie dokie little friend! but you have to promise to always be quiet and listen carefully...i'm not repeating myself twice..." billy swallowed his nervousness and nodded with closed eyes,he tried to ignore the growling the clown monster made and the amount of drool it got on the mattress and instead listen to what it had to say,hopefully getting to hear exactly what it wants. ***** the start and the end of the game ***** Chapter Summary they just wanted him back,that's all they ever wanted,so why did it have to end up like that,why? Chapter Notes personally,this chapter was the hardest for me to write. i do believe chapter 3 won't be much harder than this one. it's also probably the darkest chapter in this story and i feel so sorry for writing this. warnings: child death,violence,gore. See the end of the chapter for more notes Screaming, Screaming, Everybody's screaming... Why do they all scream? His body hurts,hurts a lot and he feels like a mangled,broken little toy. It hurts,hurts so bad,please make it stop... He opens his eyes but all he sees is red and and he smells like butchered animal and he still hears the screaming. Screaming, Screaming, Make them shut the fuck up please! He tries to ignore it but then the pain returns to him like a hammer that bashed his skull and he gasps,thin trail of tears cleaned the path to his vision and he could finally see more colors other than crimson red. He sees dark shady colors at first and pale figures that looked very young to him,the blurriness soon faded away until he could see perfectly fine six children standing away from him,a look of terror in their eyes,they are Holding weapons,rusty pipes and a bat and sharp pieces of glass and a gun. Are they going to hurt him? Why do they all look so terrified?  He tries to get up but finds his body tangled in a vicious grip by something,he can't see since his head is sternly held in one direction on the front and he grunts in pain and wheezes as the cold pierces though his delicate young lungs. Something is holding him tight in place and it's breathing into his neck,furious and hungry,and he suddenly grew quiet....so,so quiet. A bold short haired ginger girl steps in,her pale pearly cheeks are stained with tears and still she screams. "let him go!" She screams,into whatever was keeping him in place,she screams without fear and it growls and tightens it's grip on him,and he struggles to breath because it grew so possessive of him quite easily but his brain was Starting to work again,waking up from the numb state it was in and he looks up at her,and she looks up to him too. Blue meets green. She whispers his name and he watched as more tears formed in her beautiful emerald eyes. "billy..." And he feels it again,the pain of remembering. It hurts... It hurts... It's so fucking blissful... His chest puffs up like a balloon and he vibrates violently in the possessive grip that kept him still,he remembers again,he knows,knows where he is,he knows what's holding him,he knows who those kids are and why are They so scared. They are not scared of him,there arescared for him. Because the fucking monster above him,holds him against his will and threats his friends to slaughter them all if they even dare to come closer in between. He wants to scream their name! he wants to get out of IT'S grip and run off to their hands again and hug them and hold them and protect them with all his life,because he never wants to lose somebody again like he lost his little brother to the same fucking clown. And that's exactly what he does,he struggles,ignoring the loud growling and the claws that dug into his skin he struggled more and more but he couldn't get out. Eventually the ginger girl,Beverly,wails and screams again. "stop it leave him alone!" Bill looks up to meet the hateful eyes of his enemy,orange and mad orbs glared at him,it was as if just with it's eyes it could strangle him until he goes limp,but bill wasn't scared of it,he was just mad,so,so mad! he missed the warning behind the clown's eyes that said that something very bad will happen if he continues to resist him like this. The creature bares it's teeth and hisses,letting the children,bill's dearest friends drink in the sour sight of IT dragging their friend away. "no,i'll take him...i'll take all of you! and i'll feed on your fears as i feast on your flesh!" the monster violently spat out the words of an open gruesome promise,leaving a single curly haired boy with bloody bite marks on his face tremble and whimper in pity. The clown giggled back and forth,the dirty saliva drops hit bill in the eye and he shouted at the disgusting sensation,he didn't miss to see the monster wiggle it's gloved finger at the kids,giving them a second chance for a better choice as they hope so. "or....you'll just leave us be,i'll take him and only him and then i'll have my long rest,and you will all live to grow and thrive and live HAaaPpYy lives until old age comes and gets you back to the weeds!" And then there was silence,both the children and billy went silent,they were hopeless and out of ideas,worried for bill's safety but still hooked on the promise IT made if anyone ever try to pry him from IT'S claws. Billy on the other hand seems to understand exactly what it needed to do,he felt like a fucking martyr and he hated it,but he couldn't let his friends suffer,not like him,not ever. he took a glance at Beverly who never stopped looking at him with warm desperate eyes,he bit his lip and nodded slowly to her,closing his eyes he whispered to himself to be brave. Be brave billy, B e brave... Brave,brave,brave,brave- "leave" he finally spills the words and he finds it to be harder than he originally wanted. He closes his eyes,he doesn't really wants to meet Richie's shocked expression,oh no,it will only make him pity himself more. He doesn't want to see the hurt in Stan or listen to Eddie's weak cry,Ben would just look down and mike will shake his head not believing what he just heard. Billy found it very hard to look at Beverly,but he thought he might be fine if he wouldn't see the putrid smile of the monster that still held him tight. He wished his life wasn't a train of wreck and it would be much easier for him to handle this but that wasn't the case,richie didn't think so too. The black haired boy got up from the dirty muddy ground and looked sternly at his caged pal,his eyes twinkled,meaning he had a plan,a very stupid one too. "we can't let you just go like that bill" he said with no amusement in his voice which was strange and almost disturbing. Bill just shook his head and brushed the creepiness he felt off,what the hell was richie even thinking? couldn't he see he was digging his own grave? He stuttered his words out,weak but determined as ever. "n-no,it's all my f-fault....i'm s-s-s-sorry" "s-s-s-sorry hehehehe" the clown smocked the crying child,pouring salt on his wounds and giggling at the reaction it got,sadness and emotional pain seemed just as lovely as fear was to it. "no bill listen to me now dammit!" richie shouted,there was a hint of anger in his voice as much as it had frustration too,none the less the child decided to let his friend continue longing for his every word before he will lose him and the rest of the other losers. "you're right,it is your fault,you punched me in the face,you made me walk through shitty water,you...you brought to this fucking crackhead house! and now..."  Bill could feel the beast grew furious at the insult,he didn't think something as powerful as IT could get so moody and moved by a little comment from a trashmouth child like richie. Richie made slow movements towards the endless mountain of garbage and children toys,the same mountain that had the children floating around it like a magnet,he picked a silver metallic bat,raising it to the air and holding it Firmly as he stares into billy's confused pools of bluish eyes. "i'm going to kill this fucking clown"   The silence that was invading before was popped like a bubble,the losers took their time to understand what richie just said,bill's mind went blank for a moment until the monster below him roared wildly and pushed the Boy it held so close to it to the ground with a massive speed and force,it's eyes were furious red,it no longer wanted to be kind to the brats and spare their lives like promised,right now,it had a new intention. Kill Them  All Richie couldn't see it coming,how the monster jumped on him with a murderous force,how it sank it's teeth to his little face and ripped his head out of his body. But the others could,and boy how they screamed,the blood splattered everywhere and it stained every child,even bill,who laid on the mud with an aching skull and pain in his bones that made every tilt of a limb horribly Painful. The ringing in his ears faded away but not the screams,he cried softly as he grasped his head begging for the pain to go away. Screaming, Screaming, Everybody's screaming... Why do they all scream? The smell of fresh blood slowly made it's way to his nostrils and he gagged to see a stain of blood on his shirt,the young teen turned his attention back to his friends to see the clown demon having it's jaw locked on Richie's head,when the horrific grotesque creature made eye contact with bill it smirked with the head still inside it's jaw,it crunched down pulling disgusting noises of flesh being torn apart and bill couldn't help himself but to vomit on his shirt,he only caught the last glance of Ben falling into the ground throwing up as well as him. No... No... God,please don't... Bill had covered himself into a little ball,having every bone in his body aching badly he couldn't do much more then to watch and cry and scream for the animal monster to stop,but if anything his cries and protests only excited the clown as it let out an horrific laugh,pulling Ben off the ground and throwing him to the opposite wall,the chubby sweet child cried in pain,and the sounds of crunching bones echoed in the room,Ben broke almost every bone in his body,he couldn't do more than whine as he was still shocked from the hit and pain. Stop! Stop! Don't hurt them please... Eddie rushed towards him but he was soon caught by the neck by a gloved hand,his terrified tear stained eyes bore into the clown's as it laughed and squeezed on Eddie's neck,Beverly tried to hit it with a rusty pipe but it was almost as if it couldn't feel the pain at all,soon enough the clown took a one last good look at eddie who's face turned into a purple grape and dropped him on the ground. Why? Why? Why did you do that? IT used it's foot to kick Beverly into the side having her to cling into her stomach in pain,when she raised her head she saw billy trembling in the corner,screaming and crying for the creature to stop with the massacre,the ginger girl made her way towards him,making sure to be quiet enough before she wrapped her arms around him snapping his mind open. "b-b-bevvie..." he chocked on a sob but she hushed him and they both turned their head away as they heard the scream of pain mike made as the beast bit his fist when he tried to hit it,having himself distracted the clown took the opportunity to use it's razor sharp claws and tear the skin of his cheeks leaving only a pink bare flesh sticking out between the lips,that somehow made stan to snap from his long lasting trance and he finally stood up on his feet shaking and his eyes blood shot trying calm himself despise the pain. Please,please,please stop! stop! i beg you! Bill was about to make a move but the girl beside him held him down without him understanding why,but then he saw her,that despise having the vomit and the blood stains on his shirt and that his face was covered in filth,she still clung to him,because she was just a scared little girl that wanted comfort from him,so even though it hurt, he let her embrace him shouting again to the clown that skipped towards shaking petrified Stanley. don't do it, don't do it, for the love of god- Bill expected IT to do horrible acts to Stanley before his death but that wasn't what it wanted at all, pennywise held the boy's face tightly and stared into his eyes,at first none of the children understood what it did,but when the clown's eyes turned completely black with only a shining light peeking through Beverly gasped and hid her face into bill's chest crying softy on his shoulder,the boy watched as his curly haired friend started screaming and crying without a stop,his body was shaking horribly and he looked he was going completely mad before his own eyes. This disturbing scene seemed to go on and on for only a few moments that felt like hours of pain and misery until Stanley just like the others dropped on the moist ground looking like a lifeless statue with his glassy eyes open wide and unblinking. "deadlights called for you,Jew boy~" IT sang,biting it's finger like a small child would. Billy gulped down the heaviness in his throat,as he eyed his surroundings in horror. Gone, They were gone. His friends... His losers... Gone,gone,gone,gon- The dark voices kept repeating the words as his arms were still holding firmly his only left alive friend who he refused to let go off,he didn't care what the hell was that clown up to next,he will fight it to death if he has to just to keep Beverly alive unlike... His eyes averted to Richie's headless form and he felt another wave of nausea filling his body like a fever in summer. "love birds~" The both remaining children turned their gazes at the monster before their eyes,bloody and shaking,dirty and ripped was pennywise standing in front of them,eyes burning gold and puzzling to each different side except The left was locked on billy,always on billy... "you fucking monster! you killed them all!" Beverly screamed ripping herself from bill's embrace and locking her angry stained eyes on the clown who giggled and just brushed it off. "no,no,no silly dove i didn't do a thing it was allbilly's fault here" IT pointed it's now torn apart glove with the claw at the shocked boy and nodded to the girl who couldn't believe what she heard. "if your little prince in shining armor would've listened and came along by his free will...maybe your little friends wouldn't be with the weeds now" it winked at Beverly as he got closer to her face staring at her lovingly and stroking her chin before punching her in the face and knocking her down. "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!" bill roared at him in fury,standing on his knees since his bones hurt badly too much to stand properly,the creature blinked slowly before grinning madly and showing it's set of sharp teeth to the angry boy,it got closer to the child,close enough to even let his whispers be heard well in his ears. "silly stupid boy,haven't i told you...i don't like repeating myself twice..." Chapter End Notes ithurtsithurtsithurtsithurts- ***** it will end in tears ***** Chapter Summary do you? do you know? what to do now? do you? Chapter Notes the last chapter of this story,i plan it to end way better than the previous chapter since i was working too hard on it and wasn't even once happy with how it ended so i hope this will not disappoint me. warnings: underage,rape,corpses of children,mental issues and trauma. See the end of the chapter for more notes He wakes up.   His chest is heaving like a rabid animal,his eyes stinging with tears and his face smeared with snot and saliva,past the sting in his eyes he tries to get up only to be forced to lay down with much more massive force that Held him down like a ragdoll,he felt the hot liquid in his belly once again. It was dark now,way too dark,he doesn't remember it being so dark like this before,could he really pass out for so much long? Past the darkness he sees the floating beautiful pair of blue eyes,looking down at him like he was the prettiest thing it saw,he wants to reach it but then he sees a pale spot of light that shined on the pair of blue eyes and He could see a face,and when he does see it he gasps and tries to move away,making the creature above him growl and turn the eyes back to screaming yellow. "where do you think you're going?" IT growls pulling it's set of razor teeth that were leaking with saliva and dry blood,billy squeaked like a mouse that has been caught by the big mean cat,feeling the goosebumps on his skin rise like a roller coaster,he wasn't sure if he was mad or sad but he felt very very gross,and very very numb at the same time. "d-did you kill them?" the greasy locks of his hair glued to his face and his heart breaks a little to the sound of the dark giggle that he hated the most. "no,no little friend....you killed them" IT wiggles the finger,the same way it had back in his previous most darkest memories and suddenly bill wants to throw up again. Billy's body feels sensitive to everything now,there was still darkness that surrounded him,or maybe it was just the demon that was playing with his mind,and that last thought could've gave him hope if his friends were still alive but sadly they weren't and sadly the monster was right,it was indeed his fault,maybe if he wasn't so stubborn it could've have ended better,for them and for him. ''are you scared little one?" the clown chuckled again,brushing it's claw against the moist dirty cheek,not minding the nastiness one bit. The boy thought about it for a moment,was he scared? he was sad,he felt sad...he felt so broken and empty and sad,but was he scared? why should he be scared? he already lost everything he had... "you were scared back then little boy" IT closes it's eyes for a moment and bill swears he could hear it moan softly against his ear,the weight on his chest tightens when he feels the massive hands and claws close on his shoulders and he finds out his legs are spread to the body that was laying on top of him. "you were scared i'd kill your little pals,you were all shaking and crying,and you looked so pretty and petty at the same time~" there was something very very wrong in the way the clown said that and bill didn't like it,he felt wrong,and he tried to ignore it but the creature grabs his face and locks it's yellow ugly eyes with him as it brushed it's ruby lips against his ear lobe before kissing it gently sending unwanted shivers down the child's back. "and you know what little guy? i liked it...i want to see that fear of yours again" without a single warning,the clown thrusts it's hips against billy's small tiny form and bill gasped at the sensation it gave him. Billy struggled against the claws that easily cut through his shirt,the torn out fabric couldn't possibly hold much under the claws of the beast,he felt exposed like a served chicken,but somehow he was glad to get rid of the nasty shirt that was soaked with vomit,blood and other body fluids that may or may not belong to him. A scream ripped from his throat like a mantra at the sharp pain he felt when the clown bit the ear lobe along with a small pieces of it too,leaving only a bleeding half eaten ear,that throbbed and made the kid want to run away as fast as possible from the child predator that held him down. Bill watched the clown swallow the small piece of the lobe and he wanted to punch it in the face right there and then,but a small hint of worry made him stay still,he wasn't scared,but he hated the feeling of pain that made him want to die,he was scared of pain,and IT picked on it quickly.   "children billy,they just taste so much better when they are afraid,but do they all feel as good as they taste when they are all scared?" The cold claws played on the delicate skin on his chest,IT scratched it pulling small cuts on the chest and making blood ooze from the wounds,the smell of it was intoxicating and bill felt the gross long hot tongue of The creature lap at his wounds like a hungry dog. "what are you afraid of billy?" IT glances over to the weeping child with hungry lustful eyes,and bites his chest breaking the skin and moaning at his taste. Tasty,tasty,but not enough.... "n-nothing...y-you already took everything f-from me..." the bells that were attached on IT'S hands jiggled in glee as it gripped the waist of child pulled him closer to itself. "you sure about that?" IT smiled like a demon that belonged in the nightmares,the boy's chest was red and bloody,his ear was half eaten and he looked so beautiful with his eyes leaking and his lower lip trembling like that,the image itself made something stir inside of it,something that IT hadn't felt in a long time,and suddenly a nasty plan formed in it's mind. "But if i hadn't took everything from you,what if there's still someone who you wish to see?" the blue eyed kid opened his mouth to ask but the clown used the opportunity to shove it's long tongue inside,pulling billy's jaw with just the thumb as the monstrous tongue danced with the little one and made it's way to the throat,bill coughed and gagged with saliva and the sensation of the slippery thing in his mouth,his body felt hot and weird and numb too,but he felt sensitive to every touch and his skin felt on fire. The creature moaned in his mouth,licking it's lips and giving a small kiss on the boy's lips before biting his neck with it's needled teeth,the child screamed and pulled at the clown's hair to let go but it kept a harsh grip,somehow bill wondered if this is how georgie ended up,having to struggle against the grip of the predator only to be silenced and eventually devoured completely,without realizing it bill choked on a sob. "w-who did you spare? who is still alive?"  IT licked the blood from the nasty scar that's on the boy's delicate neck and purred into his neck. "do you really still want her? the ginger little slut who gave herself up for her daddy?" it murmured possessively into bill's shoulder as it clawed his back leaving it's claim on the teen. Bill on the other hand,felt like he was on cloud 9,Beverly was still alive,it's all he knew,his heart skipped a beat and he shakily pulled himself away from the clown's grip. "pl-please l-let me see her!" he breathed heavily,oblivious to IT'S boiling anger,boy was this kid in love that much with her that he risked his own life... "i wouldn't do that unless i were you little buddy,i don't like sharing my little buddy with nobody,not even lil' miss bevvie" IT didn't even look at billy,it's fingers played with the button of the pants of the boy beneath him,IT started shaking with anger and frustration as IT really didn't have any patience to hold itself back,the kid was right there beside it,weak and ready to be ravished and mangled from inside out,and yet the brat kept on babbling his stupid lips over someone else right in front of it. A dangerous glint danced in the clown's eyes,suddenly it knew what it had to do now. Bill couldn't see what was happening but he could feel,and suddenly he felt cold,very very cold and uneasy,he looked down to see his pants were half way gone,caught on his knees and pulled down by pennywise who was too much caught in the moment,he was about to protest but a hand moved around his neck preventing him from further struggling. "shush,shush little one,just let this happen,and maybe,i will let you at her"  IT hissed and trashed around like it was in a hurry,once bill's jeans were on the ground,he finally started panicking,but remembering the previous night that he wasn't listening to what the creature told him to do it ended badly,so instead he decided to keep still and let IT do whatever it wanted so it can finally be over with him. Bill's boney small legs were hold tightly by the clown demon as it settled itself between his legs,bill of course had a very bad feeling about this,having himself exposed and being half naked with the monster that slaughtered his friends,he tried not to look much at the clown and how his puzzling eyes either looked at him with burning scary desire or an urge to murder him and gurgle at his blood. "you're a little kid that still smells like milk,and yet here you are,legs all spread for me~" IT rubbed and stroked the porcelain pale skin that belonged to bill's thighs,the clown brought it's face closer to the boy's crotch making bill squeak and blush terribly,IT sniffed and trembled with pleasure. "smells so good,so perfect,i just want to eat you whole billy boy~" the beast clawed at the child's thighs,the blood was staining the whiteness of the once perfect skin and the aroma reached the clown's nose as it moaned and groaned and thrusted it's hips further into the boy's groin,the movement was so strong that billy's legs were hopping in the air with the thrusts. IT'S voice was now thick with desire and lust,his claws got impossibly sharper than ever and it even somehow seemed looked like he was bigger now even more,even when aroused with the thought of having the child it could get so scary looking and creepy. Pennywise's tongue was licking every nook and cranny of the teen's body,bloody and messy was bill's body when it held the body in it's arms,but god,was the kid's taste wonderful.bill couldn't keep the noises to himself even as he tried to,but when the clawed fingers made their way to hold the hem of his underwear he finally felt like crying his heart out,he was scared now,he didn't want this,why the hell was this even happening anyway? was Beverly really even worth all of this?   Of course she was don't be stupid billy,don't be so selfish be brave! Be brave billy! Be brave billy, Be- "stop!" the teen screamed,the monster clown ripped away at his underwear,leaving him completely at it's mercy,naked and exposed,never in his life bill felt so embarrassed before,he blocked his face from the beast with his hands wishing he couldn't hear it's voice. "don't be so embarrassed little one,humans by nature have disgusting bodies,so don't cover yourself away" IT purred an insult as it continued to kiss the boy's bloody thighs,smearing the blood on it's claw until it was soaked enough,IT smeared the blood on the little pink tight muscle hole between billy's bottom cheeks,entering one finger billy chocked on a cry at the painful sting as the claw of the creature went inside of him. "o-oh god..." he sniffed and sobbed,forcing himself to endure the feeling of something as sharp as a knife cut inside of him,he suddenly become very very small in the hands of his predator. "no god here sweet thing,just the two of ussss" IT hisses like a snake,with it's head buried in the boy's crotch,where IT could smell and the taste it's victim however it wanted,stroking a thigh and brushing the tongue on the base of the kid's member that was barely stiff,IT added two more fingers inside,twisting them and scissoring the tight warm insides of the boy's ass. the brunette tossed and turned uncomfortably feeling stretched and weird,he panted heavily when the other hand of the clown was busy stroking and pinching his sensitive nipples,once in awhile a claw scratched the pink skin making him jump in slight pain and discomfort but other than that he was still at the mercy of the monster that kept him still in place. He tried to remind himself that this was all for the sake of the chance to see Beverly again but then he felt something warm and slimy brush against his entrance and he had to pull his head forward to see what was happening,and god...he really wished he didn't.   It was dark purple and moist,with scales and spikes around the base,the hole looked like a tiny mouth with no teeth and it was moving and purring and pushing itself inside,billy couldn't help it anymore...he screamed. it hurts... it hurts... it hurts,it hurts,it hurts it hurts- "ah,fear,i finally found your fear little boy~" pennywise closed it's eyes in pleasure before gripping billy's ankles and pushing itself forward,along with it's monstrous cock right inside the teen's sweet virgin body,taking an extra pleasure in hearing his screams of pain and agony. "p-p-please s-s-stop it..." bill was gagging terribly on saliva,he felt terrible,there was something inside him and it hurt,hurt so much,hurt too much and he wanted to die. "b-b-but baby,i thought you wanted this for b-b-bevvie" IT mocked him,between moans and pants and very hard thrusts,the movements were rough and IT was way too big for a small child like billy,but even so it kept it's rough pace hitting the prostate again and again feeling bliss having billy's virgin blood all around it's monster cock,laughing with a voice so thick with madness and evil and desire. bill scratched his face and tried to stop the new tears that formed in his eyes,god,how pathetic must he look right now,the other losers would've laughed at him for throwing such drama like this,he could see it,he pictured their faces to prevent the pain from invading his mind and driving him mad,he pictured their faces and re imagined his sweetest memories of them,he thought about richie and his endless jokes about Eddie's mom,he thought about Ben and his weird theories about the mystery of the town,of mike who had the best advices and wisest quotes,of stan who would almost always disagree to follow him to his adventures,of eddie who will always mom around him and richie,he thought about Beverly... Beverly,bev,bevvie...this is for you...my pain is for you... the blue eyed boy felt hot wet mouth on his half eaten ear,licking the wounds and whispering sweet rotten nothings into his ear. "oh billy boy,you're wonderful,gorgeous beautiful boy,you're gonna stay here with me and rotforever!" IT laughed with thrill and satisfaction,wheezing in pleasure as it buried itself deep inside of it's victim,filling the bloody mangled insides of the child with disgusting semen and hot liquid,so hot it made the boy shed a few tears and whine. . . . they both stayed there for a few moments that felt like forever ,billy was being held by the arms of the clown who brutally ravished him,hurt him and destroyed his happiness,he cried into the ruffled dirty costume while his greasy bloody hair was being stroked lovingly,it was painful to move now more than ever,and he was to tired to do so anyway,there was a gross mixture of blood sperm that leaked from his bottom to his thighs,and the sweat that built up after the rough sex made bill's wounds sting,he was sure that by the morning he might get an infection and that is if he even gets to live to see tomorrow morning. he wiggled weakly from the possessive embrace of the creature and spoke slowly since his voice was still sore from all the screaming he made earlier. "you g-got w-what you wanted....now let b-bev go..." he wasn't sure if he was angry but he was definitely  anxious and still determined to get what he was promised for,he got fucked to see his friend again so he better get just that. At first the clown looked at him confused,but then it seemed like a light bulb turned on in it's skull and it quickly changed it's face to a wide malicious smile,that made bill feel nervous. It jumped on it's feet shaking loosely and brushing invisible dirt of it's already dirty costume as it skipped to what bill assumed were the tunnels of the sewer system. "alright,alright little buddy,promise is a promise you gonna get what you want!" IT called from the tunnel,bill quickly sat up,trying to cover his naked shameful body in the little pink towel on the mattress and he waited with wide eyes for the clown to be back with the ginger girl but he was only met with silence that disturbed him. "oooh miss bev so naughty to hide from him now,he was waiting for you all this time!" bill could hear the clown fake a cry when he saw it come back with what  appeared a body in it's arms,bill jumped off the mattress with the towel still attached to the lower side of his body,he ran towards the clown leaving trails of blood and sperm on the ground without minding it much. "bev...Beverly!" he cried with a slight smile on his eyes,meeting the clown to see him holding the body of his friend only....only she didn't even budged. billy confused as he was,touched her cold freckled shoulder and turned her around to discover her face was completely eaten out,with only one empty eye socket and a jaw filled with sewer maggots crawling in and out of the putrid flesh in her body.  bill wanted to scream and shout and hit something,but more than anything he wanted to throw up,he twisted his knees to hold himself together as he once again met with the corpse of the girl that was on the mud now,as pennywise threw her off it's arms,possessively eyeing the traumatized child,it kneeled down and and whispered some nasty insult in his injured ear. "she said she wasn't scared of me,had to turn into her papa and pound some fear into her,but she could never feel as good as you were little one~"  bill glanced over to her dress to see a stain of brown dry blood between her legs,he screamed and hit his skull with his fists,the clown was laughing at him and his pathetic reaction,with as much as it wanted to stay it decided to leave the miserable tragic couple to themselves,IT felt a sudden hunger from the previous act and was determined to fill it's stomach with fresh new blood. when IT left,bill was already crying his heart out and clenching at his bruised chest,while the tears in his eyes blinded him from seeing the rotten figure of his dead love. for him, it was as if the world has collapsed, into a black stain... even his tears were no longer filled with innocence or emotion but cold and misery,that turned the world into a filth. so he kept his eyes shut and cried. he prayed that the next time he would open his eyes, the world...   would be pitch black...   Chapter End Notes i'm sorry... End Notes ugh,dammit! again,it's longer than what i wanted,sorry guys but i have to split this fanfiction to different chapters now. i'll finish it soon though,promise! Please drop_by_the_archive_and_comment to let the author know if you enjoyed their work!