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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Durarara!!
  Relationship:
      Heiwajima_Shizuo/Kishitani_Shinra
  Character:
      Kishitani_Shinra, Heiwajima_Shizuo
  Additional Tags:
      theyre_in_high_school_so_its_underage, shinra_is_a_manipulative_little
      shit, Hand_Jobs, Blow_Jobs
  Stats:
      Published: 2016-11-20 Completed: 2016-11-24 Chapters: 2/2 Words: 2403
****** between friends ******
by WattStalf
Summary
     I mean, I'm not a cute girl or anything, but I'd think you might just
     be lonely enough to move past being picky. So? Aren't you lonely?
Notes
     honest to god tehre is NO FUCKING EXCUSE but i've started writing
     this anyway. blow jobs are tagged but they don't come in until the
     second chapter
     IM SO SORRY
***** Chapter 1 *****
“Give me some space before I bash your damn head in,” Shizuo practically
growls, and Shinra flinches back, but only for a moment.
But then he leans back in, grinning as he speaks. "Come on, you don't need to
be like that. I'm just looking at your black eye! Honestly, I can't believe
someone actually managed to land a hit on you."
"Yeah, well, they got lucky. I didn't know they were trying to pick a fight
with me until they'd already done that," replies Shizuo. "But I don't know why
you're bothering looking. It's nothing to worry about and there's nothing you
can do about it. I iced it last night, you know? Don't need you playing doctor
on me."
"Your friend isn't allowed to be concerned about you? And don't call it
playing, you know I'm serious about that! Not to mention the fact that that
phrase can have some very different meanings..."
"Ugh, don't make it pervy," he mutters.
"I'm not the one who said it!"
Scowling, Shizuo says, "I didn't mean it like that. Drop it before I get pissed
off."
"Sounds like you're already there," Shinra teases, but with one look from
Shizuo, he apologizes. "Sorry, sorry, you know I'm just kidding around."
"So? When are you going to get out of my face?"
"Does it bother you?"
"Of course it bothers me! What kind of dumbass question is that?"
From the beginning, Shinra has had impure goals; even before he noticed
Shizuo's black eye today, he's had this idea in mind, and he's simply been
waiting for the perfect opportunity to try to act on it. He knows that he's
doing something wrong, something that crosses boundaries even someone with his
morality should hesitate to cross, but he's already gone through that mental
battle and he's come out with the goal still in mind. It will be quite some
time before he can change things with Celty, and in the mean time, he has
feelings that he has to deal with somehow.
Dealing with them on his own has worked so far, but even that gets boring
eventually and he knows that he has to find other ways to keep himself sated
until he can have the woman he wants. And so, he reaches the decision that, if
it isn't with a woman and if it's with a  friend , then there's nothing wrong
with it. That is why, when he had the opportunity to get Shizuo alone and found
an excuse to get close enough to make the other boy uncomfortable, he went
along with it without hesitation.
He knows he's taking a risk, that he could very well end up seriously injured
over this, but he likes to hope that, worst case scenario, he'd have Celty
worried about him and hovering over him, finally giving him the attention he
desires. In reality, he'd probably end up being looked after by someone his dad
hired, knowing how indirectly overprotective the man can get at times, but he
lets himself fantasize as he leans in just a little bit closer.
“But don't you like having someone get like this?” asks Shinra at last.
“Huh?”
“I mean, I'm not a cute girl or anything, but I'd think you might just be
lonely enough to move past being picky,” he says. “So? Aren't you lonely?”
It takes Shizuo a moment to process what his friend is saying, and his scowl
deepens. “You're not seriously  coming onto me  right now, are you?!”
Shinra flinches as he raises his voice, knowing that he's wandering into very
dangerous territory, and that he has to choose his next move very, very
carefully. “I'm lonely too,” he says softly, going for a more sympathetic
angle. “It doesn't have to mean anything, but I'd hoped...”
“I don't know what makes you think...” The blonde's resolve is crumbling, not
even his confusion enough to provoke him in this moment. There's a hint of
sadness to his tone, and Shinra knows he hit the nail right on the head. It
isn't hard to tell that Shizuo wants to be like other boys his age, and that he
isn't all that different, on the inside. Taking advantage of his desire for
intimacy is all too easy.
Shinra closes the remaining distance between them and presses his lips to
Shizuo's in what he hopes is a soft kiss. He, admittedly, has no experience in
this department, and if it weren't for this little experiment, he never would.
After all, this isn't something he can do with Celty, and that is his only
rule. He won't give away any of his firsts that Celty can realistically claim;
anything that she can't do with him is fair game, but that's it.
Shizuo remains frozen for only a moment before he tries to return the kiss,
clumsy and hesitant. He's afraid, Shinra can tell; afraid of taking things too
far and screwing up what he probably has come to believe is his only chance at
something like this. Shinra pulls back, his breathing heavy, and speaks softly
to him.
“Just take it easy and let me handle things,” he says. “You don't have to do
anything right away, alright? Just take it easy.” Shizuo nods, glancing off to
the side and not speaking, while Shinra starts unbuttoning his shirt, letting
it fall open before he trails kisses down the exposed skin.
Shizuo fidgets, making soft, almost pathetic noises that are so out of
character for him that Shinra has to hold back laughter. “Pathetic” is never a
word he thought would come to mind for the other boy; “cute” even less so, but
once he starts thinking  that  one, he can't stop. By the time his lips reach
the waist band of Shizuo's pants, it's all the poor guy can do to hold still,
but Shinra just pulls back again and looks up at him.
“If you want me to stop, just say so,” he says. He isn't sure what he would do
if Shizuo actually asked him to stop, but as predicted, his friend only makes
eye contact for a half-second before shaking his head and looking away.
“Alright.”
With that, he undoes the button of Shizuo's pants and pulls the zipper down. He
wonders how long his friend has been hard; he wonders how long  he  has been
hard, and curses himself for not bothering to make note of it. Freeing Shizuo's
cock, he looks back up at the boy while he starts working his hand up and down,
just like he always does for himself, but Shizuo still won't look at him.
His face is flushed and his teeth are grit, as if he's trying to hold back any
signs that he's actually enjoying himself. Still, a few moans escape every now
and then and it's very obvious that he  is  enjoying himself, and quite a bit.
Shinra's rather proud that he can earn such responses from his friend, but he
doesn't want to take this bit too far, too fast, and he stops short.
“Wh-why'd ya...” Shizuo trails off, as if just realizing that he was starting
to protest about something he shouldn't have wanted in the first place.
“Well, I don't want to finish you off like that,” he replies. “I was hoping you
might want to take things a little further!”
 
***** Chapter 2 *****
Chapter Notes
     ayyyy I finished it
When Shinra kneels down a bit further and parts his lips, Shizuo still doesn't
protest, and continues looking away, unsure of what he's supposed to be doing
while all of this is going on. Shinra is personally very glad that his friend
is so inexperienced and so awkward about all of this; he's too caught up in
worrying about himself to notice that Shinra isn't much better off.
All he has is his false confidence and a vague knowledge of what he's supposed
to do to go on, and if he fucks this part up, he can only hope that Shizuo
still won't notice. He wraps his lips around his friend's cock, and Shizuo lets
out a deep groan while he waits for a moment, just letting the other boy feel
what it's like for a moment before he moves on. And then he starts to draw him
deeper, until he's nearly reached the back of his mouth and his gag reflex
starts to kick in.
Of course, Shizuo isn't complaining about the fact that he can't take him in
any further, and is, in fact, breathing heavily and seems barely able to
contain himself. Shinra takes that to mean that he's doing a good job, and he
tries bobbing his head to see what kind of reaction that will earn him. Shizuo
rests a hand on the back of his head for a second, but when Shinra tenses up at
the touch, he pulls it away awkwardly. They both realize at the same time that
unnecessary contact at a time like this isn't the best idea. It wouldn't do for
him to suddenly tighten his grip and inadvertently crush Shinra's skull, after
all.
Taking a deep breath and clearing his mind of that imagery, Shinra resumes,
pulling his head back and pushing it forward, drawing it back so much that his
mouth is empty, a few thing strands of saliva still connecting them. He tries
looking up at Shizuo with his lashes lowered, wondering if that expression will
nearly do him in, but the blonde is adamantly not looking at him.
Sighing, he reaches with his tongue, rolling it over the head and causing
Shizuo to groan, the sound breaking in his throat. Noting that that is
particularly effective, he pulls his friend's cock back into his mouth, trying
it just a little deeper this time and holding back his gags for a few seconds
before he's forced to retreat a bit. However, after learning how positively
Shizuo responds to his tongue, he doesn't think that matters quite as much, and
he starts to roll it over the head again even while he sucks.
Shizuo sounds as if he can barely breathe now, as if he's barely hanging on,
and it's honestly admirable that he's lasted this long for his first time doing
something like this. Shinra wonders if he should be jealous, but he doesn't
dwell on that for long as he extends his tongue further, pressing along the
length, looking for even more sensitive spots to finally drive his friend over
the edge. He knows that it won't take long now, and he knows that Shizuo can't
hold out.
Of course, he forgot to tell him beforehand to issue a little warning, should
he find himself getting close, and Shizuo moans, louder and less inhibited than
any of the times before, and suddenly Shinra's mouth is filled with a warm
liquid. The taste is somewhere between metallic and bitter, and is altogether
unpleasant, but as Shizuo hesitantly pulls out of his mouth, he forces himself
to swallow anyway. Spitting it back out would just make more of a mess, and
he's already tasted it, so it won't do much good on that front.
“Sorry about that,” his friend mumbles, and, as always, refuses to meet his
eye. Shinra straightens up, making a show of dusting himself off.
“Don't worry about,” he replies, his mind already working ahead of him. He has
to figure out what to say to progress things; after all, Shizuo hasn't done
anything for him yet, and he really doesn't want to have to finish himself with
his own hand, after putting in all that effort.
But, before he can think of what to say next, Shizuo surprises him by
muttering, “I could make it up to you, maybe...” And, with that, he drops down
to get Shinra out of his pants.
“You don't have to,” he replies, fighting off a wicked smile with ease.
“Don't worry about,” is all his friend says before he takes Shinra in hand and
opens his mouth. It's even more obvious that he has no experience like this,
and also very obvious that he's doing a lot to hold back. He wouldn't want to
do anything to hurt his friend, of course.
Shizuo is clumsy as he tries to imitate all that Shinra did for him, but he's
able to take the brunette's cock a bit deeper, and he doesn't hesitate to try
to use his tongue, having learned these tricks rather quickly. He pauses
sometimes for what seems like no reasons, and he struggles to keep himself in
check, but he does his best, and for someone who is only used to their own
touch, it's very pleasant. Shinra tips his head back and sighs and relaxes into
it, knowing that he's fast and that this won't take long for him at all.
He certainly doesn't have the kind of resistance that Shizuo did, but he
doesn't think that's a problem, considering neither of them are sure of how
long the blonde can keep this up while keeping himself under complete control.
By the time Shinra comes, letting out a few soft whimpers and shaky breaths,
he's managed to pull himself away so that he doesn't force Shizuo to swallow as
well.
“I could have...” He trails off, unable to finish the sentence.
“I know, I know, but I think that was enough to make it up to me,” the brunette
says with a shrug and an innocent grin. Really, he was just afraid of how
Shizuo might react, and he knows that that fear is just a bit irrational, but
nothing is ever completely rational where the blonde is concerned. At least,
not in his experience.
“That was...” The poor guy really seems to be at a loss for words, and Shinra
almost feels sorry for him, after putting him through all of this. Almost, but
not quite.
“Look, if you don't want to talk about it, we don't have to,” he says quickly.
“We were just lonely, right? If it's too weird to think about, we can just
pretend it never happened!” His tone is so bright that he hopes he's convinced
Shizuo that such a thing is really possible. In reality, forgetting something
like that is going to be difficult, and pretending will be nearly impossible
for a while, but that's of no concern to him.
“Yeah, alright,” he mumbles, straightening his clothes up. “Just keep it
between us?”
“Absolutely.”
 
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