Posted originally on the Archive_of_Our_Own at https://archiveofourown.org/ works/8676517. Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Underage Category: M/M Fandom: 終わりのセラフ_|_Owari_no_Seraph_|_Seraph_of_the_End Relationship: Hyakuya_Mikaela/Hyakuya_Yuuichirou Character: Hyakuya_Mikaela, Mika's_mom, Mika's_dad, Ichinose_Guren, Hiiragi_Shinya, Hyakuya_Yuuichirou, Hyakuya_Akane, Hiiragi_Shinoa, Sanguu_Mitsuba Additional Tags: Child_Abuse, Child_Neglect, Mostly_done_from_Mika's_Pov, Yuu_smokes, and drinks, Underage_Smoking, Underage_Drinking, Eventual_Relationships, Eventual_Smut, Bottom_Hyakuya_Mikaela, Top_Hyakuya_Yuuichirou, lots_of fluff, but_a_lot_of_angst_too, Same-Sex_Marriage, Friends_to_Lovers, Height_Differences, Mika's_gonna_suffer, I'm_so_s_o_r_r_y, Alternate Universe, attempt_at_kissing, Yuu_really_cannot_win, Sharing_a_Bed, Love Confessions Stats: Published: 2016-11-28 Updated: 2018-01-31 Chapters: 8/? Words: 26853 ****** What's Your Favorite Flower? ****** by funnybunnynamedburne Notes So I don't really know why but I seem to have some trouble with writing my other fanfictions, which of course leads me to coming up with ideas for other ones and this just kinda became one that I really liked the idea with and well..It kinda wrote itself. So I hope you enjoy~! See the end of the work for more notes ***** Pink Camelia ***** The pink camellia symbolizes longing…   …..Is there anyone you long for? Bright sunlight pours through the thin curtains of Mikaela Shindo’s bedroom. The bright light of the sun causes the blond to stir. Slowly his brow furls and he opens his eyes. His ocean blue eyes scan his room. Nothing was out of place this time, meaning no one had come into his room while he slept. He blinks his eyes as he sits up in his bed, allowing his comforter to bundle around his waist. His eyes drifted over to the standing mirror, his school uniform hanging neatly along one of the nozzles, covering it from seeing his own reflection. Visions of last night flooded his mind. His mother and father fighting, Mika stepping in to try to stop them, the hot feeling of the tears that streamed down his face as his cheeks burned from mother’s slap. He cringed as he felt the burning return. He gently placed his hand on his cheek. ‘It hurts.’ He thinks with a sigh. His eyes wander off to the clock. 6:30 was displayed across the black screen. He’d have to get up soon anyways, so why not get ready now?   Quietly the blond padded the way out of his bedroom. Slowly he peaked his head down the hallway to look into the living room. Pictures were crooked and glass all over the floor. Finally he noticed his mother asleep on the kitchen counter, bottles and cans of alcohol scattered across the counter next to her. Mika turned his gaze and continued his way down the hallway into the bathroom.  Once he was in there he checked himself out in the mirror only to frown when he found a big purple bruise from where his mother had slapped him, along with dark circles under his eyes. The blond glared at his reflection for a minute before deciding that he’ll just have to fix it. He opened up the small mirrored cabinet and placed the small container of concealer down on the counter. Quickly he pulled off his pajamas and settled himself in the shower.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------   “That oughta do it.” He mumbled to himself as he stared at his reflection. The dark bruise that was once on his cheek had almost completely disappeared along with his dark circles that were under his eyes. With his towel wrapped firmly around his waist he scurried his way back to his room to quickly put on his uniform. Once dressed he stared intensely at his reflection, scanning for any other marks that he could’ve possibly had on him. He turned his head, once, twice before a slight smile formed on his lips. “That’s all of them.” He whispered reassuringly to himself. Easily the blond had his bag in his hand as he headed over to the front door. As he stood at the front door his gaze wandered back over to the figure that was hunched over the counter. He stared at her carefully, his gaze wandering down to her hand that was outstretched. Her long nails were wrapped around a single bottle. Mika knew that she’d drank herself all night. That’s how it always played out.   “I’m heading out.” He announced to no one in particular. By the time he’d return home he was sure she’d have drunk herself silly to a point where she either didn’t care or didn’t remember the male. Saying he’s going is pointless. He’ll never receive an answer anyways.   Quietly he opened the front door and slipped out, only to make his way down the stairs of their deck. At the bottom of the stairs he looked up at his parent’s room window only to notice that the curtains were pulled shut. ‘I wonder if he’s in there.’ Mika wonders to himself. More often than not his father would go stay in a hotel after a fight with his mom. Mika sighed as he turned around to begin walking down the street to ‘their’ meeting spot.   As if on cue there the raven was standing, puffing away at a cigarette. Mika simply walked over to him, yanked the cigarette out of the male’s mouth, dropped it to the ground, and stomped on it.   “Gah! Mika why!?” The male shrieked as he stared down at his now crushed cigarette. The blond responds by holding up one finger. “No smoking.” He states. The male glared down at the blond. “Why are you here so early anyways?”   “I was having a hard time sleeping so I came early is all.” He replied matter- of-factly.   “Your mom didn’t force you to come out early did she? If she did you know I’d-- ”   “What a joke Yuu-chan.” Mika stated coldly.  The other male, Yuu, stared worriedly at the blond. “She was too drunk to even notice me leaving.”   Yuu gently places a hand on Mika’s shoulder comfortingly. “I know it doesn’t mean much coming from me but if you ever need a place to stay you can always come to my--”   “I know, Yuu-chan. Thank you.” The blond says with a sad smile. “On another subject give me your pack of cigarettes.” He says as he extends the palm of his hand out to the raven.   “Mika they’re expensive--”   “And that’s why you’re going to give them to me.”   Yuu pouted at the male before he sighed and dug in his pockets to pull out a pack. Unhappily he hands them over to the blond, who smiles in return and pulls out a pack of nicotine gum. Yuu grumbles as he pulls a piece out of the pack and stuffs it into his mouth. “That’s better.” Mika says happily.   As the two of them made their way to school Mikaela notices the way the flowers that had dew droplets on them reflect the sunlight that was coming up. The blond’s mind drifts back to the dream he had last night, or rather the dream he’s been having for weeks. It was always the same thing. A young girl sitting in a field of flowers. A long white sundress covering her lap as she holds up a flower, her long brown hair pulled into a single braid that framed her cheeks. The young girl was rather beautiful, though the only problem was that she didn’t have a face. Or well, she had a face but Mika could never see it. Where her features would be there was only a white light that covered it. The only thing the blond could make out from her was her mouth, which was always curled up in a passionate smile. Her voice was like a melody to the male; it was something that he knew he could easily fall asleep to. Yet there was always the same question that came out of her mouth:   ⸢Is there anyone you long for?⸥   Mika’s eyes drifted over to the ever talkative Yuu. The way Yuu smiled and laughed always made his chest feel light. Yuu was the only person who made him feel ‘alive.’   ‘Him.’ Mika thinks to himself. ‘I long for him.’   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------------------------------   When Mika walked into the classroom people were standing at their friend’s desks babbling on with idle chit chat. Mika on the other hand wasn’t like that. He went straight to his desk to pull out the classes’ notebook. English. It was easy enough. Memorizing words and using proper grammar were things that the blond found came natural to him. He personally loved to read and write. They often times made him forget about the real world and allowed him to live the way he wanted through the characters of the story. He often times became so absorbed in the characters that he often tuned out everything else, which might I add, had gotten him to get an earful from Yuu many times for ‘not listening’.   Nonetheless that was normal for him. He slowly pulled out his planner and began to write down the assignment on the board.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -----------------------------------------   By the time lunch came Mikaela was already exhausted. It had been a long night after all. Worst part of all is that he had forgotten his lunch today. So he sat silently at the table him and Yuu usually sat at with his head down.   ‘This sucks.’ He thinks to himself with a sigh. Easily he’s knocked out of his little pity party by a smack on the head. Immediately he glares up at the person who smacked him on the head. He quickly notices the water bottle extended to him along with green eyes full of care.   “Yuu-chan..” Mika whispers. Yuu shakes the water bottle at the blond. “You need to drink something.” He says. Gingerly Mika takes the bottle out of his hand. “You didn’t bring a lunch today?” Yuu asks him as he settles down on the other side of the table with his lunch.   Mika laughs pathetically. “I just wanted to get out of there this morning so I guess I forgot it.”   Yuu nonchalantly turned to his bag and dug through the continents until he pulled out a small boxed lunch and settled it on the table in front of Mika. “Eat this.”   Mika stares down at the box carefully before looking back up to Yuu.   “I didn’t make it, Shinya did. I swear.” Yuu replies as he places a hand over his chest offensively. The blond rolls his eyes in response before opening the lid of the container. He quickly finds himself smiling down at the food that Shinya had made. It was nothing spectacular or anything. It was just some teriyaki chicken and rice that Mika could guess was leftovers from last night’s dinner. Yuu smiles as he sets down a fork with a napkin next to the male. “I know it’s not much but it’s probably better than the school’s lunch.”   “Not true.” Mika says as he shakes his head. “This is perfect. Thank you.” Mika says with a smile. Quickly he picks up the fork and stabs it into a piece of chicken. To him it really was perfect. It wasn’t very often he got a home cooked meal.   Okay, he really never gets home cooked meals.   His mother was often too drunk to even think about cooking while his father would always get takeout just for the two of them, leaving Mika to fend for himself. Which wasn’t hard really. It just meant he’d make himself a sandwich, and, if he was lucky, he would be able to cook something from a can in the microwave. Though, if he was being honest, many times he wouldn’t even be able to leave his room after he gets home from school to make himself something. Which of course puts him in his current predicament of being rather frail and underweight.   In the middle of his reflection of his life Mika slowly looked up at Yuu to see him looking at his phone with irk.   “Yuu-chan?” Mika questions to the male. Quickly Yuu looks up at Mika and gives him a awkward smile. “I have a test on Monday and I have no idea what it’s even about.”   Mika laughs. “That sounds about right.”   “Laughing is rude Mika!” Yuu growls as he flicks a pea from his lunch at the blond. Mika only laughs harder as it hits the side of his hand. “I don’t even understand how you can get good grades.” Yuu grumbles under his breath as he sits with his arms crossed.   “Studying Yuu-chan. It’s called studying.”   “I know that!” The raven whines as he sets his arms down on the table followed by his head face down. “It’s just so hard.” Yuu says with his voice muffled by his arms.   Mika reaches over the table and places a hand on Yuu’s head. Slowly the raven looks up to him and Mika gives him a smile. “I can help you study you know.”   “Yeah?”   “Yeah.” He nods in confirmation. “How about tomorrow after school I go to your house to help you?”   Yuu seemed to perk up immediately. “That would be wonderful.” Yuu says with a slight embarrassed blush. “Please come over then.”   The blond nods in confirmation before settling back into eating. He was sure that it would all be fine. Tomorrow was the weekend after all. Even if Yuu didn’t get it at first he was sure that they could study Sunday too. Mika knew that you never know how good you are in a subject until you have to teach someone else the subject. With that in mind he should be able to do just about any subject that Yuu could be struggling with. Mainly because Yuu struggled in more academic classes. Now that he thought about it him and Yuu were practically polar opposites. Yuu was good in classes like P.E. and Art while Mika was good in classes like Biology and English. The blond’s eyes slowly drift over to Yuu as he quaffs down large gulps of water.   Even if they were polar opposites they still got along extremely well. So well that many people at the school thought that they were dating. Mika didn’t mind that little rumor but Yuu was quick to shut it down. Yuu didn’t like guys like that. Mika knew, after all, he’d slept with so many girls that he lost track. Though Mika knew it was well over 20. Practically every pretty girl on campus had slept with him.  Yuu on the other hand never seemed to brag about it to Mika, but rather to the other guys on campus that he had done sports with during his sophomore year, which on one hand Mika was grateful for it but on the other it caused unneeded anxiety on the thought that Yuu doesn’t trust him or like him enough to tell him. He always counteracted that thought with the fact that Yuu treats him different than others. He was more open to Mika about things on his mind and didn’t act ‘full of himself’ as many people around the school had said. To Mika he was more...Sensitive.   He consulted Mika on many things and spoke his mind about problems he was having. Though he too did the same for Mika; Always welcoming him over when he needs a place to get away. Always wiping his schedule when he needed him. The two of them really were like a couple in Mika’s mind. Although he knew it could never happen. Truth be told he was fine from sitting in and watching from the sidelines. If Yuu was happy that’s all that mattered to the blond.   Safe, and happy that is. Nonetheless he always told himself he would do his best. He’d do his best just for Yuu.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------ By the time Mika was able to start walking home the sun was already setting. He walked along silently as he watched his shadow become longer and darker as time went on by. It was normal for him to walk home alone. Especially the days he had club activities. Literature club was always fun for him. It also kept him away from home for as long as possible which he was grateful for. As he approached his house he felt the dread of what could be going on in there in creep up into his stomach. He quickly pushed it down as he approached the deck of his house. He climbed up the stairs and stood outside the door to listen in.   Absolute silence.   Slowly he pulls the front door open and steps inside. No noises means that his father must not be home. Hopefully he wouldn’t even come home tonight.   What an awful thing to think. He scolds himself. Though it was really how he felt. If his father wasn’t home everything was quiet and peaceful. There was no yelling, no glass breaking and of course no possible chance that the police would come. Not like it hadn’t happened before--   Mika shakes his head at the memory. The awful, stressing memory. It was fine now. He didn’t need to worry at this moment, and if it does happen he’ll deal with it then.   He gently hangs his bag on the hook by the door before walking into the living room. He slowly pulls off his jacket and loosens his tie. Silently he looks over to the counter his mother had been on and notices that she was still there.   Had she not moved an inch? Anyone’s first instinct would probably be to check on her to make sure she was not dead but from the place Mika was standing he could see her lightly rise with every breath she took. He turns away from her and folds up his jacket to set it on the back of the couch. He’d need to wash it this weekend after all. He walks over to the counter to lean over her. The first thing he notices is the amount of flies that were buzzing around the bottles of beer. He immediately frowns as he reaches his hand out to pick up one of the bottles. He’d have to clean this all up or it would be a bigger disaster later.   He lets out a gasp when his arm was suddenly grabbed very tightly by his mother.   “What are you doing??” She questions sternly as she raises her head to glare at the blond. Mika stares down at her nervously before answering her question. “I’m cleaning up your beer bottles.”   She dug her nails down into his wrist as she looks at him with narrowed eyes. Mika’s brows curl in pain as he quietly whispers to her. “Mom, it hurts.” Immediately she pulls her hand away and looks down sadly. “I’m sorry Mii. Your dad just has me on edge.”   Mika smiles sadly at her. Don’t act like you’re the victim. His mind screams to him.   She leans back in the chair with a sigh as she looks over to the fridge. “On another note would you be a dear and make dinner tonight?”   The blond’s head quickly snaps up from looking down at the bottles to look at her questioningly. “Dinner?”   She stands up and walks over to the couch where she flops down on it with another sigh. “Yeah. Your dad isn’t coming home tonight so he sent me some groceries to be able to cook with.”   Not coming home tonight. His mind repeated her words. It should be rather peaceful tonight then. Mika gave her his best smile and with a small nod he confirmed to her. “Of course.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------ Mika flopped down on his bed with a exhausted sigh. He quickly pulled his shirt off along with his pants and discarded the items down onto the floor. He immediately pulls the comforter around him and nuzzled up to his pillow. The worst of tonight is over. He told himself. His mother is already asleep, all the dishes are washed and all the leftover food is in the fridge. A nice job at the least would be nice. He thinks to himself as he rolls onto his other side and closes his eyes. A light buzzing from his phone in his pant pockets has him opening his eyes and rolling back to the side of his bed. He reaches down to his pants and pulls out his phone from his pocket. He clicks the phone on and sees a text message pop up on the screen.   From: Yuu   so I talked to shinya and he said u can come over anytime tomorrow~   Mika smiles as he reads the message. Maybe he’ll come at 6 in the morning just to tick Yuu off.   To: Yuu   Does that mean I can come at 6 in the morning? From: Yuu   fuck no. you come at 6 in the morning and i’m slamming my door on your ass. To: Yuu   Dang. There goes my plan. From: Yuu   but if you really need to come at that time you can. i just wont be awake is all. Youd have to suffer with watching me sleep until at least 9. To: Yuu   Don’t worry. I won’t do that. I’m not that cruel. From: Yuu   you could always come anyways and join me in my bed. :))))) Mika’s eyes scan over the text at least 10 times. Was Yuu... Flirting with him??? It’s not like they’ve never shared a bed before. They had done so many times when they were children, and even well into their teens. Anytime the two of them had stayed the night with each other they always seemed to end up in the same bed somehow. Even if it they went to bed separate. Of course Mika was just getting his hopes high. He quickly pushes down the throbbing of his heart.   To: Yuu   What do you have a triple chin? From: Yuu   Yes. And u know u love me with it.   Mika felt his face heat up. If only you knew.   To: Yuu   Of course you dummy. I’ll text you tomorrow before I come. Will that work? From: Yuu   Yup. sleep well mika~ see u tomorrow~ To: Yuu   Yeah. You too.   Mika slowly turns the screen off as he places it down on his nightstand. He quickly grabs his pillow and hugs it close to his chest. I’ll be strong. Mika thinks to himself. I’ll be strong, for him. ***** Blue Iris ***** Chapter Notes It's 10:22 at night for me on Sunday but it's still Sunday so does this count!? XDD Anyways I wanted to say thank you to everyone who actually decided to click on this story and take a read (especially since it didn't even have a summary) That's really amazing and I also wanted to give a special thanks to everyone who commented! Your comments all meant so much to me! It really made me push for this chapter. Nonetheless I hope you all enjoy this chapter. See the end of the chapter for more notes It was bright. The field he was laying in was bright. As the blond slowly sat up he was met with a girl sitting in front of him in a long white dress. She simply held out a blue flower with a long stem and little bits of yellow brushed on its petals.   “Do you know what type of flower this is?” She questioned, her voice gentle and soothing.   Mika looked down at the flower again. It wasn’t one he was familiar with so he shook his head. He watched the girl’s mouth curl into a smile. “It’s a blue iris.” She replies as she caresses the flower’s petals softly. “The blue iris has adopted the meaning of faith, hope, and wisdom.”  Silently she holds the flower out to the blond. “You have a lot of faith and hope in him, don’t you?”   Mika slowly reaches his hand out to the flower and gently takes it from her. He holds it up to his face to get a closer look at it. “Faith and hope, huh?” He mumbles. Suddenly he found himself smiling. “I guess I do. Don’t I?”   “Yuu-san is a good person.” She says as she folds her hands down on her lap. “I’m glad you fell for him.” Mika looks over her carefully, she didn’t seem as happy as she had been whenever they met and it confused him. “Just..Who are you..?”   She laughed coldly at the question. “Just what are you talking about, Mika? We’re family of course.”   “I’m sorry...But I really don’t--”   “We’ve run out of time.” She quickly interrupted him. Slowly she rose to her feet and turned her back to the blond. “I know we will meet again soon. I’ll let you know about another flower next time. Okay? So please, keep smiling. For him”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -----------------   Slowly Mikaela’s eyes opened as he stared at the ceiling dizzily. “A..Dream..?” He whispered to himself as he slowly pushed himself up. He placed a hand on his head as he felt it throb. He looks over to the clock situated on his desk; 5:00 was displayed on the screen. His eyes narrowed as he rubbed his eyes to double check that he was seeing it properly. He got up ever earlier than yesterday!   The male sighed tiredly as he settled back down onto his mattress. Just what was that dream? He wondered to himself. Every dream had been the same until tonight. It had always been about that Pink Camellia, and yet today was...A blue iris? He rolls over to his side and reaches over to his nightstand to grab his phone. As he unlocked the screen he was blinded by the bright light that radiated off from it. He squinted as he made his way down to the bar that adjusts the brightness and dragged it down to the lowest setting before pulling up last night's text messages from Yuu.   To_Yuu:   I doubt you’re up this early but I wanted to know if I could come at 6 as I asked last night? Honestly I’ll take the chance of you slamming your door on my ass so I’ll be coming over soon.   Mika gently settled his phone on his nightstand before walking over to his closet to grab a pair of pants, a shirt, and a hoodie. He began to strip out of his boxers that he slept in when his phone vibrated. He walked over to it only to find a text message screen saying he had a new message from Yuu.   From_Yuu:   Is everything okay?? I can come get you if you need me to!   Mika smiled down at his phone as he read the text. Yuu really was amazing.The blond’s fingers hoovered the keys as he tried to figure out the best way to reply to Yuu without stressing him out anymore.   To_Yuu:   Everything is fine. I just haven’t been able to sleep very well and so I just wanna go over to your house. Though more importantly why are you awake at this hour??   Mikaela settled his phone back down as he resumed taking off his boxers to set them in the clothes hamper in the closet. He walked over to his dresser, pulled out a new pair, put that pair on and proceeded to do the rest with the other garments. As he flipped the hood of his hoodie up his phone vibrated once again.   From_Yuu:   I may or may not have your text alerts as something very loud to wake me up when I’m asleep.   The blond’s heart had skipped a beat as he read the text to himself. Why did that mean so much to him? It made his heart flutter and gave him a warm feeling in his stomach. It wasn’t meant as anything romantic sure, but something so small like that made Mikaela’s feelings only get stronger for the male.   To_Yuu:   Aw jeez. That’s really sweet.   From_Yuu:   Of course! I’m always sweet   Mika couldn’t help the small laugh that escaped past his lips. Yuu was always sweet to him is the key thing to the statement. Mika had watched Yuu get suspended many times after getting into fights with people.   To_Yuu:   Yeah. So is it okay for me to come now? From_Yuu:   Yeah but you’ll have to come around back so i can let u in from the back door.   That sounded about right. Mika had come in through the backdoor many times when Yuu’s parents were sleeping, or even when he was grounded for that matter. Of course a big portion for the reason the backdoor was the better option probably resided in the fact that the front door was right next to his parent’s room, while Yuu’s room down in the basement was very close to the slider that lead into the backyard. Mika finished writing out his text before shoving his phone into his pocket. To_Yuu:   Easy enough. I’ll be there in 10.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------- Now, it’s not like this is the first time Mikaela has done this, and it surely wouldn’t be the last but now that he was walking through the back gate he felt nervous. He always felt nervous about ‘sneaking’ into Yuu’s house. And yes Mikaela would consider it sneaking if he doesn’t use the front door! Quietly the blond approaches the slider before sending Yuu a text. To_Yuu: I’m here. Will you let me in? Within a minute the curtains shuffle as Yuu pulls them back slightly to open the door for Mika. The male easily slides in and Yuu silently ushers them to the basement door. Once through the door Mikaela walks down the stairs silently as the raven closes and locks the door. Immediately Mika was met with the dim lights of Yuu’s room. Even with the little light in the room the blond could easily tell it was quite a mess. ‘Probably due to the fact that I haven’t been here.’ Mika thinks amusingly to himself.   “Sorry about the major mess.” Yuu’s voice comes from the top of the staircase as he makes his way down. As he walks past the archway that leads from the stairs he flicks on a light switch that turns on the actual lights to his room. “Still sleep with a nightlight huh..?” Mika mumbles to himself. He looks over to Yuu for his expression and Yuu glares at him before shaking his head. “Are you always this cruel in the morning?” He asks as he walks past Mika to settle down at the table across the room. Mika follows with a chuckle. “Probably.” He replies as he pulls out one of the chairs and sits down.   The raven gets up and walks over to the little fridge in the corner of his room to pull out a bottle of beer. “Do you want one?” Yuu wonders. Mikaela shakes his head vigorously in reply. He then walks over and settles down next to Mika. “So..Are you alright?” He asks as he looks the blond over thoroughly. Mika unconsciously pulled down on the sleeve of his jacket. “I’m fine.” The small action didn’t seem to go unnoticed by Yuu who quickly pulled his arm up and yanks down the sleeve. Dark purple bruises from where his mother had grabbed his arm was prominent. Yuu’s eyes narrowed as a deep frown came upon his features. “Who did this to you?” He asks bitterly. Mika found himself averting his gaze away from Yuu. It doesn’t matter does it? It’s not like you can do anything.Yuu’s hand slowly slid into Mikaela’s as he asked again. “Did you not hear me the first time, Mika? Who the fuck did this to you?” The blond inwardly cringed at the use of language. He knew Yuu was very upset but he didn’t want to tell him. There wasn’t really a point in doing so. Things would keep going on like this and telling him would only cause inessential anger.   Mika sighs as he grips Yuu’s hand back tightly. “Last night..I was trying to clean up some bottles and I startled my mom who grabbed my arm because she had been sleeping.” Okay, now that wasn’t necessarily it but it was kind of a part of it.   Yuu wasn’t buying it but he sighed as he let go of the male’s hand. “The fact that you have to lie to me about it just makes it a lot worse.” He mumbles. “How could you tell I was lying?” Mika wonders curiously. Yuu laughs coldly. “I’ve known you for so long Mika, how couldn’t I tell? It’s the same with me isn’t it? You can tell when I lie to you just like I can tell when you lie to me.” The statement made Mika smile. It was true that Mikaela could tell when Yuu was lying, but that was because he was very familiar with Yuu. He observed all the little things Yuu would do and made little mental notes of them. Yet the thought that Yuu would do the same made Mika feel.. Euphoric.   “Thank you, Yuu-chan. That means a lot to me.” Mika says happily as he pulls his sleeve back down. “I’m sure you already know the reason my arm is like that then.”   “I have a guess.” Yuu says as he balances the cap of his beer bottle on the edge of the table to pull downwards to pop the cap off. He quickly takes a swig of it before setting it back down on the table. “I’m going to pretend you never lied to me, but please, trust me Mika. I’m here for you.”   “I know that you’re here for me, Yuu. Thank you.”   Yuu smiles and nods before standing up to fetch his backpack.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ----   The two of them had been studying for a while now. Mika had gotten to Yuu’s house at 5:42 and it was now 8:22. It had almost been 3 hours and yet they still were studying, though Mika could tell Yuu was ready to call it quits anytime now. Lo and behold Yuu’s head suddenly hits the table as he groaned. “I’m too tired for this.” He grumbled. Mika simply pats his back with sympathy. “I’m sorry for making you work so early.”   Yuu turns his head to glare at the blond. “You should be.” He whines. Mika laughs at the pitiful sound of the male’s voice. He runs his hand down Yuu’s back comfortingly. “Thank you for letting me come over though.” He whispered before standing up. “Now then if you’re all done I should probably head home.” He announces before turning his back to Yuu to leave. He was quickly stopped by a hand grabbing his wrist. He turns back to look at Yuu questioningly. “Just because I don’t wanna study doesn’t mean you have to leave. You should stay and play video games with me.”   Mika bit his lip nervously. His stomach was doing flips at the thought that Yuu wanted him to stay with him. “What..Game would it be..?” He breathed out. It wasn’t like he actually had anything to do today…   Yuu smirks at the question before standing up to grab Mikaela’s other hand. “Black ops.”   “Zombies?”   “Of course!” Yuu says with a bright smile as he pulls Mika along to the couch where he pushes him back down onto it before walking over to the t.v. to turn it on. He hands Mikaela a controller and sits down next to him. The blond stares down at the controller before looking up at Yuu. So much for letting me give you an answer.He thinks with a smile. Though it’s not like he could say no to Yuu after that smile he gave him, after all it was Yuu’s signature smile.   But god did he love the way Yuu smiles.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ----   14 rounds in the game and Yuu had been down twice. Mikaela could swear that Yuu was fuming as he mashed down the buttons of his controller. “Calm down Yuu- chan.” Mika says encouragingly. “It’s all about strategy.” Their strategy was pretty simple really: In this part of the map there was a house that had 3 places the zombies could come in from; the balcony, the window, and the staircase. The window and balcony were right next to each other while the staircase was on the other side of the upstairs part. Mikaela weighed down the window and balcony while Yuu held down the staircase, or well, attempted to hold down the staircase. The rounds only got harder and harder as you went on which was to be expected. Mika had to hold down the laugh that was ready to burst out as Yuu went down once again on round 17.   “God dammit!!!” Yuu shouts throws himself backwards against the couch before leaning against the blond’s shoulder in defeat. From the way the situation was there wasn’t any chance of saving Yuu at the time so Mikaela quickly jumped out the small hole that was one of the corners of the house. Sadly for him that didn’t work well because when he got to the ground there was a hoard of them waiting for him and he too went down. The screen held a game over on it along with the scoreboard.   “Well..17 Isn’t too bad considering I haven’t played in a long time.” Mika says happily. “You’re too good at this game.” Yuu whines as he turns off the console with his controller. A sudden knock at the door up the staircase kicks them out of their conversation. “Yuu? Are you up yet?” A gentle voice comes through the door. Mika easily recognizes it as Shinya. Yuu quickly peeps up. “Yeah!” He shouts in reply. “Is Guren still home though!?”   “No. He just left for work.”   Yuu sighed as he smiled at Mika. No Guren means no consequences for bringing Mika in without permission. It was a win win. The raven quickly stands as he walks through the arch way. Mika hears the door open and two footsteps come back down the staircase. When Shinya laid eyes on Mika he quickly smiled. “Good morning Mikaela-kun.” He says cheerfully. “I’m glad you could join us this fine morning.”   “Sorry for intruding..” Mika mumbles quietly as he looks down at his feet. “Is everything okay?” His question startled the blond a bit. “Everything is fine..”   Even though he wasn’t looking he could feel Yuu staring daggers at his head, but he didn’t say a word. “Have you eaten today yet?” Mikaela shook his head. “Would you mind joining me and Yuu for breakfast then?” Mika’s stomach growling was his confirmation. Shinya laughs as he turns back to head up the staircase. “It’s ready whenever you two are, so feel free to come on up.” The sounds of footsteps going back up the stairs and the door closing made the blond sigh in relief. He was glad Shinya didn’t ask anything more. Mika was positive that he knew a lot of what was going on in his home life, but he never stated nor asked anything to the blond. A hand on his shoulder quickly snapped him out of his thoughts. He looks up at Yuu to notice the concerned look on his face. “He cares about you..You know..All of us do.” Yuu says suddenly. That caught Mika off guard. He responds to Yuu by giving him a smile. “I know. Thank you. You all mean a lot to me too.”   Yuu smiles a bit. “I’m glad. Let’s go up and eat.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------   It wasn’t abnormal for Mika to stay late at Yuu’s house. They’d done it very often when they were younger. They’d spend the whole day together, have dinner at each other’s houses, and sometimes even stay the night at the other’s. It was something Mika had always been fond of but once high school hit it just kinda came to a stop. Yeah him and Yuu were still incredibly close, but they didn’t really hang out like they used to, and when they did hang out it was just for a couple hours. So that made today special. They spent the entire day together doing simple things; Watching t.v, doing a bit more studying, playing some card games, more video games, just talking about life in general. It was really nice. Mika was there for breakfast, lunch, and even was able to stay for dinner. By the time he was meant to leave it was pitch black out. Yuu stood at his front door with Mika. “Do you want me to walk you home? It’s really dark out.” Mika snorts as he turns to face Yuu. “Won’t you be scared going home then? After all you still sleep with a nightlight.”   Yuu growls. “It’s not a nightlight, Mika. It’s a light to make it not so dark in the room.”   “So yeah a nightlight.”   Yuu throws his hands up.  Mika laughs at Yuu’s exasperated reaction. “Don’t worry Yuu-chan, there’s nothing wrong with having a nightlight~” “It’s not a nightlight.” Yuu mutters under his breath. “Anyways we should get going now.” Yuu says as he grabs Mika’s hand and begins to lead him through the door. “Thank you Shinya-san for letting me stay for so long!” Mika shouts before he’s pulled completely out the door.  He looks up at the sky the moment he’s out and lets out a breath. A puff of air comes into vision and Mikaela realizes just how cold it is out. Even with his jacket he still felt freezing. He involuntarily shivers and Yuu looks at him carefully. “Are you cold?” He asks as he begins to take off his own jacket only to drape it over the blond. “W- What are you--?”   “We can’t have you catching a cold.” Yuu responds casually as he buttons up the buttons on his jacket that was now on the male. “If anyone’s gonna catch a cold it’s you..” Mika mumbles as he feels his face heat up. “You’re smaller than me so it’s my job to take care of you.” He replies before taking Mika’s hand once again and begins to lead him down the pathway of his house. Within a few seconds they’re walking down the road to Mika’s house.   They walked in comfortable silence for most of the trip. Mika’s mind was reeling at the fact that he was wearing Yuu’s jacket. He almost could laugh at how much bigger it was on the blond than it was compared to Yuu. The sleeves went a bit over his hands and he had to hold back the temptation to whack Yuu with them. The jacket itself was rather cozy though… He no longer felt cold, but the back of his head said that it wasn’t because of the jacket.. Yuu suddenly interrupted Mika’s thoughts with a laugh. “Today was a lot of fun, wasn’t it?” He says as the two of them turned down the corner of Mika’s street. Mika smiles and nods. Yuu’s voice was quiet for the next part. “We really need to do that some more.” He whispered as he stared down at his feet as they walked. Mika looks over to him to notice his face was slightly red too. Mika’s mind screamed that he was blushing but he quickly glossed it over with the fact that it was freezing out and Yuu didn’t have a jacket. He didn’t want to get the wrong idea or get his hopes up. Him and Yuu were friends, family, that would never chance. No matter how much he wanted it to. They suddenly were standing outside of Mika’s house and the blond quickly felt dread. Hopefully his mother and father already had it out and everything would be good and relaxing tonight. Yuu seemed to notice his uneasiness so he gave Mika’s hand a light squeeze, as if almost to say I’m here for you.   Mika sighed as he turned to Yuu and began to unbutton the jacket. Yuu’s voice suddenly interrupted him. “Keep it. It looks good on you.” Mika couldn’t help the noise that escaped his throat at that moment. It looked good on him?? In order to hide his embarrassment he hit Yuu with the sleeves of the jacket roughly. Yuu laughs as he shields himself from the small slaps of the sleeves. “Don’t be embarrassed.” He teases as he easily grabs the sleeves of the jacket. The blond pouts at him unhappily before confirming with Yuu. “Are you sure I can keep it? It’s yours after all.” Yuu nods as he smiles. “It looks really good on you, so please keep it. Okay?” Mika nods as he smiles. The two of them quickly embrace tightly before parting. As Mika climbs up the deck he looks over at Yuu who smiles and nods. Mika smiles back and gives him an embarrassed wave. He felt so warm. He watches as Yuu waves back before turning to start walking back to his house. Unease began to settle back in the further that Yuu got. He stared down at the doorknob before he sighs and silently turns it. As the door opens Mika finds himself surprised that all the lights that he could see were turned off. He felt himself relax a bit at the thought that his parents are both already in bed. He quietly walks in and shuts the door as silently as possible before he walks into the living room. He finds himself staring face to face with his mother who had the most pissed expression on her face. Mika in almost a panic begins a sentence. “I’m hom--” His voice was cut out as his mother stormed over to him and shoved him down. He hit the floor with a thump and was quickly kicked to his side. He let out a gasp as the air was knocked out of him. “Where the fuck have you been!?” She screamed as she shoved her heel down onto the male’s hand. He lets out a cry as the tip dug down into his skin. “How dare you leave without saying a word! Do you know how worrying it is for me!?” She shouts again as she moves her heel down from his hand to kick his stomach. “You don’t deserve this family! You don’t deserve to live! You were an accident that should’ve never come onto this planet! Do you know how much me and your father have to suffer because of you!? Do you have any idea how much we’ve given up for you!? Of course you don’t! You have no idea because you’re spoiled and ungrateful!!” She continues spewing words of hatred as she kicks and stomps down on the blond on the floor. He covers his head as pulls himself up to lay in fetal position. She would be done with kicking him soon. It never lasted that long. Least how time showed it. For Mika it felt like forever. Slowly the hits stopped as his mother grew less interested. Mika kept his eyes closed; He didn’t want to see. She never looked right when he was hit. To him he only saw a demon. Someone wearing the skin of his mother. Everything around him became distorted when he was beaten. When he finally thought it was all over he was suddenly pulled up by his hair. “Open your eyes, Mika.” Her voice was soft now. She was still causing pain to him, but she had calmed down a bit at the least. Mika does as told and slowly opens his eyes. Tears immediately spilled out as his lips trembled. She smiled as he looked at him closely. “You look so much like your father..” She cooes. “So beautiful. So please, never leave like that again. I got so worried that you ran away and would never come back, I only say this because I love you. So please, Mika.” She whispered as she let Mika’s hair go. His face immediately hit the ground as he felt himself losing conscious. He felt sick to his stomach. If he stayed awake any longer he felt like he might puke. He watched his mother’s heels walk away into the other room as he closed his eyes. Yuu-chan..Please help me. Chapter End Notes Poor Mika. :/ Comments and Kudos are always appreciated!! <333 :D ***** Yellow Acacia Blossoms ***** Chapter Notes Wow look at that...! I'm not late for once!! It's a miracle!! // slapped ANYWAYS I wanted to thank everyone so so so much for reading and even more thanks to the people who commented! It really means a lot to me to hear what everyone is thinking of the story! I worked really hard on this chapter so I hope you all enjoy!! See the end of the chapter for more notes The grass below him was soft and green. As he laid on the ground he stared up at the tree that was above his head. Yellow blossoms slowly fell from the tree as the wind blew by. Mika attempted to sit up but wasn’t able to move. He looks around the field before being able to spot the girl in the white dress. She was sitting next to him with a smile upon her face. “She really went at it today, didn’t she?” The girl questions as she looks down at her lap. Mika blinks at her before testing his voice. “Who are you?” He asks. His voice was scratchy and he himself could hardly hear it. She smiles as she begins to speak. “That’s cruel Mika. We’re family.”   “If we’re family then why do I not know you?” Her smile quickly disappeared as it was replaced by a flat line. Even now as he observed her closely, the bright light that was shining above them covered most of her face. “My name is Akane.” She finally answers before the wind picks up. Mika watches as a cloud begins to drift over the sun. Immediately the light that covered the girl’s face disappeared. Big brown eyes met with blue and Mika felt his heart twist. Nostalgic. She smiled down at him sadly as she reached her hand out and cupped his cheek. “It pains me that you can’t remember, but I’m sure there’s a reason why you can’t. So I’ll wait, until you can come back to me.” Mikaela’s mind quite sure what she meant, but in his heart he felt he understood.   “So tell me..What’s the flower today..?”   She nods before holding her hand up to catch one of the small blossoms that began to fall from the tree. “This is called an Acacia blossom. The different colors can mean different things but in this case, the yellow one’s signify concealed love.”   Mika breathes the cool air in that blows by as he closes his eyes. “Concealed love huh? Is this about Yuu-chan too, then?”   She lets out a gentle laugh. “I don’t think you should hide it from him is all.”   Mika gazed at her questioningly. “Are you telling me that I should chance losing him forever?”   “You won’t lose him.” She replies. Mika found himself beginning to glare. “How can you be so sure?”   Akane gently folds her hands in her lap before looking the blond straight in the eye. “Because Yuu-san is a kind person. You of all people should know that.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------   Slowly Mikaela opened his eyes and he stared at the ceiling. A sudden pain coursed through his body as he attempted to move. He immediately tensed and let out a whimper. Okay. That’s not gonna work. He thinks to himself as he closes his eyes. He slowly opened and closed his hand to grip what he was laying on. It was soft. He quickly realized that he was no longer on the floor but in his bed instead. How did I get here..? He wonders to himself. He glances around his room as best as he could to try to figure out the time. He took a guess that it was mid afternoon from the way sunlight was pouring in through the window. He wanted to get up and figure out who put him in the bed but the pain he felt was keeping him planted. He closes his eyes with a sigh as he suddenly thinks back to his dream.   I don’t think you should hide it from him is all.   Mikaela’s lips folded into a pout. What’s that supposed to me? He grumbles to himself. His mind suddenly drifts off to Yuu. His smile, then his laugh, and then finally the way he looks at Mika. His green eyes always looked so soft when he looked at him, like he was genuinely content. His chest suddenly started burning. He couldn’t help it, could he? After all, anyone would fall for Yuu, he was sure of that. “I..” Mika whispered out. He needed it to be out there. He’d never been able to say it aloud. Only in his mind was he able to think it. He always tried to deny it until recently, but saying it aloud..He wanted it out. Even if no one could hear it. “I love Yuu-chan..” He whimpers. Confirming it, coming to terms with it. It was all in the first steps into actually being able to tell him. He felt tears prick at his eyes before they promptly spilled. But Yuu would never like him back like that. Ever. Yuu liked girls. He liked Mika sure, but as something more? Doubtful. They’d been friends forever. That wasn’t changing. Mika slowly reached his sore arm out to grab the pillow that was underneath him before slowly turning onto his side so that he could at least hold his pillow as he cried. He’d tell him. He could do it, he really could..But is the chance of losing him or making things awkward really worth having Yuu know his feelings? He didn’t know, but all he knew at that moment was that his feelings wouldn’t be going away.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------   I...I love Yuu-chan...” The words were loud and clear as Yuu stood on the opposite side of Mika’s door. “W-What..?” Yuu whispered out in disbelief. He thought that his ears must’ve been playing a trick on him but he definitely knew what he heard. The sudden sound of a sob startled Yuu. He was crying. Mika was crying. Yuu immediately reached for the doorknob before stopping. His hand hoovered over it. He wasn’t meant to hear that.. But his mind was screaming at him to go in there and hold Mika. Tell him that it’s okay. But he couldn’t bring himself to do it. That wasn’t meant for him to hear. It wasn’t his place. His hand trembled as he pulled it away from the door. He sighed before he walked down the hall a bit to sit a little ways away from Mikaela’s door. In the end he made the right decision on coming back to the house.   On his way home he felt like something was off. His stomach was twisting and he felt nervous. He wanted to go make sure that Mika was okay and once he confirmed it then he could apologize and just go home, which he reassured himself is what’ll happen but in the end his unease had been correct for when he knocked at the door no one answered. Of course that only led him to feeling even worse as he banged on the door. Still no one came. Both cars were gone which implied that no one was home but Yuu had a doubt that Mika would go somewhere this late so in the end he tried the door which was surprisingly unlocked. He opens it and steps in, mumbling an apology for the intrusion before walking in. Just a little ways from the front door Yuu finds Mikaela laying on the floor face down. “MIKA!!!” He screams as he runs over to him. He quickly lifts him up into his arms and looks at him cautiously. He had many bruises and red marks. The raven felt his blood boil. “Mika..?” He calls out softer. “Can you hear me..?” Mikaela quietly whimpers as he trembled. “No..More..Please..”   Yuu felt livid as he gently put the blond down and stormed through the house. Where!? Where!? His mind called out to him as he swung each door of the house open in attempts to find someone. After the final door was opened Yuu concluded that the house was empty. He walks back over to Mika who was still laying on the floor in the exact position that Yuu had placed him back down. “Mika..It’s okay. I’m here now.” He whispered as he gathered the male back into his arms. He, as gently as possible, lifted him up and began to walk carefully to the blond’s room. Once there he settled the male down on the bed and pulled the jacket he gave him and his shoes off before tucking him in.   Yes. Yuu thinks to himself. That really was the best decision.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------   Mika stands at his desk as he pulls tissues out of the tissue box that rested there. After crying for a bit he began to feel a lot better. His body was sore as hell but he’s had it worse before. He blows his nose loudly before discarding the used paper into the garbage. In the back of his head he faintly wondered how he got into bed. Naturally he’d think that one of his parents had done it but after thinking about it a bit more he came to the conclusion that it wasn’t possible. He knew that his mother wouldn’t be able to lift him which only left his dad which wouldn’t be possible either because he would’ve been woken up by yelling between his two parents, but instead of any yelling the house was almost eerily silent. He brushed it off with the thought that maybe he walked back into his bed unconsciously. He opens the door to his room before slowly poking his head out of the door. No one was in sight. He sighed with relief as he made his way to the bathroom. As he got there he quickly noticed that the door was shut. So that’s why there was no sound. He thinks to himself with a smile. He gently knocked at the door before calling out to her. “Mom, Are you almost done?” No reply. Mika’s eyes narrow as he knocks again, “Mom?” He calls. Still nothing. “I’m coming in then--”   “Wait!!” A male voice exclaims as the door swings open. The door hits Mikaela and knocks him to the floor. “Ouch..” He mumbles as he looks up to the person. His eyes grow wide as he sees Yuu staring down at him horrified. “Oh my god Mika I’m so sorry!” He exclaims as he drops down to his knees and grabs onto the blond’s hands. “Are you okay? Ah fuck.” He blurted out.   “Y-Yuu-chan..? What’re you--?” His question was abruptly cut off when Yuu suddenly slips his arms underneath the male and picks him up.”Let’s get you back to the bed.” Yuu says quietly as he begins to walk back to Mika’s room with the blond still in his arms. “H-Hold on a second! I have to go to the bathroom!” He exclaims as he feels his face heat up. He appreciated the gesture but this was a little much. . .   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------   Mikaela glares up at the raven as he tucks him under all the blankets on his bed. “You’re gonna suffocate me.” Mika grumbles as Yuu tucks the blanket into his sides. Yuu smiles as he leans back to admire his work. “You just rest here for now, Okay? Guren will pick us up in a little while.” Mika nods before he quickly realizes what Yuu said. “Wait--us??” The male nods as if the answer to the question was obvious. “Of course. There’s no way in hell I’m leaving you here alone.”   “I appreciate the gesture but I don’t really wanna leave. I have a lot to do today--”   “Like what?” Yuu quickly interrupts with a raised brow. Mika averts his gaze as he looks over to the door. “Like I need to wash my uniform--” “And I have a washer, what a coincidence.” Mika stared at the raven in exasperation. He knew that from the way Yuu was acting there was no getting out of it now. “But..” Honestly he had no reason to stay. He didn’t want to stay either. Yet at the same time he felt nervous with going to Yuu’s house again. Would he stay the night? Would he come back later and chance getting beaten again? He didn’t like his options, or odds for that matter. His voice cut out to a squeak when Yuu’s hand was suddenly on his shoulder. “Mika. I don’t want you to get hurt anymore.” He states, his voice soft and coded concern. The male practically melted at his tone. That’s no good, Yuu-chan. Mika thinks to himself. You’re just going to make me fall for you even more.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------------------   By the time the two of them actually left it was pitch black out. Luckily for them Mikaela’s mother never came home that day. Mika felt incredibly relieved as the two of them got into Guren’s car. He was terrified on what his mother could’ve done if she came home only to find Yuu there, or even what Yuu himself could’ve done for that matter. When the two of them got into the car Guren didn’t say a word, he just began driving. Guren.. Had always been stand off-ish towards Mikaela, but Yuu always assured him that he was like that to every one of his friends. He likes you most of all out of all of my friends, trust me. Yuu assured him.   Mika silently gazed at Yuu from the corner of his eyes. Yuu was laying his head on his hand as he stared out the window of the car. Mika turned his own gaze to stare out the window, only to notice little droplets landing on the glass. “It looks like it’s going to storm tonight.” He mumbles quietly. “Yeah.” Yuu responds. Mika always enjoyed watching storms. Settling down with a warm blanket at the window with some hot chocolate was something him and Yuu used to do together, though Yuu in particular didn’t like thunder, he did enjoy watching the rain though. Mika smiled at the memory of him and Yuu sneaking through the house in order sit together on the window ledge to watch the storm. When the thunder and lightning began Yuu would quickly snuggle up to Mika to hide from it. The blond couldn’t help but to chuckle silently to himself. Yuu was such a big baby back then.   Mika slowly opened his eyes and looked back over to the raven. Yuu’s grown so much since then. That warm feeling he felt from the memories suddenly disappeared.   Meaning he’s leaving me behind.   A sudden warmth was placed his hand and he quickly looks down to see Yuu’s hand on top of his. “W-What are you doing?” Mika blurts out as he yanks his hand away. His face immediately became warm, to which he quickly realized he was blushing. His stupid heart beating fast wasn’t helping matters either.   “Ah. Sorry.” Yuu smiles at him uneasily. “Was that too much?”  “Not at all.” Mika states calmly as he tries to stop his racing heart. “You know,” Yuu begins as he looks down at the car floor. “I.. wanted to apologize to you.”   “Eh?” Mika questions as his brows curl in confusion. What in the world was he talking about? “Why would you need to?”   Yuu took a deep breath before locking eyes with Mika. “I..Haven’t really talked to you.. Like we used to.” Mika smiles sadly at the male. “That’s not something to apologize for, Yuu-chan. You’re busy with school and afterschool programs just as I am--”   “That’s no excuse.” Yuu suddenly interrupts him. “We used to be so close..Yet I feel like we started drifting away from each other once highschool started.”   “I thought we still were close.”   Yuu shakes his head. “I mean..We used to spend so much time together, now we don’t hang out outside of school unless we’re walking together or helping each other out with studies.”   “It’s because we’re both busy, Yuu-chan.” Mika replies as he looks over to Guren. He was sure the male was listening to the convo and he faintly wondered what he was thinking about this matter.   “It bothers me, Mika.” Yuu says suddenly. Mika turned his gaze back to the raven only to notice his face was a light red as he averted his gaze away from the blond. “And..when I look back to these past few years, I notice that there was so many times I could’ve hung out with you instead of other people and that..It makes me feel awful, Mika. I practically abandoned you when you needed me most--”   “No.” Mika states firmly. That wasn’t true. “Yuu-chan needs to socialize with people, so don’t think that way.” Please don’t put me so highly. “I mean after all, I’ve been busy too. So please don’t feel bad for something like that.” Please don’t feel bad about not being with me.   Yuu looked conflicted for a moment before staring back down to his lap. The two of them quickly fell into a silence. “I..Want to spend more time with you.” Yuu suddenly declares.   “I want to go back to the days when we were practically inseparable. When we were side by side all the time. When we had all the time in the world to laugh and play. That’s all I want.” He whispers before sliding his hand over to Mika’s to intertwine their fingers together. Mika couldn’t bring himself to look at Yuu. So he opted for staring out the window. He didn’t want Yuu to see how red his face was, or to know how fast his heart was racing. He slowly closed his fingers tighter around Yuu’s. His hand was so warm.   “I won’t let you go this time. I promise.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------   After getting to Yuu’s house Mikaela easily decided to have a shower before him and Yuu go to bed. The warm shower quickly helped calm his nerves. As Mikaela stepped out of the shower he looked in the mirror and instantly noticed the dark purple bruises that covered his chest. He gently runs his hands over the mark before he sighed and began drying himself down. He changed into the somewhat too big pjs that Yuu lent him and then headed out of the bathroom to go down into the basement. Once at the bottom of the staircase he peers into the raven’s room only to spot him lounging on the couch with a book. Mika smiled as he leaned against the archway. Yuu seemed rather into the book he was reading as his eyes ran back and forth as he read each word.   After a minute of just standing there Yuu glances up before jerking backwards in surprise. “Ah. Mika. How long have you been there??”   “10 Minutes Mika states with a laugh as he begins to walk into the room. “No way!” Yuu exclaims. The blond looks around the room curiously before his gaze hits Yuu’s newly made bed. Is that where he was sleeping? “The bed is all yours.” Yuu says before leaning back into the couch. “I’ll sleep on the couch, and don’t worry about the bedding, it’s all new.” Mika nods as he walks over to the bed and pulls the blanket back before crawling under. “Are you sure this is okay? The couch doesn’t seem all that comfortable.” Yuu chuckles as he gets up to click the switch of the lights off. “Don’t worry about me. Just get some good sleep.”   The first thing Mika noticed about the room was how it was still rather brightly illuminated. The blond couldn’t help but to laugh about how Yuu still won’t sleep in the dark. “Shut it!” He heard Yuu hiss. Mika knew that he knew why he was laughing. “If it bothers you that much I’ll turn it off!” Mikaela tries to swallow his gasps as he tries to speak. “Nah Yuu, It’s fine.” He manages out before bursting out laughing again. “Does anyone else know that you still sleep with a nightlight?”   “It’s not a nightlight!” Yuu exclaims with a slight blush. “And no one’s gonna find out, right?”   “Your friends wouldn’t let you live it down, would they?” Mika suddenly asks as his laughter dies down. “No they wouldn’t. So you’re not gonna say a thing.” “But that’s no fun.” Mika replies with a pout.   A comfortable silence fell over them as Mikaela tried to close his eyes to sleep. After a minute or two he heard a shuffle over on the couch as Yuu flipped positions. More minutes pass by and he hears Yuu flip again, and then again, and again--   “You don’t have to sleep on that uncomfortable couch you know.” Mika suddenly says. He hears more shuffling before the sound of Yuu’s feet hitting the ground before padding his way over. A big shuffle on the bed startles Mika as he feels Yuu quickly press himself against the blond. He lightly tugs on the blanket as he tries to shuffle his way under. Mika grumbles as he scooched over to allow Yuu to crawl under the blankets. The blond couldn’t help the stifled gasp that he let out when Yuu suddenly wrapped his arms around the male and pulled his back to his chest. “Y-Yuu-chan what’re you--?” Mika quickly lost his voice out when he felt a warm sensation fill his chest. Yuu was holding him. Slowly the male turned over to face Yuu’s chest before wrapping his arms around the raven’s back. He quickly nuzzled the male’s chest as he breathed in. Yuu’s sent was enveloping him. He felt so safe in Yuu’s arms.   Safe and loved. He faintly felt the grip Yuu had on his waist tighten, so he sighed out a relieved breath as he felt sleepiness begin to take over him. He was easily knocked out in a minute. Yuu listened silently as the blond’s breathing became slower and constant. He smiled as he knew Mika had fallen asleep. He held the male close before lightly brushing his bangs out of his face. “Me too.” He whispers as he leans down and gently places a kiss to the blond’s forehead. “I love you too.” Chapter End Notes :3 Comments and kudos are always appreciated!! <3 ***** Maidenhair Fern ***** Chapter Notes Hey guys! I would like to apologize for the lack of an update last Sunday. ;;;; I have a good reason for it, I swear! On Wednesday of last week the power went off for a good portion of my town which meant that I couldn't access my computer because it died. Next the power came back on Thursday afternoon, and then Thursday night I was rushed to the ER. (Nothing serious so don't worry!) Of course Friday and Saturday I was in pain and could hardly move my arms. ;;;;; Aaaand then I just kinda suffered with writers block for the rest of this week. But I tried my best to get this chapter done! I also apologize for the shortness of the chapter! It was meant to be a lot longer but I ended up cutting half of what I had planned. I'm hoping to be able to return to Sunday schedules on the 1st of next year. (Maybe that should be my new years resolution?? XDD) Also thank you so much to everyone who's left kudos and an extra thank you to the comments! They literally give me life. ;;; Anyways once again I'm so sorry for the inconvenience and I hope you all enjoy this chapter!!! See the end of the chapter for more notes The field was a bit darker than usual. Dark clouds covered the sky as a cool wind blew past. In front of him was a small forest, and behind him was the usual field of flowers. He looks around the vast field while looking for Akane. After a minute of looking he turns his back to the field and wanders into the forest. He squelched his way through the muddy grass until he came to a tree that was slightly smaller than the others. Below it rested a small plant that Mikaela was easily able to identify as a fern. Mika smiles as he reaches out and runs his hand along the soft foliage of the plant. Out of the corner of his eye he sees a flash of white and quickly realizes that it’s the dress that Akane always wears. He looks over to it and sees her standing behind him in her regular white dress along with a sunhat that had a pearl colored ribbon going across the top. She crouches down next to him and gives him a smile. “Do you feel yourself being drawn to plants?” She asks. The blond looks back to the plant and shakes his head. “Not really. Plants are a lot to take care of.” She nods in agreement before suddenly standing up.   “It really surprised me that you weren’t out in the flower field.” She said as she stares down at him playfully. “I thought for sure you’d be down there, but I was pleasantly surprised when I found you here~”   Mika chuckles. “Always gotta keep you guessing.” She laughs in reply. “On another note the fern you just touched is a maidenhair fern. It often symbolizes a secret bond of love.”   Mika blinks a few times while looking dumbfounded. A secret bond of love? He thinks about it for a second. It was practically the same as yesterday’s flower. Concealed love versus a secret bond of love. He easily was sensing a theme from this.   “What’s the difference between concealed love and a secret bond of love?” He suddenly asks. She smiles as she stands before quickly turning to the flower field. “Who knows.” She mumbles quietly as her dress gently blows in the cool air. “Akane,” Mika began before the wind quickly picked up and blew many of the leaves down from the treetops causing the male to be temporarily  blinded.   For a second, only a brief second he could swear he was blinded by red.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -----------------------   Mikaela gasped as he was suddenly dragged back into consciousness. He blinks a few times as he tries to gather his bearings. He easily makes the place out to be Yuu’s bedroom, to which he was laying in Yuu’s bed. Shocker. He thinks to himself. Of course he was in Yuu’s room! That’s where he fell asleep last night! He quickly found himself flustering as he realized he was laying his head on Yuichiro’s chest.   “Y-Yuu-chan..?” He squeaked out as he felt his stomach flutter. Why in the world was he on Yuu’s chest-- In such an intimate position?? His mind was suddenly flooded with memories of last night; how Yuu just suddenly pulled Mika’s back to him, how Mika himself flipped over and snuggled up to Yuu’s chest.   His poor little heart couldn’t take this.   He slowly pushed himself up and off of the raven’s chest to settle himself on the edge of the bed. He glances over to Yuu’s clock only for it to read 6:19. It was still rather early meaning he wouldn’t have to worry about going to school quite yet. He glances back over to the sleeping male. His heartbeat suddenly becomes loud enough for him to hear it.   Thump, Thump, Thump.   He suddenly takes a deep breath as he tries to calm his himself down. Waking up like this..Almost makes it feel like we’re lovers… He turns completely over to Yuu as he stares down at him. He admires Yuu’s stunning features. From his messy yet charming hair, to his beautiful emerald green eyes, down soft pink lips. His oh so kissablelips. A sudden urge filled Mikaela’s mind as he stares down at him. He wanted to kiss him. It would be okay, because he was asleep..Right?   The blond gently places his arms on each side of Yuu’s head before slowly leaning down. He could do it, he could give Yuu his first kiss and the male would never know. Mikaela hoovered a few inches above Yuu’s lips before pulling back to compromise with laying his head on Yuu’s shoulder. I can’t do it. He thinks to himself. Not while he was sleeping. If he did it he knew he would never be able to forgive himself. He nuzzled himself more in the crook of Yuu’s neck while he breathes in his scent. So sweet. He thinks to himself as a sudden calm washes over him.   Suddenly Yuu’s arms bursted up and wrapped around him, pulling him against against him roughly. He gasped out in surprise as he was promptly squeezed. “Yuu-chan let go!” He says before bursting out laughing. He hears Yuu chuckle before letting the blond go. Mika pulls back to look at the raven. Yuu gave him a huge smile. “Good morning Mika~” He says happily as he pulls the blond back down to his chest comfortingly. “Yeah, good morning, Yuu-chan. I hope I didn’t wake you.”   “Nope~” Yuu sings before patting Mika’s back. “Though I faintly felt someone leaning over me so I did wake up to that.” Mika’s stomach immediately drops. “Said person got really close to my face, so I quickly wondered what the person was going to do~” Mika stays quiet as he feels his face heat up. There was no escaping it now. “Mika?” Yuu calls out suddenly. Mika says nothing in return. There was no way there was anything he’d be able to say or do that would be able to cover it. “Were you going to kiss me?”   “No way!” Mika exclaims as he tries to struggle out of Yuu’s now death grip. “Waking me up Sleeping beauty style, I like it~” Yuu says with a smirk as he watches the blond try to wiggle free. Mika knew that Yuu was going to keep him right here until he admit it, yet some part of him was feeling defiant. “Mmm, Mika you know I’m much stronger than you, right?” Yuu breathes out huskily. “No way!” Mika blurts out. “I’m much stronger than Yuu-chan!”     “That so?” Yuu questions lowly. In a matter of seconds Mikaela was flipped over on the bed. His hands on each side of his head with Yuu’s arms holding him down as the raven straddled him. “Who's stronger than who now?” Yuu says with a smirk as he stares down at the male.  Mikaela’s face by now was a burning red. Yuu was..on top of him..?   “If you wanted a kiss you could’ve just said so.” Yuu says seductively as he leans down. “N-No!” Mika exclaims as he’s given a gentle kiss to the forehead. “Y-Yuu-chan..!” He whimpers out as the place Yuu’s lips had been quickly begins to burn. “Mika..” Yuu whispers quietly as his hands softly slide into Mika’s. Immediately their fingers intertwine as Yuu places another kiss on the bridge of Mika’s nose. He pulls away and smirks down at the currently dazed Mikaela. A dark scarlet blush, lips that were parted with every breath, hazy cerulean eyes. He looked so delectable. He moves his free hand up to cup the blond’s cheek. He watches as the male nuzzles the hand with a blissful sigh.   Mika slowly looks back up to Yuu to see him with a genuine smile. Ah, don’t look that way Yuu-chan. Mika thinks to himself as he notices Yuu begin to lean down again. I’ll just fall in love with you all over again. The blond slowly closed his eyes as he knew what was coming next. He felt Yuu right above him, right above his lips. The grip he hand on Yuu’s hand suddenly tightened as he realized what this all meant. Just as their lips were about to meet a knock at the door stopped all actions. He quickly snapped his eyes open as he watched Yuu sit up and turn his head to the staircase. “Who is it!?” Yuu snaps. Shinya’s voice came down clear as day. “Breakfast is ready whenever you two are.” Yuu grumbles out something in reply, but in the moment Mikaela couldn’t hear it. His mind was screaming at him. Yuu was going to literally kiss him! For what reason though!? Did he like him back!? Was he just messing with him!? And why was he going to allow it to happen without any thoughts about it!? His mind was reeling at all kinds of questions before he was quickly knocked back out of it by Yuu’s hand returning to his face. “You okay?” He asks concerningly. Mika reaches up and slowly pulls the raven’s hand off his face. “I’m okay,” he says before a sudden wave of nausea ran through him. “I feel a bit nauseous though..”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------------   Sitting over the toilet with less than 1 hour until school starts was not the ideal way for Mikaela to start his morning. He figured he was rather nervous about everything that had just happened, but he really couldn’t wrap his head around the fact that Yuu was really going to kiss him. The actuality that it really could’ve happened made him feel really euphoric. So just why in the world was his stomach reacting like this? He should feel happy and giddy, not freaking sick to his stomach! He leaned back over the toilet as another wave of nausea ran through him. Nothing was coming up but whenever he thought about leaving the bathroom it came right back. Better to be safe than sorry. He thinks to himself. He didn’t want to even chance leaving, for if something did come up he would never be able to live with himself. Not that he really could live with himself right now. The last thought made him laugh aloud. The whole situation was hilarious, the one time anything could’ve ever happened between him and Yuu he ends up becoming sick to his stomach.   He sighs as he leans his arms followed by his head down on the seat. What would’ve happened if they were interrupted? How far would they have gone? The blond was deep in thought before being interrupted by a quiet knock at the bathroom door. “Mika? You okay?” Yuu’s voice came through softly. The male took a deep breath as he attempted to speak. “I’m okay.” He answered shakily. Truth of the matter was that he was not okay at all. He felt like shit and yet he’d still have to go to school. The door slowly creaked open as Yuu poked his head in. “You don’t look okay.” He replies before opening the door to come in completely. He sits down next to the male to rub his back soothingly. “I really think you should just stay here today.” He mumbles. Slowly Mika turns his head to look at the raven. “And what about you?”   Yuu shrugs. “I could stay here with you?” Quickly the blond shakes his head. “After all that studying you’re not missing that test.” Yuu could only laugh in reply. “Then you can just stay in my room the whole day. Shinya will baby you, It’ll be great.”   “Baby me?” Mika intoned blankly, unamused. Yuu nods his head with a big smile on his face. “Yeah. He’ll give you yummy food and lots of blankets. Haven’t your parents ever babied you?”   The blond stares back down to the toilet. Of course they haven’t. He thinks to himself grimly. Everytime he got sick he’d be stuck to deal with it on his own. Anytime he had a problem for that matter he’d have to deal with it alone. For Mika there was no such thing as being babied. Yuu seems to take notice in the change of the blond’s behavior and quickly spoke. “I’m sorry.”   “Don’t apologize for something like that, Yuu.” Mika replies. The raven looks down sadly. “I still feel bad though..”   “No need.” Mika says as he turns over to the male and gives him a small smile. “It’s all fine.”   -------------------------------------------------------------------------------   In the end the two settled with Yuu going to school while Mika stayed back at Yuu’s house. Mika told Yuu he’d be fine. He just would get a bit more sleep while Yuu was gone and he should be good as new. Yuu on the other hand was very hesitant. He didn’t want to leave Mika alone in his room, though it’s not like it really mattered as long as Shinya was there… But still! Mika shouldn’t have to be alone!   Which is now how he’s at school after being kicked and locked out of the house by Guren and Shinya. Yuu sighed as he flopped down at one of the lunch tables. He was already exhausted even though he hasn’t even gone to any classes. He just wanted to curl up back in bed at home with Mika. He quickly pulled out his phone from his backpack and opened up a game. He played in silence for a few minutes until his phone was suddenly pulled away from his hands. He quickly turned to glare at his current phone thief when his face softened at the girl who took it. The short girl in front of him smirked as she flopped down on the table next to him.  “You look so lifeless without Mikaela-san by your side.” She says as she begins playing the game he had open. Yuu sighed as he laid his head on the tabletop. He stares over at the girl; Shinoa in this case, and let out another sigh. “Mmm? What are you so whiny about?”   “I’m not whiny.” Yuu states, annoyed. Okay, maybe he was being just a bit whiny--   “I almost kissed him.” He suddenly blurts out to her. She drops the male’s phone in surprise as she stares at him in disbelief. “When?? Why didn’t you text me?!?!?” She gasps dramatically as she pulls out her own phone. Yuu stares down at the table with a slight blush. Shinoa had been someone who he’d always be able to talk to about this and that to. Of course Mika had always been first on his list of people to talk to but it’s kinda hard to tell your best friend that you have feelings for them. Yuu watches as she texts Mitsuba (her current lover) exactly what Yuu had just told her. She puts down her phone and stares at the raven before giving him the motion of ‘continue’.   Yuu looks down at the table as he thinks about what to say. “I don’t think he likes me like that..” Shinoa gives him a questioning look while he continues. “Like, we didn’t actually get to kiss but..Afterwards he felt sick.. The other day I could’ve sworn I heard him say that he loves me but I think I was wrong..” Yuu shrugs awkwardly at his own words. His mind was telling him at the time to make sure that Mika likes him before he actually did anything but for some reason he couldn’t bring himself to do it. He may have seemed like he knew exactly what he was doing but the reality of the situation was that he was so nervous. So, so incredibly nervous. He just sat quietly as he watched the lilac continue to text before he puts his own phone away and heads to his first period.   ----------------------------------------------------------------------------   Mikaela sat alone in Yuu’s room in silence. The empty bowl that was once a full bowl of chicken noodle soup sitting alongside a now empty glass of water on Yuu’s nightstand made the blond feel tired. His tummy was full and he was content. No more nausea, just complete and utter exhaustion. Mika wrapped himself up in Yuu’s blanket as he tries to piece together this morning properly. Yuu was coddling him, Yuu tried to kiss him, and Yuu was just as kind as he usually was. It was easy to state really, just being able to actually wrap his mind around it was something else entirely. He sighed to himself as his heart gave a thump. His heart was definitely liking the thought of him and Yuu kissing. Mika faintly began to wonder what it was like to kiss someone. Mika, unlike Yuu, wasn’t even close to being sexually active. The most he’d ever done with someone was to hold their hand. Though it wasn’t like he didn’t have sexual fantasies, He had them all the time, all of which included Yuu. But had he ever thought that Yuu would try to kiss him? Of course not. He thought that him and Yuu were just really close friends, family.   Mika turns to his side as he curls up into a little ball. Maybe Yuu was just experimenting with a male to see if he likes it.   That’s a terrible thought. Mika thinks to himself. The truth of the matter is he’ll just have to ask him when he gets back. No matter how nervous he gets. With a resolve set in mind Mikaela easily falls asleep. Chapter End Notes Comments and Kudos are always appreciated!!! :D ***** Ambrosia ***** Chapter Notes Okay first of all can I just apologize for being SO INCREDIBLY LATE ON THIS. Like seriously I'm surprised myself. ;;; Second I wanted to apologize for the short chapter. I was having some major writers block but I think it's kinda settled now?? Of course I want to give thanks to everyone who's left kudos on the fic~! And of course special thanks to the people who left comments!!! <333 They really keep me going! Nonetheless I hope you all enjoy this chapter~ ;D See the end of the chapter for more notes Mikaela walked silently through the field of flowers that gently swayed in the breeze. Even after only being gone for a few hours the weather had seemed to already re-set. The warm sunlight that poured down from the sky seemed to be lighting up a rather peculiar flower that sat alone from all the rest. The flower itself was a light salmon color with little ruffles that framed its edges while its middle was painted with a bright yellow. The blond slowly approaches the flower before a small hand on his back stops him.   “You shouldn’t go any closer to it.”   Mika turns around to see Akane looking up at him blankly. “It has a very strong pollen.” She states as turns to face away from the male. “It’s called an ambrosia by the way.”   “And what’s the flower’s meaning then?” Mika asks as he walks over to stand in front of the smaller female. She smiles as she reaches her hand out to his cheek. “It means ‘your love is reciprocated’.” Mika smiles as he looks down at the ground. “Is that so?” The brunette’s hand moved from his cheek up to his head as she gives him a gentle pat. “Things should work in your favor now.”   The blond slowly looks back up to the smiling girl before he finally speaks again. “How do you know everything that’s going to happen, anyways?”   She pulls her hand away to face away from the male, her dress flailing up as she turns. “Because..I’m an.. angel per say.”   “An angel?” Mika questions as he sits down in the grass. “That’s right.” She replied apathetically. The blond lays down on his back in the grass as he stares up at the sky. “If you’re an angel then why do you tell me about flowers anyways?” She smiles as flops down in the grass next to the male. “Guidance obviously. I find it surprising you haven’t figured that out earlier.”   Mika glances over to the girl to observe her expressions. She was smiling but it didn’t seem genuine. It seemed more like something that was rehearsed, though he sensed no malice in the action. “I..Don’t believe in angels or things like that.” He mumbles as he looks back up at the sky. She nods. “I know that.”     “If you know that then why would you say it?”   “Because even if I told you the truth you wouldn’t believe me.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------   By the time Yuu got home from school it was far past dark. After his classes he tried his hardest to come home but Shinoa dragged him to his club activities with something along the lines of ‘it’s not responsible to ditch your club’ or something like that. Though Yuu didn’t listen, his mind was too busy on the thought that he had to get home to Mikaela. He felt awful for leaving him alone for so long but it wasn’t like Shinoa was going to let him go home until the club was over. So he settled for sending him a text instead.   To: Mika   Sorry i’m not back yet i’ll probably be home in 3 hours since shinoa dragged me into going to my club :/ i’ll be back soon though i promise   Once club activities were finished the male quickly hurried home. As Yuu walked down the stairs to his room he was expecting Mika to be pissed at him for not being back yet, but he was rather surprised to find Mika sleeping in his bed instead. Had he been asleep all day? It would make sense if he didn’t feel good of course. The raven settled down his backpack and walked over to the bed before kneeling down before it. He reaches his hand up and gently brushes the blond’s bangs out of his face. He always looked so serene when he was asleep. Yuu quickly jerked his arm back when the male began to stir. The blond’s brows furl as his big blue eyes slowly opened. He blinked a few times before silently looking up at the raven unsurely. “Yuu-chan..?” He asks sleepily.   Yuu smiles down at him. “Why good morning sleeping beauty.” Mika chuckles at the nickname as he begins to slowly sit up. “What time is it?”   “Almost seven.”   “Seven???” Mika questions as he begins to suddenly becomes more aware of his surroundings. “Like at night??”   Yuu simply nods as he watches the blond become flustered. “What’s wrong?”   Mikaela gently grips the blanket as he gets his thoughts in order. “I..I’ve been sleeping for a long time is all.” He mumbles out. He quickly remembers his thoughts before he went back to sleep. He told himself he would see how Yuu feels about him but now he was having second thoughts. Not having Yuu next to him when he thinks about it is one thing but having him there when he actually wants to try made him feel nervous. Still.. He tells himself. He tried to kiss me this morning...   “Yuu-chan..I..”   “Are you feeling any better?” Yuu suddenly asks. Mika looks over to the raven completely baffled. The blond quickly nods his head. “I feel fine now.” Yuu smiles at the blond before standing up to plop down on the edge of the bed. “I’m so glad.”   Mikaela quickly averts his gaze over to the other side of the room. He wasn’t sure on it himself but he could see that something was slightly off about Yuu. The tone he was using was the same he’d use when he was distant; that time where Mika himself was insignificant to Yuu. He hated the tone, but he knew it far too well. Mika sighed as he gripped the sheet tightly. “Yuu-chan..About this morning--”   “--I know.” Yuu interrupts, causing the blond to go silent. “I apologize for it. I don’t know what came over me.”   Mika quickly looks over to the male. “Apologize?” He whispers out.   Yuu smiles sadly down at his legs. “Yeah. I really don’t know what came over me. So I apologize and hope this doesn’t affect our friendship.”   Mika felt his heart shatter before his stomach drops and the pain subsides for a blank numbness. “Ah. Right, our friendship. Of course. Nothing will change.” He says. “I wouldn’t want to be with me either..” He whispers out.   “What?” Yuu asks as his head jerks to look over at the blond worriedly. Mika smiles as he pushes himself up and off the bed. “I’m gonna head home.”   “Mika?”   “Thank you for letting me stay over, but I should really be getting home.” He say as he quickly begins to head for the staircase. He was quickly stopped by Yuu grabbing his arm. “Why are you running away. You agreed that it wouldn’t affect us.”   “I want to head home!” Mika yells as he tries to jerk his arm out of Yuu’s hand, but to no avail. Instead he was quickly pulled back down into the bed as Yuu hovers above him, his arms on either side of his head. “What’s really going on in that head of yours?” He asks as he stares down at the blond. Mikaela’s chest gave a pang at the hurt expression on the raven’s face. He seemed genuinely scared. He didn’t want to hurt Yuu but he was hurting too. “I...I..I’m in love you..” Mika whispers out as he drapes an arm over his eyes. He didn’t want to look at the male. He didn’t want to see how disgusted Yuu would look. His eyes quickly snapped open as Yuu gently pulled his arm off his face and pushed it down next to his head. “Me too.” He whispers.   Yuichiro slowly leans down and presses his lips gently against the blond’s. Mika’s fingers twitch while his eyes grow wide as he realizes the current situation. Yuu pulls away slightly and stares down at the male. The blond’s face was red and his eyes were wide as can be as he stared back up at him. Mikaela let out a shaky breath when Yuu leaned back down to place another one. And another one, and another. Each kiss sent the blond spiraling; His breath would be taken away just from a simple peck, his stomach would do flips, and his head would become fuzzy. Each kiss Mika couldn’t do anything but sigh blissfully as his lips tingled. The kisses they shared carried on soft and chaste as Mika simply followed Yuu’s lead. He moved his lips against Yuu’s with every kiss before Yuu pulled away to begin kissing down the blond’s neck.   Mikaela unconsciously tilted his head back as Yuu left soft pecks across the male’s neck before getting down to the collar of his shirt. Yuu breathed huskily against the male’s skin as he begins to suck on the his collarbone while his hands fumble to unbutton the blond’s shirt. Once the shirt was parted Yuu ran his hands down the blond’s firm chest as he continued to kiss down.  Soft pants filled the raven’s ears as he placed kiss after kiss across the blond’s chest until he reached the male’s pants. He gently begins to pull the blond’s pants down when Mikaela calls out to him. “Y-Yuu-chan wait..” He mumbles as begins to sit himself up. Yuu immediately feels shame towards his actions as he quickly gets off the male to settle at the end of the bed. He himself was in the mindset that he was going to have sex with the blond but of course Mika wasn’t going to be ready! They just confessed their love to each other for goodness sake!   Yuu continued to mentally berate himself as Mikaela pulled himself all the way up to look at the raven quietly. If Mika was being honest he wanted to do this. He wanted to give himself to Yuu like that, but now wasn’t the right time. He gently reaches his hand out and cups the male’s cheek before bringing him into a gentle kiss. “It’s okay Yuu-chan.” He whispers fondly before placing another peck to his lips. “It’s hard for me to control myself too.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------   In the end things quieted down. The two of them went upstairs to eat dinner before heading back down into Yuu’s room for the night. Yuu sat quietly at the table in his room as he scribbled down answers to his homework while Mikaela sat next to him to help assist him on problems he didn’t understand. Things didn’t really change between the two of them. Yes they both answered each other’s feelings, butnothing really changed. They were still as close to each other as they were before. Of course the small kisses they shared here and there was different, they still were as comfortable with one another as usual. Slowly the blond leans his head over to lay it against Yuu’s shoulder. If he was being honest he was glad nothing changed. He felt that if him and Yuu did decide to be together that way then it would be an awkward experience. They would just both be nervous towards each other, but it wasn’t like that and he felt so happy about it, so happy and so comfy with Yuu.   It’s almost like we’ve been together this whole time. Mika thinks to himself as his eyes drift close.   Yuu chuckled as he lightly bumped heads with the blond. “You tired Mika?” He asks as he places his pencil down on flat on the table. He felt Mika give a small nod. “Let’s go to bed then.” He says before turning to the blond to lift him up into his arms. Immediately the smaller male clings to him as the raven carries him to his bed. “You’re really strong Yuu-chan.” Mika mumbles quietly as his back gently hits the bed.   “Of course I am.” Yuu says with a triumphant smile as he walks over to the other side of the bed. Once settled in the bed Mika quickly climbs into Yuu’s arms. He feels Yuu run his hands down the back of his head before a gentle peck was placed on his forehead. “I love you, Mika.” Mika blushes as he hides his face against Yuu’s chest. “I love you too, Yuu- chan.” Chapter End Notes Comments and kudos are always appreciated!!! :DD ***** Red Azalea ***** Chapter Notes Do you ever have something planned out so well in your head but when you try to start actually writing it it just becomes...This black hole of despair? XDD 'Cause that's what happened to this chapter. // slapped Anyways I'm so sorry for not updating in..2 days before it'll be a month? XD I actually had this chapter done weeks ago but I really wasn't happy with it because of a middle scene in there..That I actually ended up cutting out (Rip my 4,000+ word mark--) Nonetheless I of course want to give thanks to everyone who reads the story and leaves kudos!! It really means a lot to me!! And of course a special thanks to everyone who leaves a comment!! Your comments seriously mean the world to me!!! <33 So once again thank you all so much and I hope you all enjoy~~ See the end of the chapter for more notes The way the field was lit up was strange; everything seemed bright, soft, and fuzzy. The vast area was practically silent; only the sounds of grass swaying in the wind, the chirp of a bird, or Mikaela’s own breathing could be heard. The world almost seemed.. Vivid now. The way the flowers looked were different from before. They had become colorful and vibrant. Mika smiled as he crouched down next to a shrub that had beautiful red flowers growing on it.   “I wonder what this one is called.” He wondered aloud as he reached out to touch the flower.   “It’s beautiful isn’t it?” Akane’s voice called out. Mika’s hand froze as he quickly turned his head to see the small girl running towards him with a big smile on her face. “Are you starting to like flowers now?” She asks with a giggle as she crouches down next to the male. “Would it matter if I did?” Mika questions as he quickly turns his head in embarrassment.   The brunette gently reached her hand out and plucked one of the flowers off of the shrub before bringing it to her face. “It’s called an Azalea. Like most flowers it has a lot of different meanings, but I of course prefer this meaning above the rest: ‘Take care of yourself for me’.” She says happily as she reaches over to tuck the flower behind the blond’s ear. “I think this meaning is the kindest of them all.”   Mika suddenly feels his face heat up as he immediately looks away once again. “You know many people think you’re beautiful.”   The blond simply pouted as he looked across the field. “I don’t think beautiful is the right term.”   “Why would you think that?” She questions. Mika gently reaches up and touches the flower in his hair. “Because beautiful is something like a flower. Not something like me.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -----------   Green eyes slowly opened as they scanned around the room. The little light that was on for him to sleep lightly illuminated the blond that laid curled up on his chest. Yuu couldn’t help but to smile to himself at how at peace Mikaela looked. He slowly pulled his hand up to the blond’s head before brushing his bangs behind his ear. The male’s brows furled as he nuzzled Yuu’s chest before making a sound of being content. Yuu leaned down to the blond’s head to give it a gentle kiss. Another noise came from the blond before blue eyes slowly opened to glare at him.   Yuu simply smiled. “Good morning beautiful.” The blond responds with a grumble as he drags himself to the opposite side of the bed. “I’m sure I would be more beautiful if you’d let me sleep in longer.”   Yuu chuckles as he leans over the blond to peck his lips. “I don’t think so. Because you’re so stunning right now.” Mika uses his hand to push the raven’s face away. “Don’t be so corny.”   Yuu grins before grabbing Mikaela’s wrist to place a kiss on the palm of his hand. Mika desperately struggles to wiggle out of Yuu’s grip as he pulls the blond’s back to his chest. Once the blond stopped struggling and allowed the male to pull him flatly against his chest Yuu nuzzles his head into Mikaela’s neck. “I gotchu.” He says triumphantly. Mika gives a light chuckle. “No, I’m the one who got you!” He exclaims as he suddenly twists in Yuu’s grip to face his chest before successfully getting his arms under Yuu to hold him tightly. The both of them laughed before falling into a comfortable silence.   “I still..Really can’t believe that you like me back.” Mika breathes out quietly as he rubs his face lovingly against Yuu’s chest. “Me either.” Yuu replies almost giddily. “If this is a dream then I never wanna wake up.” Mika mumbles as he leans his head up to place a kiss on Yuu’s neck. “Mmm.. Me too.”   The two laid in a warm silence before a knock at the door upstairs sent them gazing to the steps. “Mikaela-kun? Yuichiro? You two should probably get ready for school now.” Shinya’s voice drifts down to them. Mika’s eyes quickly drift over to the clock in the male’s room.   “7:00!??!” The blond exclaims as he immediately begins to struggle out of the male’s arms once again. “Woah there Mika, no need to get up yet.” Yuu chuckles as he continues to hold the blond in place. “We’re gonna be late if you don’t let me go..!”   “Mmm but how long does it take for you to get ready?”   “Does that matter??” Mika questions irritably as he cranes his head to glare at Yuu. “I’m just thinking if we get up now then there’s no time to have some privacy.” Yuu murmurs as he begins to kiss the blond’s neck.   “You pervert.” Mika grumbles as he leans back into the raven’s touch. “You like this and you know it.” Yuu chuckles as he coaxed the blond onto his back.   “You’re so beautiful Mika.” Yuu whispers lovingly as he leans down to press his lips to Mikaela’s. Mika could only sigh blissfully as he reached his hand up to tangle it through Yuu’s dark locks. He couldn’t get over how soft and warm Yuu felt. As the two of them part Yuu stares down at the male through half lidded eyes. “I love you so much.” He mumbles before placing another quick peck to his lips.   “Me too.” Mika smiles as he brings Yuu down for another. Yuu looks the blond up and down carefully before running his hand along Mikaela’s neck. “Do any of the bruises hurt?” He questions suddenly. Mika shakes his head; “It doesn’t hurt at all.” Yuu gave him a sad smile before bringing his hand up to his lips to place a kiss on the bruise that stained the skin.   “I hate that you’ve had to go through all of this.”   Mika shrugs lightly before running one of his fingers along Yuu’s lips. “I’m fine with it if it means that I can be with you.”   Mika watched as the raven’s face quickly contorted to an expression of guilt before the quickly buries his head to the side of Mika’s neck. “I wanna leave my own mark on you then.”   Mikaela couldn’t help but to gasp as Yuu suddenly began to suck on his neck. A warm heat rapidly began to spread through the blond’s body as he felt Yuu quickly kiss the spot where he had been sucking. The raven pulls back and stares down at the spot before running a hand over it. He smiles as he leans down and pecks the male’s lips. “W-Why did you do that..?” Mika questions as he feels his face heat up.   “Because I want everyone to know that you’re mine.” Yuu replies simply, as if it was the most natural thing in the world. Mika just squirms underneath the male. He felt..All weird now; His neck was throbbing and his body felt hot, not that he really disliked it though. It almost felt somewhat..Good, having all the attention of Yuu to himself. Being ‘Yuu’s’.   Mika gently runs his hand that was on the back of Yuu’s head down to his neck. “I..Want to leave one on you too.” He whispers quietly. Slowly the blond leans up and gently licks Yuu’s neck before gently attaching his mouth to it to suck. He hears Yuu sigh blissfully as he completely lays down on the male. Immediately the blond’s hands move to wrap comfortably around the raven’s waist. Slowly Mikaela pulls away from Yuu’s neck to look at the bruising mark.   “Was that...Okay..?” Mika questions breathlessly. Yuu nods quickly before his face flushes. “Aw crap…” He mumbles out as he quickly covers his face.   “What’s wrong??” The blond quickly questions as Yuu completely gets off of him before settling to be on the edge of the bed. “Embarrassment finally hit me.” Yuu say shyly as he keeps his eyes on anything but Mikaela. Mika couldn’t help but to snort. “That’s really pathetic Yuu-chan.” He says as he bursts out in laughter.   “I-It is not..!” Yuu exclaims as his face becomes redder. He lets out a little squeal as Mika grabs his hands and gives him a big smile. “Yuu-chan’s really cute when he’s embarrassed.” The raven quickly turns his head away from the blond. “Please don’t say such a thing..!”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------   The two of them sat quietly in Yuu’s room while they both worked on homework after getting back from school. As Mika settled his pencil down onto the tabletop he takes a glance at Yuu who seemed to be working rather diligently on his own work. “You know, I really wanted to thank you.” Mika suddenly says. Yuu immediately looks up at him, dumbfounded. “What for?”   “For letting me stay here for this long. It’s been really nice.”   “You sound like you’re leaving.” Yuu says with a chuckle as he looks back down at his paper. “I really..Should be getting home..” Mika mumbles out quietly as he looks over to the staircase. The sound of Yuu’s pencil being placed down and the loud sound of the chair being screeched against the floor surprised the blond as Yuu suddenly was holding his arm tightly. “I don’t think that’s a good idea.”   “Why not? I’m sure my mom is worried about me.”   “If she was worried about you don’t you think she’d be doing anything she could to find out if you’re safe??” Mikaela looks down. He supposed that was true…   “I didn’t mean that negatively.” Yuu quickly adds before pressing a gentle kiss to the blond’s cheek. “I just care about you too much.”   Mika let out a chuckle. “I know that.” He replies as he presses a gentle kiss to the raven’s lips. “If I’m staying here again then would you mind if I have a bath then?”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------   Mikaela sat in the tub silently. He makes mental notes on all the bruises that were on his legs, chest and arms. There wasn’t too many but they were rather prominent once he was bare. He sighed to himself as he sunk down into the warm water. At least him and Yuu were together as a couple now. He couldn’t help but to smile at the thought.   As the blond decided that he was ready to get out of the tub, almost as if on cue the door opened and Yuu walked in with a towel and clothes laying across his arm. “Oh, Looks like I have perfect timing.” Yuu smirks as he sets the pile on a stool next to the tub. “I’ve got a towel and some clothes here for you whenever you’re ready.”   “Can you hand them to me now then?” Mika questioned as he slides the glass door of the tub open slightly to reach out for the items. Yuu nods as he hands them to him.   As Mikaela silently dries himself off he slowly pulls up the article of clothing Yuu had set out for him and quickly becomes confused as he realizes it’s only a pair of boxers. Still he just shrugged it off and put them on before pulling the slider open a bit more to poke his head out. “Hey Yuu-chan why is there only boxers?” Mika practically fell backwards when Yuu suddenly swung the door open and grabbed the blond’s arm. “Never mind that let’s go back to my room.”   Yuichiro practically dragged the blond from the bathroom, down the hallway and into his room. “H-Hold on Yuu-chan what are you--??” Mika’s voice was cut off when Yuu suddenly let go of his arm before walking over to pick up his phone from his nightstand and point it at Mika. “Let me get some pictures of you.” Yuu says cheerfully.   “E-Excuse me??”   “I want some pictures of you for lonely nights.”   The blond’s face quickly flushed at the statement. What in the world was Yuu even going on about?? “Why would you need pictures when I’m right here?” Mika asked softly. He really didn’t understand.   “For lonely nights!!” Yuu exclaims once again. “All you gotta do is stand like so.” Yuu immediately stuck his arms out and spread his legs as he stood in place. Mika could almost laugh at the way Yuu looked until he realized Yuu was completely and utterly serious. “Wouldn’t you like something more..I don’t know.. Attractive??”   “It is attractive though!” Yuu replies as he opens the camera app on his phone. From the way Yuu was acting Mika couldn’t help not being able to say no. He was just too cute for his own good…   Slowly the blond mimicked the same position Yuu had earlier. The raven’s face promptly lit up as the flash from his phone made it apparent that he had snapped a photo. Mika watched as Yuu looked at the photo before he made a noise of approval. “W-Would you mind doing the same thing while facing away from me?” Yuu asked bashfully with a slight blush. “You’re such a weirdo, getting excited from something like this.” Mika states as he turns around before outstretching his arms. “This is the most unsexy position I can be in Yuu-chan.”   “Oh god Mika you’re so attractive right now.” Yuu says huskily as the flash from his phone alerts Mika of the picture being taken. The blond quickly turns around to see Yuu zooming into the picture on his phone while he looks at it with a huge smile. “Perfect.” Yuu says happily before he looks back up to the male. “If you really wanna go home now I can take you.”   Mikaela was slightly alarmed at the sudden change of mind Yuu had. “What’s with the change of heart?” Yuu simply shook his head. “I just needed to make sure that I could keep you safe.” He states simply before walking over to his bed to retrieve Mika’s uniform. He throws it to the blond before sitting down on his bed. “Shall we go then?”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------   As the two of them got closer and closer to Mika’s house the blond couldn’t help but to feel nervous. Just how would his mother react? Or more importantly how would Yuu react if something went wrong? He didn’t want any drama nor any conflict. Just as the two of them got to the blond’s driveway Mika promptly tries to give Yuu a reason to just drop him off there.   “Thanks for walking me home.” Mika says suddenly as he attempts to dismiss the raven. Yuu merely looks at him bewildered. “At least let me make sure you get inside, Mika.” Yuu replies as he takes the blond’s hand in his. Once the two of them were at the doorstep Mika tries the door which to his horror was locked. “You think she’s home?” Yuu asks the male carefully. Mikaela’s eyes drop to the floor. “I know she is.” He replied simply before mustering up his courage to knock.   Footsteps came from the other side of the door before his mother’s voice comes through the closed door. “Who is it!?” She demands. “It’s me..Mama.” Mika says quietly. The locks on the door quickly click as his mother throws the door open angrily, her hand up in the air with a bottle. The moment her eyes land on Yuu she quickly lowers her hand. “Why are you here?” She asks irritably.   Yuu quickly steps in front of the blond before giving the woman the sweetest but most fake voice Mikaela had ever heard. “Good evening to you too! I’m so sorry to be returning Mika home so late and after a few days. He came over to my house to help me study and I guess we kinda got lost on the time!” Yuu says before giving a small laugh at the end. Mika’s mother simply glared at the raven. Of course Yuu expected that and decided to continue on. “So well you see over the last couple of days me and Mika got much closer to each other than we had ever before and because of that I was able to see parts of Mika that not many people get to see.” Yuu smirks as reaches behind himself to hold the blond’s hand. The woman raised an eyebrow at the last part.   “And what do you mean by that?” She demands. Yuu shrugs before dropping his smile to look her dead in the eye. “I guess sugar coating it isn’t the best approach. So let’s drop the formalities. What I’m saying is that if you hurt Mika one more time I’m going to call the police.”   The blond immediately tensed at Yuu’s words before he opens his mouth to say something--   The blond’s mom simply laughs at Yuu’s statement. “Yeah? You and what proof?” She asks darkly. Yuu simply opens his phone before bringing up the pictures of Mika from earlier. “I’m just telling you that if I see one new mark, If it’s even a simple, teeny tiny one then I will be contacting authorities. What you do from now on is your own choice. If Mika is late to our special spot that we always meet at for school tomorrow then I will contact them then too. Do you understand?” Yuu growls.   Mikaela’s mother was somewhat pale by the point. And Mika knew that he was so dead when Yuu left. She would scream at Yuu and play victim. But somehow, almost as if by some miracle she just simply nodded. “Alright...” She says softly. “Then Mika please say goodbye to your friend and come in to have dinner.” With a simple sentence she went inside. Mika was practically gaping at this point. H-How….?   The raven lets out a relieved sigh before turning to the male to pull him into a hug. “Are you okay Mika? I know that was probably scary for you.”   Mika was speechless. He couldn’t bring himself to say anything, but instead just wrapped his arms comfortably around the raven’s waist before nuzzling his face to his neck to breathe in his scent. “I just want you to know Mika, that if you don’t feel safe staying here then you can always come back to my house.” The blond shook his head. “I just..Can’t believe you did that...It could’ve gone so wrong..” The blond allowed Yuu to pull away from him before giving his head a soft kiss.   “That bottle in her hand..She was going to hit you with it wasn’t she? If I hadn’t been here, she would’ve..Wouldn’t she..?” The male looks down at the ground before giving a slight nod. Yuu grumbled in annoyance. “But really Mika, if you don’t feel safe then please come to me. Or if something happens then just call me okay? My ringtone for you is very loud so I can assure you that you will get to me.”   “I’ll call you if anything happens.” Mika reassures him. Yuu just nods before placing a gentle kiss upon the blond’s lips. “I love you Mika. I’ll see you tomorrow okay?” He says lovingly before turning around to begin heading home.   Mika’s heart was beating too fast. He didn’t want Yuu to leave.. not yet..! His legs just carried him forward until he was able to push Yuu against a wall of the house. Immediately their lips connect. Not for something sweet and chaste, but rather hot and needy .   Mika had no idea why in the world he was being like this, but the heat in his body naturally should’ve been a simple answer. As the two of them parted Mika began kissing the raven’s neck. Soft licks and kisses that only made Yuu sigh with bliss. As the two of them pulled away Mika gently slid his hand down Yuu’s chest. “The things I would do to you if we weren’t outside.” He whispers. “God, Mika.” Yuu breathes before connecting their lips again. At least it was late and no one was out. Otherwise this would be something rather fun to have to explain.   Finally the two of them pulled away from each other. Mika looked off to the side extremely embarrassed from what he had just done while Yuu looks at him while being slightly aroused. “You know,” Yuu began as he pulled Mika back to his chest to place soft kisses on his head. “You can always come back to my house so we can finish this.” Mika shakes his head in reply. “I should stay here tonight. After all, you did so much just so I’d be safer.”   Yuu titled the blond’s head up before connecting their lips once more. “Then please just take care of yourself for me.” The raven whispers as they embrace one more time.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------   Mikaela laid silently in his bed. The only sound was the T.V. from the living room as his mother watched her shows. She didn’t say a word to him, she didn’t lay a hand on him, she just simply gave him a small smile and nod before he headed to his room. It was..Strange really, It was quite uncharacteristic of her, not that he really minded. It was better this way.   Slowly the blond’s mind drifted over to what him and Yuu had done while a sense of guilt filled him, or it was probably embarrassment or even a mixture of both..Nonetheless it made his chest ache. He wasn’t sure why he had done something like that, and he almost felt the need to laugh. That was uncharacteristic of him. He was never someone who would be so...Demanding..? He gave out a choked laugh before he rolled over to his side.   His lips tingled slightly and his body felt feverish. He just assumed that he had a lot of adrenaline left over from what had happened. The blond groaned as his body felt sticky with sweat. He slowly pushed himself up before pulling his t-shirt up and off his body followed along by his pants and boxers. Once all the garments are off Mikaela pulled up a soft blanket to lay across his chest. That was a bit better he supposed.   He gripped his pillow tightly.   “Then please just take care of yourself for me.”   Mikaela felt his chest tighten at the words. It’s the same as the dream. He thinks to himself. The same meaning…   He couldn’t help but to chuckle. Each dream..Seemed to have something to do with his future.   “Because..I’m an.. Angel per say.”   “An angel huh..?” Mika mutters to himself. He stares at the blank wall silently.   “Even if I told you the truth you wouldn’t believe me.” “I believe..” Mika whispers to himself as he curls up tighter in his blanket. “I believe..In you..” Chapter End Notes Comments and kudos are always appreciated!!! <3 :DD ***** Jonquil ***** Chapter Notes -throws self under the bus- I DID IT Honestly I've been having such a hard time writing recently??? Like I've been trying everything and I just couldn't seem to get into the rhythm but I think I got it now~ Anywho can I just say it's been far longer than it should've been ;;;; I'm so sorry. I hope this chapter is still good tho! So of course thank you all for leaving kudos! And of course my special thanks to everyone who leaves comments ;; Y'all are the only thing that keeps me going! <33 See the end of the chapter for more notes As Mika’s eyes opened he was met with a familiar flower gently swaying in the wind. “I know this one.” He mumbles as he reaches down to pick the flower. “It’s a d affodil.”   “You’re wrong.” A voice replies. Immediately the blond turns his head to see Akane walking over to him. “It’s actually a Jonquil, though it does indeed look a lot like a daffodil.” She says with a smile as she reaches over and takes the flower out of the male’s hand. She stares down at the flower while she gives it a twirl. “It’s meanings can be things like ‘Love me’ or ‘Affection returned’ Or ‘desire’ or ‘sympathy’.”   “Why so many different meanings?” Mika questions as he watches her gently pluck the stem a bit to put the flower under the clip that kept her braid in place.   “I’m just giving you the different possible meanings is all.” She says with a laugh as she points over to a somewhat small hill in the distance. “We should go over to there.” She states as she begins running across the field to it. Mikaela shrugs to himself. He didn’t see a reason not to.   As he slowly walked up the hill he finds himself looking over to another huge flower field, although this time there were two people in the field. The blond’s breath came out in a gasp as he looks down at the two people; two children. A small blond boy was smiling with a young brown haired girl as they made flower crowns together.   “At first it really bothered me that you didn’t remember..” Akane mumbles as she stares down at the two. “But after looking around I think it’s safe to say that the memories are still there at the least.”   “That’s..Us..?” Mika mumbles as he reaches his hand out to the two. Akane chuckles as she turns her back to the two in the field. “It’s better this way.” She says as she begins to walk down the hill. “Just..Who are you..?” Mika questions as he quickly turns to face the girl. She slowly stops for the question before looking up to the sky. “Don’t you already know that?”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------   The blond awoke with a gasp. He quickly calms his breathing as he stares up at the ceiling. A dream..? He thinks to himself as he suddenly feels sticky from the amount of sweat that covered his chest. He roughly pulls away the blanket before rolling onto his side. “This sucks..” He mumbles to himself as he looks over to the clock in his room. It was a little past 1 in the morning and now he knew he wouldn’t be able to sleep anymore.   Yuu-chan.. He thinks to himself. If he just simply heard Yuu’s voice then maybe he could get back to sleep again.. He silently grabs his phone out of his pant’s pockets before pulling up Yuu’s phone contact. He knew that what he was doing was ridiculous but he couldn’t bring himself to care in the moment. Instead with no hesitation he clicked the call button.   Within a minute Yuu’s voice came from the other end. Though a rather panicked voice at that.   “Mika?? Is everything okay??” Yuu questions worriedly.   “Yeah..I’m sorry. I wanted to hear your voice.”   The other line was absolutely silent. Mika immediately felt guilt wash over him. It was early and yet he called Yuu and more than likely woke him up. Just as he was about to apologize he heard Yuu snort before bursting out into a fit of laughter.   “Pfft. You should’ve just told me.” He says in between laughs.“I-I did. It was the first thing I said to you!” Mika exclaims as his face heats up. It wasn’t even that funny…As Yuu’s laughter began to die down he lets out a blissful sigh. “God I love you.” He suddenly says.   “I don’t know what’s wrong with you.” Mika mumbles as he rolls over to face his wall. “There was nothing funny about me wanting to hear your voice.”   “Nope. Not at all.” Yuu confirms.   “Then why in the world were you laughing!?”   “Because that’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever said to me! Plus the idea of you laying in bed, rolling around while thinking about me and wanting to hear my voice is amazing.”   “You’re being such a weirdo.” Mika sighed. Though if he was being honest Yuu was making him feel rather happy. He felt a rush of calm run through him when he heard Yuu laugh. . .   “Maybe. But you’re stuck with this weirdo whether you like it or not.”   The blond chuckled as he placed his hand over his chest. “I’m glad then.” His heart was beating so fast . . .   “Hey, Mika?”   “Yeah?”   “Is it..Possible for us to hang out right now?”   “Don’t you think it’s a little early for that?”   “I dunno.” Yuu says truthfully. “Though since you’re the one who called me I figured you couldn’t sleep.”   “I had a strange dream is all. I’m sure I can get back to sleep now.”   The line went silent. “Yuu-chan..? You still there?”   Yuu suddenly took a deep breath. “I..Like to sleep with you next to me..So..” Mika lightly chuckles. “I understand that very well.” Mika slowly pushes himself to sit up before glancing to his door. “I guess..We can hang out...Just as long as we get some more sleep!” He quickly adds, almost as an afterthought.   “Well..We didn’t get to finish what we started earlier.” Yuu says huskily. “So why don’t you come over so we can finish?”   Mika just laughs lightly. “What happens if I say no?”   “Then we can just hang out! We could play videogames or watch a movie, and then how about I treat you to breakfast before school too?”   “That sounds wonderful. Thank you, Yuu-chan.”   “Of course. Just meet me at our spot in ten!”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------   Being outside a little past 1:30 in the morning wasn’t really something Mikaela expected but it wasn’t something he disliked either. Him and Yuu sat silently at the curb of their open 24-7 convenience store while drinking a soda and eating a warm pretzel. “So I was wondering sowmthing.” Yuu says with his mouth full of the treat.   “Ask me again when your mouth isn’t full.” Mika replies indifferently. Yuu quickly chugs some of his soda before swallowing to finish his question. “Have you ever ditched a class?”   “Ditched..A class?”   “Yeah. Like at school. Is there something you’re not understanding about my question?”   The blond shakes his head before looking down to his legs. “It’s not that. I’m just surprised you don’t know the answer yourself.”   Yuu lightly hums in reply. “We should just skip school in general today.”   “No way.” Mika quickly cuts in. “I already missed yesterday from feeling sick there’s no way I’m just not going to go.” The blond let out a small squeak as Yuu suddenly wraps his arm around his shoulder. “You’re right. I’m sorry I mentioned it.” Yuu gently bumps their heads together as he lets out a laugh. “This is great.”   “I think you’re losing it.” Mika quickly adds as he averts his gaze. Yuu just laughs again. “I know but it’s more fun this way.”   “I disagree.”   “What are you talking about? You love this.” Yuu scoffs as he suddenly leans back against the concrete of the sidewalk. “It’s just like when we were kids.”   The blond lightly turns to the side to look down at Yuu. “But we’re not kids anymore, Yuu-chan.”   Yuu sighs as he closes his eyes. “I know that.”   The two of them got quiet as Mikaela looked back down to his lap as he continued to eat his pretzel. “I thought the same thing.” Mika mumbles quietly. “About how it’s like we’re kids again--” The blond’s voice slowly died out as Yuu gently grabbed his arm and tugged him down next to him.   “That’s true,” Yuu smirks. “Although there’s a lot of things I can do to you now that we’re not kids anymore.” He continues as he leans up to press his lips against the other’s. The blond quickly pulls back and glances off to the side before mumbling out. “I don’t want to do this in public Yuu-chan.”   “Relax there’s nobody here.” Yuu practically purrs before leaning over to press a peck to Mikaela’s cheek. The male lightly scoffs before pushing himself up to stand. “I know that.” He replies simply. The raven immediately gobbles down the rest of his pretzel before putting the two’s drinks and the rest of the blond’s pretzel into his bag. He slowly stands up and takes Mikaela’s hand.   “Does going to my house sound like a good option at the least?” Yuu smiles as he leads the blond the opposite direction they came. Mika stops in place and mumbles out a quiet ‘no’. Yuichiro immediately turns back to look at the blond carefully.   “Are you alright..? What’s going on?”   “It’s..Pathetic isn’t it..? That I can’t even stay one night in that house..”   “Did she--?”   Yuu was immediately interrupted. “She didn’t do anything. That’s the thing! She--She was actually kind for once-- and I-- I can’t even deal with that..!”   “It’s okay if you can’t--”   “No it’s not!” The blond exclaims as he yanks his hand out of the male’s hands. “You..You risked your well being to help me out.. Yet look at me..I’m a mess.. I’m a mess Yuu-chan..”   Yuu lightly snorts before turning to face the blond completely. He gently pulls the blond into his arms and holds him tight, before softly murmuring to him. “Well then, if you’re a mess than you’re the best goddamn mess that’s ever happened to me.”   “Yuu-chan I--”   The blond was silenced by Yuichiro’s lips.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -----------------------------------   The rest of the day just slowly seemed to pull on for Mikaela. Classes felt like forever and the blond couldn’t take his eyes of the clock. He just wanted to be done for the day and go home, maybe take a warm shower and just go back to bed. Once he was at the final class he finally tore his eyes away from the front just to stare down at his blank paper. He literally got no notes down, no homework written or anything.   He just sighed aloud as the bell rang that signaled the day to be over. Within a minute he had all his stuff into his bag and began wandering down the hall to Yuu’s locker. The raven’s gaze slowly wafted off to the blond’s direction before a big smile crossed his features. “Hey gorgeous.” He purrs as he closes his locker. Mika rolls his eyes with a snort before walking along next to him.   “You’re such a dork.” Mika mumbles as he lightly elbows Yuu’s side. The raven simply laughs. “Do we have a plan for tonight then?”   “A plan?” The blond questions as his brows furl in confusion. Yuu nods as if it’s the most obvious thing in the world, but Mikaela was reeling. They didn’t have a plan for anything as far as he could remember. . .   “Are you gonna come to my house or are you gonna head home?” Yuu blurts out quickly as he stops in front of the smaller male. Mika just shrugs. He hadn’t really thought about it.   “I probably should head home for the day, I really wanna get some more sleep.” Mika mumbles. Yuu smiles with a nod. “I don’t blame you. Though you better sleep well tonight.”   “Yeah.” Mika chuckles.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------   Mikaela quietly creaked open the front door before poking his head in. The house seemed silent. He smoothly slips in before locking it behind him. He drops his key into his bag and walks through the living room to his own room. After closing the door he drops his bag to the floor and slowly sinks down against the door. What in the world was up with him? This wasn’t like him at all. . .   He silently pulls his knees to his chest and lays his head down on them. He didn’t focus at all in his classes, he called Yuu and spent the entire night with him, he kissed Yuu, he got somewhat aggressive towards him. All of it was so strange to him. He silently pulls his bag closer to him before pulling out his phone to type Yuu a message.   To Yuu:   I’m going to be heading to sleep now. I hope you sleep well.   He silently locked his phone and began pulling his shoes and socks off, then his shirt, his pants, and finally his boxers. He did each one promptly before falling down into his bed. His day felt like it was so long. After pulling the comforter around him he slowly closed his eyes. Just what kind of flower awaited him next. . . Chapter End Notes Comments and Kudos are always appreciated!!! :D ***** Red Rose -Part 1- ***** Chapter Notes Alright so it's been close to a year since the last time I updated this so first off I wanted to apologize! Orz My writer's block for the past 9 or so months has been eating me alive, When I did feel the urge to write it consisted of me writing out a full chapter but then re-reading it and thinking to myself 'Oh, Not good enough' or 'That's not how it's supposed to go'. So then tonight rolled around and I was like I can see clearly what I need to do!! and I ended up making this a bit longer than I had anticipated XDD So anyways I just wanted to say thank you all so much for everyone who's been reading, leaving kudos, and of course leaving comments on this. Those things really mean the world to me and help me get through those times where I feel like I can't write. <3 So thank you all so much! I hope the next chapter doesn't take this long to get updated XDD See the end of the chapter for more notes The field was cold. Fog surrounded the higher parts of the hills while the ground was slippery with the still water that began to pool across the field. Mikaela walked slowly across the way, splashing the water along as he goes, making his way to the only patch of flowers he could see. Roses. He slushed along the lines of bright red roses until he reached one at the end of the trail. He quietly sighs.   “Red roses huh..?” He mumbles to himself. He had a basic idea on what red roses meant from just about any romance movie or gesture. A bouquet of red roses was nothing but true love.   “I’m sure you know this one.” Akane’s voice suddenly resounds. Mikaela looks off to the side before being met with the girl standing there with a smile.   “It’s a rose.” Mika states plainly, almost in a distasteful manner. He quietly looks back to the flowers around him.The color red was surrounding him.   The brunette lightly laughs. “You sound displeased.”   Mikaela shakes his head. “It’s not that..”   “Do you prefer a different color rose?”   The blond reaches out and plucked one of the roses off the stem. As he holds the flower in his hand he silently watches the crimson liquid begin to run down his hand before dropping down into the water. “Red roses..Symbolize love..don’t they?”   The girl’s grin seemed to have gotten wider at the question. “Yes.” She says with a nod before looking up to the fog covered sky. “They can also mean respect in a sense.”   The blond couldn’t help but to chuckle. “I understand that.”   “Well, do you have any questions for me this time? If you have something to ask please do.”   “You said..You’re an angel..And those kids who were in the field..That was us..”   “Yes. I am an angel, and those kids in the field were indeed us.”   “How is that..?”   The girls eyes drifted down but her smile didn’t break. She takes a deep breath before looking back up to meet the male’s eyes. “I died.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------   Blue eyes snapped open and blink a few times. His vision was hazy and his head and heart were pounding. He slowly sat up before a dizziness hit him. Immediately he was back down onto his pillows. He groaned before he placed the palm of his hand against his temple. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, focusing on the place it hurt until the pain gradually began to ease. He slowly rolled over to his side and took a hold of his phone that was sitting on the nightstand.   From Yuu:   Alright. I hope you sleep well if anything happens don’t be afraid to text me   Mika smiled at the text. Everything was fine.   He looked at the time on his phone and noticed it was a little past 5. He slowly sat up to see how he felt. After a minute passed by without any dizziness he placed his phone back down onto the stand and got up before standing in front of his door. He leaned his head against the door and listened for any sounds. Everything sounded alright so he pulled the door ajar, just enough for him to be able to see down the hall. The coast was clear. He silently opened it the rest of the way before walking out of his room to head down to the bathroom. He stared at himself soundlessly. He noticed just how glossy his eyes were and he wondered why he was going to cry. It still hurts.   He quickly wiped the tears that began to stream with the back of his hand. There was nothing to be sad about, but his chest felt tight. He stared down at the sink before deciding to run some water. He scooped water up into his hands before splashing his face.   Don’t be like this. He thinks to himself. Everything is fine, He slowly grabs a towel from the cupboard and begins to wipe his face with it before looking back to the mirror. “It’s okay.” He whispers to himself. Just what didn’t feel okay?   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------   By the time he was dressed and situated it was a little past 6 so Mika scanned the living room for his mother, of course she was nowhere to be found. It was a Saturday meaning she was probably out drinking all night so it wasn’t unusual for her to be gone. He walked his way around the counter before coming to the fridge, he opens it and notices the eggs and bacon. Maybe he should cook something good for once. He started out by mixing the eggs together with a little milk in order to make scrambled eggs before he pulled out the portable grill to cook the bacon with. As the blond finished up cooking he heard his phone ring from his room and he quickly went to answer it, only to notice that Yuu was calling him.   This early? Mika pondered to himself as he picked up the phone.   “Hello?” He answered.   “Sorry, did I wake you up?” Yuu’s voice was quiet, almost a whisper.   “No, I’ve been up for a while, is everything okay?”   He heard Yuu chuckle from the other end. “Of course! I called to make sure that you were.”   Mika found a quick smile forming on his mouth. “I’m fine, my mother isn’t home so there isn’t anything to worry about.”   “Thank goodness.” Yuu replies before taking a slight breath. “Uhm Mika have you eaten today?”   “I had just finished cooking breakfast, why?” He says as he puts his phone on speaker while he walks back out to the living room. He places his phone down on the coffee table and grabs the blanket from the end of the couch before settling himself down into it.   “Oh well I was gonna ask if you wanted to go to the waffle house this morning.” Yuu says bashfully. The raven’s tone caught the blond off guard but he couldn’t help but chuckle.   “I would love to go, but let me just put the food I cooked away.”   “I don’t want you to have to do that! We can do it another time if you’d prefer.”   “No no, I want to go with you, Yuu-chan.”   He heard Yuu let out a breath on the other end. “I’m glad then.” Mika smiled at that. Was Yuu nervous to ask him to go? They were together after all so there was no need to be nervous about something like that. “Would now be a good time to come get you or would you like to put it off for a bit?”   “That depends,” Mika states, thinking about how long it would take to put the food away and wash the dishes. “How will you be getting here?”   “Well, I was planning on walking because Guren and Shinya aren’t up yet. Would that be okay?”   “Of course, I’ll see you soon then.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------   By the time the blond was done washing the dishes Yuu had texted him that he was just a block away. The thought made him happy that Yuu wanted to do something with him but on the other hand the male felt nervous. He didn’t know why because it was just Yuu but the feeling was there, sitting in the bottom of his stomach ready to claw its way up. Mika’s phone lit up with a new text message from Yuu stating that he was outside. Mika quickly grabbed his coat and stepped out the door, making sure to grab his keys and phone before quickly shoving them into his coat pocket. As he looked up he immediately noticed the bright smile on Yuu’s face, which of course caused his own lips to curl up.   “Good morning Mika!” Yuu says cheerfully.   “Good morning Yuu-chan.” Mika replies, his nerves finally beginning to settle down.   While the two of them began walking down the street Mika found himself slowly reaching out his hand to grab Yuu’s. Yuu in response gave his hand a light squeeze as they continued to walk.   “How early does the waffle house open?” Mika asks as it suddenly dawns on him that it was still early.   “Honestly you’re gonna laugh but it opens at 6.” Yuu replies simply as the two continued, hand in hand.   “That’s rather surprising since most places don’t open until 10”   “I know right? Though I think it’s open early for people who have to go to work at the crack of dawn.”   “That so?” Mika mumbles as he looks across the way. The streets were relatively empty. Every once in a while the two would walk past people outside but most of them were heading out to work or were smoking outside. Mikaela didn’t know what he was expecting but he felt nervous for some reason, maybe it was the fact that the two were walking with their hands together? Unconsciously Mika’s hand begun to loosen the grip on the raven’s.   “Everything okay?” Yuu suddenly asks as he causes the two to come to a halt.   Mika’s quickly snapped out of his thoughts and replies. “Ah, yeah of course. Why?”   Yuu grips Mika’s hand tighter and brings them up into view. “You’re letting go of my hand ever so slightly.”   “Ah, sorry.” He says as he looks at their hands.   “Are you worried about someone seeing us?” Yuu asks as he allows the blond’s hand to go back to his side.   “No..I just..Don’t want people to look at you badly..”   Yuu turns his back to the blond. “You know what’s really sucky? When I can’t hold hands with the guy I love in public because of the fear of being ridiculed or even in a more drastic case attacked.” The raven states ever so matter-of- factly before continuing on walking ahead.   The blond quickly picked up the pace before running his hand down the male’s arm to allow their hands to meet again. “I’m sorry..” Mika mumbles out as he stares at the ground while they walk.   “It’s alright, I get where you’re coming from.” Yuu replies softly. “I won’t let anyone hurt you though, I promise.”   “I’m not worried about myself getting hurt..” the blond mumbles.   “Nothing will happen to either of us. I won’t let it.” ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------   The two sat quietly in a booth at the waffle house. The place was relatively busy with bustling people. Men in suits, women with children, the place wasn’t noisy in a way that it was disturbing rather it was the type of noise that would easily fade into the background when caught up in a conversation. The two had a stack of waffles on their plates with strawberries and whip cream on top. The blond watched as the raven dug into his meal and noted how childish Yuu almost looked while eating; stuffing his cheeks with a big smile.   By the time Yuu was on his last waffle he noticed the fact that the blond had barely touched his own plate so he asked about it. “Are you not hungry..?”   “Eh?” The blond mumbled as Yuu’s question brought him out of his daze. He had gotten so distracted with how Yuu had looked that he completely forgot his own dish. “Ah, sorry, it’s not that. I just got caught up in the way you were eating. You seemed really happy.” He says with a smile as he looks down at his own plate bashfully. The raven seems to fluster at the statement before setting his fork and knife down onto the plate.   “You know..When I was younger me, Shinya and Guren would come here often before Guren’s work day. I’d always get the strawberry waffles, so I like to think it’s because of this place that I have a big liking for strawberries.” Yuu says before taking a pause. “This place has a lot of good memories to me and is a place I hold very dear so I guess I wanted to make some good memories here with you too..” The raven begins trailing off.   Mikaela found himself smiling. “Is that so?”   “Yeah, Since I love you so much...”   The blond looked up at the raven as his face heated up. Saying something like that where everyone could hear--   “You never..Cease to amaze me.” Mika says shyly as he looks away from Yuu as he gives him a grin.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------   As the two paid the bill and left the place Yuu explained to Mika that there was something that Shinya told him he needed to get from the store so the two stopped at a shop to get what seemed to be plans for dinner. As the two left the store Yuu quickly apologized and told him that there was something he forgot and went back into the store. Mikaela stood outside with their bags in hand and waited for the male.   The male looked up to the sky, noticing how gray and cloudless it was. The weather wasn’t nearly as warm as he had hoped it’d be considering he could see his breath every time he exhaled, but it was at a temperature where it didn’t bother the blond. Luckily Yuu didn’t take long and came out rather quickly.   “Did you get what you needed?” Mika asked. Yuu grinned and gave him a nod before taking two of the bags from the blond. “Oh and if you don’t mind there’s one other place I have to go to.” Yuu says followed by an apology.   “That’s fine.” Mika replies simply before the two began walking once again. Within a good 10 or 20 minutes the blond found the two of them standing outside a small flower shop. “Flowers huh? Are Shinya and Guren having a date tonight?” Mika asks with a smile.   Yuu laughs as he sets down the bags by Mikaela’s feet. “You could say something like that.” He quickly leans over and presses a peck to the blond’s head. “I’m sorry about making you run around with me like this.”   “You don’t have to apologize for something like that. You know that I love being able to spend anytime I can with you.” He replies simply as Yuu’s cheeks seem to get pink while he gave Mika a small nod.   “I’ll be right back!” He exclaims before heading inside the small shop. Once again the blond was left outside on his own. Being with Yuu like this made him feel relaxed, They were basically doing the same thing they always did with each other, shopping, hanging out, eating together, or rather the things they used to do back in middle school. Once the two of them entered highschool most of the things they used to do faded away as Yuu became busier with his school life. Mika was grateful at the fact that the two of them would walk to school together at the least.   The blond silently looked down into the continents of the brown bag. There was pasta, some tomatoes, different types of seasonings and other types of things to have some spaghetti in it. Mika faintly began to wonder if them going out to breakfast together would be considered a date but the blond was quickly interrupted by a flash of red in his vision. He quickly looks up to see a big bouquet of red roses held out in front of him.   “Aren’t they pretty?” Yuu says with a smile.   “They’re gorgeous.” Mika replies, almost in awe. From how close they were a sweet fragrance wafted off of them and the blond couldn’t help but to close his eyes. The one’s in his dream were different. “Shinya has good taste in flowers.” He smiled as he looked down to the bags at his feet. He didn’t want the bouquet to get hurt so he tried to figure how he could take the other bags- -   “I’m sorry Mika, I lied to you a little bit.” Yuu suddenly says. Mika quickly looks up to see Yuu give a apologetic smile. “You see, I actually got these for you.” He says as he pushes the bouquet a bit closer to the blond.   “They’re really beautiful but they must’ve been a lo--”   “Price doesn’t matter.” Yuu interrupts quickly. He gives the blond a stern look before reaching over with one hand to pull the bag of groceries towards his chest. He extends the flowers back out. “Please accept them.”   Mika lightly reaches out and takes the bouquet from the raven. Yuu smiles before picking up the other bags followed by him turning his back to the blond. “Shall we go?” He asks.   As the two of them walked Mikaela held the flowers up close to his face to try to hide the blush that was currently painting itself across his cheeks. The fact that Yuu would do something like this for him... He quietly breathed in the sweet fragrance. This whole situation felt like a dream to him. Yuu really is amazing.   30 minutes has passed by as they walked and talked while on their way back to Mikaela’s house. By the time they reached the driveway Yuu exclaimed how tired his arms were from holding the bags and Mika quickly suggested they set the bags down on the table on the porch.   As Yuu put them down onto the glass table he silently looked over at Mika with a rather strange expression.   “Is..Something wrong..?” Mika asks quietly. Yuu quickly shakes his head.   “No, I just really hope you like them.”   “I do, they’re seriously beautiful. This was really kind of you, so thank you. ”   Yuu smiled as he reached a hand out and cupped the blond’s cheek. “I love you.” He says simply before leaning over to press their foreheads together. “I want to do everything in my power to make you happy. And maybe this isn’t the best way to go about it but after seeing the bouquet with Shinya I thought I’d just have to get one for you.”   “So you went with Shinya-san there then?”   “Yeah. He wanted to get flowers for Guren.”   Mika laughs lightly before the two slowly pull away from each other. Yuu quickly turns his back around to grab something out of one of the bags, he gently pulled out what seemed to be a gift bag. “This is for you too.” He says as he hands Mika the bag. The blond hands the bouquet over for Yuu to hold as he opens the bag. Inside the bag is a beautiful rainbow stained glass vase.   As he slowly looks up to Yuu the raven quickly gives him an explanation. “I thought that this vase would look good with the flowers.” He says bashfully before looking down as his feet. “I know it’s probably not very practical but it’d be a good reminder for me to get you flowers every once in a while.”   The male couldn’t help the laugh that came out. “Yuu-chan you don’t have to buy me flowers you know.” Mika says as he wipes a tear away that came forward from his current fit of giggles.   “I know that!” Yuu retorts quickly as his face flusters. “I wanted to do it...”   The blond found his own face getting hotter. He quickly leans forward and presses his head against Yuu’s once again. “Thank you.” He says quickly before pulling away to set the vase down on the table. Yuu sets the boquet down next to it and pulls the blond into a warm embrace. The two stood there for a minute, two, before slowly coming to the realization of just how long it had been, even then neither of them wanted to pull away but Mika was the first to do so.   He turns back to the table to look at the vase and flowers. “Something like this really means a lot to me Yuu-chan, thank you so much.”   “Of course.” Yuu says with a nod before picking up the other bags on the table. “I’m really glad you like them, so if there’s anything else you need don’t be shy to tell me.” He says before leaning over to press a quick peck to the blond’s lips. “I love you.”   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------   Mikaela sat silently on his bed, staring up at the ceiling, watching the ceiling fan go round and round. He looked over to his desk to admire the flowers in the vase.   ‘Yuu-chan really has an eye for that kind of thing.’ The male thinks to himself.   As he slowly pushes himself up to the corner of his bed he heard the front door open and close before hearing a bag hit the floor and heels clicking on the ground.   The blond immediatley tensed. His mother was home so who knows what that would mean for him.   There was a soft knock on the blond’s door before his mother’s voice came quietly through. “Mika? Are you here hun?” He simply stared down at his feet hoping that if he didn’t answer she would go away but to no avail the door opened.   “Honestly the least you could do is answer me.” She says apathetically before her eyes drift over to the blond’s desk followed by her seeing the vase that settled there. “Oh, those are really pretty.”   “Yeah…” He replies quietly before he heard her footsteps getting closer. The blond closed his eyes expecting a yelling or perhaps a hit but suddenly he found her kneeling before him.   “Why do you look so sad?” She asks. As she reaches her hand out to cup the blond’s cheek. Mika was taken aback by how soft her voice and hand was.The way she spoke and acted sent the blond back to how she used to treat him as a child. Her voice was always soft and sweet,full of love and kindness as she looked at him as if he was her precious son. It’s been years since she spoke in such a concerned tone... He felt tears burn his eyes as he quickly turns is face away from her hand. He mustn't let his guard down.     “I’m not sad. Just tired.” He spoke with a distant tone. She seems to get that the male is uncomfortable so she gets up and walks back over to the door and as she walked by Mika got a quick whiff of her perfume.   ‘Ah ’ He thinks to himself. ‘How nostalgic’   As she opened the door to leave he found her stopping herself in the middle of the door frame before turning back to the blond to speak. “Be sure to thank Yuu-san for the flowers.”   Mika was in shock. He could barely get out a sentence; “You..You know he gave them to me...?”   She simply smiles at him sweetly. “Of course. He loves you after all.” And with those simple words she walked out of the room and closed the door behind her. Mika could hear her heels going back down the hallway before they disappeared completely into the other section of their house.   Since when had she known…?   Mika fell back onto the bed before looking back up to the spinning fan overhead. Maybe she could actually…   ‘No.’ He quickly thinks to himself. This has happened more than once before, but it had always turned out the same way in the end. With her yelling and screaming and taking her anger out on Mikaela violently. He rolled on his side before grabbing a pillow. It was still midday, going to sleep now would be a bad idea since he probably wouldn’t be able to sleep tonight, yet he could barely keep his eyes open at this point. He blinked once, twice, before dark spots over took his vision and he was falling back asleep once again.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -----------   When he opened his eyes he was once again in the rosefield, only the fog had cleared up and a warm sun was shining down on him. He checked his surroundings and noticed a big while building in the distance. He took a couple steps towards it before he heard Akane’s voice.   “That’s not a good place to go.” She says, stopping the blond in his tracks. He turns around to see her smiling at him with that same old smile from earlier. Her big brown eyes were almost filled with a curiosity which struck the blond as odd as he had never seen her like this.     “Why’s that?” He asks before walking closer to the brunette.   She continues to smile before closing the distance between them. She ever so gently reaches a hand up and caresses the male’s cheek. “If you see it you might break.” She says with a sickly sweet smile. The statement seemed malicious and the male quickly takes a step back away from her.   “W-What’s that supposed to--”   “Don’t look.” She says wistfully before turning around to walk along the roses.   “Is there..Something I’m supposed to be doing here..?” He asks as he begins to follow the small girl.   “I don’t know that, but there must be a reason you’re having these dreams.”   “So it really is all a dream then…” He trails off.   “Of course it’s a dream! I died a long time ago so how else would you be able to see me.”   The male stopped once again and looked at the ground. It was no longer a muddy mess but was now a bright green. So bright it was almost blinding. His head suddenly began to ache as he noticed the world around him was just getting brighter. “Just how..Did you die?” He asks but his headache begins to worsen drastically. It felt as though his head was about to burst so he quickly closes his eyes to try to ease the pain.   “Don’t you remember? You and that boy were there.”   Suddenly he heard a loud noise that sounded as if a bunch of air has passed him and his headache was mysteriously gone. His brows furled as he opened his eyes again. This time he was in pitch blackness that felt as though it would swallow him whole. “That boy you just spoke about? Who is he?” Mika quickly shouts before looking around the empty void. As he got no sign of a reply he simply sighed as he looked down to his feet. Even the ground wasn’t there, everything was just pure blackness except for his body.   “He and everyone else don’t want you to remember, because in the end it will break you, and nobody wants to see you like that again.”   “Again?” He mumbles. At this point it felt as though he was falling. Everything around him was shaking before a bright light came into view and swallowed him whole. Chapter End Notes Comments and kudos are very much appreciated! :D End Notes Comments and Kudos are always appreciated!! <33 Please drop_by_the_archive_and_comment to let the author know if you enjoyed their work!