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      Published: 2016-08-02 Updated: 2016-08-10 Chapters: 3/? Words: 6317
****** Until You Break ******
by Cl3v3rNeverWas
Summary
     One fateful summer leaves one Peach Creek resident broken and the
     events leading up to it involves every Cul-De-Sac member. The
     aftermath creates a hostile environment of self loathing, finger
     pointing and destruction. Will there be a chance for forgiveness and
     ultimately, healing? The truth will set you free.
     Important note: The first few chapters will be about the characters
     pasts and how it will effect them in the future at 16/17 years old in
     which the main story will take place.
Notes
     The first few chapters will be about the characters pasts and how it
     will effect them in the future at 16/17 years old in which the main
     story will take place.
      
     This is my first fan fiction and my first written piece... I write
     like a 5th grader. No seriously I write like a 5th grader. Read at
     your own risk. And enjoy xD
***** Rolf. *****
When Rolf was 9 years old his parents had told him they were leaving the
country to start somewhere new. His parents hadn't told him why but he knew.
His country had fallen into a depression and they could barely afford to live
on what they called a farm. It had once been a glorious farm but it was in
shambles due to the depression. Rolf swore he would rebuilt what they had left
behind in his country.
When he asked where his parents were settling they answered "Peach Creek". "A
creek of Peaches!? How will Rolf help the seeds grow with Peach waters? Is this
an outside of a joke!?" he cried to his parents. Rolf's parents chuckled. "No
Rolf, that is the name, there is no actual creek that runs with Peaches. And
you mean an inside joke Rolf". His parents in their glorious days of farming
had traded with foreign places including English speaking farmers. They had
taught Rolf just enough English as he grew up but mostly spoke in their native
tongue.
They worried that Rolf would not fit in with the kids of Peach Creek but they
had no other choice. Rolf had become bony and fragile. But by some will Rolf
got up every morning at 5 to help his father with what little they could make
with the farm. Enough was enough though and they decided to go somewhere that
Rolf would go to sleep with a full stomach at night. A place where he could
prosper and get an education, a place where Rolf could truly become a farmer as
well. That's why when a man in his 30's along with his wife came to aid the
sick in their village, they offered to pay for Rolf and his parents voyage to a
place called Peach Creek.
This man and woman insisted this little town could provide all of what his
parents dreamed for Rolf come true. "You will be able to prosper there. And
Rolf will not be alone. There are a couple of kids there his age. Why we have a
son there his age too!" the man proclaimed. "Yes, yes. You will be happy there
we promise. A new beginning for your family" the wife of the man had said.
Rolf's parents were skeptic at first but after some discussion and a yell from
Rolf's grandmother to just do it, they packed up what little they had and
hoarded there farm animals onto a boat.
The man and his wife waved from the docks. "Tell our son we love him! And that
we will be home soon!" shouted the mans wife. But they had never told Rolf or
his parents who their son was. That was the last time Rolf saw them.
***** Sarah and Edd. *****
Chapter Summary
     TRIGGER WARNING: DO NOT READ IF EASILY TRIGGERED BY MENTIONS OF RAPE,
     DESCRIPTIONS OF RAPE AND RAPE SCENES.
     What happened to Sarah changes everything for her.
     Important note: The first few chapters will be about the characters
     pasts and how it will effect them in the future at 16/17 years old in
     which the main story will take place.
Chapter Notes
     TRIGGER WARNING: DO NOT READ IF EASILY TRIGGERED BY MENTIONS OF RAPE,
     DESCRIPTIONS OF RAPE AND RAPE SCENES.
      
     As I have mentioned before I write like a 5th grader. Please enjoy.
     Important note: The first few chapters will be about the characters
     pasts and how it will effect them in the future at 16/17 years old in
     which the main story will take place.
Ed was supposed have been there that day. His mother specifically told him to
pick up his baby sister Sarah from school. Usually Sarah would be able to walk
home without Ed since Jimmy was always by her side. But this week Jimmy had
gotten the flu. Sarah sat down on the steps of the 4th grade entrance.
Unbeknownst to her, Eddy had persuaded Ed to help with a scam over by the Peach
Creek corner store of Jawbreakers. Eddy planned on scamming 2nd graders who
didn't know any better into handing over 10 cents in order to enter the store.
Ed told Eddy he needed to pick up Sarah or he would get in trouble. "She'll be
fine! It's only like 5 blocks down to the cul-de-sac! How about when we get
enough money from the 2nd graders, I'll buy you AND Sarah jawbreakers. She
won't be mad if she has a jawbreaker!" Eddy had made great point inside Ed's
head. "Alright! Oh boy jawbreakers!" Ed wagged his body like an excited puppy.
"Eddy! What if we get into trouble!? Can't you do it by yourself? Plus Ed does
have to pick up Sarah- Eddy pulled down Double Dee's beanie. "Can it sock head,
besides I need Ed because he's tall. Those little 2nd graders will trust him
since he's more older looking and will believe us even more into paying 10
cents. And I need you to keep track of all the money since your smart and all"
Eddy dragged Double Dee by the beanie down to the corner store while Ed skipped
happily along. 'Sarah and I are getting jawbreakers~ Jawbreakers~ Jawbreakers~'
Ed hummed inside his head.
A pair of eyes watched the 3 Ed's lumber down the street. He hadn't been down
this way in awhile. He was nearly 16 now and never really bothered to come pick
up his younger brother from school unless he was asked. But he needed to be
down here today, the need was too strong. Today he just wanted to come down
here. Pick up his younger brother and leave. And that would have been enough
for him. But seeing as his younger brother had his two friends attached to him
he decided to leave him be. He took a look around and headed down to the
elementary. A few 5th graders past him by but other then that no other kids
attracted his attention. He just wanted to look around. Just to look at the
kids. Just to look- just to look at the little girl that sat by herself on the
stairs that caught his attention. Just to look is all.
After sitting down on the steps for about 15 minutes, Sarah gave up waiting for
Ed. "Stupid Ed! He probably forgot about me!" Sarah angrily threw her backpack
over her shoulder. 'Wait until I tell mom' she thought. Sarah stomped her way
down the block and into the labyrinth of fences leading to the cul-de-sac.
Every kid knew there way inside these mazes of fences. You would be stupid not
too. Except once for Johnny. Johnny got lost through here once trying to find
plank after he "ran away" after "fighting" with Johnny. By the time Johnny made
it out with Plank, 7 hours had past. Not that anyone had noticed though. Too
caught up in her anger for Ed, Sarah didn't feel the presence of someone
following close behind her. Careful not to make any noise.
He liked her little red pigtails. He liked her smooth sun kissed skin. He liked
that she was so small and so cute. 'I just want to touch her' he thought. He
slightly recoiled at the thought. 'God no. I swore I'd just look. Just look'
but his body wanted to touch her. The closer he got to her, the more he could
smell her. She smelled like strawberry kiwi kids soap. His own mother used to
use that on him during bath time. He used old spice now. He was a man now. No
grown man should use that. But a little girl yes. A gust a wind blew through
the two wafting the strawberry kiwi smell into his nostrils. The wind had
lifted the little girls shirt up just a little.
He couldn't stop himself.
He wanted to touch her so bad.
She didn't hear him over the wind and the rustling tree leaves.
Last thing she saw was a shadow looming over her.
"Ed? I waited for y- she was caught off as she turned around.
Everything went black for Sarah. She could distinctly remember the weight of
something on top of her. And the smell. God the smell burned her nostrils. It
was like she had gone through the cologne department with her father when he
was still around. It was suffocating. Sarah could feel something rip inside of
her. Her lower half of her body burned and she couldn't lift her heavy lids to
see what it was. Before she could let out a scream, a hand clamped down on her
mouth. It hurt. It hurt so bad whatever was happening to her. She refused to
think of what was clearly happening to her. 'Ed... Ed please come rescue me Ed.
Like in those stupid movies you watch. Like how that astronaut saved his half
alien sister from those evil scientists... Ed....' the hand that had clamped
down on her mouth also cut off her nostrils. Sarah saw a hue of red. Kind of
like her own red hair. Down, down, down the rabbit hole she went.
Ed happily skipped home with two jawbreakers in his hand. "Oh boy Sarah is
gonna be so happy once she see's what I got! Plus she won't be mad and won't
tell mom!" he swung the door open to his house. "Sarrrrraah! I'm home! I got a
present just for you!" there was no response. He checked all over the house
yelling Sarah, he checked the cupboards and the closets. He checked the laundry
machines and even under her bed. 'Maybe she went to visit Jimmy' he thought.
When he knocked on Jimmy's door, Jimmy's father answered. Ed got a tickling
fear in his belly when Jimmy's father said Sarah hadn't been by today. Ed ran
to every house in the cul-de-sac looking for Sarah. No one had seen her. He
cried as he told his two best friends Eddy and Edd he couldn't find Sarah. Eddy
insisted she was probably fine, off somewhere playing dolls. "Without Jimmy!?"
Ed cried. Double Dee was the one to suggest they call Ed's mother. Instead of
looking for her themselves an adult would better be fitted to find Sarah, Edd
had said. Some of the cul-de-sac kids were concerned for Sarah as well. They
had never see Ed so distraught before. Not one of them had recalled seeing
Sarah on the way home.
Ed's mom had driven like a bat out of hell back home. As she pulled into the
cul-de-sac, she saw kids surrounding Ed to comfort him. She distinctly heard
kids calling for Sarah some blocks down. Trying to calm herself down, Ed's mom
talked to every parent of the cul-de-sac about Sarah, and each parent talked to
their kids, asking to remember when was the last time they saw Sarah. Last time
they saw her was at school. Ed cried harder and kept repeating I'm sorry, I'm
sorry, I'm sorry, I lost Sarah. She pulled her son into her arms to hush him.
"Shhh it's okay. We'll find her". With much assistance from the parents of the
cul-de-sac, a police cruiser finally made its way over since you couldn't
officially issue an amber alert for a child that had been missing 2 hours that
may or may not have been abducted.
With a description an hand of what Sarah had last been seen wearing and a
search group of parents they set off for Sarah. Jimmy's mom came over to Ed's
home to comfort his mom. "Dolly, Sarah is most likely okay, you'll see" patting
Ed's moms hand. Ed sat at the corner of a wall near the kitchen hearing his
mother Dolly sob. "I should have picked her up myself. Ed probably forgot about
her. I told him, pick up your baby sister. Pick her up and bring her home!"
Dolly blew into a tissue. Ed had remembered Sarah. But still... he hadn't gone
to pick her up like he was supposed to. He quietly made his way to the basement
of the house. He sat between the heater and the metal pole down there. He heard
Eddy and Edd calling for him to come out and talk to them. But he didn't want
to see them. He wanted to see Sarah. Ed cried and cried and cried until he felt
like his head was going to explode.
The officer was the one to find Sarah. Not wanting for the parents to see a
child like this, he grabbed a blanket out of his cruiser and cradled Sarah in
his arms. He cautiously and carefully placed her in the back of the cruiser. He
radioed in the situation to the department and blasted his sirens. 'God bless
this child...' he thought while glancing in his rearview mirror.
The department sent over another Police cruiser to Ed's house. The police
officer refused to tell Dolly what was happening until they got to the
hospital. "Oh god, oh god, oh god!" Dolly screamed while she climbed into the
cruiser. Ed heard his mothers screams from the basement. He covered his ears
and rocked back and forth.
Ed didn't know how long his mother had been gone for or how long he had been in
the basement for. He remembered it was late. Real late. He heard his fathers
voice coming through the front door. "Ed? Ed come out, its okay. Sarah's home
now" his fathers voiced rumbled through his ears. Ed ran through the basement
door and threw himself into his dads arms. "Shhh, its alright Ed. I need you to
listen to me Ed. You need to listen to me real good" he put Ed down and gripped
Ed's shoulder hard. Ed looked into his fathers tired but hard eyes. "Your
mother is coming into the house with Sarah now. Sarah.... was hurt. Do you
understand Ed. Sarah was very very hurt and needs a lot of rest. She might not
be the same after she gets better. But I need you to protect her and be there
for her Sarah. You really need to be there for her Ed. Can you promise me
you'll be there for her?" he asked staring into Ed. Ed nodded. "Promise me
boy!". "I promise!" Ed yelped.
The front door creaked opened a little a bit. His mother came through the door
carrying Sarah in her arms. She looked so small for being 10. Ed saw the raw
red marks around her neck. Slowly, very slowly it dawned on Ed what had
happened to Sarah. "Ed? Ed go to your room okay. I'm just putting Sarah to bed
okay. We'll talk in the morning sweetie" his mother talked to him tiredly
hearing the edge in her voice he quickly went up to his room and closed the
door.
Some time later, Ed had stopped hearing his parents hushed arguments in the
house. He heard his dad slam the door to the house and get into the car. His
dad was leaving. Again.
Dolly came up the stairs and Ed scrambled to his bed. He pretended to be asleep
as his mother entered his room. "My sweet boy" she whispered petting his head.
When she left, Ed touched the side of his head she had stroked. He didn't
deserve her love. It was his fault what happened to Sarah. If only he had told
Eddy no and walked Sarah home none of this would have happened.
When all was finally quiet. Ed crept to Sarah's room. He opened the door and
saw Sarah's small body curled up clinging to her pillow for dear life.
"Sarah... Sarah are you awake?" he whispered. She didn't stir. "I'm sorry
Sarah... I am so sorry..." Ed dug into his jacket pocket and placed a
jawbreaker unto her night dresser. He backed himself up against her bedroom
door. "I love you Sarah. I love you so much. I promise I won't let anyone hurt
you ever again" Ed heard his mother coming out of the bathroom down the hall
and quickly left to his room.
Sarah bit down on her pillow repressing a cry. 'I hate you Ed. I don't care
what you say. You stupid, stupid, stupid lump' she squeezed her eyes shut. 'All
I need is Jimmy'. Her door opened and Dolly came in, sitting down in the chair
she set up in the corner of Sarah's room.
Thankfully no one actually knew what had happened to Sarah that day except her
parents and Ed. And only maybe Double Dee as he observed something different
from what they were told. To the cul-de-sac, Sarah had caught Jimmy's flu and
fainted in the labyrinth of fences. While the parents had been off searching
for her, they were told the officer found her and brought her to hospital and
that she wouldn't be home until late into the night. Relieved the parents went
home and to their kids reassuring them Sarah was just fine. They wouldn't be
able to see her for awhile due to her extreme case of the flu.
The police department of Peach Creek stepped up there surveillance placing
plain clothes officers every other block surrounding the elementary and
throughout Peach Creek. They fished out every registered sex offender and
compared DNA samples taken from Sarah. Not one had been a match.
Ed Hill. Dolly Hill. And especially Sarah Hill... Were never quite the same
after that night.
***** Nazz. *****
Chapter Summary
     Writted 8/10
     updated 8/14
     Nazz looks and acts like the typical next door girl. But her home
     life is far from it.
"Natasha!!!" the loud voice penetrated through Nazz's sanctuary. Nazz cringed
hearing her mother use her real name. The doorknob jiggled to her bedroom. "I
don't know why your father insisted we allow you to have a lock on your door.
For gods sake your 13 years old. What kind of privacy do you need? Unless your
doing something dirty in there!!" her mother pounded on the door.
 
'Dad wanted me to have a little bit of peace from your insufferable screaming.
I may still be able to hear you but at least I don't have to see you' Nazz bit
her lip in thought. Ever since she could remember her mother always pointed out
pointless flaws in her like how she kept her hair short or how Nazz should be
called Natasha. Or that she always hung around Kevin. Her best friend Kevin
that is. Or that Nazz had no sense in style and couldn't understand why dressed
the way she did. There was always something she bullied her for.
 
This week it was because of the lock on the door. "Mom! Don't be gross, I'm
just painting my nails for god sake!" to make a point Nazz opened her bedroom
door with her hands out and her feet balanced on the heels as she didn't want
mess them up. Her mother looked down in disgust. "Lime green Natasha? Seriously
you couldn't pick any other color besides that one?". Nazz wanted to roll her
eyes. 'Like it would matter if it was lime green or not. You would hate any
color I picked.'
 
"Natasha didn't I tell you to clean your room? This place is a pigsty!" her
mother said peering into her room. "Why can't you be more like your cousin
Amanda, SHE keeps her hair long and blonde, none of those stupid pink
highlights you have and Natasha she keeps herself so groomed-
 
Nazz cut her mother short and slammed the bedroom door in her face. She locked
the door and threw her self onto her bed. The very angry mother pounded on her
door. "NATASHA you will open this door right now! Do you hear me!!? I will have
none of this! God you insufferable child!".
 
'I can say the same about you mom' Nazz cranked the radio to drown out her
mothers banging and screaming. Nazz sighed and hung her head off the side of
the bed. She stared at the ceiling. 'Mom's right, my room is a bit of a
pigsty... but she has no right to say such terrible things about me. She should
be happy that I'm expressing myself the way I am instead wearing whoreish 
clothes and doing drugs like the Kankers'.
 
'I wonder what Kevin is doing...' Nazz grabbed her phone.
 
To: Kev
Nazz: Wanna meet me for some Fudge Pudge Sludge?
 
Kevin is typing....
 
Kevin: Hell yeah thought you'd never ask Nazz! See ya around 6 ok? Have to help
Mom clean the garage since Dad won't be home until 11
 
Nazz: Sounds good Kev! Need the XL Fudge Pudge Sludge though and your paying ;)
 
Kevin: Damn mom really getting on your nerves tonight huh I got you Nazz XL
Fudge Pudge Sludge it is :)
 
Nazz: Thanks kev <3 See ya soon
 
Kevin: Np, C U soon <3
 
With that Nazz smiled and closed her phone. It was about time she turned off
the radio. It was giving her a headache. Her mother had stopped banging on the
door awhile ago and was in the kitchen doing who knows what. Nazz looked at the
clock, it was 4:30. 'Hmm I have some time to get ready...'.
 
Nazz took a shower and shaved her legs. She didn't want Kevin to see how hairy
she gets after 2 days. Wiping the fog off the mirror, Nazz stared at herself.
Since she had hit 12, her breast grew quite nicely. They were small but just
right for her 5'2 structure. And by 13, Nazz's curves were starting to show.
She was developing a nice hourglass figure. It also helped that she played
Volleyball.
 
Nazz felt beautiful and confident. If only her mother could see that. Nazz
realized her ombre pink hair was starting to fade to a pastel color. 'Hmmmm
cute!'. Curling her hair and putting a coat of mascara on, Nazz couldn't help
but admire herself in the mirror.
 
"So what if my mother thinks I'm ugly! Nazz you are beautiful!" she said out
loud to herself. There was a pang deep in her heart that told her she was
lying. All she wanted was her mother to tell she was beautiful no matter what
and was perfect just the way she is. Yes, Nazz thought she looked beautiful but
to at least hear it from her mother just once...
 
Nazz's phone went off.
 
Kevin: Hey almost done cleaning and then I'ma get ready
 
Nazz: K! I'm almost done getting ready actually, just hit me up when your set
 
Kevin: Gotcha
 
Nazz finished getting ready and headed downstairs. "Mom I'm going out with Kev-
stopping short she could hear her mother whispering on the phone in the
kitchen. She couldn't quite catch what she was saying. "Yo mom!" Nazz glided
into the kitchen.
 
Her mother startled from her approach hung up the phone. "Who were ya talking
to mom?" eyeing her mother. "Just some bill collector Natasha, your father
forgot to pay the water again" her mother stated. "Mhmmm well I'm going with
Kevin to the Rocky's, I'll be back by 9". "Okay well you better get going
Natasha before it gets dark out" her mother surprised her.
 
Every time Nazz mentioned Kevin or even went out with Kevin, her mother always
had something terrible to say. But not this time. 'What is going on?' Nazz
thought. "Now go Natasha before I have you clean your room!" Nazz clicked her
heels and rushed out the door. "Heh... she's being weird" frowning Nazz felt
her phone go off.
 
Kevin: Hey all done, btw do you see that hot blondie coming towards my house!!!
 
Nazz shook her head and grinned. Kevin came out of his house and greeted Nazz
with a side hug. Kevin had grew this past year from being 5'4 to 5'10. Manhood
was rushing in fast on Kevin at the age of 13. Kevin grew his scarlet locks a
little past his shoulders and kept it slick backed tucked under his red hat.
His hazels eyes peeked down at her, his skin was a toasted tan.
 
He sported a washed out red tank and black skinnies. His chucks matched his
shirt. Nazz blushed taking in Kevin. Nazz had decided on wearing her black
oversized sweater due to the slight cold wind today. Her shorts were concealed
under the sweater. Nazz wore chunky pink platforms she found at a thrift store.
Her mother almost had a heart attack when she saw them. Her father had just
laughed and said that's my girl.
 
"I'm ready for some Fudge Pudge Sludge Kev! Come on!" giggling Nazz tugged on
Kevins arm. "I'm coming, I'm coming".
 
"Hey Kev, how's your mom?" Nazz asked while they walked to the Rockys. "She's
good. Just tired from cleaning all day". "Cool, cool and your dad?". "I don't
know I barely see him anymore since he's been doing overtime at the factory
lately".
 
"Ooooh hmmm... my mom was acting weird when I left. She was whispering on the
phone and when I came in she hung up the phone. Said it was a bill collector.
And get this, when I told her I was going out with you, she said nothing. Just
said be home by 9" Nazz plundered. "Maybe she finally likes me Nazz" Kevin
laughed. "Yea right! Your soooo bleeegh" Nazz stuck out her tongue.
 
"Please you love me! You said so yourself that your gonna marry me!". Nazz
blushed pink. "Uhm hello I was 6! We were playing house!" she playfully slapped
him on his shoulder. "Sure mhmmm whatever you say Nazz".
 
Nazz and Kevin approached the Rockys. The Rockys was a gaming/dining spot. Most
of the kids of Peach Creek hung out here on the weekends. They had tables set
up outside. Birthday by Katy Perry blasted through the stereo. "I'll grab us
the dessert find us a spot will ya" Kevin said as he went through the glass
front door.
 
Nazz looked around at the tables set up outside. Sarah and Jimmy we here
huddled up together as always. Jimmy was whispering something into Sarah's
ear and Sarah laughed. It was good to see Sarah laughing after almost a year of
weird silence from her. The year before Sarah had went missing.
 
Turns out she had passed out in the labyrinth of fences that made up Peach
Creeks neighborhoods. She had caught Jimmy's bad flu. Nazz waved at Sarah and
Jimmy. Sarah waved back and Jimmy smiled.
 
'Those kids are definitely getting married when there older' Nazz smiled as she
past the Eds. "Hey Double Dee! Hey Ed, hey Eddy!" seeing what they were up to,
it looked like Eddy was trying to copy Double Dee's summer school homework.
Double Dee had gone away with his parents during the last 5 months of school.
Double Dee refused to tell anyone what he had been up to in the time he was
gone. Despite having a high IQ and amazing grades, Double Dee had missed too
much school and had to go to summer school. So did Eddy... and Ed.
 
"Salutations Nazz! What brings you to this fine establishment?- Eddy elbowed
Double Dee. "Dude your the worst flirt ever! Sup Nazz?" Eddy asked. Laughing
Nazz patted Double Dee's black beanie head. "Just getting a Fudge Pudge Sludge
with Kevin". "A FUDGE PUDGE SLUDGE!!? I love those!!! Eddy buy me one
pleeeease" Ed begged. "No bug brain I've got no money! Ask sock head" Eddy said
as he copied Double Dee's homework.
 
"Sorry my dear Ed. I, too, have no money" Double Dee said sympathetically. "Oh
poo... hehe poo" Ed giggled. Double Dee turned to say something to Nazz when he
stopped. He was look behind Nazz. Nazz turned around and Kevin stood over her
with two XL Fudge Pudge Sludges.
 
"Sup dorks" Kevin said. Eddy ignored Kevin, Ed enthusiastically said Hi back
and Double Dee gave an awkward squeak. Nazz eyed Edd. He was turning a slight
red. "Was wrong Double Dweeb, your famous vocabulary failing you today?" Kevin
asked. "N-n-no I was just talking to Nazz. Are you two on a date? I hope we are
not intruding on it- Eddy elbowed Edd once again.
 
"Nazz started talking to us, remember Double Dee?" Eddy pointed out. "Yes,
that's right I forgot" Edd said. Kevin hung his arm around Nazz. "Kev what are
you do-" Kevin cut her off. "Why would it be any of your business Double Dweeb
if me and Nazz were on a date? Jealous?" Kevin stared at Edd. Edd yelped and
pulled his beanie down, "N-no I was just curious is all".
 
Nazz looked up at Kevin. There was a strange sparkle coming from Kevin's eyes.
Almost ominous. "Okayyyyy you two. Kevin and I are just friends getting dessert
together. Right Kev?" Nazz stepped in front of Kevin. Kevin blinked and the
sparkle was gone.
 
"Right Nazz haha, I'm just messing with you Double Dweeb".
 
"Sooo Nazz since your single and all" Eddy began. "Can it!" Kevin said. Eddy
shut up right away.
 
Nazz weary of the suitation walked away and sat 4 tables down. "Sorry for being
a jerk Nazz" Kevin said resting his chin on her head. "It's not me you should
be saying sorry to, its Edd" sighing Nazz dug into her Fudge Pudge Sludge. It
was a gooey mess of 5 different chocolate ice creams, hot fudge, brownie bits
and brownie batter. Her favorite.
 
"Anyways what happened between you and your mom today?" Kevin asked digging
into his own mess. Sighing Nazz told him the usual. "I just don't understand
why she hates me so much? I am perfectly fine they way I am. She just doesn't
love me..." Nazz sniffled. "Oh Nazz your fucking beautiful and perfect in every
way. Now I don't honestly know if she loves you or not but she's missing out on
a wonderful daughter. Fuck her Nazz, your fine the way you are and you don't
need to change any part of yourself to satisfy her! Like fuck-
 
Nazz caught him off by kissing him on the cheek. "Your cute when you get all
serious" Nazz laughed feeling better. "Hey what are friends for" he said
swinging his arm around Nazz. Kevin's stomach rumbled. "Uh oh. Bathroom asap
Nazz, I think the ice cream is kicking in" Kevin ran off into the Rockys
bathroom.
 
Nazz waited outside laughing as she could hear him grunting in the bathroom.
"It's not funny Nazz! All your fault!" He yelled. "Hey no one told you to get a
Fudge Pudge Sludge too!" Nazz laughed. "Ugh stop talking pleeease, I need to
concentrate!".
 
"Ewwwww Kev! Haha I'ma be outside waiting for you!" Nazz spoke into the door.
Nazz sat outside soaking in the sun. 'Poor Kev I should probably run home and
get him some stomach tablets' Nazz thought kindly.
 
Hopping off the table, Nazz hurried home for the pills. Entering her house,
Nazz yelled for her mom. There was no response. Shrugging it off, Nazz looked
through dresser set up in the living room for the pills. She stopped when she
heard a mans voice coming from upstairs. Curious, Nazz tiptoed upstairs.
 
The noises and voices were coming from her moms room. She could hear the
bedroom headboard rocking against the wall. 'Oh gross mom and dad!' Nazz wanted
gag. 'Wait... its only 7:30, Dad comes home at 9:00....' slowly opening the
door a crack she saw a sight Nazz would never forgot.
 
Kevins Dad... Mr. Barr was in bed with her mom. "Mom! Mr. Barr!?".
 
Mr. Barr shot up out of the bed pulling up his pants.
 
"Natasha your home!?" Her mom tried to pull her clothes together.
 
"Are you FUCKING SERIOUS MOM!? Your cheating on dad... with Kevin's Dad!???".
 
"Language Natasha!" Her mom scolded her.
 
"Oh don't, fucking don't!" Nazz yelled furiously.
 
"I'm out of here, and I'm telling dad!" Nazz said rushing to the stairs.
 
"Natasha please. Please don't tell your father, what do you want? Money?
Concert tickets to that band you like?" her mother followed.
 
Nazz turned around shocked. "What do I want? WHAT DO I WANT!? I don't want
money, I don't want concert tickets, I want your love! I want your damn
acceptance. Your always bullying me and telling me I should be like other girls
who fit your perfect Idea! But enough is enough. You act all high and mighty
and perfect and your not! Your fucking cheating for Christ sake!" Nazz
screamed.
 
"Now Natasha I-
 
Nazz's mom stepped to the side of her at the foot of the stairs.
 
What happens next is kind of a blur for Nazz.
 
Her mom steps to the side of her, Nazz grabs her mother. She isn't sure if she
pushed her or went to grab her mother because maybe she had tripped over her
own feet and Nazz was trying to save her. Maybe. Nazz isn't sure.
 
Everything slows down and Nazz is watching her mother fall down the stairs.
Shes hitting her head against every step on the way down. Nazz is hoping it
ends and it feels like forever when her mother reaches the floor. There's blood
pooling from her head and Nazz stands still petrified.
 
Mr. Barr is out her mothers bedroom and down the stairs. He checks to see if
her mother is still alive. "Karen? Can you hear me?" he asks her mother. Karen
moans.
 
Mr. Barr looks up at Nazz still standing at the top of the stairs. "Nazz what
times were you supposed to be back home?" he asked her calmly. "9" answers
Nazz.
 
"You should get going back to the Rockys with Kevin" he says. "How did you kn-
Mr. Barr hushes her.
 
Nazz finally comes down the stairs and carefully walks around her mother. God
there's blood everywhere.
 
"Run along Nazz. And please don't tell Kevin. I'm going to do some things here"
he says.
 
"What do you mean some things Mr. Barr!? We have to call the ambulance!" Nazz
pulls out her cellphone. Mr. Barr snatches the phone out of her hand. "Nazz,
Nazz, Nazz, you wouldn't want Kevin and my dear wife to know I was here with
your mother do you? It would break Kev's heart. Not only that, you'd break
Kev's heart too, and your dad as well".
 
"What do you mean!?" Nazz cried. "Well Nazz, if you call the ambulance everyone
is going to know I was here. And everyone is going to know you tried to kill
your mother" Mr. Barr smiled. "I didn't- Nazz gets caught off by Mr. Barr.
"Didn't you Nazz? Didn't you?" Mr. Barr stares into her.
 
Nazz opens and closed her mouth. She isn't sure. God she isn't sure.
 
"Don't worry Nazz. I'm not going to let your mother die. By the looks of it
your mother hit her head on every step down. She won't possibly remember what
happened. Now let me take care of the rest Nazz. And don't say a word to Kevin.
Okay honey? My lips are sealed and yours are too. Got it?" Mr. Barr puts a hand
on her shoulder.
 
"I can't have my wife leaving me and you can't have your dad looking at you
like your a monster, especially Kevin. Right Nazz?".
 
Nazz nods.
 
Mr. Barr smiles. "Now be home a little after 9 Nazz."
 
Not sure what to say Nazz walks out of the house. And then she's running.
Running for dear life. By the time she makes it back to the Rocky's, its only
7:40. 'How did that all happen in only 10 minutes!?' Nazz wants to cry. Not
even 30 seconds go by when Kevin makes his way out of the bathroom.
 
"Whew! I blew up the bathroom Nazz. Sorry I had you waiting out here for so
long" Kevin laughed. Nazz robotically laughed with him. "What wrong Nazz?"
Kevin asked inspecting her. "Nothing its just hot and stuff" Nazz brushes him
off.
 
She looks at Kevin and god she wants to tell him everything. Everything that
just happened in the matter of only 10 minutes. But she bites her tongue. God
she loves Kevin too much to hurt him. Didn't she love her mom too? If she did
why did she hurt her own mother... Nazz shakes the thoughts out.
 
"Come on Nazz lets go to the Peach Creek fireworks, I saw it on a flyer in the
bathroom" Kevin pulls her by the arm. Nazz gazes at his hand wrapped around her
arm.
 
That night Nazz stays quiet for the duration of the fireworks. Every kid from
the Cul-De-Sac is there laughing and having a good time.
 
Kevin takes her silence for tiredness and he holds her as the red blue
fireworks shoot up into the sky. They crackle and explode. They aren't loud
enough to drown out Nazz's thoughts.
 
When everything is done, everyone starts walking home. As they near the cul-de-
sec they see flashing lights of the cop cars and an ambulance outside of Nazz's
house.
 
Kevin tightens his hand around hers.
 
A police officer escorts her to the nearby hospital.
 
Her dad is already there by her mothers side. Nazz's stomach turns at the sight
of her mothers bruised face and the bandages covering her head.
 
She isn't sure how Mr. Barr was able to get the ambulance to her mother but she
doesn't care as long as he did.
 
She doesn't bother to ask her father either and he doesn't tell her. He just
hugs Nazz tightly. That's when Nazz begins to cry.
 
The next morning Nazz's mom Karen wakes up. "Mom!" Nazz cries out. Both she and
her father are immediately at Karens side.
 
"nnghghh... I-I-I'm sorry..." Karen's speech comes out slurred. "But-t-t wh-ho
are you-u-oou?". "Mom its me!? Natasha! Nazz!? I'm your daughter!" Nazz can't
believe what she's hearing.
 
"Wh-what-wh-what a nn-oice n-a-a-me, N-a-a-a-zzzzzz" Her mother grins. "S-u-ch-
ch a p-p-pret-tey g-g-girl you-ou are". Nazz cups her mouth in horror and falls
into her fathers chest. Her father stays silent. Not sure what to say he holds
Nazz and he holds his wife's hand. Even if she can't remember him, Karen holds
his hand back.
 
Later on the doctors tell them what's going on with her mothers brain and yadda
yadda yadda, Nazz drowns them out.
 
'God not like this... fuck not like this' Nazz cries looking out of the window
hospital. Its raining. Nazz sees a cop car pull up with an ambulance. The red
and blue lights flash at her. She then sees a familiar figure walking in the
rain. Its Kevin. Coming to see her. Coming to see her mom.
 
Nazz stares back at the red and blue lights. "Just like the fireworks" Nazz
thinks.
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