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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      F/F, F/M
  Fandom:
      Carmilla_-_All_Media_Types
  Relationship:
      Carmilla/Laura, LaFontaine/Lola_Perry, Laura_Hollis/Danny_Lawrence
  Character:
      Carmilla_Karnstein, Laura_Hollis, LaFontaine_(Carmilla_Web_Series), Lola
      Perry, Will_Luce, Wilson_Kirsch, Theo_Straka, Matska_Belmonde, Lilita
      Morgan
  Additional Tags:
      Murder-Suicide, Past_Rape/Non-con, assassin_squad_au, i'm_bored_tbh
  Stats:
      Published: 2017-02-24 Chapters: 1/? Words: 2565
****** Under the Skin of a Killer ******
by MARZs
Summary
     A killer has to be perfect in every way, and Carmilla is a killer...
     and that's what she does perfectly.
"i'm tired that you control my whole life!"
"darling i own you, haven't we made that clear? i own your job, your house,
your car... hell even i own your daughter"
"don't you dare to come close to my daughter!"
"let's get straight to the point here" the woman calmly stood up before the
other "please get me a glass of water sweetie"
The girl obey; while there was a desperate and terrified woman in the middle of
the room at the edge of crying, there was also a girl on the corner of the room
pouring water over the ice in the glass at the edge of emotionless.
"Thanks my love" said the woman behind the desk, took a drink and said with
peace on her voice "The good but bad news are that you are no longer useful to
me and as i always say: you must let go the things that won't let you keep
going" she looked at the woman already with the tears on her cheeks and then
she looked at the girl at the corner of innocence "you know what i mean right?"
The woman didn't but the girl sure did. So she unfolded... but is lighter than
usual...
So she fold it again, she walk right to the woman crying... she was stand but
that wasn't a problem. She just needed a little but strong kick behind the knee
to make her fall... be right behind the head; i don't think they realized what
you happened or was about to happen, everything went so fast, not even the girl
can recall whatever she did... and...
CRACK
...
"you never end to surprise me" the woman behind the desk walked over the
woman's body to come close to the girl, gave her a kiss and whispered into her
ear "happy 15th birthday, my beautiful diamond"
"thanks mother"
 
You might be wondering... "who is Mircalla Karnstein?" , well... to be honest
it has been said that she was nothing but a crying baby at the front door of an
orphanage in Austria. Whatever she was back there and back then doesn't exist
at this very day. Mircalla in fact was a troubled child, she ran away form her
foster parents at the age of 5 and found herself going on a train to Paris next
to this woman who took her from the street back in Styria. Of course she could
see in Mircalla the fast development of consciousness at that very young age
and of course much more potential that anyone could imagine. Mircalla and her
traveled around Europe, and she learn a lot from then: languages, cultures,
places and everything that should be teaching in school. Nothing would be the
same whatever.
At the end of 8 year old she was living with her new mother and 3 siblings on
this little town in England closed to the forest and what she learned that year
was supposedly more important than everything she learned at Europe. Her new
mother took her and her siblings on a trip to the closest city. I must know and
so do you that what she witnessed was to inadequate for a 8 year old child to
watch, either way after the day she had entered to a new world. At this very
day she can't forget the blood dripping skull and the pool of red and heavily
sticky blood. I bet she sometimes dream about that day.
And so, dearest mother got 4 little children ready to get their behaviours
twisted like chewed gum. It's really funny how functional all 4 turned out to
be… or at least that's what everybody thinks of them. Beautiful perfect
children with white bright smiles, charming and smart; talented and well
educated. Monsters after all, they were creatures of the night, blood thirsty
and violent. Mircalla was the worst of them all, obviously.  With the time, the
scared and harmless little girl turned out to be the perfect little girl with
bad intentions behind good actions; the little monster was smart, delicate as a
flower and really beautiful but inside she was full of pure hate towards the
world, very narssicistic, a wonderful liar and with really heavy violent
tendency of them all. But nothing than mama couldn't fix and she took control
over her over-twisted mind until she grew to be an easy "pacifist" girl with
the same thirst as always.
The girl developed an itinerary which she always follows. She wakes up at 4 am,
makes breakfast (of course all healthy), goes for a run, take a bath and for
the rest of the days is to wait... for someone to follow or steal or kill. She
would follow the order and take another bath and get ready for another day. And
that's why she is mama's precious diamond. Of course Mircalla wasn't always
glad about it, because it means mother will be always waiting the best of her
and if not she will be punished.
Punishment wasn't always so bad, when she was a kid she will be a week without
eating, and by the early teenage years she will burn her hand but after that
Mircalla will put the example of the maximum punishment. The first time she got
that punishment she spent the whole night crying from the pain until she faint.
It consisted on mother giving a sort amount of whiplashes on their backs and
let's just ay those marks are forever like tattoos. Mircalla has now marks all
over the back, and still, mother over mark the older ones. There was another
type of punishment which is not required to talk about right now but let's just
say it really makes her cry now... I mean... besides love, which in her eyes it
was disgusting if she wasn't loving herself.
And how someone like her ended up loving someone? You'll ask. Well everything
started one morning when she wakes up finding no one but herself at home. She
did what she always does, get ready for another day; but something was
different. So she goes and knocks on mother's office.
"Mother?" She calls quietly 
"Oh darling, good your here I was about to call you" she says like everything
is normal "comeone in"
She walks in and goes directly to the chair and sits
"Mother where is everyone? not even Will is here"
"I assignment them duties" mother's says while looking through some papers
"Did I have a free day or did I have do e something wrong?" She says worry,
don't wanted to be punished
"No my dear, you as well have duties to accomplish but yours are kind of
different"
This is new, this is different. She can feel it, it's necessary for her to feel
it; feel when something isn't right at all. To be a killer is to be able to
feel what is feeling right and what feels risky. This isn't feeling right.
"Is it something going on mother?"
"A lot of things are going on, in fact every minute we speak people are dying;
why? For a lot of reasons, do I care? No I don't. But what I do care is if you
are going to do this well; why? For the same reason as always, do I  really
care how you do it? No as long as you do it discreetly and successful. Are we
clear?"
"And what exactly do you want me to do that it's so delicate mother?" Excited
but fearful ahe asked
"I need you back on London this week" she was right on been fearful, she didn't
liked the idea already "is a cover up mission. I need you to empty the bank
account and retire all possessions or belongings of this man"
Mircalla naturally grabs a folder with information of the man she's about to
steal from... "Hollis?" She said suspescious "the man doesn't look harmful and
never seen here mother, do you only want me to take away all his money?"
"If necessary kill the daughter after that, you might need her" a little laugh
came out unnecessarily "did I told you a joke?" Mama said treading her
"Sorry mother" she recover her posture "but with due all respect I think I can
do this on my own"
"No you can't, check the bank"
BVbank, she reads. Fun fact, that's the only bank mamá couldn't blackmail or
own on entire Europe; another fact she knows the owner. Baron Vordenberg, they
are like archenemies for life and there's no surprise the security of this bank
has high technology and on vanguard... so yeah
"You need the girl" mama said
"I don't make friends" Mircalla throws an indirect, ahe doesn't make friends or
lovers only sex buddies 
"Don't worry darling, you probably look  more gorgeous than the girls she has
on her posters in her room" a little devious smile forms on mama's face and so
in Mircalla's "better get packing" 
Imagine, just like that another change was about to start. No one could predict
this maybe the ones who know Mr. Hollis' daughter or could have predicted that
Mircalla would just have mercy on her. It doesn't matter now, the only thing
that really matters is to understand how Mircalla's love life works.
For starters she doesn't have a love life. I mean she has a fuck buddy, the
daughter of the town's official hunter. But she doesn't feel anything but to
satiate some need that she's not whiling to calm on her own. She never have
felt anything for anyone; mama has made sure of that. No children of her will
feel anything but disgust and wrath about most things; to kill you must not
feel anything, not even pleasure, you just have to kill or that's what her
mother says. But she loves herself in secret even when sometimes it disgust her
how little does she know about herself. She barely knows who she become. 
She's still thinking about the man. Hollis. Why does it sound so familiar? It's
frustrating her. Wanna know another fun fact? Mircalla has the ability to
repress everything she doesn't want to remember. She will not remember, no
matter how people try her to remember she will not, because there's sometime
she feels in secret when she kills. And another fact is neither you remember...
 
Mircalla wakes up from a deep sleep, naked on her bed, she's confused; she
looked at the window; the sunset is about to disappear in the distance, her
neck is red and she see the force on her wrists... the only think the girl can
think off is that mama did it again. At least she won't be missing it while
she's gone. How important is to know that this used to be a punishment? I don't
think it matters now because mama only abuse her in that way when she also need
to calm her needs. It's also been years since mama started to use drugs to
sedate her since mama forced her too much. And it's so sad to think about how
she just get used to it, no crying, no fear no anything. Like I told you, m
likes her children emotionless. Mircalla turned around to see where her
backpack ended and it was on the floor where the bed ends all messed up and
undone again. She picked that up and put it again inside, and sometime she
wonder if she does it with her siblings. Maybe not with Mattie but Theo might
also experience this "encounters" with mama. He's  too obedient to. Mircalla
wouldn't be surprised about it. She heard a door knocking and it was mama all
smiley but in a very pervert way.
"Mother do you need something?" She says bare naked 
"I already took it" she says and Mircalla wonders why she isn't so disgust
about it "I'm just here to remind you something my dear?" She walks in and get
closer to the naked girl "if you fail me I don't think you would like what is
gonna wait for you here" she gives here a kiss on the mouth and walks off.
Now it's for sure she can't mess this up. Not even a missed step. 
The next day she wakes to the sunrise. She does what she always do and after
put on some clothes she comes to her mother's room office and knock while
opening a little the door.
"mother?" she hears a moan and looks at her dear mama touching herself and
closes quickly the door
"dear come in" she hears from the other side, she has no other option. She had
learned on the hard way. "come here" mama says when the girl is inside the room
"closer" says when the girl stops in front the desk, and when the girl's in
front her mama "go down there" she says; but the girl is not sedated so she
just do it as quickly as sedates, but mama has her ways with a gun "do it
Mircalla" and takes the gun out.
Mircalla gets o her knees and her mother quickly and roughly grab her by the
hair and drag between her crotches and forcefully maintains her there for a
while... if Mircalla could feel proper feelings she wouldn't be thinking of
biting her mother down there until she bleed, but even she knows it's a bad
idea. Mother is a "hard to kill" person and she's just her "bullet deliver",
and she is just that because mother can't get her hands dirty. But that's what
excite mother the most; thinking about her little diamond getting her hands
bleed. The first time mother saw her diamond killing someone was when Mircalla
was only 14. She was going to be killed on her sleep by some enemy of her but
her little girl came with a gun into her bedroom and shoot him on his head
precisely and gracefully. Astonished she left her dearest mother, with all the
moonshine on Mircalla's face and cold essence. Totally a diamond. Beautiful,
bright and shining. And with that memory she came in her diamond's mouth, but
Mircalla's first reaction is to spill the cum; of course that got mother a
little upset and force Mircalla to clean her up.
"sorry mother" Mircalla says when she finishes
"don't do that again, or it will be worst for you" still angry she says
"yes mother"
"why did you come to my office darling?"
"i was going to tell you that i'm ready to leave; the train is going to leave
in 1 hour"
"before you go i have to remind you something"
"yes mother..." for a really strange reason, Mircalla always hope to hear "you
are doing a great job" but for a reason she understands knows she wont hear it.
Never and she guesses thats her consolation prize
"do you still remember how to fix that BMW right?" she affirmed with the head
"good you might need to remember. Now go and make mama more happy"
And with a cold face and heated mind she walks out saying "yes mother"
She grabbed her package and leave directly to the train station, glad she
doesn't have to be with mama again until she finishes her mission. That's all
that's in her mind right now... Including the BMW and Sherman Hollis.
 
 
 
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