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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Fruits_Basket
  Relationship:
      Sohma_Akito/Sohma_Yuki
  Character:
      Sohma_Akito, Sohma_Yuki
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      Published: 2015-05-10 Chapters: 2/? Words: 3920
****** Truth Behind the Mask ******
by YamiYuki
Summary
     This a Yuki-san History fanfiction. This is a story that will make
     you cry. This story will deal with issues of depression, mental
     disorder, rape, incest, abuse (in all its forms) and personal
     determination of changing one's own lot in life. I don't wish to
     offend people so if you don't like these kinds of stories or feel
     they are too graphic please don't read.
***** Chapter 1 *****
Truth Behind the Mask
A Yuki Sohma History
I am Yuki Sohma and I am not your ordinary person. You see I was born with a
curse. In fact most of my family has this same curse. If we are hugged by
members of the opposite sex we transform in to one of the twelve animals of the
Chinese Zodiac. In fact I am the rat who is supposed to have tricked the
foolish cat into missing the banquet at some point causing the stupid cat to
not be included in the regular members of the Zodiac.
I am 16 years old at this time and just about to enter my 3rd year of high
school. I have a few friends now but I am not what you would call a friendly
person. I am polite to those who talk with me but would I say that I go out of
my way to be friends with people? No, I don’t in fact I avoid it as much as
possible. I have my own fan club of girls who would love to be my girlfriend
but I can’t say that I have any interest in them at all. I don’t understand why
they even like me at all other than they think I am handsome.
I am shy by nature and fear being told I am not welcomed by others. I fear
rejection and I am scared of things people would not understand if they knew
about it. I have a past that scares me and makes me wish to have died a long
time ago.
*Sigh* I am getting ahead of myself here. I have not really told you much about
myself other than my name. I believe I should start at the beginning. I am
starting there so you can see why I am the way I am and how I was able to
change thanks to one seemingly ordinary young girl.
This is my story and I invite you to come take a look at the life that I once
lead and how Miss Honda changed my life forever and not just my life but the
lives of all the Zodiac members.
Yuki: Um Miss moon you may want to put in a disclaimer here.
Miss Moon: You are so right, Yuki-san. I don’t own or have rights to Yuki or
any of the other Characters created by Miss Natsuki Takaya. All rights are
reserved by Miss Natsuki Takaya. *turns back to Yuki-san* How was that?
Yuki: Very good. This story is a sad one and I am sure that it will make many
cry. Please, readers keep a box of tissues nearby for this story.
Miss Moon: Yes Yuki-san is correct. This will deal with some very tough issues
and I ask that you all read the information provided below to insure
understanding of the story.
I must warn you that there are many versions of the story out there, anime,
manga, and fan fiction however, the story I am about to start typing here is
one that is told based on a mix of both main stories. I have added in some more
information that was only slightly implied by the manga and the anime.
This story will deal with issues of depression, mental disorder, rape, incest,
abuse (in all its forms) and personal determination of changing one’s own lot
in life. All this and more will be covered in this story. I don’t wish to
offend people so if you don’t like these kinds of stories or feel they are too
graphic please don’t leave flames, i.e. griping about content, just don’t read
it.
All Flames will be deleted and ignored. I have not had issues with this in the
past but I wanted to make sure this was clear. I will not repeat this so
consider this your only warning.
Yuki: Miss Moon, that sounds almost rude.
Miss Moon: Does it? I am sorry but I needed to be said.
Yuki: Well at least it has been said.
Miss Moon: Yep. Thank you for joining us here Yuki-san. I hope to see in more
of the story to help break up the sadness. I am sorry about how your life has
been and hope that awareness can be made for other suffering people who have
curses or even those who don’t. Please feel free to leave messages here if you
desire to ok.
Yuki: Thank you and I hope to see you around in the future.
See you all in the next chapter.
Preview
Chapter one covers most of the early childhood years until the age of 12. Will
be very violent and detailed, within reason.
Yuki is 3 years old when his family discards him with Akito. Yuki spends the
next nine years suffering before he is then forced to learn the ultimate
punishment for others finding out his secret. From there till he is 14 years of
age he spends trying to learn how to pretend like things don’t bother him and
how to act the Akito wants him to. Finally his able to choose between living at
the main house or living with Shigure. This is the true test.
Much is covered in the first chapter. However these are long chapters and this
means a short number of chapters. Please review and let me know what you think
so far.
***** Chapter One The End of Innocence *****
The Truth behind the Mask
Chapter One: The End of His Innocence
The little silver haired boy stood before the doors crying coming from his
amethyst colored eyes. The tears flowed like little rivers downs his ivory
colored face and dripped on to his lavender kimono. He was scared and shaking
in fear. He didn’t want to be here, in this place, in this home. He wanted to
be anywhere but here.
The person who stood before him was slightly older than him and though he was
still a child he was treated like he is voice was law. He was going to be the
great God that everyone had been talking about since anyone could remember.
“Welcome to my home, little Yuki,” the person said as they opened the door and
seemed to glare down at him.
“Hello,” the small boy said with a shaky voice and trembling body.
“Come in and sit down, we have much to discuss,” said the older person.
Yuki did as he was told, taking shaking steps in to the rather large and
darkened room. It was difficult to see the details of the room let alone where
to sit down. However, in the far corner of the room was a large door that led
out to the gardens and it was from there that the young boy saw a place to
kneel. Yuki sat in a spot in the light and waited for more instructions.
Yuki’s mother had told him that he was do whatever the person named Akito told
him to do, and that Yuki would call this Akito’s place home from now on. This
person before him was frightening and seemed to have an aura of hatred that
followed him. He had a smug look in Yuki’s opinion and that just made him even
more uncomfortable.
“Yuki, do you know who I am?”
“Yes, you are Akito, head of the Sohma family,” Yuki said in a near whisper.
Yuki’s voice had always been more girlish most of his life so he didn’t see
anything wrong with the voice he had always had.
Akito chuckled softly upon hearing the girlish voice float in to his ears. “You
sound more like a little girl than a little boy. Take off the kimono, fold it
up neatly then kneel again.” Akito ordered.
“But,” Yuki said hesitantly, “But I am a boy and besides if I take this off
then I will be naked.”
“I said for you to do something now you should do it,” Akito shouted angrily.
Yuki trembled as more tears washed down his face. He stood and slowly began to
disrobe. He took the kimono off carefully as to not dirty it. Then he carefully
folded the garment and lay it gently on the floor as if it would break if set
too hard. He still had his little underclothes that he normally wore under the
kimono on. He hesitated for a very brief moment the knelt like Akito said.
Akito had only said to remove the kimono.
“You are not finished. I said for you to disrobe that means everything,” Akito
screamed the stalked over to Yuki and slapped the boy so hard he was sent
creaning across the room and into the wall in the far left hand side of the
room.
Yuki had little time to react but his lesson was just beginning. Before he
could recover Akito began kicking the small boy until blood began pouring from
his mouth. Still Akito didn’t stop instead he just kicked and kicked the small
boy till he fell unconscious on the others feet.
Panting Akito nearly snarled at unconscious person at his feet. Then the boy
left the room and returned with a person who seemed to be a doctor, and who had
a young man with him as well. The young boy with the doctor was the doctor’s
son. He appeared to be about the same age as Akito or perhaps a bit older.
“What happened in here Akito,” asked the doctor as Yuki was patched up.
“The careless little rat didn’t want to obey my orders. So I punished “her”,”
Akito said carefully emphasizing the word her.
Yuki however, was far from fine, he could barely get his breath and was
wheezing badly by the time the doctor was finished with treating the wounds.
“I need to take, “her” to the office to check on this funny breathing. I will
bring the child back once I have finished the exam. Come with me Hatori.” The
doctor didn’t even wait to find out if it was alright but was instead out the
door before Akito to could even blink.
~~~Two Weeks Later~~~
Yuki was sitting quietly in Akito’s room listening to Akito talk about many
different things. Suddenly Akito becomes angry with the young boy.
“Get on knees,” shouts Akito, “if you don’t do it soon you won’t like what I
do.”
Yuki not wanting to end up in the clinic with Hatori again does as his told.
Yuki positions himself so he is on his hands and knees much like a dog. Then he
waits for Akito to do what he plans.
“Keep you head straight a head, if you move so much as a centimeter I will beat
you within an inch of your life.” Akito shouts again. Then he walks out of
Yuki’s line of sight.
Yuki had grown accustomed to not having clothing on and was not even allowed to
wear underwear. Today however, Akito had presented him with a beautiful black
kimono robe and told Yuki he was allowed to wear it today only.
Akito had many plans in store for the young Yuki and today he would teach him
how to be a good little playmate. What Yuki didn’t see was Akito holding a
metal object that seemed to be in the same of male member. Akito had many of
these made and this was created just for Yuki at this age.
Akito poured some message oil on the tip of the object then moved in behind
Yuki. “If you move, scream, or do anything without me telling you that you can.
I will make sure you end up in the clinic for a month. Nod your head once for
yes and twice for no if you understand. You are not allowed to speak. Do you
understand?” Akito asked this as he lifted the back side of the kimono that
Yuki was wearing.
Yuki’s mind was reeling as he nodded his head once. He felt the soft draft from
the breeze as the bottom of his kimono was being lifted up. Then as if that
wasn’t enough he felt a hand on his back side. Finally he felt something being
pushed into an opening that he knew wasn’t supposed to be used in such a way.
At first all he felt was a slight pressure like he suddenly needed to go to the
bathroom however as it seemed to travel farther into him he felt the tearing of
his bottom and the hot searing pain that was so intense that his vision went
white and he say stars. He wasn’t even aware that he was crying at first.
Akito had pushed the object up as far as it would go then he slowly moved it
back out of the young boys rear then pushed it back in. Akito did this several
times until he gained a quick pace that resembled thrusting. Then while still
doing this he reached down between the boy’s thighs and grabbed his small
member and began stroking it. In time with the thrusts of the object in the
boys rear with a small smile of satisfaction on his face at the pain he was
inflicting on the small boy.
Yuki was in tears as the hand that had been stroking him left and the object
that had been in him was removed. He was relieved for a brief moment that the
pain was gone until he felt something new, something that was almost even more
painful than what he had just gone through. Whatever it was it hurt a lot and
was tearing the nice kimono that Akito had given him.
Akito was not taking a whip and beating the young boy. “Crawl you little whore,
crawl.” He was trying to make the abused boy move in a certain way. The boy did
his best to comply considering the abuse he had just suffered.
Finally after nearly ten minutes of whipping the boy into the corner of the
room, Akito was very bored with his new play thing. He wanted to find out what
else this boy would do to please him. And it was time to test out the new room
that was constructed just for little Yuki.
“I want you stand on your feet keep your head straight ahead and walk until I
tell you to stop. If you stop, fall, or make a sound you will be forced to sit
with the object that I just had in you for a whole week. And you will be forced
to do other nasty things that you will come to regret. Now, move,” ordered
Akito as he whipped the boy into a standing position.
Yuki moved on as quickly but as carefully as possible. Hoping he would be able
to end this pain filled torture soon. He wanted to do nothing more than curl up
and cry for the rest of his life. He was only a child and he should be outside
playing with other kids he own age.
Yuki reached what he thought was the end of his walk trek, however, this was
just the beginning of the torture that Akito had in mind. He could tell
something more was about to happen with he saw the wall open up to reveal a
dark room with only one tiny window in the far corner that gave no true light
to the room. Yuki continued into the room and looked around as he walked into
the room.
“This is your new room. When you are not with me you will stay in this room. Do
you understand?” Akito said with a sadistic sounding voice. “You are a freak
that will not be loved and despised by everyone who meets you. If people who
find out about your curse truly knew who you were they would hate you. They
would not care about you.”
Yuki shuttered at this thought and tears dripped down his face and he shakingly
entered the room. He was scared of the dark thanks to his mother and this room
had so little light. Despite being a child of the rat he was still not
comfortable in the darkness. Once he had gotten far enough in the room to be
surrounded by the darkness the door was slammed shut. Yuki spun toward where he
had been and began banging on the wall.
“Please, let me out, I will be good,” Yuki cried harder and harder. Then he
felt the grip of pain that told him that he could not breathe and needed to
calm down. He stopped pounding on the door and tried to make his way over to
the window that let in a tiny bit of light. He hoped that he could find the
corner of the room and just stay there.
Once in the corner Yuki calmed himself as much as he could and tried to think
of something other than being in this dark room. He thought of the day when he
was younger and he was accidently transformed when a girl tripped and fell
against him. He was scared of getting in trouble and tried to bury himself in
his clothing so no one would see him. He was sure they had and when he got home
that night his mother knew about it.
His mother told him that Hatori Sohma would be clearing the minds of all the
children from that day. She had told him that they would not remember him and
none of them would be his friends again. She then told him to go to Akito, the
head of the family, and ask for forgiveness for allowing such a thing to happen
in the first place.
Yuki did as he was told and went to talk with Akito who was slightly older than
Yuki. He begged for the forgiveness that his mother wanted him to and was
granted it. However, he was ordered to never allow it to happen again.
“Akito am I really that strange?” young Yuki asked.
“Yes, you are strange. A human that can turn into a rat why would not be scared
of something so strange? No one will ever love you and not only that they will
hate you. They would fear you. They would HATE you. The reason is that they
would fear and hate you for not being like them, for not being human in their
eyes,” after saying this Akito walked away from young Yuki.
‘They will hate me, just like mother hates what I am.’ Yuki had thought this
over and over and over again. He truly believed that this was what he deserved.
The he deserved to be sold off to Akito by his mother after she had locked him
in a tiny closet. Why his mother would beat him nearly every day because she
could not hug him. And why he was forced now to be in this dark room by a
person who seemed to hate him as well.
‘I am unloved by everyone. I am hated. I am unworthy of being happy.’ Yuki
began chanting to himself. He could breathe better and better each time he said
this to himself. ‘I will find a way to get by. I will find a way to blend in
and until then I will suffer with the choices that were made for me. And I will
not let Akito totally suppress me or my hopes. I will let him do as he wishes
no matter how disgusting those things are for me. I will do what I have to find
a way to be free.’ Yuki had a new resolve but he knew that this little mantra
would be continuously put to the test each and every time that Akito would hurt
him.
~~~Two Years Later~~~
“Yuki come to the door now,” shouted Akito as he lay lounging in his main room.
Yuki was quick to do as he was told. “I am sending you to a private school to
learn something besides what I have taught you.”
“I have I done something to displease you?” ask Yuki in a frightened tuned
voice.
“Yes, you are boring. I want you to be more entertaining,” said Akito.
“I can read I will read anything you like and I can learn other languages to
help improve what I know,” Yuki rambled quickly.
“No, you WILL go to school and you WILL do as I say is that understood?”
shouted Akito.
Yuki shuddered and tried to will his tears to not fall. He knew he could not go
against Akito’s orders. He had been the play toy for this man for a long enough
time to know just what was allowed and what wasn’t. Though he would do as he
was told despite is sever medical condition this didn’t make it easier to know
how he should act in such a situation.
“Please, sir, let me know what else I could do to be more entertaining. I will
do anything but please don’t send me away, sir,” he pleaded, by the end he was
on his now with tears flowing down his face.
Akito chuckled at this thought that his little toy was not crying and pleading
to stay with him. The idea seemed almost surreal and the fact the tears were
flowing down this boy’s face was somewhat shocking in a way.
“No, you will go to this school it is time. You have learned all you can from
here now go. You will be moved to a new room with windows and you will be
thankful for it. Should you fail to do as you’re told you will go back to the
other room; the room that I created just for you and only you where you will be
taught all over again how to obey your god.”
Yuki’s little mind whorled and he just felt like a piece of paper in a
hurricane. He was suddenly being left without the same environment that he had
grown accustomed too. He bowed his head, his “god” was talking to him and he
should pay attention.
“I understand, I will behave and make sure that I follow the rules. I will miss
the closeness that you have given me but I will do as you say,” was all Yuki
could bring himself to say.
“Good now get out of my sight,” commanded Akito.
Yuki moved to the door and left the room as he was told. In the hall he met the
man he had come to know very well, Hatori, the family doctor who was doctor to
Akito and the rest of the Zodiac family members. Next to him was a boy with
black and white hair that he knew as Hatsuharu or Haru for short, he was cursed
with the cow. Not long ago Haru had yelled at him that it was his fault that
the cow was called stupid. However, since then they had become very close
friends and when Yuki wasn’t with Akito, Haru was by his side and would help
him through his nightmares.
“Yuki, follow us,” said the stoic voice of Hatori.
Yuki said nothing and followed them. He didn’t want to upset Akito by being
disobedient and he didn’t want to be me rude to his Mr. Hatori, since he had
been the kind one to care for his health issues earlier. He only wished that he
had never witnessed the end of his innocence in that room with Akito.
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