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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Teen_Wolf_(TV)
  Relationship:
      Derek_Hale/Stiles_Stilinski
  Character:
      Derek_Hale, Stiles_Stilinski, Scott_McCall, Vernon_Boyd, Erica_Reyes,
      Jackson_Whittemore, Isaac_Lahey, Sheriff_Stilinski, Chris_Argent, Danny
      Mahealani, Allison_Argent, Lydia_Martin
  Additional Tags:
      16-year-old_Derek, Bottom_Derek_Hale, Witches
  Series:
      Part 1 of With_Feeling
  Stats:
      Published: 2012-10-30 Completed: 2012-11-07 Chapters: 9/9 Words: 36132
****** This Time With Feeling ******
by Crimson1
Summary
     "Derek Hale, if you refuse to learn from your past…then you will be
     doomed to repeat it." In which Derek is turned into a 16-year-old and
     has to stay with Stiles until they figure out how to turn him back.
     Eventual slash and smut, set post season 2, semi-AU.
Notes
     The fic assumes that everything that happened in Season 2 still
     happened, except Peter is leading the Alpha pack on a wild goose
     chase, because…I don't want to try and deal with that, or him, but I
     wanted to be able to include wolf Jackson, so...mildly AU post Season
     2, with slash. Enjoy!
***** Lessons *****
Stiles could pinpoint the exact moment when his life was no longer under his
control, and it wasn't that night when he had inadvertently changed his and
Scott's lives forever by sharing the knowledge of half a body found in the
woods—much as that may, on the surface, seem like the right answer.
No, somehow—and Stiles wasn't even sure how, he just knew this to be true—the
moment everything changed was when Derek Hale tossed Scott his inhaler in those
same woods, and for one brief moment, Derek's and Stiles' eyes met. That was
when Stiles was pulled into the fray, not simply because of Scott, but because
of Derek.
So, considering they hadn't spent too much time lately in the woods behind the
Hale house, Stiles found it exceedingly funny that just when it seemed like he
had his life under control again, that was where he found himself—in the woods,
heading toward Derek's burnt and forgotten old house.
Perfect.
The hunters no longer camped out there. Gerard was gone—presumed dead. Chris
Argent was on their side, much as Stiles barely believed that could be
possible. And Allison…well, she and Scott were on a very awkward 'break', but
at least she wasn't shooting arrows into any more of Stiles' wolf friends. The
house should be empty.
And it was, only whatever creature they were currently chasing down—a hag/witch
thing?—had decided to head there, of all places, when trying to run away from
them. Only there was no way she was running away, because leading them to the
Hale house was way too telling; something else was going on. And it really
pissed Stiles off that Derek had told the wolves to split up, which left Stiles
stumbling through the woods on his own, and no one was answering their cell
phones so Stiles could tell them what idiots they were being.
This was a trap. For what, Stiles didn't know. He just hoped his more direct
route to the Hale house got him there before the trap was sprung.
Scott, Isaac, Erica, Boyd, and…Jackson…were all supposed to surround the Hale
house with a wide radius, to make sure the witch didn't get away, while Derek
tailed her more closely. Stiles was still a little weirded out by Jackson being
a normal part of the pack, but he had been acting surprisingly humble since his
transformation into wolf from kanima, especially since he and Lydia seemed
closer than ever, and he actually appreciated that Scott had gone out of his
way to make sure they saved rather than killed him.
Stiles didn't completely trust that Jackson would follow Derek as
unquestioningly as all the others, but so far he hadn't been a complete dick.
Besides…he made Lydia happy, happier than Stiles had seen her in a long time,
so Stiles couldn't completely hate the guy. Much as he often tried.
At last, Stiles could see the form of the Hale house taking shape ahead of him.
Occasionally, he could hear howls in the distance, the wolves telling each
other that they were in position. Derek had to be inside the house by now, and
even though Stiles had been told to stay by his jeep and the other cars, he
couldn't rationally do that when he knew Derek was possibly about to get
ganked.
Peter might have helped if he was still there—and wow did every part of that
sentence nauseate Stiles, mainly the part where Peter was even involved, since
he was creepily alive again. But Peter, with vengeance had and the hunters no
longer a threat, had volunteered to take on the pack of Alphas lurking nearby
and lead them off the others' scent.
Stiles didn't really understand what was going on with all that, but as much as
he feared Peter was secretly planning to kill all the Alphas to become some
sort of Super Alpha and take over the world, he liked that things had started
returning to a sort of normal for Beacon Hills.
Derek was in charge. The pack was safe and united. And hey, Stiles was an
honorary human member who Derek didn't tell to get the hell out when he caught
him attending pack meetings. Even things with Stiles and his dad were really
good.
And then the witch had appeared. No one had died. Yet. But Derek had smelled
the hag as soon as she arrived in town. Deaton and the Counselor from school
had both suddenly gone missing, and strange things had started happening, like
rolling blackouts and all the plants in town overgrowing and blossoming like it
was Spring, which Stiles guessed was better than all of them dying, but still.
Small things normal people would dismiss happened all at once, in the span of a
week. Derek had been certain the witch was up to no good and that they had to
confront her before the first body showed up.
So there they were, confronting her, only Stiles had a really bad feeling about
all this, so he breathed at least a small sigh of relief when he reached the
porch of the Hale house and he could hear Derek's voice inside. He couldn't
understand what was being said, but as he pushed on the slightly ajar door to
step into the entryway, he made out these words plainly:
"Derek Hale, if you refuse to learn from your past…then you will be doomed to
repeat it."
The next thing Stiles knew, he was on his ass, on the ground just in front of
the porch, having been thrown backwards by some unexpected force before he
could even see what was going on inside. He groaned at the sting of impact, but
a little discomfort was hardly going to stop him from continuing his trek into
the house to—once again—save Derek Hale's life.
Stiles was up the steps again in moments, throwing open the door and rushing
into the entryway. There was no one by the stairs, so he made a quick pan of
the immediate areas. At last, he spotted Derek in what was once the living
room, in the center on the floor, hunched over like he was in pain. Stiles
could barely make out all of him with how he was curled in on himself, but he
was definitely not okay.
"Derek?" Stiles said, though he carefully glanced around for the witch. He
couldn't hear or see any sign of her.
Derek's shoulders flinched at Stiles' voice and, before Stiles could say
anything else or fully cross the room to reach him, a blur of movement too fast
for Stiles to follow rushed toward him and then past him out the front door.
What the hell? Stiles thought, quickly moving to follow after him. Was Derek
hurt? Did he have the witch's scent and was just giving chase? Why couldn't
that guy ever just talk and explain himself before dashing off into the fray?
Stiles stumbled back out of the house. He didn't know which of the other wolves
were where around the perimeter, and he had no idea how to tell which direction
Derek might have gone, since he—unlike almost everyone else he knew—did not
have freakish smelling abilities.
So, Stiles did the only sensible thing he could think of and went straight
forward. He ran into the woods directly from the Hale house door, looking for
signs of Derek, or any of the other wolves, even of the witch, if only to
figure out what was going on. It didn't take long before he was completely
turned around and unsure of where he was, let alone where anyone else was.
Stiles was about to give up and yell Derek's name when he suddenly found
himself tackled to the ground. One moment, he was standing there, the next, he
was on his back, completely winded, with someone on top of him pinning him to
the ground.
Blinking up at his attacker and taking in a few labored breaths, Stiles tried
to stay calm...only to realize he was staring up into familiar red eyes.
"Derek?" Stiles gasped. "What are you doing? It's me!" He blinked again to
clear his vision, but all he could see was red, and fangs, and a bit of pale
skin too close to his face.
"Who are you?" Derek shot back, as if the more than obvious 'it's me!' meant
nothing to him. Only...it didn't quite sound like Derek. It did, but his voice
sounded slightly...higher-pitched, even with his wolfy growl to it.
Stiles focused on...focusing, but then Derek was smashing his face into the
crook of Stiles' neck without any sort of warning, which tickled, and was
really kind of awkward, and then Derek was sniffing him. "Dude...personal
space."
"You're not a hunter...you smell like pack," Derek said, the growl gone from
his voice, which made him sound even...younger.
Younger. That's what the difference was.
Stiles was finally able to sit up and take a good look at the Alpha once Derek
moved off of him, finally realizing that no, Stiles was not one of the bad
guys. But then Stiles really looked at Derek, and it hit him all at once why
Derek sounded young and why he didn't seem to know who Stiles was.
Derek was young. He was standing over Stiles clear as day, looking like he was
no older than...well, Stiles, and yet he was still so obviously Derek, even in
the same clothes, which were too big for him now and made him look drowned,
especially in the large leather jacket.
"Who are you?" Derek said again, hazel eyes wide and questioning, not with the
narrowed demanding Stiles was used to. "I know all the humans in my pack.
What's going on? What happened to my house? Where is everyone?"
Just how bad a suddenly 16-year-old Derek really was hit Stiles just as hard as
the first realization. He only managed a muttered, "Shit," before they were
abruptly interrupted by a cascade of wolves from the surrounding trees.
Stiles saw all of them—Scott, Isaac, Erica, Boyd, and Jackson—take in the scene
as they tightened their once wide perimeter. But Derek didn't seem to recognize
them any more than he had recognized Stiles, and he immediately dropped low to
the ground in a defensive stance, fangs bared again and red eyes blazing as he
shuffled closer to Stiles to…protect him.
He didn't remember who Stiles was, but he was still instinctively protecting
him. Stiles couldn't help but feel a rush of pride at that.
But, oh yeah, he was supposed to be being helpful.
"Derek, wait!" he called, struggling to sit up further and scramble to his
feet, even with wolfed-out Derek practically on top of him. "Take a good whiff,
buddy; they're all pack too."
With expressions to rival Stiles' own stunned look at discovering this younger
Derek, the other wolves all kept their distance and remained still, eyes
yellow—well, plus Jackson's born-again blue—with their forms still in full beta
mode, but not aggressive.
Slowly, Derek approached the wolf closest to him—Isaac—seeming to sense the
truth even before he got up close and personal enough to sniff along the curve
of Isaac's neck. Stiles had a perfect view of Derek's profile as his eyes
fluttered at the scent he found there and then turned hazel again.
Derek stepped back and stared at Isaac with a strange sort of reverence. "You
smell like…mine," he said.
Isaac smiled.
"Stiles, what happened?" Scott asked, morphing back into human form, while the
others did the same. "Did the witch do this to Derek?"
"Duh, though I didn't actually see it happen," Stiles admitted. "I heard her
say something to him in the house, but when I got in there, he was…like this."
Derek turned to look at Stiles. "Like what? What happened to me?" He looked
back to Isaac and then around at the others with the same fascination and
frustration. "How can you all be mine? I'm not an Alpha. My dad's the Alpha."
Stiles saw how the others grimaced at the mention, many of them having
experienced the same loss of family—especially a loss of fathers—that Derek no
longer remembered.
"You are our Alpha," said Erica. "And you still are, even now. It feels the
same, being near you. And your eyes are still red when you change."
The others nodded in agreement, moving in even closer to Derek, like they were
all trying to gauge his new and yet not so different scent.
"Maybe the witch couldn't break that bond, even though she was able to turn you
younger," Boyd offered.
Jackson made a displeased face but kept sniffing the air as he approached
Derek. "Weird."
Derek didn't seem at all bothered by how the others were crowding in around
him, leaving Stiles sort of left out, just outside the circle of wolves. "How
old am I supposed to be?" he asked.
"Twenty-three, I think," said Isaac. "How old are you now?"
Despite taking obvious comfort in the proximity of the others, Derek paled.
"Sixteen."
Stiles felt another swell of pride that he had guessed right, but he was really
annoyed by the huddle of wolves forgetting about him. He happily pushed Jackson
aside so he could join in, which awarded him a half-hearted growl. "Let me give
you the rundown. You are Alpha now, and this is your pack. Not sure how smart
it would be to tell you the gritty details, but…what's been going on lately is
we were hunting down a witch. You were with her last, and now you're…well, like
this. At least we don't have to worry about hunters anymore, but we need to
find the witch and figure this out fast. You don't even…remember the fire?"
"Fire?" Derek blinked. "That's what happened to my house? What about my
family?"
The others all looked at each other, not sure how to respond. Stiles didn't
know how to say it either. He knew what it was like to lose family, but not
everyone.
Derek read their expressions too easily. He swallowed heavily and Stiles saw
his fists clench at his sides. "All of them?" he asked in what was a strangely
small voice for the Derek that Stiles was used to.
Stiles nodded. "Your uncle, Peter, he's…he's okay. But he's not here right now.
It's sort of…complicated, but…the two of you are the only ones left."
Derek nodded, like it was okay, like he hadn't just been told his entire family
had been wiped out, even though, for him, they had all been fine a few minutes
ago. He must have been regressed to just before the fire happened, which Stiles
supposed was a good thing, but not when they still had to tell him it happened.
It was Isaac who moved in first, like he knew it was coming, just before Derek
started shaking, and suddenly, Isaac had Derek wrapped in a tight embrace from
behind, arms clumsily holding him. The others moved in then, too, like it was
perfectly normal for a bunch of teenagers to engage in mass hugs out in the
woods.
Stiles got pushed up against Derek simply from the force of the others moving
in, but there wasn't anywhere for him to hold on to, or any right position to
be in, so he ended up pressed up against Derek's side with his hands trapped
against his chest.
From within the center of the huddle, Stiles heard a sob break free, like a
choke, like Derek was trying to hold it back, but he couldn't. Then it was
silent, the sobs still coming, Stiles knew, if only because he could feel
Derek's body shaking, but he cried quietly, safe amidst the mass of bodies.
This was not a typical wolf meeting activity. Despite everything that had
happened to all of them, openly crying and engaging in group hugs wasn't
something they did. Mostly, Stiles assumed, because Derek would never allow it.
He was all about being strong, and holding the anger and grief in, until it
exploded in a fury of claws and fangs. Sharing and caring time just…wasn't him.
But this was a young Derek who had just learned that his entire family had been
dead for years, having to mourn for them all over again like it was the first
time.
Stiles kind of wanted to cry too.
The pack huddle broke apart like an exhale, the wolves seeming to know when it
was okay to give Derek room, which meant that Stiles was the last one left
pressed up against him, feeling awkward again until he managed to slink back.
Derek smiled at him, and although his eyes were a little red around the edges,
his face was only slightly damp. He turned to look at Scott. "I can smell that
you're pack too…but not from me. Peter?"
Scott hesitated, but rather than try and explain—which Stiles was SO grateful
for, he couldn't even express his joy—he simply nodded.
"But you follow me," Derek said, not really as a question. "You're my second,
so you must be important if I trust you to lead the pack in my absence. I think
this counts as an…" he looked at his shrunken form in older Derek's now
oversized clothing, "…absence."
Scott smiled wide and blinding at being openly called Derek's 'second in
command', even though it was sort of a given lately. "Yeah, of course," Scott
said, like he was perfectly okay with—and capable of—leading. Which, Stiles
could admit, he sometimes was, but that didn't mean they didn't all stand there
staring at Scott for a few minutes, waiting for him to actually do something.
Eventually, Stiles pointedly cleared his throat.
"Oh, right!" Scott said. "Well…I know we need to find the witch, but…I don't
think it's a good idea to take Derek along looking for her when he doesn't know
everything that's going on, and after she already, umm…hexed him. In case she
knows about the den, we probably shouldn't take him back there either, at least
not right away." He bit his lip like he was really trying to think and use as
much of his normal brain power as possible.
Then his eyes drifted to Stiles.
"Hang on…"
"Come on, Stiles, he can't go home. Where else would he be safe? The rest of us
need to look for the witch."
Stiles licked his lips, trying to avoid looking directly at Derek. It wasn't
that he didn't want to help. Of course he did! Especially with Derek all
vulnerable and almost kind of…nice. But Stiles' father was the Sheriff again
and, unlike Scott's mom, he knew nothing about the wolves.
"Just sneak him in for the night," Scott said.
"Better yet," said Erica, "introduce him to your dad as a new friend who's
spending the night. He won't think it's Derek. Who in their right mind would
think someone could be turned younger? He'll totally rationalize the whole
thing like people always do, and you'll be fine."
Stiles glared at her if only because that was far too decent logic. Then his
gaze moved to rest on Derek.
On 16-year-old Derek, looking smaller and less muscular, with a clean-shaven
face, his hair still styled in that perfectly spikey, gelled way, his eyes all
droopy and hopeful, and damn, even the slight crookedness of his teeth as he
genuinely smiled was adorable.
Stiles tried to look apologetic. "Okay. But, eventually, we really need some
additional contingency plans other than lying low at the Sheriff's house."
"You're the Sheriff's son?" Derek balked. "But he's so old. He'd be ancient by
now." He wrinkled his nose at the thought.
Stiles remembered that his dad first became Sheriff…after the Hale house fire.
"My dad was just Officer Stillinski in your time. Sheriff Perkins retired and
my dad took over. He's awesome, but…I haven't quite figured out how to explain
the 'hey, Dad, I run with a pack of wolves most nights' thing."
Derek snorted—like actually looked and sounded amused rather than just annoyed
with him. It was a nice change.
"Cool, so it's settled," Scott said. "You take Derek home, and the rest of us
will keep looking for the witch. We'll check in later and hopefully get this
fixed before morning."
Scott's assuredness did not actually reassure Stiles in the least. They'd been
tracking the witch for days.
For a while, everyone simply stood there, no one moving to do what Scott had
said they were going to do. Admittedly, Stiles didn't remember how to get back
to his jeep, but the others could at least start heading back into the trees.
Then Stiles realized that Derek was looking a little forlorn again, and not
just from the knowledge of his lost family. He was looking around at the wolves
like he didn't want to part from them, and they were all wearing similar
expressions—even Jackson.
"It's just so different…being an Alpha. All of you...it's like you're part of
me." Derek smiled and, as the others looked back at him, they couldn't help
smiling in reply. If the older Derek felt the same way, he certainly never said
anything about it.
Isaac beamed. "Yeah."
While Stiles tried not to feel excluded—again—considering the silent pack
bonding occurring around him, he was relieved when Scott finally led the others
off, and Boyd made a point of whispering in his ear which direction the cars
were parked.
Finally headed in the right direction, with a young Derek in tow, Stiles tried
to pretend like he was with someone new, someone he had never met before, which
in many ways was true. Stiles was usually pretty good at first impressions, or
irretrievably terrible, but always one of the two.
The weird thing was, the slight silence that spread between them at first was
actually kind of companionable, which Stiles had never felt being alone with
older Derek.
"So..." he couldn't help asking after they had a gone on like that for a few
minutes. "I'm pack too? Like…not just that I smell like I'm around the others
all the time, which I am, but…I'm really pack, pack?"
"Don't you know that?" Derek asked.
"Well, it's sort of a given, I know, but…I guess the older you isn't very vocal
about that sort of stuff. I mean, I regularly attend pack meetings and get
roped into witch hunts, but…you've never actually said the words."
"But you're so important."
Stiles stumbled and turned to stare at Derek like he had grown another head, or
maybe de-aged another 7 years.
Derek smiled. "Human members of the pack are always important. And I've marked
you as the lead human, meaning if another wolf even considered hurting you,
they'd be going against serious law and tradition. It's a true sign of trust,
like with my second being, umm…" He trailed.
"Scott," Stiles explained, and then realized they hadn't actually done any sort
of introductions, the wolves being able to smell everything important,
apparently, other than given names. "The girl is Erica. The clingy one is
Isaac. The surly one with blue wolf eyes is Jackson. And the big guy is Boyd.
I'm Stiles."
"But…you said your dad was Sheriff Stillinski," Derek said with a slight frown.
Then one of his eyebrows rose in a very normal Derek expression. "Your name is
Stiles Stillinski?"
"And proud!" Stiles exclaimed. He added, "It's a nickname," but quickly
continued before Derek could ask what his real name was. "We'll get settled at
my house and try and relax. I'm sure the others will track the witch fairly
fast. Scott can be a surprisingly good leader. Sometimes."
They walked a little further, and Stiles' mind inevitably drifted back to what
Derek had said. Since Allison and Lydia—and somewhat Danny—were more or less
part of the pack too, the thought of being 'lead human' had Stiles preening.
He'd always figured he'd get unfairly beaten out for that role due to the girls
also each being a wolf's significant other. He liked knowing that Derek
regarded him as more than just a third wheel—ninth wheel?—even if he never said
so.
Stiles was relieved when they finally stumbled upon the jeep and the other cars
without him having to ask Derek to sniff them out. He turned to Derek after
leading him to the passenger door but wasn't quite sure what he planned to say.
Instead, he ended up just staring at Derek, because…well, teenager.
Teenage Derek was not what Stiles would have expected. Sure, the fire and loss
of most of his family probably explained Derek's general personality and
outlook on life better than him simply being that way, but Stiles had a hard
time imagining Derek as anything but the broody and supremely good at lurking
wolf boy he had come to know.
Now he didn't have to imagine. A more or less normal, open, friendly Derek, who
knew about the fire, but hadn't lived through the horror of it, and was
therefore managing to maintain a smile and optimism purely because he had a
pack of his own, was standing right in front of Stiles.
He was also standing…about an inch shorter than him.
"What?" Derek said, flitting his eyes to the side when Stiles continued to
stare.
Stiles shook his head. "Sorry. It's just…so weird, being taller than the big
bad Alpha," he said with a grin.
Derek laughed—free and young and honest—and let his smile overtake his face in
a way that older Derek never did. "You're weird," he said fondly.
"Eh, you get used to it, Big Guy—" Stiles stopped himself just as he was using
the term. "Huh. Guess I'll have to come up with some new nicknames for you, eh,
Youngblood."
Derek immediately made a sour face, which was much more like his usual sourwolf
self. "Urg, I hate those comics," he said with a grimace.
Stiles could have died right then—Derek actually got his reference! "Me too,"
he said, patting Derek on the shoulder, for the first time with a confidence
that his hand wouldn't be snapped at by fangs. Then he opened the door for
Derek and continued smiling as the younger boy climbed into his jeep.
"Everybody does."
tbc...
***** Stillinski House *****
Chapter Summary
     Stiles brings 16-year-old Derek home.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Of course Stiles' Dad was home. Of course he was. It was after dark on a Friday
night, after dinnertime, and, despite being the Sheriff again, Stiles' dad had
been trying to be home more often, which had been much more doable ever since
the whole kanima mess got settled.
So, of course he was home now, which meant Stiles had to explain where he'd
been as well as who he was with, something he still wasn't entirely sure how to
go about right up until the moment when he walked up to his house with 16-year-
old Derek close behind him…and his dad opened the door with a stern look of
'Where the hell have you been?'
His dad's sharp blue eyes darted almost immediately to Derek but returned
stubbornly to settle on Stiles. "Weren't you supposed to come straight home
after lacrosse practice?"
Stiles' dad wasn't always so overprotective, but considering Stiles had been
attacked at the police station, showed up constantly at murder scenes, and had
recently been 'beaten up by rival lacrosse players', the Sheriff had gotten a
little antsier about Stiles being out late.
"It's like…nine o'clock," Stiles shrugged, even though that didn't actually
answer the question.
His dad's gaze softened and he returned his attention to Derek. He held the
door open wider and stretched out a hand. "Pleased to meet you, son. You're…"
"Joe," Stiles jumped in on Derek's behalf, thinking of Joe too-hot-to-not-
somehow-be-one-of-Derek's-long-lost-relatives Manganiello. At least Derek
didn't look at all ruffled by the Sheriff's sudden appearance.
Derek also looked less like he was swimming in his clothing, since Stiles had
stashed the leather jacket and Derek's too-large T-shirt in the back of his
jeep and gave Derek his 'Stud Muffin' T-shirt instead. It had been stuffed into
the bottom of Stiles' lacrosse bag but didn't smell too well-worn. Well…not to
Stiles.
Stiles felt a sudden wave of sympathy for Derek and his awesome smelling
abilities.
"Uh, yeah…this is Joe, Dad. He started at school this week, and we…sort of lost
track of time at Scott's after practice. I meant to call. Is it okay if he
spends the night? We, uhh…wanted to hang out again tomorrow."
The Sheriff's expression softened further, friendly now, but there was still
something decidedly calculating about it, which Stiles hoped didn't lead to him
realizing why Derek probably looked really familiar. "I suppose that's alright.
Can I talk with your parents to confirm it's okay with them?"
Panic slammed into Stiles as if he'd been tackled by Boyd.
But Derek, to his extreme credit, didn't even offer a flash of grief at the
mention of his parents. He kept his smile and shrugged apologetically.
"Actually, sir, that's why Stiles offered for me to stay. I live with my uncle,
but he's out of town on business this week. He made sure I was settled at
school before he left, but…it's kind of lonely in the house alone. I figured
I'd be spending the weekend in front of the TV before Stiles asked me over. Is
it okay?"
Damn.
Stiles was reminded of that time Derek wooed the officer at the police station,
only this time without any of the flirting part. Just an honest smile, pleading
eyes, an innocent little sag to his shoulders…
Apparently, Derek had always been a good liar. Then Stiles realized…it was a
lie wrapped up in some pretty heavy truth, so of course it sounded sincere.
Stiles turned on his own puppy pout and shrugged Derek's direction when his dad
looked at him. The combined efforts were far more than the Sheriff was prepared
to handle tonight, it seemed, and he soon stepped back to let them into the
house.
"Of course you can stay. But I'll want to talk with your uncle the first chance
he gets once he's back in town, just to make sure you boys haven't been up to
anything you shouldn't be. Not that I don't trust you, kiddo, but…" His dad's
eyes turned away, filled with that familiar regret that he wasn't there for
Stiles enough, even though Stiles felt much more like he was the absent one
lately.
"I know, Dad, it's fine. A lesser man would have grounded me ages ago," he
grinned.
The Sheriff shook his head but smiled back. "There's actually some groceries in
the house, for once, if you boys are hungry. I'm pretty beat, so don't be
surprised if you find me passed out on the sofa pretty soon. Nice to meet you,
Joe," he added, looking Derek over again. Then his brow furrowed. "I feel like
I've seen you somewhere before. You just moved to town? Have you been to Beacon
Hills before?"
Again, Derek didn't falter for a second. "Sure, especially over the last few
months getting everything settled. My uncle and I have been around town a few
times."
The Sheriff nodded, seemingly convinced by this answer, and that the reason
Derek looked so familiar was obviously because he had seen him on the street or
in a store or…somewhere.
Suspicion left his eyes in exchange for acceptance, just as Erica had
predicted, and he excused himself to the living room so the boys could raid the
kitchen.
Stiles sighed in relief as he went for the fridge. He was starving.
"Joe?" Derek whispered, suddenly right there close at Stiles' side.
Stiles shuddered at the natural heat Derek radiated. "Uhh…yeah. He's an actor
you remind me of. Well…older you. I'll force a random episode of True Blood on
you so you can see. It's worth it just for him. Though you'll have to forgive
that he plays one of those lame werewolves that aren't really werewolves."
"Just turns into a wolf?"
"Yep."
Derek rolled his eyes. "Who came up with that copout?"
A swell of…well, Stiles would probably say it was a swell of admiration,
because he didn't want to admit it might be a swell of love, even if he was
totally loving this side of Derek.
Stiles had long ago dealt with the fact that Derek revved his engine, which was
totally normal, considering how freaking hot the guy was, and—up until now—he
had completely come to terms with the fact that he still probably had a better
chance with Lydia, and she and Jackson were practically engaged.
Not that Stiles had ever honestly considered trying anything with Derek. He
simply acknowledged that Derek was hot and that said hotness got him…hot. His
thought process on Derek Hale had never really gone beyond that: hot, smug, and
dangerous.
At least it never used to.
Stiles shook his head to clear all those traitorous thoughts away.
"So…sandwich?"
Together, Derek and Stiles managed to make a couple sandwiches each, stole a
bag of chips and a few sodas, and then headed upstairs, noting that the Sheriff
was indeed already passed out asleep with one of those late night talk shows
playing on mute in the background. Stiles didn't have the heart to wake him
just yet.
Stiles was off in full rant mode about how rare it was that they actually had
real food in the house, so he didn't notice at first how stunned and silent
Derek became upon entering the bedroom. It wasn't until Stiles had shoved his
keyboard aside and plopped down at his desk to eat that he looked over and saw
Derek staring in awe around the room.
Derek set his own spoils on the floor as he settled in front of Stiles'
bookshelf—the one filled to the brim with comic books and everything on
werewolves Stiles had managed to smuggle out of the local and school libraries.
He pulled out the large role-playing game handbook Werewolf: The Apocalypse and
looked at Stiles with a smirk.
"Okay, that one was just for fun. But some of those I thought might actually be
useful," Stiles defended. "My more up-to-date stuff, with real facts, and a
list of the things that are 100% bullshit, are all on my computer, but…that
stuff's fun for light reading."
"Even though most of it is crap?" Derek chuckled. Then his eyes brightened as
he snatched up the DVD for Van Helsing. "Oh, I love this one!"
Now Stiles had to chuckle. He set his half-eaten sandwich aside and slipped
from his desk chair to join Derek on the floor. "For its accuracy?"
Derek all-out laughed. "The look! This has got to be my favorite fictional look
for werewolves ever. Hugh Jackman just looks so big, black-furred, badass Alpha
when he's a werewolf. It's as close to accurate as I've ever seen and, you
know…Hugh Jackman. Kate Beckingsale's pretty hot too."
Stiles' admiration for young Derek was growing exponentially, especially since
he wasn't sure if Derek meant that Kate Beckingsale being hot was also a reason
to like the movie, or that Kate Beckingsale was also hot, as in…Hugh Jackman
was hot. Which he so was, Stiles just never expected Derek Hale to say that.
Derek didn't notice Stiles' mild brain aneurism since he was carefully placing
the DVD back on the crowded shelf. "Plus I've always kinda wondered if there
were vampires out there, but Laura always rolls her eyes at me when I ask about
other supernatural creatures. Dad would probably just get mad."
This admission brought Stiles back to reality and he had to frown.
"He just…really wants everyone to stay safe," Derek said upon noticing Stiles'
expression. "So, he likes things being low-key. That's why the house is built
in the woods, so we can still do wolf stuff without people seeing. I still
go—went—to regular school and everything. I have—had—regular friends…" He
shrugged, deflating as he realized that everything he said needed to be in past
tense now. "Well…Laura was sort of my best friend. And all the rest were…human
members of the pack around my age. We all stuck together. Even though not
everyone was strictly family, you know?"
Stiles wanted to place a caring hand on Derek's shoulder or something, but he
wasn't quite sure how to go about it. He still didn't really know Derek all
that well, young or otherwise.
So he pulled on a smile and said, "That's how we are too. For the most part,
everyone kind of ends up at the den together. Scott's mom and some other
friends of ours are the only ones who know everything. Isaac…he lives with you
since his dad…died. But Scott goes home, Jackson's parents are loaded, and
Erica's mom isn't so bad, though Boyd…well, I guess 'neglected' would be the
right word there, so he sticks around you most of the time too. You picked good
people who need you, it just…took us awhile to get the right pack dynamic
going. I think we almost have it down now. We don't all live in one house, but
we're a team, with wolves and humans on our side, and even some understanding
hunters. Sort of."
Derek looked understandably wary at the mention of hunters.
"It's an uneasy truce," Stiles shrugged, "but we'll take what we can get. Plus
there's Deaton. The local Vet. You said he's a…a Watcher, or something?"
"A Watcher?" Derek's eyes brightened. "That's good. I don't know much about
them, but they look out for packs."
Stiles nodded. "He's saved our asses plenty. Only…he sort of went missing after
the witch showed up. We've been a little worried." Stiles had to kick himself
that with every bit of seemingly good news there was always something equally
crappy.
Except the pack itself, because they really were working. The biggest thing
holding them back, in all honesty, was usually Derek. Older Derek, who just
wouldn't open up and trust any of them nearly as much as he needed to for the
whole 'pack' thing to work.
Stiles looked at younger Derek and smiled.
Derek smiled back at him—and wow, was Stiles so never going to get used to
that. "So…the other humans in the pack. How do they fit in?"
"Oh, well…Allison is sort of Scott's girlfriend. I say 'sort of' because she's
also the local hunter's daughter, and there have been issues, but…things are
getting better there."
Stiles decided that the last thing he was going to mention was that Derek had
accidentally started Allison's mother down the road to suicide—not that Stiles
really mourned the loss of that psycho.
"Then there's Lydia. She's with…Jackson. She's unique. Peter bit her, but
nothing happened. She's immune to anything supernatural. We're still trying to
figure out if we can use that to our advantage somehow." Which would be really
helpful, but Stiles still wasn't sure if that was even possible. "Then there's
kind of Danny, Jackson's best friend, who's also on the lacrosse team with a
bunch of us, but he doesn't actually know anything. He just tends to get messed
up in all of it, and he's a good guy. Considering the boy he was crushing on
turned out to be a serial killer, he could probably use some lovin' about now."
"What about you?"
Stiles faltered, unable to think of anything at first other than whether or not
he 'needed some lovin'. Then it dawned on him what Derek was really asking.
"Oh…I…I'm not with anyone. I'm here because of Scott. Not…because…gross. He's
my best friend. I was there when he got bit and…it's sort of been a joint
venture."
Derek nodded, and Stiles couldn't tell if he looked confused by all of the
information being thrown at him or just…relieved.
"Hey, wanna see something crazy?" Stiles reached around Derek toward the row of
comics for his first installment of Captain America: Man and Wolf. He had all
seven issues.
"Does that say…'Capwolf'?"
"Indeed it does."
"Oh my god." Derek proceeded to gently take the issue before rapidly flipping
through it.
"Just wait 'til we get to Marvel Zombies, dude," Stiles beamed, especially
since Scott never appreciated his comic book collection. "One of the endings of
that deals with werewolves too."
Derek groaned somewhere between frustration and pleasure. "That doesn't start
coming out until December for me. Is it awesome?"
"SO awesome. The Ash cameo nearly killed me."
"Ash…like Army of Darkness, Necronomicon, Ash?"
"In all his Bruce Campbell perfection. He tricks the Necronomicon into helping
him because otherwise the Marvel zombies will eat it, which is total bullshit!
It's freaking amazing!" Stiles reached for the first issue of that series and
handed it over to Derek as well, which seemed to immediately trump Capwolf.
Considering Stiles had been ten years old when those comics started coming out,
he had spent weeks convincing his dad to let him start collecting them.
Apparently, zombies and rampant mutilation weren't seen as good content for
growing boys. Who knew?
They laughed together as Derek read more carefully through issue #1 of Marvel
Zombies, and Stiles promised he could borrow the rest, or just read them
whenever he wanted—which of course made him wonder if older Derek would even
care once they turned him back. Stiles quickly pushed that thought from his
mind.
It was easy to forget how late it was getting, considering they had eaten
dinner at 9PM and Stiles had gone down to send his dad off to real bed about
11PM. But, well after midnight, they were still mulling over comic books,
Stiles' horrible werewolf lore collection, and some truly epic movies, some of
which Derek HAD to see, especially if older Derek hadn't seen them yet either.
Who in their right mind hadn't ever seen Airplane!?
All the while, a shadow of doubt ached in Stiles' chest, because normal broody
Derek would never be this carefree and relaxed—or admit what a huge geek he
was—but time and again Stiles chose to shake it off. For now, he had a very
awesome Derek to hang out with, and he wasn't about to think about inevitably
losing that.
Stiles checked his phone, realizing that he hadn't heard anything from Scott,
or anyone else for that matter, but there were no messages waiting for him. He
was practically falling over asleep on the floor, he was so tired, something he
hadn't realized until he bothered to pull his attention away from Derek.
He promptly sent Scott a message to check in when he could, because they were
going to bed now and would just have to deal with everything in the morning.
Stiles mentioned as much to Derek, who agreed, and then Stiles crawled over to
the bed to pull out his sleeping bag and extra pillows from underneath. Older
Derek had used that bedding before, a time or two, holed up in Stiles' room on
the run from the police. Young Derek sniffed the air, immediately able to tell,
it seemed, since he cocked his head at Stiles.
"Oh, uhh…long story," Stiles shrugged. "You've crashed here before, is all."
Derek just smiled, but something in his eyes told Stiles that he was a bit
anxious about the arrangements.
"Hey, no worries. You've been through a lot today," Stiles said, as he began to
lay the bedding out on the floor. "You can take the bed. Half the time, I fall
asleep at my desk, anyway."
"No, you don't have to do that." Derek reached out and gently grabbed Stiles’
wrist, which almost caused Stiles to drop the pillow he was holding, since
Derek's skin was so strangely…soft. "Can't we just…I mean, if it's not too
weird for you, can we…maybe…share?" He blinked luminous hazel eyes at Stiles
that looked like a perfect swirl of blue and green and bronze.
Stiles stared at Derek, then down at the sleeping bag, wondering how they could
ever both fit in it. He realized what Derek actually meant with a bit of start.
"It's just…sometimes…if something bad or intense happens…there's always someone
from the pack to..." Derek shrugged, slowly releasing Stiles' wrist as he
seemed to collapse in on himself, weighed down by the reality of everything
that had happened.
Stiles swallowed, because something about this other version of Derek made his
throat go dry. He tossed the extra pillow onto the bed. "Someone to…snuggle
with?" he said with a crooked smile.
Derek chuckled quietly. "Yeah. Laura. Dad. Peter."
Stiles tried not to shiver at the mention of Peter, and the image of him
snuggled up with Derek.
Derek shrugged again. "Sometimes my friends too. And…you're pack, so…so we're
friends, and I just thought…maybe I'd sleep better if…" He trailed and looked
away, a flash of grief crossing his face that was so strong, Stiles was
reminded of the older Derek and all that pain he carried around with him all
the time.
"Hey, it's cool. I don't mind," Stiles said, leaving the sleeping bag crumpled
on the floor. "Some of the other wolves are really…touchy feely with each
other, like, all the time, so I shouldn't be surprised, just…"
"You're not used to it from the older me," Derek said, and it wasn't a
question. He looked too solemn for Stiles' liking but, at the same time, Stiles
did like that younger Derek was a bit disappointed in his older self for all
the times Stiles had to say…that just isn't who you are anymore.
Stiles was glad that he always kept an extra toothbrush around, which Derek was
also grateful for, but he couldn't seem to stop blushing when they were
changing for bed, even though their eyes weren't anywhere near each other.
Stiles had offered Derek a pair of shorts and a fresh T-shirt to sleep in, and
the whole time Stiles just kept thinking of that day when Derek was trying on
his shirts in front of Danny, all of which were so small it was…well, quite the
show.
At the time, Stiles had thought it was funny, because of course he recognized
how hot Derek was, or he wouldn't have come up with the ploy to enlist Danny's
help in the first place, but it seemed different now when there wasn't any ruse
or game to this, and it was just the two of them—about to share a bed.
Stiles' shirts fit Derek perfectly now.
By the time they were slipping under the covers, Stiles was so tired, he was
overtired, which meant he would probably be sitting up awhile before he
actually fell asleep. It didn't help that his heart rate skyrocketed against
his control the second Derek snuggled in close to him with an arm thrown over
his waist, their legs touching, and Derek's face pressing into Stiles' neck.
"Is this okay?" Derek asked, since he could probably hear Stiles' heartbeat
like a marching band base drum. "You just…" he took a deep breath beneath
Stiles' ear, "…smell like…home. I can't really explain it, but…I feel calmer,
being close to you."
Wow. Stiles wondered if that was true of older Derek too, but then he
remembered how many times Derek had yelled at him and slammed him into hard
surfaces, and figured the answer was probably no.
Derek rested his head on Stiles' shoulder. "Stiles?"
"Uhh…uh, yeah, it's okay. I was just cold, and you're so warm, so it's…giving
me goosebumps." Which was totally true, so at least Derek couldn't catch him in
a lie.
"Yeah…wolves generate a lot of heat. My normal temperature is like…101."
Stiles nodded, unsure of what else to say. He forced himself to relax into that
heat, which really did feel nice, and let his hand come up to rest on Derek's
back. He rubbed in small, light circles, feeling himself lulled to sleep
already by Derek's breathing, and warmth, and the way he seemed to be…purring.
There was a brief moment when Stiles felt Derek's breath hitch, and he wondered
if Derek was going to start crying again, so he tightened his hold and turned
his head in toward Derek's hair, which smelled like mint from older Derek's
hair gel.
Derek clung to him tightly for a moment, but soon calmed, his breath evening
out in small puffs against Stiles' skin.
"So…humans aren't excluded from the whole…pack snuggling thing, huh?" Stiles
whispered.
Derek nuzzled his nose against Stiles' neck. "Not the important ones."
tbc...
Chapter End Notes
     Thanks for the great comments on the opening! I have all of this fic
     already written, and am just tweaking things before posting each
     part, so you can expect a chapter each day. Thanks again!
***** Puppy Pile *****
Chapter Summary
     16-year-old Derek and Stiles spend the day together before regrouping
     with the rest of the pack.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
"Hey..."
Stiles stirred at the quiet whisper, but he was so warm and content, he didn't
want to move, let alone open his eyes.
"Come on, kiddo...just for a second."
Dad. Stiles knew he couldn't ignore his dad, so he willed himself more fully
awake and blinked toward the sound of his dad's voice. Blue eyes formed in
front of him, close to the side of the bed. His dad was wearing his uniform and
had that confused crinkle to his brow.
"Hey...I'm just heading into work and wanted to make sure you knew I'd left.
You boys...gonna be okay today?"
Stiles blinked a few more times in response to the question. Then, all at once,
he remembered everything. The witch. Young Derek. Falling asleep with Derek
wrapped around him...which he still was, right that second, with Stiles' dad
having walked in on them!
Risking a glance to the side, Stiles did indeed find young Derek right where he
had left him the night before, curled up close with an arm flung over Stiles'
waist, face nuzzled into Stiles' neck, and...even a leg thrown over Stiles' leg
as he tightly clung.
Shit.
Stiles figured that his only way out of this was complete and utter
nonchalance.
"Yeah, Dad, we'll be, uh...fine. Just gonna hang out. I'll send you a text if
we leave the house. Promise." Stiles smiled lazily, having kept his voice low,
though he had a feeling Derek was probably already awake and only feigning
sleep considering his wolf senses.
The Sheriff nodded, mouth opening and closing a few times like he meant to
comment, wanted to comment on how he had found his son on this strange morning,
but didn't quite know how to broach the subject.
Apathy worked every time.
"Uh...alright then. You boys...you be good." He nodded again, brow still
crinkled and eyes trained on the way Stiles was wrapped up with another boy,
but unable to comment more than a small smile of good morning and goodbye at
the same time as he slipped back out of the room.
Stiles breathed relief. At some point his dad would bring this up, when he'd
had more time to process it and consider his earlier speech about Stiles'
wardrobe being a clear sign of straightness, but for now Stiles was safe.
Then he felt Derek stir and nuzzle into his neck like he had the night before,
so completely at ease, which Stiles was only pretending at.
"Your dad's pretty cool," Derek whispered.
Stiles wanted to laugh, but he wasn't sure what type of movement would be
appropriate right now. "Yeah...isn't he just? You, uh...wanna keep sleeping,
or...?" Stiles had had a hard enough time with the 'going to sleep like this'
part; the 'waking up to a snuggling Derek' part was much harder.
Among other...harder things. Not that they were curled up in quite the right
position for Derek to be able to tell that Stiles was a morning person, but
Stiles was almost positive he could feel...
Derek rolled away before Stiles could complete the observation. He stretched
his arms over his head before sitting up on his elbows, and looked down at
Stiles with a wide smile that only slightly betrayed the sadness under the
surface. To Derek, he had only just recently lost his entire family, not to
mention being several years younger than he should be. Yet he still tried to
smile, for Stiles' sake.
Adult Derek barely ever did anything for someone else's sake, though Stiles
knew that was more because he didn't trust easily, not because he was selfish
or that he didn't care.
The Broadway version of Green Day's "21 Guns" started blaring at the climactic
final chorus from Stiles’ phone. He had never been happier that he had gone
with that part of the song rather than the verse that reminded him of Derek.
Considering that part was, well...
Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?
Yeah, he was taking that to the grave.
"What's up? Please tell me you found something," Stiles said into the phone as
he answered, having seen the caller ID come up as 'Scott'. He kicked his feet
back and forth as he sat on the edge of the bed, fidgety now that he could move
freely again. Derek came around to stand in front of him, looking on
expectantly.
"Um...not exactly," Scott said, with his usual ineloquence.
"What do you mean? You had all night."
"Yeah, and we searched everywhere. But...when we doubled back to check the Hale
house, we...well...we found a note."
"A note. From the witch?"
"I think so."
"What did it say?"
"Uhh...just: 'Some things are meant to play out. Have fun'. It was signed
'Glinda'. Erica said she was making a joke."
"Scott. Wizard of Oz."
There was a pause. Then, "Oh!"
Stiles almost smacked his own head in these moments when he wasn't close enough
to smack Scott. "So...she split? We can assume, anyway. And we're just supposed
to let this play out?"
As Stiles looked up at the dark-haired teen before him, he realized that this
wasn't as one-sided a conversation for Derek as it would be for most people,
considering...super senses. Derek looked pensive, but not entirely upset by
what they were learning.
"Okay, so...what now?" Stiles asked.
"Allison. I mean...you now, her dad. I'm not going to say anything about Derek,
don't worry. I'll just tell him about the witch in general, see if we can get
some extra bodies out there looking for her. In the meantime, we can...hope
Deaton shows up and keep following leads 'til we find something, I guess. How's
Derek doing?"
Derek's vibrant hazel eyes were locked onto Stiles. He smiled again, small but
assuring.
"He's...good," Stiles said. "We're doing good. We'll lie low here and you guys
can come over later so we can regroup. Dad already left for work, but I'm sure
he'd love the idea of a giant coed sleepover."
Another pause. "Are you joking?"
Stiles really wanted to hit Scott.
"Seriously, because that's...actually a good idea. Maybe we should all stay
over there tonight. Erica's the only coed part really. We should be together."
Derek's entire form brightened at Scott's suggestion. He was probably missing
all those 'mine' feels and the intrusive sniffing.
Freak, Stiles thought fondly.
Of course, Stiles got the impression that the rest of the pack was feeling the
same way. Like maybe they always wanted to be all over each other all the time,
but adult Derek kept that kind of behavior in check. Now they had the chance to
be as snuggly as they wanted, which definitely didn't make the 'coed sleepover'
part sound any better for when Stiles would have to explain it to his dad.
Although it could help distract from the whole 'you found me sleeping with
another boy' conversation.
"Sure. Giant sleepover it is," Stiles said. "Assuming dad actually goes for
that. When do you think you'll be over?"
"Probably not until later. Everyone wants to change and get some rest, then
I'll go over to talk with Allison's dad, then we'll come to you. Call if
anything comes up on your end, okay?"
Stiles stifled a snort, considering what had been up—a totally normal reaction
to morning and not in any way Stiles' fault—had finally dwindled.
"Will do. Just...be careful with Argent, okay?" Stiles said. "He may be playing
nice lately, but he did still try to kill several of us on more than one
occasion. Or at least maim."
"Yeah, yeah. Talk to you later."
Stiles stared down at his phone as he hung up. A day alone with young Derek.
Stiles was actually pretty excited about the prospect, but he didn't want to
seem too happy and come off like a creeper. That was adult Derek's job.
"So...as you obviously overheard, we've got nothing to go on right now, but no
point in getting all..." Stiles trailed as he looked up at Derek again, taking
in the suddenly shrunken and tense boy before him. Derek's face was ashen and
blank. "Uh..."
"Did...did you say 'Argent'?" Derek said in a strange, small whisper. "The
hunters in town are the Argents? But...but Chris just passes through, he
doesn't stay. He promised my dad he wouldn't come here for good as long as no
one ever hurt anybody. Did he..." He swallowed and Stiles saw him tightly
clench his fists, which somehow made him look younger and smaller, standing
there in Stiles' T-shirt and shorts, barefoot. "Is...he the one who...?"
All at once, Stiles understood. "No!" He jumped up from the bed. "Chris Argent
didn't...burn down the house. It wasn't Chris. He moved here last year with his
daughter, Allison. He was...just trying to stop the killing that
started...originally."
Derek seemed to calm somewhat after hearing that, but his fists remained tight.
"Then..." He blinked at Stiles with eyes that were now damp. "Who?"
Stiles had foolishly hoped they could avoid this topic entirely, but of course
Derek would want to know who murdered his family. The thing was, Stiles wasn't
sure how much young Derek might already know. And Stiles didn't know how much
worse telling him the details might make, well...everything.
When Stiles didn't answer right away, Derek moved around him to sit on the bed,
releasing his fists finally and dropping his face into his hands while taking a
few deep breaths. It was like something...practiced, like a routine. Keeping
Your Inner Wolf In Check 101. Then Derek looked up at Stiles. His eyes were
still hazel. But still damp.
"No one knew the whole truth until recently," Stiles began, moving slowly to
join Derek on the bed. He left some space between them as he sat down. "I think
you thought it was Chris when it happened, but...it wasn't him. It was...Kate.
She's—"
"Kate?" Derek's eyes went wide. "Kate Argent? She...she just came to town a few
weeks ago. She went out of her way to tell me who she was. Not to be
threatening, but..." He shook his head as it dawned on him that anything he
knew about Kate was now changed. "She's been so...nice to me. Friendly. Like
she really wants to get to know me."
Like she really wants to get to know your family's schedules and the perfect
time when everyone would be in the house together, Stiles thought bitterly, but
he didn't speak.
"Like...she understands there isn't anything bad about being a wolf. I always
thought...that Chris was a good man, just trying to protect people. Honorable,
you know? If a wolf is killing people, he should be put down. Hunters can be a
good thing. But my family..." Derek's eyes filled with moisture, much as he
seemed to be trying to hold the tears back. "No one hurt anybody. And there
were humans too. Kids..."
"I know," Stiles said, surprised by the softness of his own voice. "And
Chris...he really is a good guy, I think. He wants to be. He maybe...forgot the
honorable part for a while, that's all. Kate, though..."
Stiles had always assumed Derek and Kate had a thing back before the fire,
which seemed even more plausible given that she was being friendly with young
Derek from the second she came to Beacon Hills. But, for this Derek, they
hadn't gotten beyond a friendly first few meetings. The sexy part must have
come later.
Stiles couldn't help feeling a swell of relief to know this, like it kept Derek
pure or something, untainted by that conniving psycho and her poisonous touch.
Now was definitely a time when physical contact was practically mandated. Derek
was sitting next to Stiles, too far away really, slouched and staring forward
into space as he processed this new revelation, trying so hard not to cry.
So Stiles scooted closer. And closer. He turned, waiting for Derek to look at
him, and when he did, Stiles moved in and hugged Derek as tightly as he could.
Tight seemed to be important in moments like this, because Stiles knew just how
much a person could feel like they were falling apart when they let the full
force of loss wash over them. He remembered that, sometimes, his dad squeezing
him so tight he could barely breathe was the only thing capable of keeping a
panic attack at bay after Mom...
Wow, Stiles must really suck at this, because now he was crying too. Though, in
his defense…only a little bit.
He quickly sniffed the tears back and put on a brave face, because Derek's
stone-cold resolve wasn't as rampant right now, and clearly he needed someone
else to be the strong one. Stiles could totally do that, albeit maybe not well.
"I wonder…how I got through this the first time," Derek whispered into Stiles'
neck.
Laura, Stiles thought, but he didn't want to say that, because then he would
have to explain how she had been alive, but then Peter killed her, but Peter's
on their side now and…yeah.
"I don't know," Stiles said instead, "but even if you're usually a pillar of
strength, you are totally allowed to wallow for a while. For you…it's the first
time now."
Derek took in a shuddery breath and pulled away from Stiles, though one hand
remained on Stiles' knee and the other on his arm, like Derek needed to touch.
"Thanks. It must be weird for you, since you're used to me…years past all this.
I really do feel better, though…stronger…just being near you."
Stiles shivered. Because…there was totally a breeze in his room.
Yeah.
"Hey…why don't we grab some breakfast and then I'll introduce you to Ultimate
Marvel vs. Capcom 3." Stiles leaned in conspiratorially closer to Derek and
whispered, "Deadpool hits opponents with his health bar."
Derek laughed. "Sweet. PlayStation…3?"
"Yep."
"You might have to help me then, since it didn't exist yet in my time." Derek's
eyes were clear and his smile was blindingly genuine and sweet as it pushed
past the sorrow still lingering.
Stiles wished he could see that smile every day. "Deal."
*****
Later, Stiles sent a text to his dad explaining that they weren't planning on
going anywhere, but a few other friends were thinking of coming over for a sort
of slumber party—which was so totally normal for high school students. He
admitted that the group included one girl, but that they would be on their best
behavior.
The Sheriff texted back not long after to say that as long as all of the
parents were okay with it, he was too. Stiles figured his dad was probably just
relieved he was actually asking to do something that didn't involve showing up
at homicides.
After thoroughly wiping the floor with Derek at Marvel vs. Capcom, eating
lunch, and talking more comics and bad horror movies, Isaac, Erica, and Boyd
showed up, followed a little later by Scott, and finally…Jackson, which was
still beyond weird for Stiles—having Jackson Whittemore in his house—but he was
dealing.
As this seemed like a good night for pizza, Stiles made sure to order one
veggie pizza for when his dad came in and inevitably stole some, and the group
spread out in the living room. Since Marvel vs. Capcom was still hooked up,
they played a few rounds before talking shop. The clear master of the game
turned out to be Isaac, and for some reason, Stiles wasn't all that surprised
by this, though the fact that he mainly used Rocket Raccoon was a bit of a
shock.
"So…I'm guessing Chris didn't have any insights on the witch," Stiles finally
spoke up on the topic at hand. "I assume you would have opened with that if he
had."
Scott shook his head, mouth full of pizza, which he only chewed halfway before
speaking. "He said he knew she was around, but had been on standby since
nothing bad had happened. He asked if she had done anything to the pack, and…I
just said we thought she was hanging around our den and that Derek was worried.
I think he bought it. He said he'd see if he could track where she was hiding
out, but he didn't really have any leads."
Stiles knew he should feel disappointment. After all, Derek had lost years of
his life. But…he felt a brief wave of relief instead.
"Maybe she's trying to teach Derek a lesson," offered Erica, on her fourth
slice, which Stiles appreciated coming from a girl. "Once he learns whatever it
is, he'll just turn back."
"But…how am I supposed to know what lesson to learn if I can't remember
anything?" Derek asked.
The others all stared blankly back at him.
Then Jackson spoke up. "Maybe you're not supposed to remember now. Maybe
there's a time limit, and…what happens here, when you're younger, is something
the older you needs to remember once you've changed back."
Stiles could appreciate that Jackson knew a thing or two about secrets and
lessons to be learned and…inner turmoil.
The others considered that quietly, eating their pizza, none of them certain if
they should be concerned or not. Derek wasn't hurt. Their lives weren't ruined
or in danger, as far as they knew, but it still seemed wrong to just sit back
and accept this. It should feel wrong…
"I think…we should keep doing what we're doing," said Isaac, sitting on the
floor beneath Derek, who was on the sofa with Stiles and Boyd. "If Argent or
any of us finds a lead on the witch, great, we'll follow it. But maybe we don't
have to panic. Maybe…Jackson's right, and we're just supposed to make
sure…Derek is okay. Great. Happy. And then everything will turn out the way
it's supposed to."
Stiles held back a wide grin; Isaac was such a hopeless romantic. At least now
that he was a little bit back to his normal endearing self and not quite so
alpha male like when he had first been bitten. Beta male? Stiles shook his
head. "I like that plan," he said, smiling down at Isaac.
"Yeah," grinned Scott.
The eager agreement from everyone so had nothing to do with that fact that they
all desperately needed a night off. Nope. Not at all.
Stiles had already brought the DVD down from his bedroom. He got up as everyone
was finishing off the last of the pizza, and switched out Marvel vs. Capcom in
the PS3. "Airplane?" he said as he turned back to the others with a smirk.
No one argued.
*****
They were halfway through Cursed—Scott's suggestion—when Stiles' dad came home,
looking relieved to find Stiles actually having a normal night in with friends,
and just pizza boxes, no booze or orgy happenings for him to walk in on. Like
that night on the lacrosse field, the Sheriff looked proud, and Stiles let
himself bask in that since he was pretty proud to be part of this pack too,
even if normal came so rarely for them.
Stiles had made sure that only the veggie pizza was left by this point, which
his dad reluctantly ate, and then they were all spreading out sleeping bags and
pillows in a great mass in front of the TV, changing into clothing to sleep in,
and settling in to watch a few more movies before they passed out.
Stiles had never had a lot of friends, so he wasn't really used to this mass
bonding and just how good it felt to belong. None of them had had the
opportunity to just exist lately; there was always something out there trying
to kill them, something to run from, something to fight. But, for tonight,
wolves or otherwise, they were all just teenagers.
Leaning back against the couch, with everyone crowded in close and Derek right
by Stiles' side, Stiles stole a glance at the young, dark-haired Alpha. He got
the feeling that this wasn't exactly normal for Derek and his old pack either.
This was just theirs.
Derek's hazel eyes met his, flickering with light from the TV screen. Some of
the others were already dozing off, all of them touching in one way or another,
even if only just a head lazily resting on someone else's shoulder. They hadn't
really set out the sleeping bags normally; there was just a mass of blankets
and comfort for them to sprawl over together.
Stiles' dad had already gone up to bed and, as the last movie ended, there was
a mutual shift until everyone was lying down. With Stiles and Derek as the
center point, the others all curled in close, Scott up against Stiles' back,
with Isaac at Derek's back, and Erica, Boyd, and Jackson snuggled around their
legs. The couch was like a giant headboard for their massive sleeping bag bed,
right behind Stiles' head as he settled in to sleep facing Derek.
For a long while, Derek's eyes were open, just looking back at him with
something like gratitude and blissful laziness all wrapped up in something
else, something deeper. The sound of the others breathing was the perfect white
noise. Stiles didn't even mind that Jackson was snuggling his thigh like a
teddy bear.
Stiles fell asleep as content as he had been the night before, maybe even more
so, with all of them there, but the thing that soothed him the most was Derek's
closeness and the last thing he saw being those adoring hazel eyes.
tbc...
Chapter End Notes
     I hope there are some geeks out there appreciating my references.
     Stiles and I would so be buds. Okay, so...I'd be this really awesome
     aunt figure while he played video games with my 16-year-old nephew,
     but STILL. :-) Thanks for the comments!
***** Training *****
Chapter Summary
     The pack learns how young Derek trains, and Stiles attempts his first
     night without Derek sleeping next to him...for as long as that lasts.
     :-)
The witch was gone. They had no leads. And it was Monday tomorrow, so Derek
couldn't stay with Stiles forever; his dad would get suspicious—more so than he
probably already was. Although, thankfully, finding them all in their tangle of
teenage limbs didn't seem as startling for the Sheriff as the previous morning,
since he woke them all up with pancakes. He had actually gotten Sunday off.
Stiles' dad never made pancakes, which was such a shame, because he was
spectacular at it—and only that, but hey, one talent was enough when it came to
food. He was just always so busy, there wasn't time, or he and Stiles weren't
on the same schedule for pancakes to make sense. They used to have monthly
'breakfast for dinner' nights, but not in a long time.
Of course he wasn't quite prepared for just how many pancakes this group could
eat.
Without any leads on the witch, and it not being possible—or at least easy—for
Derek to continue to stay with Stiles, they decided to all head back to the den
after breakfast. Their resources were exhausted and, with everything strangely
quiet for once, there wasn't much they could do.
"I'll make another sweep for Deaton. See if I can find out where he went,"
Scott suggested. "In the meantime, I guess we just wait to see if anyone hears
anything, and…make sure Derek stays safe." He flashed Derek a crooked grin
above his even more crooked jawline.
Derek had seemed both fascinated and disappointed by the den when they first
brought him there. Sure, in some ways it was like having a secret hideout, but
it was also dark, and cold, and dirty, and not at all like a home—or the
Batcave.
Now, he sat on the ratty couch next to Stiles, slumped and not nearly as
exuberant. "Sure," he said. "I'm fine. I'll be…fine."
Only Stiles knew that was total bullshit. Most of the time Derek did seem fine,
as impossible as that should be given the circumstances, but then this was
Derek, and he wasn't the type to fall apart completely no matter what age he
was. Besides, Stiles remembered from when he lost his mom that sometimes you
forgot the person was really gone, like it didn't seem real, and only when it
was thrust in front of your face did you really feel the ache again. In those
moments, Stiles used to just…panic, but everyday life had gone on as normal
most of the time.
He knew everyone went through grieving differently, but he had a feeling that
maybe being away from Stiles' house, and being in what was now Derek's…home,
must have been one of those potent reminders.
Derek lived in an abandoned lair…because his house and everyone he loved had
burned.
Almost as immediately as Stiles thought that, watching Derek closely in his
periphery, he saw Derek hunch further and his eyes begin to water. Derek was
letting the grief wash over him again, and those were the moments when a person
got to the point when they couldn't stop crying or…when they'd have a panic
attack in the middle of a crowded store.
"Why don't we train?" Stiles suggested, knowing better than anyone that
distraction was the best medicine at times like these. The others all turned to
stare at him. "Well…Derek's always so serious about training you guys, right?
This will be a great chance to get a different perspective. How do you train to
fight?" Stiles turned to Derek with a warm smile.
Derek brightened, blinking back the dampness in his eyes. "Depends on who I'm
training with. Everyone fights differently, and it's good to change it up so
you don't fall into the same patterns all the time."
"We usually just fight you," said Jackson.
Reigning in his warring emotions, Derek stood from the couch and pulled on a
smile. "For basic training, that's fine, but you should be training with each
other a little every day when you're brand new. I still usually train every
day, and I was born a wolf. Come here." He gestured to Jackson and the two of
them moved out into the open area where Derek usually had the others doing
drills.
There were mats lining the floor in this area and the occasional obstacles. Not
exactly safe by normal standards, but normal people didn't have healing
factors.
Jackson rolled his shoulders as they stood facing each other. "I've had the
least training," he said, with the usual scowl prominent on his face.
"Maybe, but Stiles said you were the most naturally athletic before being
turned. Captain of sports teams. Really competitive." Derek grinned, a flash of
the older Derek apparent in the familiar expression.
Jackson rolled his shoulders again, a corner of his mouth twitching up. "Yeah."
"So you should have better natural instincts, which is a good place to start."
Derek hunkered down, casual as you please, and shifted, letting his claws and
fangs out and for his eyes to flash red. He looked so small to Stiles, and not
really threatening since he seemed to be having fun.
Stiles watched it all from the sidelines, having moved from his spot on the
couch to get a better look. An evil part of him kind of wanted to see Derek
toss Jackson around a little and beat some humility into him. Jackson could
certainly use some. But, as soon as Jackson shifted in kind and the two of them
moved toward each other, Stiles was far more pleased with Derek's actual
intentions.
Jackson dove forward, blue eyes blazing and fangs bared…only to stumble into
empty space where Derek had expertly danced out of the way.
"Come on," Derek said, in his wolfy growl. "What's the general rule for most
sports? The best offence…"
"Is a good defense," Jackson said reflexively, stretching his claws and
cracking his neck.
Derek nodded as they began to circle each other. "If you let yourself get
hit…you've already lost." He charged forward without another word of warning,
faking left, only to dash right, getting behind Jackson swift enough to lock
him in a grip under his arms. "Too predictable," Derek said, and dashed away
again.
Stiles had to grin. Derek wasn't training. He was playing. He was having fun.
Looking down the line of wolves watching, Stiles knew that this was entirely
out of character—again.
By the time ten minutes had passed, and Derek had bobbed and weaved around
Jackson, often getting him into holds or flipping him over onto the mats, but
never being caught in return, Jackson was laughing. Jackson didn't even care
that he was clearly the loser, because he was having fun too.
"You have to teach me…how you do that," Jackson panted, taking a breath
finally, though his eyes were still glowing blue, like he didn't want to stop.
Derek was panting too, though a little less noticeably. He shifted human and
stretched his arms back, hopping up and down like he was getting high on the
adrenaline. "My sister says it's because I don't over-think."
Stiles felt a little of his mirth drop and his smile fade. Derek was still a
good fighter as an adult, but that part definitely wasn't true anymore. Stiles
would have put money on young Derek being able to avoid a hit from older Derek
easily, because the Derek that Stiles was used to over-thought everything. He
was downright paranoid at the best of times. They really needed to figure out a
way to break him of that.
Erica hopped off the crate she was sitting on, looking ready to jump in and
challenge Derek next. She had a particularly eager expression on her face.
Before she could move out onto the mats, Isaac grabbed her arm. He had that
slightly devious look on his face that had really freaked Stiles out the first
time he saw it. "We wouldn't want you attempting your usual distraction
tactics," he said quietly. "Might scare him away."
Erica pulled her arm back and crossed them over her chest. "You should try it
some time. Works wonders."
Stiles hadn't witnessed much of the wolf training, but he had a sneaky
suspicion he knew what they were talking about, and the idea made him frown so
hard that Scott noticed.
"We could always work out a human-friendly method if you want to train too. You
know…in your lacrosse pads," Scott grinned.
Occasionally, Scott did know the right thing to say to snap Stiles back to
attention. He slugged Scott in the arm as hard as he could, and even though he
knew it probably barely even stung, Scott played it up with an impressive
grimace.
"Human-friendly," Stiles grumbled, though he was smiling again. "Just let me
dust some powdered wolf's bane on my knuckles and then we'll talk."
Scott laughed. They watched as Isaac changed out for Jackson, and Derek
directed Erica and Boyd to spar similarly on the opposite end of the mats.
Jackson actually looked relieved to be able to rest and came to stand between
Stiles and Scott.
"So…am I allowed to not want him to change back?" Jackson asked.
Immediately Stiles frowned again…because he was thinking the same thing.
*****
By the time it was getting late enough that Stiles had to go home for some
quality Dad time, especially since his dad had taken the day off for once and
had promised something other than takeout for dinner, Stiles had taken to
keeping score and playing cheerleader while the wolves sparred and played on
the mats.
Fun as it was, there was method to the madness, because they were all loose,
and not thinking too much, and actually starting to be a little unpredictable
when they attacked each other, rather than trying the same old tricks. Of
course a part of Stiles felt left out, how could he not? But they never really
left him out, eventually using him as ref, all trying to get Stiles on their
side as to who was superior.
Finally, Stiles called out to the wolves, who were now all sitting or sprawled
out on the mats, exhausted. "When I start assigning you guys Fantasy Football
stats, then you'll know I've become obsessed. But I gotta get home. Who's all
staying here for the night?" He tried to avoid looking at Derek directly,
because he was afraid he wouldn't be able to leave if he got caught by those
hazel eyes.
"Me and Boyd are going to stay here with Derek," Isaac said.
That alleviated some of Stiles' unease, since there would be two others here
with Derek during the night. He didn't like to think of the other boy being
left alone, and it made sense that Scott, Erica, and Jackson would all be going
home.
Stiles nodded and passed his gaze around the room, catching everyone for a
brief nod and smile of farewell before finally resting on Derek. He faltered
for a moment before taking a deep breath, trying not to be too swayed by
Derek's soft smile. "You'll be fine, and tomorrow, if you want, you should come
by the school. We can't exactly sneak you into class, but I'd rather you were
close. To us! You know...not anywhere alone where the witch might come and eat
you." He grinned as wide as he could manage to make the joke seem genuine
rather than desperate.
Derek maintained his soft smile—so damn soft that it really was ridiculous—and
nodded in turn.
"Okay..." Stiles said as he shuffled toward the door, tearing his gaze away.
"Guess I'll see you guys tomorrow."
*****
Dad time was good—really good. So good that Stiles hated himself for being so
distracted with thoughts of Derek. And his dad hadn't even brought any of that
up. They'd spent the night eating dinner in front of the TV, watching old
episodes of Saturday Night Live—like from the 70s old, when it was really
amazing. Then they'd caught up on current events with some reruns of The Daily
Show before the Sheriff finally told Stiles to get to bed since it was a school
night.
Stiles missed having nights like that, just him and his dad not having to care
about anything but the ease of being together. And, if Stiles hadn't been
preoccupied with thoughts of Derek, he might have been able to appreciate it
fully. He did, he just couldn't help wondering what Derek was doing, how he was
doing, and whether or not he would see Derek the next day at school.
Not to mention whether or not they would ever be able to turn Derek back into a
brooding adult.
The Sheriff only asked Stiles once if anything was wrong, and whether or not he
guessed that the 'wrong' had something to do with the boy his son had been
sharing a bed with the last couple of nights, he didn't press the issue.
Because he was awesome like that, enjoyed their time together, and let Stiles
go up to bed without any third degree.
Stiles closed his bedroom door behind him and flopped on the bed, lights still
on and still in his jeans and T-shirt. He knew he should go straight to bed,
but he had a feeling that he would end up staring up at the ceiling for most of
the night.
Knock. Knock.
Stiles lifted his head, knowing better than to look at his door because the
sound of the knocks had been more like knocking on glass. He looked at his
window, stunned into immobility when he saw young Derek perched outside. Stiles
lifted up and pulled himself across the mattress only to midjudge his
trajectory or strength or something and end up tumbling off the bed to the
floor.
Even through the closed window, Stiles could hear Derek laughing. If this had
been the older Derek, Stiles would have scowled, but for this Derek...he
smiled.
Completely unruffled from his fall—he so totally was—Stiles jumped up and
opened the window for Derek to climb through.
"Do Isaac and Boyd really snore that bad?" he joked.
Derek laughed again. He was still wearing the "Han Shot First" T-shirt Stiles
had let him borrow that morning. "Couldn't sleep. I told them I was coming over
here instead and they were pretty cool about it. They didn't seem all that
surprised, actually. Guess they both must know what it's like to sleep
in...strange places."
Stiles blinked at that explanation. So...what should have been Derek's home was
a strange place to him now and Stiles' house was more like home?
Stiles cleared his throat. "Cool...that's...fine. I guess it doesn't matter as
long as dad doesn't catch us and start getting the wrong idea." He laughed
awkwardly—so awkwardly that someone who had failed Acting 101 would have
noticed it was forced. "You're totally welcome to sleep here again."
Derek's bright hazel eyes glimmered gratefully, which was when Stiles finally
realized how close they were standing to each other beside the window.
"Thanks," Derek said. "I know I keep asking so much of you, you just...help
keep me focused, you know?"
Actually, Stiles really didn't know, because he felt entirely scattered around
Derek, like he hadn't been on Adderall for weeks. "Sure. I think. Err...guess
you need sleep clothes again. We should hit the hay right away since I have
school."
Derek just smiled. Stiles used the moment of quiet to pull himself away from
Derek's general vicinity and search out clothing for both of them to wear to
bed. They had already been through this; it shouldn't feel so intimate and
weird again. And yet Stiles changed into pajamas with his eyes closed the whole
time.
"That was really fun today," Derek said as they were crawling under the
covers—side by side again, close, though Derek didn't immediately snuggle
Stiles like a body pillow this time. "Messing around like that really helps
wolves get to know each other. Not just because of the fighting, but...the
smell, the energy. I feel like I understand everyone so much better now."
"Guess I'll just have to remain a mystery then," Stiles said, meaning the
comment as a joke, since he hadn't really been a part of the horsing around
wolf-play, but somehow the words came out a little bitter.
Derek frowned at him. "You're different. You're human. You don't have to be
part of the wolf things to be part of the pack, and I don't need to wrestle you
to the ground to know you."
Stiles tried to distract his thoughts away from images of Derek wresting him to
the ground.
"Human members of the pack can be what grounds us, especially on the full
moon."
"I thought...you had, like...totems or something to focus on during the full
moon. You know, some specific thing to think about as an anchor."
"Well, yeah, and sometimes that is a person, especially if it's someone who
believes in us." Derek turned to lie flat on his back, staring up at the
ceiling. "Intangible things don't work as well. It has to be something that
represents the intangible."
"So...for example, if a wolf's anchor was...anger?" Stiles prompted, because
Isaac had told him that story, about the first night the new wolves had dealt
with the full moon, and so he knew what Derek had told them.
Derek's brow furrowed, which always made him look more like his older self.
"Not my personally favorite choice for an anchor, but as an example, the wolf
would need something to think about that made them feel angry. You can't just
think about anger in general."
"What do you think about?" Stiles didn't mean to be intrusive—he never meant to
be intrusive—but he couldn't help his curious nature.
"Hope," Derek said simply. "Not tied to a specific person, really, but...the
dream of someone...someone just for me. Wolves mate for life, you know, but not
every wolf finds their mate. That's what I kept thinking about today, even
though I didn't want to." He lowered his eyes, even though he was lying down,
so that it seemed like he was staring at his feet. "Kate...when she first came
to town...I just felt so drawn to her, I thought maybe I'd finally found that
other half of me. Thinking about it now, knowing how everything turns out,
I...I know I was stupid to think that. Because...I hoped it was her, but I
doubted. I wasn't sure. When it's really your mate, you know. There isn't any
doubt. You just...know."
Stiles nodded, even though Derek wasn't looking at him. "So I guess wolves
don't do much casual dating?"
The question caused Derek to chuckle, which was what Stiles had been hoping
for. His eyes flicked up and over to Stiles' face, still bright in the dark.
"Sure, and some wolves prefer that, rather than looking for their true mate.
But I always wanted what my parents have. They always seem so happy together.
They're so strong in how they lead the pack because they...had each other..."
He trailed, and Stiles saw that familiar wetness forming in Derek's eyes as he
was reminded of the truth again, that they were gone now; everyone was gone.
Beneath the sheets, Stiles slid his hand over until he found Derek's. He
squeezed Derek's wrist. "That's a way better anchor than anger," he said.
Their eyes locked, unblinking. Stiles felt Derek's hand shift until it wasn't
just his wrist Stiles was squeezing, and their fingers laced together. It felt
way too intimate, holding hands in bed together, and with their faces so close
that Derek's eyes were hypnotic.
Derek moved so swiftly that one moment, he was staring into Stiles eyes, and
the next, he was on him. Their hands were still gripped tight but Derek's body
was closer, with his nose digging into Stiles' neck and the base of his
hairline, inhaling. "Being away from you...felt like...like my chest was too
tight and I couldn't breathe. All I could think about was seeing you again.
It's like...like you're my..."
"What?" Stiles questioned when Derek didn't complete the thought. Derek's nose
tickled, and Stiles felt hot and anxious from their sudden closeness, but he
didn't dare move—didn't want to.
Derek didn't answer, just sniffed Stiles more, nuzzling at his neck and
snuggling him like he was desperate for the touch—for Stiles' touch. "You smell
so good..." he breathed against Stiles' neck, keeping the hand locked between
them holding onto Stiles' hand, and gripping Stiles' T-shirt with the other.
His hips locked into place around Stiles' thigh and he pressed forward.
Stiles' gasped, because he could feel...he could feel...and Derek was...he
was...holy fucking crap. "Derek…?" Stiles said, so not squeaking out the name.
Derek pressed forward again into the side of Stiles' hip, and he was so
unexpectedly and undeniably hard. "I think...I think you're mine. Not...not
like the others, but...mine." Derek growled the final word, like he must be
halfway changed into the wolf.
Stiles shivered. He could already feel himself reacting. "Y-yours?" he said,
and then jumped when Derek stopped sniffing his neck only to lick at the spot
beneath his ear.
Derek lifted his head then, still pressed in tight against Stiles. "Mine," he
said again, smiling, like that answered everything. And maybe it did. He simply
looked down at Stiles, hips still subtly moving and pressing into Stiles'
thigh, and the hand that had been gripping Stiles’ T-shirt started to drift
south.
The progression was slow, tentative, like he was giving Stiles all the time in
the world to tell him to stop. Stiles' shirt was already hitched up from the
way Derek had been gripping it, so Stiles gasped again when Derek's fingers
traced down over his bare belly. It was when Derek kept going, heading for the
soft cotton of Stiles' shorts and the newly formed bulge beneath them that
Stiles acted.
Rational thought had entirely dissipated from Stiles' brain. He pulled his
trapped hand from Derek's grip, grabbed either side of Derek's face with both
hands, and tugged the other boy toward him until their lips met in a crash of
clumsy need.
Stiles didn't even try to pretend to go for something chaste. He opened his
mouth and licked his way inside of Derek's, mesmerized by the smoothness of
Derek's face, the velvety warmth of his tongue, and just how pliant and willing
he was to accept everything Stiles offered. Stiles had imagined so many times
what kissing Derek Hale might be like. This was so much better.
Derek's other hand paused at Stiles' belly as they kissed, nails scraping
gently, promisingly at the skin. "I could feel it right away," he gasped out of
the kiss, speaking on, but continuing to kiss Stiles over and over again
between words, "I just didn't understand...until now. I need to be around you.
When I'm not…it all just creeps up again, like I'm suffocating, and I can't
stop thinking about...the fire, and how everyone's gone, and…I just can't
breathe. But when I'm with you, I feel like I can handle anything, like it's
all going to be okay, like…I'm not broken. Like I'm...me."
Stiles was too stunned by this admission to say anything in reply but, when
Derek kissed him again, harder this time and deep, he didn't struggle or pull
away. He wanted to cloy Derek's dark emotions right out of him, heal him with
the kiss, and make everything better. He knew it wasn't that easy, knew so
well—too well—but he wanted to try. Because this was Derek, really Derek, and
Stiles had never really met him before.
Slowly, as they continued to kiss, Derek's hand began to move again, down over
the cotton of Stiles' shorts, where slightly shaky fingers traced the outline
of Stiles' cock, palmed him gently through the fabric, and squeezed.
"W-Wait!" Stiles gasped, biting back a yelp. He was turned on so much just from
their liplock, let alone Derek gyrating against his hip, and now... "H-Hang
on...okay? We n-need to...slow down. Because I'm g-gonna come like a twelve-
year-old...in about twenty seconds."
"Then do it..." Derek whispered hotly against his lips.
Stiles shuddered, because that kind of hot was so not fair. "Just...hold on a
minute, okay?" He reached down and grabbed Derek's wrist, which was attached to
the hand holding Stiles' cock through his shorts, and...wow—Stiles had amazing
self-control, and it freaking sucked. "This is too fast. Too...weird. It's not
like I don't...really want to, believe me, but...I just..."
Derek released Stiles and slid his hand back up to the safety of Stiles' belly.
His hazel eyes looked stormy. "I'm sorry. It all just kind of…overwhelmed me
when I realized…you're..." He didn't finish the sentence, but the meaning was
implied.
Stiles was Derek's...
Nope. Stiles could not think about that right now, because if he thought about
that then he would not be able to control himself. They shouldn't do this. Not
now. There were too many unknowns and complications.
Stiles really hated being the sensible one sometimes.
Derek looked lost and ashamed as he slid his hand completely away and scooted
his body back. "I'm sorry, Stiles, I just...thought..."
Stiles grabbed Derek's face again and forced those now distant hazel eyes to
look at him. "You thought right, dude, okay? So totally right. I kissed you,
remember? And the other evidence was…pretty apparent. I just...I feel like we
should take a rain check on the finale. Just for a while. Everything's kind of
fucked up right now, and...I wouldn't want to..."
"Take advantage of me?" Derek asked with a crooked smile, leaning into Stiles'
touch on his cheeks. "This isn't a soap opera," he added, "I wanted to be taken
advantage of. I have all these...intense feelings for you...and I don't know
what to do with them."
Oh, Derek knew what to do with them, and it was awesome, but Stiles just
couldn't shake the thought of older Derek coming back and kicking his ass for
this—and, for the record, their lives certainly felt like a soap opera half the
time, especially all the Scott and Allison parts.
Stiles couldn't think about any of this right now—he couldn't think, and that
was the problem. He didn't want to do anything he'd regret. That would ruin
everything.
"You and all your feelings are very welcome here," Stiles said. "So very
welcome. But can we just...put a pause on this for right now? Just a
pause...not a stop."
Derek's eyes softened and he nodded, lifting his own hands up to place over
Stiles' hands on his face. "Yeah. If I can kiss you again," he said, pulling
Stiles' hands down and tugging to pull Stiles in closer.
This kiss was softer, unhurried and less anxious without thoughts of pushing
for anything further. As much as Stiles enjoyed the taste and feel of Derek's
lips, the kiss helped calm him down, and he could physically feel his pulse
slowing by the time they were pulling apart.
"That's better. I thought your heart was going to explode for a second there."
Stiles laughed. Wolf cheater.
"So...should we just go to bed?"
"Yeah...we should."
"But...rain check, right?"
Stiles looked into Derek's eyes, still so close to his, their bodies touching
in so many small, seemingly insignificant places that made him that much more
comfortable and content. He smiled. "Definitely."
tbc...
***** School Hard *****
Chapter Summary
     Stiles tries to stay focused at school, but young Derek proves to be
     quite the distraction.
Chapter Notes
     I can't seem to stay away from a good Buffy reference. 'School Hard'
     was Spike's first episode. :-) And obviously the title of this fic
     was inspired by 'Once More with Feeling' which might be the name of
     the second part of the series when I get to it. Thanks again for
     reading!
Mr. Harris was the Devil. He was always a jackass, and seriously, how did that
guy even get a teaching license, but on the worst of days, he was literally the
Devil. Stiles was a good student—a straight 'A' student, even—and yet Mr.
Harris still singled Stiles out more than anyone else and called him a waste of
space.
Stiles was doing his best to ignore the Chemistry teacher, which wasn't
difficult since his mind had been wandering all morning. Derek had snuck out
early, just as Stiles was getting ready for school, though he had promised he
would see Stiles later, which Stiles hoped meant that Derek would take him up
on his offer to crash the school. If no one noticed creepy stalker older Derek
hanging around campus, they definitely wouldn't pay attention to a kid who
looked like he belonged there.
And then it was, just as Stiles was half-dozing in Chemistry, with his head
resting on his hand, gazing out the window into the parking lot, that he
spotted said occupying figure of all his mind's attention, leaning against the
side of his jeep. There were a handful of other students outside who were lucky
enough to have a free period, so a handsome teen in a borrowed red hoodie
didn't stand out at all. Except to Stiles.
The hoodie. Stiles' heart rate picked up simply from looking at the form of
young Derek wearing his red hoodie, one of his most prized possessions, which
he hadn't even known Derek had swiped. Stiles wasn't upset by this revelation
at all, either, but instead couldn't help thinking about how much the
sweatshirt would smell like Derek once he got it back.
Their eyes met across the parking lot into the Chemistry room, Derek probably
able to hear Stiles' erratic heartbeat from all the way outside. Derek smiled,
and Stiles' thoughts immediately strayed to the night before, when they had
been so tightly pressed together again, they had kissed, and Derek's hand had
trailed down Stiles' belly…
"Mr. Stillinski," interrupted Harris' aggravated—aggravating—voice.
Stiles jumped, because if he was called up to the board or something, he was so
screwed. He shifted in his seat, willing his natural reaction to go the hell
back down.
"Since you are so entranced by this beautiful cloudy and cold autumn day, why
don't you read starting from page 79?"
If Stiles hadn't already read the chapter on covalent bonds three weeks ago, he
might have been ruffled, but he could answer anything Harris threw at him after
he was finished reading out loud. Dick.
Once the mandated torture was over with, Stiles risked a quick glance outside
again, no longer spotting Derek beside the jeep but on his way inside the
school. Stiles' pulse quickened again. He remembered a time when his pulse
would pick up upon seeing Derek for wholly different reasons. He definitely
liked their new arrangement better.
Which was actually part of the problem.
*****
Stiles finally saw Derek up close after his last class had finished while he
was fishing around in his locker for his lacrosse gear. Derek was down the hall
talking with Boyd, Erica, and Isaac, the same carefree and smiley version of
the Alpha that Stiles had been growing so close to.
A lump formed in Stiles' throat as he watched them talking happily, casually,
without any care or fear of what was to come.
"Still hot," came Lydia's apathetic voice as she leaned against the locker
beside Stiles.
Stiles turned to see that Allison was also there, both of them staring down the
hallway at Derek.
Allison nodded, answering with just as much detachment. "Still hot."
Of course Stiles wasn't surprised that both of them had been filled in on
recent events, but their offhandedness annoyed him a little. "I'm so happy
hotness is the important focal point of the situation," he grumbled, dropping
his remaining books into the bottom of his locker loudly after tugging his
lacrosse bag out.
Lydia turned to regard him with a flip of her strawberry blonde hair. A potent
stare from her still made the blood rush up into Stiles' cheeks. "Considering
the way you were staring just now, I figured it was the important focal point."
Her green eyes shifted from Stiles to the other end of the hall where Jackson
was already heading off to practice. Lydia pushed away from the lockers with a
brief but pointed final look at Stiles, before hurrying off to catch up with
him.
Stiles continued staring into his locker for a moment, not really needing
anything else, but not too keen on moving right away either. Then he remembered
that Allison was still standing behind him. He turned to look at her and saw
how much more calculating her gaze on Derek had become, like she was trying to
work out some equation tattooed to the guy's head.
"Hey…you're not…planning on capitalizing on the situation in any…homicidal way,
are you?" Okay, so not Stiles' most subtle approach, but he had seen Allison
act pretty damn psycho recently.
Allison turned, shaken from her thoughts, and her expression softened. "I'm
fine. This Derek doesn't even remember anything. And…even if he did, I…I know
what really happened that night with…Mom. She was trying to kill Scott, and
when Derek went in to save him, the wolf's bane in the air…disoriented him. He
never…he never meant to bite her. He didn't even know he had. I believed him
when he told me that. Besides…he didn't force Mom to make the choice she did."
Yeah, the cowardly choice, Stiles thought, though of course he didn't comment.
Although, cowardly wasn't really the right word, because Stiles was pretty sure
he would never have the strength to go out that way, even if the Zombie
Apocalypse finally descended.
"That's…good, I guess," Stiles said. "You're part of the pack, you know. And we
like it that way."
An honest though small smile filled Allison's expression, and then she steeled
herself, pulling on a veil of some hidden, inner confidence, and headed off
toward Derek and the group of wolves since Scott had just joined them.
Once again, Stiles simply looked on, watching the way Derek moved and laughed,
and then lit up when Scott introduced him to Allison.
"Let me guess…Miguel's younger brother?"
Stiles jumped—again. What was with everyone sneaking up on him lately? He
turned to find Danny gathering his own lacrosse gear a few lockers down.
"Uhh…well…"
Danny smiled in his usual knowing, charming way. "Dude, I'm just teasing you.
Jackson told me everything. I didn't even know who Derek Hale was that first
time you conned me. You could have told me his real name."
A small part of Stiles wanted to be pissed at Jackson for just spreading their
deep dark pack secrets to all of his friends, but then Stiles had already
admitted to himself and others that Lydia and Danny were both more or less pack
themselves. "Yeah, well…live and learn. And right now we're going with 'Joe',
if anyone asks."
Danny grinned wider and nodded, shutting his locker as he hoisted his lacrosse
bag over his shoulder.
Stiles shot another quick look over at the group down the hall and caught Derek
staring at him. He immediately swallowed and licked self-consciously at his
lips.
"So…Joe, huh?"
"Yeah."
"And you've been in love with him how long?"
Stiles nearly bit his tongue, turning an unattractive gape upon Danny—and he
knew it was unattractive when he gaped like that, because he looked like a
suffocating fish. "Wh-what are you talking about? We're just…it's just…like…a
thing. A small thing. I'm not—"
"And how long has Joe been in love with you? Or should I say Miguel this time,
since I'm pretty sure he was giving you some intense looks back on that first
day—"
"Whoa, whoa, whoa," Stiles interrupted, holding both hands up, which unbalanced
his lacrosse bag from his shoulder and nearly caused it to flop to the floor.
"I wasn't even on Derek's radar before all this younger version stuff happened.
You're crazy."
Danny raised an eyebrow at him. "Oh yeah? Coz I'm pretty sure a werewolf
letting you pimp him out for information is a big sign of adoration. You
weren't exactly subtle in how you got me to help you out that day, and he just
played along."
"He smashed my face into my steering wheel for that later."
"Oh? Did he hurt you?"
Stiles considered that and had to admit that…well, no. Sure, it had hurt, but
if Derek had meant the attack seriously, he could have broken Stiles’ nose with
a move like that. Stiles hadn't even bruised. It was like Derek had planned the
moved perfectly to make sure Stiles mostly protected himself with his hands.
Like it was all just…for show.
Against any better judgment of his own, Stiles found his eyes drifting over to
the group again, not really noticing when Danny left. Derek was still casting
glances at him, not at all subtly, either, and Stiles felt his knees weaken at
the same time that the lump returned in his throat.
He didn't want to go over to the group. He didn't trust himself with Derek in a
group setting right now, for fear he'd make a complete fool of himself, because
his emotions were scattered and fighting for dominance in some whirling cyclone
of crazy. Part of him was just…angry, because after finding this feeling—the
intense combination of feelings that Derek brought out in him—he didn't know if
he could handle losing it.
So instead of risking humiliation or any number of other outcomes, Stiles
softly said, "Hey. Can you tell Scott and the other guys to get their asses in
gear? We gotta get to lacrosse practice."
Derek nodded, of course able to hear him down the hall and over the constant
din of the students, which made Stiles’ worry briefly that Derek might have
overheard his and Danny’s conversation, but he quickly banished those thoughts
for fear of hyperventilating.
"Thanks. I'll…see you there?" Stiles asked hopefully.
Derek nodded again, tilting his head a moment as if to ask, 'What's wrong?'
"I…nothing, I just…like knowing you'll be there." And that wasn't a lie; Stiles
wanted Derek to be there, to just…be there, with him, but he couldn't shake the
fear that everything was temporary, and his crap-life would soon rear back up
and take something that mattered away from him again.
Stiles hurried off to practice without looking back.
*****
Practice was equally awesome and a total disaster. A disaster because, for the
first twenty minutes, Stiles slipped and fell on his ass about ten times. The
sight of Derek in the stands with Allison and Lydia turned out to be more than
he could handle—at least as far as focusing any better than he normally did.
At one point he even tripped into Coach Finstock, which prompted the tactless
teacher to say, "Stop watching your girlfriend in the stands, Stillinski. We've
got a game coming up." Which, of course, had Jackson and Scott falling over
each other laughing.
Stiles didn't find it very funny.
But then, as practice continued, little by little something amazing started
happening. Instead of tripping over himself and acting like a complete idiot,
the sound of Derek's cheers alongside Allison and Lydia's started to have the
opposite effect on Stiles, and he was filled with a confidence he hadn't known
since that night he scored all those goals in front of his dad. He even got a
goal past Danny, which possibly made Stiles even prouder than scoring against
an opposing team.
By the time practice was over, Stiles being on first line no longer seemed like
a fleeting thing, and other players were constantly offering encouragement.
Even Jackson smacked Stiles good-naturedly on the back as they were heading
into the locker room.
Stiles was so high on the attention and adrenaline, he didn't notice that he
was being followed until a firm hand was suddenly around his mouth and he was
being pulled into the back corner by the lockers no one used. Panic flared in
Stiles' chest for only a second, before his mouth was released and he was
whipped around to face a smiling Derek.
"Dude, boundaries. Do you know how many times I've been kidnapped and knocked
unconscious?" Stiles reprimanded in a hiss, though he couldn't really bring
himself to be mad when Derek was looking at him like that while wearing his red
hoodie—like he wanted to bury his nose in Stiles' hairline or…lick him.
"You were awesome out there," Derek beamed. "You know…once you found your
feet."
"Hey! You were…distracting me."
"Yeah? Well, I can think of better methods of distraction." Derek tugged Stiles
in close by the front of his jersey. "I missed you," he whispered, and before
Stiles could stop him, they were kissing, hot and hurried in the dark corner of
the locker room. Derek's tongue felt so right against his…
Stiles snapped himself back to attention. "Derek," he hissed again, pushing on
Derek's chest as he pulled out of their kiss. "We're surrounded by
unenlightened teenage lacrosse players who do not need another reason to poke
fun at me."
"I thought the goalie was gay. And everybody loves him," Derek said matter-of-
factly, looking all smug with his lips slightly red and…moist.
"Yeah, well…still."
Derek just grinned wider and pulled himself in closer against Stiles, not
kissing him this time, but sniffing intimately along Stiles' neck. "God, you
smell amazing."
Stiles licked at the sweat on his top lip. "I just got done with practice. I
probably reek."
Derek sniffed deeper behind Stiles' left ear to refute that, and his hands
skimmed the edges of Stiles' jersey to the padding and skin beneath.
Stiles felt his pulse quickening again, like he was back on the field, only the
blood was definitely rushing somewhere inappropriate. "Down boy," he said,
pushing on Derek's chest again, though it was decidedly more unmovable this
time. "Later…okay? We'll go back to my house once I'm cleaned up."
Derek pulled away finally with a quirked grin. "Really?" he asked hopefully.
"Well, not to…I-I didn't mean…you know, but…well, maybe a little." Damn, Derek
made it hard to form coherent sentences. "But you're not getting anything if
you don't let me change and escape the complete and utter shame of being caught
back here like this, so…wait for me outside?" He contemplated batting his brown
eyes at Derek, but then figured he would just look like a twitterpated Bambi,
and that was not a manly expression.
After successfully dislodging himself from Derek, Stiles managed to sneak out
from the unused lockers to his own without anyone noticing, though the snickers
and whispers from the wolves—i.e. Scott, Jackson, Isaac, and Boyd—proved that
they could probably smell Derek and knew exactly what had gone on.
Stiles pointedly ignored them. Because, despite all the negative emotions and
warnings going off in the back of his brain, he liked this Derek, he loved
kissing him, and if he was destined to one day wake up from all of this like a
dream, then he should damn well enjoy it while he had it…right?
Right?
*****
Stiles had managed to banish his anxieties at least partially by the time he
and Derek were heading across the school parking lot toward his jeep. Sure,
there was an unspoken—well, also partially spoken—deal between them that their
make-out session would continue once they reached Stiles' house, but for now
they were chatting away like usual.
"I'm not sure Dad would be willing to give permission for a second viewing,
since I went into a pretty impressive tirade on the arsenal in Dredd's gun
afterward, but I'm telling you, dude, Dredd 3D was way awesomer than the
Stallone version."
Derek laughed. "Awesomer is not a word."
"It is when I say it," Stiles smirked back.
They laughed together as they continued their way across the parking lot.
Stiles looked ahead and noticed Allison waiting on one of the benches in front
of the school just a short distance away. He waited until her eyes settled on
the pair, and then waved.
Instantly, Allison's eyes filled with fear. Stiles couldn't fathom why she
would react that way…until her father's black SUV pulled up between them, only
a few yards away.
Stiles froze in place, heart rate jumping through the roof as the vehicle came
to a stop and Chris Argent casually climbed out to approach his daughter.
"Ready to go, sweetheart?"
Allison was an angel, a god damn angel, because she pulled on a smile and
swiftly nodded, hurrying for the SUV before Chris could turn and see—
"Chris?"
Fuck.
Derek's small voice cut through the air—and through Stiles' shaken resolve—like
a knife. Stiles could see the way the unexpected voice startled Chris, probably
with recognition, even before he started to turn. As soon as those intense blue
eyes landed on young Derek, Chris' expression fell into a very rare look of
shock, and Stiles knew that Chris was aware of exactly who he was looking at.
Bless Derek, for all his stupidity for opening his mouth. Stiles didn't dare
move, didn't know what to say or even how to speak just then.
"Derek…?" Chris gasped in disbelief, and then the gears started working visibly
behind Chris' eyes as his sharp hunter brain put recent events together. "The
witch…" he said. "It would seem Scott conveniently forgot to mention a few
things."
"Look, Mr. Argent," Stiles tried, holding his arm up just slightly as if to
guard Derek behind him, "I know you don't exactly trust Derek these days, but—"
"He doesn't?" Derek interrupted, his voice softer still and concerned. Then,
obviously devoid of any sense of self-preservation right now, he stepped around
Stiles until he was in front of him. "You don't?" he addressed Chris directly.
"But…what did I do?" Derek paused for a moment, and then Stiles imagined a
light coming on behind his eyes. "The fire…" he whispered, still looking at
Chris. "I blamed you. But…I know it wasn't you now. You're a good man. My
parents always said so. I know you didn't do it. I'm sorry…I'm so sorry.
We're…" he took a step closer to Chris, "…we're okay now, though, right? Stiles
said you help us sometimes. Everything's…okay now?"
Part of Stiles wanted to grab Derek by the shoulders, pull him into the nearby
jeep, and run. But Chris didn't look at all trigger happy. He looked…haunted.
He looked ashamed. He looked like…like he was seeing everything Stiles had been
seeing lately, and was remembering just how good of a boy Derek had been…but
wasn't allowed to remain after all the horrors that had happened to him over
the years with so little to hold onto.
And Chris knew—Stiles could see it on his face—that even if it wasn't his fault
directly, there was still so much blame to go around.
"Yeah…" Chris said softly after a long pause, nodding and allowing his
shoulders to relax. "We're okay. I'll…I'll see if I can get more men on
tracking down the witch. We'll…we'll fix this," he said, nodding again, like he
was trying to convince himself that somehow he could actually fix this—fix
Derek.
But Derek didn't understand why there was a heaviness that settled in Chris,
much the same as one was settling low in Stiles' gut too, he just stepped those
last few paces forward and held out a hand. Chris took it, shook it, and they
parted amiably, with Derek smiling wide enough to split his face when he
finally turned back to Stiles. Allison was smiling too, because she didn't get
it. She couldn't get it.
But Stiles did. And he wanted to scream.
*****
Stiles clenched his steering wheel too tightly the entire short drive to his
house, unable to look at Derek or even speak. Derek didn't push or ask what was
wrong until they had entered the house—which was blessedly empty of the
Sheriff, since he was still at work—and they climbed the stairs to Stiles'
bedroom.
Stiles threw his book bag onto the floor, feeling hot, and so angry, like he
wanted to just hit something.
"Stiles…?" Derek finally spoke to break the tension. "Is everything okay? Why
are you so upset?"
"Why?" Stiles shot back, whipping around and feeling the weight of all his
emotions surging through him like he might literally explode or fall prone to a
panic attack at any moment. "Because it's not fair! It's not real! This isn't
really you!"
Derek's eyes drooped, and he stood frozen and ashen in front of Stiles, which
immediately made Stiles want to take it all back.
He pressed his nails into his scalp and dragged them back through his short
hair. "I mean…I know it's you, the real you, the way you were when you were
sixteen. But at twenty-three, you're broody and angry, a huge loner most of the
time, emotionally disconnected, incapable of trusting anyone, even within your
own pack, and damn it, you earned that. It's your life and years got taken away
from you and it's not fair. It's not fair because…I know this will all go away
when you remember it all and turn back into that older you. Even getting to see
you smile and have the chance to handle all that awful loss a little better, I
know it's only a matter of time…before you're sourwolf again. I want to give in
and just enjoy whatever this is," he gestured vaguely between them, "but if I
do…23-year-old you is going to kill me when he gets back and it's just going to
be so much…harder."
The reaction Stiles expected from Derek was mirrored anger and grief, maybe for
Derek to yell back at him until an impressive screaming match erupted, but that
didn't happen. Derek just smiled. "It won't be like that, Stiles, even if I do
change back."
"Derek…"
"You're mine. You're my mate, Stiles. I can smell it. Feel it." He crossed the
room until he was right in front of Stiles, and his arms came up to grip
Stiles' shoulders. Stiles was entranced by the intensity and lack of anger or
grief in Derek's hazel eyes. "Don't you understand what that means? It means
the older me knew too, maybe from the first second he met you. And maybe…maybe
he pushes you away because…you're younger and he's scared and it's all been so
complicated, but he knows. The scent of you…drives me crazy. It's what I've
always wanted—someone just for me, like what my parents had, like what some
wolves spend their whole lives looking for. A true mate is the one person who
was made just for us. And you're mine…"
Stiles swallowed low in his throat. Licked his lips. Breathed. "But…"
"But nothing. If I know it now then I'll know it at any point in my life, no
matter what happens from here on out. And besides, what if there is no way to
turn me back? What if this is just it, both of us sixteen and getting this
chance to do things better a second time around? Because if it is…I don't want
to waste a single moment."
Then, right there in Stiles' bedroom, with so much emotion pulsing between
them, and so many uncertainties waiting in the wings, Stiles realized…he could
let it all go. He could let it all go easily, when Derek gripped the back of
his neck and kissed him.
And the last thing he wanted was to stop at a simple kiss.
tbc...
***** Fated *****
Chapter Summary
     And...porn. ;-)
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Kissing Derek was so surreal. There were these two overlapping figures of who
Derek was, intermingled in Stiles' brain: young Derek, who kissed soft and
slow, like he only had a little experience but was fully confident that he
could give Stiles what he wanted—he cared about what Stiles wanted. Then there
was older Derek, always present in Stiles' mind, because he had known Derek
first, known him longer, and he wondered—hoped—that older Derek would kiss like
this too, maybe a little firmer, with even more confidence because he was
freaking Derek Hale, but still, like this—like nothing in the world was more
important than Stiles.
Derek tasted sweet and fresh—untainted. He slipped his hands around Stiles'
waist, right around the edges of his shirt, the way he had in the locker room
with Stiles' jersey, teasing the skin beneath. Stiles reached out to do the
same, feeling his own red hoodie and the soft, thick fabric before he pushed
his fingers up underneath and felt up along Derek's lightly muscled stomach.
Derek hissed.
"Ticklish?" Stiles asked against Derek's lips.
"Sometimes. A little," Derek whispered back.
"I love learning new things about you," Stiles sighed, leaning his forehead
against Derek's as they caught their breaths. It was still so strange to stand
like that with Derek and have him be that slight inch shorter. "I just…want you
to remember this, if…I…I want you to remember."
Derek silenced him with another kiss, just a chaste capture of lips. Then his
hazel eyes fluttered open and he stared into Stiles' warm brown that were so
close. "We've known each other for…for months, right? I know for me…this
me…it's only been a few days, but…being with you…feels like I was always here,
like you were always here, like…"
"Like maybe we did this all before in another life, it's so damn easy?"
"Yeah…" Derek smiled, wide enough to show his crooked canines. "My mom
says…that's what it feels like…when you find your mate."
Stiles swallowed, trying to think of how to calm himself down enough to not
screw this up. He leaned back just slightly, his hands settled comfortably now
on Derek's bare waist beneath the hoodie and borrowed T-shirt. "So…if I'm your
mate…how does…you know…maintaining the pack work?"
Derek's brow furrowed, not understanding.
"You know…it's not like…we can have puppies," Stiles explained awkwardly.
Realization dawned and Derek laughed. "Maintaining the pack doesn't just
mean…puppies," he said, only scrunching his face in distaste a little at the
reference. "The pack can grow in all sorts of ways. Like the Bite. I'm
covered—I have my pack. It's not about taking over the world, you know. It's
about building a family and taking care of each other. I think this pack is
doing a pretty good job of that so far."
Stiles could think of a few examples of how they so weren't—but then, given the
circumstances, they should all be dead or worse by now, so he supposed they
were doing pretty damn good.
He also had to stop and ponder for a moment that Derek had basically just
confirmed that same-sex couples were totally A-Okay in wolf packs,
because…puppies and the Bite basically came down to the same thing—more
wolves—so the details didn't matter. The rest was just…fate. This was fate.
"And I don't…have to be a wolf, too?"
"Not unless you really want to be, but…I kind of like you just the way you
are."
Stiles' fingers faltered on Derek's skin, and he squeezed a little when he
resettled his grip, like he needed to be sure Derek was real. He'd never
thought anyone would like him just the way he was—not even Scott or Dad.
Slipping one hand around to the dip in Derek's lower back, Stiles tugged Derek
closer again, pressing firm against his lips and going in all the way—deep—to
feel the heat of his mouth and tongue. Derek was always so warm. Stiles felt
warm now, too, so warm…
Using his grip on Derek to turn them, Stiles pivoted and swayed into position,
before he finally pulled out of the kiss again and pushed on Derek's chest so
that he fell onto the edge of the bed. Derek looked pleasantly surprised as
Stiles climbed onto his lap, knees bent and thighs settling on either side of
Derek's hips. They were both already firm and straining against the
constriction of the denim between them.
Stiles sighed deeply as he settled into place, taking Derek's face in his hands
and pulling their lips together again. "I've always wanted to do this…" he
whispered, just before their lips met. He had, too. With Derek—older Derek.
He'd imagined it so many ways. Derek in Stiles' passenger seat in the jeep;
Derek in Stiles' desk chair; Derek on the veterinary exam table; and so many
other scenarios where Stiles would just climb onto Derek's lap, into Derek's
life, and lay claim.
Little mewls of pleasure formed in Derek's throat as Stiles rocked their hips
together. Sure, Stiles had envisioned other scenarios, where Derek pushed him
up against hard surfaces and had his wicked way with him, but…Stiles preferred
this, preferred the part of Derek that would surrender and let someone else do
all the work for a change, which Stiles knew—he knew—was still inside of the
older Derek somewhere.
But young Derek was here now, and he gave in completely, without even a raised
eyebrow of protest. He slid his hands around to Stiles' back, to the edge of
his jeans, and slipped inside Stiles' boxers to the soft skin and curve of his
ass beneath.
Stiles was so in over his head. He wanted this, all of it, right now, and no
sensible part of his brain was functioning anymore to stop him.
His breath came in heavy pants when he let his lips rest, forehead against
Derek's again as he unzipped the hoodie and pushed it from Derek's shoulders.
The shirt underneath said 'DON'T PANIC'.
Damn Hitchhiker's and its perfect timing, Stiles thought.
"Stiles…" Derek breathed out, pupils blown and cheeks flush as he looked up at
him.
"Umm…you've…done this before, right?"
Derek smiled and shook head.
Crap, that meant Kate had been his first. That meant…Stiles could be Derek's
first.
Stiles stared at the words on Derek's shirt and tried to take them to heart,
taking in slow, deep breaths.
"Stiles…it's okay," Derek said, slipping his hands out of Stiles' jeans and
pulling Stiles closer by the waist. "I want to. I want to. Please…"
Everything in Stiles' brain was rapidly turning to mush. He tried to think
through the process for this. Step 1) remove clothes. Step 2) touch Derek
everywhere. Step 3) lube.
Did he have anything for lube? Then Stiles remembered the warming oil he had
originally gotten for a banged up shoulder after lacrosse practice—that's
totally what it had been for originally. He may have found other uses since.
"You aren't required to do complex physics equations, you know," Derek smiled
up at him.
Stiles focused on the matter at hand, on Derek's hands on his waist, and his
hands on Derek's shoulders. His jeans felt painful; he wanted to take them
off—right now.
Deciding against any attempt at coherence, Stiles opted for a returned smile,
and went for the hem of the 'DON'T PANIC' T-shirt, lifting it over Derek's head
and off. Stiles tore his own shirt off as well, tossing it behind him somewhere
into the abyss of the room. Derek was a little more filled out than Stiles was,
but Stiles didn't feel as skinny or scrawny as he had always imagined he would
in comparison to the older Derek. He actually felt pretty good, considering
Derek stared at his bare chest like it was a tasty treat.
Derek took the initiative and pulled Stiles' into an embrace, nuzzling his nose
into the base of Stiles' hairline, which was strangely familiar and comforting.
Then Stiles peeked down over Derek's shoulder at his back, and grinned a
little—the tattoo was there, but Stiles wondered if Derek even knew about it,
since he had always assumed it had been something Derek got done later in
life…in memoriam.
Stiles wanted to press his hips down into Derek's, but his jeans were too
tight; he had to get out of them. "Slide back," he said, and they scooted up
the bed, disentangling from each other to undress the rest of the way, only
Stiles wasn't fully prepared for Derek to just…slide his shorts right down with
his jeans, exposing his very prominent hard-on to the room, with only a small
dusting of dark hair trailing up to below his navel.
Derek laid there, propped up on his side, wholly comfortable being naked, while
expectantly watching Stiles shimmy out of his jeans beside him. Stiles was
lying on his bed next to a naked Derek Hale. He quickly pulled his shorts off
too.
It was weird, and so awkward, and Stiles thought he might have a stroke with
how his heart was racing. But then Derek reached for his face, bringing the
attention back to their eyes and just them, there together. Derek kissed him,
deeply again, like he wanted to climb right inside of Stiles, and really, that
didn't sound bad at all. Their bodies formed together naturally, like some
magnetic pull, and the clashing of their erections made Stiles' shudder.
Stiles had to do something or he'd lose his nerve—maybe his mind. So he pressed
a palm to Derek's chest and let his hand drift slowly lower, reminiscent of
last night, when Derek had trailed bold fingers over Stiles' then still covered
cock. Derek's skin was burning hot when Stiles reached below his waist and
wrapped his fingers tight.
"Stiles," Derek said in protest, or maybe just surprise, bucking forward into
Stiles' hand.
"I can't believe I'm touching you…" Stiles murmured aloud, staring down the
length of their bodies at how they were tangled, and how his hand was—
"Well…touch me, then."
—not moving, but should be. "Sorry," Stiles said, since he didn't know what
else to say, but at the same time, he let his hand move, loosening and then
tightening his fingers, and stroked.
The gasp Derek released was the most beautiful sound.
Stiles continued on, trying to think of this in the same way as when he touched
himself, imagining the speed and tightness he liked, and applying that to
Derek. It definitely seemed to be working, but Derek was too dry, even with
leaking precum helping Stiles' strokes, so he removed his hand and lifted it to
his mouth to lick a strip of wetness.
Suddenly, Stiles tongue was in Derek's mouth instead of licking his own palm,
and he didn't really know how that had happened, but his hands were pinned up
by his shoulders, and Derek's body was half sprawled atop his with Derek's now
familiar firmness pressing into Stiles' thigh. The precum that remained on
Derek made Stiles' skin itch as he thrust against him.
Derek pulled away to let Stiles gasp for breath only to slither down his body,
low enough that Derek's head was…was...his lips were…
"Shit, you're…gonna kill me, I swear," Stiles gasped out. "Seriously, you
don't…you don't have to…"
"Shut up, Stiles," Derek said with his wide grin, and somehow it was such a
normal Derek thing to say that Stiles imaged the older Derek there, lips
parting as they descended on him, and…it wasn't heartbreaking or nerve-wracking
to think that way. Stiles didn't want one or the other version of Derek—he
wanted Derek, and everything that entailed.
Derek's naturally higher temperature meant that the inside of his mouth was
just…hot, making the heat in Stiles' belly grow too hot too fast to match it,
and he had to struggle to keep his hips from surging upwards. He glanced down
again to find Derek's eyes closed, but when they opened…they flickered red, as
he inhaled deeply of the hairs at the base of Stiles' cock. If Derek had a
thing for Stiles' scent then that was definitely where it was most
concentrated.
Seeing Derek so enthralled by what he was doing made the whole act that much
sexier. And the more Derek's mouth wrapped around him, with Derek's tongue
stroking at the underside of his cock, the more Stiles just wanted to grab
Derek and…and…
Stiles gripped Derek's shoulders tightly, urging him to look up. "In…in the
drawer…there's…" He nodded, as if that alone finished his sentence, which it
seemed to, since Derek nodded in reply.
Leaving Stiles' body unfairly cold on the bed, Derek crawled over and opened
the drawer in the nightstand, smiling when he found the small bottle with an
orange cap and held it up.
"I had this…shoulder injury…"
Derek eyed Stiles with humored skepticism.
"It's been useful," Stiles added. "Come here…" He reached for Derek, urging the
other boy to return to his side. Stiles didn't know how to make this next
decision, so he was glad that Derek had the lube and would have to make the
decision for them.
Which was why it surprised Stiles and sent a little jolt of electricity down
his body when Derek pressed the bottle into his hand. Stiles licked his
lips—stared at the bottle. He opened it and poured some into his hand like he
had meant to lick his palm before, and immediately reached down to grip Derek
with the silky liquid. It was warming oil, and Derek was already so hot.
Stiles turned in toward Derek, scooting closer, and let his erection slide
against Derek's and into the heated oil. He wanted to just rut forward into
that sweet friction, harder and harder until he came.
"Stiles…" Derek said softly, gently taking Stiles by the wrist. "It's okay." He
pulled Stiles' hand lower, past the velvety skin beneath his cock…to the
waiting opening between his legs.
Stiles' heart rate slowed—maybe stopped. He hadn't anticipated this. At the end
of the day, he had always assumed their positions would be reversed.
Because…because he trusted Derek, and he just wasn't used to the idea of Derek
ever being trusting enough of someone else for…that. Not that Stiles was about
to argue.
He let his fingers, which were already coated in the oil, press gently against
the small, budded entrance. He kept his eyes locked on Derek's as he pressed a
finger inside, mesmerized by the whole idea of what they were about to do, and
how Derek's brow scrunched, and then relaxed, and then his eyes rolled back as
Stiles stroked his finger along a curve.
The tight space was so smooth, made slick by the oil, and stretched wider at a
slow but steady pace as Stiles worked his finger around. The angle was
difficult, but he wanted to be able to keep contact, their erections both
pressing into each other's hips as he kept his hand wedged between them…and
slipped a second finger in.
Derek moaned and moved in time with Stiles' internal strokes, the oil making
them slippery and sticky everywhere below their waists. Eventually Stiles
pulled his hand away, adding more oil to his hand and coating himself with
tender tugs—since he didn't trust that a few good pulls wouldn't send him right
over the edge.
When Stiles was ready, and Derek looked so relaxed and ready, Derek rolled onto
his stomach and lifted his hips. The very position—seeing Derek Hale in that
position—sent little quivers through Stiles’ belly. He lifted up onto his knees
behind Derek. At first, just to check how prepared Derek was, Stiles returned
his two fingers and worked them around, amazed at how much more open Derek felt
simply by being in this new position. He slipped in a third finger, confident
that Derek was well-prepared, even if Stiles wasn't entirely sure if he was
prepared, because this was him and Derek, and under these crazy circumstances,
neither of them had ever done this before, and if Stiles took too long to think
about all the reasons this might not be a good idea, he would totally lose his
nerve.
So he didn't think, he just pressed himself against Derek and pushed in, slow
and agonizing once the tightness started to surround him. He listened for
Derek's breathing, for every sound Derek was making to be sure it was still
okay. Derek gasped and moaned and finally pleaded with Stiles to just do it,
and there was a growl tinging his voice right up until a roar left him as
Stiles stroked home.
Stiles formed himself over Derek's back, pressed his face against the tattoo,
and breathed in, feeling the dampness of Derek's skin, and the intense heat
between them that was almost more than he could bear with the added warming
oil. Then, gripping Derek's hips, he pulled back…and pushed in again, starting
a steady rhythm that he kept tight control over in case Derek made any noise or
gesture to indicate he wasn't enjoying this.
Stiles had to grin at the constant stream of 'very much enjoying this' that
soon started falling from Derek's lips. Making Derek moan and ramble out
incoherent mumblings of words and, occasionally, Stiles' name was like no other
ego boost in the world. And Derek felt amazing. The tightness, the heat, the
ease with which they connected…
Letting his hand trail over the tattoo a moment, Stiles' returned both hands to
gripping Derek's hips, feeling the moment of completion already rapidly
approaching—he was just happy he had lasted this long. But he wanted to know if
Derek was there with him.
Reaching around Derek's hips with one hand, Stiles found Derek's oily and
super-heated cock with his fingers, only wrapping them tight for a moment and
pumping once before Derek's breath hitched, and Stiles felt added heat strike
his hand.
Stiles grinned wider, lifted up again, and let his pace pick up. He was still
conscientious of Derek, still struggling to not be too rough, but even after
having already come himself, Derek moaned loudly in response to every thrust,
and Stiles was soon spilling out his release too.
He collapsed against Derek's back, feeling sticky and exhausted. "You know…"
Stiles said, "…I think…you might be the best thing…that ever happened to me."
They panted together a bit longer, until they had the strength to roll into
positions next to each other on the bed. Derek's hazel eyes looked back at
Stiles with such adoration, Stiles felt his heartbeat stutter.
Derek's smile was so sated—so happy. "I think I love you too," he said.
tbc...
Chapter End Notes
     Seriously, you guys rock! So glad you're enjoying. More soon!
***** The Witch's Return *****
Chapter Summary
     Stiles' basking in the afterglow is interrupted as Chris tracks down
     the witch...and everything changes.
Chapter Notes
     I want to add a quick note here that...if the witch's reasoning or
     purpose in this story seems lacking to you, it is intentional. There
     is more to her than you think, which will be addressed by the end. :-
     )
Stiles hummed as the warm water from the shower rushed over his sore muscles
and sticky skin. He and Derek had more or less wiped themselves clean the night
before, then had finished their night with a few more issues of Marvel Zombies
and some True Blood episodes, since Stiles had promised Joe Manganiello all
those days ago. Finally, they had fallen asleep early, before Stiles' dad had
even gotten home.
Sure, his dad had probably checked in on them and noticed that 'Joe' was
sleeping in Stiles' bed again, but his dad was currently still asleep while
Stiles got ready for school, so there was always that chance he could avoid the
coming 'talk' until another day. Not that he felt guilty, or regretful—not at
all. That kind of surprised Stiles, but…he really didn't feel anything but
contentment.
He spent his time in the shower thinking of how they could make this sixteen-
year-old Derek transition work. It couldn't be too hard to get Derek enrolled
at school. It's not like Stiles hadn't forged paperwork before. Derek could
stay at the den some nights and…probably with Stiles other nights, and they
could make it work. They'd all be legal adults soon enough anyway. And, in the
meantime, the pack would be that much stronger, Stiles was sure of it. Besides,
weird as it still was for Stiles to think about most days, there was always
Peter to be the adult in the pack, once he returned from dealing with the
Alphas.
Explaining the situation to Peter was going to be…interesting.
But Stiles didn't want to think about that right now, or any other hurdles. He
felt amazing. His chemical balance was still highly skewed in the 'pleasure
zone' direction, and he was fine with that. He had actually had sex last night.
With Derek. Life couldn't get any better.
Stiles was still all smiles when he returned to his bedroom, changed for the
day, with his short hair already almost dry. Then he saw Derek, who had
showered first and was wearing yet another borrowed outfit from Stiles, sitting
on the edge of the bed holding Stiles' phone.
He wasn't smiling.
"What's up?" Stiles prompted, hurrying over to the bed and letting his damp
towel slip from his fingers to the floor. "Who—?"
"Scott…texted you," Derek choked out—choked, like there was something caught in
his throat. He kept his hazel eyes on the carpet. "Chris found the witch.
Well…not found, but…they know she's in the woods, near my…what's left of my
house. They're going to try closing in on her today. I…I'm supposed to meet
them out there."
Stiles' happy homemaker daydream crumbled around him and he felt a leaden
weight settle in his chest and stomach. He had honestly thought that the witch
was gone, that this might actually turn out to be permanent. He was such an
idiot.
With as little strain as he could manage, Stiles pulled on a smile, slipping
his hand to rest over Derek's, which were both still clutching Stiles' phone.
"Hey…it's okay. Finding her doesn't mean—"
"It doesn't mean I'll change back," Derek finished for him, finally glancing up
and to the side at Stiles, low from beneath his long, dark lashes. "I know. And
even if I do…" He sat up straighter suddenly, and let Stiles' phone tumble to
the carpet as he grabbed Stiles' hands in his. "I'll remember. And it'll
matter. This matters to me. So much…I…I refuse to believe anything else."
Derek had seemed so sure last night, but Stiles' wasn't surprised to find that
he was a little worried, too, that maybe this could all unravel.
Stiles grabbed the front of Derek's T-shirt. "And hey…if it turns out
otherwise…I'll just key your Camaro."
Derek's eyes scrunched, then widened as he chuckled. "Wait…that Camaro at the
den is mine?"
Stiles laughed, but it was strange how the sound and action didn't really bring
much humor with it.
They went for each other at the same time, Stiles tugging Derek closer by the
grip he had on Derek's shirt, and Derek grabbing either side of Stiles' face,
until their lips met. It shouldn't feel this desperate, this intense and
Broadway musical easy—people didn't really fall in love like this, did they?
Maybe with wolves, with mates, it was different, Stiles didn't know, but he
knew that kissing Derek felt like breathing, and being without him felt like
drowning, and he'd had enough of Derek Hale and drowning to last a lifetime.
*****
It was clearly a conspiracy—time was moving at half-speed today, no joke.
Stiles tapped his pen against his Economics book, watching the clock, like he
had been all day. He hated that Chris Argent was so much better at this crap
than they were. He had insisted that only Allison, Scott, and Derek join the
hunters in the woods, because all of them being missing from class at the same
time would garner too much suspicion.
Well…yeah, but damn it, Stiles wanted to be there. He could tell that Isaac,
Erica, and Boyd all felt the same way whenever he saw them in class or in the
halls—and Jackson too, even if he didn’t outwardly show it as much—but there
was nothing any of them could do until the bell rang.
Stiles had been receiving periodic updates from Scott or Allison all day, which
didn't tell him much, other than that they were closing in, but playing it safe
to make sure the witch didn't get away. It was taking all freaking day to track
exactly where she was in the woods and corner her effectively, and Stiles was
already losing his mind over thoughts about just what would happen if and when
they caught her.
Finally, the last bell rang, and since Stiles had no plans to attend lacrosse
practice, no matter what Chris had said, he bolted for his jeep. He wasn't
really surprised that all three passenger doors open and slammed shut again
with the arrival of the wolves before he could pull out of the parking lot.
Seeing their eager faces was comforting—it felt right for the whole pack to be
in on this together, even if they had to suffer the complications of
teenagerdom.
Derek needed them, and that was just the end of it.
Stiles knew the road to the Hale house woods so well…it was kind of creepy
actually how naturally he drove there without even really thinking about what
turns he was taking. He knew just where the hunters would have parked, too, and
found them easily, spotting Chris' SUV as the most familiar, and parking
alongside it.
No one was around to tell them where the hunting party had gone, but before
Stiles could question the wolves on what might be the best course of action,
they all shifted into their snarly selves and went dashing into the trees in
opposite directions.
The most awful sense of déjà vu surged through Stiles as he stood there by the
cars, alone, wondering where his pack was, and having no real assets he could
offer in this fight. He wasn't a wolf or a hunter. He didn't have any skills
that could aid in a fight like this. But he couldn't just hold back, either. He
wasn't the freaking getaway driver!
Stiles paced in front of his jeep, thankful that it was still light enough out
that he could see through the trees a ways, but he didn't see anyone heading
his direction. They were all deep in the woods somewhere, and once again, he
was the odd man out.
Screw that.
Hurrying around to the back of the jeep, Stiles threw the hatch open and
grabbed the baseball bat he had tucked under the seats. Weapon of choice in
hand, he made a quick circle to get his bearings, and then dove into the trees.
He knew the road to the woods well enough, but the woods themselves were a
labrynth, and yet…somehow he felt assured that he was going the right
way—toward Derek, though not necessarily toward the witch.
Stiles' phone buzzed in his pocket. He paused to look, finding a message from
Allison that they were certain they were only minutes from having the witch.
Stiles texted back that he and the others were there and heading into the
trees, so if anything bad went down…yell. Stiles didn't bother to check his
phone again, even after it buzzed a few more times. He could feel Derek only a
few yards ahead.
That realization brought Stiles up short. He could feel Derek—where Derek was.
He had never experienced that before. They hadn't really discussed much more
about the whole mate thing, but Stiles was starting to wonder if…consummating
the relationship came with a few extra perks—and the initial perks had been
pretty damn awesome all on their own.
Dismissing this new revelation, Stiles barreled ahead, toward the dull pulse of
‘Derek’ urging him through the trees. He rushed through a final dense patch
into a small clearing and finally saw him—Derek, alone, sniffing along the
perimeter in all his wolfed out glory.
He turned with a start toward Stiles, as if he had been sniffing out him,
seeming just as stunned by whatever new connection this was between them. Then
he smiled, and even though the grin held fangs, it was gorgeous.
"Stiles," Derek said in a hushed tone as he shifted human, "what are you doing
here? We almost have her."
"I know. Allison told me, but…I needed to be here."
They met in the center of the clearing, and Derek glanced down at Stiles' bat
in amusement.
"Hey, some of us don't have claws," he shrugged.
Derek nodded, like it was a good idea, regardless of how it had made him smirk.
A part of Stiles wanted to embrace Derek, or maybe steal a quick kiss, but that
was just the kind of distraction that would end them up in a boiling cauldron,
so he thought better of it.
"Chris had everyone make a wide perimeter, and we've been slowly closing in. I
can smell her now, not far from here." Derek looked unsure as he spoke, though
not unsure of his senses.
Stiles gripped Derek's arm and squeezed, just for a moment. "It's okay," he
said, and a million other words bubbled up in his brain, but none of them were
really all that comforting, so he just smiled and stepped back, gesturing for
Derek to lead the way.
Stiles held the bat at the ready, and Derek returned to his wolfish form, as
they made their way along the clearing's edge and then into the thick of trees
again. They soon came upon a natural winding path, narrow, but wide enough that
there was room for another two people between them, as they walked on either
edge to better keep their eyes open for any signs of the witch.
Of course, Stiles had no idea what she actually looked like. It had always been
just a sense of her, and that one brief moment when Stiles had heard her voice.
If he saw her through the trees, would he even know her versus one of the
random hunters Chris had brought along?
Another clearing started to open up in front of them, and just as Stiles was
stepping into it, he heard Derek hiss, "Stiles, stop!"
A chill raced up Stiles' spine as he froze in place. He looked ahead…and there
she was.
"So you're the cause of all this trouble," she said, just standing there in the
center of the new clearing, arms folded. She looked so normal. She looked like
she could be an older sister or cousin of Lydia's, actually, which Stiles tried
really hard not to focus on, but he couldn't help it whenever he saw
strawberry-blonde hair.
Her reddish curls hung long about her shoulders, her blouse bedazzled pink with
a pink leather jacket, and jeans—which were thankfully blue. She really did
paint a sort of modern portrait of Glinda, which made Stiles wonder if the
whole look was on purpose, a ruse, and not how she really looked at all.
Derek and Stiles both slowly entered the clearing, parting at the opening to
come at her from either side, without even having to explain anything to each
other—Stiles just knew what Derek wanted him to do, which was seriously
awesome.
"Uhh…aren't I supposed to be saying that to you…Glinda?" Stiles shot back at
the witch, holding up his bat as menacingly as he could. He was careful not to
get too close to her, and made a quick sweep of his eyes to see if any of the
others were nearby, but it was too dark now to see very far through the thick
trees.
Glinda grinned—since Stiles had decreed that that should officially be her name
from now on. "Now, now…I was only trying to help." Her green-eyed gaze flicked
from Stiles over to Derek on her other side. "I think you've learned enough
now…Derek Hale. But will it stick…?" She raised a hand toward Derek, who looked
feral and menacing with a snarl on his face and his red eyes flashing. But he
immediately clutched his chest and began to scream as she curled her
outstretched fingers into a fist.
Stiles instinctively flinched forward, meaning to move to Derek's side, but the
witch turned back to him and shot her other hand in his direction.
"I don't think you want to interfere right now, sweetheart."
Stiles hesitated, but Derek was hunched over on the ground now, still
screaming, keening out this awful howl. Stiles didn't know what to do, but he
knew he couldn't just stand there, so he rushed forward toward the witch with
his bat, and started to swing.
She waved her outstretched hand like swatting a fly and, before Stiles could
get the bat all the way around, he flew backward, landing hard against a tree
before crumbling to the ground, winded. He struggled to roll over onto his
back, gasping up at the dark sky and the dizzying sway of leaves, the bat lost
somewhere nearby.
"Stiles!" Derek called after him, his voice a strange mixture of that pained
howl, the way younger Derek normally sounded, and…a little bit of older Derek
too.
Stiles' vision continued to blur around him as he blinked skyward, trying to
force his breath to return and his mind to clear so he could sit up and do
something. Distantly, he could hear Derek still whimpering in pain, then there
was a disturbance of leaves, and thuds, like Derek and the witch were fighting,
but Stiles still couldn't quite move.
When Stiles finally thought he could roll over and push up onto his knees, he
heard a louder thud nearby and suddenly…Derek was rolling into him, half like
he had been thrown there, and half as if he was trying to protect Stiles. Derek
ended up sprawled over Stiles' still prone body, hands on either side of
Stiles' shoulders, holding himself up.
Stiles gasped as his vision began to clear, and the first thing he saw was
hazel, and then…stubble. He realized just how much of the sky was being blocked
by Derek's larger body, and the otherwise déjà vu of the moment suddenly
cleared up like his vision.
"Derek…?"
Derek's adult face looked down at him and, for a moment, his expression looked
relieved and anguished all at once. Some part of him still looked so young
somehow, like maybe younger Derek was looking out from behind those older eyes.
Then Derek turned his head toward the witch, and his face fell into a familiar
snarl of rage, eyes flashing red again as his fangs lengthened. Derek moved off
of Stiles into a crouch between him and the witch, guarding Stiles with claws,
fangs bared, and eyes blazing.
Stiles could move, but now he was too stunned, too in awe to do more than turn
his head.
"People have to earn your trust, Derek, I understand that, but once they do…you
are allowed to give it to them," said the witch, no longer looking upon them
with any sense of aggression. Her hands hung limply at her sides.
Stiles forced himself to sit up, looking around Derek to see how casually
Glinda was standing there. Her smirk fell away and she looked entirely serious
as she spoke on.
"You are not prepared for what is coming. None of you are. But…with a strong
enough pack, if you can be a strong enough leader…you might get there. Tell me,
little wolf…" she said, with a single, confident step forward, "…have you
learned enough from your past yet?"
Stiles moved his attention up to Derek to watch for his reaction, but he
couldn't really see Derek's face from his fallen position. He was surprised
when Derek's claws retracted and he stood up straighter rather than defensively
low, though he didn't move from standing guard in front of Stiles.
"You did all of this…just to…" Derek shook his head. It was so strange to hear
his deeper, older voice again, and that familiar, brooding tone. "I remember,
okay? I get it. But you're not getting a thank you."
Glinda huffed and crossed her arms again. "Didn't expect one. But if I think
you're ever starting to forget this lesson…I'll be back." With a quick glance
down at Stiles, she smiled, then turned on her heels to walk away.
"Wait! Who the hell—"
She faded away—literally vanished from sight like a phantom—before Derek could
finish his accusing call.
Stiles sat there in the grass, inches from Derek's legs, wondering if his life
had actually been put on pause, or if it only felt like everything had gone
still. He didn't dare move, or look up again at Derek—older Derek, who was back
now, and right there, and damn it, Stiles needed to calm down or he wouldn't be
able to breathe.
"Stiles…?"
Stiles closed his eyes tight a moment, but he knew he couldn't will this away.
Slowly, he lifted his head.
Derek had turned to look down at him, but his expression was…blank, unreadable.
He held a hand down to Stiles without saying anything more, and gripped it
tight as he helped Stiles to his feet. Stiles had to marvel for a moment at how
much more Derek's hand encompassed his own, and he found himself staring at
that simple connection, that…change, until Derek cleared his throat and pulled
his hand away.
A tree had collided with the back of Stiles' head, so he felt a little dizzy,
and nauseous, but he wondered if that might be because of something other than
a concussion.
He looked up slowly again, this time finding Derek's familiar but…different
now…hazel eyes staring back at him, looking down at him again rather than up.
For a brief, ridiculous moment, Stiles wondered if Derek would just kill him
now for everything that had happened, out here in the woods, without any of the
others around to bear witness. But Derek, standing there in jeans that had
popped their top button and a borrowed T-shirt that was stretched and pulling
at the seams, moved in closer to Stiles, leaned down to rest his forehead
against Stiles' forehead, and breathed in.
Stiles shuddered, reaching up without thinking to grip Derek's arms tight. All
at once the contact seemed to shock something inside of Derek and his eyes
widened. He gasped, backpedaling suddenly like he hadn't meant to do that, like
he wasn't sure what to do, and shaking his head, his gaze distant and his
expression…raw.
"Please," Stiles said, not even really thinking, just seeing it all coming
apart at the seams like that damn stretched T-shirt Derek was wearing, and he
couldn't bear to let it happen if he had to witness it. He reached for Derek,
who was too far away now to touch. "Derek…"
"I…" Derek tried to speak, faltering as he stumbled another step or two
backwards, eyes swimming with moisture and indecision and memories…
"Stiles!"
"Derek!"
"Hey!"
A chorus of voices preceded the appearance of the others—all of them, the whole
pack, as if they had sensed as one when Derek changed back. Isaac, Erica, and
Jackson came from one direction, and Scott and Boyd appeared from another,
fulfilling the rest of Stiles' déjà vu, like maybe the last few days had been
nothing but a wonderful dream.
This time, Stiles stepped back, away from Derek, giving him room as the others
came in closer to surround them. The wolves—Derek included—seemed to forget
Stiles then as they sniffed the air. Derek looked so silly, straining within
Stiles' clothes, and Jackson even dared to snort as he took in Derek's adult
form. But Derek didn't glare or reprimand. His face took on a brief expression
of completeness as he breathed in his pack.
It wasn't childish for Stiles to feel a wave of jealousy over that—he was
entitled—but he tried to hide it as his fists clenched tight at his sides. A
small, terrible part of him almost wanted Derek to just…yell at them, be the
old Derek again, if he was going to push him away. Then, when Isaac did the
brave, foolish thing he had done once before, and pounced on Derek with
encasing arms, seeing Derek melt into the touch and allow it…just made Stiles
feel empty.
They could have him. Just not him.
The pack came together like an inhale of air, and Stiles was pulled in with the
others, forming an insane pack group hug around Derek like they had all those
days ago. And, like before, Stiles heard Derek's breath hitch, though the sound
wasn't followed by any sobs. The pack was bonding without need for words, just
with scent and touch. Stiles was there too, but he was still on the outside
looking in, not really pack in quite the same way, and a part of him wanted so
desperately to pull out of the others' hold.
When he caught Derek turn toward him and steal a whiff of his short hair, only
for Derek's brow to scrunch up in anguish and…regret, Stiles couldn't take it
anymore, and the exhale out of the mass embrace couldn't come soon enough.
Stiles fumbled backward on unsteady feet when they all finally parted.
Before, he couldn't look at Derek; now, all he could do was stare at him, and
he knew his stare was accusing, much as he struggled to hide it.
But Derek wouldn't look back at him.
"Okay…enough of this," Derek said to the others, pulling himself together with
a deep breath, and looking to each of them—other than Stiles. "Everyone…good?"
The others all seemed so content, since Derek had allowed the intimate contact.
Then Jackson said, "Sure…as long as we can have a few more lessons like we did
the other day. I kind of liked the younger you."
Stiles watched closely, but Derek didn't betray himself with any more waves of
regret—not toward the others. He attempted a smile, and it looked like a smile,
not one of adult Derek’s more common smirks. "I can do that. I can do…better.
Just don't expect…everything to be the way it was." Derek wasn't looking at
Stiles as he said that, but Stiles felt the words in his gut like a punch,
meant only for him.
He felt numb, and dizzy again, and he could feel the panic creeping up his
spine, the air deflating from his lungs…
There was a rustle in the trees, and each of the wolves turned and dropped into
a defensive stance, but the witch wasn't coming back. Chris, Allison, and a few
other hunters appeared out of the darkness. There was a moment of silence, then
Chris and Derek locked gazes, and for the first time, neither of them looked
challenging toward the other. Instead, they shared a nod of understanding.
Even Chris got that much.
Stiles was in a daze, not really aware of how long the hunters remained before
taking off again, not really seeing how Allison stayed behind to join Scott,
nor did he hear when Derek told the others that it was time to go home.
He couldn't breathe, he couldn't think, he couldn't…see, he realized, moments
before the full brunt of the panic attack overtook him, and he passed out onto
the ground.
tbc...
***** Fallout *****
Chapter Summary
     Stiles comes back to consciousness and has to deal with the fallout
     of adult Derek's return.
Chapter Notes
     I spent a lot of extra time editing this next part, and I am most
     nervous to send it out into the aether. I hope you all enjoy! One
     more part after this, but I plan to eventually return with a second
     story to the series to tie off some loose ends. Thanks for reading!
The cascade of voices around Stiles were more irritating than comforting:
demands if he was alright, shouts of his name, tittering over whether or not he
had a concussion since he had been thrown against the tree, and whether or not
they should bring him to the hospital.
Stiles was somewhat comforted when he felt Erica grip his hand—he knew it was
Erica and not Allison because of just how strong her grip was. And it was kind
of nice to hear how concerned Scott sounded. But the rest was a din; all of it
was just a bunch of noise…until Stiles was able to focus on Derek's voice,
urgent and deep, but also gentle, coaxing, as his larger, warm hands settled on
Stiles' face and he told Stiles to breathe.
"It's okay...Stiles, it's okay," Derek said, which reminded Stiles of the night
before, when Derek had said that to him under very different circumstances,
with his sweet smile.
Stiles came back to full consciousness slowly, his breath evening out as he
looked up and Derek's hazel eyes came into view. Erica was still gripping his
hand. The hovering faces of the others swirled in front of Stiles.
Jackson was smirking, to hide his concern.
Isaac's eyes looked huge with worry.
Scott clearly didn't understand what had just happened.
Allison elbowed him, and realization dawned as Scott looked over at Derek.
Erica gave Stiles' hand another firm squeeze before letting go, standing up to
take Boyd's arm. They both looked down with furrowed brows.
Damn it.
There was concern in Derek’s eyes too when he pulled away from Stiles, mixing
with the traces of regret that still lingered. The regret…
Stiles looked away, then he sat up and pushed Derek away, attempting to avoid
meeting gazes with any of the others, because he knew they all...knew, and
while he also knew that none of them would judge him for his feelings or what
had happened between him and the younger Derek, he just couldn't face any of
their sympathies right now.
As Stiles tried to get to his feet using his own power, Derek interceded and
pulled him up with an easy strength. Even after Stiles was standing and steady,
Derek didn't let him go, hands locked around his elbows.
"I'm taking you home," Derek said, eyes knitted close together with a more
common expression of firm resolve.
"Derek..." Stiles tried.
But Derek tightened his grip. His expression breached no argument. "I'm.
Taking. You. Home."
"Fine," Stiles huffed, looking away again, because looking at Derek was
bordering him too closely on totally losing his shit again. "Don't forget my
bat. It came in so handy."
Stiles was admittedly not feeling very well, so some of the next several
minutes went by in a blur. Derek grabbed his bat, as requested, but he kept
hold of Stiles with one hand as the group started travelling through the woods
toward the cars. It didn't take long, since Derek was leading and he knew these
woods better than anyone. The previous din had fallen to mostly silence amongst
the others, which Stiles was grateful for, because he really didn't want to
answer any questions.
When they reached the cars, only the jeep and Chris' SUV remained. Chris was
still there, presumably waiting for Allison. He agreed to give the rest of the
wolf pack rides as well, since there was no other way for them all to get home.
Stiles did note that Derek actually thanked Chris for helping out, especially
since the SUV was soon packed, leaving the jeep to only Derek and Stiles.
Then Derek got into Stiles' driver's side, and the next thing Stiles knew, they
were on the road, just the two of them within the silence of his jeep. Stiles
let his head lull to the side away from Derek, focusing on the hum from the
engine.
"Don't close your eyes. Look forward. I need to know you're alert."
"I don't have a concussion," Stiles said absently.
"...I know."
"It was a panic attack."
"I know."
"I haven't had one since—"
"I know." Derek's voice bordered on a growl, but he didn't say anything else.
Stiles lulled his head the other way to face Derek, allowing himself a moment
to study the slightly more masculine jawline and the even distribution of dark
stubble. "My head does kind of hurt."
Derek glanced at him.
"I can't believe you're driving my jeep."
Derek snorted. "I do have a license."
"Not in those pants."
A chuckle escaped Derek before he could stop himself, his smile widening to
reveal those adorable crooked eyeteeth.
The corner of Stiles' mouth twitched up as he saw a flash of the younger Derek
in the expression. Which immediately made his smile slip again. He found
himself staring at Derek like he might penetrate through the years with a
single look, and somewhere underneath he'd find the boy he had lost.
Derek glanced at him again, his smile slipping as well. "Stiles..."
"Please...don't give me a Dear John speech right now...or I might throw up on
you..." Stiles didn't want to lift his head from how it was leaning against the
seat, and he did feel nauseous. "Maybe I do have a concussion..."
Derek frowned. "You just need to take some ibuprofen when I get you home, and
rest, but if you start throwing up, I'm taking you to the hospital."
Stiles glanced down Derek's body, not really listening to him, taking in the
ruined shirt and jeans...and how tight it all was, and how...Derek had unzipped
the pants so they wouldn't pinch so much, and with the way the shirt was
pulling and hitched a bit, there was all this skin...
Instead of being turned on...the sight made Stiles' throat close up and he just
wanted to cry.
"Stiles, stop it. I've been back for...minutes. Can you give me some time to
adjust? I haven't even said anything..."
"No, but you've done enough, and looked like you couldn't get away from me fast
enough...enough. Like I'm nothing but this huge regret you can't take back, and
you're just...pitying me now." Stiles heard the strange emotionlessness to his
voice, but he couldn't help it. He felt numb, like he had in the woods. He felt
utterly defeated. "Yeah...I think I'd rather you were throwing me into walls
again."
Derek's hands gripped around the steering wheel too tightly, pulling on the
material covering it like he might tear it right off. They had been driving for
longer than Stiles had realized, because they were already pulling up in front
of his house. Derek parked, but kept the engine idling, staring forward through
the windshield for several moments.
Stiles flinched when Derek suddenly slammed his hands against the steering
wheel, causing the horn to blare for a fraction of a second.
"Of course I'm filled with regret. I remember everything." Derek turned toward
Stiles sharply, eyes stern and brow scrunched, so that Stiles couldn't tell if
it was just older Derek's default face showing or if he was really that angry.
"Don't you get it? You made this all so much harder, because now I know how
much easier it might have been…if I'd just had you with me in the beginning."
Stiles stared dumbfounded back at Derek. There was this thin line of anger and
frustration rising up within him, but it wasn't entirely his own. He could feel
Derek, just like he had in the woods, and the dull thrum of emotions all mixed
together were too confusing for Stiles to really understand what Derek was
trying to say.
So Stiles didn't respond, just continued to stare, trying to dissect the
strange puzzle that was Derek Hale.
"Stiles…I'm not used to you being this quiet. Ever," Derek said after a while,
calmer now, though his eyes were still intense with warring emotions. "Tell me
what you're thinking. What you're feeling. I mean, I can feel…" Derek shook his
head, like he didn't want to admit that he could feel Stiles the same way
Stiles could feel Derek. He wanted Stiles to tell him, so the answer would be
plain and undistorted.
"I feel like…I lost my best friend," Stiles said, feeling the weight of the
truth of that statement crush down upon his shoulders. Then he quickly added,
"Don't tell Scott I said that."
A corner of Derek's mouth twitched upward. "I'm still him, you know. I'm the
same person."
"Yeah…I think you are. But I don't…fit into your life the same way anymore, do
I?"
Derek answered with a long sigh, which Stiles took for confirmation…until he
started at the feeling of Derek's hand reaching for his across the seats.
Stiles looked up into hazel, amazed to find Derek's brow…smooth.
"You idiot," Derek said fondly, "I regret alot of things...too many
things...but not you."
"But…I thought…don't you think I'm too young for you now? Or something?" Stiles
wanted to sit up further, move his face away from being pressed into the
headrest, but he wasn't used to such an open and young expression on older
Derek's face, and he was afraid to disrupt the feeling of Derek's warm skin on
his wrist. He thought of the woods again. "The way you were looking at me
before…"
"Stiles…you are too young," Derek interrupted, gripping Stiles' wrist harder,
"but there’s nothing we can do about that. I don't regret what happened with
you, I just...hate that...I didn't have you there when I really was sixteen,
when I…needed someone who wasn't just out for themselves. In the woods, I kept
thinking about how these last few days have been...and then...how things really
were..."
"With...Kate?"
Derek's expression melted into equal parts anger and anguish, before he shook
his head to clear those feelings away. "Of course I feel regret. Because I had
her...and I wish it had been you…" He trailed, like it was all too much, and
the words weren't enough to really explain everything he meant.
Stiles could feel what Derek meant, fully forming into a single powerful
emotion that chased all the others away. Touching Derek, pressing his palm to
Derek's chest while Derek held on to his wrist, intensified whatever their
strange connection had grown into, almost as if Stiles could hear Derek's words
inside his head. He licked his lips, almost overheated from the constant
contact of Derek's gaze, but he didn't want to look away.
"It's different with the others," Derek said. "I knew from the beginning that I
was handling things with them…well…"
"Shit-poorly?" Stiles suggested with a slight grin.
Derek frowned, but the expression didn't stick the way it used to. "Yeah…guess
I can’t argue with that. I didn't want things to turn out that way. My dad
never ran things like a dictatorship; he wouldn't want me to, either. My
family…would have expected better from me. I want to be better, like I promised
the others. I can be. Maybe not exactly the way I was the past few days, but…"
"I get it," Stiles nodded.
Derek nodded with him, like a thread was connecting them. "It's different with
the others," he said again. "You're…different. I used to tell myself…that
this—us—would be a bad idea…even though I wanted you…god, right from the second
I first saw you…knowing you're my mate. I held back because of your age, yes.
Because of the situations we were in. Because of…me, just me. But I don't want
to keep telling myself that wanting you makes me weak. The last thing you make
me feel…is weak."
The feeling of Derek's other hand coming up to cup Stiles' face melted away any
last traces of nausea or a headache—at least right then, in the car, caught up
in this strange, connecting circuit with Derek. Stiles could hear his and
Derek's hearts beating in tandem.
"If you think age is too big of a divider for us…I can wait for you," Derek
spoke on, softly inside the car, with the low hum of the engine still
surrounding them. "And if you don't want anything to do with me anymore...I can
accept that too."
All at once the rest of the world came back to Stiles, and he remembered that
there was life outside of his jeep, outside of Derek Hale…but he wasn't sure if
he could handle a life that didn't have Derek weaved into it. "Dude," he said,
grinning as he took the palm that had been pressing to Derek's chest and
gripped the already stretched T-shirt. "I'm sixteen. I don't have the patience
to wait for anything."
There were only a few inches separating them; pulling Derek closer so that
their lips met was easy—so easy. And it felt so strange. The burn of Derek's
stubble was so different from the smooth-faced Derek that Stiles had first
kissed, and while his lips felt and tasted the same, they were…larger, the
whole experience making Stiles feel smaller, encompassed. He didn't mind any of
it, because the emotion behind each press of their lips, each hesitant swipe
and caress of Derek's tongue, was the same as it had always been from their
first stolen kiss in Stiles' bed.
Stiles gasped for air, losing his grip on Derek's shirt since there wasn't much
slack, and let his head fall forward to press against Derek's. "You're wasting
my gas," he whispered.
Derek smiled, and there was enough of the younger Derek there, mixed with
experience and pain that would always be just below the surface, that Stiles
thought he liked this smile on this Derek best of all. Derek pulled away so he
could turn off the jeep, then removed the keys and handed them to Stiles.
"You should...probably come in. You know...make sure I'm okay. I don't think
Dad's home yet," Stiles added, with a nod toward the empty driveway.
Derek's smile shifted into a smirk. "Eventually, he is going to be an...issue,
you know."
"Probably won't believe Joe had a growth spurt, huh? I'll figure something
out." Stiles blinked his large brown eyes at Derek, totally uncaring about
using the Bambi expression if it worked. "Come in?"
"Well…I suppose you do still have my jacket. And clothes that fit." Derek
pulled uncomfortably at the shirt he had ruined, practically ready to pop all
of its seams by now. He got out of the jeep and followed Stiles toward the
house.
Along the way, Stiles couldn't help glancing down Derek's body a little more
appreciatively. "I don't know, Derek...I kind of like that look. Danny sure
did," Stiles said with a wider grin.
Derek shook his head, but he was still smiling.
Danny. Damn that awesome gay boy and his…knowing.
The second Stiles had the door open, mouth moving, about to say something to
Derek, he realized his mistake in assuming his dad wasn't home. The car must
have been in the garage, because the first thing he saw as he entered the house
was his dad coming out of the kitchen.
"Uhh…"
"Hey, you're back. Good day at school?"
Stiles froze for a moment, then glanced behind him to see that Derek wasn't
standing there anymore. He leaned back just long enough to catch a flash of too
tight jeans disappearing into the branches of the tree that led up to his
window.
Thank god for wolf reflexes, Stiles thought, as he closed the door behind him.
"Yeah...pretty good day," Stiles said, realizing what time it was and that he
had managed to get home decently around when he normally would after lacrosse
practice. "Hit my head a little at practice, though, and, uhh...Coach suggested
I take some ibuprofen and get some rest. Don't want to take any chances."
The Sheriff frowned and nodded. "I'll get you some. You let me know if you
start feeling any worse."
"Of course," Stiles said as he followed his dad into the kitchen. He was
anxious to get upstairs, since he wasn't sure if he had left his window latch
unlocked or not. One of these days a neighbor was going to notice the dark
figure hanging outside Stiles' bedroom window.
His dad got him some meds and a glass of water. There was sloppy Joe mix
heating up on the stove. At first whiff, it smelled glorious; at the second,
Stiles quickly downed the ibuprofen and willed his stomach to remain settled.
At this point, he plain refused to have a concussion.
"I think I'm going to go lie down," Stiles said with a grimace.
"Okay, but try and stay awake, if you can. I'll come check on you after a bit,
see if you're ready for dinner."
Stiles nodded, always grateful for his dad's care and how concerned he was over
even the slightest cold sometimes, let alone a possible head injury. "Thanks."
Stiles turned to go, but barely got through the door before he heard his dad
call after him.
"Hey…about that…Joe kid."
Stiles stiffened.
"I saw that he stayed over again last night. Seems like you boys have
gotten…pretty close."
Slowly, Stiles turned back around to face his dad, a little terrified at first
to see what expression the Sheriff might be wearing. He was surprised to find a
kind of calm resolution.
"He fits in nice with that group of friends of yours, and…well…seems like a
good kid. I'd still like to speak with his uncle once he's back in town, but…I
suppose I don't mind if he comes around." The Sheriff paused, brow furrowing
for only a moment before he added, "You're, uhh…" he cleared his throat,
"…being safe, right?"
"Dad…" Stiles groaned.
"I'm just…asking."
Stiles did have to admit that his dad could be asking much more intimate
details, or yelling at him. He pulled on a smile. "Safe as safe can be," he
said, since, after all, a werewolf wasn't exactly prone to STDs, and he was
pretty sure they didn't have anything in common with seahorses. "Promise."
The Sheriff nodded, seemingly satisfied by that answer. They shared a silent
moment of understanding, then he said, "Just…let me know next time he's over,
okay?"
Stiles tried to imagine how that conversation would go, especially considering
that 'Joe' was probably in Stiles room right now. But nope, he'd save that for
another day. "Will do," he said, before finally freeing himself from the
kitchen and making his way upstairs.
About a foot from his closed bedroom door, Stiles hesitated. Sure, things
weren't as bad as he had first thought back in the woods, but it still wasn't
the same as how things had been the past few days. What was appropriate now?
Were they a couple? How were they even going to do this?
Stiles thought about their kiss in the car, and as much as it had been...nice,
and gentle, and awesome, it had still been different. What if everything was
different? Too different? What if they didn't have anything in common anymore?
He couldn't really imagine adult Derek picking up comics. Although...maybe he
had a secret stash somewhere in the den...
As all of these thoughts danced through Stiles' head, he reminisced over all
the ways they had just been...kids together the past few days, and easy
friends. He liked the kissing and...other parts too, but it was the friendship
that he was most afraid to lose. Derek was seven years older than him, after
all. One day, that wouldn’t matter as much, but now…
Steeling himself to just deal with this and take whatever happened as it came,
Stiles opened his bedroom door...on Derek standing in the middle of the room in
his underwear.
Derek had to know that Stiles was there—hello, wolf senses—but he seemed
preoccupied with the clothing he had laid out on the bed. The clothes he had
been wearing that night when he had first been changed into his younger self,
clothing that actually fit him, and that had been washed and put away in one of
Stiles' drawers. It was like some grand, final shift from what had been…to what
was—young Derek was gone.
Stiles tried not to think of it that way, and took another step into the room.
Finally, Derek glanced at him, and immediately seemed to remember that he was
in nothing but underwear...underwear that was still a little too tight since
they were the ones he had borrowed from Stiles that morning—with Batman on
them.
Derek frowned. "Sorry," he said, probably because Stiles was staring with an
expression that was not so much appreciative as...tragic. Derek quickly
snatched up the jeans he had laid out, even though he was still wearing Stiles'
underwear.
Stiles licked his lips slowly and took a breath. "Remember...when I gave those
to you this morning...and you started geeking out over the Burton films
and...and the animated series?" he prompted hopefully.
A familiar young-Derek grin spread over Derek's face as he pulled up the jeans.
"And you had to go and spoil it all by telling me about the new movies."
"Hey, you'd already seen Batman Begins. You said you liked it okay, just—"
"Just that Christian Bale is not Bruce Wayne, and my opinion hasn't changed now
that I have seen the rest of the franchise. Dark Knight Rises was good,
but...he's no Batman."
Taking in Derek's expression and how easily those words had tumbled out of him,
Stiles allowed a smile to overtake his face too. There he was, after all—Derek.
All of him. "So...you found the time to go to Dark Knight Rises despite our
harrowing adventures? Maybe you are still the geek I fell in love with."
Derek had just finished pulling the black T-shirt over his head. He stared at
Stiles, stunned.
Stiles reached back...and closed his bedroom door behind him.
tbc...
***** Still Fated *****
Chapter Summary
     And...the end. With more porn. :-) Derek and Stiles talk things out
     and settle on where they stand.
Chapter Notes
     With a bonus at the end to reveal the truth behind the witch. :-
     ) Thanks for sticking with this, everyone, and please let me know
     what you think of the end, and if there are specific things you'd
     like to see when I return with the second part in this series. I have
     some things planned: Peter, telling the Sheriff, pack time, etc., but
     I am also open to suggestions. Thanks again!
Derek sat on Stiles' bed, having neatly folded up the stretched-to-destruction
clothing he had borrowed, along with his own larger underwear that he hadn't
gotten around to replacing, and set them on the floor. Stiles found himself
unfairly preoccupied with how Derek was wearing his underwear as he moved to
sit across from Derek in his desk chair.
"So...does it feel like all of that happened over the last few days, or...seven
years ago?"
"...both? It's...hard to explain." Derek's brow scrunched in that familiar
sourwolf way, and yet his eyes held the endearing eagerness and affection that
Stiles had started to get used to from the younger Derek.
The thought of actually having this awesome Derek-combo—so damn hot, and a
comic book geek to boot—all for him was a little more than Stiles could fully
grasp with a sane mind. He had barely been able to handle having younger Derek.
So, hopelessly awkward and afraid that any of the next few words out of his
mouth might sabotage how well this was going, Stiles forced out a laugh and
said, "I can't believe what a big liar you are, being totally into me all this
time and acting like you hated me."
Derek frowned, though his raised eyebrow proved his amusement. "I wasn't acting
like I...hated you."
Stiles raised an eyebrow back at him.
"I was…trying to keep you from liking me. If you hated me...maybe it would be
easier not to…think about you."
"Because...you don't deserve to be happy?" Stiles said with offhanded sarcasm.
"Because..." But Derek's eyes glazed over, betraying how that was exactly what
he had been thinking. He sagged forward, letting his arms rest on his thighs,
and stared at the carpet. "Damn it. I just...I just…" he closed his eyes, "…I
wish it had been you," he said again, like he had said in the jeep, only so
softly, Stiles almost would have needed wolf ears to hear it.
Carefully, even though he could never be silent or stealthy enough for Derek
not to hear every move he made, Stiles slid from the desk chair to the floor,
and settled on his knees in front of Derek. He placed his hands on Derek's
knees, waiting for hazel to flick up at him.
Stiles grinned when they did. "You know, in a way…it kinda was me. What do you
remember now when you think back to being sixteen?"
"You," Derek said steadily, his eyes clear and focused on Stiles' face. "Before
her. Like a dream."
"It was real…" Stiles answered quietly. He held Derek's gaze for maybe an
eternity too long, then stood up to move to the bed and sit beside Derek
instead. Their arms touched, and the inherent warmth from Derek made Stiles'
breath hitch. "So…you still want to borrow Marvel Zombies?"
Derek gave a short laugh. "Actually…I already own all of it, but it has been a
while since I read through some of it."
Stiles turned to stare at Derek, amazed that his previous guess that Derek had
a secret stash of comics at the den was actually true.
Derek looked at him sideways, still slumped forward. "After…the fire," he
began, "Laura…almost every week, started…trying to replace the comics I'd lost.
We always had plenty of money, but we still tried to be frugal about most
things. Even so, she always gave me extra for comics, or picked some up for me.
It was silly and small and…made all the difference in the world." He smiled
somberly, eyes going distant for a moment as he remembered his sister, who had
managed to survive and be there for him…only to die what was still a handful of
months ago.
There was something still so surreal about being able to know and comfort
this…werewolf who had once seemed so untouchable, and Stiles allowed himself to
revel in how he was one of the very elite few who actually knew Derek Hale.
He slid his hand onto Derek's knee again. “Is it weird…remembering everything
now, when you only knew half-truths a couple days ago? I mean…I wasn’t sure if
I should explain about…Peter…or everything with the Argents…”
“You kept the right things from me,” Derek jumped in. “It would have been too
hard, taking all of that in on top of everything else. It’s…difficult now,
sure, remembering that blissful ignorance, but…I don’t know, I guess it just
makes me feel…like that 16-year-old boy isn’t as buried as I thought.” An
honest though sad smile twitched at his lips again. “I suppose the hardest
thing is…wanting to hate Peter…and still loving him at the same time.”
Stiles squeezed Derek’s knee. Peter was…an understandable paradox. Even Stiles’
could admit that the guy had this strange…allure, like maybe he was a good,
charming guy once upon a time, but these days it usually equated to creepy.
“But no, that’s wrong.” Derek shook his head, and his eyes settled on Stiles
with something of that regret again, regret for what had never been, not for
what was. “The hardest part is you. I know you’re sixteen going on thirty,
okay, and too smart for your own good, but you’re still in so many ways…a kid.
Half of me feels like…like I should…” Derek’s gaze drifted to the window.
“Should…disappear into the night like the creeper you are? No way.” Stiles’
gripped Derek’s knee tight now, firm and grounding, and held that hazel gaze
with his own. "If age is the only real thing that’s wrong with this, then I am
so okay with putting that out of my mind. I’ve hit puberty, you know, and I’ve
been through enough in my life that I’m way beyond being…just a kid. You know
that too, or you would have taken off from the jeep instead of coming in here,
but you didn’t. And look, I know it can't be exactly like it was. Of course it
can’t. You're him, but you're...you, too. It's not the same, because you're not
the same. And I'm okay with that. I love learning new things about
you…remember?" Stiles grinned as he moved his hand slowly from Derek's
knee…toward the hem of his shirt and slipped his fingers up underneath to
Derek's firm stomach.
Derek sucked in air from the tickle of Stiles' fingers, catching his wrist
instinctively, but smiled back at him—that perfect, crooked-canine smile.
"But I won't lie and say I don't appreciate the things that are the same,"
Stiles grinned.
He pulled his hand away, and Derek allowed it, watching intently as Stiles
shifted onto one knee and lifted the other leg over, settling himself in
Derek's lap. Stiles thought he might slide off from the precarious position,
but Derek's large hands came up to hold Stiles in place around his lower back.
"For instance…I don't see any reason why we can't…still…" Stiles grinned wider
rather than finish the thought, and while Derek looked skeptical, like some
small part of him wanted to resist as his older self had for so many months,
his eyes soon softened, and he leaned up toward Stiles' lips.
Knock. Knock.
"You alright in there, kiddo?" came the Sheriff's voice from the other side of
Stiles' door.
"Okay…maybe there's one reason…" Stiles whispered. Then the actual feeling of
panic crept in and he dove off of Derek's lap and up the bed.
Bless Derek for not having to be told to hide, because he immediately dropped
over the side of the bed where he was hidden between the bed and the window.
Stiles had just settled himself back seemingly nonchalant against his pillow
when his dad opened the door.
"Uhh…yeah, Dad, I'm fine," Stiles called. "Just…taking it easy while trying not
to actually fall asleep. Harder than it looks. I've been...going over topic
ideas for my next Econ paper."
His dad came over to the side of the bed, wearing his usual concerned
expression, though infused with sympathy rather than the accusatory look Stiles
usually earned. "Maybe you'll try writing about something actually related to
Economics this time," he said with a humored raised eyebrow.
"I was thinking of a paper on the devastating effect the vast amount of
billionaire superheroes would have on the economy if they actually existed.
That's relevant," Stiles grinned.
His dad chuckled and shook his head. "Just promise you'll only ever use your
super-intelligence for good."
"Deal."
"Ready for dinner?"
"Uhh…" Stiles used all of his self-control not to glance to the side of the bed
where Derek was hiding on the floor. "I think I need a little more resting
time. Maybe…an hour or so? Then I'll be able to scarf something down, I swear."
Stiles half-expected to hear Derek snort at that and give himself away. There
was only silence in response, but he imagined Derek grinning anyway.
What? Stiles wasn't above subterfuge for sex.
The Sheriff nodded. "Well, if you're sure, I'll keep it on simmer. Tell me the
second you feel worse, if you do."
"Absolutely."
The Sheriff took a moment to reach over and pet Stiles' head—since it wasn't
actually possible to tousle his short hair—then headed back out of the room and
closed the door behind him.
Stiles let out a deep breath. Yeah, he was going to hold off explaining Derek
to his dad for as long as possible.
"So…who has the worst effect on the economy by hoarding all their wealth for
superhero gear? Tony?" Derek's voice filtered up from the floor.
Stiles rolled over to the side of the bed and peered down at him, taking in the
relaxed way Derek was just lying there, hands folded neatly over his stomach as
he looked up at Stiles with a smooth, carefree expression that Stiles wanted to
keep there forever. That Derek was on a first-name basis with said superheroes
made a strange warmth build in Stiles' belly.
"According to Forbes Fictional 15…definitely Tony," Stiles said, "though Bruce
isn't far behind. Or am I not allowed to cross universes?"
Derek just laughed. Laughed.
Stiles slinked off the bed onto the floor…and right on top of Derek where he
snuggled in like the pack member he had apparently been since day one. "I could
write about wolf pack relationship dynamics instead. Isaac totally thinks
you're his mom."
"Don't be silly. You're the mom." Derek's tone was playful—juvenile even—but
his large, warms hands on Stiles' waist were…all grown up.
Stiles sat up slightly so that he was basically sitting on Derek's hips, legs
straddling the Alpha beneath him. Derek still looked unsure, the hesitation
hidden at the edges of his mouth, but his hazel eyes stared fondly up at
Stiles, urging him to do…whatever he wanted to do, without even having to
speak.
Sure, they could wait, and take things slow, take their time, now that things
were back to normal. But damn it, Stiles wanted—needed—the affirmation that
what had happened between them before really was…real. He believed Derek's
words and the way Derek looked at him, but he needed to feel the absolution.
That strange new connection between them seemed to be urging him on.
So he started by feeling the toned muscles of Derek's abs again as he slid his
hands up underneath Derek's black T-shirt. Again, Derek sucked in air at the
slight tickle, but Stiles also saw how his pupils started to dilate.
"You're...really not going to freak out or…give me some lame speech about how
we should wait?" Stiles prompted softly, even while he continued to slide his
left hand up Derek's chest, and his right began unbuttoning Derek's jeans—which
he had put on only a few minutes prior.
Derek looked thoughtful but not like he wanted to tell Stiles to stop. "I
should…for a number of reasons," he said. "You are young, no matter how we spin
this. Your father won't approve. Our lives are constantly in danger, and yours
more so just by being around me. This all happened in just a few days,
and…maybe you're too young to really understand what 'mate' means…"
Stiles paused at the sight of his own Batman underwear staring back at him, and
how Derek's voice had trailed. He looked up into hazel again. "I understand
what it means. I do. I'm…it for you. If you want the fairytale ending instead
of just casual sex your whole life—not that that isn't without merit—I'm it.
Which is…this insanely huge responsibility, and I'm sure at some point I'll
feel overwhelmed by it…at least a little. But you know what I'm not going to
do?"
Derek looked back at him expectantly.
"I'm never going to wish we didn't give this a chance. Coz, crazy as it is to
me…I like you. You're this awesomely layered person, who's part geek, part
supernatural creature, part Greek god, and you're destined to be with…me. I
think I can put up with the occasional sourwolf moment for that. And if you get
on my nerves too much, I can always still key the Camaro."
Derek snorted, but Stiles was through with the witty banter for now. He slid
his hand inside the opening of the Batman boxer briefs and found Derek—so warm
and already half hard.
Stiles' breath stuttered a little as he stared into adult Derek's face. "I
can't believe I'm touching you…" he said, like he had said last night, only…he
was even more amazed than he had been then, because this…this was Derek.
Adult Derek wasn't as immediately vocal as the younger version had been when
Stiles began to gently tug within the confines of cotton, but once Derek was
fully hard and Stiles had to slide the jeans down Derek's hips to free him, the
coolness of the air made Derek gasp. Then Stiles' hand was back, having pulled
Derek out through the opening in the shorts rather than take them off
completely.
"You know…you can totally keep these," Stiles said, indicating the too-tight
underwear. He was never completely done with the witty banter, after all.
"Maybe we can share…" Derek said with a slight smirk—an expression that younger
Derek had never quite got across the same way, and it made Stiles melt.
The thought of wearing the underwear after Derek had been wearing them—well,
he'd wash them first, coz otherwise that would be kinda gross—made Stiles' cock
jump. He had been thankful for his jeans when his dad came in, if only to hide
his own partial erection at the time, but now he wanted to be free.
Stiles had a plan—sort of. He knew what he wanted, at least. So he released
Derek long enough to slide his own jeans off, leaving on his underwear for now,
and then carefully removed Derek from the opening in the Batman underwear and
pulled them down his legs, so that the shorts and jeans had Derek's legs locked
together where the fabric gathered at his knees.
Stiles shifted down Derek's body, and began to lower his head between Derek's
legs. He kept his eyes on Derek's face the entire time as he took him into his
mouth.
Derek gasped with a little more force this time, and struggled not to arch his
hips.
There was something so dirty about the whole thing, because Stiles' dad was
home and right downstairs, and Derek was so much older than him and wearing his
Batman underwear around his knees, and they were on the floor of Stiles'
bedroom, hidden from the door, and…and Stiles was sucking Derek off with an
eager mouth.
Stiles played those details over in his mind again and again, and suddenly
really wanted to touch himself. Or have Derek touch him. He reached down and
gave himself a firm squeeze just to keep his wits about him, but continued to
lick at the precum and salt on Derek's cock, relaxing his throat as best he
could as he sucked Derek in.
Finally, the mewls and moans Stiles had so appreciated from the younger Derek
began forming in older Derek's throat, his head tossed back to display the long
line of his neck as he held himself up on his elbows. Then he snapped his head
forward to look at Stiles—to watch—and his eyes flickered Alpha red.
"Stiles…" Derek said, and fuck, the gruffness of his voice was like sex
personified.
Stiles pulled his lips away, then ran his tongue slowly across them, watching
as Derek watched him. The strength in Derek was something that had been easy to
forget when he was sixteen and shorter than Stiles, but when Derek grabbed
Stiles by the front of his shirt and pulled them both up into a harsh, frenzied
kiss, while simultaneously reaching down between Stiles' legs and gripping him
firm…Stiles was abruptly reminded of just how encompassing adult Derek really
was.
A slow moan built in Stiles as Derek pulled him from his boxers and spread his
skin with precum, pumping firm with practiced fingers and…fuck—Stiles
definitely had that word on the brain. He finally turned his mouth away from
Derek's insistent, probing tongue to take a breath and release his moan at the
same time.
Derek's words came hot against his ear. "I want you inside me again."
Stiles' brain promptly shut down. "Huh…wha…?"
"Stiles."
"O-Okay, I…may need you to repeat that...several times."
Derek gave Stiles' cock a gentle squeeze, held Stiles close with his other arm,
and ran his tongue along the contours of Stiles' ear, before repeating, "I want
you…inside me again. I want…to remember that feeling. Then…next time…" Derek
pulled back so he could look Stiles in the eyes. He grinned promisingly.
That sounded like a fantastic idea, said Stiles brain—or his libido. They were
pretty well mingled at this point. So Stiles gave what may have been a vague
nod and swept back in to capture Derek's lips. Derek's hand slid away, and they
settled more comfortably on the floor so that Stiles was in Derek's lap, their
mutually wet, hard cocks grinding together between them as they kissed.
Stiles gasped when he tore his lips away again. "Back…on the bed?" he
suggested, though they had begun a steady rocking motion that was so going to
push him over the edge any second if they didn't stop.
Derek didn't answer with words. He held Stiles around the hips and just…stood
up, like it was no feat at all to lift all of Stiles' and his own weight—which
it probably wasn't. Derek carefully dropped Stiles onto the bed, kicked away
his shorts and jeans, tossed his shirt off over his head, and then he was
just…naked…walking around the bed to the drawer with the warming oil.
Stiles still had his boxers around his thighs, and a T-shirt and thin hoodie
on. He kept his eyes glued to the glorious form of naked Derek while kicking
and tossing his own clothing away as quickly as he could. If now was the moment
he was going to wake up, he’d rather live in dreamland.
For a moment, Stiles considered how he had felt when he was with the younger
Derek, like…maybe he wasn't such a scrawny, skinny kid. Older Derek
was…broader, taller, just…holy shit, where did he find all those muscles? But
it didn't intimidate Stiles as he had once feared, and he devoured every curve
and line of Derek's body, the Alpha just standing there beside the bed with the
little bottle of oil in his hands.
He smirked at Stiles. "What?"
"You are aware of how hot you are, right?"
Derek just smiled wider and climbed onto the bed, purposely trailing his eyes
over every inch of Stiles to show his own appreciation, which made Stiles blush
and feel like the color was probably spreading all the way to his toes.
But hey, just because Derek was Derek again didn't mean Stiles had to turn into
some blushing bride. Especially considering what Derek had asked of him. So
Stiles reached out to take the bottle of oil and slid over to the side of the
bed, indicating for Derek to lie down. When Derek started to position himself
onto his stomach, Stiles shook his head.
"I want to see your face this time," Stiles said.
Derek complied, lying on his back instead. "However you want me."
Stiles shuddered. He didn't have the stamina for a second more of foreplay—or
Derek's sex-roughened voice—not when Derek was spread out before him like a
banquet. Stiles positioned himself in between Derek legs and went straight to
work.
It was surreal to be so reminded of the night before…while at the same time
feeling utterly amazed that now he was with the Derek he had assumed would kill
him for this. But Derek—adult and gorgeous and totally strong enough to rip
Stiles' arms off if he wanted—spread his legs and sighed in pleasure with every
careful stretch of Stiles' fingers inside of him.
Reservations and apprehensions quickly fell away, faster than they had the
first time, because now Stiles knew what he was in for; he knew Derek wanted
him, at any age, and Derek had asked…asked for this.
As Stiles finally began to push in, amazed that Derek still felt just as tight,
and hot, and fuck…suddenly Stiles was overwhelmed even more by whatever crazy
mate connection they had built the night before. It was as if Stiles could feel
his own pleasure…and Derek's too, mixed together and echoing back at him.
Stiles moaned a little too loudly as he thrust forward, and Derek smiled even
as he reached up to cover Stiles' mouth. Stiles took that action as a
challenge, much as he was thankful that Derek was conscientious of being in the
Sheriff's house, and sucked one of Derek's fingers into his mouth. It was
Derek's turn to moan, though he managed a bit better at keeping the sound
muffled.
There was a brief moment where it really did overwhelm Stiles, the realization
that he was fucking Derek Hale, in his own bed, and it wasn't a dream or a
fantasy, or some crazy happenstance because of a meddling witch. And sure, it
was freaking awesome how smooth and warm and just perfect it all felt, and how
insanely hot Derek looked with his finger in Stiles' mouth while he reached
down to give himself a few needed pulls...
But more than that…was that this wasn't just sex. It was awesome sex, but it
was…more. This was an honest-to-God, supernatural, fated connection.
"I love you," Stiles gasped, surprised even as he said it, even though he'd
already implied it and practically said it earlier, but to actually just say it
was something that had to happen as the realization of that emotion surged
through him.
He really loved Derek. He really did.
Derek pulled himself up, even though it looked like it folded his body
uncomfortably and broke their steady rhythm, and kissed Stiles. "I love you,"
he said back.
Stiles shuddered deeply as he released, suddenly, but with such a glorious
crescendo. Quickly replacing the hand Derek had been using on himself with his
own, Stiles pumped swift and tight until Derek released too, with a moan that
he stifled behind his own hand as he let himself fall back onto the bed.
For a moment, Stiles honestly wondered if he'd just...wake up now, and it would
be young Derek there, or no Derek at all, but the scenery didn't fade.
Slowly, Stiles dropped down next to Derek, scrunched in tight on the small bed,
side by side. Their breathing filled the room. Eventually, Stiles lifted up
onto his elbows to look at Derek, down the full length of him, sweaty and
sticky and...seriously, fuck.
Derek brought Stiles' attention to his eyes with a gentle, coaxing hand on his
chin. "I can't promise...that everything will be like it was. But I can
promise...that you're mine. And you'll always be mine. I'm not going to be easy
to walk away from now." Derek looked a little haunted as he said that, just
slightly, hidden behind his eyes where Stiles could just barely make out the
pain, the remnants of fear that Stiles might actually walk away some day.
"You'll be sick of me within a week...and you still won't be able to get rid of
me," Stiles said with a grin.
Derek just laughed...and nodded.
They kissed, and Stiles tried not to think about his dad, or the rest of the
pack, or how things had changed, or how things still would change. Right now,
he was content. Right now...he was Derek Hale's other half, his mate, the final
missing piece to putting the sourwolf back together, and that was something
Stiles was honestly proud of.
"Can I still call you Youngblood?" he whispered against Derek's lips.
"Urg, I hate those comics." Derek instinctively rolled his eyes, just like
younger Derek had done that first night. Then he smiled.
Stiles squeezed Derek tightly, letting their bodies mold against each other as
they laid together on the bed, and grinned back at him. "I know."
*****
Outside the Stillinski house, an unseen pair remained in shadow, not watching
the events within, per se, but knowing full well the importance of what had
happened.
"See, I told you Derek might surprise us."
"You did."
"And you were content to just sit back and...watch."
Deaton smiled at the woman beside him. "Well, we are Watchers."
Morell quirked a corner of her mouth upward. "Times change. They need to be
ready, and Derek was going to drive his pack into the ground without a true
anchor to hold onto."
"You may be right," Deaton nodded. "I'm not complaining."
They stood in silence for a moment, watching the house with a sense of calm
satisfaction.
"So...I was on vacation?"
"Unless you want to tell them the truth."
"I suppose there was no other way to avoid them coming to me for help. You do
make an interesting redhead."
"Strawberry blonde," Morell corrected. "You could stand to flex your powers
once in a while."
Deaton chuckled lightly. "Oh...I wouldn't want to give too much away.
But...thanks...for this. I think it might actually be just what they need."
"They...the pack, or they, Derek and Mr. Stillinski in there?"
Deaton merely smiled wider, and turned to take off down the street and leave
the pair inside the Stillinski house to their privacy. "Oh, let's just
say...all of the above."
THE END
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