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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Choose_Not_To_Use_Archive_Warnings, Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Dalton_-_Fandom
  Relationship:
      Julian_Armstrong/Logan_Wright
  Character:
      Julian_Armstrong, Logan_Wright
  Additional Tags:
      CP_Coutler_-_Dalton
  Stats:
      Published: 2012-06-05 Chapters: 21/21 Words: 21752
****** Speak Swiftly To Be Fearless ******
by McBerrysworld
Summary
     Jogan Drabble based on Taylor Swift songs :)
Notes
     Thank you Guys for reading this, i owe a huge big huge and credit to
     a Miss Madison (justenjoytheshow13 on tumblr) for her lovely suggest
     on Tumblr. Hope she likes this :) I changed the lyrics slightly in
     places cause well it was needed. So ENJOY PLEASE!
***** Stay Beautiful *****
Julian stood by his dorm room as he waited for Derek to meet him there, when
Julian's minds wonder off to think about Logan. He smiled to himself as he
started to hum to himself.
Logan's eyes are like a jungle
He smiles, it's like the radio
He whispers songs into my window
In words nobody knows
There's pretty boys on every corner
That watch him as he's walking home
Saying does he know
Will you ever know
Julian thought back to every line of the song. It had meant something special
to him. Like the time when he first looked into those eyes and got lost in
them. He loved when he was fighting with Logan because it gave him a chance to
stare into them and not caring about being caught.
The times when Logan smile, it would send chills down Julian's spine. Julian
loved to see that smile, cause it was like watching a sunrise, he loved it even
more when it was he that made Logan smile that way.
When Julian confessed he had never seen Sound of Music, and Logan made him sit
through it with him. While Logan sang along with every song and for a month
afterwards Logan and Julian would quote the movie like it was their own
language and Derek would just stare at them as if they were truly crazy.
Even when Logan would strut (even if Logan disagreed, "It's not strutting I'm
just walking Jules!" Logan had said during one of their many fights) down the
hallway of Dalton, he would turn heads of every gay or bi person in the area.
Julian would just watch as he would whisper to himself "Does he know, will he
ever know what he does to me?"
Logan finds another way to be
 The highlight of my day
 I'm taking pictures in my mind
 So I can save them for a rainy day
 It's hard to make conversation
 When he's taking my breath away
 I should say, hey by the way
Julian remembers one summer day there sat under the trees in the courtyard,
laughing and making fun of Derek. Julian took photos of the trio. It was the
most fun he had ever had. Whenever Logan said or did something that hurt him,
he would remember the courtyard and the memory would flood his dreams that
night.
Even just talking to Logan sometimes was a problem; Derek would make fun of
Julian sometimes when he had tripped over his own words when he walked in on a
half naked Logan or Logan shirtless for some random reasons. It had gotten
worse when Julian would spend summers with Derek at the Hamptons and Logan
would just wear his swimmers. Julian would have to make up lies to get away
from Logan.
Julian laughed at himself as he remembers these small things. He felt someone
tap his shoulder and saw Derek standing there.
"You okay?" Derek asked with a concerned tone.
"Yes I am fine no I'm great!" Julian said as he started to walk off without
Derek.
===============================================================================
Around the corner stood a very silent figure, Logan took a step closer to where
Julian and Derek had stood. A small smile played upon his lips.
If you and I are a story
That never gets told
If what you are is a daydream
I'll never get to hold, at least you'll know
You're beautiful every little piece love,
and don't you know you're really gonna be someone ask anyone.
and when you find everything you looked for,
I hope your life leads you back to my front door.
oh but if it don't will you stay
beautiful
Logan sang quietly as he turned and headed back to his room.
***** Jump Than Fall *****
Julian sat his desk in his dorm room in first year at Dalton. He was stuck with
John Logan Wright III. Of course, Julian did not think that for long. He was
staring off into space when he heard a groan from behind him that snapped him
out of his deep thought.
"Morning Princess," Logan groaned again as he sat up in his bed. Julian didn't
dare to look behind him as he knew Logan only slept in Basketball shorts and he
didn't feel like staring at a half naked Logan. Well maybe he did but he did
not want to be caught by Logan again.
"Well aren't you going to answer me?" Logan asked rubbing the back of his hand
against his face.
"I'm not sure Logan," Julian said still with his eyes looking out the window.
"Well I will have to remember you not a morning person, Jules," Logan said as
he stood up and walked into their shared bathroom. Suddenly Julian's alarm
blared out the radio. Logan started to sing to it as he was in the shower.
I like the way you sound in the morning
 We're on the phone and without a warning
 I realize your laugh is the best sound
 I have ever heard
I like the way I can't keep my focus
 I watch you talk, you didn't notice
 I hear the words but all I can think is
 We should be together
 Every time you smile, I smile
 And every time you shine, I'll shine for you
Whoa oh, I'm feeling you baby
 Don't be afraid to
 Jump then fall
 Jump then fall into me
 Be there, never gonna leave you
 Say that you wanna be with me too
 So I'm a stay through it all
 So jump then fall
I like the way your hair falls in your face
 You got the keys to me
 I love each freckle on your face, oh
 I've never been so wrapped up, honey
 I like the way you're everything I ever wanted
I had time to think it oh, over
 And all I can say is come closer
 Take a deep breath then jump then fall into me
 Cause Every time you smile, I smile
 And every time you shine, I'll shine for you
Julian smiled as he listened to Logan sing along with the song. Julian loved
Logan's version better. He laughed when it got to the chorus as he could just
imagine Logan's silly moves in the shower. Logan walked out of the shower and
smiled at Julian.
"I hope you weren't laughing at my singing Jules! I bet you can't top that"
Logan said as he walked over and grabbed his uniform and walked back to the
bathroom.
"Whatever you think Lo!" Julian called as he walked out of the room and down
the hall. Julian pulled out his phone and typed a memo to himself.
"Thank Taylor Swift for her song, if I ever get a chance to meet her"
***** Superstar *****
This is wrong but I can't help but feel like
 There ain't nothing more out there
 Misty morning comes again and I can't
 Help but wish I could see your face
 And I knew from the first song played
 I'd be breaking all my rules to see you
 You smile that beautiful smile and
 All the girls in the front row scream your name
Logan wakes up in his California condo and reaches out his hand to grab at the
space beside him. A small sigh leaves his mouth as he mutters to himself.
"Still not home," he stands up, walks towards the kitchen, flips the switch of
the coffee machine, and makes his way to the TV sitting on the bench. On the
screen is Jules smiling brightly with a morning show host talking about his
latest movie. "Mornin' Jules" he mutters and turns back to the coffee machine.
He sits his coffee down on the counter in front of him as he stares at the
Jules on the TV. Julian winks at some of his fans and the crowds go wild and
Logan just laughs to himself.
So dim that spotlight, tell me things like
 I can't take my eyes off of you
 I'm no one special, just another
 Wide eyed guy who's desperately in love with you
 Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar
As Logan gets dressed to head off to work. He smirks at the signed photo of
Julian that sits on the counter in the bathroom.
"Hope your missing me, Your Majesty. Your Jules xoxo"
Logan laughs as he reads the message for the millionth time. One more glance in
the mirror and Logan walks out of the condo and down to his car. Just another
boring day at the office for him.
Morning loneliness, comes around when I'm not
 Dreaming about you
 When my world wakes up today
 You'll be in another town
 And I knew when I saw your face, I'd be
 Counting down the ways to see you
 You smile that beautiful smile and
 All the girls in the front row scream your name
Logan glanced at the time on his computer. He sighed to himself as he looked at
his calendar, he added the 30th cross to the calendar but only two spaces away
from where he crossed there was big letters saying "JULES". He smiled.
So dim that spotlight, tell me things like
 I can't take my eyes off of you
 I'm no one special, just another
 Wide eyed guy who's desperately in love with you
 Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar
You played in bars, you play guitar
 I'm invisible and everyone knows who you are
 And you'll never see, sing me to sleep
 Every night from the radio
After the long day Logan headed home to his empty condo, to his empty bed and
to his empty mind. It felt so lonely laying their so he leaned over and tuned
on his iPod and starting playing Beautiful by Julian. He sighed and rolled over
letting that voice slowly lullaby him into a deep sleep filled with the
sweetest dreams of past days.
So dim that spotlight, tell me things like
 I can't take my eyes off of you
 I'm no one special, just another
 Wide eyed girl who's desperately in love with you
 Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar
 Sweet, sweet superstar, superstar
Logan woke to the smell of breakfast being made instead of his alarm. Logan
rubbed his face with the back of his hand as he slowly woke up. He bolted right
up, and pulled back the covers and walked quickly to the kitchen. Standing in
his kitchen standing naked with only a apron on was Julian. Julian turned
around.
"I was getting worried," Julian said with a smirk. Logan just stared at Julian.
"Lo?" Julian asked with a small worried look.
"Your home earlier?" Logan said with a confused look.
"No Lo, I'm part of your imagination," Julian said as he walked towards Logan.
"If you are I am going to take advantage of this!" Logan said as he pulled
Julian towards the bedroom.
"Well lucky I gave up cooking 10 minutes ago" Julian said with a smirk as he
kissed Logan fully on the lips.
Logan shoved Julian up against their bedroom wall. He wound his around Julian's
waist as he slowly untied the apron that he was wearing. "I never really liked
this thing," Logan said between kisses down Julian's neck.
"If you hate it so much, Lo, take it off," Julian gasped as his breathes became
shallow. Logan just smirked as he untied the top strap, and the apron fell to
the ground. The blond sucked down Julian's neck leaving little marks as he met
Julian's shoulders. Julian started grabbing at Logan's singlet but failed at
all attempts to get it off. "Lo, baby, too many layers."
Logan stifled a laugh as he broke away from Julian's collarbone, "Mmm, you mean
you would like it if this came off?" He quickly shimmied out of the singlet and
causally dropped it to the floor. The actor let out a whimper as he slipped his
fingers into Logan's waistband, letting them snap back onto Logan's skin. Logan
smirked. He knew this was Julian's way of letting him know that he still had
too many layers.
Logan pulled off his black boxer-briefs and picked up the other boy. Julian
stared questioningly into his eyes, but Logan just gently threw him onto the
bed and straddled his hips. Logan started kissing, biting, and sucking his way
down Julian's chest – taking his time to torture and tease his boyfriend. By
the time Logan made it down to Julian's crotch, he paused and glanced up at
Julian.
"Oh god, Lo, hurry up! I've been away for too long, and I need you in me NOW!
Please…." Julian begged and pleaded for he was now getting frustrated with
Logan.
"Patience, Princess, you'll feel good soon," Logan said as his breathe ghosted
over Julian's member. Julian squirmed under him.
"Logan!" Julian shouted as he bucked his hips up, trying to get Logan to take
him in his mouth, "Please! I need yo-––" suddenly Logan took all of Julian in
his mouth and hollowed his checks around the actor's member. Julian moaned as
Logan slipped one finger into Julian's entrance. A small chuckle escaped
Logan's mouth, as he bobbed up on down on Julian. Julian gripped the sheets of
the bed tighter as he closed his eyes from the pleasure that was running
through his body. "Logan if you don't get in me this is gonna end before it
started!" Julian said threw moans and gasps. Julian fell out of Logan with a
small pop, as he climbed back up to kiss Julian. Julian run his hands up and
down Logan's sides.
Logan spread Julian's legs apart with his hand as he kissed his way down
Julian's neck. He placed his member at Julian's entrance and slowly slid in. A
small moan was heard from Julian as he breathed heavily. "Okay move," Julian
said after a couple of minutes.
The pace between the two started our slow and steady but as their neared the
edge the pace became faster and harder. "Fuck! Lo, harder!" Julian nearly
screamed as Logan hit his prostate. Logan smirked and pulled Julian's legs
around his waist and as he thrusted harder into Julian. Julian was mumbling
something that Logan couldn't understand but he knew Julian was getting close.
Logan slipped his hand down and around Julian's member and pumped it slowly and
out of pace with his thrusts. Within minutes Julian came, screaming Logan's
name and Logan followed a couple of second later.
Logan smiled as he pulled himself off Julian and slide out of him. He brushed
his thumb over Julian's cheek. "Glad to have you home Jules, It's too quiet
without you" Logan whispered as he kissed Julian's cheek.
"Was that a crack at me being loud in the sack Lo?" Julian asked half in a
daze.
"Maybe" Logan smirked as he hugged Julian closer to his body.
The two fell back asleep to each other's breathing, that day they stayed in bed
and forgot all about the outside world.
***** Enchanted *****
"Just breathe; it's just a private school. It is gonna be a breeze," Julian
said to himself as he was just about to open the doors to the hall. The famous
Julian smile appeared on his face as he stepped forward. Noticing he was the
last arrive he saw an open spot next to a blond boy/ he made his way to the
open seat, and took it as someone was delivering a speech at the front of the
room. Some whispered followed him as he listened to the speech that was taking
place. He felt someone tap him on the shoulder and glanced over. That was the
moment Julian feel in love with Logan's eyes but he would never tell anyone
that. Those piecing green eyes, Julian flashed his Hollywood smile towards the
two boys beside him who would later become his best friends. The smile
disappeared only for a couple of seconds before coming back.
Your eyes whispered 'have we met?'
"Hey aren't you Julian Larson-Armstrong?" asked the one next to the blond.
Julian just nodded and kept his face towards the front of the hall. "I'm Derek
and this is Logan" once again Julian just nodded and kept his face towards the
front of the room.
The playful conversation starts, counter all of your quick remarks like passing
notes in secrecy
The coming weeks of the year were made-up of Julian and Logan laughing and play
fighting. Always joking and never truly meaning what they were saying. All the
while Julian's crush grew into love.
The lingering question kept me up, 2am, who do you love, I wonder till I'm wide
awake
Julian lay in the room that he shared with Logan just staring at the ceiling
while across the room Logan was deep in the land of sleep. He sighed as he
glanced over to Logan, wondering why he could not be in those dreams, why
cannot he see me here.
-2 and ½ years later-
Julian quietly entered the room and kneeled down beside the blond. A small sad
smile appeared on the actor's lips.
"This is me praying that this was the very first page not where the story ends.
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again. These are the words I
held back as I was leaving too soon, I was enchanted to meet you. Please don't
be in love with someone else. Please don't have somebody waiting on you," He
whispered. He softly kissed Logan's cheek. "Goodbye Logan, I wish you all the
happiest in the world. Look after yourself for me." Julian added as he stood up
and walked to the close door.
"I love you, Lo!" he whispered as he left the room, Dalton and the boy who
would never know.
In the morning, Logan woke up from the most amazing dream. He was humming to
himself as he made his way to the kitchen to make some coffee and bring it to
his diva best friend. Smiling at everyone as he walked past to get to Julian's
room. He knocked lightly and opened the door.
A smash was heard throughout Stuart, and then a dead silence.
That was the first day of a blond prefect's life without his best friend beside
his side and the start of his drugged life and his secret obsession with one
celebrity.
***** Crazier *****
"Calm down Lo, I'm picking him up from the airport in an hour. Everything is
ready for his birthday?" Derek said as he laughed at his friend.
"I just want everything prefect, he deserves this" Logan with a small smile.
"Okay then have fun!" Derek said with a smirk as he walked out of the house.
-An a hour later at the Airport-
Julian walked off the plane and grabbed his suitcase. He walked towards the
exit and laughed "Is this some sick joke?" Julian said as he walked towards
Derek and his sign. "I personally thought it was creative" Derek said looking
at the sign 'Mr Wanna-be-Wright' .
"Why are you here Derek?" Julian asked as Derek grabbed Julian's bag and walked
off towards the exit of the airport. "Well Logan was busy and couldn't pick you
up, so he sent me, why aren't we happy we just me?" Derek asked as he mocked a
hurt expression on his face.
"No Derek, it's just I am dating Lo and he's too busy to pick me up..." Julian
trailed off.
"Hey now Julian, come on am I that bad to be around?" Derek said with a smile.
Julian just half smiled and looked for Derek's car. Derek put Julian's suitcase
in the back, walked around the side of the car, and got inside. The ride home
to Julian and Logan's place was silent. Julian secretly angry that Logan did
not pick him up and Derek smirking as he knew exactly what was waiting for
Julian when he got home.
Derek parked out the front of the house. "Aren't you coming in D?" Julian asked
"Nah, I'm good Julian. Need to get back to work anyway," Derek said with a
knowing smirk.
"Oh okay, see you around Derek. We'll have to have dinner another night
alright?" Julian said getting out and grabbing his suitcases. Derek just nodded
and drove off. Julian walked into the house and dropped his suitcases at the
front door and glanced down to the floor. There were post-it notes in all
different colours on the floor, (since Dalton Julian had hated roses) saying
"follow me". Julian did what they said. They lead into the bedroom where Logan
sat on the bed, with what looked like just the guitar on. Logan started to
sing, as he played the intro to a song.
I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
You open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything
You Lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
I've watched from a distance as you made life you own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And made me believe
You Lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Baby you showed me what living is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh oh
You Lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier, crazier
"Welcome home and happy 7th Anniversary Jules!" Logan said as he stood up and
walked over to Julian, kissing his softly and slowly.
When they broke apart, leaning against each other. "I missed you to Lo," Julian
said. Julian put his hands on Logan's bare waists and smirked. "I never thought
you would serenade me in the buff but I like it" Julian added as he kissed
Logan's neck.
"Well I'll make a mental note about it, how was your shoot?" Logan asked.
"We'll talk about it later, right now I need you and you need me" Julian said
as he slowly pushed Logan towards the bed.
"Oh okay," Logan said as he shivered.
"I'm gonna show you how much I have missed you Lo," Jules said with a smirk as
he pushed Logan onto the bed and straddled his hips.
"So many clothes" Logan said as he tugged off Julian's shirt. Julian laughed as
he let Logan take off his shirt. Logan slid his hands down Julian's chest and
the up again. Linking his fingers into Julian's hair and pulling his down so he
could kiss him. Julian moaned into Logan's mouth as Logan deepened the kiss.
"You know you get real needy when I've been away for awhile," Julian commented
before pulling Logan towards him for another kiss.
"Yeah, and you say the same thing after all your long times away," Logan said
as he rolled them over and started to unbuckle Julian's jeans.
"Okay enough talking, I have 5 months to make up plus two birthdays and
anniversary sex, hope you didn't plan anything else tonight," Julian said with
a smirk as he felt Logan's length hard against his thigh.
"No it thought you might want to catch up," Logan said with a small laugh as he
kissed his way down to Julian's unbuckled jeans. He licked a line across
Julian's stomach just above his boxers. Julian moaned very loudly as he felt
the cold air hit his skin where Logan had just licked.
"Missed you," Logan mumbled as he pulled off Julian's jeans and boxers.
"Oh god, I've missed you too," Julian said as he pulled Logan's hair, as to
silently tell him to move back up so he could kiss him.
Logan deepened the kiss between him and Julian as he felt Julian's hand slide
down Logan's chest and gently squeeze one of Logan's nipples. Logan moaned into
the kiss, before Julian broke away and took one of Logan's nipples into his
mouth and softly sucks and bites. Logan bunched up the sheets in his hands as
he tried not to fall onto of Julian as he changed nipples. Logan's arm began to
shake as he tried to control himself but he was losing the battle very quickly.
Julian's hand continued down Logan's stomach to his crotch. Where his fingers
lightly danced across the skin before grabbing Logan tightly in his hands and
ran his over the head. Logan groaned, as he felt himself slowly coming undone.
Julian flipped them over so he was on top as he slowly lowered his body so that
he could take Logan in his mouth. Letting him hit the back of his throat.
Logan's hands threaded into Julian's hair, Logan was coming down Julian's
throat after only being in Julian's mouth for only a couple of minutes. Logan
groaned before opening his eyes looking at Julian, who was smirking at him.
"Are you gonna be that quick all night?" Julian asked still smirking.
"No, I just ... god... missed you," Logan said as he grabbed Julian's arm and
pulled him into a kiss.
"Same here, babe," Julian said as he pulled away.
"Give me 10 minute break before we go for round 2," Logan said as he pulled
Julian closer and cuddle with him.
"Okay, you're a cuddle whore!" Julian said as he got comfortable, he wrapped
and arm around Logan's waist and a leg across Logan's.
"And you call me a cuddle whore," Logan mumbled before sleep took over.
***** The Outside *****
Julian sat down in the study area of the library. He had just come back from a
6 week shoot, for something Damaged. He had ton of work to catch up on. He was
just about to put his iPod in so he could tune out the library, when Logan
walked in with his arm around Blaine, laughing. Julian dropped his eyes and
looked at his work.
I didn't read between the lines
And baby, I've got nowhere to go
Julian put his iPod in his ears, trying to tune out Logan's perfect laughter.
He flipped his notebook open and look at his homework for maths. He looked at
the maths problems and began to finish his homework. When Logan sat right in
front of him. Logan waved his hand in front of Julian's face.
"Hey Jules, need help?" Logan asked with a smile.
"No!" Julian snapped.
"Wow, I'm sorry Julian, just trying to help!" Logan said as he stood up
suddenly, and stormed off.
I tried the road less travelled by
But nothing seems to work the first few times
Am I right?
Julian buried his head in his hands, why was it so hard to have a normal
conversation with Logan, without arguing. He would love to have the old days,
where they laugh together.
So how can I ever try to be better?
Nobody ever lets me in
I can still see you, this ain't the best view,
On the outside looking in.
Julian suddenly didn't want to study, so he started to pack up. He couldn't be
there, where he and Logan had just fought. Once he had finished packing up, he
ran to his room, locking himself in his room. He plugged his iPod into the dock
and it picked up where he had paused it. Playing a random tune. Julian face
planted into his pillow, screaming into it. 'Why oh why did I fall in love with
my best friend, why not a random on a set?' Julian yelled into the pillow. He
only had Derek and Logan, that were his real friends.
I've been a lot of lonely places
I've never been on the outside
Julian stayed where he was until he heard a knock and the door open.
"C'mom princess, dinner is being served!" Logan said as he slapped the back of
Julian's shoe. Julian mumbled something into his pillow, Logan must of not
heard him, because he started to tug Julain off the bed, by his feet. Julian
screamed and Logan laughed as Julian grabbed hold of Logan's arm and pulled him
down onto the bed and flipping so he had Logan pinned to the bed.
"I said I'm not hungry, so fuck off," Julian said angrily.
"Well next time say while your heads not buried in your pillow," Logan said as
he pushed Julian off him and walked out of the room.
You saw me there, but you never knew
That I would give it all up to be
A part of this, a part of you.
Julian watched Logan leave and a small tear rolled down his right cheek.
I can still see you, this ain't the best view
On the outside looking in
***** Invisible *****
Julian sat under a tree reading Emma by Jane Austin. He looked up to see Kurt
and Logan sitting on a bench. Julian looked back at his book before looking up
again.
He can't see the way your eyes
Light up when you smile
He'll never notice how you stop and stare whenever he walks by
And you can't see me wantin' you the way you want him
But you are everything to me
His heart was breaking while he sat there. His heart fastened as he glanced up
again. Logan was laughing at something Kurt was saying. His heart was still
breaking at the sight of them. But Julian had never seen Logan's eyes sparkle
like that or seen a bigger smile on his face. A small bitter smile appeared on
Julian's face as he stood up and walked off towards Stuart house. Logan was
happy and it had nothing to do with him and that's what hurt Julian the most.
He stopped outside of Derek's room. He knocked before entering.
Outside in the court yard Logan was laughing at Kurt's story about falling in
love with his step brother.
"So as you've heard, your story can't be as bad as mine,"
"Okay, I think I might be in l... I mean I might like Julian in that way,"
Logan said as he played with his hands.
"You're in love with your best friend?" Kurt said with a soft smile.
"Okay, yeah," Logan said with a small fake laugh. "I just don't know how to
tell him, I mean his straight, he will never look my way,"
There's a fire inside of you
That can't help but shine through
He's never gonna see the light no matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be
"Tell him please," Derek said to Julian
"Why, his got Kurt, and all is right in the world," Julian snapped.
"Don't do it for him, do it for yourself," Derek was raising his voice.
"No Derek, Never! He will never know and I've come to terms with that," Julian
said with a sad smile. "I'm leaving for California in an hour, I came to say
goodbye, and I'll text you when I get to California." Julian said before
hugging Derek. He got up and walked out of the room, back to his. His bags were
packed. He just had to grab a couple of things . He picked up the photo of
Derek, him and Logan laughing under the tree in the court yard. Julian had
loved that picture because Logan's smirk was the brightest he had ever seen. He
turned and dumped it into the bin.
"Ouch," Logan said from where he stood leant up against the door frame. "Didn't
know you hated us that much,"
"Like you would notice," Julian said with half a laugh.
"I would, anything to do with you, I would always notice when it came to you,"
Logan said under his breath.
"Look, my car will be here in 30 minutes, I need to finish packing,"
"You're leaving?" Logan asked as he pushed off from the door.
"Yeah movie deal of my career,"
"When are you coming back?" Logan asked.
"I'm not Logan," Julian said as he grabbed random things, Logan's heart stopped
as Julian continued to have his back to Logan.
"So your career is picking up again?" Logan asked
"Yeah," was all Julian said as he grabbed the photo from the bin. He walked
over to Logan, grabbing his hand and putting the photo in his hand. A small
bitter sweet feeling came over Logan.
"So this is goodbye?" Logan asked in a whispered tone. Julian just nodded, he
really didn't trust his voice at the moment.
"Well I wish you all the best ... for your career," Logan said as his voice
broike at the end of the statement.
"Thanks," Julian smiled a sad smile. Julian's phone buzzed and deep down inside
Logan knew this was the last time he would see the brunette up close. He tried
to take in everything he took for granted about Julian.
"Goodbye Lo," Julian said as he grabbed his suitcases. Logan just watched as
his best friend walked past him and out to the car. Logan walked to the window,
and watched the car disappear out of the driveway. Logan leaned his head up
against the window, and closed his eyes.
"I wish you all the happiness in the world Jules," Logan whispered.
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In the coming years Logan watched anything to do with Julian, cut out all the
articles about him but never saw him in person again. The photo sat beside his
bed and was touched every night before bed. One thing blonde didn't know was at
the back of his graduation was a certain celebrity hiding under a fake wig,
crying as he watched him graduate from high school and college. Every Christmas
and birthday a anonymous card was delivered to Logan always saying the same
thing.
'I Love you, yours always, xoxox'
I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me
If you only knew me
We could be a beautiful
Miracle,
Unbelievable
Instead of just invisible
***** Love Story *****
We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
And say, "Hello,"
Little did I know...
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, "Please don't go"
And I said...
It had been 15 years since Hell night, and Logan & Julian had a lot to get over
and understand. At first Julian ignored Logan, trying to get everything back to
the way it was. He even signed up for a couple of films and left Dalton to
film. Logan had tried to talk to Julian but as soon as Julian saw him coning he
ran away, hiding in his room. Logan gave up trying to talk to Julian when he
ran off to film his first movie, Logan thought if that's the way Julian wants
to do it, fine Logan let everything go back to normal. But Logan tried to find
someone to distract him no one ticked all the boxes anymore. There was one
person but he was off in California filming. Logan sat in his bed room, sulking
for days when he finally figure out why he couldn't get what Julian had said in
the art hall out of his mind.
"I love you too, Julian," Logan whispered to the screen that was playing the
1st season of Something Damaged.
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
When Julian arrived back from the shoot, Logan corned Julian in his room.
"Get out!" Julian yelled as he tried to get to the door. Logan step in front of
Julian, he grabbed Julian's face and kissed him. Trying to tell him how much he
had missed him and how much he loved him all at once.
Julian grasped as he tried to get out of the Logan's grip but surrendered a
couple of seconds later to the lips from his dreams
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all that's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes".
So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, oh.
===============================================================================
A Couple of months later, Julian came out to the public, saying that he was
Bisexual and happily in a relationship with a fellow Dalton student. Logan
watched the whole thing from his bedroom at Dalton. Suddenly his phone started
to ring it was his father.
"Hello Father?" Logan started.
"Are you dating that Larson kid?" his father asked.
"I'm great father, yeah school's fine, Well yes father I have found someone
special. His name is Julian and I'm madly in love with him," Logan said in a
overly-friendly tone.
"Logan, do you know what this will do to MY career!" his father yelled
"Well frankly father, I don't give a FUCK!" Logan yelled back before hitting
the end call button on his phone.
===============================================================================
Logan and Julian had been through a lot in their 3 year relationship. Logan had
thought about moving to California to be with Julian, but in return Julian had
asked Logan to move to New York with him; saying that he preferred New York to
California.
Logan had graduate from Law School with top honours, Julian sat front row next
to Michelle at his graduation. The both of them crying as Logan accepted his
diploma on stage. Logan sent Julian a wink before walking off the stage.
Even though most of the time Julian and Logan were happily in love, the couple
still fought but they would always agree that the make-up sex was the best
thing about fighting.
After a year of working full time at a practise in New York, Logan had taken
Julian out to a nice restaurant to celebrate their 5th anniversary together.
Julian and Logan slipped into their usual random topics at dinner. Julian had
notice that Logan was slightly more nervous than usual. Julian had, had a mini
panic attack at the apartment before putting it behind him.
"Um...Jules," Logan said taking Julian's hand. "I wanted to ask you something
and this is very important and I want you to wait till I finish too..."
"Logan, just say what you need to say!" Julian snapped.
"Jules, you've been my rock for so many years, you've always put me before
anyone and that's why I love you. You have accepted me for who I am and didn't
care about my anger issues and I don't have a long speech so I just want to
skip this part but will you marry me Jules?" Logan asked as he stood up and
knelt beside Julian.
Julian gasped as he looked around at the people who had stopped eating and
turned to watch what was happening. Julian glanced back to Logan and saw the
simple ring in a velvet box in front of him. Julian just nodded cause he
couldn't speak. Tears were falling down his face as he grabbed Logan's face and
kissed him in front of all the people in the restaurant. The restaurant
suddenly filled with cheers and applause as the two man smiled at each other.
Logan took out the ring and placed it one Julian's finger. Julian wiped the
tears away before grabbed Logan in a bone-crushing hug.
"I just have one condition," Julian said as he pulled back. Logan waited for
Julian continues. "I want you to wear..." Julian stopped as Logan pulled out
another ring from his front pocket. "you read my mind," Julian said with a soft
laugh. Julian slipped the ring onto Logan's finger.
Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad ‒ go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes".
Which brings us to the present day; sitting on a blanket in Centre Park in the
middle of summer, Julian sat watching his husband run after their five-year-old
son.
"I'm gonna get you Jonah," Logan yelled as he ran after his son, who was
laughing at the top of his lungs.
"Daddy! Papa won't let me play," said their two year old daughter Bonnie.
"Oh come here, we'll wait till their all tired out," Julian said as he held out
his arms for Bonnie. Bonnie ran over to her dad and wrapped her arms around
him. After awhile Jonah and Logan collapsed onto the blanket as Julian and
Bonnie continued to make bracelets out of flowers their found.
"Papa aren't these pretty," Bonnie said excitedly.
"There are beautiful Bonnie, just like you," Logan said as he tapped her nose.
Bonnie giggled as she placed one around Logan's wrist.
"I wanna make some!" Jonah said as he stood up.
"Why don't you show Jonah where we found some," Julian said as he pushed some
of Bonnie's blonde hair behind her ear.
"Okay Daddy," Bonnie said as she stood up.
"Make sure you stay together, Jonah hold your sister's hand," Logan called out
as Jonah grabbed Bonnie's hand and ran over to a patch of flowers.
"We are the luckiest family," Logan said as he leaned up on one of his elbows
and kissed Julian on the lips gently.
"Yes we are," Julian said as Logan broke away from the kiss. Julian pushed
Logan back and lay down next to him leaning his head on Logan's chest.
'cause we were both young when I first saw you
THE END!
***** Long Live *****
Logan came home for work to hear Taylor swift blaring from his teenage
daughter's room. He was not in the mood, he had, had a bad day. Long day in
court, his witness hadn't turned up. The defence were getting a head and making
more sense than Logan was. Which meant he would be up late tonight doing more
research; meaning less time with his family. Then he would have to get up early
to be in court by 8am; that was one of the things he hated about being a lawyer
but there were always pros and cons to every job. He knocked on his daughter's
bedroom door. Of course, she could not hear over Taylor swift singing her lungs
out. He opened the door to see his daughter jumping around on her bed.
Long live the walls we crashed through
While the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming, long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders, I'm not afraid
Long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
I was screaming, long live the look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders, one day we will be remembered
"Bonnelyn!" Logan yelled over the music. His daughter turned quickly and jumped
off her bed. She ran over to her iPod and turned it off in one swift motion.
"Sorry Papa, I don't know you would be home early." Bonnie said as he looked
down at the floor.
"It's okay, Bon. I just need..." Logan started as he rubbed his temple.
"Peace and quiet while you work on your case I know papa. I'll keep quiet," She
said with a small smile. "I'll go help dad in the kitchen," She said as she
brushed pass him and off down the hall. Logan watched as she went. She was
becoming more like Julian each day. Always putting everyone else first and not
worrying about herself. It did not help that she looked like Julian too. Logan
glanced back into the room when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked to
see Julian standing there in an apron.
"I'm becoming my dad aren't I?" Logan asked.
"No, you're nothing like your father. At least you try to make it home for
dinner," Julian said before kissing Logan's cheek. "Now come on, your son is
bringing his girlfriend over and you need to get out of that suit." Julian said
as he guided Logan off to the main bedroom.
"I thought you like me in a suit," Logan said as he felt the tiredness leave
his body. Something about coming home to the apartment he and Julian lived in
with their two kids made him feel so at ease.
"I do, but you look more comfortable out of it," Julian said with a smirk as he
closed the main bedroom door behind him as he walked back to the kitchen. After
spending a long time in the shower, Logan came out to the kitchen to see Julian
teaching Bonnie how to cook. Bonnie was shadowing Julian's every move. Logan
leaned up against the door and watched as they continued to laugh and talk.
"Hey Papa!" Bonnie called with Julian's famous smile on her face.
"What are you two cooking?" Logan asked as he walked towards the both of them.
"Well we thought duck but I thought that might be a bit stuck-up," Julian said
as he turned to check something in the oven. "Then your beautiful daughter
thought we should keep it simple. So we're having steak and home-made potato
bake with some salad, cause your husband and daughter our health freaks,"
Julian said as Bonnie turned to the fridge to pull more salad out of it.
"Ah my favourite meal," Logan said as he pulled the stool out from under the
bench.
"Would you like a drink Papa?" Bonnie asked.
"Yes, I would but I think I would like one of your smoothies," Logan said with
a smile.
"I knew you would say that," She said as she turned to the fridge and pulled
out a pre-made smoothie. "I made it while you were in the bedroom," She said as
she placed in front of him.
"So when is the poor girl coming over?" Logan asked with a smirk.
"She and your son will be over in 20 minutes, and behave yourself. She knows
all about us and about your family!" Julian said pointing the knife at Logan.
"My family... hey I don't know what you mean... oh you mean the family that
gave birth to me?" Logan asked playing innocent.
"Yes that one, you know your father being the senator for New York!" Julian
said as he started to clean the kitchen.
"Well she does know I'm not like him right?" Logan asked as he took a sip of
the smoothie.
"Yes, your son has told her all about us,"
"Hold on why is he my son all of a sudden. We did raise him together," Logan
said pointing at Julian.
"I know but he has something to tell you and I need you to remember he is still
your son," Julian said giving Logan a death stare.
"Oh did he knock her up or something?" Logan asked in a tone that somebody
would normally use if asking about the weather. Bonnie started to laugh where
she was standing.
"Logan! Stop that not in front of our innocent daughter!" Julian said with his
actor voice.
"Oh c'mon, she's 17. We had the taught years ago!" Logan said shaking his head.
"And I don't need to be reminded about that!" Bonnie said putting the salad
onto the table.
"Yeah and neither do I," Julian said shaking his head.
"You know, I thought it went really good, I mean it was weird walking into a
drug store and asking the lady behind the counter all about tampons and pads,"
Logan continued. Julian slapped Logan's arm while bonnie dropped the fork she
was holding and doubled over from laughing.
"See what you did!" Julian said grabbing Logan's face. "This is why I said
leave it to me and yet you wanted to be helpful!" Julian said as he lightly
kissed Logan's lips.
"Oh god, keep it to the bedroom!" Bonnie said pretending to throw up.
"We're not doing anything, I mean I would understand if I did this," Logan said
as he stood up and dipped Julian and kissed him full on the lips, then deepened
the kiss. Bonnie was laughing while trying to pretend to dislike what she was
seeing.
"Um... hi everyone," came a voice from the hallway. Julian hit Logan's arm, to
tell him to stop. They both straighten out, and looked at their son and his
girlfriend.
"Katherine this is my family. My sister Bonnie," Bonnie moved forward and shook
Katherine's hand. "My Dad, Julian and My Pa, Logan," he said as he pointed to
each other of them. Logan waved as he tried to keep a straight face and Julian
moved forward and hugged Katherine.
"It's very nice to finally meet you," Julian said with a smile. "Sorry about
that, just the family mucking around." As soon as Julian said that Bonnie and
Logan burst out laughing.
"And now you understand why I said my home was like a madhouse," Jonah said
shaking his head.
"But you love us all the same," Bonnie said as he kissed her brother's cheek
and grabbed a bottle of wine out of the wine rack and placed it on the table.
"Why don't we sit," Logan said pointing to the dining room. "I'm sure after
dinner, Jonah can give you the house tour," Logan added as he pulled out a
chair for Bonnie.
"Thanks Papa," Bonnie said before taking her seat. Logan saw his son to the
same thing for his girlfriend. Logan walked into the kitchen to help Julian; he
placed his arms around Julian's waist.
"I see why you said he was my son," Logan whispered in Julian's ear.
"Yes, he does get your manners," Julian said as he pulled away from Logan and
gave him two dishes to take to the dining room. Julian followed with the rest.
He placed them down in front of them all.
After 20 minutes of comfortable silence, Logan looked from Julian to his son.
"So you dad said you wanted to tell me something?" Logan asked before taking a
bite of his meal.
"Well yes, but I don't want you to be mad Pa, I'm still thinking about it, and
I..." Jonah said as he started to get off track.
"Jonah, it's fine, just say it," Logan said in his calming tone.
"Grandfather John has offered me a job," Jonah said all in one breath. Logan
nodded waiting for Jonah to continue. But Jonah had his head down waiting for
his father to start yelling.
"Yes and..." Logan said as he put down his fork.
"Well I haven't accepted yet but he wants me to follow him in his footsteps,"
Jonah said.
"So he wants you to be in government too?" Logan asked.
"Yeah but Pa I don't want you to be mad but I'm not..."
"not sure if you want too?" Logan finished for Jonah.
"Yeah, I mean I know I've just started college and all but I was thinking about
changing my degree. I'm not sure if law is something I want," Jonah said
looking at his father straight in the eye.
"I was thinking the same thing," Logan said with a smile. "I was wondering why
you didn't do the journalism program at NYU," Logan said as he looked down at
his food to take another bite.
"What your father is saying, we don't care what you do as long as you are
happy," Julian said as he hit Logan in the arm.
"If you want to work for your grandfather than work for him, to be honest I was
surprised when you picked law but I'm not forcing you to continue if you don't
want to do it anymore. I want you to be happy with what you pick and your dad
and I will always be there to support you no matter what you pick," Logan said
looking at his son. "It was the one thing I asked your dad to promise me, that
I would never be like my own father, and he has made sure I haven't." Logan
said taking Julian's hand.
"Your nothing like grandfather John, Pa" Bonnie said with a smile.
"I second that Pa, I just don't understand why he always wants me to do things
for him," Jonah said.
"Because he can't accept what your Pa has chosen, and he wants you to be a fill
in for you Pa," Julian said with a sigh. "But like we have said Jonah, it's up
to you. We just want you to be happy," Julian said with a smile.
Jonah smiled at his parents, he took Katherine's hand under the table.
"And he thought you knocked her up," Bonnie said as he took a bite of her food.
"Bonnelyn!" Julian and Logan yelled at the same time.
"What?" she said
"I'm sorry Katherine," Julian said shaking his head as he put some salad on his
plate then some on Logan's. Logan looked at Julian.
"Don't give me that look you need the energy!" Julian said without thinking.
"Oh eww..." Bonnie and Jonah said at the same time.
"Oh our children..." Logan said laughing.
***** Last Kiss *****
I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered
For just us to know
You told me you loved me
So why did you go away?
Away
The words echoed through the halls of Stuart hall. As a blonde prefect hummed
to himself in his room. His hall mates had gotten used to the sad as the blonde
sulked in his room. Derek had tried to get Logan out of his room but nothing
had worked, so Derek just delivered meals and took empty coffee cups out of
room.
But now I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss
I never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imaged we'd end like this
Your names, forever on my lips
The music blaring and Logan only leaving his room for class lasted an entire
month till Derek couldn't take it anymore. He pressed number two on his speed
dial and talked very quickly to the person on the other end.
The next day, Logan was in his room. It was Saturday so Logan didn't have any
classes. So he sat on his bed blaring the usual play list, Safely humming to
himself.
Suddenly his door was thrown open, and a very angry-looking Julian stormed in.
Slamming his hand on the pause button and turned to Logan.
"there better be a good reason, that Derek called me away from my shoot in
Hawaii?" Julian said with a angry tone.
"I missed you," was all Logan said and all the anger disappeared from Julian's
face.
"Lo! You could've call or skyped?" Julian said in a calmer tone of voice.
"Not the same," Logan said with his eyes on his hands that were in his lap.
Julian toed off his shoes and climbed onto the bed, pulling his hands apart and
climbing into Logan's lap, sitting sideways.
"I missed you too," Julian said as he softly kissed Logan's neck.
A small sigh escaped Logan's lips as he pulled Julian against him, hugging him
tighter.
"Do you have to go back?" Logan asked.
"No, I can stay," Julian whispered.
"Good," was all Logan said before kissing Julian.
Forever the name on my lips
Just like our last...
***** Haunted *****
Logan and Julian had been going out for 3 months; to say they were in the
honeymoon stage of their relationship was the understatement of the century.
The two were always touching never too far from each other. Derek was quietly
waiting for their first huge fight. He knew it would be soon, he could see the
signs in Logan's eyes, when Julian would talk to a girl or boy and they would
start to flirt with Julian. Of course, Logan would give them a death glare but
Julian would carry on without knowing. Everyone in the Stuart house knew that
Julian had given Logan the rest of his heart the moment the two of them started
to date.
However, Logan still was a bit worried that Julian would find someone else to
love. Someone more deserving of Julian's love. Derek could also see the signs
that Logan believed that Julian would be better off with someone else.
Oh I'm holding my breathe
Won't lose you again
Something's made your eyes go cold
When the fight happened, the whole of Stuart ran to their rooms away from the
yelling and screaming of the common rooms.
"Why don't you ever listen to me Logan!" yelled Julian
"I do listen, trust me I do!" Logan yelled back
"Then I get it threw your thick skull, I DON'T WANT ANYBODY BUT YOU!"
"I'm not saying that Jules, I believe you when you say you didn't cheat but
maybe we should just call this quits. If all the media say we don't look happy
together..."
"No you listen okay," Julian said as he took a step forward. "I told you when
we first decide to date that I don't care what the media thinks. I'm in love
with you Logan! But if you say you don't love me or that you have realized that
you can't love me, then I will walk away," Julian said as the tears started to
fall down his cheek.
Logan looked at Julian, taking a couple of deep breathes before he started to
talk.
"I'm sorry Julian but I don't love you...as you want me too," Logan said
quietly. Julian nodded and then walked towards Logan. He pulled Logan into a
tight hug before he kissed Logan's cheek. "that's okay, I will always love
you," Julian whispered before he started to walk out, he turned to look at
Logan, "Give me some time to get over you, okay. The we can be friends again,"
"Okay," was all that Logan said as Julian turned again and disappeared to his
room.
Stood there and watched you walk away
From everything we had
But I still mean every word I said to you
It took 2 weeks before Julian walked into the common room and sat next to
Derek, who was studying with Logan. The conversation was shot but it seem like
the two ex's were close to being friends again. Logan excuse himself saying he
had to do some Prefect duties and would seem them later.
Derek turned to Julian, who was reading over his notes from American History.
"Are you really over him?" Derek asked directly.
"No, but I did pretend I wasn't in love with him for 3 years," Julian said as
he stared at the chair Logan had been sitting him. "But I want to be selfish
and still have him in life, even if I am nothing but a friend to him,"
"Are you gonna be okay?"
"Hopefully, I truly don't know Derek. I love him but he doesn't love me, I
should be used to it by now. But for a couple of months I had what I always
wanted and I'm never gonna forget about it," Julian said as he glanced down at
his notes trying to hide his tears that threaten to fall. Derek rubbed Julian's
back, trying to calm Julian.
After leaving Julian, who had finally calmed down, Derek run to Logan's room.
He went to walk straight in but found the door locked so he banged on the door.
He could hear Logan shuffling around before the door opened.
"Hey," Derek said looking at Logan.
"Hi, can I help you. I'm in the middle of some prefect stuff and I need it done
before tomorrow,"
"Okay, well I'll see you down at dinner then," Derek said before turning and
walking off.
As Logan closed the door, he locked it again. Moving slowly back to his bed
where he threw the covers back and pulled them over his body. He snuck his hand
under his pillow and pulled out a hidden photo frame. The photo in the frame
was a simple one. It had been taken within the first month of Julian and
Logan's relationship. Logan had pulled Julian close to his chest and was
hugging him tightly to his chest; a huge smile on his face as he laughed at
Julian's face he was pulling. He was about to lean in and kiss Julian. Logan
gently caressed the photo.
"It was for the best, You deserve someone who will give you the world you
deserve. And I can't do that, I will always love you too, Jules" Logan said as
he kissed the photo and hugged it too his chest as he closed his eyes, dreaming
of the days when everything was perfect and the only thing that matter was
making a certain brunette smile.
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
Never ever thought I'd see it break
Never thought I'd see it ...
***** If this was a movie *****
Julian sat in the senior common rooms humming to himself quietly as his fingers
slowly danced across the keys on the piano, until he hit the wrong note,
"Fuck," Julian said under his breath.
"Careful princess you can't swear in front of all your fan girls," said a voice
from the doorway. Julian spun round to see Logan leaning against the doorframe
with his arms crossed over his chest.
"No one asked for your opinion squid," Julian said before turning back to the
piano, gently playing the tune again, trying not to think about Logan or
anything else, and just feeling the song. It was not long before Julian mucked
up on the piano again. Swearing under his breath, he closed his eyes and taking
a couple of deep breathes, he opened them again.
"Do you want some help?" Logan said far more closely than he was a couple
minutes beforehand. Julian looked over his shoulder and there stood Logan.
"Are you offering to help someone other than yourself?" Julian asked.
"Yes I am. Do you want my help because I can go back to bed and leave you
alone?" Logan said as he gestured behind him.
"Fine," Julian said as he moved down the piano bench making room for Logan.
Logan sat very close to Julian and positioned his hands over the keys ready to
play. Logan glanced over to Julian and just stared at him.
"Oh right you need this," Julian said as he pulled a sheet of music out of a
pile and placing it on the stand.
"Taylor swift? Really Jules?" Logan said with a smirk.
"I'm doing a duet with her for The Trevor Project," Julian said as he looked
from Logan to the music sheet.
"Okay, sing along, I'll sing Taylor's part," Logan said as his fingers danced
across the piano with ease.
"Hate you," Julian mumbled as Logan started to play the intro to the song.
Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not there
I was playing back a thousand memories, baby
Thinking 'bout everything we've been through
Maybe I've been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you
Logan watched as Julian poured his heart and soul into the song; someone
singing had never moved him so much. Logan was so lost in Julian's voice he
nearly missed the chorus change.
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
Logan joined in on the chorus harmonizing with Julian as the continued to sing.
Logan just stared at Julian and used his years of playing so he could watch
every moment Julian made during the song.
I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Wrapped up in your arms and our friends were laughing
'Cause nothing like this ever happened to them,
Now I'm pacing down the hall, chasing down your street
Flashback to the night when you said to me,
"Nothing's gonna change, not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose"
Logan took over the second chorus, singing loud and clear, trying to put as
much emotion in it as Julian had. Logan could not understand how Julian felt so
much when it came to this song but he was sure that Julian would always
surprise him with something he had not noticed and that was something Logan did
not mind sticking around for.
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would before you said it's not that easy
Before the fight, before I locked you out
But I take it all back now
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
You'd be here by now
It's not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Baby, what about the ending
Oh, I thought you'd be here by now, whoa
Thought you'd be here by now
When Logan drew the song to a close. He found Julian just staring at his hands
as he stopped the song and glanced over to him.
"I've always been jealous at your natural talent when it comes to playing the
piano," Julian said before looking up at Logan.
"Well I've always been jealous about your natural talent when it comes to
feeling a song, you should really join the warblers but I know we're not as
great as your friends in L.A," Logan said as he stood up and walked out of the
door.
"Thanks Lo," Julian whispered as he collected the sheet music and headed off to
his dorm room.
~2 months later~
Logan sat in his dorm room with his laptop on his lap as he watched a live
stream of The Trevor Project Concert, they had been heaps of people performing
but then they announced Taylor Swift and Julian Larson. Logan turned up the
volume as the intro, and then Julian's voice was heard along side of the piano.
He was singing with just as much or even more emotions then Logan heard when
they were practising.
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
If you're out there
If you're somewhere
If you're moving on
I've been waiting for you
Wary since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just wanna see you back at my front door
And I say
When the last note rang out the whole audience was on their feet cheering and
screaming as both Taylor and Julian bowed.
"Thank you very much Julian," Taylor said into a microphone.
"No thank you Taylor," Julian said before hugging her and smiling as they both
walked off stage. Logan clapped softly as he watched them. When the next
performer was announced Logan closed the window on his laptop and shut it off
and climb under his blankets and fell asleep, dreaming of him and Julian
singing that song in front of the crowd instead of Taylor.
***** Superman *****
It was Halloween time again, but this year was very different. For one a
certain brunette Hollywood star was in a relationship with a Stuart prefect and
the second reason is said Stuart prefect was in his friend Derek's room getting
ready for the Halloween party been thrown by the school.
"So once again, why are you here?" Derek asked as he walked out in his hulk
costume (Which was really just him in a pair of short purple shorts and green
paint all over his body and that was it).
"Well Jules told me I can't see his costume until the party and something about
me being too distracting in my costume," Logan said as he fixed up the "S" on
the front of his costume.
"Oh yeah, you will have to fight the girls off you," Derek said as he looked at
Logan, "And all the boys that aren't your boyfriend,"
"Look it was Julian's idea that I dress up as Superman, I mean I hate the
tights but what Julian wants Julian gets,"
"You are so whipped dude," Derek said as he checked himself out in the mirror.
"Well if you knew what Julian could do with his..."
"Don't finish that sentence, its bad enough I have to hear you guys at night, I
don't need to know what's going on in that room," Derek said as he turned to
look at Logan.
"This is all payback from when you and your fling of the night start going for
it, all the dorm hears," Logan said as he fixes up his tights for the last time
before heading off to the part down stairs with Derek following behind him.
As soon as Logan walked into the room, he heard wolf whistle and cat calls,
Logan just nodded and waved to everyone.
"Nice ass Wright!" yelled one of the senior Stuarts.
"Didn't know you were gay, Meyer!" Logan yelled back as he looked around the
party for his boyfriend.
"Hoping to get lucky?" Derek said as he followed Logan's eye slight looking for
his boyfriend.
"Yeah but I do need someone else for that, are you volunteering D?"
"Oh hell no, excuse me why I get me some ass," Derek said as he stormed off
towards a group of girls, Logan just laughed as he continued to look around for
Julian.
Suddenly a spotlight appeared on the stage and Julian appeared in his costume.
Logan was slightly confused until Bailey appeared next to him.
"So I take it you never read comics Logan?" Bailey said with a laugh. Logan
shook his head. "Well you are Superman/Clark Kent and your love interest is
Lois Lane, who is a reporter at Daily Planet, hence why your boyfriend is
dressed up as a reporter," Bailey said as he clapped a hand on his back before
walking off.
"So this song is for my better half," he heard Julian say before the music
picked up.
Tall, dark and supermanly
He puts papers in his briefcase and drives away
To save the world or go to work
It's the same thing to me
He's got his mother's eyes, his father's ambition
I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him
I hang on every word you say, yay
And you smile and say, "How are you? "
I say, "Just fine"
I always forget to tell you, I love you, I love you... forever
I watch superman fly away
You've got a busy day today
Go save the world, I'll be around
I watch superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you someday
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down
Tall, dark and beautiful
He's complicated, he's irrational
But I hope someday you'll take me away and save the day, yeah
Something in his deep brown eyes has me sayin'
He's not all bad like his reputation
And I can't hear one single word they say
And you'll leave, got places to be and I'll be OK
I always forget to tell you I love you, I loved you from the very first day
I watch superman fly away
You've got a busy day today
Go save the world I'll be around
I watch superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you someday
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down
And I watch you fly around the world
And I hope you don't save some other girl
Don't forget, don't forget about me
I'm far away but I never let you go
I'm lovestruck and looking out the window
Don't forget, don't forget where I'll be
Right here wishing the flowers were from you
Wishing the card was from you
Wishing the call was from you
'Cause I loved you from the very first day
I watch superman fly away
You've got a busy day today
Go save the world, I'll be around...
Forever and ever here
I watch superman fly away
I swear I'll be with you someday
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down
La, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la
When you come back down
With the rest of the party, everyone was dancing around and singing. Logan was
laughing as he watched Julian slowly make his way towards him. As Julian was
close enough he started to dance circles around Logan, and made faces towards
everyone but made goo-goo eyes at Logan. When the song finished Bailey took the
microphone and Logan pulled Julian close and burying his face into his neck.
"mmm, I love you," Logan said against Julian's neck.
"And so do I," Julian said as he placed his hands on Logan's hips. "I love that
you wore this," Julian added as he pulled at the tights on Logan's ass.
"Well what you want is what you get," Logan said as he spun Julian around and
then dipped him.
"This party is very boring," Julian said as he kissed Logan's neck, slowly
sucking on it.
"Yeah I heard there's a better party in your dorm room," Logan whispered in
Julian's ear, before Julian grabbed Logan's arm and pulled him out of the party
and towards his dorm room.
Julian pushed Logan down onto the bed; straddling Logan's thighs. Placing his
hands on both side of Logan's head and leaned in, kissing Logan. Logan groaned
into the kiss, moving his hands so they rested upon Julian's hips.
"Too many layers," Logan said between kisses.
"I can help with that," Julian tugged on the tights and they split down the
side. He threw them into the floor and saw that Logan had gone commando to wear
his costume and that has excited Julian even more. Logan sat up a little bit
and took off his shirt and cape.
"You could have left that on," Julian said as he took of his jacket and started
to unbutton his shirt.
"Oh I could have? Are we discussing a new kink Jules?" Logan asked.
"maybe," Julian said as he tossed his shirt off and jacket onto the floor.
"Still too many layers Jules dear," Logan said as he palmed Julian threw his
pants. Julian moaned and fumbled with the belt of his pant before groaning in
annoyance.
"Hold still," Logan said with a smirk as he unbutton Julian's pants and slide
them and his underwear off his hips. Julian stood up and wriggled out of them.
Pulling off his shoes and socks and coming back to straddle Logan.
"One thing I didn't mention was your wonderful need to go commando and yet you
didn't tell me," Julian said better kisses as he travelled down Logan's chest.
Logan dug his fingers into the sheet as Julian took his right nipple in his
mouth gently rolling it around between his teeth.
"yeah... I didn't want to make it obvious that I was wearing underwear...
bett...er to just go com...mando... god Jules!" Logan said as he felt Julian
change nipples.
"Of course you would prefer to go commando," Julian said as he moved down and
kissed the area just below Logan's belly button. Softly biting as he worked
lower down Logan. Logan's hands flew to Julian's hair.
"God hurry up, if you don't I won't last that much longer," Logan said as he
closed his eyes.
"But there is always round 2 and 3 and 4 and even 5 if you feel up to it,"
Julian said as he looked up into Logan's eyes.
"Jules!"
"okay, okay," Julian said as he took Logan into his mouth and suck softly
before hallowing out his cheeks and taking Logan deeper in his mouth. Logan was
trying with all his might not to buck up into Julian's mouth. Logan had long
given up trying to be quiet in bed when it came to Julian and his talent hands,
mouth, tongue... well everything. Logan groaned as he felt himself dragged to
the edge and then Julian would let him fall from his mouth with a pop. He
worked his way back up to Logan's lips. Logan kissed Julian with as much
passion as the day they both got together. Logan reached blindly over to the
draw and pulled out a condom and lube. He put them next to his hip, so when he
flipped them over so Julian had his back against the mattress.
"So bottom or top?" Logan asked as he kissed down Julian's neck.
"bottom, I want to feel you," Julian said with a small groan.
"As you command my Prince," Logan moved slowly down and pushed Julian's legs
apart and gently grabbed Julian and stroked him a couple times before leaning
in and licking Julian's entrance.
"God, Lo. Keep doing it, yeah just don't...stop," Julian rambled as Logan
continued to lick and suck. As well as his tongue, Logan slowly pushed one
finger in, followed by two and then three. "God, Lo. I think you need to hurry
up and get in me," Julian said as he was over the teasing.
"Okay, hold on," Logan said as he rolled on the condom and grabbed some lube.
"You ready?" Logan asked before positioning his self at Julian's entrance.
Julian nodded before sinking his fingers into the sheets. Logan started slowly
pushing his way in. He let out a long low groan as he entered Julian. Julian
threw his head back and closed his eyes as he felt Logan fill him up. Logan
waited a couple of minutes before asking Julian if he was okay.
"Yes, move... move now Lo!" Julian nearly screamed.
Logan did as he was told and starting setting himself a steady rhythm,
thrusting in and then out. Julian moaning as Logan hit that sweet spot.
"LOGAN...YES...YES...OH GOD...YES!" Julian yelled at the top of his voice.
Within minutes Julian was spilling all over Julian's and Logan's stomach. Logan
coming a couple minutes later as he continued to thrust threw Julian's and his
own orgasm. Logan collapsed on top of Julian and nuzzled his neck.
"God Logan, you've gain like 20 pounds get your ass of me," Julian said with a
small laugh.
"You are always the nicest to me when you're in orgasm afterglow," Logan said
as he rolled off Julian and cuddled to his side. Julian pulled the condom off,
tied it, and threw it in the bin.
"Thanks babe," Logan said as he pulled Julian closer.
"Aww you and your cuddles," Julian pulled him closer and kissed his forehead.
"but they are so awesome with you," Logan mumbled as he slowly fell asleep.
"Round 2 in 30mintues maybe an hour,"
"Oh you've read my mind," Julian said with a small laugh.
***** White Horse *****
Logan sat across from Julian in his own bed. Julian was deep asleep as Logan
watched him. How could he fall in love with his straight best friend? He
couldn't believe he broke one of his golden rules. Never fall for a straight
guy. However, here he sits, at 1am thinking about his future with Julian, all
he can see is love, and happiness but it will never happen since Julian is
STRAIGHT! As in likes girls not boys.
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on the days drag on
Stupid boy, I should've known
I should have known
Logan didn't sleep that night, he just watched Julian sleep. Half way through
the night Logan found it extremely stalk-ish. So he moved out of the room and
down to their shared bathroom. He splashed some water on his face before
walking back to his bed. Julian mumbled in his sleep. Logan took a step towards
Julian and kneeled down. He gently stroked Julian cheek.
Maybe I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings, well now I know.
Julian rolled over in his sleep and faced Logan subconsciously. Julian
continued to sleep as Logan softly ran his hands threw Julian's hair. After
some time Logan pulled back and climbed into his own bed. He closed his eyes
and drifted to his dreamland, where he laid under the tree with a certain
brunette boy cuddled to his chest. His hand running up and down his arm of the
brunette boy. Logan hummed to the boy a simple tune. It felt like home to
Logan. He loved every minute that he got to spend with the dream version of the
brunette boy. The one that loved him in return who would kiss him and whisper
that three-word phrase that would make his heart sore. Where when he is awake,
he wishes that he could go, back to sleep where the dream version of his love
welcomed him warmly.
Someone shaking him startled Logan awake. "Go away,"
"Seriously Lo, you say I sleep too much, you went to bed before me and wake
after me. God, you're lazy Lo," Julian said as he stood up. "I'm worried about
you, lo. All you want to do is sleep and that's not right," Julian said with a
concerned tone.
"I'm fine, Jules," Logan said as he stood up and walked into their bathroom to
get ready for class. Logan glanced in the mirror, "I have to move on but I will
always love you, Jules," Logan whispered before taking a shower.
Cause I'm not your prince, this ain't a fairytale
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my review mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse
To catch me now
Oh try and catch me now
It's too late to catch me now
It took another 3 months before Logan finally got over Julian. Nevertheless,
Logan was still true to his word. Everyday Logan loved Julian; he tried to show
that he meant the world to him. However, as time went by, boys rolled in and
took Julian's place in Logan's heart.
However, they never could fit the hole Julian made. Never perfectly like Julian
did.
***** Fearless *****
Julian, Derek and Logan were in the common room studying for a up and coming
test that was on Monday. Julian was sitting by the window watching the sky as
it had been raining earlier but had only stopped a couple of minutes ago. He
was humming a simple tune as he watched the sky.
There's something about the way,
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement
Julian had stopped listening to Derek and Logan argued between them. There was
something about the rain that calmed him no matter what he was feeling after
the rain he felt so calm and relaxed. Julian gently leaned his forehead against
the window while resting a book in his lap. Clark had given him The Hunger
Games trilogy for Christmas. He was just about to finish the first one.
"Jules, earth to Jules!" Logan said as he waved a hand in front Julian's face.
"huh?" Julian said as he looked at Logan.
"I was asking you a question," Logan said as he pushed Julian's legs closer to
the wall and sat down.
"Sorry, what was it?" Julian asked as he book his bookmark into the book and
looked Logan in the eyes.
"I was wondering if I can borrow your iPod," Logan asked with a small smile.
"Oh yeah, but I think I left it in my car," Julian said looking out the window
seeing that the rain picked up again. "God, the things I do for you," Julian
said as he pulled off his jacket and ran out of Dalton and towards his car. The
rain was falling even hard now as Julian pulled out his keys from his pocket.
He climbed into his car and quickly grabbed his iPod and stuck it in his
pocket. Closing the door and locking, he turned to see Logan standing a couple
of feet away from him.
You walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah
Oh yeah
"Thought you mind need this but yet you're stubborn," Logan said as he leaned
over so the umbrella was covering Julian as well. It did not do much as
Julian's shirt was already soaked threw showing his undershirt. "Come on, dear
one" Logan muttered as he put an arm around Julian's shoulders and guided him
back to Dalton.
"Don't treat me like 'My Fair Lady'," Julian muttered under his breath.
"I wasn't but if you want me too," Logan said as he grabbed Julian's hand and
dropped the umbrella. He started to dance with Julian and started to sing. "I
could have danced all night, and still have wanted more..."
"Lo!" Julian said as he pulled away.
We're drivin' down the road
I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absent mindedly makin' me want you
And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Julian picked the umbrella and walked off. "Oh come back Eliza I love you,"
Logan yelled. Julian stopped dead in his tracks. 'oh god did he just say what I
thought he'd just said,' Julian thought to himself.
"That got you to stop," Logan said as he brushed the hair out of his eyes.
"Well it's not every day your gay best friend tells you that he loves you,"
Julian said in a cold tone.
"Well I do love you Jules," Logan said as he leant down and kissed Julian's
cheek before running off inside. "C'mon you need to get out of the rain Jules,"
Julian slowly lifted a hand to his cheek and a small smile appeared on his
face. When his mind slowly kicked in, he ran after Logan.
So baby drive slow
'til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger's seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture it, remember it
Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Julian got changed out of his wet clothes and into some tracksuit pants and a
Dalton hoodie before pulling out his iPod and walking barefoot to Logan's room.
He knocked once before he opened the door. "Hey Jules," Logan said as he came
out of the bathroom with just sweatpants on, his chest bare with droplets still
running down from his hair. "What can I do for you?" Logan asked as he looked
around his room. Julian couldn't stop watching the muscles of Logan's back and
chest move under his skin. He just stood there with his mouth open.
"Jules?" Logan said turning to look at Julian.
"Um...yeah...iPod," Julian said as he reached out his hand with the iPod.
"Thanks, I was hoping I could find a song to sing to Kurt on here," Logan said
as he plugged in the iPod to his computer. Julian's face fell as turned away
from Logan.
"Good Luck," Julian said as he opened the door; just looking over his shoulder
as he left the room. "What Logan wants Logan gets," Julian whispered as he left
and headed back to his room.
Cuz I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Oh-oh
Oh yeah
***** Our Song *****
Logan, Julian and Derek were on their summer holidays; driving from Westerville
all the way to California. They were half way through the journey. Derek had
taken the morning shift of driving and now it was Logan's turn. Logan had been
watching the road, as Derek and Julian slept. Suddenly there was movement right
next to him. He glanced over to see Julian stretching like a cat. Logan got a
glimpse of skin when Julian stretched his arms over his head. Logan quickly
turned away, looking back at the empty highway.
"Hey Lo, do you mind if I turn the radio on?" Julian asked.
"Sure," Lo said as he kept his eyes on the road. Julian turned the radio on and
flipped through the locate stations before stopping on one.
"That was Keith Urban's new single and next to play is Our Song by Taylor
Swift. So enjoy your afternoon guys," the radio said before the intro to our
song started. Julian started to hum to the song, and then slowly started to
sing the first verse.
I was riding shotgun
with my hair undone
in the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel
on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says, "Baby is something wrong?"
I say, "Nothing,
I was just thinking
how we don't have a song"
And he says...
When the chorus came along, Logan tapped on the steering wheel, listening to
Julian sing to the song.
Our song is the slamming screen doors,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "Man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again
Julian rolled down his window as he continued onto the next verse, his hand
playing with the wind out the window. Logan laughed as Julian sang with a
country accent. Julian playfully slapped Logan's arm. They both sand the chorus
together. Making up a little dance to the song.
I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all wrong
and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway,
well on my way
to my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice
all the roses
And the note that said...
Our song is the slamming screen doors,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "Man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again
When it came time to sing the third verse Logan began to sing and as Julian
tapped his leg with the beat, the both were laughing as they continued to sing
along.
I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...
'Cause our song is the slamming screen door,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
'cause it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date "Man, I didn't kiss him, and I should have."
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again
I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I wrote down our song
Logan finished the song at the top of his lungs.
"What the fuck are you two doing?" Derek yelled over the radio. Both Julian and
Logan continued to laugh. Derek just shook his head and went back to sleep
layer that night when Logan and Derek were asleep Julian hummed the tune that
was in his head all day.
***** Cold As You *****
Julian was in his dorm room under a mountain of homework and assignments.
Julian was stressing out as he tried to understand all his notes. Suddenly
there was a knock on the door.
"Come in," Julian said as he tried to look for his Biology notes.
"Hey Julian, thought you might need this and these," said a voice from the
doorway. Julian looked up and saw Bailey holding a tray with two cups of
coffees and in his other hand some more papers. Julian must have looked
confused because Bailey just laughed.
"Coffee for you and the papers for Biology you left them in the coms room,"
Bailey said as he moved closer.
"Thanks, Bailey. You are a life saver," Julian said as Bailey put a coffee next
to Julian and handed him his notes.
"it's cool, did you want some help?" Bailey asked as he placed the other coffee
next to the bed and sat down on the bed.
"Once again life saver!" Julian said with a smile. "Can you help me sort all
this out, into notes, assignments and other stuff," Julian started to pick up
pieces of papers left, right and centre. "I have a couple of scripts in here
somewhere," Julian said with a laugh. Julian and Bailey worked in silence as
they sorted out things into piles. Suddenly the door opened and in walked
Logan.
"Can I borrow your History notes from Friday," Logan asked as he looked around
the room.
"Oh Hello Logan, I'm fine thanks just been very stressed. Oh Bailey just was
helping me sort out things. Sure my notes are over here I think," Julian said
as he looked around. Bailey picked up a couple of sheets of notes and handed
them to Logan. Logan turned and walked out of the room without a thank you or
even a goodbye.
You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted
Julian buried his head in his hands and took a couple deep breathes before
looking up to see Bailey watching him.
"Will you ever tell him?" Bailey asked as he handed Julian a pile of papers.
"Huh?" Julian asked as he piled up his notes into one big pile.
"Logan," was all Bailey said.
"Tell Logan what?" Julian said as he tried to foreign indifference.
"Julian I'm not as stupid as some people think I am," Bailey said with a shrug.
"I never thought that, I just don't like when people know okay," Julian said as
he stood up and placed the papers on the desk.
" I know but why don't you tell him. Maybe he will feel the same," Bailey said.
"No, he won't trust me I'm not his type and he will never look at me the same
way he looked at Josh and Blaine and now Kurt," Julian said before taking a sip
of his coffee and looks at Bailey.
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you
"You never know till you try," Bailey said
"Yeah I do, it's always the same," Julian said as placed his coffee down on the
table.
"So what are you gonna do about it?"
"Nothing, help him win over Kurt and watch them ride off into the sunset,"
Julian said as he grabbed the scripts and threw them on the bed.
"So you just want him happy?"
"Of course, I'll do whatever it takes to make him happy,"
"But you'll give your own happiness for his?"
"Yes," Julian answered quietly.
"Why?"
"Because when he smiles its the most beautiful thing in the world and if I
helped put it there it makes me happy," a small tear rolled down Julian's cheek
as he looked out the window.
Suddenly the door flew open and in walked Logan. Julian quickly recovered and
gave Logan a death glare.
"Can you knock or are you too stupid to know how?" Julian said with an angry
tone.
"God, I'm sorry, you gave me the wrong notes, these are Thursday not Fridays,"
Logan said before looking between Bailey and Julian. Julian threw the notes at
Logan and picked up the scripts to make himself look busy. Logan had a confused
look on his face as he glanced between Bailey and Julian.
"anything else?" Julian asked with his back to Logan.
"Um...no," Logan said still confused.
"I'll take these to the kitchen, "Do you want anything to eat Julian?" Bailey
asked as he took the twoo cups.
"No, thank you Bailey," Bailey just nodded and walked out. Logan just shook his
head and stormed out.
You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
***** Picture to Burn *****
It had been 6 months since one Julian Larson had come out to the world as being
bisexual. The media and all the fans had been so supportive of this eventually
Julian's parents came around seeing as it had made his career even bigger than
it was before. Of course, all his friends were supportive and so were all the
Dalton students once they got over the shock.
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Logan stormed into the room throwing down a magazine in front of Derek.
"Care to explain?" Logan said with a harsh tone.
"Oh this brunette dude is your best friend Julian," Derek said in his matter-
of-fact tone.
"No you idiot the title!" Logan said, as he got angrier.
"Oh well I thought the title said everything," Derek said as he finally looked
up at Logan.
"Oh yeah but here's the thing why did nobody tell me that; 'Julian Larson teen
heartthrob is bisexual!'" Logan said pointing at the title.
"Oh, so you heard about this threw the magazines?" Derek asked surprised. Logan
nodded. Derek stood straight up and stormed out of the room leaving a shocked
Logan to open the magazine and read the article.
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Julian was surprised the most by Logan, who had come up to Julian and told him
if he ever needed someone to talk to he was always there. Which not only
shocked Julian but also Derek choked on his coffee that he was drinking. Logan
patted Julian's shoulder and walked off.
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"Oh god, it's started. I should phone my sister," Derek said as he re-gained
his voice.
"Why?" Julian asked as he looked at Derek.
"The world must be ending for him to say that stuff," Derek said
"Well ain't that nice of you, D" Julian said before walking out.
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It was not long before Julian had boys chasing after him as well as the normal
amount of girls; until one of them caught Julian's eye. Michael was a child
star turned actor. He had the surfer dude look down with longish blonde hair
that stopped just after the top of his ears; very bright blue eyes that looked
like the ocean and a smile that could stop traffic. Julian had not felt like
this about a guy since Logan, and clearly, Logan was not interested Julian
decided to go after this blue-eyed Michael. After that, the couple shot to
higher stardom as being called the sweetheart couple of Hollywood. Every
interview that either one did they were always asked about the other one. Even
though Michael lived in L.A Julian continued to attend Dalton on weekdays but
flew back to L.A nearly every weekend to spend time with Michael.
However, things were not that fairytale ending for long, as Julian had hoped.
On their 3-month anniversary, Michael announced to Julian that he was not in
love with him as he was at the start of the relationship. He had fell in love
with a model that he had been seeing for the past month while Julian was at
Dalton. Without a second thought, Julian stood up in the middle of the
restaurant; slapped Michael's face and stormed out of the restaurant and into a
waiting car. Before any of the paparazzi could follow, Julian jumped onto a
private jet and flew back Dalton and hide out there. All hell broke loose in
Hollywood as the scandal broke out; all the tabloids were filled with articles
on articles all about Julian and how he was dealing with the secret affair that
he had no idea about.
Therefore, this brings us to present day, where Julian hid under the covers of
his bed crying while Derek and Logan stood outside.
"I wanna fly to L.A and punch the crap out of the guy," Derek said as he paced
outside.
"I second that motion but I get to kick him in the balls," Logan said as he put
his ear to the door. He could still hear Julian crying and that made his entire
chest ache.
"Look, I know this is gonna sound a bit selfish but I have a date. Can you take
over looking after Julian tonight," Derek said as he looked from the door to
Logan.
"Can you wait for half an hour, I need to get some things but I will be back,"
Logan said as he run off towards his dorm room.
"Okay, but only 30 minutes dude," Derek yelled after him.
===============================================================================
Logan returned exactly 30 minutes later, Derek was standing outside of Julian's
door waiting for Logan; he looked up from glancing at his watch to see Logan
walking up the hallways with shopping bags in his hands. Derek looked at Logan
with a confused look. "Hey sorry, the stores were crowded," Logan said as he
nodded towards the door. Derek pulled out a spare key card and swiped in.
"Wow, what have you got planned?" Derek asked.
"For Julian to know and you to find out, now go on your date. I have everything
covered," Logan said as he walking into the room; placing the shopping bags on
the desk. He turned the light on and jumped onto the bed.
"Good evening Mr Larson, I'm your babysitter tonight. Now get your ass out of
the bed and have a shower, so you can feel like a human again." Logan said as
he jumped up and down on the bed. Julian was too shocked to say anything as he
peeked out from under the covers to stare at Logan. Logan got up and started to
unpacked the food and put the things that needed to be in the fridge. Julian
got out of the covers and went to have a shower, scared that if he did not
Logan would do something that was scare Julian.
After Julian had moved to the bathroom, Logan striped the bed and changed the
sheets, putting nice clean sheets on. Logan heard the shower turn off and out
came a freshly cleaned Julian. Julian was wearing his Dalton sweatpants with
matching hoodie.
"Do you feel better?" Logan asked.
"Yes much better, you don't have to babysit me Lo, go have a fun Friday night,"
"I am, here," Logan said as he passed Julian a plate. "I ordered Indian it came
while you were in the shower," Logan said as he sat down on the floor and
started to fill his plate.
"Okay," Julian said as he sat opposite to Logan. "So you've planned out
tonight,"
"Yes, we're gonna have dinner then watch a couple of movies and stuff our faces
and then I have a surprise for you later," Logan said with a smirk as he took a
spoon full of food.
"Okay, I'm just gonna have to trust you," Julian said as he started to eat.
After finishing all the Indian food Julian and Logan sat on the bed huddled
together around a laptop. Watching the BBC series Sherlock, Logan laughed and
watched Julian as he forgot about his ex and were trapped into everything to do
with Sherlock Holmes and his Dr. John Watson. After finishing the first series,
Logan closed the Laptop and grabbed Julian's hand. "C'mon Julian, your
surprise," Logan said as he dragged Julian out of the dorm and into the
courtyard. There stood an oil drum and smoke coming out of it.
"Logan?" Julian asked
"As your friend, I'm worried and I know what you're going through and I think
you should do this to feel better. Do you trust me?"
"Of course," Julian said without any hesitation.
"Okay, then come on," Logan said as he pulled Julian closer. "Now I want you to
burn these things,"
"Um what?" Julian asked slightly confused.
"Like the song Julian," Logan answered. Logan started too hummed to a tune and
began to sing.
State the obvious, I didn't get my perfect fantasy
I realize you love yourself more than you could ever love me
So go and tell your friends that I'm obsessive and crazy
That's fine you won't mind if I say
By the way...
I hate that stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You're a redneck heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I'm concerned you're
Just another picture to burn
Julian started to laugh as Logan danced around the drum.
"Now you trust me, Let's burn the bastard," Logan said as he picked up a box
that Derek had packed when Julian first came back from Dalton. In the box were
photos of Michael and Julian together, a fake rose from a date and a couple of
other things.
Julian picked up the photos and flipped threw them, "I really did love him,"
"Well he is the ass who cheated Jules. He doesn't deserve you," Logan said as
he picked up one of the photos and threw it into the fire.
"But what if it was a ..."
"No don't you say that, it wasn't a onetime thing. I've been on his side of the
fence and trust me you don't want to give him another chance," Logan said as he
picked another photo and burned it.
"You really deserve better Julian," Logan commented as he watched the photo
burn.
Julian nodded and threw the rest of the photos in the fire.
Julian and Logan returned to the dorm room after they burned everything in the
box. Logan grabbed the second series of Sherlock and put it on the laptop.
Burn, burn, burn, baby, burn
You're just another picture to burn
Baby, burn...
Not even 30 minutes into the series. Logan glanced over to see Julian asleep.
Logan turned off the laptop. Logan turned off the laptop, and placed it onto
the desk. He then tucked Julian in. He leaned down and kissed Julian forehead,
getting pushing some of Julian's fringe out of the way.
Logan quickly made a bed on the floor and closed his eyes, falling asleep to
the sound of Julian's soft snores.
And if you're missing me,
You'd better keep it to yourself
'cause coming back around here
Would be bad for your health...
Logan was awoken by the sound of a phone going off. He blinked a couple times
before rolling over. Logan could hear Julian's voice, he really didn't mean to
eavesdropped on the conversation.
"No, I don't care...well I used to until you cheated on me...no...my answer is
still no...no Michael just leave me alone...MICHAEL!" Logan couldn't take it
any longer he stood up and walked to the bathroom took the phone off of Julian.
"C'mon Jules you know I still love you," Logan heard.
"Well you blew it, so I would lose this number before you lose something way
move important you got it,"
"Ye...Yeah I heard you..."
"Goodbye Michael," Logan hung up the phone and turned to Julian who was crying.
Logan pulled Julian close as he cried harder into Logan's shirt.
"C'mon," Logan said as he guided them back to bed, and helped Julian climb in.
Logan went to move back but Julian cling on tight.
"Don't leave," Julian said between sob. Logan nodded and climbed in and
Julian's rested his head on Logan's chest and hugged even tighter. Logan run
his fingers through Julian's hair until Julian had fallen asleep.
I hate that stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You're a redneck heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I'm concerned you're
Just another picture to burn
***** Breathe *****
Logan could not understand why this had gone to dust but he wished with his
whole heart that it were for the best. However, a small voice inside of his
head was quietly whispering, "Biggest mistakes of your life".
He saw the box appeared on the screen flashing up his name. He took a deep
breath before clicking the accept button.
===============================================================================
~13 months earlier~
Logan laid in Julian's arm as Julian watched the TV; his hand rubbing up and
down Logan's arm. Logan sighed as he closed his eyes for the third time.
"Logan... Lo...come on, let's get you to bed," Julian whispered as he got up
and grabbed both Logan's arms and pulled him out of the common room. Logan
followed Julian; he placed his arms around Julian's waist. "Come on love. You
can snuggle when we get into bed," Julian said with a smirk as he opened the
door to their dorm room.
"I love you," Logan whispered as he pulled Julian down onto the bed.
"God, you just love to snuggle," Julian said as he felt Logan pull him close
and gently kissed Julian's neck.
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~ Present Day ~
"Hi," Logan said as Julian's face appeared on his screen.
"Hey, I saw you were on. Thought I would say hi," Julian said with a smile that
didn't quite reach his eyes. Logan nodded as he took in Julian's appearance, he
saw that Julian had been working himself to death, he could see it in Julian's
face.
"So how's California?" Logan asked.
"Been really busy," Julian said as he looked down. "Just finishing up on
Something Damaged for the season then onto a new project that Carmen got for
me,"
"Well I hope you take some time off, just to relax," Logan said in his soft
tone. The one he only used when he was talking to Julian. Julian shook his head
and smiled at the camera. This time the smile reached his eyes.
"You sound like Derek," Julian said as he continued to stare at the screen.
"How is Derek?" Logan asked.
"He's good, So I guess you guys haven't talked?" Julian stated.
"yeah not since our fight," Logan said as he looked down at his lap. "We said
some nasty things to each other," Logan said he tried not to look up.
"Lo, that was nearly 6 months ago!" Julian said as he crept closer to the
screen.
"Yeah I know things happen," Logan said with a sad smile.
"I should go, it's nearly 2am here, you should get some rest," Logan nodded.
"It's okay Lo, can you do one thing for me?" Julian asked.
"Sure," Logan said with a smile, 'anything for you Jules, anything' he wanted
to say but he knew he could not.
"Ring Derek, I know he misses you," Logan nodded. "We'll talk soon, I promise,"
Julian said with a smile. Logan did not trust his voice so he just nodded. He
waved goodbye and then the screen went dark. A small tear rolled down his
cheek. "I miss you, Jules," he whispered more to himself then to anyone.
===============================================================================
~ 6 months Earlier ~
His dorm room door flew open, in stormed a very angry Derek. "What the fuck did
you do?" Derek yelled, Logan looked up from his book and then closed it gently,
placing it on the bed.
"Do I have to ask again," Derek said slightly more calmly.
"We broke up," Logan said calmly.
"Why, you were happy, what happened?" asked Derek.
"I told him, I didn't love him the way I thought I did, I love him as a friend
not as a boyfriend,"
"What, that's bullshit. You love him more than a friend why are you doing
this?" Logan stood up and walked to the door closing it. He then turned to
Derek.
"I'm not going to let him sacrifice more for me, if we stayed together I'm sure
he would have moved to New York just for me. To give up more jobs to stay with
someone like me," Logan said as he sat back on the bed.
"Why didn't you talk to him about this..." Derek started.
"Because he gave up so much just to be my friend and to help me; It's my turn
to return the favour," Logan said as he gently stroked the book.
"And what about you," Derek asked very softly.
"He lived around me for three years, loving me and not saying a word. Like I
said it's my turn now,"
"What if he gets a boyfriend/girlfriend in that time?"
"I'll make sure his happy," Logan said with a sad smile. He was completely
honest with himself and Derek.
"Well what I think your doing is very stupid, You and Julian belong together,"
"Like you and your one night stands?" Logan bit back. A shocked look came over
Derek's face. Logan shook his head and went to say something but Derek held up
his hand.
"Look, I know I don't have a place to give you advice but what you and Julian
had... have is real, even I know it and your just gonna give it up," Derek said
watching Logan. When Logan said nothing at all, he turned to go.
"Derek..." Logan said as he grabbed Derek's shoulder. "Don't tell Julian
anything about what we talked about," Logan said with pleading eyes. "Please?"
"I can't promise you that Lo," Derek said shaking his head. "I think you should
go to his dorm room, and bed for forgiveness,"
"No! I'm going to do that, I've made up my mind, and I'm not going to change
it, if you can't respect my decision that I don't want to talk to you about
it," Logan yelled.
"Fine, come to me when you've figured out you were wrong," Derek yelled back
and stormed out. Logan closed the door and picked up the book and open it to a
page, just staring at it, for hours at a time.
===============================================================================
~ Present Day ~
Logan got up of the chair, knelt down next to his bed, and pulled out a box
that was secretly placed under the bed. He pulled out a bock and flipped to a
certain page where a photo of Julian and Logan was placed. They were sitting in
bed and Julian wanted a photo of Logan shirtless to keep with him. Logan had
pulled Julian down onto his lap and kissed Julian with a huge smiled. Logan
closed his eyes trying to remember that day. Logan pulled out his phone and
dialled a number. It rang three times until someone mumbled a hello.
"I was wrong," Logan said clearly.
"Logan?" the voice said getting clearer.
"Yeah D, it's me. I was wrong,"
"I know you were Lo, Why have you suddenly realised it now?"
"I knew from the start but my head was telling me other things. I just wanted
to tell you, I was wrong and I'm sorry,"
"It's okay Logan I understand, are you ready to do something about it,"
"I don't know what I can do about it," Logan said with a sigh.
"Okay, let's make a deal, think about it tonight and give me a call in the
morning," Derek said with a yarn before hanging up on Logan. Logan let a small
laugh out before putting his phone away and sliding the box under the bed. He
slipped under the covers and dreamed about a brunette boy whose smile could
stop his heart with one look.
TBC...
***** Tell Me Why? *****
Everybody builds a fort when they are younger, lobbing how they had they own
castle but something about this picture was not something Julian liked; books
and homework surrounded him, he was softly humming. He was not paying attention
so when Logan slammed many books down onto the table. Julian jumped at the
sound of the thump. Julian looked over the book tower.
"What the fuck, Lo!" Julian said angrily.
"God take a chill pill, Jules," Logan said as he opened a book called '25 real
rules for successful gay dating'.
"Really Lo, you need help in the dating area,"
"Shut up Jules," Logan said as he buried his head in the book. "I'm getting
tips on how to seduce Kurt!" he said before writing something on the pad beside
him.
"Why your pretty eyes don't work on everyone?" Jules said without thinking.
Logan's head shot up and looked at Jules.
"What?" Jules said as his words slowly sank in.
"You think I have pretty eyes Jules?" Logan asked shocked at the thought of
Jules thinking about him in that way.
"Oh don't let your head get big,"
"But you think I have pretty eyes?" Logan repeated.
"For god's sake yes I do," Julian said before looking at his book and taking
some notes. Suddenly there was movement beside him, Logan kissed Julian
forehead.
"Thanks Jules," good luck with the homework," Logan whispered before walking
off.
A small smile played on Julian's face until he remembered what Logan was doing,
he dove back into his homework trying to forget about Logan.
***** Mean *****
Julian sits in front of lots of media, listening to his mum go on and on about
the rumours that have surrounded Julian for his whole life. About how his
mother and father love him so much and that Julian has never been to a gay bar
and never will because he is not gay.
Julian must have tuned out cause right at that moment Julian snorted at what
his mother was saying. All eyes turned to look at Julian. His mum turned to
look at him. "Would you like to add to this honey?" Julian's mother asked.
"Yes I would, and after I have finished my statement I will not take any more
questions," Julian said without any emotions.
"Yes in fact I am bisexual, I have known for the past 3 years. No I'm not in a
relationship at this stage but I do have my eyes on someone. No I didn't keep
my sexuality under raps for the fear of losing roles or parts. I just wasn't
ready to come out yet, thank you," Julian stood and walked off the stage.
Julian's mother followed close behind before grabbing his arm.
"Do you know what you have just done to your career?" She screamed.
"Yes and I don't care," he yelled back at her before taking the car back to the
family home to pack and fly back to Dalton as quickly as he could.
===============================================================================
When he arrived back at Dalton, everyone had heard about Julian. Everyone was
staring at him as if he had grown a third head and rumours had started to be
spread around the school. He needed to dive right back into studying so he
could forget about everything and for back to how things were before.
Julian looked himself in his room for 2 weeks never coming out unless for class
but always returning to his room. Derek was the only one that Julian talked to,
Logan had tried but Julian stared at him, then turned, and walked away every
time they saw each other. Logan had kept his eyes on Hollywood and all the
rumours that came out about Julian. Hollywood was being utterly horrible to
Julian, and no one was coming to his defence. Logan was appalled as he read
article after article about rumours that were not true about Julian. Logan
burned every article that he saw in Stuart students hands.
===============================================================================
About 6 months after Julian's coming out, Julian still had not come out of his
room for fun. Logan had started to get very worried around the 1 month mark,
then around the 3 month mark Logan became extremely worried. Now he was off to
go see someone about Julian. Maybe they could help Julian like they helped him
a couple of years ago.
Logan walked into the office of Dr. Libby Gleeson. He smiled at the girl behind
the desk when he checked in taking a seat in the chair closet to the door. When
it was Logan's turn he took a seat in the very same chair he sat in a couple of
years ago. It felt the same as it had done the years before. "So Logan, why are
you back here?" Dr Libby asked.
"Well I'm not really here for myself; my friend is having some troubles..."
"Logan I told you, you don't have to hide behind a pretend friend," Dr Libby
said with a smile.
"I'm not Doctor, I have a close friend who has recently come out but he's being
picked on by people. I do not think his family are really supportive. He has
locked himself in his room for the past 6 months. Never talks to anyone but a
close friend of ours. I don't know if his eating properly," Logan said as he
took a deep breath.
"Logan, I can see you care very deeply about this friend of yours. Does he talk
to you about what is worrying him so much?"
"No, he only speaks to our friend Derek," Logan said as he played with his
hands.
"Why are you here, Logan?" She asked as she scribbled something down.
"I wanted to know is there something I can do that will help him? I just want
to help him, he looks so lost and I know I'm selfish to say this but I want my
old friend back. I miss him," Logan said as he looked out the window.
"You've come to realise something but you think your to a selfish to have it,"
Dr. Libby said with a sad smile. "I know you Logan. I saw you for a year. I
understand how your mind works. Tell me Logan why you're really here,"
"you kind of helped when I was here. So I was hoping you could do the same and
help him,"
"All you had to is asked Logan," Dr Libby said with a smile. "Your father might
pay me to help you but I have your best interest at heart Logan," Logan nodded.
Dr Libby scribbled down something and handed it to Logan.
"I'll meet you at Dalton and I can go see your friend,"
"Thank you Dr Libby," Logan said as he got up. He turned to look at her. "I
meant what I said. You were the only adult that did help," Logan said just
before turning and heading out the door.
===============================================================================
-2 days later –
Logan was sitting in the common room studying with Derek. "Hey Logan, somebody
is here to see you," one of the younger Stuart boys said.
"Thanks," Logan said as he stood up.
Logan walked to the front door, seeing Dr. Libby standing there with a smile.
"Hello Logan. Sorry I'm late," she looked over his shoulder as she said the
last part.
"Hey, Dr. Libby," Logan turned around to see Derek standing there. "Um... this
is Derek, his the one that Jules talks too" Logan added.
"Hi, so Jules is your friend that needs help?" Logan nodded.
"Lo, why is she here? Wasn't she the one you talked to when you started to take
your pills?" Derek asked
"Yes I am, He asked me to come," Dr. Libby said with a small smile. Logan
stopped outside of Julian's door.
"This is his room, he won't answer the door unless Derek is there," Logan said
looking at Derek.
"Lo," I can't do this, Jules doesn't want to talk to anyone," Derek said.
"Please D, I just want the old Jules back," Logan said with a pleading look.
"Okay, fine but it's all on your head," Derek said as he knocked on the door.
"Hey Jules, can you open up. I want you to meet someone," Derek added as he
waited for a response. "Please Jules, open the door," there were sounds coming
from the other side of the door. Then it opened, Jules stood there looking at
Derek.
"Thanks Lo, you can go now," Derek said towards Logan. Logan nodded and walked
off.
"Jules this is D..."
"Libby, nice to meet you Jules," Dr. Libby interrupted.
"It's Julian but I guess you know who I am. What can I help you with?" Julian
asked.
"Logan asked me to come. He's very worried about you. Worried enough to ask me
to come and talk to you. You don't have too but would you like to talk," Dr.
Libby said in a soft tone.
"Alright," Jules said as he stepped aside.
"I'm gonna head back to the common room/ If you need me that's where I'll be,"
Derek said as he turned away and walked off. Jules closed the door behind Dr.
Libby.
===============================================================================
- 2 days later -
It was 2 am when Logan walked into the common room. He was up late studying
when he noticed a body in the corner, shaking slightly. Logan walked towards
the body.
"Julian?" Logan said with a small soft tone. Julian looked up. He wiped his
check, "Please talk to me,"
"Why, you don't need me Lo," Julian said in a small tone.
"Because you're my best friend Jules, I need you. You and Derek are my family.
Logan climbed on the lounge and snuggled close to Julian. "I'm worried about
you Jules," Lo said as he hugged Julian to his chest. "Please don't ignore me I
can't take it anymore,"
"Thank you for sending Dr. Libby," Julian said as he sunk against Logan's
chest.
"Did it help? I mean it may take some time or maybe even another session before
it starts to help but it does help Jules," Logan said as he lightly brushed
Julian's fringe out of his eyes. "It helped me,"
"It did Lo," it really did," Julian said slightly closing his eyes.
"Do you wanna talk more, or not" Logan asked
"I prefer not to, but I'm going to see Dr. Libby again" Julian said with a
small sniffle.
"That's good," Logan whispered. "I'm sorry about your parents, media and the
other students,"
"Thanks Lo,"
"You know D and I are here for you,"
"I know Lo, and thank you. Sorry I've been a bad friend..."
"No you haven't, you've been under some emotional stress. Do not worry about
it. It's payback for me being an awful friend."
"Lo..."
"Don't say I wasn't. Let's call it even than we can get back to normal,"
"What's normal Lo?" Julian asked
"You; telling me off for being a pain in the ass. Me; getting upset and
storming off. Derek settling everything and us repeating the whole thing again.
You and Derek keeping me grounded," Logan answered honestly. Julian laughed as
he hugged closer to Logan.
"Have you been eating and sleeping normally?" Logan asked.
"Not really," Julian answered.
"Well sleep," Logan said as he ran his fingers threw Julian's hair.
"Not 'eally 'ired," Julian yawned.
"Sleep, we'll talk more in the morning," Logan whispered. Julian leaned his
head against Logan's chest. His hand curled into Logan's shirt, and took a deep
breath. Logan softly kissed Julian's forehead.
"Sleep, your safe now," Logan whispered. "I'll always be here for you, Jules".
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