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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Fullmetal_Alchemist
  Relationship:
      Edward_Elric/Roy_Mustang
  Character:
      Edward_Elric, Roy_Mustang
  Additional Tags:
      Yaoi, Underage_Sex, Explicit_Sexual_Content, Rough_Sex, Mild_Language
  Stats:
      Published: 2012-11-17 Completed: 2012-12-29 Chapters: 2/2 Words: 28140
****** Skin Ticket ******
by Lyson
Summary
     Quote - Guilt upon the conscience, like rust upon iron, both defiles
     and consumes it, gnawing and creeping into it, as that does which at
     last eats out the very heart and substance of the metal.
Notes
     Disclaimer: I do not own Fullmetal Alchemist, or any of its
     characters. I do not make any money from writing this story.
     Inspired By Slipknot Song - Skin Ticket
     Art: By Lyson on Deviantart
***** Skin Ticket *****
 
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                                  Skin Ticket
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Edward stepped out of Alphonse and his shared room at the Central Military HQ,
his black boots were silent on the linoleum bleach white floors, if it wasn’t
for the thick wooden door of the room slamming loudly just inches behind his
back his exit wouldn’t have attracted the attention of stray officers wandering
the halls as the end of their work day crept near and they retired to their own
rooms.
Their stares didn’t linger though since often Edward Elric was the cause of
some loud commotion or disturbance. He was well known for flying off the handle
and yelling at random whether he was justifiably upset or just unhappy about
the perception of his lack of height. The sixteen year old blonde had a
reputation and so he was over looked.
He was grateful at least for everyone’s disinterest…he supposed.
He stood outside of the room door with his head hung slightly, his pin straight
rich blonde bangs hanging over his face, hiding his expression.
His pale lips were pulled tightly down at the ends, his teeth grit tightly
behind them.
His brow, as it was very often, remained in a sad and frustrated frown, his
golden eyes filled with emotion, mostly anger and self loathing…
…so much self loathing.
Edward felt this way so often is was second nature most days, ever since the
transmutation, ever since he’d watched his brother’s body disintegrate
bloodlessly, as if his flesh had never been real before slipping from his reach
beyond the gate, Edward lived with the hate he had for himself.
Disappointment at his flaws, his in capabilities, his human limitations and his
mistakes.
So many mistakes and so much regret, so much guilt…so much blame.
He tensed his fists tightly, his automail fist making a sound of steel tensing
against itself, another reminder of his faults and mistakes…two limbs less of
his were still real.
Would they ever be real again…?
After so many years, four whole years since he’d become a state alchemist and
yet here he was, different in strength and experience but with no more
confidence than he ever had in himself as a twelve year old.
Weak and unable to fulfill his promises to Alphonse.
The philosopher’s stone held no salvation, not when it came at the expense of
human life.
There was no equivalent exchange in murdering someone to gain something
personally. It was wrong, so obviously wrong and Edward was faced with that no
matter how many times he read through the notes and books. Useless.
He raised his head once he felt calm enough and glanced down the hall both ways
before deciding to go to one of the public lavatories in the building. At this
late time of day when the sun had set and evening was settling in he knew the
military main building was mostly empty, so he could seek some privacy in there
for a little while.
As he walked, hearing his steps in the silence, he became aware of the headache
steadily growing worse and making his temples feel like they were throbbing,
his jaw felt tense as well and fatigue was rife in his daily routine making him
sluggish and affecting his performance in fights and even when facing Mustang’s
verbal spars. Mostly for the fact he hardly slept when he was close to
resources.
Being at the military branches, especially Central, always drove him into
studying seclusion. Allowing his young genius brain to absorb, break down and
force as much knowledge on anything alchemically related into his mind hour
after hour, book after book, as was possible without passing out from a
headache or exhaustion. Because he had to find a way to do the impossible…even
if he knew there was no way…because he’d promised.
He’d promised to try…even if he didn’t think there was anyway to succeed.
Alphonse couldn’t know he felt this way.
He’d been at the central HQ for two weeks now after traveling to a small town
to follow through on some stupid errand Mustang had ordered to be completed,
after which he’d returned.
They had no where to go at that moment, no more leads had come up…nothing
important, not since the information about human lives being an ingredient to
the answer to their goal.
Snorting in derision of himself, Edward shoved the door to the lavatory open
harder than was necessary as he walked into the brightly lit room. He narrowed
his eyes; his vision was a little blurry since he’d spent all day reading as
well as all of the night before.
He walked over to the row of wash basins and leaned on one close to the far
end, he hesitated a moment before looking at his reflection in the mirror. He
was thinner, his fair skin had an ashen color to it and his eyelids were a
little red while underneath his eyes were slightly dark.
He wasn’t doing so good.
He only barely ate because Alphonse nagged him too.
Nausea and stress kept his appetite low usually.
He pretended to sleep when Alphonse was around, even though he really hardly
did, or he would face the lecture of how he shouldn’t abuse his body that he
was lucky to still have.
Lucky…?
He blinked at his reflection and swallowed slowly watching as his adams apple
shifted beneath his pale throat, his throat hurt from all the yelling he’d done
just 15 minutes ago before he’d left the room.
He’d argued with his brother…he hated hearing that hopeful tone of voice
Alphonse always had.
‘There has to be another way…’
          ‘We can’t give up, we’ve come so far.’
             ‘How can you say it’s for nothing? Is having our bodies back
nothing to you brother?’
   ‘I know we can find a way brother…’
             ‘I know you can find a way brother…’
“Arrrgh…” Edward looked away from his reflection, “…I can’t do anything, you
over estimate me Al…” he shook his head sadly, “…it’s just dead ends…” he
frowned deeply and gripped the basin, “…if I had a whole body I’d offer it as
equivalent exchange for yours if I knew it would work…so I wouldn’t feel this
way.”
 
Guilt.
His skin crawled and the harsh light made him avoid his reflection, it was too
obvious how weak he was in that mirror.
“Weak…” he muttered and swallowed again, his throat was sore and his mouth was
dry.
His head ached.
His shoulders were so tense, his spine felt sore and his shoulder stub even
hurt as he turned around slowly, moving his automail arm and leaned with his
back to the mirror against the basin, crossing one foot over the other as he
relaxed a little.
He always tried to be optimistic around everyone, smiling and letting his
temper come before his angst. Rather he yell and fight for what he was doing
than wallow in his helplessness when people were looking.
There was so much expectation it was stifling. Like his nightmares that were
always just beyond the point of a light nap…and his desperate thoughts whenever
he sat alone in the bathroom of submerging himself in the bath tub and
swallowing back enough water so his lungs would seize up and give him an end
where he’d feel no guilt.
He smiled bitterly, even the consideration of suicide made him feel weak and
guilty.
That would be running away, the easy way out.
“Rather kill myself trying than to just kill myself…” he mumbled as he stared
at the scuff marks on his boots.
He sighed and slipped his fingers of his flesh hand into his hair, massaging at
the point where his braid began, the back of neck was tense and sore. His hand
brought several strands undone when he removed his thin flesh fingers from his
hair.
Idly Edward pulled his braid forward, absently pulling the elastic off and
letting it settle around his flesh wrist as he ran both hands back through his
hair, neatening his hair after a long day of it being braided.
He re-braided it with his eyes closed, his bangs falling forward as he did so
but his mind was wandering.
He enjoyed having some privacy, even if anyone could walk in, this silence
allowed him gather his thoughts and sort his anger. Once his braid was done he
unbuttoned the top clip of his black over jacket and ran his hand over the
front of his neck, massaging his cool skin with a sigh, feeling the warmth of
his own hand on his neck was comforting.
He frowned as his frustration surfaced again and he felt a distant ache run
from his head to his toes. Privacy was a luxury. Company was an even bigger
luxury.
Edward made an annoyed sound when the ache passed through him again, this time
a little more accurately settling in his lower abdomen region and threatening
to get worse.
He almost never indulged himself and even when he did, it was never as good as
it could be with someone else.
What he wanted was almost impossible to come by…three times only…over the last
year.
If Alphonse found out Edward’s shame would be too great so he wasn’t about to
take risks.
No…luxuries were not permitted.
Even though he wanted to be jealous of Alphonse’s lack of puberty, he’d feel
guilt thinking of how Alphonse would probably appreciate it much more than he
did.
He’d also be a lot less twisted and dirty about it probably. He felt a little
nauseous again.
Edward rolled his eyes, his brother would be a suave ladies man one day without
a doubt, even in that suit of amour he was a smooth talker.
It was a little annoying being not only shorter, Alphonse had always had that
one inch of height on him even when they were ten, and also being the one who
had no idea how to smooth talk a girl…not that he thought such a skill would be
useful to him in general. But where Winry and her wrench were concerned, being
able to smooth talk her might save him a few scars in the long run.
He smiled just slightly to himself, glad he was able to still find something
pleasant in all the shit he was drowning in.
Even if his anger was always just bubbling underneath the surface, it wasn’t so
bad to hide it.
It kept Alphonse positive.
One of them needed to have a reason to wake up everyday.
“Ah damnit…I should apologize..” he said aloud and turned back to the mirror,
his expression dour again at the thought of apologizing when he really didn’t
even want to see Alphonse right then, facing his brother’s empty body would
only make him angry again…at himself.
He stared at himself for a moment, his hair was neater now that he’d smoothed
it out and re-braided it, his bangs shifted when he hung his head.
He heard the door open and he looked up again, seeing the person who entered
via the mirror.
It was Mustang, his usual bland expression on his smug face, one fine black
eyebrow raised just a tad feigning interest in anything but himself…that’s how
Ed saw it anyway.
He was in his full uniform, always, even after everyone was gone to their dorms
or out having a drink after a long day, Mustang was posture perfect with not a
black strand of hair out of place.
“Fullmetal…are you talking to yourself?” he asked in his general tone.
Edward felt a tinge of irritation,
“What are you doing in here, don’t you have an office toilet…” he changed the
subject, not smoothly at all, since his expression said ‘get lost’ quite
clearly.
“You have a bathroom in your dorm, I could ask you the same question.”
“I wanted to be alone…” he looked pointedly annoyed at Mustang via the mirror,
his thin blonde eyebrow twitching.
“This is a public rest room, excuse me for assuming it was meant for anyone to
use.” he deadpanned as he glanced around.
“…annoying, sarcastic ass-ho-…” he was mumbling to himself when Mustang, as
usual, cut him off.
“I came in here because I heard someone speaking, I didn’t expect you to be in
here but since you are up and not doing anything productive or useful…” he said
this was an amused look knowing Edward would be irritated with every
condescending comment, “…come to my office.” he turned and walked out.
Edward saw him disappear from sight via the mirror and then heard the door
close behind him. There really was no rest for the weary.
He waited a minute longer, deciding he’d calmed his temper enough and so he
turned and made his way from the rest room, walking in the direction of the
Colonel’s office. Which was a good distance through the building, up a few
flights of stairs and round many corners, passed many doors…up, up and finally
he was at the doors.
He pushed the handle down without knocking since he’d been invited and stepped
inside with a loud sigh, placing his hands on his hips since his leather pants
didn’t have any pockets…his hands wouldn’t fit in them if there were since the
pants left little room for it.
He kicked the door shut lightly and walked over to one of the sofas in the
office, Mustang was behind his desk standing up and shuffling some papers
around.
The high ceiling lights gave the room a dull artificially lit glow and the high
windows were covered by the curtains hiding the dark sky outside, Mustang had
obviously been on his way out.
Edward waited silently as he sat with his arms either side of him along the
back of the couch, one leg crossed over the other and his usual air of
disinterest about him when he was around Mustang.
He heard the sound of Mustang’s boots clipping nearer against the floor and he
turned his eyes from their focus on the double doors to the older man, seeing a
standard manila folder being held out to him.
For a moment, a brief moment, Edward hoped it was some kind of a lead on the
Philosopher’s stone or the homunculi but he squashed it down quickly, he’d
stopped hoping when he had learned alchemy. Hope was for fools.
He flipped it open and he clenched his jaw and turned his lip up in irritation,
“You couldn’t wait until tomorrow to show me a mission file…” he mumbled not
really looking for a response. It was a mission brief to some city not far from
the East military branch, it would most likely take a day or two tops aside of
the traveling there and back.
He vaguely wondered if he could go without Alphonse, that time alone he could
use to get rid of some the tension in his body.
There was that guilt again. He made a face like he’d tasted something awful and
mentally scolded himself for thinking selfishly. His physical needs were not to
be put before his brother. Ever.
He glanced up from the file, having lost track of Mustang for a second he found
the man was sitting across from him on the opposite sofa with his legs crossed
and arms crossed over his chest, still with that formidable posture, he was
staring at Edward.
 "What…?” Edward asked quiet lackluster, he surprised himself.
“What do you need to apologize for?” he asked casually as if he even had a
right to.
Edward’s annoyance reasserted itself instantly,
“That’s none of your business, don’t be such a nosy bastard.”
“You were in a public area, if I heard you, it’s entirely your fault.” plain
and simple.
Edward’s eyebrow twitched again and his mood decreased substantially but it was
his usual Mustang related mood, not anything like the self loathing misery
brought on by the argument he’d had with Alphonse earlier.
But Mustang was bringing it up and Edward could feel himself slipping back into
that mindset that would leave him having nightmares of his mother’s deformed
transmuted form squirming just feet from him for several nights.
Guilt was truly a horrible thing.
“Yeah well…” his tone had dropped as well, “…it’s still none of your business.”
he gave Mustang a quick angry look and then turned his golden dull gaze over to
the desk lamp.
Mustang was silent a moment,
“Very well, Fullmetal. It probably wasn’t an interesting story anyway, you
wrack up an impressive amount of offenses on a daily basis with your loud mouth
anyway.” he said dismissively.
Edward closed his eyes and his mouth settled back into a straight tense line,
he was aware that his mood would not be improving so long as the flame
alchemist was in his presence.
“Whatever, if that’s all I’m leaving…” he sat forward, bringing him to the edge
of the sofa about to stand and with the file held loosely in his automail hand.
“One more thing…”
Edward tensed but allowed himself to settle back, his butt had been an inch off
the surface of the sofa when Mustang spoke and his leather pants made a sound
as it settled back against the red leather sofa.
“What is it?” he asked in an airy voice, politely exasperated.
“You’ve been here for almost two full weeks…I’m guessing you’re search has hit
an inevitable dead end?” he used his ‘as expected you’re research is useless
and expensive’ tone of voice.
Edward couldn’t help the wave of anger that passed over him right then, sure
Mustang didn’t know about the ingredient needed for the stone because Edward
hadn’t bothered to tell since he’d found out…or he hadn’t wanted to, still
Edward was angry at him, at his indifference and his smug face, whether or not
he was clueless to the extent of the ‘dead end’ they had hit.
Facing the rest of their lives in their current condition, Alphonse being a
hollow unfeeling suite of armor for the rest of his life because of his own
brother…who kept promising to make it right but truly had no idea how to
proceed forward…
Useless.
He shook his head and his eyes narrowed uncharacteristically at Mustang, it was
a malicious look but Roy saw pain behind that hard glare and he frowned when
Edward yelled at him,
“Why don’t you shut the hell up! It’s not like you know anything helpful! I
already know I‘m not getting anywhere! I’m reminded every time I look at my
brother, I know I‘m useless, it‘s not you‘re place to tell me that!! You should
mind your own business and keep your mouth shut!!” Edward had raised his voice
quite a bit and he huffed when he looked away from Mustang’s infuriating face.
His golden eyes had been staring Mustang down but when he’d realized what he’d
said out loud he blinked and his pupils constricted in shame and anger. He
hated his weakness, especially in front of Roy Mustang and his unwavering self
control.
Baring his straight teeth slightly as he clenched his jaw, his hair shifted to
hide his pale shocked face as he stood and made a bee line for the door.
He hadn’t realized Roy had stood up and had followed him until he felt a strong
hand grip his flesh upper arm.
By the time Mustang caught hold of him he’d crossed the room and was near the
door, so when he yanked his arm from the older man’s grasp angrily, he knew
that action would leave a bruise since Roy hadn’t taken a light hold, and
because of that he turned and stumbled backwards at the force.
His back collided with the door, the folder and its papers falling to the floor
so he was saved the humiliation of falling flat on his ass, reminded of how
physically inferior he was as well, not in combat but in plain strength,
Mustang couldn’t take him in a physical fight but he could over power him.
Edward felt a sudden tingle rush through him, that frustration announcing
itself and this time heat settled in his loins.
As he leaned against the door he felt himself pale again, shame…so much shame
came over him as he realized what the idea of the colonel over powering him had
incited in himself.
That was arousal and it made Edward want to suffocate himself for such a
disgustingly weak thought. He knew he was sexually frustrated, he knew he could
do with a dismally overwhelming fuck that would leave him in both pain and
satisfaction, but at that time, at such a time when he should be angry at
Mustang and blaming himself for what he did to his brother…to feel something so
selfish and sordid.
“…” he had no words, he pressed both palms to the door and stood up straight
slowly, using the door for support, keeping his face down so his bangs hid his
shock, shame and faint blush over his nose.
“Edward…” Mustang’s voice was calm and a few feet away, “…something’s bothering
you, you’re reaction just now proves that…” he stated.
Edward shook his head slightly,
“No…I’m fine. Just…” he didn’t finish and keeping his head down he turned and
placed his shaking hand on the door handle.
A hand fell on his shoulder and Edward froze,
“I know you think I’m just out to get you down Fullmetal, but I am on your
side. You can talk to me if something’s bothering you…is it about you and
Alphonse, did you argue?” he was speaking, saying such concerned things, but
his tone was no different than business as usual.
Edward shrugged the hand off of his automail shoulder and turned the handle
down to leave.
“Edward!” Mustang grabbed his shoulder and spun him around, both hands against
his shoulders, he was shoved very forcefully against the door, making the back
of his already aching head thud against the wood.
He hadn’t expected that. Mustang had never physically handled him before.
His shoulders were pressed against the door, Mustang had him at arm’s length
putting just over a foot of distance between them as the taller man was looking
down at Edward, a full head shorter. The colonel’s gaze was steady and serious,
“You insist on being treated as an adult yet you behave like a child every
chance you get. I don’t want to force information out of you by scolding you
but reasoning and questioning doesn’t seem effective in getting answers…” he
was saying very seriously, “…you haven’t reported anything in almost a month,
which is a direct violation of your orders, Fullmetal.”
He paused and Edward just kept his gaze down, although he was shaking with
anger, more and more pissed off at Roy’s monotone when talking about such a
sensitive subject.
Looking down at him, speaking down at him. Always holding that stupid military
ranking over his head as if Edward became a government militant with some sort
of patriotism in mind.
Like he cared about the wars or the Fuhrer’s reign… 
All he wanted, all he ever wanted was to get Alphonse’s body back, everything
else was just a means to an end. Now that end was dead and he was just that.
A dog of the military being spoken down to by a superior officer he was
obligated by law to listen to.
“You’re hiding something…” he said bluntly, “…tell me what it is…now.” his grip
on Edward’s shoulder’s tightened and so did Edward’s fists at his sides.
“You’ll have a report tomor-”
“Now, Fullmetal! That’s an order.” he raised his voice.
Edward’s breathing increased as his anger rushed to the surface,
“Fine…I’ll tell you…you insufferable prick…” he said it quietly but his tone
was so harsh it made Mustang frown, that had actually hurt the usually stoic
colonel.
Edward raised his voice a little and looked straight up into Roy’s face, no
sign of tears even as his voice trembled and he spoke through clenched teeth,
“…I know how to make a philosopher’s stone. I finally found out how…” he saw
Roy’s eyes widen a bit, “…and now I also know that I can never give my brother
back his body…I can never full fill all of my useless promises to him…” he
trailed off, even as his stared at Roy, he didn’t really see him.
His misery and guilt. His failure.
He saw Alphonse’s ten year old face swimming in his vision, as it was taken
apart right before his eyes.
He knocked his head back against the door and stared up at the ceiling.
Mustang took a quiet breath,
“If you know then why…”
“Its human lives…” Edward breathed, “…to make the philosopher’s stone…people’s
lives need to be sacrificed.”
The grip on his shoulders slackened but wasn’t removed, Edward expected a
stream of questions to be demanded from him but none came.
Mustang was just staring at his defeated expression.
As he stared at Edward’s adams apple straining beneath the pale skin of his
throat, he realized suddenly that the younger boy had lost quite a bit of
weight since he’d last seen him in the East.
He saw the lines of fatigue on the sixteen year old's face as well as the blue
color of veins just beneath the flesh of his eyelids and at his temples which
suggested stress.
Edward was pale, thinning and so plainly exhausted, yet he hadn’t even noticed
in two weeks of the blonde storming around central, parading as if everything
was just dandy and adventures were around the corner.
Where was that volatile, loud mouth boy?
Mustang felt very sullen right then, upset at himself for not seeing through
Edward’s impressive façade sooner. The teenager certainly was more adult than
he gave him credit for, he spared his brother all the stress and took it upon
himself.
So much weight upon such young shoulders.
‘No wonder he’s so short…’ Mustang thought fondly but didn’t say it aloud lest
he upset Edward further right then.
Edward wasn’t a child, not in the way a child is usually.
Immature yes, but not a child.
Edward was surprised when the hands at his shoulders pulled him forward, he
closed his eyes at the sudden yanking forward and then he felt Roy’s arms
circle around his back, strong and firm and…warm, even through the layers of
their clothing.
Edward opened his eyes as that tingle rushed through him again, his needs
surfacing due to months of frustration.
Mustang was too close, he smelled too good…
Edward’s eyes were just above the epaulette on Roy’s right shoulder and he
could smell Roy’s cologne…or it could have been his hair, maybe even just his
skin. The uniform covered so much, but right then he was so close to Roy’s
neck, it was too much for his frustrated youthful body.
Had he been less needy he wouldn’t have allowed the thought to even cross his
mind.
But despite his guilt he could very vividly imagine Roy’s hands gripping
tightly and roughly all over his naked body. He forgot about the philosopher’s
stone for the moment and raised his arms, placing his hands on the colonel’s
sides.
As if he might return the comforting…no doubt platonic, embrace from the older
man, he let his hands run downward from the colonel’s upper sides, sliding his
hands over the blue waist jacket, his flesh hand feeling the material of the
jacket while his automail hand glided pointlessly lower.
“I’m sorry Edward, that this is the conclusion to what you‘ve been searching
for…” he was saying quietly, innocently speaking into Edward’s hair, his mouth
just short of being against Edward’s cinnamon scented blonde hair, “…how can I
make you feel better?”
It was such an ill timed question because while Mustang was probably offering
some time off, counseling or just words of comfort that he was available if
Edward needed anything, right then with all of the sixteen year old sexual
frustration peaking, it sounded like an invitation.
It had been so long since Edward had felt warm flesh against his own.
He turned his face from the colonels shoulder and slid his flesh hand over
Roy’s side lower still and very quickly, without warning, his flesh hand firmly
rubbed over Roy’s crotch, since the military pants were not restrictive, Edward
got a good feel of the colonel’s package, making his face and body instantly
hot.
But it ended before Edward’s blush reached his face, some sense knocked back
into him when Roy shoved him backwards and his head once again collided with
the door, only this time Mustang stepped backward, so there was no physical
contact between them.
“Aaah…” Edward groaned quietly and raised a hand to rub at the back of his
head, that rejection had been very sure, he should have known, Mustang had
always been obviously straight, he had been reckless just now.
Desperate…to be fucked into a bliss full state of exhaustion so he’d sleep
without nightmares for one night.
“What the hell did you just do!?” Mustang yelled and actually sounded offended.
Edward looked at him, his shame and defeat reflected in his stunning eyes, the
unusual color had Roy feeling uncertain about his harshness.
Had he overreacted? He didn’t think so, the boy had basically cupped his balls,
it hadn’t felt like a mistake or misplaced hand, not at all.
“Sorry colonel…” Edward could hear the pathetic sound of his voice even through
the heat in his ears and face and his blood rushing through him from his
accelerated heart beat, “…what I’m looking for you can’t help with…”
“What are you looking for? What was that just now?” Roy’s voice was tense.
 Edward felt incredibly needy right then, he was succumbing to his selfishness
rather easily and he knew he’d hate himself for it but he felt desperate enough
to beg.
It was just one more reason to hate himself…begging Roy Mustang to fuck him.
This would a day that would haunt him.
“I wanted…comfort, I thought maybe you were willing…” he stepped forward from
the door and closed the three feet gap between him and Mustang, his hands
taking a light grip on the older man’s jacket even as Mustang partially back
stepped again.
Mustang’s arms rose, like he was uncertain of whether to touch Edward.
“I’m sorry…” he went on, hating how his voice sounded out his desperation,
“…you smelled so good…and you were so warm and…” he kept his head down,
pressing his forehead to Roy’s chest and keeping a light grip on his jacket.
His words made Roy uncomfortable, not because Edward was a male, having been in
the military for years, he knew about the other side of the fence, not well but
he wasn’t unfamiliar. It was because Edward was a child…maybe not like a usual
child, but still, sixteen and…
“Please…Roy…” the grip on his jacket tightened.
Edward swallowed back his shame after those words, he was begging.
Hearing the pleading voice as well as his name he stared at the top of Edward’s
head, he was stunned, he had no words, Edward was asking him…
“Please…” he heard the word again.
…pleading with him…for what?
“Please what…?” he asked quietly.
There was a groan from the blonde, obviously he was having a hard time saying
what he wanted but Roy was genuinely stunned, he wasn’t trying to make this any
harder for the teen.
He heard Edward mumble something and he tensed,
“What did you just say?” his hands had taken a light grip on Edward’s shoulders
again and his stomach felt like jelly.
“You heard me…don’t make me say it again…” Edward’s hands loosened their grip
on the jacket and slipped around Roy’s waist, holding Roy in a mock hug while
Edward lifted his head and kissed at the front of Roy’s neck, where the high
collar didn’t reach.
“Edward…this is…”
“Please…I need this…it’s been so long…”
Edward’s warm breath was felt under his chin and his blonde hair just barely
tickled Roy’s cheek and it smelled pleasant.
At the end of those words Edward’s tongue was felt against the underside of his
chin followed by his cold lips.
Roy was reeling, needing to re-evaluate what he thought he knew about the
Fullmetal Alchemist.
First he’d said so quietly, yes Roy had heard it but had been too shocked to
believe it, Edward had very candidly whispered ‘Please fuck me…’
Even with his vulgar mouth and his use of swear words in his vocabulary on a
daily basis, hearing that was so shocking. And then to hear him say ‘it’d been
so long’.
Edward then had…
‘He’s been with someone…in this way…?’Roy thought as he frowned.
The kisses to his neck were becoming distracting after a while and then
Edward’s arms slipped off his waist and Roy heard the unclipping of the buttons
of his lapel and when it was open, Edward easily unhooked the hidden buttons
beneath, suddenly gaining some confidence as he hurriedly opened the jacket and
pushed the jacket to Roy’s shoulder’s.
Edward took the pause and lack of resistance as a go ahead, he already had a
raging hard on beneath his leathers and he had a tingling arousal playing up
and down his spine.
Edward stepped back for a moment after pushing the jacket to Roy’s elbow’s and
Roy watched him, his eyes very serious even as his mind raced, Edward slipped
his waist jacket off his pale shoulders and dropped it on the floor.
His automail arm was visible now, as well as his collar bone and the lines of
his taught, expertly toned shoulders and his flesh arm. Roy had always seen the
definition beneath the clothes and wondered about how a boy so young had such a
honed body, but Edward was no ordinary boy and his body had seen hell.
…yet it was beautiful.
Edward reached his arms back and pulled his loose black shirt over his head,
his abdomen was visible and clearly defined abs tensed with every movement, as
did his flesh arm. His braid was pulled to his naked flesh shoulder after
removing the shirt and as he dropped the shirt to the floor with his jacket and
gloves, he used his automail arm to push the braid back. Roy stared at the thin
pale face before him, framed by untidy straight blonde hair.
Edward was exceptionally attractive, whether he knew it or not.
His finely angular shaped face, his pointed nose and the intensity of his
unusual eyes, Roy had admitted to himself Edward was a good looking young man
many a time.
However he’d humored himself at the thought of Edward marrying that violent
blonde girl, not stripping right before him and revealing every inch of a body
well built beyond standard averages of a sixteen year old boy, to him.
No…Edward was hardly a child. He was a young man.
Roy had let his over jacket fall to the floor but made no further move, still
feeling that while it wouldn’t be hard to dive head first into this with
Edward, he was still in fact sixteen and a military subordinate.
Then Edward’s belt buckle sounded as the belt landed on the floor and Roy
dropped his gaze from the attractive face framed by untidy blonde bangs to see
Edward’s thin fingers pulling his zipper down as he stepped out of his boots.
Roy watched as Edward pushed his thumbs into the sides of his leathers and his
tight boxer shorts and in a slow movement -the pants needed a shimmy- the
remainder of his clothes dropped to his ankles and Edward stepped out of the
pile.
His black socks remained half way up his calves but other wise he was
completely nude and he wasn’t shy.
Roy was certain now Edward had done this before.
He’d had sex before and probably with a man, since he didn’t seem uncertain
about any of his actions.
Roy swallowed back, his throat dry, he let his eyes look over the well shaped
legs, Edward’s muscle definition wasn’t over done, it was refined.
Roy didn’t want to admit he felt a little self conscious.
He was fit, make no mistake his body mass was accounted for with muscle and
almost no fat but he was 14 years older and his own physical definition wasn’t
anything like Edward’s.
Keeping his insecurity out of his face he brought his hands up, pulling his
gloves off and then he started unbuttoning his white shirt,
“Alright Fullmetal, but this is a one time only.”
Edward didn’t smile,
“As if I’d want to do this again.” he said dully as he watched Roy unbutton his
shirt.
This was a different Edward and he was about to be acquainted with a different
Roy.
What would happen now would change the way they saw each other.
Roy tried hard to ignore the naked aroused sight of Edward, especially as he
stepped close when Roy’s shirt was opened and he pressed his lips, tongue and
used his teeth as he began what would be foreplay, trailing his mouth over
Roy’s naked chest. His hands went straight to Roy’s belt and the clips of the
loose fitting pants.
Roy stepped out of his boots just as his pants dropped making him wobble and he
placed his hands on the Edward’s shoulders for balance.
Touching the bare warm skin of Edward’s flesh shoulder didn’t fail to incite
the beginning of proper arousal in the older man, Edward’s kisses were pleasant
but he was far too distracted at first to let them get to him.
Now as he stepped out of his own pants and underwear, standing completely naked
with Edward in his office, he allowed the situation to settle in.
He felt a little awkward, he was great when it came to women but despite his
experimentation in his younger years, Roy had never actually slept with a man.
He let his hands run over Edward’s arms and he enjoyed the sensation of sucking
and kissing to his nipples and lower, down over his lightly toned abs and
Edward’s tongue slipped into his naval and when he felt hot breath against his
pubic hair he realized where Edward was heading.
“Wait…” he absently grabbed a handful of the blonde’s hair and pulled him back,
unaware of just how incredibly turned on Edward became at the light yanking of
his hair, “…the door.” he said and let go of Edward’s hair, stepping around him
and taking a few steps to the door to lock it.
When he turned around Edward was right there, having come over to him, Roy
tried to get a look at his face but Edward was back on his knees again quickly
and Roy leaned back against the door. A cold hard hand took a light rest
against his naked thigh while Edward’s flesh hand took hold of the base of his
cock and gave it tight quick strokes.
Edward’s moist pale lips were against at first and then around the head of his
penis and Roy raised an eyebrow as he gazed down. Watching Edward’s tongue as
it swirled around and shaped to his steadily growing erection while the warm
hand, Edward’s thin pale fingers stroked him and then slipped beneath his
length to rub his testicles, rolling them in his warm palm, it was
indescribable to the colonel.
He’d never look at Edward the same way.
'Why am I letting this happen…?’ he wondered with a light frown.
Roy let out a soundless breath and watched as Edward took as much of his full
erection into his mouth as possible and worked on it slowly, up and down, his
cheeks hollowing as he sucked tightly at the sensitive flesh, sending many
throbs of pleasure through Roy’s cock inside Edward’s mouth.
The back of Edward’s mouth was wonderfully wet and hot, so moist…and then
Edward swallowed Roy’s collection of pre cum with his saliva and it earned him
a moan from the older man, even if it was a low quiet one.
His eyes were half lidded, he really couldn’t help enjoying it, Edward’s
usually pale lips had turned a rosy color as they moved over the contours of
his length, as they became swollen from his effort. Feeling those blonde soft
bangs brushing against his firm lower abdomen was also very sexually arousing,
Edward was far too beautiful…and far too good at this.
‘How many times has he done this…?’ he frowned again as he let his right hand
slip into the blonde’s hair just above his crotch.
He had closed his eyes for a moment and then he felt Edward’s automail hand
over his own in his hair. Roy looked down as Edward continued bobbing slowly
and sucking deeply, no sign of slowing as he swallowed again and Roy’s hips
bucked forward a bit.
Edward’s automail hand tightened over his just then so his grip on Edward’s
hair was tighter and then Edward hummed.
“Ah! Ed-ward…” he breathed, his hips bucking forward again and Edward bobbed
faster along his length. His breath from his nose ghosted over his saliva that
he left across Roy’s length as he sucked up and down.
Roy’s breathing was shallow now and he knew he was nearing his limit, Edward
was definitely doing a good job, even if he couldn’t take Roy’s full length,
his flesh hand was massaging and stroking him to his end.
“Edward…you need to stop, I’m gonna…aaah…I’m gonna…” he closed his eyes and
Edward sucked harder still.
Roy let his hips thrust a little into Edward’s bobbing, not forcefully.
Edward didn’t seem to mind, he stopped bobbing and let Roy thrust lightly,
still sucking and Roy gaped dazedly at the sixteen year old, sucking him off
better than any women he’d had.
His mouth accommodating Roy very well.
Edward’s cheeks were red now as well as his lips and he had a small frown on
his face, Roy knew his jaw was probably hurting but he didn’t seem like he was
willing to stop, he basically said so when his automail hand came up again and
tightened the grip Roy had on his hair again.
Roy had suspected at first but this time took Edward’s hint and he tightened
his grip on the soft blonde hair, he gave an experimental yank toward himself
as he thrust forward, sending a bit more of his length into the back of
Edward’s throat when he did so.
Edward’s keening moan at his action left no room for uncertainty…he liked
having his hair pulled. Roy was turned on and he throbbed again, feeling his
precipice just a few short thrusts away.
He breathed heavily as he yanked on Edward’s hair and thrust a little
erratically and in no time he came, his length half way into Edward’s mouth. He
let out a low shaky breath and absently squeezed the handful of hair he had
hold of as his semen coated Edward’s tongue.
“Ah…shit…” he realized he was holding Edward’s head in place and he pulled
back, letting what remained of his release land on the floor of his office,
some of it on Edward’s thighs.
He was surprised he came so much but didn’t think too much on it and instead
looked to Edward who was flush and licking his lips absently.
'He swallowed it…’ Roy was once again, though dazed and feeling very sated,
amazed at Edward, he wasn’t even certain this was the same boy.
“Are you alright, Edward?” he crouched down since Edward remained on his knees.
“Yeah, I’m fine…” he said quietly and a small breathy noise came from him.
Roy looked between them and his eyes narrowed, Edward was kneeling back on his
legs and his flesh hand was between his legs and while his erection stood at
full salute, Edward’s hand was seeing to another area.
Roy felt a little ashamed at being this way with Edward, he must have been in a
terrible frame of mind to do this. He knew Edward looked at him as a rival so
to have begged for this must mean that Edward…is really fucked up.
And no one had noticed.
‘How…how could we all have assumed a child whose been through so much wasn’t
affected somehow…’ he thought.
“Don’t judge me you bastard…I can see it in your -ah- face…don‘t pity me…” he
was obviously fingering his rectum as he spoke, shameless as far as Roy could
see while he prepared himself for what he’d asked for.
To be fucked.
Mustang said nothing and just watched, observing the sight of pure sexual
abandon before him. Edward Elric, known throughout Amestris as a hero of the
people and well known for his remarkable alchemic abilities at a young age…was
completely desperate and rather pathetic as it were.
He met Edward’s glance and saw the anger…and shame in those beautiful eyes.
So he was ashamed…naturally he should be.
Edward pressed his two fingers, middle and index, deeper into himself brushing
his prostate lightly occasionally as he stretched himself out just enough so
that it was reasonable…since he didn’t want to eliminate the pain completely…
…no, the pain was part of what he deserved. He preferred it that way. He
enjoyed it.
He tried to ignore Roy’s stare of pity, he knew the man would never seen him
the same way again, which means he’d avoid Roy Mustang every day from this day
onward.
Right now, he needed this.
Once he was on the road again, he had no idea if he’d find the time or a person
for this purpose.
He glanced at Roy, who met his look and then turned his attention to restoring
his own arousal.
Edward was grateful, he wasn’t going to spout any of his smug bullshit and was
resigned to serving the request Edward had crudely made.
‘I won’t stay here ever again after this…I’ll never be able to look at him in
his face ever again…’ Edward thought and grit his teeth in anger.
He really hated his weakness.
He removed his fingers from himself and Roy noticed by the time he was semi
erect,
“Should we move to the sofa…?” he asked as he stroked himself, he looked tired,
resigned.
Edward looked tense and his hair was untidy, his frown was permanent, his loins
ached and throbbed even as he looked at Roy’s restored arousal.
He needed this.
“No the floor is fine…” he said shortly and surprised Roy when he leaned up on
his knees suddenly and kissed him on his mouth.
Edward placed several moist but closed mouth kisses to Roy’s lips, the older
man was mostly unresponsive, puckering his lips but not encouraging it. Then
Edward’s tongue slid across the line of his sealed lips and when Roy pulled
back Edward made a disgusted face,
“You don’t wanna kiss me cause I gave you a blow job…you’re such a pig…” he
stated and once again surprised Roy when he shifted to lay flat on his back and
with his arms, quite strong, he pulled Roy half way down on top of him.
Roy was on his elbows leaning either side of Edward’s head while he kneeled
between the blonde’s well muscled legs. Edward seemed taller when he was laying
beneath Roy this way…and older.
“It’s not because of that…” Roy mumbled and Edward noticed the business tone
had been replaced with a nervous tone, “…kissing is reserved for affection,
love…girlfriends…” he said quietly as he settled his lower half against Edward.
With their skin and erections finally contacting, Edward ignored Roy’s
stupidity for the moment and took a deep sensual breath. He enjoyed this,
having a warm body above his own, having the smell of someone fill his senses.
It was so personal.
So close.
So real.
He felt guilt creeping in again and so he dug his nails into Roy’s lower back
with his flesh hand as he brought his smooth flesh leg over Roy’s hip, rubbing
it against Roy’s side.
Once again Roy was faced with Edward’s sexual confidence and it made him
irritated.
“Don’t dig your nails into me, Fullmetal…I don’t want marks.” he said, his
business tone was back.
Edward made a sound of frustration, he’d been grinding his lower half against
the older man above him as best he could since Roy wasn’t doing anything and
then he had to go and say that.
Edward let his hands flop at his sides as well as his legs, then he brought a
hand up and brushed his blonde bangs upward out of his face in irritation.
Roy stared down into his flushed face, his lips were a little dry and cracked
in their rosy condition from the earlier service he’s performed and even though
he wouldn’t cry, his eyes were shiny.
“Fine…fine, I won’t even touch you. But…you don’t have to be gentle with me…”
Edward informed.
Roy knew it wasn’t just a heads up, after the hair pulling, he figured Edward
had some sort of masochistic tendencies.
It was hard to believe he was sixteen when looking down at him right then.
“…ok…” he responded, “…whenever you’re ready…” he added.
It was clinical how Roy was behaving and even though he knew it was cold to be
this way, the irritation in Edward’s gorgeous face didn’t make him feel bad, he
wasn’t doing this out of desire, in fact he was ashamed that he was taking
advantage of Edward’s weakness right then.
He couldn’t think of that right then though, because he’d lose his wood.
If that happened, he wouldn’t be able to do what Edward requested and after
that blow job, this just seemed like a typical paradigm of equivalent exchange.
Edward made him cum, so now he would do like wise.
No frills.
“You’re such a bastard…I hate you Mustang…” that desperate tone of voice was in
the blondes words, “…ok…put it in then, lets get it over with…” and a little
unhappiness.
Roy shifted, moving so he could see what he was doing,
“Shouldn’t there be lubrication?”
Edward’s breathing was a huff,
“Stop wasting time, I don’t want to be here much longer…” he sounded downright
miserable now.
Roy aligned himself and then looked down into Edward’s face, his eyes were
closed and his jaw was tense.
'Perhaps…’ he thought about it for a second.
He leaned his left elbow to the side of Edward’s head and settled himself over
the blonde, leaning his head down, he placed a few moist kisses to Edward’s jaw
line and neck.
He didn’t want to hear that misery in Edward’s voice, some reciprocation to
Edward wasn’t too much to ask.
He kissed downward, finding his way to Edward’s light pink nipples, small round
and hardened in their aroused state. He kissed over one then the other, letting
his right hand slide over Edward’s naked hip and then over his smooth firm
thigh until he reached the beginning of Edward’s automail above his knee and he
ran his hand firmly back up, as expected, Edward pressed upward at the harsh
caress, wanting more.
Roy sucked on Edward’s nipples, as he might with a woman, except when he bit
and irritated the pink nubs with his teeth, Edward’s moans and breathless
squeaks turned him on more than he’d ever been.
When he bit at Edward’s skin, licked and tongued his shallow naval, sucked
hard, caressed hard, the reactions Edward gave were nothing short of wanton.
Roy stopped then, deciding he’d done enough for himself and Edward’s arousal’s.
He pressed forward, helping himself in with his right hand since it was a dry
entry and he didn’t want to get hurt.
As he pressed in, he felt Edward’s legs part more and he watched his face,
Edward’s eyebrows came together but his scowl was a little less angry and more
anxious.
Throwing caution to the wind once he’d pressed most of his head in and found
that Edward wasn’t screaming in pain, he made two even thrusts, forcefully, and
he was in almost to the hilt.
He grit his teeth since it had hurt and he watched Edward’s face, his eyes were
still tightly shut but his lips were parted in silent breath, Roy watched his
tongue trace his bottom lip as he lay waiting.
It was awful that he had the urge to kiss Edward right then.
“Mo--move…Roy…move…” Edward instructed.
So Roy started moving, he didn’t get much friction at first because Edward was
blissfully tight and he wasn’t getting out more than he was getting in.
Edward was dissatisfied with this after a minute and Roy felt a cold leg as
well as a warm one wrap firmly around his waist.
“Roy…hold me in place…” his arms lay at the sides of his head and he arched his
back.
Roy felt Edward’s inner walls tense around his length. Despite the fact he knew
he shouldn’t just do what Edward said since he could always just take him over
to the couch where this would proceed in an easier fashion, he somehow knew
this was where Edward wanted it.
He leaned over Edward, the blonde’s strong legs around his waist keeping Roy
firmly imbedded inside his rectum, and he placed each hand over each of
Edward’s waiting wrists, laid out just above his head in a triangular shape,
his steel fingers tips lightly touching his flesh finger tips.
Edward’s braid was coming undone and some hair was loose and laying against the
white floor, splayed out prettily in strands beside his braid. Quite a sight,
one Roy wouldn’t forget.
And then he realized, he narrowed his eyes, supporting himself would mean
leaning his weight on Edward’s wrists,
“Edward…” he hesitated.
“Shut the hell up Mustang…just do what I asked…” he said almost quietly, his
eyes lightly closed as he licked his dry lips.
Taking a moment to set his mind to it, Roy put his pressure and balance in his
arms, Edward’s flesh hand tensed from the weight and his finger’s curled
inward. He looked down at the boy sprawled out beneath him, perfectly beautiful
and disgraceful.
Once he had a steady balance he pulled out and thrust in quickly and Edward’s
legs tightened around his waist, his let out a short hot breath and Roy moved
again.
He pulled out each time and thrust back in as Edward’s tightness adjusted to
his length and he was moving easier.
He thrust several times, his knees and knuckles hurting from their contact with
cold unforgiving floor and then Edward spoke,
“Go faster…” his eyes were open and he regarded Roy with a flushed face.
Faster…he thrust faster.
“Harder…harder!” Edward demanded slightly out of breath and frowning needily.
Roy went harder, the sound of their skin slapping was now louder around him.
Edward’s eyes were open and looking between the ceiling and Roy’s face dazedly
as he made low sounds of pleasure with every inward thrust, his finger tips on
of his flesh hand were turning white and Roy knew his wrist would be bruised
besides the circulation being cut off.
“…hah…hah...aarder…harder Roy…” he heard Edward whine as his rectum spasmed
around his length, Roy couldn’t help but moan, Edward was tight and hot and it
felt like he was slipping deeper each time.
As a few short minutes passed of thrusting their faces had moved closer and
Edward’s finger tips had started turning a faded purplish color,
“Harder…” Ed said again.
Roy didn’t think he’d lessened his thrusting even though his knees were
bruising but he thrust harder all the same.
“Harder…harder...hah- aaaaah….HARDER…harder…” Edward kept saying, gasping and
frowning.
Roy went harder and harder each time and it was beginning to get unpleasant for
him as the sound of his pelvis slapping against Edward’s reddened posterior
became louder and louder, even over his heavy breathing.
“ROY! HARDER…AAAAAAAH…HARDER!” he was moaning loudly and shouting now.
Edward’s veins were standing out over his flesh arm as he made a tight fist and
sounded out his pleasure unabashedly. Roy’s eyes were opening and closing at
his own mostly controlled pleasure.
Roy had tried to keep up with demands but he was starting to hurt from the
force,
“Edward…I can’t…its not-”
“Shutup!” Ed said with a break in his voice, “…just go harder…ha- uh
…arder…please…”
“Edward…listen…” he slowed the motion as his leg’s cramped.
“No…don’t stop- ah!”
“Edward!” Roy yelled as he grabbed Edward by the back of his head, his hair
firmly twisted in Roy’s fingers as he yanked, disturbed when he felt Edward’s
erection throb between them and his rectum tighten.
 'He really enjoys the abuse…’ he thought as he fisted the blonde’s hair,
“It’s hurting me, this useless if I can’t stay hard…how far are you?” he asked
plainly.
Edward’s eyes were emptier and cloudier than he’d ever seen as he leaned his
head backwards since Roy had his hair in a grip,
“…not much…farther…” he wiggled his blue fingers in Roy’s grasp.
Roy was suddenly eager to end this, that look on Edward’s face made him feel
desperately scared for some reason…he didn’t know what he was doing.
He let Edward’s hand go and wasn’t so surprised when Edward grabbed the back of
his neck with that cold hand and pulled him down for a kiss.
He opened his mouth this time and felt Edward’s tongue slip passed his teeth,
after a moment he responded and their tongues crossed each other’s mouths
generously, wetting each other’s lips. Roy was finding out that Edward was
rather good with his tongue in general as it wound its way around his own
tongue and sucked it slowly.
Roy moaned lowly as their mouths opened wider and once again their tongues
passed between them, Edward was leaning up on his elbows and Roy still held his
hair tight enough to hurt as they kissed each other.
Both were still fully aroused.
When Roy found he was enjoyed the feeling of Edward’s soft, pink kissed lips
against his own just a bit too much he pulled Edward back by his hair, earning
him a short moan and making Edward arch his back.
Roy pulled out of Edward and he saw irritation etch its way back into Edward’s
face, at least it was familiar. He then roughly flipped him over, his flesh
limbs making small slapping sounds at the suddenness to catch himself and his
hip bones connected painfully with the hard cold floor.
But Edward obliged the change of position and got on his knees, bending over on
his elbows, exposing himself to Roy.
Without hesitating Roy thrust back into Edward so hard that the younger
alchemist’s automail knee nearly gave against the linoleum at the same time
that he gave a small cry – of pleasure or pain- Roy didn’t know. Edward braced
himself with his flesh palm against the floor, sticking enough for support.
Roy leaned over Edward,
“I know what you like now…this won’t take long…” he said in his business tone.
He grabbed the thicker part of Edward’s braid and some more hair near his scalp
and pulled on it, turning Edward’s face so that his cheek was to the floor and
pressing the slightly sweaty skin to the linoleum.
Roy saw no anger in Edward’s eyes and so he knew, this was what Edward liked.
With a few beads of sweat on his own skin and a drop trailing down his abs to
settle above his shallow naval, Roy licked his lips…
And he fucked Edward. Hard.
He did so for a full ten minutes or so and at his hardest, his knees hurting
from the hard floor. He realized at some point that while there was some blood
as he thrust, Edward’s moans could probably be heard all the way to the bottom
central HQ floors. So he relented since he was doing it right, his hand
tightening its grip.
As he thrust he watched the side of Edward’s face, he was biting his lip so it
was white between his teeth in between moans, his eyes dazed.
His flesh palm was having trouble keeping him still on the floor and his legs
were shaking like jelly so much that Roy had to keep a firm hand to Edward’s
waist to help him stay up on his knees.
Finally after watching the most erotically sad thing he’d ever witnessed from
someone so deceptively strong and in control, Edward came.
It was a loud succession of moans and his nails and automail fingertips grasped
at the floor as his cum stained the floor in warm sticky blotches, he shook
rather violently and his rectum tensed so much that Roy couldn’t pull out just
then…so he waited and continued to hold Edward’s shaking form up.
He needed to catch his own breath.
After a minute or so of harsh shaken breathing, Roy opened his eyes when felt a
hand, a cool palm of Edward’s flesh hand, pushing at his thigh.
He looked to see Edward’s face was hidden, his forehead was pressed to the
floor since Roy had kneeled up and released his hair.
Taking the hint from Edward’s hand, he pulled out of the blonde and heard the
short ‘mph’ sound Edward made.
His anus was a little bloody and swollen, the sight made Roy feel disgusted at
himself.
He stood up and watched as Edward brought his shaking legs inward and he
kneeled back, sitting up with his bare pale back to Roy.
The colonel was staring at the marks left on Edward’s back from the floor,
bruises of yellow and blue were on his shoulder blades and along his spine, he
imagined Edward’s elbows, hands and knees would be the same.
He felt very miserable just thinking about what he’d done, even if it was
demanded of him.
This was something he could have said no to. Should have said no to.
“…Do…don’t…tell…Al…f..ff..ohonse….please…” there was a sniff from Edward and
the emotion in those broken words made Roy’s eyes burn.
He supposed Edward’s shame would be unlivable if Alphonse, as much as he
believed in Edward’s strong, feisty personality, were to find out there was a
side to Edward like this.
“I won’t tell anyone…” was all he said as he bent over for his underwear and
pants, seeing the skin burns over his pelvic bone. This memory would stay with
him for the rest of his years.
He had his pants on when he turned back to see Edward walking on his visibly
shaking legs to where his clothes lay, he picked up his underwear and Roy just
watched as he slowly got into it, his socks still on his feet and blood visible
on his upper thighs.
Silence settled until Edward was dressed and had loosely re-braided his sweaty
hair, visibly limping and with not a single emotion left on his face except a
certain kind of relief.
Roy felt nauseated as he stood watching Edward clip his waist jacket at the
neck.
His lips were swollen and his face was clearly worn, sex worn, it was clear all
over his face but Alphonse…he’d never know what that looks like.
With a final glance at Roy, Edward let his shame be buried for right then, he
had to leave now. He crouched down to gather together his mission papers and
then he’d return to his room to shower and wash away the blood from his thighs
and everywhere it dried. There was no semen since Roy hadn’t broken the law of
equivalent exchange but cumming a second time.
…of course Edward could also imagine that the sorry sight of him writhing on
the floor just didn’t do anything for the ‘hetero’ that Roy was.
He stood up with his back to Roy,
“Good evening Lieutenant Colonel Mustang, I’ll leave on the mission tomorrow. I
won’t return for a while but I’ll send you my official report’s monthly.” he
said in such a normal tone, even if his actions were still and unanimated.
“Edward…” Roy said when the blonde had reached for the key in the door.
He didn’t turn around, he simply unlocked the door then waited with his hand on
the handle.
Roy wondered if he should say anything but went ahead before deciding fully,
“Be careful…of the people you encounter this way.” he stared at the back of the
blonde’s head, concern clearly in his eyes.
He heard Edward scoff,
“Whatever, colonel ass-hole…” he opened the door, walked out and slammed it
behind him.
That had sounded like Edward on any other day.
Edward Elric.
Roy would have to rethink everything he ever thought he knew about the
Fullmetal Alchemist.
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***** Snuff *****
Chapter Notes
     I had absolutely no original intention of writing a follow up to Skin
     Ticket. Then I made the mistake of listening to Slipknot again and
     got all re-inspired.
     This chapter is named respectively after the Slipknot song that
     inspired it, Snuff.
     Disclaimer: I do not own Slipknot music.
                 
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                                     Snuff
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It was raining outside, it had been raining all week in Central.
The type of rain that fell consistently and left the grassy grounds of Central
HQ soggy and the concrete dark and puddled, it cast shadows over everything all
day and made the offices and halls seem dark, dank and unpleasant.
Although HQ was generally an unpleasant place, being a military building, the
rain just made it worse. Roy hated rain, besides it being for obvious reasons,
he also hated nothing more than having to put his still damp coat on at the end
of the day only to head back out into more rain and then again the following
morning. He hated carrying a damn umbrella too, having to drive to and from
work in the slower traffic while lightening clapped and thunder rumbled, people
honked their horns and his wind screen wipers squeaked across his windshield
monotonously.
Rain all week.
The week had been long.
As expected with the weather like this there’d been reports of sunken roads and
landslides in the hilled areas, happening throughout Central and on its
outskirts; even flooding and a few casualties reported to have drowned, then
there was damage to military property, military construction projects were
postponed costing thousands of thousands of Cenz…etc
All of that just made it worse for him because it amounted to paper work…so
much paper work.
He was seated behind his desk in his large office, staring through five uneven
piles of paper and folders of incomplete work at what he could see of the front
of his office. The view of half of his closed double doors, part of the grey/
green office wall and a side part of the maroon leather couches were a far
better sight right then than the endless black ink scrawled across the case
files, forms, requisitions, invoices, budget reviews, licensing forms and
dockets piled around him.
He sighed leaning with his elbows on his desk, glancing at his bare fingers and
the dull smudges of ink on his thumb and index finger of his right hand. It was
just after four pm, the day wasn’t even close to over since he usually only
left the office any time after eight.
It had been a late week as usual for him, he’d been leaving the office at about
nine or ten every night in recent months but now with the added rain drenched
nature of it, it was much worse…
It was no fault of the military mind you, Roy just hadn’t found much interest
in returning home lately.
He blamed it on his recent serious failed relationship, it made his house seem
like a dead zone.
He’d invested so much time into the relationship after all, two years was a
year and a half more time in a relationship than Roy had ever made the effort
for before he’d met the younger petite doctor.
They’d even moved in together!
Riza, Havoc, Breda…they all kept asking him when was he going to pop the
question, when would he marry the woman he’d decided to commit too after years
of casual relationships and emotionless sex.
It had been that serious, he’d even had trinkets on his home shelves, scented
candles in his bathroom, brighter curtains on his large oriel windows co-
ordinated with some new furniture in different rooms of his house.
There had even been low fat foods in his cupboards and in his refrigerator.
Extra pillows on his bed that served no purpose other than to appear fancy.
Make up on the bathroom counter, scented soaps…you name it…his house had it.
The signs of a woman.
And everything had been fine, great even…until the one night he went on a
double date with Riza and her fiancé, Riza had innocently started talking about
her upcoming nuptials and their plans, which had turned into the question of
‘When are you two getting married?’ inevitably.
Roy should have seen it coming.
Riza and the others had teased him about it at the office but she knew better
than to ask such a thing in front of his girlfriend, anyone who knew Roy knew
as much. Roy was in a committed relationship, which was a feat in itself,
expecting more was just too ambitious. But her fiancé was clueless and he
pitched the question in a smug fashion, like he’d been the better man to pop
the question first since he and Riza had been together for just over a year
only.
Roy had smiled, casual and prepared to brush it aside, Riza sipped her white
wine and looked amused expecting Roy would do as much.
It was actually amusing, until his dear female companion looked at him and
smiled in that curious expectant way that meant trouble for him if he didn’t
venture an answer.
Well…it hadn’t gone well at all.
Because it had dawned on him right then as he stared at her expectant
expression…that he didn’t want to get married…ever. He didn’t want children
either when he thought about it hard enough.
He’d raised his eyebrows and opened his mouth saying ‘I don’t actually foresee
marriage in my future…’ proceeding to eat another spoonful of his dessert.
Perhaps he could have worded it better, he could also have bothered to argue or
call after his dear girlfriend as she stormed out of the house a few hours
later.
But he hadn’t because deep down…Roy didn’t want to compromise himself into a
situation he didn’t want to be in.
He was a General of the State Military, his career was looking especially
promising since Fuhrer Grumman had taken ill many times that year and he was
first in line to take his place if all went well and his record was impressive
enough amongst his peers.
No…marriage would only serve as a distraction.
So no matter how pretty a red head she was, or how lovely her smile was,
however long her legs were…she didn’t get it.
She didn’t understand Roy and of course, with that obstacle in the way, how
could they have hoped to move forward?
That had been a few months back, she’d since fetched her things and looked
hopeful he might change his mind but there was no room in Roy’s life for
change, not change as drastic as marriage and children.
Still, it was a sad parting; he’d truly cared for her and the house seemed
emptier now that she wasn’t there.
Everything seemed a little emptier, too quiet, he’d lost his appetite…waking up
alone had been hard too, he wasn’t sleeping well.
He sighed again and rotated his chair to his windows so he could look out over
the wet grounds of HQ, the rain kept falling heavily and blurring the ceiling
to floor windows and the view beyond, he absently loosened the top clip of his
uniform jacket and relaxed his usual proper posture.
He remembered a time when he would have went out after a failed attempt at a
relationship and had rebound sex with the first hot woman he saw with killer
legs and a great smile, but not once since the breakup had he even thought
about being with anyone else, he just didn’t have any desire for it.
There was no one he’d seen that had raised his interest…and so he resigned
himself to just passing his days until something changed.
Something had to change…
 
 
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“Sir…I’ll be leaving for the day.” Riza stood in the door way of his office,
hand on the door handle, hand bag and coat over her other arm, poised to leave.
He knew her fiancé was waiting at the HQ entrance for her to go home.
He looked up from his paper work, reading spectacles settled on his nose and
his pen pressed to the signature line of a document. He blinked a few times,
adjusting to the dull lights in his office.
He didn’t even know when they’d been switched on.
He glanced behind him to find the curtains to his large windows were still open
and the sky was dark,
“What time is it?” he mumbled and looked over one of the significantly smaller
piles of paper work he’d gotten through at the clock mounted on the far wall.
“Lost track of time again, General? Perhaps you should leave early, it is a
Friday and Monday is a public holiday, you could use the rest.” Riza said with
a smile.
Roy looked back at her, last he’d checked the time it’d been 4.30 pm and now it
was almost 8, the hours had blurred together once he’d gotten stuck into his
piles of paper work and buried his personal issues under it.
“Hm…I forgot about the holiday…” he sighed and took his glasses off his face,
pressing his tired eyes with a thumb and index finger.
Riza stood waiting and he realized it when he looked back up and smiled
slightly,
“Uh, yes…you’re dismissed.” He said sounding a bit distracted.
Riza gave him a worried look,
“Have a good weekend General, try to stop working for at least a few hours.”
She said it in jest, but she meant it. There had been a time when Roy evaded
work like a child would angst about eating their vegetables at dinner, now it
was all he bothered to do and she’d become worried about it.
“You too…” Roy had his glasses back on and was focused on his work again.
He didn’t see her sad expression as she left his office, leaving his door
slightly ajar. 
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Roy stopped a moment to look away from the case file he was reading, he put his
pen down and flexed his aching fingers, he knew he’d end up with carpel tunnel
syndrome one day for all of the damn paperwork he’d done since joining the
military.
He took his frameless spectacles off his face again, habitually rubbing his
slightly red eyes and glanced at the clock, it was just after 9 pm. He’d
successfully worked late again.
The piles of work left weren’t half as daunting, he could now see over the tops
of them; he’d cleared a lot in the last few hours.
He wasn’t any happier for it though, he grimaced when he stood up, his
shoulders hurt and his legs felt numb from sitting for too long, he also had a
headache creeping up behind his eyes slowly.
He blamed it on the reading glasses he’d been prescribed a year ago at his last
military medical exam, apparently his alchemically restored eye sight aged with
him.
He actually felt old altogether these days.
He stretched out, arms forward and fingers linked so his knuckles popped and
his bones made quiet cracking sounds. Times of peace had made him rusty, he
managed to get to the gym some days but he didn’t ever get any real physical
exertion, even his Flame alchemy hadn’t been used in a few years for anything
more than lighting his home fire or burning some research.
He was 38 years old…a few months from 39.
He didn’t bother to wonder where the time had gone; he didn’t like to think
about it.
He walked around his desk and over toward a closed panel built into his office
wall, pulling it open by its inconspicuous handle revealed a mini bar. This was
a privilege of higher ranked officers, aside from the well-stocked brandy
selection in the mini bar he also had condiments for coffee, tea etc.
It was a luxury of convenience for a busy General.
It certainly saved him a trip to the canteen during his lunches, being able to
keep lunch in his mini fridge.
But even the privileges got old after a while, when the novelty wore off and he
realized it was just another star on his epaulette and didn’t actually make a
difference aside from more people answering to him, an impressive pay bump and
far more work than he used to have.
It was actually boring, he never even got out into the field at all anymore.
He smirked to himself as he placed a clean snifter down and pulled open the lid
of the glass diamond shaped canister containing a very expensive brandy.
It was around the time he usually had a few brandy’s to tipsy himself up and
then he’d call a driver and go home to a slightly alcohol induced exhaustion
and pass out.
As the dark brown liquid filled the glass more than half way Roy had a feeling
of distinct melancholy, like he was sure he’d hit a plateau and he wasn’t sure
he could see a way off of it.
He raised the glass to his lips and sniffed the liquid, not bothering to
appreciate the rich scent much before he took a burning gulp and proceeded to
close the canister.
He stepped out from behind the panel and pushed it partially closed knowing
he’d go back in a little while for a refill. He walked with his glass back
toward his desk to sit and stare at the dark rain clouded sky, wallow a little
while he waited until he was ready to leave.
He placed his glass down and was about to sit in his large chair when he cast
an absent glance at his doors…and did a double take. He pushed himself up by
his chair arms again slowly to stand straight when he saw that someone was
standing there.
And not just any someone.
“General Roy Mustang…” his name hadn’t sounded so interesting to his ears in
years.
Despite his grim mood, Roy cracked a smirk that wasn’t bitter for once,
“Edward Elric.” He said and found he enjoyed hearing himself say that name, it
had really been years, “I almost didn’t see you there.” He settled into his
chair and leaned back.
Edward raised an eyebrow,
“Is that a short joke already, old man?” he pushed himself off the door frame
and walked inside.
Roy hadn’t actually intended it that way but he realized that it might as well
have been,
“Old habits die hard.” He responded as he watched the younger man approach his
desk.
“Yeah well, I’m not short so you can cut that shit out.” He sounded just like
Roy remembered, his voice was the same, light almost airy tone with an
underlying roughness, except he sounded calmer...sort of indifferent.
He also looked the same and yet not.
He dressed differently, wearing black well fitted jeans instead of leather
pants and a black cotton formal shirt under a black coat instead of his vest
and famous red coat. But still he had on black boots, except these had laces
which he left unlaced much like he’d always left his old boots unbuckled and
only his gloves were still crisp white.
His face was as Roy remembered when he’d last seen Edward in his office 6 years
ago when he was 17 and he’d come to turn in his resignation from the military,
angular with fine features of a young man and not a young boy.
His rich blonde hair was longer and tied back in a pony tail that hung below
his mid back, no longer the braid he was so famous for before.
And yes, Edward was no longer short…he was actually another inch taller than
when Roy had witnessed his last growth spurt, although that might have been
attributed to the boots he wore now.
He smiled, not really having a quick response…it had been sometime, he was
rusty at insulting.
Edward reached his desk and his golden eyes swept over the expanse of Roy’s
desk,
“Nothing’s really changed has it…” he smirked as he used his left hand, out of
habit Roy expected, to lift Roy’s desk name plate up and  read the title
embossed into the steel.
Roy almost sighed again when he was reminded of just how rudimentary his life
had become,
“Funny you say that…I was just thinking that exact thing a moment ago.”
Reflexively he reached for his brandy and took another gulp, then he went to
finish it but he stopped when Edward’s fingers slid round the glass stem
beneath his own.
With a small tug from Edward, Roy let the glass go and looked up at Edward who
had come around and was leaning against his desk next to his chair, now
sniffing the brandy.
“Same expensive shit you always used to buy…” he sipped from the glass and
licked his lips, “…and it still tastes like shit.”
“That coming from someone who drinks highly caffeinated or sugar saturated
drinks all the time means very little in the line of valid critic.” He informed
the younger, smiling as Edward finished what was left in the glass with a
shrug.
He placed it down on the table again, turning it around once with his gloved
fingers and then letting it go to pick up Roy’s spectacles. He gave them a look
over with raised eyebrows but he put them down without comment after a moment.
They were silent then for a minute.
Both of them somehow finding comfort in the mutual quiet.
Which was odd since they used to fight like cat and dog and they hadn’t seen
each other in six years.
Roy was leaning back in his chair, staring at the windows from a side angle and
Edward was staring at the wet window panes as well, leaning with his arms
across his chest.
It was nice but pointless; Roy knew Edward was there for a reason.
He didn’t seem in a hurry though,
“What brings you to Central…?” he asked quietly, the only sound beside his
voice was the rain outside and the clock ticking, “…last I heard around town,
after Alphonse’s full recovery you returned to Risembool and then you and he
went researching at opposite ends of the world…” he glanced at the younger
male.
Edward gave him a side long look and his lip quirked up into a knowing smirk,
“That’s pretty accurate for random hearsay, Mustang, you sure Havoc didn’t tell
you that since you had him keeping tabs on me…?” he sounded amused.
Roy figured Edward was guessing, after all, it hadn’t been Havocspecifically
keeping tabs on the Elric’s years ago,
“However I came into my information is irrelevant, it was said and I did hear
it.”
He always enjoyed how Edward would pull his face when they tried their best to
annoy one another and just like old times, the blonde stayed true to his
upturned lip and disapproving sound,
“Ugh, that mysterious stuff is not as sexy as you think, Bastard.”
Roy chuckled and stepped around the comment, he could see this was heading into
the jibes about how he chased skirts with empty heads and women were a touchy
subject right then, he doubted Edward knew but he couldn’t be sure.
“Again Ed, why are you in Central and how much is it going to cost me?” he
stood up, not feeling the aches in his bones so much and he grabbed his glass,
walking by Edward and across to his mini bar.
“Eh, much as I’d love to run the military’s bill up and leave you with a
headache…” he paused and Roy did as well, stopping with the canister in his
hand to glance back at Edward, who was staring at the windows still, looking a
little wistful, “…I’m just here on a small errand. One I should have completed
6 years ago when I turned in my resignation.”
Roy had poured his second shot and turned to walk back to Edward, seeing the
blonde turn to face him as he reached his desk. Edward held up his gloved hand
around a familiar silver object and opened his fingers enough so that his State
Alchemist watch fell to dangle from its chain between them.
Roy frowned and opened his ungloved palm beneath it and Edward let the chain
fall, his expression fond on the object as he placed his hands in his pockets
and gave his watch one last look before Roy closed his hand around it and
turned it so he could look at it.
Not a scratch on it.
He could never say the same for Edward during his military years.
“I know legally I was obligated to return it upon resignation but with
everything that happened I didn’t even know where it was…then last week…” Roy
looked up from the watch and found Edward was looking at him, “…I was throwing
out some stuff at home in Risembool and I found my old travel case. It was in
there with some other old shit.” He sighed now.
Roy had always suspected Edward didn’t want to leave the Military, at least not
as badly as he had when he was 15, somewhere along the line he’d realized that
he was more alike the dogs of the state than he’d ever imagined…he was more
like Roy himself than he’d ever cared to consider.
Roy licked his lips before sipping from his brandy then he held the watch back
out to Edward,
“I filed papers for it years ago, officially it was marked as ‘Misplaced in the
line of Duty’ and you were fined for the loss of state property.” he informed,
“…you can keep it if you like.”
Edward gave him a stink look,
“You fined me for it? You asshole…” he gave the watch in Roy’s open palm a
quick look and then shook his head, “…I’d rather not, too many memory’s.” he
admitted.
“Not all bad I hope…” Roy absently slipped the watch into his pants pocket,
he’d destroy it later.
“Are you kidding?” Edward leaned against the desk again and glanced at the
glass Roy took a gulp from, “…you drink a lot these days, Mustang?”
Said General looked into the remaining liquid in the glass,
“It’s for the nightmares Edward, sometimes I dream I’m being buried alive by
paperwork and suffocating under it…” he lied casually…and only partially. He
had nightmares but not about paper work.
And although he knew Edward wasn’t stupid, he also knew Edward didn’t give a
rat’s ass about his drinking habits.
“Whatever…” the blonde sighed and stood off the desk.
Mustang knew him well.
He watched as Edward walked back around the desk,
“I’m gonna get going…” he mumbled.
“Where are you going?” Roy asked before he could stop himself.
Edward turned and walked backwards to face Roy as he made his way to the doors,
“I’m leaving to the North to do some research but I still have to book a hotel
room for the night.” He turned again and his long hair turned with him
smoothly.
“Did you arrive in Central today?” Roy placed his almost empty glass down,
noticing then the suitcase at the doors that Edward picked up.
“About a half hour ago, got a cab straight here…I have to leave in the morning
at 8 am.” He sounded annoyed, whereas there was a time when the prospect of
traveling made his golden eyes light up.
Roy found himself glancing at the wall clock again, seeing it was 9.30.
He considered something a moment and heard Edward bid him a casual ‘Bye
Mustang…’ and then he decided to say the first thing that came to mind,
“Ed…?” he called out.
The blonde stopped, he could see him through the doors standing in the outer
office.
Edward leaned his head to the side to see Mustang better,
“What is it?” he sounded like he usually did when Mustang stopped him from
leaving his office, politely exasperated.
“You hungry?”
There was a pause and then the blonde walked back toward the office, leaning
his free hand on the handle of the door and giving Roy a once over,
“I could eat.” He said with raised eyebrows.
“As expected…” Roy glanced at his untidy desk and then walked around it,
“…let’s get a late dinner. I haven’t eaten and I don’t feel like preparing
anything when I get home.” He informed as he approached Edward.
The blonde seemed to think it over but Roy knew he wouldn’t say no to food…at
Roy’s expense.
“Sounds good.” He said as Roy grabbed his coat and then walked out passed him,
“Get the light’s, Fullmetal.” He said with a smug smile on his face.
He heard the usual grumble of ‘bastard’ before the click of a light switch, a
door closing and Edward’s footfalls behind him.
 
 
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 They’d taken Roy’s car to a small late open restaurant in Central Main
District, where Friday night lifers were still out this late and into the early
morning.
The restaurant wasn’t busy though since most people were in bars or nightclubs
on a Friday.
They sat at a table inside because the rain, despite having slowed to a lighter
fall, was still persistent.
Roy tossed his coat into the booth and sat down with a huff, hating the
weather. Edward did likewise with his coat and sat down across from Roy,
picking the menu up straight away.
Roy appreciated that even after all these years, he could still be around
Edward and not feel obligated to behave a certain way. It was probably by his
own leniency all those years ago that he developed the sort of relationship
with Edward that required no pretense and he didn’t really regret it like he
used to think he would.
Edward didn’t expect anything from him and that made him feel at ease.
A waitress came quickly since the place was empty and Roy ordered himself a
glass of red wine, Edward ordered a soft drink which came as no surprise.
When she walked away Roy lifted his own menu and paged through it, finding that
his appetite wasn’t all that prominent even when he wasn’t cooking his own
dinner.
“I’m surprised you didn’t check out her ass as she walked away, Mustang. She
was definitely your type.” He looked up to see Edward smirking as he looked
over his menu.
Roy blinked, he hadn’t even paid attention to what she looked like,
“…what type would that be, Ed?” he humoured.
There was a snicker,
“Female and breathing…”
“I think you’ve confused me with Havoc…” Roy flipped the menu closed, having
decided what he’d eat.
“No…I don’t think I did.” Edward’s face as he looked over the menu suggested
Roy’s bill would be high.
“I assume you’re choosing everything that’s going to put a dent in my pocket…”
Roy mumbled as he leaned forward, elbows on the table, he trailed his eyes over
the smile that formed on Edward’s face at his words.
He didn’t respond to that though, instead sticking to the previous line of
questioning,
“So what’s your deal, not checking out hot waitresses or bragging about your
girlfriend stealing conquest’s…” he glanced up and across at Roy, “…you got a
girlfriend or something.”
Roy had seen Edward’s eyes take a quick look over at his hands on the table and
he frowned,
“Did you just check for a wedding ring…?” he raised a fine black eyebrow behind
his pitch black bangs.
Edward closed the menu finally and leaned back, shifting sideways and crossing
his one leg over the other,
“I heard some stuff too, just asking.”
‘Ah…so he has heard…’ Roy felt a little guarded all of a sudden,
“What have you heard?”
Edward seemed amused,
“Last I heard, people were saying that the ladies’ man of Central, Bastard
General Roy Mustang, was finally ready to settle down with some long term
girlfriend.” He looked like the idea made him want to laugh.
Roy was grateful that there was no genuine interest besides the need to poke
fun at him,
“Ah I see…I’m afraid the rumor mill has misled you and your farm town folk. I
am indeed still a bachelor.” He smirked when he saw Edward twitch at his quip
about Risembool.
Edward thrived in the city but he never did like it when people insulted his
little home valley.
“Eh…figured it was bullshit. The idea of you getting married was ridiculous
anyway…” he said it in the way only Edward could, the way that said –I’m always
right anyway-
And he was right, because Roy was not husband material.
There was some silence and Roy found himself thinking about his failed
relationship too much so he decided to keep the conversation moving past
himself,
“What about you Ed, do you have a girl…friend…” he said the words with a pause
because very suddenly and leaving him a little startled, he remembered
something.
He remembered something he’d long forgotten, something he’d specifically meant
to forget.
Events that transpired in his office years ago…between himself and Edward.
How deep had he buried that memory that it startled him to recall it now after
all this time?
He felt like he’d broken into a cold sweat at the memory but when he looked at
Edward, the blonde seemed unphased,
“Nope…I’m still too busy to bother with that junk. Maybe someday…” he said
sounding indifferent.
Whether Edward had completely forgotten Roy didn’t know but he didn’t remind
him and just nodded, trying to think of a subject change when something
occurred to him and he went with it,
“How did you know I was at the office?”
Edward blinked at him,
“I called your house a couple times…no answer…” was all he said.
Roy nodded.
Ed blinked and moved his nose around a little.
Thankfully the waitress came back to take their order.
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 Edward ordered rather specifically which surprised Roy, he’d expected the
blonde to just order anything expensive and then figure out what to eat but
apparently Edward wasn’t as immature as he once was.
Although with the memory having resurfaced, Roy found himself once again
thinking about the definition of the word mature, age differences and Edward
Elric as he once knew him.
He was a man now, by Roy’s calculation he should be 23 or 24 years old, he’d
grown up well, was very attractive and being a young genius with endless
potential it made him quite a catch. He’d done things no alchemist had ever
managed before and he’d been through suffering and pain some people never even
get a taste of in their entire lives…
Edward had beaten the odds against him and come out on top.
Roy supposed that one night really hadn’t changed his image of Edward after
all, he’d forced it from his mind and every time after that when he’d seen
Edward, the boy had been normal…as normal as Edward was anyway.
Loud, obnoxious, rude, insensitive, brilliant Edward.
So what had that night actually been about?
Comfort? That’s what Edward had called it.
Not lust, desire, attraction…just comfort.
He’d never bothered to really think about it before.
He had treated it so clinically. Treated Edward so clinically.
He looked across the table at Edward who was finishing off his steak and then
he glanced around for a clock in the restaurant but didn’t see one.
It was probably well after ten, the restaurant had most chairs upturned on the
empty tables, it was only he,  Ed and another couple still lingering in the low
lit establishment, the air smelled of rain and mixed herb and spices.
He had eaten just more than half of his pasta dish and decided he wasn’t hungry
anymore.
Edward’s knife and fork made a clinking sound as he placed them one over the
other on his empty plate, everything except the onion rings and salad garnish
was eaten. Roy turned his attention back to the blonde then,
“Do you want dessert?” he said with a smirk, knowing full well Edward could
probably make room for some elaborate ice cream dish.
 But Edward surprised him with a subtle shake of his head as he pulled his
gloves back on,
“No, thanks.” he said rather ordinarily, too ordinary, “I need to find a hotel
and it’s already really late.” He glanced at Roy, “Thanks for the dinner, turns
out I was hungrier than I thought.” He gave a mild grin and absently reached
back to smooth out his pony tail.
Roy glanced up at the waitress, who seemed relieved that they were done when
Roy gestured with his hand and a nod that he wanted the bill.
When he looked again to Edward he had a small smile on his face, Roy raised his
eyebrows in question and lifted his wine to drink what was left of his second
glass.
The blonde looked at the table and then back at Roy,
“Just thinking, since your being unusually nice to me…maybe you could give me a
ride to the nearest hotel. It’s still fucking raining.” He gestured to the
doorway of the restaurant and the constant downpour.
Roy nodded and placed the glass down, licking his lips but before he could say
anything Edward frowned,
“What’s up with you anyway, Mustang? No insults, jokes, sarcasm…? It’s weird…”
he said softer than he usually spoke, like he wasn’t trying to draw attention
to them.
There was a time when Roy’s head would have been flooded with quick witted
replies and clever retorts to Edward, it was true, but right then after a long
day feeling so tired he realized something about himself and surprised himself
even more when he mumbled it aloud,
“I think I’m getting too old for that sort of thing.”
Edward stared at him, apparently just as stunned about such an admission as Roy
himself was, blinking at his own words he avoided Ed’s golden gaze.
Then he managed a small laugh,
“And besides, you really aren’t that short anymore…”
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 Edward really wasn’t so short anymore; Roy took note as they left the
restaurant walking side by side minutes after his awkward admission. The blonde
was now at the height of Roy’s forehead more or less, making him about an inch
shorter.
They stepped out into the shelter just outside of the restaurant, the doors
closing behind them and the other couple walking off under an umbrella, closely
huddled together as the rain fell a little harder than before.
“Fucking rain…” Edward mumbled, the first words he’d said since Roy’s last
words.
“Indeed.” Roy added. He felt Edward glance at him and he heard the smirk in his
voice,
“Is that why you’re not wearing your gloves…?”
Once again Roy felt old and as Edward implied…useless. He’d actually fallen out
of the habit of wearing his gloves when he went out in public because at some
point they’d literally just started to collect lint from his pockets.
So he simply smiled as a response and he saw Edward give him a confused look,
however brief it was and then he very quietly mumbled,
“I guess things have changed.”
‘Yes…they have.’ Roy thought to himself and he cringed when he straightened his
damp coat on his shoulders.
Thunder rumbled and they both looked up at the sky, Roy’s car was in view
across the street but neither moved just yet. Roy was in no hurry because he
didn’t look forward to returning to his house by himself, he hadn’t become
sufficiently drunk because he knew he had to drive which meant getting to sleep
tonight would be impossible.
And Edward, despite him saying he needed to find a hotel, didn’t seem like he
really had any urgency in it either.
So many years later, so many achievements and yet still the two of them
remained looking like they still needed to find something in their lives, they
both still seemed empty.
And Roy felt useless now as Edward had once felt…or did they both still feel
useless…purposeless?
“What’s your research about?” Roy wondered suddenly.
Edward glanced at him from the point in the clouded purple/grey sky he’d been
staring at,
“It’s not my research.” He said quietly and Roy looked at him, “It’s for Al,
he’s been running the new Alchemic Medical Research department at a University
in New Optain and he’s asked me to help out…so I’m going to follow up some
leads…”
Roy could see it right then, he could see he was right as he looked into the
dull resignation written over Edward’s features, he was purposeless even with
all he still had to achieve and do, just like Roy felt.
“I’m surprised…I would have expected you to be nose deep in your own alchemic
advances research. You always had piles of theory papers when you were still
with us, you always said you’d get to proving them when you had the time. After
Alphonse’s restoration I would have assumed you’d have all the time in the
world.” He said a little louder at the end because lightening flashed and
thunder rolled over the sky again.
Edward’s face became somber and Roy found himself wanting to know what thoughts
were in that complicated mind right then.
“Yeah well, my circumstances changed…can we get going?” It was none too smooth
a subject change, accompanied by a forced look of indifference in Roy’s
direction.
Roy nodded and they both stepped out of the shelter of the awning at the same
time, their boots causing a splash in the collection of water running along the
road sides to the drains.
They ended up in a light jog across the street and got into the car quickly,
Edward slamming the door and running his wet fingers through his wet bangs,
which were clumping together to form thick dark blonde strands against his
cheeks. Roy’s own pitch black hair was flat on his head and clinging to his
forehead and temples, he could feel the rain water running down the back of his
neck annoyingly.
He blinked in the silence of the car after slamming his own door; he could hear
Ed’s light breathing in the silence as he untangled his wet ponytail. Roy
looked over at him, his eyes taking in the sharp features, pointed nose,
defined jaw line, pale lips…
Roy had once kissed those lips hadn’t he? Why was the memory so vague?
So much had happened after that he could only think it had been blurred under
all of the other stuff that over shadowed that night. For one thing…seeing the
Gate…that trumped a lot of other things he’d once deemed important to remember.
There had been a time after his incident with the Gate when his mind had had a
delayed jumbled reaction to all the information and he had started having
nightmares so awful he woke in cold sweats and even in screams.
He knew Edward probably experienced the same thing all of his adolescent
life…maybe even still.
The Gate gave you knowledge and took physical equivalent exchange…but not just
that, it did worse…it left a certain hollowness in its wake and a chill in his
limbs most early mornings that lasted hours.
That memory…of that thing…had blurred a lot of others…somewhere in there he’d
forgotten that night in his office with Ed.
The look on Edward’s face as he pleaded…the sound of his shaken…needy voice and
the taste of his mouth…that desperate mouth that had done things to Roy that he
could no longer conjure memory of feeling for.
Why did not being able to remember properly make him so upset? He frowned to
himself and looked away from the blonde, that memory was not meant to be
thought upon fondly…
He’d taken advantage of Edward, he was the adult, he should have said no.
“…-ang? Mustang!” Edward’s voice finally reached through his thoughts.
He turned back to look at him and Edward raised an eyebrow and leaned back in
the car seat, an arm up on the door arm rest, “…you haven’t started the car…you
keep spacing out.” yet he didn’t ask about why and instead just looked ahead,
through the windshield.
Roy thought he looked uncomfortable and he wondered if Ed had seen him staring,
probably.
“Yes, right…I’m tired. It’s been a long day…” he raised his car keys which he’d
been holding tightly in his wet hand.
“Yeah I get it…so the sooner you drop me off you can go home, old man.”
Edward’s words seemed louder in the silence of the car, even as the rain was a
loud hum around them.
‘Home…’ Roy was not looking forward to that. Big…silent…dark…house.
He started the car and felt a light go on in his head; having Edward beside him
he realized now…or rather, he was reminded of why being home alone bothered him
so much. It wasn’t the absence of his ex-girlfriend…it was emptiness of being
alone in his house.
Just a week after he’d started sleeping alone again…he’d started having those
nightmares again.
“Edward…” he heard himself say, “…instead of a hotel, you could stay at my
house tonight.” He really didn’t know why he was making such an offer, was some
pathetic unreasonable part of himself hoping that he wouldn’t have nightmares
if someone else was in his house…?
…it was hardly the same thing as having someone close, sleeping beside you to
remind you what was real…
…or was that what he was subconsciously…expecting…hoping for…?
No, that was ridiculous.
Even as he sat there he felt no sexual desire to be with anyone…least of all…
He looked over at Edward who hadn’t answered, his expression was thoughtful.
Roy didn’t say anything else, he just put the car into gear and started driving
off from the curb.
He had been driving in the direction of the nearest hotel but as he neared a
turn off which was on route to the street where his house was, Edward glanced
at him,
“Yeah, I’ll stay over at your place.” He said it casually, not even all that
quietly.
Roy didn’t respond, simply took the turn off and was surprised Edward
remembered where he lived. He was sure that Edward had only been there a few
times as a teen to drop off a late report or pick up a research docket.
Neither said anything through the remainder of the drive, Edward sat very still
and Roy kept his eyes forward on the wet road, focusing on his annoying
windshield wipers.
After he’d parked off on the street outside his house and the car was switched
off, silence settled again.
Edward didn’t linger, he reached over the seat to the back and grabbed his
single suitcase and then opened his door and got out, slamming it behind him
and Roy followed.
 
 
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Roy flicked the double light switch on, for the foyer and the living room and
moved aside for Edward to enter.
Edward was already taking his wet coat off as he stepped in and put his
suitcase down. Roy thought it was a great idea, since his own coat was drenched
and uncomfortable, that idea was punctuated by another clap of lightening as he
shut the door and dropped his keys on a table in the corner under a side door
window.
“You can hang it here…” Roy said as he shrugged his own coat off, standing next
to the coat hanger in the foyer.
“Thanks.” Edward hung his black coat up and Roy hung his own beside it, a small
wet puddle would form there on the tiled floor but Roy didn’t care.
He turned to Ed who was brushing down his partially damp shirt with his hands
and stepping out of his wet boots.
Roy was grateful for that, Edward was not as oblivious to being polite and
courteous as he thought.
He removed his own boots and then noticed Edward was waiting for him.
He gestured ahead of himself to exit the foyer and walked ahead, Edward
followed after picking up his suitcase and they entered into the living room, a
large space with off white leather sofas, heavy burnt orange drapes, dark
wooden shelves with personal decorations and soft white carpeting.
“That salary bump must have been real nice…” Edward said as he looked around.
Roy smiled,
“It was…about the only thing I still enjoy about the job.” He said truthfully.
“This…is not you.” Edward smirked with amusement as he walked over to the shelf
and picked up a porcelain miniature cat ornament and then he turned his eyes to
the soft carpet and the curtains, the lamps at the side of each sofa had
tassels hanging from them.
He looked back to Roy who was giving his living space a once over as well…yes,
it was still the way she’d left it mostly.
“You don’t think I could make a living room look well decorated…” he said off
handed and turned to glance at the entrance to his kitchen.
“I think…if you cared enough to decorate…you wouldn’t have orange curtains,
tasseled lamps and sofa cushions…” he said quite truthfully and placed the cat
ornament back on the shelf.
“Burnt orange…” Roy said pointlessly and heard Edward snicker as he came toward
the taller man, “…coffee?” he offered to steer the conversation away from why
his house looked that way.
“Uh, no thanks…” Ed shook his head and was actually wearing a smile on his
face, like he’d been genuinely amused by the house, yet he still hadn’t
questioned why it looked that way.
Roy looked at the damp shirt Edward was wearing,
“You should get out of your wet clothes…the guest bathroom is upstairs, down
the right hall, second door on your right…and you can take the spare room
opposite it.” He said the last part as an afterthought, trying to organize his
thoughts.
“Thanks…” Ed nodded and took a step back before turning around and walking to
the bottom of the staircase visible across the lounge.
Roy watched him walk away and then he went to his front door and locked it,
switching off the lights and casting himself into darkness. He walked through
his familiar house in the dark and saw light from the staircase; Edward had
obviously switched it on.
As he climbed the stairs he undid his uniform jacket completely and started
taking it off, feeling his bones getting wearier the closer he came to his
bedroom.
He stopped in his doorway, he hadn’t closed the door when he’d left that
morning. He took a moment before sliding his hand along the wall to find the
switch and with a click he cast soft light over his bedroom.
The dreaded bed in which he’d had many nightmares in the past months was
unmade, the sheets tossed untidily, all useless pillows on the floor and the
others lay randomly on the bed, his continental pillows also askew against the
headboard…just how he’d leave it whenever he threw himself out of bed after a
fitful nightmare at 5 am almost every morning.
He thought back to the blackness of his last nightmare a few days ago and shook
his head, walking in and tossing his blue uniform jacket over the chair at a
standard dresser, complete with a mirror and disorganized toilet trees,
hairbrush, comb, some papers, a book…a lipstick.
Roy wondered why he hadn’t thrown that out…had he not noticed it sitting next
to his hair brush that morning?
Although that morning seemed a blur, consisting of a scorching hot shower and
clean-up, a hasty dry off, dressing was done on his way downstairs, no
breakfast and out the door.
How desperately he wanted to leave his house these days…the walls felt as if
they might close in on him.
It was always worse when he’d wake in the dark from a nightmare about the Gate
and those ice cold rubbery hands would still be reaching out to him, that eye
would still be baring down on his soul…and without a presence next to him to
remind him he was there…alive…his only option was to leave the room…running.
He looked around as he pulled his white shirt out of his pants, his built in
wardrobe doors were mostly ajar, hangers with shirts were on some handles, some
other clothes were strewn over the doors. The floor was littered with clothes
and a few pairs of unworn shoes.
He looked to his en-suite door, he knew his bathroom could use a cleanup. His
laundry was starting to pile up, his shampoo was running low…the glass doors of
his shower and bathroom mirrors were blurry from being un-cleaned of the water
condensation and droplets.
He knew he should probably get a new cleaning lady, after his ex-girlfriend
told him to fire his last one since she took over house work he hadn’t bothered
getting a new one yet…and Roy was no house keeper.
As he unclipped his waist tail piece from his pants belt he became aware of the
sound of the guest bathroom shower running.
He frowned, if there was one person who knew more fear and pain in his life as
well as his sleep it was definitely Edward. He found himself thinking maybe he
should ask the younger man how he coped…then he remembered that night in his
office again and he realized that Edward’s coping method was no healthier than
anyone who wasn’t a genius.
It had been just as self-destructive as Roy’s own path of sex and alcohol after
the Ishvalan war, really, he’d never stopped to think of how much he and Edward
had in common. Mostly because he’d been too preoccupied with his goals and
Edward with his own in the past.
Now they were both lost again…he had seen it in Ed’s face.
He turned to the mirror on one of his wardrobe doors as he opened the clips of
his pants and he saw the dark lines around his eyes, how fair he’d become and
how tired he looked.
The memory appeared to him more vividly that time.
Edward, pressed against his office door, his face strained and exhaustion
written in the lines around his tired eyes. He’d not been sleeping, Roy
recognized that look now on himself, Edward had been thinner like Roy was now,
he certainly did skip a lot of meals in his long days and took in more alcohol
than was healthy.
His pants dropped and he stepped out of it, leaving him in his black cotton
boxers then he finally shed his unbuttoned white shirt and tossed it on his bed
as he passed it to enter his bathroom, a shower would get the clammy wet chill
off his skin and settle the hair raising at the nape of his neck as the rain
came down harder outside.
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 Roy stepped out of the steamed up bathroom a short while later, his cheeks,
shoulders, hands and feet a burnt red from the overly hot water. Any other
flush tinged area was covered by a fresh pair of boxers after he dropped his
towel from his waist and onto the bed.
His hair was still wet and it dripped over his neck and down onto his back
making him shiver, he quickly picked up the towel from the bed to rub at his
hair roughly, he needed to wash his towels more often, this one had been his
last clean one for the week.
As he slowed his rubbing he remembered he had a guest bathroom and in it was
clean towels that hadn’t been used, if only his mind was not so distracted he
might have had the sense to think about it.
He pulled out a clean pair of plain navy blue pajama pants and a white T shirt
from his drawers and wardrobe, sniffed them to confirm they were clean and then
put them on.
He felt a little better now that he was clean, dry and not rain drenched but he
was still exhausted.
He wanted to get into bed to start his struggle for sleep but he thought he’d
better check on Edward first.
He walked down the hall, passed the stairs in the direction of the guest rooms
and bathroom. The hall light was still on but the lights downstairs were off,
so Edward hadn’t ventured downstairs to raid his fridge, the thought made him
smile.
Some part of him could very easily imagine Edward sitting on his counter
drinking juice from the carton while chewing through a sandwich, the contents
of which it was made from splayed around him on the counter.
He’d seen that before but it had been in the kitchen of Hughes one time when
the Elric’s had been visiting and Roy had stopped over to see Maes. Gracia
hadn’t seemed to mind Edward’s homely comfort and she actually encouraged both
Ed and Al to feel at home.
When last had he seen his best friend’s widow?
He’d heard she had started dating again a while back…but Riza never did say
anything else, probably because Roy hadn’t shown any interest.
He didn’t think too hard on his self-loathing tunnel vision of recent years and
instead turned into the room opposite the guest bathroom, the door was open and
the light was on so Edward was probably awake.
Decent however, didn’t cross Roy’s mind until he was standing in the doorway
and looking at the pale smooth, lean muscled bare back of Edward Elric with a
light blue towel settled low on his hips and covering down to his knees.
Edward was unaware he was there, he had another towel over his head and was
rubbing dry his long wet hair, Roy could see the ends of the blonde hair
dangling out from where Edward wasn’t rubbing it together and he could even see
a few tendrils clinging to Edward’s upper back, still wet…
He saw the ridges of Edward’s shoulder blades move beneath his skin then
focused on the sharp rises of his spinal cord curving with his back…then he
started noticing the scars…so many…scars.
Scars Edward hadn’t had when he was last naked…beneath Roy.
The dark haired male blinked away the sight of Edward laying beneath him…the
feel of his smooth inner thighs around his waist. It seemed to be coming back
to him…fluently.
Edward sniffed, he pulled the towel off his hair with a final twirl to ring it
out and it fell over his shoulders as he stood up straight again, it looked
dark and thin, some curled slightly into his neck but the majority flat and
straight. He rubbed the back of his neck with the towel, catching what was left
of the wet hair and Roy’s eyes focused on a flesh right shoulder. Discolored,
dark purple/pink smooth skin stood out from Edward’s natural beige complexion,
right where the automail used to start.
Edward looked around, towel in hand trying to find a place to hang it right
when Roy spotted the large scar on his left side, from a point on his lower
back reaching to just above his lowest rib, more disfigured smooth skin,
punctuated by stitch scars.
Edward had turned around and seen Roy, their eyes met and the older man blinked
before his eyebrows drew together lightly,
“You didn’t have that scar…before.” He said quietly and gestured with his eyes
to Edward’s abdomen, not mentioning the reason he knew Edward’s more noticeable
scars.
Edward bunched the towel up in his hands and lowered his eyes to look at the
scar, his defined abdomen muscles tensing as he breathed in and out, a little
faster than was normal, maybe Roy’s presence had startled him?
“Yeah…” he said just as quietly, “…I got that one in the North…fighting
Kimblee.”
Roy smirked but the slight sadness etched into his handsome features didn’t
waver,
“I never did get a report about your North venture.”
They both remembered it was around the time Edward had gone completely AWOL
from the military.
When everything had finally started reaching a dangerous peak for them both…for
everyone.
“What happened?” he asked, noticing Edward wasn’t asking what he doing staring
at him half naked.
Said blonde looked away and walked over to the bed where he had a pair of plain
white boxers set out, his suitcase was unbuckled against the wall.
He sat at the foot of the double bed in his towel, placing the other towel
beside himself before he started pulling his open hair back, taking it away
from his face. It allowed Roy to see a few other scars on his shoulders and
even one to the side of his neck.
And a scar on the right side of Edward’s forehead above his eyebrow that Roy
didn’t recognize. Then again it was where Edward’s long bangs always usually
covered…so…
“Son of a bitch ran away from our fight…but not before he decided to level the
open mine shaft we were in with a fucking explosion…” he mumbled and looked at
Roy as he let his hair go, it was back from his face and running down his back
in a lose twirl, “…I…I fell into the mine shaft, two levels down…and when I
came to I had a rebar…” he shifted his hands to gesture around his scar,
“…right through my side…” he finished quietly.
Roy stared at him, there was no emotion in his face as he recalled this
obviously painful memory, no tell that he’d suffered immense pain. He wondered
what Edward looked like with pain etched into his stunning features…like he’d
wondered just after he’d seen the face of an 11 year old sitting in a wheel
chair, missing two vital limbs with a look of determination of his face.
They certainly had history.
Yet it was hard to imagine that face contorted in pure agony.
Roy didn’t offer sympathies; Edward wouldn’t appreciate it so he lowered his
eyes, looking over more faded scars on Edward’s well shaped lower leg, even
sitting relaxed his calf muscle of his right leg looked tense and shapely.
‘Still physical perfection…’ Roy noted, age had made him a little less fit and
yet Edward was probably more fit than he’d been at 16. Once again Roy felt old.
“And your forehead?” he scratched his nose and shifted to lean against the
doorframe.
Edward frowned and raised his right hand, thin flesh fingers ran over his
forehead until they traced a faint line indent of a scar running into his
eyebrow,
“Oh…I got that one when I was still in Central…from my fight with Scar.” He
mumbled and dropped his hand to rub at his bare shoulder.
“Ah…you have a scar from Scar…some amusing irony in that.” Roy smirked with
little mirth.
Edward smiled just barely,
“I have more scars than you do, old man.” He said with a half sigh as he stood
up again and picked his boxers up.
The words ‘old man’ were common place on Edward’s lips, yet when he pictured
himself just a few years earlier he didn’t see himself as old quite like he did
now. When the words felt true, they made more of an impact.
“Hm…” he made the sound.
Edward paused with his hands on the tuck of his towel around his waist when he
heard Roy’s quiet response, he’d been avoiding insults all night and the blonde
wasn’t stupid, he could tell Mustang wasn’t being Mustang because something was
wrong.
Just then Roy averted his gaze, seeing Edward was about to remove his towel.
A certain awkward silence fell and Edward had a bitter smile on his face as he
removed his towel and pulled his boxers on, with a small soft snap of the
elastic to his waist Roy turned his gaze back and his eyes rather plainly
trailed their way over Edward’s lean form from head to toe and then back up
again.
Edward’s voice brought his gaze to the blonde’s face again,
“When I say…old man…you get this look on your face.” he sounded almost contrite
for a moment and Roy let his dark blue eyes meet Ed’s questioning gold, “…does
it offend you?”
Roy found himself laughing quietly, though not without some irritating
bitterness,
“Why would I be offended, I am…in a sense…an old man.” The words made him feel
nauseous.
Edward smirked and Roy expected an insult,
“I used to call you an old man all the time and the only expression you ever
had on your face was cocky bastard, then you’d usually point out something
about how my need to yell all the time stemmed from a subconscious awareness
that I was very small and I felt I needed to be heard…” he was grinning with a
bit of a sneer as he recalled one of Roy’s many short jokes.
Roy was glad to avoid having his age rubbed in, he smiled at the recollection
though.
“You’ve changed, Mustang.” Edward sighed.
“I suppose I have, life changes people…” he said neutrally.
“This isn’t about your girlfriend leaving you is it?” Edward said rather
forwardly.
Roy blinked and looked away,
“Ah…so you were just pretending to be clueless…”
“Obviously moron…no one in Amestris is not talking about the famous Flame
General screwing up a great thing with a beautiful young doctor lady…” he put
his hands on his bare hips, “…I never thought I’d see a woman get you down so
bad…” he shook his head.
“It’s not about her…” he said before he could stop himself, actually sounding a
little angry at the implication when just a few hours earlier he had thought it
was about her too…then Edward showed up and brought up all of his memories
about the Gate and realization dawned on him.
He wasn’t going to say all of that to Edward though.
Edward raised his eyebrows,
“Well, whatever it is…insecure is not a good look on you, Bastard.”
“Do I come across as insecure?” he looked at Edward.
“Fuck yeah…it’s like you’re not even you…its weird.” He admitted and moved
around to the bedside, leaning over to pull the sheets back.
“And you’re exactly like you’ve always been…” Roy said quietly.
Edward glanced at him, his hair now having fallen forward so he pulled it back
again, it was much longer than Roy ever remembered. He watched as Edward picked
his elastic up from the bedside table and untidily pulled his hair into a
ponytail mid-way on his head.
He didn’t say anything further and Roy just stared at him.
Wondering…remembering.
He placed the sight of Edward before him against the one he’d had on his office
floor and in one sudden vivid recollection he could hear Edward’s moans
resounding in his head as he writhed pathetically and wantonly on grey
linoleum.
“…then again, I didn’t actually know you very well at all. Did I?” he sounded a
little more hostile than he’d meant to, no smile on his face.
The blonde fixed his eyes on Roy and looked like he was thinking about what Roy
said, then he shook his head,
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
It was strange how the memory conjured up some buried and wrongly felt strings
of arousal, Roy felt his body heat a little when he replayed Edward’s kiss in
his head, like a dark flash reel through his mind of moans and flesh...and
bruises.
“I mean…” he didn’t actually finish because he knew by the way Edward narrowed
his eyes that he knew what Roy was talking about, the blonde’s breathing
increased, maybe a sign of irritation and not shock,
“Oh…” Edward gave a dry upset laugh, “…oh, you mean…that…”
‘That’ hardly described anything about that particular event.
“Is that why your acting so fucked up and weird…” that tone of voice was every
bit Edward Elric, harsh, irritable and always slightly pissed off and from the
way his shoulders tensed Roy could tell he’d scraped the surface of that famous
temper.
Maybe Edward could find the surface beneath which Roy himself was buried.
“…you can’t look at me without seeing me begging you like a fucking whore?” he
added in a clipped tone.
Right…Roy hadn’t seen that coming, this conversation was officially happening
and it was his fault.
With raised eyebrows Roy shook his head,
“No…actually, I didn’t really think about it until we were in the restaurant.
And I didn’t think about it in the way your describing it.” He said neutrally.
Edward gave him a quick cold glare,
“So why’re you bringing it up, Bastard?” he said harshly, Roy’s nickname
rolling off his tongue with familiar ease the more he said it.
That was a good question.
He’d been repeatedly thinking about it and trying to figure it out, why did
Edward seek those sorts of trysts, why he’d done it despite all of the possible
consequences that could have occurred for them both, why Edward had wanted it
to begin with… and why with him?
That was possibly the question that mattered most.
Because now when Roy thought back to it…the days afterward hadn’t been filled
with guilt like it should have been, it had just been unasked questions…of why
him, in his office…
Vividly he remembered Edward with shaken naked legs, stepping into his
clothes…a quiet plea for him not to tell Alphonse…
“Because I want to know…” he blinked and saw Edward’s eyes narrow, “…why you
wanted that from me…?” he sounded distant even to himself.
He watched as Edward frowned thoughtfully and then his eyes lowered to the
ground and he smiled, it was a slightly unsettling smile,
“Why? You want to know why I asked you to fuck me?” he said it far louder than
the night he’d actually asked for it.
Roy nodded, almost afraid of Edward’s perfectly shaped lips and what he’d hear
from them.
Edward laughed slightly,
“There’s no moving answer to your question…I didn’t ask you because I wanted it
to be you fucking me specifically…” he said it so very casually, staring
straight into Roy’s face, “…you were there and I needed it. It was a long
fucking time ago…I didn’t have much practice with restraint and I was stressed
out…” he trailed off and sighed, looking away at the bed spread. He looked like
he couldn’t believe they were talking about this.
Roy narrowed his own eyes, that didn’t explain his compulsion to be abused,
“You neededme to pull your hair, to push you around and hurt you the way I
did?” he asked quietly.
Edward made a sound of frustration,
“What the fuck does it matter?” he said lowly, “…this was a bad idea, I’m
getting out of here.” He walked to his bag.
Roy clenched his jaw and stood off the door frame,
“No, Edward I’m not trying to upset you…I’m trying to understand…”
Edward had opened his bag and crouched down, pulling out a leather pants,
“…there’s nothing to understand…” he said huffily as he stood up to put the
pants on.
Roy walked up to him quickly and grabbed his right upper arm, once there was
automail there and he’d be afraid of Edward punching him with it but now it was
just flesh, firm muscle beneath smooth skin.
Edward didn’t pull away like he’d done in the office that night, instead he
stilled and looked at the hand around his upper arm, pants hanging half on the
floor in his limp grasp of it with his other hand.
“You said…you wanted…comfort…” he reminded Edward quietly, he could smell the
sweetness of shampoo in the drying blonde hair, the scent of shower crème on
Edward’s skin and he could even smell the faint scent of toothpaste as Edward
breathed through slightly parted lips at their close proximity.
He hadn’t had a sexual thought or desire in months but right then his body
warmed and he found himself with a deep urge to run his tongue over the pulse
of Edward’s throat and his hands down his smooth back….to pull him close…to
feel his warmth.
“You said…I was warm…and that I smelled good, that it had been so long…so long
since what?” he found himself genuinely curious as he let his fingers loosen on
Edward’s arm and trail down, ticking the soft flesh of his inner upper arm.
Edward licked his lips before he took in a quiet breath,
“Since…I had felt...real…” he said very quietly, sounding like he didn’t want
to go down that path of memory.
Roy closed his eyes,
“Because of the Gate…the nightmares?” he said so quietly it was practically a
whisper.
Next to him, not moving away but shifting Edward had turned his head to face
Roy just a bit, looking at him with a deep frown,
“You…have nightmares?”
Roy didn’t answer that but he turned to look at Edward now too and Edward
blinked as his eyes made a quick sweep of Roy’s face, his lips pursing just
slightly,
“I understand what you mean now.” Roy admitted, “To feel real, to pull yourself
out of that…blackness.” He said quiet and harsh.
Edward nodded,
“Anyone whose seen it has nightmares…they…never go away.” He warned Roy.
Roy’s face became pained for a moment, realizing he’d have to live with that.
He turned to Edward and his hands came up, cool and shaken he placed them on
the blonde’s upper arms and turned him to face himself, Edward complied albeit
stiffly, he looked a little confused and upset.
Roy took a quiet breath as he let his arms slip around Edward, he tried to meet
Ed’s eyes but the younger seemed to avoid it. Roy’s hands slowly planted to
Edward’s warm skin as he ran them down his back and pulled him close.
Edward was pressed against him, in his arms and his hands Roy felt were at his
sides, awkward and not touching.
Roy leaned in, intent on kissing Edward’s warm slightly wet lips but the blonde
leaned away slightly to avoid it, his face turning but the taller man brought
one hand up gently, placing it against Edward’s cheek and bringing his face
back, their lips meeting briefly before Edward pulled back and raised his hands
up.
“What are you doing…?” Edward asked quietly as he pushed Roy away lightly, not
all contact was lost. Roy’s hands were now on his wrists as he held the older
man at half his arms distance, hands to his firm chest.
Roy swallowed hard, feeling distinctly like he was being rejected,
“I…was trying to kiss you.” His voice was low, he managed to meet Edward’s
confused gaze now, the blonde looked uncomfortable.
A beat of silence went by before Edward shook his head, some of his dry bangs
falling freely forward from his ponytail,
“I can’t…” he glanced down at the leather pants laying on the floor and bent
down to pick it up, dropping it into his bag and closing the suitcase with his
automail foot.
Roy stared at his back, his insides shaken, he didn’t know what to say so he
swallowed again and looked around the room before he nodded, feeling angry and
insulted,
“I shouldn’t be surprised…you’re not desperate anymore.” He mumbled and turned
to leave the room.
“Hey…Mustang…” he heard Edward but he continued through the doorway and out. He
walked through the hall, hitting the staircase light as he did so the house was
dark except for his bedroom light up ahead, he walked inside his room and
pushed his door closed behind him…
…but it didn’t shut and when he glanced back he saw Edward standing there,
pushing the door open slowly and looking at him with a frown,
“Don’t say anything else, just get out…” Roy said sounding calmer than he meant
to.
“No, you stupid bastard…” Edward’s words made him turn around but before he
reiterated his words angrily Edward cut him off, “…it’s not about being
desperate or anything…” he said quietly.
They both kept talking softly as if someone would hear them.
He walked into the room but didn’t close all the distance between them,
“It’s because…I don’t do that anymore…” he admitted.
Roy frowned,
“Do what? Sleep with men?” he asked candidly, having lost his patience after
taking a knock to his ego.
Edward actually flushed a little pink at those words and he shook his head,
“No…no I do…I mean…I’m…I like men.” He huffed and Roy gave him an expectant
look, “...I meant, I don’t…sleep around anymore. I don’t…fuck randomly
anymore.” He swallowed after those last words.
So he’d known his behavior was loose…Roy wasn’t surprised, Edward had always
been too intelligent to find reason or justification for that behavior.
“You think sleeping with me would be random?” he asked, feeling just only
slightly less insulted at Edward’s rejection, “…you have a type now? You have a
certain kind of man you like…? It’s fine, just go to bed, Edward.” He turned
away.
“It’s not about you, Roy…” Edward used his name, it sounded nice, “...are you
kidding, do you need me to tell you you’re an attractive man? Is that it?”
“Don’t mock me you little shit, just get out!” Roy turned on him and Edward
didn’t flinch but he did look a little wary at Roy’s anger.
“I’m not mocking you!” Edward shouted right back, “…I’m saying I don’t want to
feel like a filthy slut when I leave here in the morning…” he yelled and then
took a broken breath and looked away from Roy, “…I don’t want it anymore…being
hurt like that.”
Roy stared at him,
“I don’t want to hurt you, that’s what you wanted…I never wanted to do that to
you.” He said sounding every bit as angry as he felt.
“So what do you want now?” Edward crossed his arms over his chest.
“I want…you.” Roy said with a tired breath.
They both stood in silence again.
This night had been long. They were both tired.
He looked up when Edward approached him and came to stand in front of him,
their height difference much less so many years later, Roy looked at Edward’s
lips and liked that he wouldn’t have to lean down in order to kiss them.
Edward nodded at him and Roy double checked with an imploring look too see that
Edward wouldn’t pull away from him…wouldn’t hurt him again.
He leaned forward and this time Edward’s head tipped back just slightly and his
lips met Roy’s evenly and slowly, it was a light kiss at first and their
breaths mingled when they pulled back. Roy pressed their lips together again
and Edward’s eyes slid closed, calming Roy’s uncertainty just when the blonde’s
lips parted and he encouraged Roy not to hesitate with a slight sliding of his
tongue against his bottom lip.
Roy took the encouragement and brought his hands up to hold the back of
Edward’s head and the side of his face, slowly parting his lips he covered
Edward’s mouth with his own. Their tongues slid against each other and crossed
each other lips slowly, Edward’s mouth parting more to accommodate Roy’s deep
kiss and he reciprocated generously, tasting each other.
They kissed that way for a long moment, Edward’s hands slowly running from
Roy’s wrists down his forearms and then from his elbows Ed’s hands moved to his
sides and his fingers curled, pulling Roy’s shirt up slightly.
Roy was grateful for the boldness, after Edward saying no earlier he’d lost
some of his gumption.
Their lips parted and he reached back as Edward pulled upward, he grabbed the
back of his shirt and pulled it up and over his head, the moment it was over
his head he kissed Edward again, feeling the blonde press back while his warm
hands ran down Roy’s chest, following what was left of his once firmer muscles,
despite being less taut, they were no less visible.
Edward’s fingers felt soft and delicate as they traced his muscles downward,
flitted over his naval and then caressed back up, appreciating the feeling
underneath his palms as he gripped two handfuls of Roy’s pectorals and at the
same time his head tilted and his tongue went a little deeper into Roy’s mouth.
Roy’s confidence grew with Edward’s apparent enjoyment of what was left of the
Flame Alchemist’s body, he hadn’t thought his self-esteem had fallen so low
until now, until Edward’s eager hands were running over his strong shoulders
and his breaths were coming out shallow and heatedly between them, all of it
making Roy feel far more like a man than he had in a long time.
Longer than he cared to remember.
Roy pulled back from the kiss and caught a glimpse of Edward’s half lidded gaze
as he looked between them and then back up to Roy’s face,
“It was never about how you look, dumb ass…that never was a problem…” Edward’s
arms slipped around Roy’s neck.
Roy’s arms had lowered and slipped around Edward’s waist during their kiss, his
hands loosely linked behind Ed’s lower back, he tensed his arms so Edward was
squeezed lightly between them and his muscles tensed lightly, Edward pressed
closer and their erections pressed together between them beneath their thin
clothes.
Roy was glad Edward was as hard as he was. He was no longer feeling insecure…
He unlinked his hands as he placed a kiss to Edward’s once automail shoulder
and he took a firm hold of Edward’s ass, lifting him and the blonde
accommodated him by helping the lift with his arms around Roy’s neck and his
legs, strong thighs, came to clench around Roy’s waist.
He walked them to his bed and placing a knee on the mattress first he leaned
forward so he could place Edward down, not toss him.
He knew Edward didn’t want to be treated that way and Roy didn’t want that
either.
He truly did just want Edward.
Edward let go of his neck and supported himself where Roy laid him, the older
man climbing on the bed and remaining between Edward’s legs, he laid down so
they were flush against each other.
Edward tried to lay his head back but his pony tail was in the way so he turned
his head to the side, bringing his hand up to take the elastic off his slightly
damp hair.
Roy helped as he placed a kiss to Edward’s jaw line, their fingers coming
together and rolling the elastic down until it came off easily. Roy let his
hand slide through the soft damp long strands and then he stroked the hair at
the side of Edward’s face. Edward actually, though hesitant, raised his own
hand up where he brushed the smooth mostly dry black bangs back from Roy’s
face.
It fell right back forward and Roy smiled slightly, feeling strange seeing
Edward look at him like that with a genuine smile.
Edward had a beautiful face…and a beautiful smile. His expression made Roy feel
calmer.
“You have blue eyes…” Edward said as he pushed the hair back again and held it
a moment, letting the strands slowly fall back in wisps, “…I never noticed.” He
admitted.
“That’s because whenever you were around me you were too preoccupied with
hating me.” He looked over Edward’s face affectionately, he didn’t know he
looked that way but Edward did, though he said nothing about it,
“I never hated you, that would be too much energy wasted on you.” He shifted
his legs higher, his smooth inner thighs brushing against Roy’s naked sides.
“Right…and you only had so much compact space in which to store energy.”
There was a beat where Edward’s eyes widened and then Roy laughed and leaned
his head against Edward’s shoulder as he laughed. Edward felt the deep
vibrations of the General’s laugh above him and his anger dissipated, he turned
up his lip and ran his fingers through Roy’s fine straight black hair, running
down to his nape and then down his back, trailing his spine.
“I’ll let that one slide…Bastard.”
Roy smiled where he lay and then inhaled the smell of Edward’s skin before
placing a wet noisy kiss to Edward’s neck, followed by a lick upward, slowly
and finally a small sucking sensation to the underside of Ed’s jaw. Said blonde
pressed his head back to give Roy more access, his hand on Roy’s back tensed
when Roy moved his hips to grind their erections together between them, clothes
still keeping their skin from each other.
 Roy’s mouth found Ed’s again and they kissed, Roy’s free hand he moved down
and started to push off his pajama pants and boxers, Edward’s hands were at his
sides quickly, helping him.
When the clothing was at his knees he moved his legs around until they were
off, all the while getting some friction between their groins, making Edward
slightly breathy from the feeling and inspiring Roy to bite tenderly at
Edward’s kiss lingering tongue, his lips and then his jaw.
“I like that, Roy…” Edward whispered.
Roy’s cock twitched, naked and free from constraints, Edward’s admission to
liking something so simple and sweet made him incredibly turned on.
His hand went back down to remove Ed’s boxers but his mouth stayed between
Edward’s mouth and jaw, alternating between kissing and biting. Edward helped
his boxers off and he moaned right when Roy nipped at his neck and their naked
erections finally contacted.
Roy moved his hips, rubbing them together and he watched Edward’s lips part as
he breathed pleasurably at the sensation and he licked his lips,
“What else do you like?” he asked the blonde.
Edward had leaned up to kiss Roy’s neck and collar bone as the older male moved
above him, slowly, sensually, working both of their arousals slowly together,
pre-cum  building up and making them slide together, hot and sticky.
Edward started moving his hips as well as best he could and for a moment Roy’s
eyebrows came together, telling his pleasure to the blonde laying beneath him,
feeling his skin prickling with light sweat as their bodies heated with
pleasure.
Edward ran his hands down Roy’s back, reaching the rise of his firm ass and he
squeezed the mounds, pressing Roy closer as they moved, Edward spread his legs
wider still so Roy could press closer, reminding Roy of how flexible Edward
was.
“I like it… when you kiss me…I like…kissing.” He admitted in small breaths.
Roy should have known it would again be something simple, it was a stark
contrast to his demanding painful encounter with Edward years ago, but it fit
somehow.
To oblige Roy ravished his mouth for a moment, deep, wet, noisy and Edward
moaned, hands sliding back up Roy’s back and up to his shoulders.
Roy pulled back as he slowed his grinding and Edward took the moment to sit up,
making Roy roll off him partially, laying on side. Edward lay on his side too,
his mouth moving down Roy’s chest, over a nipple, wet and warm Edward’s tongue
trailed lower as he slipped down the bed.
When Edward pushed Roy’s hips so he lay flat on his back Roy parted his legs
for Edward to kneel between and he bit his lip when Ed’s warm hand wrapped
around his stiff cock and squeezed before he lowered his head and parted his
lips.
Roy moaned loudly when Edward’s mouth covered his cock, more than half in one
go and Edward went straight into a deep bobbing motion. It felt infinitely good
when his cock hit the back of Edward’s throat a few times and the blonde just
sucked harder.
Yes, Edward had been good at this before…now…he was way fucking better.
Roy moaned again, his hands reaching down to slide through Edward’s hair
gently, he enjoyed the feeling of Edward’s hair tickling his stomach and
thighs. Roy didn’t buck or force himself into Edward’s accommodating mouth and
he was rewarded by a deep hum from Edward and a slow firm caressing of his
balls just as Edward pulled up and gave a final lick over the head of his cock.
Edward looked up at him from between his legs and Roy breathed heavily while
Edward continued to rub his balls, his cock twitching wet, a deep engorged red
in front of Edward’s face.
Edward leaned down again,
“Edward!” Roy exclaimed in a choked breath when Edward licked over his perineum
and upward, leisurely licking over his balls and even sucking, Roy moaned and
found his face hot at the sensation.
Edward gave the length of his cock one final lick before he crawled back up,
crawling over Roy and shifting so he was lying over Roy, face to face, breaths
mingling.
Roy just kissed him, not really finding words necessary, Edward’s naked body
pressed to him like that was completely intoxicating in a way he didn’t think
was possible.
It felt so different.
This time…it felt more real.
When they parted from kissing Roy rolled them over again and Edward again
rolled over so he was on his stomach, he stretched out on the sheet. Roy kissed
between his shoulder blades and then pressed his cock between Ed’s ass cleft
and Ed moaned at the hot, rough, thick texture of it against his skin. Roy
kissed his shoulder and the side of his neck while he ran a hand down, over
Edward’s back, down over his ass and the back of his thigh and back up again.
“You feel so fucking good…” Roy breathed against Ed’s hair.
He didn’t see the small sad smile Edward had on his face as he admitted,
“You do too…”
He pressed against Edward again,
“I don’t have lubrication Edward…I don’t want to hurt you.”
Edward made to roll over and Roy let him, settling over Edward with one of the
blonde’s legs between his own.
Edward brought his other leg up so it was parted and he took Roy’s free hand
since Roy’s other arm supported him at the side of Ed’s head. Roy watched as
Edward parted his lips and sucked on two of his fingers, index and middle,
lathing it with saliva and Roy knew what for.
When Edward released his fingers Roy leaned over him and kissed him while he
lowered his hand and with a light brush over Edward’s balls he found the small
indent of puckered flesh below.
Roy pressed one finger to Edward’s anus and pushed it inward, Edward made a
small breathy sound as the well slicked finger slipped in with some ease.
Roy moved it in and out a few times and then pulled it out and pressed both
fingers in, that time it was a little slower but not much and when he had his
fingers fully in he started thrusting them in and out a little faster.
Edward’s hand reached between them and he took a hold of Roy’s cock, stroking
it while Roy fingered him, the older man moving his fingers upward, downward
and apart to stretch Edward out.
When Roy added a third finger Edward’s legs had started to shake and giving
Roy’s straining erection a short tight stroke, he let go and brought his hand
up to run down Roy’s chest, pulling back from the long kiss,
“Curl your fingers…inside…” he told Roy.
Roy wasn’t clueless, he knew there was a place inside a man’s rectum that
caused pleasure, of course the last time he’d done this he hadn’t bothered with
the details.
He felt bad for a moment, remembering and wondering a moment if that was why
Edward had taken so long to cum that night.
Banishing the memory from his mind he obeyed and curled his three fingers,
Edward tensed at the stretch but a moment of movement later and his lips parted
in a throaty deep moan, his leg coming up higher closer to his chest. Roy felt
his thigh tense between his legs as well and Edward’s rectum tightened so
wonderfully around his fingers.
“Yes…ah…” his golden eyes were half lidded, his expression so naked.
Roy hoped Edward could see his own emotions reflected because Roy was in awe of
Edward right then.
He leaned down with a smile and kissed Ed’s open mouth, their tongues touching
briefly before he moved his curled fingers again and felt Edward’s sudden
breath move over his wet lips and hot cheeks.
And the sound he made…it went straight through Roy. It was perfect.
“When did you become…so amazing…” Roy heard himself say in a deep hoarse voice.
“Since when…did you…decide you…wanted me…?” Edward’s words were warm breaths
and quiet pleasured sweet hushed tones.
Roy removed his fingers slowly and he pressed a sweet kiss to Edward’s lips,
“I’m not sure…but I want you right now…fucking badly…Edward…”
The younger blonde’s hands came up and ran through Roy’s hair, bringing him
closer to kiss him slowly.
Roy pulled back after a short kiss and then moved down Ed’s body, kissing along
the center of his defined chest, slowly and wet.
He had originally had the intention of reciprocating Edward’s blow job but with
Ed’s lean legs spread so splendidly wide, Roy took the moment to appreciate a
lower area.
He put his lips to Edward’s slightly red puckered anus and let a warm breath
out, Edward’s back arched slightly and Roy didn’t hesitate to let his tongue
circle the sensitive area. After some light tickling he boldly pressed his
tongue to push against the tense muscle and it gave to the tip of his tongue.
Roy pushed it a little farther and for just a minute he let his tongue slide in
and out slowly and was spurred on by Edward’s quiet sounds of ‘yes’, ‘hmmm Roy’
and ‘ah fuck’ the more he played, wetting and relaxing him for what was to
come.
The hand in his hair was also encouraging him and Roy gave one final slow dip
of his tongue and then another wet kiss, he moved back over Edward and absently
wiped his mouth with his hand before settling above Edward again.
The blonde was obliviously dazed and he kissed Roy all the same while they
easily shifted so Roy was between Edward’s legs, parted wide, running smooth
and slightly slick against Roy’s firm sides, hooking around his back, pressing
them closely together.
Roy realized that sexually Edward took the position of compliant submissive
easily and thoroughly wanted it that way and Roy was all too happy to oblige
because the opposite of him was true.
Edward was so different like that…it unnerving and exciting all at the same
time.
Roy kissed Edward back deeply, sucking on his tongue, kissing his lips, smiling
against his lips, teasing his tongue. Edward’s hands touched him slowly,
sensually, moving over his hot skin and caressing, gripping, feeling. Always
feeling.
Roy positioned himself and slowly he pressed against Edward’s anus, slow and
steady feeling Edward’s breaths became short the deeper he went until Edward
pulled back from his mouth when he was a little more than half way in and his
teeth clenched together, his beautiful throat tensing.
Roy’s own lips were parted, the deeper he slipped the more he felt and throbbed
with need. He ran his free hand over Edward’s collar bone and down over his
chest, over a hard nipple, lower still over an old healed scar, Edward’s
stomach quivered beneath his hand as he tickled the smooth flesh and he felt
Edward’s teeth bite his bottom lip gently.
Roy took the hint and pressed the last of his girth into Edward’s tight
passage, stretching him, entering him fully and feeling Edward’s legs shake
along his sides as he moaned in a low decibel below Roy’s own moan.
How could someone so harsh and strong…be so sensitive and sweet…it was
incredible.
Roy’s hand slid to one of Edward’s shaking thighs and he balanced himself and
Edward, pulling his length out and pressing back in slowly, watching Edward’s
face, seeing him bite his lip but his eyes stayed partially open so he could
look up into Roy’s eyes, dark blue, red lined and his face flushed.
Edward’s fingers came up and ran over Roy’s cheek and lips, Roy kissed his
fingers absently as he moved in again and felt Edward’s thighs tense. He moved
steadily in and out, Edward’s hands settled on him, one around his upper arm at
the side of his head and the other on his lower back, pressing them together.
Roy thrust faster after a while as his body heated up and Edward started to
move with him, lean muscular body tensing beneath a larger, physically stronger
body.
Edward let his eyes trail between them, openly appreciating the tensing of
Roy’s muscles, in his arms, chest, abdomen, he felt Roy’s firm ass under his
hand and Roy’s legs kept his momentum firm and steady.
Edward did love the strength Roy had…the physically difference still turned him
on.
Having Roy above him moving so firmly, controlling and deep inside him was
bliss.
Roy noticed Edward’s admiring gaze and he felt his confidence become steady.
Edward wanted himthis time, not comfort.
Their mouths met throughout Roy’s thrusts and eventually with some adjusting to
his position he found Edward’s prostate and thrust deeply and directly against
it as well as he could. Keeping his rhythm firm and precise while indulging  in
Edward’s lips and his throat, slowing his thrusts to bite and suck at pert pink
nipples, to run his hands down Edward’s body and up into his hair.
Edward’s arms rose above his head as Roy’s kisses moved to the underside of his
arms, nipping at the soft skin with each inward thrust. Edward’s moans filled
his usually quiet dark room and his hair tangled in Roy’s fingers felt like
rich silk.
Roy started to move faster and harder, he could feel Edward tighten around him
slowly, felt Edward’s erection rubbing between them firm and hot.
Roy’s own release was close, his balls tight and Edward’s hot tight heat around
him made him burn with need to release.
His pace became rougher and more erratic as the minutes passed but Edward
didn’t complain instead punctuating each inward thrust with a loud ‘aaah’ or
‘fuck’ when Roy’s cock reached its destination. Roy was still hitting the right
spot and Edward was a trembling mess of pleasure, he was gripping a pillow at
the side of his head and his other hand was in the back of Roy’s hair as he
brought their mouths together to kiss.
They were right there, teetering on the edge.
Ready to release.
Roy’s hand also gripped the sheets at the side of Edward’s head while his other
hand took a loose grip on Edward’s one wrist, raising it above his head.
Their breaths came through their noses harshly as they kissed and Roy moved
fast and firm above Edward, who moved up and down on the untidy sheets with
each firm thrust, lips quivering in between each break of the kiss before their
mouths pressed together again, lips wet and breath hot.
With a few hard direct thrusts Edward pressed forward into the kiss, his
eyebrows drawing together deeply as he finally peaked, his body tensing harshly
beneath Roy before he went numb as a steady wave of orgasm spread through his
body. He pulled back from Roy’s mouth and pressed his head back into the
mattress beneath his head as the following waves moved through him, hot shocks
of deep pleasure. His flesh toes curled and he moaned loudly, every firm muscle
tensing, including the muscles of his rectum…
…and Roy couldn’t hold on.
He released as he moved a few final times and felt his cum wet Edward’s
insides, he slid steadily in the tightness as he experienced his own
pleasurable peak, feeling his blood run hot and his flesh prickle gratifyingly
as he pressed in and held himself there in Edward’s spasming rectum, Edward’s
shaking legs still around his waist, holding him close.
He felt hands run through his hair and lips kiss his cheek as he held himself
above Edward with his little remaining strength, riding out his pleasure.
Their harsh breathing filled the silence and Roy opened his eyes, he hadn’t
realized he’d closed them, he found himself staring down into Edward’s
satisfied, pink tinged face.
Neither smiled but instead Roy leaned down and kissed him once softly and then
he lay atop Edward and brought his hands up to run through the sweat damp
blonde locks, smooth and slightly tangled.
Edward’s legs slipped from his waist, still shaking lightly but remained warm
and close to his sides and his hands came around to hold his back, all ten
flesh fingers kneading softly.
Roy smiled and leaned up on his elbows again, kissing Edward’s right flesh
shoulder, he kissed over the scars. Roy took a deep breath along the side of
Ed’s face and pressed a kiss to his temple before he rolled over onto his side
and with a gently hand on Edward’s arm he took a light grasp and pulled Edward
with him.
The blonde fit comfortably against his side and he enjoyed the feeling of Ed’s
soft lips pressing a kiss to his chest, he didn’t realize Edward had kissed a
scar of his own, it was the kiss that mattered, tender and affectionate. Then
his fingers drew light patterns on Roy’s chest and moved downward, softly and
lightly until Edward’s fingers brushed over Roy’s black curls. Ed rubbed his
flat palm back up his body and it settled over Roy’s chest and then curled into
a light fist and Ed’s thumb caressed a brown nipple.
Roy turned his head and kissed Edward’s forehead where his head was a little
lower beside his own on his shoulder, Edward’s flesh leg was over his right leg
and the coolness of the automail limb was alongside Roy’s leg as well.
They lay that way for a long while, both breathing and neither sleeping.
There was a clock on the bedside but neither looked at it.
Edward took a quiet breath and Roy blinked tiredly as he listened to the quiet
words,
“…if you sleep with the light’s on…it’s a little easier when you wake up.” It
was a tired whisper.
The pain Roy had felt in this room seemed to lift at those words…because if
Edward could live with it, then Roy would because Edward had been through worse
and didn’t deserve that sort of horror, but he lived with it.
Roy would face it with acceptance…
Eventually they both just drifted to sleep exactly as they lay.
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 The sound of birds chirping noisily somewhere, rain falling on his roof top
and the doldrums of the outside world penetrated Roy’s sleep as it droned on
steadily.
Groggily he blinked his eyes open and focused on the pillow he was asleep on
and holding rather tightly, Roy frowned and sat up slowly, first on his side,
letting the pillow go and then he sat up properly and leaned forward, rubbing
his face with both hands and pushing his hair back from his face.
When he looked around his bedroom it appeared the same, clothes on doors and
handles, clothes on the floor, toiletries scattered over a dresser, his pillows
on the floor…
He blinked again and looked at the bed, there was only one pillow left on the
bed, the one he’d been holding onto and the sheet was barely hanging onto the
bed. Roy looked down at his naked state and he took a deep breath and rubbed
his face again.
He breathed quietly for a moment as his expression became crestfallen, his
eyebrows drew together, he heard silence around him, no shower running, no
noise downstairs…he was alone…in an empty bed with the birds chirping outside
and the rain still falling.
Edward was gone.
Of course he was, he’d had a train to catch at 8 am.
Roy ran his hand down his face and turned to his bedside clock…it was almost 10
am.
He hadn’t slept that late in years, he actually felt rested.
He turned back and stared down at his bed sheets, there were
stains…inconspicuous yet not…but proof that the blonde had actually been there.
Roy felt a depression come over him, he honestly didn’t know if last night had
been anything more than a glorified one night stand, Edward had said he didn’t
want that sort of thing…so maybe he’d come back?
He got off the bed slowly and picked his pajama pants up off the floor, pulling
it on as he left the room.
For once he was well rested, not sore in his body and he was hungry…but still
he didn’t feel happy.
He hadn’t even felt so let down when his ex-girlfriend stormed out on him.
He dragged himself downstairs to his kitchen and walked over to the stove
kettle, filling it up with water and putting it onto the stove to boil, he
leaned against the counter and stared blankly at the white tiled floor for a
while as it heated up.
He sighed as he thought again of night before and his chest felt sore, he hated
how upset he was by Edward’s inevitable leaving, he blinked and looked at his
kitchen table, his blue eyes narrowed.
He smiled so small but so significantly at the sight of Fullmetal’s State
Alchemist watch sitting on the table and under it a simple white slip of
notepaper from the pad beside Roy’s phone in the lounge and the pen as well.
He pushed himself off the counter and walked over, picking the watch up, it was
cool in his palm. He then picked up the note and blinked at the phone number on
the paper.
Roy smiled, recognizing this. Whenever Edward was sent on an assignment back
when he was in the military he would send a telegram when he reached his
destination with the number of whatever place he staying because Roy was
supposed to have direct contact for his subordinates at all times.
Roy only ever called if he absolutely had to.
While Edward was no longer his subordinate, the number meant the same thing.
The question was whether Roy absolutely had to call…
With his smile in place Roy put the paper and the watch down on the table as
the kettle boiled noisily.
 
As he prepared his coffee for the morning he found that it smelled much better
to him than usual.
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