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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Fandom:
      Harry_Potter_-_J._K._Rowling
  Relationship:
      Sirius_Black/Remus_Lupin, Lily_Evans/James_Potter
  Character:
      Sirius_Black, Remus_Lupin
  Additional Tags:
      Time_Turner, mating_for_life, Romance, Sex
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      The_Wolf_and_Hound_Archive
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      Published: 2016-02-07 Words: 2054
****** Silent Witness ******
by Moonyswhitewolf [archived by WolfAndHound_Archivist]
Summary
     Some things are meant to be private......usually
Notes
     Note from Lassenia, the archivist: this story was originally archived
     at Wolf_and_Hound, which was created to make stories posted to the
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Some New Year' Eve I whined pathetically to my self while climbing the steep
winding steps that led to the sixth year Gryffindor boys dorm. I was certain it
was far colder than usual and the chill in the air pierced my soul almost as
sharply as the blade of self -pity that protruded from my heart.
After planning a spectacular evening to be spent alone with Lily, I now found
myself completely alone with out even Sirius and Remus to ring in the New Year.
Upon entering the dimly lit gray stone tomb that served as our bedroom, I was
suddenly thankful that the rambunctious animungus and tawny haired werewolf
were no where in sight. I really didn't want anyone ruining a perfectly good
pout by telling me what a ridiculous git I was being; I didn't behave like a
five year old often and I was determined to indulge myself as long as possible.
I still had an hour to go until midnight, plenty of time to make it to
Hogsmeade where I could ring in the new year with the rest of the older
students and teachers who still had enough life in them to toss back a few
butterbeers once in awhile, but I had no intentions of putting forth the effort
to surround myself with people who might have the audacity to try and cheer me
up.
At this very moment I should have been snogging Lily senseless, but thanks to
the stupidity of the male mind I was, instead, unpacking my bag and trying to
figure out how all this foolishness started to begin with.
At two o'clock this afternoon I was ready to spend a long quiet evening with
the girl of my dreams and by three thirty I was on the Hogwarts express with
Lily's promise ring in my pocket and a brain full of confusion.
I simply had stated that forever was a very long time to spend with the same
person; even if that person was a wonderful, intelligent, red head with green
glowing eyes and legs to die for.
'Well James Potter, if forever isn't what you're promising then you can take
this ring and your sorry arse back to Hogwarts right this right this minute. I
thought you were sure about us when you gave it me. I was sure about us when I
let you make love to me.'
The look on Lil's tear stained face as she ran up the stairs of her parent's
home still shadowed across my eyes; it had haunted me all the way to Hogwarts.
In all actuality I wanted to spend forever with Lily, but at sixteen and three
quarters I guess I was just scared. A commitment like that was not to be made
lightly, and how does one honestly know that true soul-mates really exist. I
was never one to believe in signs that direct people down the proper path, but
right now I'd happily accept one...... tomorrow maybe.... right now I just
wanted to be alone.
But that was not to be for long I concluded as the unmistakable voice of Sirius
Black rang out from the common room below.
"Come on Re," the unusually soft voice prodded from the bottom of the stairs,
"we don't have much time before midnight."
'Oh, gods couldn't they have just stayed away? Oh well, it sounded like they
would be gone soon; at least they'd be gone soon if they didn't know I was
here.' I grinned as the obvious solution to this dilemma jabbed at my still
confused brain.
I quickly made sure all my things were as I found them upon entering the room,
grabbed the invisibility cloak, sat down on my bed and made certain I was
completely concealed.......they would never know I was here.
Watching as my two best mates entered the room I was surprised to see that
Sirius had his arm around Remus's waist, the full moon and been almost a week
ago surely the fair skinned boy was feeling better by now. Perhaps it had been
more difficult than we had thought it would be to have only Padfoot there to
run with Moony, maybe I should let them know I was here.....but just as I was
about to divulge my presence, Sirius dropped his arm and Remus flopped down on
his bed as if nothing were wrong.
They must be planning a last minute prank, I told myself as I watch Siri place
a locking spell on the door, not a powerful one, just enough to make entry
difficult; understandable considering they were they only two left in the tower
for the holiday. It had taken a lot to convince Sirius parents to let him stay
for the break, but he was determined not to leave our cursed friend to a
torturous Christmas Eve and a Christmas day whose only present would be
loneliness and pain.
As Sirius crossed to Re's bed it seemed odd to have them planning something
without me and once again the idea throwing off the cloak crept to the front of
my mind. Seeing my friends had helped to lift a small portion of the fog that
clouded around my heart..... at least it did until Sirius gently pulled Remus
to his feet and closed the gap between them by circling his arms around the
slight frame of our slender friend then timidly raised Re's face to his and
kissed him tenderly upon the waiting werewolf's full soft lips.
For an instant I couldn't breath as all the signs I'd been too daft to see
flashed before my eyes. All the hidden looks, the soft conversations and of
course Sear's determination in staying for the holiday.
I should say something, I told myself. Yet no words flowed from my throat as I
watched Remus's unwaivering hands reach up to push the plain white tee-shirt up
the taller wizards long smooth torso.
Siri's hands worked in kind, unbuttoning the small round obstacles that
fastened Re's shirt and kept the determined canine from the sight of his
lover's flesh. For it was obvious that they were lovers, this was not the
fumbling folly of a first time or the tawdriness of a one-night tryst....how
could I have been so blind?
"Are you certain about this Siri," Re's soft voice questioned as his muscular
companion lowered him gently upon the still un-rumpled bed.
"More certain than I've been of anything in my life," came the earnest, almost
choked reply.
'Maybe this was their first time,' I told myself still unable to pull my gaze
from the now naked forms of my two best friends. 'What else would Siri have to
be sure of? But then, I knew the raven haired wizard had been with at least one
other partner, however I had never considered that it could have been a male.
All he had said was that he had found someone to wake up in the morning with;
maybe he hadn't been with anyone else, maybe that someone had been Re.
They kissed for long moments as large loving hands stroked scar strewn skin,
while thin fingers teased tender buds, until finally the decision was made and
the now serious werewolf quickly took the dominate position.
Propped up slightly on bent elbows Sirius lay silently beneath his lover as
they shared a deep sucking kiss that defied the description of mere passion,
this kiss held a promise, a promise that I myself had earlier failed to make.
As their lips slowly separated Re placed one hand on Siri shoulder and gently
pressed him to the mattress and remained there while the other hand was raised
for a wandless spell that brought a soft smile to both their faces.
Now, completely engulfed in the passionate scene that was unfolding before me,
I forgot to be embarrassed as I watched a look of complete and utter bliss
bathe the features of the dark haired boy who'd been my best mate from the
earliest days of our youth. Even at his at his worst Sirius Black was
attractive but now as his obsidian tresses fanned around his shoulders and
tangled with in his lovers fingers he was truly magnificent.
It was only when I noticed the slight rocking motion of Re's lightly muscled
shoulders that I realized the flesh of two had become one.
Siri's long legs were wrapped tightly around the narrow hips of a boy that some
would consider a dark creature, yet Sirius had never seen the wolf as evil or
the boy as capable of anything but perfection.
Openly admiring the splendor of the creature that lay beneath him Remus licked
his lips then smiled a true and beautiful smile that I had never seen grace his
stunning fey features before; and would only see twice again, once at my
wedding and then as he first held Harry in his arms.
Stunned I watched as the tongue of the tawny haired werewolf slowly and
lovingly caressed the well-exposed juncture of my best friend's neck and
shoulder, I held my breath at the reality of what was about to happen.
Usually one is asked to be a witness at a wedding, to stand up with ones
friends and openly offer support to the joining of hearts and lives; and
although I sat unbidden, I silently pledged my support to the union about to
take place before my eyes. For try as I might I could not lower my gaze as Re's
jaws opened to full then lovingly closed tight on the tanned satin flesh of the
suddenly mature animagus who was now his mate.
When the sharp canine teeth pierced Siri's flesh, I watched my friend's face
for any sign of the pain he had to feel, but none was present. Only a look of
devotion, acceptance, and amazement was reflected in the storm tossed eyes that
remained locked with the glowing amber orbs of his mate. But that wasn't all I
saw; there was also fulfillment and peace as my wild and rambunctious friend
gave his soul to another and willingly accepted responsibility for that soul in
return.
As Remus pulled away he paused to lave the symbol of their love and the vow of
the wolf's fidelity, with long languid strokes of a velvet soft tongue. Yet,
one small drop of crimson liquid clung to the sun - gilded collar-bone; and I
thought how ironic it was that these two Gryffindors should bind them selves
with crimson and gold, for they would truly need all the strength and bravery
they possessed to see them through the difficulties this choice of life
partners would bring.
"I love you.......forever" spoken as one, then words gave way to the
unmistakable mask of serenity that only follows the joy of unison release.
What I had witnessed was not just sex, but poetry, dance and song, swirled
together as one and when the strength of Re's arms gave way his trembling limbs
were welcomed into the tight embrace of a man he thought would be with him
forever.
Forever was something I now believed in
When my friends had drifted into sleep, curled in the comfort of each other
arms, I quietly stole from the room, knowing that Lily's bed in the vacant
girls dorm was were I would sleep until she returned.
Remus and Sirius told me the news of their relationship and their bonding as we
were getting ready for bed the following evening, Sirius bed was never occupied
for the purpose of sleep again. Deep inside I believe Remus always new the
truth of my unspoken presence during the night's events although he never spoke
of his assumptions. Remus was much wiser and stronger than many people knew.
That strength and internal fortitude the gentle werewolf possessed would be
tested many times over in the years to come, but his love for his mate would
never fail.
So on this clear August night, just as I bore silent witness to their bonding
so many years ago, I now watch silently from above as a large black dog slowly
shifts to the shape of weary man who is finally able to melt into the arms of a
man who will love him forever.
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