Posted originally on the Archive_of_Our_Own at https://archiveofourown.org/
works/11781630.
  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      F/M
  Fandom:
      Teenage_Mutant_Ninja_Turtles_(TV_2012)
  Relationship:
      Raphael/Leonardo, Raphael/Mona_Lisa, Raphael/Casey, Donatello_(TMNT)/
      April_O'Neil, Casey_Jones/April_O'Neil
  Character:
      Leonardo_(TMNT), Raphael_(TMNT), Michelangelo_(TMNT), Mona_Lisa_(TMNT),
      Casey_Jones_(TMNT), Donatello_(TMNT), April_'O_Neil
  Additional Tags:
      Potions, Devious_Don, Gender_Bender, Female_Raph, Alpha_Leo, Uke_Raph,
      Teenagers, Love, First_Time, Turtlecest, Babies, Turtle_Tots, Turtle_Sex,
      Family, Deception, Breakups, Romance, Angst_with_a_Happy_Ending, Turtle
      luck, adpating_to_changes, Emotional_Hurt/Comfort, Love_Confessions, True
      Love, Love_Triangles, Gender
  Stats:
      Published: 2017-08-12 Chapters: 4/? Words: 7715
****** Raphael's dilemma ******
by KerryAnne
Summary
     After Mona announces that she's going to stay on earth with him,
     Raphael thought that his life couldn't get any better. But true to
     form, Turtle Luck intervenes when one of Don's potions has an
     unexpected result and change. How will Raph adapt? Can his and Mona's
     relationship survive it? Or will Raph end up with someone else?
Notes
See the end of the work for notes
***** Devious Don *****
Mona's 23
Leo's 16
Don's 16
Mikey's 16
Raph's 15
Raphael pumped his fists in the air in jubilation, his green eyes shining in
happiness and thought, as he and Mona hugged, it's finally happened. Mona's
gonna stay here with me and we have a real shot at makin' things work. I can't
believe it.
After pulling apart, Mona said, "So, what now, Raphael?"
"I will introduce ya ta the Mutanimals. They fight crime like we do and ya can
stay with them."
"You mean I won't be staying with you?" Mona asked disappointedly.
"I think it's best that for the meantime ya stay with them. We don't really
know one another that well yet and I'm afraid that…" Raphael paused, searching
for the right words.
"What he's trying to say," Leo chimed in. "Is that he's not ready for a sexual
relationship and the responsibilities that could come with it. And he'd like to
wait."
"I can speak for myself, Fearless," Raphael snapped and glared at his older
brother.
"Oh!" Mona said. "You mean babies? We're different species, Raphael, so not
likely we'll have any, but as for waiting, sure. I'm fine about that. No
worries."
"That's okay. I never wanted any anyway. All I want is ya, babe," Raphael lied,
even though his heart sank at the news that they may never be parents. He so
badly wanted to be a dad, but that was typical fate. He'd found love, which
he'd thought he'd never would, but he couldn't have kids. Typical Turtle luck,
Raphael thought. But ya can't have it all, right? I should be grateful. I got a
lovin' girl and she's gorgeous, so why am I so down? Gotta get outta it. Mona's
all I need.
Mona smiled and said, "Back at you, Raphael. I love you."
"I love ya more," Raphael said and pressed his lips onto hers.
"Get a room!" Mikey piped up, earning a scowl from his emerald skinned brother.
Raphael broke the kiss and said, "Yer just jealous that ya don't have a
girlfriend and one as hot as Mona!"
"I can't believe Raph has the hots for a giant newt," Karai said.
"I know, right?" Leo said, elbowing her. "He has weird taste."
"Hey, hey, Fearless. I heard that," Raphael hissed, his green eyes blazing.
"Yer jealous too, because I have a girlfriend and yer never ever gonna get one,
unless ya grow some balls and make a move on Karai!"
"Me?" Karai said in surprise. "Leo and I are just good friends and that's all
it'll ever be."
"That's right," Leo said. "I don't have time for romance anyway."
"Then make time," Raphael said. "Ya need a girl, Fearless. Someone ta love and
share yer life with. Trainin' don't keep yer warm in the middle of the night. I
didn't think I needed no one either, but meetin' Mona has changed how I feel
and I couldn't imagine my life without her in it."
"Aw, Raph's gone soft," Mikey teased.
"Mock all ya like," Raphael said. "But it's true. Love is the best feelin' and
adrenaline rush. It's awesome knowin' that someone loves ya and that no matter
what, they'll always be there for ya."
"You're just a giant teddy bear, Raphael," Mona said and looked lovingly into
his eyes.
"I'm yer teddy bear and yer my sweet rose."
"Barf!" Casey said, rolling his eyes. "I'm going home. You coming, Ape? Bye,
zombie."
"Yeah," April said, grabbing his hand. "I'll see you guys later."
"I'll meet ya back at the lair, guys," Raphael said. "Just droppin' Mona off
with the Mutanimals." What the hell did Casey mean by zombie, Raphael thought?
Gonna phone him when I'm home.
"All right," Leo said. "Be safe, Raph. Later, Mona."
"Bye," Mona said.
XXX
After returning home, Raphael undressed, plonked onto his bed and dialled a
number. "Case, what the shit did ya mean by zombie?"
"Raph, it's two a.m.," Casey groaned. "I was asleep."
"Answer my question!"
"Look, I don't want…."
"Now!"
"All right. I hate that you're a puddle of goo when she's around. Brainless and
like a zombie. Isn't because I'm jealous. I have April and I love her. It's
just that you're so different. No fun and no personality. All you do is kiss
her and it's gross, man. You're so soft. So different from the Raph I know.
You're like a love sick puppy. It's degrading and disgusting to see that she
has you so wrapped around her fingers."
"Ya are jealous!" Raphael yelled, hurt by his comments, even though he was
aware that was how he behaved. But don't all men in love act this way, he
thought?
"I so am not! I don't find Mona attractive. Look, Raph. I'm not trying to upset
you. I just miss my buddy. The one I can call whenever and go bash Purple
Dragons with. That's all. I don't even know what to say to you now. And if you
ask me, the romance seems forced, Raph. You've met her a few times and now
you're planning on spending your lives together. Intergalactic mail isn't
really…"
"Then say nothin' and leave me alone!" Raphael shouted. "I love Mona and if ya
can't accept her and the way I am now, ya can fuck off. I'm just a guy in love
and I thought ya'd be happy for me. And what Mona and I have is real and gonna
work out." Raphael hung up and threw the phone onto his bed in frustration.
Fuck, Casey, he thought, dragging a hand down his face. Don't need a jerk like
him. All I need is my sweet Mona. So I'm soft. Big fuckin' deal. I like how she
makes me feel. All gooey and mushy and if no one can handle that, fuck them!
Raphael lay down, closed his eyes and soon drifted off to sleep.
XXX
The next morning, Raphael joined his brothers in the kitchen for breakfast.
"Morning, Raph," Leo said. "You sleep okay?"
"Humph," Raphael grunted, staring into his bowl of cereal.
"I'll take that as a yes," Leo said and smiled. Raphael was not a morning
person and Leo doubted he ever would be.
"Hey, Raph," Mikey said. "I'm sorry I teased you. I am happy for you, bro."
"As am I," Don said. "It's nice that at least one of us has a girl, Raph. Gives
us hope we will find someone."
"It's okay, Mikey," Raphael said. "And thanks. Do ya guys think I act like a
zombie when Mona's around and that I'm borin'?"
"Well, look at that," Mikey said quickly. "I think my phone's ringing in my
bedroom." He sprang up and rushed out of the room.
"And I have something to do in the lab," Don said, standing up. "See you guys
later."
"Do ya, Leo?" Leo hesitated. "Go on. I can take it."
"Sometimes, yes. It is kind of sweet, but also annoying, because sometimes we
want to talk to you and all you want to do is kissy face with her. I can
understand though. You're in love and love does change people."
"Do ya think our romance is forced?"
"It was a whirlwind one, but forced? I don't know, Raph. Why are you asking me
this?"
"Casey thinks so and that I don't have brain cells when she's around. It's
almost like he's jealous. That's insane, right? I mean he ain't interested in
Mona. He said so, so why would he be jealous? And why can't he be happy for me
that I got someone? I don't understand, Leo."
Leo scratched his chin thoughtfully and said, "I do."
"Then enlighten me, bro."
"I think Casey's afraid of coming out and he's using April to deny how he
feels."
Raphael's eyes widened in shock and he said, "Casey's gay? No way, man. I've
seen him and April kiss and ya can't fake passion. Can ya?"
"You can and I've seen…"
"What, Leo?"
"He stares at you when he thinks you're not looking, he looks pissed off when
Mona's hugging and kissing you. He asked me out once. Of course, I said no. I'm
not…"
"Yeah, yeah, yer too busy ta date. He's crushin' on me?" Raphael said, his eyes
widening in disbelief. "No way. No damn way! I'm a fuckin' boy and so is he!
This is so…" Raphael said and wrinkled his beak in disgust.
"Watch how he behaves when he's here."
"He ain't comin' here. We had a fight. This is so sickenin', Leo!" Raphael said
and shuddered. "Casey digs me in a non-friendly way. I don't want that, Leo. I
ain't into guys. I love Mona and I wanna spend my life with her. Casey…Ugh. I
feel sick ta my stomach. Hey, Leo? I kinda wish ya'd never told me this. It's
made me think differently 'bout him. And, ya, I don't believe yer excuses that
yer too busy ta date. Is there another reason, Leo?"
"You should talk to Casey. Be clear about Mona and try and stay friends," Leo
said, avoiding the subject. "He's your best friend and you need one another."
"Stop bein' evasive, Leo!"
Leo's lower lip trembled, his cheeks reddened and he said, "Yes, there is, but
it's not one you want to know. Some things are best unsaid."
"Does it concern me?"
"Yes."
"I can't fuckin' believe this!" Raphael snarled, understanding. He angrily
pushed his chair back and stood up. "First Casey and now ya, Leo, because ya
fancy me, don't ya?"
"I always have, Raph, but….."
"But nothin'. Yer twisted and sick, Leo!" Raphael growled, baring his teeth.
"Lustin' after yer brother!"
"Let me finish, Raph."
"No! Stay the hell away from me, Leo!" Raphael roared and bolted out of the
room, intending to lock his door and stay there all day and avoid everyone.
Nausea bubbled in his belly at the thought of his brother loving him more than
a brother should. Casey was bad enough, but Leo? No. That was far worse,
because Leo was his brother. They'd grown up together, shared a bed as kids,
played together, talked about dreams and girls. Had Leo always liked him? Leo
had said that he did. When did it start? Did Leo fantasize about him alone in
his bed? The thought revolted Raphael. His proud, noble older brother, the
golden boy, wasn't so perfect after all. He was a sinner, because wasn't
lusting after guys and your brother a sin?
Raphael was almost to his bedroom door, when Don stepped out of the lab and
said, "Hey, you okay, Raph? You look a bit green."
"I'm fine. Just wanna be alone for a while."
"Aw. Really? I was hoping you could help me with a project I'm working on."
"I really don't wanna, Don. I need time alone. Go ask Leo or Mikey."
"But you're here and they never want to help. Please, Raph. I won't ask you
again for a long time. Please."
Thinking he'd have no peace if he didn't agree and that maybe it would distract
him a bit, Raphael crossed his arms and said, "Fine."
"Thanks, Raph," Don said. "I appreciate it."
XXX
Inside the lab, Raphael said, his arms still crossed, "What do I gotta do,
Donnie?"
Don held up a vial of a suspicious looking pink liquid and said, "Try this."
"No way!" Raphael said, narrowing his green eyes. "I ain't drinkin' no potion.
What the fuck is it?"
"Remember when you and Mikey said that you wished you could be human? I think
I've finally perfected the formula."
"Yeah, but I have a girl now. I don't…"
"Think of the freedom. The opportunities. If this works, Mona could become a
human and join you and so would we. You and Mona could have lives as a normal
couple. Get jobs, have babies, travel. Think about it. No more damp and smelly
sewers. Hello, fresh air and a normal life. The one you've always wanted," Don
said.
Raphael's eyes gleamed, as he thought of everything he could experience, and he
said, "What the hell? I'll do it." He downed the pink liquid and said, "What
now?"
"Now we wait!"
Raphael suddenly began to feel dizzy, his head swam, his knees buckled
underneath him and he fell to the floor with a dull thud, his eyes sliding
shut.
His transformation began and when the changes were complete, Don thought, it's
done. I know I was devious, but it's for the greater good and it will please
Leo, so who cares if Mona's heart is shattered when she learns of this?
***** The new Raph *****
Chapter Summary
     Raphael is furious when he learns what he's now become and demands
     that Don fix the mess. His brothers love the transformation and so
     does Karai, only infuriating Raphael more.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
With luck, Don thought as he gazed down at the transformed Raphael, the potion
wiped out his memory too and he'll have no memory of being a boy or of Mona
Lisa. He locked his lab and went to work on one of his projects, waiting for
Raphael to wake up.
An hour or so later, Raphael groaned and opened his green eyes. Glancing around
the room, he saw Donatello at his PC and said, as he sat up. "What the fuck
happened, Donnie?" Rubbing his temple, he added, "Why do I sound so weird? What
the fuck did ya do ta me?"
Shit, Don thought in alarm. "I don't know what you're talking about. You sound
the same to me."
"BS. I sound like a girl. All high pitched." Glancing down at himself, Raphael
let out a horrified gasp, as he saw what he'd become. His plastron was flat,
his muscles had gone, his body was more feminine looking and he just knew his
tail would be shorter, as was the case with female turtles. Touching his arm,
he noticed that his skin was much softer too. He was a frigging girl. What the
hell will I tell Mona, he thought? Growling, he rose to his feet and said, "YA
SAID IT WOULD MAKE ME HUMAN!"
"I said I thought I'd perfected the formula. This wasn't supposed to happen!"
"CHANGE ME BACK NOW. WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONNA TELL MONA?" Raphael raised a fist
and added menacingly, as his green eyes blazed, "Now or I'm gonna beat the crap
outta ya!"
"What on earth is going on in there?" Leo called from outside the lab.
"Nothing, Leo," Don said. "I've got things under control. Calm down,
sweetheart! I…"
"SWEETHEART!" Raphael snarled, swinging a punch at Don, who just avoided it as
he darted out of the way.
"Let me inside this instant!" Leo said.
Don backed up to the door with Raphael growling and snarling, as he advanced,
and managed to open it. Leo's eyes widened in surprise when he saw the
attractive female turtle and he suddenly felt extremely tight in his shell.
Ignoring it, he composed himself and said, "Who are you? And how did you enter
the lab? You look a lot like my brother, Raphael, except he's a boy and
you're…."
"It's fuckin' me, Leo!" Raphael snapped. "Raphael. Donnie promised me that I'd
be a human if I drank a potion of his and stupid me agreed. Now I'm a fuckin'
female. I should have known not ta agree. Donnie's inventions and formulas
rarely work."
"A hot female," Leo whispered.
Green eyes glowered at Leo and Raphael hissed, "What was that, Fearless?"
"Nothing. Look, Donnie just screwed up. He'll fix it, okay?"
"He'd better! Matin' season is comin' up and last thing I need is ya lot tryin'
ta poke yer dicks in me!"
"As crude as ever, Raph. Thanks for the mental image," Don said, wrinkling his
beak in disgust.
"Forget my attitude. Get ta work, brainiac! Mona's supposed ta be comin' over
later and I don't want her ta see me like this!"
"It could be months, Raph. These things can take time, you know! Be patient."
"That's it! I'm gonna beat ya ta a pulp and then yer gonna…."Raphael yelled,
raising a fist.
"No!" Leo said, placing a hand on Raphael's shoulder. "Go lie down, Raph. I'll
stay with Donnie."
"The others gone out? I don't want them ta see me."
"WOW! Who's the gorgeous chick?" Mikey said, entering the room and openly
gawking at Raphael. "She's stunning."
"Swell!" Raphael said and snorted in disgust. "Mikey thinks I'm cute. Back off,
Mikey, or I'm gonna pound ya."
"Cranky dudette. What's with the attitude and how do you know my name?"
"That dudette is Raph, Mikey," Leo explained. "Long story. Listen…."
"That's Raph? Wow. I love the changes. You know what this means?" Mikey said
excitedly, his blue eye shining in happiness. "This means that one of us can
get a girl now and be a daddy. Raph can lay eggs, right?"
"NO!" Raphael shouted. "I'm gonna turn…."
"Yes, he can if he remains a girl," Don said. "But…."
"That ain't gonna happen," Raphael chimed in. "Donnie here is gonna turn me
back. I don't wanna be a fuckin' girl or lay eggs and I don't want any of ya as
mates. I love Mona and I always will."
"But what if Don can't turn you back, Raph?" Leo asked.
"I don't know, but I don't want any of ya. Ya all are pains in the shell,
especially Leo!"
"Hey! I resent that. I just watch out for you."
"Surre you do!" Raphael said acerbically and rolled his eyes. "All ya do is
lecture. Would be just the same if we were mates! Donnie get ta fuckin' work
and Mikey, quit ogling me like I'm a piece of meat ya want ta eat. I don't
fuckin' like it. That's yer first and last warnin'."
"Can't help it, dudette," Mikey said unashamedly staring again. "You're
beautiful. Your green eyes are like jewels and I bet you smell real good!"
"Ya will never know!" Raphael yelled, green eyes flashing, as he swung a fist,
which connected with Mikey's jaw, sending him to the ground. "Don't ever do
that again! I warned ya. Same goes for ya, Fearless."
"What me?" Leo said, looking at a moaning Mikey, who was cradling his jaw. "I
wasn't…."
"Don't act so innocent," Raphael said coolly. "I saw how ya checked me out. Ya
fancy me, don't ya?"
"I think I'll go meditate and leave you," Leo said, trying to act casual, while
inwardly shocked he'd been caught out. He'd thought Raphael hadn't seen him
staring. "Donnie, come with me. Want a word."
"Donnie boy ain't goin' anywhere," Raphael said. "He's stayin' right here.
Answer the question, Fearless."
"Why do you care what I think?"
"I don't, but if ya won't answer, I'll set ya straight. I know what I saw. Both
ya and Mikey dig me and ya won't have me. Donnie will fix the mess and me and
Mona will…."
"What is all this commotion?" Karai asked, entering the room. "I was sleeping
and heard…." Her voice trailed off, as she took in Raphael. Then she said,
"Whoa. Who's the chick?"
Raphael's eyes flashed and Leo quickly said, "Don had an accident with one of
his potions and Raph is now a girl. Don's going to try and…."
"He will turn me back!" Raphael said furiously. "Ain't no fuckin' way I'm gonna
stay stuck like this forever!"
"Such unladylike language," Karai said with a smirk and looked at Raphael
intently, making the emerald skinned turtle's blood boil. "You're adorable,
Raphael. I love the new you. Just have to cut down on the swearing, okay? Girls
don't curse like sailors!"
"I ain't no fuckin' lady!" Raphael hissed, raising a fist. "This ain't funny."
"It's hilarious!" Karai said with a grin. "And now that I've split with Shini,
I'm on the hunt for a new girl!"
"You're gay, Karai?" Mikey said in surprise, now standing, as his brothers'
jaws dropped.
Karai nodded and said, "Yes. Leo knew, but I swore him to secrecy. So, what do
you say, Raphael? We go out on a date?"
Raphael's eyes blazed, and he swung a punch. Karai deftly avoided it and
Raphael snarled, his nostrils flaring, "Yer ain't my fuckin' type. I like
people with a pulse."
"Quit baiting him, Karai!" Don said.
"I can't help it. He's too precious, aren't you, Raphael? Payback for all the
taunts directed at me. So, what do you say to the date?"
"He is cute," Mikey agreed. "Aw, Raph. It's a compliment. Don't be mad."
"Raphael needs a girl's name," Karai said. "How about Molly or Cindy? Those are
such girly names and perfect!"
Unwanted tears pricked at Raphael's eyes at the jeers. His shoulders slumped in
abject humiliation, and he bolted out of the room and lair. Tears streaming
down his cheeks, he headed for his secret place, thinking, what the hell am I
gonna tell Mona and what am I gonna do? I can't go home. Not lookin' like this
and with matin' season comin' up. I'm screwed. I don't want this. I should
never have taken that potion. Fuckin' Donnie. Ain't never gonna forgive him! If
I didn't know better, I'd say he lied ta me about it makin' me human and he
knew it would make me become a girl, but why would he do that?
Raphael stopped, as a figure loomed up ahead. Realising it was Hun, Raphael got
into his fighting stance and thought, I may be a girl now, but I can still
fight, right?
"Hello, Turtle," Hun said. "We meet again, freak."
"We do," Raphael said, removing his sai from his obi. "Prepare ta lose. Yer
gonna regret the day ya were born."
Chapter End Notes
     A/N I'm back. My eye is healing and I'm feeling great. Updates will
     be as normal now. :) Thanks to Sylvia and DeadlyDoll2002 for your
     kind messages.
     Will Raph be able to defeat Hun?
***** The talk *****
Chapter Summary
     Raphael is rescued by Leo and has an embarrassing chat with Splinter
     about his transformation.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Hun charged and Raphael tried to move out of the way, but not used to his new
body, Hun was easily able to knock Raphael down and pin his hands behind his
back. The now female turtle struggled futilely, hatred flashing in his eyes, as
Hun gazed down at him, one hand holding a switchblade, and sneered, “Not so
tough now, are you, Raphael? I’ve waited for this moment for so long. I’m going
to decapitate you, but first, I’m going to have some fun.”
Raphael felt sick to his stomach, realizing what Hun’s intentions were and he
thought, this would never have happened if I wasn’t a damn female. I’d be able
ta protect myself. I’m powerless . He’s gonna rape me and all I can do is lie
here and take it. Fuck. Squeezing his eyes shut, he prayed someone would find
him.
Hun’s eyes roved over Raphael’s body, taking in his slender frame, and he said,
“Been so long since I’ve been with a female and seeing as you’re one, you’ll
do. I never realized you were a female before. Had I known, I’d have been
kinder. Or maybe not. I’m going to claim you as mine and make you my bitch.
Teach you some manners.” Hun smiled sadistically, lined his dick up with
Raphael’s entrance and prepared to thrust inside, as hot tears rolled down
Raphael’s cheeks. “Going to pound you good, bitch. Come to Daddy!”
Suddenly a slicing sound in the air was heard and a strangled gasp escaping
Hun’s lips, as blood poured out of his carotid artery, forming a crimson pool.
Hun fell forward, landing on an astonished Raphael, his eyes sliding shut
forever. Raphael glanced up in surprise and saw Leo holding a bloody katana,
concern in his sapphire blue eyes. “Leo?” Raphael said in astonishment, trying
to shift Hun, but finding he was too heavy.
“Let me help,” Leo said, dragging Hun off of Raphael and adding, “You okay?”
“I…How did ya find me?” Raphael asked, rising to his feet.
“I followed you. You okay?”
“I’m usually pissed when ya do that, but I…Thank ya. I don’t know how ta thank
ya enough. Is he dead?” Raphael asked, trembling, upset at how close he’d come
to being violated. What the hell is wrong with me, he thought in disgust? I’m
actin’ like a damsel in distress. I don’t get scared. Not like this. I don’t
need no knight in shinin’ armor ta come and save the day, but I am so grateful
Leo was there. Leo and his beautiful kind eyes. Fuck. Did I just say Leo has
beautiful eyes? Raphael. Get a fuckin’ grip. It’s Fearless, yer brother. Not a
handsome rescuer! Just old Fearless. And ya love Mona. Remember that.
“It’s what family does, Raph,” Leo said, wrapping an arm around him and drawing
him close. “No need to thank me. He didn’t touch you, did he? And yes, he’s
dead.”
Raphael wasn’t really one for hugs, but he allowed Leo to hug him, feeling
secure and thinking, Leo smells great. Fuck. First I think he has beautiful
eyes. Now I think he smells great. I’m losin’ my mind. Mona. Pulling away,
Raphael said, “No. And I’m fine. Just peachy. I wanna go home and forget this
happened. Don’t tell anyone.”
“Raph...”
“Don’t. They’ll only think of me as a chick in distress, Leo. A fuckin’ girl,
who had ta rely on her big brother ta come and save her. When before I coulda
saved myself! They don’t see me as Raphael no more anyway and this will only
confirm it. I’m a ninja, but I don’t know my way ‘round this blasted new body
and my muscles have gone. I ain’t as strong. How the fuck am I gonna help ya
guys fight crime lookin’ like this? I don’t wanna be like this, Leo.”
“I understand, Raph. Look, Donnie will try to change you back to normal.”
“And what if he can’t? And I’m stuck like this? The thought of layin’ eggs
makes me wanna puke. This isn’t the way my life was supposed ta go. I’m
supposed ta marry Mona. We have plans. What the hell am I supposed ta tell
her?”
“Life sometimes throws you curveballs, Raph, and you just have to adapt.”
“Curveballs? What the fuck?” Raphael said irately. “Could ya be as blasé if ya
had a hot girl and now ya were a girl? Could ya? Would ya tell yer girlfriend
that psychobabble shit? No. Ya’d be depressed, like I am. I hate this!” Raphael
growled, clenching his fists.
“It would be a shock, but when one door shuts, others open.”
“What the hell do ya mean?” Raphael demanded.
“Nothing. We should get back home. You sure you’re okay?”
“I’m fine! Ain’t nothin’ positive ‘bout this, Leo. Nothin’ and Donnie will
change me back. Ya will see.”
I hope he doesn’t, Leo thought, as he and Raphael headed home. You were
gorgeous as a boy, but as a female, you’re absolutely breath taking and you’d
be more amenable to me being your mate. I’m going to woo you, Raph, and then
I’m going to become bonded to you and have a family.
XXX
Back home, Raphael saw Splinter watching his stories in the lounge. Upon
hearing the Turtles’ footsteps, the aged rat glanced up and said, “Raphael, I’d
like to talk to you privately in the dojo. Leonardo, our meditation session
will have to wait.”
“Very well, Dad,” Leonardo said and bowed. “See you later, Raph.”
Splinter stood and said, “Come along, Raphael.”
What the hell does he wanna talk ‘bout, Raphael thought, as he followed
Splinter to the dojo?
XXX
Inside the dojo, Splinter said, “Michelangelo told me what happened, Raphael. I
am sorry, my child. This must be extremely distressing for you.”
“Yeah. Me and Mona have plans, Sensei. I can’t be this. I don’t wanna be this.
It’s so fuckin’ unfair that I finally have a girlfriend and this happens ta me.
Life fuckin’ blows.”
“Language, Raphael!” Splinter said sternly.
“Ya’d be just as pissed as me, Sensei, and all Leo does is spout shit that when
one door shuts, others open, what the hell’s that supposed ta mean?” Raphael
yelled, green eyes blazing. “I hate bein’ a girl. So weak.”
“True strength comes from within, Raphael.”
Raphael rolled his eyes and said, “I was the brawns, Sensei. I could fight and
protect myself. Today I was almost…”He hesitated and added, “Don’t tell no one.
Hun attacked me and I couldn’t save myself and Leo…Leo suddenly showed up and
he saved me by killin’ Hun. I never needed anyone savin’ me before, Sensei! It
was kinda humiliatin’!”
“That is not true, Raphael. Even as a male, you have been saved many times by
Leonardo and being a girl doesn’t make you weak.”
“Yeah, maybe, but it was by Leo! That was humiliatin’ and I felt all vulnerable
and shit and I was tremblin’. I don’t do that, Sensei. Not me. And the worst
thing is I started havin’ funny thoughts ‘bout Leo and liked him huggin’ me.
Ugh. I mean, Leo! What the hell is wrong with me, Sensei? No. I gotta change
back. I don’t want this. I ain’t no damsel in distress! I’m strong and brave
and Leo? I liked his eyes, okay, and he smelled good? Oh, my shit. I just told
ya he smells good. I must be crazy!” Raphael said and clapped a hand to his
mouth in horror.
Splinter smiled and said, “It is normal for a female to be attracted to a male,
especially a strong, alpha male like Leonardo. There is nothing wrong with you,
Raphael.”
Raphael removed his hand from his mouth and said, “But I’m a male, Sensei!”
“In personality, maybe. Not looks anymore, Raphael. You are a girl and there is
no need to be ashamed.”
“But I don’t want this,” Raphael said, tears filling his eyes. “I wanna be a
boy like before and be with Mona. What’s gonna happen if I can’t change back?”
“Raphael, you must prepare yourself. If there is no cure, you will have no
choice, but to accept your transformation and the possibilities it offers. If
Mona Lisa cannot handle it, it does not mean that your chance at love is lost.
It merely means other suitors are possible.”
“Ya mean Leo? Why couldn’t I like Mikey or Donnie instead? I had ta like stuck
up Fearless!”
Splinter chuckled and said, “We are often attracted to individuals, who are
like minded. Leonardo and you were always the same side of the coin. Leonardo
would not be a bad choice for a mate, my daughter. He is kind, honest, loyal,
courageous and would love and protect you until his dying breath, as he has
done for you all of his life. He would also be a wonderful father.”
“Daughter! Ugh!” Raphael said, wrinkling his beak in disgust. “Gonna take ages
ta adapt ta that if there ain’t no cure. Would I still be able ta train?”
“Of course and you would still patrol with your brothers.”
“Would ya really be okay ‘bout me bein’ with Leo?”
“Yes, Raphael. I would never stand in the way of true love.”
“Will I have a period, Dad?”
“What?”
“Period, like the human girls do.”
“No, Raphael. You’ll lay dud eggs in mating season until you actually have
sexual intercourse and they’re fertilized.”
“How many will I lay?”
“Between two and thirty-two.”
“Fuck!” Raphael said in dismay. “Anyway, Donnie will probably find a cure, so
that won’t happen, Dad. Gotta be positive, right? I’d appreciate ya not tellin’
Leo I like him.”
“I won’t need to, my child,” Splinter said and chuckled. “Leonardo can sense
your attraction to him by the pheromones you give off. And he knows when you’re
aroused. Just like you do by the smell he gives off. You find his smell
intoxicating and he loves yours. Michelangelo and Donatello probably like the
way you smell too. They might even compete with Leonardo to win you as their
mate. Whoever wins will be very territorial. Turtles are with their mates and
young. But I have a feeling Leonardo will win.”
“Stop!” Raphael said, his face falling. “I’ve heard enough! Eggs, young, mates,
pheromones. Surreal. Scary! I’m gonna check on Donnie and see how he’s comin’
along with the cure.”
“You will need a female name too. What would you choose?”
“Well, I believe I’m gonna be cured, but if I did stay a female, it’d have ta
be Rachael. I love that name.”
“Perfect.”
“Dad, assumin’ I stay a girl, how does it work?” Raphael asked, blushing and
feeling awkward.
“What, my child?”
“Sex.”
“Oh. Well,” Splinter said and coughed, equally embarrassed. “Leonardo would
place his dick in your cloaca, whereupon fertilization would take place. You’d
fall gravid and some months later would lay the eggs. They’d hatch a while
later.”
“Does it hurt? Sex and layin’ eggs?”
“Yes, but only for a while. When you hold your young in your arms, it’ll all be
worth it and you’ll forget the pain and want more babies. You’ll be a good
mother. I see how sweet you are with Chompy. You’re a natural.”
“Who’d be the boss in the relationship? Would I gotta change? I ain’t
submissive and don’t like takin’ orders.”
There was a knock at the door and Leonardo said, “Mona Lisa’s here, Raph.”
Raphael pinched the bridge between his eyes and said miserably, “I’ll be right
there, Leo. Hey, Sensei. Thanks for the talk. I really hope Donnie succeeds. I
might think Leo’s cute, but I still want Mona and a life with her. That’s where
my heart is. With her. And I don’t wanna be a female. Not now. Not ever!
Raphael exited the room, his heart pounding, and thought, how will Mona take
the news? Please don’t let her bolt. Please don’t. I need her and love her so
much.
Chapter End Notes
     A/N How will Mona handle the news? How will mating season go? Will
     Donnie like Raph too?
     Thanks for the kudos. :)
***** A sunset dinner *****
Chapter Summary
     Mona tells Raphael her feelings about the situation and in a bid to
     make him feel better, Leo takes him for a roof top dinner, which
     leads to something unexpected.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Raphael’s shoulders were slumped, as he went into the lounge, where his
girlfriend stood with the others. Mona was laughing at a joke Donnie had told
her, her brown and red eyes shining in merriment. She stopped when she saw the
emerald eyed turtle and regarded him with curiosity, the others having not told
her anything. Raphael’s heart sank, as he gazed at her, praying she’d still
love him and have faith in their love. He’d crumble if she didn’t and he didn’t
think he’d recover from it. It had been a whirlwind romance. He fallen so hard,
which wasn’t his style. He was always a cautious and pessimistic guy, but Mona
had quickly won his heart and his soul and he couldn’t imagine life without
her. Sure she was eight years older, but the age gap had never been a factor to
him or to her and it hadn’t stopped them from fooling around, her tail wrapping
around his body, touching him, pumping his cock. She’d also spent hours licking
him with her rough tongue, giving him a bath. He’d loved it and so had his
purple ten inch cock, which had dropped down into her waiting hands. She’d been
pumping it and it had stood at full mast, proud, erect, veins twitching, when
fucking Leo had barged in and had ordered them to stop.
They had and a mortified Mona had fled to the bathroom, while Leo had lambasted
his brother and given him a stern lecture on sex, which Raphael had listened
to, his cheeks red. Typical Leo to have spoiled his fun. Leo had then monitored
their times together and Mona was forbidden from being in Raphael’s room and
alone with him.  Raphael had been pissed, but upon seeing a TV programme about
young parents, he’d turned to his brother and had said that he wasn’t ready to
be a dad and wanted to wait until he was older. Now that Mona was on the same
planet, that was still his intention. They’d marry when he was eighteen and
start a family then. That had been the plan, but now he was a damn female!
Would she still want him as a girl if he couldn’t return to his male form?
“Mona,” Raphael began nervously, shuffling his feet.
“How do you know my name? We’ve never met.”
“It’s me, Raph.”
“Huh? Are you kidding me? Raphael is much bulkier than you and he doesn’t have
a female voice or a flat plastron. Is this a joke? Where is Raphael?”
“It’s me, Mona!”
“Let’s give them some privacy, guys,” Leo said, gesturing to the others. “We’ll
be in the kitchen if you need us, Raph, okay?”
“Uh, sure,” Raphael muttered, wishing a hole would swallow him up.
Mona blinked, opened her mouth and shut it. Then she said in a stunned tone,
“What happened?”
“One of Donnie’s experiments went wrong and turned me into a girl.”
“Is it permanent?”
“I don’t know. It might be. Donnie’s workin’ on findin’ a cure, but if he can’t
this is me. Could ya handle it?”
“Being in a lesbian relationship’s not what I signed up for, Raphael. I don’t
even know what to call you now. Raphael doesn’t seem very fitting. It’s too
masculine. Girls just don’t turn me on.”
“We’d still be in love and would be together,” Raphael pleaded desperately.
“It’d just be different, but we could still find ways of makin’ sex work, ya
know?”
“You mean a strap on and dildos? That’s hardly what I want. I want a man with a
real cock that can drive me insane and make me scream. A man with rippling
muscles and a deep voice. Not a girl, who’ll lay eggs. You will now and that’s
just so wrong!”
“It means we could have a family, ya know,” Raphael said, his eyes filling with
tears. “Potentially.”
“It doesn’t. You’d lay duds, which could only be fertilized if one of your
brothers screwed you and that’s just gross. I’m better off finding a male
Salamandrian and stop looking at me like I’m being over dramatic here. I’m not.
I don’t want ….”
“No! Don’t say that, Mona!” Raphael wept, tears now streaming down his cheeks.
“I love ya. Please don’t dump me.” He got onto his knees, looked up at her and
said, “I couldn’t live without ya. Please don’t. Donnie will find a cure.”
“I…”
“He will!” Raphael almost screamed. “Donnie will. He always does.”
“Real men don’t cry,” Mona said coldly. “You’re acting childish and girly. Get
a grip. Fine. If Donnie finds a cure, we’ll be a couple. If he doesn’t, I’m
moving on, okay?”
“Thank ya, baby!” Raphael said, rising to his feet and wrapping his arms around
her. “So we’re still together?”
“We’re on a break,” Mona said, stiffening. “Until we know for sure. I have to
go. I’ll see you.”
“But ya still love me and are attracted ta me, right?” Raphael asked hopefully,
as Mona pulled away. “I’m still the same, even if I look different.”
“I’m not attracted to girls,” Mona said, turning around. “Call me if there’s a
change. I can’t bear to see the creature you’ve become. Not the man I fell in
love with at all. Goodbye."
The family had heard Raphael’s begging and Mona’s frosty attitude and their
hearts had gone out to him, thinking her a bitch. Leo had never really been
keen on her and had thought that she’d only been after one thing: fucking his
brother and that she didn’t care about him. Her attitude now had proved it. The
poor guy-girl-really adored her and she’d acted like it was all his fault and
that he was worthless. Been brutal and ruthless and had ordered that they were
on a break. What the fuck? Raphael deserved assurances that he was loved and
all he'd gotten was abuse.
Leo whispered to his family, “Stay here. I’m going to talk to Raph.” Then he
went into the lounge.
XXX
Raphael was sitting on the couch, his head in his hands and weeping. He looked
up when he saw Leo, his cheeks reddened, ashamed that Leo had seen him this
way. “You okay, Raph?” Leo said gently.
“F…Fine.”
“I don’t want to pry….”
“Then don’t,” Raphael snapped, his eyes blazing.
“Mona’s gone?”
“She’ll be back,” Raphael said, even though he knew she wouldn’t, but there was
no way he’d tell Leo that. And that Leo had been right about her all along. She
didn’t care about him and probably never had.
Leo smiled, which made Raphael’s heart flip. Fuck. Why did Leo have to do that
when he was thinking about Mona? He loved Mona. Not Leo. He had to remember
that.
“I hope she does. Hey. I was thinking about something.”
“That’s rare for ya, Leo.”
“I know, right?” Leo said playfully and wanting to make Raphael feel better,
said, “You up to going out?”
“In the afternoon?”
“Why not?”
“Um, I don’t know. Humans?” Raphael said sarcastically.
“I know of a place where humans don’t go very often, Raph, and we’ll wear our
disguises, so up to it? Unless you want to watch Mikey’s Disney movies. He’s
putting Shrek on in a few minutes.”
“No!” Raphael said in alarm. “He must have seen it at least three hundred
times.”
“At least,” Leo said and chuckled, making Raphael’s heart flip again. “Be ready
in twenty. I’m just going to shower.
Fearless is gonna shower, Raphael thought. Almost like he’s gettin’ ready for a
real date, but it’s not. It’s just gonna be time together as brother…Uh,
brother and sister. Shit! He better remember I’m with Mona. I am still with her
even if we’re on a break, right?
 XXX
Half an hour later, Leo and Raphael were in their disguises of  trench coats,
as well as fedoras, and headed to Murakami’s restaurant, where they placed two
orders of sweet and sour pork, as well as two portions of prawn dim sum and two
sodas. Upon receiving their orders, Leo said they were going somewhere else to
eat.
They made their way to a roof top, climbed up and sat down. Raphael looked out
and said, “Ya can see the whole city from here. And the sun’s just goin’ down.
It’s beautiful, Leo, and so quiet, despite the traffic down below. Oh, wow.
Just look at the magnificence of those colors. It’s picture postcard perfect,
Leo. Man, I wanna draw that."
“Yes. I sometimes come here to reflect.”
“Ya mean ta get away from us.”
“No. To reflect. I’d never want to leave any of my family,” Leo said, staring
intently at Raphael, who ducked his head at the scrutiny. “It’s just serene up
here and I love the view.”
Man, Leo’s eyes so are so beautiful, Raphael thought and told himself to stop
thinking about that. He still loved Mona and always would. “Yeah. It’s pretty
spectacular. Ya can even see the sea a little. It’d be nice ta go ta the ocean
someday.”
“Sure would. We could go soon if you want,” Leo said, handing Raphael his
carton of dim sum. “All us of and have a family vacation.”
“For real?” Raphael asked, his eyes shining in excitement.
“Yes. Or we could go alone. Just us. We haven’t spent much time together and
when we do, we fight. It’d be nice not doing that anymore and just interacting
civilly. What do you think?”
The thought of being alone with Leo was both terrifying and thrilling and so
was being in such proximity to him, his strong musk permeating the lair and
making Raphael think of indecent things he wanted to do his brother. To bide
time, Raphael took a bite, swallowed slowly and said casually, “I guess. I’m
sick of fightin’ with ya too, but the others would be upset if we left them
behind. And they’d suspect we’re messin’ ‘round now that I’m a girl.”
“I never mess around. If I do something, I put my whole heart and soul into it
and I’d never play with peoples’ affections. If I love, I really love and I’d
do anything for the person I loved. I wouldn’t yell at them or treat them like
shit! I know our brothers would think that, but they’d also know that I’m a
virtuous guy and I’d never do anything to hurt anyone or to soil them and
leave…”
“Soil?”
“Steal their virginity and ditch them, besides what would be so wrong if we
were a couple, Raph?”
“I’m with Mona and gonna return ta bein’ a male, and yer not my type.”
“Then why are you aroused whenever I’m near? I can smell your pheromones. It’s
only around me, so you clearly don’t fancy Mikey or Donnie. Do I make your
heart race, Raphael?”
“Is this why we're out, so ya can force me into sayin’ I fancy the pants offa
ya?” Raphael raged, green eyes flashing.
“Your body already tells me and I couldn’t help hearing your argument with
Mona. Well, it was more on her part. You were so torn up. I thought a dinner
together would be nice and we could talk.”
“Yer not my type. I love Mona!” Raphael hissed.
“That ship has sailed, Raphael! The bitch doesn’t like you and probably never
did. If you love someone, you fight for a relationship. She dumped you and said
she’d only take you back if you reverted to a male! Being on a break means she
doesn’t give a shit and wants to test the waters out there. I fucking hope she
finds what she wants, because she sure as hell doesn’t deserve a sweet, loving,
thoughtful person like you!”
“And who does?” Raphael said bitterly. “Ya, Mikey, Donnie?”
“I don’t know, but you certainly deserve better. I’d treat you like a princess
and so would Mikey and Donnie. It’s probable that Donnie won’t find a cure and
you’ll stay a girl, so you have to consider your options. I know you like me,
but you won’t admit it. Fair enough. I can back off if you really hate me.
Perhaps you’d be better off with Mikey and Donnie.”
“Thanks for dinner,” Raphael snarled. “I’m goin’ home and I fuckin’ hate ya,
Leo. How dare ya say such mean things ‘bout my Mona! And for the last damn
time, yer not my type!”
“The hell you are!” Leo said, gripping his face and forcefully thrusting his
tongue inside of Raphael’s mouth for a brutal kiss. Raphael’s eyes widened in
surprise and he dropped his carton, but instead of pulling away, he yanked down
Leo’s mask tails deepening the kiss, which soon became heated, as tongues
battled for dominance.
 
 
Chapter End Notes
     A/N So they've kissed. Will Raph admit his feelings or still be in
     denial? Will Mona return?
End Notes
     A/N What transformations occurred?
     Just an idea that occurred to me in the middle of the night!
     Sorry I haven't updated in ages, Had eye strain and headaches and
     needed time away from my PC.
Please drop_by_the_archive_and_comment to let the author know if you enjoyed
their work!