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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Harry_Potter_-_J._K._Rowling
  Relationship:
      Draco_Malfoy/Harry_Potter, Hermione_Granger/Ron_Weasley
  Character:
      Harry_Potter, Draco_Malfoy
  Additional Tags:
      Post-Order_of_the_Phoenix, Pre-Half-Blood_Prince
  Series:
      Part 2 of Change_My_World
  Collections:
      The_Quidditch_Pitch
  Stats:
      Published: 2016-04-27 Chapters: 12/12 Words: 59780
****** Poses ******
by charlotteschaos
Summary
     Post OotP/Pre HBP. After a week apart where Harry is stuck with the
     Dursleys and Draco has been cooped up with the Order, the boys
     reunite and try to deal with their new lives. Harry/Draco, Sequel to
     Change My World.
***** Trophy *****
"Draco, I'm sure Ron was just asking you because he was curious. He's straight.
He had some questions, he was trying to be nice to you."
"You weren't here. You didn't see it. He was leering at me. He wanted more than
just some questions answered. Ron wanted a ride."
"Well he would've been disappointed, wouldn't he? You don't give rides," said
Harry, smirking at his own cleverness.
Draco stopped his furious packing, interrupting his rather melodramatic escape
scene to glare at Harry. Slowly, he raised his middle finger, "Ride this."
"I don't think you're giving yourself enough credit, Draco," sassed Harry as he
gestured to Draco's middle finger, attempting to lighten the mood. "Come on,
Draco. It's been a week since I've seen you. I'm here now, I'll protect you
from the big, bad straight man."
Malfoy narrowed his eyes and immediately put his hand away. "One day back and
you're already on his side and making fun of my prick. I won't be tarted off to
bi-curious best friends no matter how good a shag you are, because I'm leaving.
They didn't say hardly a word to me all week," huffed Draco, but at least he
didn't resume packing.
"Ginny said that she tried talking to you several times and that you were rude
to her."
"Well of course I was rude to the Weaslette. I don't need hand-me-down
friends!"
"Draco!" exclaimed Harry. "Evidently you do or you wouldn't be here!"
That was enough. Draco was packing again.
"Please stay, Draco. Just... try. Try for another week before you go. Stay
here. Stay with me. I love you," tried Harry. In the back of his mind he knew
that Draco wouldn't actually leave. As worked up as the Slytherin was, he
wasn't stupid. Further, after a quiet chat with Molly, Harry knew that the
other occupants of Grimmauld place weren't what was getting to Draco; instead,
it was that painting of Sirius's mother. Each time she started to shriek about
blood traitors, Draco would blanch and fly up to his room.
The painting made Draco remember-- remember his family and his roots. Draco
wondered what his mother would say from a portrait if she could speak to him.
Would she wail like that? Or would her blue eyes just look sad as she stood
there and shook her head? His dreams were plagued with nightmarish replays of
how she might have died. None of them had any real basis in fact; he was
assured she didn't suffer. Just the killing curse and she was gone, but his
subconscious couldn't help but speculate.
Draco's packing progression halted at those three hard-won little words coming
from Harry. At the utterance, he dropped his clothing and folded his arms.
Looking skyward he said, "I love you, too. This is just..."
"Hard. I know. I'm sorry," Harry said as he reached for Draco and wrapped his
arms around him from behind to whisper intimately into his lover's ear. "I had
the week from hell with terrified relatives. As horrid as they were, though, I
just kept thinking of you. Worrying about you, wanting to be with you. I missed
you."
Draco knew there was a reason Harry had to go to Privet Drive. They wouldn't
just send him for fun, and yet he was feeling prattish and wanted attention.
"You should've come to me then. You almost missed me. I might've left yesterday
had cookies not been prepared to my exact specifications."
"Oh, the infamous oatmeal with no raisins cookies. Hermione wrote to me about
those last night," said Harry. Planting a kiss behind Draco's ear, he cooed to
him. "Mrs. Weasley shouldn't have chased you around the kitchen with the
spatula, but perhaps you could be a bit less-"
"The cookies were dry. She obviously did something wrong," purred Draco as he
leaned back against Harry, arching his back so that he could slide his ass
against his lover to manipulate his point.
Harry knew from day one that Draco likely had an opinion on everything, but he
had no idea just how spoilt and particular his boyfriend could be. "She worked
hard on those cookies for you..." his breath caught as he felt Draco moving
against him.
"And the milk was tepid. It wasn't warm milk it was... room temperature. Lazy,"
Draco continued, adding his hand between them to coax Harry's agreement.
Must-- remain-- in control--- a week! A week and now-- control, Harry, he
reminded himself. If Draco entertained the notion that he could get his way
through frottage, he had another thing coming. "She's not a house elf, Draco!"
Wriggling away like an offended cat, Draco continued his trite non-verbal
analogy by hissing like one, "As was pointed out to me. I didn't say she was.
House elves are at least sorry when they cock things up!"
Harry sighed and peered down at his unattended erection and then up at Draco's
meaningful gesture of turning his back to him. Again, like a cat.
This was going to be a long summer.
--
These sleeping arrangements weren't going to work, Ron decided. He gave his
roommates credit, Draco and Harry did wait till after Ron was asleep before
Harry crept into Draco's bed. However, the shifting of the small bed on the dry
hardwood floor and the gentle, rhythmic squeal of the springs was enough to
wake Ron.
In the peculiar blue light from the gibbous moon, Ron could make out their
position. Pale legs wrapped around Harry's darker torso and Draco's hands
sliding adoringly over Harry's face. Their pace was slow, pausing now and then
as they smiled and giggled and even simply chatted in the pauses during their
lovemaking.
It didn't arouse Ron; but he couldn't quite tear his eyes away from it. Unlike
Harry, Ron didn't notice any sort of magical transformation in Draco's
appearance. He was still as pale, pointed and ferrety as he'd always been. If
anything he looked a bit worse for wear, but losing your entire family and
changing your destiny in the span of a couple of months did that to a person.
Ron's eyes adapted to the dark and he could see them smiling at one another,
their features softened in ways that he hadn't really seen from either of them
individually. After a couple of sharp movements from Harry, punctuated by the
quiet protests of the springs, the boys stilled. Ron heard the quiet smacking
sounds of deep kissing and then the whispers began again. Chatting, smiling,
catching up. He overheard "love" and "missed" along with soft murmurs of "be
nice" that followed mentions of "Weasel" and "Muggleborn."
He knew that watching this was intruding on their private time, but it was
fascinating. Ron's own fumbling interactions with Hermione were usually rapid
and heady. Granted, they never had their own room to luxuriate in. Everything
they did was necessarily rushed. Watching this, he felt intimidated by the
intimacy.
Draco's hands were cupping Harry's face again and they were just looking at
each other for a moment before Harry's lower back started to move again. The
rhythm started gently and Draco's arms moved down and around Harry's body as
they both gasped and whimpered quietly to one another, clearly attempting to
remain quiet.
As much as Ron really wanted to stop looking, it was too compelling. He closed
his eyes several times with the intention of giving them privacy only to have
them fly open again at another odd sound. Their breathing turned raspy and
still they were speaking to one another but with less fluidity. By now the bed
was shrieking its protests but the boys seemed not to notice the noise, as they
were lost in a tangle of limbs, tongues and bed sheets.
Their vocalizations became a quiet murmur of prayer and curses and Ron's
heartbeat picked up in empathy. He wasn't exactly aroused, nor was he unmoved.
As unattractive as he found Malfoy, he wasn't particularly enamored of Harry.
Not that his best mate was unattractive, it just wasn't the way he looked at
his friends or boys in general. It just made him happy to see. After putting up
with Malfoy for a week it was good for him to see that Harry really did love
him and that Malfoy was capable of truly loving his friend back. Or on the
other hand, maybe he was just a pervert. No. That wasn't it at all. He wasn't
getting off on this.
He was so lost in his analysis of why he was watching that he missed the last
few articulated thrusts that ended in mutual gasps and the final boneless flop
of Harry atop Draco who grasped him tightly and tucked his face into his neck.
Finally registering that it was over, he let out a low sigh of relief and
closed his eyes to block out the final sloppy slurping sounds of their kissing.
More whispering, more conversation, but it was becoming quieter, briefer, with
longer drowsy pauses in between. Ron turned over in his bed to face the wall
and closed his eyes. He decided then that he definitely needed to push for his
own room or make some sort of agreement.
--
Draco was chipper over breakfast the next morning. Embarrassingly chipper, in
fact. So chipper that Harry had a hard time making eye contact with anyone else
in the room. This worked out well since no one else in the room seemed able to
make eye contact with him or Draco.
Draco was undeterred by the room's silence and simply to be more of a prat, he
took to humming as he set his plate. His plate. With the Malfoy crest in the
middle and a full set of shining silverware that likely cost what Arthur made
in a year.
Harry was used to Draco and his place setting fetish and was unsurprised by the
appearance of the Malfoy family china. At this point the rest of the Order was
used to it as well, although they had been a bit surprised the first day when
Malfoy refused to eat off of anything else.
"I think I liked it better when you were quiet, Malfoy," Ron interjected to
interrupt the annoying humming.
Draco halted in the midst serving himself poached eggs and smirked, "Funny
that, I was just enjoying the sound of your being too afraid to make your
clumsy bi-curious advances on me in front of Harry." He sneered pointedly at
Ron whose hand curled into a fist as he started to stand.
Hermione and Ginny who were sitting on either side of Ron, pulled him back down
to sitting, "That's not true!"
"Draco," warned Harry as he pinched Draco's thigh.
"Ow!" snapped Draco, who leaned in and rested his chin on Harry's shoulder and
leered at Ron, Ginny and Hermione. He'd just opened his mouth to say something
else to them when he heard Molly clear her throat from the stove situated
behind him.
Hermione wished that she were surprised by this behavior. She'd expected that
once Harry showed up to protect him from the occupants of the house the Malfoy
bravado would make its reappearance. It made her a bit uneasy. If Draco was
willing to use Harry as protection in the kitchen, she wondered just how often
Malfoy was going to play this sort of game and to what end. She opened her
mouth to comment when McGonagall and Snape swept down the stairs silently into
the basement kitchen.
While Harry was normally all for as much snuggling as he could get, he was a
bit put out by Draco's behavior. He was about to push him away and to tell him
behave when Snape came into the room. At seeing the Potion's master, he dashed
his hands around Draco and pulled him closer.
Draco made no protests about this and likewise settled closer to Harry. On his
first day at Grimmauld Place, Snape had showed up at breakfast just like this.
Upon seeing him, Draco grabbed up his plate and tea and charged up to the room.
The manner wards Draco put on the door were a tad childish and while Snape
could have easily gotten through them, the message was clear. Severus was not
forgiven yet. So the teacher kept to his regular rounds of Order business and
had, other than furtive attempts to make eye contact, left Draco alone.
Minerva was delighted to be here, although her stern face didn't reflect that.
She wanted to personally deliver this news to Harry, particularly since she
felt responsible for some of the tribulations the boys endured. It was hardly
her fault that Voldemort had shown up when he did, but she still felt guilty
for encouraging the boys to continue in spite of what the dangers were. That
said, she was pleased that Draco and Harry were still together and that Draco
seemed to have been redeemed, or at least not actively fighting along side the
Death Eaters.
She didn't believe that Snape's presence was necessary for the news that they
were going to give, but her colleague insisted. She understood that Snape
wanted to make things up to Draco. It would hurt to have Harry reject her the
way that Draco had pushed Snape away, however she understood why Draco did it.
Part of her wondered if there weren't something more going on there. Minerva
never asked. How did you broach that subject with a coworker?
"Mr. Potter," she acknowledged brusquely through a spare smile as she stood
behind Ron. "I have some news that I believe you will be rather glad to hear."
Of course, she knew this was a message she had to impart personally. She was
making good on one of her vows from fifth year, one that she had feared she
wouldn't be able to fulfill now that Snape had permanently banned Harry from
further Potions classes.
"Yes?" asked Harry as he sat up a little straighter. Good news? That was a
switch. In general his life seemed to go from bad to worse, particularly when
Snape was around. He took pleasure in shooting Snape a quick grin before he
focused his attention back on McGonagall.
McGonagall was smiling; she hadn't looked this pleased since she told Harry he
could be a Seeker. "The Ministry of Magic is starting Auror training Monday
morning and there is a spot reserved for you," she stated.
"What? Me? An Auror?" Harry questioned with his eyes bright and wide.
"Well, you will not, of course, actually be an Auror after this. The training
takes three years and you will have to go back to school in September. Besides,
you are still too young for that. However, the Headmaster has arranged with
Amelia Bones for you to spend the summer training up so that you will be better
prepared to face... whatever comes," McGonagall said. What was to come was
going to be difficult and tragic. It would require many sacrifices on both
sides. At least, she reasoned, Harry would be as able to protect himself as
possible. Perhaps he would even be able to teach the others. What pleased her
most about this arrangement was that she knew how much it would mean to Harry.
"Monday morning? That's... that's tomorrow!" said Harry as he disentangled
himself from an increasingly clingy Draco. "I start tomorrow. Tomorrow!" he
said again, trying to contain his excitement. He looked across the table at Ron
and Hermione who seemed pleased for him, even if Ron did look slightly put out,
as he always did whenever Harry got something that he did not. Finally he
turned his head towards Draco who was clearly sulking. "Auror training!" he
enthused as he prodded his boyfriend.
"Shouldn't we all be receiving Auror training?" Draco asked. "The golden boy's
escaped the Dark Lord loads of times. It's the rest of us who could use
training up," Draco pointed out. Ron's ginger brows rose at what he thought was
an excellent point and he twisted around to look hopefully at McGonagall.
Looking down at the children in puzzlement, she couldn't fathom why the others
were anything less than thrilled for Harry. Then it hit her. Jealousy. It had
been too long since she'd been that age. "I'm afraid it took quite a bit of
effort for Dumbledore to get Harry enrolled, but I am certain that Harry will
be happy to teach you all what he learns. He'll be back here in the evenings,
although he may be tired. Perhaps when the school year starts, he'll have
time."
"Auror training!" enthused Harry to no one in particular, pointedly ignoring
those who were brooding at his good fortune.
"I'm so proud of you, Harry!" said Molly who gave him a quick hug from behind.
"Congratulations, Harry," added a beaming Hermione.
"Good show!" continued Ginny.
"Yes, that's... really great, Harry," grumbled Ron.
"So I'm going to be left here all alone with these... people all day?" asked
Draco, mostly to Harry.
"I am afraid so, Mr. Malfoy. Although I could come by if you wish," offered
Snape.
"He'll be fine!" snapped Harry before Draco could give his answer.
"I believe that's his choice to make, Potter," sneered Snape.
Draco folded his arms angrily and just glared around the table, clearly
displeased with every facet of this situation. Everyone looked right back at
him, waiting for him to give an answer. "Pfft."
"Pardon?" asked Snape as he stepped forward.
Draco glared at the corner of the wooden table and flexed his jaw. Finally he
looked over at Harry as if he'd just betrayed him in some horrible way. "That
won't be necessary, Professor Snape," he growled through his teeth.
Harry gave Draco a guilty smile and reached out to take his hand. He wanted to
be sympathetic to his boyfriend, but he was wounded that Draco wasn't happy for
him. Then again, being left behind with people you hated couldn't be
particularly fun either. "I'll be home every night."
"Very well, then. Although I would like to talk to you about your dropping
Potions class at some point before the school year starts, Mr. Malfoy. I
realize that our relations are a bit strained at the moment, but you have a
brilliant..." started Snape.
"I don't want to talk about it," Draco broke in.
"You will have to deal with me next year either way, Mr. Malfoy. I am your Head
of House," drawled Snape as he moved to sit next to Draco. At Harry's narrowed
eyes, Snape perked a brow and looked smug. It amused him to know how irritated
his position next to Draco would make Harry.
"Not that it matters since I have my own room," retorted Draco as he scooted
closer to Harry again. Harry pulled Draco to him protectively, returning
Snape's smugness with a triumphant grin.
"No, you will not have your own room," intoned Snape, whose face went blank in
order to keep his annoyance with Draco's recoiling in check.
"But I'm not safe in Slytherin, all of those Death Eaters children...." Draco
squalled.
"Have been withdrawn from attending Hogwarts, Dra-Mr. Malfoy," stated Snape.
"What?" Draco asked for the entire room. Curious eyes were upon the two
Slytherin. All of the Death Eater children withdrawn? Was the war that near?
"Those who would harm you will not be returning to Hogwarts. Some have enrolled
at Durmstrang and I believe some are... training," Snape said with as much care
as he could muster, knowing this would likely bother Draco.
"Oh," was all Draco could say. "So Crabbe and Goyle?"
"Withdrawn."
"Parkinson? Nott?"
"Are not returning," explained Snape.
"Oh." Draco closed his eyes and nodded with solemnity. Of course. Were his
father still alive, he would have been withdrawn for seventh year as well. He'd
probably be in the Dark Lord's presence right now, being marked, preparing for
battle. He shivered and looked up at Harry and then up to his lover's scar. In
spite of the fact that all of those people aside from Goyle had attacked him,
he worried for them. Although mostly for Crabbe and Goyle. Poor simpletons.
They really had no clue.
"So you should be quite safe back in my care," pointed out Snape.
The words sent a shiver through Harry's spine. "Oh certainly. Great care that
is. Maybe Voldemort himself will show up and you can walk him to Draco's room
personally this time!" exclaimed Harry.
The occupants of the room flinched at Harry's blunt recitation of Voldemort's
name. All except Snape, who glared at Harry. "That was an unfortunate error in
judgment that no one regrets more than I."
"Oh, I bet Draco regrets it much more than you do," hissed Harry.
Snape's eyes narrowed and his mouth opened to speak when McGonagall cut him
off. "I think that it is time for us to take our leave, Severus," she spoke.
Draco found a spot on the wall to glare at while Harry and Snape's eyes bore
into each other venomously. "Yes, I think it's time for you to leave, Snape,"
growled Harry.
"I was just getting comfortable, Potter," Snape growled back.
Minerva moved around the table to Snape and put her hand on his shoulder. She'd
drag him out bodily if she had to. The rest of the room was agog at the
spectacle. "Severus, we're leaving. Now." Her tone brooked no debate. "Now."
After a beat, Snape pushed himself out of the chair that skidded back loudly
over the stone floor. "Mr. Malfoy, I will be back to talk to you about our
issues."
"There's nothing to talk about," answered Draco, whose nostrils flared and eyes
rolled. No Harry during the day and now Snape promised to badger him.
"Very well," answered Snape. Feeling McGonagall's hand tightening on his
shoulder, he knew it was time to retreat. For now.
"Tomorrow morning, Mr. Potter," chirped McGonagall. "Be ready by eight. Arthur
will be bringing you to the Ministry with him. I expect you to be well rested,
so do not stay up too late tonight."
In spite of everything going on, Harry beamed. "Eight. I'll be ready. Thank
you, Professor."
Giving a nod, she turned on her heel to exit, followed closely by Snape, who
exited the room in a theatrical flare of robes.
--
Draco excused himself early from dinner. After spending the day listening to
Harry recount the horrors of a week with the Muggles, he'd had quite enough of
the stories that left him feeling angry and helpless and the company he was
forced to keep. As it was, his contempt for Muggles and Muggleborns was only
glossed over by necessity. He realized that Harry wasn't a pureblood, but it
was an indulgence he allowed himself rationalizing that he was at least famous.
And adorable. And he made the loveliest noises when--
And at that point his train of thought derailed and somehow his hypocrisy
seemed logical. Harry was Harry, not a half blood. Granger was a Mudblood, end
of story.
He wandered around the drawing room silently, looking over the items leftover
from the previous summer's cleaning. His fingers grazed over the once bedeviled
writing desk as he swept to the Black family tapestry. "Lumos," he whispered,
which unintentionally lit up the room. Draco's eyes quickly darted around the
room that was part of his past, his family. The house in itself was a dim
shadow of memory. Now and then a disembodied elf head or some trinket would
trigger a jolt of familiarity. Better days. Family. His father. His mother. The
guilt of their passing would twist his stomach and he'd retreat to his room to
read until it passed.
In an odd turn of events, Sirius Black's lack of a formal will resulted in the
house defaulting to the closest in the bloodline who had not been disinherited,
which meant that Draco Malfoy was the proud new owner of not only the Manor but
also Grimmauld Place. My summer home, Draco mused in one of his morbid moments.
He glanced over the mostly empty glass shelving and his memory flashed on his
father swatting his hand away from the glass. His wailing, his father's stern
voice and the hard slap of his father's hand on his and the tacit agreement of
the room that Draco was out of line. Draco closed his eyes and shook his head.
There had been terrors on the shelves. He knew that now. But his toddler self
didn't understand and no one explained. Reaching out, he slid his fingers over
the glass. Innocuous seals and daggers were all that was left, remnants of the
Noble House of Black.
Finally turning away from the shelves to what he'd come in to see, he looked
over the enormous tapestry. His eyes followed the lines up the family tree, or
at least his mother's side, till he caught the line stemming from Phineas
Nigellus. His brows furrowed. Phineas Nigellus. The portrait that had snickered
at him in his room from day one of his being here and had in as much as called
him a blood traitor. It had been easy enough to avoid the entryway and Mrs.
Black's wrath. Nigellus, however, was always in his room and had a subtle way
of degrading him.
Ignoring his distaste for Nigellus, he traced the family line down through the
generations with his outstretched hand. He smirked at the line out to the
Weasleys. Certainly this had to irk Ron. Go back far enough and Draco had to be
related to nearly everyone. His musings had taken him so far from his goal,
perhaps protectively so, that he'd almost forgotten it until suddenly his
finger was trailing over his parents' names.
He glanced to Sirius's name and then over to his aunt Andromeda's name. Blacked
out. According to the tapestry, they ceased to exist. Gone. His father would
have erased his name without a moment's hesitation. This wasn't the Malfoy
family tree, however. It was the Black family, his mother's family. She never
knew what hit her or why. What would his mother say about his relationship?
Would she have burned him off the tapestry for his betrayal? His finger slid
over his own name and frowned that it would all end with him. Would his
sexuality have been enough to make his mother burn him away?
Draco thought he'd made his peace with his mother's memory. He liked to believe
that she would have approved and encouraged him. Now he was faced with the
family she came from. This hadn't been her house, of course. She'd never lived
here. These were her roots, though. Her name wasn't burned off of this
tapestry, so either she was good at faking her beliefs or she had bought into
it. No. He was playing with himself. He knew what she bought it all and as much
as she'd want to see him happy, she would not have been pleased with his
relationship with Harry. Nigellus knew. That was why he snickered. Draco's hand
dropped from the tapestry and he pressed his lips together and closed his eyes.
Harry had seen enough of Draco's masochism. He'd followed his lover up the
stairs from the kitchen after he'd left and spied on him in the drawing room.
In truth, he thought Draco had signaled him to go up to their room. Finding out
quickly that was not the case, he was intrigued with exactly what Draco was
going to do in this room. Now it appeared that what Malfoy was going to do was
break down. Harry moved across the room and tenderly wrapped his arms around
Draco's waist from behind and whispered reassurances.
Draco leaned back against Harry. He was surprised that Harry was there, but
grateful all the same. Placing his hands over Harry's on his abdomen he turned
his head to the side and kissed the side of his face. "Thank you."
"Come on. Let's get out of here. Come to bed." Harry interlaced his fingers
with Draco's and pulled him towards the door.
"Yes. I'm tired," said Draco. "You have a big day tomorrow."
"Draco-- I know you don't..."
"Like your friends? Want to be left here?"
"Yes, that." Harry looked into Draco's eyes, trying to read his emotions.
"Pfft. Well." Draco dropped his gaze to stare down at his feet and then gave a
shrug. Finally, he looked up past Harry and sighed. "Nothing for it. You're the
golden boy. The hero. I'm the... homeowner," he snarked at his position of
owning two homes, neither of which he could actually live in without being
attacked.
"What?"
"Oh, this place, the Manor, I'm a boy of leisure, didn't you know? So many
houses, so little time. It's silly this place went to me. You should have it."
"What?" asked Harry again. It was English, clear enough, but somehow the words
weren't making sense.
"This house. You should have it. I should give it to you. I don't need it. I'm
sure Sirius would've intended for you to have it."
"You want to give me a... house? This house?" asked Harry.
"Well, sure. It's not like I'm giving you anything of value. I don't know this
house and it's barely even a shack. But then you won't have to go to those
Muggles every summer. You'd have your own place," said Draco. He took up
Harry's hands and looked back into his eyes. "Yes. I want to give you this
house."
Harry bit his lip, feeling overwhelmed. He looked around the drawing room. It
wasn't exactly the cheeriest of places. But it would be his. Then Draco went on
about how he wouldn't have to stay with the Muggles. No. He had to go there. He
couldn't have another home. It would break the blood of protection. "I... I
can't accept it."
"I don't need it, Harry."
"I know you don't. I just can't... take it."
Draco sighed. "I want to do this for you. You... those stories...those people.
I don't want you to ever have to deal with that again. I know what all those
people have done to you..."
"Draco, stop." Harry pressed his fingers to Draco's lips to hush him." It's not
that. I appreciate it, Draco. It's just that-- I have to stay with the
Dursleys-- you didn't want to know any of this."
Knocking Harry's hand from his lips, he said, "I didn't want to know then
because I had to go home at some point. The path I was on-- and I didn't know
Occlumency-- at this point, who would I tell?"
Harry gave this some thought. "That's true. I haven't... exactly explained it
to anyone before. It's simple, really. When my mother died, she died protecting
me. The grand mystery of my survival has to do with my mother's love. That love
is bound to blood and home. Petunia Dursley is my mother's sister and is
therefore of my blood, so calling the Dursley's my home enables me to keep that
protection. If I accept this as my home, then it voids that. So I can't."
"Oh," was all Draco could come up with to say after a moment's thought. He'd
paled considerably and then nodded his understanding. "So if they died, it
would void that protection?"
Harry ruffled his hair nervously and pushed his glasses up his nose. "Well, I
hadn't thought of it that way, but yes."
"I see. I... shouldn't know this."
"What? Why not? Are you going to kill the Dursleys?"
Draco shook his head and then turned to look back at the tapestry.
"Are you having doubts?"
"I-- no. I don't-- no? Yes. No? I... " Draco gestured to the tapestry. "It's
who I am."
"That isn't all you are. It wasn't all Sirius was."
Draco squinted at the tapestry and then turned back to look at Harry. "I don't
want to be a scorch mark."
That took Harry's breath away. "What? What do you mean by that?"
"Toujours Pur. Forever pure. That's the family creed. But... " Draco's fingers
tightened around Harry's hands and he looked desperately lost for a moment.
"But that doesn't leave room for love, does it?"
"It doesn't exclude it. I'm sure your father loved your mother."
Draco looked dour and shook his head. He doubted his father loved anything
overmuch. Or maybe it was just easier for him to believe that. It certainly
made his betrayal neater. "I love you. I love being a Malfoy. Or I did. I
just..."
"You don't know what it means?"
"Not anymore."
"You'll figure it out."
"You're so certain of that. I wish I had... someone to talk to about it. Like
your godfather," confessed Draco in hushed tones.
Harry smiled tightly. "I wish he were here too."
"I don't feel right knowing how you could be killed. What if..."
"What if what?"
"Something happened? I'm not a Gryffindor."
Harry rolled his eyes. What could possibly happen while Draco was here? "Well,
that would explain why I haven't seen you around the dorms."
Draco squeezed Harry's hand too tightly in warning. "Don't be me about this.
You know what I mean. I'm strong, but not like Dumbledore. If I were
captured...."
"You won't be."
"I don't recall you being particularly good in Divination, Harry."
Harry sighed. "Well, then perhaps I don't know that for certain. But now that
I've entrusted you with this secret, you can't be putting yourself in harm's
way. Which means that no you must stay here. No running away while I'm gone."
"Oh, now I get it. You only told me to keep me here," sauced Draco who released
Harry's hands to wrap his arms around him. "Sneaky. Rather Slytherin, really."
"The hat wanted me in Slytherin. I argued with it."
"That explains so much," teased Draco who had to duck Harry's playful swat.
"Seriously. Promise me no big theatrics while I'm gone, Draco. Please. I won't
learn anything worrying about you all day."
Draco sighed and started them towards the door again. "Fine, fine. I'll let
your toadies abuse me all day so long as you make it up to me at night."
Harry rolled his eyes as he followed Draco. Abuse him. Honestly. "That's all I
ask."
***** Click-track Heart *****
The next morning, Draco and Harry headed down to the basement kitchen together,
leaving Ron to sleep in. Draco reasoned that he might as well eat with Harry
and then he'd kick Ron out of the room to go eat while he took a nap.
They walked down the stairs hand-in-hand, teasing one another about what they
were going to do all day without each other. After the boys entered the
kitchen, Molly and Arthur immediately snapped closed their copies of The Daily
Prophet and set them down. Harry and Draco stared at them curiously and both
tilted their heads to read the headlines. Molly was alarmed to see that Arthur
had nervously set his copy down face up and snatched the paper up to turn it
over, but her actions were in vain.
Draco read the headline aloud, "The Boy Who Was Gay?' What? Like there's only
one gay boy?"
Harry was aghast. "Is that about me?"
"Well, technically it's about us but yes, the headline is about you."
"You knew about this?" Harry asked Draco as the Weasleys got up and shuffled
around the kitchen to set out dishes for the boys.
"Oh sure, it's a series. They've been on about it for days," noted Draco as he
took a seat and poured himself a cup of tea.
Harry was flustered, but he followed Draco and took the seat next to him and
picked up the paper. He gazed at it in wide-eyed shock. "Days?"
"I know. You'd think there wasn't a war on. Then again, we're much sexier than
a war. I'm not even sure what they could possibly be saying about us now.
Yesterday they had it that we were unreachable because we'd run away to have
some romantic tryst in the mountains of Spain." Draco paused for a moment
before adding cream and sighed wistfully. "If only."
"Days?" squeaked Harry again as he shook his head, unable to concentrate well
enough to read for himself. He was comfortable with being gay. Well,
comfortable with Malfoy. He hadn't thought much about it; he hadn't really had
the time to. However, he wasn't comfortable with everyone reading about it.
Draco grabbed the paper away from Harry and with a snap of his wrist, flicked
it away from the table. "It's rubbish. Nearly all of their facts are incorrect
and the picture they keep running of me is appalling. Pay attention to me
instead."
"Eat something, Harry dear," Molly intoned in her singsong voice as she set out
eggs and bangers for the boys.
"Yes, eat something Harry. You need your strength for Auror training and then
after that I'm going to make you do to me what they wrote you do to me in the
paper yesterday," flirted Draco as he speared one of the sausages and sucked on
the end of it scandalously.
"WHAT?!" squealed Harry. Draco snickered.
"Draco!" snapped Molly. "Harry... they don't report things like that dear.
They're just surprised. As we all are. That's all."
"Surprised?" asked Harry as Draco nudged him and rolled his eyes. "Oh, right.
They thought I'd be with a girl."
"Probably Granger, loads of people are under that delusion. Lack wits," said
Draco as dismissed the banger and took a bite of his eggs.
"I always thought you and Ginny would end up together," piped up Arthur.
Harry looked shocked that people had been giving his love life any thought at
all. He'd certainly never given it that much thought. "Oh. Well. Surprise."
"Indeed," said Draco as he nudged him again. This time Harry nudged him back
and grinned. Harry retaliated by scooping a bit of egg yolk on his finger and
smearing it over Draco's lips and then they started to kiss.
Molly grinned at the two boys. It was disarming to see them like this. They
just appeared to be two kids in love. Not the Boy Who Lived and Draco Malfoy at
all, just two lovers not staring into the face of oblivion at all. Even Arthur
was impressed that the stoic blond was so lit up and that Harry was giggling.
The older couple looked at one another and then Arthur took Molly's hand.
Between the snickering and occasional breaks to kiss and tease one another,
breakfast ran a little long. Finally, Arthur cleared his throat and announced
that it was time for them to go. The boys embraced as if they wouldn't see each
other for a week, but finally broke apart and Harry filed out after Mr.
Weasley.
Draco headed up to his room after giving Molly a curt nod for breakfast. He
shook the end of Ron's bed to rouse him and then flopped into his own. Picking
up his book, he reclined against the pillows and began to read his Wizard's
edition of "The Taming of the Shrew." He enjoyed the moving pictures of
Katherine and Petruccio banter and read along. It was a children's edition with
loads of moving pictures, but it was attended with the proper text for him to
read if he wished. In particular he took pleasure in Petruccio's starving of
Kate with his rudeness to the servants. Finally he slid his finger over the
base of the picture to stop the picture from playing and settled in to read.
No sooner had Ron finally ambled out of the shower, then Draco heard quiet
snickering from the portrait of his ancestor Phineas Nigellus. "Look, you can
either say something or you can knock it off, but I'm not having another week
of your heavy breathing."
"Of course," purred the painting as the goateed man come into view and lean
casually against the frame. "I should leave all of that heavy breathing to
you."
Draco rolled his eyes and looked back at his book.
"You asked me to talk, Mr. Malfoy. Now you're going to ignore me? Tut, tut, so
rude. Or are you afraid to have a conversation with an ancestor?" questioned
Nigellus.
"I'm not afraid. They're just boring."
"Boring? I suppose that's why you sent that werewolf into your home to retrieve
the contents of your room at the Manor? Afraid to have boring conversations
with your forbearers?"
"No, it was too dangerous and too menial for someone important like me. So they
sent an expendable person," lied Draco. Aside from the fact that he was dead
scared of Remus biting him, he didn't accompany him because he was afraid of
what the portraits would say.
"Oh, of course, but you know and I know that your only worth in this house is
as the 'Chosen Boy's' boyfriend. These people would let you die were it not for
him. Is that why you let him copulate with you in that manner? Is that what
makes you the woman, Draco? Oh how ashamed your mother would be to know that
her little boy grew up to be someone's sweet little wife," taunted Nigellus.
Trembling, Draco felt wisps of a blush coloring his cheeks as each one of his
fears was systematically pulled out and put on parade. He slammed the book shut
and glared at Nigellus.
"You know it's true. You know your mother would not be happy with this. That's
what you hope, don't you? That she would love her homosexual son? She may have.
But you know she wouldn't be pleased with you bending for a half blood.
Particularly that half blood. It must be a weakness in the Malfoy blood. A
bloodline whose motto is 'Toujours Pur' certainly wouldn't produce a fully
fledged bottoming blood traitor."
Draco's chin tilted up as he tried to face these charges with dignity, but he
was visibly shaken. He clutched the book to his chest and sneered at the
painting. Rationally, he knew that Nigellus didn't know his mother personally,
but his sentiments stung his already ravening insecurities. His mother wouldn't
be proud, would she? Draco stood to leave.
Nigellus caught sight of the title of the book Draco was clutching. His eyes
sparked with fresh malice, "My, my, my, reading a Muggle-loving Wizard's work,
are we? And that story in particular, hmm? Why would you read that story, I
wonder? Are you hoping that after all of the banter and forceful treatment that
Petruccio and Katherine live happily ever after, Draco?"
Draco stretched taller and took a deep breath. "It's merely entertainment, a
way to pass the time. I had a collection of these, the full set, in fact. My
father burned many of them, as you likely know. That left me with little to
read other than the dry books on Dark Magic. I feel like reading these now
because there's no one to tell me not to."
The story of the shrew Katherine, who was too bitter and sharp-witted to be
beholden to any man, being forcefully romanced by a likewise sharp-witted man
earned her respect enough to marry wasn't as widely renowned as Shakespeare's
other works. It was more of a comedy than a true romance. Up until this point,
Draco hadn't considered the similarities of his situation. It wasn't a direct
allegory, but he had to ask himself whether that was why he was reading it?
"You'd think with generations to consider, you might have gotten better with
analogy and the use of literary allusions."
Phineas chuckled. "Oh, certainly, Master Malfoy. The problem is with my...
analogy. Look at you, so dignified as you stand there with an illustrated
children's book," Nigellus mocked. "You do realize, of course, given what
you're to face for your treacherous ways, your magic books would be much more
practical to read. But we all know why you're reading Muggle literature, don't
we? You want to know how it all ends. Well, let me set your mind at ease about
how dear Petruccio and Dra-Katherine... end up."
Draco's eyes narrowed at Nigellus and he turned on his heel to head out of the
room, but he couldn't escape Nigellus's last words.
"It wasn't happily ever after, Dratherine," he cackled to the back of Draco's
head. "Poor Kate was subjected to Petruccio's will for the rest of her life.
What could she do? She entered into the marriage against her will, subjected to
a headstrong and capricious man. Though she convinced herself that was love and
that love in itself was enough, she was neither in love nor would that fleeting
emotion ever going to be enough even if she were. She died lonely and without
the decorum that sticking with her principles would have given her."
Draco glared at the portrait from the doorway for a moment after the end of its
rant and then muttered, "The End," and slammed the door.
--
Draco sat alone in the drawing room for a good half hour. There were other
rooms, of course, but he kept coming back here, didn't he? He'd intended to get
back to reading his book, but instead he'd taken to staring up at the family
motto, "Toujours Pur." He wondered if this was what Sirius did when he was
trapped here the summer before. Probably not. He probably had more sense. Draco
rolled his eyes and sighed.
He was remotely aware of Ron taking a seat on the other end of the couch. Draco
tried to ignore his presence until Ron cleared his throat in exasperation. "Why
don't you go to your room?" asked Draco, not looking towards him.
"I was in there, but that painting was... giggling. Bloody unsettling, that
is," observed Ron.
Draco huffed and looked back down at his book. "Indeed."
"Besides, I thought we might... you know... plan a little."
"Plan? A little?"
"Well, I realize that you and Harry probably want some alone time, being that
you're a couple and all," said Ron. He certainly didn't want to admit that he'd
been privy to the past two nights' alone time. That was just embarrassing.
"Alone time," Draco drawled. "That's a very genteel way of saying you don't
want to listen to us... shagging?" Draco leered at Ron blatantly, knowing that
made him uncomfortable.
"You know what I mean, Malfoy," Ron huffed as he wrapped his arms around
himself.
"Look, why don't we do it this way; Harry and I will shag after dinner and you
stay out of the room till 9 or 10 and by then we should be asleep," offered
Draco.
"Then we don't get to see Harry!" complained Ron
"You'll see him at dinner."
"Everyone will see him at dinner."
"Well there you go. Everyone will have seen him. I'm not sure what the flap is
about."
Ron glared.
"Fine then," he said as he gave a dismissive gesture. "We'll just promise to be
dressed and done by then. Up to him if he is too tired."
"But right after dinner? Why not... later?"
"Do you want to be locked out of the room all night? I'm just trying to keep it
fair and with a reasonable schedule. You can just take that time to shag
Granger and you lot can chat about your afterglow while I sleep."
Ron flushed at this suggestion, ignoring that Malfoy didn't include himself in
the afterglow chat, not that anyone would miss him. "Well, if we had
afterglow..." he mumbled.
"Pardon?"
"Nothing," blurted out Ron, angry with himself for his admission.
Draco was so amused he could barely contain it. "You mean you haven't shagged
the Mu--ggleborn?" he said after a warning look from Weasley.
"No."
Trying to contain his want to cackle at this revelation, he said, "In that
case, I commend you on your taste."
"It wasn't MY decision, Malfoy," growled Ron, now visibly scarlet and shifting
in his seat.
"Then I commend HER on HER taste," sassed Draco before he cackled.
Hopping up from his seat, Ron shouted, "I'm not discussing this with YOU!"
"Good!" retorted Draco. "It was making me nauseated to contemplate!"
"You shagging Harry makes ME nauseous!"
"Not so nauseous that you didn't have yourself a peek, hmm?" gloated Draco.
Ron paled and worked his mouth, too shocked to reply. Draco knew? He SAW? He
knew and didn't stop? "Fine! After dinner you and Harry... do whatever. This
conversation is over!" shouted Ron as he stomped out of the room. What the
bloody hell? Malfoy knew he was watching and didn't stop? Pervert probably got
off on it. Ron clenched his jaw in fury as he fled towards the kitchen,
brushing past Hermione.
"Ron? Is everything all right? I heard shouting..." she called after him.
"It's fine, Hermione. Everything's bloody FINE!" he shouted, awakening the
portrait in the entryway.
"BLOOD TRAITORS BE GONE FROM MY HOUSE-" Mrs. Black started.
Ron yanked back the curtain to give the woman a glare so lethal that she
quieted and recoiled. At that, Ron decided to turn and run up the stairs to his
room. Enough was enough.
Watching the redhead disappear, she headed into the room he'd burst out of to
see Draco chuckling and looking smug down at his book.
"What did you say to him?" questioned Hermione.
Draco's head snapped up and he leered. "To whom?"
"Ron. He just bolted out of here!"
"Oh, that. Well, I didn't say anything in particular to him. He seems tightly
wound. He needs a good shag, clearly." Draco's lips twisted in a sneer that
dared her to respond.
Hermione was speechless. Her mouth dropped open and her face burned red.
"Oh right. I forgot, you two don't do that."
Gasping, Hermione brought her hand up over her face. "He-- he told you that?
Why?"
"Oh, we were bonding."
"Bonding?"
"Mm yes. Maybe he wants to check out the other side. See to someone willing to
give it up?" Draco shut the book to concentrate on Hermione's reaction.
"I sincerely doubt that."
Draco raised his hand in deference. "You'd be surprised what a boy would do to
get his nob attended."
Hermione crossed her arms and leaned against the doorframe. "Yourself
included?"
"My nob is fine. Thanks for asking." Draco smirked and sat back, spreading his
legs to be lewd.
"Nice. Thank you." Hermione averted her eyes.
"Seriously, what are you holding onto it for?"
"Holding onto it? You're so romantic, Malfoy."
Draco shrugged. "You fancy him, he fancies you. Life is short and uncertain.
Particularly for Mud-Muggleborns."
Hermione's brows rose. "Are you threatening me?"
"No, I'm telling you to go boff your boyfriend before he develops a crush on
me, you stupid minge!"
Shocked by Draco's outburst, Hermione's eyes widened and she followed his gaze
to the tapestry. Her head tilted to the side as she thought about what he must
have grown up with. She'd seen the same brooding from Sirius, although he was
never this uncouth. She continued to stare at Draco who finally looked from the
wall hanging and re-opened his book.
"Sod off. I'm reading."
"If you ever need to talk, Malfoy--"
"It won't be with you. Now fuck off already."
Hermione stood there for a few minutes, watching Draco pretend to read. After a
few moments, she pushed off of the doorframe to talk to Ron.
--
The hours passed slowly with Draco watching the way that the color of light
changed over the never turned page of his book. A few times Draco fancied he'd
dozed off stretched out in the couch, dreaming of the shadows moving along the
wall. He smelled and heard the sounds of lunch downstairs but couldn't be arsed
to pay attention to the nagging pull of his stomach.
He was full on asleep and dreaming of falling by the time he felt a hand on his
arm. Draco jolted and his eyes met with the familiar green. Harry looked rather
amused, albeit tired. "They say you've been in here all day glaring at that
book. I never really understood Shakespeare either."
Draco rolled his eyes and clapped the book shut. "That's because you're a
heathen brought up by Muggles. And they are lack wits that I was too irritated
with to speak to. Ron was sniffing at my crotch again and I thought it best for
me to stay in a public area lest he choose to act out his wet dreams upon me."
"Oh, all prepared to defend yourself by napping, were you?" teased Harry who
had gotten quite the earful from Ron on the matter already.
"Well, Weasley's so inept that I could defeat him in my sleep."
"I'm sure," Harry placated. "They said you missed lunch."
"I wasn't hungry," started Draco who was interrupted by a rather loud eruption
from his stomach.
Harry brushed Draco's hair back from his face and shook his head. "What am I
going to do with you?"
"Take me with you?"
"You know I want to and you know I can't, Draco."
"You're the golden boy. You can do anything you want and you know it. You just
don't want to." Draco sat up and folded his arms around the book.
"Draco... I'm too tired to fight about this-"
"Great. I'll see about scheduling an appointment then."
"What?"
"Well, you had time to listen to everyone else's reports on me and their
grievances, but when it comes to mine..."
Harry stared at Draco. "They didn't ask to come with me. They know better than
that. They certainly didn't act like spoiled children when I told them they
couldn't have their way. I can't change whom the Ministry allows there and I'm
not fighting over it because it's stupid. I missed you all day and now you have
nothing better for me than to act like a brat."
"Pfft." Draco knew he was being a brat. Both boys knew that it wasn't so much
that Draco had a burning desire to be an Auror as he just didn't want to be
stuck in an unfamiliar house with people he despised. "You didn't miss me at
all. You were too busy learning new magic."
"I missed you a lot, actually. They were teaching some of the things you were
talking about your father teaching you and how to defend against it."
"Oh. So you were thinking of me as a cautionary tale?" Draco asked in an
obvious ploy for more attention.
Harry recognized it, but wasn't going to refuse. He scooted closer and wrapped
his arms around Draco and kissed his temple. "Always," he teased.
Draco made a weak movement to pull away, but smiled as Harry held fast. "I
suppose I should be flattered that The Boy Who Lived was thinking of me at
all."
"You should be. He has so many fans," Harry taunted, recalling the strange
looks he got from the other Aurors. The day had been difficult and strange.
Some of the other trainees were friendly to Harry, but most of them didn't like
being trained alongside a mere "child," no matter how auspicious his birth. He
was further vilified by being used as an example of someone who had survived
dark attacks. The times between classes had been strained. Draco had no idea
how much Harry wanted a friendly face there with him. As it was, there was only
one man there that said much of anything to him. A Richard something or other,
Harry couldn't quite remember his full name after the strenuous day.
"Well, so long as he doesn't forget..." started Draco as he bunched Harry's
robe up so he could reach into his pants to stroke him, "his number one fan."
Harry's eyes fluttered closed behind the glasses-reflected waning light in the
room. "Oh... I bet he's been thinking about his number one fan doing something
like that all day."
"Has he been? That boy is naughty. I hope his dirty thoughts didn't distract
him too much. Might have made for a rather conspicuous problem in class,"
purred Draco as Harry's arms released him so that he could slide down to his
knees in front of the couch.
In fact, Harry had lamented that Auror training had to take place in Wizarding
robes and not in street clothes. But these were real Wizards, he reasoned, and
they were expected to perform their duties dressed as such. It made sense that
they were training in them. Still... it did make for a few prickly moments for
Harry, although no one seemed to notice. Harry was about to thank Draco for
loaning him a few robes to wear since all he had were school robes when he felt
the balmy heat of Draco's mouth around him. Harry moaned as he slid his fingers
through the blond tresses.
Draco's tongue whirled around Harry's length and his fingers gripped the base
to steady him. He looked up at Harry's blushing face mouthing wordlessly
through his ragged gasps. Grinning inwardly, he moved his other hand under
Harry and tentatively touched his rigid band of muscles that went tighter at
his touch. The tension foreshadowed Harry's whole body tightening at Draco's
probing until he felt a determined tug at his pale locks. Releasing the length
from his mouth, Draco looked up at Harry's shaking head. "Haaaarrry...." he
whined.
"I know, and I'll let you, but not today, please?" asked Harry as he slid his
fingers over the tender scalp. "It was my first day in Auror training... I'm
really... tense. I've been thinking about how good you feel all day long."
Harry hadn't let Draco top since the Astronomy Tower. Draco rarely brought it
up, but when he did, he was easily put off. Much to Harry's relief, it appeared
to be all that it was going to take tonight too.
It burned Draco a bit that Harry wouldn't let him top again, but at this point
his bottoming was automatic. If it really bothered him to do, he wouldn't have,
but on occasion he would've enjoyed a bit more consideration. "Fine," inflected
Draco.
"Great," enthused Harry. Either he willfully ignored Draco's vocal and facial
expression or he was just in too much of a hurry to get up and run to the room,
but the result was the same. Harry was up and skipping away in a flash.
Draco couldn't help but be amused with how eager Harry was, although he
wondered if it was enthusiasm over sex with him or just relief from not having
to bottom. He was just about to get up to follow when Harry was back in the
room holding the vial of lubricant and spelling the door locked. "I thought you
were tired," Draco observed as he pulled his robe up over his head and tossed
it aside on the couch. He rested his knees on the couch and leaned his forearms
on the back, looking over his shoulder at Harry.
"Well... I was." Harry likewise dispensed with his robe and pulled his pants
off. "But then someone was sucking my prick and it woke me up a bit. Not to
mention that I'm shocked to know that my boyfriend has been lounging around the
house with no pants on!" he teased.
"Loads of Wizards and witches don't," said Draco as he wiggled his pale bum at
Harry who caught it between his hands and gave it a squeeze. "I only wear them
when I'm wearing trousers."
"Mmm, I see." Harry squeezed lubricant onto his hand. Sliding his hand down the
cleft of Draco's ass, he continued. "And you were calling me a dirty boy."
Draco rolled his eyes and pressed his forehead against his forearm as he felt
the tepid fingers entering him.
"Did you go pants-less in the robe I was wearing before?" asked Harry as he
leaned over Draco's body to whisper into his ear.
Feeling the warmth of Harry's body against him and the waxy feel of his prick
sliding against his thigh, Draco shivered and nodded.
"And the one I'll wear tomorrow?"
"Mmhm." Draco winced until he felt Harry's fingers curl to find his prostate.
He groaned into the couch back.
"That thought will prove distracting to my training," Harry whispered back as
he continued to tease Draco until he was induced to reach for his own length.
Harry kissed along Draco's shoulders and then nuzzled the back of his neck.
Reaching around Draco's waist, he swatted Draco's hand away. "Stop that."
Twisting his head around to complain to Harry about shooing his hand away from
his prick if he wasn't going to do something about it, he hissed through his
teeth when Harry slowly moved himself inside of him. "Oh!"
Biting his lip, Harry whispered an apology and kissed Draco's shoulder and the
side of his face in apology. His slick hand wrapped around Draco's length and
he started to move in tandem to the slow pumping of his fist. "Don't come like
this."
"Is there... anything else... I can do for you?" Draco panted out to Harry,
looking back incredulously.
Harry was flushed with his effort as he worked himself smoothly in and out of
Draco. His glasses were fogging, as he beamed at his lover. "I... want to...
suck you... off..." he panted back as he released Draco's prick to grip his
hips tightly to give more articulated thrusts.
Grinning, Draco let his head flop forward and he pressed back against Harry. He
clenched harder around him, wanting to get Harry off sooner rather than later.
Feeling the warmth of his lover closing in on him did Harry in swiftly. Before
he could object to Draco that he wanted it to last, his fingers were already
stabbing into Draco's hips and his body was quaking with his orgasm. After the
last punctuated pushes, he flopped against Draco's glistening back.
Draco gave Harry a moment to bask against him, but his prick was throbbing an
insistent reminder that he needed tending to. He grunted at Harry to get his
attention, to which Harry whimpered a begging for another moment of stillness
in afterglow. Granting it for another couple of minutes, then Draco whined and
Harry moved out of him.
Harry grabbed his pants up off the floor and blotted the leavings that dribbled
from Draco before the blond turned over and sprawled on the couch, pink prick
at full and lascivious attention against his abdomen. Sinking to his knees in
front of the couch, Harry wrapped both hands around it and stuffed it into his
mouth.
"Ack!" Draco cried before Harry remembered to cover his teeth. Harry's noise of
apology reverberated through Draco's length. Draco relaxed into the feeling,
splaying his arms out over the couch. His hands grabbed the cushions as Harry's
mouth suctioned tighter and his tongue started to found a steadier rhythm. His
back arched as Harry sunk his fingers inside of him and prodded till they
roughly massaged at his prostate.
Giving a groaning warning of his release, Draco felt Harry steeling himself to
handle it. Harry pushed his lips to the base of Draco's cock and swallowed
several times. He surprised himself by not missing any of the come except a
small dribble that he then lapped out of the corner of his mouth. He was about
to make a comment when Draco's stomach again came to life with a rather angry
growl.
Draco blushed. Harry suppressed a giggle as he wiped his mouth with the back of
his hand, "Come on, let's get you fed up. You eat and I'll tell you about my
day."
"Right," said Draco as he got up stiffly and pulled his robe back on.
Harry had gotten his robe back on as well and leaned in to kiss Draco who made
a face at tasting himself, but otherwise didn't protest. "I love you."
"I love you, too," said Draco who tried to speak louder than his stomach's
newest grumble.
Harry slipped his hand into Draco's and pretended not to hear it. Pulling his
wand, he ended the locking spell and tugged Draco downstairs to the kitchen.
***** The Thirteenth Boy *****
That morning Draco got up with Harry again, but this time brought his book with
him so he wouldn't have to come back into the room. He observed that Nigellus
seemed much less chatty with others in the room, so he took the opportunity to
make a clean escape with no further blasts from the past.
They left Ron to sleep in and again Harry and Draco flirted over breakfast
until it was time to leave. Once Harry was out the door, Draco picked up his
book and retired to the drawing room. The tapestry was no less vexing than the
portrait, but at least it kept its mouth shut.
He wasn't sitting there long when Ron stepped through the open doorway and sat
awkwardly on one of the tatty wingback chairs across from the couch Draco was
stretched out on. Draco looked up from his book. His brows rose in question.
"We didn't even shag in the room, or did you find something else to whinge at
me about?"
Ron was befuddled. He blushed and shook his head. "No. I just... was...
nothing. Never mind."
After an outburst like that, Draco would have left in a dramatic swirl of
robes. But Ron hadn't. Draco eyed him inquisitively. "Have a row with Granger?"
"No." Ron sighed and pressed his hands to his knees and focused intently on
them.
"If you're here to offer me the precious flower of your virginity, let me just
say 'Ha! You wish!'"
"I'm not gay!" spat Ron who finally looked up into Draco's eyes. "Even if I
were, it wouldn't be you I... ugh! Just... no. I don't want sex with a boy! I
wanted to... Ugh! Why are you such a git?"
"Oh sure, I'm the git when you're the one in here nancying about in my room!"
"This isn't your room! It's a... a..."
"This is, in fact, my house. I just let you all stay here," insisted Draco.
"You wouldn't last a day in this house without the Order here to protect your
barmy arse and you know it!"
"Pfft," garbled Draco. "Look, you came in here for a reason, obviously. Now
spit it out so I can see to getting you out of my presence." His eyes cast over
the tapestry again. Forever pure. Right. Ron was a pureblood, from his own
family line even, and Draco couldn't stand him either. Purity did NOT equal
good company, as far as he was concerned.
"Well..." said Ron. Again he lost his composure, much to Draco's visible
displeasure. "It's about Hermione...."
Draco sighed and looked at the ceiling, appealing to the gods for Ron to get on
with it.
"Because, you know... I told you yesterday that we... you know... haven't..."
"Nor should you," Draco advised.
"What?" asked Ron as he sat up in a panic. "Why? Do you know something? Is
she... with someone else?"
"Hah! Who else would have her?" Draco gave Ron an expression of sardonic
disbelief.
Ron's hands balled up into fists. He looked murderously at Draco, and then
counted to ten. "Why do you think we shouldn't?"
"Well, for one thing, if you bred..." Draco shivered. "Won't you please think
of the children? I mean, the future hair disasters alone..."
Ron leapt to his feet and glared down at Draco. His balled fists were pulled
up, ready to strike. Draco cowered, holding his book up protectively over his
face. "I don't know why I bothered. What would you know about charming anyone?"
"At least I don't have to beat people to get them to talk to me!" The book
muffled Draco's voice and he pulled his legs up defensively, knowing that
remark was going to buy him no friends. "You know, if Harry comes home to find
me black and blue, he's going to want to know who did it."
"I'll explain to him that clumsy berk that you are, you fell down the stairs,"
explained Ron, but his hands were already lowered as he realized that though it
would be satisfying, beating Draco wouldn't get him any closer to his goal.
"Oh right. Because I'm always tripping over things." Draco peeked out over the
book to see Ron's offensive position lessening. He sighed in relief and then
decided to relent. It would be a long summer if he had to fend off daily
physical attacks. Not to mention it would be quite lonesome to sit in a room
reading books day after day. "So you want to know how to bed a girl, hmm?"
"Not just any girl."
"Right. Well, I'm no expert on that girl. As dubious as some of my conquests
have been, I've never sunk that low--" Draco broke off as he heard Ron's
knuckles cracking again. He cleared his throat. "I suppose it would help to
know what the reason is that you two haven't shagged yet. Then we can work on
how to overcome that." Draco glared at a snag in the fabric of the gold velvet
couch and tried to smooth over the threads with his finger to avoid looking at
Ron.
Ron looked surprised, but decided not to question Draco's change of tone,
reasoning it likely had more to do with fear of further violence than a true
wish to help. "I guess because neither of us have. She doesn't really give a
reason so much as she just... stops everything and makes an excuse and leaves."
Draco nodded and sat up, abandoning the couch flaw for a loss. He set his book
into his lap and looked thoughtful. "Is it possible that you're just not very
good at snogging?"
"I... well..." Ron flushed and stuttered, not sure what to say in the face of
such bluntness. "I... err... I don't know. How would I find out?" He flashed
Draco a misgiving stare.
Giving Ron a withering look, he shook his head. "Don't look at me that way. I'm
not willing to go that far to figure out your problem, no matter how early or
often you offer to beat me. That is simply beyond the beyond."
"I don't-Would you get it through your thick head that I don't want you?"
Draco held his hand up to cut Ron off. "We're agreed. Just drop it." Shaking
his head to rid himself of that train of thought he then went on, "Does she
seem into it while you're snogging or does she act distracted?"
"She seems into it. She makes these little noises like...ooo ooo ooo."
Draco shuddered at the imitation of Hermione's sex noises and held his hand up
again. "Weasley, if you make me ill I won't be able to help."
"Sorry."
"Right, then. Is there a consistent point in which she cuts off... relations?"
Ron closed his eyes to ponder this. "Are you asking how far I've gotten?"
"Well... yes. But don't be graphic about it. I just ate."
Ron rolled his eyes. He wondered if girls now repulsed Draco, or if he just
didn't like Hermione. "You used to be such a lady killer."
Draco was a bit thrown by the sudden topic change, but it was better than
thinking about Granger moaning. "Well, admittedly my reputation was subsidized
by Nott often posing as me in darkened nooks around Hogwarts."
"Really?"
"Well, yes. I found out about this all too late. But I'm afraid there are some
young ladies parading around under the delusion that I shagged them. Probably
more than I care to even know. It was too amusing to put a stop to, though.
Well, until everyone found out I was with Harry. Then Nott had to get tail on
his own merits again. I'm sure he was destroyed."
"That's foul. I can't believe Nott would-no, I can believe that. I can't
believe you let it go on!"
"Well," Draco said with a dismissive sigh. "I liked my reputation as it was.
That's all shot to hell, though. The birds will have to find another dirty boy
to complain about."
"I keep forgetting you're gay now," said Ron, smirking.
Draco paled and looked around the room distractedly. "Gay," he repeated for a
moment, as if he'd never given thought to it. He had, though. Quite a bit. "I
don't know. I suppose I am. But for the moment I prefer to think of it as
Pottersexual."
Ron snickered at the name but shushed as Draco shot him a glare. "Seriously?
You don't like guys? Just Harry? You're still attracted to girls?"
"I..." Draco made a face. He didn't know how to explain himself, really. "I'm
only attracted to Harry. I suppose that in the past I did find other males
attractive now and then, but I never took those attractions seriously because I
am a Malfoy and Malfoys do not bugger boys. Maybe it was extreme denial. I
don't really know. Between attempts on my life, mourning my mother, and killing
my father, I haven't had loads of time to sort it all out."
Ron looked away, feeling a stab of guilt, which was exactly what Draco
intended. "Right. Well, you two seem good together. From what I've seen
anyway."
Draco smirked and perked a brow. "And as we both know, you've seen quite a
bit."
Blushing, Ron rolled his eyes and cleared his throat. "So, back to Hermione..."
"Right. I asked if there was consistent point in which she cuts off the
snogging."
"She says I'm a really good kisser. She lets me touch her under her shirt, and
I've touched her-"
"Yes, ok, so you're... touching... things. Great."
"Yes, but I can't... see what I'm touching. She won't let me take things off of
her."
Draco nodded perceptively. "She's self-conscious then. Do you tell her she's
attractive?"
"I... well... no. But she knows I think she is."
"How does she know that if you don't tell her?"
"Because I'm snogging her!" explained Ron.
Draco blew out a long breath to keep from cackling at Ron's ignorance. "Girls
like to be told that they're beautiful, Weasley. Even when they... clearly are
not."
"But she is beautiful."
"Don't tell me that. I don't believe you, nor do I care whether you think she's
beautiful or not. It's Granger that needs to hear it, lack wit."
Ron narrowed his eyes at the insult, but dismissed it in favor of moving on.
"So if I tell her she's beautiful she'll shag me?"
"Probably not. But it will be a start. You'll have to tell her that pretty
often to make her believe that you think that. Particularly since you've been
neglecting that aspect of your relationship up to this point. In fact, I'm
surprised she's still with you at all."
"She has been owling Krum."
"No, she hasn't," insisted Draco.
"What? What do you know about it? She told me she was!"
"She said that because you're neglecting her. But she wouldn't risk revealing
the Order location by owling for pleasure. You really are simple, aren't you?"
asked Draco.
"Then... why would she tell me that?"
Draco sighed. He knew that the trio was dense, but this was ridiculous. "To get
a reaction. I bet you get all protective and jealous acting when she says that.
That's probably the only time aside from snogging that you show your passion
for her."
"I think about her all the time!"
"She's not a mind reader, Weasley. Honestly. This isn't Arithmancy. This is
basic human behavior."
"When did you get so sensitive, Malfoy? How do you know all of this? You
trample over everyone's feelings all the time!"
Draco grinned. "Yes, but I do it on purpose. You have to understand why people
behave the way they do to know what will truly cripple them."
"That's evil."
"Slytherin," preened Draco.
"So you do these things on purpose? Even though they get you beaten?"
"There's worse things than being beaten," said Draco as he toyed with the weft
on the couch.
"Did your father beat you?" asked Ron, leaning in.
"He disciplined me. There is a difference."
"A beating is a beating."
"It was never beating. It was a few slaps and a couple of spankings. I know you
all want to think he was this horrible beast. To be honest, at this point I
wish I could believe that too. It would make everything neater for me. But he
wasn't. He wasn't a perfect father, but he was a good father. He tried to teach
me as best he could the things that he was brought up to believe." Draco bit
his lip and stared hard at the grotty material, willing himself not to think
too hard on his father. It wouldn't do to fall to pieces in front of Weasley.
"Do you believe those things? What your father believed?" asked Ron as he
pointedly looked at the tapestry.
"I don't know," Draco answered. "I thought I did. Then again, I thought I had
to. Now I don't have to and... " he sighed and waved his hand in the air as if
to clear it.
"So you'd still see Hermione dead?" hissed Ron.
Draco held his breath and squeezed his eyes shut as if really contemplating it.
He disliked her, certainly. But dead? Finally, he opened his eyes and stared up
at the ceiling and said, "No. Not dead."
"Really?" inquired Ron. He really had no reason to doubt Malfoy's answer since
the boy had obviously given thought to it before he finally answered.
"Really."
"Why not?"
"It would bother Harry," Draco dodged. He wasn't willing to see the smug look
on Ron's face at his admission that perhaps he'd been misguided in the past.
The evasiveness did not curtail Ron's smirk at him.
"I'm sure Harry appreciates that."
Draco shrugged and opened his book. "He'd better." Glaring at the page, his
eyes darted up to catch Ron still staring at him with a bemused expression.
"Don't you have a girl to woo, Weasley? I know I'm pretty, but if you keep
gazing at me like that, people will think you've gone queer."
Ron continued to smirk at Draco, enjoying the Slytherin's mounting anxiety.
"Argh, get OUT!" spat Draco as he picked up one of the cushions from the couch
and tossed it at Ron's face.
Blocking the projectile pillow, Ron snickered at Draco's distress, but
nevertheless stood. "Well, I'll see you at lunch then. I'll keep you updated on
my situation with Hermione."
"Please don't. I'll lose my appetite."
Ron rolled his eyes. "Come to lunch anyway. Or I'll send Hermione up here with
a sandwich," he teased.
"Do that and I'll tell her you were tossing off while watching me with Harry,"
he taunted, smirking into his book.
"You wouldn't!"
Draco peered up from behind his book, looking impish. "Slytherin!" he chimed
playfully.
"All right, Slytherin. But, can I ask one more favor of you?"
"Dear Merlin, man. I realize you're used to receiving charity, but I'm new to
giving it."
Ron glared at Draco but noted the continued grin on the pale face and decided
that he must just be teasing. "Well, can we... would you just... not tell Harry
about this?"
"Why not?" Draco's brows furrowed. Keep something from Harry? Well, everyone
had his or her secrets. Still, Draco didn't relish the thought of lying to
Harry to keep this promise for Ron.
"It's just... weird. We've all been friends for so long and it's strange enough
without having, you know, Harry disapproving of it."
Draco's face steeled as he considered that. "What makes you think he'd
disapprove? Honestly, I bet he thinks you've already shagged."
"Maybe," pondered Ron. "I just-- that almost makes it worse, actually. If he
found out we didn't... besides, he gets kind of jealous sometimes. I guess we
all get jealous when it seems like the other two are getting closer."
"He knows you've gotten closer... we all know that," Draco pointed out. Looking
at Ron's anxious expression, he finally relented. "Fine. I won't tell him about
this. Your secret is safe with me."
"Thanks, really. It's a big relief. And do come to lunch. I won't have Harry
thinking we're trying to starve you to death."
"All for Harry, hmm?"
"Well, let's just say I wouldn't see you dead," answered Ron, grinning.
"That's the sweetest thing you've ever said to me, Weasley. I might just cry,"
said Draco in a melodramatic voice.
"Just be there."
Draco's eyes lowered and he grinned and nodded. "Fine."
 
--
Auror training was set up much like Hogwarts classes. Of course, Harry was only
getting the summer version of what was a three-year training program, but he
was lucky to be starting it along with the others so at least there wasn't a
huge age gap. Unlike Hogwarts, of course, there were only a handful of people
in his classes, which made the focus much more intense on each student.
The morning had been a thrill for Harry. Defensive flying was something he
excelled at and the other trainees, for the first time since training started,
were giving him compliments. Some even dared to fly at him to try and challenge
him, but Harry's artful and natural technique overwhelmed the others and no one
got past him. The congratulatory slaps on the back halted just before lunch and
though he sat with the other 12 students in his classes, none of them said much
to the privileged younger boy who would be leaving at the end of summer.
That afternoon was a Potions class focused on Quick-Remedy Anti-Venom Potions
that Harry was dreading. Not just because of his weakness in potions, but
because they were warned that they would need to pair off. He hadn't felt this
way since he was a student in Muggle School. Once again he was the dowdy geeky
kid that no one wanted on their team. His stared at the floor as he tried not
to notice the other students happily pairing off. He found it odd that no one
from Hogwarts was starting this term, but he remembered McGonagall talking
about how selective the Ministry was and that they took only the finest
students from schools around the world.
This was all well and good, but it didn't help him with awkward moments like
these, standing alone near a cauldron, knowing that there were an odd number of
people in the class and believing that this would be just another time and
place where he was pointed out as someone who didn't belong. He tried to brush
it off and looked over the ingredients when the only person who had bothered to
introduce himself, Richard, wandered up and asked to join him.
Harry beamed at him and looked around and noted that one pairing had branched
into being a threesome. He sighed. Well, perhaps he should just be glad not to
be working alone in a subject he was likely to be weakest in.
Richard smiled at Harry and looked in the direction the boy was looking. "Don't
feel bad about it. I was going to hit you up to work with anyway. We're both
the odd men out here. I'm a couple of years older than everyone else, so..."
"Oh, really?" asked Harry. He grimaced at how lame a response that was. Why
would Richard admit that if it weren't true?
"Yes, I was on queue the past couple of years, but now that this big war is
supposedly starting, the Ministry is taking more people, so my persistence paid
off."
Harry smiled at Richard. It didn't bother him that he was a couple of years
older. Many of the people he considered friends were much older than Richard.
"Wow, so being an Auror is something you really wanted."
Richard nodded; he flipped back his blond hair and stretched. His accent was
different than Harry's, but that wasn't unusual for this class. He guessed the
man was Australian. The new hair growth revealed Richard wasn't a natural
blond.
"Been my dream, really. Since before I was your age," Richard said.
If he squinted, Harry mused, this man could be a taller, more bulked up, tanned
version of Draco. Only less pointed. As Harry piled on the corollary conditions
in which the 20-year-old looked like Draco, he realized slowly that the man
looked nothing at all like his boyfriend. Clearly, Harry just missed Draco.
"It's my dream, too. Although I'm just here for..."
"To save the world. I read the papers. In fact, I was going to ask if it was
true that you're with Draco Malfoy, but it's evident that you are, so I left
it."
"Evident? How?" asked Harry, wondering if Draco had put some manner of magical
brand on him, which would be so much like the Slytherin it wasn't even funny.
Richard reached forward and slid his hand over the right breast of the robe
Harry was wearing. He traced it as he spoke, "DM. I assume that means 'Draco
Malfoy.' Interesting that you'd come to class bearing his emblem. I don't know
if that's love or a neurosis that needs treating," he teased.
Harry wasn't sure he liked a stranger touching his chest, but he let it go,
mostly out of shock. He hadn't seen the embroidery of his lover's initials on
his garment. It wasn't exactly a magical marking, but Draco had certainly made
his presence and claim known. He shook his head and rolled his eyes. "Doing
this was a surprise. I'm borrowing his robes for the week until I can get to
Diagon Alley this weekend."
"Oh, so... you're not really with him? He just lets you wear his clothes?"
quizzed Richard who smiled and moved closer to Harry.
"I'm... no. I mean, yes. I'm seeing him and yes I'm wearing his clothes. It's
just not a neurosis or obsession. I bet all of his robes have his initials on
them, he likely didn't think about it," Harry lied. He was pretty sure the
little prat did it on purpose, but he didn't want strangers to know his
boyfriend was a bit of a possessive nutter.
"Malfoys are very possessive, even over their clothing," he said pointedly.
"Right, well, it won't be an issue after this weekend either way. Unless I just
want to wear his robes," answered Harry. He didn't want to start a discussion
on the nature of Malfoy or their relationship.
"Well, good on you. If it were me, I wouldn't like someone marking me
publicly."
Harry bristled. "It's presumptuous of you to think that's what he's doing. I'm
sure it was an accident. Even if it weren't, The Daily Prophet has marked me in
a far more public way than some stitching would."
"Touche. In any case, I didn't mean to anger you. I was just making
conversation. Your passionate defense of your lover wasn't necessary."
Something about the way Richard spoke to Harry about Draco irked him, but he
couldn't put his finger on why.
"My boyfriend is very important to me. We're very close. I don't like hearing
strangers speaking ill of him," stated Harry.
Richard smirked and nodded. "Well, that's good of you, Mr. Potter. Sounds like
Mr. Malfoy is a lucky man, indeed," he said and winked at Harry. After a beat,
Richard threw in, "I hope he's just as loyal to you as he is to you."
Harry opened his mouth to respond, but at that point the proctor entered the
room and gave them their assignment and time limit and instead Harry and
Richard set to work in silence.
--
Arthur had some late coming paperwork to deal with which delayed his and
Harry's return. They didn't arrive back to Grimmauld Place until just as Molly
was finishing supper. It didn't leave him much time to catch up with Ron and
Hermione before he needed to run up and wake Draco, but he did find out from
Ron that Draco had actually come to lunch that day. Harry was proud that his
boyfriend was making an effort.
After Molly announced that supper was just about ready, Harry ran up the stairs
and found Draco napping on the couch with his copy of "Taming of the Shrew"
across his chest.
Sitting down on the edge of the couch, he pulled the book away and softly
rubbed at Draco's chest to rouse him. "Is this your misanthropic plan to get
through the summer? Going to sleep it away?" asked Harry.
Draco murmured a bit before he was awake enough to process that Harry was there
and he was teasing him. "I went to lunch."
"So Ron informed me," said Harry. "I guess you were finally hungry enough? They
said you didn't say a word."
Thinking about the lunch and the way he'd simply traded expressions with Ron to
find out that his advice had seemed to be working at least somewhat on
Hermione, Draco sniffed and rolled his eyes. "Yes, well, nothing to say, I
suppose."
"They're good people, Draco. You should try talking to them."
Draco opened his mouth, ready to tell Harry that he had, in fact, chatted with
Ron; he quickly anticipated the next question that would be "what about?" Since
that question was unanswerable due to his promise to Ron, he shrugged. "Pfft."
"Pfft, sure. It'll be a long summer if you keep on like this."
"Maybe," he said as he reached out and grabbed Harry on top of him. "But I
always have my boyfriend back by nighttime. How was training?"
"Oh, brilliant," Harry fibbed. The morning had been good, so he focused on that
and explained his many victories on his Firebolt and how the other students
couldn't catch him, nor get past him.
Draco sat up while Harry explained. His gestures became so excitedly
extravagant as his hands zoomed around to illustrate the students coming at him
and how he dodged them, that he had to move back from Draco. Harry was just
wrapping up his soliloquy when what Richard pointed out to him about the robes
popped into his head. Squinting, he eyed Draco's lapel suspiciously.
Catching on a second too late as to what Harry was looking for, Draco pulled
his hand up to block the unmonogrammed lapel, but Harry was already shaking his
head. "Marking me, hmm?"
Draco cleared his throat and affected the appearance of innocence. "Pardon?"
Harry pointed at Draco's initials on his own robe. "Your initials?"
"Oh. Right. Well, my better robes are monogrammed. I didn't think anyone would
notice."
"No?" Harry tilted his head to express his disbelief.
Draco shrugged. "Well with all of the," he gestured an exaggerated imitation of
Harry's flailing broom demonstration, "it must've taken a keen eye to see it."
Harry suppressed a giggle at Draco's mimicry. "There was a potions segment
later and we had to pair off."
"Pair off? Someone had to make a potion with you? Poor sod."
"Hey!" said Harry as he swatted at Draco who smirked and dodged. "Actually, he
ended up making the potion. I pretty much just watched."
Perking a brow, Draco asked, "He? Is he cute?"
"I... ummm... I don't know."
"Did the potion steam your glasses so you couldn't see him?" teased Draco as he
jabbed his lover with his foot.
"No, he's just... older."
"Older than what? Dumbledore?" chuckled Draco. He dodged another one of Harry's
jovial swats.
Harry explained how Richard had been on queue and further explained how the two
of them were outcasts by age. Harry because he was a year too young, and
Richard because he was a couple of years too old.
"On queue? I didn't think they did that. I thought you were either in or you
weren't," observed Draco.
"I guess it's the war. Normally they wouldn't let a student learn for the
summer either."
"Oh but you're special, Golden Boy," taunted Draco. "Still, rather curious. War
or no war..."
"I don't make Ministry policy, and I'm certainly not an expert in it," said
Harry as he stood. "We need to get to dinner."
Draco nodded and followed Harry. Something about this Richard person didn't
feel right, but Malfoy couldn't put his finger on it. Perhaps it was nothing,
but still... it rankled him. "What's his name again?"
"Richard... something. I umm... don't remember."
"You don't remember?"
"I... err... Oh, I know. Spien. Richard Spien."
Draco's brows furrowed as he again tried to place the weird feeling. The name
didn't ring any bells. Shaking the ominous feeling off, Draco and Harry headed
down the stairs for dinner.
***** Glass Fingers *****
"You and Ron seem pretty chummy," observed Harry as he pulled one of his
freshly acquired robes from his weekend trip to Diagon Alley over his head. The
past few nights at dinner he'd noticed Draco and Ron having some manner of
wordless conversation that he couldn't quite suss out. It caused Harry to
relive Richard's admonition that perhaps Malfoy wasn't as loyal as he hoped.
Draco shrugged in deference to the observance. "You said you wanted me to try
and be nice to your friends." He slipped out of his robe and tossed it
carelessly to the end of the bed and pulled Harry closer to him, sliding his
hands down his back to grab at his ass.
Harry knew what Draco was after; he'd kept putting it off, but he knew he was
running low on excuses to not let Draco top. "Sure, I want you to be nice, but
Hermione said you two lock yourselves away midmorning for an hour or so," he
said, lowering to his knees in front of his lover.
Telling Harry the nature of their discussions wasn't an option per his promise
to Ron. Although, of late they'd diverged from their original topic and fallen
into patter that only on occasion threatened to end in a dramatic fight. "We
do."
"Why so mysterious?" he asked as he glided his hands over Draco's abdomen. He
still wasn't very confident in giving blowjobs and he wished Draco would drop
this push to being on top. Harry liked their sex life as it was. It wasn't that
Draco had hurt him when they'd done it before; he just wasn't of a mood to give
up control perhaps. Or maybe his cousin's goading about buggery was still
nagging at him. He didn't know. He wanted to enjoy his boyfriend and then get
some rest. Was that really too much to ask?
"It's not mysterious, we just don't necessarily want everyone just wandering in
to hear everything we're talking about," Draco started. His voice ended in a
gurgle as Harry's breath and then warm face nudged against him. He closed his
eyes and rested his hands on Harry's shoulders. A blowjob wasn't what he
wanted, but he was loath to turn it down. Even if he realized that Harry was
just placating him. Again. He sighed and let his head fall back and muttered,
"It wouldn't be necessary if she'd just put out."
Draco didn't realize what he'd just implied, nor that he'd said anything at
all, as his blood wasn't all in his brain. He also didn't see the look of alarm
on Harry's face just before he mouthed Draco's cock. The Gryffindor decided to
close his eyes and try not to think too hard on what that was supposed to mean.
Instead, he focused on how to deal with this large object in his mouth. He
tightened his lips around it and started to wildly bob his head.
It was a bit too rushed for Draco, so he slowed Harry down gently by cupping
his face with his hands. Draco tried to push forward to get deeper inside of
Harry's mouth, but it triggered his lover's gag reflex. Draco sat up on his
elbows and watched Harry with concern as he drew back and sputtered. "Sorry,"
Draco mouthed.
Harry gave him a nod and a wry grin to let Draco know it was all right before
he lowered his face to the purpled prick and he sucked it in as far as he could
fit. Draco closed his eyes and fell back. He just let Harry do what he wanted
and tried to keep his hips still. He slid his own hand down to the base of his
prick and massaged what didn't fit into Harry's mouth.
Hearing Draco's moaning, Harry figured this was as good a time as any to get
Draco prepared. He opened his eyes and reached out for the lubricant. Squeezing
out a thick dollop, he greased his fingers and began to probe into his lover.
He was so intent on opening Draco that he missed the wailing and the warning
squeeze on his shoulder and was surprised when he found his mouth filling with
ejaculate.
Draco gazed tenderly at Harry, only to see the shocked look on Harry's face as
he struggled to swallow. He found a sudden need to mutter a confused apology.
As far as Draco was concerned, he'd given Harry plenty of warning, but
evidently not. After licking away the leavings and wiping at his mouth, Harry
shrugged to let Draco know the apology wasn't necessary. He pushed his
concerned lover back down onto the bed.
Spreading his legs to make room for Harry, Draco reached behind him to cushion
his neck with a pillow. Harry quickly jabbed his fingers inside of him and gave
a few cursory strokes before he plunged himself in. Feeling his face flush with
the coarse invasion, Draco tilted his head up to watch his hands wind into the
headboard. Forcing himself to relax after a few of the hard thrusts, he pushed
back and whispered, "I love you."
"What? Oh... I love you too," Harry answered as he leaned down to sloppily kiss
Draco. "You feel so good," he added as Draco shut his eyes and bore how rough
Harry was taking him. Wrapping his arms around Draco, he whispered to into his
neck and chest how beautiful he was and how much he missed him, although his
mind was elsewhere. Why was Draco locking himself up with Ron? Why was he being
so evasive about it? And what in the world did it mean that Hermione should be
putting out?
Harry wasn't sure he even wanted the answers to these questions. The thought of
his best friend and his lover... together... was really more than he could deal
with, so he set it out of his mind and concentrated on the hard press of their
bodies together. He ground into Draco, feeling the uncomfortable way their hip
bones mashed together and the thrusts that caused meaty slapping sounds that
echoed in the uncarpeted room. Just over that noise were Draco's gasps that
were bordering on pleas for Harry to stop. Harry didn't quite come to until he
felt the hard seizure of his orgasm flowing out of him, which made his thrusts
squishy and slick.
Finally he collapsed onto his lover and Draco's arms wrapped around him. "I
love you, Draco. I really do. I don't... ever want you to leave me," Harry
blurted out. He didn't realize how rough he was being, and it wasn't meant to
be punishing; at least not on a conscious level.
Draco had no idea where that came from and his brows furrowed as he scanned the
ceiling, trying to make sense of what had just happened and to reconcile it
with what Harry was saying. Deciding it was an apology of sorts, he responded,
"I'm not going anywhere, Harry." He kissed the top of Harry's head as he slid
his legs down, hissing at how tender he was. "I love you, too."
--
Snape was fighting a losing battle with trying to distract himself from his
feelings for Draco. He dove into his potions work and attended the few meetings
with the other Death Eaters he was summoned to. Now that things were
intensifying, only the truly loyal were kept close to Voldemort and Snape's
proximity to Dumbledore made him suspect. Still, the man's skills in
Legilimency provided him with some nice tidbits.
Many of his recollections of Draco, and the emotions attached to them were
being set into the Pensieve, at least as much as he could. When he was away
from Draco, he was fine. He could go hours without really thinking about him,
but then something would pop up; a color Draco favored, a comment he made on a
potion ingredient, the sense memory of his lemon and rosemary smell. These
things triggered his longing and he'd remember, yet again, that Harry Potter,
son of James Potter, stole Draco away.
It hurt. Thinking about it made him ache in an inexplicable way. He didn't want
these feelings and yet, there they were. What he truly wanted was to go back to
being Draco's father figure, to mentor the boy and to be the one that Draco
looked up to and ultimately clung to when danger was near. But Draco was
clinging to Potter of all people. To make matters worse, the arrogant
Gryffindor grinned at him. The boy grinned in that same way James would grin at
Snape when he knew he had something over on him. It was maddening. Worse yet,
Potter was exactly who Draco should be running away from.
Voldemort wanted Harry dead and he didn't much care who he had to shoot through
to get to him. Draco would just be another casualty to the Potter egotism and
would lay forgotten as soon as he hit the ground dead. Snape wanted to spare
Draco that. Spare him and treat him the way that he deserved, not like a
second-class citizen. Or Potter's pet project, which was how Snape believed the
other members of the Order saw him.
After passing Ron in the hallway and giving him no acknowledgement, Snape
entered the drawing room. He held a sack of books, and observed Draco curled
casually on the couch. The blond boy smirked up at him and appeared ready to
say something smart, but on realizing it was Snape and not Ron who had entered,
his face fell and he slammed the book shut.
Draco thought Ron had forgotten something or had another quick question for him
before he faced Hermione. The last person he expected to see in the doorway was
Snape. In fact, seeing Snape there was even more vexing as it pointed out to
Draco that he rather enjoyed talking to Ron Weasley, a concept he wasn't
terribly fond of recognizing. "What do you want?" he drawled.
"I brought you some books from your father's study. I thought you might like to
see what material the Dark Lord requested. I made copies of them for you and
for Dumbledore. I also added some from your room that appeared to be... lighter
reading." Snape gestured towards the tome in Draco's lap, now a copy of "As You
Like it."
Draco considered Snape for a moment and then pointed towards the writing desk.
He didn't want to deal with Snape. Not now, not ever again. The man had
betrayed him, tried to touch him, and put him in a position to have to kill his
own father. "Leave them there. Good day."
Snape made his way across the room and set the books down on the table. He took
a moment to balance the bag's contents as he contemplated his next words.
"Draco, I'd also like to speak to you about your future... you have a real gift
for potions..."
"What I have is an inheritance. A rather large one. One that is so expansive
that if I don't wish to share my gifts with greasy Potions teachers, I don't
have to."
Snape turned around and folded his arms as he glared down at Draco. "So that is
what you're going to do? Retire? You'll get bored."
"I'm sure my boyfriend will keep me entertained," the boy answered, flourishing
his hand.
"I see. So you're banking on your estate not being seized and that Potter will
survive this. I never knew you to be such a gambler, Malfoy. Did you know that
there's a prophecy?" he asked. Taking Draco's silence as an answer, he carried
on. "His prophecy states that either he or the Dark Lord will die. That's how
this will end. The prophecy gives even odds, and yet when you really look at
it, there's a learned wise wizard versus a student. Are you certain your
boyfriend will even be around to keep you entertained?"
Draco paled and gripped his book tightly against his chest. "Aren't you banking
on Harry winning this?"
"Perhaps. But if he does not, I am covered, aren't I?" Snape asked as he
crossed his arms.
Draco's eyes narrowed and then dropped. Those odds really didn't sound much in
Harry's favor. He slumped and then muttered, "Well, it's not as if Vol-- Vold-
- the Dark Lord was able to kill him as a baby. Nor has he been able to since.
Perhaps he's not all he's rumored to be. Harry's that much bigger now and he
can hold a wand."
In spite of Draco's words, Snape was triumphant in striking a blow to Draco's
belief in Harry's likelihood to survive. He took the moment of doubt to slide
in next to Draco. "That may well be, but you must look at this from all sides,
Draco. A great many things could happen that could change your future. Not only
would continuing your potions studies benefit you, but also any association
with me could cover you both at school and after."
"Association?" questioned Draco, appearing repulsed.
"Not like that, Mr. Malfoy. I realize that what happened reflected poorly upon
me and gave credence to Potter's conspiracy theories regarding my intentions
towards you, but I am only looking out for your future. Not trying to seduce
you. I have always looked out for you, Draco. You know that. I was the only one
at school who looked upon you as better than Potter. You've said yourself that
you once thought of me like a father, I certainly felt that. We can get back to
that if you'd just..."
Draco narrowed his eyes and started to scoot away. "You tried to touch me. I
didn't imagine that."
"I was not trying to touch you," Snape insisted. "Not like that."
"I know what I saw and I know what I felt you moving towards. You were going to
touch me."
Snape shook his head at Draco and closed the distance again. "It is unfortunate
that you believe that, but ultimately irrelevant."
Draco bristled. "It's very relevant. You almost got me killed. You put me in a
position where I had to kill my own father and now you're worried about my
taking a Potions class?"
"Potter put you in those... positions." Snape tried to disguise his distaste
for Draco's perked brow and smirk at his choice of words. "I was trying to make
the best of a situation that had gone awry to protect you both as well as
myself. As you may or may not know, your father could not have killed Harry."
"What?" asked Draco.
Snape tilted his head as a sly smile crept onto his lips. "You didn't know, did
you? According to the prophecy, one will die by the other's hand. One will kill
the other, which means your father couldn't have killed Potter no matter what
he did."
"So... I did that... for nothing?" Draco could feel the blood draining from his
face and he clutched the book tighter for security. Out of the corner of his
eye, he thought he caught a shadow moving and found himself staring at the
tapestry. He winced as if it were his father's ghost pointing an accusing
finger at him and then snapped his head back to Snape.
Catching the look to the tapestry, Snape leaned in even closer and whispered,
"Your father still would have killed you. You still did what you had to."
"I thought I was protecting Harry."
"I suppose he has his reasons for letting you believe that," said Snape as he
watched Draco's distress with a calculating stare.
Draco's eyes lowered. "I told him not to tell me too much. I didn't think I
could be trusted."
"Certainly after... all of what happened... he could have trusted you."
Bringing one hand up to place over his eyes, Draco shook his head. "I didn't
want to know. He didn't tell me because I didn't want to know this. I did what
I did because I thought I was protecting him. It was the one noble thing I've
ever done. The one fucking selfless thing I've ever done in my life and it...
was for no reason at all. There was no point to it. It ended up being a selfish
act in spite of... my intentions."
"Intent and outcome are rarely coincident, Draco. People like us... we do what
we have to, but people like Potter and his little friends, they do not
understand," cooed Snape as he shifted closer to Draco and slid his arm around
the upset boy. "Everything is so black and white to them. They don't understand
reality as we do. They leave us to do their dirty work, the messy spying,
making the difficult decisions; this is all up to us, Draco. He'll never
appreciate who you are; he'll never see your strengths as I do."
Draco stiffened as Snape touched him and he started to recoil from the embrace,
feeling ill with each damning word Snape spoke. "That's not it at all. He's
never..."
"Made you feel evil? Oh, it's not so easy as that is it? It's the hints and
suggestions from him and his ilk, chipping away at you, making you feel
unworthy." Snape slid another arm around Draco and pulled the confused boy
closer to him, bypassing the weak objections.
Unworthy? Was he unworthy? Is that why Harry wouldn't let him top? Draco felt a
sickening wave of insecurity washing over him. "I'm not unworthy," he weakly
protested.
"No, Draco. You're not. You're better than he is. Stronger. You have to be,
don't you? You don't have the cadre of sycophants to support you, do you?"
asked Snape as he leaned in to press his face into the silky platinum hair and
kissed his temple.
The rake of dry lips against his temple was enough to shock Draco into reality
and again his body tensed and he looked frantically around the room trying to
spot where he'd left his wand. "Let go of me. Now." The nightstand. He left his
wand on the nightstand again. In his own defense he rationalized that he didn't
think he'd need to be running about the house with his wand on him.
"I'm just comforting you," defended Snape.
"It's not comforting. Let go of me," he growled as he began pushing the man
away.
"Professor, I do believe that Malfoy asked you to let go of him," sounded a
familiar feminine voice behind them. Both Slytherins looked up in the direction
of the voice to see Hermione standing with her arms crossed, glaring at Snape.
Draco couldn't remember ever being pleased to see Granger, but at the moment he
couldn't deny his extreme relief.
"Miss Granger, this is none of your affair," stated Snape.
"Affair. That's a rich choice of words, Professor." Hermione moved around to
the side of the couch and stared expectantly at Snape.
"I see that Potter has been filling your head with his obnoxious paranoia as
well," hissed Snape who had little choice but to loosen his grip against
Draco's squirming.
"Given what I just walked in on, it would seem that maybe Harry isn't paranoid
enough," stated Hermione who finally looked at Draco, who had extracted himself
from Snape and was brushing off his robes as if he were worried that Snape
might have rubbed off on him. She'd heard the last of the poison that Snape was
tipping into Draco's ear and wondered how much of it Draco believed to be true.
It would seem that on some level Draco felt it or Snape couldn't have gotten
that close.
Snape stood and glared indignantly at the teens. "I will not be accused by
you!"
"Then go," snapped Draco. His eyes narrowed at Snape and then averted in favor
of the writing desk with the books on it.
Following Draco's line of sight Snape said, "I'll leave these books for you.
Perhaps you can study them while you're here. Do give consideration to what I
said about Potions class. It would be a shame for... circumstances... to keep
you from where your talent lies." With that, Snape turned and left the room in
his usual theatrical manner.
Hermione eyed Draco, the boy's mouth was open and he was panting as he stared
at the door through which Snape had left. His face pinched tight and his eyes
closed as he mastered himself back into his usual sneer which he directed
nowhere in particular. "Malfoy... what he-- what Snape said-- that's not how we
all feel. He was just goading you."
Draco's expression turned to annoyed skepticism, and he rolled his eyes and
snorted.
"What I mean is, we do see you're strong. I think all of us recognize the
choice you had to make to get here. We respect and understand the sacrifices
you've made. Just... day-to-day you're rather a..."
"Malfoy."
"Yes, rather a Malfoy," she said as she smiled at Draco, who scowled back at
her. "The point is, no matter how we may feel about each other personally, like
today, we'll be there to back you up when you need it. That's what we do."
"I didn't need you to back me up," huffed Draco. "I can handle Snape."
"Seems he was handling you."
Draco shivered, but he tried to cover his discomfort with a mild shrug and he
turned his attention to the books again. It was one thing to be "comforted" by
a once-trusted teacher, quite another knowing what he knew about Snape and his
intentions. The idea that the man might toss off thinking about their
interaction made Draco grimace.
"I'm sorry, that was insensitive," Hermione recanted.
Draco pulled his book back up to his chest and clung to it.
Reading the gilded letters of the book, Hermione spoke, "As You Like It?
Shakespeare? I love Shakespeare!"
Sometimes Draco forgot that not only was Shakespeare was well known to Muggles,
but that Hermione was an avid reader. "Yes. It's not really my favorite,
though," he mumbled.
"No, you seem more of a Hamlet sort."
"I'm not so keen on avenging my father's killer," was his caustic reply. Most
wouldn't have made such a flippant joke so soon after reopening the wound over
murdering their own father, but it was Draco's way of coping. "Besides, it's
too dramatic for my tastes. I leave the vengeful bloodlust to Harry," said
Draco with the barest of smirks.
Hermione grinned. "You prefer Romeo and Juliet, then?"
"Pfft. Overrated by Muggles. Too much like life for my tastes," was his ironic
reply.
"Oh, I see," said Hermione. Her grin increased as she saw Draco's mood and face
lightening a bit at their conversation. "Don't tell me you're a comedy lover."
"I enjoy good banter."
"That makes sense, actually. Well, my favorite is a comedy as well. The Taming
of the Shrew," said Hermione.
Draco's eyes widened for a moment and then he glared down at his book. It was
immature, but he hated that he shared the love of that play with the Mudblood.
"Figures. That's the worst of the lot. Wholly unbelievable. I'm surprised at
you, Granger. It shows women as quite repressed even for the times. A strong
intellectual woman repressed by a noisome man? Honestly."
Hermione's face fell and she sighed quietly. "Oh. Well. I just thought it was
charming it its own way, and he did respect Katherine. I see what you're
saying, I suppose we just see it differently," she said evenly. Deciding to
change the subject, she asked, "Do you want me to send Ron in for a bit? You
two seem to be getting on all right."
"No," he answered. What would he say to Ron about this? He didn't want to say
anything to anyone about what happened with Snape. What he really wanted was to
flay every part of skin that had touched the older man. He felt befouled.
"I assume it's you who has been advising him on our relationship."
"Why would I do something that would benefit you?" questioned Draco.
"I..." Hermione didn't have an answer for that. "Maybe you just wanted to see
Ron happy?"
"Why would I care about Weasley? Or any of you for that matter?"
"You care about Harry. A great deal, maybe you just want his friends to like
you?"
Draco shrugged; he didn't really know what to reply. Sure, he found they
weren't evil horrid people, and maybe that was it. Maybe he was just bored. But
right now he didn't want to discuss it. He felt ill and tired, and if she
didn't leave soon he was going to end up telling her off just to vent his
frustration. "I don't give a toss if you like me or not."
Hermione stood there feeling hurt and insulted that Draco had shot her down at
every attempt of kindness she threw to him. She was running out of things to
say. "Well, I'm pretty sure that it is your influence that has Ron telling me
that I'm pretty, and opening doors for me, and even the flowers he bought for
me at Diagon Alley last weekend. I've known him for years and I know he
wouldn't think to do these things on his own."
Draco sat still, eyes averted from the girl.
"Well, for whatever reason you're doing it, thank you."
"He wants to do it. I don't tell him much. He knows what he should be doing
deep down, I just let him know his instincts were correct. We don't talk much
about you anymore. I didn't know about the flowers."
Hermione spotted the flicker of a smirk on Draco's face and the way he looked
to the left, crafting his lie. Draco knew about the flowers, of that she was
certain. He likely paid for them, too. "Well, no matter how little it was, I do
appreciate it. I was starting to think he was hopeless."
The cocksure grin spread over Draco's face and he answered, "He is hopeless.
You're both rather pathetic, really. A matched set."
"Yes, well, I suppose it's good to have someone to be hopeless with, isn't it,
Malfoy?" she asked.
"I wouldn't know a thing about being hopeless. I'm strong and mighty and
evidently you all see that and know it to the roots of your noble Gryffindor
beings," teased Draco.
"Oh, we do, Malfoy. We really do," said Hermione with a light mocking tone.
Draco snorted and flashed her a quick grin.
"Harry's right. You are rather handsome when you smile."
"Harry told you that?" asked Draco in surprise. His grin widened at the
prospect of Harry finding him attractive and confiding it in his friends.
Perhaps Harry didn't find him quite as unworthy as Snape would have him
believe.
"Yes. Back at Hogwarts. We were interrogating him as to why he would be
with...someone like you," admitted Hermione
"Someone like me... you mean wealthy and stupendously attractive?"
It was Hermione's turn to snort. "Yes, we were all very worried that Harry was
falling for wealthy and attractive boys."
"Sarcasm doesn't work for you. Nor does that shade of purple," Draco pointed
out, noting her Muggle t-shirt.
"Right. Well, it was good talking to you, Malfoy."
Draco smirked and perked a brow at her. She shook her head as she started
towards the door. Calling after her, he said, "Granger... I'd appreciate it if
you didn't mention this to Harry. The Snape thing. He has so much else going on
and he gets 12 shades of arsed off about the man and really, nothing happened."
Stopping in her tracks, she turned to look at Draco. "Are you sure? You didn't
do anything you should be ashamed of, and I'm sure he'd want to make you feel
better." Nothing had happened? Draco looked awfully shaken for someone who
didn't think anything happened. But she'd respect his wishes if that's what he
wanted.
"No, he's just so tired when he gets home and there's nothing he can do about
it anyway. Just... leave it. It wouldn't do to have him mucking up his training
worried about my being left here alone for Snape to prey on."
"You're not alone, Malfoy," Hermione reminded him.
Draco's hand gestured dismissively. "I suppose not."
"Not that you need help."
"Of course I don't."
"But if you did..." said Hermione.
Draco rolled his eyes and threw his book open and pretended to read.
After a few moments of watching Draco's rather lame attempt at looking busy,
Hermione said, "You're welcome, Malfoy."
"What? I thought you left," said Draco a little too quickly.
Shaking her head, Hermione left the room.
--
Harry arrived home late again and quickly tripped up the stairs to fetch Draco
for dinner. It was clear that everyone in the kitchen expected them to take
longer by the conversation that the boys walked in on.
Ginny, ladling food onto her plate, said, "Well at least now we know why Harry
was so bad with girls, he was gay!"
Harry glared at Ginny for a moment, his mouth dropped in shock. His head tilted
down and he glowered at the chair before sitting in it. He was so hurt by the
notion that his lack of talent for wooing girls meant automatically that he was
gay; he couldn't form the words to protest.
Draco noticed Harry's reaction and leapt to his defense, "Maybe he wanted to be
with someone who hadn't already shagged half the school."
"As if you were a virgin," snapped Ginny.
"And yet I still got the boy. That must hurt." Draco took his place next to
Harry and started to pile food on his plate.
"It hurts no more than your tiny inbred prick hurt me!" Ginny spat back.
Harry's eyes widened and he looked between Ginny and Draco several times, his
mouth agape.
"I have no idea what you're on about, Weaslette," replied Draco flatly before
sipping his pumpkin juice.
"It doesn't surprise me you've lost track, there were so many," Ginny grumbled.
"I was a shark, no one's denying that," responded Malfoy.
Harry looked between them and then narrowed his at his empty plate as if he
were angry that it didn't fill itself. All he could think was that Draco Malfoy
had shagged someone else in this house. Someone he was left alone with all day.
His stomach twisted. Hermione and Ron watched in astonishment. Ron's fists
tightened into balls as he restrained himself.
Ginny sighed impatiently. All eyes were fixed on her; most uncomfortable
amongst them was her mother. "In the broom closet?"
Draco stared blankly back at her.
"On the third floor?" she tried.
Draco appeared to be giving this some thought and shrugged to indicate he had
no recollection of that event.
"Last year! After the Halloween feast!" she finally revealed, causing many
gasps in the room.
Only one person didn't gasp, and that was Draco, who was snickering. "Nott."
"You did too!" exclaimed Ginny.
"Theodore Nott, you lack-wit. You shagged Theodore Nott, not me."
Recognizing the scam from Draco's story telling in the drawing room, Ron was
flabbergasted that his sister had fallen prey. He met Draco's eyes and shook
his head. Draco threw his hands up. There wasn't much he could do about that
now. He'd had no idea.
"But... he... you weren't... it was YOU!" shrieked Ginny.
"It was not me. I was shagging Chang that night in the Astronomy Tower," Draco
tossed out.
At this proclamation Harry reddened and stood up. His chair made a loud screech
on the stone floor and drew everyone's attention back to him. "I don't want to
hear any more of this!" Harry announced, settling his incensed stare on Draco.
"I'm going to bed." There were countless things Harry didn't want to know about
Draco's past. Past conquests were chief amongst them. Principally because of
this now awkward situation of finding out that Malfoy had shagged a girl he'd
once fancied. A girl that he had been incapable of wooing, which it would
appear made him gay by default. Unlike Draco who evidently could have anyone of
either gender he wanted. Weasleys included.
"Good, let's leave these heathen to their Shepherd's Pie," said Draco in
disgust as he rose.
"No, you stay here. Have your little tart-off with Ginny. I'm sure it's
fascinating that there's any virgins left in school at all," spat Harry.
"I can think of at least two," Draco pointed out.
Hermione and Ron, who had stayed out of it up until this point, turned crimson.
Harry looked at the rest of the trio and then faced Draco again. For a moment
he thought to have a go at Draco for outting his friends' virginity. Then it
occurred to him that they'd never bothered to share that information with him
either, and that he was likewise angry with them. Finally he settled on, "I
DON'T WANT TO KNOW ANY OF THIS!" and stormed out.
Draco dropped into his seat and shoved his pie away and slumped in his chair
with his arms crossed. He couldn't even spare a trademark sneer of amusement
when Mrs. Weasley dragged Ginny out to have "a talk" with her about the
evening's revelations.
Ron eyed Draco and almost felt sorry enough for him to offer a "he'll come
around" to help him feel better. He opened his mouth to say it, but stopped as
he recalled that he was rather put out with Malfoy for revealing that he and
his girlfriend were virgins.
Hermione seethed. "Malfoy..."
"Shut up and bang your boyfriend, Granger. I'm in no mood for your lectures."
"At times like this, I have no idea what Harry sees in you. That was horrid,"
she growled as she grabbed her plate and nudged Ron. "Come on, Ron. Let's eat
in my room."
"You may as well, nothing else is going to happen in there!" Malfoy after them
as he flopped back in his chair, finding himself alone at an empty dinner
table. He thought about what Hermione said. I have no idea what Harry sees in
you. "Sometimes, neither do I..."
After eating his Shepherd's pie in silence, Draco crept up to the bedroom where
Harry was pretending to sleep. He slid into his own bed, noting that Ron was
still with Hermione. "Harry?"
There was no sound from the other side of the room. No movement, just the back
of Harry's body facing him.
"I'm sorry, Harry. I love you. I..."
"I know, Draco. Just... get some rest," Harry grumbled to him. He knew it
wasn't Draco's fault that things with Cho hadn't worked out, but at the moment
he was just irritated and didn't want to talk about it.
"I love you, Harry." Draco tightened the blankets securely around him. After
the day he'd had and this stupid fight, he just wanted to be held.
"I'll talk to you in the morning, Draco. Good night."
***** A Kiss is Just a Kiss *****
After a good night's rest, the fight seemed asinine. Harry realized that
perhaps he was over-tired from training. Cho was in his past, and while he'd
had a crush on her for a good while, his actual relationship with her hadn't
lasted long. And really, she was a bit of a nutter. Or perhaps waking up with
Draco in his bed clutching him swayed his mood. Evidently at some point in the
night, Draco had crept in. Sneaky Slytherin. Harry kissed Draco to rouse him.
"Ugh... morning breath, Harry," Draco protested, pulling an arm up over his
face to shield himself from the smell.
"Hey, I'm forgiving you here." Harry sniggered at Draco's reaction and pulled
at the defending arm.
"Shouldn't I be forgiving you for... whatever that was about?" Draco perked a
brow at Harry as his arm was pulled away.
"It's... well, maybe you should be. I don't know. Just... after what Ginny said
about me with girls and...." He frowned, it was still a little bothersome, but
it really wasn't Draco's fault that Ginny brought it up. Harry thought for a
moment about asking about Cho, but he decided that the subject was better left
dropped.
"That irritated me, too. You have just as big a lack of talent with boys as you
did with girls." Draco smirked, relieved that he seemed to be forgiven. He was
glad Harry didn't ask about Cho. He would've lied about it, of course, but the
truth of the matter was that he'd only bothered with her because she'd been
with Harry. He'd planned to use it against the Golden Boy later, but before he
had the chance to drop that little bomb at what he'd hoped would have been the
most devastating moment, he was involved with Harry. Bitten on the ass by his
own machinations. He supposed on some level he deserved last night's tantrum,
so he wasn't particularly interested in prolonging the making up process.
Harry pinched Draco's arm. "That's it. I'm not making love to you this
morning."
"Mmm... sex," said Draco as he picked up the bottle of lubricant and started to
get up. He was stopped by Harry's grip on him. "Where are you going?"
"Drawing room."
"Why?" Harry pulled Draco back down onto the bed.
"Sex? Or was that just a really good dream I was having of my boyfriend
inviting me for a morning shag?" Draco settled in against Harry.
"Why not here?" asked Harry.
"Well, Ron..."
"He's asleep." Harry pointed over at his friend to demonstrate.
Taking a quick look back over his shoulder, he turned back to Harry and
responded, "Well spotted. However, he might wake up."
Harry smirked. "Then you'll have to refrain from screaming my name."
Draco rolled his eyes. "I want to scream it, Harry. Come on." Draco pulled at
Harry's arm as he started to roll back.
Harry pulled his arm away from Draco and raised his brows. "Seriously?"
"About screaming your name? Well, you'll have to inspire me." Draco gave Harry
a sultry look.
"No, seriously do you want to go into the drawing room?" asked Harry,
suspicious about why Draco was suddenly so concerned about Ron's feelings. Just
what was going on between his best mate and his boyfriend?
"Yes."
"Why?"
"What if he wakes up and watches us?" Draco asked as he looked back over his
shoulder at Ron to see if Ron was already doing that.
Nonplussed, Harry asked, "You didn't care a couple of weeks ago."
"That was at night. It was dark."
"Come to think of it, Draco we haven't done that with him in here since." Harry
eyed Draco and sat up, detangling his limbs from the sheets and his lover.
"Well, um... no." Draco reached for Harry.
"Why is that, Draco?" Harry deftly avoided him by springing out of the bed.
Heaving a sigh, Draco followed. "He's straight and-- he wouldn't want to see
that."
Again, Harry dodged Draco, this time moving to the wardrobe to grab a fresh
robe and his pants. "You? Considerate?"
Draco folded his arms over his chest. "It's been known to happen."
"Not towards Ron."
"You said you wanted me to be nicer to your friends. Aside from which, I don't
want him seeing me naked, or you naked for that matter. Come on. It's just
easier this way. We won't have to worry."
Harry wasn't sure he liked Draco being considerate of Ron. Of course, it was
what he'd asked for, but now that it was happening, Harry was distrustful.
Particularly since he knew that Draco and Ron spent time in the drawing room
together in the mornings and Draco was cagey about what they were doing in
there. "You know, I'm suddenly not in the mood. I'm going to have a shower."
Harry started towards the bathroom.
"I-- fine. Whatever, Harry." Draco gave a dismissive wave.
Harry shrugged and slammed the bathroom door. The noise woke Ron who looked up
in bleary-eyed confusion as the portrait snickered. "Fuck OFF!" spat Draco, who
threw on a robe and stormed into the drawing room.
--
"Trouble in paradise, Harry?" Richard leered so hard that it unsettled Harry.
Harry took his usual spot, pointedly one chair away from the creepy man. It
bothered him that he couldn't get along with the only other outcast of the
group, but the insinuation of Draco's lack of loyalty cut him deeply. So much
so that he couldn't stop thinking about whether Ron and Draco were having an
affair. "How do you figure that?"
"Auror training, Harry. We've all learned about body language already. Besides,
I can spot boy trouble a mile away." Richard patted the seat next to him and
then stretched his arm out around it.
Harry looked at the chair, then at the arm draped across it and then rolled his
eyes. "What would you know about boy trouble, anyway?"
"Well, if you'd come closer I could explain to you just how much I would know
about boy trouble. Come on, I thought The Boy Who Lived was brave. Afraid I'll
make you soak your daks?"
"No, I just don't have boy trouble, nor do I see the point in getting any
closer to you." Harry ruffled his hair, trying to appear as secure as he
sounded. "Unless, of course, you're having boy trouble, and then perhaps I
might help."
Richard leaned on his elbow on the chair in an attempt to close the distance
between them. "Well, there is this looker in my class who is clearly seeing a
complete arse who treats him like dirt. I'd like to ask him out for a pint but
he won't even sit next to me."
Harry glanced at the man leaning towards him in his nondescript navy blue robes
that made his eyes stand out. "Maybe the 'looker' is the arse."
"Oh, I doubt it. His boyfriend is from a long line of arses from what I've
heard. It was just a matter of time before the prat stepped out on him."
Richard tried not to look triumphant at the way his statement made Harry pale.
"What makes you think that's what happened?" Harry couldn't maintain eye
contact with Richard and looked down at the scratched desktop.
"Malfoys aren't known for their fidelity. Everyone knows that, and you look
like a dog's breakfast," said Richard, who slid into the empty seat to get that
much closer to the nervous boy.
Dropping the pretense irked Harry almost as much as the man's closeness.
Harry's snapped his head towards the front of the class, but he glared at him
from the corner of his eye. "I'm too young for a pint."
"I could get you in. But if you'd rather, we could go for ice cream." Richard
slid his arm along the back of Harry's chair.
Harry huffed at the derisive tone and spoke through his teeth, "I don't want
ice cream. Draco didn't cheat. Leave me alone." He turned his head back and
scowled at Richard's arm until he withdrew it.
Rankled, Richard questioned, "You know that for certain?"
Did Harry know that for certain? Well, no. But now that someone was pushing him
on it, he realized how very foolish that thought had been. Ron, gay? Draco
slumming with a Weasley? Still, the evasiveness was infuriating which brought
him back to start. "He wouldn't," Harry meekly replied.
"That didn't sound certain at all. Come with me for a pint. We can discuss how
your boyfriend wouldn't cheat on you while making him wonder just where you
are." This time Richard put his hand on Harry's shoulder, and the boy didn't
immediately recoil.
Harry arched his brows. That idea was... appealing. Let Draco wonder what the
ambiguousness was about for once. He reasoned that he didn't really need Arthur
to guide him back from the Ministry. He'd gone home alone the night before when
the man had to stay for Order business. He could do it again. "Fine."
"Excellent," purred Richard. He fell silent, not wanting to press his luck any
further. After a few moments, the instructor came in and class began.
--
Harry wasn't sure how it had happened. He excused himself to have a leak one
minute and the next, he was pressed against the lavatory wall with Richard's
tongue down his throat. It was a kiss that had something to prove. Claiming,
angry, mashing of teeth and lips and Harry found it altogether as objectionable
as Richard himself.
Shoving him away with more force than was necessary, thanks to the two pints
he'd drunk on his virgin system, Harry whirled around to leave. At least he'd
had time to urinate, he thought. Harry felt a hand land firm on his shoulder.
The fingers dug in and he was whipped around and glaring into Richard's livid
face. Harry felt that he was giving Richard a sufficiently malevolent look, but
he found himself once again flat against a stall door, dealing with Richard's
pungent beer breath and lashing tongue.
Again Harry shoved at Richard, but found stronger resistance this time. The
older man had at least two stone more on him than Harry, which made escaping
him thorny. Before Harry consciously decided to do it, his knee met with
Richard's groin and the man was doubled over in pain and then on the floor.
Harry staggered out of the bathroom, feigning obliviousness to people staring
at him because of the wailing emanating from the toilets. "No means no,"
muttered Harry as he made his way into the balmy evening and started his trek
toward Grimmauld Place.
--
Draco was tense from waiting and worrying. He felt so much relief that Harry
hadn't been attacked on the way home from the Ministry, it was hard for him to
stay annoyed when he saw Harry, even though he was bleary eyed and off-kilter.
His lover smelled of smoke and tasted like cheap beer, but he ignored it in
favor of Harry's passionate kiss. Pressed against his family's tapestry, Draco
melted and abandoned all rational thought.
Even though he hadn't welcomed Richard's kiss, the memory of it made his
insides twist as if he'd truly betrayed his lover. He heatedly balled up the
sides of Draco's robes with his hands, and then he pulled it up over his
lover's head and tossed it aside.
Taking another quick glance to the door to ensure that it was shut in their
manic rush to get to this point, Draco shivered in the chill of the low-lit
room and the feeling of being utterly naked up against his family symbol. His
slender fingers scrammed for Harry's robe. He succeeded in pulling it off as
Harry kissed down his body, pausing only to raise his hands over his head to
allow the fabric to clear his arms.
Draco had little time to angst over the fact that clearly Harry wasn't going to
let him top again before his prick was engulfed in the heat of his lover's
mouth. His platinum hair caught at the dark tapestry as his head fell back and
he exhaled through his pinked, violated lips. His hands twisted through the
wiry strands of Harry's black hair as his head bobbed on his prick. This was,
by far, the hardest Harry had ever worked at a blowjob and while Draco should
have been asking himself why, he was entirely too shocked and aroused to do so.
"Harry!" he gasped as he felt his toes curl.
Harry's green eyes scaled up Draco's body, observing the flexing of the boy's
glistening abdomen and the erratic heaving of his chest. Harry crept one hand
up Draco's torso towards his face, wanting to stroke it as Draco lurched
forward to look down at Harry's frantic suckling. He tried to smile around the
prick at Draco's vulnerable expression and forehead shimmering with
perspiration. Sliding a finger up into the drool collecting on his bottom lip
and the base of Draco's length, he then worked the finger to the cleft of the
Slytherin's ass and then gently inside of him.
Draco's head snapped back against the wall. It made a resounding thud as
Harry's finger sought out and found the hard but tender spot inside of him that
made him cry out. Feeling the increased internal pressure along with the hard
sucking from his boyfriend's hollowed out cheeks, Draco finally caved and
shuddered, releasing into Harry's mouth.
The Gryffindor swallowed some, but kept his cheeks puffed with the majority of
Draco's leavings still in his mouth. He stood up and for a horrifying moment,
Draco thought he was going to force him to eat it. But then Harry turned his
head and spat the sperm over The Noble and Most Ancient House of Black family
tree. Draco watched with bemused revulsion as his ejaculate slid over Araminta
Meliflua's family line, staining trails of white bubbles down the fibers of the
tapestry.
Draco parted his lips to say something, only to find his mouth filled with his
lover's tongue and the hard, slick press of his erection jabbing his hip. This
speed at which this was taking place was starting to make it feel more like
assault than sex, but Draco didn't want to stop. He wasn't sure he could stop
it. Hoisted up by Harry's hands on the backs of his thighs, Draco wrapped his
legs around his lover's waist.
"I need this, Draco. I need you," Harry gasped against Draco's neck. He wasn't
sure exactly why he needed it and if Draco was trying to stop him to discuss
it; he wasn't sure what he'd say. He couldn't bring himself to tell Draco the
truth about Richard kissing him, which made him feel as if he was cheating. He
didn't want to explain that he had a feeling that the older man was attracted
to him and that he'd gone anyway. That he thought that maybe he could cheat on
Draco because he believed that Draco was cheating on him. "Mine... you're
mine..."
Need. Draco was needed? Doing it this way was wrong, not just because Harry was
in such a rush, but because what they needed to do was stop and talk, not fuck.
Yet, being told that he was needed and feeling the hard press of Harry's body
against his, he was too aroused to tell him no. "Yes, yours, Harry... yours,"
he whispered as he brushed his lips over Harry's scar.
It hadn't occurred to Draco that Harry was going in dry until he felt the rough
entry. His nails bit into Harry's shoulders as he wailed out in protest.
"Haaarrrry... waaaait! Slow dooooown! We need..." He felt raw and chafed for an
instant. His hands retained their tense grip as he bore out the sharp stab of
pain that made his teeth clench and his face flush.
It hurt, and Draco was going to tell Harry to stop, but after a second and then
a third hard thrust, the point was moot as Harry was flooding Draco with his
release. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry, Draco. Merlin, I'm so sorry," Harry sobbed
into his lover's shoulder, after he realized too late what Draco had been
wailing and why.
Of course Draco took it that he meant he was sorry for the rough sex. It hurt,
but it wasn't the end of the world. He wasn't exactly a virgin when it came to
anal sex. He had been bottoming a while. But it had taken him by surprise and
his ass stung.
While the rushed sex was part of what Harry was apologizing for, in his
alcohol-addled mind he was apologizing for everything that had happened that
night.
"It's all right, Harry. I-I'm fine. I'll be fine," he assured him as he reached
back to grasp the tapestry behind him so that he could detangle his legs from
around Harry's waist and stand on his own. Once Harry's prick was out of his
ass, the ache started anew, but it was dulling again. He knew he'd live through
this and he would be fine. He rationalized that Harry was just rough because he
was drunk, another thing he decided he'd take up with Harry later. "I'll be
fine. Let's-let's go to bed," mumbled Draco. He was tired now and he just
wanted to lay down.
"I'm so, so sorry," whimpered Harry.
He searched Harry's troubled green eyes for a moment before he reached up to
stroke his cheek and he kissed him gently. "I know you are, Harry. I love you.
I'm fine. Really." At that, he started to slowly bend down to get his robe.
Seeing Draco's pained expression, Harry pressed a hand to his shoulder to stop
him and knelt down himself to scoop up their robes. He threw his over his
shoulder and turned Draco's right-side out. "Draco, I love you, too. So much. I
really am..."
"Please stop apologizing, Harry. Just-- don't do it like that again," said
Draco as he pushed his arms through the sleeves of his robe that Harry was
pulling down over his head like dressing a small child. "I'm really tired now,
Harry."
Satisfied that Draco was dressed, he pulled his own robe on. "Bed. Yes," said
Harry. "I need you, Draco. I don't want you to...."
At this, Draco smiled and ruffled Harry's hair. A look of concern flickered
over his face. Harry was being strange. Then again, he was drunk, which was a
matter he decided to drop unless it happened again. They'd been fighting that
morning, probably the other students took him to a pub and he sobbed in a pint.
There were worse things, he reasoned. "I'm not leaving you, Harry. I need you,
too. Come on," he said as he took Harry's hand.
"Wait, one second," Harry said as he pulled his wand from his pocket and cast a
cleaning spell on the tapestry to remove Draco's semen.
Draco yawned and nodded his approval of the action, although he had found it to
be a poetic statement about family trees in general. But since he thought Harry
just did it because he was drunk, he didn't ask. Instead, he turned and headed
for their room. His ass still smarted, but the pain was ebbing away. By morning
it would be gone completely. Harry followed and after they both cleaned up,
they sank into Harry's bed clinging tightly to one another as they slept
fitfully.
--
 
"Hermione thinks you need to tell him," intoned Ron in a voice that made it
unclear where he stood on this issue.
"I can't. She-doesn't have all of the facts," said Draco as he glared at the
parchment, one of many that he'd received from Snape over the past couple of
weeks. You're brilliant with potions. Check. This is for your future. Check.
This art will serve you well in the future. Check. Few have this gift. Check.
Then, of course, the diatribe would go into more nebulous rants that might be,
depending on Snape's mood, that he saw Draco as the son he never had. Or that
Potter was going to ruin his life. Or that people took a chance on Draco's
redemption and that perhaps he should be kinder towards people who made
mistakes. The last one struck a chord, but seeing as Snape had no way to gauge
Draco's response, he didn't realize it and therefore used it the least.
Nearly all correspondences came with a plea for Draco to speak with him. Draco
never answered any of them. When the Order had their meetings, Draco would
retire to the drawing room with the door closed and Harry would fill him in on
what he needed to know.
"She says he'll explode if he finds out we've been hiding this from him,"
stated Ron.
Draco's jaw flexed. Harry seemed on the cusp of exploding nightly, and for this
reason, Draco didn't want to mention Snape's visit or correspondence to him.
"He has enough on his mind. He's in all of those Auror training classes; people
are plotting to kill him. I think I can spare him the distress of the greasy
pederast." Draco's tone was dismissive in spite of how unsettling the idea of
Harry finding out about this was. To punctuate his stance on the matter, he
crumpled the parchment, tossed it into the air and with a well-aimed
"Evanesco," the parchment was permanently banished. "He doesn't ask about
Snape. What he does ask me about are our little morning chats. I think I'm
going to have to tell him."
At this, Ron panicked. He'd also been avoiding Harry's ever more suspicious
questions about his "talks" with Draco, but he found it increasingly awkward to
talk about, as he still hadn't met his original goal. "You can't tell him about
that! You swore to me you wouldn't tell!"
"I know what I said, and I've kept to it. But the time has come and he needs to
know." Draco folded his hands in his lap calmly. It wasn't nice to betray Ron's
trust; he'd prefer permission to tell Harry what was going on. But if Ron
wasn't forthcoming, Draco was willing to break his agreement in order to soothe
Harry's doubts.
"He'll be angry! She's like a sister to him! He'll get mad you were bargaining
her virtue-"
"Oh for the love of Merlin, Weasley. I'm the dramatic one! Bargaining her
virtue? He knows you haven't shagged her yet. As we all do," Draco hissed.
"It's not my fault. We haven't discussed that in a long time now! You got us
off topic with all of the practicing!" shouted Ron as he leapt to his feet in
defense.
Draco rubbed his fingers to his temples. "I couldn't take any more of your
whining. And it isn't as if you didn't enjoy it!"
"I didn't deny that I enjoyed it! It was great practice! But the rate things
are going I may not get to use it with anyone but you!"
"Then practice with someone else! I don't care!" shouted Draco.
"BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO PRACTICE WITH!"
Draco glowered at Ron, "WHY DON'T YOU PRACTICE WITH HERMIONE?"
Ron returned the intense stare and then appeared stricken. "You know why."
"I do. Because you're afraid of her."
"I'm not afraid of her, I just don't want her to think I'm a-"
"Fool? Pillock? Buffoon? If she really is the brightest witch of her age, I'm
pretty sure she's sussed that you are all of those by now," Draco pointed out
as he flopped onto the couch.
Ron gave Draco an irritated look but then sighed and dropped onto a chair. "I
don't want her or Harry to know about any of this. Not what we started out
discussing or what we've been doing since then," Ron muttered. "What if they
find out and I'm asked to perform and I... freeze up?"
"Well, depends on who you're in front of. If it's Hermione she'll probably just
say something incredibly condescending and if it's a Death Eater then you'll
die," said Draco.
"I almost wish it were the other way around," sighed Ron, reasoning that death
dealt from Hermione would be better than suffering the humiliation of her
placating him.
Draco shrugged and sat up. "Well, we're almost to the end of the books that
Snape brought from my father's study anyway. There are only so many more spells
to practice from there."
"I know. I just... I'd rather..."
"I know. But Ron, he'll be so much less stressed out to know we've been
practicing spells and gossiping about your shagging Granger than to know that
Snape... "
Ron nodded and his look of concern over Harry reflected Draco's. "Is he really
that bad off?"
Biting his lip, Draco looked away, not sure he could even communicate properly
how he felt, or if he really even wanted to. Ever since the first week of Auror
training, Harry had just been... off. Questions about his day would send him
off into tirades about fairness and being paired off with a freak. Other times
when Draco would try to ask why this Richard person vexed Harry so much, the
other boy would turn needy and strange. Draco would find himself pushed against
whatever was near, load bearing or not, and taken passionately. In spite of the
fact that he'd asked Harry not to do that, he fancied that Harry was simply
overwhelmed with his need for him and couldn't help himself. This theory was
far more appealing than more realistic scenarios involving infidelity, or that
Harry was cracking up; although both theories had played across his mind a few
times. "He's just stressed, I think. We just need to... let him in on this one
thing."
"But not about Snape."
"He'd..."
"Explode, right," said Ron as he pushed out of the chair.
"Right." Draco was silent for a moment until he remembered something he'd given
brief thought to. "Oh. Right, about Granger..."
"Yes?"
Draco got up and moved over to the stack of books that the boys had been
exploring together for the past couple of weeks and dug through to the bottom
for his copy of The Taming of the Shrew. "You've kept up the compliments,
right?"
"Well... mostly?"
Giving an annoyed look, Draco shook his head. "Plan a nice dinner for her.
Maybe a midnight meal by moonlight or something equally as trite."
"You make it sound so romantic, Malfoy."
"Considering the parties involved, I should be praised for my ability to keep
down breakfast."
"Ass."
Draco smirked. "Wrap this up and give it to her. It's her favorite." He tossed
the tome to Ron.
Ron caught it and looked at it and then at Draco. "But it's yours..."
"Which is why I'm free to give it away."
"No, git. I mean... you don't give things away a lot. I thought you liked it,
and it looks expensive."
Draco shrugged. "I don't need it, really. I have others," he said, deciding not
to whine that it was his favorite, as well. If he really wanted it again, he
could buy another, he reasoned. Although deep down he knew he wouldn't. He
could've given Ron this book at any time since Hermione had mentioned liking
it. Now that he felt like he and Ron were friends and looking out for one
another, he really wanted to.
"Are you sure?" asked Ron as he looked over the gilded letters and felt the
fine leather. He knew she'd love it and there was no way he could repay Malfoy.
Not in this lifetime.
A million snarky things went through Draco's mind in response, but instead he
just nodded.
"Thank you," said Ron as he gave a sincere smile.
Draco grinned back and then shooed him away. "Go on. I'm just going to stay in
here and read."
Ron gave one last look at Malfoy and then headed off to his room to plot.
--
"The lack of progress vexes me, Severus," spoke the high, cold voice.
"I apologize, my Lord." Snape was prostrate on the floor before the pale,
reptilian man. "But the boy's willfulness was part of his appeal, was it not?"
While it was true that patricide was near and dear to Voldemort's heart, that
was not the only reason in his interest in Draco Malfoy. He'd always believed
the boy to be little other than a whinging brat who couldn't follow orders. It
was a shock that he'd killed his father and made Voldemort reconsider his
assessment. It took a good deal of will to take a life, particularly one so
close. In fact, it was likely that Draco was stronger and held faster to his
convictions than Lucius did. Undoubtedly he made his own path. Although he did
fear that Lucius was right. That Draco had been afflicted with that petty
emotion of love and the fact that Draco had yet to take the bait was bearing
that out. "This little plan puts Richard at risk. He was placed to observe and
infiltrate, not to seduce."
"I appreciate the position he is in, playing against his... orientation. There
are advantages to his getting closer to Potter."
Voldemort's red eyes blazed for a moment at the contradiction, but he let it
go. "It lays more eyes on Richard. It was fortunate that we got him into Auror
training at all; setting him so close to Potter is attracting attention to him.
It has been made abundantly clear that this road will lead us nowhere. To push
Potter further would expose Richard."
Snape nodded and continued to stare at the ground. It meant that he could not
count on Potter to cheat on Malfoy to separate them. This was bad news for
Snape as well as Malfoy. Voldemort only had so much patience with the boy's
reticence to come back to the fold. "I understand, Lord."
"If Malfoy does not come with you willingly then you shall have to bring him by
force. Either way, I will have my riches back. I have wasted enough time and
energy doing this subtly. I must move forward before the Order does, your
prurient interests notwithstanding. Get him out of that house and get the
information out of him. If he refuses to turn, end him."
This was sticky. Then again, Snape's circumstances were always sticky. Both
sides believed him to be a double agent for the other when, really he only ever
looked after himself. Although he strongly suspected that both sides figured
that as well. Each side only ever told him as much as they were comfortable
with the other knowing, with the exception of a few matters that it would be in
Snape's best interest to keep under wraps. It was a complicated cat and mouse
game, if there were two cats and one elusive mouse in the middle.
What made it even more complicated was that Snape wasn't even sure Draco had
the information Voldemort wanted. He'd gambled that Draco knew something of how
to get to the assets that Lucius was hiding on behalf of Voldemort, but he
didn't know that for certain. "What would you have me do, my Lord?"
"I have a plan," answered the Dark Lord, as he held out a book in his long,
spidery hands.
--
So that was that as far as Snape was concerned. He sat in his dark cottage on
the outskirts of London proper. His dining room table was necessarily small.
Aside from the minuteness of his stone house, no one really came over anyway.
It was an above ground house, but the lack of windows and torches made the
setting dismally the same as the dungeons of Hogwarts.
He glared at the book that Voldemort handed him. His fingers slid over the
cover, but he dared not open it. There were worse things that he could be
called to do. There were measurable sacrifices in this war, and this was a
tolerable one. Perhaps. Snape stood and paced the small confines of his
kitchen/dining room. He circled around the small dark table, watching the way
that the light played over the ominous silver lettering and the snakes that
weaved its way around the spine and cover. It did scream Malfoy, didn't it?
Still... Snape wasn't sure he could live with the sacrifice.
Snape pulled his wand and directed it at the book. Muttering an incantation,
the book lit up the room in green and then yellow. Snape wailed in pain but
maintained, keeping his wand pointed at the tome. His other hand steadied his
wrist as his dark eyes narrowed in determination. Again he shouted in pain
until he could no longer sustain eye contact and he slammed against the wall,
clutching his wand hand against his chest. He had done all that he physically
could. Snape hoped it was enough.
***** Love Will Tear Us Apart *****
It was Ron's turn to be entirely too chipper that morning, and Hermione's to
blush and avoid eye contact. None of this escaped Draco's notice, although he
wasn't sure whether he should have been proud or ill. On one hand, he'd helped
successfully manipulate Granger into putting out. On the other, well, Granger
naked. Draco pushed his breakfast plate away.
It was juvenile to take satisfaction in squicking Malfoy, but Hermione reasoned
it was better than getting offended, so she gave him a deliberate smirk when
she saw him pushing his plate away. The night before, she had immediately
recognized the book Ron handed her as being of similar design to the one Malfoy
had held when she rescued him from Snape. When she read the title, The Taming
of the Shrew, she knew. Malfoy must have given Ron the book to give to her,
knowing this was her favorite. Of course, she'd already decided to give herself
to Ron that night. Bribery didn't work on Gryffindors, but the gesture from the
both of them was touching.
Ron caught Draco's eye and he waggled his ginger brows. Trying to suppress a
grin, Draco pressed his lips together and nodded solemnly. Ron lit up in a
beaming smile. Draco opened his mouth and jabbed his index finger in to imitate
gagging. This set Ron to giggling and Harry snapped his head up like an angry
librarian.
"What's going on?" The edge of Harry's tone sucked the mirth out of the room.
Draco opened his mouth only to catch Ron's warning look. Ron's eyes darted
meaningfully to his parents. "Nothing."
"That was an awful lot of giggling for nothing to be going on." Harry glared at
Draco. Draco furrowed his brows.
Again Draco started to speak. Ron promptly stomped on his foot to prevent it.
"Ow!"
Harry's resentful gaze turned on Ron just as Ginny breezed in. She took a seat
on the other side of Harry. "Oh, Ron and Draco playing footsie again?" she
teased before catching the dour looks on everyone's faces.
"Again?" questioned Harry.
"She's teasing, Harry. They don't play footsie. Or anything else." Hermione was
trying to be reassuring. She'd gotten a fair idea of what was going on in that
scarred head of his, but under the watchful eyes of the Weasleys, it wasn't a
good time to blurt out what Ron and Draco were giggling about. Watching Harry's
ever-reddening face, she determined what his problem must be. Projection.
Though she tried to talk Harry through his episode with his classmate a few
nights ago, he was determined to hang onto his guilt. She didn't see that he'd
done anything wrong, but it was clear that it was eating him alive. Hermione
was starting to wonder if her advising him not to confess it to Draco had been
the right thing to do. Especially with as moody and tense as Harry was.
In spite of Harry's prickliness and Ron's wrathful look, Draco leaned in to
whisper the "big secret." Before he could make a sound, Harry had sprung up
from the table, skittering the chair behind him a few feet before it dumped
over. "I need to go, I don't want to be late," Harry announced.
Arthur was surprised by Harry's response to what he thought was a rather
obvious situation. The Weasleys were no fools. After all, they had a litter of
children and this whole scene was an open book. Clearly his son and Hermione
had... well, he didn't want to think about it in those specific terms, but he
was happy for his son. There was a good twenty minutes before they needed to be
at the Ministry. "Harry, there's still plenty of time before we need to...."
"I'm going NOW," seethed Harry as he tromped to the stairs.
Watching Harry up the stairs, Arthur decided he might as well follow and try to
talk to the boy along the way. He kissed Molly and said his goodbyes before
giving Ron a knowing wink. He then gave Draco a quick nod to indicate he'd try
to sort it out. Draco frowned at his plate.
--
"We have to stop. I'm exhausted." Draco's pallid brow glistened in the
midmorning light. He blotted it off with his handkerchief.
Ron nodded and wiped his sweaty face with his sleeve. "I was exhausted an hour
ago."
Draco flopped on the couch and slid his wand away. "Yet another way in which
I'm superior to you."
By now, Ron was used to Draco's attitude. He shrugged it off. "Are you going to
be all right?"
"Yes, I'm fine. Might have a nap, though."
"You and your naps," said Ron as he shakily put his wand away and brushed his
sweaty palms on his robe. Draco had been very driven to practice magic today;
Ron surmised it was to do with his spat with Harry. He tried to keep up with
Draco, particularly since he felt responsible for their friction.
"You tire me." Draco stretched out on the couch and rested the side of his face
on one of the cushions.
Ron started towards the door, taking Draco's not-so-subtle hint, but paused
after a thought, "Thanks for letting us have the bedroom and all."
Draco decided not to tell anyone about the portrait's habit of mocking him when
no one else was around. He wasn't about to talk about it now. "It's not the
same without Harry in there with me."
Ron rolled his eyes. "I never took you for such a sap."
Draco snorted as he rubbed his palms into his tired eyes. "I didn't either."
"I'm glad that you two-- I mean, I'm glad you have-- You two are good-- You
know, he's only upset because he loves you so much." Ron frowned at his
incoherency, but Draco seemed to understand what he was getting at.
"Yes. I know. Love is grand, isn't it?" Draco attempted a wry smile, but it
came out rather pitiful.
Sympathetic to Draco's stress, Ron assured, "I'll talk to him when he gets
back, get it all straightened around. You just have a nap. You'll wake up and
everything will be right as rain."
"Mm. Good." Draco pulled the throw blanket up over his shoulder and snuggled
in. "See to the door on your way out?" He didn't think everything could be
fixed quite so easily, but he wasn't going to turn down some help.
"Have a good nap." Ron left the room and shut the door. As an afterthought, he
cast a Silencing Charm on the room guessing that Draco could use some quiet
time after the morning he'd had.
--
On top of his relationship stresses, Harry was not having the time of his life
in Auror training. He filled his supper talk at Grimmauld by expanding his
sparse training victories into longer stories to give the impression he was
well liked. He only ever talked about training when asked since none of his
classmates talked to him much.
Not even Richard. Not that he wanted to talk to the man after "the kiss."
There were few things more vexing, Harry decided, than ignoring someone who
obviously didn't care. He'd expected for Richard to either throw a big fit at
him after their pub brawl or to apologize. Richard did neither. In fact, he
distanced himself from Harry and, shortly thereafter began to make rather
intimate friends with two female trainees.
Harry wasn't sure why he felt so insulted; he should've been relieved. Instead
he felt like a hit-and-run victim. Richard showed up, implied Draco's
infidelity, took him to a pub to sexually assault him, and then left Harry to
deal with the remaining remorse and without concern for the wreckage he'd left
behind. Harry dearly wished he'd stuck with his first impression of the man and
stayed away.
But he hadn't stayed away and as a result, he'd kissed another man. No, it
hadn't been his intention, but he went to that pub of his own free will, sure
enough. He had an inkling of what might happen there when he accepted, given
the winks and flirty manner in which he'd received the invitation. At the time,
part of him even thought that he wanted something to happen. Just to show
Draco.
Draco. Evasive Draco. Manipulative Draco. Draco-who-had-probably-dropped-the-
issue-of-topping-because-he-was-screwing-Ron. Yet, Draco who constantly told
him and showed him how much he loved him. Draco-who-was-putting-up-with-the-
snapping-and-possessive-and-rough-lovemaking. Why? Why would Draco put up with
it? Especially if he had someone else? Deep down Harry knew. He knew there was
nothing but fidelity and sincere love. Maybe now he just wanted Draco and Ron
to be involved so that he could feel less guilty about what had happened with
Richard. So that Harry could point his finger and say "Hah! You're not perfect
either!"
What the shit was that with Draco and Ron? Giggling? Footsie? Harry could feel
his anger stirring again. It wasn't just that he worried that Draco was
cheating on him. What also rankled him was that life was going on without him.
Draco and Ron were... friends? That shouldn't bother him. That's what he
wanted, wasn't it? For his lover and his friends to get along? Yet that
happening without him there he felt lost and talked about and jealous of not
being there to see the friendship develop. If that's all it really was.
Harry reflected on the conversation he had with Hermione about the kiss with
Richard. He'd conveniently left out the circumstances that had led him to going
with his classmate to the pub. He didn't think she needed to hear that her
boyfriend might be unfaithful any more than he wanted to think it. It probably
should have occurred to him that she didn't suspect that for a reason, but it
didn't. Hermione didn't ask why Harry had gone to the pub with Richard in the
first place, likely assuming that he was popular and got invitations out
frequently. He didn't care to ruin that impression either.
Her advice was on the money, and he knew it. Even so, it hurt not to tell Draco
what happened. He wanted to confess, to beg forgiveness. Or maybe he wanted to
confront Draco with it. Wait for the other boy to scream at him so he could
make his accusations about why he locked himself away with Ron in the mornings.
Mornings that Harry was not a part of. Mornings that led to giggling at
breakfast over things that Harry didn't know about. He was stuck in Auror
training every day. It should have been fun here. He should be having the time
of his life. Instead he was ignored, if not reviled, while at Grimmauld they
were all having wild fun. Maybe even orgies, he thought in hysterical
bitterness.
He couldn't concentrate. This was unfortunate for Harry because he was brewing
a blood-staunching potion and Harry wasn't good at concentrating for long
periods of time on his best day. He was staring blankly at the manual when his
potion caught fire and noxious fumes filled the room. Richard led the charge of
cackling at Harry as their classes were dismissed for the day. He started to
respond but found himself too wound up to even form coherent response. So, with
the afternoon sun shining down on his daunted face, Harry trudged towards
Grimmauld Place.
--
To anyone who wasn't Draco, the Eagle owl who arrived with a flat, bulky
package would've appeared to be the Malfoy family owl. Though it was an
intentionally excellent likeness, it was not the same owl.
Hermione was thrilled to have received what appeared to be another book. She
smiled and fed the owl a treat and unwrapped the package.
"I don't know if I'm comfortable with Malfoy giving you gifts, Hermione," said
Ron with his brows raised. To Ron, it made no sense that Draco would send
Hermione a present, especially another book.
"Maybe he wants to thank me for rescuing him from Snape?"
"A month later?"
Hermione shrugged. "Well, it arrived by his owl."
"Which is also odd because I haven't seen his owl since Hogwarts," Ron pointed
out. Not even Malfoy knew where his owl was at present, not that he'd fretted
over it. It was a family owl, not a pet. He'd never been allowed pets.
Already, Hermione's fingers were sliding over the snakes woven into the cover
and she was mouthing the words on the tome. "A Serpent's Revenge: Sneaky Spells
To Wreak Havoc. It sounds like him, doesn't it? Anyway Ron, only someone who
knows where we are could get an owl to us."
Ron was dubious. Even if Draco had suddenly become altruistic and decided to
buy Hermione a gift, Draco would've mentioned it to him. No, he definitely
couldn't see Draco buying Hermione something to give her from himself. Not
wanting to see her dead and showering her with gifts were two very different
things. He was just about to express his doubt about it actually being from
Malfoy when Hermione threw open the book.
There was a flash of golden light. Hermione's eyes widened in shock as the
strong magic hit her, jolting her body rigid before releasing her. Letting out
little other than a whimpered sigh, she crashed face first into the open book.
Ron shrieked and grabbed Hermione up into his arms, not sure what else to do.
He was relieved to feel her breath on his cheek; at least she was still alive.
A second later, two things happened; Molly was up the stairs and in Ron's room,
and the portrait of Mrs. Black woke and began screaming her wrath.
"OH THE UNWORTHINESS WHO HAVE BEFOULED THE HOME OF MY FOREBEARERS, THUS SHALL
YOU SUFFER THE VENGEANCE OF MY ELDERS! YOU SHALL SUFFER AND DIE!"
--
"How dare you! How could you?" screeched Harry as he stormed through the
silenced drawing room door.
Draco jolted awake and stared up in groggy shock at his enraged lover. "What?"
"Hermione!"
"Huh? Oh.-- that... well..." stuttered Draco. Clueless as to what had happened
to Hermione, Draco assumed that Harry found out about his helping Ron get into
her knickers and reacted as poorly as Ron had feared. "I--" he stumbled again,
not sure what to say. "She needed it?"
"SHE NEEDED IT?" Harry shrieked. How Hermione needed to have a book blow up in
her face was beyond him and, had he been in a more stable frame of mind he
might have wondered if Draco wasn't on about something else entirely. "ARE YOU
SAYING SHE DESERVED IT?"
Draco furrowed his brows. Sure, why not? Who wasn't deserving of a good seeing
to? "Yes, she deserved it. Honestly, I think she earned it. I don't see what
the big deal is, I realize she's your friend and all, Harry, but in the end
she's just a girl," he pled, reasoning that Harry must have her on a pedestal
that made him think she was above sex.
"SHE'S NOT JUST A GIRL, SHE'S MY BEST FRIEND AND SHE-- SHE'S HURT!" screamed
Harry as he rushed to the couch and yanked Draco to his feet. They were lucky
that the silencing charm was still intact or the noise would have likely roused
Mrs. Black again.
Draco yelped in surprise as he was spun around and then thrown against the
tapestry on the wall. "HARRY! STOP IT! IT DIDN'T HURT HER--. IT'S NOT THAT BIG
OF A DEAL!" Well, as far as he knew it didn't hurt her, but then, who knew just
how big Ron was? In a less desperate moment, he might've made that joke to
Harry; instead he scrammed to pull out his wand for defense.
"Pulling your wand on me, Malfoy?" hissed Harry as he plucked it out of Draco's
grasp before he could get a hex out.
"You're mad! Give me back my wand! Get off of me!" Draco screeched in utter
panic. Harry pocketed Draco's wand and grabbed him by the front of his robes.
Ron had been thrown out of Hermione's room while Molly tended to her injuries.
In spite of the fact that the package was made to appear that Malfoy had sent
the book, Ron wasn't buying it. He was shocked that Harry was. Wasn't Harry his
lover? Shouldn't he give him more of the benefit of the doubt than this? Ron
dashed to the room just in time to catch Draco whom Harry had thrown at the
door. "Harry! Wait! Stop!" Ron protested.
"And YOU! What happened, Ron? Did you dump him for Hermione? Is that what
happened? He couldn't stand that you shagged her and attacked her?" shrieked
Harry.
"What?" Ron and Draco looked each other over as if this were the most repellant
thought ever presented. "Harry... we're not..." Ron began.
"Boys, boys," drawled Snape as he appeared in the doorway behind Ron and Draco.
"Is there a problem?"
"YOU! It figures you'd show up now. Well you can have him. I'm done," growled
Harry.
"WHAT?" cried Draco in panic. He eyed Ron who was shaking his head in
incredulity.
Snape was pleased that things had worked out according to plan. Hermione,
insofar as he could tell, was unconscious but not dead thanks to his weakening
of the book's potency. He was astounded that Ron wasn't attacking Draco as
well, however; that wasn't a deal breaker. He had a mission and he was
following through with it. He grabbed Draco by the arm. "I don't know about
having him, Potter, but I will not leave him here for more of your abuse."
Draco glanced at Snape in trepidation and then looked to Harry in appeal. Harry
glowered at his lover and then gave a dismissive wave for Snape to take him
away. Draco grabbed for Ron's sleeve, but missed. Snape yanked Draco into the
hall with him and slammed the door before Ron had a chance to react.
"Harry, you can't let Snape take him!" Ron turned to open the door, prepared to
stop this himself if Harry wasn't going to.
It was too late; Snape had hexed the door locked and shoved the dazed Slytherin
ahead of him.
"Merlin, Harry!" Ron cried as he tried wiggling the door knob as if that would
dislodge something.
"Oh sure, you'd defend him, wouldn't you, Ron? I thought you were my friend,
but you always were very jealous of me. You always wanted the things I had. I
should've seen this coming," snapped Harry. Part of him wanted to beat Ron till
he bled, but he was too exhausted and miserable to put up such a fight.
"Seen what coming, Harry?" Ron asked distractedly before he started trying a
litany of counter hexes to open the door. In an attempt to be productive, he
chose to ignore the hurtfulness of Harry's insinuation. They needed to focus on
rescuing Draco from Snape.
"You and Draco."
Ron stopped and stared at Harry. Disregarding it wasn't going to work. "I
thought you wanted us to be friends. You just haven't been around. You're still
my best friend. He's just...he was here. There is nothing else going on."
Harry put his hands over his face and shook his head. "I love him, Ron. I love
him so much and he just-- and you-- the two of you..."
"Harry, I have room for more than one friend. He helped me a lot with Hermione.
That's the thing, Harry. He really wouldn't have done this to Hermione. He
hasn't said so, but... well I think he likes her all right, too. Or at least he
wouldn't see her hurt. He did say he wouldn't see her dead," he said as he
remembered their earlier conversation to that effect. "But we can straighten
that out later. We really need to get Snape away from him, Harry."
"You mean-- he-- Hermione too?" Harry peered over his fingers in horror at Ron,
now believing that Draco also shagged Hermione.
Ron shook his head at Harry and spoke as one would to an excitable child. "Yes,
he gets along with all of us. Sort of. In his own-- well, none of us wants to
kill each other so much anymore."
"No, of course, why would you kill the slutty mad shagger?" Harry scrambled to
his feet. "How could you? How could you all be shagging one another like that?
Oh I bet it was a BRILLIANT ORGY that you all had at my expense!"
Ron raised his wand, ready for Harry to attack, which as unhinged as he was
acting, seemed likely. Honestly, how he'd gotten from what he'd said about
Draco not wanting to kill Hermione to thinking he'd shagged her was insane.
Frankly, he was sick of the sexual implications as well, which Harry had
latched onto like a dog with a bone. "BLOODY HELL, WOULD YOU LET IT GO ALREADY,
HARRY? I KEEP TELLING YOU WE'RE FRIENDS. THAT IS ALL, JUST FRIENDS." It
would've been funny if it hadn't been so sick and if Ron weren't becoming
increasingly fearful of Harry's madness. Not to mention what Snape might be
doing to Draco. "I HAVEN'T BEEN SHAGGING DRACO! I DON'T WANT TO! I'M STRAIGHT!
I SHAGGED HERMIONE!"
"WHAT?" shrieked Harry.
"I-- err-- Hermione-- " stuttered Ron, flushing scarlet.
"I thought... you hadn't? I thought you err-- were-- and-- uhhh-- "
"We-- no. We hadn't. Draco was helping me with that...she and I did... last
night. For the first time, for either of us. Draco just had his father's books
and we were practicing spells in here."
"That's what you two were err... in here-- why-- why didn't he tell me that?"
asked Harry, simultaneously relieved and upset.
"I-- he-- he wanted to tell you but I was embarrassed and I made him promise
not to. We started out talking about Hermione and how I could umm... you
know... because we hadn't. I thought it would be... weird for you to know I was
trying to. Or that you'd think I was umm... lame... for not um... doing it
before now." Ron lowered his wand and looked at the floor. He felt guilty for
the stress he'd put on Harry and his relationship.
"He promised you," whispered Harry in realization that Draco had just been
acting out of... friendship. It stung worse to know that Draco had been only
doing what Harry had asked him to. Harry had kissed another man and threatened
Draco and-- now he allowed Snape to run off with him? "Then why did he send
that book?"
"I really don't think he did, Harry. I know it looks bad, but-- she-- he-
- well... He just wouldn't do it. It's not important right now. We need to get
him away from Snape. I wasn't supposed to tell you but..."
"What? Why are you all keeping things from me?"
Ron frowned, that answer seemed obvious, but Harry evidently needed it spelled
out for him. "Well, he said you've seemed so stressed and Draco was just...
worried about you. But... Hermione caught Snape all over Draco and helped him
get away a few weeks ago. That's what she said, anyway."
"Snape was here? Touching him again?" Harry wondered if Snape didn't have
something to do with that book, given how quickly he managed to turn up, but he
was too outraged with this revelation to voice it.
"Before, yes. But now he just ran out of here with Draco and you--"
"Merlin!"
"Exactly!" said Ron, who turned around and tried more counter curses.
--
Draco meekly protested being carted away by Snape, but his movements were
leaden with grief.
Harry wanted him to leave.
Harry didn't want him anymore.
Evidently, Harry found out he was helping Ron get into Hermione's knickers and
that was that.
Draco was stunned, but mostly he just felt sick. He let out a choked sob as
Snape shoved him against the wall. Snape stuck a gloved hand into his pocket
and held out a vial of a luminescent potion to Draco. After registering it for
what it was, he looked up at Snape in question.
"Take it," Snape ordered.
Draco didn't move. "I'm not drinking that."
"Just hold it!" he insisted. Pulling off the glove on his other hand with his
teeth, he grabbed Draco's hand and held it palm up in front of him.
"What? Why?" squalled Draco.
"It's a Portkey."
"Wait! I don't want to--" but in an instant, Snape had placed the vial in
Draco's hand and covered it with his own. Feeling the familiar, uneasy swirling
tug at his stomach, Draco was transported from Grimmauld Place. He found
himself in a very dark room that had the same strange anise smell as the
Potions master himself. Looking around wildly at the dim room, he tried to spy
an exit or suss out where he was standing.
"Welcome to my home, Draco," purred Snape as he slid his fingers up Draco's arm
and caressed his face.
***** Where the World Drops Off *****
Draco squirmed away from Snape's grasp and assessed the room he was in. The
light waned in the already dreary stone cottage, but he could still make out
trite details of a room decorated with an obsessive loyalty to Slytherin.
Forest green velvet couch, inky black leather chair by the fire, teak
Chippendale-knockoff coffee table; it was like a claustrophobic representation
of the common room.
"I realize it's not the spacious grandeur that you are used to..." drawled
Snape.
Trying to calm himself so that he could gather his wits about him, Draco gave a
noncommittal gesture. If he didn't calm down and focus, he'd be easy prey, he
reasoned. "I suppose it works."
"Have a seat." Seeing Draco's eyes flitting to the lonely chair, he grabbed the
boy's bony shoulder and shoved him onto the couch. Snape took the spot next to
him.
The eerie light of the room concentrated on Draco's pale blue robes, lighting
him up with an ethereal glow. He appeared angelic until he spoke. "What the
shit am I doing here?" His expression was somewhere between anger and grief as
he gave up on observing his surroundings and concentrated his gaze on Snape.
"I was protecting you, Draco. I told you that Potter would turn on you and look
at what he did," he said as he pointed out the strained buttons on his robe.
Covering them with his elegant hand, Draco looked away. "It was a
misunderstanding, obviously. I need to get back and sort it out."
"I am not taking you back. What did I tell you about them, Draco? They will
never trust you, not really. They will never believe in you. At the first
opportunity, Potter turned on you, didn't he?" asked Snape as he slipped an arm
along the back of the couch.
That stung, but Draco held fast to his stoic sneer. He still had no idea what
happened to Hermione that made Harry turn on him, he hoped that if he kept
Snape talking that it would come out. "There must have been a reason. Something
happened. I don't know what's going on, I need to get back and find out so that
I can explain. He seems to think something was going on with Ron and me, and
Hermione was hurt?"
Snape balked. "Ron? Hermione? I do believe that is the first time I have heard
those names pass over your lips in such a familiar fashion." Had Draco made
friends with those Gryffindors? That would put a kink in things. Then again,
Snape had faith that if Harry didn't trust Draco, that the others would soon
follow and that he'd be covered.
Draco gave a deferential shrug. "The point is, there's a mess there and I'm...
here. I need to be there to find out what happened and to explain."
"I brought you here to protect you, Draco. Potter has gone quite mad, and I can
only assume that Weasley hadn't found out what happened to Miss Granger or he
would have been attacking you as well," he purred as he slid his hand down to
Draco's shoulder.
Immediately, Draco's body twitched and he turned his head to eye the pallid
hand until it was back on the couch. He cast his defiant grey eyes on the
Potions master and growled through his teeth, "But I didn't do anything. I'll
go there and we'll sort it out. Take me back. Now." One thing he was certain
of; whatever happened didn't have to do with Hermione losing her virginity.
This had to be much more serious than that. Feeling Snape's lecherous hand back
on his shoulder, Draco gave him a scathing look.
The older man ignored it. "Draco, it is no coincidence that I showed up when I
did. The reasons that I did come will be dubious, but I should have to ask you
to hear me out on them."
Draco closed his eyes and flexed his jaw. "Professor Snape, let's pretend for a
moment that I am an upset and traumatized student who has experienced one of
those shatteringly horrid days. A day where everything I thought I could depend
on has gone pear shaped and that I'm being attacked on all sides. In fact,
let's go on to make believe that I've been attacked by the only person left in
this world that I truly care about, but before I got the chance to find out
why, some lecherous old man who's been trying to feel me up for months dragged
me away. Not to another room for a quiet chat. Not to someone who could help
sort things out easily like Dumbledore. No, instead he dragged me away to. His.
Home."
Draco reached up and shoved at Snape's hand. In response, his hand squeezed
tighter. Draco's eyes flared with fury and his hand automatically moved to
where he kept his wand. Fuck. Fucking Potter still had his wand, didn't he?
Fuck. "Do you think you'd really want to sit here and hear them out?"
Draco's speech making left Snape unimpressed. His face moved right into the
insolent boy's personal space and he peered deep into Draco's eyes. "I would
guess that if a boy, we'll call him you, found himself disarmed and in this
'lecherous old man's' home with no visible means of escape... I'd suggest he
learn some manners. Otherwise the 'lecherous old man' might well take what he
wanted from the 'upset and traumatized student' and there would be little said
student could do."
It took a moment for the threat to register completely. When it did, his jaw
dropped and his accelerated breath fanned Snape's face until the man withdrew.
Draco blinked a few times and scanned the cottage like a frightened rabbit. He
licked his lips and smoothed out his robes in an attempt to look composed. "I-
I-I-see," he stammered as he stared down at his lap, too terrified to make eye
contact.
"No, you do not see, Draco. But I will tell you now," he cooed. Would he have
hurt Draco? No, he would not. But the threat had its desired effect of subduing
Draco enough so that he would pay attention. "I knew what was going to happen,
as it was done on order of the Dark Lord. He desires you to come back to the
fold. He sees that your killing of your own father in defense of what you want
means that you are strong, bold and ruthless. You are everything that your
father was, and more." Snape released his grip on Draco's shoulder and slid his
hand up and down the boy's arm.
Draco recoiled. Not just from the touches, but to the very notion that he was
like his father. He was not that ruthless, was he? Killing his father wasn't
something he did for his principles; his father was a threat to his life and
probably Harry's. Well, no, not Harry's. He knew that now. But at the time he
had no idea. Still, to get what the wanted, he'd murdered his father, and that
was rather cold-blooded. "I'm not becoming a Death Eater. Bind me up and do
whatever your perverted heart desires. I'm not betraying Harry. I don't care
what the Dark Lord thinks I did or why I did it. I refuse."
Snape cackled at him. "Dear boy, perhaps you were miss-sorted after all. What a
brave and noble sentiment. Or perhaps Potter is rubbing off on you."
"We do a lot of rubbing," he snapped, hoping it would bother the older man. "Or
perhaps it's my new Gryffindor sperm diet."
"There is no need to be crude, Draco." Snape's nostrils flared at the visual
Draco's words evoked.
Draco took a small measure of pleasure that the barb struck home. He sneered in
satisfaction.
"Why you must still stick up for that selfish, spoiled boy..." started Snape.
Whipping his head up, he eyed Snape in disbelief. "Spoiled? Harry? Oh, well I
suppose he did grow up with that whole luxurious cupboard all to himself."
"Since he's gotten to Hogwarts..."
"He's repeatedly had his life threatened, and been bullied and badgered..."
"You being chief amongst his bullies," Snape pointed out.
"Well I didn't know. I didn't know how he'd grown up, I didn't know... any of
it. And besides, I was 11. You... you KNEW. You knew this boy had grown up
abused and you were... horrid. Horrid to a child! Who could ever love you? Who
could ever want to be with someone as-" Draco's speech was cut off by a slap to
his face. Draco wasn't adept when it came to Muggle fighting, yet he raised a
shaky fist. Then he caught sight of Snape's wand. Fear coursed through his
veins and his hand dropped into his lap.
"We've gone off track. Potter and his tormented childhood is beside the point."
Snape kept his wand poised at Draco as he settled his other arm around him. He
watched the rapid rise and fall of the boy's narrow chest, but there was
nothing for it. He needed to get this all out to Draco whether he liked it or
not. "I had hoped to talk to you about this without interruption before
something as dramatic as the attack on Miss Granger happened. However, you are
as stubborn as your father."
"And I'm as patient as my father, so move it along," Draco hissed as his hand
moved up to the burning flesh of his cheek. It wasn't the hardest slap he'd
ever endured, but it still infuriated him.
There were so many things Snape wanted to say to Draco. He wanted to explain to
him how he wanted this whole conversation to go. He wanted the boy to know how
much he truly cared about him and his welfare, and that pinning all of his
hopes and dreams on a boy whose life may imminently be cut short was foolish.
That Snape had a toe in on both sides and that no matter what happened in the
end, he was covered. He idly stroked Draco's flaxen hair, which radiantly shone
in the final rays of daylight.
Snape sighed to stall as he arranged his thoughts. "I realize that you do not
wish to betray Potter, and I wouldn't goad you if it were more probable that
the boy would prove victorious. However, by joining the Death Eaters, you could
be like me. Work with me playing both sides. You could get invaluable
information for your boyfriend by working within the system. You already have
the Occlumency skills required. All you have to do is come with me. Work with
me. Take the Mark. Then, should Potter and the Order not prove victorious...
you would be counted amongst the faithful with the Death Eaters and survive."
Draco detested Snape touching him, but he was trapped and now he was burdened
with the decision of whether he should join up with the Death Eaters to spy. He
brought his hands up to his face and rubbed at his eyes. Then he squeezed
pressed his fingers to his temples as he considered. "Does the Order even need
another spy? Wouldn't Vo- Vo... the Dark Lord be suspicious of me? How much
information would he trust me with?"
Snape was taken aback with that astute observation, and he took some of pride
in it. Draco was a clear thinker, and that was definitely in his favor. It
improved the odds for his survival in this mess. However, it would make talking
him into this thorny. "The Order needs as much information as it can get. He
may not trust you with much information at the start, but as the final battle
nears, you will be trusted out of sheer necessity. Also, remember that your
friends are being indoctrinated as we speak. Perhaps you could keep Crabbe and
Goyle out of the line of fire."
Goyle. Damned if Draco hadn't thought of Goyle even once over the whole summer.
He may be brighter than those two, he thought, but he wasn't a good friend at
all. He winced and rubbed at his forehead. It all made sense on the surface,
but very deep into it, it just sounded like a good way to get himself slain.
Just how would he keep Goyle 'out of the line of fire' anyway? If Goyle wasn't
on the Order's side, he'd be imprisoned at the conclusion of the War anyway.
Goyle wasn't really clever enough for the amount of deception that would be
required to join him in spying.
Still, the idea of being a hero, saving Harry, being someone who helped to turn
things further in his boyfriend's favor was appealing. Very appealing. He
leaned back against the back of the couch and stared at the ceiling. "And this
is all you wanted to talk to me about all summer?"
"Yes, Draco. This is why I've been so desperate to talk to you. Before the Lord
went to extremes to get you out of that house," he said as he watched the boy
furrow his brows as he weighed his options. "Of course, should you go this
route... you will be withdrawn from Hogwarts. And because of the possibility of
the Dark Lord using you against Harry, you will be required to end your
relationship with him. That shouldn't be difficult, given the state of things."
Snape scooted forward and rested his hand on Draco's sternum. He expected Draco
to shove him away, but he didn't; the boy didn't even seem to notice that Snape
was touching him.
"Break up... with Harry? End it?" Draco swallowed hard as he felt everything
inside of him ice over. It was nearly impossible to breathe at the very concept
of not going to Hogwarts. Not seeing Harry. Not touching him. Not waking up to
him. He let out a quiet whimper and squeezed his eyes shut. Could he do this?
Make this sacrifice to protect his lover?
Snape moved closer, practically on top of the boy now. Draco hadn't noticed the
first few buttons on his robe being yanked undone, nor how close the teacher
had gotten. "There are... other people who love you, Draco. Other people who
would make you happy and could keep you safe. Even from yourself," he whispered
before pressing his dry lips against the warm, youthful ones.
Grasping Draco's chin, his thumb pushed against the bone and forcing the teen's
mouth open to deepen the reluctant kiss. His other hand slid down, jerking open
the buttons down the front of the garment to his waist. With decisive
wrenching, Snape forced the robe to give way, flinging buttons around the
darkened cottage. Snape's hand snaked in for his prize; his fingers curled
around Draco's flaccid length and began to stroke.
Draco's eyes opened and darted wildly around the room as he felt the tongue in
his mouth. His body stiffened and he made whining noises of protest into
Snape's mouth, which were cut short when he felt the waxy fingers circling his
manhood. Mind flooded with panic, Draco was unable to come up with ideas for
how to get out of this. He was pinned him against the couch, too small to push
the larger man off. Snape threatened to have his way with him, and with Draco
being unarmed, he likely could.
Not having time to plan, Draco decided that the best defense at the moment was
offense. He started to participate in the kiss hesitantly; dragging his tongue
lightly over the back of Snape's yellowed teeth. Even Snape's breath was stale
and foul, like old licorice and wasted garlic.
Feeling Draco participating, Snape smiled into the kiss and then broke it. He
looked at the boy and then down his lithe body to the soft, pink prick in his
hand. Draco looked away in humiliation of Snape seeing it, but the older man
didn't notice that. "I knew you would see reason my boy, my beautiful,
brilliant boy. You are too good for Potter. You need someone more refined that
could understand you, that wouldn't treat you... like that," he said as he
continued to fondle Draco's prick. "Spread your legs, Draco," he ordered. The
boy sat still, though again his breathing picked up.
"Draco," he intoned. Draco moved his legs a fraction wider. Frustrated, Snape
thrust his hand under the boy and prodded at his opening. Draco's face flushed
and he bit back his revulsion at being manhandled by this repellant man. He
wanted to be a hero. Harry's hero. If Harry needed someone who could find out
what Voldemort was up to, someone who could get that information for him, then
Draco wanted to be that person.
"We must do something about this, Draco," grumbled Snape as he gave the young
man's disinterested prick a squeeze. Snape lowered himself to the floor. His
dry-lipped gaping maw was approaching Draco's prick when the youth's arms shot
out to Snape's shoulders, halting him.
"Wait. Wait-- I... "
"Draco, you need me. If you want to help Harry, you need me. Perhaps in time
you'll realize what's important, but for now... just try to relax," he said as
his fingers breeched the tight band of Draco's muscles to feel the heat inside.
Draco's hips jolted up and out of the path of the probing finger as he yelped
and twisted away. "I... it's... just... maybe... could we just... maybe some
tea... or... something... stronger, like... firewhisky?"
Snape gave Draco an indulgent smile and nodded. That sounded like a very good
idea. Given how reticent the boy was, perhaps an extra bit of one of his
potions to induce arousal wouldn't hurt, just to help him, naturally. "Of
course. Of course. Just relax. Are you hungry? Some biscuits, perhaps?" he
offered.
Draco nodded as he pulled his robes back around him to avoid Snape's leering.
"Biscuits would be good. Just-- yes. Please."
Please sounded a little odd out of Malfoy's mouth, but then again, the boy was
quite uneasy. Snape moved off of his knees and into the kitchen. He contained
his triumphant smile until he was sure he was out of eyesight. Then he began to
prepare a proper tea and searched through his cabinets to find where he'd
hidden a vial of an amorous potion.
Draco sat numb on the couch, using this stalling tactic to debate his options.
If he were to do this, become a Death Eater and work with Snape, this wouldn't
be the end of the fumbling attempts to seduce him. In fact, he was apparently
expected to allow Snape to fuck him. Chances were that after this he'd be
pressured into some manner of disgusting affair with the man. That concept was
just as hideous as the idea of not seeing Harry until the war was over. No
Hogwarts? No green eyes? No soft kisses and being held till he dozed off? Not
seeing the boy he loved more than anything?
He probably should stay. He should be Harry's hero. It was the righteous and
self-sacrificing thing to do. He was never so glad to be a Slytherin. Hearing
Snape puttering around in the kitchen, Draco jumped up and began buttoning
whatever buttons were left on his robes.
First stop was the fireplace. He scanned the area for Floo Powder, but of
course, none was to be found. He looked under the couches, over the mantle; he
tried the books in the bookcase beside the fire, all to no avail. He even
checked the wing back chair for a hidden spot under the cushion and then under
the cushions of the couch. It was possibly the quietest ransacking in history.
The distinctive Wizard whistle of the hot water being ready for tea brought
Draco back down to Earth. Even if he had found the Floo powder, he didn't know
the address he was going to. He didn't know? Or did he not remember? Was it the
Fidelius Charm? Or was Draco just really scatterbrained? He stood frozen in the
middle of the room in indecision until he heard the clattering of china on a
tray. This was it. If he was getting out, he needed to go now. But where? Where
in the world was he? Snape's house, but where in the hell was that? He didn't
know. On a normal day Draco wouldn't care either. But today it was dreadfully
important.
Eyes cutting riotously around him, he spotted a door and flung himself towards
it. Draco silently prayed that this wouldn't thrust him into an alternate
dimension. Or worse, it could open to Snape's bedroom. He threw the door open
and saw that it was nighttime in what he believed to be the absolute middle of
nowhere. Faintly, he could hear water lapping to the shore. A decrepit, boxy
car with its lights on caught Draco's eye as it passed by on the road atop a
fairly steep hill that started a few yards away. It was unlike than the cars
the Ministry loaned out to get him to King's Cross. It was not nearly so shiny
or pristine as those vehicles were. His nose wrinkled at the idea of being
trapped in a confined space with a Muggle, but at least there was a reduced
chance of being forcibly penetrated. No guarantees, however.
Hearing the loud clatter of the tea set being hastily dumped onto a tray was
enough to spur Draco on out the door and into the great, wide Muggle world.
Wandless. Helpless. Terrified.
***** Decisions at the Door *****
Snape thought he felt a chilly breeze, but he was too wrapped up in piecing
together the remnants of his family's tea set to pay heed. He couldn't even
recall if his family ever had formal tea in their summer home. His family
hadn't been particularly well of off. They'd been rather solidly middle class,
but sought to move themselves upwards. This ramshackle cottage was just another
of his mother's brilliant affectations of wealth that led them to doing without
in other areas. Such as pants, Snape often bitterly recalled.
Though the Snapes were pure of blood, they were never quite accepted beyond
their middle class roots in Wizarding society. They were proud when Severus
managed to become a Death Eater. His family believed the war and their son's
involvement in it would bring them to the status of higher-class prestige that
their Pureblood lineage deserved.
After Voldemort fell and their illusions were shattered, Snape's family
imploded. None of them spoke to one another after a mutual agreement that
Severus would have the cottage in Rhiw, Wales over the summers while everyone
else carried on as if the others did not exist.
Growling as he found yet another chipped china cup and set it aside, he
pondered whether status wasn't part of his attraction to Draco. Fame seeking
was unquestionably ingrained upon his very nature. Being with Draco, provided
they both survived the war, would put him on the social map. However, that
wouldn't happen if he didn't get past this first hurdle of setting a proper tea
and bedding the boy, he reasoned.
Finally he found two cups that matched and had no chips and set them on the
tray. By the time he got to the living area, Draco was long gone. "Draco?" he
asked. He dropped the tray on the coffee table and spun around as if the boy
might've been shadowing him. First, he could smell the sea, and then he could
hear it. The door was open. Without hesitation, he ran to the door to see Draco
blundering up the steep hill to the road.
"Draco. DRACO!" Snape shouted. He saw the boy pause and then redouble his
efforts to scramble up the hill. "Stupid, impudent boy," he fussed as he
reached for his wand. Except... he shouldn't use it out here. He'd performed
basic household magic inside without rebuke, but outside was an entirely
different matter. He looked from side to side at his distant neighbors. The
road above him was sporadically traveled by farmers, and after dark they were
less likely to drive, so Draco would have a hard time finding a ride at this
hour anyway. He would have to do this the hard way.
He started towards the hill when something unsettling the hedge Draco was
running alongside caught his eye. It was the shady, stalking shadow of an
animal. Snape squinted at it and then smirked and folded his arms over his
chest in triumph. Draco would be back to the house soon, and of his own
volition.
--
Draco never thought himself out of shape until he was running up the hill in
front of Snape's cottage. His face was red, his ears were burning and the cool
sea air was cutting at his lungs as he huffed with each step. All of this to
get nearer to Muggles. There was a time when the prospect of even talking to
Muggles would've sent Draco to cowering behind Snape. Oh how the tides do turn.
When he heard Snape calling him, he paused and gave a quick glance back to see
if he was being followed. From there he saw the twinkling of a rather scenic
view of the coast. He also saw how grotty the cottage Snape summered in was and
wrinkled his nose in contempt.
As he turned back to carry on, he heard a noise from the hedge a few feet from
him. Automatically, his hand skimmed to where his wand was kept, but alas, it
still was not there. Draco thought he heard Snape cackling in the distance when
he was blindsided by something mammoth and malodorous that knocked him to the
dusty ground. His wand arm stretched out and flailed as he tried to grasp for
purchase, but nothing was within reach. At last, he landed flat on his back,
shrieking for help. Something moist and horrendously foul was slicking
something sticky onto his face and he brought both arms up to block it. That's
when he heard a friendly-sounding bark.
Parting his crossed elbows to peer up at the...thing, he realized it was
nothing but a common sheep dog. "Ugh, don't they ever bathe dogs in...
wherever-the-Merlin-I-am-ville?" he muttered to the animal.
In answer, the canine gave Draco another lick. The boy wailed and shooed the
dog away and grabbed for his handkerchief in his robes.
As he dabbed his face, he heard the sound of squealing brakes behind him and he
rolled over to see a brilliant flash of purple. It was shortly followed by the
smell of tar and a gunning motor. Feeling the heat of the vehicle that pulled
up beside him, he started to scramble to his feet while pocketing the hanky. He
knew what this was, but he'd forgotten about it until now. His mother had
explained to him about waving his wand hand and calling for help to summon the
Knight Bus if he got stranded somewhere. Not that he was allowed to go anywhere
on his own, but that was beside the point.
Before he could right himself, the doors squeaked open and an unlikely-looking,
spotty young man poked his head out and tilted it down at him like a curious
bird. Draco leapt up and began brushing off his robes. Snape began shouting to
stop him.
"My name is Stan Shunpike..."
"Great, Stan Shunpike. Get out of my way and get me out of here," he insisted
as he forced whatever coin that he'd grabbed from his pocket into the man's
hand and shoved past him.
Stan examined the Galleon with interest. "Well, this'll getcha your 'ot
chocolate, an 'ot water bottle an' a -"
"Do you understand the meaning of the words 'get me out of here?'" hissed
Draco. Now that he was under proper lighting, he realized he'd miss-buttoned
his robe.
Stan seemed to notice this as well. "Oooh! Woz you caught by 'er 'usband, 'ere?
Get a move on it, Ern. Got us a cheeeaaater."
Thankfully, there was no way that Snape was going to make it up the hill fast
enough now. Draco peered out of the windows at him and saw the man flailing and
cursing for the bus to stop just before the bus screamed into a haze of magic.
Draco sighed in relief and flopped down on the nearest bed.
"So, where would a cheater be 'eadin' to?" asked Stan as he waggled his brows
in a way that made Draco even more irritable, if that were at all possible. The
man handed Draco his hot chocolate and his hot water bottle and then held up a
choice of three colours of toothbrushes between his knuckles for him to choose
from.
"Secret headquarters of the Order of the Phoenix, please," he answered as he
took the water bottle and set it on the pillow. Next came the mug and he took a
few calming sips as he looked at the colour choices of toothbrushes. He was so
tired, and couldn't be arsed to care. He grabbed the red one. It sort of
reminded him of Harry.
"Can't do nuffink about goin' to Order o' the Phoenix 'eadquarters," said Stan.
"Why not?"
"It's a seeeeeecret. We wouldn' know where it is. 'Ow would we? They don' tell
us nuffink 'bout that stuff."
"Oh. Right, then. Umm... The old Black family residence?"
"'Ere we go. London it is."
Stan looked as if he might want to ask Draco more questions but to stifle
further conversation, Draco turned on his side with his back to the man. He set
the mug on the nightstand next to him and cuddled around his hot water bottle.
Staring at the red toothbrush, he stroked his thumb over the bristles, thinking
of Harry.
--
"You don't understand, Ron. I wasn't there for him. Just like I wasn't there
for... Sirius. Or for Cedric. I'm always... Merlin, what is wrong with me? I'm
always... just...late." Harry slumped onto the couch and dropped his head into
his hands.
Molly ended up being the one who let the boys out of the hexed door. The jinx
could only be broken from the outside. Her visage was marked by the savage
glare of a woman possessed with a singular mission. She was looking for Malfoy,
ready to punish him for what she thought he'd done to Hermione. Harry brushed
past her while Ron explained why he didn't believe Draco sent the book. It took
all of his Gryffindor courage to confess to his mother that he'd been trying to
woo Hermione and Draco was helping. Molly gave him a few indulgent nods as she
listened to him ramble on about book buying and why Malfoy wouldn't send
another. In the end, she accepted that Ron wouldn't make excuses for the
Slytherin if he didn't truly deem him innocent.
In the meantime, Harry ran through all of the rooms, crying frantically for
Draco. The only response he received was from the livid portrait of Mrs. Black,
whose comments were no less edifying than they'd ever been. Although, once
she'd interpreted the panic on Harry's face, the wretched screaming had turned
into a ghastly, mocking laughter. Even Nigellus got in on the sniggering when
Harry entered his own room. Molly had gone to tend to Mrs. Black by the time
Harry rushed back to the drawing room where Ron was. That was where he sat,
brooding over why he seemed to always drop the ball when it came to Draco and
vowing never to do it again.
"Harry, you just didn't know. That's my fault. I shouldn't have held him to
that sodding promise. And he should've let you know what Snape was up to. He's
just been worried about you. He says you've been out of sorts. After that fight
this morning he was in a state. We practiced our spells for a while, but then
he was tired. I spelled the room quiet so he could sleep. That's why he didn't
get up when Hermione was attacked. That's my fault, too. You had no way of
knowing I did that." Ron tried to word it carefully, knowing how tetchy Harry
was. Further, he wanted to mitigate the blame Harry was heaping upon himself.
"He's gone, Ron. He left with Snape. I don't blame him. Not one bit. Not after
I... Merlin I accused him of... of hurting Hermione and... and cheating. When
I'm the cheater." Harry's voice was muffled through his hands covering his
face.
Ron was shocked. "You? You cheated on him?"
"I kissed... well, this man, one from training. Or he kissed me. I didn't... I
mean, I thought maybe there was something between you two... and then... I just
thought 'I'll show him.' So I went to a pub with Richard from class and he
pushed me against the wall... and he kissed me...and I shoved him away..."
Ron took a moment to digest this new information. "Harry, it was a kiss. You
didn't even start the kiss. AND you pushed him away. I don't know why you-- all
right, I understand why you thought something was going on. But you can go to a
pub with someone without it being...." Ron gestured in a circle with his hand
flat. "You know..."
"I knew what he was about, though. I mean, I think I did. Maybe I didn't. I
don't know. I guess... he'd been cozying up to me since classes began. I
suppose I knew he wanted something. I just..."
"You pushed him away, Harry," said Ron as he sat down on the couch next to him.
He rubbed his back in comforting circles. "Maybe you thought about it, but you
didn't initiate the kiss, and you didn't follow through with it."
"That's what Hermione said."
Ron tried not to be offended that Hermione was told something he was not. After
all, Harry thought Ron was trying to steal his boyfriend. "Well then, it's
obviously true. She's brilliant." He smirked at Harry when he looked over at
him to see if he was just taking the piss.
"She also said not to tell him about it."
"I..." Ron pondered this. "It would upset him. But you have to see by now what
keeping things from people you care about does. Maybe if Draco had told you
what he and I were actually up to, and maybe if he'd mentioned what happened
with Snape..."
"He left with Snape," said Harry as he let his hands fall from his agonized
face. "He's gone."
"I... I have a hard time believing that Draco would just go with him. I think
that Snape just... took him." Ron immediately regretted saying this as he felt
the muscles in Harry's back stiffen.
Harry sat up straight then and he glared around the room as if there would be a
clue as to where Snape sitting around. "Took him. Do you... really think so?"
he asked, steeling himself for the answer.
"I just don't see why Draco would leave willingly. Do you?" It was too late to
recant, Ron reasoned. He could feel waves of rage radiating from Harry.
"Where did he take him?" barked Harry as he slammed his fists against his
knees.
Ron withdrew his hand from Harry's back and folded his arms over his chest.
"Bloody hell, Harry, how would I know?"
"I'm going to kill him. If Snape so much as touches him... or if he hurts him
or traumatizes him in any way. If he... I will kill him," Harry vowed as his
fallen hands clenched his knees.
Harry's wrath could be frightening, and it was definitely unsettling Ron to
hear him speak like that. "Harry, be reasonable. If you killed him then you'd
go to Azkaban."
It was clear Harry wasn't listening to Ron any longer, but was stuck in an
elaborate revenge fantasy. "I'll kill him with my bare hands. The last thing
he'll see in this world is my smiling face as I do it, too."
Ron gaped at Harry's maniacal expression. Draco told him that Harry was going a
bit off the rails, but this was the first time he'd ever witnessed it. At a
loss for what to say, and frankly too scared that he might say the wrong thing
and incur Harry's fury, Ron resumed soothing Harry's back. He wondered where
Malfoy was and prayed he was all right. And if Malfoy wasn't all right, whether
he'd be visiting Harry in Azkaban or St. Mungo's in the near future.
--
"I'm so sorry, Draco, I just don't know how to make it up to you after such a
serious breach of trust!" exclaimed Draco in a murmured falsetto voice as he
bobbed the red toothbrush in time to the words. About the time that he'd
resorted to toothbrush puppetry, he'd decided he'd been on this bus for far too
long. He'd intended to sleep; he was exhausted. However, given all that had
transpired, his mind was in too many directions to allow him the peace of
slumber. Thus....
"I don't know, Harry. I'm not sure if I could ever forgive you for thinking
that I'd sleep with a Weasley," he whispered harshly to the toothbrush-Harry.
"I have better taste than that."
"I know, I know, Draco. I blame the blood from my Mudblood mother for my lack
of judgment. I could never be as reasonable and perceptive as you are. I'm just
a half blood, have mercy!" he made the toothbrush beg in a whiney whisper.
"Further, you thought I would harm Granger." He paused for a moment. No, that
wasn't so irrational, was it? "You thought I would harm Granger in a really
foolish way that could be easily traced back to me. I'm a Slytherin," he
insisted in a low voice.
He had no idea what in the world had happened, but it was something that linked
to him in such an obvious way that even a Gryffindor could sort it out. He'd
deal with that mystery later. There was no use wasting good puppeteer time
pondering what would be explained to him later. Right now, he needed to figure
out how to play this out with Harry.
"I'm so sorry, Draco! It's because I'm a Gryffindor and we're as thick as they
come! We don't think at all! Of course if you wanted Hermione dead she'd be
dead! And no one would suspect you at all. Please, please forgive me!" the
toothbrush implored.
"I don't know.... I don't know if I ever can. You hurt me. You never let me
top. You shoved me against a wall and by throwing me at Ron made me have to
touch a Weasley. Which I never wanted to do, no matter what you believed at the
time. Then you let Snape toddle off with me! I just spent half my youth on that
Witch-forsaken bus to get back! How can I forgive that? What can you do for
me?" He was a little surprised that the litany of Harry's sins went on that
long. He'd been putting up with quite a lot, hadn't he?
He angled the brush down with his index finger as if it were lowering its head
in dire shame for its transgressions. "I... I don't know why you would ever
forgive me. Or if you ever could. I just... I love you. Please forgive me."
Draco frowned at the toothbrush and he sighed and reached up to push it up by
its white bristles with his thumb, as if he were nudging the brush to look into
his eyes. "I love you too, Harry. But you've been wretched to me. Now after all
of this..."
He looked maudlin. After all that had happened... how did he feel? He loved
Harry. He'd gambled everything on this relationship working. Maybe Snape was
right. Perhaps he was a ridiculous boy. His brows furrowed and he stared at the
toothbrush. He shook it as if the brush was taking a moment to think; he wished
it would respond with the right answer. Receiving no reply, Draco tried again
with his own verbiage. "Anything, Draco. I'll do anything. I'll bring you
breakfast in bed, I'll suck you off every night!"
"You already suck me off." He gave the toothbrush an unimpressed look.
"Anything, Draco! I love you so much! Don't leave me! I need you, please!
I'll... I'll let you fuck my tight virgin ass!" the brush cried.
"Your ass? Me? You'd let me do that?" he asked, raising his brows. It wasn't
this simple, he knew that, but he also knew via this little reenactment, he
wasn't quite ready to give up on Harry. Not merely because he had nowhere else
to go, but because of the idea of not being with Harry caused a deep twisting
in his stomach. He loved him. He felt he needed him. He didn't have the whole
story. Draco had been holding things back, perhaps Harry had too. He had to
sort it out, no matter how wounded he was.
"Yes, oh yes Draco. I want you to! I want your long, rock hard prick to split
open my tight virgin ass! I want..." Draco broke off in alarm as he heard Stan
clearing his throat behind him.
"Las' call for Grimmauld Place?" Shunpike announced. His voice was muted by his
hand, which he held over his mouth to keep from giggling.
Draco blushed furiously and jammed the toothbrush into his wand pocket as if
hiding it would erase Stan's memory of... dear Merlin just how much had he
heard? Draco rolled out of the bed and avoided eye contact as he nodded and
waved his hand to indicate he was going.
"Keep the toofbrush, eh. 'Ate to be breakin' up the 'appy couple." Shunpike
tittered.
Draco sneered, but really, what could he say? He pretended not to hear it and
exited the bus. He looked around and then turned, about to ask which house
belonged to the Black family, but with a loud shriek, the bus was gone again.
Dejectedly, Draco stepped onto the sidewalk and stared at the houses in front
of them, praying someone would see him soon.
--
Someone did see Draco soon. Someone he wouldn't have wanted to see him. Someone
he didn't consider might be there. "Spien. Spien," hissed Bellatrix. Their
vantage point was a porch a couple of houses down. The Muggles who had owned
the home were long since departed and their bodies removed. Bellatrix and
Richard were on their shift of monitoring the comings and goings of the old
Black family home.
The Death Eaters had been staking out Grimmauld Place for nearly as long as the
Order had taken up residency there. As things often do, the care with which
they concealed themselves had diminished since they had not been found out. At
this point their "cover" only consisted of wearing Muggle clothing and not
sitting directly in front of the spot where the Order members vanished.
Normally, that worked brilliantly. Today, Richard found himself longing for the
comfortable anonymity of their robes and masks as he trailed after Bellatrix.
Snape was aware that Grimmauld was being watched which was why he had the
Portkey to his home set up for visits so he wouldn't be caught wandering in a
suspicious area. Knowing that Draco was likely to try to get back inside the
house, Snape Apparated a few streets over and paced the rest of the distance.
The boy had no clue that Death Eaters would be laying in wait for something
like this to happen, and only Snape knew that Draco would be vulnerable. He
watched the area from a shrubbery across the street. He wouldn't reveal himself
unless it became essential, but that time appeared to be much sooner than
later.
Draco was pacing nervously in front of where the Knight Bus dropped him off. He
wasn't sure what to do; as far as he understood, knowledge of the house made it
appear? That was how the Fidelius charm worked, anyway, and he was pretty sure
that's what kept the house from view. But that wasn't it, was it? One had to
know the address. Draco didn't. He didn't expect to be outside. He didn't
expect to be falsely accused of hurting Granger by his lover. He didn't expect
a lot of things that were occurring. Most of all, he didn't expect the soft
purr of Bellatrix Lestrange behind him.
"My nephew! Goodness, I haven't seen you since... ever, have I? But you are
unmistakably my sister's son. Although..." she cooed. "You do look much like
your father when you're afraid. Are you afraid, little rabbit? Afraid of your
sweet ickle Aunt?"
Spien stood behind her inwardly cursing her audacity. He had much to lose if he
were found out; a point that Richard clearly hadn't impressed enough upon
Bellatrix since they were now confronting a possible Order member, even if it
was a Malfoy.
Draco whirled around at the sound of her voice. He'd only ever seen pictures of
her in his mother's photo album and on the front of The Daily Prophet.
Naturally, he was terrified. His hand went to where his wand was, but as his
fingers mashed into the bristles, he realized he was armed with nothing more
but a toothbrush. His "Harry" toothbrush. Harry, where are you? Poking the
narrow brush against the fabric, he bluffed it was a wand. "Don't come any
closer."
"Scared ickle wabbit. Are you afwaid?" Bellatrix asked in her annoying baby
voice. "You should be. You betrayed your family, your name, and the greatest
Wizard alive!" Seeing what she presumed to be his wand pointed at her, she
brandished her own. Spien stayed a few steps back from the two, but produced
his wand as well.
Draco began to panic. He prodded the brush forward; tenting the material
further. "I mean it, not a step closer!"
Boldly, Bellatrix brayed before stepping forward not one, but two steps. Her
smile was her dare.
Letting out a quiet squeak of alarm, Draco tripped over himself backing up. At
the sudden noise and movement, Spien and Bellatrix simultaneously wielded their
wands. Draco was hit square in the chest with twin red beams of light. His face
froze in shocked terror as he tipped backward onto the pavement, landing with a
revolting hollow thud.
***** The One You Want To Trust *****
Snape watched Draco crumple to the pavement. He held his breath, hoping the
lack of oxygen would help him remain detached. It happened so quickly that he
hadn't had time to decide what to do. As a result, he froze and did nothing but
monitor the proceedings. Now, there was his Draco, stiff and laying on Muggle
pavement with two Death Eaters arguing over what to do with him.
"We were sent to observe, Bellatrix, not to capture," protested Richard. His
eyes darted around the forlorn street to see if there were any witnesses.
"Only because capturing wasn't really an option before. The Dark Lord wants him
to join with us or perish." Bellatrix glanced around holding her wand, readying
to end any onlookers. "Let's just take him."
"We don't know why he was out here. What if he was bait? We never should have
approached him." Richard peered down at the limp boy; white hair splayed on
grey pavement, the wide eyes and open mouth. Curiously, Malfoy clutched a red
toothbrush to his chest. Richard snorted, that must've been why the boy hadn't
pulled his wand on them. He didn't have it. Still, a toothbrush seemed rather a
random thing to be carrying around. Stepping over to the body, he stared at it
enquiringly when out of nowhere none other than Harry Potter bounded into view,
followed by Ron and Molly, all three with their wands drawn.
"RICHARD!" Harry was quite taken aback to find his classmate standing over the
frozen form of his boyfriend. He moved his wand from Bellatrix to Richard and
back, not sure whom to hex first. Both were vile, and both had a hand in all of
this. At least that's how Harry saw it. After Ron and Molly shared a glance it
was sorted out that Ron trained his wand on Richard and Molly on Bellatrix.
They'd heard and felt the vibrations of the spells inside their magic-hidden
building, thanks to a ward Dumbledore had placed on Grimmauld in case something
like this should happen. The internal alarm had sounded and Harry just knew. He
knew it had to be Draco. It didn't even occur to him that Draco might be
without his wand until he glimpsed Draco holding a red toothbrush in his wand
hand. He flushed with remorse at the fact that not only had he allowed Draco to
be kidnapped by Snape, but also he had withheld Draco's wand, leaving him
unarmed. Harry was a little taken aback that Snape wasn't in sight, being that
he was the one who had taken Draco in the first place. He would deal with that
later, though. He had to stay in the present.
Due to his astonishment, Richard found himself unable to move. He mouthed an
assortment of muddled words. What could he say? He was spotted and on point.
Bellatrix, however, seemed thrilled to have an opportunity to confront Harry
again. "Aww, ickle Potty come to save his boyfwiend?" cooed Bellatrix. "That's
so cuuuuute..." She jabbed her wand in Harry's direction, more than willing to
duel the boy.
All of the anger and frustration, the self-loathing for his action and inaction
welled up inside of Harry. His green eyes blazed and before she could continue
her grating speech, Harry screamed, "CRUCIO!" This time he was not in shock.
This time, he knew how to mean it.
Bellatrix fell to the ground writhing and screaming, her body surrounded in a
glow of cruel magic. She convulsed as every fibre of her being was filled with
the electric current of pain wracking it. Her mouth started to froth as Harry
kept the wand trained on her. His eyes narrowed in determined focus to make her
experience his wrath.
Richard's retreat broke the shocked stillness of the Weasleys as they watched
in horror as Harry Potter tortured Bellatrix. Certainly she deserved it, but
the idea of the Boy Who Lived being so malicious had rooted them to the
pavement. But now, Molly hit Richard with a stunning spell. Ron took the
initiative to stop Harry and clamped his hand down on his best mate's shoulder.
"Harry? Harry..." Ron tried, shaking his friend. "Harry, you're going to drive
her mad. Stop it. Stop it, now."
"She's already mad." Harry felt his anger coming in waves and he focused it
into his wand and watched it pour over the skeletal woman. This wasn't just for
harming Draco. It was for everything; for growing up without his parents and
not knowing the truth of their lives or who they were as people. For oversized
clothes and birthdays and Christmases with no presents. For growing up not
knowing he was a wizard. For Sirius Black. For Neville's parents. For Cedric
Diggory and that awful first kiss with Cho. For the nightmares he had to
endure, and for never, ever having a normal life. Someone had to pay. Today,
that someone was Bellatrix Lestrange.
Ron finally shoved Harry, knocking the concentration of the spell off-kilter,
breaking it. Bellatrix's body lay there twitching in after effects of the
Unforgivable.
"Stupefy!" Ron sent a stunner at the woman on the ground to end her frenzied
thrashing.
Harry panted, looking down at the damage he'd done with angry indifference.
Then he knelt down next to his boyfriend. "Ennervate!" Instead of rousing,
Draco's eyes closed and his rigid body went limp. "Draco!" wailed Harry. He
wrapped his arms around his wilted lover and pressed his head against his
chest, grateful to still hear a heartbeat.
"He took two stunning spells, he's going to probably rest for a while," Snape
said, having made his way over once it was clear the Death Eaters were
captured.
Molly nodded and then pursed her lips.
Ron stood very still.
It took Harry a moment to register whose voice he just heard. Glaring up at
Snape, he snapped, "You... how do you know he took... you watched?"
"I could not compromise my cover." Snape crossed his arms.
"You watched while Draco was attacked? This person you claim to care so much
about?" Harry's eyes were wide with incredulous resentment that Snape could be
such a complete coward. Even though Harry felt as if he was no longer good
enough for Draco after how he'd let him down, at least he wouldn't stand by and
watch while he was hexed.
"You do not understand, Potter. I must maintain my cover, no matter how
difficult it is." Snape peered down at Draco's crumpled form. Pulling his wand,
he began to cast, "Mobili-"
Harry cut him off. As much as he wanted to hex Snape into oblivion, he felt too
magically drained to do it properly right now. Plus, he wasn't sure if he was
going to get away with what he'd just done to Bellatrix. Hexing someone
presumably on his side in front of everyone would push everyone too far.
"Don't. Don't do anything to him or for him. You don't deserve to." Harry
pushed his wand into his back pocket and slipped an arm under Draco's knees and
the other under his back and lifted him precariously to carry him back to their
room. "He's mine and I'm going to take care of him."
--
Harry had taken his supper in the room with Draco, keeping his vigil next to
what he'd hoped would remain his boyfriend. Molly fussed to him that Draco
wasn't likely to wake till the next day, but Harry was insistent. "I wasn't
there for him before. I'm not going to abandon him now. I don't want him to
wake up alone."
Snape opened the door midmorning. Harry lazily grabbed up his wand and pointed
it at the man. His eyes were bleary from a restless sleep and his vision hazy
since his glasses were still on the nightstand. Since Harry had brought Draco
into this room, cleaned him and tucked him into bed, Snape had tried twice to
check up on him.
Harry refused to let Snape near Draco, particularly after his examination of
Draco's torn robes revealed stresses in the fabric that indicated more than
just the roughing up they'd endured from Harry's tantrum. Though he hadn't
gotten far in Auror training, he'd had at least a few classes on investigation.
He shuddered to think of what Snape had tried to do to Draco.
"Harry, hold on."
Surprised by a familiar-sounding voice that wasn't of the same tenor of
Snape's, and the use of his first name, Harry sat up and squinted, still
keeping his wand pointed at the professor. A wan figure slid past the darkness
of Snape and his greying sandy-brown hair lit up in the morning sun.
"Remus!" Harry slapped his wand on the nightstand and grabbed his glasses as he
slid out of the bed and gave his friend a firm hug.
Lupin hugged Harry back with as much strength as he could muster. "I would have
come sooner, Harry. But... the lunar cycle..."
"It's all right. It's fine. I'm so glad you're here! Although... I mean... you
haven't been here all summer..." Harry inwardly frowned, realizing just what a
horrid friend he was. He was so wrapped up in his training and goings on with
Draco, he hadn't thought at all about where Remus was this whole time.
Lupin smiled indulgently down at Harry. "Shh, Harry. No, I know I have not been
around, but it was for a good cause, I assure you."
"Where have you been?"
Since Sirius's passing, or perhaps some time before, Remus had come to think on
Harry as a son. It pained him that he hadn't been there to listen to Harry.
Perhaps, if he had been, it might have prevented some of the trouble the boy
had gotten into. "I was attempting to gather and organize others of my-- other
werewolves-- to assist in the battle against He Who Shall Not Be Named."
Harry's face expressed a bland shock at this. It made sense, but from Lupin's
tired demeanour and the studied impassiveness of his expression, Harry surmised
it must not have gone well. "Oh, I see. Did it work? Are they... on our side?"
Lupin nodded. "Though the Ministry did its best to alienate all werewolves, it
would seem that the idea of working for someone who would see them all dead is
even less appealing. Their allegiance, such as it is, is with the Order. Or
rather, several of them are with the Order as there is no actual governing body
of the werewolves so much as a few small nomadic clusters in and around London.
I reached all that I could. The rest is up to them. However, none of them
seemed interested in joining with the Death Eaters, but their minds were
already made up on that. Nothing I did really... well, I'm here now." His voice
was distant and cool. He was surprised by how few were willing to fight for the
Order, and yet he was not armed with a particularly compelling reason to
convince them with.
What could Harry say to that? Remus didn't seem keen on what happened, and what
he'd said summed up his summer. "I'm sorry that it didn't work out as you'd
hoped. But it is good news that we won't have to fight them." Harry winced at
how lame that sounded, but he was trying to be supportive. Releasing Remus from
their embrace, he sat back down on the bed and stroked Draco's pallid arm.
Remus looked down at Harry, feeling little other than sympathy for him at the
moment. While what he'd done to Bellatrix was very wrong, Remus couldn't say
that he wouldn't have tortured her or just killed her on sight himself, and he
didn't have nearly the stresses that Harry had on him now. He crouched down in
front of Harry and studied his downcast eyes. "Are you all right? It's been
quite a summer for you as well."
Quite a summer, indeed. Harry nodded, "I'll be fine, I think. I don't know...
what to say. So much happened... so fast. I was very excited about being in
Auror training, but no one-- they all seemed afraid of me. I guess with good
reason." Harry let out a bitter staccato laugh and then bit it back. He didn't
want to play the drama queen with Remus, or with anyone. "It's just that... not
being here... being stuck away from my friends all day... and then Ron and
Draco started to get friendly, I just didn't know how to take it. I assumed the
worst."
"That's easy to do, Harry. You're both so young. This is all very new to you,
and it takes a while to learn to trust." He raised his hand to quiet Harry's
protests. "I know you've experienced a lot, but this really is your first
relationship. Sirius and I, well, we were probably about your age when we...
experimented."
Snape stepped into the room with a victorious expression. "I knew you Marauders
were all up there having orgies..."
Grabbing his wand off of the nightstand, Harry pointed it at him.
Remus pushed Harry's wand back down and shook his head.
Snape glared, but went silent.
"No, Severus, it was just Sirius and me." He shook his head and turned to Harry
to explain further. "Regrettably, I didn't pursue it and he moved on. We fought
quite a bit over childish things. Petty jealousies got blown up into epic
battles, because we were both so sure we knew what the other was thinking...
we'd have entire arguments before we even bothered to consult the other. We
never talked seriously, Harry. We were always on the cusp of making things
work, but our lack of communication just kept us... apart. It's why in the end
... we ended up suspecting one other of being spies. It made our time together-
- when he finally got out of Azkaban-- terribly short."
"Oh, Remus!" Harry was at a loss for what to say. He had no idea that the two
of them were together. It made sense now that he thought about it. He should
have known from the joint Christmas present, although at the time he assumed it
was just because Remus didn't have much money. Remus is gay. Sirius was gay or
at least bisexual. It changed everything and nothing all at the same time. "So
my father... did he know?"
Remus nodded. "Both of your parents knew, Harry. If you're worried about how
they would feel about your relationship, I can tell you this; they never had a
problem with us. Your father was politely disinterested in our sex lives."
That pleased Harry. He supposed if his parents had lived, they would have loved
him enough to deal with anything, but it was good to have it confirmed that
they'd be fine with his sexuality. He knew full well that his lover's parents
would never have accepted him. Caressing Draco's skin again, he wondered if
they would have lasted at all if Draco had had to deal with his parents or if
he would have caved and broken it off.
"I didn't tell you about my relationship with Sirius to tell you about your
parents, Harry. But rather I brought it up as a cautionary tale. It sounds as
if you've been making the same mistakes with communication that Sirius and I
did. Though you've already gotten much further than we did, you must be
careful. Love is so very fragile, particularly when you both have so much on
the line. Just talk to him, be honest. It seems like he went to great pains to
get back here. I'm sure he wants to forgive you."
Harry looked at Remus with hope shining in his almond-shaped green eyes. "Do
you really think so?"
Snape cleared his throat. "But he should not forgive you. Your behaviour was
contemptible, Potter." Harry welcomed Snape's intrusion by directing his wand
at him. "If you hex me, Potter, you had better make it a good one." Snape
patted his wand in his robes.
Standing up because of the sudden palpable tension in the room, Remus slid his
fingers over his wand and looked between the two uncertainly.
"Oh, it will be a good one, I guarantee you that, Professor. I mastered a new
one yesterday. A really good one. An Unforgivable. Fancy a demonstration?"
Harry's eyes glittered with malevolence as he felt his rage building.
Snape could tell the threat was real and took a step back without intending to.
"You are unhinged. You should be locked away."
"Oh, that would be interesting. Lock me away in Azkaban and then check me out
like a library book when you need a dark wizard defeated? Clever, and yet... I
don't see it happening. You overestimate your importance in this War,
Snivellus. Without you, the Order might get less information. Without me, the
one whom the prophecy was about, Voldemort wins. A dead turncoat wouldn't
warrant many tears. A dead savior makes the War futile." Harry looked smug as
Snape paled and backed up to the doorway.
Remus was utterly gobsmacked by Harry's words. "Harry, you don't want to..."
"Very Slytherin of you, Potter. Perhaps all of that Malfoy sperm you've been
consuming has finally penetrated. Speaking of... penetration...." Snape's leer
turned depraved. Potter didn't have the nerve.
"Furnunculus!" shouted Harry, covering Snape in boils. The word "penetration"
rang in Harry's ears and fuelled his fury. So help him if Snape really had...
After a quick counter curse, Snape snorted at Harry. "Very fourth year of you,
Potter..."
"Severus..." warned Lupin.
"Expelliarmus! Priapistula!" Beams of light shot from Harry's wand in rapid
succession. It could have been worse, and would have been if Remus weren't
standing right there.
Catching Snape's flying wand, Remus looked at Harry incredulously. "What was
that second one?"
Snape started to howl and his hands clutched his crotch.
"Priapism. If he's going to act like a walking hard-on around my boyfriend,
then he can have a very long-term, painful one." Harry thought it was witty,
anyway. "I actually learned it to cast on Mal-- Draco, but never had a chance."
"Very good, but..." Remus frowned as Snape's shrieks triggered Mrs. Black's and
the entire house was now set to a hellish screeching chorus. "What is the
counter?"
"Never learned it." Harry sneered and folded his arms in defiance.
"Right, Harry. Tell me the counter curse. I know you would have learned both.
You're not that irresponsible." Though Remus was amused, enough was enough. He
didn't notice that Severus had recovered his initial shock and was creeping
towards his wand in Remus's hand.
Harry attempted to look innocent, although it didn't quite work. "It must've
slipped my mind, sorry."
Snape seized his wand from Remus and pointed it at Harry. "Flagrate!" he
shouted, spewing flames from his wand.
"Protego!" Harry promptly countered before he and Draco were singed. He trained
his wand at Snape's prick again. "That could've burned Draco," he seethed.
"Diffend--" He stopped casting the cutting curse as Remus slid between Harry
and Snape. "Get out of the way, Remus!"
Snape started to flourish his wand to start another hex, but Remus yanked it
out of his hand. "Severus, stop!"
Wrenching his arm back, he made to backhand Remus, but Lupin ducked.
Harry took the break in Remus's blocking of Snape to start, "CRU--"
Snape paled and prepared to be hit.
"--el of me to tell you this, Snape, but you're not worth it. Get out. If you
come back into this room, I guarantee you that you will find out just how good
I'm getting at Unforgivables." With that, Harry sat back down.
Remus was shaken, but relieved that Harry had reined himself in before doing
something so imprudent. Even Remus would have had a hard time rationalizing
that action. He stood up and shoved Snape out of the room ahead of him. Snape
was too breathless with fear and soreness to protest. "Let's see if we can't
find the counter to that hex in one of those books in the drawing room,
Severus." That behaviour was pure James, Remus decided. Harry was more and more
like his father every day, and Lupin wasn't sure that was a good thing.
Though Harry found it regrettable that he'd scared Remus, but he couldn't
lament that he'd instilled the fear of his reckoning into Snape. It wasn't all
he wanted to do to the man, but it was a start.
--
While Molly very much wanted to talk to Harry about his recent spate of hexes
and over-the-top conduct, Remus kept her at bay, giving the boy some time and
distance. He was optimistic that Harry just needed some quiet time to sort
through everything. After some introspection, Harry would cool off.
Had Harry known that was what everyone was hoping for, he would've sniggered.
However, at the moment, he was focused on keeping Draco warm and safe and
fretting about what might have happened to him. He ran the wet cloth over
Draco's pointed features, worried about how dull his complexion had become. Was
that just because of the unconsciousness? No, Harry berated himself, Draco had
been looking rather gaunt for the past couple of weeks. Harry noticed, but
hadn't really seen it. Not until today.
Feeling Draco start to twitch, Harry both hoped and dreaded that this might be
the final throe of his magic-shocked body finally recovering. He didn't have
long to ponder this before Draco sat bolt upright in his bed. His hand slapped
against his naked chest, searching for his wand.
"Huh... what?" Draco puzzled as he glared around him. The afternoon sun was
streaming in through a window, lighting dust bunnies in the room that he had
unsettled. He'd awoken thinking that he needed to defend himself. Finding that
he was in his erstwhile bedroom naked and wand-less next to the boy who had
given him away to Snape... was a shock of a different sort.
His hand flew up to his clammy face as his eyes fixed on the white cloth in
Harry's hand. He started to do the mental math that Harry was caring for him.
Draco felt a guarded relief at this revelation. Things had evidently sorted
themselves out on Harry's end, which left Draco to deal with how he felt about
it. This time he swore he wasn't going to set aside his emotions. That got them
nowhere.
Draco had a thousand questions all buzzing in his head at once. Was he safe
now? Where was Snape? What happened to Hermione? Though he'd been stunned, he
was still mentally conscious enough to be aware that Harry had rescued him and
used an Unforgivable. It wasn't until he'd been released from the hexes that
his body had shut down. What he didn't know was how much Harry knew about what
happened at Snape's cottage or what he thought of it. So he decided to play
dumb. "What happened?"
"Shhh... Lay down, Draco. Lay down." Harry was thrilled that Draco didn't throw
him out, so at least he wasn't that angry. "Please," he added, hoping the
politeness would hedge his bets.
"How did I get in here?" Draco flopped back down on the bed, a decision he
regretted as it made his head throb as if he were hung over.
Molly told Harry to anticipate some dehydration and disorientation. Harry
picked up the glass of water he'd placed on the nightstand along with some
biscuits and toast and held the straw to Draco's lips.
Eying the straw for a moment, Draco took the glass and then a quick sip. "A
glass of water isn't an answer."
Harry frowned. He didn't want to get into it right after Draco woke up; he
wanted to give him time to recover. But, given the fact that Draco both wanted
and deserved answers, that wasn't an option. Harry had a few questions of his
own. He wanted to know how it was that Draco ended up outside of the house,
where he'd been, had he been out there the whole time? But barraging Draco with
questions would've been wrong. Especially considering how much explaining he
owed Draco for his behaviour of late. He would play by Draco's rules for now.
"You were outside being attacked by Bellatrix and Richard. We heard alarms that
magic was being used in close proximity; a warning in case the house was ever
under attack. I rushed out and...."
"Richard?" So that was the name of the other Death Eater. Draco eyed Harry
inquisitively as to how he knew the identity of the mystery man.
"He was in Auror training with me. He's the man... " Should he tell Draco
everything or should he stick with what Hermione had advised him? Draco looked
so frail, and in the end, that kiss had meant nothing. Less than nothing, it
had been a trick to get close to Harry or at least throw him off balance.
Telling Draco about it would only upset him. "The one I was telling you about.
The only one who really talked to me; but it was only a ruse to gain my trust
and infiltrate the Ministry, obviously... since he's a Death Eater. I didn't
know that until... right then, though."
"Oh." Draco felt rather sad for Harry. He only had one friend in Auror training
and he was only talking to him to spy. Placing his hand on Harry's he squeezed
it. "Ministry's full of lackwits. Sounds like they're doing their damnedest to
keep themselves full up of idiots. No wonder you didn't fit in."
Harry smiled, mostly because of Draco's hand on his, although the odd
compliment touched him as well. He turned his hand over to interlace their
fingers and he was pleased that Draco didn't pull his hand away. "I'm sorry."
Smirking, Draco said, "I am, too. The Ministry needs some real leadership."
"Draco," said Harry. Meeting Draco's eyes, his expression pled for him to be
serious. "I mean it. I'm really sorry. For all of the... assumptions and the...
the way I treated you. I took you for granted and then... I just..."
Draco's smile faded and he averted his eyes. "I should've told you what was
going on with Ron the first time you asked. I had no idea you'd really believe
that. Neither of us would do that to you. Not to mention... ugh, Weasley."
Harry sighed and rolled his eyes. Right. He momentarily forgot whom he was
dealing with. He'd argue with him that Ron wasn't that awful, but that would be
self-defeating. "I'm just glad you get along with my friends now."
It was Draco's turn to roll his eyes. "Well if their presence is going to
continue to cock up my relationship, I can't be buggered."
"Draco..." No, there was little point in arguing it. Draco would do what he
would do, but he didn't think Malfoy would honestly stop talking to Ron.
Although a guilty part of him wouldn't mind if he did. "You should have let me
know about Snape, too."
For a moment, Draco's face reddened and he looked into Harry's eyes and then he
turned away again. "I... you... the... it..." His hand tightened on Harry's as
he stuttered, visibly shaken. Draco wondered just how much Harry knew about
what went on at Snape's house. No, Snape wouldn't have told him. Perhaps
Weasley or Granger told Harry about Snape's "visit." Granger, what had happened
with her? That seemed a good way to throw off the subject. "So I suppose
Granger filled you in. What happened to her?"
Not to be dissuaded from his point, and because Harry as so concerned about
what happened to Draco during those missing hours, he summed up curtly. "No,
Ron told me about the visit and scrolls. Hermione received a book by Eagle owl
meant to look like it came from you and it blew up in her face, rendering her
unconscious for a few hours. I think Snape did it, particularly since he showed
up so conveniently. Where did he take you?"
That rundown took Draco by surprise and the shock prompted his quick answer.
"To his home." Draco's face began to screw up in upset as the memory of what
happened at Snape's cottage flooded in, and he fretfully attempted to change
the subject again. "So is Hermione all right?" he asked in a strained voice.
Harry didn't like how Draco was recoiling, nor did he care for the manner in
which Draco was evading him. This wasn't his usual caustic response. Draco was
obviously profoundly disturbed by something. Granted, he hadn't had much time
to process what had happened and it was liable to still be pretty raw. Though
Harry felt a bit guilty for pushing him, he wanted the truth and less of
Draco's avoidance. "She's fine. What happened at Snape's house?"
"He... umm... well, I didn't want to go to his house, Harry. He had a Portkey.
I wanted to stay here and find out what happened... to talk to you." Draco
stared hard at their entwined hands, looking at how white his knuckles had
gone, and how Harry's were turning a similar shade. "You're right about Snape,
though. He... er... knew about it anyway. He said that You-Know-Who had a
plot..."
"Voldemort sent the book?" Draco flinched when Harry spoke the name and while
generally the balking would be followed with a stern rebuke, Harry didn't have
it in him to say anything about it.
"I suppose. Although how would V-Vold-You-Know-Who know where to send it?"
Draco took another sip of the water.
Snape was following orders to cover himself again. Or that's what he'd say. One
day Harry hoped that excuse wouldn't hold with Dumbledore, but he had a sinking
feeling this wasn't going to be that day. On top of that, Draco was still
dodging the question. Harry was now desperate to know and blurted out, "Did
Snape force you to have sex with him?"
Draco's head snapped up and he looked into Harry's furious eyes. He shook his
head.
"Did he try?"
Draco's jaw clenched, but otherwise he gave no response.
"Your robes are... the buttons are pulled off in places, Draco." Harry covered
their joined hands with his other and squeezed. "I know you didn't... on
purpose. So you ran?"
"I wanted to get back to you, Harry. I wanted to know what was going on... I
wanted to... but you... you... you gave me away."
"I'm sorry, Draco. I was... I'm sorry." Harry worked hard to control his rage
at Snape and his personal guilt for that impulsive act to focus on Draco. He
needed to focus on something else. "How did you get back?"
"Knight Bus." Draco's voice was tight, but his grip on Harry's hand lessened,
thankful not to have to go into specifics. He could tell that Harry was on edge
over Snape. Draco was as well, but right now he didn't want to deal with it.
The rush of emotions around what happened had already exhausted his beleaguered
body again.
Sensing Draco's weariness, Harry eased up on his line of questioning. "Stan
Shunpike still conductor?" He reached up and caressed his cheek as he moved in
closer.
Draco snorted and distantly wondered what had happened to his toothbrush.
Setting the water down after taking long sip, he spotted it on the far corner
of the nightstand. "I didn't know you'd ever ridden. But yes, Shunpike was
there," he said, emphasizing the name in distaste.
The annoyed tone of his boyfriend's voice made Harry grin in spite of the tense
talk. Shunpike must not have changed much. "He makes an impression."
Closing his eyes, Draco shook his head and rested against the pillows again.
"Definitely." He still felt tense about the previous subject matter, but it was
giving way to his exhaustion.
"Do you need me to get you anything?" Harry looked at the half-empty glass and
then to Draco, wondering if he should push more fluids on him to prevent
dehydration.
"No, stay here. Hold me." He opened his eyes and released Harry's hand to reach
for him.
Feeling waves of relief crashing over him, Harry exhaled and adjusted his
position to lie on his side next to Draco. He slid one arm under his neck and
the other around his waist. Feeling another urge to explain himself, he
whispered, "I love you, Draco. If I didn't, I wouldn't have acted like..."
Draco clamped his hand inelegantly over Harry's mouth. He didn't want to hear
it again. He understood. Jealousy wasn't that difficult a concept. "I love you,
too. Now hush up and hold me."
Obediently, Harry hushed and cuddled Draco tighter, grateful to be both
understood and loved.
***** War of Promises *****
"Draco, I am going to tell you something and it will seem terribly-- well, I
think you will understand it better than Harry would. Hopefully you will
understand my position and why I must ask you to do this." Dumbledore spoke
across the wooden table in the basement kitchen of Grimmauld place. Everyone
was shocked when it was Draco that Dumbledore had sent for after returning from
his unexplained absence.
Draco was tense. Dinner had long been cleared away although the muted scent of
the meal hung in the air. He was terrified that what Dumbledore was going to
ask him to do was going to break his heart. It was just that sort of summer. He
nodded his acquiescence.
"In spite of what I say is my utmost trust in your Head of House, I do realize
that he has practical concerns of his own and that they often conflict with the
greater good." Looking at Draco's nonplussed expression, Dumbledore put it in
plainer terms. "In other words, I am well aware that he is playing both sides."
Dumbledore paused to allow this to sink in.
Again, Draco nodded. Snape told him as much. However, the fact that Dumbledore
already knew this didn't bode well for his promotion of the idea that Snape
should be dismissed. Or, at the very least, Draco should have his own room.
Somewhere away from Snape and his influence. He hoped that this fuss was
leading up to Dumbledore having come to one of those conclusions on his own.
The fact that he was there alone and that he was being told because he would
understand it better than Harry led him to believe that this was going to be
bad. Very bad.
"The sad truth of it is that... whilst I realize what a threat his intentions
are to you, I have no other means of finding out what the Death Eater's plans
are. Severus is the conduit of information between Tom, that is, Voldemort and
I. Whilst I could strip him of his duties but still keep him around Hogwarts,
or even here, it would raise too many eyebrows to do so at this juncture. Now
that we are on the brink of the final battle it would put our source too much
at risk, and we could miss valuable information. Information that could well
save Harry's life."
Draco exhaled loudly and he gazed at his hands respectfully folded on the
table. No, he did not want to put Harry at risk. "But giving me my own room
wouldn't alter Snape's situation--"
Dumbledore held his hand up to halt the protest. "I need you back in Slytherin,
Draco. I need you to watch Severus. I'm not saying that you must provide favors
or get that close to him, but I need someone that... " Dumbledore paused,
searching for a genteel phrasing. "Someone who can keep Severus off-balance
enough to reveal more than he intends. I'm not suggesting you string him along
if you're not comfortable with that manner of manipulation, but he is... keen
to please you. In that regard, you have a power over him the rest of us do
not."
Those words made Draco cringe. "Yes, well-- I'm not..."
"I'm not asking you to do anything you're uncomfortable with, Draco. I just
want you to observe him. Talk to him if and when he asks that of you."
"Alone? In his office?" squeaked Draco. He didn't know how to react. Dumbledore
didn't want him to do anything he was uncomfortable with? He wasn't comfortable
being in Slytherin House at all, let alone left unprotected in Snape's office.
"The house elves will be on alert to keep track of you when you're in the
presence of Professor Snape." Dumbledore tried to be reassuring. He realized he
was sending mixed messages. He tried to come up with less suggestive phrasing.
It was monstrously important that they get as much information from Snape as
they could and as good as the man was at Occlumency, Draco was the only person
who could make Snape slip up.
"Well, why can't the house elves... observe him?"
"Because Draco, he will not confide in the house elves. He will confide in you.
He trusts you, he believes in you and as muddled as he is, I believe he truly
does care about you. He is... rather confused. You should have some pity for
him. The pressures that he is under are great. He often makes poor choices. I
do not believe he is alone in that regard," he said, raising his brows. He gave
Draco a meaningful look. Sorting out Harry's very public Unforgivable blunder
at the Ministry was what had kept him from coming to Grimmauld before now. "I
believe he can yet be redeemed. He will need an ear and a friend. I understand
that this is a tall order as he has abused you, as well as your trust. I would
not ask this of you were the need not so dire, not just for Harry's sake but
also for the Wizarding world."
Draco huffed and fell back against the chair and stared at the ceiling. All of
this being a hero stuff was... well he'd rather leave it to other people. He'd
decided that much over the last few days. It was once appealing, but he just
wasn't cut out for it. Leave that rubbish to Gryffindors, as far as he was
concerned. "Snape asked me to join up with the Death Eaters and be a counterspy
with him. I just..."
"Did he?" Dumbledore leaned forward, although he didn't sound surprised. "He
proposed that to me before this mess. I am grateful that you did not accept
that option. It would be an enormous undertaking and while I believe you are
strong, it would be too lethal a risk. Severus came to me frightened and
already marked. It is quite another thing to go into the lion's den with the
direct intention of spying. Aside from which, I believe that severing your
contact with Harry would be detrimental to you both. No, I would prefer it if
you restricted your spying duties to your Potions professor. To that end, I
have reinstated you in Potion's class."
Draco sat up and glared at Dumbledore. "So I have no choice. The lecher gets
his way?"
"Draco, I am not asking you to do anything but be there and listen to him. If
he touches you in an inappropriate way, Dobby is empowered to-"
"Dobby? Dobby hates me. He was my old house elf." Banging his fist on the table
to punctuate his point, he looked every inch the petulant toddler Dobby had
once feared.
"I do not believe that Dobby bears any animosity towards you for what you did
as a child. Even if he did, he adulates Harry and he would not hurt someone
important to him. He is the only house elf at Hogwarts not bound to serve
whomever makes an order. I'm afraid I have little choice. I can have Harry ask
him to watch you personally..." Dumbledore hadn't moved much during their
conversation, but simply watched Draco, remaining sympathetic and yet firm.
"Harry is not going to like this." On this point Draco was certain and he took
the opportunity to look smug.
"I do expect a rather vocal rebuke from your other half on this matter. But
understand that this is for his protection as well as important to the War. I
will also be talking with Severus about his behaviour . You will not have to
endure another episode such as you have."
"He threatened me. He would have petrified me and...." Draco's tone was
strained and he gripped the table in front of him till his knuckles turned
white.
To retard Draco's outburst, Dumbledore peered at him over the rim of his
glasses, a gesture that silenced students as it signaled impatience. "I am not
denying that his behaviour was reprehensible, Draco. I just have no one else
that could get through to him. No one I could send in your place. Your
relationship with him was once very close and he wishes that again. The elves
will be watching and Dobby will be there. You will be safe. Should things still
go beyond your comfort level, I do believe Mr. Potter has devised a means to
vent his frustration."
Draco's eyes widened at Dumbledore. Of course, Draco had only heard about what
happened to Snape and the priapic hex a couple of days ago. Not to mention the
Unforgivable he'd thrown at Bellatrix. He couldn't believe that Dumbledore was
going to give Harry a pass and encourage further destructive outbursts. Then
again, Dumbledore often did indulge Harry. Usually the notion made Draco feel
bitter, but this time it just made him worry. "Perhaps."
Sensing Draco's disenfranchisement, Dumbledore attempted to explain. "This is
war, Mr. Malfoy. War is hell. Sometimes you must do what you will to get by. I
dislike it being this way, but we are running out of options. I'm sure you
understand."
"Oh, I understand, Headmaster. I understand all too well." Slapping his hands
on the table, Draco pushed himself up. After a curt nod, he excused himself
from the room.
--
"So? What did Dumbledore say?" Harry was lying on their pushed together beds in
his pajamas.
Though it was rather late, Ron was intentionally absent from the room. The idea
both thrilled and frightened Draco. He and Harry had not done anything beyond
snuggling since the incident. It wasn't for lack of hormonal interest on
Draco's part; it was that the memory of Snape touching him was still too fresh.
Draco fiddled with the fussy collar of his robe, trying to unclasp the frog
closure. "Dumbledore said, 'I'm old and senile, would you please run Hogwarts
for me?'" His old man voice wasn't a solid imitation, but he'd hoped it would
bring more of a smile to Harry's face than it did.
But how could Harry smile? A caustic response meant that Draco was
uncomfortable with something, likely something he'd been told. "Oh. Well... did
he ask to see me?"
The sly old dog... No, he hadn't asked to see Harry, had he? He was going to
leave Draco the unpleasant task of informing Harry about this arrangement. "No,
he didn't." Draco rustled through the wardrobe and pulled out his pajamas and a
dressing gown. He left the door to the bathroom open, but moved out of Harry's
view to change.
This was how it was since Draco came back. No more sleeping almost naked and he
no longer changed clothes in front of Harry, either. It hurt a little, but
mostly it stoked his anger towards Snape.
"I see. So, does that mean I get to guess what he really said?" Harry wiggled
back to allow Draco room and held the covers up for him when he returned
donning his many layers of sleep clothes.
Sliding into bed, Draco snuggled up to Harry. "He reminded me I was sorted into
Slytherin and that is where I'm going to stay. Further I'm supposed to observe
Snape and get him to confide in me since he still cares about me."
"Excuse me?" Pulling back to look at Draco's face, Harry couldn't discern the
seriousness of that statement. "That's not funny, Draco."
"Note the absence of laughter." The stern expression on Draco's face validated
what he'd heard.
"No." Harry pulled Draco tighter to him, crossing his arms over his lover's
back protectively.
Draco buried his face in Harry's neck before asking, "No?"
"No."
"Well, good then. At least that's settled." Draco wanted to believe it was that
easy, but it wasn't.
"I forbid you to talk to that man," Harry whispered into Draco's hair.
"I'll write that down."
"Draco, you can't!"
"What, write it down? Well, that's true, I can't write at the moment. My hands
are rather full," he said as he squeezed at Harry's back.
"Draco, I'm serious."
Draco sighed heavily against Harry's neck. Releasing Harry from the embrace, he
flopped onto the pillow. "I don't want to. There's just no one else."
"Don't I get a say in this?" Harry caressed Draco's cheek, trying to reassure
him he wasn't angry with him, but with the situation.
"I suppose not, since Dumbledore ambled over here late and then didn't call you
in for a meeting.... I would have thought he would've been here to talk to you
about the Unforgivable, at least. But no, he just shows up to dump this on me
and leaves me to tell it to you. That's just so Slytherin." Draco was relieved
that he wasn't blamed. "He also said he expected an earful from you, which
leads me to believe it's non-negotiable; although you're free to complain. I'm
going back to Slytherin House and I've been reinstated in Potions."
"Then I'm taking Potions as well. AND... I'm coming to your room every night to
make sure nothing happens to you." Harry's arms tightened around Draco, cutting
off his air. Draco squirmed until the grip lessened.
"Oh sure, just come on in. I'll leave the back door open for you." Though he
rolled his eyes, he really hoped Harry would.
"I have my Invisibility cloak and the Marauder's Map. I'll be in your room," he
assured Draco.
Draco was touched and a soft smile played over his lips. "You'd do that for me?
Sneak in every night?"
"Of course. Besides, all of the smelly people in your room have been
withdrawn." Harry leaned in and kissed the corner of Draco's grin.
"It will certainly be quieter." Draco frowned as he wondered where Goyle was
and if he was all right. Not that Draco could do much about it even if he
wasn't. The War was going to happen either way. His thoughts were so far away
from his proximity to Harry that he jumped when he felt Harry's hand snake
under his nightshirt. "Oh!"
"Sorry..." Harry winced. He'd thought he'd been rather obvious in his approach.
He was trying to be respectful and take things slow. Though he started to draw
his hand away, Draco placed his hand over Harry's and nodded.
Massaging his fingers over the supple skin in random patterns, he gave Draco a
tender tummy rub. Harry delighted in the way that Draco's eyes fluttered closed
and his breathing deepened as he relaxed into the touching. He couldn't help
but notice that this treatment was having a definite affect below Draco's belt
line as the silvery silk pants tented. They'd tried a few times before tonight.
Harry was trying not to get his hopes up for much to happen given the upsetting
news about the next school year.
Draco's head mashed into the pillow as his back arched and his hips dipped into
the mattress, driving Harry's hand down his abdomen. He bit his lip and let out
a soft whimper as he felt Harry's fingers massaging down his body and deftly
slipping under the waistband. He was shivering with the hesitant teasing of
Harry's fingers gliding past his prick to snake over his thighs.
"Are you... ready... do you... want me to?" Harry was so tense; he wanted to
touch Draco so much, but each time that he did it and Draco got upset, it split
his heart in two. It seemed like there was so little he could do now, and the
guilt of knowing that he was partly the cause of Draco's anguish towards sex
ate at him. Not that he would ever say.
"Yessss," answered Draco in a wavering voice
Harry traced the pads of his fingers dexterously over the ridges of his prick.
He wanted to see it, but given the fact that Draco hadn't even removed his
dressing gown, he decided to leave it for now. Taking great pleasure in the way
that Draco was responding, the pointed features flushed as his hips thrust
forward, forcing his length more into Harry's hand, he encircled his fingers
around it.
Draco's platinum hair splayed over the plain cotton pillow as he pressed his
face against Harry's and nudged his head up to kiss him. Harry's hand was soft,
very soft. Not calloused like... No. He couldn't think about him. This was
Harry. He needed to concentrate on whom he was with. "Kiss me, Harry."
Kissing Draco, Harry became anxious as he felt his lover starting to tremble.
He tried to keep the kiss light, touching their tongues in gentle strokes, but
Draco kept deepening it in a frantic gambit to keep the sexual energy going.
Fuck, thought Harry as he felt Draco starting to soften in his hand.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Harry," Draco murmured against his lips. Tender lips.
Youthful lips. Lips so unlike the scaly dryness of Snape's. He was so
frustrated-- he wanted to cry. His prick was still semi-hard and he tried to
press it into Harry's hand and then slid his own hand down to knead it.
"Draco, Draco, stop... it's all right." Harry kissed over Draco's face. It
hurt. It hurt him so much, but it wasn't Draco's fault and seeing the anxiety
in those grey eyes tugged his heartstrings. "Please stop. It's all right."
"But... but you're..." Harry pulled his hips back too late. Draco's hand was
already stroking his erection. Putting his hand over Draco's, he shook his
head. "No. Don't... not like this. I want to... I'm going to wait. Until you...
I want us... together." He pulled Draco's hand up to his lips and kissed each
knuckle individually. "When you're ready... I want us to come together, Draco.
I don't care how long it takes. I love you."
Draco's eyes prickled with tears. He was both upset and touched. "I love you,
too. I just... I don't know when... I don't want you to... I mean..."
Harry pressed Draco's elegant hand to his face and then kissed his palm. "I
don't care how long it takes, Draco. You're worth it."
--
Harry was the first to wake that morning and he slipped out of bed carefully so
as not to awaken Draco. The previous night's misadventure irked him, but Harry
decided now that the blame fell squarely on Snape's shoulders. All he felt
towards Draco was extreme sympathy and his guilt for his part in it. He wanted
to help his lover to get past this. He would treat him better. Harry vowed that
he would be there as much as he could. To that end, he decided to treat Draco
to breakfast in bed.
Draco hadn't left the room much since he'd gotten back, and while Molly advised
that Draco should be encouraged to be more social, Harry wasn't about to push
the matter. He wasn't going to push Draco into anything; he was going to
protect him.
Passing by the drawing room on his way down to the kitchen, Harry paused at
seeing the mass of blankets and greasy hair sticking up on one end of the
couch. Every muscle tensed as he realized Snape was still there. He had been
warned that Dumbledore's visit was going to include Snape showing up, but he
hadn't been clued in that Snape was going to stay the night. He tried to
comfort himself that Draco must not have seen the man the night before or he
would've said something about it. Still, he was going to give Snape a piece of
his mind now that he knew what he'd done to Draco.
He was just starting towards Snape when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
Appearing rash and wild as he whirled around, his eyes fixed on Remus. The
man's empathetic expression did little to sooth the rush of nervous energy
Harry generated on seeing Snape. He was riled and ready to fight. Remus's hand
moved to Harry's bicep and he tugged. It wasn't a violent move, but it brooked
no argument. "Come along, Harry. Get some breakfast. We'll have a chat."
"I don't want to 'have a chat,' Remus." Harry attempted to wrestle away from
the grasp, but Remus dragged Harry down the steps.
"I know you don't want to, Harry, but you will. Right now." Remus's tone was so
paternal that Harry conceded. Besides, he wasn't going to hex Snape right in
front of Remus again. He'd be stopped. Remus directed Harry to one of the
chairs.
"I was going to take breakfast up to Draco." Harry took a chair and sulked at
being caught. He had so much he wanted to tell Snape. Although most of the
message he wanted to give was liable to come through his fists.
"Is he waiting for it?" Remus took a spot across from Harry and poured himself
a fresh cup of tea. It was midmorning on Saturday and the Weasleys plus
Hermione had gone for the day to Diagon Alley for shopping and ice cream. Molly
had left the food out and charmed to stay fresh for those who weren't awake
when they'd left.
Harry shook his head. He picked up the plates left out for him with breakfast
and began to arrange food on them.
Seeing that Harry wasn't going to be kept from Draco for very long, Remus
decided to cut to the chase. "As unpleasant as it is, Harry, Snape is an
integral person to this war. By now you have figured out that he's not
completely... that his habits and behaviour occassionally lend him to the Death
Eater side of his personality. We are not ignorant to the dual nature of his
loyalties, but at the moment that is the only way we can keep up with what they
are doing. This is a chess game, unfortunately."
"And I'm the pawn?" snapped Harry as he slammed the eggs onto the plate and
tossed the utensil back onto the bowl.
"No one's the pawn, Harry. Perhaps chess is a bad analogy. The point is, it's a
game of strategy and what we're trying to do is to give you every advantage we
can buy you for the final battle." Remus maintained calm in spite of Harry's
petulance.
"Oh no, I think chess was spot on. Maybe then I'm the king and Draco is the
pawn? You're letting his attacker not only live but stay the night?" Jumping up
from his seat, Harry paced the kitchen before he remembered he was going for a
tray and then headed to the proper cabinet to retrieve one.
"Harry..." Remus's tone was exasperated, but he couldn't help but feel pity for
Harry his plight. His eyes followed Harry as he paced and then settled on
getting the tray. "No one wanted Snape to stay the night. He came to talk to
Albus, and when that was through, Snape insisted that he was too tired to go
home."
"Oh please. Too tired? Too tired to Apparate? Or use his Portkey? It's talking
to Draco he's after and that's not going to happen." Harry started to slam the
tray down, but Remus's hand shot out before it hit the table and nodded towards
the hallway to remind him of Mrs Black's portrait. Bringing his index finger to
his lips reinforced the message for Harry to keep quiet. Harry gave a pained
expression, but nodded his acknowledgment.
Point made, Remus withdrew his hand. "I realize that the hope to talk to Draco
is likely his reason for staying the night, and I realize how bothersome that
is to you. I kept him at bay last night and I will again today."
"Today? What? How long is he going to stay?"
"I don't know, Harry. Knowing Severus-- I'm afraid he can be rather tenacious
when he wants something. He wants to straighten things out with Draco." Remus
took another sip of his tea, but kept a wary eye on Harry.
Harry did a poor job of concealing his rage. His face flushed and his lips
tightened as he set the dishes onto the tray with an affected carefulness.
"That is not going to happen."
"No, it isn't. I'll be watching Severus to make sure he does not perturb you."
Remus glanced back up the stairs, but he knew he'd hear it if Snape roused.
"I thought Dumbledore wanted Draco to watch Snape." His tray set, Harry
glowered at Remus, too overwhelmed with resentment to be picky about who was on
the receiving end of his ire.
"At school, yes. And in general." He set his teacup down.
Harry hoisted up the tray and leaned it on his stomach for balance. "Then why
are you going to watch him?"
"For you." Remus spread his fingers on the table and then folded them.
He all but dropped the tray. "What? Why?"
"Because it will ease your mind to know that someone is watching him. This is
outside of Order business, Harry. I don't want you to mention it to Albus or
even Draco. This is between us. I think that as capable as Draco is in some
capacities, he's still very young and Snape... is clearly more wily than even
Albus gives him credit for." Of course, Remus's other reasons, that he didn't
want to see Harry get into any further trouble because of his inability to
control his temper, went unstated.
"I... I don't know what to say. Other than... thank you." He was too
flabbergasted to say much more than that. He hadn't dreamed that anyone in the
Order really took Snape as the serious threat that he was, but at least Remus
was on his side. He was awash in gratitude he had no idea how to express.
Remus smiled a quiet understanding of Harry's subtext. He hoped that it was
enough to keep Harry from doing something else that was reckless, but there was
so much of James in the boy, he wasn't sure. "It's my pleasure, Harry. Well,
not really a pleasure to deal with Snape," he said, smirking. "But you know
what I mean."
For the first time that morning, Remus caught a glimpse of Harry's lopsided
grin. "I do." Suddenly he wasn't in an urgent rush to leave the room, but
wanted stay to show his appreciation.
There was never a time where Remus felt more like a father to Harry than right
now, and he was loath to let that end as well. "So, classes Monday?"
Shaking his head, Harry dropped his gaze to the platter in his hands. "No. I
don't think so. I want to spend more time with Draco. And really... after...
well, the thing with Richard... "
This surprised Remus. "I thought you were enjoying yourself. It was your dream
to be an Auror."
Harry sighed heavily. "It was. But... I wasn't enjoying myself. No one...
talked to me. They were all scared or intimidated or something. I'm not sure
I'm cut out to work for the Ministry. They're just so... I mean... how did they
not see that Richard was a spy?"
Remus chuckled. "Yes, you'd think with a last name like 'Spien' they'd be more
wary. It's a governing body and like any governing body it is subject to
corruption at worst and misguided policy at best. I can understand your
hesitancy, however. You have time to think about it, still. Anyone who doesn't
talk to you is missing out. I know a bit of something about how that feels.
People can be unintentionally cruel. I have the feeling that in your case they
were intimidated by your accomplishments. Can't blame them that."
"That makes sense... about the Ministry. I don't know about the
accomplishments, though. I didn't really achieve much by myself," he said,
lighting up with a modest blush. He felt another spark of kinship with Remus
over feelings of isolation. He wished he could make it better for him.
"Nonsense, Harry. You're a special boy no matter what. A bit reckless, but you
have the exuberance of youth. Much like your father. James would be proud of
you."
Harry was aglow at the notion. "Really?"
"He would be just as proud of you as I am." Remus gave him an affectionate
smile and then gestured towards the stairs. "Now go on, get to your boyfriend
before those warming charms wear off."
Beaming at Remus, Harry nodded and said, "Thanks again. I'm... I'll try to keep
making you proud." With that, he headed up the stairs, still giddy from the
praise, particularly since he'd felt like such a failure for the past few days.
Remus watched him go, satisfied that he'd cheered Harry up. He still felt
anxious, however, dreading what was to come.
***** No Quarter *****
Harry couldn't sleep. Or rather, he didn't think he could sleep. However, as he
rolled over to look at the clock, he noted it was now half two in the morning.
He must have dozed off at some point, since it was much later and Ron was no
longer in the room.
Because his arms had been around Draco, the one under his lover's neck was
asleep. Pumping his fist, he winced at the pins and needles that the blood
flushing back into the appendage caused. In spite of having a nap, he felt
listless. Worse yet, he was wide-awake now.
He watched the regular rise and fall of Draco's chest, frowning at how he had
his dressing gown pulled tight. Draco was undeniably broken on some level that
in spite of talking, holding, and trying to just be there for him, Harry was
unable to fix. This was all Snape's fault, and this time there was no quibbling
about that fact. Severus Snape broke his boyfriend and was now sleeping in the
drawing room where Draco had once sought refuge. Because of that, Harry refused
to let Draco leave the room, although he failed to inform him of Snape's
presence in the house. Draco seemed content to stay in the room, which was a
small mercy, as Harry knew he couldn't lie to him.
Harry assumed the reason Snape hadn't burst in on their little nest was that
Remus was keeping him at bay. It felt good to have someone on his side
regarding Snape, although he knew that Ron and Hermione were probably also
doing what they could. He wished that Molly and Arthur were there; Molly would
certainly have sent Snape packing by now. But they had been called away from
their shopping trip in Diagon Alley to tend to Charlie, who had been poisoned
by a Peruvian Vipertooth.
Why the Romanian sanctuary was housing a Peruvian dragon was never explained.
Not that he cared much beyond worrying that Charlie was going to be all right,
which he was assured that he was. Had he been of a clearer mind he might've
sussed that Charlie had gone to Peru rather than the other way around, but his
brain was too full with the immediate. The elder Weasleys had gone along with
Ginny to Romania, leaving Ron to tend to Hermione who was still occasionally
weak from the shock of Voldemort's cursed book.
Mulling these thoughts, Harry had a revelation. Remus would be asleep in
Sirius's old room upstairs. Ron and Hermione were asleep in her room. Draco had
likely taken the sleeping draught he'd been provided. Snape was alone in the
drawing room. Artfully, he wrangled his now mostly-functional arm out from
under Draco and slid his wand into his waistband. It was time he had a chat
with the greasy git.
--
The first blow was immediate. Harry had crept into the room full of intentions
of telling Snape off, not hitting him. Granted, he was likely to yell at him at
wand-point, but he intended to let him know that he didn't care for his hanging
about waiting to talk to Draco. Instead, brooding over how Draco was
traumatised nearly beyond recognition, his fist balled up and flew at the man's
face.
Snape's beady black eyes opened, trying to register what was going on. Harry
hit him again, harder this time. He could hear the cartilage snap and the
sickening give of the solid mass under his knuckles. Then he hit him again, on
the jaw. He didn't care that Snape was coughing and sputtering. The thrill of
seeing blood pumping out of his nose and filling in his pallid features incited
Harry. He leapt upon the man's torso, now hitting hard with both fists, letting
them fly at his face, down his shoulders, occasionally blocking the older man's
flailing. Each meaty connect of skin-on-skin thrilled him till he found that he
was just pounding the flat side of both fists into Snape's chest in unison.
"Harry, stop."
The voice was barely above the whisper, and thick with emotion. Harry dropped
his fists and glanced at Snape, whose eyes were closed and body still. He
looked towards the door to see the small, ghostly pale figure framed in the
waning moonlight.
"Oh, Harry."
Harry's chest tightened at the intruder's quiet sniffles, and then the pale
figure disappeared. No. He stared in horror at the empty doorway, puzzled by
Draco's response. Was Draco crying over Snape being injured? He rose and
started towards the door, halting as the shimmer of Draco's dressing gown
caught his eye.
Draco fled back through the door, his wand in one hand and a vial in the other.
"Harry, Harry... what have you done?" he asked as he paced in front of the
Black family tapestry. He glared disdainfully at the wall hanging and then
turned back to Harry and shook his head.
"Are you... angry? He... he attacked you, Draco. And he's... " Harry gestured
in a broad manner, not sure how to explain.
"He's been here. I know."
Harry noticed that Draco couldn't meet his gaze, and only then did the words
register. "You... knew?"
Draco nodded. He glowered at Snape's unconscious form and then looked back at
Harry. "I... yes. I saw him on the way back from meeting with Dumbledore. Then
I checked last night and saw he'd stayed the night. I was just going to see if
he was here again, but you were out of bed and... well..." He gestured at Snape
and his nostrils flared. "This was stupid, Harry. It's not-- I can't blame you,
but it-- " His hand flew up to his forehead, the potion still clutched in it.
"Let's talk about this later." He made his way to Snape and grimaced at the
injuries. "I can't... fix all of this."
"Fix it? Why would you fix it? He should have these injuries and pain to remind
him of the consequences of touching you!" Harry's gestures went wild as if his
hands alone could make his point.
Draco peered at Harry as if he were a slow child. "Harry. He's a Potions
master. He won't experience the pain for so long as it takes him to drink a few
of his own concoctions. Oh, but he'll leave the injuries to prove what a danger
you are, how unbalanced. And you know? At the moment I'm not sure I could
disagree." He knew he was being snappy, and he understood that Harry had done
this for him, but he was so worried about what mileage Snape could get out of
this, he was determined to fix it.
"I-- I'm not... unbalanced," Harry complained. Looking at Snape's face,
however, it did provide compelling evidence to the contrary. "Do you think I'm
unbalanced?"
Setting his wand on Snape's chest, Draco took Harry's hand and kissed it. "I
do. But I love you anyway.”
Harry had started to smile when Draco took his hand, not expecting the answer
he got. "Hey!"
Draco nodded his head at Snape's face. "Now hush so I can deal with this.
Although... I don't know any charms for mending bones. I can probably get rid
of most of these bruises."
"Maybe we could just throw him down the stairs and claim that he's clumsy?"
Harry offered, but the look Draco gave him, made him hush. His Auror training
taught him better than that, anyway. "Wait, I know some charms for that. I
wasn't brilliant with them... his nose might look a little funny..."
Draco snorted and nudged Harry.
It took Harry a moment, and then he covered his mouth to chuckle. "Point,"
Harry admitted. He eyed Draco and saw the boy grinning back up at him. It had
been days since he'd seen him smile. He leaned down and kissed his forehead,
and this time, Draco didn't flinch, but tilted his head up and caught Harry's
chin awkwardly with a quick press of lips.
"Right then." Draco used his wand to set a couple of candles alight and the
boys set to work, mending broken capillaries and a few small cuts and abrasions
from Harry's nails. Taking Harry's hand, Draco deftly charmed the bruises as
well as he could, although it would take some time for the swelling to go down
on him as well as Snape. Finally, Harry concentrated and tried his "Immendo"
charm. Snape's body twitched and flinched. Draco cast a silencing charm just in
time to keep the man's scream from escaping.
Snape's furious expression made Draco gasp and Harry grabbed his shoulder as
they both watched the man go for his wand. "Petrificus Totalus," Harry snapped.
Draco grabbed the sleeping draught he'd brought and poured it into Snape's
gaping mouth. He swallowed out of reflex and after a few moments, his eyes
looked hazy and his eyelids lolled, and he settled in to sleep. Dropping his
wand on Snape's chest, Draco brought his hands up to cover his face.
Harry bent down and kissed his temple. "You're very brave."
He was trembling and the last thing Draco felt right now was brave, but at
least now he wasn't a victim. "I'm smart too," he said, his voice muffled by
his hands. Gradually, he lowered his hands and peered up at Harry. "And very
attractive."
Harry grinned at him. "Don't forget modest." He gave Draco's shoulder a squeeze
and then helped him up, grabbing up his wand so they didn't forget it.
"I leave the modesty to the Gryffindors." Draco didn't protest when Harry
wrapped his arm around him, nor when he kissed him on the corner of his mouth.
"Well, we are better at it," he teased, pulling him out of the drawing room.
"Oh yes, modesty, such the skill. It gets you so far in life to muck about
pretending you're not my hero." Draco slipped into their bedroom followed by
Harry and closed the door.
"Your unbalanced hero." Harry pointed out.
"That does make it all very exciting." Draco slipped out of his dressing gown,
but still got into the bed with his pyjamas on. It was a good first step.
"But... I am concerned about you. You're..."
"Aggressive?" Harry hopped into bed with Draco and wrapped his arms around him.
No matter what Draco seemed to think of his mental state, he wasn't shying away
from the cuddling.
"Let's go back to unbalanced." Grinning playfully, Draco scooted closer.
"That's-- I'll admit I've been more aggressive, but I... I kind of need to be.
I suppose I'm realizing that now. I have to-- there's something I didn't tell
you. But then, I haven't really told anyone. Although most of the Order knows
anyway, as they... need to." He ran his fingers through Draco's hair, savouring
the feel of how silky it was compared to his as he tried to collect his
thoughts.
"Oh?" Draco's body tensed, not sure what to expect.
"I have to kill Voldemort. I don't... have a choice. I used to-- I guess when I
was younger and thought Sirius betrayed my parents, I thought I could kill him.
But I didn't think that... I guess... it's weird now. Knowing I'm going to have
to kill Voldemort. Even if he is... and I have every right to... it's just..."
"Taking a life...." Surprisingly, Draco's gaze was directly on Harry's face and
he met his eyes with intensity. "It's not easy. It's worse to live with. Even
when you're sure you made the right choice, even when everything inside of you
knows that there was no other solution, it's always there. You ended someone.
I'm... I'm here, Harry."
Harry felt guilty for not having been there for Draco. Obviously, he'd been
carrying all of this around since he'd killed his father. "Why didn't you tell
me...."
"I'm telling you now."
"But you should've-- you could've..."
"I wasn't ready," said Draco. He entwined their fingers. "And I didn't want to
burden you. No, that's not entirely fair. I just didn't want to talk about it.
It hurt too much, and it still does to a point. I'm getting used to it, though.
At first it was such a relief, to have him gone and to be able to make my own
choices. Then... I felt guilty. I second-guessed things I could've done. But
you'll have none of that. You know you're supposed to do it. I just don't want
you to change too much, Harry. Seeing you out of control like that... in the
other room... it scares me."
"It scares me too, Draco. I just... thought of all of the things he'd done. I
didn't-- I thought I'd talk to him, but... I just lost my temper."
"You lost your temper to a sleeping man?"
"You pointed out that I'm unbalanced."
Draco rolled his eyes. "Right, well... balance up a bit. Although I have to
admit to finding it cathartic and a bit sexy to see you... that riled up."
"Attacking a sleeping man is not my finest hour." Harry frowned, but at least
Draco wasn't terrified by him.
"No, but Snape isn't the finest man. All I could think about was how much I
loved you and how scared I was that they were going to lock you up at St.
Mungo's for that. You just had this manic look... "
"I thought you ran away never to return." Harry yawned, realizing suddenly how
late it was, almost four and he'd expended quite a bit of energy.
The yawn awakened similar urges in Draco and he repeated it. "I almost did.
Actually I was going to take the sleeping draught and try to pretend I didn't
see anything at all, but then I realized that you were a Gryffindor and
therefore you'd need to be bailed out."
Harry decided to ignore the snark on his House, and just enjoyed that hisDraco
was coming back to him. "My hero."
"Your balanced hero."
Harry readjusted the covers around them and gave the ceiling the indulgent
smile Draco would've gotten if he hadn't settled his head on Harry's chest to
listen to the steady thrum of his heartbeat. "Very balanced."
--
The next morning, Harry was surprised to awake to Draco fully dressed and
reading. The smell of lavender and rosemary wafted through the room, indicating
to Harry that Draco had already showered. "Mmm, time is it?" grumbled Harry.
Draco marked his place in the book and plucked Harry's glasses from the
nightstand to hand to him. "Half eight."
"Early. You smell good." Harry rubbed his eyes, and gave a long yawn as he sat
up. Then he pulled his glasses on and looked around, oblivious to his extreme
bed head.
"Smelling good comes from bathing, which I suggest you do. In spite of the
dubious smells coming from downstairs, I'm rather hungry."
That snapped Harry awake. "You want me to bring you food?"
"No, I'm going to breakfast. Enough of this maudlin hiding, I've had my fill.
I'm going to go to breakfast and you're coming with me. Bud do have a shower
before your rankness spoils my appetite." Draco smirked.
Harry couldn't help but brighten. Draco was being a playful prat. That in
itself was encouraging, but he also wanted to leave the room. He was almost too
pleased to remember that Snape might be out there. If that man had any sense,
he would've skittered home. "Right, then. Be right back!" he said, scampering
to the shower.
Draco smiled to himself and took up the book.
--
On their way down to the kitchen, Harry paused him. "Draco... one thing...
about last night."
"You're still unbalanced. Sorry. I still love you, if that helps?" He smirked
in his superior way and Harry couldn't keep from kissing the corner of his
mouth.
"No, not that. Arse. I meant with Snape." Harry frowned as Draco paled and
flinched. He looked over his shoulder as if the man was there.
"He's not here, he left," whispered Draco after confirming the man hadn't crept
up on him.
Harry's eyes widened for a moment. "He did? Err-- I mean, good. But that's
not... what I was going to ask about." He was astonished that he hadn't thought
about that. This other consideration had blocked out the others.
Draco toyed with the sleeve of his taupe robe. "Harry, I'm hungry. Can we talk
about all this later?"
"I just... shouldn't we have wiped his memory?" Harry gave Draco an anxious
look. It had occurred to him in the shower, and he just couldn't wait to talk
about it now. He should've said something in the room, but Draco had rushed him
to get dressed and he'd forgotten again until now.
"No. No, wiping his memory would be very bad." His eyes glittered with malice
unlike Harry had ever seen, and he'd seen quite a bit of Draco's nastiness in
the past. "I want him to remember it; every blow and every broken blood vessel.
I want him to remember that you did it, and that I helped. I want him to be
terrified and to know that his actions have a price."
"But... but then he can tell someone, Draco." Harry tried to keep his
whispering low, but he was starting to panic.
"He has no proof, does he?"
"I-- he-- well-- no...."
"One thing I've learned of late is that without proof, it didn't happen. Even
when there is proof, sometimes people just don't care. Do you really think that
anyone's going to investigate too hard that the Wonder boy might've knocked
about a greasy old paedophile?" Draco smirked and caressed his cheek.
Maybe it was the touches, or maybe Harry just liked the way it sounded, but
suddenly Draco was talking sense. He beamed at Draco. "No, they won't."
"And now he has the fear of your wrath and my ruthlessness to keep him from
pulling any further stunts. Now, if we're done with the exposition, can we have
some breakfast?"
Harry undeniably liked the sound of that. He grabbed Draco's hand and tugged
him the rest of the way to the kitchen.
Upon entering, Harry noticed a few things. One, Remus was working at the stove.
Two, the Fry-up was burned-up, casting the room into a smoky haze that reeked
of grease. Three, Ron and Hermione were flirting shamelessly as they appeared
to avoid the singed food before them. Four, and finally, Draco's expression was
pinched up in incredulity in the way it often did before he launched into a
slanderous rebuke. To short-circuit that, Harry leaned in and pressed a quick
kiss to his lips.
Draco perked a brow at Harry. Tearing his eyes away, he again appeared to be
trying to make his remark when Harry leaned in and kissed him again. This time
Draco gave him an exasperated look and opened his mouth to say something about
these abrupt outbursts of affection.
"I love you," said Harry.
Draco narrowed his eyes.
"Harry! Draco! Good to see you both up and looking so rested. Have a seat, I've
almost finished with the bacon." Remus looked so proud of himself for cooking,
Harry didn't have the heart to point out that he didn't appear to have the
knack.
Draco started another valiant attempt to say something, when Harry dragged him
to the table and gave him a quick shove into a chair. Muttering something that
sounded much like cursing, Draco sat at the table and grumbled about the
"cuisine."
"Smells good, Remus," chirped Harry. Ron and Hermione shook their heads sadly
over the charred breakfast. "Good to see you both. You look well, Hermione."
"Oh I am feeling so much better, Harry. Apparently, it was some sort of
offshoot of a much more complex hex that would have killed me. I did some tests
on the book myself, but then it went to the Aurors. They believe it came from
Vo-Voldemort himself. It would have been untraceable, but someone along the
line fiddled with it." She took a bite of eggs, which weren't intolerably
burned.
That meshed with what Snape had told him, Although Draco still didn't know what
had happened. "Book?"
"Yes, there was a book sent by your owl to Hermione. When she opened it, that's
when she fell unconscious. I knew it was a frame up straight away." Ron sat up
and preened in a way that Harry thought was very reminiscent of Draco. Those
two had spent too much time together.
"Well, I'm glad at least someone had a little faith in me," snarked Draco as he
tried to wave the smoke out of his face. He didn't have to look at Harry to
realize that he'd hurt him. He stopped trying to clear the air and put his hand
on Harry's, but really, the boy deserved to take a little abuse.
"Bacon is ready!" announced Remus, who parcelled out a few desiccated pieces to
each of them. "And I think I'm done
"Quite a menu you've...burn--" Draco started.
Harry leaned in to kiss Draco again, and this time he took the hint and sighed.
"Yes, well, breakfast always was my specialty. I prefer things well-done, don't
you?" Remus tucked into his plate after glancing at Harry and Draco and then
smiling at Ron.
In order to keep conversation moving, Hermione took over again. "How the owl
knew where to deliver the book is a bit of a mystery... to some. I think it's
terribly obvious, but then, no one seems that interested in it. Clearly they're
covering for Snape. After all the trouble he's caused..."
"Snape is doing valuable work for the Order. But I think that... someone has
figured out how to punish him when he gets out of line." Remus looked at Harry
and winked.
Harry was astonished, and wondered if Remus knew about the night before or if
he meant the priapism. "Well, that's... good." Harry tried to sound confident,
but failed miserably.
The rest of the breakfast went well, with casual, pleasant conversation.
Everyone managed to pick around the burned bits and ate about as much as they
could tolerate. Draco kept mum about the quality of the food preparation to
appease Harry. Remus seemed rather pleased with himself for his mealtime
success.
As everyone began to get up to clear away the dishes Remus asked, "Harry, might
I have a word with you while I clean up?"
Ron and Hermione nodded graciously and headed off to their room. Draco looked
less certain, but finally offered to go to his room.
"Nonsense, Malfoy. You may stay if you wish. Both of you have a seat." Remus
flourished his wand and started the dishes to cleaning and the remaining food
was banished. "There. Now Harry, I want to talk to you about something."
Trading looks, Draco and Harry resumed their seating arrangement at the table
and Remus moved to the other side and sat giving them both a quick smile. Like
a scene from a Disney movie, in the background the dishes were magically
cleaning and stacking themselves. Occasionally Remus's eyes darted up to check
the progress, ensuring that nothing went awry. "I'm sure you've both noticed
that Severus has left."
Again, Draco and Harry traded looks. Harry's demeanour was sheepish, while
Draco's had a practiced air of calm. Finding no help from Draco on the direct
question, Harry nodded. "We did."
"Do you happen to know why he would have taken off without saying a word?"
Remus looked at the boys again.
Harry was staring at Draco again.
Draco was pointedly avoiding Remus's eyes until he realized he was being
watched. At that awareness, Draco stared back directly back at him. "We have no
idea. I hadn't left the room until this morning."
There was no visible indication that Malfoy was lying, other than Remus knew he
was. His brows rose at how adept Malfoy was at eluding the pantomime of a liar.
However, there was an edge to Draco's manner, one the boy couldn't quite hide,
and one Remus was far too familiar with. Fear. Fear tinged with distaste. But
then, most people were afraid of werewolves. "I know why he left. I believe you
two know as well."
Eyes widening, Harry looked at Remus again, watching him staring down his
boyfriend. "Y-y-you do?" Harry was too earnest for this particular game.
Occlumency or not, some people just couldn't lie. Further, some people cannot
lie to certain individuals, and Harry could not lie to Remus.
"Well then, perhaps you'd like to enlighten us? Because we have no idea." Still
glaring at Remus as if he were an enemy, he quipped, "Does something smell like
wet dog in here?"
"Draco!" His boyfriend was incorrigible. To punish him, Harry pinched Draco's
thigh. He received a glare in return. Harry shook his head and peered back at
Remus who was now concentrating on him. "We might know... something."
Remus sighed and gave Harry a disappointed stare for his attempt. "Harry, I
told you I would watch Snape for you as best as I could. What did you think
that meant?"
Harry's heart sank. "You saw... that?"
Draco went silent but took Harry's hand. Though he was going to try and protect
Harry, he was glad that it was out in the open. Perhaps someone would finally
straighten Harry out.
"I did, Harry. That was incredibly foolish." Remus held his hand up to keep
Harry from speaking, although the boy didn't appear to have anything to say in
his defence. "I understand why you did it, I understand your frustration, but
you went too far. You must learn some restraint. You have pressures on you. We
all see that. Dumbledore tends to turn a blind eye to your behaviour because of
what you are to face. I cannot, and I will not." He held back too often when
James and Sirius committed so many audacious acts, and he shouldn't have. As
far as Remus was concerned, Harry needed to learn some control for his very
survival.
"I...I'm sorry. I was just going to go in there to tell him to leave..."
It was hard to remain stern while staring into Harry's repentant face. Worse
yet, the complications that had arisen from his actions were now going to seem
like rewards. "I am very disappointed in you, Harry. Whatever your intentions
were when you went into that room, you almost killed Severus. I realize that
you think you have justification for that, but you do not. I do not think you
understand what a mess you've left for Dumbledore to clean up for you at the
Ministry with your antics with Mrs. Lestrange."
"She deserved..." Harry was cut off by the look Remus gave him. "She murdered
Sirius!"
"Harry..." Remus appeared tired by Harry's reaction, worn down by the fading
memory of his lost lover. "She may have wielded the wand, but Sirius killed
Sirius. His impetuousness is what caused his death. He should not have followed
you onto that platform. He should not have been so dismissive of Kreacher.
And... he should not have treated you like James. It's his and James's brash
temperament that I see manifesting in you. You mean very much to me. I don't
want to lose someone else I care about to recklessness."
Draco squeezed Harry's hand, which had tensed around his.
Part of Harry wanted to rage at Remus for his blaming Sirius for his own death;
Sirius was his lover! He should have been just as angry with Bellatrix, if not
angrier! He should be thrilled that the woman got what she so richly deserved.
And yet... he was lecturing him. "She killed him. She tortured Neville's
parents."
"It wasn't your job to mete out retribution for her sins. You've taken
Dumbledore away from his research and the Ministry has had to modify Mrs.
Lestrange and Mr. Spien's memories so that they do not recall Snape being there
on the off chance they managed to say anything. Your dubious vengeance has cost
the people you care about, and will ultimately end up costing you." Remus
reached his hand across the table for Harry's, as the boy looked rather upset
by these words.
Draco was a bit put out that Harry took it with his spare hand, but only showed
it by shifting in his chair.
"I'm... I'm sorry. I didn't mean to... cause trouble... like that."
Remus nodded. "I know you didn't, Harry. But each time you act out like that,
it has repercussions, and not just for you. It's what You Know Who wants; to
keep you distracted and off-balance. You cannot give into that."
Harry's brows furrowed. How could he be so foolish? Of course that's what
Voldemort would want. He was giving into his base reactions it more and more.
He looked at Draco, who was flexing his jaw, and remaining silent. "I... I
won't. Not anymore. I'll... I won't." Remus's censure stung nearly as much as
the realization did. "I'll try... and I won't... do that to Snape again."
Now came the sticky part. Remus prayed he'd sold Harry enough on how wrong he'd
been. "You won't need to. Draco has been released from his obligation to keep
an eye on Severus."
Draco's head snapped up and he mouthed at Remus. Disbelief tinged with relief
commingled in his expression.
"He won't? Did Snape quit?" Harry asked on Draco's wordless behalf.
"No. He did not resign, although he may yet. Dumbledore feels that Draco's
complicity in your attack last night has severed whatever smidgen of affection
that Severus had left for him. He is not positive on this, but he feels it
would now be too much of a risk to Draco to have them in contact." Remus looked
at Draco, whose eyes were closed and his face was pointed up to revel in being
liberated from these dreaded duties. "You will no longer be enrolled in Potions
class and you are to avoid him as much as possible."
"What about... what he does? What about the spying and the message relay?"
Sitting forward in his chair, Draco appeared to have moved past his werewolf
anxiety for the moment.
Remus exhaled. "That... we do not know. This may well have pushed the man too
far. He may have defected back to the Death Eaters. Severus's loyalties were
often nebulous. I am to go to his home in Wales to try and gain some of his
trust. I don't hold out much hope on my ability to succeed." He tried not to
think about how this seemed just as pointless an exercise as trying to lure the
werewolves to fight for them.
Harry frowned at how well he'd mucked things up. "I'm really sorry."
"It's all right, Harry. It was a mistake, we'll... muddle through. You just
need to focus on getting ready to tackle the new semester. N.E.W.T.S. this
year, remember." Remus tried to soften the mood with a wry grin.
"What about school, then? Will Draco still be in the Slytherin dorms?" Harry
looked hopeful that Draco would have a private room again.
"Yes, he is still a Slytherin and will live in the Slytherin dorms. There is no
way around that. Should the situation become extreme or if there is any
indication that Snape will seek vengeance... then Draco will get his own room.
As it stands, his dorm room is empty so he does essentially have a private
room. That said..." Remus paused as both boys stared at him. He could tell they
had doubts about how safe even a private room was when Snape was free to run
Slytherin as he saw fit. "Should you feel threatened, or in any way insecure
with these arrangements, I'm sure you could manage some mischief around Snape
while still remaining invisible. Just be sure to cloak yourselves at all times,
so as not to arouse suspicions."
After that proclamation, they all grinned.
***** Fairytale Ending *****
Draco was beginning to wonder how long Harry and Remus could chat about nothing
when his eagle owl and Hedwig flew into the room, settling in front of the
boys. Each stuck out a scaly leg and glared expectantly for their rewards.
Smirking that his owl managed to get his leg out first, Draco untied the scroll
marked with the Hogwarts crest from his owl's leg and read over the list of
supplies.
Hedwig chirruped as Harry stroked her while he read his letter. Then he noticed
the two birds edging closer to one another. For a horrific moment, he was
certain that Draco's owl was going to nip at Hedwig, but instead, it started to
preen her. He smiled at Hedwig who was twisting her head to allow it. "When did
this start?" Harry asked her.
"It's been going on all summer. Quite the torrid affair," Draco answered for
her. With that, he hopped up to rifle through the cupboard for owl treats.
Finding a few, he set them on the table.
"I had no idea! I missed so much by not being here," groused Harry as he put
his arm around Draco after he'd settled back into his chair.
Draco snorted. "Oh yes, owl romance is quite the reason to stay in."
"I feel bad. I don't even know your owl's name, Draco."
"Owl. His name is Owl." Draco watched the two birds quickly gobble up the
treats and then return to their nuzzling.
Remus and Harry exchanged glances and then they looked at Draco. "Really?"
asked Harry. Remembering Draco's dove, he reckoned that the Malfoys didn't name
their owls or consider them pets, only servants.
"Gryffindors." Draco shook his head at their gullibility. "Bran. His name is
Bran."
"Brawn?" Harry was reassured that Draco was just having him on. A little
chagrined as well, as that was a tad discourteous.
Draco could tell that Harry wasn't catching the subtle difference in
enunciation, but he decided that it didn't much matter. "Yes."
Harry smiled and slid his finger over one of the feathers that jutted out above
Bran's eye. "Hullo, Brawn." The bird appeared unimpressed and went back to
attending Hedwig.
Chuckling, Remus remarked, "That bird is definitely a Malfoy. I think these
letters are a sign that we should all go to Diagon Alley. I'm not sure what
we'd do about lunch anyhow, and you two have been cooped up here too long."
"Shopping?" Draco pricked up his ears at that idea. His only escape from
Grimmauld Place had been the traumatic jaunt to Snape's, which didn't exactly
count. He was anxious to get out and about.
"Well, perhaps some lunch, too." Harry rubbed his rumbling tummy.
"I want ice cream." Following his announcement, Draco decisively stood and
started towards the door.
"Draco, we need to get Ron and Hermione!" Harry dashed to catch up to him.
Remus gave them an indulgent smile. "We'll all meet in the drawing room and
Floo from there."
Draco rolled his eyes. "Do they have to go?" He glanced at Remus and wrinkled
his nose and then looked to Harry.
"I thought you liked them." Shuffling Draco out of the kitchen, Harry headed
them towards Hermione's room. "Aren't they your friends now?"
Draco gritted his teeth at the taunt and responded, "Pfft."
--
"Ah, Diagon Alley. Just as I left it." Draco considered the speckled mound of
clove and spice ice cream on his spoon before plunging it into his mouth. The
street was bustling with back-to-school shoppers. It was easy to pick out the
Mudbloods from the packs of children flooding the streets. They stood dazed
staring at the magical items, shocked at the new world they'd just found out
about. Draco sneered at them.
Reading the expression of disdain on Draco's face, Harry sighed. He supposed
the bigotry ran deep, but he'd hoped that his boyfriend would see past all of
that by now. Then again, it hadn't even been a year. People didn't change
overnight. Pensively, Harry sipped his Butterbeer float and reasoned that at
least Draco didn't say anything offensive.
Now that everyone was together in one spot, Harry noticed that there was a
definite hierarchy to whom Draco responded. While Draco was highly attentive to
anything he said, the others were given much less consideration. He figured
that was normal. A lover would warrant more attention than friends. But then
Draco's consideration broke down over predictable bloodlines. He would converse
with Ron, but only answer direct questions from Hermione. He pretty much
ignored Remus. It was disappointing, but Harry hoped Draco would grow out of
it.
"Did you see the look on Madam Malkin's face when Malfoy walked in? I thought
she was going to cry, she was so happy. You being locked away for the summer
must've put a quite a dent in her profits." Ron tucked into his peanut butter
ice cream sundae with a satisfied relish.
Tearing his eyes from the spectacle of the shoppers loaded down with bags,
Draco appeared smug.
Hermione toyed with the bottom of her milkshake with her straw. "Did you see
the look on her face when he bought half the store?"
Ron thought the wanton display of money was less than amusing. However, Ron
realized that pointing that out would have led to an even more libertine
display of consumerism. "Clever of her to use the reducing charm on the bags,
though."
Remus remained quiet, observing how crowded Florian Fortescue's Ice Cream
Parlour had grown in the short time they'd been sitting there. It was good to
keep an eye out just in case, but he didn't expect there to be trouble here. He
cleared off his last bite of Chocolate Frog Flavoured double chocolate ice
cream and set the spoon down.
"Oh, she's always done that for her bigger accounts. Makes for easier shopping
and travel." Draco took another considered spoonful of the creamy treat and
glanced around. He froze when he spotted a dark-clad man with black hair out of
the corner of his eye. His empty spoon dropped from his mouth and landed with a
clatter onto the plate.
The noise made Harry look up from his Butterbeer. His hand moved to where he
kept his wand and he wrapped his arm protectively around his cringing lover.
"Are you using this chair?" the dark man asked Remus, unaware of the panic his
appearance had caused.
"No, go ahead," Remus responded to the stranger. Giving the perturbed boys a
concerned look, he spoke softly, "It's all right. It wasn't him."
Draco flinched and turned to look at Harry, who reached up and cupped his face.
Stroking his cheeks, Harry repeated, "It's all right. It wasn't him."
Nodding, Draco closed his eyes and allowed Harry to kiss his forehead.
Flashbulbs pierced the air with bright lights and loud clicking. The
photographer from The Daily Prophet had probably been waiting all day for such
a display of intimacy. It further tightened Draco's knotted up stomach. "I
don't want ice cream anymore."
The childish words and the mawkish tone tugged at Harry's heart, and he looked
vulnerably at his friends as he hid Draco's face against his neck.
Ron and Hermione nodded and Remus stood up. "Let's go."
--
Remus had managed to procure groceries while everyone else was sorting out
their school supplies and new robes. Ron and Hermione volunteered to try their
hand at cooking, partially because they wanted to, but also because they were
no more impressed with Remus's penchant for "well-done" food than Draco.
Together they pulled off a rosemary chicken, which Draco would deem passable.
Not that they heard of his approval, as he'd confined himself to the room
again, where Harry stayed, comforting him from his scare.
"It's not that bad, Harry. I just got tired of smelling Granger, that's all."
Harry sighed. "You didn't mind eating the chicken she made."
"It was marginally better than starving." Draco crossed his arms, leaving Harry
to squeeze his stiff torso and kiss his temple.
"What happened to 'passable?'" Sliding his hand down to the crossed arms, Harry
tugged at one of them, trying to get him to go back to clinging to him.
"I was being polite."
"You're not polite, Draco," he teased, nuzzling the side of his face. "Even if
you were, what would be the point? They're not here to hear it."
Draco smirked. "You offend my honour. I should challenge you to a duel, but
those things don't work out for me. I'd summon a snake and you'd start flirting
with it again, and then I'd be jealous."
"I wasn't flirting with that snake!"
"You weren't flirting with me, either." Draco pouted as he let Harry pry his
arms apart and with a playful grudging gesture, finally wrapped his arms around
Harry again.
"I wasn't ready for you. I was still in my reptile phase." Harry grinned at
Draco and reached up to poke at the protruding lip.
"Aha! You admit it. Pervert."
"Yes, but I'm your pervert. From now on, reptiles and I will only be friends."
Harry held his hand to his heart. "I wouldn't mind doing a few perverted things
with you... but I want to know that you're all right first."
Draco looked rather put out and huffed. "You're making far too much of this,
Harry. It wasn't him. I knew it wasn't him. I just had a moment." He didn't
want to get into that now. He was enjoying their playful banter, so he returned
to it. Batting his eyes, he responded, "I want to do perverted things, too."
Harry wasn't having Draco's avoidance. "But we'll be in school soon and you'll
see him all the..."
"I'll be expecting him at school. This was just a... I just wasn't prepared, is
all. But it wasn't him and I'm fine."
"Draco, I'm just worried that..."
This time it was Draco's turn to cut Harry off with a kiss. As they weren't in
public, Draco took advantage by sliding his hands over Harry's chest. He teased
the tip of his tongue over the soft seal of Harry's lips, finding his lover
pliant and giving. Harry's mouth opened slightly and Draco teased his tongue
past his teeth and mingled with the soft warmth of his mouth.
It was the first time they'd kissed like this in what felt like forever. Maybe
it had been the whole summer since they'd really expressed such desire for one
another. It brought Harry back to the first time they made love in this bed.
Caressing, tender, quiet as they were trying not to rouse Ron. He longed for
that closeness, that intimacy. Sliding his arms around Draco's waist, he pulled
him atop him.
Draco broke the kiss, leaving a few sloppy pecks over his mouth. He enjoyed the
feel of Harry stroking his back as they began to kiss again. Finding himself
quickly breathless, he broke the kiss. This time he leaned his weight on one
elbow as he pulled his hair back and looked down at Harry's foggy glasses. He
snickered and plucked them off. "Getting steamed up, Harry?"
Smiling, Harry nodded. "I am, but you know... you don't have to do this... I
don't want to push..."
"I know you don't." Draco gazed at Harry's face, silently calculating the
number of times when Harry did push him over the summer. He'd heard the
apologies and made his peace with that, but seeing this reversal of Harry's
behaviour back to how it had been before this mad summer pleased him. As
thrilling as some of those encounters were in their peculiar way, he missed
this boy, this love, and this closeness.
"If you're having any doubts at all..." Harry offered.
At this, Draco sighed. He did have some doubts. He looked away and rested his
cheek against Harry's chest. He traced patterns on his collarbone through his
nightshirt, pondering his feelings. Draco wanted to push the burden of their
awkward summer behind him. He wanted Harry to make love to him.
Harry broke the silence. "I want you to make love to me."
"I'm sorry... what?" Draco lifted his head from Harry's chest to look at him.
"I want you to be inside of me." Across Harry's cheeks spread a faint blush,
and his expression was apprehensive, but sincere.
"You don't have to..." but Draco didn't want to finish that sentence. He didn't
want to protest. This was something he'd wanted for a long time, and though he
wouldn't have chosen this path to get it, he felt that at this point, he
deserved it.
"I do. Draco, I do have to. You want this, and I should've... just done what
you wanted. Or at least... talked... or something. I don't know. I just...
didn't... I couldn't really..."
Draco pressed his finger to Harry's lips. "It's all right."
Undaunted, Harry proceeded. "That's why I thought... you know... that you and
Ron. I guess. I mean... I thought maybe you weren't... getting what you
needed... and that Ron..."
"You thought this up all by yourself?" Draco's brow perked and he shook his
head. "So, you thought that because you, The Boy Who Is Gay, wouldn't bend for
me... that the straightest man in Straight Town would?"
Harry rolled his eyes. "When you put it that way, it sounds stupid."
"It sounds worse when I fill in the names. But it's all right; you had a bad
childhood and were probably dropped on your head a lot by those incompetent
Muggles." Draco smirked at Harry's attempt to keep from grinning.
"You really are an arse."
"You are what you eat?" Draco waggled his brows.
Harry blushed and cleared his throat. "You certainly don't have to do that if
you don't want to..."
"And if I do?" Though it seemed unlikely that Harry could blush any brighter,
he did. Draco was highly amused, and better than that, he was getting aroused.
He was excited about the prospect of being inside of Harry again, and it
mitigated his dread of being reminded of Snape by being touched there.
"Maybe I should... err... do that to you." The blush faded as the blood drained
from Harry's cheeks at the idea of putting his tongue on Draco's... well...
there.
The thought of it made Draco shiver, but the expression on Harry's face-- he
couldn't push him to do that. "Maybe next time."
Harry was relieved. He was already feeling rather jittery about allowing this,
but he wanted to share himself with Draco. His lover deserved it, and it wasn't
as if it had been the worst experience of his life. It had just been mildly
uncomfortable at first. "Next time, then."
Rationalizing that Harry had certainly taken liberties with him, Draco decided
to start. He pressed his lips to Harry's, kneading at them till he felt them
give and he teased their tongues together. Straddling him, he reached for the
buttons of Harry's nightshirt; deftly flicking them open till he reached the
bottom. His hands slipped under the parted fabric and he caressed his chest.
Feeling the chill of the air over his body, Harry shivered and then gasped as
the tepid hands slid over his torso. Draco's skin was so soft and the way he
caressed him forced out another groan as he ended the kiss and turned his head
to the side so Draco could nibble over his neck.
Suckling the spot just behind Harry's ear, Draco could taste the mellow tang of
Harry's skin, relishing the texture of it on his tongue as he kissed his way
down the side of his neck and over his collarbone. He tried not to think about
his erection, fearing that too much concentration on keeping maintaining it
would spoil it. Instead, he rubbed against Harry's thigh and contemplated what
they were about to do. Draco took great pleasure in the whimper his actions
elicited from Harry as his skilful fingers fondled over his sides. Hooking his
fingers into the waistband of Harry's pyjama pants, he tugged them down.
It felt blissful, but Harry couldn't shake his trepidation about what was going
to happen. He tensed at the mere thought of it, but was caught off guard when
he felt Draco's length pressing against him. He was nervous, but thrilled.
Slipping a hand between them, Harry tried to grab for him, but he was denied it
as Draco pulled his hips back. He would have tried again, but the balmy warmth
of the tongue ravishing his nipple short-circuited his intent and his hand
dropped. He pushed his hips up to allow his pants to be removed. Fisting his
hands in Draco's nightshirt, he tugged it to pull it over his head.
For a moment Draco was stuck with his shirt over his face and he had to stop to
unbutton his collar so that the shirt could be pulled off. Harry snickered at
the way the fine hair carried static, causing Draco to wrinkle his nose at him
as he smoothed his hair back down. "Prat."
"It was sexy, you should make it..." Harry's speech broke off when he felt a
wet warmth on his prick. Draco could move rather quickly when he wanted to.
"Oooh."
Already Draco was pushing his legs open with as he sucked at the head of
Harry's prick, sliding his tongue over the slit. Encircling his fingers around
the base to steady it, Draco worked it into his mouth, covering his teeth to
give Harry perfect suction. Moving down to take the entire length in, he pulled
back, daintily dragging his teeth along the shaft.
It had been so long. If Draco kept up like that, Harry wasn't going to last. He
sat up on his elbows, watching how Draco's lips stretched around him and how
his cheeks hollowed out as he pulled away. The warm lashing of his tongue made
him groan and the grazing of the teeth over him felt edgy, on the cusp of being
too much feeling. Just when he didn't think he could stand the intense tickle
of his teeth, Draco plunged his mouth back down, soothing the sensitive flesh
with his tongue.
"Oh... Draco," he called out as he started to feel light-headed at the
sensations that were mounting and becoming too much. He could feel the slick
saliva from Draco's mouth running down the base of his prick and warmly sliding
down over his opening. Harry's eyelids fluttered and his breathing increased to
harsh rasping. His head lolled back and his hips moved in fractional jolts and
his hands clutched the sheets. "I'm going... to... you..." he panted.
Forcing himself down onto Harry's prick, he relaxed his throat to let him sink
the rest of the way in. He tried to keep his tongue moving, but there wasn't
far for it to go, so he sucked harder until he felt the telltale throbbing and
the hushed whimpers as Harry came. Draco swallowed quickly, trying not to gag
as he dislodged him from the back of his throat and his mouth filled with
semen. When Harry was finished, Draco fondly pulled the organ from his mouth
and let it rest on his abdomen.
He was about to say something when he was cut off with a wild and enthused kiss
as he felt the pressure of Draco's prick against his inner thigh. Harry wrapped
his arms around Draco, sliding his fingers up and down his spine. Though he was
nervous, it was hard to be too tense in afterglow. He concentrated on relaxing
even before Draco broke the kiss and whispered, "Just relax."
Harry nodded and closed his eyes, enjoying the tingling peace of being spent.
He felt the shifting on the mattress as Draco pulled off his pyjama pants and
heard the sharp click of the lubricant bottle. The bottle made a squelching
noise as it ejected the goo and Harry pictured the way that Draco pinched up
his face when that happened, as if someone had done something distasteful like
burp at the table. Hearing the sound of skin on skin, he knew that Draco had
lubed himself up and then he felt the prodding of Draco's cock at his entrance.
He looked up at Draco feeling innocent and vulnerable. "No fingers?"
"They don't help that much, do you want me to?" asked Draco.
For a moment, Harry pondered this. He'd been taking Draco without fingering of
late, but Draco had been doing this awhile. It occurred to him that his lover
might be worried about maintaining his erection. "No... I'm fine... just... go
slowly."
"I want this to last; I'm going to go very slow." Draco's pulse was racing and
he was trying not to think about it too hard, not wanting to jinx it. He
reached down to his cock and nudged his hips forward until he found where there
was give. "Ready?"
Nodding, Harry closed his eyes and exhaled, trying to remain calm as he felt
himself breached by the head. He inhaled sharply and his brows furrowed as his
body adjusted to the violation.
Harry's face had gone red and a fresh sheen of sweat brightened his brow. Draco
watched carefully, sucking in his bottom lip at the heat surrounding the tip.
Seeing Harry nod again to let him know it was all right, Draco inched himself
in the rest of the way. He stayed there, lodged inside, loving the way the
flexing muscles moved, compressing as if to expel him.
Wrapping his arms around Harry, he balanced on his elbows and kissed him.
Feeling the way that Harry was trembling, he stopped to look down at him. This
was the most defenceless Draco had ever seen him, and he couldn't help but
whisper, "I love you."
"I love you, too," Harry whispered back, his flushed face brightened at the
sentiment. With a tentative and somewhat jerky movement, Harry shifted his hips
back and then forward to let Draco know he was ready for this. It hurt just a
bit when Draco first had moved inside of him, but now he just felt tight. His
opening felt a little strained and pinched, but it was a tolerable pain.
Particularly when he could see how contented his lover was.
Draco drew back his hips and then sunk himself inside of Harry again, this time
trying a new position. He could tell it felt a bit better because Harry's grip
around him loosened. He thrust into him again, trying another way and Harry
matched him again. Draco tried a few more times before he found the spot that
made Harry whimper. Noting the angle, Draco aimed for it and then closed his
eyes and started a steady rhythm. He tried to kiss Harry, but the sensations
around his prick was too delectable and he couldn't concentrate on doing
anything but moving his hips, feeling the friction around his cock.
His breath puffed against Harry's cheek and on his neck and his fingers dug
into his back. Draco was moving faster now, with an abandoned passion. Harry
moved his hands down to Draco's hips, trying to hold him in that spot where
something felt rather good. It didn't take Draco long, however, and Harry's
prick never made it beyond semi-hard. Still, it had felt good, and Harry was
almost sad when he heard Draco let out his final gasp as he made a few last,
slow strokes inside of him to finish himself off before halting. Sweaty and
spent, Draco flopped boneless on Harry and tried to catch his breath.
Harry had bottomed and it wasn't the end of the world. His arms went limp
around Draco and he breathed out a slow sigh of relief. He squeezed his inner
muscles, testing out their soreness and winced. It was a bit raw, but he'd be
all right. The movement made Draco jerk and he snorted against Harry's chest as
he pulled back his hips. The loss of the organ inside of him made Harry feel
bereft and achy.
"Thank you," whispered Draco. "I'm sorry if I hurt you."
"You didn't. It didn't hurt. It was starting to feel good, actually." Harry
flexed his passage again, as if he could stretch out the dull twinge.
Draco frowned. "It didn't hurt at all?"
"It... no... well, just a little uncomfortable, but it wasn't terrible."
Looking at Draco's pout, Harry raised his brows. "Did you want to hurt me?"
"Well, no. But... I... is it... small?"
Harry suppressed a giggle. "Ooooh Draco, it was so big! It hurt so bad!"
"That's better." Draco smirked as Harry shook his head. "So it started to feel
good, hmm? Good enough to do again?"
"Maybe. If you're good."
"I was good," said Draco as he waggled his brows. "That's why it didn't hurt."
Harry snickered and then looked paranoid. "Do I hurt you?"
"No, not usually."
"But... sometimes..."
"Well, when you were... when all of the... sometimes... yes, it hurt." Draco
grimaced and rolled off of Harry and lay on his side.
Harry rolled over to face Draco. "I am sorry about that. I won't... I'll talk
to you from now on if I think something's going on." He slid an arm over
Draco's waist and slid a knee between his legs.
"Nothing's going to go on, Harry. If I want to be with someone else, I would
let you know. But I'm not going to want to be with anyone else, Harry. I love
you." Draco wiggled closer and slid his arms around Harry. He yawned, which
triggered Harry to do the same.
"But Richard-- I heard that Malfoys weren't... that they... you know... slept
around."
Draco raised his brows. "Richard? As in the undercover agent of the Dark Lord
currently incarcerated in Azkaban? That's your trusted source? I'll have you
know that my parents never once stepped out on one another."
"How do you know?" asked Harry. He realized too late what a rude question that
was to ask when he saw Draco's annoyed expression.
"Because in spite of the occasional marital spat, they obviously adored one
another. They had their issues like any couple did, but I'd be surprised if
they thought anyone other than each other was worthy of them."
"I think my parents would've stayed together forever," said Harry as he yawned
again.
"They are together forever, Harry. And they're watching over you." Draco smiled
at Harry's grin and then yawned as well.
"And I'm sure yours are watching you."
Draco wrinkled his nose. "I hope not, that's kind of gross." His eyes fluttered
closed.
"I'm sure they found something else to do during..." Harry grabbed the blankets
and pulled them up around them.
"Mmm... I'm sure... lots of dead things. That's what dead people do. Things
that are dead," Draco mumbled.
Draco was rambling and no longer making sense. It was time to sleep. Harry
kissed his forehead and whispered, "Goodnight, Draco. I love you."
"Love you," Draco slurred and then he was out.
It took Harry a few more minutes to settle into a steady pattern of breathing.
Bottoming for Draco wasn't bad. He couldn't even remember now what his hang up
had been. He would do it again if Draco wanted to. It certainly wasn't worth
fighting over.
--
After pulling his robes from the wardrobe, Draco started to methodically fold
them. Finding himself quickly bored with this and whipped out his wand, using
magic to set the rest like the first couple.
"Hey, what about the decree for underage sorcery?" Harry protested, whirling
around to glower at Draco's shortcuts as Ron looked on from his corner of the
room.
"I haven't been underage since June. Aside from the fact that it's a
'reasonable restriction of underage sorcery.' Using magic to do menial tasks
such as packing isn't unreasonable. It's not like I'm blowing up my Aunt."
Draco smirked.
"How did you..." Harry started; he'd thought the Aunt-balloon incident had been
covered up. The fact that he'd missed Draco's birthday flew over his head.
Ron shook his head. "No, it's not unreasonable, it's just lazy."
Undaunted, Draco continued to flick his wand, moving his clothing and other
personal items into his trunk, shrinking many of his newer belongings to fit
them into the trunk. "I'm not lazy; I just have better things to do. In any
case, Harry, you're old enough to use magic now. Why pack like a Muggle?"
Ron hated packing just as much as Draco did and was glad to pull his wand.
"Point."
Harry gave them both stern looks but then shrugged and pulled his wand. "Well,
I guess it's legal for me to do it now, too. May as well." He chuckled as he
watched Draco's expression of disapproval at his parade of oversized clothing
from the Dursleys, but squeaked in surprise when he banished a particularly
ugly shirt. "I might've needed that."
"No one needs chequered shirts, Harry. You're lucky I'm leaving the plaid."
Draco turned his attention back to his own trunk and sealed it shut. The wild
pattern of dragons writhed around until they were secure, clenching their jaws
together to lock it. He looked up at the clock and sighed. "They'll be here
soon, you two need to hurry."
"These Auror escorts to the platform make me edgy," Harry admitted. "I wish
Remus was going to be there."
Draco sneered at the invocation of Remus's name, although mostly because of his
niggling feelings of guilt over where he was and why he had to be there.
"Do you really think he'll be able to keep Snape from... you know... going dark
again?" asked Ron.
Both boys looked at Draco as if he were the authority on Snape. He shrugged and
averted his eyes, not wanting to think about the situation.
"I'm sure if anyone can it would be Remus. They seemed to get on all right
third year." Turning his focus from Draco, Harry slammed his trunk shut and
locked it manually.
"Right up until Snape made us do that assignment to goad us into figuring out
what he was," Ron pointed out. He looked between Harry and Draco again before
turning around to finish up his packing.
Draco sat on the bed and folded his arms, disinterested in speculating on
Snape, and looking quite put out that they were still on about it.
Taking the hint, Harry sat next to Draco and kissed his temple as he wrapped
his arms around him. "Do you feel too weak to carry your trunk?" He smirked,
knowing the answer even before he felt the nod.
"Oh yes, I don't think I could manage it on my own," whispered Draco.
Ron rolled his eyes. Some things never changed, but he was relieved to see that
the two were close again. He was about to say something when Hermione poked her
head in the door, followed by Ginny. "They're here."
"Need help with your trunk?" Ron offered to his girlfriend.
Hermione grinned, but shook her head. "I have it. Thank you, Ron." Seeing Harry
and Draco get up and that Harry was working at grabbing Malfoy's trunk along
with his own, she shot the Slytherin a disapproving look.
Draco sneered at her and kissed Harry's cheek. "Thank you, lover."
Ginny rolled her eyes. "Do you need help with those, Harry?"
"I have them, thanks." Harry turned around and charmed the luggage together and
then tugged, pleased with his own cleverness.
Glaring at Ginny, Draco took Harry's free hand and interlaced their fingers.
She shook her head and led the way down the hall, followed by Ron and Hermione.
Draco stopped Harry before they continued and looked at him seriously. "I'm
scared," he whispered. "This... year is going to be hard. We won't be in the
same room anymore and the final battle..."
Harry cut him off with a kiss and smoothed his fingers through Draco's hair.
"I'll protect you, Draco. I know this summer was... but we... I think we
learned some things. And don't forget that I have an Invisibility Cloak and I'm
not afraid to use it."
Beaming, Draco wrapped his arms around Harry and squeezed him close. "I'm going
to make sure you do. I expect I'll need you around a lot."
"I'll be there, Draco. If it's within my control, I'll never let you down
again."
"I won't let you," Draco vowed.
"I love you. No matter what happens, remember that."
Draco smiled softly and brushed his lips over Harry's scar, making him shiver.
"I love you, too."
Giving each other one last, lingering kiss to sustain them for their adventure
to King's Cross, Harry took the handle of their baggage and the boys headed for
the door. Whatever the final year demanded, they knew they would face it
together. They left Grimmauld Place hand in hand, stronger and more determined.
This time, it really was forever.
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