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Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage Category: Multi Fandom: Undertale_(Video_Game) Relationship: Frisk/Papyrus_(Undertale), Papyrus/Sans_(Undertale), Papyrus/Undyne_ (Undertale) Character: Sans_(Undertale), Frisk_(Undertale), Papyrus_(Undertale), W._D._Gaster, Undyne_(Undertale) Additional Tags: Dark, Alternate_Universe_-_Underfell, Past_Rape/Non-con, Rape/Non-con Elements, Domestic_Violence, Pedophilia, Implied/Referenced_Child_Abuse, Past_Child_Abuse, Pregnancy, Pregnant_Sex, Female_Frisk, Gross, Sexual Content, Sadism, Depression, Suicide, Suicidal_Thoughts, Drug_Use, Drug Addiction, Drug_Abuse, Alcohol_Abuse/Alcoholism, Vomiting, Child Pregnancy, Suicidal_Sans, Papyrus_is_super_Disturbed, A_lot_of_bad_things happen, There_might_be_fluff, Turn_back_while_you_still_can, Sibling Incest, Forced_Incest, Forced_Pregnancy, Still_debating_if_I_should_tone it_down_or_not, Disturbing_Themes, Triggers, Prostitution, Forced Prostitution, Kidnapping, Soul_Sex Stats: Published: 2017-12-27 Updated: 2018-03-30 Chapters: 7/? Words: 31176 ****** Lugubriosity ****** by UsuckCHARLIE Summary Sans has been out of work for a while now. Papyrus can't seem to fight off his demons. Frisk regrets falling down that heinous hole. Sans battles with addiction. Papyrus battles with his actions. Frisk just wants to go home. A depressing story about dealing with suicide, abuse, and all that horrible stuff in between. Part 1: A Tragic Introduction (Ch.1-6) Part 2: The Lion and the Lamb (Ch.7-x) Notes To Those of You Entering that May be Blindsighted, I will make a point to firstly add the TRIGGER WARNING, since this fanfic deals with a lot of uncomfortable themes. If you are easily disturbed, or under 18, I would advise that you don't read forward. Now with that out of the way, I would just like to say that I apologize to the person (who I will obviously not name) that experienced a few flashbacks from reading my previous summary. Honestly, it wasn't my intentions to trigger anyone with it, or with the contents of the story. I changed the description to something a little less "unsettling". I hope the 800+ people who already read the summary, weren't also negatively affected by it. I also want to state, (because this person was a bit confused with this, and I can't blame them) this fanfic isn't smut or porn or whatever. I'm not writing it to make light of any of the themes or to make it "hot", nor am I writing it as "masturbation material". Its just a story I wanted to write and there's nothing more to it. I'm sure you all have already read the tags, but I'll mention again what you have in store if you do decide to continue on: Rape Pedophilia Child abuse Substance abuse Domestic violence Forced prostitution Incest   The story practically revolves around a few of these themes, so keep that in mind. If any of these themes make you uncomfortable, please please please stop here. See the end of the work for more notes ***** Bottles & Bottles of Dust ***** Part 1: A Tragic Introduction __________ The kitchen was dimly lit.   The rhythmic sound of the old clock ticking steadily could put even the most focused of minds in a trance. With the empty murmuring from the television echoing throughout the halls, and the   ...*tap*...   ...*tap*...   ...*tap*...   of the water drops, coming from the tub’s faucet, dancing in the distance. As the hum of the ceiling fan and refrigerator combined stood to be hypnotic to the tired mine. But from all the white noise observed and stated, not one of them resembled the clink of a beer bottle. Not one matched that of obnoxious drunken laughter, nor that of faint weeping. All of which were more than just common characteristics of their miserable home.   Something was off.   It was too quiet.   But Papyrus couldn't bring himself to care.   He toyed with the steaming pot of spaghetti on the stove top. Hunger was the only thing he could think about, so he didn't even bother to turn on any of the lights when he walked in from work.   It sucked he didn't get a lunch break. Maybe then he wouldn't be so grouchy and spend half the day yelling at people.   And here he stood in near darkness, hardly able to see what he was putting in his food. And he didn't care . He didn't care about anything at that moment. Papyrus was sure he grabbed the cayenne pepper, but it could've easily been cinnamon. That didn't stop him from sprinkling the spice in the pot anyway. Life was about discovery after all. Besides, that's how all great inventions came  about,   on accident . Hell, the salt he was adding in now might be sugar, but why bother to check. That would just defeat the purpose, and from what he remembered from his old lessons with Undyne, cooking was about unplanned creativity and convenience. Not crafted skill or time.   Ha! He might as well add the whole spice cabinet while he’s at it.   Papyrus grinned at the thought. This was going to be a masterpiece of a meal, it would probably make him millions if he ever decided to sell it.   ‘I should write the recipe down for later! Nye he he,’ Papyrus was going to have a pretty sweet pasta on his hands.   Literally .   Smiling even wider than before, he dipped his gloved phalange in the pot before placing it in his mouth. Almost spitting it out from disgust, it took him a moment to realize he hadn't conjuered up a tongue. He nearly slapped himself for thinking his food was as dull as rocks, when in reality the ‘great’ and ‘terrible’ Papyrus was just dumb and forgetful .   Perhaps Father was right about him. He always did say Sans was the smart one, which was laughable now that he thought about it. If Sans was so smart he would've took that so called “brain” of his and put it to good use. Instead it was just rotting away in front of a television screen, doing nothing, contributing to nothing. It was practically less than nothing.   Who cared if forever ago he worked close under the royal scientist (which isn't even that hard to believe considering he was created for that purpose), or if his brother was a physicist that could easily grasp concepts Papyrus couldn't even wrap his mind around. All that meant nothing.   Ha! Sans was far from intelligent. He was nothing more than a useless pile of bones. Papyrus was better. So much better.   If only Father could see him now.   He would know who was the true superior son. The one that might've not been so book smart. The son who, yeah, needed a little more time to learn how to read and write, or was a total mute for the first four years of his life. But those were only stepping stones that made him who he was today,   Strong, brave, and dashingly handsome.   Definitely a rare gem to come by. Definitely worth much more than a slothful slob. Definitely the better son. ___   He wrapped his tongue around his index finger as he sucked it clean. Besides the taste of fabric,   ‘It's not half bad,’   he thought to himself. Intrigued by the salty nectarous flavor, he dipped his digit in once more for seconds. Cooking wasn't exactly something he was good at, (he'll admit) but he enjoyed it nonetheless, and little things like discovering sweet spaghetti brought a small glimmer of joy to his soul.   ___   A gentle hiss came lingering from atop a window sill. The feline sat watching her master as she tilted her head slightly in curiosity. He was ogling over, what she assumed, was boiling garbage since it smelled so bad. ‘ How could any creature even considering eating such a thing?’   Lifting her leg nearly over her head in an attempt to reach a nice lickable spot on her stomach, the cat felt a little bored and wanted to stir up trouble. She meowed noisily as she observed Papyrus more. She had to admit that she felt a little lonely these past few days without him home. There was no one to pet her belly, or brush her fur, or give her all the attention she didn't need, yet demanded. Worst of all was the lack of long stalky legs to use as a scratching post.   Doomfanger jumped down and cuddled between his legs, trying to gain his attention. Rubbing her head against him in an adorable fashion. She knew he liked it when she did that.   ‘Just gotta keep it up and master will be all mine.’   Papyrus was still occupied with his “cooking”. Not really paying the cat any mind. A bit upset, Doomfanger meowed again as she drug her claws against the skeleton’s femur, causing a small gash in his bottoms. He didn't stop what he was doing, though.    “QUITE THAT, YOU NAUGHTY KITTY,”   He said with a garish raised voice, as he does with everything else. If she wasn't so used to his shouting, the cat might have jumped.   ‘Loud and authoritative are two different things,’   Doomfanger thought as she kept pestering him.  With no luck, she paused before slowly beginning to stroll out of the room with her tail raised.   He just wasn't going to budge was he? What was so different about today that made him utterly refuse to spend time with her. Everyday of the cat's short life had been spent with Papyrus. He’d go off to do master things and she would wait for him to get home, and once he did, it was their time together. That was their routine but now he was ignoring her.   ‘How rude.’   That was her job to ignore him not the other way around.   Before she passed the kitchen threshold she looked back at Papyrus with narrowed eyes. Why did she feel like the “fat” one had something to do with this. He was just absolutely terrible. Half the time he forgot to feed her and he always smelled like god awful poison. To top it off, the short freak took pleasure in torturing her. Often pulling her tail or dumping a bucket of cold water on the sleeping cat just for the “fun” of it. A complete scum of the earth.   But Papyrus,   Papyrus loved her with all his soul, or at least much more than he loved the freak. Doomfanger could just feel it, and that --that alone-- brought joy to her every being. She couldn't lose it.   She refused to lose it.   She was going to make him give her all of his devotion and time, and she didn't care if she ruined the “fat” one's day in the process.   ___   Papyrus sighed.   He dragged his palm across his jawline as he ran through his stressful week in his racing mind.   God, how the Underground was quickly changing for the worse. He's seen a lot of shit in his day, but as of recent, the total fuckery has just doubled. Tripled maybe.   It was definitely enough to make him reconsider all of his previous life decisions, but he wouldn't let it influence him too much. If shit was going to start getting hard, he would get hard with it. Besides it wasn't like he couldn't handle himself. He was still one of the most feared monsters in Snowdin, so there was nothing to worry about.   All he needed to do was keep Undyne happy, (which was easier said than done) and keep following orders like a mindless drone. And in no time, things will be smoother than butter, and with enough money he wouldn't have to worry about all the crazy shit happening around him. He could just seclude himself in a fort somewhere.   Besides, he always did want to become a hermit. What better life to live than to live it alone.   Well not completely alone. Sans would still need someone to take care of his grown ass.   Papyrus often wondered why he even bothered keeping his brother around. He ALWAYS made things more difficult. Only a madman would be willing to sacrifice so much for someone who truly didn't deserve it, yet there Papyrus was, admittingly putting in all those hours for...   ...him?   Was Papyrus really that insane ? That was definitely up for debate.   Whipping beads of magical sweat from his forehead, Papyrus pondered whether or not anything was worth it anymore.   People, monsters, could be such a hassle. One second they're happy and everything is going fine, and the next, they are spiraling down into the deep dark hole that is depression. And depression leads to wanting to feel that happiness again, so they'll do anything in order to feel it.   And that anything often being drugs .   Which Papyrus could easily make a comment on how ‘only the weak turn to such a disgraceful thing’ but he didn't know if he fully believed that. Not anymore anyway. He's seen some really strong warriors take the stuff in hopes of escaping.   ‘ Escaping what exactly?’ He found himself foolishly asking once. He already knew the answer, it was obvious. But playing ignorant was much more comforting than facing the harsh reality. Life had rules and they were simple. Act tough, achieve to be the shit, or die trying. Nothing more to it.   Nothing more to life.   But where did the drugs come from? Why would anyone make such a destructive thing? Why did people have to ruin the entirety of their lives by simply taking the fucking shit?   So many damn questions and not enough sufficient answers.   And to think there was actually a time Papyrus was clueless and naive. To think there was a time he viewed the world in such a childish light. It was horrible since he didn't know if that was the best or worst period in his life.   But he often found himself longing to return to those days. He couldn't. He couldn't because in reality there was no rewind button. You just keep moving forward as if placed on a conveyor belt that never ended.   Until you die, of course.   Things haunted him, though. Things he would be forced to see, and in order to save face, shrug off. But sometimes he couldn't. Sometimes he couldn't just pretend he didn't witness something so gut wrenchingly disturbing that he nearly thought he seen it on a gore-filled slasher flick.   When it happened, he felt ill.   That moment. It was so surreal. It made him genuinely uncomfortable, and that thought scared him most. He hated the emotion, the feeling, so badly. It gave him too many memories. Memories he needed to forget in order to keep up his “tough guy” facade. He was tough, though. He knew he was.   It wasn't a facade.   But standing there feeling almost vulnerable as he heard that piercing cry, as he watched the blood splatter in every direction while the flesh of that poor soul was being torn violently from its body. Guts being ripped out like a kid tearing apart a christmas present. He would wonder why go through all the disgusting trouble. Just kill it, and get it over with. But drugs,   they made everything more difficult.   Its neck was slit with the edge of the creature's claw and the screaming stopped. The snow painted a dark crimson before the ash started slowly blowing in the wind. And that was that.   And that's how they're all destined to die. Killed in cold blood with no one to cry over your scattered dust.   Would Sans be too drunk to care if he died?   Pfft, what was Papyrus thinking. Sans was a useless freeloader. Why would he ever want something like that to even think about him.   Besides, Papyrus was practically immortal with the amount of LOVE he had. He was almost like a god, no one would have the strength to beat him. Yeah, it should be Sans sitting there hoping Papyrus would at least give him the time of day. Papyrus didn't need Sans, Sans needed him.   But how true was that really?   ___   Almost as if she had magic of her own, Doomfanger appeared out of the shadows, and started to lightly nibble at Papyrus's tibia.   ‘not this again,’   He nearly kicked her to shoo her away when he noticed the horrible condition the poor thing was in. This would explain her odd behavior, no one was around (or competent enough) to take care of her. He almost sank when he fully looked at her appearance. Her usually puffy coat was soaked in mud and snow, and by the sound of her constant whining she was probably starving. Of course Sans forgot to feed the damn cat, but why was she so filthy. Did he really leave her out in the cold all day?   How cruel.   As his eyes finally started to adjust to the dark, he noticed Doomfanger wasn't the only one. The whole house was filthy.   ___   Feeling a bit of pride for finally getting Papyrus to notice her, Doomfanger continued her sad meowing. She pranced around a bit, kicking the dirt around as she walked, in hopes of drawing her master's attention to it.   ‘Look master. Look what the “fat” one didn't do,’   When his face turned red hot from the absolute neglect, she carefully licked her paw. Putting on the innocent little kitty act, as if she didn't spend the afternoon knocking over flower pots and tearing up the dining room curtains.  It was still the freaks fault, though. Maybe if he decided to actually get up and feed her she wouldn't have to be destructive.   ‘What’s he gonna do to the ‘fat’ one?’   She wondered spitefully. Hoping he would get a nice good beating, or maybe just hit with a newspaper or sprayed with water like she often got.   ___   Stomping over to a note he left on the fridge, Papyrus could tell just by looking around that absolutely none of the day's chores were completed. Hell, none of yesterday's were either.   The past few days were pretty hectic and draining, which would explain why he didn't catch or even acknowledge the mess before, but that was no excuse.   No excuse for Sans anyway .   And how could he treat Doomfanger so poorly?   His brother didn't do shit. He's been out of work (all fucking five of them!) ever since he was fired months back for drinking on the job. Undyne had enough and literally kicked his ass out of his post. Causing a huge scene as she always did, and nearly killing him right there. It was embarrassing to say the least.   And if he remembered correctly, Sans’ hotdog job in Hotland was lost way back in February. Papyrus didn't know the exact reasoning behind that one, but from what he's heard from a few people, his brother got a little too touchy with a customer. So touchy she nearly had him arrested for assault. He was sure he could link it back to liquor somehow. Sans usual knew to keep his hands to himself, unless under the influence.   Drink, and drink, and drink, and drink.   Everyday. Every night. It didn't matter if it was a weekend or weekday. All he did was chug down a bottle. Wasting his stupid life away on what really? A few hours of numbness? How utterly stupid.   To top it off, it sucked how all of Sans’ reckless actions always reflected badly on Papyrus. It was like he was a little kid. Like as the years went by they swapped roles. Why did he have to be responsible for his brother’s senseless shenanigans? It was beyond ridiculous. To think Sans was somehow “born” first.   What a joke .   The Underground might still follow the law of “kill or be killed”, yet that never stopped anyone from digging their noses in other people's business and gossiping like a bunch of old hags. He did have to admit, though, that he agreed with some of the stuff he’s heard around town. Not that anyone would actually dare say any of it to his face.   “In what universe would drinking willy nilly on the job suffice. Us working class folk bust our asses off day in and day out, getting paid absolute shit and having half of it wasted on taxes and some fictitious ‘protection’ fee we didn't ask for. Not to mention the holidays we don't get. Watch one of us try to pull a similar stunt as that jackass, and see how quick we'll be out of work.”   He overheard some guy say once while doing his usual rounds. It was obvious who he was talking about. At the time, all the town's drunks and junkies were unemployed except Sans, since being Papyrus’s brother gave him some form of privilege. Privilege that Papyrus couldn't even take advantage of. He was required to be perfect 24/7. It was either that or Undyne would drop him as her underling.   But Papyrus had to agree with the guy. It wasn't fair. Sans was a preposterous drunk. Barely being able to get his words out without slurring like a moron. And then there was the senseless laughing. Not to mention him falling over every second. And the passing out. And then the lurring eyes, and-   You know what, he shouldn't have had any job in the first place.   His brother was practically a waste to society, contributing to nothing and only serving as a nuisance to those around him. A starving dog had more purpose than he would ever imagine, and that infuriated Papyrus. He knew his brother had some potential, but it didn't matter how much he was pushed, Sans refused to do anything besides sleep and drink.   It was a shame really .   ___   Turning the lights on and basking in all of the kitchen’s disgusting glory, Papyrus nearly ruptured a vein in his unpresent brain. This disorderly environment was causing him to go into a panic attack. He wasn't prepared for this. Never has he seen the house so dirty .   Slowly backing up against the wall behind him as he held his chest in shock. The smell suddenly hit his face, hard, like a freight train, as he felt his lunch crawling back up his throat. It was so messy.   So fucking messy .   Papyrus was on the verge of barging into the livingroom and pulling that little vermin by his neck and dragging him into the kitchen to get this place immaculate. He was so close to forcing the slob to scrub every inch of the wall with a toothbrush, lick all the food off the floor with his vodka drenched tongue, and spend all night doing so.   How disrespectful could his brother get?   The slender skeleton was so angry steam was practically coming out of his ear cavities. Sans needed his neck wrung out a few times, maybe then he would start to value life. Doing such a thing intentionally, upsetting the “great” and “terrible” Papyrus, was just a plain suicide wish.   Almost as if the heat radiating from Papyrus’s anger was enough to warm the whole room a few hundred degrees hotter, his pot of spaghetti began to puff out black smoke. The stove was on high and the sauce was now bubbling like a cranky volcano. Papyrus almost hoped it would go up in flames, at least that way he wouldn't have to deal with all of this.   It took him a second to rush over and turn it off.   He fanned his face to clear away the carbon dioxide trying to enter his “lungs” and suffocate him. It was so hot he needed to unzip his spiked armor. Grabbing a cloth out of his back pocket, he whipped away more sweat from his scarred brow bone.   What a disaster.   He looked at his creation with disappointment. His once savory dish now smelled metallic. To think he put all that effort into it, only to have it destroyed.   Why did this feel like a complete testament to life.   Grabbing the spoon, he felt like he was stirring through mush, probably because it was. It looked disgusting, but too fucking bad. He would be damned before he wasted food. It's not like they had many choices anyway, or could afford to throw away anything. Despite what others may think, they weren't rich,   ...thanks to Sans, of course   So, it was this or nothing, and by the way his stomach was reacting, nothing was not an option.   He took a bowl out of one of the cabinets and slammed it on the counter. Today was really turning out not to be his day. Wait. What was he thinking? Everyday wasn't his day.   Papyrus nearly lost it.   Here he was working his ass off, risking life and limb, only to be hit in the fucking skull with this shitstorm. His brother was lazy, but what fucking excuse was that?   An unacceptable one, that's for sure.   A rage ignited inside the skeleton that he hadn’t felt in a long time. He remembered a time when his brother wasn't like this. When he was normal. When Papyrus could actually have a conversation with him. But now, now what was the point. Maybe Sans could only answer to one thing.   He was going to have to make his life a living nightmare.   Papyrus could feel himself breathing heavy as he tightly clenched the stirring spoon in his hand. What was that saying his brother always used to spew when people would mess with him?   “Ya gonna have a bad time,” Yeah, that sounded just about right.   ___   Suddenly, as if out of nowhere, loud clapping came from whatever TV program his brother was watching. God, he nearly jumped from his unpresent skin when he heard it.   ‘The TV was on, right’   But did he really just drown it out this whole time, or did it get louder? It must've gotten louder. Papyrus was very observant (yet he somehow managed not to see the filth earlier), and little things like that would've not gone unnoticed. Was Sans mocking him? Turning up the volume in a way to block out his little fit? Well there will be none of that. He'll deal with his ass soon enough . Every second the tall skeleton stood there listening to the repugnant cheering, inched him closer to snapping. God, it was so headache inducing. What was Sans even watching?   Mettaton was sure working his audience, but oh! how his voice was torture to the ears. Don't get him wrong, Papyrus usually enjoyed whatever flick the robot was in, but the over exaggerated screeching really could start getting annoying. Especially on max volume. Which was saying a lot coming from him. Undyne often would joke that people could hear Papyrus a mile away since he was so boisterous.   The louder he got, the easier it was to drown out his thoughts. Trying not to focus on the noise, Papyrus began to scoop large spoonfuls of spaghetti into his bowl. He dug in the soup of tomato sauce and meat chunks, attempting to get the most in as little dips as possible. He needed to hurry so he could shut the “racket box” off.   Nearly filling his bowl up to the top, his fingers slipped as the scolding hot spaghetti spilt down his arm, armor, and all over the wet floor.   It was a complete mess. A mess on top of more mess. He almost screamed when he noticed his leather top was now stained.   How disgusting his environment was; this kitchen .   Dishes were piled so high they nearly toppled over, their cheesy wallpaper was now peeling with grime coating the panel underneath, and the freezer was leaking a puddle of water all over the floor, mixing in with the spaghetti. All things that were added to the damn checklist to fix.   He specifically remembered telling Sans in person to pull out this hideous wallpaper and replace it with the tile in the basement.   “GREAT STARS!”   And, Oh ! how his ulna began to burn it nearly blazed a glowing red. This wouldn't be the first time Papyrus felt such intense pain, but god how it felt like his bone marrow was about to melt.   He dashed over to the cluttered sink, quickly turning on the tap and forcing his arm under the running water. It helped get him clean, but not ease the burn since he hadn't noticed the water was hot. He was such an idiot.   Idiot, idiot, idiot.   Cursing perfusively, Papyrus torn his shirt and  right glove off, wrapping the fabric around his radius and ulna in an attempt to somewhat bandage his aching bone. He needed medicine, but goddamnit! He also needed to release all this built up rage.   Feeling the pain quickly rise to his head, Papyrus bashed the cabinet with his injured fist. He did it again and again.   He bashed and he bashed and he bashed until the wood caved in and a massive hole stood in its place.   His anger didn't die down, though. The opposite was true as he found himself throwing dinner plates at the wall, only receiving a miniscule amount of satisfaction as they shattered on impact. He was practically envisioning his brother’s smug face. It was strangely so punchable at that moment.   * crash*   *crash*   *crash*   One by one as the glass flew everywhere as his rage continued to blaze like a hungry flame engulfing everything in its path.   He wanted nothing more then to make this pain go away, it made him feel weak in ways he rather not comprehend. But this agony brought about a strange feeling from inside him. He wanted to inflict it so badly that he honestly didn't care who it was that met his furious kicks and punches. He just wanted, no needed , to see that satisfyingly shocked look in his victim's eyes just before he took the final blow.   He didn't know when his odd fascination with pain started. He wasn't sure if its always been there, always been dormant inside him. Or forced upon him due to certain circumstances.   Would this make him a sadist? Would enjoying people’s pain make him..   .. evil? Maybe. He would often get a tingly feeling in his lower half whenever he was victorious in a brutal fight. A brutal fight that he would always cause, and that would always end in a merciless death.   But what did he know? He knew nothing.   Papyrus barely knew anything about “sex”, which was just overly embarrassing given his age. He's dreaded it for so, so long. Hell, his first time only happened six months back.   Well his first time willingly,   and with a female.   A female who he couldn't help but stare at. Couldn't help but follow her. Try to get to know her. Hear her voice. Touch her soft skin. Kiss her soft lips. Pull her soft hair.   She was so small and so innocent . She reminded him of himself before the storm hit and fractured his mind into a million small pieces.   So he ignored the instructions given by Undyne if ever placed in that situation. He ignored his consciousness screaming at him, telling him not to do it. He ignored whatever small sliver of moral he was so desperately clinging onto.   And he went for her .   The whole time on top of her all he could think about was tightening his grip on her neck. Beating her with his fists until she turned black and blue. As she screamed for him to stop, screamed for him to get off of her. Begged. Cried. Plead . Until he shoved his dick up her so hard her blood sprayed like a fountain all over her torn panties. cumming again, and again, and again as she fought with all her little might.   This was “sex” wasn't it? It's what your supposed to do, right? Pain was a part of it. Pain was always apart of it. Pain is what he remembered when he was small and innocent like this child.   “Sex” is pain. Pain is “sex”.   His large size swallowing her whole as he fucked her shaking body. As he raped her over, and over, and over again. And once he was done, he wanted to see her hollow tear-soaked eyes as she was left a shell of her former self. Just as he was left a shell of his former self.   It felt so good. “Sex” felt good for once.   For a while he wanted nothing more than to shed his stupid childish ignorance, and know what it felt like to be on top, not laying on his stomach being forced to take it like a “man”. And once he did, once he felt that power , he became addicted.   He also felt so sick, so dirty, so despicable. He liked “sex” but he also hated it so much. He hated what it did to him, hated how it made him feel. He hated how it was the one source of his cooped up misery. Most of all he hated having to coming home afterwards and see his brother's face.   Sans was a pathetic drunk. He hasn't been sober in years, and yet   he felt ashamed.   And admittingly scared, and guilty, since he didn't know how his brother would react if he found out. He wanted so desperately to believe Sans would do the right thing and shun him for his horrible actions. He wanted his brother to vow to never speak to him again because he was a filthy rapist. But he knew, he knew that most likely wouldn't be the case.   Sans would most likely laugh it off. Most likely praise him. Most likely encourage him to do it again.   Most likely want to participate next time.   And oh! How his head started to spin, as the pain got worse, and that dumb feeling of vulnerability started to take over. Papyrus was just more furious.     He just wasn't suited for this cruel world.   And to be honest, Papyrus couldn't handle stress too well. There might have been a time when he would stop, think, and try to work things out, but that part of him was long gone. The only way he knew how to handle any situation now, was through violence.   Violence was wonderful.   Oh so wonderful, since his size and LOVE already gave him an unfair advantage. All he needed to do was funnel all that fear and insecurities, that pure sadness and hatred for self, into his fists, and the blows would do the speaking. It turns out his knuckles were quite the smooth talker. More charismatic than he could ever be.   ___   As the crowd on the television applauded , Papyrus preceded to kick apart their dining room furniture. As he snapped the wood of the chair's frame, he fantasized about snapping his brother's neck just the same. Hearing the cracking echo in his unpresent ear lobe was almost like listening to a heavenly lullaby.   Soothing but unsettling.   Sans needed to pay for all of this. For the dumb mess. For his dumb stress. For those dark times when they were younger and he didn't protect him. He sat and watched. He joined. He did nothing.   He's always doing nothing. Always doing nothing. Always doing nothing.   “SANS YOU LAZY BONES!” Papyrus used to yell at him. He used to joke and play around with his “big” brother, but all the while his grudge would grow stronger.   Sans, with that shit-eating grin plastered on his stupid face, would respond with an awful pun. Something like,   “aww c'mon bro, I can't help it if I nap all the time. I usually have a skele- ton on my plate,”   and then a chuckle.  And Papyrus would often wonder, if forced back in time, would Sans kid around with that tasteless “humor” of his, while Papyrus was being-   While he was violated several times over?  Would fear still be his worthless excuse? Would he blame it on him being just a little “babybones”? Oh, or maybe it was the vodka’s fault. Pfft, he was always full of excuses. What a coward. What a dumb coward.   His brother was nothing more than a pathetic drunk.   His brother deserved nothing more than death. He was useless. He was worthless. Scum of the earth. A real pile of shit.   But why was Papyrus the only one left to feel so, so dirty .   {~}   Doomfanger stretched her hind legs on the sofa armrest as her master finally stormed into the living room. By the sound of things, the kitchen was probably torn apart. This caused the kitty to purr in delight. She just loved when her master was destructive.   Preparing for more loud yelling, Doomfanger jumped on Sans’ chest. Spinning around until she found a comfortable position to rest. She didn't know much about him, but was pretty positive the “fat” one could easily sleep through a hurricane.   ___ “SANS!” Papyrus started. He looked at his resting brother, hoping so desperately that he was having awful nightmares, similar to those he was forced to endure every single night. He hoped the nightmares were so bad they would kill him right there in his sleep. He hoped his brother would just die from the guilt. Just die already.   Just die. Just die. Just die. “EXPLAIN YOURSELF NOW! WHY IN ASGORE’S NAME IS MY HOUSE AN UTTER PIGSTY!”   Sans didn't respond. His brother was facing away from him. His head laid limp against the couch cushions. Bottles littered every surface in the room and crowded the floor. Mustard was smeared on the carpet,   ‘ The white fucking carpet!’   and it smelled worse in here than it did in the kitchen. This was probably due to the fact that garbage was piled on the coffee table.   Really? Was the floor not good enough. They put food on there and now it was contaminated. He needed to throw the whole livingroom out now. Nothing could be saved,   not even Sans.   He hated how quiet he was being. Laying there just ignoring him like always. Did he really mean that little to him? Did he even care?   Did he ever care?   Anger took over again, as Papyrus crept slowly behind the slothful bitch and hit him hard against his skull.   * smack* Why couldn't his brother be different? Why couldn't he just not ruin everything he touched? Why couldn't life ever be good to him?   He just wanted answers. Simple answers, so why couldn't Sans answer him. Just answer him already.   But he got no response from his brother. He hit him again with more force.   * smack*   Sans was still motionless. Was he that deep in dreamland? He knew his brother was a heavy sleeper, but this was just getting ridiculous.   Papyrus examined the lifeless body in front of him. His brother's eye sockets were opened wide with absolutely no light shining from them. It was like looking into two black voids. The grin on Sans face was gone, and as Papyrus got closer he noticed his chest was barely raising.   Did he really hit him that hard?   Pfft, come on. Sans experienced worst than just two taps on the forehead. Was he still keeping up his stupid act? Was this even an act? Did he honestly find this funny?   Papyrus was not in the mood.   “GET UP!” He commanded as he violently shook him. Again, no reaction. So he kept shaking him, and shaking him, and shaking him . Sans’ head fell back as his neck was unable to support the weight. If he had eyeballs they would've been rolled back into his skull.   Oh God. Oh God. Oh God. Saliva started to drip out of his gaping jaws, as Papyrus could hear his brother's soul thumping rapidly like a drum in his chest.   Fear engulfing his every being, Papyrus gently tapped his brother's cheekbones. What was happening? Was he dying?   No, he can't die. He can't leave him. He can't . “ S-SANS...GODDAMNIT SANS! ANSWER ME!”   Has he done it? Has all that alcohol finally caught up with him? He knew his brother was an idiot but why did he have to go to this extreme. Why did he have to be so selfish. Why couldn't he ever care.   Sans began struggling for air. His body’s twitching quickened.   Was Papyrus already too late? His brother wasn't dusting so he still had a chance to save him, right?   He didn't know how to handle this, what to do, who to call. Undyne might know, but would she help him? He doubted it. Like all of Snowdin, she probably thought it best if Sans was no longer a nuisance. Calling her would just take up valuable time he wasn't sure he had.   What to do? What to do? What to do?   If only he wasn't such a bumbling retard. If only he was as smart as his brother. If only father was here. He could save him, and after he did, he would most likely praise Sans for being such a “good boy”. Because it didn't matter what Sans did, he was always a “good boy”.   And Papyrus was the mistake. A dumb mistake.   Holding his palms to his aching head, he tried to think. He had to think of something. He had to do something. Suddenly something came to him.   Magic .   Of course! How dumb of him to forget the one thing that made up their entire existence. He could just poof Sans sickness (or whatever this was) away.   In a flash he gently laid his brother on his back, jumping on top of him as he tried to calm himself. Green magic wasn't something he was good at, nor was it something he used often except for those odd occasions when training with Undyne took a “deadly” turn. If he remembered correctly, healing magic required more concentration than his usual defensive magic. It also required more emotion, which might be a bit more tricky. He just needed to focus on how much he hated his brother.   He hated him for being so neglectful and so disobedient. He hated him for not taking initiative, for being so damn lazy. He hated how he wouldn't stand up for himself. He hated him for being so weak. For not protecting him. For allowing the abuse to go for years. Years upon years upon years. He didn't care because it didn't affect. He didn't care because for him, “sex” wasn't painful.  That bastard. This stupid bastard.   Papyrus’s magic was glowing a deep red. He was so close to hurting him. Maybe it would be best if he just...   .. Killed Sans .   That way no one had to suffer. His aching head wouldn't have to suffer. And Sans wouldn't have to explain why he didn't care.   Sans’ eyelids slowly began to close. Papyrus couldn't lose him. Obviously negative thoughts weren't going to help. Rubbing his hands together and trying not to cringe from his injured arm, Papyrus shot a small electric shock into his brother's chest cavity.   Sans’ body jerked, as his back arched up when the blast pulsated through him. Papyrus shocked him again.   And again…   And again…   Until his brother was no longer struggling for air, but taking it in longer amounts with every breath. He then started choking and wheezing as he got carried away. He looked like a total defenseless bonehead.   Papyrus was close to smacking him again for making him go through that. He didn't, though. Was he okay now?   He suddenly felt a strong heaviness in the room.   The eye lights in his brother’s sockets slowly began to surface. Small pinpricks in each dark void.   Sans layed there staring at the ceiling. Papyrus sat there staring at his brother. And for a while no one said a word. No one moved.   Papyrus wanted nothing more than to know what was going on in his brother's mind. What did he do? Why did he do it?   Why didn't he care?   Sans then opened his mouth. He looked like he wanted to say something but couldn't get it out. So he didn't. He didn't look at Papyrus. He couldn't.   Instead he stood up. He turned around. Red smoke began to materialize from his right eye, and the heaviness in the room got more suffocating.   With a gust of magic, Papyrus was shocked when a blaster hovered in front of his older brother.   “What are you doing?” Papyrus whispered in a quiet voice that was far too foreign.   It was odd. From all questions he kept asking himself that day. All the questions that kept coming back and making less and less sense each time they came about. All those questions, and for some reason he knew this one. He knew it well.   Too well   Was he wrong all this time? Did Sans care all along? Did he feel anything, anything other than his selfish pride?   Was it guilt? Was guilty bring him to the point of aiming his own magic at his head. Was it the guilt making him materialize that red glow in the mouth of the decapitated beast. Was it the guilt that pried its jaws open just as it was about to release all that energy. All that energy on his brother.   But it couldn't. Sans can't leave him. He can't .   Papyrus took a deep breath before he plunged forward. Tackling Sans down as the large beam of light shot through the room. It just missed them.   It just missed them .   And for the first time since they're were very little, Papyrus saw tears soaking his brother's face as he refused to look at him. Refused to see the shame in his eyes. Refused to acknowledge what he did.   Because it wasn't just alcohol that nearly killed him. He took something else.   “You big idiot,” Papyrus said. His voice still so strangely low. He was crying now and he didn't know why. He didn't know why he was so weak. He didn't know why this had him shaking. He didn't know why he even bothered to save this pathetic drunk . He didn't know why he was yelling,   “ I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!”   Over.. And over… And over again. Because he didn't hate Sans. He hated himself. He hated himself for being so dirty. He hated how he would never quite be a man. He hated how he had to overcompensate because of this fact. He hated how he raped a little girl just so..   ...just so “sex” wouldn't be painful.   It wouldn't be painful for him anymore. And he hated how Sans somehow knew.   He could tell by the way he continued to not look at him. By the way his brother cried, and he cried, and they both cried. He knew Sans knew.   He knew .   Maybe that's why Sans drank. Maybe that's why he tried to take his own life. Right in front of him. Right in front of the child rapist.   “I'm sorry...I'm so so sorry,” Papyrus cried into his palms. Sans didn't move. He didn't comfort him. He didn't care. ***** Bottles & Bottles of Death ***** Chapter Notes I hoped to get this chapter out sooner but than New Year's came about XD. Well anyway I hope you all enjoy. The wind blew softly through the open window. A new blanket of snow covered the rooftops of Snowdin as the early morning sun hit. It was a Saturday, so there wasn't too much commotion on the streets just yet.   Sans’ eyelids shot up. A sudden heavy ringing in his ear cavities disturbed his uncomfortable slumber. He held his hand to his aching head as all of yesterday’s memories came crashing down on him like a bolt of lighting.   What time was it?   Sans attempted to sit up as he ignored the assault on his poor skull. Looking around his room, he was freaked out by the flickering of colors. One second his dirty clothes pile was a mixture of blues, reds, and other solid primary colors, and the next, it was a blob of grey, black and white. Was he on the verge of going colorblind.   God, that was the last thing Sans needed.   Color was the only thing that brightened up his dull world. That was probably the same for most people, but hey. He just really hoped this was a bad hangover rather than some strange side effect of the “substance” he took, two days ago? Or was it yesterday?   It was hard enough for him to keep up with time on his own, but when he took one sniff of the “substance”, hours felt like minutes, yet seconds felt like whole centuries.   It was beyond plain bizarre. At one point in his “trip” he could've swore he started to grow muscle and skin only to have it melt off into a puddle on the floor. This puddle suddenly grew sentinel as it continuously barked insults at him. Demanding that he do something with his life and stop being such a drugged up loser. It then took shape into a woman and claimed to be the mother he never had. Constantly calling him  “My sweet baby boy” and rubbing her gooey hands on his back.     Shortly after that, the world turned black and his mind went blank, and he awoke with his brother on top of him.   Which at first caused him to be briefly confused. He wasn't sure if he was still “tripping” or not. Papyrus never touched him. Never touched him in anyway that wasn't a quick backhand slap, or more serious punishment, whenever he was mad enough and Sans got way out of line.   He would of thought nothing more to it if it wasn't for what he found in his brother’s closet a few weeks ago. Just the memory alone was hurting him more than a lifetime of resets. Resets spend completely alone since no one ever remembers what happened after the world reset. No one but Sans of course.   He can't even recall when they first started. Just that one second life was normal, and the next, he was hit with a tsunami of “deja vu” moments. Being forced to relive days, weeks, and even months over and over again. He didn't know why it was happening, or why he was the only one left to suffer. But his mind was set on this being some form of purgatory.   Yeah, Sans must've died way back when, and now he was paying for his sins.   So why not drink it all away? When he's drunk he can easily forget how shitty this situation is.   But it only seemed to get worse. So much worse when he found that thing in his brother's closet.   Then flashbacks of a period, Sans truly believed was lost in time, hit him hard. A period going back before he was officially working under Gaster, a period that was so foggy in his mind that he honestly never bothered to fully recall it.   But he tried that day.   He tried after leaving Papyrus’ room covered in cold sweat. He tried as he fell to the floor, shaking. He tried because he needed to know what brought his once innocent brother to that point.   But it didn't matter how much he tried, he couldn't get anywhere. Until last night. After he managed to get himself up and “shortcut” to his room. After he laid limp on his bed. After he shut his eyes listening to his brother's muffled sobs.   It all made sense then. And Sans felt sick, confused, and guilty. He wished so desperately to just die right there. He absolutely hated himself. He hated himself because..   ..he was aroused.   ___   Sans jumped when he heard his bedroom door shut. Standing at the foot of his mattress was his 8 foot tall brother holding a rag and a bucket of steaming water. Sans cleared his throat before turning his head towards the wall. Great, now what did he want.   “I HAVE COME, BROTHER…”   Papyrus dropped the bucket on the floor before wringing the rag out and getting on his knees. “...TO GIVE YOU A SPONGE BATH! PLEASE REMOVE YOUR CLOTHING,”   Keeping his gaze away from his brother, Sans scoffed. Like hell he would . He quickly zipped up his open hoodie and pulled his dirty sheets up to his chin as he layed back down.   Papyrus hadn't talked in such a way for a while. He hadn't had that compassionate tone in his voice. he was always loud, though. And that got annoying quick.   “SANS-”   “Get out,” he said before pausing. “..please,”   Sans then shut his eyes again as he tried to fall back asleep. He couldn't deal with him right now, not while the room was still flickering. Not while his headache was violently pulsating throughout his skull. Not while he felt like he was about to throw up a flood of liquor, soggy old hot dogs, and blood. Not while he felt like shit.   Papyrus sat there saying nothing for what felt like an eternity. Just fiddling with the fabric of his bottoms. Listening to Sans’ angry breathing.     Sans couldn't tell what he was planning, thinking, or anything. Was he upset? Did Sans somehow offend him? It wouldn't be the first time something like that happened, and most likely wouldn't be the last. Especially with someone as sensitive as his younger brother.   Papyrus rolled up his sleeves and pulled the blankets off the bed. Not seeming phased in the slightest.   “I KNOW YOU'RE ASHAMED OF WHAT YOU DID BUT YOU SMELL AND LOOK LIKE DEATH, THEREFORE IT IS UP TO ME TO GET YOU BACK IN ORDER!”   Papyrus yelled as he tried tugging off Sans’ shorts. Surprised with the sudden action, Sans smacked his hand away. Smelled and looked like death? Bullshit! He smelled worse.   “What the fuck are you doin’! I told you to get out, so leave!”   With that the two brothers began a game of tug-o-war with Sans shorts. Heaving back and forth as one tried to overpower the other. They kept it up for a minute, but it didn't take long for his obviously more stronger younger sibling to be victorious, as the the piece of clothing came off, and was flung on the floor with the rest of the trash that littered the room.   Feeling a rush of magic rise to his cheeks, Sans stood up on his bed before Papyrus could get the chance to remove his boxers.   This was not a good time. Not a good time at all. Sans could feel the pressure pushing up against the fabric near his pelvis. It was a good thing Papyrus wasn't looking anywhere near there.   “Look I ain't comfortable with you doing this! Just stop and get out!” Sans barked once more. This time trying to cover his private area. Papyrus didn't budge.   “SANS…” His brother paused before getting deadly quiet.   Oh God. why was his erection getting bigger? Was he getting so turned on by this? Why was his brother now practically eye level with his dick. Did he see it? Sans wasn't prepared for what he was going to say next. Whatever it was, it wasn't going to be good.   Not good. Not good at all.   “..you’ve seen her, didn't you?” His brother practically whispered.   It took Sans a moment to realize who he was talking about, and once he did his face morphed into a frown.   It was that obvious was it? Papyrus probably had cameras in his room. Sans would install camaras if he was trying to hide something as demonic like that little freak . Got to make sure she doesn't escape and cause mass havoc. Plus, as an extra bonus he could always replay everything he's done to her. Bask in every minute of his gorish homemade snuff film. Enjoy each puncture wound he causes to her little body. Grin at each burn that crisps her delicate skin. Mock her as she cries, and then stomp her head in against the pavement, flat.   What a twisted bastard he was.   Well he couldn't help his emotions if they came across as disappointed or disgusted at his brother.   He was usually good at such things. Good at keeping a smirk on his face no matter what he was truly feeling at a given moment. But now, now at this very second he found it difficult.   What was so special about this girl?   She literally made his life a living hell many times before in many different timelines. She literally mascaraed everyone he knew. Everyone he loved. She's killed Papyrus over and over and over again without second thought. And yet, yet his brother brought her here, let her in their house, in his room, and for what? He knew Papyrus didn't remember any of the timelines or ever meeting the little pest before, but still...   ..she was still a human.   Why wasn't his first reaction to capture her, or kill her, or drag her away to Undyne? He's done it before. He's done it many times in the pasts long forgotten. But he didn't do it then, and this utterly baffled Sans. What did he do different this time around?   What did he do different?   He's relived so many days over that life felt a broken record. People would repeat everything they said, done, thought, and Sans would be the only one to notice. Life wasn't very fun anymore. Life was getting extremely annoying. Life was oh! so repetitive.     But now something was different. Different in a way Sans didn't like. He didn't like his brother's emotions, or the words he's never heard his brother recite before. He didn't like Papyrus’ facial expressions, didn't like how he wasn't expecting him to barg into his room demanding he have a “sponge bath”.   But worst of all, he didn't like this deep rooted jealousy he now felt. Papyrus wasn't supposed to come in contact with the anomaly.   “Sans,” Papyrus looked dead serious as he continued to speak in a low voice. It sounded so weird to Sans’ “ears” that he honestly didn't think he actually heard it.   Fear suddenly surfaced as Sans wasn't sure how to respond to his question. He didn't know how to respond to him in general. Everything was just so messed up.   So messed up. So messed up. So messed up.   He just couldn't deal with it at the moment. He couldn't laugh it off. Why couldn't Papyrus just leave? Why couldn't he leave him to suffer alone? Why did he have to find that stupid girl?   In a cowardious attempt to flee, Sans tried to take a “shortcut” out of his room, only for a shock to hit his body instead of a rush of magic. He yelped as his body convulsed violently from the sudden bolts of electricity. Confused, Sans turned to his brother.   “Why ...can't..I..” He managed to get out between frantic breaths. Papyrus’ was still so serious. Was it seriousness or emotionless? Sans couldn't tell, but it sent chills down his spine nonetheless.   It took Papyrus seconds, (very long fucking seconds) before he replied. “I took your magic away using the collar. You don't need it if it's going to be used as a tool for you to commit suicide,”   Suicide? Oh yeah, he did do that. He did try to end it all yesterday. But would it really matter? He was sure he would've been brought back after the next reset. And the collar, God the stupid collar.   He oddly remembered the day so clearly. He remembered the humiliation he felt after being strapped down, beaten, and forced to put the large leather around his neck. He remembered as Papyrus locked it with his magic, as he screamed at him. Telling him ‘this would be the last time you screw up and get away scot free’. It's funny since it wasn't, but it also sucked that the reset didn't go back enough to so he wouldn't be forced to wear it. But it was practically a part of him, and as time went on, he forgot it was even there.   Until whenever Papyrus was really upset that rage took over his mind, and he did things he wouldn't normally do.   Then a nice reminder of his little accessory would surface, and he would feel even less than a starving dog.   ___   Sans tried to nervously laugh off his brother's comment.   “Hahaha..c'mon bro you didn't really think-” He finally said after recovering from the shock. Still breathing heavy as he tried to calm himself     Papyrus crossed his arms as he interrupted. “Save it. I'm honestly not in the mood to hear one of your many excuses,”   “Then I won't give you an excuse, I'll give you the truth,”   “Not interested.”   “Well how the fuck am I supposed to go around town without magic? What do I do if some idiot tries to mug me-” Sans surprisingly blew up. He didn't know why he was suddenly so mad.   “I'll be there to stop and deescalate the situation before anything serious happens. Nothing for a royal guard such as myself to worry about,”   “Yeah? Well you ain't with me 24/7, you inconsiderate pig shit!”   The room then grew quiet.   God! He fucked up.   Sans stared up and down his brother in hopes of finding even a sliver of emotion from him. He didn't. Papyrus stared back at him. His eyelights focused on Sans sockets. It started to feel tense.   Very tense .   Then Papyrus spoke again in that same flat low voice. “It's your fault.” He took a deep breath. “I blame you for all of this. You're such a weak pathetic little being. It disgusts me that you think you can simply run away from all of your problems-- from what you did,” Papyrus’ sockets narrowed. “By taking solitude in a bottle-”   Was this a joke? Sans knew he probably should zip it, and let Papyrus say what he had to say, but he couldn't. It wasn't like he was lying. Everything he said was one hundred percent correct. But right now Sans was a hurt dog, so he had to holler.   “Heh well I'm so sorry you have such a bone to pick with me, little bro, since..you know.. I did shit to you. But hey! look at the bright size, if you keep telling yourself that you won't have to own up to your own stupid mistakes.” Sans than winked at him. Gold tooth glimmering as he grinned spitefully.   That might've been a bit unnecessary, but who cares? Sans sure didn't. Or at least he wanted to come off as such.   Papyrus got to his feet. Picked the bucket of soapy water up and dumping it all over Sans. Drenching his sheets and creating a small puddle on the floor.   And just like that, he was on top of him yanking his clothes off.   Shocked than furious by his actions, Sans began kicking at his brother’s thighs trying to get him off. Digging his claws in his brother's sockets, as they wrestled on his mattress. Grunting and growling as Sans bit the big idiot's femur. Papyrus retaliated back by pushing his skull into his pillow, forcing his head to the left as he pressed down on his cheek. They kept this up for minutes as they started punching and nearly srangling each other.   Once again, Papyrus stood victorious as he managed to pin Sans in a headlock, leaving his brother completely immobile.   Feeling a bit exhausted from the tussling, Papyrus torn Sans shirt off.   He stopped and let go once he saw his ribcage.   “Get the fuck off me you filthy pervert! I don't need my magic to kill ya! You hear me! I can still slit your throat-”   “What happened to you?” Papyrus asked mortified. He wasn't sure what he was looking at. What Sans had done to his body. Why three of his rib bones where missing.   “DID YOU ACTUALLY MUTILATE YOURSELF! IS THIS A RESULT OF ONE YOUR FAILED ATTEMPTS!?!” Papyrus yelled.   That wasn't the case, was it? He couldn't remember. It was a crazy night when it all happened, when he was drinking a lot at some stranger's house. Why was he there? He had no idea. It might've been a party, or maybe someone dragged him inside, or maybe he walked into the wrong house.   There was just booze, than puke, than the saw, and the rest was history.   Ha! Now that he thought about it, that might've been the same day he first took a sniff of the “substance”. If only he could remember the faces. Maybe than he could find a better dealer.   ‘Always making light of things, huh Sans?’   Grimacing at the sudden pain in his chest, Sans refused to view that as a bad memory. It was. It was very bad and plain stupid. He was sure if he was sober his ribs wouldn't be missing. He wouldnt have that agonizing hammering in his head. He wouldn't be so scared to leave the house. But you live and you learn, right?   He'll make a mental note not to ever visit the Eastern side of Snowdin in the next reset.   “ Tibia -honest, no one told ya to strip me down, did they? heh,” Sans regrettably retorted. It was a dumb pun.   A very dumb pun.   He could tell by the way Papyrus’ jaw slanted, by the fury that quickly festering in his brow bones. He could tell by the way he clenched his fists and puffed out air from his nose cavity like an angry dragon. He could tell that comment alone pushed his brother's last button. And he knew that if he didn't do something fast, that comment would be his last.   Which didn't sound too bad now that he thought about it.   But dying by the hands of a bitching Papyrus didn't seem like such a flattering way to go. Definitely less flattering than dying of an overdose. “I..ah” Sans finally let out just as his brother's breathing started to pick up pace. Staring at his large gloved fists, Sans nearly cringed. Getting hit with those babies never felt too good.   “I'm sorry you had to see that, little...brother,”   Sans hesitated as he put much thought in what he was going to say next. Papyrus was still practically foaming at the mouth with rage. The dumb thing to do would be to escalate the situation more by saying something so fucking stupid. But Sans wasn't sure he could do that.   Everything he says is fucking stupid.   Papyrus was on edge even before he walked into his room, right? Hell, he was on edge from before Sans decided to take the “substance”. He can easily take advantage of this, he just can't mess it up.   “I harm myself whenever I..uh..whenever I think..um.. about..-let's see-..about what I did to ya. Yeah? Yeah! It was horrible and...and I'm sorry, Paps” Probably the most ingenuine apology ever. Not even a child would fall for that. God he was such an idiot-   “REALLY? AND WHAT EXACTLY ARE YOU SORRY FOR?” Papyrus crossed his arms as he waited for a response.   “I told you, didn't I? I said I'm sorry about what I did-”   “YES I HEARD THAT PART, BUT WHAT EXACTLY DID YOU DO?”   Did he want him to lie? He was already lying, but did he want him to lie more? Sans did feel a bit bad about whatever it was that happened in their shitty childhood, but he regretted nothing.   Absolutely nothing.   So now what does he say. He told Papyrus what he thought he wanted to hear but he's still sitting there waiting. Why couldn't he just get the hell out his room and let him droop in peace. God, would an “I don't know” suffice as a good enough answer? Probably not.   “I..um,” This was starting to get uncomfortable. Sans scratched the back of his skull as he nervously chuckled. What did he do again? He was sure it wasn't anything compared to what he saw in his brother's closet. But maybe it was. Maybe it was worse. How would he know? His mind is always all over the place. He barely bothers to remember anything past a week since everything was destined to repeat itself anyway.   It was a waste. This was dumb.   Who was he kidding. He knew, not a lot, but enough to keep him up at night where he wouldn't have to fantasize too much as he stroked one out.   What a twisted bastard he was.   Man, he was really such a disgusting creep. Maybe if he hadn't lost what little conscious he had 20 resets or so ago, then maybe he would feel sick to his “stomach”. Right now, though, he felt nothing but annoyance.   Why can't a man ever be left alone? Was that really too much to ask? He might as well just get this over with.   “I'm sorry for ramming your asshole the way I did. I should've known better than to not take my time with a virgin such as yourself,”   Yeah. That was definitely the smart thing to say. Or was it? If only that ringing would go away, then he could start to think straight.   Sans hadn't noticed his head was spinning until he realized he was currently making out with the wall. Papyrus smacked him so hard he was nearly knocked out. Sans was going to accept defeat and stay down when he was grabbed by his collar and violently thrown off the bed. Landing in a pile of beer cans, Sans yelped.   “You find that funny, huh? We'll see how you like it,” Papyrus said in a hushed tone as he undid his belt.   Damn! Sans really needs to think more before he speaks. It would've saved him a lot of trouble in the past. But what did Papyrus mean by--   “Woah! Woah wait! We don't have to go there, little bro. What do you think you'll gain from..uh..raping me?” Sans couldn't help but laugh. This was funny. This whole thing was so fucking hilarious. God, its been a while since things have been so unexpected, so different. He couldn't help but get some amusement from the whole situation.   Was it wrong if he hoped his brother was actually about to rape him. He wanted him to, oh how he really wanted him to. But now a question arose,   Can you rape the willing?   ___   Papyrus stopped, insulted. “WHAT!! I WOULD NEVER DO SOMETHING SO DEGRADING...A- AND JUST PLAIN WRONG! WHAT DO YOU TAKE ME FOR!” he screamed before continuing.   “I wasn't going to do that to you, but I'm sure you wouldn't be too willing to see me do it with-”   Sans cut him off. “I honestly don't give a damn. Go ahead and fuck the kid, see if I care,” He then tried to hide his blatant lie with a smug chuckle. He did care. He cared a lot. The anomaly shouldn't be touching his brother. She shouldn't be left alone in the same room with him. She was dangerous. She was no good for him. Why couldn't he see that?   God, Papyrus was such an idiot.   He was such an idiot and this was why Sans had to protect him. He had to convince him not to do it, to just get rid of her.   “I mean what do I look like tryna tell you not to fuck a child..hehe.. Like what kind of sick person do you think I am that I would try to dictate what you do with your free time, right? Heh. Besides that shit ain't the worst thing you could do, you could always just, I don't know, kill her. Put her out of her horrible misery. I'm sure it'll clearly your conscious right up. But Hey! What do I know,”   Sans tried to come off as indifferent as he picked up one of the empty beer cans he was sitting on, and began tossing it in the air.   Papyrus grew silent once more, but Sans knew he was probably thinking. Would he actually consider killing the little brat? It would make so much of there current problems just vanish away. It would be the greatest thing his brother has ever done.   Once she was gone they could handle this whole “drinking” problem. Maybe Sans could clean himself up and get a job again. Maybe he could save up to finally get Paps that big house he's always wanted. Maybe they could talk like they used to. Maybe Sans could be happy.   Until the world reset.   And who was he kidding, it was obvious the kid's deaths tied into that. The anomaly dies, the world starts over. Sometimes going back days, or months, or fucking years.   “I can't do that,”   “Eh..and why not? I take back what I said before, the worst thing you can do to the kid is what your doing now, so just end… it ,”   “NO SANS. I'M NO MURDERER,” His brother said with a sick sort of pride. Puffing his chest out in that stupid herotic manner, as if he just risked his life rescuing a barrel of puppies from a burning building. If Sans had eyeballs they would've rolled back in his skull from the utter,   “Bullshit! You've dusted plenty of people. It's a piece of cake for you I'm sure, so just go do it! The bitch won't put up much of a fight,”   Ha! That was a lie. She could put up a hell of a fight, a pretty decent one too. It was laughable to think such a small creature could have the capability to nearly wipe out an entire species on her own, and do it in a matter of days.   With all the magic and science in the world, and yet monsterkind was still so weak and pathetic.   “I CAN'T KILL SOMETHING AS INNOCENT AS A CHILD! TWO CHILDREN TO BE EXACT! THAT WOULD JUST MAKE ME… MAKE ME,” All the pride quickly left Papyrus’ face as he realized his obvious contradictions.   “...a monster,”   “I was thinking more along the lines of a hypocrite, but whatever floats your boat,” Sans shrugged. Why was he making such a big deal out of this?   Oh, how much he hated the anomaly . That wicked aura of hers was really fucking his brother up. Fucking up his day. Fucking up his life and forcing immortality on the last person who would ever want it.   Death sounded so soothing, so comforting, yet he couldn't have it. It was dangling in his face by a string and it didn't matter how much he jumped, or climbed, or reached out for it, he could never get it. He could never feel that loving embrace of the reaper as he took his last breath. He could never taste that sweet precious freedom.   Tied down to his body, forced to live, forced to push forward until the end of time. Why him? Why him of all people? What could he have ever done to deserve such a fate?   This cruel, cruel world. That stupid bitch.   She knew what she was doing to him and she mocked him every time. It was funny to her. It was the greatest thing ever. It didn't matter how many times he's brutally killed her. It didn't matter because she would always have the upper hand. She would always get a second chance. She would always come back.   And the world would reset. It always did without fail.   “I can kill her. I'll do it for you ,”   Papyrus didn't respond. He didn't move. He didn't look shocked, or upset, or entertained or anything. He just kind of stood there. Just stood blankly, studying the wall behind Sans.   Why did that sound so wrong? Why did he care?  What was right or wrong, anyway? Morals were subjective since it didn't matter what he did, at the end of the day there would be no consequences. So why not slaughter her, or everyone else in Snowdin? Why not just steal a bunch of Gs and get that “dreamhouse” his always wanted? Why not take all the booze that could fit down his throat at once? Why not flirt with Papyrus? Why not convince his brother to fuck him instead? Why not enjoy every second of it?   Why not be a twisted bastard? It didn't matter anyway. It never mattered and never will.   Sans forced a yawn as he stretched his arms over his head. “Or whatever. Just do what you see fit. I got Z’s I need to catch up on... you mind getting out?” Sans asked half expecting his brother to be stubborn and still insist he have a sponge bath. He didn't, though.   Papyrus vaguely nodded his head before turning and grabbing his empty bucket. Seeing no point in trying to clean his mess up since the rest of Sans room was equally as dirty, he walked out the door, closing it on his way out.   Sans stared at the spot his brother stood just seconds before. He felt vacant inside as he realized that whole heap of chaos was their first actual conversation in a while. It wasn't just one word responses or commands usually coming from Papyrus. They spoke to each other. Really spoke to each other, and it was awful. So awful.   He was tempted to wish life wasn't the way it was. To hope things would get better, but that was just old and repetitive. Wishing, hoping, praying, believing, whatever it was, none of it worked. None of it did anything besides install a sense of false comfort.   Life doesn't change, it stays the same. It doesn't matter what he does in this timeline or the next 30, he will still end up at this point. He’ll still be an alcoholic. He’ll still be an addict. He’ll still be a raging asshole who blames all of his problems on one single person, just like his brother.   Life's a bitch, so fuck it. Fuck everything, and everyone.   He planned on visiting Grillby’s that afternoon. He’ll have to make sure he brings a pocket knife now since he was “magic less”. That was going to suck, but he'll get used to it. He got used to everything else. Maybe by nightfall he'll “accidentally” slip off the roof. If he was fortunate enough he might snap his neck, and he might die.   And he might stay dead this time.   Taking a quick sniff under his armpit and gagging, Sans decided he would actually take a bath. When was his last shower anyway, like two months ago? ***** Bottles & Bottles of Determination ***** Chapter Summary So I didn't get much time to proofread so there might be a few typos and errors. I think once I get more time I'll go back and edit. Anyway, enjoy! n_n   Frisk awoke to shouting.   It was dark. The mattress she was bundle up on was extremely cold, and uncomfortable, and still damp with a mixture of different fluids. Fluids she rather not identify or acknowledge since it would only make her feel even more dirty.   She was so dirty.   And in so much pain, but her body told her to ignore it, to focus on something else. This was hard, though. Very hard, since there wasn't much in her little cell. Just a few boxes and her “bathroom” bucket and the chain that kept her attached to the back wall. She also had the mattress and-   Frisk held her breath as she heard the creak of the stairs. Was he coming? She could never tell what time it was since there weren't any windows in the room. There was also no light. Just the light he would bring with him whenever he decided to visit.   She shivered as she thought about it. It wasn't too late at night, was it? Was it even night?   Frisk knew he had to work, and he usually worked for majority of the day. But if she could hear him shouting then he was obviously at home. He was at home and upset. Which was nothing new. From the long draining months she's spent in the cell, he would easily be angry and yelling ninety percent of that time.   Beating her and hurting her in ways she wished she didn't have to think about. Twisting her by the arm, grabbing her by the cheeks, forcing his surprisingly heavy weight on her tiny body. Pinning her down as she cried. As she promised to be good. As she tried to tell him something, anything, to get him off of her.   It was all in vain.   Driven completely by lust, he would still proceed to pull his pants off, rip the little clothing she had covering her, bend her legs over her head as he squeezed her. Squeezed her so hard it would leave a nasty bruise in the morning.   This horribly evil man. This disgusting creature. This true monster , would then split her open as he forcefully thrusted into her abused privates. As he picked open the swelling scabs. As he tore her tender flesh. As he played in the fresh blood. Whipping it along her belly as if her body was a canvas and he was the painter.  She would feel so sick as he kissed her on her lips. Licking at her sweat and tears, and moaning softly in her ears. Going,   in and out, in and out, in and out,   until she lost count and gave up on trying to stay conscious throughout all the pain. Sometimes he would let her “sleep”, he wouldn't try to revive her while he was still going at it. And sometimes he wouldn't.   He would smack her awake or enforce more brutal agony until the lights in her brain would flicker back on and bring her back to reality. Back in the cell. Back on the mattress. Back underneath him.   She wouldn't be able to control her sobbing then. She would just cry and cry until she couldn't catch her breath. This would start the gasping and hiccup fits that he never liked, so he would choke her or force her mouth shut. Anything not to ruin the “moment”.   But sometimes she would get lucky. Sometimes her brain would be nice enough to let the other girl take over. The girl who used to whisper horrible, awful things to her. The other girl who wanted her to take “initiative”, who wanted her to protect herself, who wanted her to stop being so weak.   Stopping being such a useless child .   Frisk found her mean and cruel. She didn't understands why she wanted to harm others. She couldn't understand her pure rage, until after some time the fire inside Chara, dwindled down. She too only felt utter sadness.   The other girl would cry with her, comfort her, and talk about a time when she was once happy. She wanted Frisk to be happy. And so the other girl, Chara, would start to talk to her. Not about harming others or doing something about their “situation”. But talk like kids do.   They talked about good things, happy things, pleasant things. Like what did Frisk want to be when she grew up? Who was her favorite cartoon character? Did she used to play in a pile of leaves in the fall, or cover her eyes and ears throughout the majority of a scary movie she really shouldn't be watching? How many candy has she ever eaten in one sitting? Who was her best friend? Did she have a playground crush? Was her older sister her role model or someone she would fight with constantly? And with all the questions and comments, Frisk would always gleeful respond to  the blackness of the room. Respond to Chara . The echo in her head laughing and joking in a playfully sarcastic manner.   They just talked about anything.   Chara seemed so much older than her, knew so much, yet she was still a little girl. This is why they could relate so much, and this is why Chara gave up. Now all she wanted was to be happy, and she wanted her new friend to be happy too, so they made a deal. Whenever it started to get really bad and Frisk felt like she couldn't take it anymore, Chara would take over and handle it.   And for the first time since Frisk fell down that cursed hole, she didn't feel so lost, so lonely, so vulnerable .   Chara was the only friend she had, the only one she could talk to, so Frisk started a habit of speaking aloud. From the outside looking in, she knew she it looked crazy. She knew because the other skeleton told her so. The skeleton that seemed so familiar. The skeleton that Chara knew so much about but refused to tell her. Refused to elaborate when she referred to him as a “trash bag”. When she once told her to kill him because he was bad news. Frisk didn't know why, but she stopped questioning it.   He started to visit her some time ago, though. At first he popped in on accident, he seemed shocked not to be greeted with an empty room only littered with boxes. He seemed shocked that the place was turned into a makeshift cell. He seemed shock to find her there.  And strangely he asked her what she was doing here. How did she get in their house? What was she planning? As if Frisk deliberately decided to be kidnapped and then forcefully harmed every night.   The skeleton then went on to shout at her. Yelling things she did not comprehend. Calling her a “brother killer”, a dirty slut, and the anomaly, over and over again.   She didn't know what any of it meant. She didn't like his aggressive manner. She didn't like the way he looked at her. Like he wanted to rip her head clean off, and she knew he could do it. He was much shorter than the other one, but he still towered over her. He still had huge palms the size of her face, and he could easily grab it and crush it until it was nothing more than bloody mush.   Frisk didn't know why he was mad at her. She's never met him before, she's never done anything to him, yet he hated her. She didn't get it, and the fear started to dampen her eyes as she cried. And as she cried she screamed and bawled like a newborn. Her hands trying so desperately to wipe away the non stop flow of tears and snot from her wet face. Her dismay grew stronger as she began her hiccup fit, half expecting him to get even more mad. Half expecting him to smack her, but he didn't.   Instead his expression softened.   “Aw c'mon, kid. Don't be such a crybaby, it ain't like I meant to spook you that bad,”  He then  chuckled as his grin looked less intimidating.   Frisk stopped sobbing once he held his bony hand out towards her. Confused she looked at it with wide eyes.   “Heh, your supposed to take it, kid.”   Unsure, she took a hold of his grip. He smiled wide as he rapidly shook her hand, causing her upper body to bob with it.   “I'm Sans. Sans the Skeleton,” He then said in a smuggish way. Frisk didn't introduce herself, she didn't speak, but he didn't seem to mind. She spent the whole afternoon, (or at least that's what he told her) listening to him ramble on about nonsense.   He talked about a “Core” and giving up on trying to get to the surface. She didn't know what the surface was, but assumed it might've been the world above. The world from which she came, and if that was true, why give up? She definitely wouldn't. Not when she had a family waiting for her back home.   But Chara did mention some of that stuff before.  Frisk just found it hard to pay attention. It felt like school, she knew the subjects they taught were supposed to be important, but she couldn't help if she started to daydream at the very boring parts. And everything felt like a boring part. So when Chara spoke about “The Way of The Underground”, Frisk thought about space aliens, dragons and princesses. Not paying no mind to any of the gibberish. Even when Chara claimed they've been through this multiple times, Frisk just could not comprehend it.   But Sans continued. He spoke about magic. Then something about souls that her little mind couldn't wrap around. And then resets. He talked a lot about resets. He went on and on about resets. Frisk was confused. What was being reset? Why did he care so much? Why was he so mad at her before?   He grew quiet for a long time. Not saying anything. Looking very disturbed as he stared in her direction. He wasn't looking at her face, so Frisk traced his eyes until her own landed on her belly. It was big and swollen and she assumed he felt bad for her.   The other skeleton gave her some sort of sickness. When she asked Chara about it she didn't know either.  She told her if she slept more it might go away, or that the swelling should go down if she ate everything the big skeleton brought her. Or if she laid on her belly the extra air might pop and she would go back to normal.   But none of that worked.   Maybe her stomach was about to explode. Maybe she was slowly dying. Maybe that's why he looked so sad.   “Paps did that to you, huh?” He asked. Who was Paps? Was he the other monster? She nodded.   “Well ain't that somethin’” He then pulled a bottled out of his hoodie and started slurping on it. Once he was done with his drink, he got up and patted her on the head. Confidence suddenly grabbed a hold of her as she gently spoke. “...please..help,” was the only thing  she managed to muster.   Sans looked into the pool of her eyes as suddenly that pity he felt vanished into delight. His smirk grew, nearly splitting his face in two.   “No can do, kiddo. I think this is best for everyone. You'll get used to it soon enough,” He then snickered as he turned to walk away. Leaving her there trapped to that wall, on that mattress, in that cell.   ___   “GOOD MORNING, HUMAN!” A slender arm slowly opened the tiny door that was the only exit out of the room. Frisked pushed herself into a far corner as she attempted to get away from him as much as physically possible. Usually he would laugh at this. Tease her as he slowly crept closer. Knowing fully that she could do nothing to defend herself.     Today, though, he didn't laugh. He stayed near the door holding her tray of food. Head hanging low as if he was ashamed to look at her.   Frisk held her knees to her chest. They didn't get too close since her belly was preventing that. She really hated this sickness. Sometimes she would feel unbearable pain that would leave her paralyzed, other times if she breathed very slowly and felt around, she could feel something inside. It would kick at her fingers as if trying to feel her back. Chara believed it to be a parasite. Frisk doesn't know what a parasite is, so she shrugged it off.   “Paps” was serious, so serious, and that scared the poor girl. Usually he would want to hurt her before he let her eat. Usually he would be on top of her by now. Usually Chara would've taken over and Frisk could rest. But he was stalling, and what for?   “I'M NOT..” He lowered his voice. “I'm not going to do it today...or anyday for that matter. Not anymore. I have decided to turn over a new leaf, Human. Do you understand what I'm telling you?” He asked as he squat down to talk to her. If he was directly in front of her, they wouldn't even be close to eye level, but from a distance he only needed to lower his head a little in order to read Frisk.   She was full of fear. What he said sounded like a foreign language. She shivered as she buried her head in her shaking knees.   “Paps” sighed.   “What I'm saying, dear human, is that we are not longer going to engage in sexual intercourse. You get it, don't you?” He slowly crawled towards her. Frisk didn't raise her head. She didn't respond to him. She simply snuffled into her bare skin. “Sex… I will no longer demand that from you. I know this is a lot for your simple human brain to comprehend, but this is a good thing,”   He gently placed his large bony hand on her shoulder. Softly rubbing in a soothing manner. She didn't like that. She didn't like that at all. Frisked jumped as she tried to get away from him. Her eyes went bloodshot as he got closer.   “Nahh...n-no...no” she screamed out, trying to push his hand away. He was going to hurt her again. He was going to hurt her and she wasn't prepared for it. She thought she was but she wasn't. “Ch-chara….chara” Her tone picked up more volume. She couldn't handle this, she didn't want to handle this. It was bad and she was getting tired. Very tired. Chara needed to take over. She was tougher than Frisk. It wouldn't hurt her as much.   “Human, please calm down. I told you already-”   Frisk couldn't contain herself, her bladder failed, and a stream of urine trickled down her inner thighs. Standing in puddle of her filth, she sobbed from her terror and embarrassment.   He seemed mesmerized. Completely fixated on her lower half.  Frisk shifted in place as she tried to cover her crying face. In a moments notice, he dropped the tray and swiftly lifted her large sweater over her head, exposing her naked flesh.   It took every bone in his body not to stare to hard at the bruises. Not to focus on the mural of black and blue splatter around her skin.   Not to get aroused. Frisk braced herself for his dreadful cold touch. She knew he could not resist touching her. Hurting her again. She's been through this so many times, yet she couldn't get used to it.   Sans was wrong, and so was her sister for telling her ‘she’ll be right back’. For forcing Frisk to go out searching for her. If her sister didn't disappear, didn't runaway, maybe Frisk would be home. Sitting on the couch watching movies all night as mommy sat next to her on the phone. She always loved to chat with her friends, and spent a lot of time gossiping back and forth. But Frisk enjoyed that. She enjoyed feeling her mother's voice vibrate throughout her body as she laid her head on her soft lap. She loved listening to their nonsensical conversation as her mother would laugh or gasp or get heated from whatever remark was made on the other line. When she got off they would sit and watch cartoons until midnight. Usually falling asleep on the couch.   Her mother would then spend the morning making horribly burnt waffles, since she wasn't the greatest of cooks. But they would mask the taste by adding a mountain of maple syrup and chocolate chips. If it was a school day her mother would rush to get herself, her sister, and Frisk dressed before dashing off to the bus stop. All the while playing a game of i-spy and making faces at her usually grumpy older sister.   “Such a childish woman, she is,” Her grandmother would always complain whenever she came over. He mother was a little childish, but she was also very young. Too young to have two children, especially the ages of 13 and 11. But her mother still tried, and Frisk knew she loved her and her sister with all her heart.   And now Frisk missed her very much, and she wanted nothing more than to return home. She just wanted life to go back to the way it was before. Without the monsters, without the magic, without the pain.   ___   The skeleton lifted her up and hung her over his shoulder. He then did something Frisk never thought him capable, he undid the magic on the chain. It released its hold on her neck as it collapsed onto the floor.   The first time in a long time, he carried her out of the cell. Slowly opening the tiny door from which he came and leading her through the closet into his bedroom. It was the first time she saw anything behind the wall that separated her from the rest of the house.   She wiped her eyes as she gazed upon the large tidy room. The bed was in one corner, and a desk and dresser in the next. There was a lot of papers tucked away in small spaces or stacked on his nightstand. A huge mirror on the wall gave her a quick opportunity to glance at her horrible state, and to fully realize how high up she was from the ground.   She looked at the skeleton. She got a really good look at him this time. She could see every detail now since the room was brightly lit from his open window.   He was tall, she knew this much already, but unlike the other monster, he had an elegant look to him. Nice suit, bright polished bones, but a very scary face. Or scary in the sense that he didn't have the teeth you would expect on a human skeleton, instead they were razor sharp daggers. Nice and straight and not slightly crooked like those found in Sans’ jaws, but still daggers nonetheless. And then there was his narrow eyes that were barely filled with light as they searched around the room. Red smoke gracefully floating towards the atmosphere, as a deep scar settled on his brow bone.   “WELL HUMAN, WE BETTER GET YOU CLEANED UP. I WOULDN'T WANT YOU STINKING UP MY HOUSE,”   He then walked out the room and towards the stairs. Making their way to the bathroom, he dropped her as he started the water in the tub.   “HAVE YOU EVER TAKEN A BATH BEFORE, HUMAN?”   “I think the kid's named Frisk,”   They both jumped from the sudden voice and turned towards the door. Sans stood leaning against the frame with his arms crossed, eyes closed and that neverending grin on his face.   “Frisk?.. Frisk. UH, IS THAT TRUE, HUMAN?”   Frisk held herself. She didn't know whether to backup or move forward. Who was worse? Sans, who Chara repeatedly told her to watch out for, or this “Paps”. The tall one seemed like the obvious answer, but she didn't know what Sans was capable of. Frisk felt like a corned animal. It was best if she didn't move a muscle.   Frisk faintly nodded.   “THEN FROM THIS MOMENT ONWARD I SHALL REFER TO YOU AS SUCH. HUMAN FRISK,”   “Nah Paps, you ain't gotta add the ‘human’ with it. Just call her Frisk,”   “I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING BACK TO SLEEP. WHY ARE YOU DOWN HERE BOTHERING US? GO DO THAT USELESS SHIT YOU USUALLY DO,”   “Language, we have a kid in front of us,” Sans opened his eye sockets as he cocked his head back. Turning the water off, “Paps” scoffed.   “DON'T FUCKING TAUNT ME. I WON'T EASILY LET YOU OFF LIKE I DID LAST TIME,”   His face was back to that cold express Frisk grew to hate. She was becoming more and more uncomfortable as they argued. She just really hoped the taller skeleton’s brewing rage wouldn't be directed towards her. “Hey chill, bro. I only came down here cause you wanted me to wash up, remember?”   “Paps” looked at the other skeleton at the corner of his eye before sighing. He poured a bottle of bubblebath into the water before mixing it up with his hand.   “WELL SANS, THE BATHROOM IS OBVIOUSLY OCCUPIED-”   “Yeah I guess you're right. Think I'll just make the three of us breakfast while your at it then,” Sans turned to walk off when “Paps” stopped him.   “NO WAIT! YOU KNOW THE RULES, ONLY I COOK. YOU SHOULD WORK ON CLEANING UP YOUR MESS UNTIL IT'S TO MY LIKING,”   “I’d love to do that for you, Paps, but I don't think I can do anything on an empty stomach.”   “YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE A STOMACH!”   “Yeah but my energy is still so low,” Sans groaned as he held his bony palm to his forehead. Stumbling a bit like he was about to faint. “I haven't eaten in forever...I...I don't think I can make it,” He then grabbed at his chest as he slid down to the bathroom floor.   Frustrated, “Paps” gave in. “FINE! I'LL GET BREAKFAST STARTED, BUT DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HANDLE THIS ON YOUR OWN, HU-- ER FRISK?” He asked the girl.   Having zoned out again, she just nervously stood there. Not registering what he said. “Paps” waited for a bit before angrily growling. He was going to ask her again when Sans intervened.   “I’m sure humans bath regularly since that skin of theirs tends to get dirty pretty quick. Frisk probably took more baths in a month than I've taken in a lifetime,” Sans got up as he chuckled.   “I DON'T SEE HOW YOU COULD EVER FIND YOUR TRIFLING BEHAVIOR FUNNY,”  He said in a snobbish manner before throwing his arms in the air as he stormed off to the kitchen.   Frisk snapped out of her trance the moment the large skeleton passed her by. She was surprised he left her alone with no chain holding her down.   Finally .   Studying the bathroom window, she could hear Chara talking to her. Was this their chance? She just needed some clothes and enough time to squeeze through that tight space that lead to the world outside, and make a run for it. She could do it. Chara knew she could.   They were going to be free soon. They were going to be happy.   Scanning the room for something to wear, her soul nearly fell out of her chest the moment her eyes met with Sans’. She hadn't realized he was still there.   “You gonna get in the tub or what, kid?”   Before Frisk could react, her eyes turned a deep scarlet.   Chara took over.   ___   “Y-yes… I was just waiting for some privacy,” She said apprehensively. There was a time Chara wouldn't have been so nice when talking to the “trash bag”. I time she might've cursed him out before grabbing the sharpest object in the room and stabbing him with it. But Chara learned from her mistakes. She knew if she did that, even if she succeeded in killing Sans, she was way too weak to take on his brother. Maybe in a different timeline, but not in this one.   She would be completely obliterated before being shoved back to her latest SAVE, which was after she left the ruins. It would be an absolute nightmare to be forced to go through the past 6 months over again. She didn't think she could do it.   She'd probably kill Frisk over and over again in hopes of being booted to a different timeline with a different SAVE, where the monsters weren't sexual predators. So Chara needed to be strategic, for Frisk’s sake. Sans remembered her. He remembered her well. And she remembered him, but Frisk knew nothing. She shouldn't have to suffer for her actions in the past.   “Why? your naked now, ain't like there's anything else I haven't seen before,” His grin freakishly grew. She kept her back to him.   “D-don't you find me disgusting….repulsive?”   “Such a big word for an otherwise retarded kid. Hey! I thought you were a mute...Frisk,” he focused on her.   “I don't want any trouble,” she trembled.   Why was he being so mean? Her last timeline wasn't even that bad. In fact, she didn't kill anyone. Frisk was nice, very nice, and she even made a few friends. Not with the “trash bag”, though. She tried several times, and each moment she approached him, he would brush her off, tell her to get lost, or threaten to kill her. She got over it quickly, but Chara could never shake the feeling of constantly being watched.   That timeline was pretty decent, nonetheless. Too bad it ended in her drowning in freezing cold water.   “Didn't say I was lookin’ to start any trouble,” Sans shut the bathroom door behind him, crossed his arms, and tilted his head.   “...please don't hurt me...I'll scream,” she said in an attempt to make him reconsider his next decision. He didn't want to look bad in the eyes of his younger brother, right? But she could sense that he probably didn't care.   Sans broke out into loud echoing laughter. He held his sides as he nearly fell down from the sheer amusement.   Chara’s eyes watered. She wasn't trying to be funny and she didn't like him mocking her.   “You'll scream? Hahaha… And then what? If I'm not mistaken wasn't it Papyrus that's been raping you all these months... What… You think he'll bust in here and ‘rescue' you?”   “Just leave me alone!” Chara screamed. She balled her fists to her side as she began to whine in distress.   Sans wiped a tear from his socket as his laughing died down.   He was so horrible. But who was she kidding, “Papyrus” probably wouldn't do anything. He did seem like the territorial type, though. Maybe he would get upset if someone touched something that was “his”.   “Just get in the tub, kid. It's not like that little escape plan of yours will get you far. Not when you have that fucking collar around your neck.”     He then stood there awkwardly. Chara was waiting for him to say something else, when suddenly he yelled in agony.   “Goddamnit! No magic. Right.” Sans turned the door knob and left Chara alone to her own devices.   She ran her fingers through the material nearly choking her. This collar was more than likely locked by magic, just like that chain on the wall, so the only way to get it off would be to use magic. She obviously didn't have magic of her own, but maybe if she could somehow convince Sans-   No. He wouldn't do it. He wasn't trying to help her, he just wanted to make her life more miserable. She would have to figure out a way round this, and it was better off if Frisk didn't know. The other girl did have a tendency to zone out at the most inconvenient of times. Not to mention if she was pressured enough, she would easily give everything away. They can't risk it. Especially with Sans on their tail.   Sans. What a total trash bag.   And what did he just say?   No magic?   Hmm.. very interesting.   Character slowly rubbed her belly as she went into deep thought. She knew she could outsmart the two of them, all she needed was an opening. Now wouldn't be the time, but if she played her cards right, Frisk and her would be out of there sooner rather than later. ***** Bottles and Bottles of Deeds ***** Chapter Notes Holy cow! It has been a long time since my last post. I do have an excuse though :P. Life got really busy and I was unfortunately hit with the infamous "writer's block". This chapter was orginally going to be so completely different, but I hated the direction it was going in, so I chaged it. Hopefully you guys like it :) Oh yeah! Before I forget (again). A very sweet person made cool fanart of the fanfic XD. Thanks so much Rats! <3 Here it is: https://image.ibb.co/mLP2TH/Hmm_Up.png You guys should check out her tumblr too: http:// urchineseslippers.tumblr.com/ Father always loved Sans more. He loved everything about Sans. He loved his magic, his intelligence, his total obedience. He wasn't a big bumbling idiot like Papyrus.   A mistake .   A huge regret and a waste of Father’s precious bone marrow. “What can I possibly do with you?” He barked, mainly upset with the heavy pressure he was getting from the king to make a perfect “product”, and the aching in his barely healed and hollow palms.   “It's been six years. Six years of my life wasted on trying to get you to do anything! Anything besides mumble about like an utter imbecile.  You can't read, you can't speak, you can't even perform the simplest of tasks. I should've terminated you once I had the chance,”   Papyrus didn't want to believe the hurtful things father told him on a daily basis. He wanted father to love him. To love him just as much as he loved Sans. So Papyrus tried his best to make Father happy. He did whatever Father told him, he made sure never to leave a mess and to always clean up after himself if he ever did, he even eventually spoke.   He said his first few words right in front of the scientist in hopes Father would be proud of him, but he wasn't.   Papyrus could never be as good as Sans. He never did anything right. Never. No matter how hard he tried.   “That's why you deserve it,”   Sans once said, as Papyrus cried into his pillow one night, holding his sore cheek. “You're helping father out by making him feel good. It's the very least you could do, now all you gotta do is stop screaming and acting up when he's inside you and you'll be perfect...”   Those words weren't very encouraging. It only hurt Papyrus more. Why couldn't Father love him? Why couldn't he be treated like Sans? Why was he the only one in constant pain? The only one left to suffer?   He did nothing to deserve any of it. He didn't deserve to be roughly stripped naked and completely humiliated. He didn't deserve to be pushed down so harshly by Father, while his brother simply watched with gleeful curiosity rather than contempt. He didn't deserve Father to violate him, force him to conjure up the little magic he had in order to make a “pleasure hole”. So papyrus found it very much appropriate to headbut father when he couldn't contain himself and the pain became too overbearing.   Papyrus found it appropriate. Father did not. Sans simply found it funny when his Father's large fist met his little brother's face.   “...well, somewhat perfect.” {~}   Papyrus sat three separate plates down on the dining room table. He sighed as he observed his broken surrounds. Man, it was a very bad idea to take all his anger out on the furniture. He really needed to devote the rest of the morning on fixing the place up, or at least to standing and dictating as Sans did it for him.   It was horrible that he needed to monitor his older brother in order to make sure things were done right. Quite pathetic on Sans part.   He ran back into the kitchen to grab the stack of pancakes from the counter. Pancakes , what an odd choice. He's only ever made flapjacks on a few rare occasions. They weren't really a cuisine he was too fond of, but he heard somewhere that children loved sugary food and making sweet spaghetti again was out of the equation.     Hopefully pancakes were supposed to be a little crispy. Or a lot crispy since he had the stove’s heat on too high and waited too long to flip a few of them.   This was a special occasion, though. Very special because for the first time he was going to apologize and actually attempt to change his life around. Be the best man he could be, and that needed to start that day.   If children enjoyed pancake,  and Frisk was a child, then she should be grateful for his kind gesture. He was being kind after all. So kind he could practically feel the rainbows and butterflies radiating off of him.   Whatever that meant.   He guessed he was aiming to be anything other than a violent predator, someone who didn't automatically strike fear in people's hearts just by a simple glance. Maybe he can be a nice guy on top of that. A gentleman who put other's thoughts before his own. They were practically synonyms he was sure. But maybe on the other hand,   Papyrus was going a little overboard.   He didn't really need to improve for anyone besides his brother and the human. No one else mattered. Not really anyway.   He placed the fresh flipped dish on the wooden surface of the table along with a bottle of syrup. Just as he was adjusting the leg of his chair, Sans walked in. His signature bad posture casting a shadow over the mess on the floor. It was obvious he hadn't done laundry in a while since his shirt was stained and torn. Yawning loudly, his brother cracked his bare bony toes before scraping them along the floorboards.   It had been 30 minutes since Papyrus ran out the bathroom to get breakfast started, what was Sans doing that whole time?   There was a possibility he just simply went back up to his room, but Papyrus would've heard the creak of their bottom step if Sans had in fact approached the stairs. He couldn't teleport anymore, so maybe he was getting started on the living room, or feeding the damn cat for once, or taking a power nap. The possibilities were endless, and why did he even care?   It was horrible how he would intentionally look too deep into things. Or maybe he wasn't looking deep enough?   That didn't matter. It didn't matter since he was the bad guy in this situation. Not Sans, no matter how shitty his attitude could be or how awful his laziness could get. Sans wasn't the savage demon, therefore admittingly, his brother was more of a saint than Papyrus could ever care to fathom.   That was just plain dreadful.   “IS HUMAN FRISK DONE WITH HER SHOWER?” He sternly asked. Studying his brother as he oddly began to slightly twitch. It took Sans a minute (a very long minute), to acknowledge him. He was staring into oblivion, now. Itching at the hollow space that used to be occupied by his missing rib bones. Papyrus feared he was going into another episode, or was it a “trip”?   The drugs he took were strange, and the slender skeleton would be lying if he claimed to know exactly what they were. What horrors they consisted of. White powder? Greyish-white powder. Greyish-white powder that smelt of death. Of death and decay. Of dust .   Sans eye sockets went black before he finally responded.   “Uhh..yeah. I’m sure she is, but wow! I’m impressed you made something that wasn’t pasta related for once,” He snickered before dusting broken glass off the table with his bare hands, and taking a seat.   The way he said it felt all wrong, like he wasn't sarcastic in his usual mocking tone. It was more like he was forcing himself to say it. Forcing himself to say something, anything. Maybe so Papyrus wouldn't complain about being ignored, or maybe to hide more of that foggy feelings that were building up deep inside. Those feelings that nearly toppled over. Feelings desperate to pour out, to flow free like lava from a volcano. And maybe, just maybe Sans was about to erupt. Not in the sense that Papyrus had the previous day, but in a way that was far more tragic. Far more deadly, but only deadly for him. Because Papyrus didn't understand it completely, but he knew his brother was essentially alone. Alone in what way? He supposed it was up to him to somehow find out.   It was a result of his actions he was sure. Everything was a result of his actions, and it was due time he owned up to that.   Therefore, Papyrus knew the right thing to do would probably be to confront his brother about his current problems, maybe come at it with a better approach than whatever that was he did that morning. He really needed to stop getting upset over little things. Not that what Sans said was a “little” thing, but it was obvious he was trying to get under his skin..erm..bones.   He knew Sans didn't mean what he said to him. Why would he enjoy such a disgusting act? Why would anyone? People like that need to be exterminated. Wiped off the face of the earth, never to be seen again. They didn't deserve life. They were total filthy scum.   Total scum...   Odd. The more he thought about it, the more of a hypocrite he was beginning to be. Who was Papyrus to judge, of all people. At least his brother could use the excuse of simply “joking”. What excuse did he have?   He bit his non-existent tongue and ran his hand against the top of his skull. Saying something now would just be awkward. He shouldn't confront Sans. He shouldn't attempt to shame anyone but himself. Now was not the time to be such a dummy. He was so stupid.   So stupid, so stupid, so stupid.   So he didn’t focus on his brother. The human was probably having trouble on her own. It would be up to him to make sure she was okay,  as funny as that may sound.   Setting the utensils down and wiping his hands on his bottoms, Papyrus sighed.   “WELL I’LL BE RIGHT BACK. TRY NOT TO EAT WITHOUT US-”   “Where you going? I mean whatever it is you need done... I can do it for you,” Sans quickly interjected as he got to his feet. He was suddenly so lively. He had more energy in that one thrust upward than Papyrus could ever recall seeing in him since, maybe, early teenagehood.   “NO THAT IS OKAY, BROTHER. I CAN HANDLE IT MYSELF,”   “Then I’ll join you. It’s no fun sitting here by myself,” He said, as if he wasn't so sure about that statement. Like he was confused about more than just the words leaving his mouth. As if he was suddenly baffalled with his surroundings, his actions, with what he was feeling, with his perception of life.   “I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO BE BY YOURSELF,” Papyrus said while crossing his arms in slight defiance. Sans slowly dug his nails deeper into his rib cage through his white t-shirt. His gaze seeming to lock on to the wall behind Papyrus.    “DO YOU NOT LIKE ME BEING ALONE WITH HER? IS THAT IT?”   Why did he say that? Why was he so upset with such a realization? No it was an assumption. Sans never mentioned anything about her, He hadn’t brought her up since that morning. His brother was probably genuine. Maybe he didn't want to be left here at the mercy of his drug induced mind. He wasn't in a good condition, not by a long shot, and maybe just maybe…   Maybe he would try again. There was a knife laying on the table staring his brother dead in the eyes. If Papyrus listened closely enough he could hear the weapon's faint whisper pleading with Sans to let it’s blade meet his heart.   This made sense. Much more sense. Sans was suicidal, therefore Sans didn't want to be alone. Right? It had nothing to do with him. Nothing to do with Papyrus’ actions.    A faint red glow returned to Sans skull.   “Didn’t know you could read minds, Paps.” {~} Papyrus stuffed a fork full of pancakes down his throat. Doomfanger gently laid balled up on his lap, purring as a request for affection. He slowly stroked the feline’s spine as he tried not to look nervous.   Frisk sat opposite to him. Sans sat to his right. Both were occupied in their meal, or at least they both attempted to come off as such. Frisk was taking tiny bits every minute and a half, and Sans was simply toying with the mush that once resembled a solid plate of food. No one said a word. The room was completely silent, and this drove Papyrus crazy.   His pancakes couldn't be that bad, could they?   He cleared his throat, wiped the corners of his mouth with his napkin, and broke the white noise.   “SO, I HAVE SOMETHING VERY IMPORTANT I MUST TELL YOU TWO,” He started, locking his hands together as he rested his sharp chin on his firm knuckles. Both Sans and Frisk paused to look up at him. Both wide-eyed and confused.   Papyrus sat quietly for a moment. Quietly as he stared at his twitching brother,( who tried very hard to hide his spazzing limbs, but it was too obvious by the way the table vibrated around him) and the pregnant child. He didn't know what to say to them.   All he's done in such a short period of time. It was horrible. He was horrible. But he needed to make things right, so once again, he broke the silence.   “I know things have been really bad lately, but I'm going to do better. The three of us,” he lowered his voice as he watched the inflated belly of the little girl slowly rise and fall, over and over again, in her oversized sweater.   “..four of us… are all we got. We gotta make it work. No matter what,”   There was no response from the two. No movement was made as the room went still. It was so quiet, Papyrus could've swore he heard the chattering of two mice hidden under the floorboards.   Doomfanger stretched and jumped down from her master's lap. She yawned before disappearing beyond the kitchen’s window.   The tall skeleton watched as she left, feeling a bit disappointed that he was now alone to deal with this himself. Not that Doomfanger made much of a difference, but she stood to be the only one that wasn't affected by his sinful actions, and thus, still loved him more than life itself.   Tapping his claws against the table, Papyrus waited for something, anything , to happen. For Sans to crack a joke, or for the human to break down in tears, or for them to simply acknowledge what he just said. To have some reaction, anything besides blank stares.   This was ridiculous.   “...you have anymore pancakes?” his brother finally said moments later with a dead, dull tone. A tone that was far too foreign for the usually quick witted snarky skeleton. He was easily a person who could laugh at his misfortune. Easily a person who could brush off  life’s wrong doings. But now he wasn't smiling, he wasn't quoting some half-hearted pun to lighten the mood, and his twitching got worse.   Sans glared in the direction of his face, not quite making his eyes, and not quite ready to comprehend what his brother just said. So he didn't.   “No, that is it. If you want more you'll have to make it yourself,” Papyrus retorted in annoyance. He couldn't blame Sans for trying to change the subject. Maybe it was best the conversation ended there.   “Hey, Paps! You in there?!? I… I brought the stuff you wanted!” Suddenly a booming voice came from the front door. Everyone froze instantly as their eyes, as if in sync, shot towards the entrance of the house. The voice was very recognizable.   This wasn't good.   How could he forget the conversation he had last night on the phone. He was distraught and definitely wasn't thinking clearly when he called the only monster he felt comfortable to trust with his life. She was oddly very understanding, and was she also compassionate? She didn't laugh at his weak sobbing and in fact gave him advice. Good advice. Undyne also offered to help, an offer in which he didn't take seriously.   Papyrus honestly thought after their private conversation none of what was said would ever be brought up again. He expected her to move on with her life since none of it affected her being. People were selfish and they often didn't concern themselves with other people's business unless they could get something out of it. Obviously he was wrong, and obviously now she was here and ready to give up her “services”.   Sans, with a narrowed glare, harshly whispered, “what the fuck is she doing here? Tell that stupid bitch to go away,” He demanded. Seemingly upset with the royal guard for a handful of unknown reasons. Reasons that probably had something to do with him being fired, or the simply fact that Undyne had a habit of beating up addicts strung out on street curbs and alleyways.   Papyrus sighed. He debated whether he should just lie to her, tell her everything is fine and to just go home, or to accept her help. He didn't think he could do any of this alone, and if she was sincerely sympatic about their situation than maybe she had a really good solution for him.   As he got up to answer the door, his brother tightly grabbed a hold of his wrist. “I hope you do know she'll slice the brat’s throat without second thought. I mean you do know that, right? You know her better than anyone apparently, but maybe that's what you want all along. You want to get rid of the kid to cover up your tracks, and in that case you might as well let me do it. She'll be dead in less than a second..heh I can guarantee that,” Sans slide his tongue along the top of his teeth as he played with the tips of his fork. Grinning at Frisk as he thought about murdering her right on top of the dining room table. Frisk instinctively held her throat and slumped down in her chair. She tried her hardest to make herself very small, trying to hide from Sans murderous intentions. He loved it, and she knew he loved it. He was simply eating up the smell of her fear, and it made her feel horrible and scared.   “DON'T BE RIDICULOUS, SANS. I CAN HANDLE THIS. I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE SO AFRAID OF,” Papyrus said as he pulled his arm free and snatched the fork from his older brother's grip.   Sans watched in fury as Papyrus disappeared in the hallway. He meant every word, if it came down to it he wouldn't hesitate to kill the kid and Undyne too if she made one wrong move. Just one small fuck up, one thing said out of place, or one bad gesture, and bam! A bone straight through her skull.     Well..that is if he had his magic of course.   Now he was nothing more than a defenseless wimp, but that meant nothing. He could easily use his fangs to tear her up like some sort of feral vampire, if he had to. It would be a bloody mess but it would also be worth it. {~} Papyrus took a deep breath as he prepared to open the door. What was he going to say to her? How would he explain this all away? Didn't he want her help, so what would be the point of coming up with an excuse. He should just be casual. Yeah, just talk to her like it was another day at the job. He should just envision a whole different environment and a whole different situation. Maybe right now they're on the streets of Hotlands beating up some punks who robbed a local post.   He always did manage to clear his mind when doing something excessively violent.   Swinging the door open and greeting his friend with a not-too-warm smile, Papyrus nearly choked on his words.   “MY DEAREST FRIEND, UNDYNE! I WAS NOT EXPECTING YOU TO SHOW UP THIS EARLY, IF I'VE KNOWN I WOULD'VE MADE YOU A PLATE OF MY DELICIOUS PANCAKES! MY DEEPEST APOLOGIES,”     She looked up at him with an unfamiliar expression on her face. Papyrus was tempted to wipe his eye sockets out of uncertainty. He wasn't sure if her cheeks were quickly turning a bright crimson from the cold air or from something completely different. Blushing was definitely something Undyne didn't do, in fact anything associated with femininity was something Undyne just didn't do. It was so out of place to see her usually tied up hair, down and gently resting on her shoulders. To not see her in bulky armor, but rather a tightly fitted dress that seemed to emphasize her surprisingly nice figure. He noticed how pretty her face suddenly was, how her lips were plump and how her snake-like eyes sparkled in the sunlight.   “Why are you staring at me like that?” She shyly asked. Shyly? Undyne shy? This was completely out of her character, and to think that he never noticed any of this before. Never noticed that she was a female, or at least didn’t know she would ever have it in her to act as such. So why suddenly was she looking so...girly?   “AHH..UH I APOLOGIZE AGAIN. YOU MUST BE CHILLY STANDING OUT IN THE COLD LIKE THAT, YOU SHOULD COME IN,” Papyrus held his arm out towards the inside of the house.   “Finally! I was freezing my ass off in this horrible weather,” She lightly punched Papyrus’ shoulder as she walked past him.   “I'M SORRY THE PLACE IS SUCH A MESS. SANS DIDN'T GET ANYTIME TO CLEAN UP AFTER HIMSELF,”  He said as he quickly tried to organize a pile of scattered papers on the end table near the entrance. He was suddenly more nervous than he was before he opened the door.   “Stop apologizing. My apartment is thousand times more dirty than this, so I really don't care.” She laughed as she stepped over a garbage bag. Papyrus wasn't so sure how he felt about that. This place was a pigsty, so what kind of nightmare of an environment was she leaving in?   “Great, you let the slut in.” Sans spitfully said as he tilted his head to study the tips of his phalanges. “Love the look by the way, babe.” He blew kiss at Undyne as she turned to see him standing by the door. Expecting her to react negatively, Sans was shocked when her smile grew wider as she tucked a few strands of hair behind her left ear.   “Sans! How ya feeling? I'm happy to see you didn't dust overnight. You would've left a distraught Papyrus for me to have to take care of, and that would’ve sucked major balls,”   She was genuinely happy to see the skeleton somewhat competent and okay. The more the years passed, the worst the Underground got. It was unfortunate that she’d experienced more drug overdoses in this year alone than any other year of her life. Even though her relationship with Sans was definitely not the best, she would hate to see him gone.   “Heh!” Sans chuckled. “Why am I not surprised! Of course Paps went snitching to you, but uh since you're here you might as well make yourself fucking useful and force him to take this damn collar off my goddamn neck-”   “SANS PLEASE WATCH YOUR LANGUAGE, AND THAT IS NO WAY TO SPEAK TO A SUPERIOR OFFICER,”   Sans scoffed as he rolled his eyelights. “Yeah okay ‘boss’. When have you ever given a shit about anyone but yourself?”   “Well he gave a shit about you, I think that says a lot,” Undyne interjected, not seeming phased by anything Sans previously stated.   She still smiled at him, and this upset him even more. Who did she think she was just coming in here and claiming shit she didn't know? Papyrus didn't care about anyone. He was the most self-centered, egotistical, narcissistic bastard in the Underground. He was horrible yet Sans was still so attracted to him. Attracted to his own little brother. He was starting to feel gross again and it was all Undyne’s fault.   Clenching his fists and storming towards the fish, he shoved a clawed bony finger in her face. Spitting profusely as he tried to tell her off. “Listen, bitch!” He spat. “I need you to mind your own fucking business before I rip your tongue out and shove it up your scaly ass!”   “Sans,” Papyrus started, practically whispering, which was enough to catch his brother's attention. “..that's enough. Now why don't you get started on that livingroom,” Just by the tone of his brother’s voice, the skeleton knew he meant business.   Sans hesitantly retrieved his hand from Undyne’s face and stuffed them in his short’s pockets. He hated how he had to obey Papyrus’ stupid command. He hated how his brother had so much control over him because of the collar. If Sans could just think straight he would've figured out a way to take advantage of his brother's growing passivity, but it might be too late now. Maybe. Maybe he could somehow convince the idiot to set him free.   Backing away from the still smiling fish, Sans snorted before leaving the room. He didn’t disappear from earshot, though, and tried to listen in.   The halls filled with silence, before Undyne took a few steps closer towards Papyrus.   “S-so..uh...what you told me yesterday, you know, about your..dad..um was it true?” She asked as she kept eye contact with the floor. Obviously she was a little uncomfortable with the question. But so was Papyrus. He was both uncomfortable and confused. Did he tell her about father last night? How did he not remember any of that? What else did he say to her?   “What did I tell you exactly?” He kept his voice low, not sure what to expect from her response, and not wanting Sans to hear.   “Well just how shitty you had it growing up..and I told you I could relate...but if you forgot all of that I guess there is no point in pursuing this conversation,” She looked a bit disappointed. Undyne could relate to him? In what possible way could she ever relate to him? He was growing curious.   “I-”   Suddenly Frisk fell out of the coat closet and landed between the two of them. She rubbed her head to ease the pain and hadn't realized who she was standing before until,   “A human! Oh my god! Grab it, I'll kill it!” Undyne yelled as she readied her magic and aimed it at frisk’s head.   It took Papyrus half a second to react. How did she get in the closet? Wasn’t she in the dining room when he left to answer the door? Obviously this was Sans doing, but if he was trying to hide the human, there were a million better places throughout the house than the fucking coat closet. Was this intentionally?   “WAIT YOU CAN'T DO THAT!” Papyrus jumped in front of the shaking girl, blocking Undyne’s spear from Frisk’s forehead.   ‘What do you mean, Paps? Of course I have to...why are you protecting her? Move out of the fucking way!” Undyne screamed as she tried to get around him.   “I told you can’t do that, just drop the weapon and let’s talk about this,” He didn’t want to think about hurting his friend, but he was prepared to do it if Undyne didn’t listen. Hopefully if they did start fighting, Papyrus wouldn't be forced to kill her. But he knew her better than that. Undyne was as stubborn as a mule, and wouldn’t hesitate to risk her life to keep her position as a royal guard. Finding a human and not harvesting its soul for the greater good of the Underground was punishable by death, and they both knew that.   He didn’t want to hurt her, but he would. Without second thought.   “God, this is gold! Of course he won’t let you kill the little vermin, she’s carrying his baby,” Sans laughed as he held his phone up to record the event. He gleefully found pleasure in finally wiping that stupid grin off the fish’s face.   Undyne looked shocked. She took a good look at the small human and instantly all the strength in legs disappeared. The human was curled up behind Papyrus’ back, slightly cleaving onto the fabric of his shirt, as she held her eyes shut. Undyne could barely make out the silhouette of her body, but she could tell something was off about her. Something that wasn’t found on the other humans that fell down. Something out of place.   She fell to her knees as her magic evaporated in thin air. She couldn’t move her eyes from the child’s stomach. She couldn’t believe what she was seeing, and she wasn’t disgusted with what Sans said, she was more disgusted with the fact that it was Papyrus.   How could Papyrus do that? How could he do that to her? This was betrayal, he threw everything away. Everything they had been building on all these years. He betrayed her. He betrayed their friendship, and now suddenly her world was coming crashing down.  Why would he do that?   Why? Why? Why?   Undyne wasn’t angry, she didn’t even know if she was sad. She couldn’t describe her feelings. She didn’t understand how she felt about him for a long time, but when he called her last night it was almost like she knew. Like a light bulb came on in her head. Instantly her emotions were starting to make sense.   “He’s lying..right, Paps?” She desperately asked as her eyes started to water. This was starting to become very embarrassing, but she needed to know. She needed him to tell her Sans was simply pulling her leg and this human, this kid, wasn’t big from his doing. She needed to know that Papyrus, her Papyrus, wasn’t capable of touching any other living being that wasn’t her. Yesterday he revealed that they were one in the same, two broken people who needed each other. So she was willing to be there for him just as long as he felt the same way. Just as long as they could cry together and be happy in each others company, because no other monster made her feel the way Papyrus had. No other monster understood her.   But he did.   Papyrus hung his head as he tried to avoid looking her in her face. “Unfortunately not.” He said, and suddenly Undyne couldn’t control her tears. They poured out of her eyes like a flooded dam as she sobbed, and sobbed, and sobbed. She cried into her palms as she tried to stop the snot from running, but it was no use as the liquid was just getting smudge all over her face. This was the first time in a long time she felt this way. The first time she wanted nothing more than to accept death’s embrace.   Papyrus sat frozen in place. Now fully understanding the scope of what he did. He hurt more people than he intended, and he didn’t know why. Why did he do it? Why was he like this? Who could he possibly blame? He needed a way out. He desperately needed a way to get rid of this overbearing guilt. But there was none.   Looking at the mess in front of him, Sans held his side as he fell back in laughter.. “Good going, bro. You perfectly managed to fuck over another chick, “    Papyrus was reminded of something horrible from his past, and found it hard to breath. He messed up. He could never do anything right.   Never. ***** Bottles and Bottles of Defiance ***** Sans held his erection in his hand as he laid his right ear cavity to the wall. He could hear his brother going at it. Really giving that shit of a human a good fucking. On a normal occasion Sans would have easily been disgusted with the thought of the anomaly touching his little brother, but this wasn’t a normal occasion.   Papyrus, even with his big brutish appearance, knew little to nothing about sex. It was both cute and hilarious to see him struggle to understand Sans’ punny innuendos, or once looked both shocked and confused when a local prostitute offered a blow job for 20G, in which he replied with “MA’AM, UNFORTUNATELY I WILL HAVE TO DECLINE SEEING THAT I ALREADY HAVE A JOB,”.   ‘How could a monster get anymore stupid?’ Sans once thought, but he knew that was what he loved about his brother. His sexual innocence. That dumb naivety that always seemed to stay with him no matter what stage of life he was in. Papyrus always did have a habit of asking questions. Questions about everything, but never about sex. As if he couldn’t conceive such an act occuried. Sans found that hard to believe. He was convinced that Papyrus choose to be purposely ignorant. His brother always was such a killjoy, and probably found it too pleasurable to waste his time doing.   But now here his little brother was grunting and moaning from each thrust into that gross little girl’s body. He could hear the springs of the mattress squeak with each powerful momentum.  It was like music to his ears. Stroking his dick profusely, Sans bit his tongue in order not to make too much noise.   Sickly enough, Sans imagined himself underneath his brother’s tall lengthy body. He wanted to know what his shaft felt like inside of his anus. He wanted Papyrus to hold him down and gently nibble on his neck. He wanted desperately to be fucked like a cheap whore and filled with his brother’s sweet juices. He didn’t want his brother to stop as he sang his name. He wanted-   Sans’ masterbating was interrupted by the kid’s loud whimpering. He could barely make out an, “ahnn..p-please….it hurts,”  as he listened more closely.   How disappointing to have her filthy voice inside his perfect little fantasy. If his brother had even half a brain he would first smash the rat’s head in then get back to smashing her insides to mince meat. Sans would definitely do. He would do it in a heartbeat with no regrets. Besides, it was only a matter of time before she turned on them all, and went on her usual killing spree. He’s been down this path too many times that it was now  predictable. All she needed was an opening. Once given the opportunity, the anomaly would make nothing more than dust out of them all, and she would do it in less than a millisecond.   The squeaking picked up pace as his brother’s breathing got louder. The blood- gurgling cries pierced through the walls, as the wet sound of flesh rubbing against flesh filled Sans head. Almost as if his hand grew a mind of its own, Sans couldn’t stop his rapid grinding. The vibrations through the walls were making his head feel all woozy. His hips buckled as he felt close.   “FUCK!” Papyrus barked as Sans practically felt the red fluid splatter all over the kid’s thighs and stomach. There was a brief pause, as the anomaly's hiccupped sobs echoed throughout the house. Sans tried to catch his breath as he found he was suddenly shaking. He sat there waiting, not sure what he was waiting for. There wasn’t any noise for a while, even the anomaly’s crying stopped. Sans meant to get up until he heard the squeaking start up again.   Looking down at his hands, Sans was shocked to see them covered in his own cum.   {~} “Well! Here’s the pills,“ Undyne extended her hand towards Papyrus, dropping the bottle in his large palms. He took it and examined the label-less orange container.   “So, what are they exactly?” He curiously asked, still not confident enough to believe she wasn't trying to poison Sans.     “I think Alphys said it was a form of Narcan. You're either supposed to take it while he's overdosing or for the withdrawals. I’m sorry I honestly can't remember which,” The fish said as she nervously scratched the back of her neck.   Great. If she didn't know exactly what they were used for, the drug was pretty much pointless.   Papyrus sighed. “Well I used magic before to heal Sans, so you think that'll help again?” Undyne gazed past him, unsure. She thought for awhile before replying.   “I think it won't. I mean, we both know you're not a doctor, and your green magic sucks ass. One small slip up and you can end up killing him. Just give him the pills, I’m sure they’ll work fine.” Undyne then looked at Papyrus. She took in his tall stature, his small glowing eyes, and his serene demeanor. She wanted to smack him. To punch him square in the jaw for forcing her in that docile position earlier. But she also wanted to kiss those non-existent lips so bad. Right now, standing near him, made her all tingly inside. She hated it, but she also wondered if anyone felt the same way about her.     Papyrus slightly smiled when he noticed Undyne observing him. Their relationship was destined to be very awkward from now on. “I’m sorry you had to see that earlier. I would've told you...just under different circumstances,” He said while rubbing the top of his skull.   Undyne looked away as she fiddled with a loose seam in her dress. “Don't apologize, Paps. I know it was all a set up, and what I saw wasn't your doing,”   “Undyne, that isn't-” She held her finger to her lips to silence him.   “Don't try to protect the real culprit. I’ll find the guy who's really responsible for this, and I'll kick his ass for framing you. You have my word,” Undyne grinned as she cracked her knuckles.   Papyrus was capable of doing a lot of messed up shit, but she deeply knew he wasn't capable of hurting her. Someone else had to be behind all of this. It just had to be a set up. “I'll also keep the human a secret, but only under one condition,”   “What's that?” Papyrus asked, still a little shocked that his friend was being so delusional.   “You have to take me on a boat ride..you know..so I can teach you how to swim and all.” She pulled more hair behind her ears as she waited for his response. Was she being too obvious? This was just too embarrassing she couldn't handle it.   Undyne consider just telling him to forget it, before he landed a gentle hand on her shoulder.   “OF COURSE I WOULD LOVE THAT! YOU ALWAYS DID MANAGE TO LOOK OUT FOR ME, MY DEAREST FRIEND UNDYNE!” He loudly said, returning to his same old boisterous self. That annoying, yet hardworking, self she quickly grew to enjoy. Undyne felt happy with his answer. So happy that she felt a spark ignite inside, and whatever little hope she had before was restored.   Not wanting the moment to get too cheesy, she cleared her throat and lifted Papyrus’ hand off her shoulder. “Good. Then we'll meet at Waterfall on Monday at 8am on the dot. Don't be late or I'll make you run laps.”   “I'LL MAKE A MENTAL NOTE,”   Undyne patted him on the back before walking towards the front door. “Alright! Well I'm off. If you have anymore more questions, or you just wanna talk, don't hesitate to call me,” she turned the doorknob and sighed. Swinging it open and looking back at Papyrus one last time.   “OH! UNDYNE,” He quickly shouted. She stopped and turned back to face him. “Thank you.” He whispered. She felt her cheeks getting hot again as her heart melt.   “Yeah, don't mention it,” and with that, the door shut and she was gone. Papyrus was left alone in the empty hallway, forced to register all of what  happened. {~} “I think that bitch has the hots for ya, Paps” Sans chuckled as he held Frisk on his lap. She sat quietly while Undyne was still in the other room, but now she felt more and more uncomfortable on his cold femurs. There was no longer a reason for her to be secured on his lap, yet he refused to let her go. Frisk struggled under his grips, almost tempted to bite him in hopes it might convince him to let go.   “SANS, I THINK YOU HAVE A SERIOUS PROBLEM,” Papyrus said while grabbing the back of his collar and forcing him on his feet. “DROP HER.” He commanded.   Sans let out a deep growl before hesitantly obeying. He released the girl, causing her to land on her behind with a loud thud. “I could've swore we went over this already. Telling me I have a problem is like stating that boiling acid will burn you alive. It's pretty obvious, little bro.”   Papyrus pinched the bridge of his nasal bone in frustration. Sans’ hectic actions were really giving him a migraine. He refused to cooperate, refused to listen, refused to make any of this situation easier on anyone. It was like he got some sort of sick enjoyment from seeing people suffer.   “Well it be great if you could take the collar off now. I got somewhere to be and I kinda need my magic for it,” Sans said as he tried to straighten up his dingy T-shirt.   There was absolutely no way Papyrus would even consider removing that collar. And somewhere to be ? That sounded very suspicious, like he was planning on leaving to get high somewhere.   Papyrus took in a deep breath and exhaled as he decided to just clean up the house himself. Sans was useless after all, and would most likely not do a good job, and he couldn’t stand another minute in this dirty environment. He rolled up his sleeves and picked up an open bottle of Pinesol from the coffee table. “WOULD YOU BE SO KIND TO HELP ME, HUMAN FRISK-”     “Did you fucking hear me. I need to leave. Now . So take this off,” Sans pulled at the leather around his neck, trying to gain himself a little more air. Suddenly the collar felt much more suffocating than before.   Papyrus rolled his eyelights before asking, “WHERE DO YOU PLAN ON GOING EXACTLY?” He was fully expecting some half-hearted excuse, and was more than prepared to quickly shoot his brother’s request down. He couldn't remember the last time Sans even considered leaving the house, so why the sudden interest? “IF YOU’RE TRYING TO GO TO SOME DUSTY BAR, YOU MIGHT AS WELL FORGET ABOUT IT.”  He quickly added.   “Nope, not even close. I gotta get to work, I already missed 2 or 3 days, and I’m sure you wouldn’t want me to get fired again,”   Papyrus nearly dropped the Pinesol when he heard the word “work” leaving his brother’s month. Who in their right mind would ever hire Sans with his shitty reputation? “AND WHERE DO YOU WORK?”   “Is that important? All you gotta know is I’m taking that advice of yours and I'm trying to get  back on my feet. That is what you wanted, right?” Sans said nonchalantly as he picked at his teeth.   Papyrus narrowed his sockets as he glared at him. His curiosity was once again peeked, but he also began to grow angry. It was obvious this was some imaginary job he came up with on the spot.  Did Sans really think he wouldn’t notice? Did he think Papyrus was that stupid?   Noticing his brother’s growing fury, Sans retrieved his hands into his pockets, and tried to keep up his “unbothered” facade.   “It’s..uh.. a  job in customer service. You know, that boring shit. But anyway forget about the collar, I think I can just go with it on, heh heh” Sans nervously blurt out, as he focused on his brother’s widening sneer. “I should just get out of your way...uh I won’t be out long.” Sans paced towards the door. He kept his eyes focused forward, praying that his brother’s new blooming pacifism would allow him to leave with no issues. That, of course, wouldn’t be the case. Sans nearly made it to freedom before he was quickly pulled back into the darkness of their messy home.   “SANS, YOU’RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE-” Papyrus sternly stated, patting him on the head like a dog. He handed Frisk a broom and grabbed a stack of clean rags.   ‘Ugh but you don’t understand, I need to go. I promise I won’t be more than an hour, Paps, please” Sans whined. His younger brother didn't seem phased in the slightest, and instead was deliberately ignoring his childish griping. At least he wasn't angry anymore.   “Fine. Since you don’t give a shit about me, I’ll just have to call in sick. But keep in mind, if I lose this job its one hundred percent your fault” He said as he slowly backed in towards the bathroom. Papyrus was too occupied with explaining his instructions for the house to the anomaly, which was perfect for Sans. It gave him enough time to properly sneak away, and quietly shut the bathroom door. He double checked that it was locked behind him, before inspecting the tiny window above the tub.   What Sans was planning on doing next was pretty dangerous, and he wasn't completely sure what Papyrus would do if he caught him. New look on life or not, Papyrus did not take disobedience lightly. So he did have a few ideas, mainly ones starting with his limbs being torn off or his bones burnt, but that didn't matter. If he didn't get out now and get to “work”, he could easily guarantee the inevitable punishment would make Papyrus’ beatings feel like mere tickles.   Sans stretched his arms out before jumping on top of the toilet lid. He originally assumed his body a bit too fat to fit through the window, but then realized that he could make it if he got rid of the extra “baggage” that typically made him bigger than he actually was. He stripped down to the bare bone and grabbed a hold of the shower rod. Sans inhaled as he silently slid the window panel open, and squeezed his naked body through. It barely made it, and his illium almost got stuck on his way out. The skeleton exhaled as his feet met the snow. It chilled up the skeleton’s spine and gave him an extra spark of life. He was pleased and overly grateful this bathroom was located on the first floor and he wouldn't have to make that big of a jump.   Laughing to himself at how clever he was for making such a successful prison break, Sans turned around and flipped the house off. He knew he didn’t have a lot of time before Papyrus realized he was gone, so he had to hurry. Or maybe he didn’t. Now that he was out of his brother’s grips, there was no one to control him. It wasn’t like he was forced to come home. Sans was a grown man and he could do as he pleased, therefore that was exactly what he was going to do. He didn’t need magic to get high, nor did he need it to kill himself. He could do it the good ol’ fashion way, but first he needed to calm his mind before he drew his last breath.   Jogging naked towards Grillby’s, Sans decided he would spend the night at an old “friends” house. Seeing he had no money, he figured he could offer sex in exchange for a room and more of the “substance”. If he was lucky he might get the opportunity to snap his neck without any interruptions.   Sans could just feel that sweet, sweet release. It was almost as refreshing as the winter air. Soon he wouldn’t have to live through another REST. Soon he wouldn’t have to suffer through everyday life. Soon he wouldn’t have to feel that overbearing guilt. ***** Bottles and Bottles of Dirt ***** Frisk slowly blinked her eyelids open. She sat up from the couch as she sleepily scanned the room she was found alone in. The TV was was on but judging by the lack of any sound, she figured it was muted. She stretched her arms out as a loud yawn escaped her lips.   Stepping foot on the cold hardwood, Frisk wondered if Lana was still on the phone. Frisk figured she hadn’t been asleep for no more than 30 minutes since the movie, “ Spaced Invaders ”, was still playing on the television, and the small hand on the old grandfather clock barely moved an inch. The tiny girl quietly got to her feet and tip toed upstairs. She planted her ear against her older sister's door, really hoping to eavesdrop in on the conversation since it was a boy that her sibling was secretly talking to. Frisk knew mommy would be very upset if she found out either one of them had a potential boyfriend.   “You girls are way too young to be thinking about boys. Focus more on school, or cartoons, or dolls. I used to love playing with dolls when I was your age. It's fun and most importantly, innocent.” Mommy once stated after Lana confessed to having a crush on one of her classmates.   Boys were bad. They both knew this, but Lana couldn't help but break the rules, especially when that “rule” is one of the popular kids in her middle school.   Frisk listened in carefully as she tried to pick up on her sister's voice. It took her a few seconds to realize the room was completely silent. Knocking on the door before quickly swinging it open, Frisk decided she would take the liberty to snoop around or discreetly ask about that special conversation she most likely shouldn't know about.   “Lana! Grandma said earlier she was going to the grocery store and I don't think she's back yet...you didn't have to get off the phone so soon” Frisk giggled as she jumped on her sister's bed. Her older sister was usually very cautious with her tongue whenever Frisk was around. She figured it had something to do with the girl’s big mouth, but she couldn’t help it. Grandma had a special way of getting the truth out of anyone, and Frisk had a hard time lying.   “When are you gonna go on your first date?” Frisk teased. “If you guys go skating can I come, I promise I won’t tell him about your dirty underwears that you keep leaving on the floor,”   she stuck her head under the bed searching for her sister. After being disappointed with only finding a few old shoes and pieces of paper, she moved on to the closet. “Lana! Are you hiding?”  Frisk pushed aside her older sister’s hanging dresses and thoroughly inspected the inside of the closet. There was no one in there. Frisk scratched her head in confusion. She ran out of her older sister’s room and banged on the bathroom door.   “Lana! Lana! Hurry up and get out before I call mommy!” She shouted at the wood. There was no response, so Frisk stopped her banging. She figured she might as well stick to different, more reliable, tactics to get her to talk. “Fine. I guess I’m just gonna have to tell on you,” She yelled before crossing her arms and pouting. Lana usually instantly confesses whenever threatened, but she was still quiet. This was so out of character that Frisk started to wonder if her sister was hurt. Maybe that boy said mean things to her, or maybe she was sad that she wasn’t allowed to be with him.   “Lana?” Frisk gently twisted the doorknob and was shocked to realize it wasn’t locked. She peeked her head inside.   The bathroom was completely empty. ~{-}~   “PERFECT! YOU’RE A REAL PRO AT SWEEPING,”   Papyrus lightly patted Frisk on the shoulder in approval. She flinched from the sudden contact and wanted desperately to move away from him, but she didn’t dare. It took little to remind her of the last time she tried to resist him. He was so furious that he punched her completely unconscious, and when she finally came to, she couldn’t feel anything below the waist for the next four days.   So instead of trying to gain more space between herself and the tall monster behind her, Frisk focused her attention on her sweeping. Gathering dust quickly into a large pile and hoping that he would stop touching her so she could clean in peace.   “YOU’RE...you’re doing really good..” Papyrus kept his hand on her shoulder as he started to slowly squeeze. Frisk slightly turned her head as she glance up at his face. His eye sockets were void of light and his facial expression was blank.   Frisk was suddenly brought back to the first time she left the Ruins. She was cold, hungry, and oddly confused. Confused because her mind was telling her none of what she was experiencing was real. She knew it couldn’t possibly be, she knew that the only logical explanation was that she was somehow stuck in a dream. None of it was real yet the pain she felt couldn’t be ignored. She couldn’t just not think about the frostbites striking her bare toes. She couldn't pretend her stomach wasn't empty and begging to be filled. It didn't matter how powerful she believed her imagination to be, there was no way her mind freely created any of this situation. And there was definitely no way the creature standing just a few feet away from her was something of make-believe. Papyrus was just as real then as he is now, and so was that distant look in his eyes.   “..Did you ever disassociate whenever I was..” Papyrus didn't finish his question and Frisk didn't say a word. She didn't know if she could answer that. For one, Frisk had no idea what or how to disassociate, and two, she didn't exactly know if she was allowed to answer his questions. Whenever she could, Frisk would try her hardest not to speak to him or anyone else for that matter. He never seemed to mind. As Chara always stated, Papyrus loved the sound of his own voice.   “You can tell me. I promise I won't get mad,” He finally withdrew his hand, but Frisk kept sweeping. She didn’t know what he wanted her to say. Frisk didn’t know what she was expected to do, so she thought for a minute before she gave a response.   “...I don't know.” She quietly said, not taking her attention away from the dust pile at her feet. He was making her more and more uncomfortable, but her body was so used to this feeling that she became good at hiding it. Perhaps if he kept pushing Chara would finally decide to start talking again. Better yet, the girl in her head might take over completely, and Frisk could go back to whatever fantasyland her brain managed to conjure up for her.     “..I have. Do you know what that feels like?” Her captor slowly ran a finger along the edge of his jawbone. He was engulfed in this burning thoughts as suddenly his face seemed tormented. Whatever small curiosity Frisk might’ve had just evaporated the moment her eyes accidentally locked on to his. She didn’t want to know what “dissociate” meant, and she definitely didn’t want to feel it.   Papyrus lifted his shirt, exposing his bare rib cage and spinal cord. I faint glow burst through his chest as a heart shaped orb appeared before her very eyes. “It’s like your soul leaving your body. Have you ever felt that before?” He extended his hand towards her chest as she slowly started to panic. “It rattles your bones and leaves you stiff with chills. Have I done this to you? Have I ever made your life a living nightmare? Have I ever made it so bad that your mind splits and you're no longer you ?” He laid his large palm on her clothed breasts. His hand almost the size of her entire torso, as he was drawn to her heartbeat. Frisk held her breath not sure what to expect next.   Was he going to hurt her again?   A cold sweat slid down from her forehead to her cheek as she felt a painful pressure push against her skin. Before she could even react or question what was happening, she felt something violently rip right through her, as she fell to her knees in shock. She was sobbing warm wet tears as her body started feeling very empty like an egg cracked open and devoid of its yoke. Her sight went fuzzy as she felt her body going cold. The world was spinning and standing still all at once. Her heart was beating loudly with such force that her eardrums nearly burst. “...please..” she finally got out through messy gasps.   Papyrus squat down and ran his phalanges through her hair. He looked just as terrified as she felt, but he kept her soul and his own in his grasps as he looked at her. “I’m not trying to hurt you..in fact I-I think I love you very much..I just” His hand slid down her body as it landed on her stomach. He cuddle it with great care as he planted a light kiss on her soul. “..I just want you to know how it feels..it can get so much worse than this, and I don’t want you to have to experience that.”   The slender skeleton smiled at her. It was the same smile Sans gave her when he first found the small girl trapped upstairs in that little room as a prisoner.   The smile was genuine.   It was kind of ecstatic.   Frisk closed her eyes tight as she tried to envision being back home with her mother. She wanted to see her face again, to see her sister and her grandmother, and to be anywhere but here on the floor gasping for air like a fish stranded on shore.   Maybe if she prayed and promised never again to lie or pick on Bobby in her elementary school, or if she stopped stealing her teacher’s gel pens, maybe then she could wake up back home in her bed.   “I said I’d never hurt you again and I meant it...I really did, but what I’m about to do will bring us so much closer together-”   “No, no...you promised...please...you promised” Frisk broke down as she felt her body tense up. There really was no use in trying to convince him, but she couldn’t help herself.  “I’m sorry, but its gonna feel good..it's gonna feel really good,” He then took the two souls and placed them in separate palms, rubbing his sharp thumb gently on the squishy surface. Frisk started to shiver as she somehow felt his soft touch as if he was tickling her insides. It didn't take long for Papyrus to grow aroused by Frisk’s sudden lewd expression. He placed his tongue between the crease of her soul, slurping and carefully licking down the middle in order to get the full sweet taste.   Frisk found herself feeling more and more ill as her mind got hazy. Whatever it was he was doing to her didn't feel good, but it also didn't feel bad. She just felt hot and so exhausted. “Please,” she pled with him again but he ignored her and kept going.   Frisk couldn't take it anymore, so she held her breath in order to force herself to pass out. She's done it before many times, and the trick to it all was not to have Papyrus know what she was doing. Just breath in, stay still, and try to count to 85. The world would often go black before then.   Just as Frisk inhaled, Papyrus froze. The room fell quiet as he shifted his attention towards the bathroom door. Frisk didn't know what was happening, so she didn't move, instead she closely listened in.   Like blowing on a mood ring, Papyrus’ face drastically turned sour. He gently dropped her soul back into her small chest as Frisk felt the blood rushing through her again. She was relieved that the assault was cut short, but this celebration was also short lived.   The slender skeleton got to his feet and tugged at nothing, as if he was a mime with an imaginary rope. It would’ve been a silly sight if Frisk wasn’t terrified that he might actually be going insane. He tugged again with more force this time, and surprisingly a long thick chain-link leash materialized out of thin air. Papyrus ran his fingers along it’s top and underbelly, as if studying the contents of the black metal.   Frisk was mesmerized by it. Even though it was very threatening and eerie, it was strangely beautiful. The shining metal lead to the bathroom, and the tiny girl instantly knew it was somehow attached to Sans collar.   “THAT BASTARD!” Papyrus shot to the bathroom, kicked the door open with ease, and growled as he glared at the leash going through the open window. His brother’s clothes were scattered all over the floor, and some of the chain was hanging over the shower rod.   Sans escaped.   Of course he did.   Papyrus stormed back into the living room as he threw on his boots. He was cursing profusively while tieing the laces. Frisk stood and watched, a bit confused on how the skeleton was ever able to tell that Sans ran away. She wondered if her collar did the same. That thought made her sad.   “I SHOULD BE BACK IN NO MORE THAN A HOUR. THAT DUMB PIECE OF SHIT IS ONLY A FEW BLOCKS FROM HERE AND HE’S PROBABLY PASSED OUT DRUNK” He barked at her in a hurry, not caring that he just tipped over a glass vase that shattered on the floor.   Frisk kept silent as she started to realize he was going to leave her home alone. There wouldn’t be anyone to stop her if she walked out that door, but would that be the smartest decision? Obviously Papyrus already thought of such a thing ever occurring, hence the reason he was freely leaving without trying to lock her up or anything of that nature. There was probably something sinisterly bad waiting for her outside, so Frisk would play it safe. She won’t try to escape, not today.   But judging by the way Papyrus just slammed the front door, she was just glad she wasn’t Sans.   ~{-}~   “Hey, uh so you still up for that offer?” Sans nervously picked at his rib as he leaned in over the counter. Grillby stared him up and down before dropping the glass he was shining. The flame element sizzled as he scoffed.  As always, Sans looked pathetic and smelled awful. He knew that even a monster with half a brain would want nothing to do with him. Hell, Sans shouldn’t even be in his bar considering he was butt naked, but Grillby couldn’t resist.   Sans was just too enjoyable to fuck.   “I don’t know what you’re talking about, but have you ever considered taking a shower every now and then?”  The flame moved on to scrubbing the counter as Sans grunted in discomfort. He looked around the tavern and wasn’t shocked to see it was empty besides the two of them. It was around 12 o’clock afterall.   “c’mon.. I’ll do anything,”   “Anything?”   “Anything. I’m dying here...I just need something to make the pain go away,” He started slightly rocking as he felt his addiction biting at him. He hated the feeling. He hated fucking people for the “substance”. He hated the thoughts running rampant in his mind, but soon it wouldn’t matter. Soon he would wash away the years and years of neverending torment. Soon his bones would be pure again.   Grillby smirked at him, but Sans couldn’t tell since he lacked a mouth or any other facial features. So he stood awkwardly for a few seconds as he waited for a response.   “Go to our usual spot and I'll meet you there,” Grillby sighed as he pointed to the back.  Sans nodded as he scurried towards the boiler room.   As the door swung open, intense heat hit his skull. Sans fanned his face as he attempted to get acquainted with the steam. Out of all the disgusting pigs he was forced to get on his knee for, Grillby was by far the worst, but also the easiest to get the “substance” out of. If only he knew where that bastard was hiding his stash, then he wouldn’t have to be doing this.   Scratching violently at his lower left rib bone, Sans started to zone out. The room was flickering, and he could swear his legs were turning into jello. This needed to be over soon.   “You ready to do this?”   Sans turned as the door shut behind Grillby. He was undoing his belt while his flame hissed in pleasure.   That was quick.   Sans could tell by the tone of his voice, that the fire element was more than excited to do this. That was just great. Now he would probably be forced to do anal rather than a quick blowjob and done.   How could this ever get any worse.   “I was wondering if uh..if i could get it first? You know...to ease the pain” Grillby snickered as he dropped his pants and exposed his burning erection. He pulled a chair out from the corner of the room and sat down, patting his lap in anticipation. When the skeleton didn’t move an inch, Grillby pulled a little baggy, containing ash-like powder, from his pocket. Sans hesitantly approached him as his eyes locked on to the “substance”. God how his mind went fuzzy and his mouth watered. He wished he didn’t need it. He wished he could walk away right now and maybe just forget this all happened. Maybe he didn’t need to kill himself, maybe he could get clean and go back to living a normal life. Life isn’t hopeless, right? That’s what Papyrus said, didn’t he?   “Maybe. Depends on how good you suck me off. No slacking like last time, alright?”   Suddenly those thoughts didn’t matter anymore. He just wanted it. No. He needed it. He need it so bad. Just to make the pain go away. This would be the last time.   The very last time .   And if he was lucky, maybe he could start from scratch in his next life. He won’t fuck up Papyrus like he did last time. He would kill Gaster much sooner this time. Kill him before he got to his brother.   Sans dropped to his knees as he hung his tongue out of his mouth. He grabbed a hold of Grillby’s dick, trying to endure the pain caused by the 3rd degree burns he was surely creating on his palms. He stroked it from the tip down to the base, ignoring the blackening of his phalanges and the smell of burning marrow. Taking a big deep breath, Sans placed his glowing tongue directly on the molting hot shaft. Realizing how god-awful it felt, he attempted to not push away. He couldn’t do that or he wouldn’t get the drugs.   “Mmm..Good boy,” Grillby mockingly patted him on the head. It took every ouch in Sans body to not extinguish the dumb fucker right there. He needed to get this over with. Getting a better grip on Grillby's dick, Sans shoved as much of it down his throat as his body would allow. His tongue started to toy with it as he rapidly bobbed his head over the flame’s erection. Tears began to pool at his sockets as the agony in his mouth slowly started to feel worse than his sickening withdrawal.   Sans could taste his blood mixing in with the saliva and pre-cum. It was the worst thing his taste buds had to endure for a long time. Yet, even though his mouth felt like an oven, and Sans could  swear his head was about to explode and kill him right there, this wasn’t the worst he’s ever felt. Not by a long shot. He grew up practically as a lab rat. Having things from needles to butcher knives stuck in him. Being pried open and inspected inside and out. Having every bone in his body broken, and being mere inches from death in several occasion. This was nothing new. He’ll get over it.   He always does. Through teary eyes, Sans looked up at Grillby, who was moaning and burning a deep blue. The room was getting really hot as more steam began to cloud the atmosphere. It was so steamy that neither Sans, nor Grillby, noticed Papyrus standing near the entrance.   Papyrus was mad.   Very mad.   So mad that when he struck the legs of the wooden chair, they feebly flew off and caused Grillby to land flat on his behind. Sans quickly pulled his mouth away from the sudden commotion. It freely hung open dripping blood, drool, and cum all over the floor.   Sans would’ve been more shocked to see his little brother suddenly appear before them, if he wasn’t distracted by the pain in his jaws, and the thought of wanting nothing more than to get high at that very moment. Nothing mattered but the “substance”, and he honestly couldn’t bring himself to care about anything else. Papyrus hefted Grillby to his feet by his shirt collar.   “Woah, woah there, officer. Me and Sans here were just having sex, the last I checked that wasn't a crime.” Grillby firmly patted him on the shoulder as she hung a few inches from the ground.   Papyrus could tell this bastard had a smug look on his face, he was just lucky he couldn't see it. Without second thought, he punched the flame element square in the gut, causing him to gag and spit the air out trapped in his lungs.   Papyrus was planning on dropping him, he was simply going to grab Sans and head home, but now he was getting really stressed from all the anger surfacing to his head. He couldn't just leave before getting a few good hits in first.   He tightened his hold on Grillby’s collar before striking him over and over and over again. Each blowing cause a more ear piercing wail, as his fist made repeated contact with the flame's stomach. He kept this up for five minutes, clearing his frustration and rage and transferring it directly in every punch. He loved the sound his living punching bag made. He loved to hear him gag and plea. He loved to see the light slowly drain out of him as he fell unconscious. Nothing was better than making the weak pay. He hated perverted scum. He hated people that used others for their pleasure. He hated abusers. He hated selfish assholes. He hated people who couldn't keep their promises. He hated hypocrites.   He hated himself.   After a few moments, Papyrus finally dropped Grillby and left him a bloody mess on the floor.   “I can't do it, Paps. I need it...please just get it for me..” Sans was curled up, twitching, in a ball. If Papyrus was any more heartless he would've gladly kicked Sans while he was down. He deserved it after all, but Papyrus couldn't bring himself to do that.   Instead he picked his big brother up and held him in his arms, gently cradling him like an infant. Sans shivered in his embrace as he kept up his compulsive scratching.   “Sans, please let me help you. I swear I'll make the pain go away..you just have to let me,” He whispered against his brother's skull. Sans let fat tears escape his sockets as he deeply thought about what his brother said. Maybe Papyrus could help him. Maybe Sans should just swallow his pride and let whatever happen, happen .   “Okay.” He finally managed to get out. Papyrus smiled at him with such a comforting smile that Sans couldn't but bawl like a baby. For the first time in a long time his mind seem to clear. Even though he was sobbing heavily a sense of peace came over, and he felt genuinely calm.   “That's it. Get it all out,” His younger brother gently rubbed his spine as he cried. That burning sensation loosened up as Sans took in a breath of air. He decided would live. He wouldn't try to take his own life, not until he could make it up to Papyrus. He would undo all the horrible deeds he's done throughout the years. He'll make his brother truly happy.   The two of them stood in the middle of the boiler room for what felt like eternity. They didn't say a word to each other, and they didn't need to.   And for once, the room stopped spinning. _________ Part 1 End ***** Let the Dead Sleep ***** Chapter Summary This is by far the shortest chapter I've written so far. Part 2 ___________________   “Hey, Paps. Get up,” Sans gently shook his younger brother’s stiff body, trying to wake him. It was half past midnight and their shared bedroom was nearly pitch black. Papyrus groaned as he rolled over in his sleep.   It was far too earlier for Sans to be messing with him. Father usually woke them up by 3, and that didn’t give him a lot of time to rest. He kept his eyes shut while not trying to question why his lazy brother was up at this time when he usually tried his hardest to sleep-in. Papyrus was far too tired to question anything, and at that moment nothing Sans could do or say was going to get him out of bed.   The previous night was rough.   Very rough .   Father was convinced he was close to making a scientific breakthrough after chugging a few too many bottles of whisky. He decided to up the antics and finally used that jigsaw he modified months ago. He sliced through chunks of the boys bones with such nonchalance, not to mention great carelessness, that it was beyond terrifying. More terrifying than having a razor sharp blade cut through your femur. Papyrus was just grateful Father was willing to patch them up after the “experiment”, rather than leaving them in pieces like a scattered puzzle. He’s done that many times before in the past, and Papyrus didn’t like having to go days without an arm or a leg. Despite being a skeleton, it did hurt tremendously losing your limbs, and stitching back a body part was no easy task even with magic.   The small skeleton wanted nothing more than to put the last 24 hours behind him and drift back to dreamland. There he was safe and no one, not Father or anyone else, could ever harm him. It was his secret haven, his peaceful paradise, and he was beyond convinced that it kept him sane. Too bad he didn’t get enough chances to sleep, and when he did it was often hard for him to fall unconscious. His mind was always racing, but now it wasn’t. It was as calm as the sea after a violent storm. Soothing. Tranquil. Still. The only good thing in his abused little life.   Why couldn’t Sans let him get at least a few more minutes of sleep.   “C’mon, Paps...we really gotta go.” Sans shook him with more force. Putting a lot of aggression and panicked anger in his rough shoves. This wouldn’t be the first time Sans tried to gain his attention in the middle of the night, but that usually never ended well for Papyrus. He really hoped his brother didn’t want to play another game of  “doctor” and have him suffer through more “inspections” in Sans deceitful promise of healing him. The “inspections” never helped, they just made him more agitated and confused.   “Get up now before I drag you out of bed,” His older brother now had desperation and fear in his voice. He was acting as if he broke Father’s favorite surgical instrument and was scared of getting caught and beaten.   Perhaps whatever he wanted was serious. Papyrus slowly sat up as he wiped his sleepy sockets. He could barely make out his brother’s face in the dim light.   “What’s going on? Why aren’t you sleeping-”   “We need to leave now before someone realizes he’s gone,” Sans started looking around their room in a paranoid fashion, almost as if he was scared someone was going to jump out of nowhere and harm them. Did he really break one of Father’s instruments? If so, what would Papyrus have to do with any of that?  Sans behaviour was odd and it was starting to get to him. Should he be afraid as well?   What was going on?   “Sans, I don’t understand. Who’s gone?”   Sans jumped down from his brother’s bed and pulled a school bag from the closet. He went around the room stuffing clothes inside before zipping it up and placing it around his shoulders. He then threw on a pair of snickers before poking his head outside of their bedroom door.   The lab was quiet. It was always quiet. Quiet unless Father was in the middle of one of his “experiments”. Papyrus hated the eeriness of it all. The lab felt like a morgue, and perhaps that was fitting seeing he was a skeleton. But he was very much alive, so alive he could oddly feel the air passing through his ribcage and his soul thumping against his bones. He wasn’t the walking dead or a decomposed corpse, so he didn’t deserve to be somewhere so gloomy and depressing.Yet, he was still trapped in this porcelain prison. The walls were white, the floors were clean, but every inch was still stained with such strong filth.      “Are you coming or what? What part of ‘we need to leave now’ do you not understand?” Sans threw him a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. Papyrus stared at the pieces of clothing as if it was a strange foreign object. None of it was making any sense. What could his brother have possibly done to put him in such a rush.   Were they no longer needed?   Papyrus remembered over hearing Father on the phone a few days ago, and just how furious he was about the possibility of losing his funding. Apparently, he wasn’t showing results fast enough and the king wanted to cut him off completely. He threatened to have him replaced by the end of the month if he didn’t come up with something efficient soon. After Father got off the phone he tore his office in pieces out of an angry rage. He was so mad that he didn’t even bother to feed them, or let them out of their room for a good two days. Papyrus didn’t realize just how hungry he could get, until then.   “You're supposed to put it on, genius,” Sans teased as he rubbed the back of his neck impatiently.   Still confused about what was going, Papyrus decided to obey as he quickly got dressed. There was no point in prolonging any of this, and if Father did have plans of “terminating” them it was best to hurry up and leave. But Papyrus was still so curious. He was always curious, and that part of his nature got him in a lot of trouble.   “Will you tell me now?” Papyrus asked as Sans grabbed his hand and lead him through the long halls of the laboratory. It was a bit shocking that their bedroom door wasn’t locked. Father made sure every night to securely lock it before he went to bed.   Sans didn't say a word for a while as they walked in silence. The shorter of the two frequently pulling a crumpled map from his back pocket and inspecting it, whispering to himself as he attempted to pinpoint where exactly they were going. It was no easy task since all the walls and doors looked the same, not to mention the map itself was like trying to decipher a twisted maze. Sans usually could handle tough situations and complicated problems, but he somehow couldn’t now. Father made sure to state Sans was the smarter one whenever given the chance, but puzzles have always been Papyrus’ thing. It was like he was a prodigy at cracking them. Impressive if the rest of his brother wasn’t so dumb. Sans was slightly tempted to have his younger brother give the map a look, but his pride held him back.   “Sans-”   “Shut it for a moment! I can't think if you're fucking yapping!” He stressfully barked.   Papyrus let go of his brother's hand and stopped barely shuffling behind him. He wasn’t even sure if he could trust Sans. What if Father wanted Sans to snatch him out of bed. What if Sans was just doing as he was told. What if his brother was leading him to his death.    “I’I’m not going anywhere with you...n-not if you’re gonna talk to me like that,” He cuddled his arm near his chest, looking at the hand he just grasped. Papyrus was scared, but he was always scared, so this was nothing new.   “Why are you just standing there? Why can't you understand that we need to get outta here,”   Papyrus stubbornly didn't budge. He needed to know what was going to happen to him. Where exactly where they heading? Sans growled.   “Fine! I'll tell you...Father’s gone and if we don't leave before sunrise we might be trapped in here for-”   “Father's gone? B-but where did he go?” Papyrus asked surprisingly panicked. If Father wasn’t here anymore, who was going to take care of them? The two boys were never fortunate enough to actually see any other monsters in person, but they’ve seen plenty in pictures, and each photo was always depressing. Father made sure to only show people suffering. Never a smile in sight. Never a happy moment.     Sans turned around to face him with a smile on his face. A very bizarre smirk stretching from cheek to cheek. It was a smile Papyrus grew accustomed to whenever Sans wanted to “play”. It was a sick smile that made Papyrus very nervous. He wanted to run away and hide and never ever come out, since he didn’t feel safe. He never felt safe and it wasn’t fair. Did everyone feel this way? Did everyone look so amused at the thought that they may be in great danger? Did everyone harm the people they were supposed to love? Papyrus deeply wished Sans wouldn’t  grin at him like that ever again.   “He's dead. I killed him.”   But of course, that expression became his permanent signature.   End Notes If you got this far, you deserve a cookie. *hands out cookies* Please drop_by_the_archive_and_comment to let the author know if you enjoyed their work!