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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      F/M, M/M
  Fandom:
      Hanson_(Band), One_Direction_(Band)
  Relationship:
      Kate_Hanson/Zac_Hanson, Zac_Hanson/Harry_Styles, Natalie_Hanson/Taylor
      Hanson, Isaac_Hanson/Original_Female_Character(s)
  Character:
      Zac_Hanson, Harry_Styles, Isaac_Hanson, Diana_Hanson, Taylor_Hanson,
      Avery_Hanson, Jessica_Hanson, Mackenzie_Hanson, Zoe_Hanson, Walker
      Hanson, Natalie_Hanson, Kate_Hanson, Anne_Cox, Des_Styles, Gemma_Styles
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      Year-Old_Harry, 16-Year-Old_Zac, Gay_Male_Character, Gay_Character,
      Closeted_Character, Denial_of_Feelings, Internalized_Homophobia,
      Homophobia, Churches_&_Cathedrals, Alternate_Universe_-_Teenagers,
      Teenagers, Teenage_Harry, Tree_Houses, naked_harry, Neighbors, Alternate
      Universe_-_Neighbors, Teen_Years, Questioning, Sexuality, Sexuality
      Crisis, Underage_Harry, Underage_Zac, Flirting, Awkward_Flirting,
      Accidental_Voyeurism, Blow_Jobs, Gay_Bar, Crossdressing, Bathrooms,
      Secrets, Oklahoma, LGBTQ_Character, LGBTQ_Themes, Boys_Kissing, Bathroom
      Sex, Masturbation_in_Bathroom, Hair-pulling, Dirty_Talk, Mutual
      Masturbation, Church_Sex, Crossover, Crossover_Pairings, Work_In
      Progress, On_Hiatus
  Stats:
      Published: 2015-07-13 Updated: 2016-02-06 Chapters: 6/? Words: 14000
****** Just Like A Prayer(I'll Take You There) ******
by orphan_account
Summary
     (a story about teenagers;falling in love;awkward crushes; and
     questioning one's sexuality)
Notes
     This story is more than likely going to span several years as Zac
     grows up and realizes who he is and what he is. Please bear with
     me...updates may be slow.
     Disclaimer: This is a fictional story. None of this story is true and
     I am in no way associated with Hanson and One Direction. I do own any
     original characters. Also, please do not translate this unless you
     ask me for permission first. Thanks!
***** First Meeting *****
Chapter Summary
     Excerpt: "Did you like what you saw?" he asked curiously before
     chewing on his lip with an innocent look that Zac found hard to buy.
Chapter Notes
Sixteen year old Zac Hanson chewed on his lip as he helped his oldest brother
sit the dinner table. Zac usually didn't help out but they were having a family
who had just moved in next door over for dinner and so their mom had employed
every one of her kids who could help into helping.
That meant that while he and Isaac had to sit the table, Avery and Taylor were
in the kitchen helping their mom prepare dinner and Jessica was in charge of
watching Mac and Zoe. At least in the end Zac guessed that he and Isaac got it
easy since they had the least amount of things to do.
After they had finished Zac looked at Isaac and sighed, "You're so lucky you
get to skip out of these dinners when they invite new neighbors over," he
sighed wishing he could opt out of them too, mainly because most of their
neighbors were older people and they held little to no interest when it came to
Zac. If Zac had it his way, he'd be at his girlfriend Kate's tonight instead of
here getting to meet the Styles's who had just moved in three days ago and whom
Zac had somehow yet to even see.
"Well when you become an adult I'm sure mom and dad will let you skip these
things too," Isaac teased as he walked to Zac and patted his back. "Though they
may never let you skip church. I mean look at me, I'm twenty and I still have
to go to church just because our dad is the preacher," he sighed as he shook
his head and walked away.
When he had walked away Zac looked around before heading upstairs, he still had
a few minutes to spare before the neighbors got here and he knew if he didn't
at least brush his hair and pull it back into a ponytail that his mom would
probably kill him or at least ground him until he was thirty.
Going into his room though he stopped at the window as he looked into the
window of the house next door open and as he looked inside he froze slightly at
the sight. There in the bedroom was a boy who had to be around his age walking
around naked and Zac knew he shouldn't stare, it wasn't polite but he couldn't
help himself.
It was the first time he had actually seen another boy naked outside of the
porno's he watched to get himself ready for whenever he and Kate had sex, which
he was sure would be soon with how far they went when ever they fooled around
now days.
Biting his lip as the boy bent down before turning around, Zac felt his cheeks
go warm as his eyes scanned the boy's body before landing on his cock. He was a
bit bigger than Zac but that was really all he could tell from here...well no
he could now see the other boy moving his head up and when he did look up Zac
was sure he heard his feet become literally glued to the ground because he had
just been caught watching this kid prance around naked.
When the boy just raised his hand and waved, Zac's cheeks got hotter and he
quickly moved away from the window, shutting his curtains and then going to get
a hair tie to put his hair up with.
"Good one Zac," he muttered to himself not believing that he had just let
himself check out another boy but he had been curious and well it had gotten
him caught though the guy didn't seem to mind so maybe curiosity wouldn't kill
him.
Shaking his head though, Zac found a hair tie and quickly put his hair up
before heading downstairs where he found his mother and Taylor setting food out
on the table.
"Zac can you get that please?" Diana asked as she looked at her son and smiled
right after the doorbell rang.
Zac offered his mom a smile, "Sure," he said before walking the few short steps
to the door which he opened and after he opened it, he found himself pausing
and blushing as he recognized the boy he had been staring at, in the group of
people on his porch.
Before he or they could speak though, Zac heard his mom's footsteps before she
came to a stop beside him, "Zac, say hello to our new neighbors. Anne and Des
Styles," Diana spoke as she put her hand softly on Zac's back. "And these must
be your two children?" she asked and Zac saw her eye a teenaged girl as well as
the boy whom he had been checking out just minutes prior, a boy who was now
giving him a shit eating smirk.
Feeling his cheeks growing warmer Zac barely listened to what the woman said
when she answered his mom, though he was sure she heard her faintly say her
kids were named Harry and Gemma but that was all he heard because now he was
feeling embarrassed about having watched the kid naked, he was embarrassed
because what a great first meeting this was.
Meeting the neighbors kid who he had looked at just because he was curious
about seeing another boy naked in person or semi in person. He should have just
went down the street and asked Johnny the boy who his father refused to let him
be friends with because Johnny was openly gay and according to his father that
was wrong and no son or kid of his was going to hang out with gay people, lest
they be lead into temptation.
Though Zac was sure Isaac had a few gay friends but then again Isaac was an
adult though so was Taylor but Taylor seemed more into pleasing their parents
than Isaac did now days.
It was after the woman had introduced her kids and said a few more words to his
mom that Zac came out of his thoughts just in time to trail behind his mom into
the kitchen where it seemed his father had wrangled the rest of the family who
were now sitting at tables.
"I'm Harry," a deep English accent spoke from beside him and Zac turned his
head to see the wide eyed, smiling boy who he had been watching earlier,
walking beside him. How had he missed the memo this family wasn't even
originally from America? Maybe he should have paid better attention when
Harry's mom had been speaking.
"Zac," Zac whispered loud enough so Harry could hear him. "I'm umm...I'm sorry
about earlier," he apologized seeing a knowing look pass Harry's face before
Harry broke out into another smile, this time with dimples popping out on his
cheeks.
Before Harry could respond though they made it to the table where Zac sat down,
choosing to sit between Taylor and Jessica and again during dinner he found
himself zoning out as the conversation was mainly held between the adults,
though the times he did zone back in, he had found himself hearing such things
as his father's asking the Styles to attend their church, a statement that he
was sure he saw Harry cringe at and then once he had zoned back in when he
heard his father asking how old the children where.
He wasn't shocked to find out Harry was fifteen though he'd be turning sixteen
in three more months. At least that put Zac at ease slightly that he hadn't
creepily checked out someone too much younger than him. Three months wasn't so
bad.
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By the time dinner was over with and all put away, Zac had somehow found the
time to slip outside into the cold air that was settling in with November right
around the corner, and headed over to the tree house that had been built years
prior when he had been eleven.
It had been built for him and Taylor though Taylor rarely used it now days but
Zac still found himself coming to it, mainly when he wanted to escape and be
alone and after dinner he had wanted to escape especially since the Styles
family was still here and his younger siblings were running wild. Maybe it
would have been somewhat bearable had Taylor been there but he had checked out
after dinner, deciding to go and visit his girlfriend of the month..Zac swore
her name was Natalie and he also swore she was friends with Kate.
Hearing someone climbing up the steps of the tree house, Zac half expected to
be greeted by his parents, telling him to get inside but instead when the
person finished their climb up, Zac was surprised to come face to face with
Harry again.
"I sort of saw you sneak out and come up here," Harry explained as he walked
closer to Zac and sat down. "I hope you don't mind the company but it's kind of
boring in there now that your parents and mine are talking religion."
Zac chuckled at that, "Religion not your favorite subject?" he asked as he
raised an eyebrow though he was only teasing the fellow.
At that Zac watched as Harry scrunched up his nose and shook his head, "Not
really, no. I just have some conflicts with what it teaches," he confirmed as
he shrugged his shoulders finally.
Going silent at that, Zac almost wanted to question what Harry had meant by
that but he didn't mainly because he barely knew Harry and it wasn't his place
to ask such invasive questions.
"I'm sorry, again," Zac apologized bringing up the earlier accident. "I mean
for staring at you like that. It wasn't polite of me to do."
"It's fine," Harry spoke and Zac just gave him a surprised look which set Harry
off into a set of giggles before he explained himself. "I'm kind of a nudist
anyway and tend to walk around naked, it's a bad habit and my family hates it
but I just feel more free when I have no clothes on," he said as he ran a hand
through his short curly locks. "I guess I'll have to be more careful and try to
shut my blinds but at least my room isn't directly across from some weirdo old
man perv."
When Harry explained himself Zac nodded his head, "I guess that is the one
plus, no weirdo old man perv," he agreed.
"Anyway if I had problem with it I wouldn't have waved at you, which it isn't
polite just to stand there and not wave back," Harry smiled his dimples popping
out again.
Blushing at that Zac looked down and swallowed hard. He wasn't used to someone
like Harry being so open and forward like this.
"Yeah well, I was in shock that I had been caught," he finally spoke as he
looked back up. "But next time I see you naked from my bedroom window I'll
definitely wave."
Harry continued smiling at that response, "And if I ever see you naked I'll
wave. Being caught staring doesn't shock me," he said before doing a once over
of Zac's body or at least Zac thought he had done one and he felt his cheeks go
red again.
Before Zac could say anything though, they both heard a woman calling out for
Harry and Harry stood from where he had been sitting, heading to the stairs in
the tree house but before he walked down them he paused slightly, "Did you like
what you saw?" he asked curiously before chewing on his lip with an innocent
look that Zac found hard to buy.
And Zac was sure if he hadn't already been blushing he would have started but
at least now he probably resembled a tomato. "I...ummm....I...." he stuttered
becoming speechless because he really didn't know if he liked what he saw or
not. It was the first naked body he'd seen outside of porn and it was okay
but...well no he wasn't sure if he could answer that.
"Forget I asked," Harry said as he shook his head, his smile falling before he
turned around again and headed down and out of the tree house, leaving Zac
still sitting there speechless.
***** Discovery *****
Chapter Summary
     Excerpt: "Go down," he muttered as he kept looking at his pants as if
     he could will his erection away but yet he couldn't.
Zac looked at his appearance in the mirror, running a hand through his now
short hair. It was February and Valentine's Day and he should have been
spending the night with Kate, losing his virginity for the first time but that
hadn't happened because apparently she was busy and if things cleared up she
would call him and let him come over but so far that hadn't happened and it was
going on nine.
So instead of spending time with his girlfriend he had asked his mom to cut his
hair for him because Zac had decided he needed a change. That and he was
getting tired of his father telling him he was looking too much like a sissy
with his hair long. Now though as he ran his hand through his short locks he
regretted that option but it was too late to take back. His hair was short and
he'd have to live with it.
"Just like I'm going to have to live with being a virgin," Zac muttered under
his breath before opening the door and leaving the bathroom. On his way back to
his room he wasn't surprised to find Isaac and Taylor's door open and the room
dark and empty. Of course they'd be out.
Isaac had gotten a new girlfriend in December and was slowly moving on from the
foreign exchange student he had dated a year or so back and Taylor had recently
went back to Natalie for what felt like the twelfth time in a matter of months.
They both had girls who at least wanted to be with them while lately Zac was
beginning to doubt that Kate wanted him. She was always making excuses for why
she couldn't see him.
Shaking his head he finally walked into his room and shut the door behind him
as he walked to his bed. He may as well have just called it a night and go to
bed reading Lord of the Rings but as he walked to his bed he came to a stop as
he looked out his window and across the yard into Harry's window.
In the past few months he and Harry had become somewhat good friends, he had
taken Harry under his wing at school and introduced him to his friend crowd and
most weekends Harry hung out at his house or vice versa, whenever one or the
other wasn't busy and Zac was slowly becoming okay with the fact that Harry
usually kept his curtains open even if that meant an accidental peep show,
though Zac made an effort not to look now but sometimes Zac had to admit he was
mesmerized by the other boy's naked body.
It was a sin more than likely but Zac was even more sure what he was witnessing
in Harry's room was even more of a sin and it made his stomach drop because if
his dad could see the fact that next door in Harry's bedroom was Johnny on his
knees giving Harry a blow job then his dad would make sure to end his
friendship with Harry.
And that was the main reason Zac should have shut the curtains to his room
instead of standing at his window watching the scene unfold but he couldn't
help it, especially since this was a shock because he hadn't realized Harry was
gay even if he thought Harry had checked him out in the tree house on the night
they first met.
Zac knew he wasn't good at reading people but he swore Harry had seemed
straight but then again he had implied there was things he disagreed with about
Zac's dad and Zac guessed he knew what that was now that he was literally
watching Johnny suck on Harry's dick.
Biting his lip as he continued to watch Zac only looked down briefly when he
felt the all too familiar tight feeling in his pants and the moment his eyes
landed on his erection he swore he wanted to be sick. There was no way the
sight of two men together sexually had made him get hard. He wasn't gay and
this was sick, something that could damn someone's soul to hell.
"Go down," he muttered as he kept looking at his pants as if he could will his
erection away but yet he couldn't. He couldn't just magically make it go away
and he also it seemed couldn't look away from the scene in Harry's room for too
long because when he tore his eyes away from the issue in his pants they went
to the room where Harry was still getting his dick sucked.
"Fuck," Zac whispered loudly as his hand grew a mind of it's own and made it's
way to the front of his jeans were he began to massage himself through the
material. He was fucking sick for doing this while watching two men but his
dick was hard and it was a free show, even if it was a disgusting act based on
the fact that two men together was wrong.
Biting his lip as he continued to watch Zac felt his hips begin to move up as
he kept massaging himself through his jeans and before he knew what was
happening he unzipped his pants and reached in, pulling his cock out through
the slit in his boxers.
Once his cock was free and out in the open he began to pump himself and as he
did so his eyes fell shut and he no longer watched the scene in front of him.
Now he was watching an entirely different show where he was the one on his
knees pleasuring Harry and sucking his cock and he knew it was wrong and gross
but.....shit.
Opening his eyes as he came he looked down at his now dirty hand and he moved
it away, using his clean hand to eventually put his cock away and zip his pants
up before just looking at his dirty hand some more, the evidence on it enough
to make him feel sick and nauseas at what had just happened. He had gotten off
while watching two men and then thinking of pleasuring another man with his
mouth.
"Gross," Zac muttered as he turned on his heels to go to the bathroom and wash
his hands and maybe actually get sick in the process. Maybe at least getting
sick could cleanse him of the thoughts he had, had.
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The next morning as he walked through the hallway at school, Zac visibly
flinched and slowed down as he felt an arm go around him. He was sure of who it
was and as he turned around he had his assumptions confirmed as he found Harry
grinning at him so big and happy.
"You okay?" Harry questioned his grin dropping slightly. "You don't look okay,"
he said as he pulled Zac into him and Zac swore he could smell Harry's cologne.
"I'm fine," Zac answered as he pulled away slightly. "But...I...we shouldn't be
talking."
Harry scrunched up his face in confusion and his arm dropped off of Zac, "Why
can't we talk? Did I do something to make you mad?"
Shaking his head Zac bit his lip briefly before answering Harry, "I can't talk
to people like you," he stated his voice coming out harsher than he had
intended and maybe proving that he had lied when he shook his head at the not
being mad part.
"People like me?" Harry asked his voice now showing as much confusion as his
facial expressions.
"Gay people," Zac spoke as he came to a stop when he reached his locker. It was
then he saw Harry's look change from confusion to hurt and he had to look down.
"I saw you and Johnny last night."
At that revelation silence seemed to overtake them for the longest time, the
only sound around them was the other kids and their own breathing. "I didn't
think you were as prejudice as your dad," Harry finally said breaking the
silence his voice coming out pained. "You seemed different."
Looking at Harry again Zac laughed slightly, "It's not prejudice. It's a matter
of me knowing it's wrong for two men to be together and not wanting to
associate with people who don't know that truth yet."
"So being in love is wrong?" Harry questioned as he crossed his arms staring
Zac down and Zac almost felt as if Harry was looking into his soul. "It's wrong
to love someone?"
"If it's another man loving a man it's wrong," Zac countered repeating his
father's words over the years. "It's unnatural and not what God wanted. He
wanted men and women to be together so they could procreate and make babies and
raise healthy children."
Harry rolled his eyes at that before shaking his head, "I'd like to hear your
own words not your father's," he replied before uncrossing his arms. "But you
can't give me your own words can you? You've never been in love so you wouldn't
know. You may think you have or are in love with Kate but you aren't...not
unless the want for her is an ache you can't get rid of. That's how I felt with
my first boyfriend back home. It was an ache I couldn't get rid of and I tried
to ignore it, tried telling myself I should like girls but I couldn't and so I
finally gave in to what I wanted and yeah I'm gay. I love other men and maybe
one day you'll see past your father's ideas I mean Taylor has..." he ranted but
then stopped at the Taylor revelation.
"Taylor has?" Zac asked as he raised an eyebrow and now it was him looking at
Harry curiously. "What about Taylor makes you think he doesn't think the same
as our dad?"
"It's not my place to reveal Taylor's secrets," Harry stated as he backed away
from Zac. "But I think we said all we need to say huh? You don't want to be
friends with me because I'm gay then fine we aren't friends," he said before
turning and walking away.
Watching Harry walk away Zac just stood there dumbfounded and confused because
he did want to know what Harry was going to say about Taylor. Hearing the first
bell ring though Zac heaved a sigh and turned to open his locker so he could
get his stuff out and make it to his first class in time and he hoped he could
concentrate since his mind was now on whatever piece of information Harry had
on his brother.
But Zac figured he knew Taylor well enough. Whatever Harry knew couldn't be
that bad and it was probably a misunderstanding. There was no way Taylor
thought differently than their dad....but maybe he could find a way to broach
this subject tonight if Taylor was home for more than fifteen minutes. Then he
could see what Harry's misunderstanding was that made him think Taylor thought
differently and believed it could be okay to sin.
***** Rainbow Lounge *****
Chapter Summary
     Excerpt: "I....I think I'm going to be sick."
That night as Zac sat in his room he looked at Taylor who had surprisingly had
a bit of time to spare and talk to him but since it was a Friday though he
claimed he didn't have much time because he was going out with Natalie and a
few other friends.
"Are you just going to sit there and stare at me or are you going to talk about
whatever you wanted to say?" Taylor asked his tone implying that he was annoyed
at Zac. "I promised Natalie I'd be at her house in twenty minutes so I do need
to leave soon, you know."
Looking away from Taylor, Zac swallowed hard as he tried to find the words he
wanted to use, "D..do...do you ummm think two men...do you think it's okay for
them to love each other?" he asked hating that the question had even been hard
for him to ask.
Taylor's face contorted at that question, it was now almost like the face he
made when he was scared their dad would find him sneaking smokes into the house
and that did nothing to help Zac in thinking Harry had been wrong.
"Why would you ask that?" Taylor asked his voice going up an octave or two.
"You....why?"
"Because Harry implied today that your views may have changed," Zac stated as
he still did his best to avoid looking at Taylor or when he did he didn't look
for too long.
Taylor went silent this time for what seemed like an eternity, "Well he's
wrong," he said and Zac felt a little more at ease but not much. "Now can I go
so I can meet my girlfriend?" he asked sounding annoyed again.
Zac nodded his head as he forced a smile, watching Taylor leave his room and he
sat on his bed until he heard Taylor leave the house and then he moved quickly,
heading downstairs where he found his mom doing the dinner dishes, Zoe held
firmly on her hip.
"Hey mom," he started and when his mom turned to look at him he bit his lip.
"Can I borrow the car? I forgot but I had plans with Kate tonight," he lied
hoping his mom couldn't see through it. He didn't lie often but he figured
tonight wouldn't kill him much in the long run.
Diana gave Zac a wary look and Zac was almost afraid she'd say no, "Just be
back before midnight," she told him as she finally gave him a smile. "And be
safe," she added in before turning away.
Smiling as well Zac turned and headed towards the living room where he grabbed
the keys before going outside to the main car. Unlike Taylor and Isaac he
didn't have his own car yet though he didn't have a job yet either but when he
got one he'd probably start saving for a car just like his brothers did.
With their dad's salary as a preacher and seven kids sometimes some things
could get a bit tight money wise and so not everything could be bought for them
by their parents. It was a fact all the kids had learned the hard way at times.
Getting in the car Zac started it and soon began the familiar trek to Natalie's
house, he knew he shouldn't follow Taylor but he was and it wasn't just because
he didn't trust Taylor's words. He did, it was also because Kate and Natalie
were close and he half wanted to confirm his suspicions on why Kate kept
pushing him away now. He wanted to see if Kate had found someone else, someone
who maybe was a lot cooler and less geeky than him, maybe someone who looked
less like a sissy and someone who didn't get off to watching two men.
When Zac made it to Natalie's house he parked three houses down especially
since Taylor's car was in the driveway and he didn't want Taylor to see him or
know he had followed him. If Taylor had been annoyed before he'd be even more
so now.
The wait though wasn't that long and when the front door to Natalie's house
opened Zac sat there confused as out walked Kate, Natalie and another
girl....but where was Taylor? Why wasn't Taylor with them and why had Taylor
let the girls seemingly use his car and the unknown girl was the one driving
it.
Starting the car he was in again, Zac pulled away from where he had parked
after Taylor's car pulled away and he made sure to stay a good distance behind
it as it traveled through the downtown streets. Taylor may not have been in the
car but Natalie and Kate were and they both knew what his family's vehicle
looked like.
When Taylor's car finally did stop in some parking lot, Zac who had followed
the car into said parking lot stayed in his own car until he saw Natalie, Kate
and the unknown girl get out of Taylor's car and start to head down the
sidewalk. Once they were out of his eyesight he got out slowly and then
followed the path they had taken until he spotted them again but he was a good
distance away.
It was only when he saw them nearing some club called Rainbow Lounge did he
raise an eyebrow because he knew this club. It was a club his dad sometimes
preached about and had warned his children to stay away from. But why would
they be going to it?
"They can't be..." Zac started but he froze in place as he watched all three
figures get to the door and then disappear inside. "There is no way," he
muttered knowing he'd know if Kate had supported that sinful lifestyle. Hell he
figured he'd know if Kate was a lesbian and she never seemed like one when her
tongue had been crammed down his throat but well things had been different
between them for awhile.
And even if Kate was a lesbian none of that still explained the mysterious girl
with her and Natalie or even why Natalie was here as well.
"Zac?" a voice questioned bringing Zac out of his thoughts and the moment Zac
turned his head he was face to face with Harry and Johnny. "I didn't expect to
see you on this side of town."
"I...ummmm....Taylor..." Zac muttered not even able to complete his words at
first which he could tell from Harry's face was confusing. "I followed Taylor
to Natalie's house and then Natalie and Kate and some weird chick came out and
got into Taylor's car and I kind of followed them here," he explained hoping
that made a bit more sense.
Johnny laughed at that, "That weird chick is..." he started but stopped as soon
as Harry elbowed him in the side.
"That weird chick is probably just a friend," Harry continued as he gave Johnny
a pointed look.
Zac looked between both boys after that little interaction, "Then what happened
with Taylor?" he asked as he chewed his lip not understanding why he'd stay at
Natalie's or let the three girls use his car. "Why'd he let them use his car to
get here?"
"Yeah, Harry what happened to Taylor?" Johnny questioned curiously and to Zac
his words sounded almost sarcastic.
Harry looked away from both Zac and Johnny's gaze, "I...I don't know how to
explain that," he stated though his words came out forced.
"Well, why doesn't Zac here come into the club with us and maybe he can ask
Kate and Natalie himself?" Johnny asked and that caused Harry to look up
finally and Zac swore Harry looked frightened.
"Zac would never go into a place like that," Harry spoke as he looked from
Johnny then to Zac. "You wouldn't would you? I mean you ended your friendship
with me today because I'm gay so there's no way you'd step foot inside of a gay
club."
Catching the bitterness in Harry's words Zac blushed but he still believed he
had done the right thing today, "To get answers I'd go in there," he admitted
his voice coming out small which was sort of how he felt under Johnny's gaze. A
part of him really didn't see what Harry saw in him because Johnny with his
sarcastic comments seemed like a bit of an asshole.
Johnny snickered at that and Zac soon watched as Johnny reached over and put an
arm around him, "Well you heard him Harry, he'd do it to get answers so let's
get the boy some answers," he spoke though he didn't seem to wait on Harry.
Instead before Harry could object or before Zac could change his mind Johnny
was leading him down the sidewalk and across the street towards the entrance of
Rainbow Lounge. It was almost as if time was speeding up the closer they got to
inside and right as they reached the door was when Zac even noticed that Harry
had been walking in silence beside him.
"You can change your mind you know," Harry whispered as he got a bit closer to
Zac. "Just tell Johnny no if you don't want to get answers."
Zac shook his head as he eyed Harry, "No, I want answers," he stated before
Johnny finally lead him inside and he swore he heard Harry mumble something
under his breath though he couldn't tell what nor did he have time really.
Once inside the Rainbow Lounge Zac could tell just from the people packed on
the dance floor and near the bar that this place was popular. Hell he knew that
from times his dad talked about the place but he had never expected it was this
big, he had just thought it was an exaggeration his dad made at times.
Feeling Johnny remove his arm from around his shoulder Zac looked to the boy as
he raised an eyebrow.
"Your girlfriend and Natalie are usually over that way," Johnny spoke as he
pointed to a few booths off from the bar. "Good luck on getting your answers,"
he muttered before giving Zac a smirk then turning toward Harry. "Let's go
dance babe."
As Zac walked off in the direction Johnny had pointed at he didn't wait around
to hear Harry speak to Johnny. He had no right too because well he wasn't here
for that, he was here for answers.
Getting closer to the booths he felt butterflies form in his stomach and soon
the butterflies took flight when he spotted Kate, Natalie and the mysterious
girl and maybe he should have heeded the butterflies warning and took flight as
well because the minute he came to a stop at the booth that Natalie and Kate
were at with the other girl it seemed he had woken up in a nightmare.
"Zac!" the other girl all but yelled out loudly and even over the loud music
Zac knew that voice and his eyes widened as realization hit him that the person
dressed like a girl was Taylor.
"T...Tay...Taylor," Zac stuttered out his voice sounding panic stricken and he
was sure Taylor's face resembled the panic he felt and as his eyes landed on
Kate he saw the same panic in her face though his gaze didn't stay on her face,
it went to the table where she was holding hands with Natalie.
Shaking his head he looked away from the sight of his girlfriend holding hands
with Natalie and then he turned back to his brother who was decked out in a
little black dress with his hair curled slightly and just a bit of pink
lipstick as well as blush on his cheeks, though what stood out the most to Zac
was the eye shadow that Taylor chose, some glittery gold number that brought
out his blue eyes more than before.
"Did you follow me here?" Taylor asked though his brother's words sounded more
like a harsh statement. "You fucking asshole."
Zac knew he should answer Taylor, say something, anything but for the longest
time he just stood there staring at an expectant Taylor and finally when words
did come it probably wasn't what his brother wanted, "I....I think I'm going to
be sick," he muttered not even sure if Taylor could hear him because his words
came out soft and the music seemed so much louder now.
"Bathroom's this way," Harry's voice sounded and Zac felt hands on the back of
his hip, guiding him away from Taylor's booth. "Don't need you making a scene
getting sick in the middle of all that mess."
"Thought you were dancing with Johnny," Zac spoke as he continued to let Harry
guide him away and he hated how bitter his words sounded because he didn't care
who Harry danced with. They used to be friends and Harry was allowed to dance
with whoever he wanted, get blow jobs from whoever he wanted. Not that the last
bit mattered because Zac would never give another man a blow job anyway.
"I figured you'd need me more," Harry explained as he opened the door to the
bathroom and lead Zac in, walking to one of the stalls. "Knew the truth was
going to hurt," he said as he brought Zac inside the stall and shut the door
behind them before locking it.
Zac eyed Harry warily for a bit but the moment his stomach churned he looked
away from him and bent down to the floor, soon losing the contents of his
stomach, mainly just stomach acid. It was during that, that Zac realized maybe
he should have just stayed home tonight. Then he wouldn't be in the bathroom of
a gay club hurling after finding out his brother liked to dress like a woman
and that his girlfriend was holding hands with the girl Taylor was supposed to
be dating.
***** Pretty Woman *****
Chapter Summary
     Excerpt: "What about Kate and Natalie?" Zac questioned again his
     voice coming out in a whisper.
Once he had felt like he was done hurling Zac reached up to flush the toilet
and as he did so, he watched as Harry got some toilet paper and when Harry bent
down to wipe his mouth off Zac didn't stop him, wasn't sure he could find it in
himself to stop Harry even if he had ended his friendship with Harry.
"Y..you knew?" Zac asked after Harry finished wiping his mouth off and threw
the discarded piece of toilet paper into the toilet.
Harry nodded as he gave Zac a sympathetic smile before fully sitting down on
the floor, "I tried to tell you today, well about Taylor anyway," he said as he
shook his head. "Probably wasn't the best move because it's never nice to out
anyone but I was just hurt with how you had treated me, ending our friendship
over something I can't help."
"But you can help it," Zac said his voice coming out bitter though he wasn't
actually bitter that Harry was gay. He was more bitter at everything he had
just found out. "It's always a choice. The bible says so."
"The bible or your dad?" Harry questioned as he raised an eyebrow.
Going silent Zac looked away from him briefly, "Both," he finally answered once
he looked at Harry again. "It's wrong and you can help it," he said again as he
shook his head. "Taylor can help it too," he whispered not even sure Harry had
heard what he said. "Taylor knows it's wrong just like he knows dressing like a
woman is wrong...when our dad finds out he is going to kill him."
"Taylor may know he was raised to believe it was wrong but to him it isn't
wrong," Harry argued and Zac kept his gaze on Harry surprised that he didn't
look agitated over the fact that they seemed to be going in circles because
neither of them wanted to budge on their way of thinking. "It's who he was
because he was born that way."
"And who is my brother?" Zac asked as he took a deep breath almost bracing
himself for Harry's words as if they had the ability to punch him or harm him
physically.
Harry never once took his eyes off Zac as he opened his mouth to speak, "Your
brother is a gay man who likes to dress up like a woman on occasion and if you
ask me he makes a pretty woman, better than some I have seen."
Again Zac went silent but this time it was to stop himself from saying that
Harry would make a pretty woman too. Harry would make a pretty woman but just
like it was wrong for Taylor to dress as a woman it was wrong for Harry as well
and it was equally wrong that they were both gay.
"What about Kate and Natalie?" Zac questioned again his voice coming out in a
whisper.
"They've been dating for the better part of a year now according to what
Natalie has said," Harry answered as he again gave Zac a sympathetic smile. "I
wanted so bad to tell you once we became friends but I couldn't."
"You could have," Zac said as he looked away from Harry. "I think I deserved to
know my girlfriend was cheating on me."
Sighing loudly Harry fell silent and Zac hated the silence right now because
every bit of it gave him time to replay the scene at the table where Taylor,
Natalie, and Kate had been. How Kate had been holding Natalie's hand and Taylor
in his dress and glittery eye shadow.
It was all too much to take in and Zac wanted a time machine to go back and
erase the last few hours, stop himself from following Taylor or taking Johnny's
offer to see who the mysterious chick had been with Natalie and Kate.
"I couldn't have because again it's not nice to out anyone and it wasn't my
place to out Kate. Kate deserves to tell people on her own time," Harry voiced
out loud and Zac looked back at him, hating that some of what he said made
sense. "And honestly I don't think she was your girlfriend in the ways it
counted. Maybe to you she was because you didn't know but to her you were just
her cover to keep people from knowing she's a lesbian."
Frowning as realization from Harry's words hit him Zac did his best to ignore
the lump that had been building in his throat, "So not only was she using me
but she was lying to her parents?" he asked semi understanding why she'd lie to
them though. Becky and Tom went to his dad's church and he knew they thought
just like his dad did, that being gay was wrong and a sin.
Nodding his head Harry finally frowned and Zac figured that was better than
some sympathetic smile. "I'm sure she felt awful for using you," he said though
Zac wasn't sure he could believe Harry. "Sometimes when you try to hide who you
are, you don't think of other people.."
"She could have told me instead of making me think..." Zac started but stopped
because deep down he knew Kate couldn't have told him. He thought being gay was
wrong and he probably would have blabbed to his dad and her parents would have
found out.
"Yeah I don't think she could have," Harry said as he shook his head no. "But
you know now..maybe you didn't find out how she wanted you too but you know,
same with your brother."
Zac nodded his head before sighing, "So what do I do?" he asked as chewed his
lip. "I..I know it's wrong and it's disgusting but you say it's wrong to out
people as well so that means I can't tell my dad either or Kate's parents."
"You keep it to yourself," a female voice came from the other side of the stall
door and both Zac and Harry turned to look, seeing feet on the other side. "If
you know what's best anyway."
Standing up from the floor, Harry wiped at his pants with his hands before
unlocking and opening the stall to reveal Kate standing there.
"I had to fight off Taylor from coming back here," Kate said as she crossed her
arms and looked down at Zac which made Zac blush as he swallowed the lump in
his throat because even with what he knew he felt like she was judging him when
he should be the one judging her. "Can I speak to him alone Harry?"
At Kate's question, Harry looked down at Zac hesitantly but eventually he
nodded his head and made his way out of the stall, "Don't kill him Katie and
don't let Taylor kill him either," he called out before leaving the bathroom.
Standing up after Harry left, Zac wasn't really sure why he did. It could have
been so he could look at Kate better or maybe the real reason was so he could
feel less judged by her.
"Are you going to kill me?" Zac asked as he eyed Kate feeling a bit scared that
she might actually kill him.
Kate laughed at that, all judgement or stern looks she had been giving Zac
evaporating as she uncrossed her arms and reached out to pull Zac into a hug,
the first bit of actual physical contact they had shared in months, "I could
never kill you Zachary," she muttered out as she held him closer to her. "You
mean too much to me."
"I meant so much that you used me," Zac spoke not even realizing at first that
he had begun to cry until he began to feel his body shake slightly in Kate's
embrace. "You used me."
"I know and that was wrong of me," Kate said as she hugged him tighter, rubbing
his back. "But I needed an excuse as to why I wasn't interested in boys. My
parents were starting to wonder and I knew you had a puppy dog crush on me and
yes I used you but I did come to at least consider you my friend..a friend I
care a lot for."
Pulling away from the hug Zac looked at her, "A friend you trust with your
secret?" he asked knowing she had said he should keep it or else.
Kate paused and looked as if she was thinking over her words, "I want too," she
nodded as she gave Zac a smile. "Taylor told me I shouldn't while I was arguing
with him on coming back here and maybe I shouldn't since you had to ask Harry
what you should do but I want too."
"I can keep it," Zac said knowing even if he thought it was wrong he'd keep
this secret for Kate.
Smiling Kate reached out and pulled Zac into another hug though this one was
brief and when she pulled away she reached up to wipe at Zac's eyes, "How about
you stay and come dance with Natalie, Taylor and I?"
Shaking his head Zac did his best to try and remain strong even if he still
felt like shit and like he had been kicked one too many times, "Nah, I think
I'm gonna go home and sleep," he admitted honestly as began to make his way out
of the bathroom stall with Kate at his side.
As they walked to the door to exit the bathroom in silence, Zac paused briefly
before opening the door, "If you're dating Natalie then who is Taylor dating?"
he asked curiously as he looked over at Kate.
"Some older guy named Alex," Kate admitted as she shook her head. "He's an
asshole but Natalie and I keep our mouths shut on what we think of him when
around Taylor."
Nodding at Kate's words Zac opened the bathroom door and walked out with her
and as he walked to the front door in which he came in with Harry and Johnny,
he turned and looked watching as Kate joined back up with his brother and
Natalie and then his eyes landed on Harry who had finally joined Johnny on the
dance floor and Zac had to look away, not sure why he hated seeing Harry with
Johnny but then again Johnny was a douche and if Harry was going to go to hell
for his lifestyle he should at least be with someone who wasn't a douche.
Shaking his head at that though Zac finally willed his legs to move again and
he exited the Rainbow Lounge, heading back to where he had parked his parents
car. Hopefully if he went home and slept he would wake to find this was all a
dream, though deep down he knew that was wishful thinking.
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Zac who had been peacefully asleep even with everything that had happened
earlier, woke up slightly when he felt a shift in his bed and as he opened his
eyes it took him a bit to adjust to just the moonlight coming through his
window but when he did he realized he had been awoken by Harry.
"Harry?" he questioned keeping his voice low as he watched Harry turn to look
at him in the dark. "What are you doing in my bed?"
"Wanted to make sure you were okay," Harry answered and Zac swore he could make
out a faint smile on Harry's lips. "Begged Taylor to let me come home with him
and then I called and begged my mom after Taylor agreed."
Rolling his eyes Zac tried his best to stay mad at Harry or even feel disgusted
that Harry was in his bed but he was finding that hard, "I'm surprised you
didn't go home with Johnny."
"He's not my boyfriend," Harry spoke as if Zac's words had made him defensive.
"Don't need to be with him twenty-four seven...he's just a good fuck and anyway
even if I was, you are...were my friend and I was worried."
"I'm fine," Zac said telling Harry a half truth. He wasn't yet fine but he
would be. "Just go to sleep now," he said as he closed his eyes and hoped to
get back to the peaceful sleep he had been in but the moment he felt Harry
snuggle into him, pulling his arm around his waist Zac wasn't sure peaceful
sleep would be easy.
Not when his heart had began to beat rapidly and goosebumps had formed on his
flesh because of Harry's curls resting on his bare chest. Harry was entirely
too close for comfort and Zac didn't like it or at least he didn't think he did
if the bundle of whatever that was in his stomach was any indication but he
could smell the alcohol on Harry and he knew it was no use to confront him now.
"Sleep well Zachary," Harry yawned out. "Dream of the pretty woman your brother
makes," he said before giggling. "Or don't because that would be weird."
Zac couldn't help but laugh at that as well, "Think I'd rather dream of the
pretty woman you'd make," he said before he could even stop himself and the
moment the words left his mouth he felt the air grow thick which made him open
his eyes to see Harry just staring at him with a huge grin on his lips.
"You think I'd make a pretty woman?" Harry asked and Zac nodded his head as a
blush worked it's way to his cheeks. "Johnny says I'd make an ugly woman."
"Johnny's an asshole and not your boyfriend," Zac stated feeling a bit proud at
the last comment. "It shouldn't matter what he thinks."
Harry pursed his lips as he took in Zac's words, "But you're not even my friend
so it shouldn't matter that you think I'd make a pretty woman."
Frowning at Harry's words Zac chewed his lip as he pulled Harry closer into him
without even really thinking, "Maybe we could be friends again. I mean I guess
I'm still sort of friends with Kate and I can't stop being brothers with
Taylor."
"I'd like it if we were friends again," Harry admitted as he closed his eyes
and before Zac could say anything else he watched as Harry's breathing evened
out and he knew Harry was out like a light.
"I'd like it if were friends again too," Zac responded as he closed his own
eyes and he continued holding Harry not even sure how he had become the big
spoon to Harry's little spoon and right now he didn't even care. He just wanted
sleep again and to ignore the ball of nerves in his stomach that had made
themselves at home at how uncomfortable or well he thought he was
uncomfortable, with how close Harry was to him.
"Going to dream of you as a pretty woman," Zac whispered as he yawned softly.
"At least then if you were a woman I could like you."
***** Uncut Cock *****
Chapter Summary
     Excerpt: "If you want me to stay you're going to have to get used to
     me doing this," Harry voiced breaking through Zac's own thoughts.
Waking the next morning Zac groaned out at the hard on straining against his
boxers and the moment he moved his hips up, his eyes shot open when he felt
them moving into another body and he panicked slightly when he saw Harry beside
him as last nights events came back to him with sudden clarity.
Finding out Taylor liked to dress in drag and that Natalie and Kate were dating
then he had came home and sometime later Harry had joined him in his bed and he
was still here and somehow obviously because of the dark Zac had missed the
fact that Harry was naked in his bed, he had slept naked beside him and fuck if
his parents had walked in especially his dad he'd be a dead man.
Hell he'd sure be considered a sick one anyway, even more so with the hard on
he had gotten during the night. A hard on that was pressed against Harry's
naked ass and it was that fact that made Zac gulp loudly because what kind of
fucked up nightmare had he found himself in, lately?
Slowly sliding out of bed Zac looked down at Harry, watching as he turned in
his sleep, now laying with his chest and dick very much visible and Zac hated
himself for looking at it longer then he should. He hated himself when his dick
twitched in response to it and he really hated that he almost wanted to reach
out and touch it or get off while standing here and watching him sleep, much
like he had gotten off to Johnny sucking Harry's dick.
Shaking his head from those thoughts Zac left his room, making sure to shut the
door as he made his way into the bathroom, a bit happy that no one else was up
and occupying it at the moment because he really needed to take care of his
problem.
Sliding his boxers down Zac moaned out as he let his hand wrap around his cock
and as he began to pump himself his eyes fell shut with images of Harry. Harry
laying naked on his bed...Harry touching his dick...Harry sucking him off.
Harry doing every naughty thing one could imagine being done.
"Fuck," Zac sighed to himself as he pumped himself harder as the images kept
coming. Images he couldn't stop even if his brain kept telling him it was wrong
and disgusting and he was going to hell for this. He knew his soul could be
damned and yet it seemed his body wanted it.
Zac's body wanted to be damned by thoughts of Harry in sexual situations.
Before he could reach his end though Zac heard the bathroom door open and his
eyes shot open fast afraid that one of his family members had woken up and had
now caught him in his forbidden sin but instead it was only Harry who looked at
him all flustered now.
"I..shit," Harry spoke as he ran a hand through his curly hair. "I should have
knocked. Should have known you were in here since you weren't in
bed...I'm..crap," he sighed as his eyes landed on Zac's cock.
Zac swallowed hard when he noticed Harry staring at his cock and he felt his
cheeks heat up because maybe this situation was much more worse than his family
catching him in the middle of getting off. This was the boy he had been
thinking of, the one who he shouldn't have been thinking of.
Looking away from Harry, Zac shook his head, "It's fine," he said as his voice
cracked slightly. "I umm..just needed to take care of a problem," he muttered
as he looked down at his cock now too and even with Harry standing in the
bathroom still he couldn't help but give himself a few more tugs. "Can you just
shut the door, please?" he asked knowing it would be horrible to be caught in
this situation too. "And lock it."
"You want me to shut the door while still in the bathroom?" Harry asked as his
voice squeaked and his cheeks turned pink and fuck Zac really shouldn't have
found that as hot as he did.
"Just do what I said," Zac growled out when Harry didn't listen to him the
first time and his growl must have gotten to Harry because the boy finally did
as he was asked which was shut and lock the door and after it was finally done
Zac went back to getting himself off, his eyes once again falling shut even if
he was faintly aware of Harry watching him.
Hell the thought of Harry watching him even kind of made this even hotter and
maybe well maybe Zac liked being watched just like he had gotten a bit of a
thrill from watching Johnny sucking Harry's dick though he'd never admit that
one out loud...not yet anyway.
Opening his eyes when he heard Harry let out a soft moan Zac swallowed a bit
harder as he saw that Harry who had walked to the bathroom in the nude had let
his own hand drop to his dick and wrap around it.
"If you want me to stay you're going to have to get used to me doing this,"
Harry voiced breaking through Zac's own thoughts. "Because watching you
masturbate is kind of making me get really fucking turned on."
Zac blushed now though he still didn't stop, no instead it seemed Harry's words
just made his hand go faster, "You like watching me Harry?" he asked and his
words surprised him at how seductive they sounded. It was like he was trying to
seduce Harry or get in his pants and that wasn't true. He wasn't gay.
"I do," Harry answered as another moan escaped his lips. "I've wondered what
you looked like naked ever since you saw me changing the night we first met,"
he admitted and Zac felt his blush grow on his cheeks. "Wondered if you got hot
and bothered when you saw me and what you looked like masturbating."
"I did like it," Zac spoke as he watched Harry lock eyes with him as he did so.
"You asked me in the tree house and I got all tongue tied but I liked it. I
liked what I saw," he continued wishing he could just shut up but his brain had
other ideas it seemed. "I got off when I saw Johnny sucking your dick," he
revealed as Harry who was still staring him down licked his lips. Lips that Zac
wanted around his cock.
"I hate myself for it but god I wanted that to be me," Zac sighed as the air
between him and Harry became thick. "Wanted to be on my knees sucking off your
perfect little uncut cock."
At Zac's admission Harry visibly swallowed harder as he walked a bit closer to
Zac, "You could be on your knees right now sucking my perfect not so little
uncut cock."
Feeling his breath hitch at that Zac sat there for a minute as he debated
against it though what was the use? He had told Harry his dirty little secret
and it was out. He was probably already going to hell so why not just make the
trip there an even faster one?
Taking his boxers the rest of the way off, Zac stood from where he had been
sitting on the closed toilet lid and he walked the rest of the way to where
Harry was, soon stopping when he was right in front of Harry who it seemed was
also having a bit of an internal debate from the look on his face.
"You don't have to really suck my cock," Harry finally spoke this time sounding
a lot less seductive and more scared. "I mean I know you aren't...you think
being gay is wrong no matter what your sexual fantasies are."
"I do think it's wrong but that doesn't mean I don't want this," Zac said
sounding surprisingly genuine and honest. "I want to suck your cock," he
whispered as he leaned in and let his lips capture Harry's own lips in a kiss.
It was a kiss that clearly took Harry by surprise and in ways it took Zac by
surprise too because when Harry finally responded back Zac found he didn't find
it disgusting like he thought it would be.
It was just like kissing Kate had been except as he moved his body closer he
realized there was no set of tits attached to the chest and the closer he moved
to Harry he moaned out into his mouth when their erections touched softly
against each other and well that was the other difference from kissing Kate.
Harry had a dick and this should have been disgusting.
The way his father talked about it, it was but now actually in the middle of
kissing Harry and rubbing his cock against Harry's again because one time
really wasn't enough, Zac found it wasn't. It wasn't disgusting and if sinning
with a boy felt this good then he could probably keep it up.
Pulling away from the kiss briefly Zac looked into Harry's eyes as he sighed
softly, "You're going to be the reason I go to hell Harry and I'm not sure I
mind it so much," he said before leaning in to kiss Harry again and this time
he was much more passionate.
It was also a kiss that Harry returned a lot quicker and it seemed he also
kissed back with just as much passion and Zac knew he'd really hate to break
this kiss but his dick was aching and he wanted to be on his knees sucking
Harry's cock so he could also finish getting off too.
Letting his lips trail from Harry's lips eventually and down to the boy's neck,
Zac heard him whimper and he smirked liking that he could make Harry whimper
like that, hell he liked that he could even turn Harry on because up until last
night he had been afraid he'd never turn anyone on since Kate had never seemed
interested but now he knew with Kate it had never been him. As cliche as it was
it had been Kate.
As his lips reached Harry's chest Zac slowly moved his body down, trying to
remember everything he had seen in a porn when it had been men and women and
women had gone down on men. Yeah the anatomy was different but some things were
still the same and as he heard Harry moan out he figured the way he was kissing
down his chest wasn't such a bad thing.
When he finally reached the point that he had to drop on his knees, Zac did
just that and it was only after he was down there that he looked up at Harry as
his hand wrapped around the other boys erection and he heard Harry mutter out a
few curse words.
"You like this?" Zac asked his voice sounding a bit thick with lust and he knew
his eyes probably had a look of lust or wanting because he did want Harry. He
wanted him so bad right now.
"More than you fucking know," Harry said as he looked down at Zac and as their
eyes locked again Zac was surprised but a bit pleased to see that Harry also
had a look of lust in his eyes and he knew then that yes he really could turn
people on and with Kate it really had been because she was a lesbian.
Smirking Zac broke their eye contact as he leaned his head a bit closer to
Harry's cock, taking a deep breath before finally opening his mouth and
swallowing Harry into it quite literally.
It felt and tasted quite different than from what Zac had thought it would but
as he began to move his mouth up and down Harry's length like he had seen women
do in porn and like Johnny had done, he realized that he could probably get
used to the salty taste of Harry's skin.
He could get used to anything if it felt this good and as his free hand dropped
down to his own dick and he began to get himself off as he sucked on Harry's
dick he was sure it would always feel this good.
Letting his eyes fall closed as he continued to move his mouth on Harry's dick
as well as his hand on his own dick, Zac let out a moan an action that again
cause Harry to curse before the boy reached down and put his hand into Zac's
hair, pulling on the ends slightly.
"Wish you hadn't cut your hair," Harry voiced as he too moaned slightly, his
hips moving some which made his cock go farther into Zac's mouth. "You looked
so beautiful and sexy with your long hair."
At that admission Zac blushed and he slowly moved his mouth off Harry, opening
his eyes as he looked up at him, "Maybe one day I'll let it grow back just for
you," he spoke before giving a wink to Harry. "Though I think you'd look
beautiful with long hair too. Those fucking curls," he added on before letting
his mouth go back to Harry's cock.
It was after that, that the bathroom became full of moans as both Zac and Harry
grew closer to their peaks and Zac came first, his come coating his hands and
his body shuddering slightly and Harry followed soon after with a warning for
Zac to move if he wanted too but he didn't.
Zac kept his mouth on Harry's cock sucking it until Harry came and even then he
kept his mouth on Harry until he was done, drinking up everything Harry had to
offer.
Pulling away after, Zac fell the rest of the way to the floor as he brought his
sticky covered hand up to look at the evidence of what had just happened though
he didn't get a chance to look at it long because before he even knew what was
happening Harry had dropped down to his knee's taking Zac's hand into his mouth
and licking it clean as if what he was licking was some treat instead of come.
"Fuck," Zac muttered out once Harry was done and had eventually joined him in
sitting in the floor. "Just fuck," he sighed softly. He knew now that reality
was catching up to him. Everything that had happened was wrong, a sin, but he
didn't regret it. He didn't want to take back his sin and he couldn't even say
that he wouldn't sin again.
"I'm sorry," Harry spoke softly which made Zac look over at him as he raised
his eyebrow. "I'm sorry for making you go against what you believe."
Shaking his head Zac leaned in closer to Harry, "I did that of my own
choosing," he said knowing he could have stopped what he had just done. He was
sixteen and old enough to make some choices on his own..choices his dad could
never know about, especially knowing they happened in the bathroom while
everyone else was asleep. "I wanted it Harry," he spoke again before closing
the distance and kissing Harry again.
He wasn't sure why he was kissing Harry again especially since parts of this
still did make him uneasy but he didn't want Harry blaming himself. Not when
most of the blame fell on Zac.
"Now come on, we're going to have to leave the bathroom before anyone wakes
up," Zac said after he pulled away from the kiss. "I don't really want to get
caught and have to explain this to my dad," he sighed as he shook his head and
stood up. "I don't think he'll be thrilled to know one of his sons just gave
another boy a blow job in the bathroom of his house."
"I don't think he'd be thrilled to know one of his other sons dresses like a
woman," Harry said as he finally stood up, watching as Zac slipped his boxers
back on. "But your dad needs to realize what he preaches about and thinks is
wrong."
Going silent at Harry's words Zac still wanted to argue back but he didn't
because he'd be the world's biggest hypocrite after what had just happened,
especially since a part of him was hoping it would happen again. So instead he
remained silent after putting his boxers on and he just shrugged his shoulders
before going to the door and unlocking it.
After it was unlocked he opened it slowly, looking around to make sure no one
was in sight and once he knew the coast was clear he left the bathroom with
Harry close by.
"Next time we're going to have to be more careful," Zac said as he went into
his bedroom and shut the door once Harry had followed him inside. "We can't be
going and getting caught by my dad."
"Next time?" Harry asked as he walked past Zac to sit on the bed as he picked
up his underwear from where he had more than likely taken them off last night.
"You want to do it again?"
Zac nodded his head at Harry's question, "Y..yeah," he whispered as he looked
down at his floor instead of at Harry, a blush once again forming on his
cheeks. "I mean you said Johnny wasn't your boyfriend so there shouldn't be
harm in letting me suck your cock again and I liked it. But if you don't want
too..."
"No," Harry said interrupting Zac's words. "I do want too I'm just shocked you
do is all," he said and when Zac looked at Harry finally he saw a smile on the
other boy's face. "I mean doing it again could give you more practice..while I
liked this blow job you did kind of use a lot of teeth," he continued which
made Zac blush. "But every one sucks their first time giving head...no pun
intended."
Laughing at that Zac finally walked to his bed and he sat down beside Harry,
"None taken only if you promise to teach me how to give better blow jobs," he
spoke as he returned Harry's smile.
Harry made a face as if he was thinking over Zac's words but finally he nodded
his head, "It's a deal Zachary," he agreed as he nodded his head and leaned in
to kiss Zac on the lips.
Kissing Harry back, Zac couldn't help but smile more, knowing that he could get
used to this maybe...even if he was going to hell. He just had to hope his dad
never found out or well anyone for that matter. If no one knew about this, then
his own sins, well maybe they could be okay and maybe over time he'd be less
ashamed about them. He'd be less ashamed that he was willingly damning himself
to hell.
He'd be less ashamed that he could and would probably be consider an awful
faggot by his father whom he hated to disappoint.
***** Church *****
Chapter Summary
     Excerpt: "But you really shouldn't use such foul language in a house
     of worship."
Zac chewed his lip nervously as he sat beside Harry on the pew in church. It
was the day after the whole bathroom incident and ever since then well he had
been trying to cope with it, even if he had told Harry it would happen again
and even if he had kissed him, deep down he wasn't sure it would happen again
and so he had came to church today to pray for forgiveness and maybe guidance.
But those thoughts were lost the moment he saw Harry's mom and dad come in with
Harry tailing behind and of course his mother just had to be polite and offer
them a place on their pew and now here Zac was sitting beside Harry with their
legs barely touching.
It was enough though to make Zac slightly hard because it seemed his mind kept
wanting to go to being down on his knees yesterday for Harry and the way their
mouths had felt against each other as they kissed.
Looking over at his mom to make sure she wasn't watching Zac eventually leaned
into Harry. "You want to sneak off to the bathroom?" he questioned whispering
into the other boy's ear, hoping that his words were indeed hushed. "My dad can
get boring when he preaches and I don't think this sermon is going to be one
you will like," he said knowing from the snippets he had heard in the van on
the way here it was about being gay and how it would send you to hell.
Zac figured it was a fitting sermon given what had just happened with him
yesterday but if what he had done felt that good then he probably wouldn't be
so opposed to going to hell.
"Meet me there in a few minutes," Harry whispered back before moving away and
after he moved away Zac watched as he stood up and slipped out of their pew.
It was probably a good thing they left at different times. It'd be less
suspicious if anyone noticed them both missing and the last thing Zac wanted
was people noticing or realizing they had went off together. Especially when
Zac knew they probably wouldn't just be having a conversation in the bathroom,
not if his half hard cock had anything to say about it.
Chewing on his lip again Zac took several deep breaths to calm his nerves
before he too stood up and exited their pew, walking to the back doors which he
opened quietly as he stepped outside to the main foyer and headed to the men's
restroom which weren't too far away.
When he reached it, he opened the door and stepped inside and the moment the
door shut he locked it behind him as he looked over at the sinks where he found
Harry casually sitting on the edge of the countertop that was beside the sink,
his dress shirt now undone or well the top three buttons were.
"If some poor man has to come use the bathroom they are going to be shit out of
luck because of you," Harry laughed as he shook his head. "Locking the door on
them because you don't want to get caught with me in here."
Zac blushed as he walked over to where Harry was, "I guess they'll just have to
suffer," he said as he shrugged his shoulders. "But you really shouldn't use
such foul language in a house of worship."
Harry laughed again as he wrapped his legs around Zac's waist when Zac came to
a stop in front of him. "You shouldn't sneak off into the bathrooms to be
naughty in a house of worship either," he stated as he leaned his head a bit
closer to Zac's. "I mean that is why you wanted to come here right?" he asked
as his voice turned a bit seductive. "Couldn't help but notice the nice bulge
in your pants."
Blushing a deeper shade of red Zac swallowed hard as he listened to Harry.
"That may be why I wanted to come here," he nodded his head as he closed the
gap between them and kissed Harry softly on the lips and he hated the ball of
nerves that formed in the pit of his stomach and the way that his heartbeat
seemed to skip or flutter a bit.
He wasn't gay so he didn't know why he was having such feelings towards Harry
or why his body seemed to literally want the boy. Had wanted him ever since he
had saw him with Johnny. He knew it was wrong and why couldn't he just be
strong enough to stop it it?
Feeling Harry respond to the kiss Zac's heart once again seemed to skip or
flutter and he sighed into Harry's mouth, feeling a bit content as he moved a
bit closer to the boy, though Harry being on top of the counter made it a bit
hard so Zac made due with what he could get.
"Such a good kisser," Harry muttered into Zac's mouth a bit later and Zac
couldn't help but feel his ego go up slightly at that.
Zac moved away from Harry some as he bit his lip, "It was the one thing Kate
actually let me do a lot. Though she was always kissing me like she was
searching for something and I guess knowing what I do now it makes sense."
"Guess it does," Harry spoke as he leaned in to peck Zac's lips slightly which
made Zac whine because he wanted more than a peck and he also wanted more than
just kissing because his cock had somehow gotten harder on him. "You searching
for something with me?" he asked as he moved his legs off Zac's waist before
getting down off the counter top. "Because after you found out I was gay you
literally hated me and that was just Friday and it's now Sunday and I can't
help but wonder what you're doing."
Going silent Zac had to look away from Harry as the boy questioned him. He
wasn't sure if he was searching for something, heck he wasn't even sure why he
was allowing this stuff to even happen because he knew it was wrong to begin
with and he knew it would send him to hell.
"I don't know what I'm doing," Zac finally confessed as he looked at Harry
again this time feeling vulnerable. "I just know I like kissing you and doing
stuff with you even though it's a sin and maybe I was a bit of an ass for
hating you though honestly I don't know if I ever could," he sighed as he shook
his head. "We became friends so fast and fuck I just want you in my life and I
want to keep whatever this is up," he said before he leaned a bit closer to
Harry again. "Now please kiss me again."
Laughing Harry slid his arms around Zac's neck before inching closer to him and
the moment their lips locked again both of them moaned at the same time and Zac
just hoped no one was outside waiting to get in to use the bathroom because
they had probably heard the moan if so.
Kissing Harry back Zac slowly moved his hips into Harry's wanting a bit of
relief again for the hard on that had developed in his pants. A hard on that
was the result again of a boy, the person who was the same sex as him.
"You have a problem?" Harry asked into Zac's mouth before letting his own hips
move into Zac's and Zac too could feel he was just as hard. "So do I."
Zac couldn't help the whimper that came out and he pulled away from the kiss to
give Harry a playful smirk. "I've had this issue since I first came in here,"
he replied a bit sarcastically. "Maybe we can find a way to fix it together."
"Maybe," Harry spoke as he leaned in to kiss Zac again and this time as they
kissed Zac could feel Harry's hands working on his pants, pants which he
quickly undid and after they were undone Zac was the one who reached down and
let them fall before pushing his boxers down as well.
It was after that, that Harry did the same with his own pants and the moment
they were gone Zac shivered as their cocks lightly brushed against each other
as their kiss got a bit deeper, Harry's tongue finding its way into Zac's
mouth.
Closing his eyes hard when he felt a hand go around his cock Zac wanted to
curse or let out a string of curse words but he wasn't sure that was a good
idea given where he was but the sensations coursing through him just felt too
good. Harry's hand around his cock and if Zac opened his eyes he was sure he'd
see that Harry's hand was actually around both their cocks because he could
feel Harry's so close to his.
"You like this Zac?" Harry asked as he pulled away from the kiss though he kept
his hand moving, though now besides his hand moving he was also moving his hips
which was causing his cock to slid up against Zac's more.
Zac opened his eyes as he looked at Harry and for a bit he was unsure if he
could even speak. "I think you know the question to that one Harry," he
muttered out as he too began to move his hips and again they both seemed to
moan at the same time. "Feels so good," he sighed as his head fell back
slightly.
"That's the point Zachary," Harry quipped and Zac couldn't help the moan that
formed in his throat because it sounded so good when Harry called him Zachary.
"Supposed to make you feel good."
Not able to speak all Zac could do was once again moan as he kept moving his
hips, soon getting in time with Harry's hand and he closed his eyes again as he
did his best to hold off the inevitable for as long as he could but eventually
he felt that familiar feeling building up inside of him and this time he
couldn't stop himself as he let out a string of curse words as he came.
It was only after Harry too had came that he felt Harry's hand move off him and
then he lifted his head and opened his eyes to see that Harry's hand was
covered in both of their come and he made a face. "I can umm..get you a paper
towel," he offered as he bent down to fix his his boxers and pants.
"I mean if you can't," Zac blushed as he walked to the sink and washed his own
hands.
"Could you please," Harry spoke and his voice sounded a bit full of lust still
which sent a shiver down Zac's spine. "Don't think I want to try it myself."
Nodding Zac got some paper towels out of the holder on the wall and he quickly
wet them before handing them over to Harry, watching as he wiped his hands off.
"I should umm go back now. Might be a bit weird if we go in at the same time
and all."
"Might be a bit weird, yeah," Harry laughed once he had finished cleaning his
hands off and he looked at Zac. "I think this whole thing was weird
though...weird and hot."
Zac blushed as he looked down and licked his lips because he too had found it
weird and hot. Just knowing they were sinning in a house of worship had somehow
made the whole thing a bit hotter than normal.
"Totally hot," Zac agreed as he walked to the door. "With a slight side of
weird," he shrugged before unlocking it and slipping out, leaving Harry alone
and that thought kind of made him sad because well he wanted to stay with Harry
because right now with all the confusing thoughts in his head at least Harry
was the one thing that made them stop or at least he anchored Zac while Zac
drowned in them.
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