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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Choose_Not_To_Use_Archive_Warnings, Underage
  Category:
      M/M, Multi
  Fandom:
      Shameless_(US)
  Relationship:
      Ian_Gallagher/Mickey_Milkovich, Ian_Gallagher/Lip_Gallagher, Ian
      Gallagher_&_Mickey_Milkovich, Gallavich_-_Relationship
  Character:
      Ian_Gallagher, Lip_Gallagher, Mickey_Milkovich, Fiona_Gallagher, Mandy
      Milkovich
  Stats:
      Published: 2013-04-12 Updated: 2013-08-04 Chapters: 15/? Words: 13098
****** It's hard to say it ******
by ThatGallavichGirl
Summary
     Ian changes his mind about the army, and tried to mend his broken
     relationships
***** Chapter 1 *****
As the bus took off into the proverbial sunset, Mickey couldn't do anything.
His body was frozen in place. His feet too heavy to lift from the ground. His
body ached. And it was a pain he had never felt.
Sure, Mickey has felt pain. The numb, face bashing, knuckle tearing pain. But
never this tearing, throbbing burning pain. This was new. With all of his other
pain, his instincts would kick in and move his body for him. But this? It had
him nailed. ‘Don’t go’ was all he could get out of his mouth, without a simple
sound to his voice. Just words forming on his lips. And with that, the pain got
worse. The worse the pain got, the more heavy his body became. Mandy’s words
rang in his ears, like a train had run over him. ‘Your such a fucking pussy’.
He invited the words in, because he was in fact, a pussy. He couldn't get the
words out to get Gallagher to stay. He didn't know how to get them out. And in
the back of his mind, he felt if he had even gotten the words out, life
wouldn't change. Because he was still married, and he was still going to be a
father, and Gallagher would still be going to the army.
‘Don’t go’ he said again, but this time, with a little more determination in
his throat. By the third time he said it, he could feel the words screaming in
his chest. Finally, after one more try, the bus came to a screeching halt.
Mickey still couldn’t move. He didn’t even know if his words were loud enough
to be heard. Because lets face it, He is a pussy.
He stood there, watching the bus, as Ian stepped off, back pack strapped over
his shoulder, head facing the cold cement ground, as the bus started its path
again.
Ian didn't see Mickey. He didn't see him standing there, with tears in his
eyes. Ian was too busy walking away. The further Ian walked, the lighter Mickey
became, and soon his feet were able to move.
Mickey was too much of a pussy to tell Ian not to leave. He was too much of a
pussy to not let Ian on the bus, and he was too much of a pussy to scream out
at Ian after he had gotten off. But he wasn't too much of a pussy to not see
where Ian was going.
***** Chapter 2 *****
Mickey followed Ian for a few blocks, staying a safe distance behind him so he
would be unnoticed. With each step, he felt his confidence come back a little
more and more. But he didn’t want to get in Gallagher’s way. Ian didn’t look
Happy or sad. He looked blank. This was a new look for him. Mickey wasn’t sure
of he liked it or not. No, he definitely didn’t like it.
As they walked through an alley, Ian kicked a dumpster, and punched a brick
wall couple of times. “Mother fucker” Ian cried out as he threw his fist at the
wall again. This worried Mickey. He had never seen Ian angry. He didn’t think
he ever got angry. But Mickey being Mickey, a pussy, didn’t say anything. He
still stayed a safe distance from Gallagher. He didn’t want to scare him or
make him angrier.
Ian stopped walking and tore his backpack from his shoulder, throwing it at the
ground, the way he threw the bottle in the abandoned building when he
confronted Mickey a few months before, huffing in anger. Seeing that made
Mickey back away a little more, until he was safely hidden behind the dumpster
Ian had just kicked a few minutes ago. He still continued to watch Ian. He felt
like a creeper doing this, but he wanted mostly to make sure Ian was okay.
Mickey kept his eyes on Ian, watching him back up into the wall, sliding down,
with his palms to his face, rubbing down. And that is when he heard Ian cry. He
could hear the pain in Ian’s breakdown. He wanted to run to him and console
him, but he knew he couldn’t. he wouldn’t. He just watched, until Ian took out
a cigarette from his pack, and lit it. Ian’s knuckles turned white as he struck
the lighter, struggling to lite it. After the third try, he finally inhaled the
nicotine and tobacco, with an immediate sigh afterwards. He sat there with his
head in his hands for a while longer, finishing his cigarette, and throwing the
butt to the side, before getting up and cursing Mickey’s name. ‘Fuck you, Mick.
Fuck you’ Ian said as he pulled his pack over his shoulder again, and started
walking again.
Ian said Mickey’s name with such hatred. He had never heard his name used like
that by someone other than his father. It hurt to hear his name said like that
by Ian. He wanted to run to Gallagher, and hit him for leaving. To yell and
scream at him for ignoring him. For walking out on him the way he did. But he
knew he would never intentionally hurt Ian. Mickey loved Ian. Mickey has never
loved anyone. Not even himself. But Ian Gallagher? Mickey Loved Ian Gallagher.
Mickey followed Ian further. He followed him to the Baseball field that was not
less than 2 blocks away from where the bus had stopped. But with Ian’s
breakdown, the baseball field felt miles away. To Mickey, even Ian felt miles
away.
Once at the baseball fields, Ian walked into the dugout and sat on the bench,
finally relaxing as he fought to get comfortable, and opened his backpack. He
took out a joint that he found in a small pocket, and lit it. Mickey could see
in Ian’s eyes that he was about to cry again, and Mickey was going to let him.
Ian clearly had a lot of built up anger in his system that he needed to blow.
A few minutes later, Ian sat up from being slouched over, and put his head
between his knees and let out a loud scream. He took a few deep breaths, and
screamed again, but even louder. When he came back up, Mickey was sitting right
beside him, pulling the joint from his fingers, before it was gone.
“You’re going to wake the dead, screaming like that” Mickey joked as he blew
the thick smoke from his lungs.
“Fuck you, Mickey.” Ian growled.
They both sat there in Silence for a few minutes, before Ian stood up. Mickey
grabbed his arm, and pulled him back down.
“I wasn’t gonna stop you.” Mickey said, as he turned to Ian, pulling his face
as to look at him. “I’m not some bitch” he finished, and Kissed him. “But I am
glad I saw you get off that bus” he finished as he took the last hit from the
joint, and smashing the end between his spit covered fingers.
***** Chapter 3 *****
Ian and Mickey sat in silence a while longer before Ian started talking. He was
seemed less angry, but Mickey was sure he was hiding a lot of his anger,
because he still had that blank look to his eyes.
“Mick- I lied.” Ian said in almost a whisper. “I did go to your house to see
you. And let me finish this before you talk. I did go to see you. I went there
with the intention of telling you I was leaving. I went there, hoping you would
stop me. Hoping you wouldn’t let me get on that bus. But I also knew you
wouldn’t. You still cant even tell me how you feel. But I didn’t want to stay
in South Side thinking you didn’t feel the same as I do. It’s too painful for
me.”
“So, you decide to go sign up to get your ass hot off?” Mickey asks, with anger
in his voice. “And come tell me, like its not going to bother me at all?”
“No. I did it because I cant see you with her, or with a child. I cant see you
with anyone other than me. It hurts, Mickey.” Ian was coming a little more out
of his shell with those words. This wasn’t a new look for Mickey to see, but it
was. It seemed like Ian was opening up to Mickey like he never has before.
There was a comforting peace glowing from him.
“You think I WANT to be with her? You think I WANT a kid?” Mickey asked, with
annoyance in his voice. “You think I WANT to be with someone else? You don’t
know fucking shit, Gallagher. You are blind if you think otherwise.”
Mickey was looking directly into Ian’s eyes. And he could feel the weight shift
back into his body. He couldn’t move. That pain was coming back. It made it
hard to breath.
“I didn’t ask for any of this. I didn’t ask to marry her. I was forced into it.
To protect your fucking ass, Gallagher.” The words hurt him as they came out.
His voice cracked in a deafening way. But he choked on the feeling, and
swallowed. “If I didn’t marry her, Terry would have both you and I killed. I
have told you before, that if my father found out I was gay, he would kill me.
Why do you think I tried to kill Frank? Because I fucking wanted to?”
“Mick- Im sorry. I had no Idea. Why didn’t you say anything?” Ian asked with
worry in his voice
“Because this isn’t how its supposed to happen. I am a Milkovich. I am not
supposed to be a faggot. Im supposed to beat the fuck out of them. That’s how I
was raised.” Mickey said as his face turned white.
“Mickey. Listen to me. I know you weren’t raised like I was, but we both come
from the same side of town. We both know what its like to be from South Side. I
wasn’t asking you to scream that you were gay, or that you were in love with
me. I just wanted you to tell ME. I know were not boyfriend and girlfriend, but
I know what happened between us. I know what we shared. If you had no feelings
for me, you, a Milkovich, would not have told me I could stay overnight with
you. I know you better than that.” Ian said.
‘No, we aren’t boyfriend and Girlfriend, Gallagher. But I do care You may not
see it, but I do.” Mickey retorted back.
Both boys sat in silence again. It was starting to get dark, and it started
snowing. Both boys had been sitting in that dugout all day. Most of the time,
they were silent, mostly because they didn’t want to piss each other off. But
they sat there, together, not moving.
“So, you went to the bus station?” Ian asked, with that stupid grin that Mickey
secretly loves.
“Fuck no. I just saw the bus” Mickey laughed
“Oh, so you walked what? 10 blocks away from your house to the other side of
here, just for the hell of it?” Ian asked, laughing with Mickey
“Sure” Mickey said and stood up.
***** Chapter 4 *****
As night fell over the Chicago sky, Mickey and Ian were walking aimlessly
around the dim south side streets, not going particularly anywhere. Just two
sets of feet walking around town. They mostly walked in silence, while both
randomly shoving each other off of curbs and jokingly into oncoming traffic.
They were in a rather intoxicated state of mind. Not drunk, or high. Just…
Happy. Mickey wouldn’t admit that that’s what was happening, but he wouldn’t
exactly deny it either.
Silence stuffed between them like it was normal. Mostly because it was. They
weren’t really the chatty kind. Except when Ian was really excited about
something, or when Mickey was doing something really annoying. Mickey did a lot
of annoying things, but Ian really didn’t care. It gave him an excuse to talk,
and to hear Mickey’s words float around his ears. Ian loved the sound of
Mickey’s voice. But he wouldn’t ever admit that. He wouldn’t deny it either.
The boys ended up running around, chasing after each other, after Mickey pushed
Ian into a Postal box.
“What the fuck was that for? FUCK” Ian snarled.
“You hit it. Not me, firecrotch” Mickey said snickering, with that wide grin
that went all the way to his eyes. “Now get your ass up and stop fuckin crying.
Douchebag.” Mickey held his hand out to offer Ian help up, and Ian smacked him
away. Ian stood up really fast and gained his composure before pushing Mickey
into the wall, laughing. He stood there for a minute, watching the look that
flashed through Mickey’s eyes, and took off running, flipping him off. “Fuck
you” and laughing.
Mickey secretly loved the chase. He loved watching Ian get that grin of his,
that stretched throughout his entire face. It made his eyes all sparkly and
shit. And as gay as it sounded to Mickey, it was still one of the most
beautiful things he had ever seen. Besides Ian naked of course.
Mickey stood alone in his thoughts for all of 5 seconds, with the morning
scenes running through his head. Of him being too much of a pussy to try and
get Ian to stay. Thinking about how he felt nailed to the ground. And then he
thought of now. The very minute he was chasing Ian through town. He wasn’t
going to let anything glue him down again. With the crack of his knuckles and a
twist in his neck, he let out a smile that no one has ever seen. Mostly cause
he has never had a smile like that, and took off, running after Gallagher.
Ian was fast. Really fast. Mickey knew it would be hell catching up to him. But
oh well. When Mickey finally caught up to him, he pulled at his arm. “woah,
chill out, flash. Your running like your life depends on it.” he panted,
filling his lungs with air at each inhalation. Ian just laughs at him, with his
hands on his knees, trying to catch his breath as well.
When Mickey catches his breath, he leans up and pulls Ian into the ally that
they just so happened to stop at.
“Don’t ever fucking leave me again. In this shit hole town, I have never had
anything. And when I finally found something worth keeping around, you tried to
fucking leave. Don’t.” Mickey barked in a whisper at Ian’s lips. His words than
became a battle of tongue and teeth and blood with Ian’s mouth. It was a war
that no one would win.
***** Chapter 5 *****
After a round in the Alley and two more in a complete stranger’s shed, Ian sat
with his bare back touching the frozen aluminum, and his pants around his
ankles. Mickey, laying with his head in Ian’s lap, and both boys sharing a
cigarette. Ian ran his hand through Mickey’s hair, watching him as he inhaled
the smoke with his eyes closed. The younger boys smile stretched from one eye
to the other. A feeling he was trying to get used to again, after being out of
his mind for the past few weeks.
Mickey knew Ian was smiling. He didn’t have to open his eyes to see it. He
could feel it in the way Ian softly touched his hair. The way Ian’s thighs
tighten under his neck when Mickey pretends not to know he is pressing on his
dick. Mickey knew Ian better than maybe even Ian knew Ian. And Mickey took
pride in this.
“Wipe that shit eating grin off your face before I smack it off, Gallagher”
Mickey said, with his eyes still shut.
If Ian wasn’t smiling before, he damn sure was now. “I have no clue what you’re
talking about, Mick”
“What the fuck ever.” Mickey’s eyes sprung open, to see the smile he knew was
there. He handed the redhead the cigarette and sat up, pooling his clothes from
a few feet away. “Its fucking cold. Get your ass dressed before your dick
freezes off, Firecrotch” he says, throwing Ian his shirt and jacket.
Ian thrusts his hips up from the ground, pulling his boxers and pants up.
Mickey was going to pretend like he didn’t see the way Ian’s hipbones popped up
like they were some sort of perfectly shaped structure that could only be seen
on one of those male models that you see in magazines. In fact, Mickey didn’t
even think the models had hipbones so perfect as Ian’s.
“Thanks for this, Mickey. For today” Ian said as he pulled his sweater over his
shoulders.
Mickey knew, by the way Ian’s voice was hitched, that he actually meant it, and
he had to give him a nice reply. Well, as nice as Mickey could give him.
“Yea, whatever. Just doing my job.” The words came out before he even realized
he was going to say them, and he immediately tried to correct him self. “Gotta
make Mandy happy.” Shit. He did it again. Didn’t think before he spoke.
Ian replied like he knew exactly what Mickey was thinking. “It’s okay, Mick- I
know what you mean.” He said with a grin and bright green eyes that tore into
Mickey’s skin.
“No. You really don’t. What I meant is, you’re wel-“ and Mickey did the only
thing he could to let Ian know how thankful he was that Ian didn’t leave. He
pulled him into him and kissed him softly on the corner of his mouth. ”Your
welcome.”
“She knows.” Mickey said as the boys were walking under the EL, on their way
back to their houses. “She’s ok with this. You and me, still banging.” Mickey
was walking next to Ian, his hands buried deep in his pockets, chin to the
ground and eyes looking up and over at Ian.
“Really now?” Ian asked, eyes wide and shocked as he looked back at the shorter
boy.
“Yea, she’s actually pretty cool about it. She actually smelled you after the
wedding. Which I thought was fucking ridiculous.” Mickey rolled his eyes behind
his head. “She’s got this funny accent, and you should have heard her. ‘You
smell of orange hair boy. You fuck him, yea?’ ” Mickey laughed as he told Ian
this. “She asked me about you last night. Asked why Mands was bitching about me
behind my back. You wouldn’t happen to know why she called me a fucking pussy
when you walked out, would you?” Mickey knew why, but wondered if Ian knew.
“Well, you see…” Ian paused. “I kind of drank a little too much at your
wedding. Lip told me I pretty much screamed you out of the closet. But I don’t
remember. He said everyone else was too drunk to know what was going on.”
“Yea, thanks for that. My family knowing is the last thing I need” Mickey
huffed, but not in a threatening way. “Come by sometime” Mickey said as he
lifted his chin to look up at Ian. “Meet her. You might like her.”
“Yea, I highly doubt that.” Ian paused, as they came up to his house. “But I
can give it a shot.” He said with that huge grin of his plastered on his face.
“See you tomorrow?” Mickey asked, still looking at Ian.
“In your fucking dreams” Ian laughed as he walked backwards away from Mickey,
flipping him off, and still with that stupid fucking grin.
Mickey just laughed and watched Ian walk to his front door. He didn’t know what
made him do it, but he followed Ian to his door. Before Ian pulled out his key
to unlock it, Mickey grabbed Ian, turned him around, and kissed him again, his
tongue invading Ian’s mouth. Ian let out a soft moan and bit Mickey’s lip.
“Good night, Gallagher” Mickey said as he took off running before anyone could
see him.
***** Chapter 6 *****
The next morning, Ian woke up to the hustling sounds of the everyday Gallagher
house. He could hear Carl and Debbie screaming at eachother, and Fiona
screaming at them to come down for breakfast.
“Food” Ian thought. He doesn’t remember feeling this hungry in days. He sits up
out of bed, pulls on his pants and heads down stairs.
“Did I hear food?” Ian asks as everyone sits at the table.
“Come. Eat. You look hungry” Fiona said. “Sleep well?”
“Uh, sure. I guess. Long day yesterday.” Ian sighed, rubbing the sleep from his
eyes and remembering why he was so tired.
Before he lost the nerve, and while he had a chance, Ian really needed to talk
to Fiona. He needed to to explain to her why he had been M.I.A for a while. He
felt like he could now, after knowing he wasn’t going to be leaving for a
while, and that his head was in a better place this morning.
“Fi-, can we talk? Kinda need to tell you a few things.” Ian tried to whisper
to her at the sink after breakfast.
“Sure kid. Whats up?” Fiona asked with a little worry in her eyes. Ian hated
seeing her worry.
“It’s nothing too bad. I didn’t kill anyone.” He smirks and Fiona jabs in in
the rib with her elbow, laughing. “Just need to talk to you. In private.
Whenever you get a chance.”
“Sure thing. Debs? Help Carl with the dishes. I’m going to talk to Ian.” Fiona
said with a demanding tone in her voice. It was so demanding you can see it in
her eyes.
Fiona motions for Ian to follow her, and she makes her way to her room. Her
room is where all the serious and private conversations happen. As if when the
door shuts, the words are trapped in their for eternity.
“What’s up? Everything ok? Are YOU ok? You have seemed not.. Ian lately.” She
asked with a concerned force in her voice.
“Well, Its kind of a long story. Not rally my story to tell, but I feel you
have a right to know.” Ian said truthfully. “I’ve ben kinda seein someone. My
age. Don’t worry. But, a lot of shit went down between us recently…” he trailed
off, rubbing his palms to his face.
“Who is lucky enough to be with my baby brother? Do I know him? Whats his
name?” Fiona asked these questions with that huge smile of hers. That smile
that you want to just give in to and tell everything to. Ian hasn’t seen her
smile like this since the courts gave her guardianship over all the kids..
“I will tell you everything, but you cant say a fucking word. If he knows you
know.. Jesus, I would probably lose him forever.” Ian’s voice was very serious,
and it wiped that smile right off of Fiona’s face. Now, she just looked worried
“It isn’t Lloyd, is it, Ian? He is too old for you. Your still a kid” she said.
This made Ian laugh. He thought it was funny. Because the last time he actually
saw him, he was pulling bullets out of Mickey’s ass.
“No, No. it isn’t Llyod. Its actually..” Ian laughed as he paused. It was a lot
harder for him to tell her than he thought it would be. Mostly, cause he knew
how Fiona felt about the Milkovich family.
“Spit it out. I want to know” Fiona said, gaining that huge smile back.
In a low voice, with his head hanging, Ian whispered the name like Fiona was
going to lecture him.
“Mickey Milkovich. We’ve been seeing.. fucking eachother for about 2 years.
Give a little. But lately, before he got mar…” the word soured on his tongue.
He couldn’t get the word out. It was painful. “Before the wedding, shit went to
hell.”
When he looked up, he could swear he saw what looked like fear on Fiona’s face.
Her lips were open, like she wanted to say something, but couldn’t find the
words. The room was silent for a moment.
“Mickey? Mickey Milkovich? The neighborhood thug? That’s who you have been
sleeping with?” She asked with wide eyes.
“When Lip and I were in that boys home, I snuck out one night. Didn’t get
caught, but Lip helped me. And I stayed the night at his house. His dad and
brothers were gone, so he asked me to stay. Things were going great by that
time. Even thought we would be more than what we were. Until the next morning.
Terry walked in on us.” Ian paused to see if Fiona was going to say anything.
But she didn’t. She just looked at him, wanting him to continue. “He walked in
on us, and he beat both Mickey and I. Hell, he even called over a ‘Russian’. I
thought we were going to fucking die, but turns out, the Russian was a
prostitute. Terry made her ‘fuck the fag’ out of Mickey. He even made me watch.
After that, Mickey wouldn’t talk to me for weeks. And when he finally did, I
had to come up with a story as to why my face was bashed in. hence the hand to
hand combat training I told everyone. I guess it was a touchy subject to him,
not to mention, I tried to get him to admit that he loved me and he was gay.
Mickey being Mickey, he hit me. But I kind of asked for it, to be honest. I
told him to hit me.” Ian was relieved to finally be getting all of this off of
his chest. It made him feel a lot better after being able to tell her every
thing. He used to tell her everything, pre coming out of the closet. She had
always been that mother figure to him.
“So, your telling me, that you have been seeing Mickey for 2 years, and his dad
walked in on you, and beat the shit out of you both, and had Mickey raped? That
fucking son of a bitch. What the hell?” Fiona looked more angry than he had
ever seen her. But she just sat there, shocked by everything Ian was telling
her. “Wait, isn’t Mickey married now? Is it her?” she asked.
“Yea. That’s the fucked up part. The painful part. I went to the wedding, tried
talking to him. Told him he didn’t have to do it. We ended up having sex before
the wedding. I even got drunk and was told that I sorta outted him. But Lip
said everyone was so drunk, they didn’t know what was happening. Only Mandy
heard.” He said, looking down at his feet, ashamed to look at his sister.
“Why the fuck is he marrying her?” She asked, concerned. She has never had a
concerned bone in her body for anyone in the Milkovich family.
“Apparently, she is pregnant. With Mickey’s kid.” The words brought tears to
Ian’s eyes.
“Oh Ian, I am so sorry” She said, grabbing him, and pulling him into an
embrace. “I am so sorry you are going through this. I have never wanted this
for you.”
Fiona held Ian in her arms for a little while, and just let him cry. She knew
he needed it. What are big sisters for?
“Do you love him?” Fiona asked, in a whisper, not wanting to scare him and make
him move.
“I do, Fiona. I do love him. I have never loved anyone as much as I love him.”
Ian said, pulling him self slowly away from her. “And that’s why I was going to
leave.” He cried.
“Leave? You were going to leave?” Fiona asked
“I.. I.. I stole Lip’s ID and tried to enlist. I knew it was a mistake, and I
didn't go through with it. But I also couldn't leave you. I couldn't leave my
family. We all need each other, and I need to be here.” He said apologetically.
“I am so sorry, Fiona.”
“You are still here. We’re still family, Ian” she said pulling him into another
hug.
Fiona went on, telling Ian about what had happened the last few days. About
Jimmy leaving, and about Frank being sick. She was even excited about telling
him about her job position selling those cups of hers. But Ian mostly blocked
it out, because all he could do was cry. He would worry about it later, at this
moment, Ian just wanted to go back to sleep. All the crying made him tired.
“I will go see Frank when I wake up. I just need to get back to sleep. Too much
on my mind. And I am sure Jimmy will come around. Give it a few days. And
Congrats on the job. Good luck” He said, and gave her a big hug. “I love you,
Fi’ he said, and walked out of her room, and into his.
He took his pants off, layed back on his bed, and pulled a joint out from his
bed side table. If he was going to get ANY kind of good sleep, he needed to be
high and relaxed. Because after telling Fiona all of that, I brought back a lot
of painful memories he really didn't want to think about.
And that was when his cell phone buzzed.
***** Chapter 7 *****
Unknown number:
Gonna see you today or not firecrotch?
9:48am
Me:
Depends. You miss me already? :P
9:49am
Unknown number:
Don’t know what the fuck that face is for, and fuck off. Am I gonna see you or
not? Simple fucking question.
9:51am
Ian stared at his phone for a few minutes, laughing, because that last text
told him his answer. He had the bright idea though, to get the answer he wanted
to hear.
Ian stood up, walked out of his room, and into the bathroom. After a few
minutes, he came out with his huge grin that he carries only for Mickey. It had
a hint of evil in it. As Ian layed back onto his bed, his cell phone buzzed
again.
Mick
You gonna send me pictures like that, you beter get your ass over here. NOW!
10:03am
Me:
Tell me then
10:04am
Mick:
Tell you what? Quit playing fucking games with me.
10:05am
Me:
Tell me and I will get dressed
10:06
Mick:
Incoming picture
10:06am
Mick:
Come take care of this for me. It’s too hard.
10:07am
Ian jumped up, and threw his jeans on and pulled a shirt over his head. Like
fuck he was going to sleep now. He ran down the stairs, pulled his shoes on,
and gave Fiona a kiss. “Be back. Mick.” he whispered with exertion. Fiona
didn’t even have time to say a word before Ian was out of the door.
When Ian made it to the street, he tried to calm himself and look as normal as
possible. Finally, he made it to Mickey’s front door. Before he had a chance to
knock, the door flew open, and a hand was pulling him inside by his shirt
collar.
Before Ian had a chance to breath, Mickey’s lips were franticly on his. One of
Mickey’s hands were pushing Ian hard on the door by his hip, and the other was
locking the 2 deadbolts on the door. Like hell Mickey was going to let anyone
walk in on them. Last time Ian was even in here, there was not even a working
lock on the door.
“eager are we?” Ian asked as he pulled his lips away from Mickey’s. Mickey
couldn’t find the words, so he had to think quick on where to put his mouth
next.
“Ouch” Ian hissed but didn’t jerk when Mickey sank his teeth into Ian’s neck.
Mickey then began running his hands on the inside of Ian’s pants line around
his hips. Mickey would never admit it, but he loved Ian’s boney hips. And the
muscles that surrounded those hips. Yea, he definitely loved the muscles too.
When Ian felt Mickey’s hands on his hips, he followed Mickey’s movements and
grabbed him by his hips, and began pushing him towards his bedroom. Neither boy
letting go of each other, and Ian bent down, kissing Mickey, running his tongue
across his bottom lip until Mickey sucked it into his own. Once in Mickey’s
room, Ian kicked the door closed, and let Mickey loose, and pulled away from
his tightening grip. Mickey followed and both boys shuffled to take each
other’s clothes off. They didn’t do it slowly, but they weren’t fast either.
They didn’t even bother to see where their clothes had landed, because Ian
already had Mickey down on his back on his bed.
Here Mickey was, under all of Ian’s weight, not giving a single fuck. He was
hard and he wanted Ian inside him right fucking now. But there was also this
weird fluttery feeling Mickey felt as he looked up to see Ian just staring at
him, grinning that special evil Gallagher grin. The grin that made him even
think he was smiling at. Hell, he was fucking smiling at it. Ian leaned down,
and touched his forehead to Mickey’s. “You missed me, didn’t you.” Ian said,
with his grin still intact. Not even making it a question. Mickey knew that,
yes, he did miss Gallagher. But he wasn’t going to say it out loud. “Just get
on me already” Mickey grunted as he rolled his eyes.
“But Mick- I’m already…” Ian said as he started to kiss his jawline. He kissed
from his jawline, down to his chest. Once near Mickey’s left nipple, Ian looked
up, grinned, and said “on you”. He then proceeded to lick and gently bite it.
Mickey let out a groan that Ian hasn’t heard in a long time. That made Ian
smile.
Ian started kissing Mickey down further until he got to his hips. At each hip
bone, he made sure to bite it extra hard for good measure. Or to hear the moans
that Mickey was holding in. If Ian was anything, he was a tease, because when
Mickey let out his last moan, Ian was right back in his face.
“What the fuck Gallagher.” Mickey hissed.
“Say you missed me and I MIGHT suck you off.” Ian laughed. He knew he wasn’t
going to hear the words, because Mickey didn’t really like talking when he was
horny. Ian pushed himself off of Mickey, leaned over, and took a condom and
lube out of under his mattress.
“Still hiding it here, I see. Some things never change.” He laughed again.
He sat up to his knees, and picked Mickey’s hips up and pulled off his boxers.
After all these years of them fucking, it still amazed him to see Mickey’s hard
cock spring out from under them.
“mmmm” Ian hummed, pleased to see Mickey was as horny as he was.
Ian wasn’t planning on it, but his mouth was already wet and closed around the
head of his cock. Mickey’s body shook in gratification.
“Fuuuck Gallagher“ Mickey grunted out as Ian had already sucked every bit of
him down his throat. “Do that again.” And Ian did. He did it over and over a
few times. By this time, Mickey already had his hand on the back of Ian’s head.
After just a few more deep throating bobs, Mickey’s body was tensing and as
Mickey tried to push Ian’s head away, Ian wouldn’t move, and he held onto
Mickey’s hips as he came into his mouth. Ian normally wouldn’t let Mickey come
in his mouth, he would normally stroke him and let him come on his hand. But
not now. Mickey could feel Ian’s throat tighten around him as he swallowed
every last drop, licking up he left overs. Mickey looked down at Ian with
brightly opened eyes, and Ian smiled and shrugged. “You actually taste pretty
fucking good.”
Ian stood up and slid his boxers off, kicking them to the side, and took
Mickey’s boxers from his ankles and tossed them to the side.
“Stop being such a fag” Mickey laughed.
“How long do we have?” Ian asked, ripping the condom pack open.
“All day. Terry took Mandy and Lana shopping in downtown. Now get the fuck on
me already” Mickey barked.
Ian slid the condom on and kneeled between Mickey’s legs, putting lube onto his
fingers.
Slowly, he pushed one finger into Mickey and began fingering him. Then, he
pushed another finger into him. He sissored his fingers, making sure Mickey was
ready.
With two fingers still inside of Mickey, he squirted a thick line of lube down
his more-than-hard cock, closed the lube and tossed it to the side.
“Ready?” Ian asked
“Like you need to fucking ask stupid questions.” Mickey groaned. And with that,
Ian removed his fingers and slowly slid his cock into Mickey.
“Fuck” Ian moaned in a whisper as he continued to push in even further.
“Faster Gallagher” Mickey spit.
And Ian went faster. Faster and harder. The way they both liked.
Mickey wrapped his legs around Ian’s back, pulling him closer to him, until Ian
was in his face. He was still thrusting as hard as ever, moving his hips in the
way he knows Mickey loves.
Mickey didn’t know why, but having Gallagher this close to him, right now, made
him feel nervous. Maybe it was because they haven’t fucked like this in a long
time. Or maybe it was for the fact that, oh fuck. Gallagher had that fucking
look in his eyes like he was going to kiss him. And sure enough, Ian leaned in
and kissed him, not going off beat with his thrusts. And fuck all if Mickey
didn’t lean right up into his kiss. That had to be what made Mickey nervous,
because little did he know, he was trembling under Ian’s lips.
“It’s OK.” Ian whispered, as they were the only ones in the house. And he
continued kissing him. Mickey was going to pretend like he wasn’t trembling,
but who the fuck was he kidding? He new Ian felt it, because to him, it felt
like a fucking earthquake.
Mickey took both of his hands, and pulled Ian in tighter.
I didn’t want you to lea-“ Mickey started saying before he realized his mouth
even opened. Oh fuck. What was he saying? He didn’t need to fucking talk, so he
bit down on Ian’s shoulder to keep him from saying anything else that Ian would
hold him accountable for.
After a few short moments of Ian pounding into him relentlessly, Mickey grabbed
Ian’s hand and forced it around his cock. Ian knew Mickey was about to come,
because Ian himself was about to as well. Ian stroked him few god times before
he came all over his hand, and Ian came right after, falling into Mickey’s
chest.
Both boys laid like this, Ian with his face in Mickey’s neck, and Mickey with
his face in Ian’s chest for longer than Mickey felt comfortable with on most
days. Both had ears on places they could hear each other’s hearts beating
wildly after the fact that they had already calmed from their weirdly amazing
sex.
Ian looked over at Mickey and pushed himself up. Before he could get too far
up, Mickey pulled his face down to his, and whispered into Ian’s mouth. If Ian
didn’t know any better, he could have sworn Mickey Milkovich just told him that
he loved him.
***** Chapter 8 *****
He couldn’t have said that. No way. Mickey doesn’t talk about feelings. Ian
Knew he had to be just hearing things.
Ian pushed his hands around Mickey, forcing himself up some, and looked at him
with a confused half ass smirk. The look on Mickey’s face was something Ian
wasn’t used to. His forehead was relaxed, his nose wasn’t crinkled, his lips
were parted open, and his skin quickly turned from his always present pale
color, to a flash of light red. Ian could see little tale-tell signs of
freckles start to show.
“Don’t fucking look at me like that, Gallagher” Mickey whispered. “And I wont
say it again.”
Ian’s half grin quickly turned into a full grin as he leaned in to Mickey’s
face, kissing him. The touch of Ian’s lips to Mickey’s shocked the older boy.
He darted his eyes fully open and grabbed Ian by his biceps, pulling him up and
off his lips.
“I say that, and you just fucking kiss me?” Mickey asked, with a hence of
annoyance.
“I love you, too” Ian whispered, loud enough to where if someone else were in
the room, Mickey would be the only one to know a sound was made.
Mickey quickly pulled Ian’s lips onto his, and wrapped his hand into the
younger boy’s hair, tongues meeting each others, and teeth clanking together
quickly and loudly.
Mickey didn’t know why he blurted the words, but he didn’t regret it, because
it was true. He did love Ian Gallagher. After all, Love isn’t a mistake.
--
Both boys lay side by side, panting and sweaty and the earth could have
collapsed and neither of them would have cared or known. They were both too
wrapped up in their own bubble, away from the world. Away from anything that
could hurt them. This is the moment when, in the past, Mickey would generally
push Ian over, and grab for a cigarette. But that wasn’t the case anymore.
Mickey found Ian’s hand, and quickly laced his fingers between his, squeezing
Ian’s hand. Neither boy said anything, they just laid there, catching their
breath. It was little moments like this that Mickey felt both butterflies in
his stomach, and his fists ready to fly. But he couldn’t be mad. He was the one
who said it first, and the one to find Ian’s hand. He was also the first one to
break the silence.
“Give me a cigarette.” He huffed as he let go of Ian’s hand.
Ian rolled over, grabbed the pack of cigarettes and a lighter from the table
next to Mickey’s bed, and tossed them to Mickey as he got up to find his
boxers.
Mickey lit his smoke, and watched Ian search the dirty room.
“So, Terry is going out of town tonight for a run with my brothers. Going to
Ohio. You should come over tonight and meet her. Have a few drinks.” Mickey
said, and not asked. As if he was demanding him, but without the harshness.
Ian looked at Mickey with a questioning look and shrugged. “Sure, I guess.”
Ian finally found his boxers and sat on the bed next to an already dressed
Mickey. He threw on whatever he could find. He didn’t linger around naked for
long, ever. Ian took the cigarette from mickey and took a drag, blowing the
smoke towards the ceiling. “What time?”
Mickey shrugged, “after dark, I guess.”
Ian smirked and stood up, pulling his pants up and buttoning them. He sat back
down and took another drag from the cigarette he still had between his fingers.
Mickey would never admit it, but his second favorite sight, besides seeing his
Gallagher naked, was the way his pants sat on his hips when he sat down. They
sat right below his hip bones, dipping down on the arch of his back, showing
just a very little of his ass crack. Absent mindedly, Mickey bit his lower lip
and ran his thumb across the line of Ian’s pants, on his back. Ian’s body
shivered at Mickey’s touch and he grinned widely. Neither boy talked about this
movement. But Ian loved it.
Ian leaned down and gently kissed Mickey on his lips and told him he had to go.
He didn’t want Terry and the girls coming home to watching him walk out of the
house. Mickey groaned and kissed him back.
“See you tonight?” Ian asked after he pulled his shirt and shoes on, and opened
the bedroom door.
“Yea, tonight” Mickey said with a smile.
Ian grinned wide, from ear to ear, and walked out of the door.
Ask Mickey laid in his bed, he stared at the ceiling and smiled as he heard he
front door shut from the other room.
***** Chapter 9 *****
When Ian arrived on Mickey’s porch, he wasn’t sure why. He knew he wanted to be
near Mickey, but he wasn’t sure he was ready to actually meet the woman his
lover was forced to marry.
He knew Mickey didn’t WANT to marry her, though. So, he thought ‘what the hell.
I don’t know her, so I might as well give her a chance.’
Ian took a few deep breaths and knocked on the door. Terry’s truck was gone, so
he knew it was safe. Besides, Mickey text him and told him the coast was clear
almost 15 minutes ago.
When Svetlana answered the door, Ian let out a breath he didn’t know he was
holding in.
“You must be Ian” Svetlana smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck as if he
was sent to the house to save her life. He doesn’t ever remember a girl hugging
him that hard. Not even Mandy.
“Yea, that’s me. Mickey here?” Ian asked nervously
“Come in. He get beer from fridge. He say go to room when you arrive.”
Ian let off a smile, because he remembers Mickey telling him how funny her
accent was when she talks. And it was actually pretty funny.
Svetlana took him by his hand and led him toward the bedroom that she shares
with the older boy.
“I Svetlana, but you call me Lana. I like you fire hair, Ian.” Lana had a smile
that was more close to a laugh as she took his hand. Seeing her smile made Ian
feel a little more at ease.
“Mickey, Ian finally here” she called out to him.
“Hey Gallagher, I see you met Lana. Told you she wasn’t that bad” mickey said
as he motioned for Ian to take a beer from him.
Ian laughed and took the beer, and twisted open the lid with his bare hand. If
anything was going to make his stomach stop turning, it was going to be this
beer. And maybe another.
“Hey Mick” Ian said, lifting his beer a bit, in greeting.
All three sat in silence for a few moments before Lana jumped off her side of
the bed and told Ian he could sit there.
“Here Ian, you sit. Mickey wants to be close. He tell me earlier. I know he
like you. Its ok. Plus I have to go make food. You must be starve.” Lana says
with an excited tone and a glisten in her eye.
Mickey’s face turned bright red, and he grinned a little.
“He no smile like this a lot. I like Happy Mickey” She smiled and left the
room, shutting the door behind her.
“So, what’d you think? She seem ok? She is like the all the fucking time. It
gets fucking annoying” Mickey said, patting the spot next to him, motioning for
Ian move there.
“She seems ok. Guess it wouldn’t hurt to get to know her. After all, she kinda
doesn’t seem to be going anywhere”.
Ian crawled across the bed, and hovered over Mickey, smiling from ear to ear.
‘I get to see you, so I guess I can get used to her” He smiled and leaned down
and kissed the older boy.
“Wait till she tells you her whole fucking life story. She tells everyone new
she meets. She has actually had a pretty fucked up life.” Mickey says, tearing
his lips from Ian’s, only to continue kissing him after he talks.
A few minutes later, they have to pull away from each other when they hear a
knock on the door.
“yea?” Mickey yells
“You dress? I come in?” Lana asks, making sure its safe for her to enter.
“You can come in Lana, its ok” Mickey laughs as Ian is sucking on his neck.
“Mickey, I burned the macaroni” Lana says, pouting.
Mickey starts laughing and it only makes Svetlana cry.
“Do not laugh. I try hard but I forgot it on stove. Fire too high” Lana whines
Ian smiles and rolls his eyes
“I will check it out, I’ve burned Macaroni before” Ian says as he walks beside
Lana through the door frame. “It cant be that bad”
It’s only then that Mickey starts laughing even harder. He thinks to him self,
‘great, I have a wife AND a boyfriend’. And right after that, his face goes
blank. Mickey has a boyfriend?
***** Chapter 10 *****
Svetlana followed Ian to the kitchen, shutting the bedroom door behind her.
“Ian, I want talk. To you.” She said with a smile.
“Sure, what’s up?” Ian asked, with his arms crossed over his chest. He was
clearly uncomfortable. Looking at her just reminded him of how he met her. It
made his chest sting.
“I just want to say, I know Mickey like you. He talk about you. I make him go
stop you from leaving. He was sad.” She said thoughtfully. That helped Ian ease
up a little. But it sure didn’t help the feeling in his chest. “I ask him what
is wrong when I come home from work, and he look heart broke.”
The sting he felt in his chest had turned to pain, because that isn’t what Ian
wanted. He didn’t want Mickey to be heartbroken. Hell, at the time, he didn’t
even know for a fact Mickey had feelings for him.
“He told me fuck off, like always. He do not like to talk to me much. But I
know why. I only marry him because Terry make me. Terry scares me. I do what
Terry wants.” Tears started welping her eyes, but she fought them back. “I ask
Mandy what was wrong, and she made me promise not to say any to him. She told
me what I already knew. Mickey don’t like girls. I know from moment I walk into
house. I may have a bad job, but I am not stupid. So, I talk to him later at
night, and tell him, ‘If you love him, go stop him.’ And you are here now. He
want me to meet you.”
Ian didn’t know why she told him to stop him from leaving. Mickey didn’t even
stop him. Ian had decided that he was going to stay and fight. Because that is
really all he has known. Fighting to stay alive, and he wanted to fight for
what he felt was keeping him alive.
“Thank you for talking to him Lana. Really” Ian said, as he pulled her in for a
hug. He didn’t know why, but he was glad she told him this. He was glad she was
the reason he was there that night.
“I did not really burn food. I just wanted to talk to you” she smiled. “Now go
back to him.”
Ian gave her a grin and turned around back towards the bedroom.
When he walked back into the room, Mickey was still in the same spot he left
him. Laying on the bed, and sipping his beer.
“She didn’t really burn the food, did she?” Mickey asked, knowing all too well.
“She actually just wanted to talk to me.” Ian grinned as he laid back in the
bed beside the older boy.
“What the fuck did she want to talk to you about?” Mickey asked with a little
annoyance.
“Say that she was sorry about that day” he lied. He hoped Mickey would believe
him.
Mickey sat his beer on the table next to his bed, turned around, grabbed Ian by
his face, and pulled him in and began kissing him more aggressively, painful
and passionately than ever before.
***** Chapter 11 *****
As the night went on, eventually all three people ended up laying in the bed
together, stoned out of their minds. Well, atleast Ian and Mickey were. Lana
was the only sober one. She had to go to work soon. It was a friday, and she
said that was when she had the best customers, and they would pay more. She was
trying to save up enough money to send home to her parents and younger
siblings. She came from a rather poor family and grew up in worse conditions
than what Mickey and Mandy grew up in. Maybe that was why the Milkovich house
didnt really bother her.
“How many stars do you think are in the universe?” Ian aabsent-mindedly asked
to noone in particular.
“About 100 zillion, I would guess” Mickey answered
“How do you know how many a zillion is?” Ian laughed out.
“I dont know firecrotch, you tell me. It seems like its a fuck of a lot” Mickey
snorted. (He actually fucking snorted)
“Did you just fucking snort? Like.. how the hell..?” Ian looked over at Mickey
with a grin on his face.
“Shut the fuck up. Dont laugh at me fuckhead” Mickey said, completely honest.
But that didnt last very long before he busted out laughing.
Lana stood at the end of the bed, in just her panties, laughing at the boys.
She had no shame. She sold her body for money, for christ sakes. Its not like
the boys were getting a show. They werent paying attention. And when they were,
neither of them said anything to her. She was going through her closet, looking
for her sluttiest outfit. When she would put one on, she would ask them what
they thought. They wouldnt even look her way. They just layed there, with
Mickey’s head in Ian’s lap, both chain smoking. And when A cigerette would go
out, they would light up a joint. This process would go back and fourth until a
new topic of conversation would come up. Lana couldnt help but laugh at them,
and be slightly jealous. She wanted something like that. She wanted to share a
laugh with someone she loved, who loved her back.
“Ok, if you dont know how many a zillion is, then how do you know that it isnt
like 100 million, and they just call it a zillion?” Ian asked, stone face
serious.
“I dont know man. ask your brother. isnt he the genius?” Mickey asked
Ian reached in his pocket and pulled out his phone. He went to his contacts,
and found lip. He opened his messages and started laughing. “What am I asking
him?” Ian laughed
“I dont know man. something about a zillion”
“Oh, thats right. How many is a zillion”
He proceded to message lip and closed his phone.
Mickey leaned up to Ian and kissed him. “You are too fucking hilarious when
your stoned, Gallagher”
Ian tossed his phone on the bedside table, ignoring the buzzing sound it made
when Mickey picked him self up out of Ian’s lap and wrapped his arms around his
neck and straddling him. Their lips met like the battle of the Hatfeilds and
McCoys. Brutal and crazy.
“If you dont want to see this Lana, I suggest you pick the blue one and get out
of here. Your gonna be late for work anyway” Mickey told her as he was pulling
his shirt off. Lana smiled at him and told him he would be home late, to not
worry, and walked out of the room closing the door behind her.
When Mickey knew the coast was clear, he turned back to Ian and mashed their
lips together again. His tounge invading Ian’s mouth with force, as if he was
trying to keep Ian from ever leaving. Ian lifted his back from the wall and
took his shirt off. Then he proceded to lazily start unbuckling Mickey’s pants
and pushing him off to pull them down and take his own pants off.
Both boys were now in just their boxers after a brief fight with each others
jeans, and Mickey falling off the bed, laughing. That ended up with Ian falling
off the bed and onto Mickey. Their eyes met and it was like Ian was seeing a
side of Mickey that he didnt know existed. Something that he would compare to
water meeting fire. It was killer, but he loved it.
Both boys now lay on the floor, kissing and scratching and biting like it was
all the world had left to offer. And maybe it was.
***** Chapter 12 *****
“Dad, Dad, Hold on.” Mickey screamed as his father straddle him on the couch,
punching him over and over again.
 
“No son of mine is going to be a fucking Aids monkey” Terry hissed through his
clenched teeth as he continued his horrible rampage onto Mickey’s face.
 
—
Mickey jolted awake after his horrible dream. He hadn’t noticed the tears
streaming down his face until he moved his face from Ian’s shoulder. Luckily,
Gallagher was still asleep and didn’t seem to be phased by Mickey’s jolt.
The boys lay naked on the floor with Ian’s sleeping bag he had lent to Mickey a
few weeks back to make a makeshift bed of his own so he didn’t have to share
the same covers as his wife. When the marriage was still new, he couldn’t stand
even touching Lana. But now that he has gotten to know her, and found out she
wasn’t as bad as he had thought, he didn’t sleep in it anymore. He kept it
folded in his closet and only brought it out when he felt he needed to be close
to Ian.
Mickey and Ian were both on their sides, facing each other. Ian had his arm
draped over Mickey’s chest and one of his legs laying between Mickey’s thighs.
His other arm was under him, with his hand out by his face and his finger
twined with Mickey’s.
Mickey couldn’t do anything besides squeeze Ian’s hand and smile at the way
Gallagher slept. His mouth was partially open, drool dripping from the corner
of his mouth and his face completely relaxed. Mickey could see Ian’s eyes
flickering beneath his eyelids. Mickey thought his red head boy was beautiful
when he slept. Mickey took his free hand and gently ran his fingers across the
redheads ribs, careful to not wake him. Ian’s skin felt burning hot under his
fingertips, and it instantly sent shock waves through Mickey’s entire body. The
heat made Mickey’s stomach fill with lust and made his dick twitch with
pleasure.
As the sun peered through Mickey’s window, the rays landing on Ian’s face and
upper body. Ian was beautiful.
Mickey moved in closer to Ian and softly kissed his lips, again, being careful
to not wake him. He could lay beside his red head and watch him sleep forever.
He WANTED to lay beside him and stare. He truly did. But all of his fears would
eventually come back after him. HE knew they would, because they always have.
But for now, he was content. He was happy. Happiness is a new feeling for
Mickey. Happiness was always something he feared. He still fears it, but less
now. Everything is so much better with Gallagher. But if he wanted to stay
alive, and keep Ian alive, he had to live a lie. He just hoped Ian would
understand. Mickey had to make sure Ian understood. But he would also make sure
Ian knew that he loved him. and that he was doing these things to keep them
alive. All of his emotions were pulling him left and right, up and down. He
didn't really know which way he wanted to go. But he would go where ever Ian
took him. HE would protect Ian at any cost.
When the red haired boy finally awoke, Mickey just smirked like he knew he had
been caught red handed. He quickly moved his hands from Ian’s ribs.
“Hey, why’d you stop?” Gallagher asked, rubbing the sleep from his eyes and
smiling his famous smile.
Mickey had no idea what to say, so he sat up, pulled a smoke from his pack, lit
it up and shrugged. as smoke bellowed from his mouth and nose, Ian took the
cigarette from Mickey’s mouth and inhaled the tobacco and nicotine.
“Were you watching me sleep? Cause that's kind of creepy” Ian chuckled.
“Like shit I was watching you sleep. Your damn arm was suffocating me.” Mickey
lied. He knew he was watching him. But Gallagher didn’t need to know that.
“What time is it?” Ian asked.
Mickey turned over to look for his alarm clock over by his nightstand.
“5am. Time to wake the fuck up and go make me some breakfast.” Mickey joked.
But we was sort of serious. The boys had been going at it most of the night,
and Mickey was hungry.
”I will cook, only if you help me” Ian laughed out.
The older boy wondered if he was really that hungry. And to be honest, he
really was. His groweling stomach is what woke him up.
“First one to the kitchen has to clean the dishes. Lana will kill me if they
arnt done.” Mickey challanged.
“Oh, that’s easy, I don’t want to get up.” Ian snorted. He actually fucking
snorted. And that threw Mickey into hysterics. He was laughing so hard that he
thought he stopped breathing.
After Mickey finally calmed down he decided he would offer something on the
table, just so he wouldnt have to do the dishes.
“I’ll suck you off if you do the dishes” Mickey smirked.
“Game on.” Ian smiled and ran to the kitchen. Mickey gave great fucking head,
and doing the dishes wouldnt be too bad with the promise of a blow job to
follow.
***** Chapter 13 *****
Mickey didn’t give Ian blow jobs that often, but when he did, Ian could feel
the orgasm for hours. The tingle in his thighs, the tightening of his balls.
The heat in his cheeks and the buildup of pressure in his entire body.
 
The sun was coming up and Ian’s sweaty body fell on top of Mickey’s as he
caught his breath. The blow job that started while Ian was trying to scramble
eggs ended up making it to the couch and that turned into some of the most
pleasurable earth shattering sex in the hallway and into Mickey’s room. They
didn’t even make it to the bed before Mickey could no longer walk because his
body shook so hard from coming 3 times since they began.
 
“Holy shit, Gallagher” Mickey huffed, still catching his breath. “If you fuck
like THAT after a blow job, I need to suck you off more often” he finished, as
he wrapped his arms around Ian as he laid on top of him, both boys hearts still
racing and breaths still hitching. They laid like that for several moments
before Ian finally rolled off of Mickey as they heard the front door start to
open.Their matching heart beats turned into sheer terror of the not knowing who
was at the door. Both boys jumped up as Mickey slammed his door shut and threw
Ian his clothes, telling him to get dressed.
 
As Ian pulled up his boxers, he realized just who had come in the door. It was
Mandy.
 
“Mick” she yelled out, checking to see if he was home. “Mickey? Are you home?”
 
As mandy casually walked through the house, towards her room, she could hear
noise coming from her older brother’s room. She stood beside his door and could
hear him whispering to someone. She knocked on the door. “Mick, I know you’re
in there. I know you’re awake. I can hear you talking. Who’s in there with you?
Lana?” she continued.
 
“Give me a fucking minute, damn Mands” Mickey yelled, getting dressed. He had
to figure a way to distract her so Ian could get out.
 
“I know you’re not alone in there, dickface” Mandy huffed. “Hey Ian!” She
laughed out. “Your shoes are in the living room.”
 
A few minutes later, Mickey opened his bedroom door, both he and Ian fully
dressed and still sweaty from the sex not even 15 minutes before.
 
Mandy was sitting on the couch and had a strange look on her face.
 
“It’s about Dad” She said, answering the questioning look on his face.
 
“I don’t really give a shit about him right now” Mickey replied. He really
didn’t. He hated hearing his name. Hated hearing him breath. Hated everything
about him. Thanks to Terry, Mickey almost lost everything that had ever
mattered to him.
“There was an accident” Mandy said as tears started to fill her eyes. “He is
still our father, Mickey. Yo could at least pretend to care.”
 
“Thanks to that asshole, I almost lost everything. Look at what he has done to
us, Mandy!” he said as he began to raise his voice, scaring her. “You have no
idea how fucking horrible of a person he is, Mandy”.
 
There was a strange silence that fell over the living room. Mandy sat on the
couch with her fingers tangled together and tears falling from her eyes. She
knew she needed to tell Mickey about what happened to her while he was in
Juvie, but she didn’t know how. She didn’t know how to begin or even if now was
a good time.
 
With the tension in the room, Ian didn’t know where he needed to be. He didn’t
know if he even felt right being in the same room, hearing the man he loved and
his best friend in what seemed to be a private family conversation.
 
Mickey, I need to tell you something about dad. Something happened.”
 
(To be continued…)
***** Chapter 14 *****
Chapter Notes
     Sorry this is as short as it is. I will try to make the next chapter
     longer.
It took Mickey a while to calm down after what Mandy had dropped on him. He had
absolutely no Idea his father could be so horrible. In his mind, he thought it
was one thing to have a whore come in and fuck the fag out of someone, but it
was a completely different thing to “confuse” your daughter for her mother
while you're drunk and get her pregnant.
But the fucker got what he fucking deserved. Apparently, Terry got in a fight
right outside of the Alibi with some guy who owed him money. The guy had a
hidden knife and pulled it on Terry. Terry thought he was going to be the “big
man” and tried to tackle the guy. He was so fucking drunk that he fell right on
the knife. Over and over again. HA!! Mickey thought that was fucking hilarious.
*
Mandy and Mickey made their way to the cemetery with their brothers to make
sure it was him and to make sure he was 6 feet under. Sure enough, it was and
he was. Mickey stuck around long enough to watch the dirt settle. Mandy and his
brothers had left long before. It was only Mick, his bottle of Jack and his
wordless thoughts. Until he felt a hand on his shoulder.
“Bout fucking time you got here. I text you like 3 hours ago” Mickey said.
“Linda woulda killed me if I skipped out on my shift, Mick. You know that.
Plus, it’s my first day back.” Ian replied, sitting next to him and lighting up
a cigarette.
“Fucking pussy” Mickey muttered, taking the lit cigarette from Ian and handing
him the Jack.
The boys sat in silence for a little while before Mickey stood up, unzipped his
pants, and pissed on the dirt that covered Terry Milkovich.
“You fucking asshole. You stupid fucking asshole” Mickey laughed out. “You
think you are so fucking godly. Bet you didn't think you were gonna bite the
dust, did you dickhead?” he paused, zipped his pants back up and sat back next
to Ian.
Ian was leaned back on his elbows, watching every move Mickey made, and laughed
when he pissed on the grave site. Mickey sat next to him, in the same position,
and tilted his head to the side, looking over at Ian. They both stared at each
other for a few minutes, in complete silence.
“I love you” Mickey said, not breaking eye contact with his lover.
“I love you, Mick” Ian replied.
Mickey moved his hand over to fit over Ian’s, and moved his body closer to the
redhead. Ian laid back and Mickey hovered over him and softly pressed his lips
to the younger boys.
“So, are we going to make this official or what, firecrotch?” Mickey asked as
he tore his lips away.
“I have been waiting on all this shit calm down to ask the same thing” Ian
smirked and he pulled the older boy back to his lips.
They laid there for a while, kissing and feeling each other up a little bit
before the sun started falling. It was getting darker out and they wanted to
take this show somewhere else.
Mickey sat up and stood to his feet and walked back over to the dirt pile.
“You can't control me anymore. You can't control Mandy. Or the other three. You
can't do shit anymore.” Mickey belched out and rubbed his bottom lip. He stood
there, in thought, and then spit on the grave. “Fuck you” he spit out, as he
turned around and held his hand out to help Ian up.
***** Chapter 15 *****
Chapter Notes
     This may or may not involve some sexting :D YOU'RE WELCOME!
It had been a few weeks after the funeral, and Ian was staying at the Milkovich
house since Terry's death, but today, he decided he would spend the day at
home. He hadnt seen his family in a while and he was beginning to really miss
them.
"Ok, so Liam has been using the big boy potty now" Fiona said as she pinched
the infants cheeks, and in a high pitch squeal, aimed at Liam, "havent you big
boy?"
"Ok, got it. anything else?" Ian asked his sister.
"Make sure he uses it atleast once an hour. he doesnt have to actually go, just
sit him there and try and get him to go. Chocolate will help. And talk to your
brother. I cant take this arguing between you." Fiona demanded.
"Fi- you know he wont talk to me.. but, I will try" he answered.
"Ok, I get off work around 5, and then I might go out with Mike. so, expect me
home late. I'm sorry" she said, as she walked out the door.
'Fucking great' Ian thought. She had told him it was going to be just a few
hours. She always knew how to get what she wanted.
"Hey big boy, wanna watch some TV? Ian asked Liam, setting him on the couch
next to him. "Waadya wanna watch? how about cars? You wanna watch cars?" he
asked, waving the DVD in his face. Liam was a sucker for cars. he loved that
movie. It was a sure fire way to keep the kid out of Ian's hair for about 2
hours.
He popped in the DVD and Liam jumped off the couch and ran to the television,
slamming his hands on the screen and screeching to the opening credits.
Ian sat back and watched to make sure Liam was tied into the TV before he tried
to talk to his older brother. After about 15 minutes of the child screaming and
pounding the TV, he knew he was safe. Liam was glued.
Ian walked up the stairs and made his way to the closed door. There was a sign
there that had been there since he came home. "Dont fucking knock if your name
is Ian".
Great, so Lip was still being a dick. Ian took in a deep breath and knocked on
the door.
"Whaddya want?" he heard his brother yell out. "Can I come in? I need to talk
to you" he asked.
"Read the fucking sign, douche" Lip replied.
Ian just said fuck it and walked in. Lip was laying in his bed, wearing just
his boxers, smoking a joint. When his door flew open, he jumped up and into
Ian's face.
"Get the fuck out of my god damned room" he yelled, still holding the joint
between his fingers. Spit watered his face as he stood there.
"Im not fucking leaving until you fucking talk to me, Lip. Your my fucking
brother. Your going to fucking listen to me." he screamed back into his face,
holding his ground.
"You are my fucking brother. Whether you fucking like it or not. I made a
fucking mistake. Im sorry I used your ID. Im fucking sorry. Get the fuck over
it. I didnt fucking go, and you can still go to that fucking school. You can
still get the fuck out of here." he yelled even louder.
A few weeks ago, Lip was over at the Milkovich house, and overheard Ian talking
to Mickey about using his ID to try to get into the army. Lip tore himself from
Mandy's prying arms and shoved into Mickey's room, pulled Ian to the floor and
began to beat the shit out of him. "How could you fucking use me like that?"
Lip was pissed, but he was more hurt that Ian tried to use his ID to illigally
get into the army. He felt betrayed. He didnt care that it could ruin his
chance at going to MIT. He was pissed that Ian lied to him.
"Ian, you fucking betrayed me. Family doesnt fucking do that." Lip said after
he turned around and got comfortable back in his bed.
"Lip, I am so fucking sorry. you know I am. I am sorry I lied to you. Just
please Lip, I really need my older brother right now. I really just need you to
pull your fucking head out of your ass and be my fucking brother. When you
decide to do that, if I am not here, you know where I will be." he cried out as
he walked out of the older boys room, slamming the door shut. He walked to his
old room and layed on the bed and pulled his phone out.
To Mick: Lip is pissing me the fuck off. I need my head cleared. Cum over? ;)
Mickey heard the chime on his phone, as he sat anxiously in his room, waiting
to hear from his boyfriend. The night of Terry's funeral, Mickey got
exceptionally drunk and said things that shouldnt have been said, but needed to
be. Actually, he was glad he said it. He called Ian his boyfriend. When he
flipped his phone on, he noticed it was Ian who had text him.
To Gallagher: I'll clear your head with my dick ;)
Yea, they were at that point in there relationship that Mickey used every
single sexual innuendo that he could think of. Ian always fell folr them.
To Mick: Tell me. How would you do that?
Ian LOVED putting Mickey on the spot when they were texting.
To Gallagher: I would make you choke on it
Yea, they had been trying out this sexting thing for a while. It was kinda hot,
Mickey thought. And it always made sex so much hotter when they got down to it.
They loved fulfilling each others fantasies.
To Mick: Choke on it? You want to hear me gag? You want to feel my throat close
around your dick?
God damn, Mickey was horny and he needed to fucking bust a nut already. He was
game for this.
To Gallagher: I want to feel you hum on my ball sack, like the good little
bitch you are.
Ian had a problem with Authority, but when Mickey talked like this, he was
already almost creaming in his pants.
To Mick: Imagine it. Pretend I am there. Touch your self, Mick. Imagine your
hand is my throat.
A few minutes later, Ian recieved a picture message. Mickey sure enough had his
hand tight around his massive cock. Seeing the photo caused Ian's dick to
twitch hard and painful. He pulled his own cock out and lubed his hand up with
his spit. He slowly began stroking him self, texting with one hand.
To Mick: Im slipping two fingers into you. I want you too feel me inside of
you.
That was sent with his own photo.
To Gallagher: Holy fuck Gallagher, I want you inside me. like NOW!
To Mick: take two fingers. suck them. finger yourself for me, Mick.
Moments went by, while Ian still stroked his dick, thinking of fucking his
boyfriend. Just the thought alone made him closer to orgasm, but the photos
Mickey was sending him, were sending him over the edge. His next photo was
exactly what he needed. Mickey sure enough was fingering him self.
To Gallagher: Dont come yet, Gallagher. Wait for it.
Ian fucking hated waiting to come, but he knew it would be worth it. A few
minutes later, he recieved a crappy quality video from Mickey. As he opened it,
he could see Mickey setting the phone on a stable surface, facing the bed. He
ran back in front of it, and sat on the edge of the bed as he began stroking
himself. He spit down onto the head of his dick, while still stroking, adding a
natural lube to the mix. The faster he stroked himself, the faster Ian stroked.
He could hear Mickey grunt and moan out. "Fuck, Ian. Im going to come" he cried
out as he slipped two fingers from his free hand into his mouth, as he laid
back into his bed, spreading his legs. He then began teasing his hole, and
slipped in a finger. and then another. After a few more strokes from Mickey,
the boys back arched off the bed, and he cried out again, letting his lover
know he was coming. As thick white ropes shot from him, Ian stroked faster and
faster, feeling his release topple him over the edge of pleasure and pain. The
sound of Mickey's cry is what really did it. With just a few strokes, Ian was
coming into his hand.
To Mick: You always know exactly what I need. I fucking love you!
To Gallagher: Love you too, firecrotch.
Ian then sent Mickey a picture of him holding his come drentched hand, still
holding firm to his dick. He loved sending those little teases to the older
boy.
Soon after Ian cleaned himself up, he opened his bedroom door to find Lip
standing there, ready to knock on the door.
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