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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M, Multi
  Fandom:
      Panic!_at_the_Disco, The_Academy_Is..., Cobra_Starship, Young_Veins, Fall
      Out_Boy, My_Chemical_Romance
  Relationship:
      Ryan_Ross/Brendon_Urie, Ryan_Ross/Jac_Vanek, William_Beckett/Gabe_Saporta
  Additional Tags:
      Anal_Sex, Face-Fucking, Light_Angst
  Stats:
      Published: 2017-04-30 Words: 4914
****** Isn`t This Exactly Where You Want Me ******
by Prettyboysixx1974
Notes
     Ryan is 18 in this and Brendon is 16 so if that offends you then just
     don`t read it, okay.
Fuck.
I hadn`t wanted any of this, actually I didn`t mean for this to happen it just
sorta did.
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Ryan and I were walking back from school when it happened. We were talking
about the new Final Fantasy game, I slowly started to zone out just listening
to Ryan rant about how there`s no first person view and how "totally
unacceptable" that is. I started to think about Ryan. Ryan`s neck, his super
thin legs, and when he`d reach up to reach the records on top of his bookshelf
so his shirt would rise up the tiniest bit and you were able to see his hips,
or worse because of that you`d always be able to see the hickeys that Jac left
right before she`d blow him. I only know that because goes around talking about
it constantly, acting all proud because he`s actually getting some. My eyes
travel upwards to his lips where he`s still talking, fuck he might be shy, but
when he`s comfortable around someone he just never shuts up. My eyes go even
farther upwards until they reach his eyes, his eyes are so beautiful. I`ll
probably could on and on for hours those eyes, there`s an almost dark chocolate
colored ring around the outside that slowly fades into the most beautiful
looking caramel type color, but right around his pupil is a ring of a light
brown. He`s still looking downwards, not really paying attention to me, which I
can`t decide is for better or worse. His hair is a little messy from the
combination of the wind blowing around us and his head looking down, but it
still somehow looks amazing I really don`t understand how he does it. His bangs
are swooped across his forehead giving him the iconic "Emo Boy" look, but he
pulls it off. The best thing about Ryan is when in the morning after he wakes,
his hair is extremely curly and just makes him look ten times more
breathtaking. Sometimes he`ll put a bit of eyeliner on, and fuck that couldn`t
turn me on anymore then it does. I always have to make up some excuse to leave
if i see him with it on, because I honestly don`t want to come in my pants in
front of my best friends.
"Brendon, what the fuck?" He all buts shout.
"Were you even listening to what I was saying?' He asks looking pissed off at
me, god I both hate and love that look on his face.
"Shit, sorry dude I guessed I zoned out." I say with a worried and terrible
feeling in my chest.
He doesn`t answer me, just walks up to his front door and lets me in. He shuts
the door behind us and I start walking up the stairs to his bedroom. I`ve been
friends with him long enough to help myself up to his bed, use his shower when
I want, fuck I even wear his clothes that are only the slightest bit bigger on
me because of the height difference and he just shurgs his shoulders, he
stopped questioning me long ago. He comes up to his room shortly after myself
and looks me up and down, me sprawled across his bed already reading a poetry
book of his that was more than likely written by some goth looking dude from
the 1800s.
"Hey Bren, I`m going to go hop in the shower if you wanna sit by the door and
keep me entertain." He questioned me, giving me half smile.
"Sure, whatever." I said getting off the bed, throwing the book back behind not
caring where it landed.
I made my way to the wall next to the bathroom door, sliding down it with my
knees up to my chest, arms wrapped around them. I looked up at Ryan and smiled,
but all he did was smile back and walk into the bathroom just swinging the door
closed behind him, not even closing it all the way as the light from the
bathroom was lighting still lighting up Ryan`s dark bedroom. After a few
moments I heard the shower turn on and was already feeling steam pour out the
bathroom through the crack of the door. For a while we just talked about some
party that Jac wanted Ryan to go to with her and how after asking if he could
invite me she started screaming about how he never wants to hang out with just
her and her friends. Then all of a sudden I heard a sharp hissing and a
grunting sound coming from inside the bathroom.
"Ryan, I swear to god if you`re jerking off in there I will leave this room
right now and never talk to you in the shower again." I announced, shutting my
eyes and leaning all the way back against the wall in order to not get hard
myself.
"Shut up, I just got fucking shampoo in my eye and it`s still stinging like a
bitch!" He yelled sounding hurt, over the noise of the shower.
"Well then, hurry up and get out so I can look at it so you don`t go blind." I
sighed worriedly.
After the shower stopped I heard sounds of shuffling then the door opened
revealing Ryan with a white towel wrapped loosely around his waist, hips poking
out. He had his head down with a hand covering one of his eyes, him hissing at
the pain. I walked up to him, pulling his hand away and he looks up at me
giving me a look that I can`t exactly point out. I look up at his eye and it`s
a little red, I tell him to hold on and I go in the bathroom looking for eye
drops. After finding some that weren`t either empty or too old to risk using, I
dart back into the room where Ryan`s settled on his bed. I push him to a laying
down position and lean over his eye with the drops, trying to get the right
angle so I don`t spill it all over his face. After finally getting three drops
in Ryan sits back up and goes to find some clothes, and I`d be lying if I said
that I didn`t stare at his ass as he walked to the other side of his room where
the wardrobe was.
"So, what should I wear, because whether you or Jac likes it we`re all going to
that party." He told me, glancing over his shoulder as he opened the door to
the wardrobe.
"I have no idea, man, but if we`re leaving I need to shower because I honestly
look and smell like shit." I say already walking over to the bathroom.
"whatever" He barely mumbles.
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After I get out the shower, I walk out to see Ryan dressed in extremely tight
black jeans with a My Chemical Romance shirt on all pulled together with a
think coat of eyeliner around his eyes and reading the same 1800 poetry book I
was earlier.
Fuck.
I quickly walk over to his wardrobe and pulled out one of his black hoodies and
a pair of pants. I slide the pants on from underneath the towel not bothering
to put on any underwear and the towel falls to the ground, I quickly pull on
the hoodie on over my head. Ryan still hasn`t said anything to me so I toss
myself across his lap, dramatically, throwing my arms where ever. He looks down
at me, smiling.
"So Ryan, when is this party and where is it?" I ask still in his lap, my wet
hair probably leaving a even darker black wet spot on his pants.
"Well Brendon" He says, putting the book to the side and instead putting his
hands flat on my chest. "It`s at this dude`s house, I think his name is like
Gabe something and since it`s 5:00 I`m pretty it starts in like two maybe two
and a half hours." He says looking up with his eyes closed, trying to think.
I say that we should go hang out at the mall before the party and maybe grab a
bite to eat, so we set off out the door after grabbing our phones and wallets.
I hop in the passenger side of his red 2004 Honda Civic and he slides into the
drivers side, closing the door and backing out the drive-way. I lean over to
the center console and open it, searching for a cd to listen to. I end up
asking Ryan to choose between My Chemical Romances newest cd "Three Cheers For
Sweet Revenge" or Nirvana`s "Nevermind". He ends up choosing Three Cheers. Of
Course that emo bitch.
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We arrived at the mall half way through the cd and Ryan`s lovely singing. He
drove around for a bit in search of a empty spot, eventually finding one at the
very end of one lane. After getting out and making the ten minute walk to the
front entrance, we walked in trying to decide where to eat.We have trouble
deciding between Mcdonalds or the new pizza place that opened by Spencer's. We
end up deciding on pizza since we were already planning on going into Spencer's
and it`d just be easier. We walk in and I go to find a seat while Ryan orders
since he knows what we both like. I end up picking table next to a large
painting of a random street in Italy with two seats across from each other. I
walk back over to help Ryan get drinks, then I lead him back over to the table
and we sit down. I open the box, of course it`s the same thing we always a
plain small cheese pizza. Ryan starts talking about how Jon`s birthday is soon
and we should buy him a joint gag gift like a bright pink 11 inch dildo or
something. We both laughed at the thought of Jon`s face when he would open it,
he`d probably get Spencer to yell at us afterwards.
We finished eating after about 30 minutes then head into Spencer's. Ryan points
every little thing that`s even slightly sexual asking me if I want it, but I
simply flip him off and turn around so he can`t see me blush. After asking me
if I want to buy a 2 pack of fluffy pink and leather handcuffs, I walk out the
store and start heading over to Hot Topic. I feel Ryan run up behind me and
grab onto my waist to help himself catch up to me. He mumbles a quick sorry and
we both walk into Hot Topic, I immediately walk over to all the shirts and pick
up a Led Zeppelin and continue looking around to see if there`s any cds I want,
after a bit of searching and glancing at my watch I decided to walk over to buy
the shirt when a hand reaches over and grabs it out of my hand. Sure enough I
look over and see Ryan paying for it.
"Don`t worry about it, my treat for making you mad." He says looking over his
shoulder at me with glaring back at him, but actually being totally okay with
him.
------
We walk back to the car, sitting in it waiting for Jac to text Ryan back with
the directions and eventually she does but it takes a good 15 minutes. Then
start driving over to Gabe`s house which takes longer then we expected and we
get there around thirty minutes late. As soon as we walk in we`re greeted by
who I`m assuming is Gabe and he has a smaller boy who appears to be drunk
attached to his side. The boy has short brown hair and he`s wearing extremely
tight blue jeans with a belt buckle that has a giant 'W' on it and Green
sweater. Who I`m assuming to be Gabe is wearing tight black pants and some
weird colorful shirt that looks straight out of the 80s with short curly black
hair.
"Gabey I`m going to get more to drink, okay." The smaller one slures, standing
up straighter and trying to make his way over to where I`m guessing is the
kitchen, but not before Gabe smacks his ass.
"Hurry back, Bilvy!" He yells over top the music that`s blasting throughout the
house. The other just laughs a little and continues to go get more to drink.
"Sorry, that`s William he`s a little young and not used to these type parties
quite yet." He laughs, arm reaching back to scratch his neck. Then we all part
ways, Ryan and I go off to find Jac and her group of scene kids and Gabe heads
off to help William. We walk around a bit before asking a short ginger dude if
he`s seen her and he says the last time he saw her she was giggling and running
up the stairs. I give Ryan a worried look but he just brushes it off and says
she probably had too much to drink and had to use the restroom. We end up
making our way up the stairs anyway in search of her and we check the bathroom
first but to Ryan`s surprise she wasn`t there. Ryan drags me over to one of the
bedrooms and swings open the door to reveal Jac naked on some guys lap bouncing
up and down, Ryan rushes to shut the door but still not letting them be aware
of what we just walked in on. Ryan grabs my wrist and runs down the stairs and
out the house, ignoring Gabe asking if we want some beer. He rushes down to the
car not saying one word, he goes to open the passenger side and lets go of my
wrist.
"Get in." He tells me with a blank expression and goes over to the drivers side
not saying anything more just getting in after I do. I decide not to say
anything and just go with it. He starts driving in the direction of my
apartment, probably so he won`t have to deal with his dad asking him questions.
After more than likely going way over the speed limit we get to my apartment on
record time, he gets out the car and is over to my side before I can even get
my hand on the handle. I get out and he opens the trunk and grabs the bag he
keeps in his car in case he does end up staying the night. He then leads me up
to the building where I get my keys out and open the door for him, after
getting into my apartment and he just sits down on the couch with his head in
his hands. I walk over to him and put my hand on his back trying to soothe him.
"Ry, I`m sorry." I say rubbing his back still. He looks up and sure enough he
was crying, face red and tears still running down his face.
"Don`t be it`s not your fault." He tells me, leaning his head on my shoulder
and my arms now around his. He buries his in my neck and I brush my fingers
through his hair, trying to get him to stop crying. I started to feel him smile
against my neck.
"What?" I ask with a small chuckle. He doesn`t answer, that`s when it happens.
He licked my fucking neck.
"Ryan! What was that?" I asked again with more force. He just laughed and
turned back to my neck, and he started biting and licking this time. I finally
came to my senses after about three minutes and pulled his head up with both
hands. He was looking back at me with a smirk and said "So tell me Bren, did I
turn you on?" licking his lips. I flip him off and get up off the couch to go
into the kitchen and I grab a glass from the counter, going to get some water.
I`m drinking when I feel arms snake around my waist pulling me close and once
again a mouth finds its way to my neck and attaches itself there, biting and
sucking. I lean my head to the other direction and let out a long drawn out
moan, my stomach instantly sinks. Instead of Ryan freaking out like I thought
he just grabbed my wrists and holds them behind my back and continues to leave
hickeys across my neck. He takes one hand away and uses just one to hold my
wrists in place, while the other sweeps around back to the front of me and
reaches around for the button on my pants.
"Ry-" I try saying, but get cut off by Ryan shushing me and telling me to be
quiet. His head looks over to where his hand is still having trouble getting my
pants undone, after he finally gets them open he flips me around so we`re
facing each other. Without saying one word he drops down to his knees and
starts to try to pull my pants down. "Ry, really what the fuck?" I asked
looking down at him. He looks up through his eyelashes and bangs. Fuck, he
still has eyeliner on it`s a little smudged, but it just makes him look ten
times hotter. I close my eyes because I know it`s coming and that`s when it
happens again. My head swings back and another long drawn out moan comes out.
Ryan goes back to getting my pants pulled down and after struggling for a bit
he does get them down eventually. He grabs me through my boxers and I let out a
small whimper at it, I look down as Ryan leans forward and mouths at me through
the thin cotton.
I nearly scream at that. He pulls down my underwear all the way finally, he
grabs my dick and starts to jerk me off before taking the head in his mouth. He
does it all so slowly I feel like I`m about to burst. My hands go down to his
head, pushing it down without meaning to. I start running my fingers through
his hair still pushing it down at the same time, but he just goes with it
letting me fuck his mouth. After a few minutes I let him back up to breathe and
he smiles up at me, his spit and my pre-come dripping out his mouth and down
his chin.
"Ryan, what the fuck was that?" I ask him, putting my head in my hands shaking
despite still being hard.
"I...um sorry if you don`t want to that`s fine I jus-"
I pull him up cutting him off and kiss him roughly, pushing him up to the
fridge. After a bit he starts kissing me back with the same amount of force.
His hands go up to my hips still kissing, but walking us out of the kitchen
into the direction of my bedroom. He takes one hand off to open the door, but
puts it back almost immediately kissing me with even more force before pushing
me backwards onto the bed. He started to crawl on top of me before getting a
curious look on his face then telling me to stay here and darting out of the
room, down the hall. I prop myself up on my elbows, leaning my head back
against the headboard closing my eyes and waiting for him to get back. I hear
footsteps getting closer to the room then I see what he went and got. He bought
the fucking handcuffs and he has the leather pair in his hands. He standing
against the door-frame giving me a type smile that I couldn`t read. "Wanna put
these to the test?" He asked giving me that same fucking smile while he swung
the handcuffs side to side. I nodded, a little curious and a little worried at
the same time. He walked over to me and and straddled my waist then leaning
down to kiss me slower this time. He used his free hand to push me back down so
I laying flat on my back with my hands on his waist, holding him place for the
mean time. He used his other hand, the one holding the handcuffs to try and
grab at my wrists. I let go of his waist and he grabbed a hold of the bottom
hem of the hoodie I was wearing up and off my body then grabbed at both my
hands to cuff them together then to the headboard. He started to lean back,
myself feeling exposed since he was still fully clothed and I was naked. I pull
at the cuffs and they don`t come loose at all. I open my eyes and look up to
see Ryan standing in front of me, looking me down with a leering look on his
face. "Shirt" I barely mumble out and stick my head outwards in his direction.
He looks back at me with a questioning look on his face before reaching back
and pulling his shirt back up and over his head, letting it fall on the floor
wherever. He starts walking back towards the bed and sitting on his knees right
between my already some what spread legs. He puts his hands right below each of
my thighs.
"Spread your legs then don`t move." He told me with mischievous but stern look
on his face. I grunted but did it anyway. He scooted forward a bit and slide
his legs up my legs, squeezing my hips. He leaned down and started to suck and
bite hickeys into my hips and thighs leaving dark purple marks. I moaned
loudly, struggling against the cuffs trying to touch him. He stopped all of a
sudden and looked up at me with glowering look on his then sat back.
"You just can`t control yourself, can you?" He glared at me before reaching up
and undoing the cuff attaching me to the end. He then flipped me over on my
stomach and put the cuff back in place, attaching me back to the bed once
again. I heard him walk in the direction of the bathroom then searching around
in there for something. He came back into the room after what felt like hours,
then he leaned down to whisper to me. "Tell me if it`s too much, okay?" Then
kissed my cheek, not waiting for me to answer. He stood back up straight and
walked back behind me to the right side of the bed. Before I could even blink a
hard plastic came crashing down on my ass, my body jolting up in shock and
wincing at the pain. "Count" He demanded in my direction, myself barely getting
one out before another came. I started having difficulties counting due to the
pain and how fast they were coming down, then all of a sudden I let out a long
whine and it stopped. He just stopped and brought one his hands down to my ass,
my body tensing up.
"Brendon?" He asked with worry to his voice. I let a hm sound to let him know I
was okay. "How many was that?" He asked again.
"Seventeen" I mumbled into my pillow. He went out of the room, back into the
living room. He came back after about five minutes and I still couldn`t see
him. I felt him put whatever he got down and reach up to undo the handcuffs all
the way this time, putting them down on the nightstand with whatever he brought
in. He helped flip me over then straddled my hips starting to kiss me again,
that`s when I realized he still had his pants on so I reached a hand down and
tried to get them off. He started to help me after realizing what I was doing,
I glanced over to the nightstand and on top was the handcuffs next to a small
bottle of lube. It really hit me at that moment what we were going to do and I
just froze in place.
"Ryan, you do realized despite Jac cheating on you she`s still your girlfriend
so you`re actually cheating on her too if you fuck me?" I ask calmly, his head
lifting looking up at me his actions pausing.
"You don`t think that thought hasn`t crossed my mind fifty fucking times
tonight?"
"I do realize that and you know what, I`ll deal with later when I`m not about
to cum all over my best friend." He said looking angry, then went back to
getting his pants off. I leaned back against the headboard wondering how pissed
Jac`s going to be when she finds out Ryan`s been cheating on her with another
guy, even worse finding out that guy is actually Ryan`s best friend. He finally
got both his underwear and pants off after a few moments of waiting. He grabbed
my neck and pulled me in for aggressive open mouth kiss that seemed to last
forever. My hand slipped downwards and grabbed a hold of his dick, why Jac
cheated on him will forever be a mystery seeing how big he is. He moaned into
my mouth then grabbed my legs and pulled me down so I was laying flat back down
against the unmade bed. He snatched the lube off the nightstand and threw it
down next to him on the bed, he then leaned down once more to spread my legs
some.
"Ry-Ryan please" He hurriedly grabbed the lube up beside him to pour some on
two of his fingers. He used his other hand to lift my legs up a bit so he could
get to my entrance. Going further down he starts to put one finger in, my body
tensing up under his touch. He tells me to calm down and starts sliding one
finger in and out of me before adding the second and last finger. After a few
minutes he pulls his fingers out and grabs the lube again, stroking his dick as
he pours some on it. He grabs my legs and hook them on top of his shoulders,
trying to get as close to me as possible before lining up with my entrance and
trying to push in. I wince and throw my head back in pain but trying to relax
so it`d be easier. He stops, using one of his hands and placing it on my hip
trying to soothe me.
"It`s fine I`m fine keep going, please?" I look up and tell him with pleading
eyes. He just nods and pushes in as far as he could, letting me get used to
him. I grab his arms to let him know he can move after about four minutes of
waiting. He very slowly pulls out and back in, then after a few slow thrusts he
starts to speed up slamming in and out at full speed. He keeps going when I
feel something, a shock like feeling take over my body. I let out a extremely
loud moan, throwing my head back and grabbing a hold of Ryan`s arm squeezing.
He leans down and we start kissing roughly, I start to feel close after a
while. I full back and start panting. "Ry I`m close.." I manage to get out and
his hand creeps down and curls around my dick, jerking me off too slow. He
starts moaning too, throwing his head back and shutting his eyes signaling to
me he`s also close now. He starts jerking me off faster and faster until I
come, spilling all over his hand. He pulls out after that not coming yet and
lays down next to me, I twist myself around to his direction and go down until
my face is right over his dick. I lean down and take the head in my mouth
sucking slow trying to tease him, his hands come down though and shove my head
down all the way on his dick. I started choking after a few moments, but he
still held my head down thrusting up into my mouth again and again. Eventually
he took his hands off my head and let me up to breathe instead and I kept my
head on him, bobbing up and down until I felt him twitch under me. I brought my
hand up to jerk him off as I continued to bob up and down. His hands went back
to holding my head down and then he came with a long moan, his cum spilling
down my throat. I pulled off after he was finished and laid down next to him,
tired. After a few moments he reach down and pulled the covers over us and I
curled into his side, falling asleep.
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