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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Radiohead_(Band)
  Relationship:
      Colin_Greenwood/Ed_O'Brien, Colin_Greenwood/Thom_Yorke, Jonny_Greenwood/
      Thom_Yorke
  Character:
      Colin_Greenwood, Ed_O'Brien, Thom_Yorke, Jonny_Greenwood, Phil_Selway,
      Nigel_Godrich, Stanley_Donwood
  Additional Tags:
      Violence, Smut, Fluff, Angst, Underage_Drinking, Canonical_Innacuracy,
      schoolboy_radiohead
  Stats:
      Published: 2017-11-09 Completed: 2017-11-18 Chapters: 12/12 Words: 24664
****** I'm So Fizzy I Could Burst ******
by MrMagpie
Summary
     Colin loves Ed. Thom loves Colin. Jonny loves Thom. What a mess.
     Title is from a song by The Cure.
Notes
     Okay so I should be working on the Gorillaz fic but this one just
     kinda accidentally happened. I originally wasn't gonna even post it,
     but why the hell not? It's finished, so I'll be able to stick to
     posting updates regularly. You wanted me to write the rest of the
     band, so here you go. Hope you like it. xx
***** Chapter 1 *****
Colin sat in the back of the classroom, passing notes with Thom. Between the
notes and staring at the back of the head of his crush across the room, the
lecture was useless. He couldn’t even remember which class he was in at this
point. He leaned forward in his desk, watching his crush’s every move. He was
either doodling or writing notes, whatever it was, he was very into it. He was
hunched over his desk, looking squished and much too big for it.
Colin had had a crush on Ed for the last two years. The moment he set eyes on
him he knew. Everyone knew he was the most good looking guy at Abington, but it
only drove Colin crazy. Colin couldn’t believe how lucky he was to be friends
with Ed, to make music with him. Thom knew about his crush, though Colin would
deny it till the day he died. Thankfully Thom never teased him in front of Ed,
but it was just a matter of time before his big mouth got Colin in trouble.
Colin was snapped out of his thoughts by Thom poking him in the arm with the
folded note they had been passing back and forth. He unfolded it and read it:
Stop staring you fuckin’ poof.
He turned to Thom and glared, and was met with a cheeky grin. He blushed and
grabbed his pencil to write some furious comeback, but he was at a loss. The
bell rang just in time, so he balled up the note and shoved it in his pocket.
As he gathered his things, Thom stood above him, leaning over his desk.
“You ready for holiday?” he asked. Colin had completely forgotten about that.
He would be able to go home to his mum and his little brother after classes
today. He’d have a week to celebrate Christmas and do whatever he pleased. He
smiled to himself. He’d be able to hang out with his mates and have band
practice at someone’s house rather the stuffy music room at that school. Of
course he was ready.
“Yeah, I can’t wait to see Jonathan.”
“Aw, isn’t that precious. Cozzie misses his little brother,” Thom teased.
Colin stood up and swung his book bag over his shoulder. “Shut up, of course I
do.”
As they made their way out of the classroom, Ed caught up to them.
“Two more classes!” He slapped them both on the shoulder. Thom beamed excitedly
and Colin blushed.
“I’ve written more songs for us to practice over break! You’ll love them!” Thom
exclaimed. Ed ruffled Thom’s hair.
“Yeah, hopefully. Colin, let’s walk,” he said, turning to him. Colin had
forgotten he had this next class with Ed. He was never a fan of maths until he
had the class with Ed, just the two of them. No Thom to distract him or
embarrass him.
“You love birds have fun!” Thom called as he walked away and out of sight.
Colin’s cheeks barely had the chance to turn back to normal colour before they
were red again.
“You alright Cozzie? You look like you’re gonna pass out,” Ed said, throwing
his arm around Colin’s shoulders and pulling him into him. Colin thought he
might be right.
“Just um.. excited for holiday, is all.” Nice save, Colin.
“Yeah I bet you can’t wait to see Jonny. How’s he been?”
Colin calmed down and smiled. Ed understood how much he loved his little
brother and didn’t tease him about it, and he loved that about him, among other
things. “He’s been well. I guess he’s gotten pretty good at guitar.”
“As good as me?” Ed winked. Colin swooned.
“Better,” he teased, giving Ed his most charming smile.
“Probably,” Ed chuckled.
“I mean, I don’t know…” Colin said awkwardly. Ed didn’t say anything as they
reached the classroom and sat down next to each other. Ed knew Colin was just
teasing him but Colin felt bad about it. He almost wished Ed was cocky like
Thom and would defend himself, but then again his humility was another thing he
liked about him.
“Will your sister be home for the holiday?” Ed asked, sounding far too eager.
Colin knew Ed thought his sister was attractive, and it pissed him off to no
end. Thankfully she thought all his friends were little twerps and never gave
Ed the time of day.
“I don’t know… probably,” Colin said in his most unenthusiastic tone. Ed
studied him, his face twisting into a look of confusion and slight concern. He
knew he was protective of Jonny, but of her too?
“Sorry, I was just asking. She doesn’t like me anyway, it doesn’t matter.”
“No no it’s okay. I just… ya know. You can do better.” Colin gave him a fake
smile. Ed smiled at him. Colin was always so sweet to him. He wanted to show
Colin how much he appreciated his kindness and how much he loved him but he was
never sure exactly how. He settled back in his seat before the bell rang
signalling the beginning of class.
———
Twenty minutes into the lecture and Ed was bored out of his mind. He hadn’t a
clue what the teacher was on about, his notes made no sense, every problem he’d
tried to work on out paper came up with the wrong answer. He sighed, defeated,
and pulled out a piece of notebook paper to write Colin a note. He watched
Colin for a moment, he seemed as if he was paying attention and actually
soaking up some information, but he knew him better than that. He wrote his
note and folded the paper neatly, drawing a tiny heart on it before passing it
to Colin. He watched as he looked at the heart, blushed, and unfolded the note.
Have you any idea what this tosser is on about?
Colin smiled and wrote back. Not a clue, mate.
Ed thought for a moment, knowing what he wanted to ask Colin but unsure if it
was appropriate. But he had to say something, so he went for it. What are you
doing tomorrow?
Probably catching up with Jonathan, why?
Do you mind if I stop by? I’m going to be bored out of my mind all week, I need
you.
Sure. I bet Jonathan would love to see you.
I’d rather hang out with you. But before Ed could pass the note back, the bell
rang and class was over. As the two boys stood up to leave class, he decided to
slip the note to Colin anyway. Colin looked up at him confused, so he shrugged
and smiled at him. “See you after class Cozzie.”
“Yeah, see you.”
———
Colin forgot about the note in his pocket until he got back to his room and
plopped down on his bed. Thom hadn’t gotten back from class yet. He unfolded
the note and read the last line. I’d rather hang out with you. He let out an
involuntary squeak and blushed, holding the note to his chest and grinning
wide. Ed wanted to hang out with him. Just him. He wondered if he’d asked
anyone else if he could come over during holiday. Probably, but he didn’t want
to think about that right now. It would be just him and Ed alone. He was too
excited to be nervous.
Thom burst through the door and tossed his things onto his bed. “Mr. Snyder is
a prick,” he said to no one in particular. He was red in the face. Colin opened
his mouth to say something when Thom turned to him. “What are you all blushing
about? Is that a love note from Ed?” he said, furrowing his brow.
Colin shoved the note between his legs. “Shut up Thom.” Shit, he was being too
obvious.
Thom perked up. “It is isn’t it? Oh my god, you are such a fucking poof. What’s
it say?” Thom reached for the note but Colin shoved it further in his crotch.
“Why are you hiding it there? Is it because you want me to grab it? ‘Cause I
will, I don’t care how gay you are.”
“Jesus Thom, leave me alone.”
“Tell me what the note says and I will.”
“We’re just talking about hanging out during holiday, that’s all.”
“And I’m not invited?”
“No, you’re not.”
Thom seemed genuinely offended. He went from a pout to a look of anger, turning
red again. “Fine, have your gay fucking date.”
“What is with you, Thom?”
“Nothing, I’m just teasing you. Lighten up.”
———
As soon as Colin walked in the door to his home, his brother was on him —
practically tackling him to the floor and leaving wet kisses all over his face.
Colin giggled and hugged him as tight as he could.
“Cozzie! I missed you so much! We’re gonna spend the whole week together!”
“I missed you too love, and yes, of course we are. Let me get settled and you
can catch me up on everything you’ve been up to since I’ve been at school.”
Colin went upstairs to his and his brother’s room, Jonny following him. His bed
was neatly made and his corner of the room untouched, Jonny always respectful
of his things. He put down his suitcase and bass guitar and sat on his bed,
running his fingers through his hair. Jonny looked at him expectantly for a
moment.
“Can I show you some stuff I’ve learned on guitar while you unpack?” He looked
so hopeful and eager.
“Yes, of course.” Jonny grinned wide and scrambled to get his guitar around his
neck and plugged into the amp. As he tuned it and strummed a few notes, Colin
started unpacking. He put some clothes in his closet as he listened intently to
his brother’s playing. He really had gotten quite good — Colin was impressed.
He sat back on the bed and watched him play. He still had some more unpacking
to do but it could wait. Jonny was hunched over his guitar, sticking his tongue
out in concentration. Colin thought he really had gotten better than Ed. Just
like that, his mind was distracted by Ed again. He had to remember to ask his
mum if he could come over tomorrow. He knew she’d say yes. Jonny stopped
playing and snapped Colin out of his thoughts. He stood up and clapped, hugging
his brother.
“That was amazing Jonathan! You’re even better than Ed now!”
Jonny’s eyes grew wide at the comparison. “Nu-uh… you really think so?”
“I really do. Maybe you can show off for him tomorrow, I’m gonna ask mum if he
can come over.”
Jonny turned red and looked down at his hands, fiddling with his guitar.
“Don’t be nervous, you don’t have to if you’re not ready. But I think he’d be
really impressed,” Colin reassured him.
Jonny looked at him and smiled. “C’mon, let’s have dinner and you can ask mum
about Ed. You haven’t seen Susan yet either.”
“Oh, she’s here?”
“Yeah, she’s been home from uni for a whole week already! She gets two weeks
off!”
“What? That’s not fair!”
“I know!” Jonny said, giggling and putting his guitar away.
———
That night Colin lied on his bed, staring at the ceiling, lost in thought. Only
his brother’s bedside lamp illuminated the room. Jonny’s nose was buried in a
book, but he had been watching Colin out of the corner of his eye. Colin rolled
over to face his brother, watching him in silence. Jonny put his book down.
“What?” Jonny asked, wondering why his brother was staring at him.
“I’m in love, Jonathan.” Jonny smiled with all his teeth and jumped off his
bed, hurrying over to Colin’s. He sat next to Colin on the bed with his knees
pulled up to his chest, holding his legs. He was grinning with excitement.
“That’s wonderful Cozzie! Who is it?”
“It’s not wonderful, Jonathan, it sucks. It’s someone from school.”
“So it’s a boy?” Jonny pursed his lips. “Why does it suck?”
Colin rolled over and sat up, looking at Jonny like he was about to cry. “He’ll
never love me back.”
“How do you know?”
“We’re just friends, I just know.
“Have you told him?”
“Of course not!”
“Well why not?”
“If he knew, he wouldn’t be my friend anymore.”
“Yeah, because he would be your boyfriend.”
Colin smiled at his baby brother’s innocence. “No, he wouldn’t. He’d probably
beat me up for liking him like that.”
“But how do you know?”
Colin sighed. Jonny had a point. “I don’t… know.”
“Exactly. So you should tell him!”
Colin ruffled Jonny’s hair and kissed him on the cheek. “You’re sweet,
Jonathan.”
“I am?”
“Yeah. Now get out, I’m going to bed.” Jonny gave Colin a kiss back and hopped
off the bed, settling into his own bed and turning the lamp off.
Colin got comfortable and thought about what his brother had said. Maybe he
should just tell Ed how he felt. But there was no way Ed had the same feelings
about him, so what would be the point? It would only create an awkwardness
between them. Colin liked the relationship they had now. It was good enough to
just be his friend if there was no hope of being more, which he knew there
wasn’t.
***** Chapter 2 *****
Chapter Summary
     Things start to get heavy.
The next day Colin was a nervous wreck. Jonny could tell something was up and
kept questioning him about it, but he insisted he was fine. What would he and
Ed even do together? They could make music, listen to music, chat, then what?
Was he planning on spending the night? Where would he sleep? In Colin’s bed? No
he was much too big for that.
Colin paced around his room, pretending to be listening to Jonny’s guitar
playing, but he couldn’t focus on the music. His mind was on impressing Ed.
“Jonathan, do you think this outfit is okay?” he said suddenly.
Jonny looked up and blinked a few times. “Yeah… I guess. What’s it matter?”
“Well Ed doesn’t usually see me out of my school uniform and… what do you think
he’ll be wearing?”
“Who… cares?”
“You’re right, you’re right. It doesn’t matter.”
Jonny smirked at him. Yeah, something was up. Suddenly they heard a knock on
the door from downstairs. Jonny glanced at Colin who jumped at the sound. “I’ll
get it!” he shouted, running downstairs.
He swung the door open. “Ed!”
“Cozzieee!” Ed said as if he hadn’t seen Colin in years. He gave him a big bear
hug and kissed him on the head. Colin blushed every shade of red. Why was Ed
being so nice to him?
“Come up to my room, Jonathan is—“
“Ed!” Jonny came seemingly out of nowhere, pouncing on Ed and nearly knocking
him over.
“Hey little buddy, how’ve you been?” Ed said, hugging him back.
“Good, Colin says I’m better than you at guitar now.”
“Is that right?” he said, eyeing Colin with a smirk. “Well let’s see it then.”
Jonny bolted up the stairs expecting them to follow him.
“Sorry, he’s a bit… enthusiastic. He really likes you,” Colin apologised.
“I think it’s endearing. After you,” Ed said gesturing toward the staircase.
When they got to Colin and Jonny’s room, Jonny was already set up with his
guitar, waiting eagerly on his bed. Ed took the opportunity to sprawl out on
Colin’s bed, taking up most of it, as he did. Colin found a corner of the bed
to sit on and stared at him for a moment before turning to Jonny.
“Okay Ed, pay attention.” Ed smiled and Jonny began playing. He was hunched
over and playing his guitar like he wanted to destroy it. Ed’s eyes grew wide.
Colin could tell he was impressed, as he was watching him, not Jonny. “Well?”
Jonny asked when he finished playing.
“You should play lead in our band,” Ed said casually.
“What?” Jonny’s eyes were wide and his jaw slack. “Really? You think I’m that
good?”
“Yeah, I’d rather play rhythm anyway. We should talk to Thom about it,” Ed
said, turning to Colin. Colin was shaken out of his stupor.
“Yeah… yeah! That’s what I’ve been saying! Jonathan’s really good, isn’t he?”
“Pretty awesome,” Ed was staring daggers at Colin.
“I’m gonna… go downstairs and see what mum’s making for dinner…” Jonny said,
something starting to click in his brain. He snuck out the door and closed it
gently behind him, wondering if the two had even noticed he left.
“So.. uhh… what do you wanna do today?” Colin said, looking around the room for
something to stare at besides Ed’s beautiful blue eyes.
“I dunno,” Ed scooted so he was sitting up next to Colin on the bed, their
shoulders touching, “I was hoping to just chat with you and stuff…”
“Oh… about what?” Colin was sweating bullets.
“Have you been okay lately?”
“Fine,” Colin stared at the wall in front of him, feeling Ed’s breath on his
ear and willing his boner away with all his might.
“Okay… well, I wanted to tell you, I think you’re my best mate. You’re always
so nice to me and I was hoping we could hang out a lot during break. Is that
okay?”
“Oh… thanks. Best friend, yeah, you’re mine too,” Colin couldn’t breathe. He
was way too physically close to Ed.
Seemingly out of nowhere, Ed leaned forward and kissed Colin on the cheek. It
was quick, barely touching him, but Colin could feel his warmth as he did. It
was too much.
“I have to go to the bathroom,” Colin said quickly. This boner was not going to
let up and he wasn’t going to ruin Ed being here, in his bed, with him.
Ed knew he had done something wrong. He wasn’t Colin’s best friend, he could
tell. Colin was just a nice guy, he wasn’t anyone special to him. He probably
thought he was gay for kissing him. He just didn’t know how to show him how
much he appreciated him. “Maybe I should just go home.” Ed said looking away
from Colin.
“No!” Colin grabbed his hand, “I mean… please stay, I wanna hang out. You can
spend the night if you want,” Colin spoke too soon, what was he thinking?
Ed’s face softened into a smile. “Yeah… I’d like that.”
“Great! Now um… I’ll be right back.” Colin walked awkwardly to the bathroom, Ed
raising an eyebrow at him. Maybe he had the shits. Ed lied down on Colin’s bed.
He felt more at home in the Greenwoods’ house than at his own house. He wished
he could stay there, with Colin, forever.
———
Colin returned, looking a bit frazzled. “Are you okay? You took forever,” Ed
asked.
“Fine.”
“You got the shits?”
“What? No! Scoot over.” Colin squeezed his way back onto the bed, Ed barely
moving an inch. Colin sighed, “this bed isn’t big enough for both of us, Ed.”
“Sure it is,” Ed, said, rolling over to face Colin. Colin was curled up with
his knees to his chest, while Ed was sprawled out comfortably. Ed smiled up at
him, curling up at his side. Colin’s breath hitched as he felt Ed’s breath on
his arm. Colin moved his arm away to hold himself. This was torture.
“Sorry if I was um… weird earlier. You really are my best mate.”
“I think you like Thom more,” Ed said with a wink.
“Nah, Thom’s annoying.”
“Sure is,” Ed said, pressing his forehead to Colin’s ribs and closing his eyes,
sighing.
“You’re… awfully close.” Colin couldn’t take it anymore.
“So?”
Well shit, if Ed was going to be comfortable cuddling up to him then he could
take his chances and it wouldn’t be weird, right? Sure. Colin put his hand in
Ed’s hair and played with it, rubbing his head and running his fingers through
it. Colin smiled down at him, admiring how angelic he looked. They sat in
silence for a moment, only Ed’s breathing and Colin’s racing thoughts filling
the room. He briefly wondered if Ed could read his thoughts. He hoped not.
“Can I sleep here tonight?” Ed said suddenly, his eyes still closed.
“I already said you can stay the night.”
“No I mean, in your bed.” Colin’s breath hitched and he coughed. “You okay?”
“Both of us won’t fit. Especially with the way you sleep.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“You flail about all night, I’ve seen you!”
“If I hold still can I stay?”
“We still won’t fit.”
“If we spoon we will.” Colin’s head was screaming.
“Why do you want to sleep here all of the sudden?”
Ed sat up and looked Colin dead in the eye. He looked like he was about to cry.
“You make me feel safe, okay? It’s not a gay thing so don’t think that.” He was
on the defensive.
“Hey hey,” Colin wanted to comfort Ed but he wasn’t sure how. He touched his
knee and rubbed it with his thumb. Awkward, but better than nothing. “I get it.
What’s going on at home?”
“Shit I don’t wanna talk about.”
“That’s okay,” Colin squeezed his knee, “you can sleep here if you want.”
Ed kissed his cheek again, quick, chaste, barely grazing his cheek with his
lips. “Thanks Cozzie.”
Colin blushed and smiled at him. He wasn’t moving his face away from him,
despite the kiss being over. Colin swallowed dryly. “W-we should um.. get some
fresh air.”
“Okay.”
They made their way downstairs and invited Jonny, who was curled up on the sofa
with a book. The boys made their way to the woods behind the Greenwoods’ house,
Colin and Jonny chatting away and Ed mostly listening intently. Jonny
eventually went ahead of them, wandering curiously through the woods. Colin
just wanted to get some distance between himself and Ed and clear his head, but
between looking out for his brother and being alone with Ed once more, he found
it impossible. They came upon a particularly crowded part of the woods,
surrounded by tree branches and thorns and walking on uneven ground. Jonny
ducked and weaved through it easily, but Colin and Ed struggled. Ed was much
too tall and Colin was much too clumsy.
“Hurry up guys!” Jonny called from somewhere ahead of them.
“Slow down Jonathan! If you get lost in here mum will have my head!”
Ed giggled. “C’mon Cozzie,” he held out his hand for Colin to take it, and he
reluctantly did. Ed held branches above his head and let him pass through,
catching him around the waist when he tripped, Colin blushing the entire time.
It was a chilly winter day, but Colin was sweating.
As they finally made it out of the brush, they came to a clearing surrounded by
trees, but spacious and clear.
“Fucking finally,” Jonny exclaimed, as if he’d been waiting more than a few
minutes.
“Don’t swear, Jonathan,” Colin said, glaring at his little brother. Ed couldn’t
help but giggle at them.
“You’re not mum,” Jonny said, sticking his tongue out.
“I am when she’s not around.”
“No, Susan is.”
Colin rolled his eyes. “How is she, anyway?” Ed piped up.
Jonny just had to bring up Ed’s little crush. Colin quickly let go of his hand
and marched past both of them. “Who cares, she’s been cooped up in her room
since I got here. She didn’t even care that she hasn’t seen me in months.”
Ed picked up his pace to catch up with him. Jonny walked behind them. “Hey… I’m
sorry,” Ed shoved his hands in his pockets as he walked with Colin.
“It’s okay… you didn’t do anything wrong.”
“I mean, I’m sorry your sister kind of sucks.”
It’s fine… I just miss when she, y’know, still liked me.”
“She just thinks she’s too cool for you now that she’s twenty-something. She’ll
get over it.”
“Yeah, you’re right,” Colin finally looked at him with a smile, “thanks Ed.”
Ed put his arm around Colin and pulled him closer, giving him a kiss on the
temple.
“You guys are cute!” Jonny shouted from behind them.
“Piss off, Jonathan!” Colin called back, turning red once more.
“Aren’t we, though?” Ed yelled back, turning around to look at Jonny, who was
smiling slyly.
“Shut up Ed,” Colin whispered. “What’s with all the kisses lately?”
“I can’t kiss my best friend?” Ed said, hurt. He moved his arm from around
Colin and put his hand back in his pocket.
“Aw, Ed. No, I like it. I was just asking,” Colin linked his arm with Ed’s.
“I like it too.”
“Guys I’m cold!” Jonny said from behind them.
“We’ll be out of the woods in a minute, then we can take the footpath around
back home!” Colin called back. Jonny caught up with them, and linked his arm
with Colin’s.
———
After dinner, the boys got ready for bed. Jonny curled up in his bed, looking
at the other two expectantly. Colin was lying on his back, uncomfortably
staring at the ceiling. Ed had his head propped up in his hand, watching Colin
try to catch his breath.
“Are you sure you’ll both fit in there?” Jonny questioned, innocently.
“We’ll be fine,” Ed said with a sly smile, sliding his arm around Colin’s waist
under the blankets where Jonny couldn’t see. Colin shivered at his touch. “You
okay?” Ed whispered in his ear. Colin nodded awkwardly, but Ed could see how he
fidgeted when he felt his breath in his ear. He sighed and rolled over away
from Colin, settling into the mattress. “G’night guys.”
Jonny frowned and looked at Colin, hoping to stay up late with his friends, but
that wasn’t happening tonight. “Goodnight,” he said, turning his bedside lamp
off and rolling over to face the wall.
Jonny soon drifted to sleep, while Colin and Ed lied there awkwardly, their
minds racing. Ed was being so sweet to him today Colin wasn’t sure what to
think. He’d told him not to think anything gay, but who is that affectionate
with someone who is “just their mate?” He wanted to tell him everything, in
case he felt the same way, but what if he didn’t? What if he was just going
through a hard time with his home life and just needed a friend? If Colin
confessed his feelings he’d ruin everything, Ed would never trust him again.
He’d never be this close to him again.
Ed felt awkward, and like he should get out of Colin’s bed and just go home.
Colin didn’t want him there. He was acting on impulse with Colin lately, and he
didn’t know why all he wanted to do was touch him and kiss him and be close to
him. Colin probably thought he was gay and hated him for it. He’d never fancied
a boy before, so he couldn’t be gay. He just wanted to be close to his best
friend, and that wasn’t gay, was it?
Before Ed could collect his thoughts, he felt Colin roll over and slide an arm
around his waist. He pressed up against his back and held onto him like his
life depended on it. Ed could feel Colin's heart racing on his back, and he
wasn’t sure how to interpret that. His heart was racing too, and he wanted to
show Colin. He took Colin’s hand and held it to his chest for a moment. Once he
could feel that Ed’s heart was moving just as fast as his own, he squeezed him
tighter and left feverish, desperate kisses all over his shoulder blades. Ed
rolled over to face him, wrapping his arms around his waist and staring at him,
trying to see him through the light from the streetlights in the window.
“Cozzie…” Ed whispered, pressing his forehead to Colin’s.
“Ed?”
“I think I love you but I’m not sure.”
Without thinking, Colin kissed him. A quick, awkward, closed-mouth kiss.
Chapped lips barely touching, briefly grazing across each other. Colin pulled
back as quickly and he’d leaned forward, eyes wide, staring up at Ed, praying
Ed wouldn’t wake up the whole house by screaming about how gay Colin was.
Ed stared at Colin for a moment, trying to process what had happened. His
expression soon softened into a wide grin, and he leaned in for another kiss.
This time it lasted a bit longer. It was a big too eager, teeth clashing and
lips nearly bruising. Ed pulled away, embarrassed, not wanting to look directly
at Colin. He took Colin’s head and pulled it into his chest, leaving small
kisses in his hair. Colin started giggling and it made Ed giggle too.
“What the hell are you guys laughing about?” Jonny suddenly said from the other
side of the room. This only sent the two boys into a louder fit of laughter,
feeling as though they’d been caught redhanded. Suddenly a pillow came flying
through the air, landing on both of them with a soft thump. “I’m trying to
sleep,” Jonny said, muffled by his own blankets and pillows.
“Sorry Jon,” Ed apologised, his face still buried in Colin’s hair.
“Don’t throw things Jonathan!” But Jonny didn’t hear Colin, for his face was
buried in Ed’s chest.
The three boys fell asleep like that, Colin and Ed wrapped up in each other,
and Jonny in a sour mood.
———
The boys were still dead asleep the next morning when the bedroom door creaked
open. Susan’s first sight was Colin and Ed pressed up against each other, cozy
and warm beneath the blankets.
“Oh Colin, I didn’t know ya had a boyfriend,” she teased.
“Shut up Susan,” Colin said, eyes still closed and face pressed firmly against
Ed’s chest.
Ed opened his eyes and raised his head, giving Susan’s annoyed expression a
sleepy smile. “Hi Susan.”
“Hello Ed. Mum wants you lot to come downstairs for breakfast,” she turned to
Jonny, “you too Jonathan.” He was still pretending to be asleep, but he groaned
at the sound of his name. She rolled her eyes and left, closing the door behind
her. Ed rolled onto his back and held Colin close, looking down at him
adoringly.
Jonny was the first one up, sitting up and throwing his legs over the side of
the bed, rubbing his eyes. He caught Ed’s eyes and glanced down at Colin,
smiling at the sight. “Good morning guys.”
“Morning Jon,” Ed said, looking at him sleepily. Colin grumbled something
incoherent from beneath him. Jonny got out of his bed and made his way over to
Colin’s, sitting on his knees at the foot of it. Ed extended an arm to him,
inviting him to cuddle up with them. He crawled on top of Ed, and plopped his
face down onto his chest, looking at Colin with a cheeky grin. He opened one of
Colin’s eyes with his fingers and Colin immediately pulled away, making an
irritated face.
“Why are you in my bed?” Colin asked, trying not to be too annoyed with him.
Jonny ignored the question. “Are you and Ed boyfriends now?”
“What?”
“Susan said.”
“Shut up Jonathan.”
“Okay.” He crawled off Ed and stood up. “I’m gonna go get breakfast.”
Jonny left them still snuggled up in bed. Colin shoved his face into Ed’s
chest, closing his eyes once more.
“We gotta get up Cozzie,” Ed said softly.
“Ugh.”
“I know.”
But Colin didn’t move. Ed scooted so he was face to face with Colin. He kissed
him, small and quick and awkward. Colin smiled, but still didn’t open his eyes,
so Ed kissed him again, and again, leaving a series of quick pecks on his lips,
growing less awkward with every kiss. Colin’s eyes flew open as he was sent
into a fit of giggles. “Okay okay I’m up!” he squealed. He looked at Ed for a
moment, their smiles mirroring each other.
“I wanna stay here forever, but I’m also hungry, so get up.”
“Fine,” Colin grumbled.
———
After breakfast, Thom called. Ed answered.
“What’s up Thommy?”
“Ed?”
“Yep.”
“What are you doing answering Colin’s phone?”
“Obviously I’m at his house.”
“Why?”
“Um… hanging out with my mate?”
“Right well… meet at Phil’s for band practice in two hours, okay?”
“Alright. Hey — can we bring Jonny?”
“Ugh, why?”
“You’ve gotta hear him play. I think he should join the band and play lead.”
“Are you high?”
“No, I’m serious. You just, gotta hear him, okay? We’re bringing him.”
“Whatever. Two hours.”
“Got it.”
Thom hung up rather quickly. He sounded irritated.
Ed relayed the information to Colin, informing Jonny he’d be joining them
today. Jonny’s heart did a backflip. He was so excited, he talked and asked
questions about the band for the entirety of the two hours.
———
Ed knocked on Phil’s door, and Thom answered rather quickly. He eyed the three
boys with a bored expression, and without a word lead them to Phil’s basement.
Colin’s eyes met Ed’s and their faces read the same question: What’s up with
Thom? Jonny was too excited to notice.
Phil greeted them excitedly, and they set up and played through a few old
songs, then started working on a new one Thom had just written. Jonny watched
and listened patiently, waiting for his time to shine. His heart was racing and
his palms were sweaty.
“Alright kid, you’re up,” Thom said, looking at Jonny with that same bored
expression.
Jonny couldn’t hide his grin as he stood up and set up his guitar. He looked up
at all of his brother’s friends staring at him. Thom already looked
unimpressed; it made him even more nervous. Then he caught Colin’s expression,
he was smiling at him sweetly, his face telling him not to be nervous and that
he’d do great. Jonny took a deep breath and began playing. He went through some
random solos, something he’d written, and even a few walls of sound he’d heard
Ed play before. He finished and looked up, pushing the hair out of his eyes. He
bit his lip, looking around the room. Everyone was smiling at him, especially
Colin. He turned to Thom, hoping most to impress him. Thom was looking at him
with a smirk. Jonny blushed.
“You Greenwoods are somethin’ else,” Thom said, crossing his arms, “You’re in,
kid.”
Jonny squeaked and Colin got up and ran over to him, taking his guitar off him
and giving him a hug big enough to lift him off the ground. “I told you,” he
whispered in his ear.
———
After practice, Phil pulled out a case of beer for everyone. Being the only one
old enough to drink, he always provided the booze. Jonny awkwardly declined.
Colin didn’t want his baby brother drinking anyway.
They sat in a circle in the basement, Colin and Ed on an old mattress on the
floor, Colin scooting up close enough to Ed that their legs touched. Jonny was
next to Colin, curled up into himself, Phil in a chair and Thom sprawled out in
a beanbag chair next to him. Thom eyed Colin and Ed and took a sip of his beer.
Ed caught him and raised an eyebrow at him, making him quickly look away.
Phil lead the conversation as the case of beer dwindled down. Thom’s focus was
on Colin and Ed, catching every blush and glance and knowing smirk.
Once the beer was depleted, Phil admitted he had more in the fridge upstairs.
Colin offered to go get it, Thom immediately offering to help. He glared at Ed
as he got up and followed Colin, Ed meeting his expression with one of
confusion.
Colin bounced up the stairs, Thom behind him, and went into the kitchen,
swinging the refrigerator door open and rummaging through its contents. Thom
watched him, arms crossed.
“You and Ed are awfully close tonight,” he commented.
Colin stopped, blushing. “Yeah?”
“Yeah, are you guys finally dating or what?”
Colin pulled his head out of the fridge and turned to Thom, smirking. “So what
if we are?” Thom looked at him with a face of disgust. Colin’s smirk turned
into a look of confusion and defensiveness. “What the hell is your problem?
When I told you I liked boys you were totally cool with it, what changed?”
“It’s not that, I don’t care if you like boys.”
“Then what is it? Do you hate Ed suddenly?”
“Kind of.”
“What? Why?”
Thom sighed and walked towards Colin, Colin bracing for impact. Thom delicately
grabbed his wrist, reached up, and kissed him on the corner of his mouth. Their
lips nearly touched. Thom pulled away and looked at him, waiting for a
reaction. Colin touched his mouth where Thom had kissed him, realisation of
what he meant by that coming to him.
“Shit, Thom.”
“Yeah.”
“I’m sorry… I didn’t know.”
“Well now you do.” Colin opened his mouth to say something, he wasn’t sure
what, but Thom stopped him. “Don’t worry about it, I’m gonna go home.” He
turned to leave.
“Wait, I… do you want me to walk you home? You’re a bit drunk and it’s dark
and…”
“I got it, Colin. Have fun with Ed,” he nearly spat his name out, “tell Phil
thanks for the beers.”
Colin stood there and watched Thom leave, a pained expression on his face.
Things were finally working out for him, and Thom had to ruin it. It wasn’t
really Thom’s fault though, he couldn’t help how he felt. Colin grabbed the
beers and headed downstairs with a sigh.
Colin set the case on the floor and passed a beer to each of his friends,
opening his own and sitting back down next to Ed.
“Where’s Thom?” Phil asked.
“He went home. He um… wasn’t feeling well.” Ed looked down at him like he knew
something was up. Colin met him with an unreadable expression.
“Then I’m taking his seat,” Jonny said and crawled over to the beanbag chair.
Colin smiled at his brother and Phil shrugged.
The night continued, Phil and Jonny laughing and bonding over music and art,
Phil finding Jonny was quite smart and interesting for his age. Colin was
rather quiet, Ed looking at him with concern and giving him little touches that
no one else noticed.
Jonny was curled up on the beanbag chair, eyelids heavy, fighting to stay awake
with the other boys. Phil finally stretched and yawned, announcing that he was
going to bed.
“Jonny, do you wanna sleep in my guest room?” Jonny nodded eagerly. “The bed in
there is pretty tiny, do you guys mind sleeping down here?” he asked, turning
to Colin and Ed.
“Nah,” Ed said, smiling down at Colin, excited to be alone with him, but Colin
just stared at his feet.
Phil went into a tiny closet in the corner of the room, returning with pillows
and blankets. He threw them on top of Colin and Ed, making his way upstairs
with Jonny.
As soon at the door shut, Ed turned to Colin. “Okay, what happened with Thom?”
Colin sighed and rested his head on Ed’s shoulder. “He kissed me.”
“What?” Oh boy, Ed was pissed.
“Don’t be mad. He kind of.. guessed there was something between us. I didn’t
know he had feelings for me. I don’t know what to do.”
Ed sighed and pulled Colin closer to him, kissing him on the head. “Thom will
be okay.”
“You know how he is when he has a crush.”
“Yeah, but he’s gotten over all the others, he can get over this one too.”
“I don’t think he actually has gotten over them.”
“Do I have to beat him up for you?”
Colin smiled, looking up at Ed, kissing him quickly on the lips. “C’mon, none
of that.”
Ed smiled, complying. “Let’s get this bed sorted, you tired?”
“A bit.”
They made the bed and lied down under the blankets, holding each other close,
Ed drawing circles with his fingers on Colin’s back, side, and hip. Colin
shuddered at the touch, burying his blushing face in Ed’s chest. They were
alone, together, in bed. Anything could happen. He was dreadfully nervous.
Ed held his face and leaned down to kiss him. This time it was soft, and slow,
and their mouths melded together, figuring out how to move together, learning
from each other. Colin tangled his hands in Ed’s hair, moaning into his mouth.
Ed held his hip and pulled it closer to him, Colin felt him through his
trousers and squeaked, earning a giggle from Ed. Ed rolled them over, so he was
on top of Colin, caressing every inch of his body, never leaving his lips. They
finally broke away for air, and Ed began leaving a trail of kisses down Colin’s
neck, sucking and biting his way down to his collar bone.
“Ed,” Colin squeaked.
Ed stopped dead in his tracks, looking up at Colin. “Yeah?”
“I don’t think I’m ready, yet. I mean I’ve never — I want to, but I’ve never…”
Ed shut him up by kissing him softly. “It’s okay, I haven’t either. We can just
kiss, is that okay?”
Colin smiled and nodded.
They made out for the rest of the night, finally falling asleep with Colin on
top of Ed, his head rising and falling with Ed’s chest.
***** Chapter 3 *****
Chapter Summary
     Really short chapter, necessary filler.
They were passed out in the dark of the basement, not hearing when Jonny and
Phil came in. Jonny ran up and tackled them both, landing on top of them and
evoking an oof out of each of them.
“Well, aren’t you guys cute,” Phil said, standing above them.
“Colin and Ed are in love!” Jonny said, being shoved off by Colin.
“Shut up Jonathan.”
“Aren’t we?” Ed said, smiling at them both.
Colin shoved his face into Ed’s chest, trying to hide from the situation.
“That’s sweet,” Phil said with a grin, “C’mon Jon, let’s make these lovebirds
some tea.” Jonny hopped off them and bounded up the stairs behind Phil.
Ed gently pushed Colin off him and onto his back. “You scared?” he asked,
tickling Colin’s ribs.
Colin giggled uncontrollably. “Get off me, scared of what?”
Ed stopped. “People knowing.”
Colin bit his cheek and thought for a moment. “Kind of.”
“You know our friends won’t care,” Ed said, kissing him on the forehead.
“Does that mean… we’re like, dating now?” Colin asked hopefully.
“If you want.”
“I do want.”
“Then yes,” Ed smiled, leaning down to kiss Colin. They kissed for a while,
before deciding to go upstairs to join the others.
———
Phil and Jonny were sitting at the kitchen table, sipping their tea and
chatting away, when Colin and Ed came upstairs. They stopped and turned to
them, Colin looking sheepish behind Ed. They sat down in front of their tea and
there was an awkward silence.
“So,” Phil started, “you guys… y’know…”
“What?” asked Colin defensively.
“Yes,” Ed said with a smirk.
“Awwwww!” Jonny gushed, bouncing in his seat. Colin shoved him.
“How sweet,” Phil smiled from behind his teacup, “does Thom know?”
Colin turned red and Ed sulked at the mention of Thom. “Yeah… sort of,” Colin
said.
Phil raised an eyebrow at them. “Okay… well do you guys want toast or something
before I kick you out?”
“Nah,” Ed said. Colin shook his head. Jonny nodded.
———
The boys stopped at the Greenwood’s porch, Jonny heading inside without a
second thought. Ed stopped Colin before he could follow him.
“Hey, I should probably get going,” he said, looking at his shoes, “I haven’t
been home in two days, dad’s gonna be pissed.”
Colin frowned at him and took his hand, beckoning him to look at him. Ed kept
his head down but did so. His eyes were screaming. Colin put his hand on Ed’s
cheek, rubbing it with his thumb. “Are you gonna be okay?” he asked.
Ed gave him a weak smile. “Yeah, of course. I’ll call you tonight, okay?”
“Okay.” Colin glanced at the window, then the door, then gave Ed a quick peck
on the lips. Ed squeezed his hand then departed, Colin watching him walk down
the footpath until he was out of sight.
———
That night as Jonny played his guitar, Colin waited anxiously by the telephone
for Ed to call. Finally it rang, and he picked it up after the first ring.
“Ed?”
“Um.. no, it’s Thom. Sorry to disappoint.”
“Oh, hey Thom,” Colin tried to sound like he wasn’t disappointed, “What’s up
mate?”
“I take it Ed’s not there.”
“Not tonight.”
“Can I come over?”
“Um.. sure.”
“I’ll be there in half an hour.”
“Okay.” But Thom had already hung up.
Colin sat on the sofa nervously. Why did Thom want to come over? Of course he
wanted to see his best friend, but after last night it was a surprise he wanted
anything to do with him. A half hour flew by, and Colin saw Thom walking up the
footpath towards his house. He opened the door before Thom knocked.
“Hey Thom,” Colin said softly, afraid anything he did could upset Thom.
“Hey Coz,” he said, pushing past Colin and inviting himself in. He marched
straight up the stairs and into his room, Colin following.
Jonny looked up from his guitar when Thom came in. “Thom! I didn’t know you
were coming over.”
“Me neither. Hey can you give me and your brother a minute? I gotta talk to him
about… stuff.”
Jonny shrugged and hopped off his bed, passing Colin as he went downstairs.
Colin entered his room and shut the door behind him. As soon as the door was
shut, Thom was on him. He shoved him up against the door and kissed him — hard.
Colin kissed him back for a split second, before shoving him off him.
“What the fuck, Thom?”
“Sorry, I had to do that before I never get the chance again. Lord knows every
time I see you from now on Ed will be glued to your hip.”
“Look, I’m sorry this happened the way it did, but I really like Ed and I’m
really happy with him. Can you please be happy for me too? We’re still best
friends after all, aren’t we?”
Thom sighed and walked closer towards Colin, Colin bracing himself. But he just
leaned into Colin, resting his head on his shoulder, hugging him without his
arms. Colin let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding, and wrapped his
arms tightly around his tiny friend. He could feel him trembling, could feel
his breath coming out ragged, he was crying. Colin rocked him. He felt so sorry
for him, he wished there was more he could do.
 
“I’m s-so sorry Cozzie. I don’t mean to be a dick. I am… happy, for both of
you. This just… sucks for me, y’know?”
Colin shushed him and kissed his temple. “It’s okay Thom, it really is, I
understand.”
Thom pulled away and wiped the tears from his face, looking up at Colin with a
weak smile. “Can I stay here tonight?” Colin sighed and looked at him, pursing
his lips. “I promise I won’t try anything. I’ll sleep on the floor.”
“Fine. You know you don’t have to sleep on the floor.”
“Nah, I don’t mind.”
“Fine.”
“Do you think Jonny wants to play guitars with me?”
“Always.”
Thom grinned and composed himself, reaching past Colin for the doorknob. “Hey
Colin?”
“Hm?”
“Don’t tell Ed I kissed you, please?”
“My lips are sealed.”
“Thanks.”
***** Chapter 4 *****
Chapter Summary
     Finally, some smut for you animals.
The next morning, Thom left in a hurry. Tonight was Christmas Eve and he wasn’t
about to disappoint his mum by not even being home for it. Colin had promised
Jonny they’d make cookies together tonight. They sat at the kitchen table
drinking tea, Jonny staring at Colin like an excited puppy — or like he was
about to pee his pants.
“What?” Colin asked, sipping his tea.
Jonny looked around carefully, then leaned in and whispered, “I think I love
Thom.”
Colin nearly spat out his tea and began choking. When he caught his breath, he
said, “No you don’t.”
Jonny looked offended. “How do you know?”
“You’re too young.”
“I’m fourteen! You had a girlfriend when you were my age!”
“Yeah, but I didn’t love her.”
“Then why did you date her?”
“I don’t know, Jonathan.”
“I wanna date Thom.”
“You are not dating Thom.”
“You can’t tell me who I can’t date!”
“Well I am.” Jonny just looked at him and pouted. “Why do you want to date
Thom, anyway?”
“He’s nice… and handsome, and really good at singing and guitar. I’m really
happy when I’m with him, Colin. Like, really really happy. I wanna kiss him and
stuff.”
Colin couldn’t help but smile. “Jonathan, that is precious.”
“Shut up Colin.”
“I mean it,” Colin said, ruffling his hair.
“How did you get Ed to be your boyfriend?”
“Uhh, I kissed him, I guess.”
“Then what happened?”
“He kissed me back?”
“Then what?”
“Erm… I asked him if it meant we were dating, and he basically said yes.”
Jonny looked up at the ceiling, chewing on his lip, thinking of what his
brother had told him. “So I should kiss Thom?”
Colin sighed. “You can’t just… kiss him. You gotta wait for the right time.”
“How do I know when it’s the right time?”
“You’ll… feel it.”
Jonny thought for a moment, before accepting that answer. “Okay,” he said,
leaning over and kissing his brother on the cheek.
“C’mon, let’s get started on those cookies,” Colin said with a smile.
———
They were mixing the dough when the phone rang. Colin wiped his hands and left
Jonny to finish the mixing as he answered it.
“Hello?”
“Colin! I’m so sorry I didn’t call last night.”
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah…”
Colin lowered his voice. “What happened, Ed?”
“Nothing.”
“Ed please talk to me.”
“I don’t want you to worry about me.”
“I’m already worried about you.”
“My dad is just a dick, okay?”
“Did he hurt you?”
“Not really. I mean he didn’t like, punch me or anything.”
“Jesus… I’m so sorry Ed. Are you safe there?”
“I was actually hoping to come over there. I would rather spent Christmas with
you.”
“Lemme ask my mum, okay? I’ll call you back.”
“Okay. Thanks Cozzie, I love you.”
Colin paused for an uncomfortable amount of time. “I… love you too Ed.” Ed
could hear him smile into the phone. Satisfied, he hung up. Colin hung the
phone up, staring at it for a moment, thinking about those three words Ed had
said to him. He had butterflies in his stomach and his face felt hot. He shook
the feeling off and went back into the kitchen. He was met with the sight of
the kitchen covered in batter, Jonny covered in even more batter, holding the
mixer looking like a kicked puppy.
“Jesus Jonathan! What happened?”
“I don’t know how to use the mixer! It went too fast so I turned it off and
waited for you to come back…”
Colin chuckled and took the mixer from his brother. “It’s alright, I didn’t
really show you how to use it,” he wiped some batter off Jonny’s face and
licked his finger, “still good. There’s enough actually in the bowl that we’ll
be fine.” Jonny beamed, ready to learn how to actually make cookies as well as
Colin could.
———
Colin’s mum thought it was odd that Ed was coming over on Christmas Eve instead
of spending it with his family, but she allowed it anyway, always welcoming any
of her kids’ friends.
Ed showed up at the door, Colin greeting him. He had a tiny cut under his eye,
which Colin noticed immediately. He glared up at Ed, feeling lied to. “I’m
fine, I swear,” Ed had said. Colin didn’t believe a word of it. He worried
about him so much.
They all sat around the table and had dinner, finishing with some of the
cookies Colin and Jonny had made. They left some cookies and milk downstairs by
the fireplace, despite no one in the house still believing in Santa.
The boys decided to stay up in the living room watching a Christmas film, Jonny
excited for it, while Colin and Ed were more excited to get more cuddling time
in. Everyone went to bed, and they curled up on the sofa with a few blankets.
As the movie ended, Colin turned to Jonny, who at some point had fallen dead
asleep. He tucked him in, making sure he was warm and comfortable, and took
Ed’s hand, leading him upstairs.
Once the door was shut, Colin locked it and turned to Ed hungrily eyeing him.
Ed smirked knowingly as Colin pushed him onto his bed and crawled on top of
him. He held his head and kissed him frantically, grinding into him. Ed held
him by the hips and kissed him just as feverishly, before finally pulling away
for air. They were both out of breath.
“I didn’t get you anything for Christmas, so this is my present to you,” Colin
said, diving down to kiss and suck on Ed’s neck. Colin’s hand slowly travelled
to the bulge in Ed’s trousers, shaking fingers stroking him gently. Ed let out
a small, choked moan at the sudden contact.
“Cozzie, wait a sec,” Ed choked out. Colin’s hand stopped moving but remained
firmly planted on Ed’s crotch. He looked up at Ed nervously.
“Did I do something wrong?”
Ed smiled. “No, love, not at all. But are you sure you’re ready for this?”
“I mean… not entirely, but I think…” Ed took Colin’s hand from his between his
legs, brought it to his face, and kissed it. He placed his hand on his own
cheek, Colin gently rubbing his cheekbone with his thumb.
“I don’t want you to until you’re entirely sure.”
“But… I’m mostly sure. I really want you Ed, you turn me on so much. I’m just
nervous, is all. I can get over it though if you let me—“
“How about this,” Ed interrupted, “let me get you warmed up.”
“What do you mean?”
“Lie down, I’ll show you.”
Colin complied and lied back on his bed, as Ed crawled over him and kissed his
jaw. He moved agonisingly slow, kissing and nipping his way down Colin’s neck,
lifting his shirt to make his way down his chest and to his belly.
“Ed… Jesus, whatever you’re gonna do just do it already. I’m about to explode
in my pants,” Colin whispered, gritting his teeth.
Ed hushed him. “Be patient, trust me.”
Colin gripped at his bedsheets while Ed lowered his pyjama trousers, giving him
access to his hipbones, where he kissed and bit and sucked and left tiny
bruises and pink marks in his wake. He slowly pulled Colin’s trousers further
down, then completely off. Colin shuddered at the sudden coldness on his naked
lower half, but Ed quickly crawled back on top of him, pulling the blanket over
both of them. He kissed Colin gently and ran a hand through his hair, looking
down at him with eyes full of all the love in the world.
“Do you trust me?” Colin nodded. Ed seemed to think for a moment of the best
way to go about what he was trying to do. He crawled back down Colin’s body,
covering himself entirely beneath the blankets. Colin shuddered as he felt Ed’s
breath on his hard-on. Ed kissed his tip and Colin swallowed hard, but then he
moved lower. He spread Colin’s legs wide, and ducked beneath him, placing a
kiss at his entrance.
Colin jolted forward, but tried to calm himself. He’d never even dreamed of
doing something like this. He gripped the bedsheets tighter and closed his
eyes, trying to breathe. His dick twitched with want, but whatever Ed was doing
down there felt better than any blowjob he’d ever imagined.
Ed continued, licking a prodding at him, stretching him, until he was able to
slip a finger in. Colin bit his hand to stifle his moans. He wanted to scream
Ed’s name. Ed’s finger pushed deeper and deeper, as he calmed Colin by gently
stroking his member and kissing his thighs. Finally his finger found what he
was looking for, and tickled it, eliciting a very odd noise from Colin’s mouth.
“Holyshitwhatthefuckisthatohmygodpleasedothatagain.”
Ed hushed him but continued with his massaging, speeding up his strokes. It
wasn’t long before Colin came, pulling on Ed’s hair and biting his lip. Ed slid
his finger out slowly, and began cleaning Colin’s belly with his tongue. He
finished and crawled up Colin, meeting his face and smiling down at him. Colin
was grinning ear-to-ear, trying to catch his breath. He leaned forward and
kissed Ed, pulling his head down towards him, as he wrapped his legs around his
waist.
“Where the fuck did you learn that trick?” Colin asked, breathless, as Ed
collapsed on the bed next to him.
“I saw it in a porno once… I do it to myself sometimes, well the fingering bit.
Better than a blowjob, innit?”
“I wouldn’t know.”
“We’ll do that next time, then,” Ed said, smirking at his boyfriend. Colin
giggled and kissed him on the cheek.
“I love you so much, Ed.”
“I love you too, Cozzie.”
“Is it my turn?” Colin asked, tracing circles with his finger on Ed’s belly,
eyeing his crotch.
“Nah, next time, okay?”
Colin was slightly offended. “Why? Do you think it’ll be bad?”
Ed chuckled and kissed his nose. “No, I think it’ll be the best I’ve ever had.
I just want you to be ready first.”
“But I am ready,” Colin insisted.
“Can we just wait?”
“I don’t understand why you don’t want it,” Colin frowned at him.
Ed frowned back, unsure of how to make Colin understand. “I do want it, babe, I
do. I swear I want it more than anything. Just not yet. I don’t think we’re
ready yet.”
“You sure?”
“Positive, love. Now put some trousers on before your brother walks in and
let’s get some sleep.”
Colin let out an airy laugh. “Okay.”
***** Chapter 5 *****
Chapter Summary
     Jon Jon and Thom Thom sittin' in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G.
The next morning they were rudely awakened by pounding on the door.
“Go away! We’ll be up in a minute,” Colin shouted, irritated.
“I’ve been knocking for like ten minutes!” Jonny shouted from the other side of
the door.
“I’ll get it,” Ed groaned and untangled himself from Colin.
Colin grabbed his wrist. “No, stay,” he whined. Ed looked down at him and
smiled, leaning down to give him a big smooch on the cheek. Colin let go of him
and giggled, so he took his chance to let Jonny in.
“Sorry Jon—“
“It’s time to open presents!” Jonny pushed past Ed and jumped on top of Colin.
“Cozzie! Presents!”
“Alright alright, Jesus. I’m up.”
“Come on.” Jonny yanked him out of bed and pulled him downstairs, grabbing Ed’s
hand as well on his way out the door.
The Greenwoods passed presents around, not many between the four of them. Ed
watched, not at all feeling awkward having nothing to open. He had already
gotten his present, and it was everything he’d ever wanted.
“You wanna listen to my new record with me?” Colin asked, turning to Ed. Ed
nodded and they went upstairs to his room and shut the door.
Ed made himself comfortable on Colin’s bed, Colin putting the record on and
crawling onto the bed next to him. He laid his head on Ed’s chest and Ed held
him under his arm.
“Sorry we didn’t have any presents for you. Did your dad get you anything?”
Colin asked.
“Who cares? I already got my present.”
“What’s that?”
“You.”
“Oh stop! You’re being sappy.”
“I mean it!" Colin laughed and crawled up Ed, kissing him hard. Colin’s mouth
never left Ed’s as he straddled him, holding his head and tangling his fingers
in his hair. Ed held him by the hips and licked his bottom lip, asking for
entrance, which was quickly granted to him. Colin moaned in his mouth, the
sounds his boyfriend made making him moan as well. Colin’s hand slowly trailed
from Ed’s head to his chest, his other hand resting on his neck so it was bent
towards him.
“Hey guys Thom is coming ov— oh.”
Colin’s head sprung up and his eyes met with his brother’s. Jonny’s hand was
over his mouth and he was blushing and giggling. “Jesus Jonathan, what do you
want?”
“Were you guys making out?”
“Jonathan!” Colin squealed. Ed fell into a fit of laughter beneath him.
“Sorry… um, Thom is coming over.”
“What? Why?”
“To hang out with me!” Jonny’s grin was taking up his whole face. Colin’s
expression softened from annoyance to a sweet smile.
“Well lucky you.”
Jonny squeaked and ran back downstairs. Colin turned to Ed, who was looking up
at him confused. “Did I miss something?” he asked.
“I guess Jonathan fancies Thom now.”
“That’s unexpected.”
“It’s terrifying,” Colin said, crawling off Ed and plopping down on the bed
next to him.
Ed turned to him, propping his head up in his hand. “Why terrifying?”
“You know… Thom is… I don’t know.”
“In love with you?”
“Yeah.”
“Maybe Jonny will distract him.”
“I don’t want my little brother to be his rebound.”
“True…”
“He came over the other day.”
“What? When?”
“The day before yesterday.”
“Oh…”
“Nothing happened. He apologised. And cried.”
“Oh…wow.”
“Yeah, he was a wreck.”
“Are you sure nothing happened?” Colin looked at him sideways and bit his
cheek. Ed sighed. “Did he kiss you again?”
“Yes but I promised I wouldn’t tell.”
“Why would you keep that from me?”
“He’s still my friend, Ed. He’s hurting, real bad. He’s not trying to come
between us or anything. Everything’s okay now, we got it sorted. He’s not gonna
do it ever again.”
“You got it sorted, huh?”
“Ed, come on,” Colin turned to face him, “please don’t.”
Ed rolled over and swung his legs over the side of the bed, standing up. “It’s
fine… I’m fine. Can I use your shower?”
“Of course. There’s towels in the closet in there.”
“Thanks.”
Ed left Colin there on his bed, feeling frustrated. He hoped he wouldn’t rat
him out to Thom. He hoped they could be in the same room together without a
fight breaking out.
———
By the time Ed was finished with his shower, Thom had arrived. He and Jonny
were on Jonny’s bed making music together, Jonny on his electric guitar and
Thom on acoustic. Colin was curled up on his bed listening intently, a smile
plastered on his face. Thom and Jonny definitely had chemistry. Ed entered the
room and all eyes were on him, but only for a moment.
“Oh, hey Thom,” he said, sitting next to Colin.
“Hi Ed!” Thom said, as if nothing had just gone down between him and Ed’s
boyfriend. He turned back to Jonny, “Anyway, do that part again and then I’ll
come in —“ Jonny started playing and they were lost in each other once more.
Ed tried to make a big show out of putting his arm around Colin’s waist, but
nobody seemed to notice. Colin turned to Ed an observed his glare. He was
trying to rip Thom apart with his mind. Colin quickly planted a kiss on his
cheek and whispered in his ear, “C’mon you grouch, let’s go outside.” He took
Ed’s hand and pulled him out the door before he could protest.
They were in the Greenwoods' back garden gathering sticks to start a fire in
their fire pit. Ed was still huffing about, Colin not sure if he should ignore
him or try to calm him down.
“Ed, will you quit being all pissed off?”
“It’s kinda hard when the guy who keeps making out with your boyfriend is a few
feet away from you.”
“We didn’t make out.”
“Whatever.”
Colin sighed and walked over to him, touching his shoulder and making him look
at him. “He’s not gonna try anything, okay?”
“How do you know?”
“Because he’s my friend and I trust him.”
“He’s my friend too and if I know Thom I know he can’t be trusted.”
“What are you saying? He’s been your best mate for years, and suddenly you
don’t trust him?”
“Friends don’t kiss their friends' boyfriends!”
“He didn’t mean it!”
“How do you just accidentally kiss someone?!”
“Ed, please calm down, you’re yelling at me.”
“Jesus, I’m sorry Colin.” Ed dropped his sticks and wrapped Colin up in a hug.
“Don’t let him get to you, okay love? Everything is okay between us, don’t let
him get in the middle.”
“How am I supposed to just get this out of my system, though?” Ed asked,
pulling away from Colin and holding his shoulders.
“I really don’t know Ed, maybe it’ll just take some time.” Colin stood on his
tip toes and gave Ed a peck on the lips. “C’mon, let’s go get the matches and
lighter fluid, I think we have enough.”
Meanwhile, Jonny and Thom were lost in the sounds of their guitars, Thom
singing along and Jonny mesmerised by his voice. Jonny got distracted by him
and made a mistake, stopping the whole thing.
“Shit, sorry,” Jonny said, looking down at his guitar, embarrassed.
“Hey it’s okay, we can start again.” Thom thought his eagerness to impress him
was endearing.
Jonny looked up at him from behind his fringe and was met with a sweet smile.
He blushed, thankful his hair hid most of his face. “You’ve got a really lovely
voice, Thom. It’s distracting.”
“Is it now? Well thanks,” Thom smirked, his eyes half lidded, looking down at
Jonny.
“We can start again if you’d like,” Jonny said turning back to his guitar.
“Actually I think we’re both a little worn out, we should take a break. Maybe
see what Ed and your brother are up to,” Thom said, getting up and putting his
guitar down.
“Wait — um…” Jonny wasn’t going to miss his chance. He put his guitar down. “I
don’t… want to hang out with them just yet. i’ve been stuck with them since
last night, y’know…”
“Okay,” Thom said, plopping back down on the bed next to Jonny. “What do you
wanna do then?”
Jonny bit his lip, looking at Thom like he expected him to do something. He was
so dreadfully awkward, he wished he could crawl into a hole right then. Or have
the courage to just kiss Thom and get it over with.
“You okay Jon Jon?” Jonny blushed at his new nickname. “Sorry, I won’t call you
that if you don’t like it.”
“No it’s… nice.”
“Yeah? Good.”
“You’re… nice.” Thom laughed at that. “Why are you laughing?”
“Most people wouldn’t say that. I’m glad you think I am.”
“Well… you’re nice to me.”
“That’s because I like you.”
“What kind of like?”
“What?”
“Never mind.”
Thom looked at Jonny quizzically, Jonny hiding behind his hair, blushing like
mad. His palms were sweaty and his heart was racing. Colin had made this seem
so easy, but he was so nervous he couldn’t move.
The gears were turning in Thom’s head. He reached out his hand and placed it
over Jonny’s. “Hey… are you okay?”
Jonny looked up from beneath his fringe. Thom was smiling, and it was sweet,
and he melted beneath his gaze. Before he could think about it any more, he
leaned forward and kissed Thom on the cheek, quick, chaste. He pulled away and
stared at him, expecting the worst. Thom just laughed — hard. He fell back on
Jonny’s bed and went into an absolute fit.
Tears stung at Jonny’s eyes. He had kissed his crush and now he was laughing at
him. What a fool he was to think he had any chance with Thom. “What's so
funny?” he asked, angrily.
“It’s just funny how things work out, y’know?”
“W-what do you mean?” Jonny asked, holding back his tears as best he could.
Thom looked up at him noticing he was starting to cry. “Oh no, Jon Jon no,” he
hurried over to Jonny and wrapped his arms around him, “Jonny no don’t cry, I’m
sorry, I wasn’t laughing at you. Are you okay?” Jonny furiously wiped the tears
from his eyes as Thom held him. “When did… you decide you liked me?”
Jonny shrugged. “It’s okay you don’t like me back, I get it.”
“Whoa whoa, who said anything about not liking you back? You’re the coolest guy
I know, Jonny Greenwood.”
“What? Really?”
Thom nodded. “Mhm, you’re a musical genius and you’re really cute.” Jonny
blushed. “Have you ever kissed anybody before, Jon Jon?”
Jonny blushed again. “No…”
“Do you want to kiss me?”
“No, I don’t know how, you’ll make fun of me,” he said, turning away.
Thom took Jonny’s chin in his hand and made him look at him. Jonny looked
petrified, he could almost feel his heart beating out of his chest. “Then I’ll
just have to kiss you.”
Thom leaned in and kissed him. Jonny’s eyes were open wide and he was
panicking. Thom kept kissing him though, waiting for him to reciprocate, so he
tried. He moved his lips in time with Thom’s, trying to mimic his movements.
Thom pulled away, Jonny’s face still in his hand. “Not bad,” he said with a
smirk.
“Can we do it again?” Jonny asked, voice barely audible.
“Hell yeah we can,” Thom said, leaning in for more.
———
Colin and Ed stood outside by the roaring fire they had just made. Colin’s hand
found Ed’s and he looked up at him.
“Do you wanna talk about your dad?” he asked, eyeing the cut beneath Ed’s eye.
“No.”
“Godamnit Ed, please?”
“We just don’t get along.”
“Yeah, obviously. Does he hit you?”
“Sometimes.”
“How’d you get that cut by your eye?”
“He threw a bottle at me. It missed, but the broken glass went flying and got
me.”
“Jesus Ed, he could’ve blinded you.”
“I’m fine, Cozzie.”
“Maybe this time, but what about next time?”
“It’s okay, school will start again in a few days and I’ll be safe there.”
“What about over the summer? You’ve got to live with him for three months.”
“I just… stay out of the house as much as possible. It’s my last summer with
that bastard anyway, then I’ll graduate and I can find someplace else to live.”
“I’m so worried about you.”
“I wish you wouldn’t be.”
“Can you blame me?”
“…Nah… if it was your dad I’d personally kick is arse and kidnap you.”
“Maybe that’s what I should do…”
“Oh god, please don’t. He’d kill you, babe.” Colin just glared at the fire. Ed
put his arm around him and pulled him in, so he took a deep breath and rested
his head on his shoulder.
“Sorry, I just really want to help you. I feel helpless.”
Ed kissed his head. “I know. But you are helping, you give me something to look
forward to every day.”
Colin smiled. “Stop being sappy.”
“You love it.”
“Sort of.”
The back door opened and Thom strode out, followed by Jonny. Thom’s hair was
sticking up in more places than usual and he had a wild grin on his face.
Jonny’s face was flushed. Colin eyed them and then glared at Thom.
“Thom! What did you do?” He asked, suspicious.
“Nothing your baby brother didn’t want me to.” Jonny turned beat red.
Colin groaned. “I hate you, Thom Yorke.”
“I love you, Colin Greenwood,” Thom said, placing a big wet kiss on Colin’s
cheek. Ed tightened his grip on Colin slightly, still wary of Thom, but was
smiling at the whole situation.
“You’re the worst, Thom,” Colin said, wiping his cheek, “Jonathan c’mere. You
okay?”
“I’m fine, Colin,” Jonny said, annoyed.
“Fine, fine.”
“Jon Jon is fine alright,” Thom said, hugging Jonny from behind.
“Please never call him that around me again.” Thom stuck his tongue out at him.
“You guys are cute… I guess,” Ed said, smirking down at them.
“Jonny’s cute enough for the both of us,” Thom said, kissing Jonny’s cheek.
“Please stop,” Colin begged. Thom rolled his eyes but let go of Jonny, who was
still blushing like mad. Poor little guy couldn’t handle all the attention.
After an hour of chatting and poking at the fire, the boys decided it was cold
and dark enough to go inside.
“I take it you guys are staying here tonight?” Colin asked as they made it to
his room.
“Yes!” Thom exclaimed, jumping onto Jonny’s bed.
“Is that okay?” Ed asked.
“Yeah, of course it is. Thom! You’re sleeping on the floor, no funny business.”
“Aw come on Cozzie. That’s not fair at all. You and your little boyfriend get
to snuggle up all night, why can’t me and mine?”
“Little?” Ed interjected.
“You and your what?” Colin spat the word out, as if it tasted bad on his
tongue.
“Boyfriend!” Thom said, smirking at Jonny, who was sitting on his bed with wide
eyes, frozen.
“This is gross. This is the one time I wish I didn’t share a room with you,
Jonathan.” Jonny just blushed, unable to speak. Ed collapsed on Colin’s bed,
watching as his boyfriend turned red with anger, his little brother turned red
with embarrassment, and Thom orchestrated the whole scene. “You are not
sleeping with my little brother. Especially not with me in the same room.” But
Thom ignored him and made himself comfortable under Jonny’s blankets, Jonny
sitting at the edge of the bed watching him.
“Come on Cozzie, we won’t do anything, I swear,” Jonny begged. Colin just
looked at him, red in the face. “Besides, how do you think I feel waking up to
you and Ed glued to each other every morning?” Thom smirked and Ed held in his
laughter.
Colin rolled his eyes. “Fine, but if I wake up to any wet, slurping noises in
the middle of the night I’ll kick both of your arses.” Everyone in the room
made a disgusted face at the visual. Colin sighed, defeated, and crawled in bed
with Ed. He buried his face in his chest and groaned. “This is the worst thing
that’s ever happened to me.”
“Don’t be dramatic,” Ed said, rubbing his back.
On the other side of the room, Thom was smothering Jonny, squishing him against
the wall.
“Thom, I can’t breathe,” Jonny whispered.
“I don’t care,” Thom whispered back, leaning in to kiss him.
“Thom! Colin said no!”
“C’mon, just a little one,” he begged, stroking Jonny’s hip. Jonny let him come
in for another kiss, which was deep and long and certainly not a little one.
“I can fucking hear you!!!! Jesus!!!! I’m gonna puke!!!!” Colin yelled, as a
pillow hit them square in the face.
“Okay okay I’m done, goddamn.” Thom whined, letting go of Jonny and settling
into his pillow, smirking up at him.
“Sorry Colin,” Jonny said, blushing, sinking into the mattress, trying to sink
through it.
***** Chapter 6 *****
Chapter Summary
     This chapter is pure smut. You're welcome.
Colin shoved Thom up against the Greenwoods’ kitchen counter, kissing him
hungrily. His tongue was down Thom’s throat, they were naked, their erections
pressing up against each other, both boys grinding their hips to get as much
friction as possible. Colin lifted Thom and threw him on the counter, Thom’s
legs wrapping around his waist, his arms around his neck, both their tongues
fighting for dominance. Colin’s member was pressed up against Thom’s entrance,
throbbing, as Colin broke awake from the kiss to bite and suck at Thom’s neck.
“Please…” Thom whispered, and Colin looked up at him with a mischievous grin.
Thom’s eyes flew open. He was hard, out of breath, and sweating. “Shit,” he
muttered into the dark room. Everyone else was still fast asleep. He had no
idea what time it was. He turned to Jonny who was curled up at his side,
sleeping soundly. He bit his lip, cursing himself for what he was about to do.
He knew better, but he was thinking with his dick right now, so he gently shook
Jonny’s shoulder. Jonny made an irritated face, but didn’t seem to wake up.
“Jonny,” he whispered. Jonny’s eyes fluttered open, still half-lidded.
“Thom?”
“Shhh, Jonny, I need you, come on.”
“Wha-what? Are you okay?” Jonny was mostly awake now, concerned at the panic in
Thom’s voice.
“No, come on,” Thom whispered, yanking at Jonny’s hand and making to get out of
bed. Jonny complied and he hurried them to the bathroom across the hall,
locking the door behind them.
“Thom, what—“
“Shut up,” Thom cut him off and kissed him fiercely, pushing him back against
the bathroom wall, his hand making its way to the front of Jonny’s trousers.
“Thom, wait,” Jonny said, breaking from the kiss and pushing Thom away
slightly. “What are you—“
“I don’t know, Jon Jon. I don’t know, but I need you right now. Is this okay?
Please?”
“I’ve not… I don’t — I mean I’ve never…” Jonny stumbled over his words. He was
nervous, but the growing bulge in his trousers couldn’t be ignored.
“I know, I know. I’m sorry. This is really stupid. Just… you don’t have to do
anything, never mind. I’m sorry Jonny. Jesus, I…”
“Thom, it’s okay. I can… um. Can we just slow down?”
“Yeah… of course. But you don’t have to —“
“Can we turn the lights off?”
“Um.. okay.”
Thom turned around and flipped the light switch off, as Jonny snuck up behind
him and held his hips. He started kissing his neck, and Thom pressed himself
back against him. Jonny turned him around and pulled his hips into his, the
sudden contact making them both moan. Jonny kissed him first, starting to get
the hang of it. He kissed him hard, forcing his tongue into his mouth, making
Thom moan again. Thom’s erection was screaming for friction, so he began
grinding his hips into Jonny’s, holding him by the shoulders to keep his
balance. They finally broke away for air.
“Damn, Jon Jon, I didn’t know—“
“Sit on the counter,” Jonny demanded, suddenly taking control.
“I can’t… fucking, see the counter.”
“I’ll guide you,” Jonny said, turning him around and guiding his hips through
the bathroom. He felt his butt hit the edge of the counter. “Now up,” Jonny
said, lifting him slightly to help him sit up. Jonny shoved his hips between
Thom’s legs and kissed him some more, not really sure where to go from there,
hoping Thom would guide him. Thom reached forward and slipped his fingers under
Jonny’s waistband.
“Is this okay?” he asked, breathless.
Jonny nodded, before remembering Thom couldn’t see him. “Yeah.”
Thom snaked his hand lower, finding Jonny’s cock and squeezing at the base,
before sliding it up to massage his tip. Jonny inhaled sharply and bit his lip
to keep from making too much noise. He kissed Thom again, hoping Thom’s mouth
would swallow all of his moans. As Thom stroked him, his other hand found
Jonny’s, and moved it to place it on his crotch, where Jonny immediately
understood and began stroking Thom in time.
“Jonny, wait.” Thom stopped his strokes. He pulled his own trousers and pants
off and guided Jonny to do the same for himself. “We’re gonna make a mess.” He
smirked, but Jonny didn’t see.
“Right,” Jonny said, kicking his own off and slowly moving back to his position
on Thom. They started again, and within just a few minutes, Thom came first,
spilling into Jonny’s hand, and then Jonny, some of his getting on the floor.
They stayed like that, catching their breath, then Thom chuckled.
“Why do you always laugh at me?” Jonny said, only half hurt, catching on to
Thom’s antics.
“I’m not, I swear.” As their breathing slowed to normal, Thom spoke again,
“That was… fun,” he whispered, finding Jonny’s lips in the dark and kissing
them.
“Yeah, we should clean up.”
“Okay,” Thom said, hopping off the counter and making his way to the light
switch.
“Wait! Don’t.”
“What?”
“I don’t want you to… see me.”
“Aw, Jon Jon, I’m sure your cock is beautiful.”
“Shut up! Just… not yet. Please?” Jonny was thankful Thom couldn’t see him
blushing.
“Fine, but how will we—“ Thom was interrupted by the sound of the faucet
turning on.
“Come here,” Jonny whispered. Thom followed the sound of his voice until his
wrist was grabbed and shoved under the running water. They washed their hands
and put their trousers back on in the dark.
“Can I turn the lights on now?”
“Yes.” Thom switched the light on and finally had a look at Jonny. He was
beautiful. His hair was wild and his face was spent. His eyes roamed Jonny’s
body until they found the spot on the floor where he’d… missed Thom’s hand.
“You missed a spot,” Thom said, eyeing the droplets of cum on the floor. Jonny
looked down and blushed bright red, cleaning it up with some toilet tissue and
flushing it. Jonny kept his eyes glued to the floor and walked over to Thom,
hugging him tight and resting his head on his shoulder.
“Thanks, Thom Thom.”
Thom bit his lip, knowing what he’d just done was not entirely honest. He
wasn’t a religious man, but he prayed Jonny would never find out about his
crush on his brother, and that his feelings for Colin would fade in time.
“Let’s go back to bed, I’m exhausted.” Jonny nodded and pulled away, leading
him back into the bedroom.
They crept back into the room as quietly as possible, the sun beginning to rise
and shedding a dim light onto the room. Jonny crawled straight into bed, Thom
glancing over at Ed and Colin as he entered. He jumped when he saw that Ed was
awake, eyeing him knowingly with one eyebrow raised. Thom raised his finger to
his lips, silently telling Ed to keep his damn mouth shut. Ed smirked and sunk
back down into his pillow, burying his face in Colin’s hair once more. As soon
as Thom got back into bed, Jonny was wrapped around him, sighing contently.
Thom kissed his head and closed his eyes, but he wouldn’t be going back to
sleep, the guilt nagging at him until morning.
***** Chapter 7 *****
Chapter Summary
     Oh no.
Colin was the first one awake, which was unusual for him. He woke with a
nagging feeling in his gut that he couldn’t shake. He curled up into his
partner, not ready to get out of bed yet, if ever again. Ed stirred above him
but didn’t wake up. He almost wished he would, he knew Ed would put his mind at
ease. He’d had a dream that he and Jonny had caught Thom and Ed together. He
knew it would never happen, but the memory of it still made him feel sick. He
sighed and crawled out of bed, maybe a cup of tea would help. He made his way
downstairs, meeting his mum in the kitchen. She was at the table sipping a cup
of tea, reading a magazine.
“Hey mum.”
“Hello love.”
“Is the kettle still hot?”
“Sure is.”
Colin smiled and poured himself a cup, adding a teabag and copious amounts of
milk and sugar. He sat down next to his mum.
“How have you been dear? I haven’t heard much from you and your brother since
you’ve been back home,” she said, putting her magazine down and turning to him.
Yeah… sorry mum. We’ve been great! Just busy with our friends. It’s nice to see
them outside of school. Jonathan is in the band now, he’s playing lead guitar,
isn’t that great?”
“I’m so proud of you two,” she said with a smile. They sipped their tea in
silence for a while before she spoke again. “I noticed Edward’s been staying
here a lot this week…”
Colin tried to hide his blushing. Mother’s intuition had him again. “Yeah is…
that okay? His home life isn’t so good so.. y’know. You don’t mind do you?”
“Of course not. He can stay here as much as he wants. I just don’t want his
father on my doorstep accusing us of kidnapping,” she said, chuckling.
Colin smiled. “I don’t think that would happen.” They sat in more silence, Mrs.
Greenwood glancing between her son and her magazine. Colin finally sighed,
taking a big gulp of tea for courage. “Mum, can I tell you something?”
“You can tell me anything, dear.”
“Ed and I are… more than just friends.”
“Yeah, clearly. And Jonathan and Thomas?”
“God mum, how did you know?”
“I’m your mum.”
“Yeah…”
“I’m happy for you both, just don’t let it ruin your friendship, alright?”
“Alright,” Colin said with a smile. His mum ruffled his hair and picked her
magazine back up. He kissed her on the cheek. “Don’t tell Jonathan I told you
about him and Thom, okay?”
“You didn’t, I guessed,” she said, winking. Colin finished his tea and got up
to pour himself another cup. “Why don’t you bring Edward some tea before you
drink all of it? And get the other boys up, I’m making breakfast.”
“Good idea. Thanks mum,” Colin said, getting out another mug for Ed. He knew Ed
took his tea black, so he poured him a cup and made his way upstairs.
He opened the door to his room, finding Jonny and Thom awake, but still in bed.
Jonny was wrapped around Thom and Thom was lying on his back staring at the
ceiling, his arm around Jonny. When he saw Colin he turned to him. “Good
morning,” he said quietly, as Ed was still asleep. Jonny mumbled something
incoherent. Colin smiled at them and sat on his bed beside Ed, putting the mugs
down on his nightstand. He touched Ed’s shoulder, gently nudging him awake.
“Hey babe, I brought you tea,” he said softly.
Ed’s eyes fluttered open, and he smiled sweetly when he saw Colin. “Aren’t you
sweet, c’mere,” he said, puckering his lips and looking at his boyfriend
expectantly. Colin giggled and leaned down to kiss him.
“Gross!” Thom shouted from the other side of the room.
“Shut up, Yorke!” Ed said, glaring at Thom, reminding him with his eyes that he
had dirt on him. Thom blushed and Jonny looked up at him quizzically.
Colin handed the tea to Ed, who sat up and sipped it. “Hey, I probably should
get going early today,” Ed said solemnly.
“Mum’s making breakfast, can you stay for that?”
“Okay.”
------
Thom and Ed left after breakfast, and the next day the boys had band practice.
The rest of the week flew by much like the first half. Ed stayed with the
Greenwoods as often as possible. Jonny stayed at Thom’s house a few times, and
they had a few more practices at Phil’s. New Year’s was spent at Phil’s flat,
even Phil’s elusive girlfriend showed up to the party. Drunken snogging all
around, and they fell asleep in random spots on Phil’s floor.
Every time Ed was around Colin, he noticed a new bruise or cut on him, the
others rarely noticing them. Ed brushed off the subject every time Colin
mentioned it, frustrating Colin more and more each time.
Jonny was completely smitten with Thom, while the guilt stabbed Thom in the gut
every time he saw him. Thom felt like he was losing his mind, he had to talk to
someone about his predicament so he showed up uninvited to Phil’s flat the
night before they all had to go back to school.
Phil opened the door to his flat and was greeted by a very disgruntled looking
Thom.
“Oh hey Thom, I didn’t know—“
“Phil I have to talk to you,” Thom said, pushing past Phil and plopping down on
his sofa.
“Okay…” Phil shut the door and sat on the armchair across from Thom. “What’s
up?”
Thom sighed and rubbed his face. “Okay, you know how Jonny and I are dating?”
“Well… yeah I figured that out when I caught you lot making out in—“
“Right, but, you know how I liked Colin before?”
“Boy do I.”
“Yeah well the problem is… I still do. But I like Jonny too… or I think I do.
I’m pretty sure I do. But I can’t keep my mind off Colin and I’m dying, Phil.
I’m fucking dying.”
“Well you have to pick one, Thom.”
“Well I’m trying to pick Jonny! He’s totally in love with me! I can’t break his
little heart like that. Colin would murder me. I can’t have Colin anyway, him
and Ed are practically married at this point.”
“Maybe you should try spending some time away from Colin.”
“I can’t, Phil! We’re fucking roommates and we go back to school tomorrow. I’m
gonna be stuck with that bastard night and day and Jonny won’t be around at
all.”
“Yikes.”
“Yeah, it’s bad. I’m fucked, Phil, totally, completely, dryly fucked.”
“Jonny’s a smart kid, he’s gonna catch on eventually if you don’t hurry up and
fall out of love with Colin.”
“How does one just fall out of love with Colin fucking Greenwood? He’s a
goddamn angel! Have you fucking seen him?”
“Yes, Thom, I have seen Colin.”
“Then you know.”
“Not really, but alright.” Thom looked at Phil desperately, begging him with
his expression to solve all his problems. Phil bit his cheek, searching his
mind frantically for a solution. “Maybe you should… take a break from Jonny.”
“What?”
“Until you’ve got Colin out of your head, then try again. It’s not fair to him
that you’re thinking about his brother while you’re fucking him,” he said,
crossing his arms.
“We’re not fucking, not yet anyway.”
“Good, ‘cause once you do he’ll be stuck to you like a parasite. He’s still
young and impressionable, Thom. The longer you lead him on the harder it’s
gonna be.”
“But I really do like him.”
“But do you love him?”
“I… don’t know…”
“Do you love Colin?” Thom just frowned. “You see the problem?” Thom groaned and
ran his fingers through his hair. He sighed, stood up, and sat down on Phil’s
lap, curling into him and letting himself cry. He sobbed into Phil’s neck and
Phil held him and rubbed his back, hushing him and reminding him everything
would be okay. He knew what he had to do, but he wasn’t sure if he’d even be
able to do it.
***** Chapter 8 *****
The next day, Thom and Colin met in their room at school. They had the evening
to unpack, the next morning classes would start. Colin was in high spirits as
usual, but Thom looked like he hadn’t slept in days. Thom sat on his bed and
stared at the wall, while Colin hurried around him unpacking. Colin noticed he
wasn’t moving, so he stopped, sat next to him, and put his hand on Thom’s
shoulder.
“Hey mate, you alright?”
Thom blinked and looked at Colin. “Yeah just… tired.” Colin pursed his lips and
studied Thom, knowing his friend well enough to know it wasn’t just that. He
shuffled around on the bed and started massaging Thom’s shoulders.
Thom sighed and touched Colin’s hands, removing them from his shoulders.
“That’s nice, Cozzie, but I can’t have you touching me like that.”
Colin raised an eyebrow at him, confused. “What? What are you talking about,
Thom?” Thom just looked at him, begging him with his eyes not to make him say
it, but he didn’t get it. “I don’t understand.”
“I… can’t talk about it, okay?”
“Thom? What’s going on? We’re best mates, you can tell me anything.”
“Not this. You’d hang me.”
“Did you cheat on my brother?” Colin said, accusingly.
Thom laughed. “No.”
“Then what is it, Thom? If you don’t tell me, I’m gonna hang you.”
“Godamnit Colin.”
“Please? I wanna help.”
Thom sighed, turning to face Colin, his eyes pleading. “You have to promise you
won’t get mad. Or tell Ed.”
“I promise.”
“I still… lo—like you, Cozzie. I like Jonny too but I can’t get you out of my
head and it makes me feel like an arsehole. It’s not fair to him. I want to
like only him, but every time I look at him I just see the similarities between
you two and it’s so, so fucking hard, Colin. I feel like I’m going crazy. I
have no idea what to do. I want to be with Jonny, I swear I do, and I don’t
ever want to hurt him, but I want to be with you too, bad, and it’s killing
me.”
“Oh…”
“Yeah,” Thom said quietly, looking down, not wanting to meet Colin’s gaze.
“Shit, Thom.” Thom just groaned and fell onto the bed, rolling over so he
didn’t have to face Colin. Tears stung at the corners of his eyes. He didn’t
even care if he cried at this point, he felt so defeated. “I’m not mad, I don’t
hate you.”
Thom sniffed. “Thanks.” Colin wanted to comfort his friend, he wanted to crawl
on top of him and wrap him up in his embrace and kiss him all over his face and
let him cry and tell him everything would work out in the end. But he knew it
would just be a tease, he was afraid to even touch him, and it stung. He didn’t
even know if things would work out in the end. Everything was a fucking mess.
“Thom, I think maybe you should break up with Jonny.”
“I know… that’s what Phil says too.”
“It’s going to fucking crush him.”
“It’s going to fucking crush me too.”
“You have to promise us both you’ll take him back once this is sorted,
alright?”
“Oh I definitely will. I want to. He makes me happy, Cozzie.”
“You make him happy too. And don’t tell him about your feelings for me,
whatever you do.”
“I’ll come up with something.”
“Come here, can I hug you?”
Thom sat up and leaned into Colin, letting him hold him. He couldn’t help but
to leave kisses in his hair and rub his back. Thom let himself full-on cry now,
sobbing into Colin’s shoulder. Colin hushed him and let him do so. He’d let
Thom cry on him for the rest of eternity if it meant he could help his friend
even a little bit. Thom finally pulled away and wiped his face, sniffling.
“You’re a really good friend to me Cozzie, I don’t deserve you.”
“Oh hush Thom. You’re my best friend, you always will be, no matter what.”
Colin leaned in and kissed his tear-stained cheek. Thom smiled up at him.
“Sorry, I couldn’t help it.”
“S’okay, ya tease.”
“Oh shut up. I’m gonna give you a minute to unpack, do you mind if I go see if
Ed is here?”
“I’m not your keeper.”
“I just want to make sure you’re—“
“Go, Colin. I’m fine.”
“Alright,” Colin said, ruffling his hair.
Colin left Thom sitting on his bed, and went down the hall to Ed’s room. He
knocked on the door and waited a moment. His roommate, Nigel, answered the
door.
“Hey Colin, what’s up?”
“Looking for Ed.”
“Ah, he’s not here yet. But you can come in and wait if you want, I could use
some company.”
“Sure,” Colin said, letting himself in and sitting on Ed’s bed. He watched
Nigel unpack for a moment. “So how was your holiday?” he finally asked.
“Good, a bit boring.”
“Yeah, mine was good.”
“Is Thom here?”
“Yeah.”
“Well invite him over!”
“He’s busy unpacking, but I’m sure he’d love to catch up with you.”
“Alright, let him know I’m up for having a chat whenever.”
“Will do.”
The door creaked open and both boys turned to see Ed. His eyes met Colin’s and
a huge grin stretched across his face. “Cozzie! I didn’t expect to see you
here!” he said, hurrying in and hugging him, giving him a peck on the cheek.
“Yeah, he was waiting on you. You guys act like you haven’t seen each other in
ages, I’d expect you two to hang out over holiday, what with your band and
all.”
Colin and Ed glanced at each other, Colin blushing. “Yeah, we saw each other… a
lot,” Ed said.
Nigel looked between the two and raised an eyebrow.
“Hey Nigel, can you keep a secret?” Ed asked, sitting next to Colin on the bed.
Colin looked at him with wide eyes, but Ed’s expression said calm down, it’s
okay.
“Yeah, of course. Why…?” Nigel said suspiciously, sitting on his bed.
“Welllll….” Ed started, leaning closer to Colin, “Colin and I… might be a
little gay for each other.” He turned to Colin with a sly grin on his face.
“Do you have to put it like that?” Colin complained.
“So you guys are… boyfriends?” Nigel asked, more like a statement than a
question. They both nodded. Nigel seemed to piece it together in his head for a
moment. “Alright well that’s… nice for you. I don’t care, but don’t let the
whole school know or you guys are doomed.”
“Yeah, that’s why you have to keep it a secret,” Ed said, as if it were a
warning.
“No worries. Your secret’s safe with me guys.”
“Thanks Nigel,” Colin said.
They heard a light tapping at the door, and Nigel answered it. “Thomas Yorke!
Come on in mate, I’ve missed you.” Thom smiled shyly and let himself in. He
plopped down on Nigel’s bed and greeted Colin and Ed.
“Hey guys, I finished unpacking. I figured I’d come hang out.”
“I should probably start unpacking,” Ed said, kissing Colin’s cheek.
The four boys unpacked and chatted until dinner time. Nigel was a good friend
of theirs and was always interested in their band, him playing a few
instruments as well. He generally sat in on their practices after classes,
manning the drum machine since Phil couldn’t always be there. The boys made
their way to the cafeteria and sat down at a table together. Ed poked at his
food.
“I miss your mum’s food already, Cozzie.”
“Me too mate,” Colin said, looking at his tray with dismay.
“I think it’s alright,” Thom said with a mouth full of mashed potatoes.
“That’s ‘cause you’re sick, Thomas,” Nigel said as he sat down next to him.
Thom shoved him and they all laughed, digging into their mystery meat and
potatoes.
———
After dinner the boys all went back to their rooms, changing into their
pyjamas. Thom was pulling his shirt over his head when the phone in their room
rang, Colin answering it.
“Hi Cozzie.”
“Jonathan, hello.” He made a face at Thom across the room, who frowned back at
him, waiting to be handed the phone.
“Can I talk to Thom?”
“What, you don’t want to talk to your big brother?” Colin teased, stalling.
“No! Of course I do. But I gotta talk to Thom about something important.”
“Hm, okay then. Here he is.” He handed the phone to Thom, who took it with a
shaky hand. Colin slipped out the door and headed for Ed and Nigel’s room,
giving Thom some privacy to do The Deed.
“Hey Jon Jon.”
“Hey Thom Thom. Is Colin still in the room?”
“No, he left. I’ve got to talk to you about something.”
“Me first.”
Thom inhaled sharply. “Okay… what is it?”
“I think… we should break up, for a little while.”
“Wait, what?”
“I really, really liked spending time with you over holiday, and I still want
to see you, and be in the band and stuff, but I’m not gonna see you much while
we’re in school, and I think it would be best if we just… took a break? I
guess? We can get back together over the summer though, I mean, if you still
want to…”
“Yeah. I mean… yeah, okay. I understand. It’s okay. Yeah of course, I’d still
like to date you… when the time is right.”
“Can I still be in the band?”
“Jonny, of course. That’s a silly question.”
“What about… like… when I see you… can we, y’know…”
“What?”
“Still like, kiss and stuff? I really like kissing you, Thom.”
“Jon Jon, you are a doll. Of course we can. I really like kissing you too.”
Thom smiled into the phone, and he heard Jonny smile too.
“So you’re not mad?”
“Of course not.”
“Okay. What was it you wanted to talk to me about?”
“Ah nothing. It’s not important.”
“You sure?”
“Positive.”
“Okay, I gotta go now. I love you, Thom Thom.”
“I love you too Jon Jon. Bye.”
“Bye.”
Thom hung up the phone and stared at the wall for a moment. What just happened?
It was weird, but, he smiled. He couldn’t believe he’d gotten out of that so
easily. He’d tell Colin whenever he got back. He decided to take a shower and
get into bed.
———
When Ed greeted Colin at the door, he was in pyjama bottoms and no shirt. Colin
eyed him up and down and swallowed hard. Ed smirked down at him. “Get in here,”
he said, pulling Colin in by the wrist and locking the door behind him. Once in
the room, he grabbed Colin’s face and kissed him hard. He pulled away and Colin
was stunned, his eyes darting around the room. “Nigel’s not here, it’s okay.”
“Where is he?”
“Probably smoking outside, we don’t have much time, c’mere.” Ed pushed him onto
his bed and crawled on top of him, kissing his neck. Colin moaned, “Ed, are you
sure?”
“The door is locked anyway, if he comes back we’ll have time.” Colin nodded and
let Ed leave a trail of kisses down his body, as his hand found his crotch and
began stroking him through his trousers. Colin breathed heavy and let Ed have
his way with him. Ed lowered Colin’s pyjama bottoms and kissed and sucked on
his hipbones while stroking his cock. Colin moaned and mewed but kept his voice
low, for he knew the walls of the school were paper thin. Ed took him into his
mouth, finally, and Colin’s hands found Ed’s hair, gripping it tightly and
pushing his head down onto him, thrusting into him slightly. It wasn’t long
before he came in Ed’s mouth, as Ed knew all of his sensitive spots, and Ed
swallowed all of him. Ed pulled his trousers back up and kissed him hard on the
mouth, letting him taste himself.
Colin moaned into his mouth, licking his lips, lapping up his own essence from
his tongue. He pulled away, catching his breath. “God, I love when I can taste
myself on you,” he whispered. Ed giggled and leaned down to kiss him again,
when the doorknob jangled.
“Ed! Why is the door locked?” It was Nigel.
Ed kissed Colin quickly on the forehead and hopped off him to open the door.
“Hey Nigel.”
Nigel looked him up and down, and a bored expression stretched across his face.
“I take it Cozzie’s in there?”
“Now why would you think that?” Ed said, smirking.
“Because you still have a boner,” Nigel said, pointing to the bulge in Ed’s
trousers. He heard Colin having a giggle fit from inside the room.
“Shit, sorry.” Ed apologised and Nigel rolled his eyes, pushing past him into
the room. He threw his book bag in a corner and plopped down on his bed.
“Is this gonna be a regular occurrence?” he asked, looking at Colin who was
lying comfortably in Ed’s bed. He blushed at the confrontation.
“Probably,” Ed said, sitting on his bed and leaning down to kiss Colin’s cheek.
“Well could you be more… subtle about it?”
“Sorry Nigel,” Ed apologised, genuinely.
“We’ll try not to be gross,” Colin added. Colin sat up and turned to Ed, “I’ve
got to go, light’s out soon. Love you,” he said, kissing Ed quickly on the
lips.
“Love you, goodnight.”
“Bye Nigel,” Colin said as he walked out the door and snuck back to his room.
Colin took a deep breath before opening the door to his room, expecting to find
Thom an absolute wreck when he walked in. Much to his surprise, Thom was
sitting quietly in his bed with headphones on, eyes closed, bobbing his head to
the music, a slight smile plastered on his face. Colin cautiously stepped in
and sat at the foot of Thom’s bed. Feeling the weight shift, Thom opened his
eyes and took his headphones off, smiling at Colin.
“What are you so chipper about? What the hell happened?” Colin asked.
“You wouldn’t believe it, Cozzie. Your baby brother broke up with me.”
“What? He did not!”
“He did! He said he wanted to take a break until summer.”
“Wow, you really got lucky, huh?”
“I know! Everything’s cool between us. He even still wants to, and I quote,
kiss and stuff.”
“Gross! Thanks for adding that!”
“Of course!” The boys laughed for a moment.
“It’s nice to see you smiling, Thom.”
“It’s nice to smile.”
Colin ruffled his hair. “Let’s get to bed, hall monitors should be making their
rounds soon. You and I got biology in the morning.”
“Don’t remind me.” They got into bed and turned off the lights, lying there in
silence for a moment.
“Oh, Thom?”
“Yeah?”
“Ed says hi.”
“Okay.”
***** Chapter 9 *****
Chapter Summary
     Sorry the whole Stanley thing is just... awkward. Idk, I wanted to
     have him play a bigger role in the story but it just didn't happen.
     Anyway, on with the show.
Biology class came all too soon, and the boys were already bored to death ten
minutes into class. Thom watched as Colin diligently took notes, trying to keep
himself awake. He ripped out a sheet from his notebook and passed a note to
him.
I’m bored to death.
Pay attention, it’s not that bad.
Do you even know me, Greenwood?
Point taken.
Band practice before dinner?
Yeah, tell Ed next class. I’ll tell Nigel.
The bell rang and Thom tossed the note in the bin, parting from Colin and
heading to his next class with Ed.
When Colin got to class, Nigel was already there, so he sat next to him. “Hey
mate, band practice before dinner?”
“Sounds good.”
“So…” Colin looked around the room, trying to think of something to talk about.
He was feeling awkward after Nigel had caught him redhanded last night. “You…
get much sleep last night?”
Nigel chuckled. “I’m sure you know how Ed sleep talks.”
“Oh, yeah,” Colin said, laughing.
“He was moaning your name all night.”
“Jesus Nigel!” Colin turned beat red. “Keep your voice down.”
“Don’t worry mate, nobody heard.” A boy a few seats down from them raised an
eyebrow at them, but they didn’t notice. He leaned in to have a closer listen.
Colin whispered, “was he really?”
“Yeah man, it was horrid. I couldn’t even wake him up.”
“God, I’m so sorry.”
“I mean, it’s happened before, but with you two.. y’know, I think it’s going to
get worse.”
“It happened before?”
“Oh yeah. Every now and then. It was always you.” Colin’s heart did a backflip,
as the bell for the beginning of class rang.
Colin couldn’t focus on the lesson, once again he was distracted by Ed, and Ed
wasn’t even there. He doodled little hearts in his notebook, as he thought
about the fact that Ed had liked him long before they got together. He never
would have guessed, all that time he thought he’d never have a chance with him,
and the whole time Ed was crushing on him just as hard. The next class he
didn’t have with any of his friends, but after that he would see Ed, and he
couldn’t wait.
The next class went by agonisingly slowly. At least without his mates around he
could pay attention, not that he wanted to. He took notes and thought about
writing Ed a love note, but thought better of it. If anyone else found it
they’d both be dead.
———
Finally the class was over, and Colin rushed out to meet Ed, who was waiting
for him by his locker. The boy who was listening to him and Nigel followed him,
his locker being only a few away. Ed noticed him staring, but quickly looked
away, thinking nothing of it.
“Hey Cozzie,” he said, eyeing Colin lovingly.
“Hi Ed,” Colin said, a huge grin on his face. He opened his locker and
exchanged some books, before shutting it and walking with Ed.
“So I guess band practice tonight?” Ed asked.
“That’s what Thom said.”
“It’s gonna be weird without Jonny.”
“I know. It doesn’t seem right without him anymore.” Ed glanced over his
shoulder, meeting the gaze of that boy again. He quickly turned away. “You
okay?” Colin asked.
“Some kid keeps staring at us.”
“He’s probably just staring at you.”
“Why?”
“‘Cause you’re cute.”
“Shut up Colin,” Ed said, blushing and grinning.
They made their way into the classroom and sat down next to each other. The boy
who had been staring sat behind Colin. Ed eyed him for a moment, Colin
completely oblivious. They passed notes during class, making jokes about the
teacher and flirting like mad. Colin told Ed all about Thom and Jonny, not
mentioning Thom’s feelings for him. What Ed didn’t know couldn’t hurt him.
Colin felt a bit guilty about keeping things from Ed, but he told himself Ed
could probably sense it anyway. After class Colin shoved the note into his
pocket, making a mental note to dispose of the evidence that evening. They made
their way into the cafeteria, sitting down with Thom.
“Where’s Nigel?” Colin asked.
“Probably smoking,” Thom shrugged.
Ed leaned forward and in a hushed voice said, “hey guys, that kid over there is
definitely spying on us and it’s freaking me out.”
“You’re being paranoid, Ed,” Colin said, digging into his lunch.
“I am not. Keep an eye out for him.”
“Like I said, he probably just thinks you’re cute. Trust me, he’s about to come
over here and try to hit on you any minute now.”
Ed grinned at Colin and quickly squeezed his thigh under the table, hoping no
one would notice. “Yeah, sucks for him I’m taken.” Colin blushed. Thom rolled
his eyes.
Near the end of the lunch hour, Nigel finally showed up, out of breath and
stinking of cigarettes.
“What did I tell you?” Thom said.
“What?” Nigel was oblivious.
Thom leaned in and whispered in his ear, “you stink, buddy.”
“Godamnit,” Nigel said, sniffing his jumper.
The day went on as any other day, Ed keeping an eye out for their stalker, who
only seemed to pop up when he was with Colin. After their classes the boys met
in the music room and set up to begin practice.
“Okay,” Thom started, “we’ll do Ripcord to warm up, then I wanna work on the
new ones, okay guys?” They all agreed and went straight into it. After a few
songs Thom stopped, sighing.
“What’s wrong? We were doing fine,” Ed complained.
“It’s not the same without Jon Jon,” Thom said, looking at his feet and
sulking. Colin frowned.
“We can have practice at Phil’s this weekend, Jonathan will be there. It’s only
a week,” Colin offered.
“Yeah, but that’s only like, one practice. Jonny’s missing out on so much.”
“Hey, I miss out on even more when you guys aren’t in school. I haven’t even
heard half the songs we’ve run through today. I haven’t a clue what we’re
doing,” Nigel complained.
“You’re doing great, though, Nigel,” Thom said, smiling at him.
“C’mon guys,” Ed interrupted, “We’ve only got a few minutes left. Let’s just
finish and get dinner.
———
After practice Nigel snuck out to go smoke again, the rest of the boys heading
to the cafeteria. As they chatted and ate their dinners, the boy who had been
watching them all day took a seat next to Ed.
“Um… can I help you?” Ed asked defensively.
“You can’t go here if you’re a poof.”
Ed swallowed hard. “Uhh, what?” He let out a fake laugh.
“If you’re gay. You can’t go to an all-boys school.”
“Okay, who the fuck are you?”
“Stanley.”
“And why are you telling us this?”
“Just looking out for you.”
The three boys gave him an odd look, all of them starting to sweat, when Nigel
finally returned. “Who’s this?” he asked.
“Our stalker. I told you guys,” Ed said, turning away from Stanley.
“His name is Stanley,” Thom commented.
“Well why is he here?” Nigel asked, beginning to feel uneasy.
“Warning us we’re not allowed to be gay, or some shit, apparently,” Ed
shrugged.
“What the fuck?” Nigel was perplexed.
“Look I’m just saying… don’t let anybody catch you,” Stanley said, getting up
and walking away.
The boys looked at each other quizzically for a moment. “What the fuck was that
all about?” Thom finally asked.
Colin was staring at his dinner tray, having suddenly lost his appetite. He was
scared to death. He knew if one boy had figured it out, it was just a matter of
time before the whole school knew, and they’d be bullied and beaten every day
until they graduated.
Ed noticed Colin freaking out, and put a hand on his back, rubbing it. “Hey,
Cozzie,” he said softly, “it’s okay, don’t worry about—“
“Don’t touch me,” Colin said, moving away. Tears were starting to sting at his
eyes. Ed pulled his hand away and looked at Colin, hurt. Colin looked at him
with tears threatening to spill over. He got up and quickly walked away and out
of the cafeteria.
“Shit,” Thom said. Nigel was silent.
“Godamnit,” Ed groaned, getting up and hurrying after Colin. Half the cafeteria
had watched the scene go down, having no idea what any of it was about.
Ed found Colin in the locker room, curled up into himself against a row of
lockers, crying silently into his knees.
“Colin,” he whispered, hurrying over to him and sitting down, wrapping him up
in his embrace.
“Get off me Ed, what if someone sees us?”
“What if someone sees a bloke comforting his friend? Big deal Cozzie, you don’t
have to be paranoid all of the sudden.”
“Yes I do, Ed. One kid already figured us out, it’s just a matter of time
before the bullies find out. What if he tells someone? We can’t do this anymore
Ed, I’m so scared.”
“Cozzie, we can’t let them scare us. That kid’s a dumbass, we can’t get kicked
out of school for liking each other.”
“I know that, I’m not stupid. But we can get run out of school by bullies.
They’re fucking vicious, Ed.”
“I know they are, but if anything happens I’ve got you, okay? I’ll protect you
from all of them. They can’t hurt you.”
“Jesus Ed, you already get so much shit from your dad at home, it’s not fair
that you should have to get it at school too!”
“Shh, Colin I don’t care. I don’t care about any of that. You make me so happy
it’s all worth it.” Colin just leaned into him and cried his heart out. Ed held
him tight and kissed his head over and over. After a few minutes, Colin’s sobs
became further apart, and he stopped trembling. He lifted his head and looked
up at Ed, who met his eyes with a worried look.
Colin sniffled and wiped his face. “Can I have a kiss?” he asked with a weak
smile. Ed smirked and held his chin, kissing him delicately, afraid to break
him. Colin’s hand found the back of Ed’s head, and he deepened the kiss. They
didn’t hear when the locker room door opened.
“What the fuck is this?”
They both jumped and pulled away. Two boys they hardly recognised but had seen
in passing were standing above them, looking pissed.
“Shit,” Ed muttered under his breath.
“Yeah, shit,” the taller one said.
Ed stood up and extended his hand to help Colin up. Thankfully, Ed towered
above both of the boys, but they were bigger than him width-wise, and more
muscular. One of them was clearly an athlete, and the other… well he just ate a
lot.
“Leave us alone,” Ed said, taking Colin’s hand and making to push past them and
leave.
“Not so fast,” the shorter, heavier boy blocked the door. Ed could feel Colin’s
hand shaking, so he squeezed it. “I could’ve guess you were a fucking poof,
Greenwood, but O’Brien? Really? I thought you were better than that.”
“Piss off, man, I don’t even know you,” Ed moved to walk past them again, but
the taller boy shoved him back. He tripped over his feet, but caught his
balance, letting go of Colin’s hand and gently pushing his chest so he took a
few steps behind him.
“You were on my rugby team last year, mate. We fucking showered together. You
were probably eyeing me every time, taking little snapshots for your wank bank
later on. That’s disgusting.”
Ed crossed his arms and smirked at the boy. “Sorry man, you’re not my type.”
“Yeah, I guess your type is scrawny freaks with big noses and fucked up eyes,”
the boy said, eyeing Colin, who was holding back tears with all his might.
“Fuck off, you pathetic cunt,” Ed said, shoving the boy. He knocked him onto
the floor, but he was immediately back up on his feet, punching Ed square in
the jaw. Ed punched back, hitting him in the eye. The next punch thrown missed
Ed’s face and hit the locker behind him. The boy pulled back in pain, and Ed
took his chance to punch the boy in the stomach, As he doubled over, Ed grabbed
his head and kneed him in the face, but the other boy was on him, pinning him
up against the locker and punching him repeatedly. Ed’s arms were pinned but he
kneed the boy in the crotch, making him let go and grab himself. The taller boy
was on Ed again, shoving his face into the locker and holding his arms behind
his back. The heavier boy found his bearings and punched Ed in the side a few
times, before the other boy let go and let Ed collapse in a heap on the floor.
The taller boy spit blood onto the floor and wiped his mouth. “If I ever catch
you two poofs fucking making out again, you’re fucking dead. Same goes for
you,” he said turning to Colin. The boys turned and left.
Once they were out of the locker room, Colin crawled over to Ed and grabbed his
face. “Oh my god Ed, oh my god,” tears were streaming down his face, “What the
fuck Ed?! I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry I didn’t help you, I froze. I was so
scared. Are you okay? Is anything broken?”
Ed chuckled, then made a pained expression, as it hurt to laugh. “I’m fine
Cozzie.”
“No you’re not! You’re bleeding everywhere and I think your nose is broken! How
are your ribs? God I’m so sorry Ed.”
Ed sat up and leaned against the row of lockers. He poked his ribs and winced.
Bruised, but not broken. He touched his nose, and winced again. Possibly
broken. He looked down at his fingers; blood. He looked up at Colin and smiled.
He touched Colin’s face, getting some blood on it. “I’m okay, Cozzie, really.
It just really set me off when he said those things about you. And don’t be
sorry, I didn’t want you getting into it. I never want you to. I’m okay, I
swear.”
“Oh god Ed… we are so fucked.”
Ed spit some blood out onto the floor next to him. “We kinda are. But we’ll be
okay, I promise,” he said with a smile. Colin was bawling now. “Don’t cry,
c’mere love.” He stretched his arm out and Colin curled up under him, clinging
to him, crying. Ed held him and kissed his head. “You don’t have to be scared,
we’ve got each other, and we’ve got friends, bullies never come out on top. And
you’re safe, I promise.”
“B-but.. you’re not. You’re not safe, Ed. I don’t want you to have to defend
me. I don’t want you to have to fight and get beat up all the time. Why do they
have to be like that? It’s not fair, why can’t they just let us be happy?”
“They’re jealous, ‘cause they’re not happy. We’ll figure something out, Cozzie.
We’ll be okay.”
Colin kept crying into Ed’s chest, so Ed held him and hushed him. They heard
the locker room door open again, and quickly moved away from each other.
Thankfully, it was Thom and Nigel.
“Holy shit, what the fuck happened?!” Thom exclaimed, hurrying over to Ed and
examining his face.
“Some homophobic pieces of shit kicked my arse, man,” Ed chuckled.
“It’s not fucking funny Ed, something could be broken!”
“Nothing’s broken, Thom, relax.”
“So… you got caught, huh?” Nigel said, wetting a paper towel to clean Ed’s
face. Colin was still in a heap next to Ed, curled up in a ball crying his eyes
out. Thom turned to Colin, lifting his head and wiping the tears from his
cheeks.
“Yeah, by the end of the week the whole school will know. We’re totally
fucked,” Ed said, leaning his head back against the lockers. Nigel knelt down
in front of him and held his chin, gently wiping the blood from around his nose
and eyes. Ed winced and inhaled sharply, but let Nigel clean him.
“You okay?” Thom whispered to Colin. Colin shook his head as more tears fell
from his eyes. Thom frowned at him, looking as if he wanted to cry too.
“Well they can’t hurt you as long as there’s teachers around, so stay out of
the shadows, okay?” Nigel said, examining Ed’s face and deciding one more wet
paper towel would do the job. Ed nodded, and Nigel got up to go to the sink
again. Ed turned to Thom and Colin, Thom was holding Colin’s head and Colin’s
sobs were starting to lighten, his body still trembling but the crying slowing
down.
Nigel was in front of Ed again, patting his face lightly with the paper towel.
He moved Ed’s head around and poked at his nose, Ed wincing and pulling away as
a reaction. “S’not broken. You’re lucky.” Nigel stood up and offered a hand to
help Ed up. Thom got up and pulled Colin up with him. Colin looked at Ed for a
moment before hugging him and giving him a series of small kisses on the lips.
“You guys are gonna have to be more careful with that from now on,” Nigel said.
Colin frowned and Ed nodded. The boys made their way up the staircase and into
their rooms. They all got into their pyjamas and slid into bed, Nigel going
over when it would be safe to be alone with Colin with Ed, and it wasn’t often.
After the hall monitors had gone to bed, Thom and Colin lied in their beds in
silence.
“Thom?” Colin whispered.
Thom rolled over to face him, even though he couldn’t see him in the dark.
“Yeah?”
“Can I come over there?”
“Yeah.” Thom scooted over to give Colin some room, and Colin was quickly under
the blankets clinging to Thom.
“I’m so scared, Thom.” Colin’s voice sounded small, and shaky. Thom held him
and kissed his head.
“I know, Cozzie. We’ve got you, okay? We’re not gonna let anything bad happen
to you or Ed.”
Colin just shoved his face into Thom’s chest. He fell asleep soon after, still
clinging to Thom. Thom didn’t even feel any romantic feelings for Colin in that
moment. He was just worried for his best friend. He saw what Ed was willing to
go through for Colin, and he was nothing but thrilled that his two best friends
had found a love so pure and real. He hadn’t an ounce of jealousy, only love
for both of them.
***** Chapter 10 *****
The next day the boys went about their day quietly. They were trying to keep
under the radar as much as possible. Ed still insisted on walking with Colin
and sitting with him during classes, no one could say anything about them
simply being next to each other, he reasoned. But there were whispers, and
stares, and they were soon to realise that word was getting around about them.
Ed’s lip was busted and there was a small bruise under his eye, so he wasn’t
shocked that boys were asking each other about it. He caught Stanley’s eyes a
few times, but that kid was the least of his problems.
Nearing the end of the day, Thom, Colin, and Ed were in history class. It was
the only class all three of them had together. They sat quietly, waiting for
class to begin. Ed stared straight ahead, his head in his hand, Colin had his
head down in his arms, covering his face, and Thom fiddled with a loose string
on his jumper. A balled up piece of paper came flying from the back of the room
and hit Colin on the head. He turned around and glared at whoever it was that
threw it. Two boys he didn’t know were giggling and one mouthed to him, open
it. He leaned down and picked up the paper from the floor, taking a breath
before opening it. It was a crudely drawn picture of his face, with a
disturbingly detailed drawing of a large, veiny cock ejaculating on him. His
face turned red and tears stung at his eyes. He looked up and Thom was watching
him with a concerned look on his face. He turned to Ed, who looked absolutely
pissed. Ed held his hand out, gesturing for Colin to show him the drawing.
Colin just shook his head and shoved the paper deep into his pocket, wiping at
his eyes and swallowing his tears. Ed let his hand fall and shot a menacing
glare at the boys at the back of the room. He then turned toward the front of
the room as the bell rang for class to start.
A few classes later, dinner time rolled around, and all four boys were eating
in silence. Halfway through the meal, the boys who had fought with Ed plopped
down right next to him. Everyone at the table but Ed jumped, wide-eyed and
nervous. Ed just sighed and turned toward them.
“What?” he asked, already bored.
“Having dinner with your boyfriend?” the taller one teased.
“Yes,” Ed answered bluntly, turning back to his food.
“So you are gay for each other?” Both boys looked shocked, despite having
already caught them kissing.
Ed sighed and rolled his eyes. “Why are you so obsessed with us?”
“I think he’s jealous,” Colin piped up, a sly grin on his face. All eyes were
on him, shocked that he would be so bold.
“What did you say you twerp?”
“You’re just jealous because no one in their right mind would ever put up with
you for more than a few minutes,” he said loud enough for half the cafeteria to
hear.
“Colin, don’t,” Ed whispered, but it was too late.
The taller boy got up and shoved Colin onto the ground. Ed immediately stood up
but the other boy had his arms hooked behind him. He struggled to get free but
the fact was, the boy was stronger than he was.
“I’ll have you know I have a girlfriend. A girlfriend, with a pussy, and tits.”
“She must be pretty desperate, to put up with the likes of you,” Colin spat.
The boy was on him in an instant, pouncing on him and grabbing him by the hair,
punching him in the face. As he swung back to deliver another punch, Thom was
on him, grabbing his arm and ripping it all the way back until his shoulder
made and audible pop. Everyone always forgot how strong Thom was. Quick, too.
“Ah, shit!” the boy cried out, falling off Colin and grabbing his shoulder.
“You want some too, lazy eye?” he threatened, But before he could make a move,
Thom was attacking him like a feral cat, giving Colin the opportunity to
scramble to his feet.
Meanwhile, Nigel had crept up behind the other boy and kicked him between the
legs, causing him to let go of Ed, who quickly turned around and started
hitting him. Nigel joined in too, and before both boys could be beaten
completely senseless, a teacher finally interjected. He yelled for the boys to
break it up as he came running across the cafeteria, but it was no use. Within
a few minutes more teachers had showed up and they all ripped the boys off each
other and escorted them to the principal’s office.
After each boy explained their side of the story to the principal, it was
decided that all six of them would be suspended for a week. The principal
called each of their parents while they sent them each to their rooms to pack
their things.
All of them were worried of what their parents were going to say once they
heard the news, but especially Ed. He was shaking as he packed his things.
Colin tried to pack quickly so he could see him before he was picked up, but
there was a teacher waiting right outside his door in case he tried to escape.
He huffed and cried on his bed while Thom finished packing. Once Thom noticed
him, he quickly hurried over to him and wrapped him up in a hug, kissing his
head and his face.
“We’ll be okay, Cozzie.”
“Maybe we will, but Ed won’t.”
“What makes you say that?”
“His dad is… I really shouldn’t be telling you this, don’t tell him I told you,
but his dad is like, abusive.”
Thom bit his cheek, remembering the random cuts and bruises he’d randomly seen
on Ed for years. “Shit…”
“He’s gonna kick his arse when he finds out,” Colin said, sobbing.
“Hey hey, come on. Our Ed is tough, and savvy. He’ll figure something out.
He’ll be okay.”
Colin lost it, clinging to Thom. “I don’t know what’s gonna happen to my
boyfriend, Thom. What if I never see him again? Or what if he gets kicked out,
and he’s homeless? What if his dad kills him?!”
“I don’t know Cozzie, but I don’t think his dad is going to kill him. I’m sure
you’ll see him again. It’ll be okay.”
“I’m so scared, Thom.”
“Me too.”
———
The drive home was silent, for all of the boys. Colin walked into his house,
followed by his mother. He tried to make his way upstairs to his room, but his
mum stopped him.
“Colin, you know we have to talk.”
“Right…”
“I’m sure you’ve guess you’re grounded, for the entire week.”
“Yes mum.”
“No friends, no leaving the house.”
“I understand.”
“Good boy. And I want to hear what this fight was all about, when you’re ready
to tell me.”
Colin swallowed dryly. “Yes mum.”
“Alright. You’re free to go.”
Colin ran upstairs and into his room, where he found Jonny sitting on his bed
waiting for him. He put his things down and Jonny cautiously walked up and
hugged him without a word. Colin sighed and hugged him back, and for a moment
he could have swore Jonny was crying. Jonny pulled away and looked at his
brother’s face, eyeing the bruise under his eye. He leaned in and kissed it, as
gently as he could. He lead Colin to his bed, where he got under the blankets
and stared up at Colin expectantly. Colin understood, and crawled in next to
him, Jonny immediately clinging to him like a baby koala. Jonny started to
tremble, and Colin held him back.
“Jonathan, are you crying?”
“A little bit…”
“Oh, don’t cry now. It’s okay. I’m okay.”
“I heard you got in a fight and I was so scared.”
“It’s okay, they got beat up way worse than I did.”
“Did you beat them up?” Jonny asked, looking up at him with wide eyes.
Colin blushed and chuckled. “Nah, Thom and Ed did. And our friend Nigel, you
don’t know him.”
“Are they okay?”
“Ed’s face is a little messed up, from another fight, but they’re okay.”
“You guys got into two fights?!”
“Yeah… it’s been a rough few days.”
“Why are you fighting so much?”
Colin sighed and bit his cheek, looking down at his baby brother. “Some people…
are just really ignorant and mean.”
“What do you mean?”
“They… don’t like that Ed and I are together.”
“Why not?”
“They’re jealous, I guess.”
“That’s not fair! It’s not your problem nobody loves them!”
Colin smiled. “Tell me about it.”
———
“Why the fuck are you fighting at school? You don’t get your arse kicked enough
at home?” Ed’s dad yelled, shoving him so he hit the wood panelled living room
wall, shaking the tiny room slightly.
“I was sticking up for my friend. Besides, they started it.”
“Why can’t your friend fight his own battles? Is he some kind of poof?”
Ed shoved his dad back, but he barely moved. “Don’t you ever fucking talk about
him like that!”
“What do you care? You in love with this boy or something?”
“Who cares if I am?!”
“Godamnit Edward, I fucking knew it.”
“You’re just made ‘cause mum never loved you.”
“Get the fuck out of my house.”
“What?”
“Get out. Pack your shit, never show up around here again. You hear me?”
“What about—“
“Go.”
Ed started to cry, but hid it as best he could. He grabbed his already packed
bag and his guitar and headed out the door. He walked aimlessly down the
footpath for a moment, not sure where he could even go.
------
He showed up on Phil’s doorstep, tear-stained cheeks and nose red from the
cold. Phil immediately ushered him in without question and gestured for him to
sit down on the sofa. He sat next to him and they were silent for a moment,
Phil letting Ed get his bearings before making him explain himself.
“So, what the fuck?” Phil said, turning to him.
“My dad kicked me out.”
“What? Shit, why?”
“He found out about me and Colin.”
“How?”
“We all got suspended from school for fighting, even Thom. These bullies found
out about us and wouldn’t leave us alone.”
“Did you kick their arses?”
Ed smiled. “Yeah, we got ‘em pretty good.”
“Good. You can stay here as long as you need, my guest room is all yours.”
“Really? Thanks, man. Sorry, I just didn’t know where else to go. I’m dying to
see Cozzie, but I’m sure his mum grounded him.”
“Maybe you can call him tomorrow and fill him in.”
“Yeah, good idea. Do you mind if I use your shower?”
“You don’t even have to ask. You know where everything is, make yourself at
home, you might be here for a while. I was just about to fix dinner.”
Ed suddenly lunged forward and gave a Phil a big hug, squeezing him as tight as
he could. “You’re a lifesaver, Phillip Selway.”
***** Chapter 11 *****
Chapter Summary
     This one is really short and all dialogue, sorry.
The next morning Ed and Phil talked about their situation over breakfast. They
came to the conclusion that Ed wouldn’t be able to go back to school, which Ed
was genuinely thrilled about, until he remembered he’d be leaving his friends
behind. Phil told him he’d have to get a job if he wanted to continue living
with him, and he agreed to start looking for one the next day. He rang Colin to
tell him the news and see if he was okay.
The phone rang four times, and Jonny answered.
“Hello?”
“Hey Jon, it’s Ed.”
“Hey, do you want to talk to Colin?”
Ed chuckled. “Yeah, how’d you know? Is he around?”
“Lucky guess. Yeah I’ll get him.”
Ed waited a moment, before hearing his boyfriend’s voice.
“Ed! Oh my god, are you okay?”
“I’m fine, actually.”
“What happened with your dad?”
“Well, it’s a long story. But… I guess I live with Phil now. And I can’t go
back to school. And I’m worried about leaving you there without me.”
Colin paused for a moment. “What… the fuck?”
“I know.”
“Well… you don’t have to worry about me.” He heard Colin smile through the
phone.
“What?”
“I told mum about why we were fighting and stuff and… she’s transferring me. To
the school attached to Jonathan’s, so I’ll see him every day.”
“What! That’s so lucky!”
“I know, and guess what else.”
“What?”
“Since Thom lives so close, he’s seeing about getting transferred to the same
school.”
“Holy shit! What about Nigel?”
“I don’t know about Nigel. He lives further away so if he’s lucky enough to get
transferred it won’t be to the same school. I think Thom is supposed to ring
him though.”
“Holy shit Colin, this is all happening so fast!”
“I know!”
“Can I come see you today?”
“Ugh, I’m sorry love, but I’m still grounded for the week for fighting. I think
Thom is too.”
“Oh… that sucks. That’s okay though, we can still talk on the phone every day,
right?”
“Yeah, I’ve still got phone privileges.”
“And I’ll see you next week?”
“Of course! As soon as I’m free I’m all yours.”
“I can’t wait. I love you so much Colin. Things have somehow worked out way
better than I ever could have dreamed.”
“I love you too, Ed. We’re really lucky, aren’t we?”
“I think we’re the luckiest blokes in the world.”
***** Chapter 12 *****
Chapter Summary
     Final chapter!
By the end of the week, Ed had found a job as a bell hop. He had a week before
he had to start working, and Colin and Thom had a week before they had to go to
their new school. Thom had found out that Nigel was transferring as well, but
to a different school further away. They weren’t sure if they’d see much of
Nigel, but that was okay because now they could have their real drummer around
for practices. Ed often wondered about that Stanley kid, what a creep. He
brought him up to Colin sometimes but Colin just told him to shut up.
The boys were all at Phil’s flat, waiting for Jonny to get out of school so
they could start band practice. Phil and Thom were in the basement, Colin and
Ed up in Ed’s room, cuddling on the bed, listening to one of Ed’s Duran Duran
records. Ed was quietly singing along, Colin’s ear to his chest, listening to
it vibrate as he sang.
“Y’know Ed,” Colin lifted his head to look up at his boyfriend, “you’ve got a
lovely singing voice.”
“Ya think?”
“Yeah, it’s quite nice. You should sing louder.”
“I’m too embarrassed.”
“Oh, don’t be ridiculous.” Colin reached up and kissed Ed on the jaw. Ed smiled
at him and rolled him over, kissing him sweetly. Their kisses soon went from
delicate and romantic to hot and needy, and Ed’s hands roamed Colin’s body,
eliciting small moans from him and making him squirm. Ed pulled away and looked
down at Colin, eyes half-lidded, twirling his hair with his fingers.
“Y’know… Cozzie… we haven’t gone all the way yet.”
Colin’s heart raced. “Yeah…”
“Do you want to?”
“I mean… you know I’ve wanted to for the past three years,” Colin chuckled,
“I’ve just been too scared.”
“Are you still too scared?”
“I’m… nervous, but… no. I think… I’m ready, Ed.”
“I’m nervous too,” Ed said, kissing Colin on the forehead and getting up to
lock the door. He crawled back on top of Colin and kissed him gently. Colin was
trembling beneath him, so he kissed all over his face, and trailed down his
neck. “I’ll be gentle, we’ll go slow, okay? I’m gonna make you feel so good
Cozzie, do you trust me?”
“I trust you with my life, Ed O’Brien.”
Ed smiled and removed Colin’s shirt before removing his own, then started
kissing, sucking and biting, all over his torso. Colin moaned and squirmed
beneath him, beginning to relax and stop shaking. His hands found Ed’s hair,
and he guided his head further down. Ed undid his trousers and pulled them off,
his boxers coming off with them.
He eyed Colin’s erection, which was throbbing and leaking precum. “Damn,
Cozzie, you’re ready.”
“I’m about to have sex with the most beautiful man on Earth, of course I’m
ready.” Ed smiled and moved toward’s Colin’s cock, but he stopped him. “Hey, I
wanna see you too,” Colin said, biting his lip and eyeing Ed’s crotch.
“As you wish,” Ed said with a smirk, and removed his trousers and boxers.
“God, Ed, please don’t kill me with that thing,” Colin said blushing and
staring at Ed’s erection.
Ed blushed. “I told you I’d be gentle,” he said, leaning down to kiss and suck
at Colin’s hipbones and thighs. He licked the precum off Colin’s tip, making
Colin inhale sharply and buck his hips forward. Ed stopped for a moment,
reaching for the bedside table, puling a bottle of lube and a condom out of the
drawer.
“Where did you get those?” Colin asked, eyes wide.
“Uh… from the shop?”
“So you were planning this all along, huh?”
“Well, I knew it’d happen eventually, I wanted to be prepared.”
Colin giggled as Ed lubed up his fingers and went back to his spot between
Colin’s legs. Colin spread his legs, inviting Ed to do what he couldn’t wait
for. Ed kissed and nipped at Colin’s thighs as he massaged his entrance with a
wet finger. Colin’s eyes squeezed shut and he bit his lip until he tasted iron.
He gripped Ed’s hair so tight he worried for a moment he was hurting him, but
as Ed’s finger slipped inside him he didn’t care.
“Shitshitshit, oh my god, Ed,” Colin whined, breathing heavily, trying his best
not to squirm too much. Ed stayed silent and continued to finger Colin,
eventually adding a second finger and making a scissoring motion, stretching
him. When Ed finally added a third finger, Colin cried out.
“You okay?” Ed asked, still massaging his prostate. Colin couldn’t form words
but he looked down at him and nodded furiously, still biting his lip. Ed
smirked and went back to kissing at the base of Colin’s cock. After a few more
thrusts of his fingers, Ed pulled out of Colin, Colin whining at the sudden
emptiness. He went for the lube again, squirting some into his hand and lubing
himself up, adding the leftover lube to Colin’s entrance and sliding the condom
on. He crawled on top of Colin, who was looking up at him with not want, but
need in his eyes.
Ed guided his cock towards Colin’s entrance with one hand, while his other hand
was on Colin’s cheek, his thumb caressing Colin’s cheekbone. “You ready?” he
whispered, looking at Colin lovingly.
“Yeah,” Colin breathed. Ed pushed his tip inside, earning a squeak from Colin.
He pushed himself halfway in, then adjusted so Colin’s leg was over his
shoulder. He slowly inched his entire length inside him, Colin moaning and
cursing.
He finally hit Colin’s prostate, and Colin cried out, “Ohfuckjesusgoddamnit,
Ed.”
“Does it hurt?”
“Not anymore, please don’t stop.”
Ed did as he was told, slowly pumping in and out of Colin. The noises coming
from Colin’s mouth were too much, and he sped up his pace, which only made
Colin louder. Colin gripped Ed’s waist, digging his nails into him. Ed bit his
lip and lost control of his movements, as he fucked Colin into the mattress as
hard as he could.
“Ed, I’m gonna…” Colin squeaked, and Ed immediately understood, his hand
finding Colin’s tip and stroking it a few times before Colin spilled over his
hand and his stomach. The way Colin clenched when he came sent Ed over the edge
as well, and he came inside him.
They both stayed in that position for a moment, breathing heavy and looking at
each other. Ed was the first to smile, and Colin smiled back, both of them
grinning wide and giggling. Ed pulled out of Colin and kissed him on the
forehead. He pulled the condom off, tied it, and tossed it in the bin under his
bedside table. He got up and searched around the room for a moment, finding a
dirty shirt and cleaning Colin’s stomach and his hand with it. He tossed the
shirt to a corner of the room and lied down next to Colin, putting his arm
around him and pulling him in for a kiss.
“Ed,” Colin said, catching his breath still, “that was unbelievable… I want to
do that every day for the rest of my life.”
Ed smirked. “Yeah, me too. Maybe next time you can be on top.”
“I’d like that.”
“Let’s get a shower, we’re gross.”
“Yeah.”
They put their discarded trousers back on. Ed peaked out the door to make sure
the coast was clear, and they hurried across the hall to the bathroom,
stripping once more and getting in the shower. As they washed each other, they
got distracted, and kissed until they’d been in there for nearly half an hour.
They heard a pounding at the door, and in unison they shouted, “What?”
“Are you guys in there together?” Phil shouted through the door.
He heard Colin giggle. “Piss off,” Ed shouted, “what do you want?”
“Jonny’s here, get your arses downstairs.”
“Two minutes!” Ed shouted, smiling at Colin. Phil rolled his eyes and went to
the kitchen to make tea while he waited for the lovebirds to finish.
———
Thom was in the basement tuning his guitar, when Jonny came down to greet him.
“Jon Jon! I haven’t seen you in forever!”
Jonny put his guitar down and ran up to hug Thom. “I’ve missed you so much,
Thom Thom.”
Thom wrapped his arms around him and squeezed. They held each other for a while
before Jonny broke away. “I was thinking… since you’re not going to Abington
anymore… do you want to… um…”
“Please tell me you want to get back together.” Jonny grinned and nodded. “Yes,
god, Jonny, of course I do!” Thom grabbed Jonny’s face and kissed him, Jonny
smiling into the kiss.
They didn’t hear Phil come downstairs, mug of tea in hand. “Goddamnit,” he
said, covering his eyes, “I can’t escape it.”
The boys pulled away and looked at him. Jonny blushed. “Sorry Phil.”
“Where’s Colin and Ed?” Thom asked.
“Getting out of the shower,” Phil answered, mortified.
“Ew!” Jonny squeaked.
“That’s hot,” Thom said, eyeing Jonny.
“Thom! No it’s not,” Jonny said, shoving him.
“Maybe not to you.”
Ed and Colin meekly came down the stairs, Colin in Ed’s clothes, which were
much too big for him.
“Oh hey, the lovebirds are finally ready for band practice,” Thom teased,
puckering his lips.
“Shut up Thomas,” Ed said, shoving him out of the way and heading for his
guitar.
“Hi Jonathan, how was school?” Colin asked.
“Fine,” Jonny said awkwardly.
Colin bit his cheek. “Sorry… you got here at an awkward time.”
“S’okay, you’re gonna have to deal with me and Thom now, I’ll get you back,”
Jonny said, eyeing Thom, who gave him a smirk.
“Are you guys…?”
“Yeah,” Jonny said with a smile.
Colin gave Thom a knowing look. “Good.”
They set up for practice and ran through their old songs, Thom adding a new one
in. Jonny impressed everyone, playing better every time they heard him, despite
not having been around for practices while the others were in school. Phil said
it was the best practice they’d had in a while, and everyone agreed. They
finished the night with one of Phil’s gourmet dinners and a bottle of gin.
As Colin drifted to sleep under Ed’s arm, he smiled to himself. He swore he was
the happiest he’d ever been, and he couldn’t wait to spend the rest of his life
like this.
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