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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      Multi
  Fandom:
      The_100
  Relationship:
      Bellamy_Blake/Clarke_Griffin, Octavia_Blake/_Bellamy_Blake, Octavia
      Blake/Lincoln
  Character:
      Lincoln, Octiava_Blake, Bellamy_Blake, Clarke_Griffin, Jasper_Jordan,
      Monty_Green, OC's, Marcus_Kane, Abby_Griffin, Lexa
  Additional Tags:
      Hurt_Bellamy, PTSD, Sad_Bellamy, Panic_Attacks, Rape_Aftermath, Rape
      Recovery, Past_Rape/Non-con, Bellarke, Caring_Clarke, Protective_Octavia,
      Protective_Clarke, jasper_is_adorable, Mild_cussing?, 100, the100_-
      Freeform, 100AU
  Stats:
      Published: 2016-06-30 Updated: 2016-09-21 Chapters: 6/? Words: 8543
****** I deserved it ******
by Snugglebearbell
Summary
     Bellamy, Jasper, monty and two guards are out on a mission to capture
     a tribe of rapest when something goes wrong that makes Bellamy face
     something he thought he burried long ago. Aha I suck at Summaries. I
     don't even think I spelt that right. Oh well. Read this anyone please
     cause you might enjoy it.
Notes
     This is my first 100 fanfic so it sucks. Also this is graphic so be
     careful look at the tags and don't read it the topic of rape bothers
     you. Uh, also I apologize for the amount of sad Bellamy that is in
     this very short chapter. Oh and if you notice that I forgot a tag or
     whatever please tell me because I've never used this site before.
***** 1 *****
They had been looking for the dihanie tribe, pack of men, who's smallest
soldier is larger than Bellamy, men who forced themselves on anyone and
anything they could get they're hands on when they noticed that Bellamy wasn't
his usual, "take the lead" self. he was the one dragging behind everyone else,
he was distant, couldn't look anyone in the eye, could barely get a sentence
out without his voice breaking a little, Jasper was the one who took notice
first, whispering something to Monty, who then turned around to look at bell.
 
A Considered look crossed his face before turned back around and whispered
something back to Jasper that Bellamy just couldn't make out. It wasn't long
till the guards took notice as well, listening to Monty and Jaspers whispers,
then everyone was whispering their opinions to each other some were saying he
was just tired but others who knew Bellamy, who knew how far he pushed himself
before knew it wasn't just sleep deprivation. But they all ignored it and kept
hiking. They couldn't lose anymore daylight.
 
It wasn't till, Monty's gun slipped through his sweating fingers and hit the
ground that even the guards realized Bellamy was in worse shape than they
thought. As soon as the gun hit the ground with a loud thud Bellamy hit the
ground as well, backing himself against a tree. He placed his index finger on
the trigger but didn't pull it, his eyes shut tightly and he was whispering
quite- meaningless sentences.
They were so close to the Dihanie tribe, they couldn't let Bellamy draw
attention to them, not now. Not when they were so close to catching the
monsters.
 
"Shut him up!" Anthony, a guard half yelled half- Whispered.
 
Jasper nodded, Stepping towards a trembling Bellamy.
"Bellamy, look- just calm down, please. You can't be loud."
"We, I- I can't do this I can't! I can't do this!!"
"Anthony! Shut him up before he gets us all killed!!" Alek another guard
bellowed
"What- what can't you do?"
"I can't- please don't make me."
"Bellamy shhh, you're screaming. Calm down."
"That's it!" Anthony walked over, grabbing Bellamy but he head of his hair,
dragging him towards the top of the hill where they could see where the dihanie
tribe had set up camp, "— If he wants to draw attention towards us he can be
the distraction.."
 
"What're you doing? Something's wrong with him, he can't go down there!"
 
"Please, please don't please.. I can't- I-I- c—" Bellamy was cut off but a hard
tug of his collar, Anthony threw him down the hill.
 
Bellamy went tumbling down the hill, face smashing against tree roots and
rocks. When his head hit the third rock he couldn't keep his hand on his gun,
he let go and quickly used his arms to shield his face. Not that it'd do much
good he was now at the bottom of the hill.
His vision was blurry and his arms and legs wouldn't work like he wanted them
to, he couldn't feel anything till someone, not so accidentally stepped on his
hand.
 
"Now. What do we have here?-" sovak one of the Dihanie tribe, asked. Twisting
bells arm around and putting Bellamy In a headlock.
 
Marc, another one of the Dihanie soldiers stepped forward. Running his thumb
over Bellamy's cheek, "Looks like a sky boy."
 
"And a good looking one at that. He might be of use." Kerk added, Kerk was the
smallest of all the tribe but over all the deadliest.
 
Bellamy struggled in the over sized soldiers grasp "I'm not working for you."
He spat.
 
"You thought we wanted you to work? No. I thought you might look nice thrown
over a table with me inside you." Marc replied.
 
"No! Let go of me!"
 
"I wonder how you'd look jerking me off while while Sovak was on top of you."
Kerk said
"No, no. Sovak had his fun earlier. It's my turn." Marc said stepping even
closer to Bellamy. "You see, Sky boy. I have a problem that needs fixing. Do
you mind helping?"
 
"I'm not helping you with anything you sick bastard!"
Marc laughed dryly before taking bell by the collar and pushing him against a
nearby tree and pressing a knife to bellamys neck. Bellamy knew what the sick
mans 'problem' was as soon as Marc's growing bulge was against his thigh, "no I
think you will, because I'm the one pressing the knife to your neck. First time
you disobey I press down and bye bye sky boy."
 
"let me go!"
 
"Oh, I have a better idea. Why don't you and I go to my tent." with Marc's
breath hot against his cheek Bellamy struggled trying to break free of the
Dihanies tight grip. "Ok-ok. I'm not shy. We can do it right here, in front of
everyone if that's how you like it" Bellamy closed his eyes tightly and shook
his head, "Take off your pants" Bellamy shook his head again and this time the
knife was pressed harder against his neck, drawing blood but lucky not causing
too much damage, "I said; take off your pants."
Bellamy thought about calling out to Jasper or Monty he knew they'd here him,
hell they should see him right now but he also knew he couldn't call them
because if he did he'd be letting all of the Dihanie tribe know of their
location so he stood there undoing his belt and silently swearing at himself
for it. He heard the man behind him fiddling with his belt, then he heard them
fall to the mans ankle.
"Get on your hands and knees"
 
"No, no, no. Please I'll do anything else please don't make me"
"Get on your hands in knees now!" Bellamy did as he was told even though his
whole body was telling him to fight, even though he knew he might have a chance
to get away he did as he was told even though he was afraid of what was about
to happen. He did what he was told because he was even more scared of dying, he
couldn't leave Octiava, he couldn't leave all those kids that looked to him,
and he currently couldn't leave Clarke.
The Marc bit at Bellamy's earlobe as wrapped a hand around Bellamy's chest, he
plunged himself into Bellamy wordlessly, pulling out and pushing back in over
and over.
 
Bellamy began to sweat and cry, he used his hands to try and grip something
because he thought, maybe just maybe if he had something to hold onto it
wouldn't hurt as bad. It wasn't long before Bellamy couldn't keep quite anymore
"Jasper!!! Monty!! Please, please! Somebody please...Jasper help me!!"
 
Marc pulled out without saying a word earning a groan of pain from Bellamy
"What the hell are you talking about sky boy! Who came here with you? he
brought sky soldiers with him!! Attack now!" before they could attack Jasper
starting shooting, hitting Marc in the throat. Bellamy wasted no time in trying
to get away, he couldn't quite walk but after a minute he managed to pull his
pants up around his waist. He ran as fast as his unsteady legs would carry him.
Someone grabbed his shoulder, Bellamy grabbed the hand and twisted it till he
heard someone cry out, he knew the voice but he couldn't stop to think about
who it belonged to, instead he ran until his legs gave way he cursed himself
under his breath, as soon as his arms stopped shaking he starting crawling away
when someone grabbed his ankle, he started kicking and screaming, trying to get
loose. Whoever had him quickly let go when Bellamy's foot collided with his
face "Bellamy! Bellamy!! Calm down it's just me. It's Jasper."
 
He looked up at Jasper, his eyes lite up till he noticed that Jaspers nose was
bleeding. His face changed from utter happiness to regret. "Oh god, Jasper— I'm
sorry. I didn't know.."
 
"Relax, it's not your fault. I'm not mad, though Monty seems kinda pissed that
you broke his hand." Again Bellamy's face twisted in regret, Jasper noticed and
placed a hand on Bellamy's shoulder. "I'm kidding, Monty isn't not mad. We both
tried to get to you when..uh when it.. Was happening but Anthony wouldn't let
us."
Jasper helped Bellamy back to his feet, and handed him his gun. "You dropped
this– uh, I think they're all dead, except for the leader. Alek is gonna take
him to Lexa." Bellamy nodded and took the gun placing his finger on the
trigger.
 
"Sky boy!" Kerk yelled, the words echoed and Bellamy stiffened and started
shooting towards to sound of the words shooting not only Kerk but Alek too
 
"Bellamy, you idiot!!"
 
"I- I didn't.. I didn't see him. I- I I didn't."
 
"Bellamy, shh. It's okay we all saw. I know you didn't mean to. Just calm
down." Jasper whispered.
"No no it's not okay! It's not okay he killed my brother! He's a traitor!"
Bellamy started shaking and he couldn't break. His vision started blurring, his
knees hit the ground and the last thing he sees before he blacks out is Jasper
in front of him.
They argued about leaving Bellamy but Anthony was out voted two to one so they
started back to camp with Bellamy on a makeshift cot
***** Till I wake up *****
Chapter Notes
     Like I said before this is my first 100 fanfic and my first time
     using this site so I apologize for the stupidity of this story. Uh
     this chapter is all over the place and it's horrid. It also goes off
     in a weird spot but again, you are warned. Please leave comments if
     you like this or whatever. I also apologize for typos this story has
     been in my notes forever.
Kane stood tall, his hand swept through his hair as he let out a deep sigh. He
didn't see this coming, he really didn't. He had no idea that his best soldier,
Bellamy Blake would be carried in barely awake and screaming. And he defiantly
didn't expect him to be accused of murder.
"Take him to a cell, now! I don't want to see his face." Anthony screamed as he
walked past Monty, and a shaking Bellamy.
"What's going on here!?" Kane demanded an answer.
"He killed my brother. He shot him. He shot him in the head. He's a murderer
and he deserves to be punished. I demand it!"
 
"That's not true! It wasn't his fault and you know th—"
"shut up Jordan, your commanding officer is talking."
Jasper took four steps forward so he was now inches from Anthony's face, he
pushed his supposed commanders shoulders back, looking him in the eye.
"No, my commanding officer is being stuffed in a jail cell and getting wrongly
accused of murder."
 
"Don't question my authority! I'm a lead member of the guard. You're a
criminal."
 
"I've been pardoned of my crimes. Doesn't seem you were ever actually charged
for yours."
In Jaspers mind this was stand off. Anthony was making Bellamy less of a hero,
more of a coward. He was calling his brother, his (and pretty much everyone
else's) protector weak and hell would freeze over before Jasper let that go
with out at least a correction. But Jaspers standoff was cut short when his
attention was taken away from Anthony and placed back on Bellamy.
"Please don't. I can't go back into a cage not again-- please not again. I
can't please. Clarke!! Oh god, please no. Jasper!!"
"Jasper, looks like your commander needs you, I'll handle this, you go look
after Bellamy. Make sure he's okay- don't let them put the chains on his wrist,
I'll be there soon to straighten things out. And maybe find Clarke or Octavia.
Both would be nice."
Jasper gave Kane a nod and half small then went on his way to Bellamy
 
"Straighten things out!? No, he killed my brother and injured two of your
people. He deserves to be punished. —If we were on the ark he'd be floated!"
 
"But we're not on the ark and he won't be floated."
 
"He's over the age of 18! It's the law."
 
"Not down here. He will not be put to death."
 
"If you won't kill him then punish him. My brother is dead. I deserve justice."
 
"I won't do it."
 
"Let's see what the people say. Let's see if they want the rules bent for
someone who shot Jaha!"
 
"Yeah, let's see because that someone also kept their kids alive."
 
"Half of those kids are orphans. Nobody cares about them being alive. They care
about laws. Let's go. Let's go right now and see what the people want"
 
Kane shook his head in disapproval yet followed anyway, Kane watched as Anthony
stood up on a log in the middle of camp, cupped his hands around his mouth and
started shouting at the people
"Bellamy Blake! The man who shot Jaha, the man who killed those helpless women
and children on mount weather, Bellamy Blake the murder killed my brother
today. And Our leaders want him to go unpunished! He's a cold blooded killer
and I say he deserves punishment!! Who's with me?!"
 
"Hell yeah!!" The crowed screamed
 
"He's gone unpunished for far too long!! It's time that he got what he
deserved."
 
Kane watched as people yelled and screamed, he watched as the people he thought
came so far leapt at the chance to punish someone, he watched as Clarke made
her way through the crowd. And He'd be lying if he said he didn't wanna run for
the hills because Clarke Griffen had her 'I'm pissed as hell and I'll slit
throats' face on and he frankly was scared Shitless.
 
"What the hells going on? Where's Bellamy?"
 
"In a cell."
"In a what? You put him in a cell? After mount weather? After the shit they did
to him!?! After they locked him in a damn caged!"
"I- uh- I was told he killed a guard" yes, Kane was scared, very scared.
"Jasper and Monty were with him, why didn't you ask them what has happened?"
Kane was about to explain to Clarke that he wasn't totally incompetent but he
was interrupted by Monty.
"Clarke! It's Bellamy- he's, he's been asking for you and I'm pretty sure you
need to look him over."
 
_
_
 
When Clarke got there Octavia was already there, Jasper by her side as she was
trying to get to her brother, begging the guards to let her in with him.
 
"Ms Blake. You're not allowed in with the prisoners."
"Cut the bull and let me in. I'm his sister. You know me -you know him. He's
scared, please, please let me in.. "
"Octavia, I'm sorry I can't."
"Lincoln is going to kick your as—"
"Octavia.." Clarke spoke up. Getting the youngest Blakes attention.
"Clarke, oh my god. He won't let me in. You know how scared me must be. Clarke
we have to get in there."
 
"Jack, let us in. You know Kane would allow it. And you kinda owe me and
Bellamy for saving your life." It's true, Jack definitely owed Clarke. A few
weeks before Jack, Bellamy and a few others were out hunting when Jack got
hurt. he had slipped and fell on his own knife, he was clumsy as a hell and
nobody could believe he was actually a guard. Bellamy carried him back to camp
and then Clarke patched up the wound on his side and he was fine. But if it had
it not been for Bellamy he would've bleed out in the woods.
 
"Clarke– I could get in trouble."
 
"You'd be dead if it weren't for Bellamy. Now let us in."
_
_
Bellamy was in the corner facing the wall, his arms were wrapped around his
knees as he rocked back in forth. Octiava stopped in her tracks, suddenly not
sure if she actually wants to see her brother like this, but Jasper puts a hand
on her shoulder and gives her a small- sad smile and that was enough. She knew
her brother needed her so she walked closer to him.
 
"Hey, big brother.."
Bellamy turned around when he heard Octavia. Clarke let out a small gasp when
she saw that his face was coated in blood and dirt. She also couldn't help but
notice the cut on his neck along with the dried trail of blood that lead away
from it. But she stood there and let the Blake siblings have their moment
together.
 
Octavia wasted no time in getting to her brother, she knelt on the floor in
front of him and wrapped her arms around her brother, and he wrapped his around
her.
She ran her hand over his back and told him that it was okay, she honestly
expected him to stay quiet because normally that's what Bellamy did. He stayed
quiet and destroyed himself from the inside. But this time he didn't stay
quiet, he couldn't keep the cries in like he wanted to but he was secretly
grateful for that. "They— he kept, he made me. Octavia be made me. Just like
before, 'tavia I can't do it again.."
 
"Shh, it's okay big brother. I won't let anything happen to you. Ever."
 
Octavia's watery eyes met Bellamy's tired eyes only for a second till he jerked
his head to the side, not wanting his little sister to see him act like such a
scared child.
 
Clarke knew Bellamy was in good hands with Octavia so she took Jasper by the
arm and lead him outside the cell, "what was he taking about Jasper? What'd
they do to him?"
 
"Clarke.. I don't know if..."
 
"Jasper please. I need to know.."
"They..uh, well one.. Marc, he- he raped him."
"Jasper that's not funny. Bellamy would've protected himself– he wouldn't.."
 
"He couldn't. That's whats so freaking sick about it. They're all huge, even
their smallest was bigger than Bellamy he just made Bellamy."
 
"How, who's.. How do.."
 
"He did it in front of everyone, he had a knife to Bellamy's throat and he made
him take his pants off and then he-he made him get on his knees then..he, uh
you know."
 
"You all watched and didn't help him?"
 
"Clarke I tried! Monty and I both tried to get to him but Anthony wouldn't let
us go. Not until it was necessary."
 
"When was it necessary?!"
 
"When he started screaming for me and Monty."
 
"Oh, God. Why, why.. Why was he down there by himself? Why'd you guys let him
go by himself?"
 
"Clarke! I didn't have a choice. I tried to help him. Bellamy started freaking
out, he was screaming and he couldn't breath. Alak and Anthony said he was
making too much noise, so Anthony threw him down the hill, he used Bellamy as a
distraction."
 
"Then he let Bellamy get raped." raped, the word echoed over and over in
Clarke's mind before it finally clicked, "oh my god, Bellamy was raped. My–Our
Bellamy.. He was.. Oh God."
 
Jasper caught it, he heard her slip in the 'my' but he didn't call her on it.
Instead he wrapped his arms around her and let her cry her silent tears, he'd
be strong right now because he knew that he'd need to cry later. He didn't know
exactly why he'd cry when he wasn't the one it was done to but he doesn't
really care about a reason right now.
 
"hey, wipe your eyes. You need to go in there and help Bellamy."
 
"Jasper I can't, see him knowing what happened- I can't give him some medicine
and make this go away.."
 
"Yes you can. Go in there and work your Clarke magic on him. Check out his
shoulder too, he kept holding it earlier. And his leg was bleeding, his side
too I think. Monty knows more about Bellamy's injures he tried to look him over
before we brought him back but that didn't happen.
 
"I sent Monty to my mother. I wanted him to get checked out. You need to be
checked out too."
 
"No, no. I'm not leaving."
 
"Okay. Well Let me see your nose" Jasper stepped towards Clarke and let her
tell him what to do, "other than the obvious broken nose you're fine, few
bruises thats it."
 
"Thanks, Clarke. Now go check on Bellamy."
 
 
That's what she did, she went back into the cell and saw Bellamy and Octavia in
the same position they were in when she left but this time Bellamy saw her, and
she swear she saw his eyes light up a little.
"Hey, princess.."
"Hey bell," she walked over and sat down next to Octavia, using her middle and
index finger to push up his chin, "lemme see." She ran her thumb over the cut
on his neck, it was long but not deep, "it doesn't need stitches. none of the
cuts in your face need stitches, they just need to be cleaned. Octavia, could
you go get my mom? she'll know what to bring."
 
Octavia kissed her brothers head, and went to get abby, "I'll be right back."
 
"I need to see the wound on your side and the one on your leg." But Bellamy
shook his head and backed himself even further into the corner. "C'mon Bellamy,
it's okay." Clarke reached out to touch his shoulder but he flinched back.
"Bellamy you know I'm not gonna hurt you. Let me help you."
 
"I want 'O"
 
"She'll be right back Bellamy. Can you at least let me see your shoulder?"
Bellamy nodded and scooted towards Clarke, she tried to get a good look at it
without asking him to take his shirt off but there wasn't much use in that.
"Bell, can you take your shirt off. I can't get a good look at your shoulder
and I need to get a good look at your thigh too, we can't let it get infected."
"I- I"
"It's not like I haven't seen your chest before, You used to jump at the chance
to walk around camp with your clothes off."
"Clarke.."
 
"Nobody will be looking. It's just you and me."
"You're just gonna check my leg?"
 
"Of course."
 
Bellamy hesitantly got undressed and Clarke couldn't deny the fact she was
staring. It would've been weird to see Bellamy in his underwear before but now
knowing what happened to him earlier made this the most awkward situation she's
ever been in. She ignored it though and checked his shoulder then his thigh,
his shoulder was just bruised but his thigh was a different story. By the looks
of it he must have fallen on top of a sharpe rock when he was thrown down that
hill.
"You're shoulder looks okay but your gonna need stitches on your thigh."
 
Bellamy didn't seem to hear her or maybe the words didn't click in his head but
whatever it was it didn't matter because all he wanted was to get his clothes
back on.
 
"Can I— can I put.."
"Yeah, of course. I'll need to clean and stitch it up later though."
 
"Okay. I'd just really like to lay down now."
 
"You want me to stay here till you fall asleep?"
 
"Till I wake up."
 
"Even better."
***** It's urgent *****
Chapter Summary
     Just read it.
Chapter Notes
     This chapter is horrible and short I'm sorry. If you have any ideas
     about the next chapter please let me here them. Oh and If you see any
     typos please let me know.
When Bellamy woke up he was happily surprised that Clarke stayed. But she
wasn't sitting next to him anymore, she was over by the door talking with
Octavia and Kane.
 
"I'm not gonna talk about this in front of him, we can go outside and talk in a
while but right now my main concern is Bellamy. Then I wanna hang this Anthony
guy up by his balls and then.. Well I don't know what I'm going to do with him
once I actually hang him up but it will definitely have something to do with
cutting his balls off"
Clarke was whispering but Bellamy could still here her, because when his
princess is upset she isn't that quiet.
"he deserves more than that for what he let that jackass do to Bellamy."
Octavia scoffed
 
"What did he let happen? What happened to Bellamy?"
 
"Like Clarke said, we're not talking about that in front of him."
 
"Clarke.." Bellamy's voice was small and horse, but still his and it made
Clarke walk over as fast as she could.
 
"Hey, Bell. You're finally awake.."
 
"I don't want him here, Clarke. Please make him leave."
 
"Why?"
 
"Just please make him leave."
 
"Okay, he's good as gone." Clarke smiled and gave a not so subtle wave to
Octavia, letting her know Kane had to go.
 
"Alright, out now!"
 
"I have to talk to him, I have to explain something to him!"
 
"No. You need to leave."
 
"But it's urgent"
"You're the one who hasn't done anything about getting Bellamy out of here! My
brother doesn't want you here, now go."
Kane left shaking his head, Octavia sat with Clarke, while she combed Bellamy's
curly locks from his forehead.
 
"Maybe you should eat something as far as I know you haven't had anything since
you left the other day."
 
"I'm not hungry.."
 
"There's no way you're not hungry, Cmon.. Please."
 
Jasper, Kane, Anthony and four guards came through the door. Grabbing Bellamy.
 
"I'm sorry Bellamy I tried to stop them!" Jasper yelled trying to push past
Kane and get to Bellamy.
Clarke grabbed the back Anthony's shirt
"What the hell are you doing! Let go of him!" Anthony turned around and took
Clarke's hand off of his shirt "how about you let go of me instead."
 
"No you jackass! This is your own fault! You did this to Bellamy, you got your
brother killed not him!" Anthony pushed Clarke forward, she stumbled but didn't
hit the ground. They started dragging Bellamy out of his cell, kicking and
screaming. Then Octavia followed along with the guards
"He wasn't in his right mind! He begged you not to send him but you didn't
listen, he told me what you said, you can't place the blame on him. This isn't
his fault!"
 
Kane stepped in front of Octavia, stopping the younger Blake from following the
guards any further, he placed his hand on Octavia's shoulder. "He killed one of
our guards and Injured two of our people, two of your friends Octavia, wither
it be my fault or not the act can't go unpunished." Octavia looked at him with
such betrayal that Kane felt like he was the one dragging Bellamy off.
 
Kane hated this just as much if not more than Octavia, he knows he was wrong.
Bellamy begged and begged not to go, but as always Kane was stubborn.
_
||. this is a flashback,
I just wanted to make that clear ||
 
'Kane, please. I can't do this...you told me I could come to you and- and These
men, the things they do- I Can't be around someone like that- I can't think
about the things they've done.'
 
'Bellamy, you're one of our best soldiers. You can't be here resting while the
other soldiers are off fighting these criminals, Lexa said if we brought these
men to justice there could be talk of peace. Are you really gonna stand in the
way of that?"
 
"I can't, Kane please. I can't all those men they- the leader.. He looks like
Targ"
 
"What does it matter if the leader of this.. This criminal gang looks Like an
ex ark guard? I would think that since he was one of the men who dragged your
mother off to be floated you'd be happy to kill someone who looked like him."
Bellamy flinched at the mention of his mother, but he nodded towards his new
commander.
 
"Just, listen to me. Please they prey on the defenseless-"
 
"And that should be all the more reason why you should want you take them
down."
 
"But—"
 
"If this is about what happened with Targ and your mother on the Ark.."
 
"How do you know about that?"
 
"Please, everyone knew about your mother and him, and the other men. She was
the Ark whore. Guards would stumbling into the break room talking about her."
Kane watched as Bellamy's face twisted from fear to hatred and suddenly
everything sitting on His makeshift desk was sent flying across the room.
 
"Fuck you!" Bellamy spat
 
"I'd just have your mother do it, if she weren't floating across the—." Kane
didn't bother finishing his sentence after the door was slammed
***** I'll be good *****
Chapter Summary
     Just read it
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Abby was there now, trying to get though to Kane, as the guards tied Bellamy to
the posts.
 
"Please, Kane. He's a child"
 
"You had to be shocked, Abby, I can't hold one person accountable and not
another. And he's not a child, he's an adult"
 
"He's a child. We sent him, along with my daughter and Jaha's son down here
because we were cowards. We made them grow too quickly."
 
"Kane, please! Hear the rest of the story."
 
They tightened Bellamy's restraints, "please, stop, please.."
Octavia watched as her brother whimpered and pleaded for the men to let him go,
when she looked into her brothers eyes, those eyes belonged to someone who
would die for her, not someone who should he punished for suffering. She took a
deep breath, and took the small knife she had hidden in her belt, placing it to
the guard who was closest to Bellamy, Josh, was his name. "Let my brother go.
Let him go or I'll slit this idiots throat!" Another guard stepped forward, gun
in hand, Octavia placed Josh in a headlock, and pointed the knife towards the
guard.
 
"Octavia, stop" Bellamy's voice broke her frantic thoughts, she looked at her
brother in confusion.
 
"I won't let them hurt you, bell."
 
"It's okay, 'O"
 
"No! It's not, it's not okay! They don't get to punish you for this!"
 
"And I won't let you get hurt because of me, go."
 
"Bell.."
 
"You're my responsibility," Octavia tried to ignore the way his voice broke,
"and you're mine!" She replied
 
"Go stand with Clarke, now Octavia.. Please."
 
Octavia gave her brother a nod and slowly let go of Josh, dropping the knife as
she walked towards Clarke.
 
"Kane! Let us explain." Clarke screamed, but Kane didn't listen, instead he
walked behind Bellamy,
 
"Twenty Shock lashes, will be given as punishment for the death of our people."
Abby stepped forward, placing a hand on James shoulder, "He can't handle that,
we don't have to live that way anymore!! We can be better, please don't do this
to him."
 
"Laws are laws, Abby. I can't lead without making difficult decisions." Kane
looked toward a guard, "get them out of here, the sister too."
 
"No, no!!"
 
Clarke, Abby and Octavia were dragged to the back of the crowd, held back and
made to watched as Kane spoke one word that could inflict so much hurt to a
person "Begin"
 
The first two lashes were okay, they hurt but they Bellamy didn't scream, well,
not until the lashes become longer, and longer his screams, echoed throughout
the entire camp.
Soon Monty and Jasper were beside Clarke, watching as their 'rebel kings' pain
was displayed to everyone.
When the eighth lash was given Bellamy's legs gave way and he was only being
held up but his tightly bound wrists. Clarke's , shoulder tensed, as Bellamy's
screams became louder, "please stop..I'm sorry! I didn't mean to- I thought he
was—gahhhh"
 
When they finally let Bellamy catch his breath you could see the way his
muscles, flexed finally getting a break, as he took in a deep breath you could
see the way he flinched.
 
Nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifth-teen the lashes were all
long and Bellamy's screams were the same, he passed out for a few minutes when
the fourteenth lash was given and Clarke was grateful because even if it was
just for a second his body could rest, Anthony stepped forward again, to give
the sixteenth lash, "please. I'll do better please! I'll be good.."
Clarke and Octavia had been struggling in the guards grip since they had been
grabbed but it wasn't any use, finally Jaspers eyes met Clarke's and her eyes
told him everything, he whispered in Monty's ear then they both attacked the
guards, knocking them to ground before they ran towards Bellamy, who was passed
out again.
 
"You're punishing Bellamy for something that's not even his fault! Anthony, the
one giving Bellamy shock lashes is the one who should be strung up! He threw
Bellamy down the hill as a distraction! Then watched as he was.. He watched as
a member of the Dihanie tribe raped Bellamy.. I tried- Monty and I both tried
to get to him, but Anthony said it wasn't necessary. Bellamy was scared, he
didn't mean to shoot Alec, he was aiming for a Dihanie soldier. It wasn't his
fault. Anthony is the one who should be punished! You trust this man to watch
over us, but as soon as things got difficult he threw one of our people under
the bus. He willingly set back as Bellamy, the man who kept your kids alive,
who kept you alive, was violated and humiliated and now he's putting Bellamy
through that again. He's the one who deserves to be punished, not Bellamy but
if you're gonna punish Bellamy. You'll have to punish me too and while your at
it you might as well punish Monty, Clarke, Octavia and Lincoln. We all had part
in mount weather where people were killed. Yet you still go to Clarke when
you're hurt or sick, you drink Monty's moonshine, you come to me when you need
something shot. Lincoln and Octavia makes you all feel safe even if you don't
like to admit it. And Bellamy always puts his people before himself! He's a
leader and a hero and you all know that! I thought our people were better than
this, I didn't think our people would jump at the chance to see bleed shed, but
I was wrong. God was I wrong."
 
When Jaspers speech was over the crowd had grew quite. heads turned towards
Antony who stood over Bellamy, he looked at Bellamy one more time before
placing the lash stick to Bellamy's skin again, leaving it there till Kane
tackled him to the ground. Antony wiggled out of Kane's grip and ran off.
Jasper, Monty, Harper, Murphy , Kane and most of the guards ran after him.
 
Clarke, Octavia and Lincoln went over to Bellamy, Lincoln picked Bellamy's
lifeless body up in his arms while Octavia and Clarke cut his restrains. "Get
him to the med bay now!" Lincoln didn't need to be told that Bellamy needed
medical attention, if was pretty obvious. But he didn't say anything, instead
he ran towards the bed bay with Bellamy in his arms.
You wouldn't think Lincoln was such a lethal person by the way he set Bellamy
down on cot, he was so gently and caring. It made Octavia's heart swell
watching the man she loved taking care of her brother. Clarke checked Bellamy's
ribs. then his wrists, Octavia was there holding her brothers clammy hand. "His
right wrist is broken. Four of his ribs are broken and two more are bruised.
And the burns- well they're pretty obvious and his breathing is uneven."
Clarke grabbed a wet cloth and started cleaning Bellamy's wrist, then he
starting convulsing. His body twitched and liquid dripped from his mouth.
"Lincoln go get my mom, Octavia help me roll him on his side so he doesn't
choke."
"Why is he seizing!"
 
"I don't know.. Seizures are neurological, maybe one of the lashed hit a
certain nerve that lead to his brain.." Soon the older Blake's seizure stopped
and the rolled him back into his earlier position.
"Is he gonna be okay?"
 
"His heart rate is way too high, we need to get it down. Other than that I
think he may just need rest."
"What about the seizure? Is that gonna happen again."
 
"It may not even be a seizure. Sometimes it's the way your body handles the
shock. I don't what it means if it happens again, but my mom probably does.
When she gets here we'll ask her. I think right now though we just need to
watch him, let him get some rest."
 
Clarke and Octavia sat beside Bellamy, Lincoln was there too, standing close to
Octavia. Clarke ran her hand through Bellamy's hair for what seemed like
forever and Octavia held his hand, both impatiently waiting for him to wake up.
 
Soon Monty came in, tapping Clarke on the shoulder, "Clarke. We need you out
here"
 
"No. Im staying right here, I'm not leaving him again.
 
"Kane wants you and Octavia to decide what happens to Anthony."
 
"Well, since it's my brother, I say death by a thousand cuts." Octavia said,
taking over for Clarke and her hand though Bellamy's hair.
 
"I don't think that's enough."
 
"Clarke. Cmon. Kane really wants to see you."
 
Clarke ran her hand over Bellamy's shoulder, whispered something in his here
then went over to Monty "Fine. Let's go"
Chapter End Notes
     I apologize for this sucky-ness it this chapter. I didn't some
     research on the aftermath of electric shock so I tried to make it as
     real as possible. If you have any idea on what should be one to
     Antony please tell me. Also tell me if you like this story and if I
     should continue it.
***** Stubborn *****
Chapter Notes
     This sucks and I thought I uploaded it sooner but apparently not. Uh,
     I don't really know if I'll be continuing this story or not. My
     writing is horrible and I can't really think of what to do next.
Kane was somewhat of a short tempered man, sure he has patients with some
people but that doesn't change the fact that he angers too easily and right now
as sat in his makeshift office letting the day replay in his head again and
again he only angered himself further. The morning was the most repeated scene.
Bellamy Blake, the so called 'rebel King' begging him to let him stay in camp.
He wished he would've let him stay, but part of him doesn't think the Dihanie
tribe would actually be dead right now, it was pretty clear that Bellamy was a
big part of actually taking them down, But maybe Bellamy wouldn't be so.. Hurt
right now, he wouldn't have been raped, but was he even raped? No he couldn't
have been this is Bellamy he's thinking about. It had to be a lie, something
desperate Jasper spit out in hopes of stopping Bellamy's lashings. It was a
lie, it had to be a lie right? Men can't be raped. And there was no way that
Bellamy Blake would sit there and let someone rape him.
 
Clarke stood in the doorway watching while Kane ran his hands though his hair
as he sighed, slightly annoyed.
 
"Commander Kane, you asked to speak to me" Clarke's tone matched the look on
her face, pissed off.
 
"I did. Since I can go ahead and assume you'll be taking the lead on Bellamy's
medical treatment I thought I'd ask you when I could speak to him."
 
"I thought this was about deciding what to do about Anthony? And Why would you
want to speak to him?"
 
"Because I need to get his side of the story, so I can confirm." Kane answered
ignoring her question about Anthony.
"Jasper, Monty and Anthony confirming isn't enough? You have to torture him
again? You're such an ass! Do you realize how much Trauma you put his body
through? Do you honestly think he'll be okay enough to talk to you about that?"
 
"I think you should Watch your tone Ms Griffin."
 
"No! I don't need to watch anything. You need to get off your pathetic ass and
do something about the idiot hanging by his arms in the middle of camp. I'm
going to Check on Bellamy if you decide you would like to apologize to him
you'll be allowed inside." Clarke snapped
 
"Allowed?" Kane stood up as if testing her words.
 
"You said it yourself I'm taking lead on his case."
 
_
As Clarke walked back into the medbay you could say she was little more then
shocked when she saw Bellamy trying to stand up, not that she should be
Bellamy's always been stubborn, speaking of stubborn where the hell is Octavia?
She's suppose to be watching him "hey! No, you had a seizure you need to rest."
 
"No I can't stay, I need to get up— I need to get out of here. I can't be in
here I can't he's here.. I - L-let me go.." Bellamy tried, and failed to push
Clarke away as she gently pushed him back into the bed, if you could call it
that. "No. I— I need-"
"Bellamy stop! You need to lay still. Calm down you're okay, everything is
okay."
 
"No- no no I— no" Bellamy continued to gasp for air as he tried to talk.
 
"Bellamy breathe!" I can't "Bellamy just calm down and breath" he wanted to
scream at Clarke, he wanted to let her know that he was trying, he wanted to
tell her it just wasn't that easy.
"Hey, take a deep breath."
 
"I– I ca– can't", Bellamy gasped. Clarke sat down across from Bellamy on the
cold table He was using as a bed and placed her hands on either side if his
face. "Yes you can. Close your eyes and take a deep breathe" he raised an
eyebrow at her questioningly. He doesn't understand Why would closing his eyes
help but he does so anyway. "Okay good. That's good Bellamy. Now think of
something happy-" Bellamy opened his and gasped again, giving her an annoyed
look. "Aw cmon bell think of something happy- something with Octavia. Before
everything went to hell."
 
He closed his eyes again and she smiled, "you got it?" She asked, he nodded.
"Where are you at?"
It took a second, and his breath was still uneven but it was defiantly an
improvement. "On the Ark, in our quarters. Mom, t-tavia and me."
 
"That's nice. What're you doing?"
 
Bellamy forced a laugh through the tears that he didn't notice he let slip and
finally replied, "we were reading about Ancient Rome. About the first Roman
emperor, Augustus and his sister- do- do you know what his sisters name was?"
"I can't say that I do."
 
"Octavia. Her name was Octavia. That's where I got her name"
"- wait, where you got her name?" Clarke Asked, suddenly realizing she still
had her hands on his cheeks, she quickly moved them from his cheek and took his
hand in hers instead. "My mom let me name her, I think that's why I feel so
protective over her, I got to name her. She was mine, the first thing that was
ever just mine. Everything else I'd ever had- I had to share. My mom- she was
always with guys - day and night I never had her to myself. My clothes, they
were always hand-me downs. I had to share everything and then all of a sudden I
have my own little person to take care of. No one knew about her, my mom
wouldn't have time she was busy with 'work' so Octavia was mine. My sister my
responsibility."
Clarke smiled at Bellamy's little rant about his sister then grabbed a cup of
water that was sitting near Bellamy's - bed, smirking.
 
"What?" He asked sitting up as much as he could to get a drink, "you do realize
that you stopped freaking out. Right?" She asked. Bellamy didn't reply, he
simply sighed and laid back down.
 
"Thanks, Princess." He mumbled-
 
"Get some rest, Bellamy" she said pulling a blanket over him.
 
"I've been sleeping all day Clarke," Clarke smiled at him again, "you need rest
Bellamy, go back to sleep I'm too tired to sit here and watch you all night"
 
"All night?" He asks
 
"It's eleven at night, Bell. you haven't been sleeping that long. It's only
been a few hours since everything happened, now be still and go to sleep
because when the pain medication finally does wear off you won't be able to
even think. Goodnight Bellamy"
 
"Goodnight, Princess." He said closing his eyes.
***** Child o' mine *****
Chapter Summary
     Oh just read it.
Chapter Notes
     Fair warning there is smut/ my first attempt at it too- in this
     chapter. Please let me know if you found it unfitting to the story
     and I will remove it. I did want to show other people, such as
     Octavia go through this as well so that is why this chapter is
     focused on her(mostly) don't worry though Bellamy is still in this
     chapter and he and Clarke have a little moment. Oh and all rights go
     to guns n' roses for their song "child o' 'mine" again please tell me
     if the smut is horrible or shouldn't be in here. Also tell me what
     you think if the chapter
"Octavia, stop pacing."
 
"Pacing is what you do when you're nervous. I'm nervous"
 
"Bellamy will be fine- he's warrior. He's survived Mount weather, which I won't
say is worse than what he's going through but he has proved that he's strong.
He'll be okay.."
 
"Lincoln its my job to worry about him. He's always looked out for me. Always-
and after Pike, after thought they were gonna hurt you- after I told him he was
dead to me he was still there for me. He made sure I was okay, and now he's
hurting again and I can't do anything about it. Just like before. I'm his
sister and I couldn't protect him—" Lincoln walked over to Octavia and took her
hands in his, shushing her, "Octavia, stop. Let's go for a walk, okay? it'd
calm you down and then maybe would could get some sleep."
Octavia ran her thumbs over his hands and bit her lip. "I can't go for a walk-
it's eleven o'clock and I can't leave what if something happens. What if...."
 
"Octavia stop with the 'what ifs' everything will be okay. Just come with me
and we will be back in a few hours, then we'll go to sleep and be with Bellamy
before he even wakes up."
 
"I don't know.."
 
"Come on, lets go chase butterflies."
 
"Lincoln, I don't do that anymore... I wish Clarke never even told you about
that."
 
"I think it's adorable."
 
"I'm not so adorable when I'm kicking ass and taking names like a warrior
princess."
 
"I find that adorable too. Now, Cmon.. lets go for our walk before the sun
comes up." Octavia sighed and kissed his lips, "okay, lets go."
 
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They made it out of camp and to the glowing plants before Lincolns lips crashed
into Octavia's, pushing her up against a tree and unbuttoning her shirt he
smiled. "I've been wanting to do this all week but we haven't been able to
leave camp." — he said breaking the kiss.
 
"Lincoln, shut up!" Before she knew it his hands were roaming under her shirt
and his lips were at her neck. She moaned as he started to unhook her bra. Soon
his shirt was gone and her hands were reaching for his belt knowing he needed
them off because of the growing bulge she felt against her leg. He started
helping her with her own jeans before he slid his hand into her underwear,
rubbing his rough fingers against her heat, she moaned and her fingers dug into
his back, "no teasing tonight, I need you not your hands." She pulled her pants
off along with her underwear leaving herself fully exposed to him. He hummed as
he tucked a piece of her hair behind her ear before his lips were back at her
neck. He knew she loved it when he kissed her neck, he knew it sent shivers
down her spine because her mouth parted in the sexiest way possible.
 
She almost forgot about his underwear still being on till his hard on rubbed
against her thigh again and she felt the thin fabric of his boxers. She stopped
the kiss and grabbed the waist line of his boxers before tugging them down. She
smirked and he moaned as his hard on slapped against his stomach. She took him
in her hand and started to run her hands up and down him before he stopped her
with her own words "no teasing"
 
He slowly lowered her onto the ground and started kissing her lips again, and
rubbing his cock against her folds.
 
"Lincoln please.." she said breaking the kiss. He didn't say anything else he
just slowly entered her and they both groaned as he moved his hips. He pulled
back, nearly coming all the way out before he roughly shoved back in. "Uh, your
so tight." she couldn't bring herself to respond she just bit her lip to keep
from moaning. "Faster" she moaned as she finally found a way to respond. He did
as asked in went faster- bringing his tip nearly out as he slammed back in,
hitting her g-spot.
It wasn't long till they both came undone, cumming no more than ten minutes
later. Lincoln rolled over and pulled Octavia on top of him, falling asleep.
 
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Octavia woke up the next morning still snuggled on Lincolns chest. She was
happy until she realized where they were. She quickly jumped her and pulled her
clothes on, throwing Lincolns shirt to him she woke him up. "Hurry up and get
dressed. We have to get back to camp. Bellamy could already be awake and I'm
not even there. I need to be there for him"
"Calm down, it's barely seven-thirty. He's probably not awake"
 
"Probability isn't in my brother's dictionary."
 
Lincoln threw his shirt back on and they began walking back to camp, almost an
hour later they finally got there. Lucky for Lincoln Bellamy wasn't fully away
yet. And Octavia got there just in time to hold his hand as he woke up.
 
"'Tavia?" She smiled and pushed his hair back, "yeah Bell, it's me. I'm here"
he tried to sit up but her hands were at his shoulders before he could. "You
can't here. Yo-you have to find." Confusing struck Octavia as her brother
continued "he's coming- you have to hide. If they find you they'll float you
and mom" her heart was in her throats when she realized what was going on. He
thought they were still ok the ark. He thought they were still in that cage in
the sky. "No Bellamy. I don't have to find anymore. We're safe on the ground" a
frown crept onto Bellamy face and he started crying, totally confused "no- we
can't. It's not survivable. You have to hide. He's coming and if he sees you..
just please hide- you h-have to"
 
"No, bell. He can't come because he's dead and we're safe on the ground. Nobody
is coming and I don't have time hide. We're safe.."
 
"We're safe?.." she nodded, "yeah, we're safe." He looked around with his puffy
eye and licked his chapped lips. "Where's mom?" Octavia hoped he wouldn't ask
about their mother, she couldn't tell him the truth he'd freak out and hurt
himself, "um. Bell.."
 
"Where's mom? It hurts and I need her to— l- I need mom, please, I just want
her to sing.."
 
"Bell, I can't go get her."
 
"Sh-she won't mad if you wake her up, I promise. She won't- she won't get mad.
Just wake her up, please. I need mom."
 
"She not asleep. She's.. she's working late tonight Bell, okay? She'll be here
when you wake up. I promise." He looked up at his sister, his eyes closing as
he sighed. "But I just want her to sing.. can, can you sing?"
 
"Bellamy, I- I only know the one song and I was little the last time she sang
it to us..I don't remember the words- um."
"Please.." Bellamy got what he wanted when Clarke started humming on the other
side of him, he turned his head slowly towards her and she ran her then over
his check to wipe away the silent tears that had fallen down his cheeks "you've
got a smile it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories—" Bellamy closed his eyes as she started to
sing and quietly listened,
"–Where everything Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see your face
You takes me away to that special place And if I'd stare too long
I'd probably break down and cry
Oh, oh, oh
Sweet child o' mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet love of mine"
 
By the time she was done singing Bellamy was yet again, asleep. Not that anyone
could blame him, sleeping was good, he couldn't hurt himself as much in his
sleep.
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