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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Bleach
  Relationship:
      Abarai_Renji/Grimmjow_Jaegerjaques/Kurosaki_Ichigo, Abarai_Renji/Hollow
      Ichigo, Abarai_Renji/Kuchiki_Rukia, Aizen_Sousuke/Kurosaki_Ichigo,
      Kurosaki_Ichigo/Ulquiorra_Cifer
  Character:
      Kurosaki_Ichigo, Abarai_Renji, Grimmjow_Jaegerjaques, Urahara_Kisuke,
      Kuchiki_Rukia, Ishida_Uryuu, Szayel_Aporro_Granz
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      Alpha/Beta, Possession, Rape/Non-con_Elements, Torture, Psychological
      Torture, Aftermath_of_Torture, Suicide_Attempt, Sadism, Bondage, Human
      Experimentation
  Series:
      Part 7 of Bleach_Alpha/Beta_and_MPreg_Fics
  Collections:
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      Published: 2014-01-05 Chapters: 18/18 Words: 53079
****** From The Ashes ******
by phoenixreal
Summary
     Aizen is after something different from Inoue, leaving Ichigo
     shattered beyond repair. Can his unexpected savior and a red haired
     friend pick up the pieces? Or is he too far gone?
     (In the process of editing as of May 14)
Notes
     A/N: This is a cannon divergent fanfiction. This story takes place
     during episode 150 of the anime (right before chapter 249 of the
     manga) after the group has broken into Los Noches. Before this point,
     the characters and their world are in line with cannon events.
     They have split up going their separate ways, and then things slip
     and go horribly wrong. It is revealed that Orihime is the bait; the
     real catch is the orange haired shinigami substitute. In the end,
     even the strong can be shattered into a million broken shards. Can
     they be put back together by an unexpected ally?
     Warnings
     This is a hardcore yaoi fanfiction. This is rated MA. This contains
     explicit sexual content. This story includes non consensual slavery,
     humiliation, rape, forced orgasm, and dubious consensual sex acts.
     This is considered an alpha/beta story, meaning there is a strong
     domination and submission element to the story. This story also
     contains graphic violence and acts of torture. This story is not
     intended to be read by individuals under the age of 18.
     Disclaimer
     I do not claim ownership of any part of the Bleach universe or of the
     Bleach characters. Tite Kubo owns this amazing world; I am simply
     playing within it. Original elements do belong to me. There is no
     copyright infringement intended and I in no way make money from
     writing or posting this work of fanfiction.
***** When It All Falls Apart *****
Chapter Notes
     Edited 5-25-14
The darkness was omnipresent and oppressive. Getting out of it seemed
impossible, no matter how the orange headed shinigami substitute tried. What
had happened? He was so very deep in this blackness he didn’t know. It had gone
wrong, so very wrong, and he wasn’t sure he remembered how… He felt pain,
gripping, burning pain in both his arms, shoulders and his chest, and he
realized it was because something bound his arms tightly behind his back from
elbow to wrist. He felt tired, so tired, like the very energy was being sapped
from his body…no not energy, his reiatsu. Something was really wrong with his
reiatsu. He tried to move, his knees grinding into a hard floor, and he could
feel something heavy on his ankles, and something weighing his neck down so
much he couldn’t sit up right. He couldn’t make a noise for some reason, he had
no voice. He opened his eyes slowly, and everything came flooding back when his
eyes fell on the white walls. Las Noches. He was in Las Noches. The room was
enormous but he couldn’t see anyone, or feel anyone, for that matter. He could
only tell he was attached to a white column behind him by the shackles on his
ankles but that was it.
                Everything had seemed to go well. They had blasted through the
wall, and at the room of corridors they separated to hopefully find Inoue.
Ichigo had been flash stepping down the vast corridor when he felt something
different. Ah, an espada, he thought. Finally. He was itching for a one on one
fight. He’d left training far too early for the liking of both Shinji and the
other Visored but he couldn’t help it. He had to rescue his friend. Vaguely
behind him he heard Nel’s child-like voice. He turned around to see the
greenish ball running toward him faster than a sonido should allow. Despite his
slight annoyance, he was happy to see her. She’d attached herself to him and he
thought it was his job to protect her because she was so little. That was what
he did.
The she just disappeared. He blinked. No, she hadn’t disappeared, he’d moved
somehow and was in a different place. He turned around and the world went dark.
                            -oooooo-OOOOOO-oooooo-
                Everyone except Ichigo all came skidding to a stop in the
middle of a large white room, one from each side. Chad and Uryuu exchanged
glances as did Renji and Rukia. There was no fifth door, and there was no sign
of their fifth member.
                “Where’s Kurosaki?” asked Uryuu, pushing his glasses up on his
nose again.
                Chad, as usual, was silent. Rukia’s face had paled. Together,
unspeaking as a group they ran for one of the doors, and ran for a few moments,
finding themselves emerging in the same room. Each door looped back and
connected with one of the other doors. There was no sign at all of the
corridors they had come down. It seemed this place was truly a maze that moved.
                “Isn’t it nice?” a voice came from the shadows. A pink haired
arrancar stepped out.
                “Who are you?” Renji demanded. “Octavo espada, Szayelporra
Granz. And I’m here to escort you to Aizen-sama for negotiations.”
                They all traded glances. “What?” Rukia said.
                “Aizen-sama will send you back to soul society with his offer,
and then you may do as you want,” he said, and motioned for them to follow out
one of the doors they had found looped back into the room.
                Not knowing what else they could possibly do, they chose to
follow to find out what the sly traitor shinigami had to say. Before long they
came to a wide room with a throne sitting high up on a column style dais. On
that throne sat the man everyone in soul society was fighting to defeat. He was
smiling, his head resting gently on his left fist. The pink haired arrancar
motioned them forward and then stood in front of the doorway.
                “I see you have come, I was expecting you sooner. It seems I
slightly overestimated your abilities a bit, the whole getting lost in the
menos forest seemed to have put you behind the schedule I had set,” he said
with a smile cold as ice.
                “Why you…” Renji started to step forward. Rukia slammed a hand
into his chest.
                “Rukia-kun, you are definitely your brother’s sister. Very
smart. Do anything here and none of you will leave, including the precious
woman you came to save,” Aizen said, his smile never fading.
                Around them, arrancar began to appear, and then Gin and Tōsen
flash stepped on either side of the dais. Gin held his usual fox faced grin,
and Tōsen was passive as ever, standing beside Aizen with his arms crossed over
each other. It was obvious those from soul society weren’t going to win a
battle here. The amount of espada level arrancar alone would have crushed them
in a short battle. No, it wouldn’t be a battle, more like a slaughter.
                Rukia’s violet eyes burned. Ichigo was still out there
somewhere. He hadn’t been trapped yet. So there was still hope. There was still
hope for them to get out of this place alive. She knew from what her brother
had said that he contained some sort of mysterious and massive power. He
defeated Zaraki for soul’s sake, and Renji as well, and then her brother. She
wasn’t sure that such a thing could be done by someone who had not even been
trained in Soul Society.
                “Rukia-kun, you look so serious. Oh, I know!” he said and
leaned forward, folding both hands under his chin and resting elbows on his
white clad legs. “You are thinking, Ichigo will save us. He hasn’t been
captured yet.”
                All four were silent because they were all thinking the same
thing.
                “Of course, you bastard. He was willing to come here for one
person; you don’t think he’d break every wall in Los Noches to find five of us.
He doesn’t take well to people messing with his friends,” Renji retorted,
holding Zabimaru in front of him as he spoke.
                Uryuu adjusted his glasses. “Alas, you are correct; he would
risk everything for anyone here.”
                Aizen smiled. “Oh yes, he certainly would? You think he’d do
that for all of you? Would he give life? Pride? Honor?” Aizen grinned even
wider. “Freedom? Dignity?”
                The others glanced back and forth between each other. What the
hell was Aizen talking about? Was he going to give Ichigo a choice to become a
prisoner in exchange for their lives?
                “Ah, yes, I wonder, what he would do to see his precious
friends go free,” Aizen said with a smirk. “Gin?”
                Gin nodded and moved around the back of the pillar. They heard
some movement and rustling of clothes behind it. “Aizen-sama…” Gin said softly.
                “Still resistant, good. Use motivation,” Aizen said, looking
down behind his throne.
                There was a flash of light, kido or something behind the dais,
followed by a solid fwump sound. Gin poked his smiling face around the pillar
and looked at the rescue group. “I have a surprise from Aizen-sama.”
                When he came around the pillar and tossed a body towards them,
no one made a sound. Rukia slowly put her hands to her mouth and let out a
strangled cry.
                “Ichigo!”
                Ichigo honestly didn’t know what happened. One second Gin had
come around and grabbed him by that heavy collar, and he tried to pull away,
then he was opening his eyes staring at the floor. He shook his head, his blood
roaring in his ears loudly, and his eyes still bleary as he looked up. This day
couldn’t get any worse. At least that’s what he thought.
                Renji’s brow furrowed and he tried to run forward to where
Ichigo sat swaying on his knees.
                “Tch, no no, not yet,” Aizen said from his perch. “Gin, help
him stand, how embarrassing for him to be on the floor in front of his
friends.”
                Gin leaned down and grasped a hand full of Ichigo’s loud orange
hair and pulled him up slowly. Ichigo’s eyes flashed and he obviously wanted to
say something to Gin but something was impairing his ability to speak. Once he
was standing Gin let go, giving him a push as he did so, and he stumbled
forward a bit. The others could see his arms were bound behind him now and
there were silver shackles on his ankles. A thick, gray stone collar surrounded
his neck.
                “Oh, remove the kido so he can talk to his friends at least,
Gin,” Aizen said, waving a hand at him dismissively.
                Gin once again smiled broadly and motioned. Ichigo let out a
roar and dove for him bodily, emboldened by being able to speak again.
                “Bastard, I’m going to kill you!” he yelled, attempting to slam
his body into Gin.
                Aizen sat quietly, unmoving, as did all the arrancar in the
room.
                “Manners,” Aizen said, and snapped his fingers.
                Ichigo had been in a lot of pain in his life. Hell in the last
year he’d been in a lot of pain. Run through by Kenpachi came to mind as one of
the worst, stabbed by Byukuya, and slashed with Zabimaru through the shoulder
were pretty tops on the list too. But this… Every muscle in his body seemed to
contract and every nerve seemed to fire at the same time, and he let out a
strangled sound, unable to form a coherent thought. He fell to his knees
slowly, his back ridged and arched. Finally it stopped and he fell forward with
enough force to hit his forehead on the floor in front of him. There was a thud
and he laid there unable to move at all, as blood began to flow out from his
forehead.
                The look of shock on all his friends’ faces was definitely
enough to stop their tongues. “Oh, didn’t I warn you? A little insurance,”
Aizen said with a smirk at them.
                “Aizen, what are you doing? And why can’t I sense his reiatsu?”
Rukia asked, staring at Ichigo’s orange head, his body heaving rapid breaths.
She could see blood pooling around his head and wondered why he didn’t sit up.
She was rapidly wondering where his reiatsu had gone, that massive
unpredictable reiatsu…
                Aizen shrugged nonchalantly and smiled again, that irritating
smile. “Ichi-kun here is known for being unpredictable, to say the least. I
thought it best to find a way to ensure negotiations were smooth. And
uninterrupted by a mad fully hollowifed boy who wants to play shinigami.”
                Ichigo grunted slowly sat back up, garnering the attention of
his friends. Blood poured down his face where he’d hit the floor and his eyes
were unfocused and crossed. He looked around blearily but didn’t seem to see
anything.
                “Oh Gin, do something about his face, I don’t want it marred,”
Aizen said slowly.
                At the words, a chill moved down Rukia’s spine. Why should that
matter to him? What was he worried about “marring” Ichigo’s face for?
                “Now, shall we continue?” he asked as Gin chanted a simple
healing hado over him, sealing the wound and stopping the bleeding. He then
pulled a cloth from a pocket and wiped away the blood. Ichigo was still so
dazed he barely noticed it.
                “What do you want?” Renji growled from beside Rukia.
                Aizen smiled. “I have what I want. I’m giving you a chance to
leave.”
                Rukia frowned. “We’re not abandoning Inoue.” They had come here
to save her, and no matter what they weren’t leaving without her.
                Aizen motioned and the pale green eyed espada they had
encountered previously appeared beside him. He spoke to him in a whisper and
the espada disappeared. Aizen smiled at them in that way that set Rukia’s teeth
on edge. A moment later, he reappeared with Inoue at his side, right beside the
group and then he was gone again. Everyone gasped and started to smile and hug
her. Ichigo had finally come out of whatever had dazed him, and he looked up
and smiled at her.
                Inoue looked very confused. Her large eyes wide with fear at
seeing all the others around her, and then her eyes landed on Ichigo’s bound
form standing beside Gin. She turned in confusion back to Rukia.
                “You’re saying we can leave?” Rukia said, suspiciously, not
sure if he was fooling them.
                Again, that damned smile. “Of course, if you agree to take my
demands for peace to soul society.”
                Aizen flash stepped down beside Ichigo and reached down and
twined his fingers into his orange hair. Ichigo winced, but refused to let any
other indication of pain color his face.
                “I will agree to never step foot outside Heuco Mundo again. And
neither will my espada. And you can all go home like this never happened,” he
said, tightening his grip in Ichigo’s hair making him gasp audibly this time.
                Renji frowned deeply and growled inaudibly. He didn’t like the
treatment Ichigo was getting from Aizen. He couldn’t do anything about it,
because they were vastly outnumbered. Aizen looked down and yanked him to his
feet, still clutching the shorter boy’s hair. He then ran a finger down his
throat over his Adam’s apple and smiled at the others, stopping his finger in
the gap between Ichigo’s collar bones.
                “What are you doing?” Ichigo asked, attempting to pull away
from him. “Let me go, you bastard,” Ichigo growled.
                “Such language for a young man!” Aizen smiled and yanked the
boy back toward him, wrapping his free arm around his chest. He smiled again at
the group and leaned forward and licked the space between his neck and shoulder
very slowly.
Ichigo’s eyes were on fire and he started to madly struggle despite the lock
Aizen had on his hair. Aizen simply moved his head forward and suddenly bit him
on that same spot, violet reaitsu flaring around them both as he did it.
Ichigo’s eyes rolled up into his head and he crumbled. Aizen held him up by his
hair a moment, letting his friends see his body was entirely limp.
                “I get Kurosaki Ichigo. Simple exchange.”
                The collective gasp was deafening. Blood was dripping down from
the bite in his shoulder as Aizen dropped him unceremoniously to the floor,
licking the remains of the blood off his lips.
                “The seki seki stone around his neck and the reiatsu draining
bracelets mean he won’t be leaving on his own anytime soon,” he said, nudging
Ichigo’s body with his foot. He snapped his fingers and the blue haired espada
that Rukia and Ichigo fought in the world of the living sonidoed beside Aizen
holding Zangetsu.
                Aizen picked it up and tossed it to the group. Chad reached up
and grabbed the heavy sword with ease. “You may take his zanpaktou. He won’t be
able to use it here. Grimmjow, if you please, show our guests through a
garganta so they can take the news to soul society.”
                “Why??” Rukia yelled. “Why do you want Ichigo?”
                Aizen turned and smiled. “That’s a very good question, Kuchiki-
san. Why would I want Ichi-kun?”
                Renji visibly bristled. “Stop calling him that. You don’t even
know him.”
                Aizen cocked a brown eyebrow. “Tell them I want to study him.
Or maybe I want to make him an arrancar since he has a hollow. Or maybe I want
a pathetic excuse for a shinigami walking around Las Noches as a punching bag
for my espada. Or maybe I just needed a new toy to play with, or a pet to lick
my boots. Maybe I want to tie him up and humiliate him every day for my
pleasure. What does it matter? One life for all of the human world and Soul
Society.”
                He turned and flash stepped away.
                The blue haired espada shrugged, flicking a hand casually in
the air and opening the garganta. “You heard the man.”
                All five standing there wanted to run and grab Ichigo before
they left. He was just there alone, lying unconscious where Aizen had dropped
him to the floor. The arrancar were slowly leaving and only Grimmjow stood
there waiting. They all entered the garganta slowly but they had to do
something. Rukia was reaching for her sword. It was Renji, though, who reacted
first, calling out Zabimaru and wincing as he slammed the blade’s first sharp
link into Ichigo’s body at the shoulder, and yanking him back through the
garganta with them. The injury could be healed easily by Inoue, but Renji still
hated impaling his friend with his sword.
                After the garganta closed, Aizen appeared in the middle of the
room once more and resumed his seat on his throne. Gin appeared moments later
and Tōsen as well.
                “They fell for it, Aizen-sama,” Gin said with his customary
grin. Aizen smiled.
***** Revelations *****
Chapter Notes
     Edited 5-25-14
The garganta, of course, led the world of the living. Before they headed to
soul society, they needed to stop the bleeding from the unfortunate but
necessary wound given to him by Zabimaru. Before they had a second to think
about where to go there was a sudden appearance by a green clad shop keeper
with his cane raised in a menacing manner in front of him. He frowned deeply as
he looked over the group that seemed to have returned somehow through a
garganta that he had not provided for them.
                “Oh my, I see you have succeeded…” he began but dropped of
glancing at Ichigo lying unconscious in Chad’s massive arms. “But not without
wounding. Come, to the shop immediately!”
                Urahara feigned a smile. They hadn’t been gone long enough. Not
nearly. And they come back with Orihime already, and the only one with a wound
is Ichigo? And by the look, from Renji’s sword, if he didn’t miss his guess?
And why did he not feel his reiatsu?
                They mostly ran into the small shop and headed to an open room,
laying Ichigo on the floor. Inoue immediately set about to healing the bleeding
wound. The soft glow surrounded her friend and she teared up. Even after
everything, they’d still come for her.
                Renji and Rukia pulled the eccentric shop keeper away. “He said
he wanted Ichigo.”
                Urahara snapped open the fan in front of his face, lost in
thought. How long had he tried to figure out Aizen’s mind and failed? This was
something he had not forseen. “What else did he say?”
                Rukia swallowed. “He said he and his espada would never leave
Heuco mundo if he got him.”
                Urahara nodded. “He is, of course, lying.”
                “He had no intention of giving Ichigo back, Renji used Zabimaru
to yank him through the garganta,” Rukia said, and Urahara noticed the look in
Renji’s eyes of being disgusted at having hurt his friend with his own sword.
                Urahara nodded. “So why did he give him back?”
                Renji’s face colored. “He didn’t give him back, I took him
back.”
                Urahara shook his head. “No, no he let you take him back. He
had many espada there, there was no reason that he couldn’t have stopped you
right there.”
                That was when the heard the scream from the room behind them.
It was unearthy and tortured.
                “Urahara-sama!” someone yelled, and the striped hat and clog
wearing shop owner skidded into the room.
                Ichigo’s body was writhing in pain, his eyes open, but glazed,
obviously still void of consciousness. The wound from Zabimaru was sealed, but
the wound on his neck that Orihime was trying to heal was gushing blood. Now
and then a spark of violet reiatsu would emit from the wound and Urahara had to
wonder exactly what Aizen was thinking.
                “Inoue-kun! Stop! Stop healing it!” Urarhara said breathlessly.
                She called back the sun sun rikki and Ichigo’s body relaxed.
The blood stopped flowing from the wound immediately. His eyes were still open,
the bright chocolate orbs glassy and fixed. Breath flowed raggedly in and out
of his body.
                Urahara kneeled down by the unconscious boy and looked at the
mark, right where his neck met the shoulder. “What is this?” He could feel it
thrumming with a familiar foreign reiatsu.
                “He bit him,” was Inoue’s quiet reply. “He bit Kurosaki-kun and
he just crumbled.”
                Urahara licked his lips, the game of the innocent shopkeeper
left far behind now. No, he couldn’t have completed the research. He couldn’t
have figured out… He looked up at the others.
                “I need some tests on him, please, stay here, and report the
slightest change in his condition. I’ll return shortly,” he said, standing and
moving away.
                Rukia and Renji grasped each other’s hands, memories of a time
not long ago when those very hands had been entwined in each other’s hair and
ghosting across each other’s faces. They hadn’t held hands since that time.
Leave it to Ichigo to bring up memories better left undisturbed. No, that
wasn’t fair, it wasn’t Ichigo, it was Aizen. Always Aizen. The meaningful
glance and touch did not escape Uryuu’s attention, nor the impassive, silent
Chad. Inoue was focused entirely on Ichigo. Her hands were shaking slightly.
                “He can’t have him; he can’t, not after what…” She trailed off.
                Uryuu frowned, kneeling beside her, his hand resting on her
shoulder. “What is it, did they tell you something?”
                She swallowed glancing at the others. “Ulquiorra, he was my
guard, I suppose. And he would bring me food and comment on how foolish it was
that I was still attached to my friends because that’s why I left with him,
risking everything to save Kurosaki-kun and everyone else. And then when I felt
the presence, I couldn’t hold back my joy, but I was so afraid.”
                They all waited while Inoue talked, gently tracing her fingers
across Ichgo’s pale cheek. Despite the healing, he looked drained of color
completely, and those permanently knitted brows were relaxed in a very
unnatural way. It was obvious it was not sleep that claimed him at the moment.
Inoue cupped his face.
                “Why did you have to come?” she suddenly screamed at him
suddenly, her face twisting in something between absolute fury and pain. “I did
this to protect you, and you put yourself right in the same danger I was trying
to protect you from again!”
                Rukia’s hand tightened on Renji’s, neither having ever seen
this type of explosion from the girl who was usually upbeat to a sickening
degree. Even Uryuu lifted his hand from her shoulder and leaned back feeling
the disturbance in her normally calm reiatsu strongly from his position. Chad
only looked down at the ground.
                “Why, Kurosaki-kun? You should have stayed here, forgotten
about me, and faced Aizen when you were strong enough! That’s what I wanted, to
give you enough time to best him! Because it has to be you, and that horrible
power inside you, and he knows it! He knows you can beat him, Kurosaki-kun! You
are the only one he truly fears. And you came to save me, and now it will be
over…” she had stopped yelling and had settled to weeping, her tears falling
over his face as she sat over his head.
                She leaned her head back, realizing that Urahara had returned,
pulling a cart with him but had stopped at the doorway to wait. He still
patiently waited, his grey eyes in the depths of the shadow of his hat, his
heart clenched at the scene before him. These children, all of them, why did it
have to happen this way? They were far too young to be put through this kind of
torment; even Renji and Rukia were far too young. This was a war for old ones,
not young ones, and definitely not for humans like the three suffering before
him.
                Inoue sighed, wiping her tears off Ichigo’s slack face. “I
loved you so much, Kurosaki-kun, so much and never said anything. I was so
afraid, so terrified, as I stood over your bed and healed you before I left. I
knew that if it continued, there would be a time my healing would not help you
anymore. And I wanted to protect you like you’ve always protected me.”
                She leaned forward, pressing her lips gently to his forehead,
then sat back wiping his orange hair out of his face. She sighed deeply as more
tears fell from her large, gray eyes.
                “They said something, didn’t they, Orihime?” Rukia asked
softly, her bright violet eyes closed against what she feared. They’d all seen
what Aizen had done, had heard what he had said. Deep in their hearts they
hoped that it was untrue. That there would be nothing to confirm it.
                Inoue gulped noisily and continued stroking Ichigo’s orange
hair. “Yeah,” she whispered almost inaudibly. “It was the blue haired arrancar,
right after I had arrived there. Ulquiorra was gone for some reason and he
wandered by. He said he was excited for his next fight with Kurosaki-kun, and
told me how glad he was I healed him up after the last one. He said it was
unfinished business. I told him that he wasn’t coming and he just smiled at me.
He said he was coming, of course, what could resist bait like me?”
                There was a silence in the room at the words. Bait. For Ichigo.
“What does he want Ichigo for?” Renji finally spilled out.
                Urahara moved up, attaching electrodes and strange wires to the
boy’s silent body. He muttered apologies to the unconscious form as he slid
under his hakama to attach them to his hips and thighs. He smiled internally at
the full body blush the boy would have given him at that. Ichigo had a tendency
to blush at the slightest provocation.
                It was then that another spoke up from behind them, and all
looked up in utter shock to see Issin, Ichigo’s father. However, to everyone’s
surprise except Urahara, he was dressed as a shinigami.
                “His heritage,” he said quietly.
                For a long moment, no one said anything. “The vizard were a
creation of Aizen trying to break the barrier between hallow and shinigami. The
arrancar are the same result. Ichigo is a natural vizard,” Issin finally said
with a sigh. “There was never a barrier to break.”
                The shocked silence was only interrupted by the beeping and
occasionall scratching of Urahara’s pen. “What do you mean, natural vizard?”
asked Rukia with a deep frown.
                Urahara looked up. “It means that Ichigo doesn’t just draw on
the power of the hollows like the other vizard, he actually has a hallow soul
inside him along with his human soul.”
                “What?!” Renji exclaimed. “How is that even possible?”
                There was a crack and pop. “It’s ready. I’m hoping he’ll
cooperate, Issin, he’s not been very cooperative with Ichigo so far. But this
is the only way I can think to get a handle on what’s happening to him.”
                “Who?” asked Inoue softly.
                “The hollow of course,” Urahara said almost dismissively.
***** The Hollow Within *****
Chapter Notes
     Edited 5-26-14
                “Since the hollow is part of his soul, I’m trying to manifest
him as we sometimes do our zanpaktou. The problem is that with these bindings,
I’m having to do it…in a creative way,” Urahara continued, then leaned down to
look at Ichigo closely.
The seki seki stone would have to wait until he could get something to
physically cut it, and he honestly wasn’t sure what to do about the sealing
bracers yet. There was bright flash of kido and reiatsu into the room and
Urahara stood back a little but still stared at Ichigo’s body.
                “Can you hear me? I need you to come out where we can see you,”
Urahara said then backed up even further.
                From Ichigo’s body another Ichigo sat up, stretching out his
long arms. Unlike the colorful Ichigo that everyone was familiar with, this
version had pure white skin and eyes of black sclera with gold pupils. He
shifted himself out of Ichigo’s body, much the same way they released a soul
form from a gigai. Everything about him was an inverted form of Ichigo,
complete with a black sashed zangetsu.
                He looked down at Ichigo and around the room. “Well fuck.”
                Everyone stared at him for a long moment, unsure eactly what to
do. Urahara smiled behind his fan.
                “What the fuck is going on, fucking weak ass shinigami wannabe
Ichigo? Gone and got yerself fucked up again, eh king? Now what the fuck am I
supposed to do, I can’t be a horse without a king…” He then turned around to
the others who were staring agape. He stuck out a vibrant blue tongue at them.
“What the fuck ya looking at, fucking bastards?”
                “Ah, yes, I can certainly see you have a certain…ah style, um…”
Urahara said, slowly, unsure what to call him.
                “Hichigo, fucking call me Hichigo. I got fucking tired of being
called ‘the hollow’ so I told this baka to name my fucking ass already,” he
said, positively glowering at Ichigo’s still body. He then sat down with a
thump at the end of the bed, leaning back on his hands and spreading himself
out.
                “What the fuck do you want from me? I don’t come out, fucker
here doesn’t fucking trust me,” he muttered, still sore from being beaten in
their battle for Ichigo to control his vizard power.
                “You’re positively foul mouthed!” Rukia exclaimed.
                Hichigo tilted his head to the side. “Fuck off, bitch. You’re
the one that got him into this to start with.”
                At that retort, Rukia gasped and Renji visibly bristled.
Hichigo rolled his eyes at them both. “Not like it wouldn’t happen eventually.
Oi look, goat face! Hey pop!” shouted Hichigo when he saw Issin. “Great job,
you shinigami bastard, keeping your son fucking safe and all.”
                “Yare, yare, can we tone it down, there Hichigo, we’re trying
to help you here,” Urahara said snapping his fan open, hiding his face.
                Hichigo cocked an eybrow at him. “Coy mother fucker,” he
muttered making a sour face. “I have no idea why yer ugly mug gives this
bastard a hard on, I find you fucking annoying as shit.”
                There was a slight gasp. Urahara was unfazed. “He’s trying to
goad us, remember that.”
                “I’ll fucking goad you alright, if I had any power right now
I’d cero half of you into fucking oblivion so I could get back at ya for
letting this happen to ma king,” he said, frowning. “Ye’re the ones that wanted
him ta control me, well less control and I could have saved his ass back there.
But no, you are all to fucking afraid of me.”
                No one else quite had the ability to speak to this…thing. It
looked just like a copy of Ichigo. But the things that were coming from his
mouth couldn’t have been more unlike Ichigo as they knew him. He rolled his
eyes and sighed at them. He shook his head.
                “Don’t you guys get it? I’m his fucking base instincts. I’m
what makes him fight like mad bastard and keep going when he should fucking lay
down and stay dead. Even when he doesn’t let me drive, I’m there for him more
than ya bunch of asshats have been,” Hichigo said with a snarl.
                “So, Hichigo, we need to know what to do now?” Urahara
continued despite the tirade. “I think I know what has happened, but I needed
to talk to you specifically to find out if I’m correct.”
                Hichigo rolled his eyes. “Ain’t a fucking thing to be done,
getabishi. We are thoroughly, completely, fucked. I can’t do shit. That fucker
Aizen, I could rip his fucking head off and eat his fucking soul through a
goddamned straw.”
                “Wh-what do you mean, there’s nothing to be done?” Inoue
stammered, stumbling forward a bit toward where he was sitting.
                “Oi, big tits,” he said, craning his neck behind him so he
could see her. “He’s got some nice thoughts of those jugs in his head now and
then. This fucker don’ know which way to point his dick. Fuckin’ hot under the
collar for old fucking getabishi half the time, then dreaming of yer fuckin’
jugs, then wanting to fondle little tits over there. And oi, by the way red
pineapple he got some fuckin’ hots for those damn tats of yers. Not to mention
his ‘thing’ for glasses with the white cape over there.”
                So far he had everyone in the room blushing. Issin and Urahara
exchanged wide eyed glances. They expected him to be rough, vulgar, but
this…this was much more than they expected. It seemed Chad was the only one to
be excluded from his wildly slinging sexual insults.
                “Hichigo, I would appreciate you keeping anything about
Ichigo’s private thoughts and feelings out of the subject matter,” Issin said
tightly.
                Hichigo appeared to pout. “Oh, threatened by yer hotblooded
teenage boy, eh goat face? Or wait, did ya forget yer using a boy to fight the
most dangerous fucker around? When does he have a fuckin’ chance to get his
dick wet, fucker still goddamn virgin and blushes like a fuckin’ strawberry
just thinkin’ a touchin’ a person. Any other sixteen fuckin’ year old boy be
out shagging the holy fuck out of the girls, or boys for that matter, this
fucking kid don’t know, around here, but not fuckin’ Ichigo, he’s off fighting
fuckin’ battles that he gets fuckin’ shoved into before he even knows how to
live his life like a normal kid.”
                After an uncomfortable silence Urahara nodded. “Base
instincts,” he muttered, making everyone look at him. “You have to remember
Hichigo is the most base and primal urges Ichigo has, only amplified. To
realize that he has kept you under control this long…”
                “Fuck!” he said standing up and stalking away from Ichigo’s
form. “I wanted to at least fuck someone, preferably several someones, before
we fuckin’ died. Got enough fights fer tha bloodlust under my fuckin’ belt,
though would have liked a few fuckin’ more.”
                At that point everyone just stared. He was acting like there
really was no hope, that there was nothing that anyone could do, that they were
already dead. No one moved a muscle, only watched the not-Ichigo walk around,
his movements completely different from his host’s. There was no mistaking this
for Ichigo in the least. He walked with a swagger to his steps and seemingly in
a random fashion.
                “All fuckin’ ya faults,” he muttered, laying his head against
the wall.
                Urahara walked up to him. “Hichigo, you have to tell me what it
is before we can assume there is nothing we can do.”
                Hichigo turned his black and gold eyes on him and there was a
fire in there that was very familiar, the fire that burned in Ichigo’s brown
eyes just as brightly. “You fuckers don’t get it, do ya?”
                He walked back to his body and leaned over, petting Ichigo’s
head gently, almost lovingly. “King, you gotta hang on, if ya can, I can’t be
horse to broken king. I know I test your ass, but I got to, otherwise we’re in
deep shit, you and me. You didn’t want me, but ya got me.”
                Issin and Urahara both exchanged glances. The sudden gentleness
and calm that had descended over the hollow from Ichigo’s body was soothing but
at the same time alarming. Hichigo closed his eyes, leaning over and put his
forehead on Ichigo’s. “I wanted to beat the fucker, too, king. Maybe I shoulda
held ya back more.”
                There was a long pause before Hichigo stood up and sat down on
the side of the table once more, hand entwined in Ichigo’s hand. He sighed
deeply, the venom seeming gone from him, spent in one huge exhale.
                “I’m fuckin’ tired. So I’ll just tell ya what it is. Aizan-
fucker has used his reaitsu to invade Ichigo’s form, dividing me from him
completely. I can’t even touch tha mother fucker. It’s like his inner world is
fuckin’ split in apart, and mine is fucking drowning in goddamn rain, which I
hate. Zangetsu ain’t there either, so I’m guessing that poor fucker is in his
own world too. So king here ain’t got a damn bit of power right now. And what
little fucking power he has is being sucked up by the damn bindings. But that
ain’t the biggest problem,” Hichigo said, brushing Ichigo’s orange locks out of
his face.
                Urahara spoke next. “He wants to see if he can recreate him,
doesn’t he?”
                Hichigo sighed and nodded, then fizzled out of existence
quietly into a bright sparkles that were reabsorbed in Ichigo’s body.
                There was a deafening silence after the retreat of Hichigo. “He
wants to figure out how Ichigo was made,” Issin sighed. “We don’t even
understand that.”
                In response to the questioning looks Urahara sighed. “Ichigo is
the son of a Shinigami father, which makes him special on its own, but he was
also passed a hollow from his mother. That hollow, as you have seen, is not a
normal hollow. Because this hollow invaded a Quincy, Ichigo’s mother, instead
of a shinigami, she nearly died. Isshin bonded his soul to her to keep him in
check and became partially human. When Ichigo was born, the hollow passed to
him, taking the place of part of his soul. He is a rare creature from so many
angles. Hollow, shinigami, Quincy…but Hichigo is right, he is young, and he
still can’t control that power to its fullest. But if Aizen gets his hands on
him, and succeeds in solving the mystery or learning how to recreate it…I knew
this was possible, but Aizen has been so focused on the Ouken, I didn’t think
that this had even entered his mind. I should have known not to send him to the
lion’s den.”
                There was a sudden sound from Ichigo and they all turned to see
his whole body begin to shake. Stifled screams began in the back of his throat
as he seemed to be overtaken by something, then his body seemed to still
itself. He turned his head, and his eyes were as glassy and unseeing as before,
and a voice they all recognized emerged.
                “It is no use. He’s already claimed,” the voice said, so
foreign from Ichigo’s lips. “I can use him as I see fit. You will not stop me.”
Bright violet reaitsu had begun to pour out of the wound on his shoulder
surrounding his whole body, then with a flash that blinded everyone in the room
and a loud snapping sound, he was gone.
***** The Lion's Den *****
Chapter Notes
     Updated 5-27-14
                Ichigo awoke with a start. The last he remembered was Aizen
biting him. Who bites someone like that? He thought. He tried to push himself
up and found that he couldn’t move in the slightest. The hell? He groaned and
realized his eyes were covered by something soft. There was a dull ache in his
shoulder, almost like he’d been healed of a serious wound, but he hadn’t gotten
one there… He blinked under the blindfold and wondered what was happening. It
was all blurry and out of focus. Were his friends still here? Was he still in
Las Noches? More importantly, were his friends still in Las Noches?
                “Aizen-sama, Ichi-kun be awakin’ up!” came the voice of the sly
fox faced man and Ichigo moaned inwardly. Gin. That meant he was in Las Noches.
With Aizen. Great.
                He felt someone remove whatever blindfold was on him and he
found he was apparently unable to move because he was tied up. His arms were
bound once again behind his back and he was on his knees before Aizen. He
growled up at him, his brown eyes smouldering with the intensity.
                “Oh, Ichi-kun! So glad to see that fire still there! Wouldn’t
want to Lase it, at least not just yet.” he said with an icy grin.
                “Teme,” he muttered under his breath staring at him. Aizen only
smirked at him.
“Szayel, you wanted him first, right?” Aizen said, turning to the pink haired
freak standing beside him nearly drooling.
“Oh yes, Aizen-sama, if you would be so willing, I would love to run
my…tests…before anything untoward happens to him. Even fighting could reduce my
results if he were to be injured. I need him as healthy as possible,” the pink
haired arrancar said, reaching out and lifting Ichigo’s head up toward him.
“Such a lovely research subject.”
Ichigo swallowed. So this freak was like Kurosuchi-taichou. Great. Just what he
needed, another scientist freak who wanted to pull him apart piece by piece to
see how he worked.
“Remember, Szayel, I don’t want any permanent damage, I wish to have my own fun
with him after Gin has his turn,” he said with a smile down at Ichigo. That
smile made Ichigo’s heart stick in his throat because it was full of promise,
threatening, horrible promise.
                            -oooooo-OOOOOO-oooooo-
The immediate result of the disappearance was chaos. Pure, unabridged chaos. It
took both Urahara and Isshin a moment to settle everyone down from rapid
talking and theorizing.
“Stop!” Isshin yelled. “Let’s not panic! For all we know the whole thing was
one of his damn illusions!”
Except Isshin knew that it wasn’t an illusion. He knew his son was there. He
also knew beyond a doubt tthat he was gone now. And no matter how hard he tried
to push the hateful words of the hollow out of his mind, they came back to
haunt him. No matter how the hollow hated him, it was nothing on what he felt
for himself. The hollow was right in so many ways. They were sending a boy to
do a man’s job, and they were ignoring the fact that he wasn’t a shinigami, he
was human. Some days, he was more human than anyone Isshin had ever known.
Urahara had disappeared, returning with his large companion Tessai and set
about using kido and his instruments to determine what had happened in the
area. Everyone was quiet, and Renji slowly realized he was still clutching
Rukia’s hand. Even though they were no longer together, the familiar touch was
the only thing that was slowing his racing heart. He wondered desperately if
all those things the hollow had spouted about Ichigo’s inner thoughts were
true. He admitted to a morbid curiosity now about that. His hollow sounded very
dirty and perverted, though, so Renji wondered exactly how much of that was
Ichigo and how much was just the hollow. Of course none of that would matter if
they couldn’t get Ichigo back.
Inoue still sat stunned beside Uryuu.
“Are you okay?” he said quietly. “We didn’t ask if they had hurt you?” Uryuu
didn’t really want to finish the thought, to know if they’d tortured her or
something worse… No, he didn’t want to think that they’d do something so
horrible to Inoue.
“I’m good; they took good care of me, actually. I was fascinated by my
caretaker, Ulquiorra, however. I thought that I could help him, maybe.”
Uryuu frowned and stared at the ground between his legs where he sat cross
legged beside her. “What do you mean, help him?”
“He seemed broken, but like maybe I could fix him. He would stop by and just
watch me in the room I was in. It almost seemed he was fascinated to see what
someone alive would do and say. He himself had no emotion that I could find;
his face impassive and eyes always dull. But in those green eyes I wondered if
I didn’t see a sparkle of the tiniest emotion,” She sighed. Was she seriously
thinking about mIsshing him now? Ichigo was gone, perhaps forever, and she was
fixated on her jailer, an arrancar no less who quite possibly would torture
Ichigo. She knew it was wrong, but those green eyes flashed at her in her mind.
They had been filled with such pain and emptiness.
“Inoue, he was an arrancar, they can’t feel anything…” Uryuu said slowly.
She nodded. “I know, but I thought maybe, just maybe, I could help him feel
again. Then I wouldn’t feel so helpless. I…I gave Grimmjow back his arm when I
got there, Aizen wanted to see my power, and he thanked me, and it was real
thanks. So I think…I think maybe the more human they look, the more human they
act.”
“You can’t save them, none of us can,” Uryuu said, sighing.
Suddenly, Inoue captured his hand with her shaking one and leaned into him,
putting her head into his shoulder and crying softly. Uryuu gasped, but put an
arm around her and let her cry on him. What could he really say after what she
had been through? He knew that she loved Ichigo dearly, and Lasing him would
leave a lasting hurt on her soul.
After a few minutes they all heard Urahara sigh. “I’ve checked so many ways,
but he’s somehow maintained a crack in a garganta and managed to pull him
through some kind of tie to his reiatsu. I’m not sure how, but Ichigo is back
in Las Noches.”
Isshin sighed deeply and looked at his old friend. “What do we do?”
“Contact Soul Society and tell them the wonderful news that we have an idea
what’s happening,” Urahara said, snapping his fan open in front of his face
again.
“I’m not sure I want to be here for that conversation, it may be better for me
to go home and tell the girls that Ichigo is going to be gone a while longer,”
Isshin said with a sigh. Urahara nodded and watched him leave, slump
shouldered.
“Rukia, Renji, I leave Soul Society to you. I will send the Mayuri all the
scans and tests I’ve done myself. Maybe he can help interpret the data,”
Urahara said with a sigh.
“Inoue-san, Chado-san, and Uryuu-san, all three of you should go home for rest
until further notice. There is nothing we can do right now for Ichigo. And
wearing yourselves thing will not help when your help is needed,” he said
turning to the three humans.
Grudgingly, the three overtired humans left, Uryuu not wanting to leave Inoue
alone after the ordeal, however. He offered to stay at her place and sleep on
the floor in case she needed anything. She agreed, actually not able to argue
due to the exhaustion both mentally and physically. She offered to cook, but
Uryuu insisted they pick up something on the way from a Tai place he knew. He
shuddered to think what new concoctions she would try to feed him.
Urahara watched them leave, his head pounding behind his eyes. He glanced over
at Rukia and Renji. “Let’s get this over, with shall we?”
The reaction from Soul Society was much less aggravated than they expected. It
seemed the true concern was now turning to the possibility that control of
Ichigo could indeed pose a threat. He, of course, been someone they had hoped
would become important in the coming battle with Aizen. There was not a second
mention of taking Aizen up on his “offer” to keep Ichigo and stay out of the
world of the living and soul society. They all knew it was untrue. Rukia was
very thankful for that. After the Head Captain Yamada’s reaction to Inoue being
captured, she had been sure the effect would be similar. But he saw it for what
it was. He saw it was Aizen’s manipulation, and it was obvious it was not
something he liked.
He quickly ordered Renji and Rukia to remain with Urahara, and said he would be
sending reinforcements to try and help Urahara with his work, once he called
the captains to a meeting and set things in motion.
All they could do was wait.
Several hours later, Rukia heard a familiar sound and new reiatsu appearing not
far off. Moments later, there was a knock on the Shoten’s door. Urahara, every
bit the coy shopkeeper opened it with a clacking fan opening.
“My, my, who do we have here?” he asked, surveying the Shinigami that stood
before him.
Rukia and Renji came up behind him and greeted the new arrivals. There weren’t
a lot, but it was apparent that care had been taken in choosing who would come
help with this particular rescue mission. Soi Fon stood in the back, her arms
crossed, but eyes glancing around, no doubt searching for Yourichi. Beside her
was the long, lanky form of Ukitake, looking quite well today. Hanataro from
the 4th had accompanied Unohana, and finally Ikkaku and Yumichika had come.
Three captains, considering their already depleted strength was more than
either Renji or Rukia had hoped for. They had expected someone like Yumichika
and Ikkaku, though. No doubt Kenpachi wanted his sparring partner back.
They were allowed entrance, and escorted down to the basement where they would
discuss the situation. Before long they looked up as a familiar dark skinned
woman made her way to them. Soi Fon gasped, seeing her mentor and flushing as
Yourichi draped an arm around her back. She was filled in on the situation and
the meeting began in earnest.
                            -oooooo-OOOOOO-oooooo-
Grimmjow was bored. He’d been promised he’d get a fight with the orange headed
shinigami when the others were done with him. He was frustrated. He wanted to
beat that arrogant look out of his eyes once and for all. He flopped over,
hoping Szayel didn’t damage him permanently with his tests. He rolled over
grumpily again, running his hand down the scar on his chest. Not many could do
that to him. Not many could scar him like that. And now he had both arms back.
He would take that shinigami and squeeze every bit of life from him, well
almost every bit of life. He didn’t want him dead, he just wanted him beaten.
There was a knock at the door. “What?” he growled, getting up from his bed and
stalking to the door.
He opened it to find Ulquiorra standing there impassively. “We’re to retrieve
the subject from Szayel and take him to his new quarters.”
Grimmjow frowned. “What the fucksake ya need me for?”
“Aizen-sama said he wants to ensure his safety from the other arrancar, so both
of us should escort him,” he said blankly. Kami, this guy pissed Grimmjow off,
with those passive eyes and that damn stare. He wanted to just rip his face
off.
“I want my fight with the brat,” Grimmjow muttered as they walked down the
perfectly white walled coridors.
There was silence until Ulquiorra spoke again. “I doubt you will see that
shinigami with the capability to fight again.”
Grimmjow opened his mouth to speak but they had reached the door to the
researcher’s lab. Ulquiorra opened it and they walked in to find Szayel leaning
over the prone form of the orange haired boy. There was the smell of blood and
vomit on the air around them making Grimmjow’s nose twitch and his stomach
clench uncomfortably. Sometimes having the senses of an animal made things a
big rough especially when it came to the smell department.
“Ah, you’re here, I am afraid he’s still unconscious…that last test was a
bit…rough on him. I forgot how much pain drawing bone marrow from a living body
is; normally my subjects are dead by that point. Ah well, then you’ll have to
carry him, one of you,” he said, gesturing at the boy.
Ulquiorra made no move but to look at Grimmjow. He sighed. If he’d known he was
going to be the carry bitch he wouldn’t have come. He walked over to where the
boy laid intent on tossing him over his shoulder but his eyes first ran over
his body. He was breathing heavily even in sleep, or unconsciousness, whatever
it was, and Grimmjow could see the punctures and cuts left by Szayel’s
“experiments”. He’d put Ichigo in different set of clothes, his shihakuso piled
on the floor beside the bed. To Grimmjow they stank of blood. He now wore a
white vest and a pair of plain white hakama tied by a black obi. It looked much
like the clothes the rest of them wore, but it hung awkwardly off the boy’s
smaller frame. He hadn’t realized how small he was compared to most of them. He
shook his head and tossed the boy over his right shoulder, receiving a groan
from him as he did so. Grimmjow smiled. Well that was worth it at least.
The two espada took him to a new white room, this one with chains to secure his
arms above his head. Grimmjow flopped him down, his head bouncing slightly off
the hard floor and then stalked away. He planned to go decimate some unlucky
hollows he came across. Ulquiorra sniffed and then proceeded to attach the
bindings to the links on his wrists, bringing his arms out and open, while
letting him sit on his knees. His head flopped forward, and Ulquiorra wondered
what the fascination with him was. The woman, now Aizen, both had been obsessed
with this particular being. Was there something special about him? He reached
forward and ran a hand through his soft orange hair. Perhaps. But Gin would be
next to have a turn getting to know Ichigo better. Gin liked to talk with
knives, however. If he survived, he might come see how he held up.
Ulquiorra left quickly and headed away to inform Aizen that he had been placed
in his new quarters. And of course to tell Gin-san that he wasn’t awake yet to
enjoy his company.
                            -oooooo-OOOOOO-oooooo-
Ichigo awoke with a slow groan. He ached everywhere and he couldn’t remember
why. Had he been in another fight with Kenpachi? If so that would explain it.
That nut was insane. No, no, he thought as hazy memories of a pink haired…
“Ugh…” he moaned as he opened his eyes and looked around the room he was in.
White. Antagonizing, empty, white.
He looked up to find his arms each held by a chain secured on either side of
him to the walls. He’d been stripped of his own clothes and wore some of the
awful white clothes that everyone wore around here. He blushed at the thought
of someone changing his clothes. Dammit! How embarrassing, he thought to
himself. The new clothes were stiff though, uncomfortable against his skin, not
like his own clothing. But then this wasn’t spun from spiritual energy like the
other clothing. And he guessed that its absence was a sure indication that his
spiritual energy was indeed completely sealed. Not even sealed, absorbed. He
sighed deeply.
“Oh, Ichi-kun is awake!” he heard the irritating sound of Gin’s voice. Great.
Just what he wanted was that fox faced freak around after the pink haired
idiot.
He looked up to see Gin, his typical smile plastered to his face, eyes hidden,
his arms crossed over his chest with his hands concealed in the sleeves. He
tilted his head ever so slowly to the side.
“I was a’wonderin’ if Szayel had done somethin’ more permanent than he was
s’posed ta,” he said without moving.
Ichigo only glowered. He knew what Szayel had wanted. Same thing damn Mayuri
would want if he was allowed to get his hands on him in Soul Society. Testing,
information. He’d had a needle poked in about every organ, he thought, and
samples taken of blood, bone, and who knows what else. He’d been injected with
things that had made him black out, see spots, feel cold, hot, and made him
throw up in the end.
Ichigo sighed, deep burning setting into his shoulders. The incredible fatigue
of having his reiatsu sapped away made him feel heavy. “What do you want, Gin?”
“Ah, its mah turn wit ya,” he said moving forward.
The words took a moment to process. “Wha…”
Then before he knew it, Gin was behind him, slicing the white vest’s shoulders,
letting it fall off. Ichigo didn’t have time to blush as it was quickly
followed by Shinso being used to slice into the skin of his back. He cried out,
the cut just barely going through all the layers of skin. Then again. And
again. And again. Then he started on his chest, running the wicked sharp
zanpakutou down, tracing a line from his collar bone to his belly button. He
repeated on the other side, and Ichigo could tell these cuts were deep from the
vast amount of blood that was pouring down his chest. His exclamations of pain
soon became screams of pure anguish as Gin would take the time to pulse rieatsu
against the wounds, pulling the skin up on either side of the cuts like he
intended to skin him alive. He slowly made two parallel cuts along his abdomen
above his belly button, and then actually did pull the skin from it with a
swift motion. If he’d been in pain before, it was unsure, but he was now as Gin
repeated the procedure in several spots, seeming to savor the work he was
doing.
As his head dropped he faded in and out of consciousness. His throat was raw
from screaming and he was staring at a spreading pool of blood. His arms were
numb, covered as they were in cuts, but he couldn’t feel them. The deep stab
wound in each of his shoulders had ensured that. Soon he felt Gin touch his
burning back, almost gently. “Hold on,” he whispered in his ear and was gone.
He was nearly not aware when Szayel came in, tching about the state Gin had
left him in. He realized that the white hakama he wore were now stained
completely red. He vaguely felt them being removed and the worst of his wounds
being treated and bound. He then felt a rush of horrible pain as sensation ran
to his fingers and his arms. He was lowered and laid down on something somewhat
soft. The chain was clacking as both his hands were secured above his head. The
pain flared brightly for a moment and then everything once again was swallowed
in blackness.
An eternity later he awoke to find himself in the same position, arms splayed,
but this time they hadn’t bothered replacing his blood soaked clothes. Despite
himself he felt the incredible embarrassment flood him as he looked up to see
Gin again, twirling that deadly zanpakto of his. His eyes widened and for the
first time in his life, he begged. It didn’t matter. In the end, once again
Szayel was in, lowering him down to the bed, healing the deeper wounds and
letting him fall into sweet unconsciousness. The unconsciousness brought no
comfort. He would slip into his sideways inner world and was utterly,
completely, and totally alone.
“How many days ya want me to play rough wit him, Aizen-sama?” Gin asked as he
looked up from the monitor watching Szayel roughly make sure that their little
plaything didn’t die.
Aizen thought for a moment. “Oh, give it at least a week. I know you’re
enjoying yourself, Gin.”
Gin, even though it shouldn’t have been possible, smiled even wider. “Of
course, Aizen-sama. Where did Grimmjow run off ta?” he asked idly. He had seen
the reaction the sexta espada had had to the shinigami being bound and
tortured. He obviously didn’t approve.
Aizen snorted. “He’s off killing things. He was put off when he found out he
probably wouldn’t get to fight Ichigo again.”
“Ah, but this is so much more fun, if ya ask meh,” Gin said, turning and
leaving the room as Aizen continued to watch Ichigo’s sleeping form. Szayel
hadn’t even bothered to cover the boy’s body up with the sheet this time. A
wicked smile crossed Aizen’s lips as he leaned closser to the screen, watching
the boy that had been the bane of his existence in his pain filled sleep.
***** Breaking Point *****
-Los Noches—
It had been at least a week, from what Ichigo could tell. At least seven times
Gin had come and flayed his skin. Always the same places so the scars would be
heavy. He had no concept of how long he had been with Szayel before Gin took
over with this torture. But the scary part is that he looked forward to it. To
the torture, of all things. The rest of the time no one touched him, saw him,
only when Gin and Szayel came to him, and then it was all pain. But still, at
least he was away from the complete silence and loneliness of the place. His
only comfort came from the fact that he knew why he was here. And he almost
could handle it now. Almost.
Gin had come in and he had begged to know where his friends were. Gin had
smiled, going to ignore him then stopped and informed him they had all,
including Inoue, been sent back to the world of the living. He was surprised,
and had it been Aizen he would have doubted the words, but somehow he felt that
Gin wasn't lying to him. But then the torture began anew and he didn't have
time to dwell on what he had said.
He woke, as usual, sometime later, laying now with his hands lowered on longer
chains so he could move. There was a cup with water and a plate with bread. He
devoured the food and drink, not knowing when he'd last eaten. He sat in
silence on the dirty and blood stained mattress he sat on and waited.
He would fall asleep and wake up to food and water. Never seeing anyone, never
hearing or even feeling anyone else's presence. It was weird. And it was
grating on his nerves. He tried to still his banging heart with the idea that
he had done what he set out to do, and protected his friends. That should be
enough? Inoue was safe, so were the others, that was enough, right? But right
now he wanted them to get this over with, just kill him. He wasn't sure how
long his mind could take it. And his body was growing weaker and weaker. He
could feel the muscles starting to lose shape and even moving his arms to eat
was an effort. He hadn't heard a voice in how long? It was so hard to keep
track of time in this infernal, endless night. He missed his friends and he
just hoped that they were okay. He tried to keep clear how long he'd been here
now. He'd slept six times during the "experiments" with the pink haired freak,
and he'd slept about seven while Gin worked him over. And since then, he'd
woken up to food…at least thirty times. Six weeks, then? If his body's clock
was still running right, of course.
The sudden realization struck him. Six weeks? He'd been abandoned, just like
they were going to abandon Inoue. He knew that it was likely. What was one
person to all of soul society. But it still stung. He'd hoped that Urahara at
least might try something, but perhaps it had been foolish to even try to come
here and rescue Inoue. Maybe that proved they weren't ready for Aizen.
The quiet though, the unreal quiet in his head, was offsetting. He didn't hear
the hollow or Zangetsu at all. It had to have something to do with the aching
mark on his neck where Aizen had bitten him. It still oozed blood and leaked
purple reiatsu every now and then. It never healed. He was so alone here, and
getting desperate to have someone, anyone, talk to him, for just a little bit.
He felt like he was going to lose his mind, and was even wondering if Gin
couldn't come and cut him some so he could feel something.
The next time he slept he awoke somewhere new. He blinked, and found his weary
body on something very soft, and very clean, and it smelled wonderful. His nose
was so accustomed to the smell of filth and sweat, that not smelling it almost
overpowered him. And softness below him. Even his tortured body could
appreciate something other than the old, mattress he had been on. He felt the
familiar weight on his ankles and wrists and honestly, thought nothing of it.
Weeks going by with those weights on him had made him so used to them that they
were like a part of him. Then the strangest thing happened to make his eyes fly
open.
Someone touched his stomach.
The sensation was nearly too much, it had been so long since anyone had touched
him, let alone in a gentle way. He moaned and smiled to himself before he even
realized it, then found himself staring at a dark brown mop of hair staring at
his stomach where a slender finger traced across it gently.
"Wha…" he said, his voice cracking from disuse. It was Aizen. Aizen was
touching him. And he didn't want it to stop.
"Ichi-kun," the man practically purred. "You've awakened, you certainly sleep a
long time…"
Ichigo tossed his head from one side to the other realizing he was in another
of those infernal white rooms. "Where…" he croaked.
Aizen held a glass with a straw to his parched lips and to his surprise it was
very cold water. He nearly felt like he was drowning in bliss at the simple
sensation of drinking water. Aizen smiled, his eyes dilating as he watched the
substitute shinigami drink the water with such an amazing look of happiness.
Yes, this is what he was looking for. This was how he would shatter the young
man before him. After the torture, to leave him utterly and completely alone,
wondering if he would rot in the cell until he died, denying him contact of any
sort, left him longing for it. Of course, the drug Szayel had administered when
he was brought in didn't hurt. It would ensure that he felt enjoyment, which
would only deepen his shame.
The water nearly gone, Ichigo stopped to breath, dropping his head back onto
the pillow with dawning realization that he was in Aizen's room. Aizen's
bedroom. And he was tied ankle and wrist to his bed. And he was completely
naked still. Suddenly, a red hot blush found its way across his face and down
his neck, coloring him red almost halfway down his arms. He started to struggle
against the bindings to try and cover himself, anything, he didn't want to be
on display like this, not at all.
Aizen set the glass down, noting the struggles of the bound man below him. He
leaned over and pressed on the wound still on his shoulder. Ichigo gasped as a
bit of reiatsu forced its way into him from that point. Aizen looked over his
body, once tan and muscled, it was now smooth and pale. He reached hands out
and ran them down his sides, easily counting each and every rib that protruded
from him there. His stomach, once firm and tight, now sank, sunken, and Ichigo
realized he didn't even feel hunger anymore. He had at first, he was so hungry
when they brought the daily bread and water, but eventually, his growling
stomach had decided that complaints were useless.
When Aizen ran his hands over his protruding hip bones, Ichigo gave a strangled
gasp. Despite his fear, the drug was taking effect, and he was showing himself
to be slipping into a state of high arousal before Aizen's very eyes. Ichigo
lifted his head and stared at his betraying body, a look of utter shock and
horror on his face.
"Hrm, looks like your body seems to know what you want," Aizen murmured softly,
crawling down and taking Ichigo's rapidly swelling member into his mouth.
Ichigo's heart thrummed in his chest. He was so weak and tired he didn't have
the energy to fight him, though he tried. Why was his body reacting this way?
Why would something like this happen? Did he want this? Was he really in that
pathetic of a state? All thought went out the window as Aizen's mouth and
tongue tortured his hot flesh. He shook his head. No, no…but it felt so
amazing… He'd never been touched like that, let alone had anyone's mouth on it.
Maybe if he closed his eyes, he could pretend it was someone else that was down
there sending hot waves of pleasure up his body. He didn't even know who he
would want to take the place of the soft lips and tongue currently driving him
to madness. He blushed again, just thinking of who he would like to have been
the first person to do this to him.
Then he was on top of him again, crushing his mouth into him, his tongue
dancing along his lips, asking, no demanding, entrance. Ichigo complied, his
eyes still fearing what was going to happen. The tongue began to plunder his
mouth, seeking every crack, every crevice. He moaned into it, and then cried
out as Aizen bit his lip, drawing blood, drawing back. He then moved upward,
sitting on his chest, squeezing the breath out of him, rocking his hips toward
Ichigo's mouth.
Ichigo's eyes widened and he shook his head until Aizen reached down and pried
his jaw open, and wedged his thumb at the back of his teeth and in one move
forced his entire length down Ichigo's throat. He coughed, sputtered and wanted
to bite down but the pressure on his jaw kept him from doing that. He felt the
urge to retch, his gag reflex tripped, and if he hadn't had such an empty
stomach, he may have done more than heave at the disgusting feeling. The walls
of his throat constricted eliciting a sigh from the man above him.
"This is for your own benefit," Aizen muttered. "So wet it good with that
tongue of yours."
Ichigo didn't know what that meant but if he did as he wanted he'd remove his
cock before he choked to death on it, feeling his stomach, empty of course,
clench and heave again, trying to force the invading force out. After a few
moments of him thrusting down Ichigo's burning throat he pulled back and patted
his head.
"There's a good pet," he whispered and nuzzeled into his neck.
Ichigo felt his own member oozing and straining as he ground his hips against
the man over him. What was he doing? He shouldn't be trying to get himself off,
no he should be fighting this, but it felt good. A wave of heat and desire
stronger than anything washed over him and he began to pant, begging as he did
for Aizen to help him. He couldn't stop his traitorous mouth as it repeated to
help him, as he strained against the man who had slid back down on his body
like a snake.
"Do you want me to help you, Ichi-kun?" he purred into his ear as he shifted
and slid his legs under Ichigo's splayed ones, pulling his knees up, straining
his ankles painfully against the bindings.
"P-please…" he whined, biting the inside of his cheek to keep from moaning out
louder. It felt like he was going to explode if something didn't give.
Then he felt something blunt and hard press against his rear. At that moment
the idea that he needed to feel pleasure and that he wanted to be touched and
caressed went out the window. His voice hitched in his throat and he let out a
mewling sound as fear clouded his eyes. The fire, the lust, all of it was gone.
He started to thrash and pull away from him, finally dawning on him exactly
what he intended to do to him. And no matter how much he wanted to be pleased,
this…no this…was not going to happen, not if he could help it.
Unfortunately, he couldn't do much to help it.
"Now now, Ichi-kun, if you keep fighting, I'm going to leave you in a lot of
pain," he said softly, pressing hard against the shinigami's entrance. "Ah,
well it won't matter, I'm going to leave you in excruciating pain after this."
"N-no," he said, fighting against him. If he could save his pride by saying he
fought, that would be something, wouldn't it? If he could say he had resisted
this monster until the very end?
Aizen frowned. He was going to have to show him who was in control, and with
one thrust forward, he forced his way through the tight ring of virgin muscles,
all the way in in one go. Ichigo screamed then. Harder than he had ever
screamed for Gin. Pain shot through his back and down his legs and he couldn't
even imagine something that could hurt any worse. He felt something warm and
wet dripping down from there, and he knew it was blood. Something inside was
burning and hot, and his eyes rolled up and the world threatened to go black.
"Oh, my, I thought you were a virgin, but this is much better than I could have
expected," Aizen said, staring down at the orange head below him. He was still,
unmoving, sheathed all the way in him, and he could feel the blood that was
beginning to lubricate him as he began to pull back almost all the way then
back in.
Ichigo screamed again, his body arching at the incredible amount of pressure
and pain. He'd been stabbed. He'd had lightning shot through him (thanks
Byakuya). And he'd pushed himself to the limit no matter what pain he was in.
But this pain…this was something different. It shot down to his toes and up to
the top of his skull. After a moment and Aizen's continued thrusting his head
dropped to the side and he stared at the wall, white as everything else. He
felt a hand on his own stiff member and turned to look at Aizen, his eyes open
and wide.
"You are going to enjoy this, Ichi-kun," Aizen whispered, grasping him hard and
in time with his own thrusts.
To his shame and horror, his body reacted, the pleasure building in him,
threatening to explode. His screams turned to moans and he couldn't believe his
own body was betraying him like this. He threw his head back and howled as
Aizen's thrusting hit something that made him see stars and sent him over the
edge, spilling his own fluids on his belly to which Aizen gave a satisfied
smirk. He grasped both hips in a hellish grasp making Ichigo's head come up
with a hiss as he felt something pop. Aizen then slammed into him several more
times, releasing his own pleasure into him. The sick, burning feeling crawled
up into Ichigo's inside insides, and he felt like something was broken there.
He pulled away and left him that way, soiled, bleeding and alone. Darkness at
some point came and claimed him. He wasn't sure when.
Darkness wouldn't last long enough, and soon he found himself receiving a daily
injection to stop bleeding but did nothing for pain. And he found himself
morning and evening the unwilling participant of Aizen's pleasures. He lost
track of the time. He couldn't imagine how long it had been. One of the lesser
Arrancar would come in give him a meager meal of bread and water, sometimes
meat if he was lucky. After that he would head to the bathroom and bathe. He
would stay as long as he could, sitting in scalding hot water until it had
turned cold, and scrubbing until he almost bled. He couldn't get the smell of
Aizen off of him. He toweled off and came out, his towel wrapped around his
waist and instead of the lower arrancar Ulquiorro stood.
He froze. "Wh-what are you doing here?" he asked the green eyed espada.
"What is it that attracts his attention to you?" he said impassively. "What did
the woman mean about you having her heart?"
Ichigo's heart was booming in his chest. "I d-don't..." he started when he
found himself slammed into the wall, the emotionless face inches from his own.
He looked at him with a curious look then emulated what he had seen Aizen do on
the monitors, crushing his lips against the orange haired boy, tongue forcing
its way into his mouth and teeth biting and nipping at his lips. He broke the
kiss and stared at Ichigo's wide eyed expression.
He then lifted him by the throat and threw him down on the bed. Ichigo tried to
push away, but found his ankles yanked, bringing him to the edge of the bed,
bent over it. Ulquiorro's hands dug into his hips, painfully, black nails
digging great gouges into his flesh. He didn't have time to even breathe before
the impassive man had buried himself into Ichigo. He screamed, his cock much
larger than Aizen's had been. He clawed into the sheets and whimpered pitifully
as he continued to rock back and forth into him. He kept pressing into his
hips, blood flowing from the clawing marks. The pressure on his hips just kept
increasing and he felt something wrong, very wrong. He came in him and pulled
away staring as Ichigo slipped from the bed with a soft thump, hysterical
almost from the pain. He was sure his pelvis was broken from the brutality of
the attack.
"Interesting," he said, staring down impassively as he tied his obi and turned
to leave.
Grimmjow had been walking down the hallway when Ulquirro came by, a way too
satisfied smirk on his face. He watched him with a frown. His nose caught the
distinct smell of something he was unfamiliar with on him. He scowled at the
impassive man. He shook his head and was walking by the doors to his rooms when
he heard a choked gasping inside. He paused wondering what the hell was going
on. He started to walk on but heard the weak sobbing on the other side of the
door, and he wasn't sure exactly what it was, curiosity or something else, but
he found himself reaching down for the door, finding it surprisingly unlocked.
"Hello?" he said as he slowly peeked his head in.
White room, white couch, orange hair. Orange hair? Red.
Grimmjow was a lot of things, a huge bastard and a prick ranked pretty high
among them. But his cyan eyes widened in shock at what his eyes fell on.
"What. The. Fuck," he muttered, glancing behind him and moving into the room.
He hadn't seen Ichigo since Szayel had taken him off for tests. That had been
over four months ago. What he saw literally stole his breath. He was sitting on
the floor by a bed, lying on his back, writing in what seemed to be absolute
agony. He was covered in blood, with great gouging scatches down his hips and
large purple bruises blooming across his pelvis. He kneeled down, unsure what
to do, when he saw how absolutely emaciated the boy had become. His chest,
mostly clear of blood from whatever the hell Ulquirro had done, was crossed
with scars of all sorts, jagged and smooth. He knew Gin had been at him, but
this? This wasn't Gin's work. The sounds stopped, and Ichigo's body had
relaxed, his breathing shallow and gasping. He reached out and rolled the boy
over and his blue brows furrowed even deeper. The signs of abuse were here as
well, jagged scratch marks that went down his back and he realized that the
state he was in now was not unusual.
Grimmjow sat back on his heels, running a hand through his hair. What the fuck
was this? He knew Aizen was twisted. But this? He looked down as the orange
haired kid opened his eyes and stared at Grimmjow, and a look of absolute
terror crossed his face as he started pushing away from him, even as he was
screaming out in pain.
"No…no…not you…" he muttered and Grimmjow watched as he pulled himself as far
away as he could muster, curling himself up and the look in his eyes sent a
shiver down his spine. Fear, and only fear, shined in those eyes. There was no
trace of the fire that had sent excitement down his spine when he had been
locked in battle with him. There was nothing there but sheer terror…and
emptiness.
Grimmjow didn't even think, he grabbed the sheet from the bed, soiled with
blood as it was, and tossed it around him, ignoring his protests of sheer
terror as he picked him up. Finally he quit fighting him as he ran to Szayel's
room. He knocked impatiently on the door.
"What?" he said, sticking his pink head out of the door, then his eyes landed
on the bundle in Grimmjow's arms.
"What the fuck is going on, Szayel?" Grimmjow growled. "This kid ain't just
broken, he's better off dead."
***** From the Brink *****
-Urahara Shoten—
It had taken less time than he imagined to come up with a plan with those that
came. It would have been better to have more people to help, but risking the
safety of Soul Society and the World of the living was out of the question.
Only four days had passed since the group had come back from Los Noches and
Ichigo had disappeared. And the press of time was on them heavily. The longer
this took the more chance that Aizen would kill Ichigo, or worse. Urahara's
fear was that he would try and make him into an arrancar. He was truly unsure
how that would happen since Ichigo was human, not even a true shinigami or
hollow, but he was both at the same time as well. The chances of it going
disastrously wrong were great, and he didn't think Aizen would risk his plans
to do that. But still, the thought of what he was going to do with Ichigo
weighed heavily on him.
His shop was officially "closed" but it was busier than ever, everyone down in
the basement working on ideas and plans. So when he felt the garganta open
close by, he froze.
-Los Noches—
The barely restrained fury in those cyan blue eyes shocked Szayel. He actually
thought he would have been right there torturing the orange haired boy he hated
so much with Aizen and the others. But he wasn't. He was furious. Szayel
glanced each way down the hall and ushered the blue haired espada in.
"There aren't cameras in here, but if Tousen or Gin saw you come in, that's
it," he said motioning Grimmjow to drop the kid on his bed. He started to
unwrap the sheet then stopped, his eyes widening. "Oh, well."
"What th fuck is going on?" the terse statement escaped the blue haired
arrancar's mouth. "Aizen didn't say nothing about this messed up shit."
Szayel swallowed, and administered a dose of a pain medication and a metabolic
accelerator to help with the healing factor. He couldn't do much in his room,
and if he took the boy to the lab, Aizen would know, and all three would be
lucky to get out alive.
"He wanted to break him. Completely. And I think he's accomplished it. The kid
is dying, Grimmjow. He's got no reason to live now, and I can't make him. Aizen
doesn't need him, he's got nothing to do except torture him now. He's got what
he needed," Szayel said with a sigh. "I have the research material, and that's
all I needed from him. The rest was simply to satisfy Aizen's desires to watch
him crumble."
Grimmjow as silent for a long moment. "I'm taking him back."
Szayel looked up. "What? You can't…Aizen will kill you if you come back after
taking him back!"
"Then I don't come back," he said, shrugging. "I'm fine on my own."
"But the shinigami will kill you when you show up in the world of the living…"
he continued.
The look that those cyan eyes fixed the pink haired espada with would have
killed a lesser being. "I don' fuckin' care, Szayel. This shit is wrong. I'll
fight. I'll kill. But this? This kid was probably the closest thing to an equal
I've ever fought. He doesn't fucking deserve this, he deserved to die well."
He leaned down and gathered the unconscious boy in his arms. "He needs a reason
to fight; I gotta take him to it."
And to Szayel's complete shock, Grimmjow reached up and flicked his hand,
opening a garganta and stepping through with the bloody bundle.
-Urahara Shoten—
Urahara felt the pulsing rieatsu and paused. What? An espada, but the feel, but
what in the world was he doing, calling every soul reaper in all of Karakura
Town? Within moments, both he and Yourichi were outside the shop staring up at
a descending espada, the blue haired one that Ichigo had fought a couple times
now.
"Yo," he called out, his feet touching the ground. "Don't try and roast me, old
man. I need yer help, fast."
Guarded, but noticing the bloodied bundle the espada was carrying, he shot
forward, glimpsing a shock of orange hair from the edge. He gasped and ushered
the blue haired espada into the shop, setting up the wards against the reiatsu,
knowing that several others would have felt the discharge that Grimmjow had let
off to announce his arrival.
"In here!" he said letting him place the bundle down on the pallat in the spare
room. The arrancar kneeled beside him, watching what they were doing.
"Yourichi, get Inoue-chan and Unohana-san," Urahara said after running his
hands over the air above him.
As soon as she was gone, he fixed the espada with a glare. "Did you do this?"
Grimmjow growled. "I'm no fuckin' beast like Aizen. I don't fuckin' rape people
for kicks."
Urahara swallowed, feeling for the injuries as Tessai came in and took over.
Seconds later, both Inoue and Unohana came up from the basement followed
quickly by the rest of those that were gathered for the rescue mission, set to
leave tomorrow. Renji and Rukia came skidding into the room in front of Chad
and Uryu, and everyone was frozen except Urahara and Tessai staring at the blue
haired arrancar.
Grimmjow smirked, "Yo."
Urahara jumped at the drawing of swords, "Stop, he's the one who brought Ichigo
back, but he's dying, fast, bleeding internally from what I can tell, his
pelvis has been shattered. Inoue I need you to concentrate your power there, as
much as you can. Unohana…I need to talk to you."
Grimmjow eyed the group, two captains, not bad. Too bad they hadn't got there
in time to stop all this from happening. "Why did it take ya so long if he's ya
friend?"
Everyone looked up at Grimmjow's growling comment. "I mean, he hauled ass to
rescue the woman, why didn't ya? She wasn't even there that long before ya
busted in with him at the lead. I'd've thought that ya'd do the same for him,
always going on about protecting his friends and all that shit."
Renji and Rukia exchanged glances. "W-what?"
Grimmjow reached up and cleaned his ear with his pinky casually. "I'd think it
wouldn't take four months for ya to get ya shit together for the boy."
There was a sudden silence that caught his attention. "What?" he asked.
"Four m-months?" Renji said with eyes wide. "F-four days!"
Grimmjow cocked his head to the side. "Hrm. Well that really sucks. Guess I
can't kill ya fer abandoning him then."
Below him, Ichigo rolled his head and groaned, as Renji and Rukia both dropped
beside him. He opened his eyes slowly and when he saw them so close he
screamed, pulling away and scrambling through the golden shield, shattering it
and pushing himself to the wall, not even noticing he was leaving the sheet
behind that had been covering him. Grimmjow was the first to react, snatching
the sheet and covering the boy up where he was trying to push himself through
the very wall behind him. But not before those present saw how bad the wounds
on him were. He doubled over in pain and threw up. If Grimmjow hadn't been
fast, he would have had a lap full of bile.
"Fuck!" he exclaimed, a tad too loud because Ichigo looked up at him with
absolute terror in those once fiery brown eyes and whimpered.
"Shit, look, sorry," he said, kneeling down. "Stop, Ichigo, you're home, he
can't hurt ya again, okay, I'm fuckin' dead if he finds me, but fuck it. Not
like I can fuckin' watch this shit."
Ichigo looked at him, moaning in pain again, as he doubled over and passed flat
out again. Grimmjow picked him up, muttering "Baka." He laid him down on the
bed as Urahara and Unohana returned. He had a surprising gentleness as he laid
him out and pulled the sheet over as much of his body as he could.
"What happened?" he asked, looking at the others, no one seemed to want to say
anything.
"Four months, Urahara-san," Uryu said quietly. "It's been four months for him.
The espada asked why it was that we didn't come for him, and I told him it's
only been four days."
Unohana kneeled beside Ichigo and asked everyone but Inoue, Hanataro and Tessai
to leave the room. Everyone vacated, leaving those with healing abilities to
deal with the broken body of their friend. There was nothing the others could
do. In fact, if he hadn't spoke up they would have forgotten that the espada
was still there.
"So, any chance in hell I can hide here?" he said, running a hand absently
through his hair.
Everyone's eyes fell on him. "Yeah, still here. Dead espada if I go back.
Aizen'll fuckin' take more than my arm this time. Last time I lost it for
disobeying orders and coming here, and I was just tryin' ta kill the brat for
him. I don't think I'll die quick for saving him."
Urahara sighed, looking at those that had come to help from soul society.
"I can keep the espada here for now, Soi Fon, can you and the others return and
give a full report to the Head Captain? I'll send Unohano-taichou and Hanataro
when they've done what they can, but I think we're in for a long road for
Ichigo. I don't think he'll be able to handle facing Aizen anytime soon, and we
still don't know what was done to him other than it was terrible. I'm sure
Unohana-taichou will have a full report for the Head Captain, for now, inform
him that I have the espada in protective custody, from Aizen. A defector on our
side might be useful. Meanwhile I think I've got a way to get the foreign
reiatsu out of his body and loosen the bonds between his souls," Urahara said
with a sigh. "But he has to be healed enough to handle it."
There was some other discussion between Ikkaku and Soi Fon. Grimmjow stood to
the side, glowering at all the damn shinigami. He sighed. Any other day he'd
like to rip their throats out just because they would do the same to him. But
here he stood, watching them talk back and forth, his large arms crossed across
his chest. He wondered just what the hell he was thinking. It wasn't like he
was really loyal to Aizen, the guy was a prick, especially after having his arm
cut off like that. But even at that, he was throwing his life away by messing
with Ichigo. Aizen had decided that he had claimed him, and Grimmjow should
have realized that when he took the incentive to bite the boy the day his
friends were sent home.
Soon, the crowded area was thinned out to just be the ones that had been in Los
Noches with the annoying shop keeper. The rest were gone, the captain with the
odd braid under her chin and the short black haired shinigami last to leave,
saying they would rest and get a detailed debriefing before they returned to
soul society. The strange blond with the green and white striped bucket hat sat
down slowly at the table, lost in thought.
"Yo, so why is it that only four days has gone here, and four months over
there? Never seen somethin' like that," Grimmjow asked, sitting across the
table from the odd man.
Urahara smiled dejectedly. "I have underestimated Aizen's ability to control
the time flow. I honestly didn't think he'd have that much control over the
hogyuko. And I should have foreseen this."
Grimmjow snorted, looking up. "Aizen's a fuckin' bastard. Doing something like
this to that kid, what the fuck is he thinking?"
Urahara tipped his head to the side. "Grimmjow-kun, you seem bothered by this
situation? I thought as a hollow you would appreciate this sort of show of
dominance over the vanquished."
"Like hell. Even as an adjuncta I never did shit like that. I'm a cat hollow,
though, maybe that has something to do with it," he said with a sigh.
Urahara nodded. "Yes, Ichigo said your sword was Pantera?"
Grimmjow nodded, running a hand over the sword thoughtfully.
Urahara sighed, rubbing the bridge of his nose. "Can you tell me anything else
that happened?"
"Szayel, our science freak spent a week or so running tests on him," Grimmjow
said. "I was pissed because I wanted my fight, but found out he wasn't gonna be
fighting again. After that I spent as little time around Los Noches as I could.
I didn't like it. This whole idea of fuckin' breaking someone's spirit. Aizen
was on a power trip, and he showed us Arrancar who was in control when he
needed to," he said, mildly rubbing his left arm at the memory of losing it.
"I think Gin had some time with him, I saw some scars from his blade, but
that's expected, I suppose. For a long time I didn't see him at all, and I
asked if he was dead yet, they said he was locked up alone. Then Aizen pushed
it too far, breaking the kid down like that, humiliating him and taking
everything from him. I'd heard rumors of what was goin' on, so I was checking
on the brat since one of the lower arrancars said he'd been brought up to the
top floors. I think it was Ulquirro that shattered his bones though, I saw him
leaving the hallway the kid was in before I heard him and went to see what tha
issue was. Come to think of it, I guess that was blood I smelled on him, but
fuckin' Ulquirro masks that shit well."
"You are a fascinating arrancar, Grimmjow," Urahara said thoughtfully when
Rukia came to the door.
"He's coming around."
To Urahara's surprise, the hollow shot up before he did to check on Ichigo. He
knitted his brows together under his hat and snapped his fan open. "Yare,
yare," he muttered and followed them into the room.
Ichigo was stirring, groaning still from the residual pain. Most of the wounds
were completely healed, but he would hurt for a while.
Then they heard a voice they recognized, and all of them realized that there
would be trouble.
"What the fuckin' fuck did you fuckin' let them do to my king?" the hollow's
voice moaned and Ichigo's head rolled over, his black and gold eyes bright with
anger.
***** Hollow Rage *****
He didn't get what was happening, one minute he was in his rain soaked world,
the next minute he was blinking at the ceiling of that coy mother fucker's
shop. He turned his head to see the expected throng of people and groaned.
King? He queried in his mind, only to receive a stinging rebuke from Ichigo. No
voice, just a strong emotional outburst that told him to stay the fuck away.
The body they shared hurt. A fucking ton. Everything from the toes to the tips
of the bright orange hair hurt. But that was nothing compared to the pain
streaking through their shared heart. Pain, shame, horror, and a strong impulse
to die. And that's why he was here.
"Why are you in control of Ichigo's body?" the black haired one that drug them
into the mess to start with said, stupidly, he thought.
"Why do you fuckin' think? I can't let him control it right now. I don't feel
like dying yet even if he does," he muttered, looking from each of them hotly.
Inoue gasped. "Wh-what?"
"Fuck, are you all stupid? I'm a fuckin' hallow, and I'm having trouble with
this shit," he said, still not moving. Fuck it hurt. Like his very insides had
been ripped out. Well, they kinda had, after all.
The hat'n'clogs guy kneeled beside him. "Are you in pain still, Hichigo-san?"
"What the fuck do you think, ya coy bastard? I wasn't even close to being in
control and I was screaming myself horse in my inner world prison. Even heard
fuckin' Zangetsu a couple times, and that fucker is calm as a fucking lazy
stream, of course I'm fucking in pain," Hichigo said, scrunching Ichigo's brows
together in an expression similar to Ichigo's trademark scowl.
"You and the zanpakuto spirit knew what was happening?" Uryu asked softly.
The black and gold eyes rolled at them. "Of course, I'm half of his fucking
soul. Now hurry the fuck up and get the fucker's mark off me."
There were exchanged curious glances. Grimmjow cleared his throat.
"His neck." Grimmjow walked over to the prone man/hallow and pointed to the
purple mark that had never really healed. You're going to have to pull tha
bastard's reiatsu out of him, and heal that bite wound. It's a hallow mark. We
mark our mates with 'em, put our rieatsu into them, and makes us able to track
them when we need to. Well, those like me that mate for life, anyway. Mah guess
is that was how he held the connection through the garganta the first time, and
that means he can still get him back if he wants to use it. I fuckin' hope
Szayel's kept his end and kept his loud mouth shut. Otherwise, we're on
borrowed time."
Urahara gasped and flew into a blur of motion. "Time difference, Ichigo's been
here an hour, we have to hurry."
"Hichigo, I'll need your help, Rukia, we need Inoue-chan," he said, directing
people.
Hichigo nodded, feeling very sleepy. "Aw fuck, he's trying to get through to
me," he said. "I'll fight it, but without Ichigo its gonna be hard."
Inoue ran into the room, her eyes still looking hollow as she locked eyes with
the black and gold eyes that were in place of Ichigo's warm chocolate ones.
"Yo, big tits," he said with a smirk, causing a full body blush to spread over
her. Then he leaned back and moaned. "Fuck you Aizen, ya bastard, it ain't that
easy."
Urahara pushed her forward. "Inoue, I need you to reject the reiatsu that Aizen
put into Ichigo, the mark on his neck."
"But when I did that before…" she protested.
Hichigo fixed her with a look. "Look I'm fuckin' in control at the moment, do
what the fuck you have to, I can take it, he can't."
"But…but…" she stammered, her grey eyes brimming with tears already.
Rukia put a hand to her back. "If you don't, Aizen is going to pulling him
through a garganta again like last time," she whispered. "We have no choice."
"I'd fuckin' die than go back," Hichigo growled, his body shaking with the
strain. His own black reiatsu was already swirling around his body as sparks of
the violet reiatsu were trying to take over the black. "Fuck you Aizen," he
snarled again. "Ichigo's a fuckin' beta, I'm not, fucker. My hollow ass ain't
submitting to you with just that, try harder…"
Rukia watched as the internal struggle went on between the hollow and
apparently Aizen. Inoue sat down by his head and placed the golden shield over
the shoulder. As soon as she did, Hichigo let out a screech and blood began to
gush from the spot. Inoue wavered until Hichigo fixed her with a glare.
"Bitch, don't stop, fuckin' don't stop," he growled, his own black reiatsu
flaring all around him.
Urahara stood back, as Tessai stood over, chanting an intricate kido. The room
was already warded, and those present would be able to stand the reaitsu now.
Grimmjow was standing at the side, arms crossed, watching intently. Renji had
pulled Rukia close, her own body shivering at the powers flowing before her and
hoping that the blood that was starting to run across the tatami mats was going
to stop soon.
"Argh, fuck!" Hichgo screamed, his body going ridged as the violet reiatsu was
being pulled under the golden shield. His whole body was shaking. "Get the fuck
out Aizen, no fuckin' way you're staying while I'm fuckin' in control. I told
yer fuckin' ass, I ain't no fuckin' beta."
Renji and Rukia found themselves stepping back away, blood flowing away and
Ichigo's tan flesh paling from the loss. They were standing by Grimmjow.
"What's he mean?" asked Renji, quirking an eyebrow at the espada.
Grimmjow fixed his cyan eyes on the pair. "The beta thing?" he said, frowning.
"Yeah," Uryu said, overhearing what Renji said, and curious himself.
Grimmjow sighed, watching as the reiatsu became more violent and he could
barely see Ichigo's body through the haze of black. "Hollows are animals, you
know that, right? We all take after one. Its because we're base instinct
without tha heart anymore, so we revert to basic ways. I was a panther, small
but fuckin' powerful, until Aizen came along. I hadn't become a vasto lorde
yet, but I was fuckin' close, and would have if Aizen hadn't interfered."
He looked back as Hichigo let out a particularly loud screaming growl that
sounded something like "fuck you Aizen you cunt". He snorted.
"I'm guessin' that's Ichigo's hollow runnin' tha show now," he said glancing at
the others, receiving nods of consent. "He's a vasto lorde, if I don't miss my
guess from tha power. How the fuck that kid is sharing a soul with a fuckin'
vasto lorde is beyond me, but what the hell, doesn't matter. Anyway, us hollows
don't have male and female roles. We just have alpha and beta roles. The need
to control and the need to submit. Usually we take mates here and there, some
like me can be mated for life, others like fuckin' bat boy Uliquirro don't.
Depends on the animal. Some just fuck anythin' tha comes their way. We're
fuckin' animals, remember?"
Everyone was entranced by the blue haired arrancar, even Urahara, trying to
control the bursting reiatsu before him was half listening.
"His hollow said he's not a beta like Ichigo?" Renji asked slowly. "But Ichigo
isn't a hollow, he's human."
Grimmjow smiled. "Doesn't matter much. He's still a fuckin' beta. He doesn't
know it, doesn't think it, but it is. He shares a soul with that alpha, so he
can't be one. Otherwise they would have killed each other."
"But how can that be, Ichigo is the one in control of the body they share, so
he's stronger?" asked Rukia, truly not understanding. "He's bested Hichigo
every time, and finally tamed him to get the vizard power."
Grimmjow smirked. "Yeah, well, alphas don' want pussy betas. If our beta can't
kick our ass and nearly kill us, they die. Stronger is better. I've never had a
beta because of that, I've fuckin' ate every one of them I've come across."
Uryu swallowed. "So Hichigo is happy that Ichigo is stronger?"
"Fuck yes he is. If he wasn't, he would have forced him into the furthest
corner of that body by now. No, he wants him like that. He's proud as fuck of
him, if know the truth. Sure he don't like being beat, but he knows that he's
been bested by tha only one he wants to beat him," Grimmjow said with a smirk.
"Must be nice to feel that way," he muttered watching the violet rieastu try
and escape the confines of the golden shield.
"Ichigo said he told him that he would take over if he let his guard down, and
sounded downright despicable," Rukia mused.
Grimmjow nodded. "He keeps him sharp; on his toes. But he doesn't let him die,
when it comes to it, he fights for him and then goes away. That hollow is
fuckin' strong, and for Ichigo to force him back…" They couldn't miss the light
in his eyes, almost a yearning, as he watched the battle before him, a slow
tongue licking across his lips.
The moment of discomfort was shattered by an ear splitting screech, and a gout
of blood that washed up all over Inoue's hands and arms. She faltered, the
shield shivering at her shock from being covered in blood.
"Stupid woman, don't stop, I've got fuckin' regeneration, I ain't gonna die so
easy," Hichigo yelled. "Fuck you, Aizen!" he screamed again. "I'm fuckin' going
to crush you!"
There was a huge burst of reaitsu then, a violet and the angry red tinged
black. The two forces blasted everyone back to the walls, including Inoue and
Urahara. Tessai, mountain of a man he was, managed to hold his position and
kept chanting over Ichigo. They all could hear Aizen's voice, but couldn't
understand the words, and felt the growling from Ichigo's hollow. As the
reaitsu twisted and pushed above him, they could see a full hallow mask had
formed, with horns. From there, the white of the hollow's body was flowing down
like water, covering Ichigo's form as the reaitsu above him fought.
"You don't know who yer dealing with, fuckin' Aizen," the hollow growled from
under the mask, the transformation continuing until the Ichigo they knew wasn't
there, his skin turned white, his hands and feet altered.
"Vasto lorde…I knew it," muttered Grimmjow, felling the oppressive energy
roiling off of the creature inside Ichigo.
The two gouts of reaitsu continued to intertwine and twist with each other but
finally, the black began to overtake the purple until there was a flash and the
hallow screamed again. He was breathing heavily, and the hallow transformation
began to fall away, finally the mask cracking and disappating. Blood was
everywhere, and there was a feeling like burnt ozone in the room. Where the
room had been barriered, the shimmering walls were cracked and shattering as
everyone's vision cleared. Ichigo's body, lay there now, skin pale from the
blood loss, eyes shut and panting. There was an angry red scar on his shoulder
where the bite wound had been, and long raw red gashes ran down his chest away
from it.
"Ichigo?" Inoue said, crawling forward, calling her power again, the golden
shield coming into existence over him. She hoped his eyes would be brown when
they opened. Slowly, color began to return to his face, the blood being
replaced by her ministrations.
"Oi, thanks big tits," he muttered, eyes fluttering open. Black sclera and gold
pupils looked back at the group.
Grimmjow quirked an eybrow. That was interesting.
"Wh-why are you still here?" asked Rukia, her voice still shaky from the
incredible outpouring of power they'd just experienced.
"Ah told ya, I can't let him die," the hollow said quietly, sitting up, pulling
the sheet over his lap.
There was a look exchanged among them and Urahara kneeled beside him. "He was
going to kill himself, wasn't he?"
There was a collective gasp. The hallow sighed. "I had to take control. I
couldn't let him kill us like that. So I did what I had ta do and I hated ta do
it. And it wasn't hard. Once I pushed him he retreated and now ah can't reach
him, neither can zangetsu. I can't give him control. He'll just end it."
The rest sat down, realizing now that Aizen had been pushed out, that the
hallow intended to talk.
"I couldn't talk ta him, couldn't tell him I was there, and he couldn't tell I
was there, but I could see, feel, hear it all. And I knew it was gonna break
him. We were okay fer a while, ya know. Fuckin' pink haired scientist did about
every test in the world, I think he fuckin' stuck a needle in every goddamned
organ we've got. But he knocked us out some too. I guess Mayuri, fuckin'
psychotic bastard that he is, would love ta do the same thing," he said,
running a hand through the orange locks on his head.
"Then fuckin' Gin took his goddamned turn," he said, running fingers across the
fine long scars and thick patches of scar tissue. "Bastard is good with that
knife of his. But that wasn't too bad, ya know. Hurt like a motha fucker, but
Ichigo was okay with it. He figured about two weeks in that maybe ya'll had got
away and that made him happy. He didn't want ya comin' ta save him, cuz he was
scared you'd end up like him. So that was okay."
Hichigo looked up silently. "Then they left us alone. Fucking completely alone.
Wake up to bread and water, go to sleep, wake up to bread and water, go to
sleep. Ichigo couldn't tell time, a'course. But we spent probably two months
like that. No one to see, talk to, nothin'. Fuck, Ichigo was hopin' that Gin
would come slice him up again, it was that bad. And me an Zan couldn't do shit.
If we'd been able to talk to 'im, it may've been okay. But no, fuckin' Aizen
separated us."
Everyone was settled in to an eerie silence, the only sound a slight buzzing
from Urahara's equipment where he was recording everything that Hichigo was
saying to pass along to soul society. He'd also filmed the incident since the
whole thing started.
"Then I'll be damned if we didn't wake up in a fuckin' bed. Ichigo was so
fuckin' worried about what was happening he didn't see fuckin' Aizen. He didn't
know what the fuck was happening but as soon as Aizen touched him, he fuckin'
was set on fire. I knew what was going on. Fuckin' Szayel had injected him with
some shit to 'arouse' him for Aizen. Two months of no contact, and fucking
drugs in his system meant the kid didn't know what hit him as Aizen took him. I
was fuckin' railing against the walls as I felt his mind start to crack. I
couldn't get through ta tell him it wasn't his fault. That Aizen'd drugged him,
set him up to enjoy the perverted shit he was doing to him," Hichigo had taken
to looking at the ceiling.
"Fuckin' king cracked like a goddamned egg on the second week. Two weeks, two
or three times a day, and it was too much for him. He just laid there and
stopped fighting. He took off the bindings, except the fucking reiatsu sapping
shit, and Ichigo just stopped fightin'," he said with a sigh. "I was proud of
'im though, ya know. Lasting that long. Aizen is a sick and twisted mother
fucking bastard. And every day, Szayel would come and inject that same shit
into him while he was passed out. We didn't sleep, ya know, just passed out
from the pain. Szayel would sometimes inject other shit when Aizen left him
bleeding so much it wouldn't stop. Felt better afterward, but never enough."
Hichigo stared at Grimmjow then. "If this fucker hadn't showed up, we were
done. Ulquirro, fuckin' passive emotionless mother fucker, decided he wanted to
see what all tha fuss was about. Aizen didn't know, fuck, no one was allowed in
there. But he came in while Ichigo was bathing, like he did every time Aizen
left. First few times he nearly scrubbed his skin clean off when he was left
out long enough to bathe himself. I couldn't fuckin' blame him.
"But Ulquirro had this look on his face, fuckin' bastard. I don't think Aizen
had ever been so merciless with him. His body couldn't handle it, and I knew, I
fuckin' knew when Ichigo decided it wasn't worth living anymore. I felt the
fuckin' bones shatter, and fuckin' hell it hurt me, so I can only imagine how
much pain Ichigo was in, since I only received part of the pain from the
outside. An' he thought as soon as Ulquirro left he was gonna crawl in that
bathroom, break somethin', and slit his fuckin' wrists and bleed out before
Aizen came back for his second round. But fuck it hurt and he couldn't even get
up, that's when blue kitty here showed up."
The room was again silent as they couldn't believe what he'd been subjected to.
"Why?" Renji said slowly. "Why would he do this to him?"
Grimmjow grumbled. "You see why I fuckin' came here? The kid shoulda died
fightin', not broken to pieces like this shit."
Urahara sighed. "I think Aizen wanted to make sure that even if he got away, he
would never be able to fight again. And I think Aizen wanted us to get him
back, at some point, just to show us, and soul society, just how useless it was
to fight him."
"Getabishi, so now what?" Hichigo asked. "I can't even get him to come out in
our inner world, can't even find him right now, how the fuck am I supposed to
be a horse to a broken king? He wants to die, that's all I know. And I'm not
lettin' him and he's fuckin' pissed at me right now."
Urahara leaned back on his heels in thought. He knew this was going to be a
long road of recovery, but dealing with someone that not only wanted to die,
but was hiding in a place none of them could reach, was going to be difficult,
to say the least.
"Szayel did tell me that his tests hadn't done much," Grimmjow spoke up. They
all glanced his way. "I don't think that pink haired freak wanted to do what he
did, otherwise we wouldn't have left Las Noches. He knew it was fuckin' messed
up. Considering he held Aizen off as long as he did, I am sure he wasn't lyin.
The idea of creating more like Kurosaki there, hollow/human hybrids, it didn't
work as planned, but this hollow may be different."
"Of course I'm fucking different. I didn't fuckin' just show up. I have always
been in the king's soul, since the day he was made, hell I'm fuckin' half of
his soul. I was passed from his fuckin' mother, so there was no way I could be
recreated. Fuckin' Aizen shoulda known that. This is shit that can't just be
made. One in a fuckin' million," Hichigo said rolling his eyes and standing to
stretch, forgetting the fact that Ichigo was still nude, or perhaps not really
caring. Inoue and Rukia both turned away, faces red. Grimmjow arched a brow and
gave an amused smirk, thinking not bad to himself.
"Yo, hat'n'clogs, I need a fuckin' bath," he said arching one of Ichigo's
orange brows at him.
"Ah, yes, this way," he said, snapping his fan in front of his face as he stood
up, leading the naked man out into the hall to the bathroom. "I'll lay out some
clothes for you, Hichigo-kun."
The silence that followed was nearly deafening, broken only by the humming of
the recording machinery.
***** Nameless Fear *****
Shivering, shivering, why was he so cold? His deep brown eyes opened slowly to
realize he was under water, and breathing fine. For some reason the fact he
could breathe underwater didn't seem to bother him at all. He just laid there,
his back against a sideways building under the water. It was actually kind of
soothing laying here like this.
"Ichigo?" he heard, and he was suddenly angry, very angry and he shot out an
enormous gout of energy at the voice.
"Stay the fuck away," he muttered, rolling over and closing his eyes in the
water. He had hoped he'd drown when he ducked under the rising waters. He
wanted to drown the pain, drown it all.
This wasn't like him. This wanting to die. He knew it wasn't like him to wallow
in self-pity and pain. But what else could he do? Aizen had done those horrible
things to him and he'd enjoyed it, and now, lying here, hidden away underwater
in his inner world, he wanted him to do it to him again. So help him, he wanted
to feel his hands, scratching and clawing flesh from him. He wanted to feel
those hands holding him down, sometimes choking him until his vision was almost
black. He wanted his touches, his body torn apart then put back together by
him. Good god, he wanted it more than he wanted to be free, more than he wanted
to see his friends. More than he wanted to protect his friends. So he just
wanted to die instead of this wanting. This wanting was wrong. He knew that.
What a pitiful creature he'd become.
He'd been ready, honestly. After Ulquirro had left him he tried so hard to get
up to get near the bathroom, there had been a glass mirror in it, but his legs
wouldn't support him. As bad as Ulquirro hurt him, not bothering to give any
pretense of pleasure to him like Aizen did, his body had responded, leaving a
thick wet place on the bed where he'd been pressed up against it. He was so
ashamed he couldn't even think straight and when Grimmjow had entered, all he
could do was wonder how long he would take before he could get into the
bathroom and end it. He'd let him do it to him, not that he could stop him, and
he knew that his body would respond again, bringing him to pleasure again
despite the horrendous pain he was in. Would he even survive that? Blood was
pooling around him like never before, and he was sick to his stomach. Something
inside was torn. Even at his roughest, he'd never bled like this. If Grimmjow
took his own turn, would he just die in the middle? He would have liked that,
dying before he could shame himself again.
But he hadn't done anything, just picked him up and Ichigo finally succumbed to
the pain and passed out. Then he remembered waking up, and looking into Renji's
dark eyes and Rukia's violet ones and wondered what fresh hell this was, was he
using the illusion on him? But he'd never seen his shikai… So he tried to get
away, imagining his dear friends turning on him, pressing him down into the
floor and… But then in a haze he threw up and heard Grimmjow's voice, sending a
shiver through his entire being. Then the pain, oh god the pain in his body,
and it all went blank again.
Something was happening, though, out there. He felt Aizen's pull again, and he
wrapped his arms around himself. No, not again, he couldn't go back out, he'd
stay in here, where he could only feel echoes. He knew Hichigo had taken over.
He remembered floating and that white bastard screaming at him that he was not
going to let him end their life like that. He'd told him to fuck off, it was
his body. Hichigo had rambled on about him being selfish, and Ichigo had
flashed away. He'd found the place rain soaked, but he didn't care. The waters
were rising and he tried to drown himself in it. Unfortunately, it was his
inner world's water, not real water.
Ichigo shivered as he felt Hichigo call forth the full amount of his hollow
power, something that Ichigo had never really experienced. The other vizard had
fought him fully transformed. It was a frightening amount of power, but he was
sure Aizen would overpower him. But he felt something familiar, the warm
tingling of Inoue's power. There was a ripping and tearing sensation, as if it
was yanking something entwined with his soul. Inoue, he thought. You'd be so
disgusted with me now, Inoue. I'm disgusting, he told himself.
Finally, whatever had been going on stopped, and he felt the hollow powers
receding, flooding back inside where they had come from. It was kind of warm,
in a way. Being without the hollow or Zangetsu had been so hard. He hadn't been
able to face his zanpakto spirit yet. How disgusting and filthy he would think
he was in this state.
Even here, in the waters of his inner world, he began to scratch at his skin,
trying to scratch away any trace of the defiling touch. The water was turning
red around him, but he just kept digging into his flesh, his arms, his face,
anywhere he could touch. His hakama were the only part of his clothes he wore,
his top having frayed with his reiatsu, and only now had the hakama reformed on
his body. He ripped them away and attacked his legs, great gouts of blood
washing into the water.
-Urahara Shoten-
Hichigo stood under the water forever it seemed like washing away dried blood,
sticky blood, and fresh blood. How much blood did a body have, anyway? The
water ran red as it flowed down the drain. His whole body was so sore. His
back, hips, and rear bearing the brunt of the soreness. Inoue's healing had
mended the shattered pelvic bones, but damn they still hurt like a son of a
bitch.
He wrapped a towel around his waist, and walked out into the room where a light
conversation had started among the shinigami and allies. It stopped when he
entered the room.
"What? Hat'n'clogs, where's those… holy fuck!" he cried out as blood began to
run down his arms.
He looked down as he saw thick, deep scratches forming on his arms and he knew
what was happening. "Goddammit, Ichigo!" he said, yanking the towel from around
his waist and wrapping it around his arm.
Urahara came around the corner, his arms full of clothes, to find the still
naked Hichigo standing in the middle of the room with the others, all of which
were transfixed by the towel he was holding to his left arm that was quickly
staining red. Then his right arm started to bleed.
"Fuck, king, that fuckin' hurts! Stop it!" he growled as his face and neck
started to bleed.
"What's going on?" Inoue said, jumping up and running toward him, throwing her
shield over him, healing the wounds but fresh ones broke out bleeding as soon
as she healed them. Then blood was running down his thighs and he fell to his
knees.
"Hat'n'clogs, I've got to stop him, I'll be back," the hollow said, closing his
eyes and fading into the inner world, flopping backward onto the floor, blood
running from marks all over his body now.
"Keep healing him, Inoue," Urahara said, draping a towel over his nakedness and
pulling his legs out from under him to make him as comfortable as possible.
"What's causing him to bleed?" Uryu asked, coming over and examining the wounds
that were reforming as quickly as Inoue's power was healing them.
Urahara sighed, sitting on his knees beside his head. "Ichigo is doing it."
"What?" Renji said, moving up to stand over his body, now looking just like
plain old Ichigo with his eyes shut.
"Wounds in your inner world can be carried to the real body in some cases. Some
fights between Ichigo and his hollow have left him needing to be healed here in
the real world. His spirit body is, after all, a spirit body. When he retreats
into his inner world, the things can transfer back like this," Urahara said
slowly.
"But that means…" Rukia said, leaning over to watch as four distinct marks ran
down Ichigo's stomach from the middle out on each side. "He's clawing his own
body?!"
Grimmjow leaned over. "Fuck, this kid is more messed up than I thought…"
-Ichigo's Inner World-
Hichigo flashed from building to building, searching for his king. What was he
going to do if he kept this up? He was really going to die from the inside out.
Finally he stopped and a familiar black clad person appeared beside him.
"Where is he, Zangetsu?" Hichigo asked.
"I've felt a disturbance down below that building. Let's find him and pull him
out of the waters and try and reason with him," Zangetsu said with a sigh.
Hichigo snorted as he flashed off, Zangetsu behind him. "You have no idea,
osan, he's not going to be reasoned with right now."
Zangetsu nodded as they flashed over a part of water that was red in color
instead of the blue of the rest of the rising waters.
"Fuck, king," Hichigo muttered. "I'm glad ya ain't letting him manifest the
blade," he muttered.
Zangetsu shook his head. "He's far too unstable. I will not be used like that.
By either of you."
With that the two spirits dove into the red water, smelling and tasting the
metallic blood around them. If it weren't for Inoue on the outside, he would
have bled out already judging by the amount of blood tinting the water. Hichigo
saw him first, his pale skin in the blood darkened water. Ichigo was so
absorbed in trying to rip his own flesh from his body that he didn't notice the
two figures hurtling at him through the water. He was yelling and cursing and
Hichigo's heart, if he had one, sunk.
"Dirty, filthy skin," he yelled, trying to pull a good size chunk from his arm,
only to have it seal back as Inoue's power affected his real spirit body.
"Disgusting, fucking disgusting, fucking die, die, die, I can't stand to look
at this, I can't stand to fucking be this anymore," he yelled, scraping both
hands at his face, trying to scratch at his eyes now. "God dammit, die already,
fucking Inoue, quit healing me, let me fucking die!" he yelled, realizing now
what was happening as he tried desperately to rip the flesh from his stomach,
trying to dig his fingers deep into the flesh to rip out his own organs if he
could. She couldn't heal that as easily as his skin, he thought. "Fucking
quit," he screamed at the invisible shield.
Then, Zangetsu had him by the right arm, and Hichigo by the left. He struggled
against them as he slurred unintelligible curses and growls at them both. They
forced him up above the water and onto one of the buildings, him screaming and
struggling against them as much as he could.
"Fucking stop!" Hichigo yelled as Zangetsu pulled both his arms painfully up
behind his back, clamping tightly to his wrists.
Ichigo gasped at his white twin, fear flickering into his eyes, and for a
moment he saw Aizen's face, not the hollow and he stopped, panting and
panicked. Zangetsu had a tight and familiar hold on his wrists and he relaxed
into him sighing pleasantly. Zangetsu frowned at him and then at Hichigo over
Ichigo's shoulder. The look on his face was akin to pure bliss.
"Conditioned response," Zangetsu said with a deep sigh.
Hichigo quirked a brow. "What the fuck do you mean, old man?"
"He's conditioned to behave this way. Being held like this, his arms pinned,
it's what Aizen did to him so many times. "
Hichigo frowned, watching Ichigo's face as it relaxed. "What the fuck, he likes
this shit now?"
Zangetsu shook his head. "No, he can't react any other way."
"Well fuck," Hicigo breathed. "Can you handle him from here on, old man?"
Zangetsu nodded. "I'll have to bind him, secure his hands, or he's going to
start trying to do it again. I don't want to do that, its counterproductive,
but we've got no choice."
"Okay, I'm counting on you, Zan. Just…I don't know…make it as far away from
looking like fuckin' Aizen's place as you can. And for godsakes, don't touch
him any more than you have to, we don't need him flipping the fuck out in here
while I'm trying to deal with the idiots on the outside," Hichigo said, fading
from site.
-Urahara Shoten—
Ichigo's body groaned, finally the sprouting fonts of blood quelled, and now
fully healed. They waited eagerly, hoping that they would be met with chocolate
brown eyes of the person they hoped to see.
"Fucking hell!" came from Ichigo's mouth and they all knew it was Hichigo. He
sat up and rubbed his temples. "The fuck am I gonna do with him?"
"What happened?" Urahara said softly from beside him.
"He was fucking trying to rip is own stomach open by the time I got there,
screaming at Inoue to stop healing him and let him die," Hichigo said with a
sigh, leaning back on his hands and staring at the ceiling. "He knew she was
the one doin' it, obviously, and he was intent on doing somethin' she couldn't
repair as quickly. I don't think I've seen so much blood in the water before."
There was a heavy silence. "I think we made it worse," he said softly, looking
at the ceiling still.
"Why is that?" Urahara asked, placing a hand on his bare shoulder.
"We had to restrain him, and the fuckin' minute Zangetsu locked his arms back,
he fuckin' relaxed like he was in a goddamned spa with this totally calm look
on his face. Zan said it was called a conditioned response or some shit. I knew
it was bad, but we got no damn choice if he's going to try and do that."
Urahara sighed scanning the room. Renji sat staring at the ground beside Rukia,
while Inoue sat against the wall beside Hichigo. Uryu and Chad both stood
beside Grimmjow, neither one fully trusting the sexta espada. Yourichi had gone
somewhere, and Unohana and Hanataro were still resting in the basement.
Hichigo reached over and grabbed the clothes that Urahara was holding and stood
up, dressing in front of the group. He pulled up the jeans over his much too
thin hips and looked up when everyone was turned away, again Rukia and Inoue a
bright shade of red. Grimmjow was the only one staring unabashed at him as he
dressed, one eyebrow quirked.
"Seriously? All of you never seen a fuckin' man naked before?" Hichgo said,
stuffing himself into the jeans and grabbing the shirt and pulling it on.
Urahara cleared his throat and snapped his fan open in front of him. "Well, I
think we all need rest, including you, Hichigo. That body looks seriously
malnourished and weakened."
Hichigo ran his hands over the incredibly thin body. There was nearly no muscle
definition left, all semblance of tone and strength atrophied. It was a wonder
he could stand and walk as well as he did. Well, the truth was, he was putting
a hell of a lot of his reiatsu into it to simply stay vertical.
"I guess the king wouldn't like it much if I went around finding tasty souls to
eat, would he?" he muttered.
There was another collective gasp. "Ah, lay off," he said, waving at him. "I
know what my king would want me to do. Just because I'm in control doesn't mean
I'm going all the shit he would want to kill my sorry ass for. But I might
check out a strip club or two," he said, licking his lips with a smirk. "Fuck
me a couple strippers, um…that would be fun. Maybe two at once…"
"Um, Hichigo, I think it best if you stay here until your body is back to
normal, as much fun as that sounds for you."
Hichigo slanted his black and gold eyes and looked at hat'n'clogs. "Maybe I
could take you for a ride, eh, getabishi? I bet you ain't been laid in a while.
King had a couple interesting thoughts on how that'd go down."
"I see Ichigo hasn't returned yet," a voice at the door said. They looked up to
see Issin, this time in his jeans and t-shirt. "What's happening?"
"Yo, pops, what's up?" Hichigo said with a smirk.
"Why are you here, where's Ichigo?" he asked, his face starting to get heated.
Urahara put a hand on his old friend's shoulder gently. "Issin-kun, please,
don't get upset with Hichigo. He's doing everything he can, and I've got
everything recorded, so you can see what's happened for yourself, okay? It's
easier than explaining it to you. Come back here," he said as he pulled the man
away from Ichigo. Hichigo grinned and stuck his tongue out, and then looked
down at his tongue. It was blue.
"Fuck it all," he muttered.
Renji stood up and looked closer at his tongue. "Why is it blue now? It wasn't
earlier. It was only blue when you manifested fully before all this stuff."
HIchigo sighed. "King is letting go control. The longer this takes to put him
back in tha' driver's seat, the more this body is gonna change into my form,
until there's no goin' back."
"How long do we have?" asked Rukia standing beside Renji, gripping his hand
tight.
Hichigo shook his head. "I dunno, but we gotta come up with something fast. Now
ya'll get the fuck out, I'm goin' to sleep."
They all left, Inoue, Chat and Uryu heading to their respective homes, and
Renji and Rukia standing alone in the front of the shop waiting to ask Issin if
they could spend the night in Ichigo's room so they didn't bother anyone,
especially Hichigo. After a while, Issin came back, rubbing the bridge of his
nose, and he looked like his eyes were red. It was decided that they would come
back with them, it being almost dinner anyway. Yuza would have cooked enough
for an army, for sure. And Karin would like seeing both Renji and Rukia, no
doubt. Both Renji and Rukia donned their gigai and headed out with Issin,
waving to Urahara.
Dinner was a fun affair at the Kurosaki household, as usual, and despite what
was happening, Issin kept happy for his daughters. Kon, in Ichigo's body, had
been sent to Urahara's shop, just in case they needed to transfer him back. The
girls had been told he was off studying with Uryu and Chad for the evening. And
for a while, there was nothing wrong with the worlds.
Rukia and Renji headed upstairs to Ichigo's room where they stood for a long
moment. Finally Rukia spoke. "I'll take the closet, I fit in there okay, you
take his bed."
She moved to turn away but Renji grabbed her, turning her back, and saw her
eyes brimming with tears. He crushed her into his chest and held her as she
began to sob against him. No words needed to be said. Guilt and concern
overflowed in both of them, as Renji felt soft tears falling from his eyes to
the top of Rukia's head.
Before either of them knew what happened, their mouths were crushed against
each other, heated lips, teeth and tongues swirling together. The sweet scents
of each other mixed with the salt of the bitter tears. Not willing to lay on
the bed of their friend together, Renji lowered her to the floor, kissing and
soothing her as he went. Before a few more moments their clothes were gone they
were moving together trying to capture some sort of fleeting ecstasy to relieve
the pain in their hearts. The entire time, their tears never stopped, and they
never stopped kissing them away off of each other's faces. When they were done
they lay side by side on the floor and stared at Ichigo's ceiling.
"I guess we needed that," Renji sighed. It had been months since they had been
together, and they had decided after their last encounter that they were going
to end it. Yet here they were.
"Yeah," Rukia whispered, slowly replacing her clothes and climbing into the
closet.
Renji replaced his hair tie, and pulled on the jeans he'd been wearing. He slid
into Ichigo's bed and lay down. Soon he heard the soft sounds of Rukia's
snoring, her nose still stuffed from tears. He felt his own tears wetting the
pillow as Ichigo's scent wafted from the pillow into his nostrils. What hurt
the most was that unless something gave, he'd never get to tell that stupid
orange haired brat how he felt about him.
***** Forgetting How to Breathe *****
Renji and Rukia slowly left the Kurosaki house, it was the weekend, so the
girls were not in school. Yuzu had made breakfast and told Rukia and Renji to
make sure that her brother got home in time for dinner tonight because she was
making him a chocolate cake because he loved chocolate. Renji and Rukia didn't
mention their night of passion. It had been for comfort, solace from the cold
fear that was creeping in both of their hearts. Ichigo was their friend, he'd
given up his whole life for Rukia and Soul Society. And they couldn't do
anything.
They made it to the shop, and went in to find Hichigo and Grimmjow seated at
the table in the kitchen having breakfast.
"How the fuck ya live on this shit?" muttered Hichigo over his plate of eggs
and bacon. "It don't even have anything in it."
Grimmjow snorted. "You've been watchin' the world out his eyes for how long and
ya don't get that?"
Hichigo frowned, shoveling another bite of the hot eggs into his mouth. "Well,
I didn't fuckin' think I'd be the one eatin' this shit. Figured I got control
I'd go hunt up some hollows or a few wandering souls."
Grimmjow snickered this time, leaning back in his chair, shaking his head at
the other hollow. "I got used to havin' it around Aizen's place. The shinigami
don't eat hollows like the arrancar, so Aizen had a buttload of this stuff
frozen and put away. Some if it ain't half bad. Fish is pretty good."
They heard a snicker as Renji lost it, starting to laugh in ernest at
Grimmjow's comment. Rukia frowned.
"He likes fish!" Renji finally said when he stopped laughing so hard.
Grimmjow cocked an eyebrow and stared at the redheaded shinigami with a death
glare. "The hell, shinigami?"
"Eh hem, I believe Abarai-kun is referring to the fact that cats like fish of
all kinds, and you, Grimmjow-kun are a cat hollow," Urahara said walking up and
flipping his fan open in front of his face.
The quick flush that ran up Grimmjow's cheeks was enough for Urahara to flip
his cane up and press it into his forehead, stopping him in his seat as he was
about to explode out of it at Renji, who was still snickering.
"Now, Grimmjow-kun, he's just having a little fun, he means no harm," Urahara
said as Grimmjow tried to move from under the cane but found himself firmly
fixed in place. "Now, please, I don't want my shop torn up again, so if you and
Abarai-kun want to spar, take it down stairs."
Hichigo smirked. "Now that fuckin' sounds like a plan. I gotta get this kid's
body back in shape, being tied up for four months has turned him into a
weakling. But I can force it with a little help from my reiatsu. Keep going
when the body wants to give up. Inoue can heal any strains or breaks I get."
"Hichigo-kun, please, I'd rather you not tear up the body we just put back
together," Urahara said, his eyes peeking from the shadows of his hat.
Hichigo was already moving. "Come on, fuckers, show me what yer made of," he
said, gesturing to Renji and Grimmjow.
Urahara sighed and sunk into the seat Hichigo had just vacated, leaving him and
Rukia alone while the boys took their aggression downstairs.
"Will he be okay?" Rukia asked.
"I'm sure, Hichigo has instant regeneration, so he can heal back most
anything," Urahara said as he watched Grimmjow disappear into the hall.
"That's not what I mean," she said, staring at her hands.
Urahara turned back, placing his fan down on the table. He reached over and
grabbed her hand gently. "He will, Rukia, he will. But it will take time."
Then her tears came again. "I did this to him, Urahara-sama. Me. If I hadn't
run into him…"
Urahara patted her hand. "Rukia, his power was awakening then already. If it
hadn't been you, it would have come about on its own. Issin-kun and I have been
waiting a long time to see what happened with Ichigo."
Unohana came in the room, Hanataro in tow. Urahara smiled. "Retsu-kun, I see
the boys chased you from your rest."
She nodded pleasantly. "Yes, but I must report to the head captain, so may I
take the copies of the debriefings."
"Of course, wait here a moment!" Urahara said leaping lightly to his feet.
Rukia looked up. "Unohana-taichou," she said softly. "Do you think he'll be
okay, I mean, eventually?"
The fourth squad captain smiled gently, and nodded. "With work and much
patience, and know he will need you all to help him through it, no matter what
he says. He will push you away when he comes out, do not let him."
Urahara came back and handed her a small black box. "Here, have a good return
trip," he said giving her a bow. She returned it and left. Hanataro gave a shy
wave as he exited the shoten.
-Soul Society-Captain's Meeting—
"Unohana-taichou, present your report for the rest of the captains," the head
captain boomed.
The dark haired woman stepped out in the middle, glancing up and down the
others. All were present, even Ukitake.
"The substitute shinigami, Kurosaki Ichigo, was returned to the world of the
living by the sexta espada known as Grimmjow," she began and was met with
murmurs around her.
"Silence!" the head captain demanded.
"With the help of Urahara Kisuke, former taichou of twelth division, we
recorded the debriefings from those that went to Los Noches as well as
Hichigo."
"Who is Hichigo?" asked Ukitake quietly.
Unohana nodded to him. "Hichigo is what the hollow that shares Kurosaki-san's
soul calls himself to distinguish between him and Kurosaki-san. The hollow is
currently in control of the substitute shinigami's body." Another murmur
rippled through the room.
"Unohana-taichou, are you of the opinion that this 'Hichigo' is dangerous?"
asked the head captain.
"No, head captain," she said. "He is currently trying to reach Kurosaki-san's
soul and return it to control of their shared body. I do not feel that he is a
threat, and everything we saw agreed with that. At this point, I will show
those present the recordings Urahara Kisuke made."
There was a screen that all of them could see. The first was when the group
first came back into the world of the living, with Ichigo in tow. She flicked
to the next ones, which were in series, each of those involved telling Urahara
what had happened from their point of views. Then she played the recording
where Urahara summoned the hollow's spirit, and the disappearance of Ichigo.
She paused and glanced at the group.
"The next section is rather long, and disturbing in some parts. As you've seen,
the hollow known as Hichigo is brash and vulgar, but he was awake during the
ordeal that Kurosaki-san went through," she said but was interrupted.
"Aren't we overreacting?" Mayuri groaned from his position. "The boy was gone
for four days."
"Unfortunately, Kurotsuchi-taichou, it seems that Aizen has some control over
the flow of time between worlds. Our time advanced four days. For him, time
advanced four months."
Mayuri's jaw tightened and he returned to his position as Unohana played the
last video. After the watched Hichio leave, they started to mutter amongst
themselves.
"Please, there is more," Unohana said, and fixed a glare that made everyone in
the room stiffen and be quiet.
The rest of the scene played out and turned to the head captain. "It is my
assessment that the substitute shinigami has retreated to his inner world. He
has attempted suicide one time, and is now being restrained by his zanpakto
spirit. He has undergone physical and sexual abuse and torture for a total time
of four months. His injuries when he arrived were so severe that had Inoue
Orhime not been present, he would have died within half an hour's time.
According to the espada, Aizen peformed tests on Kurosaki-san in an attempt to
create a more perfect arrancar. His hollow doesn't have a hollow hole, and I
posit that Aizen believed that it would make him much stronger. The hollow, as
you saw in the recording, that currently resides with Kurosaki-san is of vasto
lorde class."
"Thank you for the full report, Unohana-taichou. Now, the rest of you, Soifon-
taichou, I want you and stealth force to head to the world of the living and
watch for any incursions. Aizen will want the arrancar and the substitute
shinigami back, no doubt. We must not let that happen. Both are too valuable to
us. I also want a guard on the espada at all times, without his knowledge. He
will remain confined with Urahara Kisuke for the time being, as well as
Kurosaki Ichigo. I also want an eye on him at all times. Kurotsuki-taichou, I
want you to contact Urahara Kisuke and get as much information on what Aizen
could have obtained by examining the boy. Organize your own testing through
him. Do not, I repeat, do not traumatize the boy any further. The appearance of
the hollow in control of his body is dangerous and we do not want it to
continue or we will have to terminate the boy no matter his value. Zaraki-
taichou, send two of your seated officers that the substitute shinagami is
familiar with to the world of the living to help. Kuchiki-taichou, I ask that
you allow Abarai-fukutaichou to remain with the boy for the time being. I
request the same of you, Ukitaki-taichou for Kuchiki Rukia. Dismissed."
-Urahara Shoten—
"Is that all you got, red pineapple?" Hichigo crowed from the other side of the
desert looking basement standing on top of a large boulder.
Renji growled, sending Zabimaru's bankai after the hollow currently occupying
Ichigo's body. He deftly leapt and ran down the spines of the giant skeletal
snake. Oh no you don't, Renji thought, sepearting the spines to try and wrap
around him, but found a hand suddenly on his shoulder as the black clad
shinigami vaulted over his shoulder. When did he do that?
He laughed from behind him, attacking with what seemed to be complete abandon,
spinning and twisting in the air, similar to how Byakuya had described his
attacks. Red lined black reaitsu flickered around them both before Grimmjow
came crashing down slamming Ichigo's body away from the attack.
Hichigo stood up, some hundred meters away, wiping blood away from his already
healing cheek. "Not bad, I thought you'd stay down longer!"
Grimmjow was huffing and puffing, indeed, having taken a black Getsuga Tensho
almost full force a few minutes ago. If it had hit him square he would have had
a second scar to match the first one on his chest that Ichigo had given him.
They'd been "sparring" for almost an hour, and Hichigo showed no signs of
tiring. Both Renji and Grimmjow were sweat soaked and slowing, while Hichigo
seemed to only get faster. Was this the power that his orange headed friend had
simmering under the surface? Why hadn't he exploded from this? This thing was a
monster. Then to both their surprise he held up his hand and was charging a
cero. Renji blocked with Zabimaru, and Grimjow blocked with his own cero,
avoiding too much damage. From above they heard a voice.
"Yare, yare, you boys are loud! Have you worked off steam yet? Lunch is ready!"
Hichigo smirked and flash stepped out of the basement, leaving both Renji and
Grimmjow shaking their heads.
"He wasn't even in bankai," Renji muttered. Grimmjow nodded slowly, noticing
the same thing. "What is with that thing?"
Renji put away Zabimaru and headed toward the ladder, followed by Grimmjow. No
wonder Grimmjow had struggled with the boy if he was at the same time trying to
keep that beast under control. They headed up to find Hichigo stuffing his face
hurriedly, as though the food was going to run off his plate.
"Easy there, Hichgo," Renji said, arching a brow. "Ya gonna choke if you keep
that up."
Hichigo paused then closed his eyes, remembering. "Ya know, as annoying as
fuckin' human food is, king missed the fuck outta it. It took a month before
his body stopped expectin' any. That kinda hurt him, ya know, when he realized
that."
He leaned back as the others sat down. "Imma gonna check on 'im. See if
Zangetsu has made any progress. If not, I dunno what the fuck we're gonna do."
Hichigo got up and went into the bedroom he'd been in and closed the door
slowly. He took a deep breath and sat down against the wall. "Come on king,
don't give up," he muttered as he closed his eyes and sunk into their shared
inner world.
Outside, Urahara jumped up and flipped on a switch, bringing a monitor to life
that showed the interior of the room. He looked at the others, snapping his fan
open.
"Motion sensing cameras. I want to observe anything that might happen after
last time," he explained.
As it looked like Hichigo settled in, they resumed talking, until Urahara
looked up, seeing Yourichi returning with Ikkaku, Soifon, and Yumichika tagging
along.
"Yumichika-san, Ikkaku-san, Soifon-taichou!" announced Urahara with a grin and
fanning himself vaguely as they entered.
"The head captain ordered us to make sure things weren't going badly," Soifon
said tightly, unable to avoid glaring at Urahara.
"You mean to kill him if Ichigo doesn't regain control," Urahara said arching a
brow behind his fan.
Grimmjow turned to the petite woman. "What? You mean, after all this, you'd
just kill him?"
"He is a risk, the head captain knows this. We cannot allow a vasto lorde to
run rampant in the world of the living, even if he is in the body of the
substitute shinigami," Soifon said, glaring at Grimmjow.
Grimmjow's face was livid. "Look, I risked everything to drag him back to ya,
gave up everything, and figured I'd have a death sentence either way, and you'd
just kill him cuz he might be a risk?"
"Settle down, Grimmjow-kun," Urahara said. "Why don't you go sit with Hichigo
in case he needs anything?" Grimmjow glowered at the small captain and then
went to do as he had been asked.
"Your pets seem to be leashed well," Soifon muttered under her breath.
"Enough, Soifon," Yourichi said, her arms crossed staring at the small woman.
Soifon's breath hitched and she bowed to Yourichi. "Yourichi-sama, I apologize,
I did not mean…"
"We know what your orders are, but we are going to hold off on any decisions
until we have a chance to fix this. I've got an idea that might help, but I'm
still working out the details. Mayuri has been helping me with it," Urahara
said with a sigh. His old team member was so difficult since he'd taken his
place as the head of twelfth division.
Then a scream woke them from their discussion, and they were all headed into
the next room to see what the distress was.
-Ichigo's Inner World—
"Go away!" Ichigo spat at the white version of himself as he sat on the chair,
his hands tied down the arms. It had be a safe way to tie him, having never
been confined in this manner.
"Ichigo, ya gotta show some sign that it's you that don't want ta come out, or
they're goin' ta think I'm lyin', and then who knows what they'll do!" Hichigo
pleaded.
"Go the fuck away!" Ichigo repeated, turning his head away as far as he could.
Hichigo sighed and stood up looking at the always impassive Zangetsu. He had
been arguing with him forever, it felt like. And he'd gotten nowhere. He
thought for a moment then looked at Zangetsu.
"If I force him to the surface, what will happen?" he asked his darker
counterpart.
"What, the fuck you are!" Ichigo burst out.
Zangetsu shook his head. "He may come back just as quickly, or he may stay
there for a little while at least. It may be worth a try."
"No, you leave me alone!" he said as Hichigo grabbed him and lifted him from
the chair after releasing the bindings on his arms.
"Time for a little ride, king," Hichigo said with a smirk and took off upward
to the surface of his consciousness.
-Urahara Shoten—
Ichigo gasped, his eyes flying open and looking around. He was in his body. He
wasn't in his inner world, and he started to panic. Then when a hand touched
his shoulder he screamed, causing Grimmjow to jump back. He pulled away and
scrambled to the furthest corner in the room as the door opened and Urahara was
followed by Renji and Rukia while the rest stayed outside, still watching on
the monitor.
"S-stay b-back," he muttered, hiding behind his hands. "G-get away…"
Renji moved forward slowly, carefully. "Ichigo? It's me, Renji, it's fine,
you're fine, you're here at Urahara's shop."
Ichigo shook his head. "No I wanna go back, I wanna go back…"
Rukia kneeled down beside Renji now. "Come on, Ichigo, we're here for you,
okay? Just come on and stay with us."
Ichigo stared at them, his once vivid brown eyes dull and lifeless almost. "No,
I wanna go back, wanna go back, wanna go back," he kept repeating, rocking back
and forth with his hands wrapped around his knees.
Then, he collapsed forward in a heap. A second passed then they heard his
voice. "Fuck all!"
Hichigo sat up, his black and gold eyes flashing. He ground his teeth together
and hit his head against the wall. "I got him out for a minute, but that ain't
gonna work again. Banking on the shock value, ya know, but it was too much, he
just couldn't do it."
Renji and Rukia both let out a deep sigh. Grimmjow snorted. "He certainly is
fucked up, ain't he?" he asked to no one in particular. "I see fuckin' Aizen
again, I'd like to rip out his throat."
"Wouldn't we all," Rukia said, surprising everyone.
Urahara smiled then. "Well the good news is my invention is ready to try out,
if I can have a couple volunteers!"
"What is it?" Renji asked, glancing up.
Urahara smiled. "I'm going to hook two people up to Hichigo here, and use the
connection between zanpakto to let him drag you into their inner world with
Ichigo. Then, hopefully, you can coax him to come out again."
"I'll do it," both Renji and Grimmjow said at the same time, then glanced at
each other.
"Great! Having one shinigami and one arrancar would be ideal since I do not
know who will be more successful at navigating his inner world. Wait here with
Hichigo-kun and I'll get the equipment ready in the next room!" Urahara said
and practically bounced out of the room with glee.
"Scientists," Grimmjow and Renji said together shaking their heads.
***** His Sideways World *****
There was more than a small amount of tension in the room as Urahara led both
Renji and Grimmjow to lay down beside Hichigo. Hichigo glanced back and forth
between all three of them, then to the "audience" they had. Yumichika, Ikkaku,
Rukia, Uryu, Inoue and Chad all stood at the other end of the room, fascinated.
"Fuck, man, buncha goddamned voyeurs," Hichigo muttered.
Urahara clapped to get his subjects' attention. "Okay this may take a couple
tries to accomplish, so I may have to make some adjustments to the equipment.
Renji, Grimmjow, this isn't safe for either of you. Ichigo's going to fight the
intrusion, and I don't know what you'll see when you go in there. Hichigo, keep
your temper in check as best you can."
The black and gold eyes rolled up into the face they all knew so well in a way
that vaguely resembled the owner of the body.
"Whatever, coy bastard. Let's get it on," he said flopping his head back.
There were some wires and some electrodes and a bunch of chanting above him but
Hichigo just wanted to get back into the inner world and see Ichigo again. He
missed him and that stupid scowl.
It seemed like the world tilted and Hichigo stood in the familiar landscape,
rain pouring and halfway submerged. Beside him, Grimmjow and Renji nearly
stumbled realizing they were standing on the side of a building.
"Wha…" Renji said, looking around him. "We're sideways?"
Hichigo shrugged. "I'm used to this, except the goddamned rain. I hate the
fucking rain."
"Why's it raining?" asked Grimmjow, unsure what exactly he was supposed to do
here.
Hichigo began to walk the direction he'd left Ichigo and Zangetsu. "Fucking
king, man, he gets depressed it fuckin' rains. And right now the damn place is
about to drown in fuckin' water it's been raining so long."
Renji and Grimmjow exchanged a look. The very tops of the buildings emerged
from the water, but there really weren't that many visible. They followed him
as he slipped through the window into one of the buildings remaining above
water. The two larger men followed the hollow, unsure what they would find.
Inside, the black clad Zangetsu stood against the wall and stared at them. "Who
is this, Hichigo? Why have they come?" he asked the pale version of Ichigo.
"Tryin' to fuckin' help the king, whaddaya think, Zan," he said and looked
around. "Where the fuck is he, I thought you had him tied up in here?"
Zangetsu shook his head. "He disappeared when he sensed the intrusion. I do not
know where he has gone. But expect him to fight you every inch of the way,
Hichigo. Be careful. I will not manifest for you, even here."
"Got it, ossan," Hichigo said, noting the lack of a sword at his hip. "Well,
fuck, let's go find the bastard."
This time, when they exited the building, they were in Karakura Town, standing
beside the water. The rain was pouring down and they heard the choking sobs of
a child. Renji moved forward first, followed by the others.
"Really, king, yer doin' this?" Hichigo muttered.
There was a small boy leaning over a larger body with the trademark bright
orange hair. He was crying, sobbing, against the blood caked woman below him.
Renji kneeled beside him and the boy looked up, brown eyes flooded with thick
sadness.
"She's dead!" the boy said, choking on the sob. "I wanted to help that girl,
why did Mom die? Momm…" he moaned and buried his face in the bloody hair of the
woman under him.
Renji reached out to touch the boy, tousling his wet orange hair gently.
"Ichigo, it hurts, but let her go," he said softly, knowing too well the loss
of those he loved.
The boy's face was a mask of complete terror as he jerked his head up and
scrambled back from Renji, almost into Grimmjow's lap who had kneeled down
behind him. At another touch he turned his head and screamed at Grimmjow's
frowning face, but Grimmjow had the boy in a tight grip, arms wrapped around
his chest securely as he struggled against him. Renji moved forward, the world
around them shifting as the scene changed to an empty field, and the boy was
bigger, now, older, still fighting Grimmjow's touch.
"Let me go, let me go," he screamed, fighting the large arms that held him in
place.
"Ichigo, it's okay, it's me, Renji, no one is going to hurt you anymore!" Renji
said, placing his hands on the boy's thrashing arms.
For a second the boy, who looked about twelve years old now stopped and looked
up at him with clouded eyes. Renji was captured by the look that completely
unbroken Ichigo. Though clouded his eyes were set with fury and danced brightly
behind the clouded sheen. So he was still in there. He wasn't too far gone yet.
Then the boy screamed, and all three, even Hichigo, fell to their knees as they
felt their heads about to explode. Then, with a gasp, all three sat up in
Urahara's shop. Blinking they looked at each other.
"What happened?" Renji asked, pulling the cords off his head.
Urahara looked at his read outs. "It looks like he forced you out, but at least
you aren't hurt."
"We encountered a child version of Ichigo, so maybe he wasn't so strong yet,"
muttered Renji, rubbing his head where a headache was blooming.
Hichigo stood up and stretched. "Well, I'm bored. I'm going out."
"What, you can't just do that, what if Aizen…" started Rukia.
He fixed her with the gold and black eyes and even Rukia felt the heat rolling
off that stare. "Fuck Aizen. I'm goin' the fuck out and do something to piss
the king off. Maybe he'll come out if I piss him off enough."
Urahara snapped his fan open. "Hichigo, are you sure that's a good idea? You
can't go devouring souls or hollows around here."
Hichigo fixed the hat and clog wearing shop owner with a hot stare. "Fuck,
getabishi, I know that. I'm gonna go find someone to fuck."
With that, they watched as Ichigo's body turned to leave. Renji reached out and
grabbed him by the arm.
"Oi, red pineapple, you offering to be the bottom bitch?" he asked, an orange
eyebrow raised.
Renji pulled his arm back like he was stung. "Wha-"
Hichig smiled, blinking his eyes seductively at him. "Hrm, king might not mind
if it was you. Don't know how he'd react to being the one topping, though," he
said thoughtfully.
"Hichigo, do you think engaging in such acts is going to help after what he's
been through?" Urahara asked from behind his fan, hiding the fact that his
cheeks had heated up.
"Not like I'm going to be letting someone tie me down and beat me or some
twisted shit. If I put him in control, maybe his sorry ass will snap out of it.
Pleasure without fuckin' pain, and shit," Hichigo said rolling his eyes.
Honestly, not wanting to tell him his plan.
Urahara blinked, honestly surprised at the hollow before him. He'd thought of a
plan to show Ichigo that what had happened was wrong and that it could be
different.
"Look, king is a beta, okay, that means that he'll never fuckin' take control.
So even if he were to fuckin' come out now and take over, he'd stay a mewling
fuckin' mess for who knows how long. It don't matter if it was a fuckin' man or
woman, they'd be the one makin' things happen. He'd still feel that way. So I
thought I'd fuckin' take the chance while I'm in charge and make him feel
somethin'," Hichigo said with a sigh.
"Okay. I'll do it."
Everyone turned to look at Renji. He was staring at the floor but looked up, a
harsh blush going over his face. "I'll do it if you think it'll help 'im."
Rukia visibly blanched. "Renji, you can't just…that's…you're not…"
Renji gave her a crooked grin. "Wouldn't be the first time. And Ichigo'd be
pissed at all of us if this bastard got something off a hooker."
The silence that followed was nearly too much for the red-haired shinigami.
"Whatever, look, I don't talk about shit like that, but I've been around a few
times, Rukia," he said, turning his eyes away.
"But…but…we…" she stammered, unable to really put a coherent thought together.
He sighed. "Rukia, really? Yer gonna give me flack about this now?"
"If you fuckers don't want a real show, get the fuck out," Hichigo said,
already tossing off his shirt toward the side of the room, and unbuttoning his
pants.
There was a mass exodus as everyone in the room seemed to try and move as fast
as they could. Rukia leaving Renji with a concerned glance.
"It's okay Rukia, I'm fine," he said as the door slapped shut.
Hichigo had shucked all but the boxer shorts already and was sitting on the
floor. He glanced behind him. Grimmjow had stood against the wall, remaining
unmoving. He grinned at the espada.
"Oh, SEX-ta espada's gonna stick around and watch, eh?" Hichigo nearly purred.
Outside, Yumichika, Ikkaku, Urahara, and the others were all crammed into the
kitchen with the first three around the monitor where they were watching
intently what was happening in the room.
Rukia frowned. "What are you doing? Turn those off! You're recording this?" Her
anger was apparent.
Urahara shooshed her. "I have to make sure Hichigo doesn't hurt Ichigo with
this. We'll know if he can tolerate this very soon I'm sure. I'm watching the
reiatsu patterns to see if he's in distress."
Rukia grudgingly nodded then stared at Ikkaku and Yumichika. "And you two?"
Yumichika smiled softly running a hand through his hair. "I think it's quite
beautiful, those two together."
Ikkaku simply grinned and waved her off. "Go away, Rukia-san," he said, pushing
her lightly.
"Wait, where's the arrancar?" she asked, realizing he wasn't in the room.
"He's still in there," Urahara said, hiding a faint blush as Hichigo stripped
down to his undershorts.
"Well, red pineapple, let's see what ya got," Hichigo muttered, turning away
from the voyeur in the room.
"But, Grimmjow," Renji stammered.
Hichigo shrugged his thin shoulders, now more muscle showing after the intense
training he'd put himself through. "Let 'im watch."
Renji blushed this time at the thought of having someone witness what he was
about to do. Its for Ichigo, he thought. Nothing else they were trying was
working. It made sense to him, and HIchigo knew him better than anyone, being
half of his soul. He, of course, had forgotten about the fact the rooms were
recorded.
"Yeah, well it's been a while since…" Renji said, pulling his shirt over his
head, revealing the sculpted abdominal and pectoral muscles striped with the
tattoos that made him look like some sort of tribal god.
"Since you had a fuck, or since you were on the bottom?" asked Hichigo,
quirking an eyebrow.
"Ah, second," he said tightly, standing over Hichigo with his hands set on his
hips.
Hichigo nodded. "How long?"
Renji tilted his head in thought. "About thirty years, I think," he said
thoughtfully.
"Yer an alpha, ain'tcha?" Hichigo purred. Renji quirked an eyebrow. "I can
tell, the way ya move, the idea of being the bottom don't appeal like being tha
one doin' the fuckin', eh?"
Renji shrugged. It was true, he wasn't too keen on this. The one time he had
done it he really hadn't liked the feeling of being out of control under
someone else's power. But he was willing to do it for Ichigo. To get him back
out of the self-made hell inside his own head.
"Does it matter? Ichigo needs this, you said, or are you just fuckin' around
with us all?" Renji asked, suddenly hot, thinking maybe this hollow was playing
them all for fools.
Hichigo was taken aback a bit, not expecting him to react this way. Well, he
should know he wasn't trusted, after all. "Look, ya don't have to fuckin' do
this if ya don't want. But the kid's a fuckin' virgin. I thought he'd rather
fuck someone he had feelin' for than someone he didn't know yet."
Renji lifted his head slowly and stared at the black and gold eyed creature in
front of him. "Feelings? He has feelings for me?"
Hichigo sighed, growing impatient. "Yes, I wasn't fuckin' making shit up when I
first showed up, ya know. He just don' know how to say it to ya, or anyone
else. He's confused, and now he's even more confused. Fuckin' pain and
pleasure, it's all one big fuckin' way to control him. He feels dirty, used,
and he don't know how to fix it, so he's fuckin' hidin'. Now fuckin' shuck the
pants, red."
Renji was on his back on the floor before he knew what happened. Hichigo was
fast, and he was using that even in this. Even sex, it seemed, to this creature
was like a battle. He captured Renji's mouth forcing his way into it with
aggression that Renji hadn't ever mustered when kissing. His hands were
seemingly everywhere, running over the nooks and crannies of his chest and
sides with surprising gentleness. Before he knew it, Renji was letting out a
whine. Hichigo's impatient hands were ripping the jeans down over his hips and
Renji wondered just when he'd unbuttoned them. In a moment they had flipped
positions, Renji over Hichigo now, pressing his lips with insistence on the
side of his neck, nipping and licking the skin, and it smelled just like
Ichigo. Part of his heart ached, knowing that it wasn't really Ichigo who was
lying under him. And he really wished it was.
Against the wall, Grimmjow could barely continue his expression. He couldn't
believe what he was watching right in front of him. He'd seen plenty of hollows
rut, but this, there was something incredibly arousing about watching the two
men writhe in front of him, a mass of arms, lips and teeth. He kneeled down and
watched, his eyes never losing their contact on the two now mostly nude males
before him.
Then once again they flipped positions, Renji's hands sliding into the
waistband of the too big undershorts that the possessed kid was wearing. They
slid effortlessly over the too thin hipbones revealing a much larger surprise
for the red headed shinigami.
"I guess I forgot to say, king's got it all the right places, eh, feral boy?"
Hichigo purred, his eyes practically burning with the gold in the center.
Renji growled deep in his throat grasping the newly released member, running
fingers up and down, stopping to toy with the leaking tip. Hichigo arched his
back, grinning manically.
"Um, yeah, thirty years…I think you had quite some practice…" Hichigo murmured
leaning backwards, leaving his hips on the red head's belly and arching his
back. In one fluid motion, without even sliding backward, he yanked the older
shinigami's shorts off, baring his own weeping member to the whole of the
world. Or just Grimmjow and the voyeuristic shinigami standing drooling over
the monitor in the next room.
Renji's eyes widened at the amazing display of flexibility and strength the man
who's cock he had a tight grip on displayed. How the hell did he just do that?
It was like he had no backbone… Hichio grinned wickedly.
"You think that's somethin', wait til berry-boy is under ya, if we ever coax
his ass out," Hichigo muttered. Renji felt a thrill shoot up his spine.
-Ichigo's Inner World-
Ichigo blinked, a slow thick blink, had he been dreaming or had he seen Renji
and…and Grimmjow? What the hell were they doing here? No one could get to him
here except Zangetsu and Hichigo. He was slightly disturbed by a barely
contained moan that escaped his lips suddenly. He slapped his hand over his
mouth. What the hell? He realized his whole body was on fire. Wait, was he back
there again, was he doing those awful things again? No, no he didn't feel like
he was. No, this was different. His heart wasn't clenched in fear. He felt a
rush of pleasure go through him and he couldn't stop the moan from escaping
again.
What was Hichigo doing?
Zangetsu stood a little off, watching Ichigo carefully. He had no problem
intervening if this course of action was counterproductive like trying to
restrain him had been. He was pleasantly surprised to see Ichigo confused, but
not freaking out. So he wasn't so far closed off that he had cut himself off
completely from the outside world. That was good, at least. That left some
thread of hope. But this risky course of action that he had agreed with Hichigo
on would either widen that thread of hope, or snap it completely.
Ichigo's head was on fire and spinning. He felt ghosts of touches, sending
vibrations through his entire core. The building he was laying against seemed
to have a little less water around it, and the sky had lightened, just a bit.
He sat shakily, and let the sensations wash over him from the outside world.
For the first time, though, there was no fear in the pleasure. No horror, no
shame, nothing that made him want to curl into a ball and die. Then he let the
outer world slowly come into focus so he could see, not just feel, the warm
reiatsu and arms that was surrounding him. It felt, feral, primal, and it was
flowing into him like a crushing torrent that soothed his tortured soul. There
was no malice in this reaitsu, only deep warmth.
Those strange black and gold eyes were closed tightly, having fully seated
himself into the warmth that Renji had willingly offered him. Renji's hands
gripped him furiously and tightly, and Hichigo moaned into the man's red hair,
waiting for him to adjust to him. Finally he laid his head back, Hichigo still
clinging to his long red tresses, his eyes fully dialated. Hichigo grinned.
"Not too much for ya, red?" he purred.
"Fuck," Renji growled, "Fuckin' move, bastard."
His eyes were still shut when he felt the questioning presence inside him. Oh,
maybe this would work, maybe, if even just a little. Hichigo knew that he was
trying to see what was happening. This was his last shot at showing him that
there were things beside pain and shame involved in the act of love. Oh god,
thought the hollow. Here's the hollow's lessons on love…well, he after all
didn't have a hollow hole, maybe he did have some heart in there somewhere.
"Renji," he moaned and opened his eyes locking with the dark eyes under him.
"Ichi…go…coming…up…" he panted, thrusting himself into the man below him, his
eyes sipping closed for a second. Renji arched back in a moan and then watched
as the face above him changed, brows knitting in confusion, then those eyes
opening to show brown eyes. He grinned at Ichigo, feeling him stop, his eyes
wide and almost horrified.
"R-ren-j-ji…" he moaned just as he was overtaken by pleasure as Renji moved
underneath him, bringing him to completion despite his shock at realizing he
was on top of one of his closest friends, completely dominating and controlling
him like he'd never imagined. Renji grinned, unable to last another moment.
Ichigo flopped forward onto him and when he sat back up, Renji was staring at
the familiar black and gold eyes.
Hichigo pulled away and rolled over on his back. "That was fuckin' good," he
said with a sigh, black reiatsu flickering around him still.
Renji sat up. "I saw him and he saw me, did it work?"
Hichigo reached over and grabbed his pants, pulling them on. "We'll see. Scared
the fuck outta him to see you like that, though."
***** Thread of Hope *****
What was happening? Ichigo had retreated into the inner world as quickly as
he'd come up to see what the hell his hollow half was doing. He was doing that,
with Renji? His mind was racing. He'd often thought of Renji that way, those
dark eyes, long red hair he longed to see released from his ever present hair
tie, but it was all in his head. After what he'd done, after what Aizen had
turned him into, why would anyone, let alone Renji, want anything to do with
him?
He was a despicable, filthy creature. He'd broken, shattered, and he didn't
want to even think of trying to piece himself back together, it would hurt too
much. He'd let all this happen. Aizen had told him so many times. He hadn't
resisted enough. He hadn't tried hard enough, and he wanted to be hurt. He
longed for it. And when it stopped, he wanted it again. And that was the most
disgusting feeling of all. Wanting those hands gripping his body, wanting those
eyes staring down at him with lust and…hatred? He wasn't sure. He just wanted
to escape, but even his inner world offered no sanctuary, becoming inaccessible
once his reiatsu was sapped away and he couldn't reach his soul's other pieces.
Maybe that had been the worst part. Unable to touch Zangetsu and Hichigo.
Unable to feel their comforting presence through the whole ordeal, he couldn't
even have assurance that there was life beyond the white walls and pain of
Aizen's touches. All he knew was he was locked into fear, pain and need. And
he'd been abandoned by his friends.
Maybe that knowledge was what led him to the breaking point. When Aizen told
him how long it had been, and how no one had come to his aid at all. It broke
his heart more than a little to know it. It was then he didn't have to chain
him up to keep him from leaving the room. He just gave up and wanted to die.
But why would Renji do that? Let Hichigo…and then let him know that he knew he
was in there…why would he do something like that?
Ichigo shivered at the memory of that warm and thick reiatsu that was
distinctly Renji flowed into him. It wasn't like the pressing, cold reiatsu
that Aizen had forced him down with. Forced, Ichigo thought. Forced. He felt
the difference. Could he be wrong? Could he really not be as dirty and
disgusting as he thought for what he did? Had done to him? Which was it? He was
so confused.
He pulled his black clad legs to his chest and rocked, barely noticing that his
shihaso was almost fully replaced. That meant his reiatsu was healing, didn't
it? How had that happened, he thought, his head a whirling mess of emotion and
turmoil.
-Urahara Shoten—
Renji emerged from the room, tying up his hair and looking up to see everyone
sitting around the tea room table avoiding his gaze.
"What?" Then he glanced over behind Urahara's back and remembered the monitors
that displayed what was happening in the room he'd just emerged from. "Oh."
He shrugged and sauntered over and flopped down beside Yumichika and Ikkaku,
both of which had a bemused, slight flush on their face. Renji dropped an arm
around each of them.
"Ya enjoy the show?" he said with a quirked eybrow.
Urahara cleared his throat behind him. "Renji-san, I think now, while Ichigo's
in…ah…flux would be a good time to attempt another foray into his inner world."
Renji stood up again, flinching as pain shot up his backside. Now he remembered
why he rarely did that…
Grimmjow sat still where he had been watching the two alphas tangle. It had
been awkward, neither one really submitting. But it had done something. He'd
seen those big brown eyes open for even the slightest of moments in something
other than fear. He shifted uncomfortably, quelling his own desires. He wanted
to bring the orange haired boy back. The one with the fire in his eyes, and the
unbelievably cocky attitude that didn't back down, the one who spent over three
months of torture before he finally broke under Aizen's twisted ministrations.
And he'd be damned if he didn't get that boy back. And tell him how absolutely
hot his cockiness was.
Grimmjow looked up as Urahara and Renji came in again. Hichigo, positively
blissed out after his romp with the red head laid back comfortably, not having
bothered to replace his shirt. He grinned at Renji who rolled his eyes.
"Oi, Red, ya still able to walk, proud a'ya," he smirked.
Renji glowered at him. "Why you…"
Urahara put a hand on Renji's shoulder. "Yare, yare, settle down, let's try
this again before Ichigo can resume his defenses. If nothing else, you may have
shaken his foundation enough to allow you to stay in his inner world long
enough to do some good. Now come," he said, getting Grimmjow to lay down on one
side and Renji on the other.
Grimmjow grunted, and crossed his legs and lay on his side, hiding his obvious
arousal at the events that had just taken place. He was going to ache after
this. Renji locked eyes with Grimmjow over the form of the seemingly sleepy
Hichigo. There was something in his eyes and Grimmjow recognized it.
Determination to drag the orangette out of his fog and back into reality.
"Okay boys, try not and tear down anything Renji's…ah…sacrifice…built up,"
Urahara said with a grin. There was chanting and humming of machinery and once
more the three opened their eyes to the sideways world.
Something was different though. The rain wasn't as heavy, the sky wasn't as
dark, and the buildings were higher out of the water. Hichigo looked around
appraising the situation. There was a flash and Zangetsu was beside them.
"He's confused, but the thread wasn't cut off as I had feared it might."
"Thread?" asked Renji, turning to the older figure.
Zangetsu nodded. "The act would either widen the small thread of hope
connecting Ichigo to the surface world, or sever it completely. The attachment
to the surface world is slightly stronger, but the thread is fraying at the
edges, so it must be solidified before it breaks completely."
"Well, fuckin' hell, let's do this shit," the white version of Ichigo muttered
flash stepping away, Grimmjow and Renji following a second later.
"He'll resist still, he can't help it," Zangetsu said, keeping pace easily
beside them. "Don't stop, don't let him push you away. Hichigo and I are part
of him, so we cannot possibly repair the damage. He controls us both, after
all."
There was sickening spin as both Renji and Grimmjow lost their footing and were
somewhere Grimmjow recognized immediately, and after a moment so did Renji. Las
Noches.
There were screams from down the hall and a string of cuss words. They both
recognized Ichigo's voice, and obviously unbroken at this time. They entered
the room, unseen, to find a pink haired Szayel leaning over the boy bound to
the surgical table. He was panting, blood leaking from a few punctures on his
arms and chest.
"Fuck you!" he screamed, catching a breath. "Quit fucking stabbing me with that
goddamned needle, teme!"
Szayel moved away, disappearing, leaving the panting shinigami alone for a
moment. He returned just as quickly with a different instrument. It looked like
a drill with a space at the end. Ichigo's eyes widened. "What the fuck is
that?" he cried out.
Szayel sighed. "I'm sorry, Ichigo-chan, but this is really going to hurt. I
need a marrow sample, and you've seemed to have built up a resistance to the
drug I've been using to knock you out. I've given you as much as I can, but it
doesn't seem to be effecting you like it should. I didn't want to do this while
you were conscious, but this is the last one, I promise Ichigo-chan."
There was a buzzing sound as Szayel turned the device on and Ichigo began to
squirm away from him. He put a hand on him, turning it off and grabbing another
syringe from his table. "I'll give you this, it will paralyze you, maybe numb
some of it, but I can't numb the bone," he said, injecting something into his
arm. His body visibly relaxed, and he looked someone blissed out.
Szayel looked disturbed, and Grimmjow had never seen that pink haired freak
look like that. He reached down and ran a hand over the boy's head.
"I'm sorry, Ichigo, but Aizen doesn't like what I've found. He's angry because
he wanted so much more from you. I can't recreate what happened to you. I can't
even understand it. And the tests, they show so much potential in you that it's
ridiculous. The power you possess, even you can't fathom what it can do, and I
tried, I really tried, but I couldn't keep it from him," Szayel leaned over and
put his head against the semi-conscious boy's forehead. "He's going to break
you, Ichigo, and that's a shame, but what I am going to do against the likes of
him? I'm only octavo, nothing compared to the eight above me. He's making me
come up with something after Gin's done tormenting you. I'll do what I can, but
he'll know if I do too much. I'm sorry.
"Truly, for the first time in this miserable existence, I'm sorry. I doubt
you'll remember this, what I'm saying, but I hope you do, somewhere, because
what he has planned is terrible, and if I had the guts, I'd kill you on this
table. But I can't do it. I can't just kill you."
The pink haired espada stepped back, sighing and turning on the drill-like
device and pressed it against the boy's thigh and began the procedure. It
wasn't long until he was done, and cleaning the blood and vomit afterward,
Ichigo having screamed himself horse as the thing drilled into his bone. Szayel
put the sample away and patched up the various wounds from testing his body,
his fingers stopping to press against his sweaty face as he breathed heavily,
winding away into unconsciousness finally.
The world spun sickeningly again, causing both Grimmjow and Renji to stumble,
crashing to the floor. Quickly they gathered themselves up and started walking,
just following the corridor they were in.
"That's why he let me go," Grimmjow said with a sigh.
"Huh?" Renji said looking up.
Grimmjow swallowed. "When I found him, I took him to Szayel, and he watched as
I left through the garganta with him, never stopping me."
They heard screams again, this time peppered with a gentler voice laughing and
talking around them. Both Grimmjow and Renji recognized that voice. Gin
Ichimaru. There was a flash and they were standing in another room, Ichigo's
body spread out, arms open to either side. Blood was flowing down his chest and
back as Gin circled him. They noticed now and then Gin glancing up and back
down to Ichigo.
Renji followed his gaze and saw a small black globe. "Monitoring device, Aizen
watched this every time," Grimmjow provided. "Szayel didn't allow them in his
lab, but Gin loved putting on a show for Aizen with that zanpakto of his."
"Fuck off, Gin, leave me alone," Ichigo said breathlessly. "I'm tired, how much
more of this is there? Just fucking kill me."
"Ichi-kun, ah can't kill you!" Gin announced, leaning down and smiling foxlike
at him, then whispering almost too low to be heard by the voyeurs in the room.
"But ah do wish ah could do that fer ya. Sorry 'bout that, Ichi-kun."
There was another spinning sensation and they were still in the room. Only now,
Ichigo was laying on the dirty mattress sleeping it would seem. The door opened
and Szayel entered with a plate and glass. He slowly set them down beside the
sleeping form. He sighed and injected him with something. Ichigo stirred
sleepily and his brown eyes opened and stared at Szayel again, half aware.
"It'll keep you alive, but I wish I could fill it with poison. Aizen's taking
you out of here tomorrow, Ichigo. I…I wish I could do something, but he watches
everything. It's wrong, I know it, Gin knows it. We tried. But Aizen made sure
to watch every move we've made, making sure we didn't slip up and 'accidently'
kill you before he got to the last stage. Always a game with him, Ichigo,
always a game. Stages. He's so angry that the research into you yielded no
results. He even quit incursions into the world of the living. He wanted you to
help him take the soul king's place, or at least use your power. But he can't,
you're the only one that can use it, and it infuriates him. And gods help you,
he's going to show you and soul society how angry he is."
"What are we watching?" Grimmjow asked quietly.
Renji stared. "This is stuff he doesn't remember, not really, he was half
conscious. So he doesn't remember them saying these things. I think we've
jogged it loose. Maybe Gin and Szayel trying to tell him that it wasn't his
fault will help him in some way?"
It seemed time passed and Szayel came back again, this time with Ulquirro.
"Please hurry, I must return soon. This is not my idea of a thing that requires
my attention," Ulquirro said, impassive as usual.
"I'm sorry, Ulquirro-san, but Aizen-sama does not want any of the more
aggressive arrancar or espada interfering in this transfer," Szayel said,
unhooking Ichigo and lifting him from the bed, his weight surprising.
"Why does Aizen-sama not simply kill this boy?" Ulquirro asked as they headed
out of the room. In Szayel's arms, Ichigo moaned and rolled his head, his eyes
half open. "It is beyond me why he does not."
"Some perverse pleasure," Szayel muttered, staring down into the sunken cheeks
of the half starved boy.
Renji and Grimmjow followed, but they really didn't half to move, it seemed the
world followed Ichigo at a blinding and sickening speed.
"Pleasure?" asked Ulquirro, pushing open a door almost identical to every
other. Szayel entered and laid his bundle on the bed, securing wrists and
ankles as Aizen had asked.
"Yeah, you know, gets his rocks off?" Szayel said with a frown at the utterly
emotionless arrancar.
"As in sexual pleasure?" asked Ulquirro, tilting his head to the side. "I have
participated in such acts before, but do not understand why Aizen-sama needs
this particular boy for that purpose. There are many arrancar with which he
could couple."
Szayel shook his head. "It's more than just sexual pleasure. He's his enemy,
someone he's struck down; he wants to humiliate him in every sense of the word.
You'd never understand, Ulquirro, so don't try."
Szayel leaned over, pulling a couple syringes from his leather satchel. He
carefully administered each one. "What are those?" Ulquirro asked passively.
"One is a chemical Aizen wanted, to make the boy enjoy his torture. The
other…is something I'm giving him to dull pain and clot blood faster," Szayel
said with a sigh.
"Did Aizen-sama ask you to administer that one?" Ulquirro said, staring at the
stirring body on the bed.
Szayel shook his head. "No, he didn't, but I'm trying to keep him alive, though
I should really just kill him and suffer Aizen-sama's wrath."
Ulquirro looked over at him. "Why would you kill him if you should be keeping
him alive for Aizen-sama?"
Szayel shook his head. "You wouldn't understand no matter how hard you tried,
Ulquirro. I may be completely fucking insane, but some things shouldn't be
done."
The world shifted again and they were staring at Ichigo. He was sitting on the
floor in the room and Grimmjow recognized the scene all too well. Ulquirro was
staring down at him, impassive as Ichigo writhed in pain, blood spreading out
around him.
"Interesting," Ulquirro commented and turned and left.
Renji's breath hitched. He was seeing memories so he couldn't even interact.
Ichigo finally tried to stand, his legs buckling, the shattered bones unable to
support the weight of his body.
"I want to die," he moaned, beginning to sob. "How could they…leave me…like
this…after everything, after I…gave…"
Around them a voice spoke, not in line with the things happening in the room,
but it must have been Ichigo remembering. Both Renji and Grimmjow recognized
the smooth silky sounds of Aizen's voice.
Ichigo, they're not coming for you. You heard the head captain, he wouldn't
help Inoue, you think he would help you? You're a monster, you're not worth
saving. You're worthless now, look at you, mewling and begging me to touch you.
What a little whore you've become… And they wouldn't want you now, who would
want you now? I'm going to keep you here until you give up completely. Don't
think I don't see that tiny spark in your eye. That tiny little sliver of hope
that someone, anyone will save you. They aren't. And until that spark
disappears, I won't let you die. Only when you've given up all hope, will I
kill you and end this, Ichigo. Only then.
You enjoy this, you crave my touch on your skin, how sick and twisted you must
be down deep, Ichgo to like what I'm doing. I feel your breath and the shaking
of your body. No, they would be so ashamed to see you like this. Once their
strong and powerful protected, reduced to this writhing mass of…nothing. You're
nothing now except my toy, my pet.
They've always been afraid of you, my pet. That untamed and wild hollow inside
you. They don't understand it. They fear it. And they'll always fear it. That's
why they haven't come, you know. That way they don't have to kill you
themselves, because they can't bring themselves to do in an ally. But they've
abandoned you, it's been almost four months Ichigo, and not even a one has come
to Heuco Mundo to even find out.
And then the world faded out and they were standing on one of the sky scrapers,
the rain falling full force again, the sky almost black. And standing on the
edge was Ichigo, screaming at the sky.
"How could they leave me?" he sobbed, dropping off the edge of the building.
***** The Depths of his Soul *****
Not even really thinking about the fact they weren't in the real world,
instead, in Ichigo's inner world, the sight of the orange head jumping off the
edge of the building was enough to send the red head and blue head into motion,
both flash stepping/sonidoing after him. Before long, they both had arms around
the black clad form that was obviously no conscious of his surroundings at all.
Renji held him by the right arm and Grimmjow by the left as they flashed back
up to where they had been. They gently laid his form down and stared at each
other.
"Why are you doing this for him?" Renji asked suddenly, locking eyes with the
blue haired espada.
Grimmjow was slightly taken aback, and then realized why would this shinigami
have any trust him? After what he'd just seen, the small taste of what his
orange haired friend had gone through, how could he even think that he'd be
trusted by these people? But he wasn't dead. That was something. Despite the
gaping hollow hole in his belly and the broken mask on his face, they had been
willing to let him help Ichigo. And he supposed that was something.
Grimmjow leaned over and brushed Ichigo's hair away from his face, looking down
into his closed eyes. Why was he here? Why did he care about this shinigami?
Was it because he was like him? Deep down, this boy, this shinigami, was more
like Grimmjow than Aizen had ever been. There, below the surface of his soul, a
hollow seethed, and unlike the shinigami, Grimmjow knew how hard it was to
control a hollow force within your soul.
"Fuck if I know," Grimmjow muttered, then looked up at the red headed
shinigami, who was staring at Ichigo in a similar way. "I mean, I…" Grimmjow
didn't know what to say to him.
"I know why I'm here," Renji said. "I fought him, you know, almost killed him,
and he almost killed me. And that fire that burned in his eyes when he refused
to give up even when there was no way he should be standing. That refusal to
back down. The lengths he went to, earning bankai in three days so he could
face my taichou and not die, just to save Rukia's life."
Renji sat back on his heels, rubbing a hand over the tattoos on his forehead.
"I've never met someone like him, that could make my blood boil and gain my
respect so quickly. The barely restrained power, you know. And now, after
meeting that hollow first hand….I can't imagine what he's gone through since he
got dragged into the world of soul society."
Grimmjow nodded, understanding the redhead completely. "The fire," he muttered,
earning a look from Renji. "That burning heat in his eyes, fuck. Where the hell
has it gone?"
The world shuddered around them, then it shifted again, throwing even the
seated Grimmjow and Renji off balance and to the floor. The stood at the wall
around the seretai (sp). There were no guards, but no way to get in either. A
sign hung on the wall written in sloppy black ink. "Stay out".
Grimmjow and Renji staggered to their feet and looked at each other. They
sighed mutually, knowing that this meant there were defenses still to break
through. It couldn't have been that easy. Grimmjow felt a tug at his shirt. He
looked down to see a little orange haired boy, the same one that had been by
the river crying over his dead mother.
"Mister?" he asked. "Have you seen my mom?"
Renji kneeled down beside them, and Grimmjow followed, not really knowing what
to do with human children. It wasn't like most hollows cared for their young.
"Nah, kid, 'fraid I haven't," Grimmjow answered as the kid's brown eyes
searched his face.
The boy frowned and looked at Renji then smiled. "I like your lines, mister!"
Renji smiled and reached out to ruffle the boy's hair. "Hey kid, you know how
to get past that wall?"
The boy looked passed them at the menacing looking structure and he gave a sly
grin. "If I show you, you promise not to tell anyone I told ya?"
Grimmjow and Renji exchanged a glance. "Of course," Renji answered.
The little boy clapped and a grin spread across his face. "I'm not s'posed ta
know about it. Mom showed me a long time ago, but the monster can't find out I
know. He might get mad at us."
"The monster?" Grimmjow asked.
The child Ichigo smiled proudly. "I'm not scared of him! Mom told me all about
him, and I'm not scared at all. Mom said I couldn't be scared or he'd eat me
up! I'm not gonna be eaten up by a monster, mister. Come on!" he said, taking
one of Renji's hands with one small hand and Grimmjow's in the other, pulling
them after him.
After a while they came to a small shack. When they entered it was Ichigo's
house in the world of the living. There was an eerie quiet around the place,
and everything was as Renji remembered it. Grimmjow looked at Renji with a
confused look.
"Its Ichigo's house from the world of the living," he explained. Grimmjow
nodded.
The boy ran around, arms out beside him, zooming like a plane happily. There
was a sound and the boy stopped and grinned at them.
"You wanna see the monster?" he whispered excitedly.
Grimmjow and Renji frowned. "The monster is here?" asked Renji looking around
the room.
The boy giggled excitedly. "Of course, where else would he be! Mom tied him up
in the upstairs so he couldn't eat us up!"
They followed the boy up the stairs to what Renji knew was Ichigo's room. On
the door hung a small plaque that read 15. The entered to see, to their
surprise, Hichigo bound and gagged on the floor. He struggled wildly against
the bindings and then looked up to see Renji and Grimmjow. He stopped then
stared at the boy with pleading eyes, still unsettling no matter how many times
Renji saw them.
"Can you take off his gag so he can talk?" Grimmjow asked the boy.
The kid looked thoughtful and looked around. "Okay but don't tell mom I did
it."
He went over and removed the gag from the white version of Ichigo and stepped
back grinning, very proud of himself. Hichigo glared at him for a minute and
then at Renji and Grimmjow.
"About time you two got here," he muttered. "Where the fuck 'ave ya been?"
Renji shook his head. "Long story, what's happening?"
The small orange haired boy had taken to happily playing with some blocks that
he found over to the side and humming a tune under his breath, ignoring the
other three occupants of the room.
"His defenses are strengthening," Hichigo explained. "His mother came out and
brought me here."
"His mom, how's that?" asked Grimmjow, quirking one blue eyebrow.
"Baka," muttered Hichigo rolling his eyes. "Its not really his mom, its Ichigo.
King's defense is to push us away with the one he trusted tha most. He's
retreated to when he was tha most happy."
"What the hell do we do now?" asked Renji, starting to get exasperated. They
really didn't know how long they could stay before Ichigo regained enough
composure to push them out like last time.
"Break through the walls," Hichigo said. "I can't do anything, I'm part of him,
remember? Fuck, I'm lucky to be in one piece."
Grimmjow glanced at the small boy. "He said he knew a way through."
Hichigo looked up with wide eyes. "He did? Fuck, awesome. He wants you to get
through, then. This might be not be so bad."
"Yo, kid," Grimmjow said, standing up and walking over to him. "Can ya show us
how to get through the wall?"
The child looked up, his eyes positively glowing. "Ya!"
He hopped up and grabbed Grimmjow's hand. "Hurry, before mom gets home! She
won't want me showing it to anyone!"
Renji followed, his look lingering on Hichigo. "Go, fuck, man, get this taken
care of."
They followed the boy as he leaped and skipped in front of them, for all
intents and purposes, a truly happy, joyful child. His orange hair caught the
sun and seemed to glow. He hummed and laughed as he skipped, never a scowl to
knit he brows together as he played. Eventually they came to a place where the
wall was covered in greenery. He motioned both men over and pointed. There,
among the green leaves and twisting vines was a thin opening. Red tinged black
pulsed through the opening every few seconds.
"There," the boy breathed, a whisper escaping his lips. "If you go through when
there's no black, you can get in. But don't touch that black stuff, it burns
you."
"Ichigo!" a female voice called, and Ichigo's breath caught.
"Oh no, its mom, you hide in here," the boy said.
"Ichigo, where did you go now?" she asked. The boy ran out of the small area
they were hiding in and grabbed the beautiful woman around the waist.
She reached down with the most loving look on her face. "There you are, what
have you been up to?"
The boy looked up. "Playin' hide and seek and you found me! I'm hungry now, can
we go home?"
The gentle woman smiled, ruffling the boy's hair. "Of course, lets go," she
said and the boy gripped her hand like a lifeline. He glanced back over his
shoulder and waved to Renji and Grimmjow and they saw the faintest wash of
sadness in his eyes. Then they were gone.
"So how the fuck we getting' through this?" Grimmjow asked as the black pulsed
out at them again.
Renji sighed. "We wait for it to clear, I guess…"
It didn't take long for them to notice the pattern. The black reaisu would
pulse then recede for a few moments, then return for three pulses, then recede
again. They knew the pattern, they could get through it with that knowledge. It
took a couple tries, but finally, both men had slipped through the small
opening, which surprisingly had grown to allow them entrance into the walled
off area.
They entered and the place was empty. Except for Sokoyu hill, the only
structure left. It was completely intact, the execution ground completely
normal with the firey sokoyu activated before the massive execution structure.
And hanging there, much as Rukia had once been, they saw their orange haired
friend.
Both Grimmjow and Renji were off in a flash, though only Renji understood the
underlying significance of the situation before him. The thing before them
offered something that nothing else could offer, complete oblivion.
Soon enough, they each stood on top of the structure, one on either side of
Ichigo's suspended body.
"Go away," he moaned. "I need oblivion."
"Ichigo, no you don't, you need to stop this. We want to help you," Renji said
softly, placing a hand on the orange haired man's.
Beside them, the fires died down in the sokoyu. "What the fuck ya think yer
doing, strawberry?" Grimmjow asked gruffly. "I break ya out of Las Noches and
ya just wanna die on me?"
Ichigo looked up at the blue haired espada. "I…you shouldn't have."
Grimmjow reached down and grabbed Ichigo by the collar and hauled him up from
his suspended position until he as holding him up over thin air. The world
shifted again and now they stood on the ground, a light rain falling around
them.
"Why? Why do all this for me?" he moaned, looking from one of the men to the
other.
Grimmjow sighed and put him down and reached down and cupped the smaller man's
face in a surpisingly gentle way. "Because I saw the fire in yer eyes, 'berry.
I saw that burning desire that I've felt before. I thought I fuckin' hated you.
I wanted to crush you every way there was. I wanted to put out that fuckin'
arrogant ass light in yer eyes. You were lookin' down on me like you were
better. That's what I thought. But I know it wasn't that. Ya never really
wanted to fight. Not really. Ya were doin' what ya had to do."
Ichigo jerked away. "I like it, the fighting, I like it too much," he
whispered. "I like the pain too much. I wanted to protect them, but I can't
even protect myself."
"Ichigo!" the female voice rang out around them. "Ichigo, are you playing hide
and seek again?"
Ichigo's eyes widened and both could tell he wanted to call out to her. Renji
reached out and grabbed his chin and forced him to look at him.
"No, Ichigo, she's not real, she's you," he said, forcing those sad, empty
brown eyes to look into his own dark eyes.
Ichigo jerked away. "What good am I?" he whispered. "She died protecting me,
and then Inoue protected me and they took her, I don't want anyone else to get
hurt because of me."
Grimmjow and Renji exchanged glances. "I'm worthless, I can't do this, I can't.
The pain is too much. I'm a monster, I'm that monster, just like the one that
killed her, I'll kill everyone around me one day…"
Ichigo sunk to his knees, staring up at the rapidly clouding sky. Renji and
Grimmjow knew that it was now or never because if that sky clouded over again,
they might lose him in the very depths of his soul among the pain, regret,
guilt and shame.
Both of them dropped beside him, wrapping arms around him, firmly but gently,
pulling him into a tight embrace, bringing a gasp out of him at the sudden
pressure and warmth. The sky started to clear, slowly.
"Why?" he whispered. "Why are you here trying to do this? I wasn't worth saving
before, why now?"
Renji felt his throat constrict painfully. "Ichigo, we were coming, we were on
our way already. Aizen fucked with the time stream," he said into his right
ear, nuzzeling into his neck.
"He's right, berry. Aizen did something to the way time flowed, and he did
things ta ya to make you feel pleasure when you didn't want to," Grimmjow said
softly. "I was there, I know what he did to ya. And it killed me inside. That's
why I brought ya out even though I was dead most likely, by Aizen or the
shinigami."
He didn't struggle. He just sat there being held. Being held with warmth not
associated with pain. Being held by arms that weren't trying to hurt him. Then
the tears hit him. And he would have fallen forward to the ground if not for
the twin sets of arms holding him upright as he sat there. Gasping sobs escaped
him as the clouds had finally lifted in his stormy inner world. A few moments
went by and his sobs hadn't stopped. Renji heard a sonido and a shunpo. He
glanced up to see both Hichigo and Zangetsu standing behind them. Both reached
out and put a hand gently on the sobbing boy's head.
"We were always here," Hichigo said softly, running his black nailed hand
through his orange hair. "We saw it all, king. You haven't been listening to
me. He drugged ya, he hurt ya, and he lied to ya. He took ya away from us so we
couldn't help ya."
"I was so weak," Ichigo sobbed out, and felt the strong arms around him tighten
seemingly exponentially.
Zangetsu, impassive as ever, continued to rub the boy's head. "You were not
weak, Ichigo. You were very strong. But even the strongest tree can be broken,
and the strongest sword can be shattered."
"Please, 'berry," Grimmjow said, his head against the orange haired boy's
chest. "Come back, and let us all help you with this. You can't hide here
forever."
There was movement and they all saw the beautiful form of the boy's mother walk
up and kneel before her broken child. She smiled, her big eyes brightening and
emanating warmth and love. "Its time to stop playing hide and seek, Ichigo.
You've been found. Now open your eyes."
Grimmjow and Renji both sat bolt upright on the floor, greeted by beeping and
the intent gazes of the people in the room. Urahara leaned over and waited a
moment. "Well?"
There was a soft moan from beside them and both Renji and Grimmjow's hands shot
out, hoping that when those eyes opened they were brown. And that the
hollowness and emptiness was gone from them, even if just a tiny bit.
Grimmjow cupped a hand around his face, while Renji grasped his upper arm.
"Berry?" Grimmjow said softly. "Are you there?"
Ichigo's eyes fluttered a second before they opened revealing deep chocolate
instead of the black and gold they had feared. Grimmjow grinned, and Renji
wrapped arms around him tightly. Urahara quickly moved and waved the others out
of the room, several protests as he did so, especially from Rukia and Inoue.
"Hey, welcome back," Grimmjow murmured. The feeling that washed over the espada
was euphoric as he saw the spark, tiny that it was, flicker in those brown
eyes. Still empty and hollow for the most part, but the spark was there. Just
barely. But it was there.
Renji placed a gentle kiss on Ichigo's cheek and the orange haired boy turned
to the redhead. "Renji," he whispered. "You…"
Renji smiled. "Yeah, me. Don't expect that to be repeated the same way, Ichi."
Ichigo flushed bright red as he realized what Renji said.
Then, everything seemed to be crushing him, and Ichigo's eyes closed. Grimmjow
and Renji both let their reiatsu flow outward and over him, and underneath
their hands he fell into a deep, and thankfully dreamless, sleep.
***** Fractured Mask *****
Grimmjow yawned and lazily got up, twinging because he hadn't moved in his
sleep all night. He stared down at the two that still lay on the pallet.
Renji's right arm was curled around Ichigo's waist, and the other snuggled
under his own head. Grimmjow's left arm was numb since he'd had it underneath
Ichigo all night. He stumbled his way to the bathroom trying to get feeling
back in the corners of his body. Damn, he could use a shower, he thought
proceeding to strip off his clothes and step under the hot water. He groaned as
the water ran over his unfulfilled desire. Man, this was tough. But it was
worth it to see those brown eyes flutter open and see that the fire wasn't
completely gone. He took a few extra minutes in the shower to deal with his
bulging issue so as to not give Ichigo the wrong idea about why he was here. He
didn't think he could handle the look again that he had given him when he
expected him too to do that…
He shuddered, then shut off the water. He heard a distinct "thunk" though
before he left the shower. The hell? He thought and reached down to pick up…a
piece of his mask? It was small but it was very definitely a piece of his mask.
He stepped out and stared in the mirror. And there, right at the bottom, a
chunk had fallen off. He looked down at the piece in his hand and held it up to
the point it had fallen from, and it fit perfectly.
He scrambled, drying off and then grabbing his clothes as he rushed into the
tea room where Urahara was sitting having some tea. It was late, well after
noon, but it was to expected that they'd sleep late after the day before.
"Urahara, fuck, man what the hell is happening to me?" he asked dropping down
beside the shinigami.
The hat clad man frowned and looked at the white bone in Grimmjow's hand. He
looked up, brows knitted.
"Grimmjow-kun, is that from your mask?" he asked.
Grimmjow grunted, rolling his cyan eyes. "Where else, you dumbfuck? Why? How,
even?"
"You are sure you sustained no injury?" he asked, taking the smooth piece of
bone into his hand, turning it over. "No, there's no reiatsu signature in this
bone any longer. It is as it seems, a plain piece of bone."
Urahara stood and went to another room leaving Grimmjow with his thoughts. His
mask was breaking? What did that mean? The mask of a hollow was there to
protect it, but the Arrancar were different, their masks were broken. What
would happen if he lost his mask completely…
He felt a hand on his back and jumped, looking up at the red haired Shinigami.
He arched a brow at him before sitting down. "What is it?"
Grimmjow touched the jut of bone on his face. "Piece a'my mask fell off."
Renji sat back, surprised. "What? That's not something that usually happens, is
it?"
"Nah, man, it don't happen like this. Our mask cracks before we are arrancar,
taking us closer to shinigami and further from hollow. But unless something big
happens, the mask don't break again," he said thoughtfully.
Urahara came back in and snapped his fan open as he quickly sat down.
"Grimmjow-kun, your reiatsu pattern is in flux for some reason."
"Wha?" he asked, looking between the two shinigami. "Wha…how the hell is that
possible?"
Urahara sighed. "I don't know right now, but it started last night after you
returned from your foray to coax Ichigo-kun out of his inner world. Since then
it is has been fluctuating according to my readings. I'm not sure, but it's
almost like you're becoming closer to what Ichigo is, a vizard, instead of an
Arrancar. At least your reiatsu signature is."
Grimmjow started to say something but they felt a flare of reiatsu from the
room where Ichigo was sleeping. All three were in the room in a second to see
Ichigo's body sitting up but his eyes were black and gold again.
"Hichigo?" Renji said. "What the hell, did he go back?"
Hichigo shook his head. "Nah, he's sleeping, che, he's fine. Well he's not
fuckin' fine, but you know what I mean. I just wanted to make sure you two
fuckers hadn't run the fuck off."
Both Grimmjow and Renji rolled their eyes at the hollow. "What? After the
fuckin' time we've had the last few months, I ain't riskin' shit right now. You
fuckin' can't just leave him alone yet."
Renji frowned. "You mean he still…"
"What the fuck you think, baka?" Hichigo snarled. "He ain't over it by a long
fuckin' shot, and if you leave him alone he might fuckin' do it still. Now
unless you fucks are going to stick the fuck around, I can't let him be king,
ya understand?"
Renji and Grimmjow exchanged glances, knowing that he was right. It had been
stupid for both of them to leave the room, even with the recording and Ichigo
sleeping. The chance he was still going to fall into suicidal thoughts was too
great, especially now that his reiatsu was healing and his power was gradually
returning to him.
"Yeah, we got it, now go on and let 'im fuckin' sleep," Grimmjow growled. "I'll
stay first while Urahara tries to figure why the fuck my mask is falling
apart."
Hichigo nodded, and laid back down, eyes slipping closed and the reiatsu
calming around him. Grimmjow sighed, laying down on his back beside him.
"Man, yer so much fuckin work," he muttered as Urahara and Renji left the room.
Renji and Urahara returned to the tea room, met now by a bleary eyed Rukia.
She'd stayed up well into the night watching the trio sleep.
"Rukia, hey, how are you today?" Renji said, flopping down beside her
comfortably. She fixed him with an awkward glare. "What?" he responded.
"I can't believe you…let…and…" she stammered, staring at her teacup.
Renji frowned as Yumichika and Ikkaku sauntered in the room. "Yer still worked
up over that?"
Ikkaku and Yumichika smiled shyly at Renji and stared at their own teacups,
carefully avoiding their red haired companion's eyes.
"Okay, how many a'ya were freakin' watchin' the whole damn time, anyway?" he
asked, honestly curious.
Yumichika giggled girlishly. "It was beautiful, to be honest. Very beautiful."
Renji smirked. "Glad ta see ya approve, peacock."
"How can you be so…so….like it was nothing, no big deal that you let him have
sex with you in there, and you knew we could see it!" Rukia spat out, her face
colored red.
Renji's brows shot up. "It ain't like I haven't done that before. What bothers
you more, that I did it with Ichigo's body, or that I did it with another man?"
Rukia stammered for a moment. "No, that you did it like it didn't mean
anything!" she said finally, flustered.
Renji's heart sank, finally getting what she meant. She felt like their time
together didn't mean anything. Like it had just been sex, no deeper meaning.
"Rukia, it's not that it didn't mean anything. I'm…I'm trying to keep my mind
off the fact it wasn't really Ichigo. What we did, we did without his consent,
even though Hichigo was willing, and I was willing, I still feel like it was
wrong on some level. It worked, though, and we got through to him, but still,
I…I am tryin' ta get through it, okay?" he said finally looking up wither.
"I've never been with someone who didn't mean the world to me."
Rukia was silent, spinning her cup between her hands, and she was truly sorry
for what she had just said. She hadn't thought about it that way. She hadn't
thought about the fact that Renji might have real feelings for Ichigo, and that
what he had done went far beyond what he was showing on the surface. Renji
shifted uncomfortably in his seat.
"Besides, I'm not a fan of the aftermath of that, so don't think they'll be a
repeat performance anytime soon," he said, dropping a wink at Yumichika.
The group dissolved into giggles as Urahara returned with a tray of snacks.
"Well, everyone seems upbeat today except Hichigo. But we still have the issue
about our dear espada in there. Why is he losing pieces of bone from his mask
like that?"
They sat down, snacking and discussing the possible reasons and what the
implications of his changing reiatsu signature could mean. They didn't know
enough about arrancar physiology. Was this natural, or was something happening
to the sexta espada?
-Las Noches—
"Barragan is on, his fraccion are ready," the pink haired scientist said into
the ear of the fox faced man as he brushed past him.
Ever since Grimmjow had disappeared with Ichigo, Aizen had been intolerable.
And the top three espada were going to deal with it, with the help of octavo
and Gin Ichimaru. Aizen had been distracted by his fury and it had allowed a
lot of things to go unnoticed around him. His plans were starting to crumble,
and even his multiple back up plans. He'd lost Ichigo, which wouldn't have been
the biggest loss except he'd lost one of his espada along with him. The Hogyuku
was seemingly fighting him, and the last three arrancar he'd tried to make had
been damaged and he destroyed them.
And now there was about to be a full coup in his own base. Barragan was taking
back Las Noches, and even the primera espada seemed tired of everything, or
perhaps he was simply tired. He slept a lot, after all. Grimmjow had gotten
away, and they all knew what that meant. It meant that Aizen wasn't all
powerful. It meant that he could be beaten. So, slowly, behind the curtains,
with the help of Szayel and Gin, things had started coming together. The espada
of madness giggled in glee in his laboratory at the thought of the mayhem that
was about to break out in all parts of Las Noches. Aizen had missed the threat
of inside forces because of focusing on outside forces. He never thought that
his loyal arrancar would turn on him.
So it was that began the coup in Heuco Mundo.
-Soul Society—
"Yes, Mayuri, I'm sure. His mask is falling off on its own. What does this mean
exactly? Is he becoming more shinigami and less hollow? Because according to
these reaisu signatures, that's what exactly is happening," Urahara Kisuke's
voice said from the small screen.
"Yes, I see that," the scientist said looking over readings.
"Something is changing the arrancar? Do you think it an effect of the hogyuku
that we didn't excpect?" Urahara asked.
Kurotski snorted. "Possible. There's something happening in Hueco Mundo too,
the readings have been wild, and we've detected garganta on and off."
"Is Aizen losing control over what he created?" Urahara asked slowly. If the
other Arrancar were changing like Grimmjow was…
"I have more tests, Urahara, be gone," the eccentric scientist said and
proceeded to dive into the readings to find out what exactly was happening. He
really wished they had let him have the espada that had been left with Urahara.
Live test subjects were so much more useful.
-Urahara Shoten—
Ichigo groaned in his sleep. His eyes started to flutter open but he shut them
tight, muttering a curse under his breath at the bright light. He felt someone
nearby, someone very warm and he really, really needed warmth right now, warmth
to spread throughout his body and soul, so he soundlessly snuggled into the
warmth, sighing against it. Then he opened his eyes slowly and realized his
face was buried in someone's chest, and there were arms around him, holding him
in place. Holding. Keeping him from moving. Holding him down. He suddenly
kicked out and pushed with all his force, eliciting a oof out of the body he'd
been laying against.
"Fuck, Berry, one minute yer snugglin' up to me like a kitten, then trying to
kick my nuts in the next, what the fuck?" a growly voice said.
Ichigo scrambled away into the corner. No, no, no, what the hell, this wasn't
his inner world, where the hell was he?
King, settle down, I'm here, the voice in his mind said, surprisingly soothing.
Yer fine, come on, settle the fuck down.
He had moved to the furthest corner of the room and had pulled his body into a
protective ball, his face pressed into his knees as he rocked back and forth
silently. He wanted go back to his inner world, he didn't want to be out here.
No, fuck you, king. Yer not comin' back yet. Yer fuckin' dealing with this
shit. I'm tired of the fuckin' rain.
Ichigo's breathing slowed and he looked up slowly to find himself staring into
large cyan blue eyes that reflected genuine concern for him. What? Then it came
back. What he and Renji had done, risking to come into his messed up inner
world to pull him out. Apparently it had worked. The door slid open and he saw
too many faces, way too many faces, and he buried his head in his knees again,
shaken visibly.
"No, stay out," Grimmjow said. "Renji, you stay, the rest of ya go. He can't
take everyone right now."
Urahara nodded and ushered the other three shinigami from the room. He heard
the sound of Inoue calling from the front of the shop. He was sure he sensed
both Uryu and Chad with her. The shop was getting crowded already, and it
wasn't even two o'clock yet.
Slowly, Ichigo lifted his head to look between Renji and Grimmjow, his heart
pounding in his head. Every nerve wanted him to retreat back into safety but
Hichigo wasn't letting him do that. Neither Grimmjow nor Renji looked annoyed
and they let him take his time gathering his wits.
"S-s-sorry," he whispered, looking at Grimmjow. "F-for earlier."
Grimmjow gave him a crooked smirk. "Ah, yer kicks are little to weak still,
Berry. We haven't got yer muscles built up yet after that fucker starved ya."
Ichigo nodded slowly. Everything came crashing into him at once, it seemed and
he gasped and buried his face again. "God let me die, please," he muttered.
"Don't you fuckin' say that," Renji growled, surprising Ichigo. He snapped his
head up to look at the barely restrained fury in the red headed shinigami's
eyes.
"Why not?" Ichigo snapped back. "What the fuck do I want to live for, anyway?
Nightmares? Memories? I can barely look at you without freezing and I don't
know fucking why!"
"Calm down, Ichigo, it's okay, it is, we're going to help you, okay?" Renji
said, reaching out to touch his shoulder, snatching back his hand and Ichigo
flinched, ever so slightly, but still flinched.
"Why should I believe you? You left me."
The words cut through Renji like a knife. He swallowed, unsure how anything he
said right now was going to do anything but make things worse. Grimmjow,
reached out and grabbed his face an turned it towards him, ignoring the flinch
at his touch.
"Dammit, Berry, they didn't abandon ya. Fuckin' Aizen told ya that shit.
Fuckin' Aizen messed with shit and time flowed different. It was four fuckin'
days here. Four days, dammit. They were about to come lookin' for ya when I
came through the garganta with ya," he said, forcing him to look him in the
eyes.
Ichigo's lip trembled then. Just slightly, but enough for both men to catch.
"Th-they were coming?"
"Of course, we were coming, dammit Ichi, we weren't going to leave you with
that maniac! Even the head captain had agreed to it this time!" Renji said,
reaching out and placing a hand on his shoulder.
This time he didn't flinch away. This time he stared at his knees, tears
spilling over onto his pants in a sudden torrent. His chest heaved as though he
had just remembered how to breathe again. They hadn't left him. They hadn't
abandoned him. They hadn't deemed him monstrous and better off dead. But still
in the back of his mind whispered that they were lying to him. That they just
wanted to get something from him. But they were lying.
Ichigo shook his head furiously. They wouldn't lie. Not Renji. No, he wouldn't
lie to him, he was his friend. But that damned voice. It kept mumbling on about
how he had no real friends here. That Renji didn't care about him, not really
"I don't know, I don't know," he muttered shaking his head. "What's truth and
what's lies? I can't tell anymore, I can't tell…"
He felt sudden warmth on either side of him as Renji pressed in between him and
the corner he was sitting in and wrapped his strong arms around his waist.
Ichigo gasped and then Grimmjow was on the other side of him, his arms wrapped
around his shoulders. He shivered at the touch, but he felt the warm mix of
wild, nearly feral reaitsu rolling off of the, soothing him.
"Berry, we're here, and we're true. No one here is gonna lie to you," Grimmjow
said softly from beside him. Ichigo looked up, realizing something was
different.
"Grimmjow? What happened to your mask?" he asked, reaching his hand up and
touching the now uncovered right side of his jawline.
Grimmjow shook his head, something warm washing over him that he was unfamiliar
with. "Does it matter, Berry?"
***** Breaking the Dam *****
Sometime later, Urahara entered the room. He smiled softly to himself as he
adjusted the equipment to make sure the reiatsu signatures were reading
correctly. In the corner of the room, the three vibrant haired males sat
together. Ichigo was tightly sandwiched between the blue haired arrancar and
the red haired shinigami, and Urahara thought it was strangely appropriate
since Ichigo seemed to be the bridge between those two worlds. The soft
expression of contentment was not lost on the older shinigami, and he felt his
heart clench again. He rarely saw such an expression on those normally scowling
features. Then he realized something. The arrancar's mask was completely gone.
Not a trace of it remained on what now looked very much like a normal face. His
hollow hole was still in place.
Urahara stared thoughtfully. What if…what if Aizen wasn't as in control over
the hogyuku as he thought he was? It was Urahara's invention after all. It had
a sentience, a will of its own. What if…what if it still recognized the will of
the one who made it? The last time he'd used the hogyuku had been to stabilize
the vizard, to stop them from turning into hollows. Could the last vestiges of
his will have stayed imprinted on the thing?
There was a knock at the door and he recognized Hyori and Shinji. He headed
into the front and let the two vizard in.
"How is he?" Shinji asked, his face having lost his typical grin.
Urahara shook his head. "I don't know. His hollow has gone back, and Ichigo's
taken over, but the hollow has sworn that if he tries to kill himself again,
he'll push Ichigo down again. And I don't think he will resist if he does. It
is taking everything for the hollow to keep him from retreating to his inner
world again."
"Stupid asshole," Hiyori muttered under her breath crossing her arms. Shinji
sighed. "What's he thinking?"
"Hiyori-san, I know how you feel, but Ichigo is doing his best, given his
circumstances," Urahara said softly to his previous fuku-taichou.
"But why? Why is he being like this? Torture ain't that bad, I've seen him
fight, Kisuke, how could Aizen have broken him so easily?" Hiyori asked. Of
course, her and Shinji didn't know everything yet, Urahara had just gotten
ahold of them to tell them that Ichigo had been returned to them.
There was a silence. "If only it had just been torture, Hiyori-san."
Shinji and Hiyori exchanged glances. "What do you mean, Kisuke?"
Urahara laid his fan down on the table. "He spent four months with Aizen. Aizen
shattered everything he was in that time so much that if Grimmjow hadn't
defected and come here with him, he would have died."
"So? I've seen him get more pissed the more hurt he was. He should have still
be trying to tear Aizen limb from limb…" she started feeling Shinji put a hand
on her arm.
"Hiyori, you aren't listening to Urahara-san."
Urahara nodded, and motioned them all to the back where the screens were set
up. "It may be easier if you just hear what the hollow had to tell us."
Urahara returned to the table, having watched too many times. He tuned out the
soft sounds behind him and continued to think on the problem at hand of the
arrancar's sudden transformation. Why was he becoming closer to a shinigami?
Why was his reiatsu signature turning into something closer to a vizard than a
hollow alone? His mind came back to the hogyuku. Could the blasted thing still
recognize his creator as master? Even after the two halves had come together?
He looked up from his thoughts as the two vizards sat down again. Hiyori was
silent and Shinji was rubbing the bridge of his nose.
"Why?" Shinji asked.
Urahara sighed. "Grimmjow seems to think out of frustration because he
attempted to test him and found nothing and a need to send a message to soul
society that he could break even the strongest weapon they had against him."
"Are you sure we can trust this Grimmjow?" Hiyori asked, fire brewing in her
eyes. "I mean, he tried to kill Ichigo and now he says he's trying to help
him?"
"Fuck, you guys are so fuckin' noisy," a voice came from behind them. They
looked up to see the blue haired espada, a scowl gracing his blue brows.
Hiyori fixed him with a glare and Shinji just frowned. "I thought you had a
mask on your jaw," Shinji said finally.
The arrancar reached up and felt along his jawline where the jawbone was gone.
He arched a blue brow and shrugged. "Fuckin' thing started falling apart
yesterday. No fuckin' idea why. Rest of it disappeared at some point while I
was dealing with Orange-berry."
Both Shinji and Hiyori frowned and glanced back to Urahara who suddenly snapped
his fan open in front of his face, hiding a grin at the pet name Grimmjow had
given Ichigo. No more Kurosaki or shinigami, it seemed.
"I left Red with 'im, both of 'em are lazy fuckers, but I'm fuckin' starving.
Got anything?" he asked, flopping down unceremoniously beside Hiyori.
"Of course, Grimmjow-kun, give me a minute," Urahara said as he got up and
headed into the kitchen to prepare a light brunch.
Hiyori stared at him. "Why are you here?"
Grimmjow rolled his cyan eyes at her. "Why are you here, bitch?"
Shinji grabbed her as she started to lunge at the espada, who didn't even
flinch. "Hiyori, he's Urahara-san's guest, remember, we can't be fighting in
the shoten."
"Yeah, Hiyori," Grimmjow said smugly. "No fighting here."
Grimmjow thought her head was going to explode. "Yer the one who was helping
train him to deal with that hollow a'his weren't you?"
The change in subject seemed to calm the volatile female, and Shinji let her
go. "Yeah, but you showed up and he didn't finish his training before he ended
up running off half cocked into Las Noches."
Was he mistaken, or did Shinji see a vague sheen of guilt wash over the
espada's face? Just then, Urahara returned with a plate of various sushi,
sashimi, and rice. They ate quietly, and watched amused as Grimmjow carefully
set aside two portions on separate plates.
"Grimm-fuckin'-jow, I gotta piss!" came a call from the next room. Grimmjow
rolled his eyes, taking one plate and leaving the other.
"Hold yer horses, Red," he said, standing and heading into the next room.
Renji darted out and into the bathroom. A few seconds later he came and flopped
down in the seat the arrancar had just vacated, grinning at the plate of food
before him. "Damn, I'm hungry!"
He then looked up realizing he was being watched by two people he hadn't really
met yet. His face blushed slightly.
"Abarai-kun, this is Shinji and Hiyori, the vizard I told you about who were
training Ichigo-san before you all left for Heuco Mundo," Urahara said,
motioning at them with his fan. Renji nodded, diving into his food.
"What the hell is going on here?" Hiyori asked. "You're sleeping in the same
room with the arrancar? You're a shinigami, what the hell? And aren't you the
fuku-taichou of sixth?"
Renji's face colored again. "It's complicated, Hiyori, was it?" She nodded. "We
went into Ichigo's inner world to retrieve him, and it took both of us to do
it. Now Ichigo doesn't want anyone else around, so we're taking turns sitting
with him so he doesn't do anything…drastic."
Hiyori frowned and crossed her arms again. Then she stood up and headed to the
room where Ichigo was with the arrancar. Urahara started to protest, but seeing
the look on his former subordinate's face, he knew that he wasn't going to stop
her. Well, seeing for herself was perhaps the best thing after all.
She flung the door open with a snap and stared at Ichigo and Grimmjow who sat
on the far side of the room. Hiyori's face was a mask of barely restrained fury
as she looked between the two. Ichigo was awake, the plate of partially eaten
food in front of him on the floor, his back firmly wedged into the corner of
the room. Grimmjow sat a few feet away leaning against the wall, looking
thoughtfully around as Hiyori burst in.
"Ichigo, fuck, what is wrong with you?" she yelled, and instantly regretted it.
His eyes widened and there was a flash of reiatsu, his head dropping forward.
When he raised his head, his eyes were black and gold again.
"Dammit to hell, you fiendish woman!" came the alien voice from Ichigo's lips.
Beside him, Grimmjow groaned. Not again.
"Fuck, you know how hard it is to keep his stupid ass from retreating into the
fuckin' inner world!" Hichigo snarled, standing up.
By now, Shinji, Urahara and Renji had come into the room. Renji fixed Hiyori
with a dagger slinging stare before looking at Hichigo.
"Don't worry, he's not fuckin' far. Zangetsu is holding him just below the
surface, but its getting fucking harder the more his reiatsu comes back. I'll
force him back, I just wanted to fuckin' see who the hell was tryin' to fuck
with all the fuckin' hard work I put into keeping his dumb ass in control,"
Hichigo said, standing up and glaring at Hiyori. "I fuckin' know you. Yer one
of those little bitches I had to tangle with on the outside while king and I
were beatin' the shit outta each other inside."
Hiyori and Shinji both exchanged glances, having seen Ichigo in his full
transformation into the lizard-like hollow. "Well, you weren't exactly the best
looking hollow I'd seen," she muttered.
"Fuck bitch, yer lucky I didn't go all out on yer ass. You didn't see my bad
ass vasto lorde transformation, sweetheart," he said snorting.
He sat down with a frump, ignoring the others. He scarfed the rest of the food
down and looked to them. "Get the fuck out before I push his stubborn ass back
to the surface."
Urahara ushered Hiyori and Shinji from the room and motioned to the monitors.
"I record everything in there, you can watch what happens from here."
Curiousity welling, they stood and watched.
Hichigo rolled his head. "Aight, king. Yer coming back."
Fuck you.
"Fuck you, king, ya ain't got no choice here. As much as I hate the fuckin'
rain, it ain't gonna stop until you sort this the fuck out," he responded out
loud.
He closed his eyes, and started to stumble, caught deftly by Renji as he did.
Ichigo's breath caught as he looked up and around, starting to struggle against
the arms. Renji just held him tighter.
"Come on, you're fine, Ichigo," he said softly, but Ichigo managed to pull away
and stumble backwards, right into Grimmjow's arms.
He looked up, his eyes wild and flashing with fear and anger, locking with the
blue eyed espada. His breath hitched, everything washing over him as he
squeaked, struggling madly for a moment.
"Settle the fuck down, berry," Grimmjow growled above him, deciding to use
every bit of alpha instinct to get him to stop struggling. With a strangled cry
he stopped and leaned into him going mostly limp.
Renji moved up in front of him, and pushed his hair from his face. "There,
that's better, Ichi. You should be feeling better. You slept, you ate, and
nothing is going to hurt you here, we're in Urahara's shop, remember?"
Ichigo's panicked look faded as he looked around. Being forced out of his inner
world was always a head spinning experience. It wasn't like when he came out
willingly, in control. It was like being shoved through layers of cotton into a
blurry sunshine above. He still breathed heavy, his body felt so heavy, so
weak, and he felt his knees give out under him.
"Hey, you okay?" Renji asked, as he wobbled noticeably.
"I'm tired…my legs…" he muttered, turning his face away from the red haired
shinigami in front of him.
Grimmjow grunted and yanked him up bridal style without a second thought. "Of
course, you fuckin' haven't got your strength back yet, baka. Hichigo's been
using reaitsu to keep your body moving for the last day or so. Yer gonna have
to do some work now."
Ichigo sucked in a breath at the motion and for a moment he grasped desperately
at the vest of the man who'd so easily hefted him up, an irrational fear of
being dropped thrumming through his veins. Grimmjow placed him on the pallet
and made him sit up, sitting beside him, placing one hand firmly against the
small of his back to make sure he did. Renji dropped down on his knees in front
of him.
"You think you can talk now, Ichi?" Renji asked, reaching out and taking the
orange haired shinigami substitute's hand gently.
Ichigo's mouth worked as he tried to put a coherent thought together, but he
was finding with Renji's hand in his and Grimmjow's hand on his back he
couldn't really do it. Finally, he just nodded, looking around the familiar
room. His heart had finally stopped trip-hammering in his chest.
"Th-thank you," he muttered, staring down at his hands. "F-for what you did. B-
both of you."
Renji and Grimmjow exchanged glances. "Well ya can thank us later, berry. For
now, just promise us ya ain't gonna do something stuipid. Fuckin' Hichigo'll
skin us both if you do," Grimmjow said, pressing his hand even harder into
Ichigo's back.
Ichigo slowly nodded. The need to die was slowly, painfully slowly, beginning
to recede. Maybe it was his strength rebuilding without the reaitsu sucking
bindings, or maybe it was realizing that he hadn't been abandoned after all.
Yes you were abandoned, they're lying to you… came the smooth baritone voice he
hated and loved at the same time.
He shook his head violently, causing both his companions to arch a brow at him.
"I am trying….to believe…so much…I want to believe…how do I believe…what is
real…"
"Man, he fucked with yer head, didn't he, berry?" Grimmjow said with a frown,
reaching up with his free hand to run it through the man's orange locks. To his
surprise, he didn't flinch this time.
"It isn't all his fault, Sexta," came a familiar voice from the doorway. All
three men looked up to see a very particular pink haired arrancar scientist
standing there with arms demurely folded across his thin chest.
Beside him, Grimmjow felt the boy go limp, and he reached out and caught him
before he fell face first into the floor. He'd passed out at the shock of
seeing one of his tormenters in person.
"Szayel, what the fuck?" Grimmjow asked, laying Ichigo down and motioning to
Renji to stay put.
Szayel sauntered out and sat down at the tea table. Shinji and Hiyori had gone,
and now Rukia and Ikkaku had returned, apparently brining the octava espada
with them.
"What the fuck are you doing here, Szayel?" Grimmjow asked, face flushed in
anger.
Szayel waved it off. "I see your mask is gone, too."
Grimmjow's anger dissipated suddenly. "What? I'm not the only one? I thought it
was being here or some shit."
He slowly sat down opposite the table from the espada of madness. Urahara had
returned bringing more tea. Rukia and Ikkaku were confused it seemed.
Szayel accepted the tea from the wary shinigami. "What are you doing here?"
"Well, it seems some strange things have been happening since you left," Szayel
said shrugging. "Halibel and Stark both lost their masks for no reason, and Nel
came back full strength and also maskless. There was a little coup de tat, I
suppose you would say. Barragan has taken over Las Noches again, and we sealed
Aizen in a neat little kido Urahara-san here helped me with," he said
nonchalantly.
"What? You defeated him that easily?" Grimmjow asked, truly shocked.
"Never said it was easy," Szayel muttered. "Yammy stayed with him, so we had to
kill him first. And then the other espada had to choose to defend Aizen or help
us. Nnoitroi ended up helping us, to our surprise, but he's got two eyes now.
Seems his hollow hole sealed up. Ulquirro also joined us in putting down Aizen.
His hollow mask is gone, but the hollow hole is still in his chest."
Grimmjow sat, mouth agape. They'd turned on Aizen? Even with that bloody
zanpakuto of his? He looked at Urahara who was hiding behind his fan again.
"I came here to bring the hogyuku back to Urahara-san, as promised, so he can
destroy it," Szayel said, reaching into a pouch and handing the much sought
over object like it was a simple gem or piece of gold.
"What…" Grimmjow muttered. Masks shattering? Hollow holes sealing up? What the
hell was going on?
"It's the work of the hogyuku, Grimmjow-kun," Urahara said, holding up the
decidedly innocuous looking object. "The greatest desires of the master is what
it manifests. Unfortunately for Aizen, the hogyuku never really recognized him
as its master, instead, it only bent to my will as its creator. And I didn't
realize it until your mask fell off. It was 'fixing' the damage done by Aizen
still, just as I had willed it to do when AIzen had experimented on the
Vizards."
It was becoming clear. Without the power of the hogyuko, those under his
command wouldn't follow him as they had before, especially if their hollow
natures were slowly being erased. He didn't understand it at all, though. If
the hogyuku desired to fix Aizen's actions, why didn't the arrancar simply
cease to be?
As if reading his mind, Urahara smiled. "No, I wanted none of you dead,
Grimmjow-kun. Taking life is not so easy for me. None of the espada willingly
walked into this life. You were all forced into it. And without you knowing it,
the longer you were in Las Noches in proximity of the hogyuku, it was slowly
changing and altering each and every one of you, especially those who were
truly powerful. Why do you thing Szayel softened and let you go? Even though
madness had a tight grip on him, it still began to edge away and allow emotions
long cut off to return. And you, espada of destruction, instead of wanting to
utterly destroy Ichigo, you wanted to save him. Why? The hogyuku was awakening
things that were long sealed."
Suddenly Grimmjow gasped, grasping his stomach and leaning over. "Fuck!" he
snarled. A shock of utter and complete mind numbing pain ripped through him,
and he vaguely saw the hogyuku flash and thrum gently, and he was hit with an
incredible wave of…of…emotion. Love, pain, yearning, anger, lonliness, hope,
thoughts of caring for someone other than himself, everything washed over him
in a second and he lay on the floor now staring at the swirling ceiling. His
breath came in heaving pants as his reaitsu seemed to roil and flash around
him. It felt different somehow.
"Grimmjow-kun?" a voice from outside whispered and he opened his eyes to find
himself staring up into the gray eyes of the hat wearing shop keeper. "Are you
okay?"
Grimmjow frowned. "Fuck you asking, bastard, of course I'm not fuckin' okay,
what the fuck happened?"
"See for yourself," Szayel said, motioning to Grimmjow's belly.
Grimmjow reached down tentatively and found fingers touching skin where there
should be a gaping hole. He looked down and stared. Where the hole had been was
a round spot filled with bright pink flesh. His hollow hole was…gone? He looked
up between Szayel and Urahara.
"As I expected, having the hogyoku near accelerated the process," Urahara
mused. "Szayel, your hollow hole has also sealed?"
The pink haired man nodded. "Last night. By the look on Grimmjow's face, it
seems it hurts like hell no matter which of us it happens to. I had the hogyuku
with me after digging it out of Aizen's chest. Similar thing happened after I'd
been exposed to it for a short while."
Grimmjow didn't move, he only stared at his belly like it belong to someone
else. In his mind, those thoughts of pure destruction had left, utterly and
completely. And another feeling began to wash over him as he scrambled to his
feet and stumbled into the room where Renji lay beside Ichigo, stroking his
hair in a loving way. Though a part of him roared with jealousy to see someone
other than him touching the boy, the new part of him simply smiled to see the
sublime expression on the other alpha male's face. There was no mistaking the
look of true and unyielding love in those dark eyes of the red haired
shinigami.
Renji looked up at his entrance, his eyes wide. "Grimmjow, your hollow
hole…it's gone!"
***** Hallow Hearts *****
The initial shock of the fact that the arrancar were still evolving passed
quickly into a flurry of excitement as more and more people from Soul society
showed up. The majority of Urahara's basement had been turned into a lab/living
space for the Arrancar who decided to leave Hueco Mundo and help figure out
what was happening to them all. Soi Fon-taichou and the stealth force were
deployed throughout Karakura Town. Both sides had agreed that the world of the
living offered neutral ground to discuss what was to happen in the future.
Meetings had been arranged and now Ukitake-taichou and Kurotsuki-taichou had
come across as diplomat and scientist, respectively. Szayel had been
surprisingly cooperative, considering his previous madness. Somehow, the
aspects of death that each espada contained were slowly draining away, as
though Aizen's power had been the only thing sustaining those things.
Honestly, it was a mystery exactly how it had all happened. Even with Szayel,
Urahara and Mayuri working together, they weren't entirely sure what had
happened. It was obvious the hogyuku was the base of the entire thing, and they
were rapidly trying to find a way to destroy the thing, and finding it none too
easy. Everything they tried seemed to rebound. So far all the arrancar that had
close contact with the hogyuku had changed. Those that stayed behind in Hueco
Mundo had remained as they were.
Gin Ichimaru had been instrumental in overthrowing Aizen, so he had been sent
back to soul society under house arrest much to the happiness of Rangiku
Matsumoto. After all came out, it was revealed the Gin had intended to kill
Aizen and stayed close to him to attempt just that. He had proven his own
character by risking everything to dethrone the once and maybe king from Las
Noches. Tousen, however, had died along with Yammy, having been given the power
of a hollow by Aizen. Without the hogyuku to power him when the top five espada
turned on him together, Aizen and his associates had no chance, even with the
illusion causing sword of his.
And now, the room was filled with the changed arrancar and scientists. It
seemed everyone from Squad 12 had shown up, bringing half the place with them
in equipment.
There was one thing that Grimmjow was not happy about in the slightest, though.
Ulquirro had come to help with the testing. His own hollow hole had, like the
rest of them, sealed up, but that didn't mean the blue haired espada trusted
him. He still looked the same, minus the hole in his chest. But he was going to
do his damnedest to make sure that bastard didn't come near what was his.
"Ulquirro, why the fuck are you here?" he asked, furious anger swirling in his
blue eyes and he stared at the green eyed bat.
Ulquirro blinked, even with his emotions returning, he remained passive and
emotionless on the surface. "What do you mean, Grimmjow? I came to help Szayel
and the others figure out if the change is permanent or some temporary effect
Aizen's loss of control to Urahara of the hogyuku."
"You know that Ichigo is here," he said tightly.
Ulquirro nodded. "I know that. That is why I am remaining down here. I believe
it would be overly traumatic for the human to encounter me."
Grimmjow wanted to punch straight through his impassive fucking face. "'Overly
traumatic'?" his voice rose several octaves and several of those around them
were now staring at him, including Inoue, Chad, and Uryu. "Overly fucking
traumatic? Is that all you can say after you left him shattered in a fuckin'
mess and bleeding to death?"
"I was not the originator of all of his torment, Grimmjow. I witnessed Aizen
doing the same things before. I was simply indulging my own curiosity, and I…"
Ulquirro didn't finish the sentence because the blue haired espada punched him,
sending him flying through two boulders that were behind him.
No one moved for a long moment as Ulquirro slowly dug himself from the rubble
and returned to where he had been standing, a few rips in his clothes, but
otherwise unfazed by the sexta espada's explosion. "By your reaction, Grimmjow,
I take it you have decided that he will be your mate?"
A pin could have dropped in the room at that moment. "Otherwise, there would be
no need for you to defend him so violently. Of course, if you are not laying
claim to him, then perhaps I could coax forgiveness from him for my previous
actions. He has the strength and stamina to be an excellent choice."
No one saw the second fist come flying either as Ulquirro, ready this time,
caught the fist and only skidded backward a few feet before coming to a stop.
"It would seem I struck a nerve, Grimmjow."
"You stay the fuck away from him, Ulquirro. You come near him, I will skin the
hierro off your body and use it to stab your worthless fucking eyes out,"
Grimmjow growled and stormed away up the ladder in a burst of sonido.
Ulquirro turned impassively back to the room at large, even Kurotski staring at
him. "I suppose I shall have to find a different beta."
Uryu looked over at Rukia who stood beside him now. "Were they just fighting
over Kurosaki?"
Rukia nodded slowly. "I think so…"
"It's because of Ichigo's hollow," Szayel said from beside them now, garnering
everyone's attention. "He's trying to safeguard Ichigo, and one of the best
ways for a hollow beta to be safe is for him to become marked by a hollow
alpha."
Rukia frowned. "But he's not a hollow," she stated.
The pink haired espada shook his head. "He's just as much a hollow as we
arrancars are. Beasts inside, remember? Us Arrancar have retained our
ressurccion forms. Our changes seem to have stopped at sealing the hollow hole
and our masks leaving. We can still perform our release state, much the same as
Ichigo and the vizard can call out the mask."
Inoue stared at him curiously. "But why all this about the mates and alphas and
betas?"
"Ichigo's hollow is releasing the pheromones to attract an alpha. He may not
even know he's doing it, to be honest. But with all these arrancars suddenly
showing up in close proximity, any hollow beta is going to start seeking a mate
to be safe from the rest. I've already started the same process, and have been
fending off all three of Hallibel's fraccion for the last day," he said
glancing over his shoulder where Mila Rose was waving at him. He waved back
shyly.
"But they're all female…" Rukia said.
Szayel nodded. "Of course, but they are alpha females, all three and Hallibel
as well. Sex isn't a matter of gender for hollows, it is dominance and
submission. And for ah alpha to claim a beta, the beta must beat them in
battle, so you can see why I am not in the mood to deal with them right now. I
have far much to do to be fighting those three, then watching to see which one
comes out on top."
Renji walked up just then, stretching out his arms. "Damn, what put the fire in
Grimmjow? He came tearing upstairs and told me to leave. He looked about ready
to explode!"
Rukia pointed to the green eyed espada. Renji's face fell into a frown. "Oh, I
see. What happened?"
Szayel sighed. "Well first, Grimmjow was mad because he was here, then Ulquirro
started questioning what he was going to do with Ichigo, indicating that he was
interested in taking him as a beta. That's when he stormed off."
"What he was going to do with Ichigo?" Renji asked.
Szayel started to speak but was called back by Kurotsuki. Urahara came
sauntering over smiling behind his fan.
"Hello, Renji-san, how are you doing today?" Urahara said.
"I'm not sure, this is all confusing, I got why everyone is here, and the whole
negotiations with Las Noches, and all that, but what's going on with Grimmjow
and Ulquirro? And why is that bastard even here after what he did to Ichigo?"
Renji asked, glowering at Ulquirro.
Urahara waved his fan at Renji. "Seems like you are just as overheated over any
perceived danger to Ichigo-kun as Grimmjow-san is…"
Renji swallowed, his entire face going beet red. "Well, um, that is…"
Urahara placed a hand on his shoulder gently, surprisingly gently. "Renji,
there is no need to hide your feelings for Ichigo-kun any longer, especially
after the lengths you were willing to go to in order to save him. But you
remember that Hichigo said he was a beta, and the hollow was an alpha?"
Renji nodded, urging the hat and clog wearing man to continue. "It's a part of
the hollow world that the betas need an alpha to survive. The problem with
Ichigo is that his hollow is an alpha, and in order to survive in the same
soul, Ichigo-kun had to become a beta to cope with it. It doesn't mean that
he's weak, on the contrary, betas are usually stronger than the alphas because
they usually carry the young."
"But Ichigo isn't a hollow!" Rukia said again. "I don't understand what this
has to do with him!"
Urahara sighed deeply and patted the short woman on the shoulder. "I know, but
he is more like the arrancar than we like to believe. He isn't just tapping
into the power of an inner hollow, half his soul is a hollow. And the way
things are going around here, unless someone 'claims' him, we might be in
trouble. The pheromones his hollow is emitting is setting off every hollow and
arrancar close by. And I'm worried what that will do to him if someone advances
on him in a typical alpha manner."
Renji frowned. "Typical alpha manner?"
Urahara nodded. "Aggressive and dominating, much how he was treated by Aizen.
One of the reasons Aizen was able to break him like he was. He not only had
physical control, he was using his rieatsu to activate the hollow instincts and
Szayel was injecting him with a cocktail of drugs meant to heighten arousal,
sensitivity, and put him in a semi-hypnotic and suggestible state. That's why
he is having such trouble breaking away from the things that he was told by
Aizen."
Urahara motioned for Renji and the others to follow him back upstairs. Once
they were seated in the tea room, Urahara checked the monitor to see Grimmjow
seated cross legged behind where Ichigo was sleeping, a scowl across the bright
blue brows.
"Szayel was able to provide me with complete descriptions of the tests and
experiments that were done on Ichigo-kun, and it confirmed my suspicions. He
had awoken the hollow instincts but pushed down the hollow consciousness so
that Ichigo-kun was operating without much thought. The drugs were putting him
into such a state that anything said to him by Aizen was the truth. Right now,
he's fighting through the network of lies and half-truths that AIzen fed him.
I've given him some injections to help clear the fog, but it isn't something I
can just cure. He has to come through it by himself," Urahara said, sighing
again, his fan forgotten on the table in front of him.
"So, basically how does an alpha claim a beta?" Renji said quietly.
"Bite. You remember when Aizen bit Ichigo? He forced his own reiatsu through
the wound and bound it to Ichigo's own. It created a bridge between the two
souls, and until we removed it, Ichigo was subject to his attacks," Urahara
said, snapping his fan open.
Renji looked thoughtful. "Well, how do we keep someone else from doing that to
him?"
"Well, ideally, an alpha that he cared about would leave his or her mark on
him, match the reiatsu patterns, and the pheromones would stop, and the rest of
the alphas in the area would quit honing in on him. Ikkaku and Yumichika have
been busy today killing all the hollows that have been roaming the area since
the pheromones started leaking out of him," Urahara said with a frown.
"Why don't we ask him?" a voice behind them said. They looked up to see
Grimmjow in the doorway, having heard some of the conversation. "I mean, it's
his fuckin' choice what happens to 'im, right?"
Urahara kept one eye on the monitor showing Ichigo's sleeping form. "You're
right, Grimmjow-kun. It is unfair to keep this from him, and unfair for us to
decide what he can and cannot handle without asking him ourselves. Why don't
you and Renji stay with him and discuss it when he wakes up. We'll hold off the
hollows outside and the keep everyone else downstairs for the time being."
With that everyone else left, Rukia leaving with a lingering stare on Renji as
the door was shut and sealed over them. Renji looked at Grimmjow and they both
headed into the room with the soft snoring sounds of the orange headed boy on
the floor.
"I know what I want, Red, but I'm a lil scared to ask 'im," Grimmjow said with
a sigh, laying down against Ichigo's sleeping back.
Renji nodded. "I know the feeling."
The silence stretched out for a while. "But what are we gonna do, Red?"
"Take care of him, I guess, until he's back to normal," Renji said, laying down
in front of Ichigo, gently brushing the hair out of his face.
Grimmjow's hands began to rub Ichigo's back. "But what if he don't want us to?"
Renji sighed, the same thoughts running through his head. He'd never really
felt like this, at least not to this degree. It was like Ichigo was yanking
some base animal instincts to the surface. Considering, though, how primal the
energy of his own spirit and zanpakuto was, though, that wasn't too difficult.
Even the tattoos that he gained as he gained power spoke of wild and untamed
energy. His reiatsu had always matched that same feeling. And he felt similar
energy rolling off the gruff ex-sexta espada across from him.
Ichigo moved, rolling over to his back and he found himself staring up into the
cyan blue eyes of Grimmjow and the cherry chocolate eyes of Renji. He started a
bit, but relaxed, feeling the comforting reaitsu flow over and through him.
"Hrm, what do you want?" he muttered, his eyes fluttering in near sleep.
Renji brushed his hair out of his face again. "Hey, we need to talk, you think
you can, Ichi?"
The orange haired shinigam nodded and reached up to cup Renji's cheek with one
hand and Grimmjow's cheek with the other.
"Why am I so hot?" he asked, looking up between them both.
Renji swallowed, grabbing his hand and holding it down. "That's what we gotta
talk about, see there's this alpha beta thing, and…"
"Yeah, Hichigo told me about it while I was sleeping," he muttered, shifting
uncomfortably under the light sheet that was over him. "Something about smell
or something drawing hollows to me. He said he was sorry but it was something
Aizen did with the stupid injections."
He kept rubbing up against both of them, touching and running hands over them.
"Ichigo, you need to tell us what you want, not what the hollow wants."
Grimmjow thought he might explode as he felt him rub a hip against the hardness
in his jeans. He swallowed and looked heatedly over at Renji as if to say he
couldn't take much more.
"Um, Ichigo, Urahara said that someone had to mark you with their reiatsu to
get this to stop, and we wanted to know, um, who you…ah…" Renji stopped when
Ichigo's hand grasped his crotch roughly.
Renji reached down and grabbed both his hands in and held them in front.
"Ichigo, stop, we need to know what you want! I can do it or Grimmjow can, but
you gotta tell us what you want."
Ichigo looked up between the two of them and then smiled softly, his face
blushing bright red. "What if I want both?"
***** The Strongest Blade *****
A pin could have been heard dropping in the next town. Hell, two towns over, as
Renji and Grimmjow locked eyes with each other. Whatever pheromones or whatever
Ichigo was putting off was damn near choking them both, especially at that
moment. Renji swallowed hard closed his eyes. Before it had been Hichigo, not
Ichigo, and now Ichigo wasn't himself. Aizen had injected him with things to
make him mimic the animal side of a hollow, to tap into that which had always
been there, dormant. He really didn't want to do this if Ichigo wasn't willing.
"You've got to," Ichigo practically purred below them, squirming around under
the sheet he was in and bringing both Grimmjow and Renji back to staring at
him. "Hichigo said if you don't, someone else will, and he said that the other
arrancar are here, and I don't want them near me at all. He…he said that…it
would start out slow, but it would get bad since Aizen wanted me to react to
him like this. But I'm not marked anymore, and his reiatsu is gone, so now…"
As if on cue, they heard the sound of a couple hollows screaming outside. There
was an obvious clash as the shinigami on the outside took care of them, but
they were quickly followed by another set of screams. Ichigo was drawing them
faster now.
"Fuckin' Aizen," Ichigo moaned, reaching up and grabbing Renji by the hair and
yanking him down into a kiss full of tongue and teeth.
Surprisingly, Grimmjow didn't feel the slightest pang of jealousy at the sight.
Instead he mearly growled and as soon as Red came up for air, took his place,
pressing into the boy under him, his tongue absolutely ravaging the boy's
mouth. He was met with equal fevor as Ichigo grabbed handfuls of his hair in
return. He sat up and saw the confused look on Renji's face.
"What, you want fuckin' Ulquirro to come up here after him?" Grimmjow said
suddenly, illiciting a full body shudder from Ichigo below him and a whimper at
the thought. "I know it fuckin' don't seem right, after what has happened, Red,
but if we don't deal with it, Ulquirro is already trying to lay claim on him,
and I can't let that happen to him again. Just mentioning that fucker's name
makes him tremble still. If its us, at least he'll be himself and not a shadow
of the man he was before all this shit happened."
Renji looked down; Ichigo's lust clouded eyes had that fear in them, just
mentioning it. Renji didn't want to see that dead look in his eyes again. Ever.
"If this is the only way," he said. "Tell me what to do, I'm no fuckin'
hollow."
Grimmjow was about to speak when Ichigo's mask suddenly starting forming around
him and the heavy black hollow reaitus began to shake the barriers around the
shoten. Renji and Grimmjow both gave each other a look as the distorted voice
from behind the slowly forming mask, but it was only half forming, only the
left side, and only one eye turning black and gold.
"Ngh! I could kill Aizen for this! I want to rip…his throat…out…and eat…his
soul…"
Then the right eye clouded over and Hichigo's voice, not Ichigo's distorted
voice, came out in a near scream. "You two fucks hurry up or we're gonna lose
fuckin' control, and I can't stop the transformation…he'll lose himself to the
hollow mind…"
Grimmjow didn't wait as he grabbed Ichigo and pulled his unresisting body into
a seated position. The right eye had returned to brown, but fearful as to what
was going on with his body and soul. "Remember what Aizen did? Bite down, force
rieatsu into him, and focus on twisting it, melding it into his reiatsu.
Concentrate on making him submit to your will."
"I…can't…that's…" Renji stammered.
"Red, you ain't got a choice, fucking do it at the same time. If there are two
alphas we might be able to contain his reiatsu enough. That's why he said both
of us. You know how fuckin' massive this kid's power is, Red. With very little
help, he managed to break through Aizen's submission. Inoue pulled it out, but
he broke the hold," Grimmjow said, as the rising red tinged black energy seemed
to pulse out of him, and the foaming mask started creeping across the other
side of his face, his brown eye starting to darken.
Renji nodded, understanding. Ichigo wasn't your average shinigami or even your
average hollow. He was both, so it made sense it would take both to contain
him. Grimmjow and Renji nodded simultaneously and both dove down and bit into
Ichigo's neck at the same moment, driving reiatsu into the wound sharply.
Ichigo threw his head back and screamed, a hollow sound mixed with a distorted
human scream. The whipping black energy faded, his mask shattering and
disappearing, and eyes now chocolate brown rolling up into the back of his head
as he fell forward limply.
"Did it work?" Renji asked hesitantly.
Grimmjow laid him back gently and leaned forward. On his left side, a small
deep blue mark had formed at the back of his neck where Grimmjow had bitten
down into him. He turned his head and saw a similar red mark on the other side
of the back of his neck. Grimmjow nodded slowly. "Looks like it."
There was a fluttering of his eyelids and they found themselves looking down
into black sclera and gold pupils.
"Well, ya fuckers managed it, took ya long enough, fuck, man. I thought we
weren't gonna make it. Why the fuck did it take me so long to figure this shit
out? Fuck. I almost lost my king," Hichigo said. "Now he's got two fuckin'
alphas. I was supposed to be his only fuckin' alpha. Fuckin' Aizen, man."
Grimmjow frowned. "What the fuck happened?"
Highigo sighed. "Fuckin' getabishi still recording, cuz I'm only sayin this
once," he said looking around, when both the men above him nodded.
"Okay, from what me and Zangetsu put together, all we know is there tha pink
haired freak was pumpin' me fulla different shit to activate hollow instincts.
Even before the pink freak got ahold of us, he'd already used something on
Ichigo when he caught him the first time that let him use the hollow mark on
him. Wouldn't have worked otherwise, since he's human. But fuckin' Aizen didn't
count on king being so fuckin' strong, and he shoved off his reiatsu force
enough that big tits, er Inoue, could pull the foreign reiatsu out of him.
That's when all hell broke loose. Without the fuckin' mark, the hollow
instincts were callin' alphas, which in reality would be fought off to find the
strong one, but he wasn't in no fuckin' condition to handle them. So here we
are," Hichigo said.
"I take it getabishi and the pink haired freak put together the shit," he said
sighing. "Okay I'm fuckin' out, he's all yers, I can't fight anymore right now.
Keep him from runnin', keep him from killin' his fool self, all that shit. Ya
can now, as his alphas." His eyes fluttered and gently closed leaving Renji and
Grimmjow looking over his still form quite unsure of what to do now.
"Well, at least that's sorted," the striped hat and clog wearing shop owner
said with a snapping click to open his fan. "Everyone settled down below, and
seems like the hollows have tapered down. I felt that blast of reiatsu even
past the barriers, what exactly happened?"
Renji looked up, suddenly afraid of what he'd just done. "I…I'm not sure what
we just did, he said we could make sure he doesn't hurt himself now, what does
that mean, Urahara-san? I didn't want to do anything to hurt him…"
Grimmjow frowned. "Hollows have a reiatsu link with their mates, so we can
influence them to do what we want, have them…submit."
"B-but…no, we can't make Ichigo…" Renji looked panicked as Urahara put his hand
on his shoulder.
"Renji-san, you did what you had to do. We'll deal with the consequences later.
For now, I think all three of you need rest after such a trying experience.
Then it was like a damp fog fell over the room, and both Renji and Grimmjow
found themselves flopping forward into Ichigo's chest, both hearing his heart
beat beneath them. Urahara sighed. At least that kido still worked. He was
worried, of course. But the worry didn't seem to touch his lively grey eyes.
-Basement level—
It had been a while since Urahara had left to investigate the strange reiatsu
surge from the building above. As soon as the surge happened, the aggression
among the former arrancar (because what exactly where they now?) seemed to
dissipate. Ulquirro, who had been pacing back and forth near the ladder upward
ever since he found out there was a barrier above him, stopped and looked
around, then moved away, returning to the others. Hallibel's fraccion seemed to
stop chasing Szayel as well.
Szayel moved back over, sighing. "Ah, someone claimed him, so now it's over."
Rukia, Chad and Issida were the group he was standing closest too. Rukia
frowned. "Claimed him? What does that mean?"
"An alpha laid claim to Ichigo-san. It was the only way to quell that turmoil.
Aizen had wanted Ichigo to be his obedient beta, always at his disposal, always
in submission, so many of the things that he had me give him were to increase
the base hollow instincts of the alpha/beta mentality. So when Inoue-san pulled
out Aizen's reiatsu, his mark, then it left him open to be reclaimed by the
next strongest alpha," he said matter of factly, as though these silly
shinigami and humans should seriously understand it by now.
"But…" Rukia began.
Szayel nodded. "Yes, he's not a hollow, but with his inner hollow and
everything Aizen pumped him full of, he's going to act like one. From now on,
he belongs to his alpha. And if anyone else tries to interfere, they're going
to regret it."
"Belongs?" Issida said, pushing his glasses up again. "What does that mean?
He's subservient to them?"
Szayel nodded. "Of course. He can't deny his alpha, no matter how hard he
tries, their reiatsu signatures are blended, and if the alpha is strong enough,
they can't be separated."
Rukia swallowed hard. "So after all he's been through, what Aizen did to him,
he's practically going to be a slave to whoever claimed him?"
"Well, I mean, it depends on the alpha. Aizen used it to bend him to his will,
to make him a slave. Another one wouldn't do that," he said looking up to see
Urahara coming down slowly.
He was mobbed by the human and shinigami friends of those upstairs alike.
"Settle down, they're all three okay, sleeping, I made sure of it, they all
needed it, but the danger to Ichigo-san has passed."
"Who?" Rukia asked suddenly.
Urahara frowned. "Whatever do you mean, Rukia-san?"
"Cut it shopkeeper, Szayel told us what was happening, and said the only way to
stop it was if someone 'laid claim' on Ichigo. Who did it?" She said hotly.
He snapped open the fan and nodded. "Ya, ya, that was a joint effort, between
Renji-san and Grimmjow-san."
Szayel had moved up and folded his arms over his chest. "Makes sense, he is a
shinigami and a hollow, so it took a shinigami and a hollow to contain the
reiatsu."
Rukia's face had blushed. "And you're okay with this? That he's been so damaged
and now he has two people that can make him do anything they want, not that I
think Renji would, but Grimmjow tried to kill him!"
There was a silence around them as Urahara nodded. "Rukia, it was that or the
hollow was going to consume him and we were going to have to kill him. Aizen
released a lot of the restraints that Kurosaki-san had on the hollow with his
tinkering and with the hogyuku. We are very lucky things have turned out this
well."
There was a flurry of moment and Ukitake-taichou clapped loudly from his
position. Everyone turned to see what the news from soul society would be in
regards to the once arrancar and the defector Gin.
"The ruling on the arrancar is that they will be held in custody for a period
of time in which to determine the permanence of the changes wrought by the
hogyuku. There will be a camp set up for them to live in, guarded of course,
until everything is settled. Assuming everything goes well, integration into
soul society will begin," Ukitake announced.
There was a buzz of talking but the small group around Urahara was more worried
about a certain orange haired shinigami substitute's fragile mental state at
that moment.
-Ichigo's Inner World—
What the hell would he do now? He wanted to sleep. His head was still muddled
with the things Aizen had said, the things he had forced him to believe with
all his heart. And now, he was no more than property to two others that he
really didn't know what the future brought.
"Does it bother you that much that you've been marked by them?" Zangetsu's
passive voice said beside him.
Ichigo sighed. "It's just, that's what started the whole thing, and the mark
was gone, and I was free, and now, I feel their presence even in my sleep, like
Aizen's presence before them."
"Does their presence hurt you?"
Ichigo closed his eyes. "No, it feels warm, comforting. Not like Aizen's. It
was so cold and burned into every corner of my being."
"Do you love them?"
The question caught him off guard and he looked up at black clad man. Love? Did
he love Renji? Did he love Grimmjow? Wait, how could he love either one of
them? Both had been his enemies, and both had seen his strength, so why did he
need them?
"Ichigo, even the strongest blade can break, remember?"
Ichigo thought about that for a long time. He had broken. Shattered into
thousands of disgusting pieces. He hated himself so much that he had just
wanted to die and start over in soul society. He didn't want to face family or
friends with the heavy shame that weighed down his heart. But it hadn't
mattered to Grimmjow, who rushed in and risked his life to get him out of
there. It hadn't mattered to Renji, who gave up his body to jar Ichigo out of
his recessed corner of his inner world. So was it really that shameful to have
been taken advantage of like he had been?
"No, it wasn't. You did well. Now let them help reforge the shattered blade,
Ichigo."
Ichigo sat a while longer and thought. His friends hadn't abandoned him. None
of them had, and he knew they were all waiting for him to come around. Even
Hiyori and Shinji had been there. He knew he couldn't stand them all at once,
but maybe, just maybe, he could come to do so. Once the damage in his fractured
mind was slowly undone, and now he knew it. It was damage.
Even the strongest blade can break.
***** Echoes of Hurts Past *****
Ichigo was drifting, lazily, somewhere soft now. It wasn't his inner world, it
was a dream, maybe? He moaned as he stretched out. He winced as he reached up
and touched a painful place on his neck which immediately sizzled out strange
rieatsu. He looked up seeing sparks of red and blue. Red and blue? Why did that
make him happy?
Then he was thrown to his knees, now being pressed down, pushed into the
ground. He felt hands on him again, around his back and a voice came to him
unbidden.
"Maybe it's all an illusion, Ichi-kun. Maybe this is nothing more than what
I've chosen to show you. Maybe this is just what I desire," the thick baritone
voice whispered in his ear.
His heart started to beat thunder in his chest as he shook his head. No, it
wasn't one of Aizen's illusions. He'd never seen his shikai.
"How do you know you've never seen my shikai?" he whispered. "Maybe you have
and don't remember."
Then the touches, those horrible cold fingers, touching his skin. Kneading his
flesh with daggers of ice. Violet, violet reiatsu forcing its way into his
heart and soul, vicious and cutting in the invasion.
"No! Leave me alone, I don't want you to touch me!" he screamed finding the
strength to stand and backing up. Those brown eyes bored holes in him like they
were beams of heated light, or ceros.
"I told you, Ichi-kun, I told you. They abandoned you. They're lying to you.
They're the ones you need to fear. I gave you purpose, to be by my side. What
are they doing, trying to control you, make you their own? You are a useless
broken blade now. You will never be reforged except by my hands. I am your only
hope of survival."
He backed away, reaching for Zangetsu but finding he was in his human body. He
looked around franticly. The walls were white, the floor was white, and the
ceiling was white. No color stained the room except the orange of his own hair.
Then, in a leap Aizen was on him, pinning him down, forcing himself on him
brutally again, and he couldn't stop him.
Perhaps one of the most soul-shaking sounds for someone is to hear someone they
care about scream in terror. Not the "I'm having a nightmare fear, or even the,
I'm going to fall off this ledge if I'm not careful fear. No, true terror. That
thing that starts at the bottom of the stomach and works its way up slowly in
such a tight release that it is unmistakable. This is no screaming like a girl
sound, no shrieking. No this is something so distinct that no one, whether
they've heard it or not can mistake it. It is a quaking thing, leaving the body
shivering just from hearing it. Something lay behind the sound, something so
primal that it harkens back to the time when the long ago bests ran from the
predators. The sound that is made when instead of predator, one is prey.
Renji and Grimmjow were both in the next room with Urahara and Rukia trying to
figure out what the ramifications of what they'd done the evening before were.
After falling under the sleeping kido, the three had slept soundly until
Urahara released the kido. But Ichigo had still slept. And by the thready feel
of his reiatsu they all knew he needed it. It would take a while to recover
from what happened the day before.
While not entirely unexpected, the sheer sound and outpouring of reiatsu
actually shattered the barrier that had been set up around the room in a golden
flash. Before another word could be said, all four were skidding into the room
to find Ichio's body convulsing, the initial scream and reiatsu release faded,
but now great gouts of red lined black pushed outward, lashing out, leaving
scratches on any that got close enough to him to be touched by the.
Urahara tried chanting a barrier but it was smashed by one of the tendrils of
reiatsu before it could fully form. He quickly called out Benehime and the red
shield managed to hold it off, but he could see it cracking, much like it had
the first time he had trained Ichigo.
"Grimmjow! Renji! Take control through the link before he blows himself and all
of us up with him!" Urahara said, trying to hold the shield that they were
behind.
Grimmjow closed his eyes, feeling throught he reaitsu he'd intertwined in
Ichigo's body. The black was resisting though, trying to untwist it. Grimmjow
set his jaw. "Red, you gotta do it too, he's trying to force me out! This is
why he wanted both of us to do this, remember? He knew!"
Renji was nervous but he knew he had to do this. He had to contain this
incredible…whatever it was. He reached out feeling the link, his own red
reaitsu also entwined with the black and blue. The blue was holding tightly as
the black tried to thrash away, so Renji applied the same pressure, and around
them, the lashing black reaitsu seemed to calm.
"Concentrate on making him sleep, force him to do it no matter how he resists,"
Grimmjow said tightly, moving to kneel beside his still thrashing body.
Renji did the same, holding onto him. He concentrated everything into it, his
own red reiatsu flaring around him, and Grimmjow's blue rising up as well. They
were both powerful, and that's why it had to be them. He resisted, Renji could
feel his absolute terror as he was forced to do something he didn't want to do,
even if it was a simple thing like sleep. His mind thrashed wildly, and they
both felt the utter betrayal he felt that they were doing this him before he
quieted and fell into a deep and dreamless sleep.
Renji sat back, panting, as did Grimmjow. "Oh boy, he's gonna be pissed when he
wakes up. Or rather when we wake him up."
Urahara, his zanpakuto sheathed again inside the cane kneeled at Ichigo's feet.
"Any idea what caused that? And what did you do?"
Grimmjow sighed. "I'm more used to this than Red here, so I'll see if I can't
run through his memories through the link and figure this out. We forced him to
sleep, and until we wake him, he won't wake on his own."
Grimmjow laid down and placed a hand on the mating mark on his neck and closed
his eyes. It was almost like dreaming but he found himself floating in a large,
open, and completely white area. It was an exaggerated copy of Las Noches. He
knew that this was going to happen at some point, but what had triggered this
sort of thing? As he walked he heard voices and as he neared he could hear
Aizen's smooth, perfect voice.
"No, don't let them fool you. Shattered mess, that's what you are, dear Ichi-
kun, and I'll reforge you, brand new! My perfect Arrancar…" he purred.
Grimmjow came around to find a scene he was sure was a constant reel in
Ichigo's head, and it stung him deeply to see his mated one being hurt by
someone like that sick fuck Aizen. Even if it was only in his head, he felt the
incredibly strong need to defend him. He leaped, his from shifting as he
muttered, "Grind, Pantera."
Grimmjow had never defended another. Not really, but he leaped forward with all
the speed and force of a panther as he tackled the image of Aizen before him,
earning a yelp from Ichigo as the figure was knocked away from him. Ichigo was
backpedaling, into the wall behind him as Grimmjow fought tooth and claw with
the thing. It had Aizen's form, but it seethed hollow energy. What the fuck? It
grinned, a hollow sound coming from it, and the bright purple reiatsu flared
around it that was familiar, yet foreign. A mask started forming on him, and it
looked like the face of a vulture. Grimmjow snarled, as it lashed out, leaving
a deep cut along his skin. After a few bloody minutes, they stood a ways apart,
both leaking fluids onto the white floor, bright red and almost black.
"What the fuck are you?" Grimmjow growled, holding up claws bloodied black.
The thing cackled in a voice that sounded like Aizen's only distorted. "How do
you think Aizen was able to mark him the first time, espada?"
Everything began to clear. Aizen had pulled a hollow into himself. Aizen had
used it to gain the knowledge he needed and passed on instructions to Szayel as
to what to do. When Ichigo had been sufficiently weakened from both tortures,
both physical and mental, he used it to solidify the connection. But the
connection was never wanted, so Ichigo had been able to throw out Aizen's
reiatsu, but it appeared, the essence of the hollow had been passed through the
link before Aizen had been torn to shreds in Hueco Mundo.
"No, get the fuck out, hollow trash," he muttered, stalking him and putting
himself between him and the shivering human form of Ichigo, completely
defenseless in this world.
The hollow form before him tsked and smiled, the mask actually smiling with it.
"I am afraid I cannot. It is too much fun to torment the boy. And it feels so
good being inside him."
Grimmjow launched himself again and found himself tossed into the wall beside
Ichigo, feeling something break. He groaned and looked over at Ichigo and then
he saw the pale version behind him.
"King, time ta take yer throne back," Hichigo said, holding up the inverted
Zangetsu in bankai. "Only ya can slay 'im, king."
Ichigo looked up tentatively then stiffened as Grimmjow saw the end of the
white Zangetsu push out through his back. Grimmjow's eyes widened and he went
to reach for him, but there was a massive burst of energy and swirling red
tinged black reaitsu, and when the smoke that billowed up cleared, Ichigo stood
again, in his black and red bankai coat, holding the thin Zangetsu katana. He
stared down, almost in wonder and reach up to release the hollow mask. A manic
laugh resounded.
"Go King, I got yer back this time."
Grimmjow had seen the kid move in bankai, and with the mask, but the absolute
ferocity that he moved with was incredible. His reaitsu almost pressed Grimmjow
to the ground as he fought with the hollow masked Aizen. There were no sounds
save the slashing of blades as he out paced, out maneuvered and out fought the
thing. Even if they were in his own mind, Grimmjow was amazed considering the
condition he had been in earlier. Finally, it seemed that Ichigo was getting
the upper hand, flashing in front and around him so fast the creature couldn't
determine which of the after images was the real one. Once he had him unstable,
he feinted to the front, then flashed behind and slashed through it's back.
When it spun around, he slashed down the front. The blackish blood sprayed, and
there was a hollow shriek. The figure dissipated.
Ichigo fell to his knees, and Grimmjow caught him easily. Ichigo looked up with
his brown eyes soft. "What are you doing here, Grimm?"
"Trying to help yer dumb ass," he said softly.
"You made me go to sleep," he said, his brows knitting. "I didn't like that at
all. I think if you ever do that again I'm going to rip your head off."
Grimmjow nodded, nuzzeling his head into Ichigo's neck. "Yeah, I figured as
much. But it was either that or you and that wild reiatsu of yours was gonna
blow the shoten to pieces, and us along with it."
Ichigo sighed, his voice fading, his eyes drooping. "I think I need to sleep,
Grimm. I'm…too…"
Grimmjow sighed as he drifted off. He looked up to see the white version of
Ichigo looking over him.
"Big fuckin risk, kitty cat, comin' in here like that," Hichigo said, hand
popped on his hip, brow arched.
Grimmjow laid him down. "I know."
"Well, get tha fuck out. I got this shit from here. I just couldn't fight that
fucker, and king here was all sorts a'fucked up in the head," he said, waving a
hand dismissively.
Grimmjow closed his eyes, allowing the reaitsu link to pull him back and he
opened his eyes to see he was snuggling into Ichigo's bankai cloak. He jerked
and sat up, looking down to see he was released, and had blood oozing from
several places.
"Fuck, man. I don' wanna do that shit again," he muttered returning Pantera to
sword form.
Renji was staring, so was Urahara. "What?" he asked.
Urahara leaned back and snapped his fan open in front of his face, hiding a
coquettish grin, no doubt. "Something was amiss?"
Grimmjow rolled his head. "Yeah, Aizen had fused with a hollow soul or some
shit, but when he was linked with Ichigo, the hollow soul had infiltrated him.
When Red and I marked him, it pissed him off, so he went after Ichigo. I tried
to fight the bastard, but he was too fuckin' much, almost killed my ass even
released. But Ichigo's weirdo hollow comes up and shoves his sword through him
and releases his bankai, and he proceeded to tear the lil hollow bitch apart.
Then he told me if I ever forced him to do something he'd rip my head off next
time, and passed the fuck out."
Renji snorted. "Man, he's gonna chew my ass too."
"Fuck, dude, if we get out without him getsuga tenshouing our asses both we're
gonna be lucky," Grimm said sulkily.
Rukia started laughing. A full rolling laughter that came from the seat of her
soul. And it was the first time in a long time. Renji and Grimmjow frowned at
her.
"What the fuck, midget?" Grimmjow snorted.
"It's just, it's just funny, you're worried about what he's going to do to
punish you, but you two are supposed to be the ones in control, aren't you?"
she said, breathless.
Grimmjow snorted. "You don't know shit about betas, then."
"I'm so confused now!" she said, wiping tears away from her eyes. "I thought
the beta's were submissive?"
Grimmjow arched a brow. "Yeah, well, they're only submissive when it comes to
getting' fucked. The rest of the time, it ain't like that. Pissin' off yer beta
is about the last thing an alpha does before they see their guts on the ground.
Especially ones like Ichigo that can kick both our asses if he chooses to."
The look Renji gave Grimmjow at that moment sent Rukia into another howling fit
of laughter. It was somewhere between oh my god what have I done and sheer
terror as he looked down at the peacefully sleeping orange haired shinigami.
***** Awakening Light *****
"Ichigo? Can you wake up?" came the call in his head. It wasn't a command, well
it was, but it had a pleading sound to it. He shook his head.
"Five more minutes," he murmured. "I'm still tired."
"Ichigo, you gotta wake up," a different voice this time, with more command to
it. It was not as easy to ignore. He didn't like that.
"No," he said, rolling over onto his back. "I'm tired."
"Dammit, Ichigo, wake the fuck up," and this time it was a strong command,
sending a shock through his body from the top of his head down to his toes, and
his eyes flew open despite willing them to stay closed.
He looked up to see blue and cherry chocolate eyes staring at him. His jawline
tightened and he realized why he was suddenly so pissed. A second later, both
fists shot out, landing a hard blow to the underside of both jaws that were
above him. There were twin groans as Ichigo frowned and rolled over on his
stomach.
Grimmjow stood up first, rubbing his chin and glared at Urahara who was
smirking behind his fan, he couldn't see it but he knew it, and Rukia who stood
with arched brow. He looked over to see Renji slowly bringing himself to his
feet and rubbing his own jaw.
"I fuckin' told you he'd be pissed," Grimmjow grumbled, and got down on his
knees and crawled back to the tatami.
"Ichigo, I know yer mad, but just listen…" His pleading was met with another
hard punch, this one to his nose, sending him flying backward.
He sat back on his rump, rubbing his nose again. This was going worse than he'd
thought. He knew he'd be mad, but damn. The waves of anger roiling off the man
that was now his mate were almost visible. Black reiatsu was flickering around
his fist when he put it back under his head.
Renji carefully approached, dodging as a fist flew out at him. He grinned at
Grimmjow, but was rewarded by being kicked in the stomach this time, falling
over backward. He hadn't even seen him move that time.
By now Rukia was starting to laugh out loud, and Urahara was having a hard time
not snickering. Ichigo turned to look, his eyes burning bright gold. Rukia
eeped, and her and Urahara retreated, shutting the door behind them. Of course,
they escaped to the monitors to watch the events. It was too good to miss. It
was, however, refreshing to see Ichigo acting somewhat normal. Urahara glanced
at the room and then threw a barrier over it, just to be sure. He really didn't
want the lovers' quarrel to bring down the house, literally. He was curious how
they were going to deal with Ichigo now. A few minutes later Uryu, Inoue and
Szayel had wandered up.
"What's the show?" Szayel said, arching a pink brow at him.
"Hum, yes, Renji and Grimmjow are attempting to get into Ichigo's good graces
after using their link to force him to submit to sleep and then again to make
him wake up. He is not pleased," Urahara said indicating the monitors that were
showing the events in the room.
Ichigo's reiatsu left no argument that he was angry. Renji and Grimmjow had
retreated to the corner of the room to discuss what they were going to do in
order to diffuse the situation with their mate. Strangely, it hadn't taken long
for them to both begin to call him that. The closer the arrancar came to
becoming a shinigami, the more he and Renji had begun to click. It was like an
unspoken agreement that in order to contain Ichigo, it had to be two of them.
No one alpha could manage to help contain his immense and unending reserves of
reiatsu.
"What the fuck, dude?" Grimmjow muttered.
"He's all fists and feet," Renji said, very glad they'd locked Zangetsu up in
one of Urahara's reiatsu sealing safes.
Grimmjow thought for a moment. "Well, he's been bitten but we haven't
really…um…done the rest."
Renji arched a brow at him. "What…oh wait, you mean?"
Grimmjow nodded. "Yeah, he's got the marking, and our reiatsu, but we still
have to, aw, well, fuck him."
Renji swallowed. "And how do you propose we do that if he won't even let us get
near him without decking us? Not that I wouldn't like to, but I want my dick to
stay attached to my body, and if we tried that I think he might try to rip it
off and beat me with it."
Grimmjow nodded furiously. "Let's ask that weirdo shopkeeper."
They came out finding everyone looking like they weren't watching what was
happening in the room.
"Oi, don't act like you weren't watching," Renji said, eyeing them.
Urahara nodded. "We have to make sure you're all safe, but seems you've
identified the true reason behind Ichigo's bad temper."
Both men shifted. "Yeah, but how the fuck we fix it?"
Szayel watched the monitor as Ichigo restlessly flopped on the mat. "Well, he's
been running a lot on hollow instinct, and you have satisfied part of the
mating by marking him and giving him your reiatsu, but its left him needing the
rest. Normally, the mating mark and reiatsu mixing happens during the
copulation process. However, due to his circumstances, neither Aizen's mark or
the one you two left happened the way it is supposed to…"
"Yeah, so what the hell we do?" Grimmjow asked impatiently.
Szayel rolled his eyes. "Copulate. Finish the process."
Grimmjow and Renji gaped. "Well how the fuck are we going to do that without
losing…something…" Grimmjow finally said frowning.
The room broke up in giggles and then full blown laughter as everyone realized
what they were worried about.
Rukia finally gasped, her laughter dying off. "You think he's going to take
your manhood, huh?"
"You go try and reason with him!" Renji snapped, crossing his arms over his
chest. "I've already been kicked in the gut and punched in the jaw, and he's
lacing it with reiatsu around his fists and feet!"
There was a click as the fan opened. "Just a bit of foreplay, boys. Ichigo
isn't going to be easy, he's still not healed from his ordeal with Aizen, no
doubt the idea of intimacy is scary to him right now, even though his body is
screaming for it from the hollow side. That was the genius of Aizen's plan,
marking him, then putting him in the position of waiting untouched for so long,
all the while the hollow's mating process was incomplete, screaming for
attention, being wanted by someone, anyone."
Urahara walked over and flipped off the monitors. "Go back, and convince him
that there is more to what you have done than simple control. He feels out of
control. First Aizen, then the first thing from you two is two commands he had
no choice but to comply with. Even if it was for his own safety, it still hurts
him."
Grimmjow and Renji sighed. "Is there anything we can do to stop him hitting
us?"
"I could use kido, but don't you think he's suffered enough being bound and
forced against his will? Binding him with kido is only going to bring memories
of that up, and he may retreat so far into himself that we'll never see the
real Ichigo again."
Grimmjow and Renji looked at each other. "Time to man up," Renji said,
straightening his back.
"You better show me what the fuck to do, ain't never done this with another
man…" Grimmjow grumbled.
Urahara though was waiting at the door. Renji and Grimmjow exchanged looks. He
handed Grimmjow a small bottle. "This might help."
He looked down, not really understanding what the hell he was holding. "Gimme
that," Renji said grabbing it. "I'll show you."
Urahara practically skipped back into the room where the others were waiting.
They looked at him expectantly. He grinned, not hiding behind his fan as he
switched the monitors on again, seeing Renji and Grimmjow slowly entering,
walking around Ichigo, who still lay face down on the floor. Rukia gasped.
"Urahara-sama!"
He smiled and a second later, Yourichi walked in with Ikkaku and Yumichika
trailing behind her, having been downstairs working with Ukitake and the
negotiations with the arrancar, former arrancar, vizard and shinigami. She
frowned seeing everyone looking shocked at Urahara. She glanced at his face and
the monitor showing the room with Ichigo and his two alphas.
"What is going on?" she asked, and then saw Rukia blush, and the mischevious
look on Urahara's face. She gasped and ran to stand behind him, resting her
chin on his shoulder. " You are bad, Kisuke."
He waved his fan at her. "You're as curious as I am, so be quiet."
And indeed they were as soon everyone's attention was on the events unfolding
in the nearby room.
"Ichigo, come on, you can't stay mad forever…" Renji said, just out of range
for those long limbs to reach.
"I can, and I will," he muttered into his arms crossed under his head.
"But we wanna make it up to ya," Grimmjow said, sneaking up behind him.
Ichigo hurmphed and didn't move as he got closer. He grinned at Renji then
leaped onto his back. He let out a surprised yelp from the sudden weight on his
back, but Grimmjow held on, pinning him under his body. He squirmed and
muttered something about making him get off, but the Renji lunged and grabbed
his face up in both hands, while Grimmjow pinned his hands down. Renji locked
his eyes with those firey brown ones. Then he crushed his mouth against him,
patiently waiting for him to grant him entry. Finally, Ichigo started to relax
into the kiss, his lips parting ever so slightly, but when they did Renji was
there, his tongue ravaging the young shinigami's mouth for all it was worth.
Grimmjow let go of his hands, and they both went to Renji's head, gripping and
pulling on that red hair. Grimmjow smiled to himself as he began kissing him on
the back of his neck, feeling him shiver under him.
"Its okay, Ichigo, it's us, and we won't hurt you," Grimmjow whispered, running
a hand down the mating mark on his neck. Something zinged within him and he
realized his arousal was fully ready for the events that were beginning to
happen. He ran his hands up and down the black shihakuso and then began to pull
it down off his shoulders, slowly, revealing more and more of the tan flesh
underneath. Inoue's healing had taken most of the newer scars, but there were
some older ones that were still there, and he traced careful fingers along the
marks, following his fingers with trails of soft, wet kisses.
Renji had moved from his mouth down to his neck and the hands were tightening
in his hair the more he nipped and licked at him. Soft and tender, something he
knew that Ichigo hadn't felt yet. He had to make this different, so different
from the pain and humiliation he'd suffered. He had to prove how this could be
good, and not something to leave him feeling used and dirty.
The rush through Ichigo's body was leaving him feeling light headed. He felt
the back of his clothes falling, and for the first time it was welcomed as
those kisses and nips followed down his back. He felt it fall the rest of the
way when Renji pulled him to his knees and shoved it over. He looked up at him,
his tribal god, he thought, blushing at the thought because in his dreams that
was what he thought of him as. He reached up and pushed away Renji's black
shihakuso, staring at the lines on his body, taking his fingers and tracing
them for a second before he moaned as Grimmjow began attacking his neck from
behind, tongue flicking over the overly sensitive flesh around the mating mark.
As quickly the now shirtless Renji did the same to the other side of his neck
and Ichigo couldn't imagine bliss like this.
Renji pulled him to stand, and Grimmjow stood behind him, this time Grimmjow
tilting his head to the side and pulling him into a passionate kiss that way.
He heard clothes rustling and realized that Renji had undone his obi and let
his hakama fall. He reached around Ichigo's waist and held him there while
Grimmjow leaned down and kissed him from behind, his tongue, like Renji's
seeking every nook in his mouth. Then Renji's hands were busy behind him with
the buttons on the jeans that Grimmjow wore. Grimmjow ground into his back and
Ichigo gasped into his mouth as he felt the trapped hardness against his back.
Renji finally freed the zipper and pushed down the tight jeans over his hips,
Grimmjow wiggling a little, but never moving his hands from Ichigo's chest,
running his fingers over every line along him. He released the kiss and started
laying more gentle kisses along his naked shoulders, making him melt into the
man behind him. Now Renji began kissing his chest, taking a moment to suck each
of his nipples into his mouth, making him gasp at the sensation. He was so
wrapped up in the sensations flooding him, he didn't notice the obi being
undone and his own hakama falling to his ankles.
"God, Renji," he muttered as Renji ran hands over his naked hips, sending
shivers up and down his spine. Not to be outdone, Grimmjow began teasing the
flesh at the base of his back and gently pinching and rolling it with his
strong fingers. Then Renji dropped down to his knees in front of Ichigo, and
Ichigo's eyes snapped down wondering why. Renji ran his hands gently, so
slowly, up the inside of his thighs, not touching anything except the flesh of
his thighs. He was shaking now, his legs unable to hold him. Grimmjow slowly
lowered him down to the mat, kicking away the discarded pants and pulling him
into his lap. Renji followed, his eyes locked with Ichigo's as he laid on his
belly now, holding himself up with his hands and began to come closer, finally
touching his straining member with the tip of his tongue. Ichigo's eyes
couldn't get much wider, but then he took him into his mouth.
Ichigo thought he was going to explode from that touch alone. Grimmjow's hands
were busy, too, running up and down his chest and the crease between his thigh
and pelvis, then snaking underneath to play with his testicles, sending Ichigo
into spasms almost.
"Fuck, Ichi, my god you are so fuckin' hot the sounds you are making," Grimmjow
muttered into his ear, quietly nipping at it and licking around it. The man
whimpered under him, never having experienced such pleasure. His back arched,
Renji having took almost all of him into his mouth and he started to sputter.
"I'm…oh god, I'm…" Grimmjow shushed him and Renji increased his pace until
Ichigo arched against Grimmjow, spilling his seed into Renji's waiting warm
mouth. It was sweet, like strawberries, Renji thought, then resumed lapping at
his body until he was up to his neck again.
"You enjoyed that, Ichi?" Renji purred into his ear. Ichigo was still in post
orgasmic bliss, so Renji grinned. His own erection was growing painful from all
the waiting. He pulled out the bottle Urahara gave him. It was unmarked and
clear, he flicked the top and it smelled like strawberry lube, so he shrugged
and coated his fingers with it as Ichigo leaned back against Grimmjow. Grimmjow
was watching Renji fascinated.
He then moved in front of Ichigo and slid a finger into him slick with the
lube. He straightened up, his eyes slightly fearful, until Grimmjow turned him
and captured his mouth in a scorching kiss. Renji silently thanked him, and
slid a second finger into him, gaining a gasp above him, but he didn't try to
pull away. He worked for a moment, enjoying the feeling of the tight warmth
around his fingers. Then he added the third and heard the whine above him
swallowed by the kiss Grimmjow had him in. He worked his fingers deep enough
until it brushed against his prostate getting the expected gasp of pleasure. He
got the feeling during his time with Aizen that this had never been a part of
his experience. He then leaned back, slicking himself up deftly and tossed the
bottle to Grimmjow.
He caught it and cocked an eyebrow at him as if to ask, me too? Renji nodded,
pumping himself a couple times to make sure he was slicked enough. Grimmjow
pulled away from the kiss and Renji dove into one, pulling him toward him.
"Shh, Ichigo, relax, okay, we're going to do this all together, alright?" Renji
whispered, and when Ichigo's eyes widened he petted his hair gently. "I've done
this before, okay?"
Grimmjow had covered himself with the gel and felt a strange sensation. Not
bad, just a tingling, but he shrugged and moved behind him, pushing himself
into position as Renji pulled him forward. He carefully pressed against the
lube slicked entrance and slid easily in, just past the head and waited,
feeling him stiffen. He then continued, whispering words of encouragement as he
went until he was fully seated into his tight space. He'd never experienced
anything that felt this good, he thought to himself. He felt his body flex
around him, and he almost lost it again, but Renji was pushing him back and
Grimmjow pulled him against him, pulling him into his lap and pulling his legs
apart before Renji.
"Fuck, Ichigo, look at you…" Renji said looking over the orange haired
shinigami. His face was flushed so red it looked like it would start bleeding,
and his breath was coming in panting gasps, his cock already hardening from
having Grimmjow buried in him. Grimmjow was patiently waiting for Renji, but he
could see the stain on the blue haired man as he wanted to buck into him.
Renji leaned forward, taking Ichigo in his hand, and pressing into the already
full space, but with the amazing lube, it seemed easy to slid in beside the
other man. Once he'd made his way all the way into the space, he paused,
letting the orangette get used to them both filling him, and then they started
to move, very slowly, finding a rhythm between them, one in and one out, back
and forth. Ichigo was moaning with every motion, his eyes closed, one hand
tangled in Renji's long red locks, and the other wrapped in the blue hair
behind him.
"Oh, faster," he moaned, unable to contain himself. "Move, faster, oh please…"
Renji buried his face in his neck laying moist kisses there and complied, and
soon he and Grimmjow's rhythm had reached a feverish pace, sending Ichigo off
finally with a scream of intense pleasure. When he went everything tightened so
much that both Renji and Grimmjow thrust in one more time and found themselves
going at the same time. Moments later, they all fell to the ground, a panting
heap of bodies. Ichigo lay between them, covered in sweat from head to toe it
seemed, and he still had a hold in each of their hair. He pulled Renji down
into a deep kiss, then Grimmjow next. Then he rolled his eyes slightly.
"Fuckin' ever command me again, I'll rip both your balls off and feed them to
each other, got that?" he said, breathing heavily still.
Grimmjow and Renji locked eyes over the sweating, flushed body of their beta.
Their beta and nodded enthusiastically. There was no doubt that he would do
just that.
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