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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Tokio_Hotel
  Relationship:
      Bill_Kaulitz/Tom_Kaulitz
  Character:
      Bill_Kaulitz, Tom_Kaulitz
  Additional Tags:
      Alternate_Universe_-_High_School, Bondage, heavy_kink, cross_dressing
  Series:
      Part 5 of Where_Evil_Lays
  Stats:
      Published: 2011-11-16 Chapters: 2/2 Words: 10639
****** Forbidden Desires ******
by Billxbesitztxmeinxherz
Summary
      Bill and Tom hated each other ever since their parents got married.
        However, upon finding a strange video tape everything begins to
                                    change.
Notes
     Dedicated to OWL who requested a prompt of a spinoff from the anime
     Forbidden Desires. Girly I hope this makes your day!
     =====================================================================
***** The Videotape *****
“You’re so stupid Tom!” Tom barely even had time to duck as Bill hurled his
history textbook at his head just missing him.
 
“Fuck you Bill! You’re just jealous, you always have been!” Tom snarled
clenching his hands into fists as he tried to advance towards Bill. Bill simply
screamed again, picking up a stuffed animal aiming at Tom, as his eyes blazed
with pure hatred. The twins’ shared room was a disaster zone as furniture had
been upturned, various items that Bill had thrown littered the floor, and Tom’s
new football trophy lay snapped in half at Bill’s feet.
 
“Jealous? Of you? If anything you’re the jealous one!” Bill screamed hurling
more items at Tom as he attempted to cross the room to where Bill was standing,
“Fuck you Tom!”
 
“God Bill! Will you just-” Tom said catching a box of colored pencils that Bill
had thrown, “Stop throwing shit and fight like a man! God I can’t believe
you’re my brother!”
 
“Newsflash dumbass!” Bill snarled as his whole frame shook with anger, “The
only thing that relates me to you is our parents marriage! There’s no way that
I’d ever share genes with a lowlife like you!”
 
It was true. Bill Kaulitz and Tom Trumper were not really siblings, at least by
blood. Tom’s father had met Bill’s mother at a Parent-Teacher Conference when
the boys were only in middle school. Gordon Trumper was recently widowed and
Simone Kaulitz had never married Bill’s biological father in the first place.
Unknownst to Bill and Tom, Simone and Gordon had started dating shortly after
only announcing to their sons that they were together until after Gordon had
proposed to Simone. Until after Simone had said yes. Bill and Tom had been
brothers ever since.
 
“Yeah? Well who would want to be related to a little fag like you anyway?” Tom
sneered taking the opportunity to lunge at Bill. Bill squeaked and desperately
rolled to the side, sending Tom slamming head first into Bill’s bed.
 
Bill and Tom had never really known each other before their parents’ marriage.
They had gone to the same school and known of each other but not directly. Even
back then Bill had been a strange one always hanging out with the theater and
artist crowd, hanging out at film festivals, and smoking outback the town’s
only organic grocery store. Tom on the other hand was Bill’s complete opposite
as he already was showing great promise in football and constantly had gaggles
of girls following him around at the middle school dances.
 
When high school had rolled around nothing really had changed. Bill had started
to grow his hair out longer like a girl’s, as Tom became captain of the
football team by junior year. Tom became a legend at school as being one of the
youngest captains ever, a spot normally reserved for seniors, but Tom’s
attitude and skill on the field along with the fact he was practically the only
one of the team to score touchdowns swayed the coach’s decision. Bill also
excelled in high school but in the art department by sophomore year he was
already in honors art, AP by junior, and was under consideration for an art
scholarship for college. The two were complete opposites, as Tom liked to point
out to anyone who brought up the fact that they were related by marriage. Tom
didn’t care for Bill, most certainly not when his fellow teammates would shove
Bill around and Tom would turn a blind eye.
 
“A fag? That’s what you think of me?” Bill said with narrowed eyes, “Just
because I’m good at art does not make me a fag, Tom.”
 
“No. What makes you a fag is that damn makeup you’re always wearing and how you
walk around with your hair looking like a girl’s!” Tom screamed in frustration
and Bill flinched.
 
Ever since Bill had starting wearing his hair long he’d been given all sorts of
trouble but never this bad. Tom and the football team had just won championship
last night and were celebrating with a keg party and plenty of cheerleaders. It
was one of the few times that Bill and Tom were able to talk civilly to each
other when Tom had asked Bill to be his designated driver for the night. So at
around eleven at night Bill had arrived at the party where the alcohol had been
flowing steadily for quite some time now when the football team’s linebacker
and one of Tom’s best friends Georg had come up to Bill. Georg had drunkenly
mistaken Bill for a girl as he chased Bill around the house attempting to make
out with him as the rest of the team cheered and then soon joined in stalking
Bill like hunters. When they’d finally cornered Bill they held him down while
Georg attempted to make out with him. It had not gone further than that and
Bill was thankful but the entire time Tom had watched with cold eyes filled
with disgust as Bill yelled at them to stop.
 
The night had ended with Bill taking off without Tom in a mess of tears and a
heart filled with hurt and hatred. Upon arriving home Bill had destroyed Tom’s
newly won football trophy and Tom had not discovered it until he had returned
the next day.
 
“I already told you!” Bill screamed, “It wasn’t my fault! Maybe if you were
half of a decent person you would have put at stop to it!”
 
“Half of a decent person? Don’t act so high and mighty! You’re the one that
fucking broke my trophy, Bill! Do you know how long I’ve been waiting for that?
Do you know how hard I worked for that? I hate you!”
 
“You’re terrible!” Bill screamed as tears began to gather in his eyes, “You let
them do that to me!”
 
“You fucking broke my trophy!” Tom shot back reaching out and grabbing Bill by
the arm, “And you’re going to pay.”
 
“Let go of me Tom.” Bill said through narrowed eyes as Tom only tightened his
grip on Bill’s arm, “Let go of me right now!”
 
“No.” Tom snarled tugging Bill closer, “Not until you fucking tell Dad what you
did and I beat the living shit out of you.”
 
“You wouldn’t dare.” Bill said challengingly. Tom merely clenched his jaw
before setting off towards the stair with Bill in tow as the other teen began
to scream in panic.
 
“Let go of me!” Bill screamed as fear began to build inside of him, “Tom let
go! I’ll tell Mom!”
 
“Shut up! We’re doing this in the yard, no way I’m getting blood on my side of
the room.” Tom glared as they reached the top of the stairs, “Now quit whining
like a girl!”
 
“Let go of me!” Bill screamed and Tom tried to put his free hand over Bill’s
mouth in an attempt to silence him. Pure panic began to build inside of Bill as
he felt Tom’s hand muffling his screams and Tom’s tight hold on his arm and he
began to thrash.
 
“Bill! Stop it! Bill!” Tom warned as Bill continued to twist and turn trying to
get out of Tom’s hold, “Stop it!”
 
Bill only struggled harder and Tom gaze broke away from Bill’s struggle for a
moment realizing just how close Bill was to the edge of the stairs, realizing
how his hold was the only thing keeping Bill anchored.
 
“Bill stop!” Tom said with a whole new intention now, “Bill no! Stop it you’re
right by the stairs-”
 
But before Tom could finish Bill had bitten his hand and Tom let go of him with
a yelp. The small portion of Bill’s feet could not support all his weight on
the step as he began to fall backwards, arms outstretched, and his mouth open
in shock as Bill fell. Bill’s back hit the steps first followed by his side as
he began to tumble down the stairs being tossed like a rag doll. His fall only
lasted for a few seconds before his body lay crumpled at the bottom and Tom
panicked crying out for his stepbrother as he dashed down the stairs beside
Bill’s awkwardly bent body.
 
“Bill?” Tom cried out in fear turning the teen over onto his back and Bill
groaned in pain. A small stream of blood ran down Bill’s temple and Tom paled
as he took in the large gash across Bill’s palm that he’d somehow gotten as it
spilled blood out onto the wood floors.
 
“Bill I’m sorry!” Tom said hovering anxiously over Bill, unsure whether or not
it was safe to touch him, “I’ll go call an ambulance right now!”
 
“Fuck off.” Bill said weakly as he began to sit up. Tears were streaming freely
out of Bill’s eyes now and the boy sniffed cradling his hand.
 
“Bill no! You’ll hurt yourself!” Tom said concerned and Bill simply slapped his
hand away snarling. Tom watched wearily as Bill finally made it to his feet
subtly wiping his bloodied palm on his jeans.
 
“Where are you going?” Tom asked as Bill headed towards the front door, “Bill,
we have to call Mom and Dad! You could be seriously hurt!”
 
“Like you give a damn!” Bill sobbed shooting Tom the finger before slamming the
front door after him.
 
===============================================================================
 
“He’s an idiot!” Bill cried brokenly leaning on his friend’s shoulder. After
storming out of the house he’d called for his gang of friends of pick him up,
sometimes he felt as if they were the only ones that truly understood him.
 
“Here have some of this, it’ll make you feel better.” A senior named Landric
handed Bill a joint and the teen silently thanked him taking a hit. They were
all in Andreas’ beat up van or as they liked to call it The Machine. It was
where Bill and his friends spent their time after school smoking within the
safety of Andreas’ car and often liked to hotbox in it.
 
“He’s an ass that’s what.” Kristen exhaled her joint closing her eyes and
leaning her head back against the headrest, “I can’t believe you two haven’t
killed each other yet.”
 
“I thought he nearly would today.” Bill sniffed burying his face in Gustav’s
shoulder and Gustav sighed.
 
“I’m sure he wasn’t trying to kill you Bill.” Gustav shook his head at the
notion, “It sounds to me like, as usual, you weren’t paying attention to
surroundings during your little fit and fell.”
 
“Whose side are you on anyways?” Bill glared grabbing the joint from Landric
and taking another hit, “I don’t need this shit from you!” Bill quickly stood
up grumbling and slid the door open to Andreas’ van ignoring his friends’ cries
of protest.
 
“Bill. Bill. Come back here,” Gustav scolded, “Don’t be such a baby.”
 
“No!” Bill said childishly, “I will not! I’m not staying here with people who
don’t appreciate me!”
 
“Bill where are you going?” Gustav said setting his lips into a thin line, “You
can’t just keep running away from everything.”
 
“I’ll do as I please!” Bill said over his shoulder as he tighten the hood of
his sweatshirt around him and headed off towards home. The town they lived in
was not a very big one so Bill only really had a twenty-minute walk before he’d
be home again. Sighing the teen slowed his pace wanting to savor the feeling of
truly being alone and free of Tom. The leaves were already falling off the
trees and Bill kicked idly at the ones in his path as he walked keeping his
head ducked down.
 
“Stupid Tom.” Bill muttered under his breath as he stomped on a red leaf
crunching it beneath his boot, “Stupid football. Stupid Georg.”
 
He continued to shuffled along trapped within his thoughts, as Bill did not
even hear the pounding of footsteps behind him. Then suddenly a figure slammed
into Bill’s side sending him sprawling towards the ground as a loud clack
resonated just off to his right. Bill blinked in shock scrambling to sit up to
see who had hit him only to see an empty sidewalk in either direction, there
was nobody to be seen but an unmarked video cassette tape that at his feet.
 
“What in the world?” Bill whispered picking up the tape and eyeing it over. It
was fully rewound but lacked any labeling indicating what its contents where.
 
“It’s yours now.” A voice whispered in his ear and Bill jumped looking around
to see no one. A strange feeling over came Bill as he clutched the tape tightly
in his hands and he shivered from head-to-toe unsure if it was from the cool
autumn air or excitement.
 
“Strange.” Bill whispered looking at the empty pathway behind him one last time
before setting off for home.
 
===============================================================================
 
When Bill arrived home scurried up to his room ignoring his mother’s calls
asking where he’d been. There was no concern in the tone of her voice but just
simple curiosity telling Bill that Tom had not bother mentioning their little
encounter earlier. When he’d entered Tom and his shared room Tom was nowhere to
be seen and Bill sighed in relief collapsing on his bed. The videotape lay
crushed beneath him and the bed and Bill rolled onto his side.
 
Again he searched the tape for any markings indicating what was on it but still
found none. He’d been positive that the tape hadn’t been just laying on the
sidewalk before and Bill frowned as curiosity took over. What was on the tape?
Who’d bumped into him and dropped it? He got up off the bed slowly examining
the tape in his hands before kneeling down in front of the small television
perched in between Bill and Tom’s desks. He only paused for a moment before
pushing the tape in and hitting the play button.
 
The television screen blurred an assortment of colors as the tape’s audio was
nothing but static for a moment like when one selections a television station
that doesn’t work. Puzzled Bill climbed onto the bed about to turn the tape off
when suddenly the static cut and a man’s voice came out from the television.
The screen blurred once more before a picture of an auditorium full of men came
into view and Bill’s back stiffened.
 
“And now the last boy of the day! Have a good look at this one, the item for
sale is a virgin of rare beauty!”
 
“What the fuck?” Bill hissed sitting more upright on the bed as the shot panned
up to show a stage. Pair of legs dressed in a pantsuit was visible along with
another pair of slender legs dressed in stockings and trembling like a leaf.
 
“We’re starting the bidding at four thousand. Do I hear a bid for four
thousand?” The camera continued to pan up to reveal a man dressed in fancy suit
holding a microphone as he gestured towards someone who was cut out of the shot
next to him.
 
“Four thousand!” A man’s voice from the audience cried and the auctioneer on
stage lifted a hand in acknowledgement.
 
“We have four thousand! Do I hear forty-five hundred?” The camera then zoomed
in on the pair of trembling legs in stockings slowly panning up to reveal who
ever they belonged to was dressed in a gothic style dress. Fine lace trim was
sewn along the bottom along with an elaborate bow around the person’s neck as
if they were gift-wrapped.
 
“Forty-five hundred!” Another voice called as the camera continued to slowly
reveal more and more of the person being old on stage. Bill shifted uneasily on
the bed not quite sure what to make of the video as he found himself too
curious to see what would happen next to turn the tape off.
 
“Forty-five hundred! Do I hear forty-seven hundred?”
 
“Forty-seven hundred!” Another male voice cried out and the person in the dress
on stage shifted uneasily.
 
“Forty-seven hundred! Gentlemen this boy here is our finest offering here today
and he’s worth every penny!” The auctioneer bellowed gesturing towards the
person. Finally the person’s face came into view and Bill nearly fell off the
bed in shock.
 
“W-what?” Bill squeaked scrambling off the bed to get a closer look at the
screen. It was Bill in the dress being sold on stage, fidgeting awkwardly and
keeping his head ducked down.
 
“Where is this? What’s going on?” Bill cried crawling backwards in shock until
his back hit the foot of his bed, “I’m not a thing to be sold!”
 
“Seventy-five hundred!” Another male cried as the Bill on the tape looked up
scared and as the real Bill sat perfectly still in shock. He had no
recollection of this auction ever happening. The Bill on the videotape’s hair
was styled slightly different hanging down lose and straight rather than how
Bill liked to give it some volume for school, his mannerisms were fidgety but
it was Bill nonetheless.
 
“Ten thousand!” A voice yelled above the others and the room silenced as a man
stood up from the crowds of men. He was wearing a baseball cap slightly askew
as he kept his face down hidden beneath the shadows his hat cast. The Bill on
the screen was trembling all over now as the man made his way towards the stage
and the entire crowd watched in silence as the buyer hopped up on stage to
examine his prize.
 
“So what’s your name?” The buyer said and the Bill on the floor in his room
gasped.
 
“T-Tom?” Bill squeaked just as the man on the tape lifted his head only to
reveal Tom’s smirking face, “What the fuck this is?”
 
“It’s Bill, my master.” The Bill on the screen said blushing bright red as Tom
caressed his cheek tenderly. Unlike the Bill on the tape, the real Bill could
not notice any immediate differences in appearance or personality as the Tom on
screen smiled his signature grin at his prize. Bill clutched his stomach
curling into himself feeling sick.
 
“You’re quite a looker aren’t you?” Tom on the tape said brushing his fingers
through Bill’s hair.
 
“Thank you for your kindness, master.” Bill on the tape said.
 
“Oh god, oh god.” Bill said squeezing his eyes shut in disgust as he curled
further into himself, “N-no. What is this? When did this happen?”
 
“Ten thousand!” The auctioneer said making the real Bill jump with fright, “Do
I hear higher than ten thousand? Going once! Going twice! Sold to Mr. Trumper
for the price of ten thousand!”
 
“Oh my god.” Bill whimpered putting his hands over his ears trying to block out
the tape, “This isn’t real. This never happened. This isn’t real.”
 
When Bill opened his eyes again the setting had changed to a luxurious room
with golden engravings on the molding and fanciful Victorian furniture. The
camera showed the wealth of the room before finally stopping on Bill again,
still dressed in the gothic style dress, standing in the middle of the room
looking out through a window. There was a cough from behind him and Bill tensed
still facing forward stiff as a board.
 
“Now then, I want you to strip for me.” Tom said stepping up behind Bill until
they were pressed back to chest. Bill still remained frozen not moving or
making any sound in acknowledgment and Tom frowned nuzzling into the back of
Bill’s neck.
 
“What’s wrong? Didn’t you hear me?” Tom breathed heavily and Bill squeaked in
shock still too frightened to move.
 
“Y-yes.” Bill whimpered out closing his eyes tightly.
 
“Then let’s get going! Be quick about it.” Tom grunted gutturally as his
fingers danced across Bill’s shoulders.
 
“Y-yes sir.” Bill whispered softly as he began to slip the red ribbon from
around his neck. It fell to the floor gracefully followed soon after by the
dress as it lay in a rumpled mess on the floor. Tom’s breath could be heard
hitching on the screen and Bill whimpered hugging his arms around his now naked
body.
 
“Are you pleased, master?” Bill said shakily as his dark black locks fell over
his one shoulder. Only a pair of black grippers remained along with the
stockings being held up by an attachment to the underwear. Gooseflesh dotted
along Bill’s pale skin as his nipples stood out at a rosy pink color from the
coldness of the room.
 
“You’re not naked yet.” The slightest bits of tears were gathering in Bill’s
eyes now and Tom slammed his fist against a nearby chair.
 
“Now I say!” Tom demanded stalking forward and grabbing Bill by the arm. The
Bill curled up on the floor gasped as he watched the video feeling the warmth
of where Tom’s hand had grabbed him on the arm earlier. A strange aching in
Bill’s gut began to build and the teen gasped pressing his legs together in
shock.
 
“No way.” Bill breathed watching as Tom stalked closer to the Bill on the tape,
“There’s no way I’m getting hard from watching this!”
 
“I own you now!” Tom roared grabbing Bill by the shoulders and shaking him.
Bill’s long hair thrashed back and forth as Tom shook him, “Do you understand
that?”
 
“Yes master!” Bill sobbed struggling to get out of Tom’s harsh hold.
 
“Do you understand how much money I paid for you?” Tom demanded grabbing Bill
by the chin so that he was facing him, “Do you?”
 
“Yes master!” Bill squeaked eager to please.
 
“Then you only have two choices! Either pay me back in full now or devote
yourself to me, body and mind. So what’s it going to be?” Tom snarled in Bill’s
face as the boy’s eyes widened in fear.
 
“I-I don’t have any m-money.” Bill said as tears began to roll down his plump
cheeks and Tom tsked.
 
“So then you have no choice.” Tom said taking and pushing Bill backwards onto a
bed. The bed’s lavish comforter sucked Bill in making him appear even smaller
and more vulnerable than he already was and Tom stepped closer.
 
“Strip. Now.” Tom demanded sending Bill a cold glare.
 
“Oh my god.” The real Bill gasped squeezing his legs even tighter together. Too
many times he’d seen Tom give him that look, a look that conveyed Tom’s hatred
and disgust towards Bill for being brothers with him. The tingling feelings in
Bill’s stomach had grown into full out arousal as Bill tried to will his
problem away, but it was so painful. The combination of the feelings stirring
in Bill’s groin accompanied by Tom’s husky voice on the video demanding he
strip for him. Telling Bill that he owned him.
 
Bit by bit Bill was starting to realize that he was beginning to feel like the
Bill in the video. What the Bill on the tape saw Bill saw, what he felt Bill
felt. Bill mewled crawling onto his bed furiously tugging off his shirt as he
felt hot touches running up and down his sides.
 
“Good.” Tom breathed heavily climbing on top of Bill and running his hands
greedily up and down the boy’s sides, “Very good. Now all the way off.”
 
The real Bill gasped at the low harsh tone in Tom’s voice and he moaned softly
tugging off his jeans and boxers as the Bill on the video finally took off his
grippers and stockings. Bill could feel it. The blood thumping through his
body, each breath labored from arousal and fear, even the hotness of Tom’s
hands on his skin.
 
“Nuh.” Bill mewled as the Tom on the video took in the site of Bill’s naked
body beneath his.
 
“I’m very pleased with this purchase.” Tom said slowly taking off his baggy
shirt and then sliding off his jeans and boxers in one go, Bill’s eyes widened
in shock as he took in the site of Tom’s erection and how red the head was. It
almost looked painful and Bill gasped trying to twist away in fear when Tom
grabbed him by the hips stopping his movements.
 
“I don’t…” Bill said softly looking up at Tom in fear and Tom smirked leaning
down to press a kiss to Bill’s forehead.
 
“I need to validate that what I’ve purchased isn’t just something pretty to
look at.” Tom panted slowly grinding his hips down and Bill hissed when Tom’s
arousal bumped against his inner thigh.
 
“Master I’m scared.” Bill whispered as his cheeks burned red with
embarrassment. Bill’s eyes briefly darted down to sneak at glance at Tom’s
member before shooting back up embarrassed, the look did not go unnoticed.
 
“I can tell you’re curious.” Tom murmured slowly humping himself on Bill’s
thigh and the teen whimpered, “That you want to know what it’ll feel like, what
it’ll taste like.”
 
“N-no!” Bill said rather loudly and Tom slapped a hand over Bill’s mouth. The
real Bill moaned from his spot on his bed slowly rocking his hips down against
the sheets as he remembered how Tom had tried to silence him earlier that day,
it was all to real.
 
“Don’t worry,” Tom said against Bill’s neck pressing a kiss there, “I’m curious
too. I’m so very curious about my newest purchase.”
 
“Uh.” Bill mewled still sounding in distress as Tom slowly lifted himself off
Bill’s body. Bill trembled all over missing the body heat and watched curiously
as Tom slowly began to turn around.
 
“M-master?” Bill said unsurely as he was presented with Tom’s ass in his face
and his cock dragging against his bare chest smearing pre-come. Bill too could
feel Tom’s hot breaths against his equally aroused member and the teen cried
out in shock.
 
“Bill,” Tom said breathing in hot puffs against Bill’s head, “I want you to
follow my example.”
 
Before Bill even had time to respond Tom’s head plunged down capturing Bill’s
flesh in his mouth and Bill cried out. Never before had Bill felt anything like
it. While he was well liked amongst his group of friends, Bill was totally
sexually inexperienced. Unlike Tom in real life with his numerous cheerleaders
or the Tom in the video that expertly sucked down Bill. Bill’s body was
convulsing now as the Bill in the video cried out brokenly and the real Bill
furiously humped his bed whining in anticipation.
 
“Suck me, Bill!” Tom demanded pulling off Bill for a moment before taking Bill
in his mouth again. Tom’s tongue slid wet and hot around Bill’s head as loud
suction noises filled the room. The real Bill was whining desperately now
sucking wantonly on his pillow as the Bill on the video finally mustered up the
balls to suck Tom into his mouth. However Bill did not taste the starched
fabric of his pillow but rather the hot flesh of Tom himself. Bill could feel
the suction around his member and he could feel the protruding veins of Tom
running along the inside of his cheek and stabbing at the back of his throat.
 
“Oh! Oh!” Bill cried slamming his face into the pillow as he finally came. The
Bill on the video cried out identically to the real Bill as well as he came
leaving the two panting for breath. Then finally Bill felt as if something was
slipping down on his throat and he choked momentarily panicking as Tom on the
video groaned and came in the video Bill’s mouth. The real Bill swallowed
desperately as he too felt the sensation of Tom coming although nothing
actually was in his mouth at the time.
 
Then finally the screen went back to static again as the audio and video
disappeared leaving gasping desperately on his bed. Like normal boys Bill had
jacked off his fair share but never had he come so hard. Never had he felt such
intensity at his climax or so out of control right before he came.
 
“Oh god.” Bill whimpered softly as the realization of what he just did hit him.
He was lying in bed, covered in come, as he just come to the thought of Tom
practically raping him.
 
“Fuck.” Bill panted squeezing his eyes shut.
 
===============================================================================
 
“Stupid Bill.” Tom grumbled watching as Bill stalked off down the road pulling
out his cell phone. He was probably going to go call those druggies that he
hung out with at school and Tom collapsed on the couch sighing. He landed on
something hard and Tom frowned lifting his hips as he pulled whatever he’d
landed on out from underneath him.
 
“What’s this?” Tom said confused as he stared at an unmarked videocassette in
his hands, “VCR? Fucking old school man.”
 
Tom glanced at the clock frowning when he realized that his parents wouldn’t be
home for another tow hours. As far as Tom knew Georg and the rest of the team
were still probably hung over from last night and Tom looked down at the tape
one more time curiously. He made his decision; he stood up and wandered over to
the VCR popping the tape in before falling back onto the couch lazily.
 
The sounds of moaning where the first thing to hit his ears.
***** Discovery *****
“Shit.” Bill hissed struggling to pull on his backpack. The sounds of the
school bell rang throughout the halls announcing to its students that the day
had ended. Bill could hear the marching of cleats as the football team made
it’s way down the hall towards the practice fields. Georg’s shiny brown hair
was visible amongst the pack and Bill flushed turning more towards his locker
as he gathered his books, hoping to stay unnoticed.
 
“Hey Bill what’s going on?” One of players leered and the rest of the team
turned their attention to where Bill standing frozen pressed against his
locker. Bill slowly turned towards them unsure of what would happen next. Would
they all beat him because of the party? Or would they just beat him up because
they could? Bill could see Tom’s dirty blonde dreads hidden amongst the pack as
well and just then someone shifted revealing Tom. The two’s eyes and Tom
quickly looked off to the side confusing Bill. Surely Tom wasn’t still feeling
guilty about the incident on the stairs?
 
After Bill had finished watching the video last night he’d fallen asleep in
bed. However upon waking up for school the next day Tom still hadn’t returned
to their room, or rather had left before Bill had woken up. Bill hadn’t even
seen Tom in the hallways at school the whole day; this would be the first time
the pair saw each other since the fight.
 
“Suck any cock today, fag?” Georg taunted and Tom’s face burned bright red at
the statement.
 
Bill simply stared at them with his mouth open unsure how to respond. Normally
he’d tell them to fuck off but for some reason he couldn’t tear his eyes away
from Tom. The memories from the video were still fresh in Bill’s mind and he
felt his face heat up as the combination of the memories and the real Tom
standing in front of him proved to be too much.
 
“Whatever guys. The fag doesn’t want to play today,” Georg frowned when he
received no reaction from Bill, “Come on or coach is going to make us run for
being late again.”
 
The entire team groaned at the thought and set off after Georg heading down
towards the field until Tom and Bill were the only people left in the hall. Tom
was staring at Bill intensely as if in some sort of trance while Bill’s face
was burning bright red in embarrassment as he recalled the previous night.
Finally Bill slammed his locker shut and walked up to Tom who was still staring
at Bill strangely. He was almost looking through Bill, as if Bill really wasn’t
there.
 
“Tom?” Bill asked softly placing a hand on Tom’s shoulder pad and Tom flinched
blinking rapidly as the spell was broken.
 
“What?” Tom glared through hate filled eyes at Bill shrugging off where Bill’s
hand rested.
 
“I just wanted to tell you that don’t need to worry about yesterday. It’s no
big deal.” Bill sighed toeing at the floor. Tom’s breath hitched and he stared
down at Bill with eyes wide with panic.
 
“W-what?” Tom said in an unusually high voice.
 
“The fight on the stairs.” Bill said slowly watching how Tom’s face was heating
up again, “Don’t worry about it. I didn’t get hurt and I won’t tell Mom or Dad.
So stop looking at me like that!”
 
“Oh the stairs! Right.” Tom smiled sheepishly and Bill’s brow furrowed, “And
what do you mean looking at you like what?”
 
“I don’t know!” Bill snapped harshly surprised at his own tone. The looks Tom
was sending Bill was making him nervous as he was unsure how to read them,
“Just stop doing it! I’m going home, Mom said she’d pick you up after practice
is done.”
 
“Y-yeah okay.” Tom said stiffly turning towards where the rest of the team had
disappeared, “I’ll see you at dinner.”
 
Bill simply shrugged and pulled his backpack higher over his shoulder setting
off towards the exit doors. Bill felt nervous and anxious talking to Tom as
something was clearly off with him. There was no way he could have known about
the video… could he? Bill’s face burned at the thought that Tom could possibly
know what Bill had done while watching that video and walked faster wanting to
put as much distance between him and Tom as he could.
 
The path home from school was a familiar one and he soon found himself on the
same pathway that he’d found the videotape. Strange enough there was no one
around the general area despite the neighborhood was normally bustling with
kids by this time of day.
 
“Where is everyone?” Bill said to himself looking around at the picturistic
houses lined up in a row with their picket fences and green grass. Some houses
had their sprinklers going but other than that there was no sign of any
movement and the strange weird feeling that Bill had felt yesterday here at the
same spot came over him again. The hairs on the back of his neck stood on end
and suddenly he felt someone standing behind him.
 
“Looking for something?” A voice said in Bill’s ear. The teen jumped back with
a yelp distancing him self from whomever had been standing behind him gasping
for breath.
 
“Who are you?” Bill demanded eyeing over the person. It was a teenaged girl
around Bill’s age who was dressed in a simple sundress with a floppy beach hat
slung low to hide her face. Bill looked around briefly but still no one was
around them in the neighborhood.
 
“Having you been having fun? Must have been pretty busy last night.” The girl
smiled and Bill’s blood ran cold.
 
“The video!” Bill snarled taking a step forward menacingly but the girl’s calm
smile still remained, “You dropped it right? I want to return it to you.”
 
“That isn’t necessary. I said it was yours now remember?” The girl’s voice was
airy and light although it held a mocking tone to it making Bill clench his
hands into fists.
 
“I don’t want it! Why did you give me that tape?” Bill demanded, “It’s
disgusting!”
 
“I hate it.” Bill added as an afterthought and the girl laughed lightly.
 
“Do you really?” The girl said knowingly, “It’s a magic video tape. It has the
power to show its owner what their true feelings are. It will make him happy.”
 
“No it won’t make me happy.” Bill sneered, “That tape will destroy people!”
 
“Yes. If it’s misused it can become a cursed video.” The girl’s smiled widened
as she added, “It will invite disaster. So don’t let anyone else view or touch
it.”
 
“What the fuck? I don’t want it!” Bill shouted.
 
“That’s not for you to decide.” The girl smiled one last time before a large
gust of wind blew up the fallen leaves on the sidewalk. Bill shielded his eyes
with his arm as the leaves swirled around him in a blur of red, orange, and
yellow. However when the wind finally died down the girl was gone.
 
===============================================================================
 
“VCR? Fucking old school man.” Tom chuckled to him self as childhood memories
of watching Disney films came to mind. He popped the video into the VCR player
and made himself comfortable on the couch. For a moment the screen flickered
static and Tom frowned waiting patiently for a few seconds before soft moans
began to come from the television.
 
“What the fuck? It’s porn?” Tom snorted trying to think who the tape could
possibly belong to, surely not Gordon.
 
The screen continued to stay static as the moans got louder and Tom frowned
disappointed. What the point of having the porn on video tape if there was no
video to it? He reached for the remote just about to turn it off when a loud
moan resonated throughout the room making Tom’s face flush.
 
“Tom.” An all too familiar voice said breathily and Tom felt his groin stir.
 
“Oh g-god.” Tom paled as the screen flickered once more and a picture came into
view, “B-Bill?”
 
A foreign sweet smell seemed to waif through the room and Tom inhaled in
surprised not sure what exactly was happening. He’d smelt that smell before but
he couldn’t place where. On the screen was a shot of Bill naked tied up tight
with rope with his hands held over his head as he stood there looking terrified
in what looked like a storage room. Immediate disgust ran through Tom but he
found that he could not take his eyes of the screen.
 
“Bill, what kind of fucked up porn is this?” Tom muttered under his breath as
the Bill on the tape looked around desperately tugging at his bindings.
 
“Tom!” Bill cried sounding slightly out of breath. It was not a call of fear or
alarm but rather it was almost a desperate wanting call and Tom’s face burned.
Suddenly there was a sound from behind the camera as a man stepped into view
and Tom’s back stiffened as the Bill on the tape’s eyes bulged.
 
“Where is this?” Tom frowned as the man stepped into further view and Tom’s
stomach dropped, “Oh my god!”
 
The man on the tape was Tom! Tom felt his knees go weak as he stared at his
mirror image on the video as he approached Bill grabbing Bill’s jaw with one
hand. The Tom on the vide tape was shirtless only dressed jeans and the real
Tom studied the one on the video intently looking for some flaw indicating that
this really wasn’t him. Tom frowned feeling sick when he realized that the Tom
on the video was identical to Tom in every way, even down to where Tom had
missed a spot shaving his treasure trail last week. Tom felt nauseated as he
desperately searched his memories trying to figure out when this could have
happened.
 
“I think I’ve kept you waiting long enough.” Tom smirked nodding down to Bill’s
groin. The real Tom looked down slightly confused until he saw his
stepbrother’s problem between his slender legs. Bill was trying to cross them
in an attempt to hide it but the Tom on the tape lashed out slapping Bill on
the leg.
 
“Do not try to hide yourself from me!” Tom on the tape snarled slapping Bill’s
other leg and the teen cried out letting his legs hang loose so that his
erection was no longer hidden. Bill’s breaths were coming out in shallow pants
now and the real Tom found himself shifting uncomfortably at the sound.
 
“T-That’s not me!” Tom stuttered watching how the Tom on the tape was now
whispering softly into Bill’s ear, “I don’t remember this! This never happened!
What the fuck?”
 
“M-master.” Bill whimpered pathetically pulling at his bondage and Tom on the
tape laughed patting him on the head like a pup, “Master please!”
 
“Be patient.” Tom grinned slowly shrugging off his jeans and boxers in one go.
The Tom on the couch paled as he took in the sight of video Tom’s member, which
was fully aroused and so eerily identical.
 
There was no way that this actually was Tom, was it? Tom shook his head at the
notion not wanting to believe it.
 
“There’s no way I’d get hard from doing this to him.” Tom whispered watching
how Bill was now whimpering loudly and struggling at bit harder with eyes
fogged with lust.
 
“Master please!” Bill begged sounding close to tears, “I can’t… I can’t!”
 
“Hush now,” Tom on the tape chuckled, “I’ll give you what you want.”
 
The Tom on the video slowly snaked his hand down to his member and gave a lazy
pump as the real Tom doubled over in shock. He had felt that! Tom had felt the
sensation of being pumped on his cock when the video Tom had! Bill was whining
now thrusting his hips forward in a feeble attempt to find friction against
anything and Tom hissed pressing his legs together when the video Tom stroked
his member again.
 
“Holy shit!” Tom said shocked looking down to where his member was now fully
aroused just as the video Tom’s was, “No way.”
 
“Master!” Bill cried out desperately twisting and turning where he was trapped
and the video Tom sighed walking over to him. The real Tom swallowed as he took
in the sight of his naked brother just as the Tom in the video was. Bill’s pale
skin was beginning to turn pink in the places where the rough rope was cutting
into him. Shallow little puffs of breath fell past Bill’s glistening lips and
Tom swallowed as he watched how a strand of hair was stuck to his lips and
slightly in his mouth. Bill’s wide eyes were fogged with lust and their once
hazel color was now almost a black as Bill silently begged Tom to be touched.
The site was simply erotic and the real Tom gasped hastily unzipping his jeans
and pushing a hand down his pants shamelessly.
 
“Shit, shit!” Tom hissed grasping his cock and slowly pumping it. He closed his
eyes in pleasure when he heard Bill on the tape cry out loudly in distress and
Tom’s eyes shot open.
 
On the tape Tom was now grasping Bill’s one hip as he thumbed Bill’s nipple
with his other hand. The real Tom gasped staring at his left hand in wonder as
he felt the sensation of the hard nub sliding beneath his fingertips and Tom
moaned.
 
“I can feel how hard your nipples are getting from the simulation.” Tom on tape
breathed heavily rubbing repeatedly at Bill’s rosy nipple and the boy cried out
bucking desperately as his restraints as Tom laughed lowly.
 
“P-please! Tom!” Bill sobbed as he broke into tears, “Please! I need to be
touched! Oh please!”
 
“Hush.” Tom murmured pressing his face into Bill’s neck and he ran his nose
against Bill’s warm skin, “Remember your place.”
 
“Master please!” Bill sobbed as Tom’s tongue slowly came out and he began to
lap at Bill’s neck. Bill whimpered softly leaning his head to side to give Tom
more room and Tom licked a hot strip up Bill’s neck.
 
“Oh! Oh!” The real Tom on the couch chanted as he felt the salty sweat from
Bill’s skin on his tongue and he groaned in frustration as he pulled on his
member harder but felt no alleviation.
 
“I can feel how wet you are.” Tom on the tape chuckled reaching a hand down and
pressing his thumb into Bill’s slit. Bill cried out loudly as the sensation and
Tom took the opportunity then to bite down hard on Bill’s neck. Small whimpers
fell past Bill’s lips as Tom suckled forcefully on Bill’s milky skin marking
him as his property.
 
“T-Tom.” Bill moaned softly thrusting into Tom’s hand and Tom smiled finally
unlatching his mouth from Bill’s neck to reveal a large bruise that he’d left.
 
“You make me so horny, Bill.” Tom said lowly letting go of Bill’s member and
Bill mewled in distress, “I can’t even control myself.”
 
“Oh please! Oh please! Oh please!” Bill chanted over and over again as he
looked at Tom desperately, “Please master! Let me do it! Please!”
 
“What do you want?” Tom asked playing coy as he slid his hand over the pertness
of Bill’s rear and the real Tom groaned out as he too felt the fleshy plumpness
beneath his palm.
 
“Let me suck you!” Bill begged wantonly as he looked positively flustered with
arousal.
 
“You mean this?” Tom on the tape laughed grasping his own member and giving it
a pump. The real Tom moaned as he felt the touch and began to touch him self
again realizing that now he could feel it.
 
“It only works when he-… I mean I touch myself on the video.” Tom said in
realization as the Tom on the tape continued to stroke himself.
 
“Yes I want it master!” Bill cried opening his mouth and making sucking motions
like a baby would when seeking to breast-feed.
 
“You want this?” Tom on the tape teased again watching how Bill nodded his head
vigorously, “In your mouth?”
 
“Oh yes master! I want it! Give it to me please!” Bill said looking frantic and
Tom on the tape laughed reaching up to unhook Bill’s hands. He then cut the
rope and the ropes wrapped around Bill’s body slowly fell off revealing the red
lines across his pale skin that they’d left in their wake.
 
“On your knees slave.” Tom commanded and Bill dropped obediently sitting on his
haunches so that his face was directing in front of Tom’s groin.
 
“Now suck.” Tom demanded grabbing a tuft of Bill’s hair and guiding him
forward. Bill instantly obliged opening his mouth greedily and sucking down to
Tom’s navel in one go.
 
“Argh!” The real Tom screamed as he felt the hot wetness of Bill’s mouth around
him. He curled his fingers until they were in a tunnel and began to pump into
it watching as the Tom on the video tugged harshly on Bill’s hair sending the
boy’s mouth sliding all over his manhood.
 
“Mm! Mm!” Bill cried out muffled as Tom thrusted forcefully down Bill’s throat.
Bill blinked back tears as Tom groaned above him pressing his fingers down to
where Bill’s mouth was attached to him.
 
“Open.” Tom said and Bill sucked in Tom’s fingers as well so that they were
pressed against Tom’s member as Bill’s mouth housed both. With each suck a loud
pop emitted as Bill tried his hardest to give his master pleasure and the real
Tom was now writhing on the couch as he felt each suck. Tom could not even
muster the strength to touch himself as he felt the all too real sensation of
Bill’s sucking him as the Tom on the tape groaned in sync with the real Tom.
 
Bit by bit Tom was starting to realize that he was beginning to feel like the
Tom in the video. What the Tom on the tape saw Tom saw, what he felt Tom felt.
Tom’s mouth hung open in pleasure as he could feel Bill’s soft hair sliding
through his fingers and the hotness around his member sucking obediently.
 
“Off.” Tom on the tape said and Bill released Tom’s fingers before getting back
to the task at hand, “Do you want these?”
 
“Oh shit.” The real Tom groaned knowing exactly what the Tom on the video
planned to do with those.
 
“For what, master?” Bill on the tape asked innocently stopping his sucking for
a moment to glance up at Tom.
 
“Do you want to come?” Tom on the tape asked bluntly as Bill’s eyes widened.
 
“Oh yes master that would please me very much! But only if you want to! Your
pleasure is my sole purpose.”
 
“Good then get back to work.” Tom smirked and Bill bobbed down again taking Tom
in his mouth once more. Tom on the tape was shifting around above Bill
maneuvering so that he was almost bent in half over Bill to gain access to
Bill’s rear. Bill was smushed beneath Tom balancing on his knees as he tried
with all his might to continue to suck on Tom at this angle and yet present his
rear to his master as well.
 
“Such a pretty little hole.” Tom panted shallowly eyeing Bill’s entrance that
had been exposed due to Bill’s awkward position, “How much can it take?”
 
“Fuck yes!” The real Tom groaned lying on the couch paralyzed as he felt Bill
sucking on him and the finally the sensation of tightness around his three
fingers. The Bill on the tape was now crying out around Tom’s cock as the video
Tom forced three fingers into his virgin entrance at once. Tom’s head rolled to
the side as he watched the video with both of his hands lying useless beside
him. He wiggled his fingers experimentally and the Bill on the video cried out
in response making Tom jump slightly.
 
“Nothing has ever been in here before has it?” Tom on the video panted
thrusting the three fingers in deeper and Bill’s back arched, “So tight.”
 
“M-master!” Bill sobbed taking his mouth off Tom’s cock and the real Tom found
himself growling in sync with the video Tom as he demanded Bill get back to
work.
 
“But it hurts master!” Bill sobbed wiggling slightly and Tom growled striking
Bill across the bottom causing Bill to yelp.
 
“Get back to work you wench! Remember your place!” Tom slapped Bill’s rear once
more and Bill yelped instantly attaching his mouth around Tom once more. He was
sobbing now as he sucked sloppily around Tom but it didn’t matter as Tom was
beginning to thrust his hips into Bill’s mouth.
 
“I’m close! So close!” Both the real Tom and video gritted out thrusting their
hips forward identically. The finally the building fire in their groins was too
much as both the real Tom and video Tom shot their loads into Bill’s mouth.
Bill swallowed desperately around Tom trying not to choke taking all of Tom
until he was finished.
 
“Fuck.” Tom groaned sliding down on the couch and watching through blurred eyes
as he saw the video Tom shove his fingers into Bill once more and soon Bill was
coming crying out and twisting around Tom’s digits. Then the television screen
went back to static as Tom lay there in shock, breathing heavily, as he tried
to recover from the intensity of his orgasm. Tom glanced at the clock realizing
that his mother would be home soon to make dinner and quickly scrambled to
clean up.
 
Guilt began to pool within Tom but not because he was ashamed of jacking off to
the video, but rather because afterwards he found himself wanting more.
 
===============================================================================
 
“Honey we’re home!” Simone called out as the front door slammed shut behind
her. Bill picked his head up from where he’d been doing his homework and
listened to the sounds of Gordon greeting Simone.
 
“Tom go up stairs and bathe!” Simone teased and Bill’s back stiffened, “You
smell terrible!”
 
“Mom!” Tom groaned although Bill could already hear his heavy steps coming up
towards the stairs. The doorknob to their room began to rattle and Bill
instantly turned his back to the door returning to his homework. The door
finally swung open and Bill could hear Tom freeze in the doorway.
 
“Oh.” He said quietly and Bill turned in his chair to glance back at his
brother, “What are you doing here?”
 
“Homework.” Bill said uneasily not insulted by Tom’s question. Bill knew that
Tom was just as frazzled as he felt but was unsure why. Tom wouldn’t bring up
the video would he?
 
Tom felt himself beginning to blush as the memories from the previous afternoon
on the couch flooded his mind. He still hadn’t figured out whom the tape
belonged to or whether or not Bill knew of it. Tom shifted uneasily closing the
door behind him and noticing the look of panic that overtook Bill.
 
“It is hard?” Tom asked softly and Bill’s eyes bulged in shock.
 
“The homework!” Tom added as an afterthought as he realized what that could
have implied.
 
“It’s math.” Bill said dumbly studying Tom’s grass stained football uniform,
“Go bathe. Mom’s right you smell terrible.”
 
“Bill… I,” Tom trailed off looking down and Bill’s heart skipped a beat, “Um.”
 
Tom’s eyes trailed around the room until they finally fell upon an unmarked
videocassette lying on Bill’s bed and Tom gasped. Tom could have sworn he’d
hidden the tape in his sock drawer. Bill’s eyes followed to where Tom was
looking at well and he gasped at well jumping up out of his seat at the two’s
eyes met.
 
“You’ve seen it?” Both shouted at the same time.
 
“When? How?” Bill demanded crossing his arms over his chest and staring at Tom
uneasily.
 
“Y-You’ve seen the tape?” Tom asked weakly nodding towards the video, “How I
thought I’d hidden it?”
 
“What do you mean ‘hidden it’?” Bill asked frowning, “It’s been in my backpack
the whole day.”
 
“No it was in my sock drawer.” Tom said rushing over to his armoire and pulling
the drawers open only to find it was empty, “I put it in here right after I was
done watching it!”
 
“You watched it?” Bill squeaked scandalized and Tom turned to Bill frowning.
 
“How did you get it?”
 
“Someone ran into me on the sidewalk and dropped it.” Bill said looking away
nervously, “You weren’t supposed to watch it.”
 
“No you weren’t supposed to watch it.” Tom sighed rubbing a hand over his face.
 
“No Tom.” Bill said seriously recalling the girl’s warning, “You weren’t
supposed to watch it! No one was supposed to see it!”
 
“Bill what?” Tom said confused taking a step closer to his stepbrother and Bill
flinched but did not move away.
 
“I was told that no one but me should watch it. God this is so embarrassing!”
Bill groaned hiding his face in his hands and Tom wrapped his arms around
Bill’s waist.
 
“Bill I would never do something like to you.” Tom said seriously feeling
suddenly very affectionate towards Bill and Bill sniffed back some tears
looking to Tom in wonder.
 
“I don’t remember any of that happening. It’s not real.” Bill said letting Tom
hug him to his body, “I’m not a fucking thing to be sold.”
 
“I know-… wait what?” Tom frowned pulling back slightly, “What do you mean?”
 
“In the tape you… you fucking bought me at an auction.” Bill’s cheeks burned
red with embarrassment, “God this is so sick!”
 
Bill began to struggled trying to get out of Tom’s arms but Tom held him there
firmly thinking back on what he remembered from the tape. There was no auction
that he could recall.
 
“You were tied up in the video.” Tom said blushing with embarrassment.
 
“What?” Bill asked frowning. The girl’s words suddenly came to mind again;
about how it showed its owner’s deepest inner desires and Bill blushed. Tom
wanted to tie him up?
 
“We have to watch it again.” Bill said pulling out of Tom’s arms and scooping
up the video.
 
“W-what? No way!” Tom said embarrassed, “I’m not watching that with you!”
 
“Tom just do this for me okay?” Bill said determined popping the tape in and
pulling Tom to sit on the bed with him.
 
The screen flickered static for a few moments until finally a perfect picture
came into view. Both Bill and Tom blinked. On the screen was the mirror image
of them sitting on a bed together as they were in real life but in the
luxurious room that had been in Bill’s version of the video. The video Bill and
Tom blinked back through the screen at each other before turning to each other
and taking the other’s hand.
 
“Tom.” The video Bill sighed looking adoringly at Tom and the real Bill flushed
red at how peaceful his doppelganger looked.
 
“Bill.” The video Tom said and the real Tom snuck a glance at Bill whose eyes
were glued to the screen.
 
“I love you.” Both the real Bill and the video Bill said at the same time. The
real Bill gasped brining a hand over his mouth in shock and both the real Tom
and video Tom turned to their Bills.
 
“I love you too.” The real Tom said right when the video Tom said it to his
Bill.
 
“W-what’s happening?” Tom cried out as he found some unseen force tugging him
forward towards Bill. He ran his fingers through Bill’s hair grabbing tight and
bringing Bill’s face forward just as the video Tom was.
 
“Tom.” The video Bill sighed although when the real Bill said it he sounded
panicked.
 
“I’m so hard.” Both Tom’s said and the real Bill’s eyes bulged in fear. Tom
groaned realizing that he was in fact hard suddenly and he tipped Bill back
onto the bed just as the video Tom had done with his Bill.
 
“Take me.” The real Bill’s eyes were filled with fear at his own words as he
struggled to be freed of whatever unseen force was controlling him to do this.
The real Tom’s eyes were wide with fear as well as he felt his hands moving on
their own accord stripping Bill of his clothes.
 
“Tom!” The real Bill cried out in panic as the video Bill sighed it. Soon
Bill’s hands were struggling to undress Tom of his jersey and numerous pads
until the pair was stark naked pressed against each other. Tom’s fingers
pressed against Bill’s lips and despite Bill willing his mouth to stay shut it
opened and greedily lapped at them. Tom’s eyes were filled with fear now as he
felt like a puppet being controlled by the video Tom as the video Tom pulled
his fingers from Bill’s mouth forcing the real Tom to do the same.
 
“In me.” Bill was sobbing now being forced to say these things that the video
Bill was saying and Tom sent Bill an apologetic look as his fingers crawled
down Bill’s spine stopping at his entrance.
 
“Beg me.” The real Tom sobbed as the video Tom said the same line with menace.
 
“Please!” The video Bill whined but the real Bill was begging for Tom to stop.
Tom squeezed his eyes shut as he fingers begin to wiggle their way inside of
Bill and Bill cried out separately from the video in pain. Unlike the video
Bill, the real Bill was completely inexperienced when it came to sexual acts
like this and he cried out pained while Tom’s fingers probed around within him.
 
“M-more!” Bill sobbed grabbing onto Tom’s arm in hopes to convey his true
feelings and he when searched Tom’s face he realized that Tom was crying as
well. His eyes were filled with anguish and silent apologies as Tom pumped his
fingers deeper within Bill. Blood was steadily beginning to gather on Tom’s
fingers and he opened his mouth wanting to cry out only to realize since the
video Tom hadn’t he could not as well. The video Tom and video Bill were in
total control now.
 
“I’m going to fuck you so hard.” The video Tom and real Tom said at the time
although with different feeling as they retracted their fingers from their
Bill’s. The video Bill was gazing up at video Tom lovingly as the real Bill was
looking terrified.
 
“Do it! Do it now!” Bill demanded through his tears and Tom found himself
aligning with Bill’s entrance.
 
“I love you.” Tom said in time with the video but Bill’s heart skipped a beat.
There were tears in Tom’s eyes as he said these forced lines but somehow Bill
could tell that this really was what Tom was feeling in his heart. He stroked a
hand lovingly through Bill’s hair before leaning down to press a chaste kiss to
Bill’s lips and Bill found himself wishing that the video Bill would kiss Tom
back more as it ended all too soon.
 
Then without further ado Tom thrusted inside of Bill. Bill’s mouth opened in a
choked moan of pain as the video Bill moaned in pleasure and instantly Tom
began pumping into his body.
 
“Shit! Shit!” Tom sobbed as he increased his pace and Bill lay paralyzed with
pain beneath him. He could not will his hips to stop their movements and Bill
continued to sob beneath grabbing at his shoulders but pushing him back instead
of how the video Bill was pulling Tom closer.
 
They continued for a short while at this aggressive pace before being forced to
slow down and do it lovingly. That had been the worst. Tom found his body being
forced to be so gentle with Bill and whisper loving endearments as the real
Bill was still crying from his first time. Blood was splattered down Bill’s
inner thighs and Tom felt disgusted with himself that he’d let this happen.
 
“I’m s-so close.” Bill whimpered blinking back tears as he pulled Tom closer.
Tom rested his forehead against Bill’s and kissed his passionately slipping his
tongue into Bill’s mouth.
 
“Me too.” Tom sighed pumping his hips lazily and he gave one last pump before
he was shouting Bill’s name and coming inside of him. Bill’s eyes widened as he
felt an orgasm being forced from him and sobbed from the intensity until he was
finally done.
 
Both Bill and Tom turned their heads towards the television as the Bill and Tom
on the video stared back them tightly holding each other. They looked so in
love and Bill sniffed feeling as Tom’s arms tightened around his waist
protectively. Tom bit his lip staring at their mirror image and felt a pleasant
warmness through his chest as he took in how happy the couple looked. Then
finally the screen went blank as the video ejected itself from the VCR. Bill
and Tom sat up gasping as they regained control of their bodies and crawled to
the edge of the bed watching as the video began to unwind itself. The black
tape became undone and started to shoot out from the tape in a mess of ribbons
totally destroying it. And then finally it was done.
 
“It destroyed itself.” Bill said quietly and he felt Tom sling an arm around
his waist and hug him close. Bill winced slightly still tender in his rear but
turned to Tom with wide eyes.
 
“I did mean,” Tom’s eyes were still running with tears and Bill gasped, “I love
you. I’m sorry this happened.”
 
“T-Tom.” Bill sobbed throwing his arms around Tom’s neck as they pressed
closer. Tom began to kiss Bill all over his face before their lips finally met
and they both tipped back on the bed holding each other.
 
What they did not notice was how a certain video tape had simply vanished.
Elsewhere across town at the Listing residence, Georg had just stepped out of
the shower feeling much better to get the dirt off from practice. He strolled
into his room and froze when he spotted a mysterious unmarked video cassette
lying on his bed. He looked around confused for a moment positive that it had
not been there before.
 
“Huh?” Georg said picking up the tape and popping it in the VCR player. The
screen flickered static for a few moments and Georg was just about to turn it
off when finally the picture came into view.
 
“What the fuck?”
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them. He could tell Hiroto was just bursting with energy as always and it
amused him quite a bit.
Hiroto turned around, a bright smile on his lips. "That one!" Hiroto pointed at
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too. On the middle looping a huge sign said: Snake poison. Aki looked quite
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something. "Race you!" He grinned before dashing off, knowing Hiroto was going
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sprinted after Kai. He giggled as he passed him and reached the entrance of the
rollercoaster first. "Ha! I won!"
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There was a decent-sized line leading to the roller coaster, so he took time to
regain his breathing.
Hiroto jumped up and down in the line, squealing as the train rumbled past.
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Kai just laughed a bit more once his breathing was righted. "It is. I can't
wait!" He grinned, watching as the next round of people got on. They'd be in
the train after them, so his body thrummed with excitement just like Hiroto's
did.
As soon as their train arrived at the station, Hiroto felt his heart speed up.
Oh how he loved this feeling, and it had been way too long ago. They would be
at the end of the train, which was thrilling because they would be still on the
top of the rollercoaster when it would speed up. He sat down and tried pulling
the safety belt down. but it was locked.
Kai climbed in beside Hiroto, just as eager. Adrenaline already started to
course through his veins and the ride hadn't even started yet. He could feel
his heart practically leap in his chest when the ride's attendant came by and
pulled the safety bar down over their laps, securing it in place before locking
the door to their seats. "Hold on tight." Kai grinned over at Hiroto.
"If you're a scaredy cat, yes!" Hiroto swayed his arms around as the train
started moving beginning it's way up after a few metres. He looked around while
more and more of the park came into sight as they moved higher. "I want to ride
that one too!" Hiroto pointed at a black rollercoaster which almost looked like
spaghetti, without many large slopes, but constantly twisting and turning in
any possible way.
Shaking his head with a laugh at Hiroto's obvious disregard for his words.
Trying not to seem a scaredy cat, Kai let go of the bar as well and looked off
into the distance where Hiroto was pointing. "That one looks fun. We're going
to have to get Aki-kun on one too, though. I want to frighten him some." For a
moment the two of them seemed like brothers ready to terrorize their parent.
"Sounds like fun!" Hiroto looked down. "Look! there he is!" Hiroto pointed at
the bench, which was still becoming smaller and smaller. He looked up again and
saw the first carriages had reached the top, so he wanted to poke Kai's arm,
but only found his hand, so he just grabbed it. "We're almost there!"
Kai grinned and acted like he was waving at Aki even though the younger man
couldn't see either of them. Then when his hand was grabbed, Kai turned his
attention to the front of the roller coaster and noticed it was stopping for a
brief moment. "Here we go!" Kai laughed as the roller coaster jumpstarted and
soon they were speeding down the slope.
Hiroto threw his other arm in the air as he screamed at the top of his lungs,
halfway down the slope, he was out of breath and started laughing. "This is so
much fun!!!!" He squeezed Kai's hand as they entered the first loop.
Kai squeezed Hiroto's hand in return and just laughed, never having been the
screaming type. "It is!" He exclaimed, leaning towards Hiroto when they went
through the first loop.
After a few more moments Hiroto started to lose track of what was up and down,
but he just laughed as he closed his eyes for a moment, revelling in the feel
of everything. His hair in the wind, the spinning and feeling like he was
flying, the euphoria he felt caused by the adrenaline and Kai's hand closed
around his own.
Kai could feel his stomach doing twists and turns with the roller coaster, but
the sensation of it only made him laugh, completely content at what was going
on. It was almost like he hadn't felt down earlier, like he hadn't been
depressed. "Aki-kun's missing out!" He grinned, looking over at Hiroto with
happiness dancing in his eyes.
"I know!" Hiroto Squeezed Kai's hand one last time as they entered the last
looping before the train hit the brakes. He let his arms and legs hang loose as
they were pulled forward by the G-forces, always loving the feeling.
Kai was still grinning when the train hit it's brakes and slowly released
Hiroto's hand from his own. "Man, that was fun." He smiled, looking over at
Hiroto with such happiness and contentment upon his features.
"And only the first one..." Hiroto giggled, and had a grin plastered to his
face. "Maybe we could go on a gentle ride for Aki-kun, next." He decided to let
his brother have his fun too, since they'd be going in all the scary roller
coasters without him being able to join.
Chuckling, Kai nodded his head and watched as the train came to a complete stop
and the attendant released the safety bar as well as unlocked the door for them
to step out. Kai's legs were wobbly as he started to step out and he almost
fell, but once he had his footing he reached for Hiroto's hand, still smiling.
Hiroto took Kai's hand again, still smiling. "Watch yourself." He was really
glad he never got nauseous in roller coasters, otherwise he hadn't been able to
ride them non-stop.
Kai gripped Hiroto's hand for support until he got his legs under him, then he
gently released Hiroto's hand. "I wish we could get Aki-kun on these kinds of
rides. I bet he'd love them if he tried them."
"Yeah, I didn't want to go in them first either... but my friends kind of
forced me to, and then I loved it!" He grinned at Kai again before running
towards the bench. "Aki-san! let's go let's go! next ride!" He pulled at his
brother's hand who chuckled and stood.
Kai laughed and followed after them, wondering which ride the gentle Aki was
going to choose for them. "This time we decided to let you choose the ride,
Aki-kun." Kai smiled at his friend. "Pick whatever you want."
Aki smiled. "Sorry to bore you." Hiroto playfully slapped Aki's arm. "You're
not boring us! now tell us what you want. " Aki chuckled "Then let's ride the
swings." "Sounds like fun!" Hiroto always loved that ride, just because it was
relaxing and you felt like you were flying.
Kai agreed with a nod of his head. "I love that ride." He followed right along
beside the brothers, his eyes drifting to the other rides in the park. There
were so many of them he didn't know if they could get to all of them during the
day.
After a few gentle rides, and somewhere along the way Hiroto retrieving a map
of the park, they were walking towards a 'gentle' roller coaster. At least that
was what Aki thought. The coaster was built around a small mountain and behind
it was a looping. But you could only see it from outside the park. The train
went backwards, so Hiroto decided it was the perfect opportunity to make Aki
see there was nothing scary about roller coasters. "No really, just some small
slopes, the only thing is that it's backwards... nothing scary." With
reluctance, Aki agreed to go into it with them.
Kai tried to hide a smirk as he knew about the loop of the roller coaster. It
made him almost feel bad for Aki that Hiroto planned to trick him in such a
way, but it was all in good fun and Kai didn't say anything about it. As they
walked to the ride and got in line, Kai watched some of the other people
around, his gaze being drawn from one person to the next. It seemed a lot of
people had decided to come out today.
Now Hiroto just hoped no one other in the line would mention the loop and have
Aki walking away after all. Aki fidgeted nervously. "I want to have you or Kai
next to me." Hiroto grinned, and decided it would be best if he took the place
beside Aki, because if he wouldn't be too stunned he'd probably go attacking
the nearest person. "I'll sit next to you."
Kai had been about to offer himself, but then when Hiroto did so instead he
just laughed and nodded his head, clasping a hand upon Aki's shoulder. "Don't
freak so much. It'll be perfectly fine, Aki-kun." He comforted, smiling a
comforting smile at the younger man. "I'll sit behind you guys."
It took a while before it was their turn, but when it was, Hiroto was inside
laughing at Aki's foolishness. As the worker closed all the safety bars Aki
looked at them with a thoughtful expression. "Why are the safety belts so...
huge?" Hiroto shrugged and smiled. "Just precaution." Before Aki could say
anymore, the train started moving backwards and up the first slope.
Kai sat back in his seat and watched as Aki practically squirmed in his seat
before the ride started. It was kind of amusing but also made Kai feel bad for
being a sort of part to Hiroto's plan. Then once the train started moving he
just laughed a little and reached forward to hold Aki's shoulder in his strong
grip again. "It's going to be alright." He said with a smile.
The train started moving faster and faster after each slope becoming bigger and
Hiroto looked to the side to see that Aki was enjoying himself. Their train
disappeared behind the mountain. "Any moment now!" "What!?" Aki shouted back at
him, too overwhelmed to think anything of it until the train suddenly went
straight up and then they were upside down and not anymore and Aki's brain
couldn't register what had just happened. He almost thought they'd crashed but
they were still on the track, the train slowing down. "What-! Wha-! WHAT JUST
HAPPENED!?" Hiroto smirked. "That, Nii-san, was a loop."
Kai was laughing even as he continued to enjoy the ride. Oh it was too easy and
Aki hadn't even been that scared. Him and Hiroto were lucky. For the moment.
Kai had no doubts in his mind that Aki would going to pummel one or both of
them when the train finally stopped and they got off.
Aki stumbled off the train, Hiroto steadily following. Then the older one
braced himself against a fence and looked at his little brother, who was
blinking innocently at him. "You- You tricked me!!! That's a horrible joke you
know!!! That was- That was-" "Quite awesome?" Hiroto finished the sentence. And
as Aki looked at his smiling face he couldn't help but start to laugh. "Ok, it
was awesome."
Kai was glad that when he got off the train after the brothers that the two
weren't fighting and it made him smile to think that Aki enjoyed his first
roller coaster. "Now will you join us for others?" He grinned, looking over Aki
with an expectant expression. Maybe all three of them could ride some more
together if Aki agreed to it.
"Alright... but only the one's that aren't too scary." Hiroto slapped Aki's arm
and giggled. "Nii-san, you're still a coward."
As the day slowly slipped past, the darkness begun to set in. And after they
had dinner and rested for a small hour, they'd entered a new area of the park.
Aki smirked and pointed at a large creepy looking house. "They have a haunted
house! Let's go there!" For the first time that day, Hiroto felt reluctant to
go into an attraction. "Do we really have to?"
The progression of the day had really taken its toll on Kai as he was a lot
happier than he had been in a very long time. There was a bright smile on his
lips and a slight bounce to his step as he walked right beside Hiroto. The idea
of a haunted house at night really didn't bother him, but seeing Hiroto was a
little frightened he gave him a comforting smile. "You can hold onto me if you
want to Hiroto-kun. I don't mind." It was obvious he wanted Hiroto to go inside
the haunted house with him and Aki. He didn't want to leave him outside all on
his own.
Hiroto put his hands to his sides. "I'm not scared!" He tried to think of a
reason why he wouldn't have to go into the house. "I just... don't feel like
going on gentle rides right now." In reality, he was terrified. He hated things
with ghosts, vampires, zombies or anything of that creepy stuff.
Raising an eyebrow, Kai obviously didn't believe him, but instead of pushing
the issue he looked over at Aki. "Would you mind going in there alone? I'll sit
out here with Hiroto-kun." He wanted to go inside the haunted house, but he was
too fearful something might happen to Hiroto if he was left alone.
Hiroto looked at Kai, feeling a bit guilty now. "You go. I'll just wait here,
no problem." He actually didn't want to be left alone either, but he didn't
want to ruin anyone's fun. Aki looked at his little brother. "Just go with us,
it's no big deal, or are you scared?" Hiroto puffed his cheeks again, he didn't
like to be called scared. "No! Fine! I'll go with you, just to prove I'm not
scared!"
Kai was about to protest leaving Hiroto alone when Aki piped up and managed to
get the pre-teen to come with them. It made him laugh at how adorable Hiroto
looked in that instant with his cheeks all puffed out in a display of offence.
To Kai he thought it made Hiroto look like a kitten with its fur fluffed up.
"Well then let's go!" Kai grinned, enthusiastically heading towards the
entrance of the haunted house.
***** Chapter 4 *****
Hiroto walked after them, clutching himself onto Aki's arm like a leech and not
letting go any time soon. Aki just petted his little brother on the head, not
wanting to tease him further. The line wasn't long, more and more families with
kids had gone home and only adults and teens were left in the park.
Kai was the first to enter the place, his eyes taking in the spooky appearance
of the dark. There were neon greens and reds all around and as he continued to
walk--all hairs on his arms and the back of his neck on end--he ended up
running into a fake spider's web and triggering a giant fake spider jumping out
from the darkness. He almost screamed but managed to catch himself just in
time.
Aki and Hiroto followed close behind him and as the spider jumped out, Hiroto
let out a shriek, clutching closer to Aki's side. "I don't like this." They
walked along and Hiroto used Kai as a kind of defense, having him walk before
them. But it wasn't long until a fake dead and mingled body came crashing from
the roof just after Kai had passed. "Kyaaa!!!" Hiroto let go of Aki's arm and
ducked running past the body, bumping into several people, water suddenly
sprayed at his face. He turned and run until he didn't know where he was
anymore. He sunk to the ground and pulled his knees to himself. "A-Aki-san!?
... Kai-kun!?"
Kai was alarmed when he saw Hiroto go dashing past. His eyes widened and
suddenly he was scared for an entirely different reason. Instantly he took off
after Hiroto and when he heard the scared scream he ran even faster,
apologizing to people he ran into. His heart raced as he couldn't find the
younger at first, but after a few minutes he managed to locate him. With a
relieved sigh he raced to his side and knelt beside him, drawing him into an
embrace and just holding him. "It's alright, Hiroto. I'm here now." He said
softly, rubbing Hiroto's back to try and calm him down.
Hiroto started crying into the other man's shoulder his hands holding to Kai's
shirt like a lifeline. "K-Kai-kun... I'm scared." He hoped the other wouldn't
take advantage of this situation later.
"Shh, I know." Kai murmured, his heart thudding in his chest as he tried to
think up the quickest way out of here. His arms held Hiroto as close as he
could, doing his best to calm the pre-teen. As someone passed them he asked how
close this was to the exit and they said it was not far. "Hiroto, here, hold
onto me and I'll carry you to the exit, okay?"
Hiroto nodded into Kai's neck, wrapping his arms around it tightly. "Thanks..."
He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to pretend he wasn't in the scary house, but
at home safely.. safely in Kai's arms.
Kai easily picked Hiroto up and wrapped Hiroto's legs around his waist for
leverage. "Hold on tight, Hiroto-kun." Kai murmured, heading towards the exit.
None of the things in the house scared him anymore because his focus was
completely upon the pre-teen in his arms as he carried him outside and to the
bench across from the haunted house. Setting him down gently on the bench, Kai
looked at him with concern. "Are you alright now?"
Hiroto sighed as he was put down. He wiped at his eyes with the sleeve of his
vest and nodded. "I'm ok... Wh-where is Nii-san?" The blonde looked around in
slight panic, but luckily, he saw his brother running towards the bench.
Kai turned and saw as Aki was heading toward them. The elder was relieved
because maybe they could all just forget about this incident that still had his
heart thudding in his chest. "Let's not do that again anytime soon." Kai spoke
to Aki, looking him dead in the eyes.
"No, you're right." Aki agreed. He kneeled down in front of his little brother.
"Are you ok little brother?" Hiroto nodded at Aki, glad that he was concerned
and not making fun of him. "Let's do something fun now..."
Kai nodded his head and looked around. "How about the laser show? It starts in
about fifteen minutes and I've heard it's really nice to watch." Kai suggested
with a light smile, his gaze moving back over to rest on the pre-teen upon the
bench.
Hiroto smiled at the idea. "Ok, sounds like fun." Aki nodded with a smile.
"Let's go then." He started walking. Hiroto stood up and took hold of his
rescuer's arm, still a bit jumpy and scared.
Kai followed after them and then when he was held onto Kai could only smile
down at Hiroto comfortingly. He didn't want the pre-teen to be scared, so he
did his best to hold onto him and make him feel safe. Or at least be there for
Hiroto to hold onto.
They weren't the first to arrive at the site where the laser show would take
place, but they would be able to see it perfectly. Aki smiled back at Hiroto
and Kai, finding it endearing how his little brother had grown attached to his
friend in seemingly such a short time. "So... what are we gonna do after this?
I was thinking about the love boats~" Hiroto giggled. "That's so cheesy Nii-
chan."
Kai laughed a little at Aki's suggestion. "The love boats? In case you haven't
noticed we're all single." He chuckled, only briefly looking down at Hiroto
before he glanced back up at the younger man. "But if you want to I guess we
all could fit on a boat together."
Aki smirked, since he'd all had it planned out. "I'll ask that pretty girl over
there, and the two of you can share one too." Of course Aki didn't know what
had surpassed the night before, but he just wanted to get rid of them briefly
so he could flirt around with the girl. "What!? you're ditching us!"
Kai was pretty much unsurprised at Aki's choice of what he was going to do. It
was not unlike his friend to ditch him when it came to a pretty girl, but it
wasn't like Kai was bothered by it. In fact, he chuckled and shook his head in
response. "Fine then, but don't come crying to us when she rejects you."
"Oh she won't..." Aki replied with a grin, his eyes fixed on his victim. He
walked off, and Hiroto rolled his eyes and smiled up at Kai, before turning his
attention to the show, which was just starting.
Kai just chuckled and smiled down at Hiroto in return before his gaze was drawn
to the show as well. He was entranced by the many shapes and figures that the
lasers made in the sky, and it made him smile, once more feeling like he was a
kid again.
Hiroto was absolutely amazed at the beautiful display of hues and lights. It
made him feel happy, like all his worries were absorbed by the lights. When it
was over, he sighed happily. He looked over at Aki and giggled; his brother had
wrapped his arms around the girl's waist and she was melting against him. When
Aki noticed Hiroto was looking at him, he winked playfully and mentioned for
him and Kai to follow them to the love boats. Hiroto took Kai's hand. "Let's
get going ne?" He said with a shy smile
The show was awe-inspiring and Kai had had trouble looking away at any one
moment. The lights had danced across the sky so perfectly and had successfully
enthralled his mind. He was almost a little disappointed when they were over,
but remembering Aki he turned his attention to him and the girl and rolled his
eyes. "Such a ladies' man." Kai chuckled, though nodded at Hiroto's words, a
light blush tingeing his cheeks despite knowing that there was nothing to the
two of them going on the boats together other than neither having a date.
Hiroto pulled Kai with him, skipping ahead together and passing Aki and his new
toy. He always liked fun fairs at night, but entertainment parks were even more
beautiful with the lights sparkling everywhere and without the disturbing
music.
Following right along with Hiroto, Kai fell into thought, his gaze wandering
every now and again to Hiroto. It haunted him how their ages were so different
and by law they couldn't be together until another five years had passed. That
is, if Hiroto was even interested in him at all. Was he? Kai's mind nagged at
him that Hiroto never would or could be, but he still had a small hope after
that kiss that Hiroto might have at least some affections for him.
They stood in line for about 10 minutes before it was their turn. The guy who
helped them looked at them weirdly as they got into the boat, and his stare
made Hiroto's cheeks flush a deep red. He looked back and saw Aki behind them,
who grinned at him. It made him blush even more, even though he knew there was
nothing behind Aki's look, except his thoughts about the girl next to him.
The look the guy gave them made Kai increasingly nervous, so he did his best to
look away when the man helped them into the boat. His fingers tapped nervously
on the side of the boat and he did his best to keep his attention elsewhere.
There was no mistaking he was a little frightened. "Think Aki will bring that
girl home?" Kai asked, looking over at Hiroto and trying to think of something
other than the guy looking at them oddly.
Hiroto imagined what would happen if Aki would indeed bring the girl home and
grimaced. "He'd better not... or else I don't want to sleep at home tonight."
He'd heard those sounds coming from Aki's bedroom more than once and wasn't
exactly eager to hear them again. Apparently, Aki didn't know the walls weren't
too sound proof... or he just didn't care.
"You can stay at my place if he does. I honestly don't think he'd care about
anything more than bedding her if he did." Kai suggested, leaning back in his
seat when the boat started moving and going down the little stream thingy the
boats were meant to float on. His gaze fell down to the water and he couldn't
resist reaching down out of the boat to touch it and drag his long fingers in
it. Much like a child having to touch every toy in the store.
"Really? Th-thanks..." Hiroto felt really nervous about the idea of sleeping at
Kai's house, not only because of what he was feeling, but also because it'd
probably will cause him sleeping problems again. But even so, he didn't feel
completely opposed by the thought. Hiroto looked around at the pretty candles
that were all over the hall the boat floated through. He couldn't deny it was
romantic.
Kai smiled at the thanks even though he could tell Hiroto was nervous. It had
probably been a foolish thing to offer, but he didn't care since his only
reasoning was to help Hiroto out if Aki indeed decided he wanted to bring the
girl home. Just the thought of himself being subject to the sounds Kai almost
vomited his dinner back up. Then again, he wasn't straight so that might have
played into his feelings a bit.
Hiroto couldn't exactly get a grip on what was making him scoot closer to Kai
and slowly placing his head against Kai's shoulder. His own actions embarrassed
him and confused him, but he couldn't help them. "It's beautiful isn't it?"
Kai was startled at Hiroto's sudden movement, but then chalked it up to the
fact the pre-teen was tired. "Mm, it is. Very nice scenery." Kai replied
softly, leaning back in his seat once more, content for now. The candles made
the tunnel practically glow and it made him smile.
Slowly there were less candles and the tunnel became darker and darker, until
suddenly hundreds of tiny lights in the ceiling lit up like a starry sky and at
the end of the straight part of the 'river' a large, real looking moon
appeared. Everything was so perfect. The setting, the atmosphere, their
closeness. Hiroto blushed and bit his lip as he moved his hand slowly to cover
Kai's. He didn't know what was happening to him, what he was doing, why he was
doing it, or why he didn't care about all the questions, but he just went with
everything his body decided to do.
Kai looked over the vast expanse of stars and then at the moon. He thought the
exact same thing as Hiroto did--that the setting was so perfect. Too bad he
couldn't--wouldn't--do anything. Sighing inaudibly, Kai turned his attention on
the water once more until he felt a very timid hand enclose over his. The older
almost jumped, but he kept himself composed as he turned and looked at Hiroto's
hand over his, then at Hiroto himself. His gaze caught Hiroto's and he couldn't
help himself. He knew he was going to go to hell, but Kai found himself leaning
in and pressing his lips to the pre-teen's, his heart fluttering in his chest
just like it had done so in the car.
Hiroto gasped as he wasn't expecting this, but he closed his eyes slowly,
feeling a warm fire erupt through his whole body. Was this what it felt like to
fall in love? He pressed his lips against Kai's harder, wanting to be absorbed
by the other.
Kai made a small noise when Hiroto pressed his lips to his even harder, but he
wasn't protesting. Hiroto was actually responding...it was surreal to Kai.
Though he would have been lying if he would have said he didn't love it.
Carefully he allowed Hiroto to take over the kiss, do as he wanted. Kai was
typically dominant, but he wouldn't be that way over Hiroto. Too much he wanted
to do and too much he could get in trouble for.
Only encouraged by the sound, Hiroto darted his tongue out over Kai's lower
lip. He made a pleading noise. This was so different than the one other time
he'd kissed someone. The girl nearly hadn't responded to his ministrations,
making him wonder if he wasn't doing things right. But with Kai, he felt
confident, it felt like heaven.
Surprised by the eagerness, Kai opened his mouth a little too quickly when
Hiroto darted his tongue across his bottom lip. His eyes then slid shut and he
could feel heat encompassing his entire body. There was pure elation running
through his body, and it made all thoughts of nervousness fade.
With a shy movement of his tongue, Hiroto tried coaxing Kai into more action.
He moved his hand thoughtlessly over Kai's thigh, acting more on instinct than
anything else.
Kai's leg jerked a bit at the touch, but he didn't protest and instead
hesitantly twined his tongue with Hiroto's. The slick muscle trailed over the
pre-teen's and then darted into his mouth, tasting the sweetness that was
purely Hiroto.
Hiroto moved the hand with which he'd been supporting himself up to Kai's neck,
leaning onto the older man. He started pulling him back, wanting to feel his
warm body against his own again. He'd craved for it since last night.
Kai did as Hiroto wanted and leaned closer until their chests were touching one
another, making Kai let out another small sound that betrayed how much he was
loving this. Too bad they would have to part whenever the ride stopped.
"Hiroto..." Kai breathed against the pre-teen's mouth, wanting--no, needing
Hiroto's lips against his own.
Hiroto opened his eyes at the mention of his name. His blush intensified by the
now pink light coming from he didn't care what. All he heard was his own ragged
breathing and his- no Kai's heartbeat- maybe it was both. He started placing
short kisses on Kai's mouth, his eyes still fixated on Kai's.
Kai's eyes fluttered open as well when he could feel Hiroto's lips kissing his
mouth, around his own lips. It was both sweet and affectionate in the same
moment and how Kai's love for Hiroto burned in response. He could feel it in
his chest as his eyes stared back at Hiroto's. Did he dare say it?
"Hiroto...I....I love you." Once it escaped his lips Kai just prayed Hiroto
would not react in a bad way.
Hiroto stopped his kisses at the confession. He could feel his chest
tightening, pressing all the air out of his lungs and constricting around his
heart. He couldn't say it. Not if he wasn't sure. And he felt so guilty towards
Kai. He just pressed his lips against the older man's again, trying to get him
to understand, even if he didn't understand it all himself.
It didn't surprise Kai that Hiroto said nothing in response, but he could feel
tears pricking his eyes regardless. Not that he blamed Hiroto, but rather he
blamed himself. He should have known better than to say it. The kiss was a
welcome distraction and he shut his eyes against the tears, trying to convey to
Hiroto that it was alright he didn't respond and that Kai could understand.
Hiroto didn't stop his heated kisses until a distant voice distracted him. It
became clearer, and he pulled away as he realized it was the guy who was
supposed to help them out of the boat. He swallowed nervously and pecked Kai on
the lips once more quickly, before grabbing the guy's hand and stepping out of
the boat.
Kai was at a loss as to what to say when they were found kissing at the end of
the ride. Hopefully the darkness had concealed them more because he was sure
that the man would be calling the cops otherwise. Thankfully he watched Hiroto
climb out with the man's help and then he climbed out without letting the man's
hand touch his. He didn't feel like the man scrutinizing him. Without a single
word he walked over and sat down on a bench to wait for Aki and the girl to
finish up. Tears were still there, threatening to fall, but Kai held them back
with all his willpower. He'd let them fall when he was on his own and not
watching after Hiroto.
Hiroto sat down next to Kai, hating the fact he couldn't scoot closer. "I'm
sorry." The words passed his lips before he could think them through. He
resisted the urge of slapping himself because his words could be taken wrong
easily. He hadn't meant he was sorry for the kisses. He'd meant he was sorry he
hadn't responded to his confession.
Kai wasn't quite sure what Hiroto was apologizing for at first--the kisses or
not responding to his confession--but before he could think long on it or reply
and ask what Hiroto had meant, Aki was walking up to them with his arm firmly
around the girl's waist. They both looked thoroughly kissed and Kai felt
thoroughly disgusted, therefore he just looked away.
Aki looked at them with a smug face. "So... would you mind Saika joining us?"
The thought of being stuck with Kai the whole of the evening left made him both
excited as well as kind of nauseous. He wanted to be with him, but he wasn't
stupid. He knew everyone would look at them like trash. Knew he'd risk Kai's
freedom. And on top of that, he couldn't get a grip on his own feelings. "N-no
problem."
Kai shook his head and stood up. "How much longer are we staying?" He took hold
of his cell phone from in his pocket and looked at the time. It was already
past eight thirty and he knew the park would be closing soon. Though he wasn't
sure if he liked that or not. "The park closes in an hour and a half."
Aki shrugged. "If it depends on me, not too long." But Hiroto protested. "I
want to ride the black rollercoaster once more in the dark!"
Kai looked over at Hiroto and then to Aki. "You guys can head to the car then.
Hiroto and I will ride the rollercoaster and then head out there too, okay?" He
questioned, thinking a rollercoaster might be a good idea at this point in time
as it would get his mind off things.
Aki smiled. " that's a good idea, stick together you two." Then he turned
around. "Let's go, Saika-chan. Are you sure you want to come home with us?" The
girl nodded and Hiroto groaned, hoping neither of the two would hear him. Now
he was even more apprehensive to go to Kai's house, since he didn't seem to be
able to keep his hands- and tongue- to himself. But he surely didn't want to be
at home.
Nodding at Aki and Saika's retreating backs, Kai took a glance at Hiroto and
gave him a small smile, hoping to show him he wasn't mad. Then he placed a hand
in the small of Hiroto's back to lead him to the rollercoaster that the pre-
teen eagerly wanted to get on once more before they left.
This was what Hiroto had wanted to see. As they rose higher and higher, his
legs dangling off the seat, the lights visible were increasing in numbers. It
took his breath away. He swung his legs; he always loved floorless roller
coasters because it made him feel free. "Wow... unbelievable."
Kai swung his legs as the rollercoaster got higher and higher, his gaze
following the trail of lights on the sides of the machine as they started
moving. A smile erupted across his lips at the speed of the coaster and how it
whipped his dark brown hair around and against his face. It was truly a joy to
be here with Hiroto and enjoying such a fun amusement park.
Hiroto erupted in giggles and laughs as adrenaline thrummed in his veins,
seeming to tickle him. He kept his eyes open the entire time, seeing the lights
revolve around and flash by. Suddenly they were above him and then beneath him
again. He wished he could feel like this forever.
The rollercoaster took his stomach and made it do flip-flops, sending such an
incredible feel shooting through Kai. He absolutely loved it and knew he'd
never get tired of it. That was why he was more than a little disappointed when
the coaster came to an end and they were ushered off. "I almost don't want to
go to the car." Kai mumbled, knowing Hiroto would understand what he meant.
Hiroto giggled. "Almost?" He was a little dizzy and nearly fell over Kai, but
he just giggled again. "I'd almost take the bus!" He steadied himself on Kai's
shoulder, before daring to walk on his own.
Kai laughed a bit and helped Hiroto get his footing once more. "We should take
the bus and tell your brother we don't want to see him naked." Kai shuddered at
the thought. "But, he wouldn't let us, so let's go and get this over with." A
sigh and he was starting for the parking lot, keeping Hiroto right by his side
in an almost protective manner.
When they'd arrived at the car, it was no surprise that Aki had Saika pressed
against the car and was ravishing her neck. Hiroto tried to ignore them and
walked over to the door. "Time's up Romeo, let's head for home. And if you
don't mind, I'll be sleeping at Kai's place tonight, since you two are clearly
planning something I don't want to hear."
Kai faked a gagging noise--or it could have been real, no one would know--and
climbed into the backseat so that Saika could sit up front with Aki. "Yeah,
we'll grab my stuff and Hiroto some stuff from the house and I'll drive him to
my place with my car." He had parked it at Aki's place when he'd came over the
night before.
Aki didn't protest too much since he trusted his friend and it was kind of
handy to have his little brother out of the way. So everything went as planned.
Hiroto showed his full bag to Kai. "I'm ready!"
Kai had been packing up his own bag as well and nodded to Hiroto when the
younger said he was ready. "Go and toss it in my car and I'll be there in just
a sec." Kai replied, going about making sure he had all of his things.
"Ok!" Hiroto walked over to the car and seated himself in the passenger seat,
fastening his seatbelt. He was really nervous. He knew something was going to
happen. And he wasn't afraid of it... but of what would come after.
Once he had all his things, Kai grabbed his bag and headed out to his car as
well. He tossed the bag in the back before climbing in and starting the car up.
Like Hiroto, he was nervous as he wasn't sure what was going to happen once
they got to his place.
The entire ride Hiroto was silent, just thinking. His thoughts raced. 'I want
him- he's too old- I can't- I don't know- fuck. Do I love him? I care for him
at least. I don't know. I just don't know. What if something will happen?
Something will happen. and what next? what should I tell- I can't tell anybody.
Oh fuck this is bad.'
Kai's gaze was fixated out at the road the entire ride and his hands gripped
the steering wheel in almost a death grip. He was nervous and completely unsure
about this. Maybe he should have just stayed at Aki's house with Hiroto instead
of bringing him over to his place. Once they arrived at his home, Kai shakily
undid his seatbelt and turned off his car, stepping out a moment later and
grabbing both his bag and Hiroto's. "Well, we're here." As if that wasn't
already obvious.
Hiroto felt the tension between them. The air was so thick he could almost
grasp it. It was dangerous. So dangerous. It was like he was standing on an
edge, about to fall off. And he liked it. He liked how wrong it all felt, how
it excited him. He got out of the car and walked around it, up to the door.
Kai watched Hiroto go up to the door and followed right behind him before he
unlocked the door and allowed them both entry into his apartment. It wasn't
that big of a place and Kai almost felt sheepish for how out of place a few
things were--nothing big, but Kai was by nature a neat freak and liked to keep
his home clean. "Just make yourself at home....The guest bedroom is down the
hall." He murmured, flicking on the living room light as he entered. "Do you
want a snack before bed?"
'I want you- wait, why am I thinking like this? I'm not supposed to.' "No,
thanks... I'm fine. I'll go... put away my bag." He walked over to where Kai
had instructed the guest room to be and threw his bag to the ground before
returning to the living room.
Kai nodded and went to toss his dirty clothes from his bag--and the ones he was
wearing--into the washer and turn it on. There was no waiting to have a lot of
dirty clothes with Kai. He would wash his clothes whenever he'd dirty them no
matter the fact he used a lot of water and his water bill would climb. He was
nude as he made his way back to his bedroom and once inside he slipped on some
boxers and a tank top before walking back out into the living room. "So, um,
was there anything you wanted to do before we called it a night?" He asked
hesitantly. He meant it in the way of watching a movie or playing a video game,
but the way it seemed like he asked it, made him a little embarrassed.
"I..." Hiroto wasn't sure what to do. He looked at the ground, feeling the
excitement build and gather around his heart. He looked Kai in the eyes and
stepped forward, pressing his lips to Kai's, his eyes slipping closed
immediately. If Kai wouldn't respond, he'd shrug it off like a good night kiss.
***** Chapter 5 *****
Kai wasn't sure what to do for a moment, but then when he got his bearings
about him he kissed Hiroto back, unsure where this was going to lead. It was
obvious Hiroto wasn't sure whether or not he loved him, and Kai didn't know how
well that would go over if something were to happen between them.
Hiroto felt his heart flutter as he felt Kai reacting. He shoved his tongue
into Kai's mouth and stepped closer, wrapping his arms around the taller man.
But suddenly he felt shyness rushing over him. What if it came down to- He
wouldn't know what to do. Sure, he'd kissed someone before, but he'd never
passed that level.
Kai wrapped his arms around Hiroto in return and just held him close while they
kissed. His nerves were really getting to him and he could feel them throughout
his entire body. He wanted Hiroto, yes, but he was afraid of the consequences.
If Hiroto ended up never liking him back then this would forever haunt
him....either in just his mind or Hiroto telling someone and getting him sent
to jail. It frightened him beyond belief, but the taste of Hiroto's lips was so
addicting he couldn't stop.
Hiroto felt scared, but so excited. He knew what sex was, but only in general
lines, and no one ever taught him how it went with two guys. He continued
lapping his tongue at Kai's his heart beating a million times a minute, and his
hands tightened in Kai's shirt. I want him. I love him. I know it. I'd want to
be with him, even if we're not allowed to.
Kai's tongue massaged Hiroto's own as he pushed it back into Hiroto's mouth so
Kai's tongue could follow and trail across every crevice in the younger's
mouth. His face was tinged with a light blush and when he felt those hands
tighten in his shirt he knew what Hiroto was thinking. Carefully, so as not to
startle the pre-teen, Kai reached down and rubbed at the crotch of Hiroto's
pants, wondering if Hiroto was getting aroused. "Do you want this...?" Kai
asked breathily as he pulled away from Hiroto's lips.
Hiroto felt his cock immediately jump into life at the touch. He released a
soft, surprised moan. "Y-yes..." He hated how weak his voice sounded, afraid
that it might not convince Kai. He opened his eyes and looked into Kai's eyes,
hoping the older couldn't read his own, since he was quite scared.
Kai could see the fear easily, almost feel it as it practically radiated from
Hiroto. "Hiroto if you want this don't worry. It'll be fine." Kai assured
softly, stopping his ministrations on Hiroto's crotch to kiss him softly. "You
know I wouldn't hurt you." He knew this was wrong, coaxing Hiroto into such a
thing at such a young age, but since he wanted it who was Kai to deny him?
"I know..." He looked away. "I'm sorry if I'll do stupid things..." He wasn't
sure if Kai got what he'd meant. But he was also terrified to do something
wrong and make Kai angry at him. He felt ashamed for his ignorance.
Kai knelt before him and cupped Hiroto's cheeks tenderly. "You won't. Don't
apologize, okay?" He tried to give Hiroto a comforting smile, hoping to ease
his nervousness. "Just let me take the lead and everything will be alright."
Hiroto nodded and looked Kai in the eyes again, a blush on his cheeks.
"Shouldn't we... move to the bedroom?" He trailed off, a bit unsure.
Kai blushed a bit himself and nodded, standing back up and taking Hiroto's hand
as he led him to the bedroom. Either this was going to be the greatest night of
their lives or the worst. Kai surely hoped it would be the former. "If you want
you can go ahead and get undressed...I'll do the same." It felt kind of awkward
to Kai, but he knew it probably felt ten times worse for Hiroto.
Hiroto's eyes widened as Kai told him what he had to do. He knew their clothes
had to come off sooner or later, but he hadn't expected it that soon. "I'd
rather have... you do it." He looked at Kai with shame in his eyes. He felt
would be easier for him if Kai did it, but he didn't know exactly why.
Kai turned and looked back at Hiroto when he heard the words leave his lips.
The shame burning in Hiroto's eyes cut through Kai like a knife and he felt so
guilty. Even more now than he had before, but he said nothing. He didn't want
Hiroto thinking he had no say so in this because he did. He had the ultimate
say so, even above Kai himself. "Alright." Kai murmured as he walked over and
knelt before the younger. Timidly he reached for the hem of Hiroto's shirt and
tugged a little on it, wanting to see if it was alright.
Hiroto's blush deepened as he raised his arms for Kai to take of his shirt. He
kept his gaze now on anything but the man undressing him, feeling too shy to be
able to handle it. But no matter how uncomfortable he felt, he knew he'd feel
so much worse if Kai would stop.
Kai bit his lip as he pulled off Hiroto's shirt, and then noticed just how
uncomfortable Hiroto would probably be as the first to be completely nude.
"Would it help if I got naked first?" Kai asked, his cheeks turning a deep red
at the question as he looked for Hiroto's eyes to meet with his again.
Hiroto's heart jumped at the thought; he wanted Kai so badly, the thought of
seeing him naked sounded really good to him. "I guess so..." Hiroto shifted
slightly and wondered for a moment if it was ok for him to sit down on the bed.
Nodding, Kai stood back up and swallowed hard, slightly embarrassed about doing
this. It was so wrong. So taboo. But...he loved it and he couldn't deny it.
Carefully he slipped his arms out of his tank top and pulled it over his head,
letting it drop to the floor a moment later. Then he reached for the hem of his
boxers and slowly--though not purposefully slow--tugged them off past his hips.
He kicked them over to where his tank top was and just stood there, looking at
the floor, for once unsure what to do next. "Is this alright?" He asked Hiroto
softly, looking up at him with a blush still painting his features.
Hiroto's breath quickened, and by the time Kai was naked, he was panting. He
squirmed uneasily with his growing arousal. "Yes... I- I'm ready- I mean you
can-" He just shut his mouth and hoped Kai would get it over with quickly.
Kai could tell that him being naked was truly affecting Hiroto, so his nerves
eased up a bit as he knelt down to start undoing Hiroto's pants slowly and
carefully so Hiroto could pull away if he really wanted to. He wasn't going to
force the younger into anything he didn't want to do.
Hiroto closed his eyes, swallowing as a shiver ran down his spine. He'd never
imagined this to happen only two days ago. It seemed ridiculous, yet so
logical. His mind spun and he felt like he was on a roller coaster all over
again. Feeling so great, but also scared and everything just blending into one
amazing feeling.
Seeing that Hiroto didn't plan on making him stop, Kai finished undoing and
pulling down Hiroto's pants and boxers, leaving him as nude as Kai himself was.
The older looked at Hiroto's arousal with an interested gaze and figured he
should grant Hiroto as much pleasure as he could before taking any himself.
After all this was probably Hiroto's first time. With men or women. Carefully
he reached out and fisted the flesh, trying to bring the younger to full
erection. "If you ever want to...just tell me to stop."
Hiroto moaned a little louder, though a bit ashamed to make such sounds. "I- I
want... to lie down." He felt his knees become wobbly, his legs almost turning
into puddles of goo as the amazing feelings erupted across his body.
Kai nodded his head and released Hiroto's arousal for a moment, helping the
younger to the bed so that he could lie down. Once Hiroto was situated, Kai
slowly got up on the bed and crawled above him. His heart was beating a mile a
minute, eyes glued to the form below him. "You're so beautiful, Hiroto." Kai
murmured softly, kissing at the pre-teen's neck while reaching down to continue
fisting his length.
Hiroto lay down on the bed, shifting slightly from nerves. He blushed at the
compliment, suddenly feeling much more exposed. He let his head fall back and
drowned in the doubled sensations. His inexperience making him very sensitive
at every touch granted to him. He didn't dare take action himself yet, too
afraid to do something wrong and break the mood.
Kai could see how fearful Hiroto was of touching him, so he sought to make him
at ease. "You can touch me, Hiroto. It's alright." He murmured gently, pulling
back his head to be able to look the younger directly in the eyes. A comforting
smile was on his lips as well as a bit of worry etched into his expression, but
the worry was only to be expected. He wanted Hiroto to feel good for his first
time, and possibly want more in the future. Maybe not from him--as much as he
hated thinking of Hiroto with anyone else--but from another guy possibly.
Hiroto bit his lip as he looked back into Kai's eyes. "Ok... I'm sorry. Don't
stop... please." Hiroto reached a trembling hand up to Kai's chest, his fingers
hesitantly brushing over the skin. His breath sped up again. He couldn't
believe how exciting this was. How hot everything was.
Nodding his head, Kai increased the pressure a bit on Hiroto's cock, trying to
make him feel even more pleasure than he already was. The hesitant, shaking
hand on his chest made Kai smile even more and carefully he leaned forward to
press a kiss to Hiroto's lips. "You're doing fine." He murmured against the
other's lips in wanting to install more confidence in the pre-teen.
Hiroto moved his hands up, circling Kai's nipples. He squeezed his eyes shut
for a second, the pleasure Kai was giving him distracting him. "Ah-ng" He was
still trying to hold back his moans, too embarrassed to hear himself like that.
He kissed Kai back, his hand stilling, not able to do all these things at once.
Not thinking, Kai pushed his chest forward, in wanting to feel Hiroto touch his
nipples. It was a sensitive place for him and he loved to be touched there.
Instead of saying anything more, however, he just broke the kiss to start
kissing at Hiroto's neck again, loving the feel of the tender flesh beneath his
lips.
Hiroto rubbed his thighs together in pleasure, his hand going to work on Kai's
nipples again. "Kai... ah..." With his other hand he grabbed the bed sheets
beneath him. An aroused blush painted his face and torso, a slight sheen of
sweat covering his body. He decided he wanted to give Kai some pleasure too, so
he took the other's chin, forcing his head back up, and leaned upwards. He
placed small wet kisses on Kai's neck, really enjoying the taste of the other's
salty skin. Sucking softly on a spot, he wrapped his arms around Kai's waist,
moaning against his skin.
Kai moaned out when he felt Hiroto touch his nipples, his eyes sliding shut as
he had to resist biting on the younger's neck to keep from making louder
sounds. "H-Hiroto..." He gasped out, only to moan at the attention soon given
to his neck. The older man's body was instantly responsive and he rubbed
Hiroto's length even faster, ignoring the throbbing erection between his own
legs. How Hiroto knew just what to do, Kai wasn't sure, but there was no doubt
that he was enjoying what he was doing. He allowed himself to enjoy the
ministrations for only a minute or two before he was pulling away completely
and backing up on the bed. "You'll love this." He breathed out, parting
Hiroto's thighs so he could fit between them before he bent down and took the
younger's erection into his mouth, suckling it softly to make Hiroto writhe
with pleasure.
Hiroto watched in slight surprise as Kai pulled away. "Did I do something wr-
aahhhnn!" His hips snapped upwards involuntarily, pushing himself deeper into
Kai's mouth. "Hnn... aahh! K-Kai!" His mind couldn't comprehend what he was
feeling, it just was amazing. Hot, wet and mind blowing. He tried with all his
might to keep his sounds down, but it was all just too much.
Hearing Hiroto's sounds triggered Kai's own sounds that were muffled against
Hiroto's length and giving a vibrating sensation. His hands held to Hiroto's
hips to keep him from bucking up too much--he still planned to allow Hiroto
some freedom of movement--and carefully suckled on the younger's erection. His
tongue pressed into the slit and gathered any pre-cum he could find before he
trailed it along the underside, eyes shut in evident pleasure of doing such a
dirty deed.
Hiroto was unable to do anything. Unable to keep his body from writhing, he and
couldn't make voluntary movements. Something had taken over his body and he
couldn't control it. "Aahhn! Ahh... Kai!" His hand fisted in the sheets again,
his toes curling, dangerously nearing the edge.
Kai continued to work at Hiroto's erection, wanting him to release into his
mouth. He wanted to taste the other's essence and feel it as it trailed down
his throat. He placed soft kisses down the expanse of Hiroto's length and
fisted it with a hand, eyes still closed even though he could detect Hiroto's
movements. It was making his own erection nearly unbearable, but he paid it no
mind whatsoever as he continued to work Hiroto's length.
"ahh... aahh!" Hiroto felt something, a heat gather in the pit of his stomach,
growing hotter with the second. Then it struck. The feeling he'd only woken up
to a few times. "ahh- aahhh!!!!" The fire exploded through his whole body,
making his vision go black and his whole body arch. The orgasm blowing through
his senses. And all he could do was scream, scream out his immense pleasure.
Kai instantly brought his mouth to the tip of Hiroto's length when he could
tell he was about to release. There was quite a bit of fluid that erupted from
Hiroto's length and Kai was mildly surprised at it for a moment as he tried
swallowing all of it, but then once it was over and he was sitting back to wipe
away the rest from the sides of his mouth he realized yet again that Hiroto had
never done this sort of thing before. It was only natural he have a lot pent
up. "Was that okay?" Kai asked, his voice a bit raspy from what he had been
doing.
Hiroto lay there, panting. Trying to make sense out of it all. But it didn't,
nothing made sense to his intoxicated brain. "Good... was good. K-Kai..." He
slowly opened his eyes, struggling to focus them. He felt content, euphoric,
and somehow his tiredness from the day had turned into energy.
Kai smiled at the younger and laid down beside him on the bed, giving Hiroto
time to catch his breath and revel in the post-orgasmic haze. "I'm glad." He
smiled, bending over to peck Hiroto's cheek affectionately. It delighted him
that Hiroto had enjoyed what he had done since that was more than likely the
pre-teen's first blowjob.
Suddenly Hiroto rolled over, hovering above Kai. He smiled down at him shyly.
"Th-thank you..." But as he thought of what he wanted to do, his nervousness
returned again. But he trusted himself to have remembered enough from Kai's
ministrations. So he buried his face in Kai's neck, trying not to blush, and
reached his hand down. He wrapped his hand around Kai's arousal and gave it a
few unsure strokes.
Kai kissed Hiroto's nose when he got on top of him, the younger thanking him.
"You're welcome." He murmured softly. There was no mistaking his surprise when
Hiroto started to stroke his erection, for his hips jerked upwards and he let
out a rather loud moan, hands instantly going to Hiroto's small shoulders and
gripping them. "Nn...Ahh..." Once again his eyes fluttered closed and he
concentrated on the feeling, hoping Hiroto would have the courage to continue.
Hiroto flushed a light pink at hearing Kai's voice like that, but he couldn't
say he disliked it. He continued fisting Kai's length, going a bit faster now.
He wanted to let Kai feel the same pleasure, but he was afraid to suck him.
Afraid of how it would taste, how it would feel. Afraid it wouldn't be
pleasant. So he just continued stroking him, remembering how particularly good
it felt when the other had touched the head, and mimicking those movements
seconds later.
Kai didn't seem to care that Hiroto was going to suck him because he was
writhing in pleasure just from the younger's hand around his length. His hips
bucked upwards continuously and he let out soft moans, louder ones when Hiroto
started stroking the head of his arousal. "H-Hiroto..." His head rolled back
onto the pillow and his hands fell to the sheets so he could grip something
tightly. "F-Feels good..." He wanted to encourage the other to continue instead
of the pre-teen getting fearful and pulling away.
Hiroto let out a moan himself as he felt his cock fill with blood again at what
he was doing and the sounds and sight of Kai beneath him. He wasn't sure if it
was a good thing so he blushed and slowed his movements. "Ngh- Kai...?"
Kai bit his lip and forced himself under control so he could look at Hiroto
again and see what he was questioning about. "Y-Yes?" He questioned, voice
shaky and breathy, evidence he was having a hard time keeping himself under
control.
Hiroto blushed; he didn't want to say it out loud. "I- I'm... " He couldn't
look Kai in the eyes, but flashed them down to his arousal, hoping Kai would
follow his gaze. "I- Is that a problem?"
Kai did indeed follow his gaze and was slightly surprised when he saw that
Hiroto was hard again. "N-No, it's not, Hiroto." Kai replied, "It's n-normal to
get hard more than once during sex." He assured the other, laying back on the
bed yet again. His erection was near painful by this point and he had to take
bit gulps of air to keep himself from rubbing it to relieve himself.
He looked back up at Kai's face. He saw how the other was breathing strangely.
"A-are you ok? Did I do something wrong?" His lower lip trembled as he felt
tears of fear prickling at his eyes. He was sure he'd done something that hurt
Kai.
Kai could have cursed aloud then, but at himself and not at Hiroto. "I'm f-
fine." He could tell Hiroto was fearful, scared he did something wrong. Forcing
himself, Kai sat up and pulled Hiroto to him. His arousal almost had him in
tears as well, but he willed them away. "You did nothing wrong, okay? J-
Just...could you...could you please continue what you were doing...? I-It kind
of...h-hurts." A blush painted his cheeks as he kissed away the traces of tears
in Hiroto's eyes.
Hiroto's eyes widened at Kai's words, before closing them as the corners of his
eyes were kissed. "Oh-ok..." He licked his dry lips and swallowed as he gently
pushed Kai back onto the bed. He now moved down his body, looking down at his
hand as he reached to touch Kai again. He wrapped his small hand around Kai's
length and traced a line over it with the side of his thumb at the same time,
experimenting what Kai would find pleasurable.
Kai moaned out when that hand was back and rubbing over his erection, easing
the pain. He arched into the touch, hips thrusting upwards as he wanted more.
"Nn...Hiroto...." He moaned low before biting his bottom lip hard enough for it
to bleed. "Ahhn..."
Hiroto squeezed the hard flesh in his hand lightly, liking the action, and
repeating it while going up and down. "I-is this okay?" His own arousal
throbbed between his legs, and it was starting to get kind of bothering
actually.
Kai cried out loudly in response, eagerly nodding his head at the question. "M-
More than okay..." He gasped out, eyes shutting as he was very close at this
point. Wouldn't take much to push him over that proverbial edge.
Hiroto felt encouraged at Kai's words. He had slowly become curious, seeing the
pearlescent liquid ooze out of Kai's length. Even though it terrified him, he
bent down, while still stroking him firmly and gave a lick to the tip.
A scream left Kai's lips then, showing his pleasure quite evidently. It was
quite easy to see that it had been awhile for him since he had been with
someone in this context. "H-Hiroto...d-do that again....please." He begged
softly.
Hiroto licked his lips; the taste hadn't been as strange as he'd expected it to
be. And he complied, licking a little firmer this time, the tip of his tongue
dipping into the slit at the tip of Kai's throbbing arousal.
That was all it took for Kai to cum, another scream passing his lips as his
essence erupted from the tip of his length. "Ahh!" His body arched backwards
until his back almost seemed like it was going to break. The feelings that
surged through his body couldn't be described for his pleasure was heightened
knowing Hiroto was the one who had willingly made him cum.
Hiroto squeezed his eyes closed, surprised as Kai's hot seed splattered onto
his face. When it was over, he opened his eyes and blinked. He moved his
fingers over his face and looked at the white fluid on them while he felt more
of it dripping down from his chin. Hesitantly, he brought one finger to his
mouth and sucked on it.
Kai was panting, trying to overcome his orgasm, when he opened his eyes just in
time to see Hiroto suckle one of his fingers into his mouth. Not only that but
his finger had had cum on it. "Could you be any sexier?" Kai laughed
breathlessly as he sat up and brought Hiroto's face towards his own by use of
the pre-teen's chin. Then he carefully started lapping away his own cum from
Hiroto's face, cleaning him almost like a cat.
Hiroto blushed at Kai's comment, and even more so when the other started
cleaning his face like that. He put a second finger into his mouth, deciding he
rather liked the taste. "Could I?"
Kai wasn't sure what he was asking, so he pulled away and looked at Hiroto
questioningly. "Could you what?" He asked softly, a small smile upon his lips
as he looked at the other.
When Hiroto finished cleaning his third finger he giggled. "I didn't know what
to answer to your former question." He looked down as he still felt his own
arousal throb between his legs. "K-Kai-kun... can we do something about that?"
Kai blushed a little and chuckled at his own stupidity. "I knew that." He said
in reply, smiling still. Then when the other's arousal was brought to his
attention once more, Kai nodded his head. "Lay back and I'll take care of it."
He replied softly, easing Hiroto back onto the sheets before starting to fist
his erection once more. "I'm not going to fuck you tonight, okay?" He said
softly, leaning over Hiroto's body to speak into his ear, "Your body is still
small, so I could really do damage. But...if you wanted to try it, I could use
my fingers."
Hiroto started writhing immediately under Kai's touch. He whined at the other's
words: he didn't like to be called small. But he also didn't want to be hurt.
"Ok..." He was just too curious about how it felt to be able to refuse. "Use
your fingers th-then."
It surprised Kai that Hiroto even wanted to try it, but instead of saying that
he just nodded and paused in what he was doing to reach over into the
nightstand. He pulled out a tube of lubricant and poured some onto three of his
fingers. "Just relax and take deep breaths alright?" Kai spoke up softly,
looking at Hiroto as he circled a finger around Hiroto's entrance.
Hiroto did as he was told, also spreading his legs a bit further. Hiroto drew a
quick breath as he felt the cold, slick finger pass over a place so intimate.
His heart was beating in his ears and he looked into Kai's eyes with a needy
expression.
Kai watched the expression pass over Hiroto's features and knew he was ready.
Carefully he stroked the outer ring and nervously started to push the finger
inside. The tightness that engulfed his finger made him almost rethink his
decision not to fuck Hiroto, but he knew better. It would likely end up in a
trip to the hospital because of their size difference if he were to fuck Hiroto
now. "Feel fine?" He asked softly.
Hiroto's eyes fluttered closed at the feeling of the invading digit. It was a
slightly uncomfortable feeling, at least until he failed to relax and clenched
around Kai's finger. He whimpered softly in pain, and tried his best to relax
again. When he succeeded, it already started feeling less uncomfortable and he
nodded. "I'm f-fine..."
Nodding, Kai pulled the digit out and then pushed it back in, crooking it
around to try and make any pain recede before he would even think of putting in
a second finger. As he continued with the first he reached his free hand out
and fisted Hiroto's erection, trying to elicit more pleasure from the pre-teen.
"Tell me if you want me to stop." He murmured.
As soon as the finger was back inside him again, he started feeling a little
better, the feeling of Kai's finger crooking surprisingly pleasurable to him.
But his pleasure heightened more as that hand was back on his length. "Hng-
aahhh! Don't! Don't stop..."
Encouraged by the response, Kai pulled out the one finger and then pushed in
two, going slow at first so as to help Hiroto adjust. His other hand never left
the other's arousal just in case Hiroto was feeling any pain stemming from his
entrance.
Hiroto gasped and whimpered as the second finger added to the pain. But the
feeling of his arousal being stroked overwhelmed it. "Aah- hnn- aahh!" He
wiggled his hips, causing Kai's fingers to move more, the feeling now again
becoming pleasurable.
Kai waited until the pain seemed to have subsided before he scissored those
fingers, doing his absolute best to try and find Hiroto's prostate. However,
the tight tunnel contracting around his fingers was really starting to become
distracting as he imagined it being his cock there instead of his fingers.
Fuck...
Hiroto's eyes shot open and he screamed as one of Kai's spread fingers touched
something inside of him that made the fire erupt through his body again. It
felt almost as if he'd had an orgasm, euphoria now taking a hold of his body.
Only he hadn't come, he was still hard, and Kai's fingers were still inside
him, stroking away.
There was a smile upon Kai's lips when he finally found that place of mercy
within Hiroto's warm body. "Feels good, hmm?" He asked, grinning at the pre-
teen as he stroked that spot again and again, doing his best to make Hiroto
feel the best he could.
"Aaahh! Yes! god- aaaah!" Hiroto felt like he couldn't handle much more; it was
the most intense and wonderful feeling he'd ever experienced, though he wasn't
sure what caused it. "So- so good!"
Kai continued to grin, now pulling those two fingers out to add the third. He
eased them in before starting to thrust at regular intervals, planning to
continue hitting Hiroto's prostate until he came.
"Ah! K-Kai!" It took only a few perfect thrusts, hitting that spot inside him
over and over, before Hiroto felt it again. He bit his lower lip, teeth digging
deeply into the skin, and thrust down on Kai's fingers hard. "KAI!!!!" The loud
scream ripped from his throat as he came all over himself, pulling at the bed
sheets so hard he nearly tore them.
Kai continued to thrust his fingers slowly inside of Hiroto to help him ride
out his orgasm, but once it was over he pulled them out and just smiled down at
the pre-teen on the bed. His lips sought out Hiroto's and he gave him a tender
kiss; one that expressed all emotions he was too fearful to speak of aloud.
Hiroto panted heavily, opening his eyes slightly when he felt Kai kissing him.
He smiled weakly. And he couldn't help the words escaping from his mouth. "I
love you too." He hoped Kai would understand that this was his belated reply to
the older one's confession to him.
Kai's eyes widened at the younger's words and he smiled brightly, feeling tears
of happiness gather in the corners of his eyes. "Thank you." He replied softly,
bending down to nuzzle his nose against Hiroto's in an affectionate gesture. "I
love you so much."
Hiroto smiled a little wider. A shiver ran down his spine. He wanted to ask for
a blanket but blushed as he realized that would get the sheets dirty. "Uhm...
should we... shower? I mean... I don't want to make things dirty..."
"We'll take one in the morning when I can change the sheets." Kai replied with
a light smile, kissing Hiroto on the forehead affectionately. "Let's just get
some sleep, ne?" Carefully he pulled down the covers from underneath them and
pulled them over both their bodies.
Hiroto ignored the sticky feeling as he snuggled closer to Kai. "Ok... good
night Kai-kun..." He wrapped an arm around the brunette's waist. He felt
himself drifting off into sleep soon, their activities really had worn him out.
Kai pulled Hiroto close to his body and held him as the younger drifted off to
sleep, nuzzling into Hiroto's hair with his nose. "Good night." He murmured,
smiling as he too drifted off to sleep rather quickly.
When Hiroto woke up, he felt an unusual warmth. It took him a while to remember
the former night and realise he was still sleeping in Kai's arms. He blushed a
little, but smiled and nuzzled into the older man's neck.
Kai mumbled in his sleep as he wasn't normally someone who woke up easily. No
light filtered through his blinds and usually it was only the sun that got him
up before noontime. "Mm...Hiroto-kun..." He mumbled in his sleep, a smile on
his lips.
Not able to resist, Hiroto placed a quick kiss on Kai's neck. Not able to
resist another one, and another. He continued trailing small kisses up and down
Kai's neck, sometimes travelling over his jaw.
Kai hummed at the attention, though acted like a child in squirming to try and
get away from something that could wake him up. It wasn't that he disliked the
kisses, but rather that his body just refused to wake up.
Hiroto giggled softly, and only pressed closer to his new... lover. That
thought excited Hiroto. He had a secret lover. He started kissing Kai's neck
again, now a little more open-mouthed.
Kai groaned and continued to squirm, oblivious in his sleep to the fact Hiroto
was kissing him. "Nn...five more minutes..." He grumbled, acting like a
stubborn child.
Hiroto chuckled against Kai's skin as he started to suck on it. When he
released the patch, he noticed it was a little red, but he didn't realise they
couldn't leave marks on each other. "C'mon... I'm feeling lonely."
Kai finally ended up waking up at those words and his eyes blinked open
blearily. "Mm...good-" A yawn cut him off and he put a hand over his mouth to
stifle it. "Morning." He finished with a light, sleepy smile.
Hiroto nuzzled Kai's neck again. "Good morning." He shifted upward a little and
placed a firm kiss on Kai's lips, just in case the other thought it had been a
dream.
Kai was startled for a moment, but then kissed back fervently. A smile was
still on his lips and he allowed his tongue to lazily trail across Hiroto's
bottom lip, asking entrance.
Hiroto opened his mouth instantly, his own tongue sneaking into Kai's mouth,
exploring the hot cavern. When he pulled back he smiled. "Let's go shower... I
feel sticky."
Kai kissed back a little sloppily, but only out of just having woke up. "Sounds
like a good idea, Hiroto-kun." Kai chuckled, kissing Hiroto's nose softly
before climbing out of bed and heading to the bathroom.
Hiroto threw back the sheets and followed. "Wait for me!" As he caught up with
him as he walked into the bathroom he grabbed Kai's hand, wanting to show the
other that sort of small affections.
Kai just chuckled and smiled softly to show that he loved all the little
affections that Hiroto was bestowing upon him. "You're too sweet for your own
good." Kai spoke up, smiling still as he lightly squeezed Hiroto's hand.
Hiroto smiled shyly. "Only with you..." He knew Kai had seen how he was around
Aki sometimes. He could really be a bratty little kid. But it was nice how Kai
made him feel mature. He stepped into the shower, pulling Kai with him.
Kai followed after him and bent down to kiss his cheek. It was amazing; he had
never thought in a million years he'd be with Hiroto right now. "Step back. The
water's usually cold when I first turn it on." Kai warned before switching on
the hot water, which was quite cold at first.
Hiroto stepped back so he was out of reach of the cold water, feeling with his
hand that it was indeed pretty cold. He waited for it to warm up and then
stepped under it, immediately starting to wash his own cum off of his belly.
Once the water was decently hot, Kai reached and turned on some cold to balance
it out and make it simply warm. Then he got under the spray and let it drip
down his body to rinse off his sweat and such from the night before.
When he was reasonably clean, he stepped closer to Kai, wrapping his arms
around his waist, and placing his head against his chest. "It's such a shame we
have to keep it secret... I'm sure Aki would be furious."
***** Chapter 6 *****
Kai smiled slightly as he stood from his seat and went to gather all the empty,
unclean dishes off the table to be washed. "Why don't you go and get a bath
while I wash the dishes, hmm?" The dark-haired man suggested as he started to
run warm water in the sink, pouring soap into it moments later so the suds
would have time to gather up and would be useful in cleaning the dirtied
dishes. Hands instantly found the rubber gloves he always used to keep his
hands from getting pruny and he slipped them on with ease.
Hiroto stood as well and smiled at Kai's words, nodding slightly. "Then will
you join me after you finish here?" He wanted to do things like taking a bath
with his lover while he could, knowing they didn't always have the luxury of
being at home with just the two of them. He stretched lightly and walked over
to the doorway, waiting for a confirmation from the other there.
Turning his head to face the youth, Kai nodded with that same smile touching
his lips. "Of course. I'll be in there in just a few minutes." Then he turned
back to his task and started to wash and rinse the dishes that were resting in
the warm, soapy water on one side of the sink. Thankfully there weren't too
many that needed to be cleaned since it had just been the two of them.
His smile widening, Hiroto nodded once again before sauntering over to the
bathroom and turning on the lights. He went over to the cabinet to fetch both
himself and Kai a towel and set them on the counter for later use. Then he
walked over to the bath and put the plug in the drain before turning on the
tap. He hummed softly, completely content with the way the evening had been
progressing until now. Really, having a brother who liked to go out was
convenient in these kind of situations.
As stated it took Kai very little time to finish with the task of dishes, and
soon he was putting them all back in their respective spots and shedding the
gloves to let them dry on the counter. With it all finished, Kai wasted no time
heading for the bathroom, shedding his shirt as he strode down the hallway.
Smiling softly, he entered the bathroom and saw the younger male already
settled in the warm water of the tub. "Looks nice." Chuckling, Kai felt little
embarrassment at shedding the rest of his clothing to slip into the water in
front of his young boyfriend. "Ah, it's a good temperature."
Hiroto had just settled into the bath when the older entered the room. He
blushed slightly at Kai's initial comment, but his embarrassment was quickly
forgotten when he moved over to the other in the bath and settled in between
his thighs, snuggling up to him contently.
Kai wrapped his arms around Hiroto's form when the smaller man snuggled up to
him in the heated water, loving the feel of Hiroto's skin against his own.
"Mm..." He hummed lightly, shifting around in the tub so his legs stuck out and
he could stretch them while continuing to hold his boyfriend against him
comfortably.
Hiroto lay comfortably in Kai's arms and the warm water for a while, until his
body started to squirm, more out of itself than out of free will. His
restlessness was a clear sign of his body wanting something though, and Hiroto
could about guess what it was. "Nnn... Sorry..." He felt a little guilty that
they couldn't just lay in the bath in peace, but the fact was that he was a
horny teenager with less control over his body than a fully grown adult.
Just as Kai was beginning to yawn himself, he felt Hiroto begin to squirm in
his embrace. For a moment he thought the other was just getting comfortable,
but as it continued, he began to realize the tell-tale signs that Hiroto was
needing something more than just simply affection and cuddling. It caused him
to blush slightly. "It's alright, Pon. Would you like me to touch you there?"
Without waiting for a response, Kai almost impishly descended his hand between
the younger male's legs and started to touch him softly.
Hiroto nodded against the spot where his face was buried against Kai's chest,
gasping softly when he felt his lover's tentative fingers on his hardening
length. His breathing sped up slightly and one hand gripped to the older man's
thigh unconsciously. "Hnn... Kai-kun..."
Kai could hardly contain his own excitement when he saw just how deliciously
his boyfriend was responding to simple touch. Forcing back a moan, Kai wrapped
his hand firmly around Hiroto and started to stroke him slowly. The younger
male felt so good in his palm he couldn't have stopped himself if he'd even
wanted to.
Hiroto couldn't help but want to do something in return, but in his
inexperience he didn't know what else to do than starting to lick and suckle at
the skin so close to his mouth. "Ahh... K-Kai..." Despite the fact that it was
still a little weird for him to let out sounds like these out of pleasure, he
knew Kai liked hearing them so he didn't restrain his voice.
Hiroto's soft lips on his chest more than aroused Kai. His length began
sticking up proudly between his legs, despite the blush that formed on his
cheeks out of embarrassment. "Pon... Touch me... Please..." He moaned softly,
wanting to control these urges, but unable to find the control to do so.
"Please..."
Hiroto blushed at Kai's request, but not out of being adverse to the idea. He
looked down, seeing the other's quite prominent erection and reached for it,
starting to mimic the older male's ministrations and hoping he was doing things
right. He was still quite insecure about all of this, because Kai had so much
more experience, but nevertheless he wanted it. Badly.
It didn't really matter to Kai how much experience that Hiroto had, because
just his simple touch was enough to ignite his full arousal. "A-ahh..." His
hand sped up slightly on his boyfriend's erection, feeling the hard organ throb
beneath his fingers so perfectly good. "Oh God..." He couldn't help the way his
hips pushed upwards into Hiroto's hand as if it were something else.
Hiroto's pleasure heightened when Kai's touches sped up, and he was amazed with
his own ability to still partly focus on his own task of jerking the older man
off. He felt and saw his lover's hips bucking and it reminded him of the
problem they'd encountered a few times before. He slowed his movements and
looked up. "Kai... ahh... I know you want it... W-we both want it..." He hoped
the other would catch onto what he was referring to. "Please... It's going to
be alright."
A whimper passed through Kai's lips when Hiroto's hand slowed, and as a reflex
his pace slowed too. "N-no, Hiroto..." Kai moaned, almost breathless with need
despite the seriousness of the topic at hand. He shook his head soon after,
affirming that he was not about to happen anytime soon. "Not now... You're...
Hng.... too young, too small..."
At the refusal, despite expected, Hiroto pouted. He let go of Kai's arousal
altogether and gripped to the other's shoulders. "No... Please... I'm not that
small... I'm old enough now. I want to feel you... I can take it." Saying these
things embarrassed him a little, but as usual that didn't stop him from saying
them. Even though most of the time he could get anything from the older man by
using his sweetest pouty face, but to his disappointment it hadn't yet helped
him on this matter.
Kai groaned softly when his erection was released from Hiroto's grasp and he
had to bite back the need to reach down and stroke himself. "No, Hiroto." This
time Kai was stern, his expression hard as he tried to hold onto whatever
control he had left after looking into those innocent brown eyes that pleaded
for him. "We'll do it when you're older. Won't it be more special that way?" He
tried to offer the youth a smile, his hand slowly continuing to jerk his
arousal.
Hiroto's eyes watered slightly when he was refused again, turning his eyes
downward, before burying his face in Kai's neck. He was afraid that the older
man would get tired of him because they couldn't have sex, and wanted to prove
that he'd be able to handle it. He knew a way to do that, and was determined on
doing it tonight. He'd been bold enough to buy a toy from an online adult shop,
and even though he could see that the thing was larger than Kai was, he
believed that was a good thing; if he could take the toy inside him, Kai
wouldn't be able to use his argument that he was too big anymore. "Alright..."
He would just have to pretend for now, he would get what he wanted before the
morning.
It was a relief when Hiroto finally relented and agreed to wait. "Don't be
mad... Just enjoy this, okay?" He murmured, pressing a soft kiss to Hiroto's
temple and beginning to stroke the youth faster, attempting to bring him to
completion first so that maybe the pleasure would make Hiroto forget what it is
that he had wanted. It was unlikely considering how much the youth did want
this, but Kai was determined to wait until he knew for a fact that he wouldn't
be able to hurt his little lover during the act of penetration.
Nodding against the damp skin of Kai's neck, Hiroto slid his fingertips down
over the older man's chest and into the water to continue his task of jerking
his lover off. He moaned and softly bit at the older man's shoulder when he was
stroked faster his own hips twitching lightly out of need. "Aahn... "
Kai moaned, his hips bucking forward against that grip just the same as he was
jerking Hiroto off under the water's surface. "Ahh, Pon..." His moan was
throaty and full of need, giving no doubts as to how close he was to coming.
"Just like that..." The older man's breath was beginning to hitch every so
often, and he threw his head back, tightening his hold on Hiroto's erection and
still continuing to jerk it harshly.
The nails of Hiroto's free hand dug further into the skin of his boyfriend's
thigh, unable to hold back his moans. It was a good thing Aki had gone out but
Hiroto was still always afraid that the neighbors would hear and tell his older
brother. "A-aah! K-Kai!" His movements started to falter when he was at the
point of nearing his orgasm. Being still so inexperienced he couldn't control
his sensitive body when it was subjected to so much pleasure. Soon the older
male's erection slipped out of his grip and he just arched his body against
Kai's releasing his seed into the water. "Aaahn!"
Having known long since before he'd dated Hiroto that young boys had a hard
time controlling themselves when faced with intense pleasure--he had been
Hiroto's age once, after all--he didn't entirely blame Hiroto for letting his
grip slip. It was pleasurable just to watch the youth come undone on top of
him, his semen shooting out into the clear water and painting it a milky color.
"Feel good?" He questioned softly, unable to stop from reaching for his own
erection and pumping slowly, giving his little lover a chance to recover and
start touching him again.
Hiroto gasped for breath, his hands pawing at Kai's skin to try and gain
control over his body again. "Yes..." He opened his eyes and realized he'd
stopped pleasuring his lover and it made him a little sheepish. "Nh...
sorry..." He reached for the older male's erection once again, starting to
stroke it in a fast pace.
"It's-ahh... okay, Pon." Kai moaned softly and grinded himself up into that
small hand, the way it was gripping him so deliciously warm underneath the
water's surface. "Oh God..." Hands moved to Hiroto's shoulders and held, the
grip only tightening as he got closer and closer. "Fuck, I'm-I'm coming!" Kai
released a surprisingly loud moan when he came hard, spurting his tribute into
the water and feeling the intense ecstasy rushing through him completely.
Hiroto looked at his lover with a small smile when the other came, slowing his
movements before releasing his length. Despite that he hadn't yet gotten what
he wanted, the thought that he would soon had him in high spirits. "I love
you..." He blushed slightly, not yet used to saying those words so seriously
but meaning them none the less.
Panting softly, Kai smiled and pressed a kiss to the side of Hiroto's face
lovingly, not at all reserved about showing affection. "I love you too."
Moments after that was out of his mouth he hugged Hiroto close and then
released him slowly. "Let's get out, ne? We'll need to rinse off or else risk
smelling like sex." Chuckling, the slender brunette stood up and coaxed Hiroto
to do the same so he could drain the tub and turn on the showerhead.
Hiroto stood on slightly shaky legs, still feeling the remnants of his orgasm
flowing through his veins. "I'm really tired..." He faked a yawn, trying to get
Kai to believe him. "You don't have to go to bed yet though... "
"Maybe it would be best." Kai smiled, understanding how tired Hiroto probably
was. "After we rinse off we can head to bed." Even though they had to sleep in
separate places, Kai didn't mind so much since they spent a lot of time
together beforehand and would many times later on. They'd be able to fall
asleep together some day. Kai rinsed quickly in the shower and made sure Hiroto
did too, before he stepped out and grabbed himself a towel as well as Hiroto,
handing the cloth to him.
Hiroto was a little disappointed that Kai wanted to go to bed as well, since
that meant he would have to wake him up to get his way later on. He didn't let
that stop him though and nodded, rinsing off and taking the towel from Kai when
they were done. He didn't start to dry off though, instead waited until the
other man was finished and then pouted. "Dry me at least?" He blinked his eyes,
knowing it was bad he was using his charms all the time to get Kai to do
things, but at the same time uncaring because it worked.
Kai chuckled and rolled his eyes at the pouting face, though it was easy to see
that he was swayed by it just like all those other times. "Alright, alright..."
After wrapping his own towel around his waist Kai took the towel he'd been
intending to just hand to the youth, and started to dry him off starting with
his messy mop of brown hair. "You're too cute for your own good, you know
that?" Smiling, Kai knelt and continued on with drying Hiroto until he was down
to his feet. Really, one of the major reasons he didn't want to have
penetrative sex with Hiroto, was that he felt that in a way it would steal
Hiroto's innocence from him, even if they'd technically already had sex before,
many times.
Hiroto closed his eyes when Kai started drying his hair, loving the feeling of
the older man's fingers massaging his scalp. He loved being with his lover like
this, just spending time together and letting him spoil him. When he was all
dry he showed a sloppy smile, stepping closer and embracing Kai when he stood
to full height again. "Thank you..."
Smiling, Kai embraced his little lover in return before he stepped away and
dried himself off the rest of the way with his own towel. "Go on and get ready
for bed. I'll be in there to kiss you good night in a minute." Kai spoke up
then, discarding both towels in the laundry basket and noting just how big the
pile of stuff in that basket was. Figures. He couldn't trust Aki to do too much
housework without being told. It didn't bother him, though, but he would have
to do some of the chores before he could get tired enough to sleep. That and he
wouldn't feel so guilty facing Aki tomorrow.
Hiroto nodded in response to the older male's words and walked off. He didn't
bother trying to cover his body since it would be a while before Aki would
return home. Just walking over to his bedroom naked, he started looking through
his closet for clean boxers. He pulled them on, not liking to sleep naked when
Kai wasn't there for him to hold. After that he walked over to the bathroom to
brush his teeth and snagged the shirt his boyfriend had been wearing. He
probably had another with him anyway. He pulled it over his head and smelled at
it, smiling while crawling into bed.
When Hiroto had left the bathroom, Kai made sure to do all that he needed in
there--brushing his teeth and hair--before he left and made his way down the
hall and to the living room where his overnight bag was situated on the couch.
From it he pulled out a pair of pajama bottoms and slipped them on out of
courtesy for whenever Aki came home that night or the following morning. Kai
figured that even though he'd be uncomfortable it'd be better than Aki walking
in to see him possibly revealing himself on the couch because he had a tendency
to kick covers off at night. Once dressed Kai headed into Hiroto's room and saw
him all curled up in his bed, the sight invariably cute to his eyes. "Night,
Pon." He murmured, bending down and kissing his little lover on the lips,
loving the taste of the youth.
Hiroto pulled Kai closer by his neck when he was kissed good night, deepening
the kiss by licking at the older man's lips and beyond. "Hmn..." He didn't
actually want to let go because he was scared of what he was going to do to
himself in a few minutes. He wanted to keep Kai with him for comfort. Or
better, have Kai in him instead of a plastic toy.
Surprise flitted through Kai when he was unexpectedly pulled closer and Hiroto
deepened the kiss. Still, he wouldn't refuse Hiroto most anything--especially
not a good night kiss--so he smiled softly and returned the gesture, pressing
Hiroto into the sheets of his bed and kissing him deeply. "Mm... where did that
come from?" He questioned a moment later, chuckling as he fought to catch his
breath.
Hiroto blushed deeply when he was asked that question, and of course he
couldn't tell Kai he was scared. "I-I dunno... I want to do it again though..."
And before Kai could respond to that he pulled their lips together again, and
continued to kiss him for just a few moments longer. When he finally pulled
back, his face was bright red and he quickly hid under the covers, pulling them
up to his cheeks. "G-good night..." Muffled words spoken from under the covers.
Kai groaned softly into the second kiss, though he couldn't help but smile when
it ended and he was left looking into the blushing face of his young lover.
"Good night." Kai chuckled and kissed Hiroto on the forehead as well as he was
able to through the covers, and then headed to the door, flicking off the
light. He had figured Hiroto was probably just embarrassed for being that
enthusiastic about a kiss, and the thought in and of itself was cute. Rather
than heading to bed himself, when Kai shut Hiroto's door he headed back into
the bathroom and grabbed all the laundry, intent on getting a few quiet chores
done before going to bed.
When Kai left the room, Hiroto kept hiding for a few minutes longer, his heart
beating a mile a minute. With a shaky sigh he then turned on his bed light and
reached for the small cabinet beside his bed. He opened the drawer all the way
and got the black box that was there out, together with the tube of lubricant.
He listened for any kind of sounds and when he could only hear those of Kai's
footsteps quite far from his room, he started pulling off his boxers and his
boyfriend's shirt. He pulled back the covers and sat down, opening the box and
taking the toy out. He was once again amazed by the size, since it hadn't
seemed so big on the picture, but then again what could be so dangerous about
this? He was only nervous because Kai had told him so many times before that it
was dangerous to do this kind of thing with a body that wasn't fully grown, but
couldn't imagine that this dull, plastic object could injure him. Swallowing,
he took the tube of lubricant and started slicking the toy. He had read on the
site where he bought it that it was necessary to lubricate every toy, but it
hadn't said that he first had to use his fingers too. He just laid himself down
on the sheets and spread his legs. His cheeks flushed at the action, completely
embarrassed with his current position, but it had to be done. He took a few
deep breaths, positioning the toy and trying to relax. Then he started pressing
it inwards, surprised how much force he had to use to get it in. When it
suddenly slipped past that barrier though, Hiroto had to catch a yelp in his
throat. It hurt. It really, really hurt. Despite that, he pushed it deeper
until he couldn't anymore because his arm seemed to get weak from the pain.
Tears gathered in his eyes and he started panicking a little. What if this
really was dangerous?
Unknowing that Hiroto was in his own room doing something Kai had blatantly
told him not to do because of how dangerous it was, the slender man put the
clothes into the washer and turned them on, making sure to put in the correct
liquid detergent beforehand. When that was finished he turned his attention
onto the dishes in the kitchen, and he started finishing them up to make sure
they were all well and clean and there would be no mess when Aki got home. If
only he could do a full clean of the house. That way he wouldn't feel so guilty
when Aki came home.
Silent tears started to descend Hiroto's cheeks and he blindly reached for the
shirt that was lying near, pressing it against his face and inhaling the scent
in hopes of calming himself. His body clenched and soon the pain became too
much. In a desperate attempt to make the pain go away, Hiroto reached down and
pulled the toy out of himself harshly, biting down on the shirt when it caused
another wave of pain to crash over him. He sobbed softly, in pain and
completely scared that he'd hurt himself in a way that was endangering his
life. He reached down with a shaking hand to feel around his entrance, whining
when he felt something wet. Moving his hand up to his face again, his fears
were confirmed; it was blood. He couldn't keep still anymore, too scared to
handle this alone. "K-Kai?" he spoke weakly, though knowing the older man
wouldn't hear him like that. "Kai!?"
Kai had just finished the dishes and was drying his hands when he heard
Hiroto's panicked shout of his name. Since Hiroto likely hadn't been asleep
long, Kai knew it couldn't just be a nightmare of some sort. Fearing for the
worst, Kai made his way to Hiroto's room quickly and pulled open the door. "Are
you-" When he flicked on the light Kai could see the full extent of what was
going on, and what had happened to his little lover. The toy, the lube, the
blood... "What in the hell were you doing, Hiroto?" The toy was huge. Kai
wasn't even so sure he could have taken that size comfortably. "I told you-
" Right then Kai stopped himself and made his way over to inspect the damage,
knowing that a lecture was likely not going to help anyone. "Oh Hiroto..." Kai
gently spread the small youth's legs, guilt welling up at the sight of the
blood. This was his fault. Just because he'd taken such an interest in Hiroto
and had initiated him into this world of sex and need, he'd exposed Hiroto to
dangerous things. Unsupervised this could have the potential to be life-
threatening. Staying silent, Kai bent down and looked closer, inspecting the
area to make sure there was no major damage. Thankfully, while it looked
incredibly painful, it was nothing more than ruptured skin. He felt relief and
pain at the same time and he gently coaxed Hiroto off the bed. "Come on... I'll
run you another bath." That would be the best way to help the pain currently,
Kai believed. It wouldn't be a warm one, though, because Kai knew warmth would
only coax it to bleed more. "Let's get you cleaned up."
Hiroto winced when his lover entered the room and saw the state he was in,
feeling just as guilty for ignoring his lover's words. "I'm sorry..." He
should've listened, he knew it. Because Kai had much more experience and
knowledge about these things than he did. He sobbed more when the older man
spread his legs and started to look at the damage. He felt like closing his
legs, but didn't, since he too was scared there would be permanent damage. When
he was urged to move his crying worsened, not even able to stand on his shaky
legs in this state. "I-it hurts... Kai..."
Kai's worry heightened when Hiroto admitted to not being able to walk because
of the pain. Resisting, once again, the urge to tell him he should have
listened about not doing such things, Kai simply nodded. He could feel his own
eyes welling with tears as he picked his small lover up and carried him bridal
style from the room to head into the bathroom. There he gently set the youth
inside the bathtub, and turned on the tap. "It's going to be a little cool, but
it should help the pain." He murmured, swallowing back his own emotions as he
reached for a washcloth from the counter nearby. "You'll be alright. You've
just torn the skin." Kai wanted to reassure Hiroto as much as he wanted to be
angry at him for doing these kinds of things.
Hiroto whimpered to every movement and pressure on his backside, burying his
face in Kai's neck and sniffling when he was picked up. He didn't want to let
the older man go, but knew he had to. He rubbed at his already red and puffy
eyes, trying to stop the tears from falling. He was infinitely glad when his
boyfriend told him the damage wasn't too serious, but despite that it still
hurt so much. "Okay... I'm sorry..." He didn't want Kai to get mad at him, and
thought that maybe if he apologized enough and didn't complain he would get
away with this without getting scolded.
Kai didn't reply to the apology, though it was obvious on his face that he held
nothing against his young boyfriend. Everyone was prone to mistakes, no matter
how old or young. "Just sit here and let the water fill up, okay? I need to go
do something with the... thing in case Aki comes back soon." Kai stood up then,
but just as he was about to walk away he stopped himself and bent down to press
a lingering kiss to Hiroto's forehead. "Don't worry, alright? Everything will
be okay." As he finally did walk away, Kai was beginning to wonder if that was
true or not. How would they explain to Aki why Hiroto would be limping for the
next few days.
Hiroto sighed and nodded in reply to Kai's words, trying to believe him. His
tears were lightening up because the cold water was distracting him from the
pain. He shivered lightly and tried to sit down in a position that didn't hurt
as much. This did worry him though because he doubted he was going to be able
to sit in class the entire day on Monday, or even the day after that. Sniffling
again, he splashed some water over his face, rubbing his itchy eyes.
Kai exited the bathroom and headed for Hiroto's room, eyeing the toy warily.
Frankly, he wondered how Hiroto had even managed to get his hands on a dildo,
especially one of that size. Sighing at the notion he'd probably never know, he
tentatively picked up the item and went to rinse it off in the sink. It was sad
to see the blood on it from where Hiroto had tried to use it, but Kai knew now
that at least Hiroto would be more willing to listen to him about what he could
and couldn't do. Once clean, Kai put the toy back in its case and then brought
the whole thing out of Hiroto's room to put it inside his own bag--well hidden,
of course. He put the lube in the drawer next to Hiroto's bed, and then he
headed back for the bathroom where he knelt beside the tub and reached for the
wash cloth. "Lay back..." He coaxed softly, "I know it's cold, but you'll be
able to get out soon."
Hiroto was just beginning to feel a little lonely in the bath when Kai
returned. He gave the older man a small smile and a nod. "Okay..." He laid back
like he was told to do, raising his hands out of the bath because they were
getting numb. "Kai-kun...? ... Thanks for putting up with me…" He watched his
boyfriend while he took care of him, infinitely grateful for the care he
received. "I know I'm a lot of trouble and a brat and just... don't leave me?"
This was what this was truly about, and even though it took him a lot of
courage to speak his mind, he still wanted to be sure the older man wasn't
getting tired of him.
"Oh, Pon..." Kai shook his head with a small smile tingeing his lips. He was
quick to realize that what Hiroto had just spoken was the true reason behind
what he had originally perceived as stubbornness on Hiroto's part. "I'm not
going to leave you." Bending down, Kai pressed a small kiss to those plush lips
and then he pulled back to look the youth in his eyes. "Sex is more than just
penetration, and relationships are much more than just sex. We don't have to do
that kind of stuff to be happy. I'm happy just the way we are. ...Aren't you?"
Running the cloth down Hiroto's belly and between his legs, Kai took extra care
to not apply much pressure to his boyfriend's entrance.
Hiroto started playing with the water nervously when the conversation turned so
serious, a little unsure what to do in such a situation. "I-I'm happy... But I
want to be able to give you everything you need... everything you want... like
you give me everything I want. I mean, you're already an adult and I know I'm
just a kid so I don't really understand what adults need... And I'm scared to
lose you." His eyes watered again, both out of discomfort from the touches near
his entrance and the emotional turmoil he felt inside.
Taking a deep breath, Kai could only hope that Hiroto understood him as he
spoke. "Hiroto, please don't think like that... I love you, and I'm happy. Why
would I ever leave you?" He continued the gentle swipes at his boyfriend's
entrance until there was no more blood leaking into the water. Only then did
the older man turn off the tap and start to drain the bathwater. "Come on, I'll
help you dry off and get dressed." Knowing that Hiroto probably couldn't get up
very well on his own, Kai grabbed a dry towel from nearby and wrapped it around
the youth, using it to lift Hiroto from the tub without getting himself wet.
"Let's sit in the living room and watch TV, okay? I have to wash your sheets."
Thankfully it seemed like the clothes he'd put in the wash a little while ago
were ready to be put in the dryer.
Hiroto silently let himself be taken care of, clinging to Kai desperately when
he was picked up and carried to the living room. "Okay... I'm sorry I can't
help clean up the mess I made." His voice was soft and apologetic, expressing
just how unsure he felt about all of this, despite that Kai had told him it was
all okay. It wasn't that he didn't trust his lover, it was just that he didn't
trust his own judgment.
"Don't worry about it." Kai murmured, settling Hiroto down on the couch in just
the towel as he stepped aside and headed to the bedroom to retrieve Hiroto some
new clothes and get the sheets that needed to be washed. Kai took the clothes
that were in the wash out and placed them in the dryer, then he put the soiled
sheets in to have them washed. Once he was finished there he brought some new
clothes out to Hiroto--a pajama shirt and pants set as well as some clean
boxers--and set them to the side as he knelt before his lover and made sure the
towel had dried him completely.
Hiroto had closed his eyes when Kai left the room, but he was unable to fall
asleep despite that he was really tired. The pain was still sharp, though he
had gotten a little used to the feeling by now. He opened his eyes when the
older man returned, looking at the clock. "Aki is probably going to come home
in a few hours..."
When Hiroto brought that to his attention, Kai turned to look at the clock and
sighed. "Yeah... I don't know what we're going to tell him." For sure he knew
Hiroto would be embarrassed to admit he had been using a toy. Especially since
Aki had never indicated exactly how he felt about gay people. "I'll think of
something, though, don't you worry." Offering Hiroto a comforting smile, Kai
reached for the boxers and pajamas and one piece by one piece helped Hiroto
into them, getting him situated properly on the couch. "Let's just relax,
okay?"
Hiroto hummed in agreement, wondering how Aki would react if he found out what
had happened. It would be supremely embarrassing on Hiroto's part, for sure,
but would his big brother be angry, disappointed, worried? He really didn't
know. "I wish we could sleep together tonight..." He didn't want to be alone in
his bed, knowing already he'd have trouble sleeping.
Kai sat back on the couch next to Hiroto and stretched his legs out, listening
to the short youth as he spoke. "Well... we could always say you got sick in
your bed so you wanted to share the couch with me." Kai murmured, running his
fingers through Hiroto's hair lovingly. He could tell his boyfriend was getting
sleepy, and he had to admit now that his worry was going down he was starting
to get sleepy as well.
Hiroto shifted so he was laying with his head in Kai's lap and looked up at his
boyfriend. He was surprised at the other's proposal, but his eyes lit up at the
idea. "Really? I would like that... I don't want to sleep alone tonight."
Smiling softly at Hiroto, Kai nodded and threw his legs up onto the couch and
pulled Hiroto up between them where the youth would be resting stomach to
stomach, no pressure on his rear. "How's this?" Then he tugged the blanket off
the back of the couch and threw it over them. When they were settled he reached
for the remote and flicked the television on to a random program, knowing that
he'd likely fall asleep at some point while watching.
Hiroto smiled and gripped to Kai's sides, curling his hands in the other male's
shirt there. "This is perfect..." He buried his nose in the older man's shirt,
inhaling his favorite scent in the world. He was watching the TV from the
corner of his eye but his main focus was on his boyfriend. "I love you so
much." He breathed out the words softly, his hands curling tighter in the
other's shirt.
"I love you too..." Kai just let himself be held in Hiroto's soft embrace, his
own arms falling to his sides as he lay there, halfway watching the television.
As time slipped away from them, however, so did Kai's conscious thought, and
soon the slender brunette was falling into dreamland, lulled by the sounds of
the washer and of Hiroto's breathing.
Hiroto was just as tired, but still the pain in his lower half made him unable
to sleep. He was content though, just listening to his lover's breathing and
heartbeat, and holding to his warm body. He realized Kai had fallen asleep but
that didn't bother him either, it just showed him the other was at ease again.
"I never want to lose you..." He spoke on a whisper, nuzzling against the
taller man's chest.
***** Chapter 7 *****
Hiroto had no idea how long he had been laying there in silence. The TV had
become a gentle background buzz to his ears while he just enjoyed laying there,
thinking. He hadn't thought about his brother again though, until he heard the
other's keys opening the front door. His eyes widened, not really sure what to
do. Should he change positions? Should he flee to his bedroom? every movement
made him wince though and he knew he probably wouldn't be fast enough. When his
brother entered the room he just looked at the other with wide eyes, unsure how
he would react. Aki had enjoyed the evening with his friends very much, for
once not drinking as much as he usually did. He kicked off his shoes and walked
over to the living room, expecting to see Kai watching TV on his own. What he
did see though left him speechless for several long moments. "Hiroto...? What
are you doing still in here? With..." He trailed off, looking at the way his
little brother's front was pressed up to his best friend's front.
Kai had never been an exceptionally deep sleeper--he'd always assumed it was
his caring nature that led to such a thing should he need to get up in the
middle of the night--so the sound of keys in the door disturbed him slightly.
However, he didn't fully wake up until he heard the confused sound of Aki's
voice drifting to his ears. Dark eyes blinked open just in time to catch what
it was the other man was asking. Yawning, Kai turned his gaze up to meet Aki's
as well as he was able to in this position. The last thing he needed right now
was Hiroto moving and expressing his pain. "Ah, Hiroto got sick in his room. He
wanted to stay in here with me since I was washing his sheets... I guess I just
fell asleep." Kai chuckled sheepishly, trying to hide the panic he felt
bubbling up inside of him.
Hiroto blushed when, despite Kai's explanation, Aki kept staring at them
weirdly. Aki himself still tried to figure out why his little brother was on
top of Kai and seemingly had been there for quite some time. In the end he
thought he might as well just ask. "Otouto, why are you on top of him? It's
inappropriate!" Hiroto blushed even more because of this and bit his lip. "W-
well I wasn't feeling well, so... I just... and my sheets are in the washer...
and I can't sit in the chair because..." He desperately tried to think of how
to explain himself further when he said something he shouldn't have. "Because I
was really tired."
Kai frowned at Aki's words and how they were directed solely upon Hiroto, even
though both of them were basically the culprits in the matter at hand. "Aki,
it's not a big deal... This is the only way we can both lay here, and I wanted
to make sure he was going to be alright." Dark eyes searched his friend's,
hoping for a way to appeal to his better nature and not get Hiroto in trouble
for what they were doing. "It's not anything major." Kai's heart was pounding a
mile a minute, worried that Aki was going to pursue the matter and that they
would both end up in trouble with him.
Aki looked at his friend next and arched an eyebrow. "Right..." He knew he
wouldn't be comfortable to be lying on another man like that, but he didn't
further push the matter. Hiroto offered his brother a shy smile and sought to
distract him. "Did you have a nice evening, nii-chan?" Aki sat down in the
chair near to the couch, still feeling a little uneasy about Kai and Hiroto's
position. "Yeah, it was nice... how are you feeling right now, otouto?" Hiroto
could just barely suppress a blush and fumbled a little with Kai's shirt where
Aki couldn't see him doing it. "I'm alright... but I doubt I can go to school
on Monday..."
Kai just settled himself on the couch when it seemed like the brothers were
conversing with one another. He wanted to get up and put Hiroto's sheets in the
dryer, but he knew the moment he did that would be forcing Hiroto to move,
which would ultimately show off that he was in pain. Of course, it could just
be pain in his stomach, but if Aki wanted Hiroto in bed with him instead after
seeing that then Hiroto would have to walk that way and Aki would see the
already profuse limp, or worse yet, Hiroto still wasn't able to bear walking.
"Yeah, I'd agree it probably isn't a good idea..." Kai murmured in agreement,
his dark eyes landing on Aki despite how awkward he felt letting Hiroto lay on
him like this in front of him.
Aki nodded reluctantly, always wary of the younger one misleading him just so
he wouldn't have to go to school, but since Kai agreed he guessed it was
genuine. Then he suddenly thought of something, knowing that his best friend
was most likely uncomfortable about this teenager on top of him. "Do you want
to sleep in my bed tonight, otouto? I don't mind, you always used to do it when
you were little too." Hiroto's eyes widened a little, not wanting to be around
his older brother more than necessary when he was in pain like this. "U-uhm...
no, it's okay..." Aki shook his head at that. "C'mon give Kai-kun a break. I'm
sorry for his stubbornness." He turned to Kai and offered him a sheepish smile.
"Oh, it's no problem. Really." Kai replied with a light smile, understanding
just where Hiroto's own nervousness was coming from considering he'd just been
on the same train of thought not even a few moments ago. "My sister's kids like
to do this too, so I'm used to it." That wasn't wholly a lie considering his
sister's children had done it a small number of times in the past, though he
wouldn't exactly call it often, or anywhere close to that.
Aki snorted at that. "Well, suit yourself. I'm gonna grab a drink." He stood,
before pointing at Hiroto. "And you, young man, should be sleeping. Especially
since you're not well." He walked over to the kitchen to pour himself a beer.
Hiroto sighed when Aki left the room, turning to his boyfriend. "What are we
gonna do?" He whispered softly, looking Kai in the eyes.
Kai chuckled and decided to try and tease Aki to help himself relax on the
matter. "You've just been out all night and you still choose to drink when you
get home?" He grinned, before his friend disappeared into the kitchen and he
was left alone with Hiroto again. That grin dropped to a comforting smile and
he rubbed Hiroto's side underneath the blanket to try and calm him. "It's
alright. You just leave things to me, okay? He probably won't ask anything
more." Kai could only hope that this was true.
Hiroto nodded in response to Kai's words, smiling back at him unsurely. "Well,
I guess I'll try to sleep again now... g'night..." He laid his head back down
and closed his eyes, his hands once again curling into the older man's shirt
underneath the blanket. Aki returned from the kitchen, not able to deny that
Hiroto looked cute, sleeping on Kai's chest like that. "Here, I brought one for
you as well in case you want it..." He set the drink down for his friend and
took a sip from his own beer. "Let's watch some TV before going to bed... or I
guess you're already in bed."
"Night..." Kai murmured to Hiroto before looking over at his friend when Aki
returned to the room. For the first time he found himself truly afraid of what
would happen to their friendship when Aki found out that he was dating Hiroto.
They had been such good friends for a long time and they got along together so
well, it was hard to think of what would eventually happen. "Thanks, but I
don't really feel like drinking tonight." He scooted down a little more in his
seat and stretched, making himself completely comfortable. "Don't hold me to a
length. I'll probably fall back asleep." The slender brunette chuckled softly,
though for now his eyes fell on the television screen. "You might want to throw
his sheets in the dryer, by the way. I didn't get a chance to before I ended up
falling asleep."
Hiroto woke up the next morning to a horrible ache in his lower half. He
blinked his eyes and rubbed his face against whatever he was lying on. In the
end he realized he was still on his boyfriend and had been completely plastered
to the larger man's body. He couldn’t hold back a soft groan when he shifted
slightly and felt a sharp sting in his ass. "I don't wanna get up..." He softly
said to himself, knowing he'd be in a lot of pain once he did.
Being used to being the first awake and getting things ready, Kai was already
just dozing when Hiroto woke up. The way the other shifted roused him
completely and he was blinking his eyes open only moments after Hiroto spoke
those soft words. "Yeah, it's going to be a pain for a while..." Kai murmured,
looking first for any signs of Aki--though he knew better than to think Aki
would be up before noon after how late he'd been gone the past night--before he
started to run long fingers through Hiroto's messy hair. He still didn't know
what he was going to say to Aki when he asked, but he supposed he'd think of an
excuse when the time came for it. "You should try a morning bath. The warm
water should help some."
Hiroto was glad when it seemed Kai was already awake and it made him smile a
little. "I'd love to take a bath... It's aching..." He hugged his boyfriend
close and nuzzled against him some more before once again shifting and letting
out a pained moan. "C-could you carry me?"
"Yeah, I'll carry you." Kai murmured, trying to hide his worry behind a light
smile as he sat up and continued to hold Hiroto to his chest to keep him from
falling. "You're going to have to walk sometime, though... I don't think Aki
will buy you're too sick to walk." A chuckle passed through thin lips as Kai
stood with Hiroto cradled in his arms. He carried the small youth to the
bathroom and set him in the tub, stopping up the drain and--after undressing
Hiroto--turned the water on warm in the tub. "I'll get you some clean clothes."
Exiting the bathroom Kai did just that and set the clothes on the edge of the
sink. "I'm going to go and fix some breakfast. Just come to the table when
you're ready." He kissed Hiroto's forehead lightly before exiting the bathroom
again and shutting the door behind him.
Hiroto let himself be carried over to the bath and undressed. Once again he
tried to find a comfortable position to sit in, but it seemed the only way the
pressure was off of his rear was when he was on his hands and knees. Sighing a
little and thanking his lover, he closed his eyes and relaxed as much as he
could. When he immersed from the bathroom half an hour later, it was in clean
clothes, and with a rather bad limp. He couldn't help but wince every time he
felt a sting in his backside, a little worried still that it hurt so much. He
walked over to the kitchen and went to stand by the counter, not feeling at all
like sitting down on one of the hard, wooden chairs. A few minutes later, Aki
also stumbled out of his bedroom, in just his boxers and clearly not awake that
long. He'd been awakened by the disturbance his friend and brother made and
couldn't resist the idea of one of Kai's delicious breakfasts. "Morning..." He
mumbled while he flopped down on a chair.
By the time Hiroto emerged from the bathroom, Kai had already fixed coffee and
pancakes, three stacks of them sitting on different plates at the table. He'd
fixed a coffee for himself and for Aki, but he knew it was probably not a good
idea to give the caffeine to Hiroto, who needed to stay without much activity
for a while. "Good morning, Aki." He spoke up, worry clenching in his gut as he
realized Hiroto was still limping pretty badly and probably wouldn't do so well
to sit at the table. Just like always, he was quick to cover up for the youth
by handing him his pancakes and a glass of juice. "Hiroto, why don't you go eat
in the living room? I remember you saying there was a show you really wanted to
watch this morning." He offered with a smile, trying to make it seem like it
was nothing, when in truth it was a huge thing.
Hiroto got nervous as well when his big brother entered the room. "Morning nii-
chan..." When his lover handed him his breakfast and told him to go eat in the
living room, he was infinitely glad for Kai's ability to lie. He nodded a
little unsurely. "Thanks for reminding me..." He turned and tried his best to
walk normally, but it hurt too bad and soon he was holding back a whine and
nearly tripping over his feet. Aki raised an eyebrow when he saw Hiroto was
acting funny and turned his attention away from the pancakes he'd been staring
at. "Are you still feeling sick, otouto?" Hiroto blushed and nodded, before
limping out of the kitchen as quickly as possible. Aki's interest had been
sparked though, and he stood to follow his younger brother. "Do you have pain
in your legs?" Hiroto wasn't sure what to answer to that and just shook his
head. "N-no..."
Kai turned his gaze away from Hiroto for the time being, not wanting to be
witness to this when he knew his little lover would be limping to the living
room and Aki was likely to see it. As the other man started to pursue it like
Kai hoped he wouldn't, he turned back around and tried to think up an excuse.
"Well, this morning Hiroto told me he had achy joints... He's probably got a
flu or something." Kai hated lying like this, but he didn't want Hiroto to
suffer the embarrassment and who knows what else of having to tell Aki that
he'd been using a toy on himself that was much larger than he could handle.
"Just let him go and enjoy his show, Aki. He'll be alright."
Hiroto was infinitely glad that Kai was trying to defend him, but apparently
Aki didn't appreciate it as much. The older of the two brothers turned to his
friend, a little suspicious at the way Kai was constantly talking in Hiroto's
place. "I'd appreciate it if you wouldn't talk for my little brother... I want
to hear what he has to say." He turned back to Hiroto, who had settled on the
couch. "What's up, otouto? Are you sure it's just a flu?" Hiroto nodded,
despite that he knew he was bad at lying to his older brother. "I'm sure... a-
as Kai said... I just have an ache in my joints." Aki narrowed his eyes and
looked his little brother in the eyes. "You're not being honest, Hiroto. I want
you to tell me the truth."
Kai let himself fall silent when Aki told him to not speak for Hiroto, even
though he knew that Hiroto would have a hard time lying on his own. Dark eyes
expressed worry for the youth as Kai stood to the side, watching the brothers'
exchange. It was clear that Hiroto was nervous and didn't know what to say, and
the slender brunette just couldn't stand watching it. Despite the fact that
this was going to probably hurt more than help, Kai came up between Aki and
Hiroto, and said the first thing that came to his mind before Hiroto was able
to say anything. His eyes were on Aki as he spoke. "I asked Hiroto to have sex
with me." It escaped his lips before Kai had time to control it, and he was
sure his face almost paled as he said it. "There. I said it." Limbs were
shaking and Kai anticipated a hit of some kind. "He's hurting because I was too
big, and that's also why he was laying with me last night. I asked him to. It's
not his fault."
Hiroto's eyes widened when Kai said those words, not understanding why the
older man would do something like that. Aki snorted at Kai's words, clearly not
believing him. "Seriously, Kai, did you think I'd fall for-" He stopped
speaking when he saw the seriousness in his best friend's eyes. Slowly a frown
formed on his face and he tried to comprehend what his friend was telling him.
"Kai...?" Hiroto just kept silent, unable to do or say anything. "Y-you're not
serious right...?"
Kai nodded his head slowly, not sure he should be saying such things when they
really weren't true, but he would do just about anything for his lover, and
this was probably the ultimate expression of it. If Aki pursued this--and Kai
wasn't sure if he would or wouldn't--then it could mean even jail time for him.
"I'm.... serious. That's why I had to wash the sheets too..." He was only
digging himself a deeper grave, but he had to make Aki believe it now that he'd
said it.
Aki took a look at his little brother, who was looking up at him with wide,
fearful eyes. Clenching his fist and trying to control his anger, he turned
back to his friend. He failed to control himself and in a split second slammed
his fist into the other man's jaw. Without thinking, he just launched himself
at Kai and threw him to the ground. "You sick fucking bastard!!!" Hiroto was
completely shocked at his older brother's actions, but he shot into action
immediately, adrenaline making him unable to feel the pain that came with such
an action. He threw himself onto Aki and tried to pull him off to prevent him
from hurting his lover. "No! Nii-chan stop it!"
Even though he would have liked to say he was prepared for the hit, Aki's fist
was far more powerful than Kai had even thought it might be. It knocked him
back into the wall behind him, and just as he was reaching up to rub the
already sore place of contact, he was tackled to the ground and was hardly
given the chance to fight back. It was strange, he thought, considering this
was how he'd always pictured Aki's response would be if he told him simply of
the relationship he shared with Hiroto. Believing that he deserved it, Kai only
tried to block the hits, but not ultimately stop Aki from beating the crap out
of him. It hurt, but Kai knew this was only Aki's way of protecting his
brother. It was commendable, even if Kai didn't particularly enjoy the whole
thing. "I'm sorry." He whimpered, blocking his head from the hardest hits.
Aki didn't even feel his little brother pulling at him so he just continued
hitting in his blind anger. Kai had just realized his greatest fear; his little
brother getting hurt because he wasn't there to protect him. Desperate to
protect his love, Hiroto saw his chance to push himself between Kai and Aki,
wrapping his arms around the defenseless man. He felt his older brother's fist
hit his back once, before it stopped. Aki was shocked out of his rage when
suddenly his little brother came between them. He stopped moving and just
looked at the two beneath him with wide eyes. "Hiroto..." Hiroto's eyes teared
up and he hugged Kai closely.
Tears welled up in Kai's eyes the more he was hit, not only because of the pain
but also because of Aki's sheer ferocity. He knew this would likely be the last
time he would ever see Hiroto, because Aki would shield him from him to the
utmost degree. At least this way, he thought, Hiroto would be much safer and
would likely find someone within his own age range to love. Kai gasped for
breath when he was finally given a break, and it took him a few minutes to
realize that the break had come about because Hiroto was clinging to him,
protecting him from Aki's onslaught. His body was still shaking and now he
could feel the throb of many pained places on his person. It was likely he
would have a hard time moving himself for the next few days, much less
drumming. His other band mates would probably not appreciate that fact when
they had a gig coming up. "Hiroto, it's okay... I deserve it." He mumbled to
the small youth, even as tears descended his cheeks and he couldn't force
himself to look at either his small lover or Aki.
Hiroto shook his head violently at Kai's words, knowing his boyfriend was the
sweetest person he'd ever met and would never force himself on him like that.
In fact, he hadn't, and yet was willing to take such a claim to protect him.
"No you don't! Don't say things like that!" Aki reached for Hiroto's shoulder
and tried to pull him off, thinking his little brother was trying to protect
his violator was heart breaking and he didn't want to see it. "Let go Hiroto,
this man isn't worth your tears." Hiroto turned around though still held to
Kai's body like his life depended on it. "Y-you're wrong! It's not true! I-" He
knew he was going to have to embarrass himself to save his boyfriend's honor.
"I asked him to- to have sex with me! But he wouldn't! I really wanted it so I
used a toy and hurt myself! He didn't do anything!" Aki just stared at his
younger brother, not sure what to believe anymore. This was just all so crazy
and confusing. All he knew that was he wanted to protect his little Hiroto, it
was his duty, it had been ever since their parents died. "H-Hiroto... don't try
to protect him... please..."
Taking a shaky breath, Kai turned and pushed Hiroto off of him, trying to make
it to where he could stand up despite the hits that had caused him such pain.
"He's just trying to protect me, Aki... I'm really the one at fault here."
Though he admired Hiroto wanting to tell the truth for him, he didn't want
Hiroto to have to suffer for it. In his mind it was truly his doing that Hiroto
was even like this in the first place. If only he hadn't had those kinds of
thoughts and feelings for Hiroto he wouldn't have masturbated in his bed that
night, and things wouldn't have taken this path. He was a sick-minded freak,
and no matter how much he felt happy and at ease with Hiroto he'd always known
it was wrong. Sniffling, Kai reached up and tried to wipe away some of the
blood that was dripping from his busted nose, the tears not making the matter
any better. "I will take responsibility and leave..." Unable to meet Aki's
gaze, Kai tried to slip past him so he could go and get his bag from beside the
couch.
When Kai continued to lie to his big brother, Hiroto started to panic. "N-no!
Why are you doing this!?" He crawled over to his lover on his knees and wrapped
his arms around his legs. "D-don't leave! Please don't leave! You did nothing
wrong!" When his shoulders were pulled on again, Hiroto looked up at Aki with
teary eyes. "No... Nii-chan... I can prove it. He's the one trying to protect
me! I-I still have it! The t-toy I hurt myself with... I can show you he's
innocent!" Aki saw how desperate his little brother was, and even though he
didn't want to believe either of the explanations he still couldn't deny
Hiroto's crying face. "Th-then prove it."
Kai's heart almost broke when he felt Hiroto attached to his legs and the way
he pleaded at him to stay. He would have loved to stay and be with the younger
male, but he couldn't, and deep inside he knew it was wrong that he'd even
started a relationship with someone that young, despite the fact of how much he
truly loved him. "I did do something wrong. Horribly wrong, Hiroto." Kai
murmured, wishing he could just reach down and scoop the small youth up in his
arms and comfort him, but he couldn't. Especially when Hiroto went on to say he
could prove his own side, when he couldn't because Kai himself had hidden the
toy in his own bag. He didn't outwardly say it, though, because clearly that
would already start to prove Hiroto's side. "Hiroto, it's useless. It's okay...
really."
Hiroto was glad when Aki was finally willing to give him a chance to prove
Kai's innocence. He took his boyfriend's hand and tugged him with him to make
sure the other wouldn't leave. Walking into the bedroom he opened the drawer in
which he expected the toy to be. When it wasn't there however, and only the
lubricant was left he panicked a little. He walked over to his bed and started
looking on and around it, tears once again starting to well up in his eyes. "It
was here! I used it in here! I don't understand!" Then he suddenly realized Kai
had cleaned up the mess he had made and thus had also put away the dildo. "K-
Kai!? Where did you put it!? I need to show it to nii-chan!" Aki was starting
to doubt his younger brother's sanity at this point and it made his heart ache
again. "Hiroto... it's okay... you don't have to protect him."
Unable to do much to make his lover feel at ease, Kai knew he would have to
steel himself and dish out some tough love. Hopefully it would help Hiroto in
the long run. "Hiroto..." When the other refused to calm down, Kai could help
grabbing ahold of Hiroto's wrist and yanking him in his direction to stop his
incessant searching and frantic words. "Hiroto! Calm down. I didn't put
anything anywhere." His eyes pleaded with Hiroto to listen despite the firmness
of his words. "Stop trying to protect me. It's okay." He wished so badly that
he could just kneel down and kiss Hiroto softly, to make him feel better, but
that would only worsen their situation. "I'll be okay. Just... let Aki protect
you." After he spoke he released Hiroto's wrist and exited the room again,
heading back to where he could get his bag from beside the couch.
When Hiroto was shocked out of his frenzy by his boyfriend himself he stared
into the other's eyes for a few long seconds, his tears flowing freely. His lip
trembled and he shook his head, pulling his arm free. "Y-you told me you loved
me... I-is this your way of getting rid of me!? Just admit it! You realized you
can't have sex with me so you're leaving me!" It seemed completely logical in
Hiroto's mind, but that didn't make it hurt any less. He couldn't think of any
other reason why Kai was acting like this. Aki couldn't watch Hiroto like this
and quickly pulled him into a hug, looking at Kai accusingly. "You just get out
of here. I don't need to see you ever again."
Kai's heart dropped into the pit of his stomach at Hiroto's words. He wanted to
tell the youth that this wasn't the reason at all, boy did he ever, but Aki
would never let him have a private moment with Hiroto to tell him otherwise.
Swallowing back as much emotion as he could muster, he grabbed his bag from the
floor and exited the apartment quickly, unable to bear it not even a moment
longer. He reached his car soon enough and tossed his bag into the back as he
climbed in the driver's side. It was only there, with the doors securely
locked, that Kai let the emotions burst free, large tears escaping dark eyes as
he leaned forward on the steering wheel, not yet cranking the car into action.
Sobs passed through his lips and he wondered just how he'd managed to make such
a huge mistake. He really was just a sick freak, wasn't he?
Hiroto was sobbing loudly after Kai had left, burying his face in his older
brother's chest and clinging to him. He didn't even feel any pain in his body
right now, despite how much he had been moving which had probably even caused
it to start bleeding again. He only felt the overwhelming sadness of a
heartbreak. This was a first for him as well, since he had never before
dedicated his heart to someone and thus also never experienced this kind of
heartache before. He cried louder, curling into himself and sitting down on the
ground. Aki knew how to handle this, they had been through harsh times before
and thus it wasn't the first time he had to comfort his little brother. It was
the first time however he heard a certain lilt to his voice that cut through
him like a knife. "I-I love him nii-chan! I wanted- wanted to be able to give
him everything. H-he didn't do it! I did it myself!"
Ever since everything had happened Kai couldn't find himself bothered to do
much at all. All he wanted to do was lay around and mope, and no matter what
his band mates did they couldn't rouse him or get him to explain. Kai knew they
were getting frustrated, but it was only because they were worried for him, no
matter how many times he told them he was going to be alright. Still, they
tried, and every day since at least one of them would stop by to check on him,
and would be met with the same scene of him either on the couch blearily
watching television or moping in his bed. The latter was where he had retired
to sometime during the early morning hours, and was currently still lightly
snoozing, completely nude just as he liked it, and the covers pulled up to his
chin to hide him away from the world and from the cold of his home--which was
also the way he liked it to be. He knew he should get up and fix himself
something to eat, but he couldn't find it in him to do so. A small sigh escaped
his lips and he rubbed his face into his pillow, feeling acutely the throbbing
of his reddened
eyes as well as the wetness of his pillow. It was impossible to keep himself
from crying when he thought about it, especially when he didn't have anyone to
shield his emotion from or put up a strong front for.
Hiroto had been just as miserable as Kai for the next few days, and even though
Aki had done everything he wanted the older one was at the end of his hopes of
cheering his little brother up. Said youth was lying on the couch with his face
towards the cushions, just staring blankly at the fabric. His body still hadn't
stopped hurting and every time he thought of it, he felt a sting of pain in his
heart. It was all just because of his stupid body. If he'd been able to handle
taking Kai inside him there wouldn't have been a worry in the world. Or at
least in his logic. He really wanted to see his former lover and be loved by
him again. He wanted to be spoiled and cared for, held and cuddled like only
Kai could. Perhaps if he'd allow him to have sex with him despite the danger
and the pain, the older man would take him back. He'd do anything to have the
older man back. He stood from the couch and walked over to his room to get
dressed. After he was done he grabbed his cellphone and his coat and walked out
of the door, telling his brother he was going for a walk. In all truths he was
going to the station to take the train to his ex-boyfriend's house. When he was
about to get out, he took his phone and dialled his brother's number. "Nii-
chan? I'm going to see Kai. I'm in the train right now." Aki was immediately
worried and tried to convince his little brother to come home, but when the
other hung up, he took his keys and walked out of the house. Hiroto walked up
to Kai's front door and pressed the doorbell, waiting anxiously for the older
man to open the door.
***** Chapter 8 *****
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Kai heard the doorbell resound through his apartment, but he was far from
willing to go and open the door to answer it. All the people who mattered had a
key to his home, and those who didn't, didn't matter enough for him to invite
inside while he was like this. Groaning softly, Kai buried his face deeper in
his pillow, clutching his sheets in a loose grip as he fought to fall asleep,
the only time when he wasn't constantly thinking about all the things he had
done wrong, and all the love he had wanted to give Hiroto despite the things he
had done wrong.
Hiroto waited a few minutes, before sighing, knowing his lover wasn't going to
open the door. He had to see him though and thus took his key out of his pocket
and opened the door. His heart was beating like mad when he closed the door
behind him and looked through the apartment. He didn't dare to call out to the
older man, and just looked for him silently. When he walked into the bedroom,
he couldn't hold back his tears. He walked over to the bed and crawled onto it.
"K-Kai..."
Kai huffed under his breath when he heard someone unlock his door and come
inside. Expecting it to be one of his band mates he tried to act asleep, but it
was blatantly obvious who it was when a small body joined him on his bed and
called his name shakily. Immediately his head shot up and he took in the sight
of the small youth, crying and upset. "Hiroto!" Eyes wide with surprise, he
pushed himself into a seated position, though he made sure to keep the covers
around his waist. He looked around anxiously for any sign of Aki, but it seemed
there was only Hiroto. "Where's your brother? What are you doing here?"
When Kai responded, Hiroto didn't hesitate to wrap his arms around the older
man and squeeze him tightly. "K-Kai! I missed you so much and I had to see you
because I love you and I want to be with you! Please... please, please! I'll do
anything to make you love me again! I-I don't care if it hurts me, just- have
sex with me when you want to!"
Kai gaped openly for a few moments, not sure what to say in the face of what
Hiroto was saying. Moments passed and all the slender brunette could do was
what felt right to him, and that was to embrace Hiroto in return, clutching to
him dearly. "Oh, Pon... I didn't want to have sex with you that way yet... and
I don't now. I told you I wanted to wait until you were ready..." The tears he
thought he didn't have any more of descended his cheeks and he couldn't
burrowing his face against that soft hair. "I love you, Hiroto, but... Aki
reminded me that it's not right. I shouldn’t have these feelings for you. I'm
just corrupting you... I'm a sick-minded freak, and... and you deserve someone
your own age to love and who loves you back..."
Hiroto hugged Kai even tighter and shook his head violently. "There's nothing
wrong with it! If you're a sick-minded freak, you're my sick-minded freak and I
don't care that you are! I don't want someone of my own age! I want you!" His
hands curled against the larger man's back and he didn't want to let go of him
until he promised that he would take him back. "I've never felt hate towards my
nii-chan before... but when he hit you like that I just wanted to hurt him back
for it..."
Kai was stunned by Hiroto's conviction as much as he was touched by it, his
embrace only getting tighter as well. "Pon..." He sniffled softly and gently
pulled his head away to look down into Hiroto's deep, sad brown eyes. So badly
did he want to comfort him and tell him everything was going to be okay, but
the moment that Aki realized where Hiroto had gone Kai himself was surely the
one to get in trouble. Nothing good would come of making false promises to
Hiroto, but Kai couldn't let him down. There was no way. "Don't you ever blame
Aki for what he did... He only wanted to protect you just like I did. But it
seems we both failed..." Brushing a thumb over a tear-stained, innocent eye,
Kai just broke and bent down to press a loving kiss to Hiroto's forehead. "God,
I love you so much... I didn't want to hurt you, but there was no other way..."
Hiroto was so happy to finally be able to look his lover in the eyes again, but
he couldn't yet be content because this way his happiness wasn't going to last
long. He knew Aki was heading their way and he just hoped that he knew his
brother as well as he thought he did. "But there is another way... nii-chan
isn't a bad person, he just wants me to be happy... If he sees how happy I am
with you he'll accept it. I'm sure of it!" Aki was indeed on his way and had
almost reached Kai's apartment, his fingers were nervously clenching around the
steering wheel. What was his former best friend doing to his little brother
right now?
"I don't think it's so easy, Hiroto..." Kai murmured, wiping away the residue
of tears on his face with one of the sheets. He couldn't imagine being without
Hiroto, though. These past few days had brought him to realize just how much he
needed the younger male, and how badly he wanted to continue being with him.
"But... if you think he might..." It wasn't like Aki probably didn't already
know where Hiroto was at. "Then we could try... But please, if it doesn't
happen how you think, don't be so upset... okay?" When he got his response, Kai
leaned down and pressed his lips softly to Hiroto's, his hands just holding the
youth close, reveling the purity of their strange love.
Hiroto nodded at Kai's words, despite knowing that he'd be upset anyway if
things didn't go well. When he was kissed he pressed back against the older man
and even pushed the other down on the bed. The youth knew Aki could come in any
moment so he had to convince his older brother that this was also his choice.
Aki didn't hesitate to get his key out of his pocket and open Kai's front door.
He stormed in and looked around. "Hiroto!?" When he walked into the bedroom he
was astounded with what he saw. His innocent little brother was hovering over
his best friend, kissing the older man deeply with a content expression on his
face despite the tears that were still on his cheeks.
Kai didn't expect to be pushed onto the bed, but when he was, he didn't stop
kissing Hiroto. Hands slipped to loosely hold Hiroto's sides, the way they were
obviously far from constricting. He almost wanted to ask Hiroto what had gotten
into him, but Kai himself knew that with even just a few long days between them
they were needy of each other's affection. He himself couldn't help but drink
in the love pouring from Hiroto, but just as he was contenting himself to it
the sound of Aki's voice cut through the apartment and he tried to pull away,
only to have Hiroto's lips chasing after his, resuming the kiss.
Hiroto didn't stop kissing his lover, even when he knew that his brother was
standing in the doorway. Instead he made a low noise and pressed his body
closer, his tongue lapping at Kai's generously. Aki was unable to say a stupid
word because of what he saw. He couldn't possibly interpret this as Kai forcing
Hiroto to do anything, instead his little brother seemed to have the overhand
and seemed to be the one instigating all of their closeness. When Hiroto
finally pulled away from the kiss he looked Kai in the eyes and smiled at the
fact that Aki hadn't interrupted them yet. "I love you..." He told his
boyfriend softly. Aki took a few steps closer, as if to try to understand what
he was seeing better. This was an entirely different Hiroto than what he had
seen the past few days. This was his little brother who was happy instead of
depressed. "Hiroto... Do you really...?" Hiroto turned around at that and
acknowledged Aki's presence for the first time since he'd entered the room. "I
love him, nii-chan... It doesn't matter what you think of it, or if you believe
me... I love him."
Kai was hesitant to return the declaration of affection when it was apparent
Aki was watching them, but as he looked up into those soft brown eyes he found
himself strangely comforted. "I love you..." He replied softly, only turning
his attention to Aki when the other man spoke. Embarrassment spread through him
like wildfire and he couldn't find it in his to even meet gazes with Hiroto's
brother. Yet, when Hiroto was bold enough to answer Aki's curious question in
the affirmative, Kai could only add onto it, whether Aki would believe him or
understand at all. "Aki... I love him too, just like he loves me..." Bringing
his gaze guiltily to his former best friend's, Kai hoped he wouldn't be
treading where he shouldn't. "I really do... and I want to be with him. I know
it's wrong, but... I still love him."
Hiroto was glad when Kai didn't start denying their relationship again and it
made him smile. Aki was utterly confused at this point, unable to understand
just how two males, let alone ones with such an age difference could be that in
love. "B-but... he was limping and you... did you...?" It'd be easier to accept
the two male's relationship when he was sure his little brother wasn't going to
be hurt like that again. Hiroto shook his head. "Like I said, he always refused
to have sexual intercourse with me. I tried to... well convince him that I
could handle it... but I kind of... failed." Aki went to sit down on the
nearest chair and held to his head, trying to get a grip on all the questions
in his head. "F-for how long...?"
"No, actually... he really did use a toy... He thought if he could take that
then he could take me." Kai murmured, sitting up again and just holding Hiroto
to his body. This was already quite embarrassing for himself, and since Hiroto
had willingly admitted it last time, he found that it would be a good thing to
go along with it now, since it was the truth. "But it really hurt him, so I
took it and put it in my bag so he couldn't try it again later. It's in my
closet." Kai knew he probably should have thrown the thing out, but admittedly
he was a bit curious as to possibly trying it himself... one day. At the last
question Kai thought about it a moment, though he really didn't need to.
"Since... that first night I slept over at your place." He murmured, almost
guiltily, his gaze unable to meet Aki's yet again.
Aki's eyes widened when he heard for how long Kai and Hiroto had already been
in some kind of relationship, right under his nose. "But... that has been
months!" He didn't know how he could've missed it, and now he thought about it
there had been many times when he had found his best friend and his little
brother in a situation that was too close for just friends. He just hadn't
thought about it because it was so unlikely that the two were actually
together. He looked at Kai then, suddenly realizing he had never told him he
was into men. "You never told me you were gay! I'm your best friend!" Hiroto
couldn't hold back his snort of laughter at his older brother's surprised
words, looking back at his lover to see his reaction.
Kai grinned sheepishly and rubbed the back of his head, feeling more than a
little awkward sitting here naked with Hiroto on his lap and nothing except a
sheet between them, with Aki standing just a few feet away. "Well, ah, I'm
not... Not most men anyway. Just Hiroto. I mean, I think some are attractive,
but... I think some girls are attractive too..." Though he didn't really need
to go into detail, he figured he would for the sake of Aki's sanity. "Besides,
you never told me how you felt about gay guys, so... I thought you would react
badly."
Aki folded his arms over his chest when Kai told him he'd thought he'd react
badly if he found out his best friend liked men. "I'm not that narrow minded! I
can't believe you... honestly." Then he looked at the youth sitting in Kai's
arms. "And you! You promised me to tell me when you would get into your first
relationship!" Hiroto couldn't contain his amusement at his older brother's
behavior, despite that he knew it was a way for the other to deal with the
shocking news he'd received. "No... I promised you I'd tell you when I got my
first girlfriend... Kai's my boyfriend." Aki winced a little at his brother's
words, suddenly very aware that Kai didn't seem to be wearing too much and
Hiroto was plastered against the older man's body. "S-so that's it? I'm just
supposed to accept the fact that my best friend and my little brother are doing
each other? That's just- I mean- This is so wrong... You're eight years apart!"
It was clear from his expression that he wasn't mad, but still just couldn't
imagine how something like that could work.
"Aki, it'll be okay..." Kai murmured, though he too had worried about this time
and time again because of the age difference between the two of them. "It's
just like any other relationship. As long as we both love one another
everything will be fine." The words served to remind Kai of this fact as well,
that if the two of them only worked at it like any other relationship then they
would be fine. Resting slender, yet powerful arms around Hiroto's hips, Kai
held the youth close, trying to make both himself comfortable in front of Aki
as well as Aki with the notion of them being together. "Trust us?"
Hiroto's hand sought out Kai's arm on his hip and he started stroking it
lovingly with his fingers to let the older man know he appreciated their
position. Aki's eyes were immediately drawn towards Hiroto's hand when his
little brother started touching the older man. He looked back up at their faces
when Kai asked him to trust them. He felt he did trust his best friend to take
care of his little brother in a way that he couldn't, but he still felt a
little possessive because he'd been the only one Hiroto had gone to for comfort
the past few years. He sighed and nodded. "I guess... but if I have any reason
to believe you're hurting my otouto, I won't have mercy." He narrowed his eyes
to get his point across before raising an eyebrow. "Now get some clothes on,
you pervert. There's no reason for you to be naked around my little brother
right now."
Kai chuckled at Aki's words and nodded his head, understanding what it was that
the other man was saying to him. "If I ever hurt him I expect you not to have
mercy." He replied, smiling over at his friend just to let him know that he was
well aware that he would be beaten to a pulp again if he ever managed to hurt
the small youth in his arms. "But actually, I do have a reason for being
naked... I was trying to have a nap before he came over here." Leaning back
against the headboard, Kai cradled Hiroto to his chest, doing his best to try
and make Aki more comfortable around the two of them expressing affection for
one another. "I still kind of want one, too..." He trailed, as if expecting Aki
to catch the hint about him possibly leaving Hiroto here for the two of them to
cuddle and reaffirm their bond together without an onlooker.
Aki wasn't stupid, of course he knew what Kai wanted --and Hiroto too,
probably-- but it was so hard for him to stop worrying for the safety of his
dear little brother. Hiroto could see how his older brother was struggling and
it made him smile slightly. "I might have a boyfriend, but you'll always be my
nii-chan... don't worry, I won't be leaving home any time soon okay?" Sighing
and nodding, Aki walked over to the door. "Just call me when I need to pick you
up." Hiroto nodded. "I will. I love you, nii-chan." Aki couldn't help but smile
at his little brother's adorable behavior. "See you, Kai. Love you, otouto." He
walked out of the room with mixed feelings about this, but he had known Kai
long enough to trust him with his life, and thus also with his little brother.
"Bye, Aki." Kai paused a second, smiling over at the other man. "And thanks...
really. You won't regret it." His dark eyes were alight with truth, and he
hoped that Aki could see it too. Never in a million years would he ever
purposely hurt Hiroto, and while he knew that he also knew it would be hard for
any older sibling to agree to let their younger sibling date someone much older
than him or her. It would be the same for him if their positions were reversed,
so hopefully Aki would be able to let go of his insecurities and trust their
relationship.
When his older brother had left, Hiroto turned back to Kai and grinned down at
him. "I told you it'd be okay... He might not be completely comfortable with it
just yet, but he'll get used to it." He snuggled against the older man briefly
before pulling away and grinning again. "I'm way overdressed for the situation.
Help me out of these clothes?"
Kai breathed a sigh of relief when Aki left the apartment, his gaze falling to
Hiroto seated in his lap. "I wasn't expecting it, but... you were right." A
soft smile pricked the corners of his lips and he chuckled. "Yeah, yeah,
c'mere." Tugging at the hem of Hiroto's shirt, Kai was quick to pull it over
the youth's head, and then he started on his pants, intending to get Hiroto
nude as soon as he possibly could. It would be nice to be able to feel that
physical closeness again without having to worry about what Aki would say.
Hiroto helped Kai in getting his clothes off, and when he was just as nude as
the older man, he quickly got under the covers with him and wrapped his smaller
body around him. "I missed you so, so much... you have to make it up to me for
scaring me like that." He was referring to the fact that Kai had given up so
easily a few days ago and let them be separated. He wrapped his two legs around
one of Kai's, pulling the limb closer so the other's thigh was snug between
his.
"Oh?" Kai grinned lightly at his boyfriend as he settled down under the covers
next to him, their nude bodies intertwined with one another perfectly. "And how
do you propose I do that?" Laying his head on the pillow, Kai gazed over at his
little lover and wrapped him in protective arms, just holding him close and
planning on never letting him go ever again.
Hiroto hummed softly at that, not wanting to actually put down a proposal in
words. He wanted to be spoiled again like the little brat he was, and that also
meant Kai thinking those kinds of things for him. "Well, what do you think I'd
enjoy?"
Kai could read it in Hiroto's eyes what it was the younger male was thinking,
but rather than point that out he bent down and pressed a soft kiss to plush
lips. "I think you would enjoy some action, ne?" That grin widened some and Kai
flipped them over to where he was hovering over Hiroto, mouth beginning to kiss
down a pale collarbone. "I'll even use my mouth on you this time~" It was a
light teasing, but Kai meant it too.
Hiroto was glad when Kai flipped them over, which meant that the other would be
taking control again. He loved to pleasure Kai as well, but he didn't like so
much to be in control of a sexual situation because he would always be less
experienced than his lover. He closed his eyes and hummed contently, loving to
feel Kai's lips on his skin again. He could feel himself getting aroused at the
words the older man spoke. He always loved it when Kai used his mouth on him,
even though he'd never fully returned the favor. "Hnn~"
The body language that Hiroto gave off just from the simple touch sent tendrils
of arousal running down Kai's own spine and he couldn't resist reaching between
the small male's legs to begin fisting him. Though smaller, Hiroto's cock felt
better than any other man's Kai had ever touched. "Mm..." He hummed lightly,
kissing down Hiroto's belly and dipping his tongue into his navel to tease.
"You feel good, Pon..." He purred, continuing southward until his tongue could
trace deliciously teasing around the base of Hiroto's shaft.
Hiroto's hands fisted in the sheets beneath him and he writhed slightly, the
teasing touches already driving him into an aroused frenzy. "A-aah... Kai..."
He was a little embarrassed at how quickly he'd gotten hard, his length
twitching when he felt the older man's tongue around the base. "Hhn...aah!"
"Nn..." Kai couldn't help reaching back with one hand and stroking himself when
he allowed his tongue to slide up the side of Hiroto's length towards the tip.
"Ahh..." A soft moan passed through his lips and he took the head into his
mouth, not hesitating to suckle and work his way down. His own hips pressed
forward into his hand, easily managing to help stroke himself to hardness while
he pleasured his little lover.
Hiroto couldn't hold back the twitch of his hips when Kai started taking him
into his mouth, a loud moan tearing itself from his throat. His lover always
had the power to reduce him to a moaning and whimpering mess within seconds. An
aroused blush adorned his torso and his toes curled in delicious wet, hot
pleasure. "Kai! Hnn! Good!"
Kai loved to see the way that Hiroto could just fall apart at the seams
whenever he started pleasuring him in this way, bringing him closer and closer
to completion with every passing stroke or flick of his tongue. At first it
used to be the fact that Hiroto was so pent up that he came so easily, but now
Kai knew he had talent, his tongue flicking over all the places he remembered
were sensitive to the small youth.
Hiroto started biting his lip, wanting the pleasure to keep coming and not
reach its peak too fast. He tried to breathe through the extreme feelings, but
he couldn't help his stomach tightening; it was just too good. After another
short minute, Hiroto could feel the pleasure building, quickly starting to get
overwhelming. "Ahh! Hnn! So c-close! I can't-!"
"Hng..." Kai moaned, the sound of it vibrating around Hiroto's jutting arousal
as he pleasured both himself and the youth beneath him. His suction became
greater and he bobbed his head in a nonsensical rhythm, trying to pull Hiroto
over the edge, even though he himself was not yet that close to coming. It
didn't matter, however. His own pleasure would come in time.
Kai's technique was working, because within seconds, Hiroto was arching off the
bed, his hips spasming as he released his seed into his lover's hot mouth.
"Aaah!" He pulled at the sheets desperately, once again amazed by how the older
man could make him lose his mind like that. "Ah... hhn... That was... hnn... so
good..."
Releasing his own erection, Kai grasped both of Hiroto's hips just seconds
before he came, keeping him from pressing too hard into his throat. He eagerly
swallowed all that Hiroto had to offer and then pulled back some to clean him
with his tongue, almost like a cat. "Yeah..." Kai panted softly, a small smile
on his lips to hear that Hiroto had enjoyed himself.
Hiroto pulled the older male up to his face and smiled up at him. "You always
make me feel so incredibly good..." At his own words, he realized he had never
made his lover feel that good in return. Sure, he had given him hand jobs
before, and he'd also attempted a few blowjobs, but he'd never really known how
to do it properly. His own words made him blush, but he said them anyway.
"Teach me. I want to be able to make you feel like that too. I want to know how
to do it properly."
"Teach you?" Kai breathed softly, pressing his lips to the side of his little
lover's face affectionately. "You always pleasure me perfectly, Hiropon."
Chuckling, Kai tried to ignore the way his arousal throbbed with need between
his legs. "Just your touch is enough." Reaching for one of Hiroto's hands, Kai
gently brought it down to his erection and encouraged the small youth to take
it in his grip so that he could grind against it in need.
Hiroto shook his head when Kai didn't seem to understand what he meant. He did
take the other male's arousal into his hand, but only stroked it softly and
slowly as to not distract him from their conversation too much yet not let him
suffer either. "That's not what I mean... I want to learn to use my mouth on
you, like you just did to me." His voice was soft and slightly unsure, not at
all confident that he would be able to do it properly, even with his lover's
help.
Moaning softly, Kai probably would have become rather distracted had Hiroto not
taken the precaution to only stroke him slowly. A whine almost escaped his lips
had Hiroto's voice not caught his attention. Dark eyes drifted back up to meet
his young lover's and Kai was surprised at the conviction he found there. "I
could try... The only way I know is the way I was taught, though, and it's a
little strange at first." Gently pulling himself from Hiroto's grip, Kai sat
back, taking a deep breath to control himself. "Are you sure you want to
learn?"
When Kai said he could teach him, Hiroto nodded enthusiastically. If he
wouldn't be able to have penetrative sex with his lover for the coming time, he
wanted to be able to do other things to please him. "I don't mind if it's
strange, I really want to learn how to do it." He sat up when Kai sat back,
waiting for the other male to tell him what to do.
Smiling at the enthusiasm of Hiroto's, Kai nodded his head and motioned towards
the edge of the bed. "Lay down on your back and put your head just a little off
the edge. Not all the way, though, or all the blood will rush to your head." He
chuckled at the last bit before crawling off the edge of bed himself, unable to
hold back from taking his erection back in hand and stroking a little to keep
him as needy as he truly was.
Hiroto eagerly did as he was told, lying down across the bed and letting his
head hang down slightly from the edge. He looked at his lover from his upside-
down position with curious eyes, a slight smile on his lips. This was a little
weird indeed, but he guessed the older man knew what he was talking about. He
had to hold back a chuckle at how the world looked like this, and especially
his needy lover, because he didn't want to offend Kai or want him to think he
wasn't prepared to do this.
Kai wondered how his own first lover had managed to not be amused at the
position of him on the bed, like he was feeling amusement watching Hiroto's
bright eyes peering at him, barely masking his own amusement. But just as soon
as that thought had appeared, it vanished and Kai remembered what he needed to
be doing. "Now just relax." Stepping closer, Kai positioned his erection at
Hiroto's lips, trying to encourage him to lick or touch as he pleased. "And try
to please me... I'll show you the rest in just a few minutes after we get
warmed up to this."
Hiroto's own amusement was taken away when the older man's arousal was pressed
to his lips. Even though it also looked funny, there was something strangely
exciting about lying there at the older man's mercy. His tongue darted out to
lick at the head, the taste familiar because of his former tries of pleasuring
Kai with his mouth. He sucked softly at the tip, his tongue flicking against
the hot flesh. It was nice to feel the smooth, slick skin of the older male's
erection on his lips, the organ throbbing in an even rhythm against his own,
sensitive skin. "Hmnn..."
"Oh fuck..." Kai couldn't help leaning forward, pressing his hands into the
mattress to hold himself up. His hips thrust forward some of their own accord
while he reveled in the intense pleasure brought forth by Hiroto's talented
tongue and lips. The suction was perfect, causing Kai's legs to begin trembling
slightly, and he couldn't help but wonder what it would be like when Hiroto
actually did manage to take him into his mouth. "Now... ahh... open your
mouth... In this position it'll help keep you from--hng--gagging..."
Hiroto obeyed Kai's instructions perfectly, opening his mouth and taking in
what was offered to him. It was strange in his mind that he was actually
working his tongue over the upper-side of his lover's cock instead of the
underside like he had been doing the other times, and also what Kai usually did
to him. The next part that was coming was the part he was actually nervous
about, because he had never attempted to take the other further than the back
of his mouth. Because of their size difference there was a rather large part of
Kai's arousal that didn't fit in his mouth, and to think that he was going to
have to swallow it all down was frightening, but he trusted the older man not
to hurt him.
"Just relax..." Kai coaxed, barely able to control himself when he felt that
warm wetness surrounding him, encasing him in velvety heat. "Ahh... Hold onto
my hips so you can stop me if I go too far..." For the moment Kai just worked
himself in and out of Hiroto's warm mouth, but as he started getting closer to
his own release, he knew that he would have to take this higher. Swallowing
hard, Kai bent to watch as he gently pushed himself deeper, easing himself down
Hiroto's throat and hoping his young boyfriend would stop him if he went too
far. Curse words wanted to spill from his lips at the pleasure he was feeling,
but he held them back in favor of gasping softly and watching the way Hiroto's
throat protruded slightly when his erection started to go down it. "You
alright, Pon...?" He gasped, moaning, legs trembling. "That's so good..."
Hiroto reached out and held onto Kai's hips, his heart beating a mile a minute
when the other man started to push himself deeper into his mouth. When the
other's length was pressed deep enough to enter his throat, Hiroto held his
breath and squeezed his eyes shut. It was a completely unfamiliar feeling, yet
it didn't hurt. At some point his body started protesting though and he had to
push the other back to gag and cough. "Sorry..." He said softly, before lying
down in the correct position again and pulling his lover's hips closer to try
again.
Kai whined softly when he was pushed from Hiroto's mouth and he couldn't help
the frustration that welled up, even if it was only a little and he immediately
felt guilty for it. "I-It's okay..." He knew these things took time to get used
to, but he wasn't a perfect person and therefore couldn't remain in control of
himself all the time. "Please..." Sweat beaded at his brow and he pressed his
erection towards Hiroto's mouth again, begging him to take him between his lips
again since he was no longer as confident he could do it himself and be in
control.
Hiroto didn't hesitate to take the other's large arousal into his mouth again.
This wasn't as scary as he thought it would be, and it didn't hurt either, so
he was starting to relax a little more. He started suckling and licking again,
holding loosely to Kai's hips and allowing him to push deeper as he pleased
once again.
Kai moaned low and pushed himself, as slowly as he could manage, into Hiroto's
mouth again, feeling the way the youth's muscles constricted around him as he
went down into his throat again. He wanted to thrust faster so he could cum
before Hiroto needed to push him back some to breathe, but at the same time he
wanted to revel in this amazing feeling for as long as he was able to. "Fuck,
Hiroto... this feels so good... Ahhn..."
It was easier the second time, Hiroto discovered, to hold back his gag reflex.
And when he did gag he just tried not to pull back and steel his mind to ignore
the feeling. He was encouraged by his lover's words and it made him bold,
pulling the older man's hips closer and taking Kai's cock into his mouth and
throat all the way. After a few seconds he was pulling back again for breath
before swallowing him down for the third time.
The way Hiroto was working him in and out of his mouth made Kai moan low and
repeatedly, his eyes following the way his erection made Hiroto's throat bulge
some with each inward thrust. "So close..." Bending his head down, Kai rested
it on Hiroto's flat stomach, while hands continued to fist in the sheets of the
bed. "Ahh, fuck, Hiroto, I'm-Ahhn!" At the last second Kai pulled back out of
Hiroto's throat and came in his mouth, his hips spasming and legs almost unable
to tolerate holding him up any longer. Therefore when he was finished Kai
slumped to the ground and just sat there, looking up at Hiroto in blatant
surprise and exhaustion.
Hiroto had just been about to push his lover away again because his gag reflex
was acting up, when Kai pulled out of his throat himself and shot his load into
his mouth. It took the younger male completely by surprise and out of instinct
he swallowed it to make sure he'd be able to breathe. Some of it had escaped
from his mouth though and was now trailing down his cheek, towards his eye. He
wiped it off with a finger quickly, before sucking the fluid off of it. His
throat felt raw, so the milky substance felt good going down it. He panted,
looking back at his lover, just as surprised how well it had gone considering
his inexperience.
Kai continued to sit on the floor for a few long moments before a smile spread
across his face and he bent forward to press soft lips to Hiroto's. "Thank
you... You're so perfect." Crawling back up on the bed, Kai tugged Hiroto after
him and held the youth's body against his own, just reveling in the closeness
of the two of them. "I don't ever want to leave you... or for you to leave me."
Kai nuzzled in that soft hair and pressed an affectionate kiss to Hiroto's
temple as he had the habit of doing. "I love you..."
Hiroto couldn't help but smile in return when Kai complimented him like that,
and when he was pulled into warm arms, he returned the embrace gladly. "I love
you too..." He noticed his voice was a little raspy, but didn't mind so much
since he'd successfully satisfied his lover. He bit his already swollen lip and
worried it slightly between his teeth. "I don't want to call nii-chan though...
I want to stay here."
"I'll call him later and ask him if you can stay the night here. For now... why
don't we get a real nap?" Kai's jaws widened in a yawn as he stretched and
prepared to lay down, Hiroto still held close to his body. "He knows where
you're at, so he shouldn't worry." Tugging Hiroto with him, Kai made his way to
the head of the bed where he eased both of them under the covers. "I'm really
sleepy." A small smile was on his lips even as he said this, and he hoped
Hiroto would oblige his request for a nap.
Hiroto moved along to get them situated in the bed properly and then just
continued to hold Kai close. He nodded and yawned in response to his
boyfriend's yawn. "I'm tired too..." He couldn't get the smile of his face,
finally proud of himself that he did a good job as a lover. "Kai-kun..? I...
rather enjoyed doing that... It was nice." He wanted the other to know that he
was open for another encounter like this one if Kai would want it too.
Kai simply smiled at his lover's words and tugged him even closer if that was
at all possible. "I'm really glad to hear that... I wouldn't mind doing that
again either." He chuckled softly, letting his dark eyes fall shut. He was
hoping that none of his band mates were going to come by again anytime soon
because this was pretty incriminating stuff should their view not be too open-
minded.
Hiroto relaxed completely, licking his lips once more to get the taste of his
lover's semen off of them. His hands pawed at the older man's back a few times
like he always did in his sleep, before he closed his eyes and allowed himself
to doze off, safely in his boyfriend's arms.
Once Hiroto had relaxed completely and Kai felt him dozing off, it was hard for
the slender brunette to not do the same. One more yawn and he was done for,
soon enough breathing deep and even holding his little lover to his chest
lovingly.
Chapter End Notes
     I've written a sequel to this because I felt it wasn't done just yet,
     it's in my archive as well ^^
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