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      Published: 2015-08-13 Updated: 2016-07-08 Chapters: 3/? Words: 12123
****** False Love ******
by Al_D_Baran
Summary
     Alfred Jones loves his brother very much. So, so much that he will do
     anything not to let this man taint him.
Notes
     « You had a temper like my jealousy:
     Too hot, too greedy.
     How could you leave me,
     When I needed to possess you?
     I hated you. I loved you, too. »
     — Wuthering Heights, Kate Bush
See the end of the work for more notes
***** Acte I *****
Chapter Summary
     Alfred loves his brother. But Arthur loves someone else.
            Alfred just doesn’t remember when he’s first started thinking of
his brother this way. He can’t recall the last time he’s touched himself to the
thought of someone’s else’s laugh, can’t recall having looked at pretty girls
like he’s done with Arthur. He remembers every little details about him, the
way his lips are delicately plump, the lovely cheekbones, slender body, shaped
like a cat and wonderfully fragile under all that determination.
There’s just no one else but Arthur. Their parents died long ago, leaving a
rather gaping hole in their house, filled with servants to raise them and see
to their every whims. He’s only ever had Arthur; he barely remembers even their
mother’s face, the gentle way she spoke… Alfred only remembers this part
because Arthur speaks to him this way, only taking their father’s harsh, driven
tone when he is working, making sure their company brings them wealth.
No one else is like Arthur. No one else is worth a genuine attention. Alfred
fakes being a lovely, outgoing young man. He attends every parties, humors the
ladies and wenches he sees. Once, he’s found one willing enough, dragged her
with suffocating kisses to the gardens. They’d found a comfortable, toppled
barrow behind a shed. He’d bunched her skirts against her corset, tugged her
panties down to spear inside.
All the while he thought of Arthur. Fisted his hand into the neatly arranged
hair to devour her neck. He drunk her moans, thinking of the sounds Arthur
could have made if he had been plowing inside him. He grunted something
unintelligible as he came, eyes closing, thinking of only him as he spilled.
The lass had seemed enamored enough not to mind, hair mused and lips red.
Alfred had smiled, gentlemanly helping her wash. If only she had been someone
else.
When he had been young, Alfred had thought himself disgusting. The crushing
weight of religion had him fully repentant, praying nights on end for the
feelings to stop, to just… end. When they never did and Arthur had noticed just
how ill he had become, he had asked, timid and hesitant, if love was a sin.
Arthur had frowned, apparently shaken to the core by the question and shook his
head.
“No, dear. Love’s never a sin. How could it be? He loves us. He makes our love
happens. It cannot be.”
If Arthur said it, he had naively thought, it had to be true.
.
.
.
The first time he met Francis Alfred wasn’t sure what to feel or think. Arthur
had been holding a sumptuous reception, crystal chandeliers shining with the
gentle light of a thousand candles. The house was able to welcome around a
hundred and fifty guests in the great ballroom and amongst the hundreds of
other wealthy industrials and people of vaguely noble origins, were a few
peasants.
One of them was a French immigrant whose bourgeois parents had fled the
Revolution, taking a liking to London, somehow, and stayed there. François—or
Francis, as he insisted to be called as he understood his name might have been
harder to pronounce—was a young doctor, just out of his studies and was the
most sunning person he had ever met.
Presenting himself as Arthur’s friend and extending one hand to be shook,
Alfred watched him, surprised into an open-mouthed silence as he watched him.
Skin pale and as smooth as porcelain, there was not a dent on it, not a single
pore out of place or too large. Francis’ hair was a perfect, golden blonde, his
eyebrows just furnished enough, the same shiny blonde. His eyelashes were long
enough to belong to a doll, fanning over deep indigo eyes. Francis was almost
too perfect to be real.
Turning to Arthur to see if he was dreaming of an angel, had noticed his
brother was watching the man with about the same surprise and incredulity, yet,
mixed with something he couldn’t quite get his fingers on. Arthur had moved his
arm for him, Francis laughing with a wonderfultenor. The man was too perfect to
be human. Alfred had felt rather scared.
Arthur had stood next to Francis, their shoulders brushing and the man sending
his brother all too tender stares. It seemed normal to him then that his sickly
brother was such good friend with his personal doctor, even if he had changed
him so recently. Alfred had thought it was nothing out of the ordinary; Francis
had been thirty for barely twenty-four hours then, Arthur was going to be
thirty-four in a few months… Their ages were close enough to form a better
friendship than between a seventy years-old man and one barely out of his
teenage years.
Oh, how naïve he had been.
Alfred could only scoff at how stupid he could be. The stares told everything,
even then. How could anyone not see? Arthur returned the Frenchman’s tender
gazes with timid, enamored, virginally bridal flutters of his eyelashes. His
red cheeks had been excused with a fever. He had pulled himself from the feast,
leaving him in charge as Francis obediently followed suit.
Francis’ terrible beauty could only have been a sign of how evil he was, Alfred
knows now.
Perhaps he is even the Antichrist; or Satan himself. After all, it has been
said, once the Devil will come back to walk the Earth, he will be someone
beautiful, to better charm… it has to be so. Francis is simply too perfect to
be anything but a devil. One that has lured his brother into its evil clutches.
.
.
.
He spies on them anytime he can. Sometimes, when he thinks no one is watching,
Francis turns Arthur’s face to his, pressing their lips together, as light as a
feather. Arthur blushes and hits him lightly on the shoulder, flustered like a
pure maiden. Francis smirks, perfect white teeth showing beneath his lips. They
are no sharp, contrary to what one could have thought.
A clever devil hides himself well, after all. So well that he passes for a
devout Christian, even though he spend his nights more than guarding his
brother’s fragile health at night. A clever devil must, after all, look
anything but an abomination. Alfred can see through it all. If Francis thinks
he is smart, he is gravely mistaken. He’s seen through his game almost
immediately.
Through a hole he’s drilled behind a portrait in his room, Alfred can watch
them to leisure. The hole gives right in front of Arthur’s bed. If he forces
his eye a little, he can see the door. Right in front of him, unseen, is
Arthur’s writing desk. In the morning he watches after he could hear them make
love—or fornicate, as he growl through his teeth, seething—, Francis will sit
there to write a note saying he will be in his own room as Arthur keeps him
around for his “fragile health”. The man mutters his note in a singing tone as
he writes it down, each time apparently leaving something else, silently
smiling at it.
Francis is infuriatingly good-natured. Alfred treats him like the lowest
peasant, yet, the man only smile, understanding like only a predator trying to
coax a bunny into its maws could do. Arthur has told him one night to “leave
the lad some time” since, after all, there has only ever been the two of them
and the servants and the old doctor Fletcher who cared little about getting to
know them.
Most nights, Francis sneaks into Arthur’s room, avoiding patrolling servants
and guards with a precise knowledge of their rounds—perhaps even an ability to
turn invisible. Arthur is usually awake and welcomes him with open arms and
mouth, pulling Francis close, hands fisted into his coat as the Frenchman
brings their forehead together, a satisfied smile stretching his lips. If
Arthur is asleep, then, he simply undresses summarily, slipping inside the
blankets to sleep with Arthur wrapped in his arms.
If at first, he had been sure Francis was so handsome only because he was an
incubus, it seemed sex wasn’t something they had too often. Actually, Francis
barely did more than hug Arthur, pulling him close, sweetly burying his face
into his neck, looking as if the whole world could have been at peace in that
moment.
When something sexual happens for the first time when he’s been watching,
Arthur initiates it all. After enough poems and passionate kisses and pecks on
his neck, his brother turns to Francis, pulls him down on the bed by his
suspenders. Alfred gags, almost vomiting on the carpet as he hears him say to
take him.
Tainted. This awful man has tainted his brother, making him ask for such vile
things…
Alfred seethes, watching as Francis uses an unguent inside Arthur’s drawers,
something for dry skin he says is greasy enough for love-making. Arthur writes
on the bed as the devil touches him all over, dragging his almost talons-like
hands all over him, delicate artist hands rubbing, gripping, scratching all
over him.
His head finds its way between Arthur’s thighs, skilled jaws opening to allow
his brother’s length inside his throat. Arthur bites the back of his hand until
blood drips over his cheek, hips rising against the Frenchman’s face burrowed
between his trembling thighs.
Alfred only has to imagine his brother trembling like this under him, because
of him to need to palm his own, painfully tight trousers. He rubs his half-
erect cock, watching the scene behind the wall with hushed breaths, scared he
will be caught as much as they both seem to be. Francis pulls away with a small
chocking noise, some cum dribbling down his lips. Arthur looks up to him,
cheeks redder, ears a deep pink.
Francis only smile more, nuzzling his cheek to kiss him again. They undress
with trembling, eager hands. Arthur has a miserably hard time with his lover’s
shirt, pulling each buttons off their hooks with febrile breaths and trembling,
nimble fingers. Francis only chuckles, doing it for him, leaving the Brit the
honour to actually pull the garment off of him.
Alfred glares at the strong back, hiding him the view of his brother’s
perfectly pale skin turning to wonderful gold and sepia tones in the dim glow
of the oil lamps. Francis is lightly tanned with the time he spends outside
searching for flowers—he generally enjoys the garden very much, Alfred noticed
while following him. He can only scoff at this. Really? The devil found no ways
to manifest itself but a poor peasant?
When Francis rolls on top of them to enter him, there is a moment of silence.
They look at each other, Arthur’s nervousness being painfully palpable.
Alfred feels painfully hard, squeezing himself to the point of hurting as
Francis whispers something against Arthur’s ear. He groans.
Arthur giggles, slapping Francis’ shoulder again as the man leans away,
grinning from ear to ear.
“You’re an idiot,” he says, adoration making the words barely more than a
whisper.
“And you love me,” Francis replies, leaning down for a kiss, settling between
Arthur’s thighs again.
Alfred can barely see what is happening for the next minutes. He pulls away
from the hole, seeing only the end of the bed, Arthur’s feet trashing under the
blankets, pulling it away to revel his wriggling toes. He pulls his pants down
to stroke his cock, clinging to the wall, grunts and sighs reaching his ear,
helping him reach him peak into his palm as he imagines kissing Arthur’s
ankles, trust inside him like this…
When he looks into the hole again, Francis has rolled away. Arthur is clinging
to him, head against his shoulder, looking wonderfully spent. They speak in
whispers, Francis laughing happily as Arthur glares at him, only managing to
look like an angry kitten. Soon, he falls asleep, leaving Francis to watch him
for minutes on end, humming a song to himself.
Anger and jealousy keep Alfred awake for most of the night, trashing between
the sheets, the image of Arthur’s pleasure burned behind his retina.
.
.
.
Francis has to leave.
Alfred doesn’t know how, but he knows the man needs to leave their life.
Without him, he is convinced he’d have chances with Arthur if the devil would
just be gone.
He thinks of starting a rumour about Francis, to have him be incarcerated for
sodomy. He knows, however, that doing so would probably bring unforeseen
consequences for Arthur. Since Francis and his brother are practically joined
at the hips recently, people would guess the two are lover. After all, doctors
are allowed in rooms at any time, without questions…
Now, telling about them would bring only pain to his brother. He has to find
another way. Scare the man into going away… exorcise the devil inside him.
Whatever can work.
Alfred brews his plan for weeks. He thinks about every details, spying on the
two of them every nights he can. The two have an enviable sexual appetite,
Arthur often crawling on top of Francis to devour his lips for himself,
settling his face between his hairy thighs… Alfred could vomit at the mere
memory.
Francis is allowed at every reception held without a question, accompanying
Arthur through conversation, charming everyone with his quick wits and gentle
smiles, his knowledge of how the Kirkland Company’s industries worked and a
general impeccable behaviour. Alfred can only grip his glass in anger as he
watches him putting everyone breathing in his pocket.
Alfred, however, is not as naïve as everyone else. He sees right through
Francis’ game, knows exactly what kind of horrible things hide behind the man’s
gentle smiles. Maybe the man just wants to feed of Arthur’s sexual pleasure.
Arthur has been more tired than usual lately… he fears this damn incubus’
practically daily feedings have left his brother sick.
Arthur has always been of fragile health, sick more often than not, nailed to
bed with a cold or some kind of rare bronchitis. Alfred remembers governesses
he’s named for him through his childhood years sometimes even trying to prepare
him to the eventuality of death. His brother’s frailty has lead them to always
have a doctor at home—their estate is too far from London for a doctor to come
in a respectable amount of time—and yet, it seems ever since Francis has
arrived, his health has been plummeting.
It’s been subtle at first, but now, he seems to be cumulating colds. Alfred
openly shows his worry, asking his beloved brother if there is something he can
do for him, only to have Arthur push him away, waving off his fears assuredly.
Again a reception; Francis flees it hurriedly, a maid was giving birth to her
child, the delivery lasting for too long and being too difficult after almost a
day’s worth of contraction. Arthur had been pouting all night, tumbling around
the room as if drunk.
“I’m not sick,” he says, his forehead still pearling with tiny drops of sweat.
Alfred wants to shake him like a tree, hesitating due to his brother’s frail
body.
“Right. Come up. You need to rest.” Alfred pulls him close, breath hitching as
Arthur’s body crashes into his. He shivers, unsure of how he keeps control of
himself, how he can stop himself from just leaning in, taking his lips into a
kiss… There’s nothing he wants more than that.
Arthur coughs, clinging to him, his eyes almost rolling into the back of his
skull. People start to stare. Alfred hurries to reassure them, leading Arthur’s
hesitant steps back to his bedroom. The bed hasn’t been made yet and he thinks,
with sullenness, that they had sex just before leaving for the reception.
Arthur whimpers, mechanically pulling himself to the sweat-stained sheets,
burying his face into the pillow.
“Ca- call Fran… Francis… he’s… he knows what to do,” Arthur mutters, pulling a
drawer open half-way through. Alfred looks in, finding flacons and needles
inside it. He rummages through it, finding little but cotton balls and rubber
bands.
Oh, as if. Alfred knows Francis is the one who’s made his brother this way,
feverish and defenceless… there’s no ways he’s going to call for this devil
now.
Alfred looks at him, having the leisure now his dear brother his fast asleep,
so peaceful if for a few raspy breaths. He brushes his lips, wipes the sweat
from his forehead. Arthur mutters, calls for Francis softly, pairing the name
with a honey-dripping pet name. Alfred scoffs.
His shirt is sticking to him. Trembling, Alfred unbuttons it, nimble fingers
taking minutes for each of them. Arthur’s body is littered with soft red marks
from which, he imagines, Francis feeds off his brother’s energy during
intercourse. Fever almost drips out of every pores he touches, fingers ghosting
on the Briton’s soft, perfectly pink nipple.
Arthur twitches, calling out for Francis again in his delirium. He is so hot…
heat is practically radiating from him. For a moment, Alfred considers calling
Francis, worried with the Briton’s fever. But the devil’s made him this way…
and Arthur looks so exquisite like this, lips red, brows furrowed and cheeks
pinks.
He should be his, he thinks, unable to stop himself. He leans down just as he’s
wished he could earlier, joining their lips together, eyes closing then opening
to make sure his brother is still out of it. Arthur barely twitches, grumbling
something under his breath. Alfred fears he’s about to wake up, pulls away
hurriedly to watch him for what feels like an eternity. His brother still
breathes with difficulty, unresponsive.
He moves his hands to his chest, touching as if he had been missing it for
years. And he has been. He’s been watching, staring at Arthur since he was
barely more than ten. He’s noticed changes in his feelings for him when puberty
came, when he started touching himself, with only his brother’s soft lips in
mind, imagining them around his cock.
The thought of having Arthur’s mouth around his member is just enough to make
him hard. He groans, one hand brushing over his stomach, dipping into Arthur’s
pants. The skin of his prick his soft, Arthur is juvenile even there—hair is
almost lacking, he can barely push his fingers inside it. He grips his shaft,
staring at his beloved, pants around his knees, shirt open, looking just so
ravishing…
He lets go of Arthur deceivingly, stubbornly limp cock. He takes his own in one
hand, stroking it hard and fast. Alfred shivers, looking at Arthur’s
defenceless form on the bed, looms over him to trust his tongue inside his
mouth. Arthur tastes of tea, milk and cough syrup, with the faint, bitter
prickle of wine. Arthur answers with a soft moan, croaky breaths coming out of
him as Alfred pulls away. His lips are red and bruised, even more kissable.
Thinking of the breaths as moans, Alfred closes his eyes, wrapping his own lips
around Arthur’s delightful nipples. He nips, sucks and suckles with eagerness,
the apprehension of being caught only making him more aroused, using his other
hand to pinch the other. Arthur’s skin tastes of rose-scented soap, his cologne
gives a soft, minty aroma…
Arthur remembers the girl he’s slept with a few months ago, remembers he cute
little keens and moans, how he’s wished to hear Arthur like this… his brother
doesn’t quite make a sound now. He groans, hands rustling through the sheets,
squirming, calling for another man. Alfred gets up, vexed, ready to leave when
Arthur coughs again. He comes back, just to make sure he is alright, knowing he
must call Francis to tell him his brother his bed-ridden again.
Arthur’s lips are kiss-bruised still, his cheeks shows how bad the fever is.
Unable to resist, Alfred brings the head of his cock against Arthur’s lips,
pre-cum smearing on them. He’s so aroused he fears coming right on his face,
heart hammering in his chest. Panicked, he pulls away, just as Arthur
instinctively licks off the white liquid off his lips.
He imagines Arthur’s lips on his cock again, cheeks puffed and eyes closed, so
close to coming it’s almost all he needs. He touches himself in long, hard
grips, one hand turning Arthur’s face to look at him as he brings himself to
completion, peaking as Arthur looks to him through half-lidded eyes, falling
back asleep as soon as he comes in long, white ribbons. Alfred hurriedly covers
his cock, some white drops landing on Arthur’s chest and stomach.
Alfred wipes him clean, watching his sleeping brother with tender eyes. There’s
a noticeable tent in Arthur’s pants, but with the way he starts coughing again,
Alfred decides it’s better to call Francis to have him care for Arthur’s state.
He feels Arthur is a little more his now.
***** Acte II *****
Chapter Summary
     Alfred acts. It backfires.
Chapter Notes
     Could aptly be renamed disgusting porn for disgusting people. Thanks
     for the comments I felt bad forcing you guys because of my shit
     insecurities. Remember: if you want comments just be a bitch about
     it.
     “Late night we sing up songs, we sing ‘em slow take ‘em last long.
     Sparks grow to wild fly, two birds loving on wire.
     Late night we talk in our sleep, joke about the things that we
     usually keep.
     Never been crazy like this, check my eyes and tell me what it is.
     I'm sick for you and there's nothing I can do.”
     — Jesse Wood, “Sparks”
See the end of the chapter for more notes
Arthur doesn’t feel very much his for too long.
It is like Arthur and Francis are joined at the hip. They barely ever leave one
another, speaking in hushed tones over tousled bedsheets, hands joined, as if
they know they are watched. Alfred hoped his little stunt would have pushed
them apart: it seems Arthur doesn’t mind his “lover” obviously, shamelessly
groping him during auscultation—not that Francis could have, of course, done so
without taking his shirt off, at least, or touching him.
Alfred doesn’t care. Any gentle touches he sees as disgusting, clawed hands
gripping his brother. The man’s orders to have Arthur stay in his room with as
little stress as possible is just a way to devour him more. Arthur’s fever get
sometimes so high he can hear Francis sob against his neck, probably for anyone
who would have walked in, or of joy, as he has gained another soul. Perhaps
devils cry when their prey dies – he would have to find another, after all. The
other man is too far gone to hear at all.
It should be him holding Arthur like this in these hard moments. Him praising
his brother to eat, him who should give him medication. Francis is just a devil
trying to keep its favourite prey alive. He cries only for a lost meal.
There’s not much he can do, still. Francis has shut himself with Arthur in the
young man’s room and naïve guards won’t even let him in, even when they are
brothers.
He needs Francis to heal his brother, too.
So he plans. Eventually, he will be able to get rid of this vile demon.
He just has to be patient.
.
.
.
It takes until spring for Arthur’s health to become stable once again. After
weeks of watch, staying up, listening to the young industrial’s feverish
babbles, it pays off for Francis. His prey is healthy once again, recovering
the weight he’s loss to such an extended infection. Alfred hears now, that what
his brother has been suffering is pneumonia.
Just a side-effect of the incubus’ magic draining him, he thinks. Arthur has
been weak enough to catch a cold, which then simply became worst due to the
terrible weather of the winter. The boy wonders if a demon’s presence between
their walls has cause them to face such a rude winter. Spring is well-
established now, with flowers blooming in the gardens, right under his
brother’s window.
Francis and him cuddle during the day, pressed against one another, hands
joined, thinking no one can see them in the cover of the young master’s
bedroom, watching the roses of the garden, the elaborate fountain’s water
reaching almost as high as the room’s balcony. Alfred gags when he sees them
make love in the daylight, Arthur’s boyish form nestled in Francis’ hairy arms,
his stronger frame against the frail, wiry one of his brother, glowing the pale
light of dawn.
Arthur seems invigorated by the sex, requesting it with laughs, mocking the
devil’s lack of enthusiasm – he’s so old, after all. Could it be a trick to his
mind? Or is it simply a poison left in bite-marks, like a vampire would have
sucked the blood out of the tiny punctures, a drug making him dependant on the
feeling of his soul being slowly sucked out of him? It could even be both, he
thinks, gritting his teeth.
The last few days, Arthur has been able to take work full-time again, and seems
less tired than he used to be after supervising the factories’ production.
Alfred decides of a plan, putting it to work, hopeful that everything would go
smoothly. He leaves a note in Francis’ office, just minutes he comes inside to
look at his paper before leaving to sneak in Arthur’s bedroom, carefully
imitating Arthur’s handwriting, gagging through every words.
“Francis,
Please, come join me by the fountain.
Some fresh air would both do us some good.
Love, Arthur.”
Arthur is always very straight-forward in his notes. No need to overcrowd a
tiny bit of paper with loving words – they could be found by such an
imprudence. He can allow himself the signature, to add the word love, still. He
and Francis, after all, are such good friends and never part from one another.
The servants will just think these two chums are going on a little walk
outside, joined by the hip like a Siamese twins, welded together by friendship.
Or dark magic, Alfred thinks with a scoff.
Hiding in the hallway, he sees him, walking nonchalantly, whistling to himself.
He grumbles something in French about being hungry – and he will be for long,
Alfred thinks, grinning, seeing him come back outside, a light in his blue
eyes. Alfred rushes to the garden from the nearest door, hiding in the darkness
of the cedar hedges and flowers. The fountain is just a feet away, just under
Arthur’s bedroom. The window pours light all over the alley, yet, not until the
fountain, stopping only a feet before it.
The thrill of danger fills him with adrenaline. His hands are moist, he can’t
stand in place. Francis finally comes out, apparently none the wiser, even with
the strong light of his prey’s bedroom illuminating the garden. Francis is only
meters away from him, standing next to the fountain, watching it with a little
smile. Alfred takes a step to the side as he checks his pocket watch – a pricy
gift from Arthur.
The grass creaks under his foot, alerting the Frenchman. If he would have
wanted to turn back before, now Alfred knew he was past the moment where he
could ever have had. Francis frowns, taking a step back, unsure of what his
lover’s brother could have been doing at their little secret rendezvous, the
coincidence too great to be simply just that.
“Alfred? Que fais-tu là à ce—” The Frenchman doesn’t even have the time to
protest. Alfred tackles him, one hand on his mouth. The taller man falls in an
instant, wrestling to get him off with vigor, even trying to bite him. Alfred
strikes him once, knuckles bruising on the man’s cheek. Francis’ nails dig in
the skin of his forearm, leaving three red stripes. The demon’s panicked eyes
stare not at him, but at the bedroom upstairs.
His desperation only excites him further. Alfred feels elated, features twisted
with a terrifying grin.
Alfred groans, struggling to overpower him, still him into submission. Hitting
him once again, the demon lets out a muffled groan, becoming limp for a second.
He takes the occasion, looking up for a weapon, his eyes meeting with the
fountain, its pure white marble almost glowing in the dark. Francis’ head meets
it with too much ease, rock meeting bone with a series of sickening crunch.
Alfred doesn’t remember starting to bash the man’s head against the hard,
polished stone. But the blood covers it, soiling even the water. Francis is
limps in his hands, hardly moving, probably only because of post-mortem spasms.
His face is painted red, even the hair he prides himself so much in is now
soaked thoroughly, the long, blonde strands dripping blood onto the bluish
grass.
Alfred thinks he should feel remorse but as he looks at Francis’ corpse, the
thrill of the kill only fills him once again. He’s hot, sweating and panting,
watching the man’s hollow eyes look at nothing, his unmoving arm in the water
of the fountain. Alfred wants to laugh, somehow managing to stifle it. He walks
away, cleaning his bloody hands in the water, with one last look to the corpse,
smiling as he leaves for Arthur’s room, just to see him before going to bed.
His dearest brother as fallen asleep in bed, the light of his room still lit.
Alfred closes them, blowing on a candle next to the bed, covering Arthur’s
sleeping body with a blanket. The young man frowns without waking, patting the
empty spot next to him for Francis’ warmth, snuggling closer to the
nothingness. Alfred smiles, kissing him good night, on the lips, this time.
When he leaves, he makes sure to burn the note he left in the office. Wealthy,
noble industrial or not, the murder of a bourgeois is nothing he wants on his
brother’s hands.
Now, he will be only his, Alfred thinks as he falls asleep, content.
.
.
.
Francis isn’t dead.
He doesn’t know how.
Alfred has no ideas how the man could have survived to such dire wounds, but
the man is alive, resting in a bed placed in Arthur’s room. The servants, eager
to escape their distraught patron’s fury, have made up a story about a stalker
prowling around the property, sometimes even entering. Arthur gobbled it up
without a second thought, as Francis cannot even say who attacked him.
The man woke up just two days ago, confused, not quite responsive but to
Arthur. A servant had found him, only minutes after Alfred had left the
gruesome scene, sprawled in the garden, slowly bleeding to death, still
twitching, exhaling what Alfred had hoped to be his last, few raspy breaths.
The violent sobs wrecking Arthur had forced the servants to have him sit down
and inhale smoke, the young man shaking from every limbs, obviously
understandably completely hysterical.
Alfred seethes. Not only has his plan failed, but it fully backfired, exploding
right into his face. Arthur spends all of his time with his stupid lover. The
damages to his brain turned him childish, only good to be thrown into an
institution to be starved to death by uncaring staff, Alfred thinks. Arthur,
however, is willing to keep him around, feeding him and washing him, changing
the bandages and administrating him pain-killers for the violent pains, holding
him down during fit of seizures.
If Francis has become stupid and unable to form clear sentences, he seems to
have not loss too much of his intelligence. The man understands when he’s
spoken too, and above all, remembers clearly his love for his brother, giggling
at the kisses he receives, asking to be hugged innocently. Alfred scoffs – this
could have been cute, if the demon hadn’t been a good fifty pounds heavier than
Arthur.
When Francis’ head heals from the attack, he still is the same. Unable to walk
properly, to hold a spoon, childish and scared by the very sight of him. Arthur
assumes with a sheepish smile that it is merely the damage, asking dozens of
physicians to come to his help, even engaging a renowned doctor Edelstein to
help manage his own health and Francis’.
He dresses him each morning, making sure to bring him outside, to the dining
room. A servant is asked to watch over him during reception, that Spanish man
he had always been so friendly with. After all, the servants said he was so
good with children. Alfred proposes his help, thinking it would be so simple to
just inject him with a mortal dose of morphine, but Arthur refuses.
“Oh, Alfred,” he says, sounding so desolate he regrets to have asked, “I’m
sorry, dear, he’s still scared of you… this is so odd. You need to have fun
too, during these nights.”
He barely sees Arthur anymore. The man locks himself inside his room with his
walking, giggling corpse, rarely attending his own receptions, if only to rush
back upstairs and soothe his useless demon if he just had a nightmare.
Alfred’s jealousy is an ever-growing monster. He refuses to even see his
brother most of the time – Arthur is, anyway, most of the time, welded to his
retarded baby, feeding and cleaning him just like a toddler would need to be.
Arthur simply doesn’t have any time for him, Arthur only has time for his
stupid incubus, he only has time to care for him.
Just saying the name fills him with rage. Punching the nearest object, Alfred
watches as the flower pot crumbles as it touches the floor, water and porcelain
flying to every corners. He calls a maid to clean, catching her as she’s about
to leave, closing the door in front of her, an inviting smile on his lips.
“Miss,” he says, hearing the click of the door, leaving them both in silence.
“Perhaps you’d enjoy coming with me to the gardens. It’s been quite lonely for
me, recently… I would sure enjoy the company of a lovely wench like you.”
He leads her away into the gardens, even into the woods. She’s pretty, smiling
and giggly, following him with puppy-like thrusts right after he announces how
perturbed and grievous he is of what happened to his brother’s best friend. The
compassion he fakes makes her cling to him, as if trying to comfort him, like
any stupid woman would have. Alfred smirks, takes her hand and kisses her
softly.
To be favored by a Lord like Alfred is an hopeless chance for her, he knows,
and uses to his advantage. Easily, he pushes her against a tree, bunching her
skirts up and takes her without waiting. She squeals, holding onto his strong
shoulders with a wonderful moan. Holding the wench’s wrists above her head, he
thrusts into her, eyes closed, imagining Arthur there with him, calling his
name in a whorish voice like hers.
He spills inside and pulls away, uncaring for her pleasure, pulling his pants
up without even a look for her. When the wench tries to hug him, as she thinks
post-coital bliss should be spent, he guesses with a scoff, not even sparing
her a single glance.
Timidly, she asks, “My… My Lord, you have come inside me…”
“Yes. Is there a problem?”
“N, no, sir, but… you are not without knowing—“
“That you could get pregnant?” Alfred chuckles, feeling somehow glad his
brother is no woman. Like this, he couldn’t get his stupid incubus’ child,
which would surely suck all life out of him. Maybe this is what the incubus
wants to do, taking his brother so often… is so stupid that he cannot recognize
man from woman? Alfred wouldn’t be surprised. The idiot always had had the
intelligence of a caged bird, watching itself in its tiny mirror. “Yes. I do
know that.”
She gives him a mousy, timid smile.
He returns with a wide one, showing his straight, perfect teeth. “Don’t worry,
sweetheart. You don’t have to think about that. You won’t get pregnant.”
“Really? But Sir, how?”
Such a dumb little doe. Smiling wider than ever, Alfred easily pushed her to
the ground, sitting on her body, knees weighing on her weak forearms. The girl
fought, but as he joined his hands around her neck, she could not even let out
a scream. The excitement and shivers from his last attempts were back, filling
him with both adrenaline and joy. To clearly see life dwindle from her pretty
green eyes, the intricate hairdo ruined, blonde strands falling around her as
she trashed.
Eventually, she stopped, limp and unmoving, eyes half-lidded and mouth still
open. Dead. Alfred stood up, watching the blue marks on her neck and palmed his
half-hard cock. The sight of her glassy eyes, body sprawled there… Alfred
thought of Arthur, smiling wide.
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Alfred wakes in the night, troubled by the dream of his brother moaning under
him. The room is empty but for him, and, as if on instinct, he pats the bed
beside him, just to see if it really was indeed just a dream. There is no one
next to him, warm or cold, but there are noises. Standing up, he walks to the
portrait, guided by the conspicuous noises. Was the incubus back on his feet
during the night? Was he faking to be diminished by his attack, just to slip
right under his nose and gain even more of Arthur’s sympathy and time?
Alfred moves the portrait to the desk, sitting on it to be on a comfortable
height, closing one eye to watch through the hole. A gasp escapes him
instantly; he has to cover his mouth, too shocked to even form a thought. Of
course, the two of them were having sex – what else were they ever doing?
Recently, Arthur has been sleeping with one eye open to make sure his friend
hasn’t been missing anything, insisting to be the one to take care of him,
still. They haven’t had sex for days now, Francis’ state not allowing for
anything to happen.
And even if he could get it up, would the diminished, stupid man understand
anything that was happening? If he enjoyed sex before, Alfred wondered if the
man would like it now, when his idea of affection seemed to have reverted to
kisses and hugs – both of which Arthur was more than willing to dispense. Even
if he would want to have sex, the man’s movements are too choppy now, he’d be
unable to aim and imprecise.
Arthur seems to have found a way to pleasure him, still, taking note of the
demon’s injuries and inability to do much but be black hole for both their
energy and money; he’s bouncing on his cock, legs folded under him, hands
around the incubus’ face, one of them petting his hair tenderly. Alfred gags at
the sight, convinced his brother is painfully manipulated, boiling as he hears
his throaty, breathless moans.
The demon has a permanent frown, calling to Arthur in babbles, holding on to
his wrists tightly. Arthur needs to carefully time his movements, sometimes
stopping entirely to make sure the man’s cock doesn’t slip out of him. “It’s
alright, love,” he whispers, languidly fucking himself on him, eyes closing
sometimes to enjoy the feeling of the slow, tender penetration. “I love you, I
love you, I love you,” he repeats, a sob in his voice.
“Arthur,” Francis croaks, the word coming out oddly from him. Alfred frowns –
it’s the first time he actually hears him say a real word. He sounds oddly
distressed… the boy grins, recognizing the emotion without trouble. The wench
he’s fucked earlier this week had the same cry in her throat, calling for her
as he choked her.
He’s glad to hear him suffer at first – it soon changes to anger and despite,
he scoffs as he stares to them. Arthur is moving up on him, and the asshole
doesn’t even look half hard. Wasn’t he happy to be buried there before? Alfred
wishes he could spit on him. He’s taking Arthur just like he wishes, making
love to him when he’s supposed to love him, and he’s making such a face? Isn’t
he supposed to love this? What an imbecile.
With rage, he returns to bed, pleasuring himself with the eagerness of a
teenager in love, Arthur’s pleasure-filled face imprinted behind his eyelids.
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Alfred pulls away from the hole before he can see Arthur lift himself off,
crying silently, earning himself a worried gaze from Francis’ teary eyes. The
man doesn’t understand, but Arthur knows. Francis is confused, reaching to him
with a jumbled sentence, the word undisguisable from each other, apparently
just as distressed from the sexual touches as he is to see him cry like this, a
hand over his mouth, face contorted with sobs.
“I’m sorry,” he mumbles, pulling the doctor’s clothes up, fingers nimble from
the lack of sleep and exhaustion. It’s been days since the last time he slept
on both ears, always on high alert, always waiting for Francis to convulse. He
still doesn’t know who has hurt him. It hurts to be helpless to avenge him, to
always need help to lift him up, to clean him… it also hurts to see Francis so
diminished, apparently not so aware of his condition.
But it’s still Francis, he thinks, seeing his smile as he weakly reaches up to
wipe his cheeks, awkwardly drying his tears, giggling as he smiles. Smiles are
good, he knows. Tears are not, he knows, too. “I’m alright,” Arthur assures,
pulling Francis close, mouth hovering next to his lips before he kisses his
forehead, Francis pulling him down to peck his mouth with a mischievous smile
that looks so much like the annoying, infuriating Frenchman he knows that he
wants to pull him close and let him kiss all of his worries and pains away.
Yet he knows, of course, the Francis who was the one to carry him and treat him
is gone. The one who’s healed him all winter won’t come back – he will never be
the same. Love is about accepting and never giving up… Arthur holds him close,
Francis eventually falling asleep against him, slumbering peacefully against
his shoulder, just like a little child, loosely holding him. So what if Francis
is childish and throws tantrum like a baby, crying and yelling when servants
try to make him eat something he doesn’t like? So what if Francis wets himself
and soils the bed like a toddler? So what if Francis can’t ever read him poetry
and sing him to sleep? So what if he can’t be sexually satisfied from him
again?
Arthur knows Francis would be there holding him. He would be there, cleaning
him, singing lullabies to him. Francis would be there. Arthur knows and he
won’t let him down. He’ll be there to reassure him when he needs to be
medicated, he’ll be there to kiss the nightmares away. Kissing Francis’ temple,
Arthur feels peaceful, if sorrowful, watching Francis sleeping, a calm, great
strength filling him. He’d love him anyway. He would.
“Despite everything, it’s still him,” he whispers against his forehead, eyes
closing, still smelling the same sweet scent in his hair. His fingertips still
feeling the same softness on his skin. His body still giving the same warmth.
It would always be Francis.
Chapter End Notes
     hey an undertale quote because i'm a cool kid and i had some feels.
     dédicace à yanna qui adore undertale. et moi j'adore yanna.
     Feed me your comments now or I'll grow saltier. And like next year
     you'll have more stuff. In the end you can see I have 10,000x more
     ease writing Arthur than Alfred. Or well, it's easier to write Alfred
     when he's an awkward love nugget AND NOT A FUCKING DICKFUCK LIKE
     HERE. Christ.
     Comments are really great though. I'm past the point I wanted to go
     so, maybe the next two parts will be there sooner than this.
     I'd love a beta because I suck at editing and obviously I'm French so
     my English is disgusting. I edited it vaguely but welp. it's hard.
***** Acte III *****
Chapter Summary
     Arthur falters. Alfred gets what he's wanted.
Chapter Notes
     There is the new version of the ending in this chapter. Thank you for
     the kind comments, I hope you'll still like this fic!
     I erased the message and first version and accidentaly erased like 10
     comments?? fuck. Anyway. Sorry guys ywy
     “Last night in your sleep
     Did you dream you were trapped in a room?
     'Cause I confess in all of mine
     That I draw walls around you”
     — Lotte Kestner, “Little Things”
See the end of the chapter for more notes
It’s summer again when Arthur decides it’s time to let Francis be alone,
sometimes. At first, the man whined and seemed to insist for him to stay but
after a few times spent with Antonio – the caretaker he appointed when he needs
to leave for even as short as a minute –, Francis doesn’t seem as upset as he
used to be when he has to attend to a meeting. There’s no more fussing, no more
crying, no more sobbing… He still needs to hug him when he comes back, but when
he’s gone, there’s nothing he wants more but to have Francis in his arms.
He’d love for Francis to stand up and come to meet him, but the poor man’s legs
simply cannot carry him anymore. They’ve tried a wheelchair, too, to no avail:
Francis, who was once a dexterous, talented surgeon, cannot even roll himself
to meet him, his hands unable to grip the wheels right. It hurts to seem him
like this, but the way his lover’s smile widens each time he see him come back
is more than enough, the unsuccessful attempts he makes at getting closer
compensating for his lack of mobility.
Sometimes even, Francis tries to stand up, Antonio holding him tightly, the man
slowly making tiny steps toward him, needing help to stand straight as he hugs
him. Arthur holds him close, soothed from the day’s hard work as he can take in
the same old smell, roses and the spices of wine. Francis’ body has thinned,
but the way his arms wrap around him, the insistence of his nuzzling has not.
Francis has always somewhat been like an overgrown child. It doesn’t feel so
odd, even to answer him tenderly rather than to fake annoyance.
Days pass without him seeing, June coming to an end abruptly. Suddenly, Arthur
remembers he hasn’t seen Alfred much during the past few weeks. He feels truly
sorry for his little brother, understanding the poor teenager’s anger about
being holed up inside. This prowler has even murdered and even raped a maid…
Arthur can’t think of letting him go outside, even on the porch. It’s going to
be his birthday soon, he thinks, with a little smile. Francis’ too, he recalls,
his lips quickly turning to a pout.
Francis is going to be thirty-one soon, Alfred will be eighteen even sooner. He
must admit he feels guilty about not being there for him recently, but the last
months have been hectic. Between his own illness and now, his duty to care for
his diminished lover and all of the work he needs to do, there simply wasn’t
enough time he could spend with his brother. Now that Francis can be left
without him, Arthur knows it’s time to ask for his brother to let him have some
time with him.
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.
When Arthur asked him to spend time with him, Alfred couldn’t contain his joy,
imagining everything they could do together. Obviously, going in town was
impossible because of the devil’s possible need to ruin their time together,
but even a few hours after spending so much time apart fills him with
impossible joy. Already, he imagines them, kissing romantically under the
streams of the fountain, Arthur falling for him, like a brushing bride, in the
most cliché of fairy tales.
Alfred waits for him outside, seeing him through the windows of his bedroom,
kissing Francis’ forehead as he finished buttoning his shirt. Francis clings to
his, looking at him with enamoured puppy eyes. Alfred keeps himself from
gagging, rolling his eyes like any teenager would have, sitting on the edge of
the fountain.
Arthur meets him soon enough, his eyes moving the pristine marble, obviously
uncomfortable nonetheless, eyes looking back to his room, as if wondering if
this is a good idea, still. Alfred scoots up, offering his arm gallantly,
dragging his brother away to the gardens.  The young man is smiling wide, his
tired features lighting up beautifully. Alfred can simply feel his heart melt,
needing all of his self-control not to just kiss him on the spot.
“So… how have you been?” Arthur asks as they stroll through the fragrant
flowers, both looking at gardeners trimming the hays into various shapes once
in a while. Alfred makes his brother takes the same path as he does when he
brings the demon out for some fresh air, hoping he may get the same emotions as
when he spied on them. Without fail, Arthur looks at the scenery with
melancholy, as if missing the times where his lover dragged him behind bushes
for passionate kisses.
It will come for them too, he knows.
“Oh… studies have been doing quite good.” Alfred detests mathematics and such,
but he needs to be there to take care of the business if anything happens to
Arthur. He pays little attention in class, preferring to read history books and
daydream of Egypt, where he knows hidden wonders lay, waiting to be dusted out
of their thousands years hibernation.
Arthur smiles, following him along the same path, looking at him fondly.
“That’s good. You need to take it all seriously. Our companies are counting on
you.”
Oh, he doubts he will ever need to even lift a finger for their business.
Arthur leads them all with an iron hand, owning almost a third of the factories
in London alone, pandering to many domains, and even owning a small number of
workshops on the other side of the Channel. It doesn’t please him, but the
French money pays them even more extra supply, allows them to make even more
money. Alfred can’t mind, if these idiotic Frenchmen are going to buy their
products.
“Yeah.” It’s awkward and they both know it, laughing at their own lack of
words. Alfred looks up again, staring at the garden as he points to the hays.
“Hey, do you remember when you got so drunk you got lost in the gardens? I
thought Father was going to kill you.”
Arthur gasps, but soon breaks into laughter, rolling his eyes. Imitating their
gruff father’s voice, he says, “What are you doing, young man? Don’t you
realize the fate of the company is on your shoulders?”
“Oh Lord! You can still imitate him perfectly!” After all this time!
They both miss him, but he laughs too, remembering the too soft punishments and
the lifted, yet never dangerous palms. And even more, he remembers Arthur’s
rebellious spirit, his lack of discipline and ever-free mind, somehow becoming
the humdrum and meticulous owner there is. Of course, Arthur still drinks as
much as he can, going to bed quite drunk even more nowadays. He’s seen him
drinking.
Arthur grins, proud of his ability to make his not-so-little brother laugh
still, carrying with their walk to bring them to a more intimate bench, out of
the view of every gardeners, hidden by tall arches covered with heavy flowers,
hanging around the laced wood. The last gardener trimming the cedars hiding the
little place leaves to leave them some privacy, stretching his neck curiously
to see them a little more.
They sit together, surrounded by the lovely smell of roses, Alfred feeling his
heart thump like the dumbest maiden’s would have. Arthur is somewhere else,
probably remembering every kisses and caresses he and Francis shared there, in
the soft light of lanterns – of course, he’s seen them. Deciding the best way
to his soon-to-be lover’s heart is through the path Francis traced, Alfred
picks the nearest rose – a yellow one – to hand it to him, placing it in the
Brit’s fingers.
A smile blooms on his lips, Arthur looking at him lovingly, shaking his head
with a sigh. “Me and Francis… we used to come here.”
There they are. Even if he doesn’t want to hear it, Alfred fakes compassion and
condolences, taking Arthur’s hand in his, holding back a gasp as he holds it
back, squeezing even.
“You guys were really close, uh?”
It’s just where he needs to poke and touch; bullet wounds still open and
bleeding.
Arthur visibly needs to swallow, looking away to hide his wet eyes, lips tight.
He tries to regain his composure to no avail, voice broken as he speaks, “Oh
Alfred… we we—we are. He’s just…” He sobs once, squeezing the rose tight. “He’s
changed… he’s there but… he’s still so sweet and gentle but…”
But now, he’s just an imbecile only capable of shitting his pants, Alfred
thinks, taking Arthur’s free hand in his own, letting the flower fall to keep
him from hurting himself. “You can talk to me,” he assures, knowing he needs to
be there for him.
“I love him,” Arthur blurts out, as if he had been holding the confession for a
hundred years. “God, I love him. I love him like they speak of fairy tales. I
love him.” Arthur sobs even more, looking at him as if he was going to leave
and flee. “It’s a sin – I know. But we loved… we love each other, and we’re
both...”
Alfred reaches for his cheek, wiping the tears rolling on the lovely cheekbones
with a soft smile.
“It’s alright,” he says. “God can’t hate you for this. After all, He made you
love him… it can’t be a sin.”
Arthur visibly relaxes, almost falling limp instantly as he understand Alfred
doesn’t mind. “I’m so sorry we hid this from you,” he says, wiping his cheeks
as more tears fall. “We couldn’t have known…” There’s a pause, Arthur’s mouth
opening and closing for a few times as he says again, “I still love him. He’s
not… he’s not the Francis I fell in love in. But… I love him.”
“I know… Arthur, it’s so terrible what’s happened… I wish there was something
to do.” Alfred could have fooled himself too. He plays comedy without needing
to even think of his words, Arthur thrusting him instantly – how could his
sweet, innocent baby brother could have attacked his sweet little demon?
He pulls him close, hugging him as he knows Arthur enjoyed to be hugged – he’d
always ask for the devil to hold him.
“There’s nothing we can do,” Arthur mutters against his neck, sobs slowing
growing stronger, hiccupping hard against his shirt. “And that’s the worst
fucking part of it all!” Arthur himself seems surprised by his roar, completely
powerless about his dear lover and friend’s situation. “We couldn’t even find
this fucker… God, I want him dead.” Arthur cries harder against him, one hand
balling into a fist, hitting his back weakly, letting himself go without the
fear of being judged. It eases Arthur’s wish to see him dead… but his lover
will never know.
Alfred holds him tight, rocking his distressed brother as the tears keep
pouring, a wide grin on his face. There he is, in his arms, trusting him… has
he ever let go of himself in the devil’s arms like this? Has he let him see
this side of him? The scared, vulnerable Arthur? Alfred clutches him, holding
the Brit close, all to himself…
“Don’t give up, Artie… you’ll find him, I’m sure of it.”
Oh, he has no ideas.
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.
.
Arthur trusts him now. With everything. Most days, they meet and talk, eat
together even, almost like a couple, even if it is earlier than usual
dinnertime, just so Arthur can run back to his room to help feed Francis.
Getting out of his room some more has given him a much better look. His pale
skin has gained a rosier tint, the bags under his eyes have faded. If at first,
his brother was unsure about leaving Francis, Antonio has showed to be a
capable caretaker.
Arthur leaves more often, at least a few hours per days, sometimes even twice,
just to spend time with him. After all, it’s only the two of them now and he
can confide in him, even lead on his shoulder when he needs to cry. If he stays
there for his brother, he’ll fall right into his arms, Alfred expects. It may
take a while, but he knows – it will happen.
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.
.
The day of Alfred’s birthday is finally there. Arthur has ordered the gift
weeks before, almost on the same day he first started meeting with Alfred more
often. There should be a big reception, but the boy specifically asked for the
celebration to be just the two of them and coming from a social animal like his
brother, it feels like a nice, attention, as if he wants them to be only
together. The boy is so sweet… Arthur feels a little like he is pampered,
telling Francis of his nice outings each time he comes back, the man soothed by
his voice as he falls asleep against him.
It still feels terrible to leave Francis for even a second, but he needs to
live, too. He knows his lover would hate to see him always stuck to him, always
making sure he is fine… even now, Francis knows he is happy to go and smiles as
he leaves, as he knows he’ll come back, even if it looks a little contrite.
With Alfred’s support and Francis’ loving hugs, he somehow feels more loved
than ever. Things are terribly different, he still needs to weep at night,
sometimes, but he is loved – and he knows.
After a small feast with just a few servants buzzing around them with the food,
they join in the poolroom. Alfred is eighteen now – it needs to be highlighted.
As the boy – now man – prepares the billiard, Arthur pours them both a glass of
the best whiskey they have.
“Cheers,” he says, pushing their glasses together, chugging down the alcohol in
a single gulp. “To my dear Alfred, who’s now a fine young man.”
Alfred cackles at his drinking habits, sipping the golden liquid with a
grimace. Arthur takes the occasion to laugh at him, pouring some more alcohol
in his glass.
“You’ll need to learn to drink,” Arthur muses, closing his eyes to enjoy the
burn of the liquor against his oesophagus. It’s been a while since he drank
with company and getting drunk sounds like a wonderful idea, especially with
Alfred. It had always been so nice to be buzzed from rum and wine with Francis…
he somehow feels nostalgic.
“It takes like ass,” Alfred grumbles, pouring himself some white wine,
preferring it to the overly strong taste of spiced rums and strong liquors like
his brother seems to be fond of. He’s never understood what the deal with
alcohol was; it just feels like a joke which no has explained the punchline to
him.
Arthur rolls his eyes, taking a billiard stick to start playing, drinking glass
after glass, soon switching to a stronger rum, mixing it with a high-quality
vodka he received from a Russia associate. Alfred smiles, knowing how much
Arthur loves to drink, watching him become slowly less precise, his speech
growing more slurred as the hours pass.
Around midnight, Arthur is a stumbling, euphoric mess, laughing at the dumbest
joke. Alfred drags him to the nearest couch, pulling him out of his coat to sit
with him, sipping on wine. They speak, Arthur can’t seem to follow, growing
cuddly as he snuggles against him, his pouty, wet lips so close Alfred can’t
even think of resisting…
Arthur doesn’t even fight when he pushes his tongue inside his mouth, the young
man vaguely groaning, his drunk mind needing so much time to process the
information that he even kisses back lazily, pushing his brother away with a
confused frown.
“Lad… s’ not… we can’t…” he grumbles, patting his hand. “What are you… are you
drunk?”
“I’m not drunk,” Alfred counters, actually not even feeling even slightly
tipsy.
He pushes him on the large couch, trapping him under his larger body, Arthur’s
small hands trying to push him off, albeit weakly, moving his head to avoid his
mouth as it seeks for his again. Alfred uses his thumb to open his mouth,
pulling his chin down to thrust it in, shivering at the taste of alcohol on his
tongue.
Arthur pulls away again, pulling himself up with a glare, though not quite
angered yet. “What d’ you think ye’re doin, Alfred?”
“Kissing you? Are you that drunk?” he asks, elated, joining their lips again.
“I love you. I’ve loved you since I was thirteen.”
Arthur gasps, pushing him more roughly, cheeks redder than before. “This… it’s…
this is wrong…” he tries to sound firm, voice and body answering to Alfred’s
lips on his neck, sucking on his collarbone. “We’re brothers!” he manages to
say clearly, stumbling away from the couch, obviously bothered by the
attention. “Alfred… we can’t… you must be misguided…”
“I’m not!” Alfred says firmly, pushing his brother against the nearest wall,
towering over him of half a feet. “I know what I’m feeling… and I love you…
like you love Francis…” The name was said with more animosity than intended.
Arthur was too drunk to care, eyes closed to avoid looking at him, legs weak
under him. “Alfred. Please. Stop. We… we can’t. It’s wrong.”
“Like you fucking another man?” he growls, punching the wall next to them hard
enough to make a frame fall and shatter on the ground.
This time, Arthur looks at him and glare. “Love isn’t wrong when it’s not in
the family. Don’t fucking try me.”
“Love is never wrong, you told me.”
“Alfred. This… con-conversation is over.”
The boy tries to pull him into a forceful kiss again, pulling away with a yelp
as Arthur bites his tongue hard.
“It’s over. Stop.” He’s never seen his brother this way, so firm… Arthur is
always so nice with him.
This is all the demon’s fault. Glaring, spitting the blood filling his mouth on
the carpet, Alfred stomps away, pointing his brother with a vengeful finger, “I
fucking hate you! I hate you so much!”
.
.
.
Arthur takes another gulp of red wine as he enters his room, just to chase the
taste of the blood and his brother off his tongue. Dazed, confused by the
alcohol and the turmoil of his own emotion, he even wakes Francis, who looks at
him with a frown. Soon, the man realizes his distress, opening his arms to
welcome him in.
Or he just wants a hug, of course. His eyes as wet, probably due to a nightmare
or waking up alone. He was supposed to come back much, much earlier and in a
whole other state. For a second, he mentally accuses him of his distress,
quickly realizing Francis cannot do anything about his state and has just been
unfortunate, on the wrong place, at the w0rong time. It’s not his fault, even
less his fault that he wishes him to be like he was before.
Arthur keeps himself from sobbing as he hugs him, feeling Francis’ arms wrap
around his waist to keep him close, laying his head against his shoulder. In a
drunken haze, Arthur joins their lips, as if to apologize for having kissed
someone else, using Francis’ gasp to kiss him deeply. Francis pushes him away
and frowns again, still clinging to his clothes.
“Non… non… pas… pas le vin,” he manages to say, eyes closed to focus on the
words.
Oh… Francis never liked to see him drunk. Laying in bed with him, Arthur nods.
“Désolé… je le ferai plus.” It won’t happen again… he needs to control himself,
to be there for him, to be able to provide him everything he needs.
“T’aim’,” Francis mutters, smiling as he gets in bed, still fully dressed,
merely kicking his boots to join him.
He leaves a sloppy kiss on his forehead and smiles, Francis returning the
favour with one of these wonderful smiles, mischievous, loving… Arthur curses
himself for wishing this could the old Francis, the one who would hug him and
part his legs, take him so sweetly, so gently… The sexual frustration and
Alfred’s previous attention makes his cock stir. He forces the need away,
holding Francis close to kiss him good night again.
.
.
.
Alfred is avoiding him.
At first, Arthur couldn’t believe it. If anyone should have been angrily
avoiding someone, it should have been him. What was Alfred even thinking?!
Kissing him, his brother? Certainly, this was just as wrong as homosexuality.
Arthur didn’t want to condemn himself even more than he was. The flames
destined for sodomites was enough of a punishment for his love. If he was ready
to face it, he didn’t want to drag Alfred into the flames. Even if it’s already
too late for him.
Arthur has never been more confused in a lifetime. Alfred, in love with him?
Surely, it’s all a joke, he convinced himself for about a day, quickly
realizing that his brother is truly avoiding him, glaring in anger each time he
looks at him, over-playing the lisp the bite gave to him to remind him of what
happened. He is completely serious about his feelings.
And he avoids him. He glares and he almost spits at him and Arthur has to admit
he feels terrible, driving even his brother away, frustrated by everything
around him. The lack of company and Francis’ childish state do wonders to make
him on edge, always ready to fall into his usual anger, sometimes even yelling
at Francis for the smallest things. It takes just minutes for him to calm down,
needing a few kisses and hugs to soothe him. The feeling of inadequacy stays,
of course, both for his lack of patience with his lover and inability to return
his brother’s feelings.
He doesn’t quite mind being loved by Alfred. Not as much as he should. It feels
somehow… good to know he can be loved still, even when he cares even less about
how he looks and sound now that he needs to care all day for someone else, even
if he looks so tired all the damn time because of Francis’ night terrors.
Alfred has always loved him, he knows. He can’t return his feelings, of course
– it would be so wrong.
The next days are so terrible on him he starts drinking again. It eases the
pain of loneliness, the pain of his own frustration and quenches his need to
forget. When he’s passed out, Arthur can forget about Francis’ demise, about
Alfred’s newfound hate for him. About how terribly long, blend and boring his
days are without anyone around him. After weeks’ worth of hugs and jokes
between him and the boy, loneliness has crept up on him again, like the most
devious of snakes.
Just like Alfred has planned. After all, he knows his brother best. And he
knows, he knows how lonely he feels, he can see it through the portrait. Arthur
misses him. If during the first days, he was rather irate at his brother’s
refusal, now, he’s calmed down. Alfred knows he simply has to be patient, to
let Francis help, with his constant refusal to let his brother feed him without
troubles recently, the fits he throws… he will have to thank the devil later.
Days pass. Soon. At night, he can see his brother awake, staring at the
ceiling, the pale moonlight painting the worry of his features, questions
filling his greens eyes. He huffs, he pouts, he groans. Alfred refuses him
still, even with gifts and offers of reconciliation, knowing patience is his
best ally.
Has he been too harsh on him? Arthur wonders. Is homosexuality a lesser sin
than incest? He thinks, unsure of where to put his head, mind fogged with
alcohol as he tries to make sense of it all. Francis becomes particularly
difficult in the next few weeks, probably upset by his consummation, but
frankly, Arthur cannot bring himself to care too much, especially when he’s
drunk. He’s been so good to Francis and as much as he loves the man, he
sometimes need a well-deserved break. Francis isn’t the same, he knows.
He’ll never be the same again. It hurts to know he’s grieving the old Francis,
while still loving him all the same. It hurts to be able to see him, yet
realizing more, each days passing, that his lover isn’t coming back. That he
won’t be there anymore, even though he can touch him. Filled with
incomprehension over his own emotions, Arthur drinks. He thinks of Alfred’s
strong arms, the way he hugged him, and, despite himself, the way he kissed
him.
Rum helps him forget, and he forgives himself once drunk enough, stumbling over
his own legs in the bar next to the pool table. He laughs, knowing how pathetic
he must look, but it’s the only way he’s find that helps him cope. Hop gives
him hope, the spices of rum makes him wish to be in a far away sea, fleeing
from everything here. It never lasts, he knows, still hopelessly weeping,
dropping on a couch, kicking and punching its cushions angrily, cheeks turning
red under the uninterrupted effort.
“Hey,” he hears Alfred before he sees him, pulling him away from the innocent
furniture. When he looks at him, Arthur knows he sees all he has, the tender
way his little brother looks at him, sitting him down.
Arthur slumps down, body going limp over the couch’s arm, face still red.
Alfred looks at him in the gentle way Francis used to, when he would drink and
he would be there, caressing him, singing to him, holding him… Francis always
knew how to make his pain easier to bear.
He’s always been so strong for Alfred. He hides his face in his hands, as if to
subtracts himself from his view, ashamed to be so drunk in front of him, when
he should be the wise one, when he’s always made sure he’d
He kisses him, so gently Arthur thinks he might be dreaming again. He pushes
him away with a groan, heart racing at the thought—he’s my brother, my little
brother, the baby brother I’ve raised—He couldn’t possibly do this, couldn’t
possibly let him kiss him. What kind of man would he be if he let his brother
kiss him? More, even, what kind of man would he be if he was to kiss anyone
else when his lover was still there, alive?
Even if he can’t kiss me back, he thought; Even if he can never make me love
again… I can’t—
Alfred kisses him again.
He pushes back.
Kiss. Push. Kiss, push, kiss, push… Alfred never relents, hands creeping under
his shirt as his lips slowly dragged across his cheeks, and his ear.
“It’s been so long, isn’t it,” Alfred murmurs, kissing him again, one hand
palming his half-hard cock. “I knew. I always knew.” Another kiss. The surprise
makes him mouth slip open, Arthur babbles a pathetic excuse that makes no
sense, but Alfred just kisses him harder. “It’s okay…”
“No, Francis—“
“He’ll never know.” Alfred grips his wrists, then his hips, holding him against
the couch as Arthur truly looks at him for the first time in weeks, eyes veiled
with alcohol and mouth opened in a raspy breath, clothes tousled and hair
mussed.
“I can’t… I, I love him.” I love him so much. “I miss him…”
It feels like it has been years since the last time Francis has held him.
Alfred kisses him again. It feels like a lifetime has passed since Francis’
lips were on his, since he heard that little chuckle of his… His own wishful
thinking bewitches him, the alcohol only making Alfred’s breath on his neck
sound more like Francis. The way his little brother’s voice deepens, how the
tone becomes slowly more honey-like, charming him…
Arthur finally relaxes. His eyes slip closed again, alcohol numbing everything
around him again.
“Francis,” he breathes out, allowing Alfred’s tongue past his teeth, kissing
him back even, letting go of that name again, “Oh… Francis.”
“Shh… I’m not Francis.”
If only.
More kisses, one at the corner of his mouth he comes to great. It’s as soft as
it was when he picked him up, pieces by pieces, Francis somehow always finding
the way to gently weld him back together, with just a kiss, just a word. It
feels so good to be held and kissed, even if it is his brother’s hand into his
pants. Maybe he can forget it, he thinks, eyes opening to see Alfred’s foggy
glasses over him.
He takes them off, folding them carefully as he stretches to lay them next to
the carafe. Alfred smiles, almost as charming as Francis used to be, toothy
grin growing large as Arthur pulls him in for a kiss, legs opening under him.
“He’ll never know,” Alfred tells him, caressing his cheek, as if to reassure
him.
Francis will never know, he thinks again, his name bubbling in his throat, then
dying on his lips.
“He’ll never be able to do this to you again.”
He won’t. Arthur arches in his precious little brother’s hand, eyes rolling
into his skull. Francis.
“He doesn’t even knows he loves you… he’s just a husk.”
Francis. He sobs; he knows he’s doing this to him, doing this to the man who
loves him still with such pureness, with such innocent eyes still, without even
asking anything in return, even as he fails him.
“But I do… I can give you love… give you pleasure. I know.”
This time, all he can do is moan Alfred’s name, coming in a soft, strangled,
indecipherable sound as he comes under his strong body, covering him like a
blanket. Yet, Francis is still ever so present in his mind, his tender love
gripping and burning his heart.
He’ll never know, Arthur thinks to himself again. He’ll never be able to know.
He’ll never hold him like this again.
“Alfred…”
 “I love you so much,” the boy says, elated, cock still inside him.
Arthur only kisses him, wondering if he is dreaming. He can regret this
tomorrow, he decides, giggling under Alfred’s tender kisses all over his cheeks
and neck.
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