Posted originally on the Archive_of_Our_Own at https://archiveofourown.org/ works/236812. Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Underage Category: M/M Fandom: NSYNC, Popslash Relationship: Chris_Kirkpatrick/Justin_Timberlake Stats: Published: 2011-08-08 Words: 5072 ****** Dress ****** by Jane_St_Clair_(3jane) Summary Chris discovered Justin and anime at roughly the same moment. Chris discovered anime and Justin at roughly the same time. The latter in Florida and the former later, in Germany, weirdly dubbed.   He thinks it might have been Astroboy.  Everything they watched on TV in Germany was surreal, like Mexican soap operas that survive in America on their sheer confusion factor. In their hotel rooms, Justin likes to wear just his boxers, or a towel around his hips, and Chris remembers him like that, some evening, watching hours of German commericals on TV and channel flipping whenever an actual program came on.  The dream Chris had that night had no respect for the concept of 'underage.'  Later, when they were in Japan, Chris was thoroughly introduced to the concept of kawaii, which his brain latched onto like a limpet.  Very small, very pretty, very young, very sexy.  The goddamn sailor suits he was suddenly seeing on grown women rather than Catholic schoolgirls didn't help. Everything he knew came back to him in Japan, but through the looking-glass.   The female record exec they dealt with in Tokyo treated Justin like a kitten, and he loved it. Every time she stroked his hair, he purred.  Little whore.  He'd always flirted, but for all that the Japanese were supposedly reserved and shit, they were actually really touchy, and Chris wondered whether it wasn't getting out of hand.  Once or twice, they took the subway from the downtown back to their semi-suburban hotel instead of braving the traffic above- ground, and the last time they did it all hell nearly broke loose.   They were almost famous by then, but little girls weren't the problem.  The little girls just sat on one side of the car and watched them with big, curious eyes. The problem was suits.  These absolutely anonymous businessmen, each with his own raincoat and briefcase, mostly absolutely impassive when you tried to look at them.  Right up until the moment that Justin arched forward and shrieked, pulling one guy with him.  The suit looked startled, but not really mad.  His hand was hooked into the waist of Justin's jeans. Chris and Joey just stared for the necessary few seconds for the suit to disappear back into the depths of the subway car, then Chris snarled at Justin not to just stand there with his ass hanging out. That evening, in with the stuffed animals and flowers that inevitably showed up at their hotel, there was a department store garment box sealed with a lot of clear tape and a gold ribbon.  It was addressed to Justin in a hand that didn't look like it normally wrote in English.  The card was written out in Japanese, which none of them could read. Underneath a couple of layers of tissue paper, one of which was actually black, was a sailor dress.  The kind they'd seen women wearing in the street, with a too-short skirt and a short-sleeved blouse.  There were white knee-socks and black leather shoes.   Patent.  Very, very shiny. There was no particular reason to assume the outfit wasn't an innocent gift, something from a woman who wanted Justin to picture her in it.  But not a little girl, Chris thought, holding the skirt out.  The waist was sized too big for anyone as lithe as the girls he'd seen watching them on the train.  Chubby fangirl, then.  Or.   It wasn't likely, in the broad scheme of things, that a random stranger copping a feel in a subway would go through the trouble of tracking Justin down and presenting him with a disturbingly fetishy dress.  Even one that looked like it might have been tailored for him. When he saw it, Joey said, "Dude, I love it.  Sailor Moon." Nobody actually had to explain, even to Lance, that the dress shouldn't be mentioned to Lynn, but it didn't get thrown out with the worst of the fan stuff, either.  Lance and JC adopted a fair few of the stuffed animals, Joey claimed the couple of video tapes that'd turned out to be interesting and probably were even legal to bring back to the States.  The flowers died and were chucked.  Love letters to individual band members went into either the trash or shoe boxes. Chris adopted one stuffed dog that looked like it might have been somebody's kid-toy before she gave it to him.  He was towing it around by one leg, half-waiting for someone to ask him about it so he could start a fight, when he walked into Lance and Justin's room and saw Justin lay the dress in between layers of his clothes in his suitcase. * It's not until months later, in Salt Lake City of all places, that he sees it again.  They're sprawled on the floor of the suite's common room at one in the morning, getting Justin drunk.  The rest of them are wasted, but there's something very special about watching Justin get drunk off his underage ass in the most puritanical city in America.  The tequila's progressed to body shots, and JC's more or less flat on his back with his shirt off, wriggling happily whenever someone licks him. Justin licks JC's chest, drinks, and sucks on his lime.  There are chewed-out bits of citrus all over the room.  And then Justin looks back at Chris over his shoulder, just like Justin's totally aware that he's crouched with his legs spread and his ass in the air. Look out, gentlemen, the band's very own virgin/whore is officially wasted. Justin says, "I've got to show you this thing.  It's hilarious." Lance looks up.  He stopped being able to focus his eyes half an hour ago, and he's only upright now because Joey's holding him there.  "Is this that thing from Japan?" "Yeah." "I wanna help." "You can't walk." "I got steady hands."  Lance holds them out, and it's true.  For a boy one drink away from passing out, he's got surprisingly steady hands.  They'd probably be even steadier if he could focus on them. Chris says, "I'll help you." Lance blinks.  "You've seen it?" "I'm gonna." The room doesn't even spin, really, when he stands.  Justin's scrambling for his and Lance's door, bright-eyed and determined.   Chris gets the door open before Justin hits his head against it. He sits down on the bed and watches Justin rummage.  His side of the room looks like a hurricane hit and left shoes washed up on the rug.   Justin whoops and Chris has to re-focus. He's there, on his knees, holding up the Box.  It's exactly the same as it was in Tokyo, just a bit battered.  In it is the same dress, a bit rumpled, like it's been taken out a few times. "Shit, Jup, I didn't think you still had that." "'Course I do.  It's funny." "Yeah?" "You bet.  Watch!"  Justin strips.  He's fast, which makes sense in a profession where they have to change bizarre stage outfits in under a minute, sometimes.  Justin can get his pants off without shucking his shoes, ninety-seven times out of a hundred.  This is easier; it's just jeans and a t-shirt, boxers underneath.  Very pale naked skin, which is a reminder that they should all probably hit the tanning beds one of these days if they want to keep from looking like ghosts.  Justin pauses to grin at Chris while he's buttoning the blouse up.  The braid-edged collar's hooked over one shoulder.   Bare legs stretch down out of the legs of his boxers.  "It was freaky, the first time I tried it on. Nothing really fit, but it was like it was too big, not like it was made for a girl.  And then I tried it again a month or so ago and I guess I'd grown into it or something." It occurs to Chris that this state has a fairly long list of laws about what's going on in this hotel room.  He wonders what kind of treatment former boy-band members get in the Utah state pen. The socks go on before the skirt.  Silky white, not the knit cotton Chris thinks they should be. Justin's calves look even longer in them than they do naked.  There's no fan porn in the world as good as this.  Chris knows he's hard long before Justin turns around to pick up the skirt and bends, stretching his boxers across his ass between blouse and stockings.  The skirt, when Justin shimmies into it, is impossibly short.  It barely covers his ass in back; it exposes the legs of his boxers all the way around. Justin looks at himself critically in the mirror for a second, then kicks his boxers off.  The shoes are still in the box, and Chris doesn't doubt that they've been too small for a long time.  He wonders what he'd be able to see in their reflection, if Justin wore them. "I need your help with the makeup."  Justin settles next to Chris on the bed, offering a fishing box full of makeup.  It's not theatrical, just a huge selection of the standard commerical stuff they have at Wal-Mart.  The fruits of late-night store runs, proof- positive that Justin's been buying more than sunglasses and underwear. "Am I going for something in particular?" Justin grins.  "Anime chick.  Extra eyeliner, something electric on the eyelids." "You have stubble." Justin smirks.  He's pulled on knee up on the bed, and Chris is torn between telling him to sit with his fucking legs together if he feels the need to go all commando, and maybe touching. He gets as far as the eyeliner before his concentration breaks.   He's drunker than he wants to admit, and he's been hard for the past twenty minutes in spite of the alcohol in his system. Justin's watching him, relaxed and a bit unfocussed, sticking to the blank expression he reserves for make-up artists.  Both his hands are braced on Chris' thighs. Chris pushes him off.  "Fuck."  He scrambles across the room, leans against the door for a second.  There's no noise at all coming from the common room.  If everyone else has passed out, maybe this will stop.  He needs to get Justin cleaned up and put him to bed.  He needs to not get drunk with this disturbing child.  Maybe not ever again.  Possibly just for another year or two, until Justin's legal.   Not to drink, but. "Dude, what's with you?" "Go clean up, Jup." "We're not *done*." "We're done.  And they're done too.  We shouldn't have left them alone with the bottle.  So go clean up and get a couple of glasses of water and go to bed." "It's supposed to be funny." "It's hilarious.  I'm fucking killing myself." "What's *with* you?" Chris twists suddenly and catches Justin around the waist.  Still so fucking skinny, in spite of the new height.  Hauls him over in front of the mirror.  "Look at yourself." One undergrown grown-up, one overgrown kid in a dress.  Messy curls all over the place; the outfit needs some kind of hair band.  One of those white cloth things girls were wearing when Chris was in high school.  Virginal. Justin's staring.  His eyes are way too big under all the makeup.   After a minute, Chris licks both his thumbs and runs them across Justin's eyes, smearing the black.  It's almost an improvement. He doesn't look quite so impossible, just smeared and bruised.  And. Justin's pupils are huge, and his skirt isn't sitting right.  Chris wonders whether Justin's sober enough to have any control over his arousal at all.  He doesn't seem to have much even when he's sober.   On stage, in practice, on the bus, during meetings, during signings, during parties, Justin: hard.  Wardrobe looks like they might cry every time Justin ruins the line of one of their creations.   "Oh, fuck you!"  Justin pushes, and Chris staggers back, falls on the bed.  The little bastard's fucking strong, and he isn't used to it, yet.  Justin's been hurting people without meaning to, lately.   "It's just a joke!" Chris reaches out, catches Justin's hips and pulls him in. "It's real funny."  He pulls Justin down into his lap. Long legs frame his hips, stockings rub against the bedspread.  Justin's naked skin is pressed against Chris' jeans.  There's no way he can not notice Chris' erection: it's brushing his balls every time he shifts.  Huge eyes staring into Chris'. "Do you even get what you're doing?" The hand that palms his erection is the most tentative that's ever touched him.  Virgin girls about to lose it to a pop star have nothing on a drunken Justin Timberlake. "Chris."  It's almost a question.  It goes up at the end, like a girl trying to get his attention. Justin kisses him.  Deep and frantic and too fast, making it really obvious how drunk he is.  He settles down across Chris' thighs and rocks like the world's tallest lap dancer.  Whimpering by the time Chris breaks them apart, rubbing his face against Chris' neck. "Fuck, Justin.  No." It's the evil grown-up in him making him say it.  The part of his brain that whispers what happens to men who get caught with drunken, cross-dressing, gotch-less, underage boys in their laps.  The part of his brain that he's more used to listening to says that it *has* to stop before Chris throws Justin down and fucks his baby ass. Chris pushes him off.  Hugs himself for a minute and wills his cock to lie down quiet.  It's not easy with Justin standing in front of him panting, still wearing the fucking sailor suit.  The skirt's hiked up over the tip of his cock.  Justin puts a hand down and palms the tip of it protectively, stares even harder at Chris.  Then he says, "Fucker," grabs his shorts, and bolts for the bathroom. Chris thinks he hears Justin puking, but he doesn't check. * In the morning, Justin wanders into Chris' bedroom looking glazed, wearing a t-shirt with his boxers.  There's still makeup on him, but now it just looks like any night's leftovers, because Justin never remembers to scrub off before he goes to bed. "Hey." He folds himself down beside Chris, on top of the covers, and goes to sleep.  The same too-skinny mess he's always been, and somehow Chris isn't worried. * Two months later, Justin's going through one of his periodic awkward phases, and there's a new rule that they're not allowed to take him out clubbing after the concerts until he gets over it.  So he sulks and sits on his bed in his sweats and eats fried chicken out of buckets and licks his fingers and swears at the rest of them when they leave him behind.  They'll come in four or five hours later and Justin will be singing in the shower, loud, cheerfully dirty songs that Joey taught him over the course of a year spent travelling.  He comes out and pretends to look surprised that they're back, just like it isn't four in the morning, and goes to bed when the others do. Except that half the time Chris is still too wired to sleep, something about the caffeine in the rum and cokes, proof positive that he should stick to beer.  When he's not sharing a room, he can sit up watching anime on the Cartoon Network, and sometimes he does even if he's sharing a room with Joey, who sleeps like the dead.   All those little girls in their little, little skirts.  Not quite the hentai stuff that Lance showed him once, all shocked big eyes and smothered laughter, but it's definitely sexual. If he jerks off to it occasionally, it doesn't make him any more disturbed than maybe ten million men in America. If Justin catches him at it, it's only the once. After that, it takes three nights.  In Dallas, staying in this glass sky-scraper hotel where they can look out at most of the world, Chris comes back early from the club and finds Justin in his room. Wearing the sailor suit.  The skirt, the blouse -- tucked in perfectly all around and with the collar neatly draped in the back, the socks, new where-the-hell-did-he-find-them shoes.  The band holding his hair back is the gold ribbon from the box. The skirt was designed to be too short, but Justin's showing signs of growing up to be nothing but legs, and Chris is too short to get the classic male vantage on the situation.  All those legs.  Pale gold hairs show where no cloth covers him.  Eyeliner, but nothing else on his face. Justin's cock isn't showing, which should be impossible.  He's found something to wear underneath, on the same shopping trip as the shoes maybe, but where the hell could he? (San Francisco, fuckhead) Justin says, "Shut the door, man." There should be pictures of this.  Every little girl in America should have a picture of Justin in drag fun-tacked to her wall. It should be flirtier than it is.  It should be cuter.  The skirt doesn't even bounce until the second before Justin steps in and kisses him, and even then it's only that instinctive swing in Justin's hips doing it. The kiss is soft and shallow, and Justin's face is tense.  It takes Chris a second to understand that Justin's waiting for Chris to hit him. There isn't anything he can say to that.  He doesn't let Justin pull back, though.  Holds the back of his neck and touches their foreheads together in spite of the awkward angle.  Strokes one soft cheek with his thumb until Justin turns his head and catches the thumb in his mouth and sucks it, watching Chris' face with newly hopeful eyes.   "Fuck, Jup.  Jesus Christ."  That mouth around his thumb.  Bare leg against his thigh.  Against his hip. He's not strong enough to do what he really wants, which is pick Justin up and wrap his legs around his waist and fuck him against the wall.  In spite of the illusion of the skirt and the big innocent eyes, Justin hit six feet tall a while ago, and lately he's unmanageably huge. This controlled prettiness he's working on right now is an illusion just barely clinging to the surface of his skin. On his knees, Justin is utterly obscene. Chris pulls him up.  Drags him to the bed and lays him out on it, waiting for him to sprawl, for the boy in the dress to reassert himself.  Climbs on top of him and crouches and kisses him.  Settles in and kisses him for a long time. It's an art he's almost forgotten, because he's not a kid and he doesn't mostly make out with the strangers who keep finding him so interesting, since they have to get home at the end of the night, and it's usually late when they start.  But this.  Chris wasn't a virgin when they started touring, and he hasn't been since he was a lot younger than Justin is now.  He's not quite sure how virginity became their most marketable commodity, it is, and as a result it's *right there*, all the time.  It's so close to the surface of Justin's skin Chris can practically touch it. And the kisses aren't anything remotely normal until Justin cracks up.  He sprawls on the bed under Chris and roars.  And yeah, it's funny.  Justin's big and awkward and pretty, and he's wearing a dress that some pervert on the other side of the world came up with for him.  He twists on the bed and manages to make it look almost sexy.  Bends one leg up enough to show off the silk panties he found. Chris rolls off and pulls Justin across his lap.  Kisses him and tries to breathe instead of just laughing helplessly.  His hand between Justin's legs keeps touching new and more interesting skin, and Justin keeps offering more to him.  When his hand settles against the cloth strip at his crotch, he figures out fast that Justin tucked it straight back, that he's hard and it has to be hurting like hell by now. Chris says, "Hold still."  Gropes in his pocket for the swiss army knife he's not supposed to have, pulls it out, cuts through one hip of the panties.  Pulls them off Justin's legs while Justin stares at him out of huge, shocked eyes.  Justin's cock pushes out as soon as the tension's broken, and Chris can feel him relax.  Whole body melting against his chest. "Shit, that's better." "You might have to rethink the drag thing if you're that attached to your dick."  Palming it like it isn't the most deliberate thing he's ever done.  In Chris' lap, Justin twists and arches, whines like an animal just from that one open-handed stroke.  When Chris kisses him, Justin gasps into his mouth.  "You're not drunk." "Uh-uh.  I was last time, and you wouldn't let me." "You think that's why?"  Chris rubs his fingertips against Justin's balls, lets him squirm with the touch for a while before sliding down to rub at the soft skin behind them. Justin shrugs, tilts his head in, and kisses again.  Everything he knows about kissing obviously still isn't much, but the level of attention on offer makes every part of Chris that wasn't already erect stand up.  Laughter into his mouth.  And out of male-bonding- play reflex, Chris slaps Justin's ass, or as much of it as he can reach. Justin arches.  It's just one slap on the hip, but Chris has had guys who didn't react like that to the deepest, hardest fuck he could give them.  "What, did you like that?" "Yeah."  Blushing hard. Chris tilts Justin in towards his body, exposing more of that baby- soft ass to the air, and slaps it again, hard and fast.  This time he gets a moan.  "Want it?" "Oh man.  Yeah." Chris nods.  He slides Justin off his lap and stands, then says, "Take the blouse off."  White, sharp cotton almost snaps when it hits the floor.  Underneath, Justin's chest is just barely gold- fuzzed, framed by the white edges of the bra he's wearing.  Tight to his chest, but somehow utterly convincing.  It's almost enough to make Chris believe there's some flesh instead of just flat muscle underneath.  "That too."  Bare to the waist when it hits the floor.   "C'mon." Bend him over the edge of the bed, rub him down from his shoulders.   Kiss his spine, once.  Flip the skirt up.  Slap. Justin whimpers every time Chris slaps his ass.  Whines when it keeps on even after his skin is warm and red.  Braced over the mattress with the skirt hiked up around his waist and his knee-socks still on.  Crying softly, except that he growls for it in between blows.  "Fuck, Chris, yeah.  Please." In Justin's ear, "Slut." "Yours." Chris nods.  He finds the buttons at Justin's waist and lets the skirt slide off his hips.  Just a boy in too-soft white stockings, big-eyed wanting him.  Liquid when Chris pulls him in against him and kisses him, jerks him hard and swallows all the sound when Justin comes.  Strokes him afterwards while all Justin's muscles give and he crumples to the floor and lies panting. "Shhh.  You okay?" "Oh *Chris*."  Big, blue eyes an inch from his, and Chris realizes that he's going to a hell that Lance will have to explain to him in excrutiating, Mississippian detail. He wonders how hot Justin's ass is on the inside right now. He can almost tell when Justin wraps around him and kisses him.   Still boneless from that first orgasm, but even more flexible for it.  One long, unreasonable leg hooks around Chris' hip, pulls him down.  The baby mouth under his doesn't taste anything like a baby should.  Justin holds him like the best girl he's ever had, spreading and watching him.  Like he actually knows what he wants, almost. And those socks are still there, rubbing whispers along Chris' jeans.  "Fuck me." There are three and a half billion men in the world, and only Chris Kirkpatrick will get to fuck Justin Timberlake first.  "Yeah. Okay." Not on the floor, though.  Chris is so hard by the time he stands that he wants to double over.  Wants to get very naked very fast.   That's first.  Second is hauling Justin to his feet and laying him out on his back, spreading his legs and putting his knees up.  Only a special, loving, very gay god could be responsible for the sheer number of dance lessons that've made Justin this flexible. Third involves latex and clear, hotel-chilled lubricants, and Chris' fingers, and Justin's pretty, pretty ass.  'Hot' turns out to be an understatement, and Justin won't hold still once Chris is in him.  Everything he says is clear, though.  Chris knows *exactly* how this feels.  Every time it hurts he hears about it; the first time he finds the sweet spot, he has to peel Justin off him.  In a perfect world, one where Chris is still this rich but not half this famous, he could introduce Justin to sex and balconies at the same time.  Let all of Texas hear his boy begging for it. "Chris, come *on*." "Slut." "Sure.  Whatever.  Biggest whore in Dallas-Fort Worth if you want me to be, just *fuck* me!" Justin's accent crawls all the way up Chris' nerves to his brain.   It's there in the long breath Justin hisses when Chris pushes his knees up to his shoulders.  And he can feel the tension building even through heavy latex, Justin stretching to take him. And then in, just shallowly until Justin stops crying soft animal- sounds and mouths up to kiss him.  "Steady, baby." "It hurts." "Did you think it wouldn't?" "I thought it'd hurt different than this." "Tell me."  Still pushing, but not hard.  Justin's as slick as Chris has ever got anybody in his life, but he's tight.  Every time he gives, it's just a fraction of an inch, and he's panting all the time. "I didn't think I'd feel it this deep.  I mean, I knew I'd feel it going in, but..." Chris kisses him.  Slow and steady, open enough that he thinks Justin could crawl down his throat if he really wanted to.  He gives it a minute while Justin breathes tension out of his body, then catches one narrow ankle and moves it from his shoulder to his waist.  "Hold tight."  One thrust, fast and hard, to get past the first strain of it.  The next one hits where it's supposed to.   "That better?" "Fuck you." Justin's indignant.  Wide-eyed and sweating and trying not to smile, and spread out on his back with his legs wrapped around Chris' waist and a dick up his ass, swearing at him. "You don't get to spank my ass and tease me both."  He's relaxed, finally.  Breathing steadily even with Chris' weight on top of him. Chris says, "Stop me." Justin is, in spite of being a skinny, pretty boy, flexible, fast, and freakishly strong.  Enough to throw Chris' weight off and hang onto him at the same time.  Ride him and roll with him, scratching and biting and laughing.  By the time Chris has the necessary death grip on Justin's wrists, Justin's on top of him, twisting to get his hands free and fucking himself on Chris' cock.  Still laughing enough to make his stomach ripple. He attacks again as soon as Chris lets go.  Manicured nails on his chest make Chris grateful for the body hair he's got.  His own hands settle into the small of Justin's back and hold him while he finds his way through to whatever feels good to him.  Slow twists and then just rocking.  Chris thrusts up sometimes, hard enough to make Justin gasp, and when he settles again Justin whispers, "Yeah, it's good." Chris raises one hand to Justin's mouth in the last seconds, fingers pushing between his lips.  Soft "Love ya," from Justin just before he comes, and afterwards he lets Chris roll him down again and finish. As a red-blooded capital-G Guy, Chris has a perfect right to be stupid for a while before he wakes up and registers that Justin's still wearing the knee-socks.  He sits up and rubs the soft belly being offered, then bends and peels one sock down.  Wonders how many millions of people would notice if he took Justin into the bathroom right now and shaved his legs. Later, chewing on slightly burned room service pizza, Chris contemplates the potential of a Justin wearing nothing but cat-boy ears and a tail.  Maybe a collar. He wakes up in the early morning and has to twist the lock on the bathroom door to get at Justin in the shower.  Justin yelps at the first touch on his hip, but he arches when Chris presses against his side.  Kisses back when Chris kisses him, laughs while he wraps his hand around Chris' cock and jerks him off. He's not steady on his feet, though.  Chris half-carries him out of the shower and dries him while he's sitting down.  Folds him into the bedroom floor and helps him stretch until it's less than absolutely obvious what they were doing all night.  Warm neck under his lips when he bends Justin forward. Eventually, he needs clothes.  While he's finding his, Justin gets dressed out of the suitcase in the corner.  Chris turns back to ask something and sees white, sex-stained stocking disappearing as Justin pulls his jeans up to his hips.  Quick, sexy smile, and Justin stretches, showing every angular line of his body before going back to his clothes cache. Chris trims the stubble around his goatee, and behind him Justin leans against the toilet tank and puts on eyeliner, watching Chris' face in the bathroom mirror.  Little flares of electric blue make his eyes look huge.  The swept-forward hair doesn't work, though.   It's too Lyle Lovette in his pre-Julia Roberts days, and just because Justin isn't old enough to remember that is no reason for him to go out in public like that. A little makeup, a little gel, and the Justin who walks ahead of him out of the bathroom is unreal, perfect, like watercolour art.  He stays like that all day.  Hair twisted into small spikes, the way Chris did it while Justin sat between his feet.  Huge eyes that watch Chris in the elevator, reflected in the mirrored walls. Please drop_by_the_archive_and_comment to let the author know if you enjoyed their work!