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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      F/M, F/F, Multi
  Fandom:
      Doctor_Who, Doctor_Who_(2005), Doctor_Who_&_Related_Fandoms
  Relationship:
      Twelfth_Doctor/Clara_Oswin_Oswald, Jack_Harkness/Other(s)
  Character:
      Twelfth_Doctor, Clara_Oswin_Oswald, Time_Lord(s), Jack_Harkness, Gwen
      Cooper, Mickey_Smith, Martha_Jones, Rhys_Williams
  Additional Tags:
      Romance, Action/Adventure
  Series:
      Part 2 of The_life_of_Sarah_Smith
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      Published: 2015-08-18 Updated: 2016-11-03 Chapters: 49/? Words: 80196
****** Discovering Sarah ******
by SarahSmith1963
Summary
     CHAPTERS 40-47 POSTED
     sequel to "The Secrets of Sarah Smith"
     Sarah has to rediscover who she is after finding out her heritage and
     has to get the know the Doctor in a whole new way and of course
     there's bumps along the way and things don't go to plan. old loves
     are lost new ones are found and lots of lovely Whouffaldi aswell
Notes
See the end of the work for notes
***** Trapped *****
a/n this fic is set 6 months after "The secrets of Sarah Smith" and the story
title may change im not 100% on it but I'll let you know if it does anyway here
we go the first chapter
Clara opened her eyes slowly, her head resting on the Doctors lap, she was just
about to give a sleepy smile, happy to have woken up in her lovers lap when she
remembered where they were. Tiniest of windows just about letting in a small
amount of morning sun, casting dark shadows around the small cell they were
currently locked in, straw lay scattered around the floor and the whole place
smelt strongly of urine and something else Clara refused to try and put a name
too but it was not pleasant in the slightest.
"Morning" The Doctor whispered his long fingers running through Clara's hair
"Morning" Clara mumbled back, sitting up and trying to get comfortable but
Victorian attire was not the most comfortable to have spent the night in and it
didn't help there were all shackled by their ankles and wrists together
She gave up in a huff and lent against the Doctor's side her head on his
shoulder and laughed when she noticed Sarah doing the same on his other side
still asleep.
"I hope you both know I'm a Timelord not a pillow" The Doctor complained even
though they both knew he didn't mind, he was happy to have both his girls
beside him.
"It really stinks" Clara said wrinkling her nose up in disgust
"We've been trapped in worse" Came Sarah's sleepy voice from the Doctors other
side
"Oh Do you remember the cell on Clom?" Clara asked shivering at the memory
"See worse, I'd give this one a 3 outa 10" Sarah shrugged
"Are you two rating our cells now?" The Doctor asked in disbelief
"We've been chucked in enough of them might as well" Clara answered non
Chantilly
"We could write a book, the time travelers guide to prisons" Sarah laughed
The Doctor was just about to scold Sarah for an idiotic idea, no one but them
could every read it so what was the point? when the door to their cell was
opened, its old rusted hinges protesting loudly at the movement as it was
banged against the wall, the impact echoing around the building. An old
Victorian man with dirty ripped clothes and black teeth stood in the entry way
of the cell grinning menacingly, he smelt strongly of body odour and alcohol
and judging by the way he could barely stand straight he was every bit as drunk
as he smelled. The trio instantly froze unsure.
"You have been released but first I want a little fun for our crimes" The Man
smiled lunching myself with much more power and agility than they expected.
He grabbed Sarah by the throat slamming her against the wall braking the
shackles she was in before any of them had time to react his face inches from
hers. Sarah was thankful for her timelord biology at that moment so she could
hold her breathe to stop the smell that was making her feel physically sick.
The drunk sloppily but hungrily pressed his lips to Sarah's. She knew exactly
were this was going, she'd been here loads of times before growing up and her
mind instantly resorted back to remembering facts about history. World war 1,
world war 2, The Titanic, the potato famine. All these swarmed round her head
as the man attacked her mouth his hands attempting to lift her skirt.
Sarah was vaguely aware of the Doctor jumping up shouting some sort of threat
but being pulled back down by his shackles which were apparently a lot stronger
than the ones Sarah had on. Sarah knew that if she kneed him in the crotch or
made any sort of physical attempt to get him away he would probably fall to the
ground to drunk to move but her entire body had froze and her mind instantly
flashed back to all the times growing up Stephan would have came into her room
and done exactly the same thing this stranger was doing now.
Suddenly the drunk was torn away from Sarah and she collapsed in a heep on the
ground. A Victorian woman with a black vial over her face stood before Sarah
the drunk tossed aside like an old toy.
"Vastra Thank you. Can you please get us out of these" The Doctor asked
breathless from his attempts to break the chains and shouting at the drunk.
Sarah sat on the dirty floor completely frozen not even fully noticing the
woman's face when she lifted her Vail was green and scaly like a lizard. Sarah
was vaguely a wear of chains clinking and rattling as she kept her terrified
stare on the drunken man in case he moved again but he seemed to be out cold.
Suddenly a hard body was crushing Sarah's and she flinched at the sudden
contact.
"Are you OK?" The Doctor asked sounding panicked, Sarah releasing her from the
hug and searching every inch of her he could see for injury, one hand still
resting on her face
"Yea, yea I'm OK" Sarah mumbled slowly as she started to come out of the daze
she was in. Clara quickly joined the Doctor by her side and pulled her into a
hug and Sarah clung onto her like a life line.
"Is this always how you spend Christmas Doctor? locked up in a dirty cell with
your companions" Vastra asked in a disapproving tone
"Seems to be tradition for something to go wrong" the Doctor answered darkly
not taking his eyes of his daughter.
a/n let me know what you think please :-) xxx
a/n this fic is set 6 months after "The secrets of Sarah Smith" and the story
title may change im not 100% on it but I'll let you know if it does anyway here
we go the first chapter
Clara opened her eyes slowly, her head resting on the Doctors lap, she was just
about to give a sleepy smile, happy to have woken up in her lovers lap when she
remembered where they were. Tiniest of windows just about letting in a small
amount of morning sun, casting dark shadows around the small cell they were
currently locked in, straw lay scattered around the floor and the whole place
smelt strongly of urine and something else Clara refused to try and put a name
too but it was not pleasant in the slightest.
"Morning" The Doctor whispered his long fingers running through Clara's hair
"Morning" Clara mumbled back, sitting up and trying to get comfortable but
Victorian attire was not the most comfortable to have spent the night in and it
didn't help there were all shackled by their ankles and wrists together
She gave up in a huff and lent against the Doctor's side her head on his
shoulder and laughed when she noticed Sarah doing the same on his other side
still asleep.
"I hope you both know I'm a Timelord not a pillow" The Doctor complained even
though they both knew he didn't mind, he was happy to have both his girls
beside him.
"It really stinks" Clara said wrinkling her nose up in disgust
"We've been trapped in worse" Came Sarah's sleepy voice from the Doctors other
side
"Oh Do you remember the cell on Clom?" Clara asked shivering at the memory
"See worse, I'd give this one a 3 outa 10" Sarah shrugged
"Are you two rating our cells now?" The Doctor asked in disbelief
"We've been chucked in enough of them might as well" Clara answered non
Chantilly
"We could write a book, the time travelers guide to prisons" Sarah laughed
The Doctor was just about to scold Sarah for an idiotic idea, no one but them
could every read it so what was the point? when the door to their cell was
opened, its old rusted hinges protesting loudly at the movement as it was
banged against the wall, the impact echoing around the building. An old
Victorian man with dirty ripped clothes and black teeth stood in the entry way
of the cell grinning menacingly, he smelt strongly of body odour and alcohol
and judging by the way he could barely stand straight he was every bit as drunk
as he smelled. The trio instantly froze unsure.
"You have been released but first I want a little fun for our crimes" The Man
smiled lunching myself with much more power and agility than they expected.
He grabbed Sarah by the throat slamming her against the wall braking the
shackles she was in before any of them had time to react his face inches from
hers. Sarah was thankful for her timelord biology at that moment so she could
hold her breathe to stop the smell that was making her feel physically sick.
The drunk sloppily but hungrily pressed his lips to Sarah's. She knew exactly
were this was going, she'd been here loads of times before growing up and her
mind instantly resorted back to remembering facts about history. World war 1,
world war 2, The Titanic, the potato famine. All these swarmed round her head
as the man attacked her mouth his hands attempting to lift her skirt.
Sarah was vaguely aware of the Doctor jumping up shouting some sort of threat
but being pulled back down by his shackles which were apparently a lot stronger
than the ones Sarah had on. Sarah knew that if she kneed him in the crotch or
made any sort of physical attempt to get him away he would probably fall to the
ground to drunk to move but her entire body had froze and her mind instantly
flashed back to all the times growing up Stephan would have came into her room
and done exactly the same thing this stranger was doing now.
Suddenly the drunk was torn away from Sarah and she collapsed in a heep on the
ground. A Victorian woman with a black vial over her face stood before Sarah
the drunk tossed aside like an old toy.
"Vastra Thank you. Can you please get us out of these" The Doctor asked
breathless from his attempts to break the chains and shouting at the drunk.
Sarah sat on the dirty floor completely frozen not even fully noticing the
woman's face when she lifted her Vail was green and scaly like a lizard. Sarah
was vaguely a wear of chains clinking and rattling as she kept her terrified
stare on the drunken man in case he moved again but he seemed to be out cold.
Suddenly a hard body was crushing Sarah's and she flinched at the sudden
contact.
"Are you OK?" The Doctor asked sounding panicked, Sarah releasing her from the
hug and searching every inch of her he could see for injury, one hand still
resting on her face
"Yea, yea I'm OK" Sarah mumbled slowly as she started to come out of the daze
she was in. Clara quickly joined the Doctor by her side and pulled her into a
hug and Sarah clung onto her like a life line.
"Is this always how you spend Christmas Doctor? locked up in a dirty cell with
your companions" Vastra asked in a disapproving tone
"Seems to be tradition for something to go wrong" the Doctor answered darkly
not taking his eyes of his daughter.
a/n let me know what you think please :-) xxx
a/n this fic is set 6 months after "The secrets of Sarah Smith" and the story
title may change im not 100% on it but I'll let you know if it does anyway here
we go the first chapter
Clara opened her eyes slowly, her head resting on the Doctors lap, she was just
about to give a sleepy smile, happy to have woken up in her lovers lap when she
remembered where they were. Tiniest of windows just about letting in a small
amount of morning sun, casting dark shadows around the small cell they were
currently locked in, straw lay scattered around the floor and the whole place
smelt strongly of urine and something else Clara refused to try and put a name
too but it was not pleasant in the slightest.
"Morning" The Doctor whispered his long fingers running through Clara's hair
"Morning" Clara mumbled back, sitting up and trying to get comfortable but
Victorian attire was not the most comfortable to have spent the night in and it
didn't help there were all shackled by their ankles and wrists together
She gave up in a huff and lent against the Doctor's side her head on his
shoulder and laughed when she noticed Sarah doing the same on his other side
still asleep.
"I hope you both know I'm a Timelord not a pillow" The Doctor complained even
though they both knew he didn't mind, he was happy to have both his girls
beside him.
"It really stinks" Clara said wrinkling her nose up in disgust
"We've been trapped in worse" Came Sarah's sleepy voice from the Doctors other
side
"Oh Do you remember the cell on Clom?" Clara asked shivering at the memory
"See worse, I'd give this one a 3 outa 10" Sarah shrugged
"Are you two rating our cells now?" The Doctor asked in disbelief
"We've been chucked in enough of them might as well" Clara answered non
Chantilly
"We could write a book, the time travelers guide to prisons" Sarah laughed
The Doctor was just about to scold Sarah for an idiotic idea, no one but them
could every read it so what was the point? when the door to their cell was
opened, its old rusted hinges protesting loudly at the movement as it was
banged against the wall, the impact echoing around the building. An old
Victorian man with dirty ripped clothes and black teeth stood in the entry way
of the cell grinning menacingly, he smelt strongly of body odour and alcohol
and judging by the way he could barely stand straight he was every bit as drunk
as he smelled. The trio instantly froze unsure.
"You have been released but first I want a little fun for our crimes" The Man
smiled lunching myself with much more power and agility than they expected.
He grabbed Sarah by the throat slamming her against the wall braking the
shackles she was in before any of them had time to react his face inches from
hers. Sarah was thankful for her timelord biology at that moment so she could
hold her breathe to stop the smell that was making her feel physically sick.
The drunk sloppily but hungrily pressed his lips to Sarah's. She knew exactly
were this was going, she'd been here loads of times before growing up and her
mind instantly resorted back to remembering facts about history. World war 1,
world war 2, The Titanic, the potato famine. All these swarmed round her head
as the man attacked her mouth his hands attempting to lift her skirt.
Sarah was vaguely aware of the Doctor jumping up shouting some sort of threat
but being pulled back down by his shackles which were apparently a lot stronger
than the ones Sarah had on. Sarah knew that if she kneed him in the crotch or
made any sort of physical attempt to get him away he would probably fall to the
ground to drunk to move but her entire body had froze and her mind instantly
flashed back to all the times growing up Stephan would have came into her room
and done exactly the same thing this stranger was doing now.
Suddenly the drunk was torn away from Sarah and she collapsed in a heep on the
ground. A Victorian woman with a black vial over her face stood before Sarah
the drunk tossed aside like an old toy.
"Vastra Thank you. Can you please get us out of these" The Doctor asked
breathless from his attempts to break the chains and shouting at the drunk.
Sarah sat on the dirty floor completely frozen not even fully noticing the
woman's face when she lifted her Vail was green and scaly like a lizard. Sarah
was vaguely a wear of chains clinking and rattling as she kept her terrified
stare on the drunken man in case he moved again but he seemed to be out cold.
Suddenly a hard body was crushing Sarah's and she flinched at the sudden
contact.
"Are you OK?" The Doctor asked sounding panicked, Sarah releasing her from the
hug and searching every inch of her he could see for injury, one hand still
resting on her face
"Yea, yea I'm OK" Sarah mumbled slowly as she started to come out of the daze
she was in. Clara quickly joined the Doctor by her side and pulled her into a
hug and Sarah clung onto her like a life line.
"Is this always how you spend Christmas Doctor? locked up in a dirty cell with
your companions" Vastra asked in a disapproving tone
"Seems to be tradition for something to go wrong" the Doctor answered darkly
not taking his eyes of his daughter.
a/n let me know what you think please :-) xxx
a/n this fic is set 6 months after "The secrets of Sarah Smith" and the story
title may change im not 100% on it but I'll let you know if it does anyway here
we go the first chapter
Clara opened her eyes slowly, her head resting on the Doctors lap, she was just
about to give a sleepy smile, happy to have woken up in her lovers lap when she
remembered where they were. Tiniest of windows just about letting in a small
amount of morning sun, casting dark shadows around the small cell they were
currently locked in, straw lay scattered around the floor and the whole place
smelt strongly of urine and something else Clara refused to try and put a name
too but it was not pleasant in the slightest.
"Morning" The Doctor whispered his long fingers running through Clara's hair
"Morning" Clara mumbled back, sitting up and trying to get comfortable but
Victorian attire was not the most comfortable to have spent the night in and it
didn't help there were all shackled by their ankles and wrists together
She gave up in a huff and lent against the Doctor's side her head on his
shoulder and laughed when she noticed Sarah doing the same on his other side
still asleep.
"I hope you both know I'm a Timelord not a pillow" The Doctor complained even
though they both knew he didn't mind, he was happy to have both his girls
beside him.
"It really stinks" Clara said wrinkling her nose up in disgust
"We've been trapped in worse" Came Sarah's sleepy voice from the Doctors other
side
"Oh Do you remember the cell on Clom?" Clara asked shivering at the memory
"See worse, I'd give this one a 3 outa 10" Sarah shrugged
"Are you two rating our cells now?" The Doctor asked in disbelief
"We've been chucked in enough of them might as well" Clara answered non
Chantilly
"We could write a book, the time travelers guide to prisons" Sarah laughed
The Doctor was just about to scold Sarah for an idiotic idea, no one but them
could every read it so what was the point? when the door to their cell was
opened, its old rusted hinges protesting loudly at the movement as it was
banged against the wall, the impact echoing around the building. An old
Victorian man with dirty ripped clothes and black teeth stood in the entry way
of the cell grinning menacingly, he smelt strongly of body odour and alcohol
and judging by the way he could barely stand straight he was every bit as drunk
as he smelled. The trio instantly froze unsure.
"You have been released but first I want a little fun for our crimes" The Man
smiled lunching myself with much more power and agility than they expected.
He grabbed Sarah by the throat slamming her against the wall braking the
shackles she was in before any of them had time to react his face inches from
hers. Sarah was thankful for her timelord biology at that moment so she could
hold her breathe to stop the smell that was making her feel physically sick.
The drunk sloppily but hungrily pressed his lips to Sarah's. She knew exactly
were this was going, she'd been here loads of times before growing up and her
mind instantly resorted back to remembering facts about history. World war 1,
world war 2, The Titanic, the potato famine. All these swarmed round her head
as the man attacked her mouth his hands attempting to lift her skirt.
Sarah was vaguely aware of the Doctor jumping up shouting some sort of threat
but being pulled back down by his shackles which were apparently a lot stronger
than the ones Sarah had on. Sarah knew that if she kneed him in the crotch or
made any sort of physical attempt to get him away he would probably fall to the
ground to drunk to move but her entire body had froze and her mind instantly
flashed back to all the times growing up Stephan would have came into her room
and done exactly the same thing this stranger was doing now.
Suddenly the drunk was torn away from Sarah and she collapsed in a heep on the
ground. A Victorian woman with a black vial over her face stood before Sarah
the drunk tossed aside like an old toy.
"Vastra Thank you. Can you please get us out of these" The Doctor asked
breathless from his attempts to break the chains and shouting at the drunk.
Sarah sat on the dirty floor completely frozen not even fully noticing the
woman's face when she lifted her Vail was green and scaly like a lizard. Sarah
was vaguely a wear of chains clinking and rattling as she kept her terrified
stare on the drunken man in case he moved again but he seemed to be out cold.
Suddenly a hard body was crushing Sarah's and she flinched at the sudden
contact.
"Are you OK?" The Doctor asked sounding panicked, Sarah releasing her from the
hug and searching every inch of her he could see for injury, one hand still
resting on her face
"Yea, yea I'm OK" Sarah mumbled slowly as she started to come out of the daze
she was in. Clara quickly joined the Doctor by her side and pulled her into a
hug and Sarah clung onto her like a life line.
"Is this always how you spend Christmas Doctor? locked up in a dirty cell with
your companions" Vastra asked in a disapproving tone
"Seems to be tradition for something to go wrong" the Doctor answered darkly
not taking his eyes of his daughter.
a/n let me know what you think please :-) xxx
***** Christmas *****
a/n so I managed to delete this chapter but somehow half of it magically
reappeared on my tablet this morning so only had the end to redo I'm not really
happy with this chapter but hopefully you guys will be
They arrived shortly after at Vastra's home to find the TARDIS parked in her
courtyard and not were they had left it. Which was both surprising and
relieving none of them wanted to risk the anger of the mans garden they had
landed in which is how they ended up in the cell, trespassing. Vastra had
excused her self to deal with the drunk as soon as they arrived and dashed off
in the horse carriage.
They entered the home which was surprisingly warm for an old Victorian
house,Sarah suspected it had something to do with alien technology and Vastra
being cold blooded. A short stalky fellow with a potato like head and wearing a
suit approached them, his walk determined and confident despite being shorter
than Clara which at 5ft1 was quite hard to beat.
"May I take your coat boy" The potato head spat at Sarah although she could
tell by his facial expression it was meant to be polite and he held out is arm
to take what ever she handed him
"She's not wearing a coat Strax none of us are and she's a girl not a boy" The
Doctor huffed clearly used to Strax's behaviour but still annoyed at it
"Are you sure? He looks like a boy. Shall I check?" Strax asked genuinely
confused studying Sarah, who was very confused and slightly creeped out by the
exchange.
"No no need to check" The Doctor snapped hitting away the strange magnifying
glass type object in Strax pulled out from his jacket pocket
"Doctor! Clara!" Came an excited and happy exclaim from a maid exiting a room
off to the right of the hall they were all huddled in "Come on in to the
sitting room, I suspect Madam is of dealing with whatever mayhem you have left
this time Doctor" The maid teased with a warm smile and leading them into the
room she had just come out of.
The room was just what anyone would expect a Victorian sitting room to be. A
large fireplace casting a warm and comforting glow around the room, a few high
backed Chairs and a sofa. There was a few nick nacks laying around but all in
all it seemed very minimalist. The three of them sat along the sofa, the Doctor
in the middle. Instinctively he took Clara's hand in his and raised it to his
lips to press a small kiss to the back of it, Earning a delighted smile from
Jenny who had to struggle to hold in the squill and excited clapping she felt
bubbling up in her. Jenny took the seat to the right of the fire place and
Strax excused himself to go and make some tea.
"I'm Jenny" the maid introduced herself with a smile holding her hand out for
Sarah
"Sarah" Sarah answered shaking Jenny's hand
Strax came back into the room carrying a heavy looking tray full of tea milk
sugar tea cups and a few small cakes and stated handing out tea to everyone
before grabbing his own tea and cake and disappearing off into the corner of
the room licking his lips
"So how did you met the Doctor then?" Jenny asked taking a drink of tea. She
genuinely interested she loved hearing stories of the Doctors adventures
"He's my Dad" Sarah explained with a shrug
Jenny chocked slightly on her tea but recovered quickly while Strax dropped his
tea cup and it landed with a loud smash on the floor that he didn't even bother
to pick up.
"Well now that is news" came Vastra's voice from the doorway clearly just
returned from her task as she unbuttoned her black coat. Jenny got up of her
chair to help her wife out of her coat and hang it up for her.
"Is this another backwards meeting? Is Clara even pregnant yet?" Vastra asked
sinking down in her chair in front of the fire while Jenny poured her a tea
"What? No no no no Sarah's not mine" Clara answered quickly shaking her head.
"Hey! I'm not that bad, It's nice to know you best friend wants you" Sarah
joked in mock offence
"She's my daughter, details don't matter" the Doctor replied gruffly leaving no
room for further discussion on the matter.
They drunk the rest of their tea in awkward silence after that, Vastra kept her
eyes flickering between the Doctor and Sarah clearly more questions on the tip
of her tongue. Sarah felt like she was under a microscope being studied closely
and kept shifting uncomfortably under her stare, fiddling with her neckless. It
felt like Vastra could see right through her into her very soul.
"Oh for Gallifrey's sake Vastra stop it your making her uncomfortable" The
Doctor snapped putting his tea cup down a bit more forcefully than he meant on
the coffee table in front of them.
"Why don't we get back to Christmas mam? we were just about to exchange gifts
before we got the distress call for your sonic Doctor" Jenny suggested trying
to defuse the tension
"Excellent idea Jenny and speaking of sonics Doctor I managed to retrieve yours
and I assume this is yours Clara" Vastra spoke handing Clara Sarah's bangle
"Actually that's mine" Sarah said shyly taking her bangle and putting it back
on enjoying the comforting telepathic reconnect again. Vastra gave her a stern
look which made Sarah feel like she was 5 years old again and she shifted
uncomfortably again.
The rest of the day went much smoother, Sarah had brought Madam Vastra a bottle
of what looked like red wine from a planet that they visited a few weeks ago
the Doctor assured her it was Vastra's favourite, which seemed to have softened
Vastra slightly and the more she drunk the more she seemed to come round to
Sarah being there. The Doctor had started drinking scotch as he retold stories
of what they had been up too since the last time they had visited Vastra the
stories becoming more and more outrageous as he drunk until they were nothing
like what had happened and Strax was hanging on every word the Doctor said and
even done a sontaran battle cry when the Doctor got to the part of him
defeating the enemy in celebration.
Christmas dinner was the nicest Sarah had had since her Gran died, a lovely
pump turkey, creaming mash potatoes, that the Doctor made a joke about eating
Strax's brothers under his breath which earned him a kick in the leg from Clara
and a snort of laughter from Vastra, and lovely roasted veg and Brussels
sprouts with a huge piece of apple pie for dessert. Sarah had never felt so
full.
Everyone was in the sitting room relaxing as night fell, The Doctor was playing
carols on the piano and Clara was singing along well trying too but the Doctor
kept interrupting her with the wrong lyrics most of them rude. Strax had his
head buried in the book the Doctor got him for Christmas about a war on the
planet Frederick, Jenny was doing the cross stitch she got from Clara and
Vastra and Sarah were sat side by side watching everyone
"Would you not have liked to had Christmas with your mother? not that I'm not
glad you are here, you've been surprisingly good company" Vastra asked her
words slurring slightly
"She died about 3 years ago now" Sarah answered shrugging
"I'm sorry to hear that dear it must have been hard" Vastra said patting the
back of Sarah's hand
"Don't be my mother wasn't the nicest of people, she cared more about her drugs
and drink than me, I was just her way of getting them for free" Sarah said
coldly she hated talking about her mother.
"That doesn't sound like someone any incarnation of the Doctor would be
involved with" Vastra said confused
"They were only together a week but she loved him dearly I know that and I
think it broke her when he didn't come back and the drugs helped block it out"
Sarah said tears forming in her eyes.
The old clock in the corner of the room stuck midnight making Vastra jump. "I
think it's time we all head to bed mam" Jenny suggested as Clara yawned
"Yes, Yes very well dear" Vastra answered standing up. "Doctor you know were
your room is Sarah you're just across the hall from them"
"Actually Sarah, you're staying with us tonight, you're not sleeping on your
own after earlier" The Doctor instructed as he stood up swaying slightly
"Dad I'm 19 I can sleep on my own" Sarah rolled her eyes. She knew why the
Doctor wanted to stay with them she has nightmares most nights and what
happened with the drunk earlier will make them worse but she knew so would the
smell of the scotch from the Doctor, it's the same one Stephan drunk on special
occasions.
"I don't care Sarah you're not staying on your own and that's it" The Doctor
started to sound angry and instantly fear started to work its way through
Sarah, she knew her dad would never hurt her no matter what it was just
reaction, thankfully Clara noticed and came to the rescue
"Doctor why don't I sleep in Sarah's room with her tonight means you wont have
to worry about keeping us up if you can't sleep"
He debated about it for a moment before grunting and nodding his reply and
heading up to his own room. Clara and Sarah went to their room and feel asleep
sharing the same bed almost instantly. That night Sarah was plagued with
nightmares.
a/n let me know what you think :-) xxxx
***** Nightmares *****
a/n bit of a short one but two updates in one day woop, im quite proud of this
chapter even ifit did only take about an hour to write. enjoy
Sarah was running, her breath came in short sharp breaths that seemed to echo
all around and her heart pumped so hard she feared it would jump out of her
chest. She could hear her bare feet pounding of the wet ground but she felt
detached from them as if they belonged to someone else, her mind was back in
that flat but her body was moving as fast and far away from it as possible. The
cold night air was biting against her exposed legs thanks to the shorts she was
wearing and the tight vest top did nothing to help with cold around the top of
her body but she didn't notice, she couldn't because if she noticed she'd stop
and if she stopped he'd get her. Her large gold hooped earrings flapped up and
down as she ran, she wanted to take them out, she hated them but they were a
gift from one of the men so she had to wear them. Her chest started to burn in
need of oxygen and she almost stopped until she heard it.
"Saaarrrraaaahhh" Came the creepy sing song voice but she couldn't tell were it
was coming from it was too dark, the street lights had gone out again and it
was pitch black but it made Sarah push away the burning in her chest and the
ache that formed in her legs and ran even faster
"I know you're out here Sarah I can hear you, I can smell you" The voice teased
making an over exaggerated sniffing noise.
Sarah ran faster almost tripping over her own feet in the hurry, she needed to
get away she knew there was a main road near here someone, she could run there
and get help and be taken away from this hell whole once and for all she could
just about hear the sound of the cars flying up and down the road, She just had
to keep going and get there and she'd be safe that was it, she was almost
there.
"You can't get away from me Sarah, You're mine I own you" The voice echo's in
her ears just about audible over the thudding of her heart.
She could see the light from the main road now, she just needed to keep running
towards it, that was her freedom. No more being beaten or raped by mums
boyfriend, no more sex parties, no more of the training classes her mother made
her have, She'd be free from it all, she was so close as she ran the light got
bigger and brighter, she was almost there just up the small bank of grass and
that was it she let out a small laugh in excitement and then she was grabbed by
her ponytail.
"Not so fast sweetheart" Stephan snarled into her face as he gripped her hair
tighter wrapping it around his wrist and pulling her towards him "No one runs
away from me and gets away with it" he spat at her.
Stephan pulled Sarah's back flush against his front, his breath smelt of scotch
and cigarettes. Sarah wanted to scream and kick but her body was too tired from
running to fight him. "I'll show you what happens to girls who run away from
me" he whispered into her ear before biting it so hard it bleed, he continued
his assault of biting down her neck and over her shoulder. Sarah had to bite
her lip to keep from screaming in agony, she knew if he did he would make it
worse for her so she stayed as quiet as she could, her eyes filling up with
tears. She felt him start to take his belt off and her body trembled in fear.
Without warning he threw her to the ground, whipping her as she fell.
"SARAH" The Doctor shouted making her jump awake
She was unsure where she was for a minute and all she could smell was scotch,
her reflexes kicked in and she jumped away from the Doctor who was towering
over her and crashed into Clara.
"It's OK Sarah, you're fine its just us" Clara soothed pulling Sarah into a hug
crushing Sarah's hand against her face, it was only then she realised that she
was crying . The Doctor tried coming close to Sarah again to make sure she was
OK but she caught the smell of his breath and pushed closer to Clara in fear,
she knew he wasn't Stephan but that smell sent fear into her hearts and she
couldn't stop it.
"It's me Sarah, I won't hurt you, you're safe" The Doctor assured her, it hurt
him that his daughter would react to him in this way when he had no idea why.
"Scotch" Sarah whispered against Clara's shoulder.
The Doctor's eyes widened in horror when he realised what was wrong and
instantly left to go brush his teeth, by the time he came back Sarah had calmed
down and was sleeping again with Clara laid beside her stroking her hair, He
climbed into the bed beside Clara and wrapped his arms around her cuddling in
as close to her as he could.
"Thank you" he whispered in her ear before kissing her cheek lovingly.
a/n let me know what you think :-) xxx
***** Paris *****
a/n Whouffaldi was reguested so here you go.
A few days later the TARDIS landed in Paris 12th February 2015 to be exact,
this was the Doctor's Christmas present for the girls, 2 days no Alien
invasions no end of world disasters and no running for their lives. He had even
promised them a day in Disney, Sarah couldn't wait she had always wanted to go
to Disney. Clara however was more excited about going shopping in Paris.
They stepped out of the TARDIS right into the middle of the city, people
rushing to their destinations with little to no care of what was around them
all bundled up against the cold February wind that nipped at their noses. Clara
and Sarah linked arms with the Doctor as they walked down the street mouths
open and eyes wide at everything around them. The Doctor watched Clara's
reaction as she soaked in the culture.
Further up the path was a man sat on the ground with a mat in front of him
doing a magic trick for some tourists, Clara watched with amusement as a second
man came running up the street shouting "Police, Police" In French but thanks
to the TARDIS they heard it in English and the first man scooped up his mat and
ran as fast as he could after him, seconds later a French policeman riding his
bike came flying past in pursuit of the two men. The three of them looked at
each other before bursting out laughing.
"Right where too first?" The Doctor asked
"Shopping" Clara answered before he had even finished the question
"Clara the TARDIS has an infinite wardrobe you never need to go shopping" The
Doctor sighed as if he was talking to a small child
"We can't come to Paris and not go shopping now come on its already 12 o'clock"
Clara laughed dragging the Doctor and Sarah off in a random direction.
They spent hours going in and out of different shops, Clara was in her element
looking through rail after rail of clothing, pulling the odd dress or top out
that she liked to try on and a few that would suit Sarah and making her try
them on.
The Doctor was assigned "Chief bag carrier" meaning he was the one stuck
carrying all the shopping bags they acquired and quite frankly while sitting
outside what felt like the millionth dressing room he was bored not just the
typical bored but properly utterly and completely bored so he decided to try
playing with his sonic to ease his boredom a bit, he found a setting he hadn't
used before it made objects move using the sonic waves. He pointed the sonic at
a rail of clothing in front of him with the intention of watching it zoom side
to side but it didn't budge which made him let out a frustrated moan.
"Doctor!" Clara shrieked from her dressing room beside him, the curtain now
fully open revealing Clara in nothing but a red lace bra matching French
knickers and heels.
The Doctor's eyes trailed down over Clara's rounded breasts down past her
perfectly toned stomach, lingering slightly at her red panties before trailing
down her legs to her black heels, this incarnation had a bit of a fetish for
high heels and his mouth suddenly went very dry and he swallowed hard, trying
to stop something else from hardening.
"Down boy" Clara flirted feeling very empowered under his stare.
"Clara" The Doctor breathed swallowing hard again
Clara just laughed and dragged him to the changing room pulling the curtain
across once he was inside and kissed him softly at lest it started softly but
as soon as his hands touched her bare waist Clara's desire took over and she
pinned him against the wall between hers and Sarah's changing room kissing him
roughly and he kissed back just as fierce. The Doctor broke the kiss to kiss
Clara's weak spot behind her ear earning him a moan from her, He started moving
the kisses down her neck gently biting and sucking the flesh as he did so
making Clara moan again.
"You are aware I can hear you two right?" Sarah asked from the other changing
room, making Clara jump away from the Doctor, her face going nearly as red as
her underwear, she had completely forgot where they were and that Sarah was in
the next cubicle.
They left the shop quickly after that, It was dark outside now and Clara
decided she had, had enough of shopping for today and was hungry, they found a
little cafe not far from where they were, the inside looked like a posh British
bar and it was quite small with only a few tables, they sat down at the closest
table.
"You know I expect that sort of thing from Clara but you are meant to have some
sort of control Mr timelord" Sarah teased after they had ordered some dinner.
"I have perfect control Sarah" The Doctor snapped
"Didn't sound like it" she laughed
"Didn't feel like it either" Clara joined in with the teasing
"You started it!" The Doctor exclaimed pointing at Clara
"Yea but I'm only human and little" Clara pretended to pout in a small voice
fluttering her eyelashes at him
"Don't do that with the eyes" he warned making both women laugh, he hated when
she used her eyes against him they always made him cave.
"How about visiting the Eiffel tower after this?" Clara suggested taking a bite
out of her hotdog that had just arrived
"Yes! Dad please I've always wanted to see it in real life" Sarah asked
excitedly
"We can't come to Paris and not go up to the top now can we?" He answered with
a smile
"The top seriously?" Clara laughed
"Yep VIP" The Doctor nodded taking out his psychic paper and tapping it against
the table.
After Dinner they headed straight to the Eiffel tower, even late at night there
wee lots of people gathered round the base of it, it looked breath taking light
up, men with huge hop's filled with different sized Eiffel tower trinkets
walked around the outside of it trying to sell them to tourists. The line for
the lifts to go up in the tower was about 200-300 people long but the Doctor
walked straight past them all pulling Clara and Sarah with him right to the
front of the que and flashed the spotty faced teenager there his psychic paper.
"Oh Mr President Sir, Sorry I wasn't made aware of your visit this evening, go
on up" The teenager spluttered.
They rode up to the very top in the glass elevator. Clara and Sarah couldn't
contain there excitement and were fidgeting and giggling like school kids, the
Doctor however looked completely calm although inside he was just as excited as
they were. Once the lift doors opened and they were met by the view of the
whole city beneath there feet, All three of them were stunned into silence, it
was beautiful.
"Compliments of the tower" A older looked waiter greeted them with a glass of
champagne each which Sarah refused saying she doesn't drink. The Doctor and
Clara however took Thiers and sipped on it as they walked around the tower,
Sarah had gone of in the other direction leaving the Doctor and Clara alone.
"It's beautiful" Clara said as the looked out over the skyline her am linked
round the Doctors and her head resting against the top of his arm.
"Yes it is, look you can see the Musee d'Orsay from here" The Doctor pointed to
a building in the distance "I took Van Gough there once to see all his
paintings with Amy, he painted sunflowers for her"
Clara didn't respond to that she felt strangely jealous when he mentioned Amy
his past regeneration was very attached to her and sometimes she wondered if he
still was, it also reminded her that eventually she would leave him too and see
didn't want to think about that so instead she stood up onto her tip toes and
placed a small kiss to his lips.
"I love you" The Doctor whispered to Clara. her breath caught in her throat he
hadn't said that before of course she knew he did he showed her often but he
had never said it until now.
"I love you too" Clara beamed at him
"To us" The Doctor toasted clinking his glass against Clara's
"To us" She echoed
a/n its quite hard to do too much Whouffaldi cause the Story is mostly from
Sarah's point of veiw but I hope this worked ok let me know what you think :-)
***** Com's *****
Chapter Summary
     this started as a funny paragraph or two at the start of the disney
     trip chapter but it kind of grew into a full smutty chapter lol
Com's
The next morning Sarah was up early well even earlier than normal being mostly
timelord means she only sleeps 3-4 hours a night and even that's mostly out of
habit she could go a few nights with no sleep and be fine. It was 5am according
to her clock which was set to be the time of where ever they were or synced to
earths time if they were orbiting in space, She had already showered twice, ate
breakfast and got dressed in a Minnie mouse jumper, jeans and her favourite
emerald green sandshoes.
Clara had given her instructions not to wake her up before 6am so she had a
whole hour left to kill. sighing she flopped down on her bed and pulled out her
battered copy of "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Askaban" it was her
favourite book and she had lost count of the amount of times she had read it
and watched the film. Opening up to were she last read to Sarah made a mental
note to ask the Doctor to take her to meet J.K.Rowling now that would be
amazing.
Sarah was just getting to the bit were they were all getting on the train to
Hogwarts when the TARDIS internal com system blared to life making her jump,
usually they used this to call each other for dinner or to go on an adventure
or if there was danger, it played through every room in the TARDIS but all that
was on the other end was Clara moaning, Sarah started to worry that Clara had
some how got hurt until she heard Clara shout "Doctor" followed by her father
moaning Clara's name.
"Oh stars they're having sex" Sarah groaned bringing her book up to her face in
embarrassment
"Oh yes Doctor fuck me" Clara shouted though the com's
**********
The Doctor slowly opened the door to Clara's bedroom, it was still dark inside
so she must still be asleep he realised, he was going to turn round and leave
right there and then really he was but Clara turned in her sleep and the cover
feel off the bed revealing Clara in a short silk nightie, it had bundled up
under her so the silk was tight over her bum as if framing it perfectly and one
of the small straps had fallen down over her shoulder. The Doctor felt his
desire pick up instantly, before he even knew what had happened he was laying
down on the bed beside Clara kissing her down her neck and along her collar
bone, his large hand cupping her bum drawing her closer to him.
"Doctor what are you doing?" Clara asked in a sleepy voice
"What do you think? You know you really shouldn't sleep in this sort of thing
its such a waste" The Doctor whispered seductively in her ear before sucking on
her earlobe.
"I think you're waking me up when I want to sleep" Clara complained, Clara did
not to mornings at all until she had a cup of coffee or three in her
"You've slept enough" He answered his voice full of desire as he started to run
his hand up and down Clara's back knowing that he would get her aroused be
doing it and he was right as soon as he ran his hand up once Clara captured his
lips with hers
"Let me go to the bathroom and then I'm all yours" Clara whispered against his
lips as she pulled away from the kiss before jumping out of the bed.
The Doctor waited a minute or so while she did her humany things and then got
bored and frustrated so he followed Clara into the bathroom attached to her
room
"Doctor!" Clara scolded when she noticed him. He didn't even answer her just
walked over to her plucked the toothbrush from her hand threw it behind him
somewhere before pulling her into a passionate kiss. Clara's anger at him
completely disappeared as she kissed him back and lead them back into the
bedroom neither of them breaking the kiss.
The Doctor pinned Clara against the wall in her room being to impatient to get
to the bed, his long fingers began rubbing against her clit before plunging
into her wet centre, making Clara call out in pleasure, his fingers were
relentless and quickly brought Clara to climax shouting the Doctor's name. The
Doctor took a moment to mentally congratulate himself on making this room
soundproof. Clara recovered quickly and pulled him into another kiss while
undoing his belt and button then pushing his trousers and underwear down to his
ankles freeing his erection, Clara sank to her knee's and began sucking and
licking the Doctor's errection taking as much of him into her mouth as she
could.
"Oh fuck Clara" The Doctor moaned his head falling back. Clara had discovered
much to her delight that this Doctor had quite a dirty mouth during sex. Clara
began to suck harder nd run her tounge along the tip of him, she could feel him
becoming more and more undone, just as she was about to make him cum, he pulled
her up of the floor and pinned her against the wall again his mouth finding
hers roughly, his instincts completely took over and he had little control over
what he was doing, Clara wrapped her legs around his waist and the Doctor
balanced himself with one hand on the wall behind Clara unknown to him at the
time right on the com system. The Doctor finally entered Clara making her call
out "Oh yes Doctor fuck me"
The Doctor took her roughly, every one of his thrusts lifting Clara up slightly
and he had to use his other hand to hold her still, his fingers digging into
her hips, she would bruise later but Clara didn't she enjoyed the mix of pain
and pleasure, Clara's breast's had fallen out of her nightie by now and the
Doctor greedily took each one in turn into his mouth and licked and sucked at
her nipples biting them. Clara's moans had become shouts by now as she was
nearing her climax, the Doctor close behind her.
"Oh fuck Clara" the Doctor swore biting down on Clara's shoulder leaving a love
bite behind as he sucked it after.
The Doctor and Clara were both close to climaxing when there was a loud knock
at the door. "Go away" The Doctor shouted forgetting the room was soundproof
not breaking his pace but the knocking continued and got more frantic. The
Doctor groaned knowing Sarah was not going away and pulled out denying them
both the release they needed.
"Sarah slightly busy right now" he snapped as he opened the door slightly
making sure only the top half of his body was visible.
"Yea well can you move of the com's please" Sarah snapped back
The Doctor looked over to were Clara was still stood and sure enough they had
been by the com's, his face reddened with embarrassment at what his daughter
had just heard.
"How much of that did you hear?" He mumbled
"From Oh Doctor fuck me" Sarah sassed
"Sorry" The Doctor said quickly before slamming the door shut.
a/n let me know what you think :-) xxx
***** Disney *****
Disney
After a really uncomfortable half an hour in the TARDIS, The Doctor, Clara and
Sarah were stood in the line to get into Disney. Clara and Sarah were fidgeting
with excitement again. Clara gets fiddling with the skirt part of her red
Minnie Mouse inspired dress, she worse her leather jacket over the top of it, a
white scarf and bottle green gloves as well as her black boots to keep her
warm. Sarah, who thanks to Timelord biology, didn't feel the cold as much only
had her Minnie Mouse hoodie jeans and converse on. The Doctor grumbled over and
over again about how the line was taking too long and how if it didn't hurry up
he was going to build a Dalek just for some entertainment.
After an eternity (15 minutes) of time later, The three of them were passed
security and on their way to the magic kingdom. Clara hung onto the Doctor's
arm pointing out all the amazing things she saw, a hedge shaped like Mickey
Mouse, some statues of the seven dwarfs, that made the Doctor do a double take
and scan them with his sonic just in case. Sarah was staring around in
amazement wishing she had more eyes or heads or something so she could see
everything at once. Even the Doctor couldn't help but smile at everything
around them.
They were walking up the main street towards the castle when they spotted a
little cart selling candy floss, which Clara had to have some off, the candy
floss was almost as big as her head which as quite an achievement according to
the Doctor, Clara was in too much of a good mood to let that little comment
bother her, instead she pulled a piece of the Candy floss off the stick and fed
it to the Doctor placing a small kiss on his cheek after.
"Where too first?" The Doctor asked his cheeks a little red from Clara's kiss
"Tea cups" Clara smiled leading them towards the ride
"Clara, I'm the on coming storm, I do not ride the tea cups The Doctor tied to
sound in charge
"Tuff I like them, now come on and we can go on a ride suitable for the
oncoming storm after" Clara laughed sitting down on the ride.
Much to his surprise and annoyance the Doctor actually enjoyed the tea cup ride
and was slightly disappointed when it finished not that he would ever admit
that to Clara or Sarah. True to her word they did go on scarier ride, Big
Thunder Mountain. The Doctor and Clara sat together with Sarah behind them next
to a French man who seemed to be praying to God which made the Doctor nervous.
The ride took over around the track going Faster than the Doctor had expected,
they came to a drop and the Doctor froze in fear, gripping Clara's hand
tightly. Clara and Sarah were screaming and laughing as they flew around the
track really enjoying the ride but the Doctor just wanted it over and sat
frozen in his seat to scared to even scream.
"You OK Doctor?" Clara asked when his grip tightened on her hand
"Of course I'm alright Clara, I'm a Timelord, we don't get scared of silly
little rides" He snapped
Clara just rolled her eyes at that response, She knew he was scared but he'd
never admit it. At last the ride slowed to a stop and everyone got out, the
Doctor's legs felt a bit unsteady but he ignored it and carried on walking
"That was great! wanna go again?" Clara asked still buzzing from the ride
"Yea!" Sarah responded still as buzzed as Clara
"No!" The Doctor shouted about more forcefully than he had intend "it's boring
lets go find something else" he complained hoping to hide the real reason he
didn't want to go.
Clara and Sarah shared a amused look they could tell what the reason reason
was, Clara's hand hurt slightly from him holding it so tight. The decided to go
into one of the shops near the rides and spent ages looking through it all,
They even managed to get a certain grumpy Timelord to try on some Mickey mouse
ears which Clara insisted she bought for him just so he had to wear them around
the rest of the day.
"No, no, no, no absalutly not, never going to happen" He protest
"Please Doctor. for me?" Clara asked sweetly standing on her tiptoes so she
could wrap her arms around his neck and kissing him gently. "I'll wear Minnie
Mouse one's" She offered pulling away.
"Fine" He sighed knowing he was never going to win against Clara, She knew
exactly how to seduce him into getting her own way.
Sarah bought some sparkly Minnie Mouse ears for herself and a cute little
Mickey mouse teddy in a blue sleep suit to put with her collection of things
she had bought for James during their adventures. They spent the rest of the
day on the less scary rides and going in and out off all the different shops
and before they knew it Darkness had fallen and they were gathered near the
castle watching fireworks go off.
It was the most beautiful sight Sarah had ever seen all around them fireworks
were lighting up the sky music blasting from the near by speakers added to the
atmosphere, Sarah watched the fireworks go off over the Castle and couldn't
help let a few tears fall, James and Wyatt would have loved to see this, she
could almost imagine their little faces light up in wonder and amazement as
each firework exploded in the sky, revealing its beauty and light to the world
being the brightest most colourful light against the darkness of the universe
before disappearing into nothing but smoke seconds later leaving only an
impression on the memories of the people below.
The Doctor watched Clara as she took in the display, her face lighting up with
amazement every time a firework went off but he could see there as also
something else behind her eyes a sadness and he knew what it was, they reminded
her of Danny and all the other Cybermen who had to burn to save mankind from
Missy. The Doctor bend down and captured Clara's lips with him own before
pulling her into a tight hug.
"What was that for?" She asked happily
"To remind you that not every relationship has to end in fire" He replied
laying his cheek against the top of her head and watching the fireworks with
her.
***** Wrong place, wrong time *****
Wrong Place, Wrong Time
Clara decided it was time for her to go back to her "human" life, she was
supposed to spend Christmas with her family and it was a week past Christmas
for her by now so she need to go back or she would never go back again. The
Doctor landed the TARDIS in a bit of a sulk, he hated when Clara left, he
always seemed so lost. With a quick Kiss for the Doctor and a hug for Sarah she
exited the box.
"Ah Doctor, this isn't my flat" Clara complained through the still open door.
Curiosity got the better of Sarah and she went too look at the flat while Clara
argued with the Doctor, who insisted that she must have just forgotten what her
flat looked like much to Clara's annoyance
"Look Clara see, London, UK, Earth, your solar system" The said impatiently
tapping the monitor screen
"Doctor! this is the other side of London!" Clara shouted hitting the screen
with the back of her hand.
Sarah was staring around the darkened room the TARDIS had landed in. Taking in
the flowery sofa that looked like it belonged in the 40 or 50's with matching
chairs, a small TV sat in the corner of the room and right in the middle was a
wooden coffee table with a half finished jigsaw puzzle on top of it, photo's
decorated the walls and nearly every available surface. Sarah knew this room
far too well and she couldn't be here not now, not ever.
"Dad" Sarah called behind her but Clara and the Doctor were still arguing in
the TARDIS and didn't hear her.
"Your stupid snog box has brought us to the wrong place again!" Clara
complained
"Be fair it's been a while since she last took us somewhere this badly wrong"
The Doctor argued
"Dad" Sarah called again unable to take her eyes of the room
"We are the other side of London and 5 year's too early!" Clara practically
screeched
"It's the right planet" The Doctor argued pathetically
"DOCTOR!" Sarah shouted getting his attention, she only ever called him Doctor
if it was something really bad.
"What? what is it?" The demanded sounding panicked running out of the TARDIS
waving his sonic around
"I know where we are" said Sarah
"Yes well we've already established we are in the wrong place, what was the
Doctor bit all about?" He asked annoyed
"No you don't understand, this is my Gran's house on the night she died" Sarah
explained her eyes still not moving from the puzzle on the table
"How do you know it's that night?" Clara asked
"That's the puzzle, we were working on, when it got too late she promised that
we could finish it after church the next day but I found her dead that morning,
I was 14" Sarah explained a tear rolling down her face "My Gran was the only
person who cared about me growing up, she kept me safe, once she died I had no
where to go at weekends and the abuse got worse until I told Adrian"
"Adrian? as in English teacher Adrian?" Clara asked shocked. Sarah nodded more
tears escaping her eyes.
*Flashback*
Sarah had just collected her GCSE results, she was on her own she had no
friends and her mum was too hungover to come with her. Nervously Sarah tore
open the envelope and lifted the white sheet of paper out, scanning her
results, She got A* in everything apart from English she got an A in it. Her
heart sunk and she felt like she was going to pass out, Sarah ran from the room
and down the corridor hiding in a small alcove she used regularly to avoid
people before sinking down to the floor her arms wrapped around her knees that
were drawn up to her chest and bust into tears. Her mum was going to be
disappointed and Stephan was going to go nuts and punish her. Sarah was so
caught up in her panic about what Stephan was going to do that she didn't
notice her English teacher sit down on the floor beside her.
"Sarah you OK?" he asked unsure, Sarah just shook her head there was no point
denying it. "What's wrong?"
She handed him her results and he looked down the list "Wow Sarah this is
amazing! I don't think any other student got an A star never mind one in nearly
every subject" He praised which just made Sarah cry harder. Adrian looked
really confused now he couldn't understand why she was so upset. "Help me out
here Sarah I've no idea what's wrong, is it a boy? I could get Miss Oswald she
knows more about teenage boys than I do" He rambled
"NO! It's fine don't get anyone else please" Sarah begged
"OK don't worry I won't, what's wrong?" Adrian asked placing a hand on her knee
to try and comfort her but Sarah jumped away from the contact terrified which
made Adrian frown
"Sorry, It's my English result, I failed I should have got an A star and I
didn't, I should have studied more, oh god. Stephan's going to kill me" Sarah
rambled in a panic another wave of tears over coming her
"Sarah an A is not failing that's amazing there's only a handful of students
that managed to get an A in English this year" Adrian explained still
completely lost as to why she was so upset
"Stephan said if I didn't get A stars in all of my results he'd punish me and
I'd never get to go to school again, I'd be be stuck there with him, I can't be
stuck there with him I just can't do it any more not all the time, I can't"
Sarah panicked, Adrian wasn't even sure if she was talking to him or just
talking out loud she seemed so scared and frantic pulling at her hair as tears
flowed down her face.
"Sarah please calm down, you can't do what any more" Adrian begged his
heartbreaking to see his student in this state, he tried to grab her hands to
stop her pulling at her hair but she jumped back away from him again looking
terrified
"Don't hurt me please" Sarah begged her arms crossed in front of her face in a
defensive manner.
"I'm not going to hurt you I promise" Adrian said softly a second later he
realised what was going on "Sarah has Stephan been hurting you? That's your
mums boyfriend right?" He asked calling on past parent's evenings
Sarah lowered her arms and hung her head not looking at her teacher. "Yes" She
whispered
"Yes he's hurting you?" Adrian asked just so he was clear. Sarah just nodded
unable to look up out of shame. "Sarah, if he's hurting you I need to report it
to the principle who will need to phone the police" He explained as softly as
possible scared to frighten her again.
Sarah's head shot up and she panicked "NO! please don't, he'll kill me, please
don't tell anyone"
"I have too I could loose my job if I don't and I need to make sure you're away
from him so you can be safe" Adrian tried soothing her
"I lied, I made it up, He's not hurting me" Sarah lied and even she knew it was
never going to work
"I've taught you for 5 years I know when you're lying" Adrian said "Does he hit
you?"
"Sometimes" Sarah answered looking down again and chewing on the inside of her
mouth debating if she could tell him the whole truth or not. Adrian could tell
she was holding something back and not telling him everything, he had a feeling
he knew what it was but he hoped he was wrong with a sigh he whispered the
question he didn't want to have to ask
"Did he rape you?" Adrian didn't take his eyes of Sarah as she looked down at
her fingers fidgeting in her lap and gave the smallest nod. Adrian felt tears
well up in his own eyes and he tried to swallow his emotion as he asked the
next question "Was it more than once" his voice broke slightly as he asked.
Sarah was one of his favourite students, she was brilliant at English and
always seemed a polite well behaved girl and put lots of extra effort into her
work. He was blinking away tears and almost missed the tiny nod of Sarah's head
as she broke into tears again sobs coursing through her whole body making her
shake with emotion. On instinct he reached his hand out to touch her shoulder
but remembered just before he touched her how she reacted before and just let
his hand hover above her shoulder for a moment before retracting it and putting
it into his pocket.
"How long has it been going on for?" Adrian asked trying to regain control of
his own emotions
"Since I was 6" Sarah whispered
Adrian started at Sarah unblinking for a minute, shocked and unable to take the
information in. Sarah spoke again before he did taking a deep breath in to calm
herself first.
"It's not just him, he has these... parties. Men and sometimes woman pay him to
be able to have sex with me" Sarah explained in a monotone
"Does your mother know?" Adrian asked still not completely over his shock
"Stephan gives her drink and drugs in exchange for me" Sarah whispered feeling
ashamed of herself.
"Sarah sweetie, I need to tell the police this, you do understand its just to
help you, you will be safe I promise" Adrian reassured Sarah who nodded "Come
on we need to go to the principle" Adrian stood offering his hand to Sarah who
took it cautiously.
*end of flashback*
There was a loud crash from somewhere upstairs and the trio ran towards it,
forgetting for a moment where they were as adrenaline took over. Sarah was in
front as she raced up the stairs. Stood at the top was a man in Victorian style
suit with a long black coat black shoes and a black top hat on his head.
"Who are you?" Sarah asked confused.
***** Do you hear the Whispermen? *****
Do you hear the Whispermen?
"Miss Smith, you've grown since we last met, quite the young woman now" The
Victorian man greeted smugly with a touch of arrogance.
"Who are you?" Sarah asked again with more force this time
"Simeon" The Doctor practically growled putting himself between Simeon and
Sarah making him almost chest to chest with him. "I thought you were destroyed
in my time stream"
"Alas I was Doctor, but I am intelligence its hard to kill intelligence
completely" Simeon responded almost sounding sad "I see you still have your
pet, no matter I can fix that, stop her heart" Simeon commanded nodding towards
Clara
Out of now where three men stood around Clara dressed in a back suit with a
crisp white shirt a burgundy coloured tie large back overcoat black leather
gloves and a black top hat but their faces where white like someone had only
half moulded it out of clay they didn't seem to have any eyes just shallow dips
were their eye's should be, their mouth however was terrifying the lips looked
like scab's on a child knee, their bared teeth were yellow and pointed. They
let out a terrifying hissing noise like when gas escapes. their arms out
stretched towards Clara.
Sarah looked from the Doctor to Clara trying to work out why he hadn't done
anything, He looked terrified he knew there was nothing he could do, how do you
kill intelligence? Clara knew what as coming she had experienced it before and
it wasn't nice, she braised herself shutting her eyes, the sound of their
hissing was the only thing she was aware of. The door to the left of them
opened and an lady in her 70's walked out dressed in a long sleeved white
nightie and a green dressing gown, her hair grey hair fell down passed her
shoulders dry and wiry looking. Sarah's breath caught in her throat, it was her
Gran. Gran jumped when she saw them stood in her hall her eyes flickering over
to the door beside the one she just came out of where 14 year old Sarah was
sleeping.
"Who are you? What are you all doing here? I don't have anything worth stealing
I'm just a pensioner" Sarah's Gran asked her voice betraying her fear even
though she tried to seem brave. Sarah knew her Gran was lying he may have been
a pensioner but she had a bag with a lot of money stored under her bed as well
as a very expensive pieces of jewellery hidden away, Sarah's mum had found them
all when clearing out the house after her Gran had died and sold them all for
drugs even the locket her Gran had left for Sarah in her will.
Simeon's men turned their attention from Clara to Sarah's Gran a loud hiss
escaping their mouths as they approached her.
"Do you hear the Whisper men, the Whisper men are near. If you hear the whisper
men then turn away you ear. Do not hear the Whisper men what ever else you do.
For once you've heard the Whisper men they'll stop, and look at you" The rhyme
didn't seem to be coming from the men but echoed all around them in the air,
Sarah could almost taste words as they wrapped around her, making the very air
seem cooler, the smell of fear and death accompanied the words making them seem
much more sinister and as though they had a live of their own.
"GRAN!" Sarah shouted unable to help herself as one of the Whispermen's hands
passed into her Gran's chest clutching at her heart within. Gran's face
distorted into pain and fear as she struggled to breath and pain radiated
through her chest. Both Sarah and Clara ran towards the Whisper men to try and
stop the one hurting her Gran but they were stopped by the two other men of
either side as the plunged their hand's into Sarah and Clara's chest squeezing
at their hearts.
"Stop this, Stop this now Simeon" The Doctor roared feeling completely helpless
"You are lucky this time Doctor she is not ready for us, release them" Simeon
commanded and the Whispermen stopped their attacks, the three woman falling to
the floor.
"Not ready? what do you mean not ready?" The Doctor asks as he bends down to
check on them, They all had a pulse, just knocked out slightly
"Child of the universe with blood of Gallifrey and of Earth. Power of the
Vortex, her destiny since before times birth. Time must obey her, The rules are
hers to make. Time and space are forever at stake. The Timelord Victorious
shall rise forever more. Conceived behind the blue wooden door" The Whispermen
hissed before disappearing with Simeon
Sarah and Clara woke up just as they left coughing slightly as they did. The
Doctor embraced them both in turn relief washing over him.
"Gran?!" Sarah shouted as she crawled over to her Gran who had also woke up but
was very weak and struggling to breathe
"Sarah?" Gran asked barely more than a whisper
"Yes Gran it's me, Don't worry we'll get you help you'll be OK" Sarah tried to
sooth through tears as she moved her Gran slightly so her head was in Sarah's
lap
"Sarah, this is the night your Gran died I'm sorry but we can't help" The
Doctor explained putting his hand on her shoulder
"No but we have too help, she died of a heart attack not this!" Sarah cried
"That's how the Whispermen kill it looks like a heart attack"
"Who is he?" Gran asked Sarah in a weak voice
"He's the Doctor" Sarah explained biting her lip to try and stop more tears
" I thought so, I'm glad you found your father Sarah, he's much better than
your mother would ever have been" Gran smiled, Shocking Sarah she never knew
that her Gran knew the Doctor was her dad, she wondered if she knew anything
about what happened with UNIT but decided now wasn't the time to worry about
that her Gran was dying and she had the chance to say goodbye.
"Yea, he is. Gran there's something I need to tell you, Stephan and Mum abused
me in every way possible" Sarah started but was interrupted by her Gran
"Oh Sarah! I'm so sorry, I thought there was something more than your mum's
drugs and drinking but I couldn't be sure and I couldn't report it in case UNIT
found out and took you back. I was too old to" Gran cried tears flowing down
her cheek's
"No Gran listen let me finish, They abused me from I was little right up until
I was 16 but for my whole life, It was you that made it better, you that made
me feel like I was special. You were the only person that cared about me. I
lived for our weekends together. Take away on Saturday night, my Dance lessons,
church, shopping. All of that made me feel like I had a childhood even if it
was only at the weekend, I felt safe and loved all because of you. Thank you
Gran, Thank you for making me feel special" Sarah smiled down at her Gran
remembering all the good time's they had together, laughing slightly as she
remembered the nights they spent dancing around the living room after watching
strictly come dancing on the TV
"I'm glad I helped little, I love you Sarah" Gran whispered her breathing
becoming more uneven and her eyes slid closed
"I love you too Gran" Sarah whispered placing a kiss on her Gran's forehead as
her Gran took one last shuttering breath before her soul departed for spiritual
paradise.
***** Mind Games *****
Mind Games
Sarah sat with her Gran for a few moments silent tears falling from her eyes
but they were tears of happiness not sadness, since her Gran died she had hated
that she had died alone and without ever knowing just how much she meant to her
and she was so relived that she was able to fix that.
"Sarah we have to go before younger you wakes up" The Doctor whispered.
Just as he spoke the door of the room younger Sarah was sleeping in opened and
younger Sarah stepped half asleep out in cotton jammie bottoms vest top and
fuzzy slippers, her hair was messy and stuck up everywhere as it flowed down to
the middle of her back. The Doctor was momentarily stunned looking at his 14
year old daughter, she was shorter than Clara which shocked the Doctor he
didn't think any human could be shorter than Clara.
"Go back to the TARDIS, having two of you here could cause all sorts of
problems" The Doctor whispered to Sarah who gave one last look at her Gran
before disappearing down the stairs.
Younger Clara sleepily walked to the bathroom without even acknowledging them,
rubbing her eyes and yawning as she did. The Doctor and Clara looked at each
other confused, how had she not noticed them? Young Sarah was nearly at the
bathroom when she stopped and spun round
"Who are you?" She asked suddenly awake, she had been half asleep before and
forgot she was in her Gran's house. At home it was normal to see random people
standing about at all hours, she had just been thankful they hadn't came into
her room or grabbed her as she walked past to really pay attention but now she
was more awake she was scared.
"It's OK we aren't here to hurt you I promise, I'm Clara this is the Doctor, we
are friends of your Gran's" Clara answered before the Doctor could using her
best soothing teacher voice
"What are you doing here?" Sarah asked.
"We just came to check on your Gran that's all" Clara lied thankful it was dark
so Sarah couldn't see her Gran's body "Why don't we take you back to bed, we
could tell you a story if you want" Clara encouraged
Sarah looked between the two of them nervous and unsure, She trusted Clara but
she wasn't sure about the Doctor.
"Is my Gran OK? Why did she need a Doctor in the middle of the night?" Sarah
asked worried
"I'm sure she'll tell you all about it in the morning, how about I take you to
bed and the Doctor can quickly check your Gran's in bed and then we'll be of"
Clara offered remembering Sarah's distrust of men and hopping the Doctor got
her hint to move the body, Sarah said she found Gran in her bed the next
morning not out in the hallway.
Sarah nodded and walked back towards her room completely forgetting about using
the bathroom, Clara followed closely behind. It was dark so Clara couldn't make
out much of the bedroom other than the dark shapes of a single bed against the
wall a small bedside table beside it with a lamp on top and a rocking chair at
the end of the bed, a chest of drawers and wardrobe on the opposite wall. Sarah
climbed into bed and laid down.
"Could you read me this one?" Sarah asked handing Clara a book, she had to turn
the light on to see it, it was a book about a man who travelled through time
and space, Clara smiled the apple really didn't fall far from the tree and
settled down in the chair to read it.
Clara had just finished reading the third chapter when the Doctor came into the
room. Sarah was fast asleep looking more peaceful than the Doctor had ever seen
the older Sarah look, he couldn't help himself he stroked her head and left a
small kiss on her forehead.
"She'll forget all about this won't she? you normally do" Clara whispered
walking over to stand beside the Doctor
"She's human right now, I'll need to scramble her brain a little so she
forgets" The Doctor answered not taking his eyes of the younger version of his
daughter
"Better hurry up then or our Sarah will be worried" said Clara
The Doctor put his hands on either side of Sarah's head at her temples before
reaching into her mind. He was met with a bombardment of different thoughts.
Teenage girls minds where always full of different things all at once but this
was different there was no worries about what boy liked her or why a friend was
being bitchy or even worries about how she looked like normal teenagers would,
Sarah's was full of pain and worry about what Stephan would do to her next,
worried about the party he was throwing on Wednesday, the loneliness she felt
at not being allowed to make friends at school the teasing from other kids
because she was thought of as weird for always being on her own and never
speaking to anyone. The disgust she felt at herself for the things men had done
to her. The Doctor's hearts broke for his daughters pain no one let alone a
child should ever feel like that,
He pushed further back and found her memories, the one of them in the hall and
Clara reading to her was right at the front so it was easy to bury it deep so
she wouldn't remember until 5 years in her future when she would step foot in
the house again. More memories started swimming to the top and the Doctor
couldn't help it he looked at them all, every dark moment every ounce of pain
and suffering his daughter felt and ever bit of joy she experienced with her
Gran. He began to work on the lessening the pain and dulling the details of the
bad ones and strengthening the good. The Doctor gave Sarah a dream about his
8th body her true father flying around in space with Sarah by his side and he
programmed her brain so that every time something bad happened she would
experience the same dream as a comfort. The Doctor pulled away from her mind
gently, a small amount sweat on his forehead from the concentration it took.
"Is she OK?" Clara asked worried
"Yea she'll be fine she's in a deep sleep now" The Doctor answered wiping away
the tears that had fallen from his eyes at his daughters pain
"And you are you OK?" Clara asked linking her arm around the Doctor and resting
her head on his shoulder to comfort him
"Better get back to the TARDIS" He answered ignoring Clara's question afraid
that if he answered it he'd loose control because right now he was a mixture of
furry anger and sadness.
***** Rest *****
The doctor and Clara returned to the TARDIS to find Sarah unconscious on the
floor and the TARDIS in a bit of a panic, the inside lights where flashing and
whirling and she was making constant beeping noises in an effort to wake Sarah
up.
"Sarah" The Doctor gasped running to check on her, he could just about feel her
pulse and her breathing was slow and shallow so he scooped her up and raced her
towards the medical bay
"Don't worry old girl she'll be fine" Clara soothed the TARDIS petting the
console feeling very silly even after all these years she still couldn't get
used to talking to a alive machine.
The Doctor placed Sarah on one of the hospital beds in the room and pulled out
a medical scanner and scanned her head to toe, physically everything was fine
she hadn't hurt herself in anyway but when he did a brain scan it was a
completely different story, programming young Sarah's brain with this Sarah
close by had caused her brain to short circuit and start shutting down, he
could save her but it would mean going back into her mind.
The Doctor pushed into her mind once more, this time her mind wasn't filled
with fear instead it was replaced with self doubt and not feeling worthy enough
to be his daughter, he found the pride of having the Doctor as her father but
the weight of what that means to her, the friendly love and admiration for
Clara as well as they heartbreaking ache she felt for Wyatt and James. Trying
not focus too much on Sarah's thoughts and feelings he pushed passed her
memories new ones added to younger Sarah's her Gran's funeral, running away
from home, giving birth alone and afraid but the bad ones weren't as prominent
he couldn't see as many details or feel the emotions as much as he had before
the happy memories felt like he was reliving them they were so clear. Wyatt's
first word, taking his first steps, Sarah chasing after him in a playground
covered in snow, her first alien planet travelling in time Finding out she was
the Doctor's daughter. the Doctor lapped up her good memories taking in every
single one enjoying his daughters happiness. He pushed further past that and
too the problem, he needed to erase everything that happened in Sarah's Gran's
house, she could never know they had been there, he had to bury it deep so it
could never be remembered or the paradox would make her brain burn out.
"Is she OK?" Clara asked she had came in while the Doctor was in Sarah's mind
and sat on the chair opposite the bed biting on her thumb with nerves
"She will be she's sleeping now, had to completely wipe the last hour or so off
her memory so don't mention anything about being at her Gran's or younger Sarah
or the whispermen just in case" The Doctor explained flopping down on a bed
beside Sarah's completely exhausted one complete mind merge was tiring never
mind two that quickly
"Do you need anything?" Clara asked walking over to him
"You" The Doctor whispered moving over so Clara could lie beside him.
Clara took of the Doctor's shoes before taking off her own and laying down
beside him sliding up the bed slightly so they could be face to face. Instantly
the Doctor wrapped his arms around Clara and pulled her in tight burying his
face into her hair inhaling her scent that was so very Clara floral with a hint
of apple in perfect balance so you could smell both without one over powering
the other. His Clara forever the control freak just as he liked it. Clara had
reached up and started running her hand through
***** Boat Rocked *****
Sarah awoke the next morning, her head hurt and she felt very strange like she
was on a boat during a storm, everything seemed to be moving and rocking even
though she could tell the TARDIS was still. She slowly opened her eyes half
expecting to see the room swaying from side to side but it was perfectly
stationary and she wasn't sure if that was good or bad. With a groan she sat up
and looked around, she was in the medical bay and it looked like the cot beside
her had been slept in but was now empty, the door to the med bay open. Holding
onto anything she could for balance Sarah hopped off the bed and made her way
to the console room running her hand along the wall.
"Why do I feel like I'm on a ship?" Sarah asked flopping down on one of the
crew chairs and closing her eyes while rubbing at her temples
"You are on a ship" The Doctor answered not even turning round from his chalk
board just continuing writing in Gallifreyan
"A boat then, why do I feel like I'm on a boat my head feels like everything's
moving but nothing is" Sarah asked exasperated holding her head in her hands
"You do?" The Doctor asked concerned running down from the upper level to Sarah
to lift her eye lids and check her eyes
"Uh Go away" Sarah snapped swiping is hands away from her face
"Someone's grumpy" Clara chuckled coming into the control room with 3 mug's, 2
coffee's and one hot chocolate.
"You would be too if you were getting sea sick without being at sea" Sarah
grumbled taking her hot chocolate in her favourite Harry Potter mug
They spent the next few minutes in silence each drinking their morning pick me
up's, Sarah's head still felt wobbly but her thoughts had started to become a
bit clearer although she suspected the TARDIS was helping a little because she
could feel their mental connection stronger than normal. She had read about
Timelord's experiencing these sort of symptoms but she never thought she would
even experience them herself.
"I can not believe you!" Sarah shouted angry making Clara jump at the sudden
loud noise "You changed something about me!" she stood up glaring at the Doctor
"Don't be so silly Sarah, why would I do that?" The Doctor lied smirking
"No! don't you dare! don't you dare lie to me! Not when I know the truth, I'm
not stupid" Sarah shouted getting louder and louder.
"Your my daughter you could never be stupid" The Doctor answered sincerely.
"Then why treat me like I am!" Sarah exclaimed
"You need to trust me Sarah, Trust is paramount in our lives" The Doctor said
walking over to Sarah and placing his hands on her arms.
"So you did do something!" She shouted pushing his hands away in disgust
"Only to help you, for your own good"
"No! you don't get to choose what's best for me, that's for me to decide not
you!" Sarah shrieked.
"I'm your father Sarah, that gives me the right to decided what I think is best
for you" The Doctor started shouting too now.
"You can not just change my memories!" Sarah shouted throwing her arms out in
outrage.
Clara who had been sat watching them argue trying not to get involved, she
learnt the hard way during a few of their many arguments that trying to defuse
the situation just made them both shout more and usually at her, so silently
without saying anything with practised movements Clara removed Sarah's sonic
bangle, the last thing she wanted it for the Doctor to loose his eyebrows again
they had finally grown back to there attack eyebrow state after her latest
arson attempt on them a few months ago.
"I'll do what I need to do to keep you safe" The Doctor shouted pointing a
boney finger at Sarah
"You know what, I'm done here! done, Take me to Cardiff, Jack said he would
give me a job" Sarah sighed flopping her arms down by her side in defeat
"what? No you can't go" Clara pipped up
"He's right trust is paramount in life on the TARDIS and I can't trust him if
he can mess around in my head like that, how can I trust him? I need out just
for a bit a few years maybe" Sarah explained with her head in her hands again
the boat feeling becoming worse after the shouting.
"A few years?!" Clara exclaimed
"A few weeks, month, years, I dunno I just need out" Sarah said feeling
completely deflated and defeated
"Aren't you gonna say anything? stop her?" Clara rounded on the Doctor
"She a grown woman, she can make her own decisions" The Doctor answered barely
more than a whisper, He didn't want Sarah to go of course he didn't she was his
daughter but his stupid pride and stubbornness stopped him from making this
right.
"But she'd your daughter" Clara exclaimed
"I'm very much aware of that Clara I was there when she happened" The Doctor
dead-panned
"This is unbelievable you're going to let a stupid argument come between the
two of you?" Clara asked throwing her hands in the air.
"No I'm getting out while I still can in one piece" Sarah spoke softly
The Doctor didn't answer he just stood in front of Sarah chewing his thumb and
looking everywhere but at her. Sarah wasn't sure if she was glad or frustrated
by that. She decided to go with frustrated because she was still angry at him
for doing something to her memories.
"Either take me to Cardiff now or I'll do it myself" Sarah snapped pulling the
Doctor out of whatever daze he was in. He still didn't speak just typed in the
co-ordinates and set the TARDIS into flight. Sarah stormed off once she had
seen him put the co-ordinates in too pack some of her stuff she only took what
was most important to her Wyatt and James's things and pictures as well as a
few pictures from their travels and the one of her Gran.
When she arrived back in the console room they had landed and Clara was looking
upset and the The Doctor had gone back to staring about the room.
"It's for the best I promise, I'll be back soon enough I just need time that's
all" Sarah explained to Clara giving her a hug "Bye Dad" She said simply
fighting back tears as she exited the TARDIS for the last time, she sent a
silent good bye and thank you to little blue before turning and facing out into
the streets of Cardiff, he had landed her just outside the water tower and
stood waiting for her was Captain Jack himself. As she took her first few steps
towards the new chapter in her life she could hear the TARDIS de-materialise
behind her sounding sadder than it usually would.
***** Settling in *****
Settling In
Sarah was stood looking out over the bay it was dark now and the stars and moon
were reflected in the water, the boat hires had taken their last customers out
for a tour of the bay, the Carousel had shut down and all the restaurants and
shops were closed for the day. It was peaceful and quiet as Sarah listened too
the waves hitting of the pier, lost in her thoughts. It had been a week since
she left the TARDIS, a week she had spent switching between being angry at her
father for tampering with her memories and missing him terribly, She had spoken
to Clara on the phone but she still missed hanging out with her teasing the
Doctor and running from whatever creature he had managed to piss of that week.
She was staying in Torchwood's living quarters which is much more comfortable
than she expected she had her own room with a double bed a desk wardrobe and a
bathroom attached, it was plainly decorated but she didn't mind, she had her
own space and that's all she cared about. Jack also stayed in the quarters and
had the room opposite hers, they had a shared common room which was basically a
large sofa TV and a bookcase and a shared kitchen/ dinning area. It was a bit
awkward for the first few days especially on the first day when Jack forgot
Sarah was here and walked into the kitchen first thing in the morning
completely naked while Sarah was eating her cereal not that Jack was bothered
by it at all but he did begrudgingly agree to at lest wear bottoms out to the
kitchen in the mornings.
"What are you doing out here?" Jack asked appearing beside Sarah leaning his
forearms on the railing and looking out over the sea mimicking Sarah's actions.
"Thinking" Sarah replied simply
"You know its dangerous for a pretty girl to but out alone at night" Jack joked
"I can handle myself don't worry" Sarah laughed
"Against aliens maybe so but humans are a whole different kind of bad, which is
why tomorrow you start training" Jack said turning to look at Sarah and putting
his hands in his pockets
"I've had training" Sarah snapped
"As great as he is running around with the Doctor isn't training, not for
Torchwood" Jack said forcefully
"No but Oliver Queen is" Sarah answered with a smile
"You trained with Oliver Queen?" Jack asked in disbelieve
"Being the Doctor's daughter has its perks sometimes" Sarah shrugged
"Prove it" Jack nodded his tone full of arrogance, not believing her.
Before Jack even had time to register Sarah's movement she grabbed Jacks arm
and flipped him onto his back laying on the ground and sat on top of him,
grinning. Jack tried to flip Sarah off him using his ankles but she was able to
roll them both over so she was sat on top of him again leaning back with her
hands on his legs. Jack had to concentrate very hard to stop a certain body
part from reacting to Sarah being on top of him especially since he could very
nearly see up her skirt .
"Alright training, check" Jack laughed trying to think of anything but Sarah's
thighs against his hips, as Sarah got off him and helped pull him to his feet.
"Told you" Sarah smiled sounding cocky
"So does this mean you can shot an Arrow" Jack asked as the walked back towards
the hub.
"Yea but just don't tell dad, he didn't want me learning weapons just enough to
defend myself" Sarah answered linking their arm's together
"Oh then he's gonna love this then, You need to learn how to use a gun" Jack
laughed as he punched in the access code to the hub and they descended down in
to the underground hub.
"What? No! I'm not learning how to shot" Sarah protested coming to a halt
"Protocol, every Torchwood member has to be issued with a gun they keep on
themselves at all times" Jack explained
"So not only have I got to learn how to use he damn thing I gotta take it very
were with me?" Sarah asked annoyed
"Afraid so sweet cheeks" Jack answered amused
"Do you have to keep calling me that? it sounds so gross" Sarah snapped
"Someone's not in a good mood, Come on we'll have hot chocolate and watch a
film or something" Jack suggested steering Sarah towards the living quarters,
It had become routine for them to watch a film together before bed "Go pick
something I'll make you're hot chocolate"
"I've been here a week and all ready you know my weakness, I hate you Harkness"
Sarah mock snapped rolling her eyes
"No you don't, no one hates me I'm Jack" Jack laughed with a huge smile that
made his eyes twinkle and Sarah's knee's feel a little weak.
Sarah had changed into pyjama shorts with a hoody and pulled her quilt in from
her bedroom and was tucked up underneath it on the sofa, flicking through
different movie's on the TV, When Jack came back into the common room, He too
had changed into some pyjama bottoms and a t-shirt and was holding two mugs
with the "Torchwood" logo on them, he handed Sarah the one with whipped cream
and mini marshmallows on top of it.
"What did you pick?" Jack asked sitting down on top of the quilt
"Get under the quilt dumbo" Sarah laughed lifting the quilt slightly so he
could get under it. "Nothing yet I don't know what to choose"
The argued for a while after that about what film they should watch and in the
end Jack won and they ended up watching "mission impossible" Only because Sarah
had no idea what film's would be good she wasn't allowed to watch films growing
up and then only watched children's ones with Wyatt and she was sure Jack
wouldn't want to watch the lion king or beauty and the beast with her.
Half way through the film Sarah rested her head on Jack's shoulder, She was
sure they hadn't been this close before but she wasn't going to complain, Jack
wrapped his arm around Sarah pulling her closer into him and she wrapped hers
around him as she shifted slightly to get more comfortable before resting her
head on his chest. By the time the film was over Sarah was sound asleep. Jack
wrestled internally with himself before quickly placing a small kiss to Sarah's
head and shifting so he was laying across the sofa with Sarah laying beside him
her head still on his chest. Jack closed his eyes and drifted off too sleep
himself listening to the sound of Sarah's breathing.
***** Shooting Practice *****
Shooting Practice
The next morning Sarah woke up feeling trapped, Jack had moved during the night
and had pinned Sarah up against the back of the sofa his arms and legs wrapped
around her so she couldn't move and his face was that close to hers she could
fell his breath on her lips, she wanted to close the gap between them,
remembering what it had been like to feel Jack's mouth on hers, the fire it had
kindled in her belly but she was afraid to. She was afraid of rejection. No one
would want someone as broken and damaged as she was especially not Jack, he
loved sex and everything to do with it and after years of abuse she wasn't sure
she could give him that, She had never even consented to sex before.
"Morning sweet cheeks" Jack laughed sleepily pulling Sarah from her thoughts as
he untangled himself from her
"I told you not to call me that" Sarah muttered annoyed and instantly missing
the warmth of Jack's body around hers
"What am I supposed to call you then?" Jack smiled
"You could try Sarah considering that's my name" Sarah sassed, Sarah did not do
mornings and was always grumpy once it came to getting up.
"Breakfast" Jack declared heading off to the kitchen completely ignoring
Sarah's comment
Sarah shuffled after him, her thoughts about Jack and her before he woke
putting her in even more of a bad mood than normal. She gathered together a
bowl, spoon, cereal and milk to make her own breakfast it was the only thing in
the mornings she felt up to putting together, Jack how ever set about making
himself a cooked breakfast of bacon, sausage, fried egg, beans, fried bread and
tomatoes. Sarah was going to make a comment about giving himself a heart attack
but remembered he can't die so probably doesn't need to worry about what he
eats. All through breakfast Jack kept trying to start conversations purely for
his own amusement at Sarah's grumpiness.
"You should try coffee you know, it'll wake you up" Jack laughed taking a sip
of is own coffee as Sarah yawned
"Can't stand the stuff, love the smell of it, hate the taste" Sarah grumbled
"Well grumpy drawers, get ready and then met me in the hub" Jack teased putting
his dishes in the dishwasher before leaving the kitchen
Sarah put her bowl in the dishwasher before heading back to her room, she
jumped in the shower, the warm water running of her body finally awakening her
brain and lifting the morning grumpiness, she thought being a Timelord now that
her morning fog would have gone, her Dad ever seemed to have problems in the
morning but she guessed that little bit of human in her was enough to make her
still hate mornings. Sarah finished in the shower brushed her teeth and got
dressed in her skinny jeans, favourite emerald green converse and a standard
issue Torchwood t-shirt, it was black with a small Torchwood logo on the top
left hand side and pulled her long hair up in to a pony tail, she never
bothered with make-up it always made her feel uncomfortable and fake, Clara
used to joke that Sarah would have made the perfect son for the Doctor because
apart from the long hair she wasn't into anything overly girly unless it was a
special occasion.
Sarah made her way to the main part of the hub, the living quarters were about
half a mile away through a stone tunnel behind what appeared to be a wall from
the main part and didn't appear on any of the plans so that if it came to it
the team had somewhere to hide. When she arrived Jack was talking to Gwen
dressed in his usual trousers with belt and suspenders white under shirt and
blue shirt, his military jacket was probably slung over a the sofa in his
office like it usually was.
"Sarah, your doing weapon's training this morning, come on" Jack informed Sarah
sounding all business, Jack was always more professional around the rest of the
team he didn't tease her or show the softer side Sarah had started to get used
too when it was just the two of them, which just made Sarah's fear of rejection
even stronger.
Jack led Sarah down into one of the vaults under the hub, she hadn't been down
this far before and it made her wonder how far down this place went. Jack
stopped in front of a metal door swiped his key card on the panel beside the
door and it slid open to reveal a shooting range, the walls were bare rock
carved out from the stones underground, the first half of the room was pretty
bare apart from a table laid out with different types of guns and ammunition in
front of it however was a target range with different shaped targets all with
different bullseye zones.
"Pick one" Jack said waving his hand over the table
"Jack I really" Sarah stared
"Pick one" Jack said more forcefully interrupting Sarah.
Begrudgingly Sarah picked up a basic looking black gun, testing the weight of
it in her hands before deciding it was as good as any. "This one will do" Sarah
said with a nod
"OK now point it at the first target" Jack instructed
Sarah lazily pointed the gun at the target with both hands, her grasp not tight
enough and her arms bent slightly. "Like this" Jack whispered in her ear
stepping behind her his body pressed up against hers making her stand
straighter, he ran his hand along her collar bone pulling her shoulders back
slightly before running his hands down her arms removing her left hand from the
gun and holding it in place my her side their fingers intertwined together, his
other hand tightening her grip on the gun. Sarah could feel his breath against
her neck and she swallowed hard trying to concentrate on the target in front of
her and not of how close Jack's body was to her or how if she just turned her
head she would be able to capture his lips with hers. No she mustn't think of
that, just the target in front of her that she was supposed to fire at, with
the gun Jack's warm hand held in hers. Oh Gallifrey! she could smell his scent,
almost like a light aftershave but not quite. "He's not interested in you, He's
no interested in you" She repeated over and over again in her head.
Jack shifted slightly his mouth hovering just above her jaw enough to make the
skin tingle underneath but not enough to touch, his grip on her hand holding
the gun increased, His groin moved away from her to hide the start of his
reaction to being to close to her. "The Doctor's Daughter, She's the Doctor's
daughter" was the mantra Jack had to keep repeating inside his head to stop him
from acting on his impulse. He could smell the apple scented shampoo she had
used in her hair this morning and the passion fruit scented body wash that made
him want to reach out his tongue and lick her neck. Unconsciously he let go of
her left hand and placed it on her hip, moving her closer to his body again,
his hardening length pressed against the bottom of her back.
BANG.
Sarah shot the gun hitting the target and breaking the spell as they both
jumped at the noise neither of them aware that she had pulled the trigger until
it had hit. The door to the shooting range opened and Mickey stood panting at
the door.
"Jack there's someone from UNIT here too see you" Mickey panted
"I'll be up in a second" He said to Mickey jumping away from Sarah like he had
been burned "Stay here and practise until someone comes down for you, we do not
want UNIT seeing you" Jack instructed Sarah before running out the door.
Leaving Sarah feeling very confused.
***** Knock Out *****
Sarah cursed Martha for making her wear heels as she ran down the wet streets,
her heels click clacking against the ground as she hit it hard running as fast
as she could, her short red dress riding up her thighs slightly, her long hair
that she had curled bounced around her face making it harder for her too see in
the dark, she was running down a series of alley ways the street lights just
about shinning there light down casting dark eerie shadows around her, the dim
yellow light giving the place a ominous glow.
"Sarah, its coming in your direction, be ready" Martha's voice came in her ear
over the comm's .
"Great" she groaned jokingly "I swear Martha when we are done here you owe me a
foot massage, my feet are killing me" Sarah complained as her feet felt like
they were on fire with every slap of her heels against the streets.
"Yea but you look great" Gwen chirped in over the comm's as if that made it all
worth while
"Alright Sarah it's just round the next corner from you" Martha warned,
monitoring the energy readings on her device
"I'm not far behind it coming up on its rear, now there's not something you'll
hear me say about a weevil everyday" Jack laughed
Sarah turned the corner and was met by the slight of a sharp toothed weevil
racing towards her its sharp claws poised for attack, Sarah had a fleeting
thought of wishing she was wearing one of the boiler suits the weevils wore
rather than her skin tight dress as she ran towards the weevil.
"Sarah it's gonna attack you! take the shot!" Jack shouted down the comm's
coming into view further down the street. Sarah ignored him and continued
running towards the weevil, the gap between the two of them decreasing at a
rapid pace.
"Sarah!! Shoot it!" Jack roared making everyone's ears ring. Sarah didn't even
move to reach for the gun mainly because well she didn't have it.
"SARAH!" Jack screamed as the weevil and Sarah collided, the weevil aimed
straight for Sarah's neck with its teeth, ready to clamp its jaws around her
throat and pierce the skin tearing the flesh away, tasting the blood in its
mouth but never got the chance Sarah's reflexes kicked in, she elbowed the
creature in the side of it's face, kicked it's feet from under it knocking it
too the ground face down, Sarah sat on the weevil's back one hand holding it
hands together the other pressing the side of it's face against the ground to
stop it from being able to attack. The weevil let out a cry of shock and
frustration at being denied it's pray. It tried to buck Sarah off of it and
struggled to free its arms but Sarah's Timelord strength held true and she was
able to detain it until Jack came racing over to them and injected a sedative
into the weevil's arm, the creature became still almost instantly. Mickey and
Gwen rounded the corner panting for breath from running towards the weevil,
expecting to see a mangled Sarah in the jaw's of the weevil.
"How the bloody hell did you manage that" Gwen asked breathlessly her welsh
accent standing out more.
"Guess I'm just that good" Sarah laughed excepting Jack's hand to help her
stand up of the weevil.
"Don't ever disobey order's again' If I say shot you shot, You could have been
killed" Jack shouted angerly pointing a finger at Sarah.
"Well I wasn't and besides have you seen what I'm wearing? Were on earth am I
gonna hide a gun in this?" Sarah answered waving a hand over her body.
"You didn't even have your gun?!" Jack shouted
"You're either very brave or very stupid" Gwen commented
"Just like her father" Mickey laughed sounding impressed
"Can we deal with this later and get the weevil back to he cell's we have a
girl's night out to get back too" Sarah snapped annoyed at Mickey' comment
An hour later they had placed the weevil in one of the holding cells, Sarah had
changed into a pair of red converse and they were all sat at a table in a club
in the centre of Cardiff, the men had decided to join them and were up at the
bar buying drinks. Sarah had never been in a club before and the loud music and
flashing lights were making her a bit light-headed and disorrintated, There
were people everywhere she looked some in large groups sat around a table like
they were, couples sat on sofa's looking like they were trying to eat each
other's face's off which made Sarah winkle her nose up in disgust, a few people
were stood at the door ordering drinks and the rest of the people were crammed
onto a small dance floor their bodies knocking into each other as they danced
to the music, a DJ was blasting the music from loud speakers sat up on a bit of
a platform.
"Alright drinks" Mickey announced setting a tray full of drinks on the table
pulling Sarah out of her observations. Everyone grabbed their own glasses,
Sarah stuck with a fanta, she hated the out of control feeling that came with
being drunk and her past experiences proved to her that she needed to be fully
aware of what was going on around her at all times so that she could feel safe.
"Come on dance with me!" Gwen shouted over the music as her favourite song came
on and dragged Sarah onto the dance floor not even waiting for an answer,
although she was more used to call room dancing that club dancing Sarah managed
to pick it up pretty quick and was soon dancing along with Gwen, Martha and
Mickey like she had been doing it all her life.
Jack sat back at the table watching his team enjoy themselves, his attention
more on Sarah than the rest of them, he marvelled at how much she had become
apart of the team after only being here 3 weeks, it felt as though she was he
missing piece they didn't know was missing until they found her, He noticed the
way her entire face light up when she laughed at Mickey nearly falling over,
how she pulled her long hair over to one side when she felt uncomfortable or
nervous. He watched as her hips swung from side to side with the music her red
dress tight against her showing off her perfect figure, she was every bit a
woman and a woman that Jack wanted, the only woman in the universe that he
could never have.
A man around Sarah's age came over to her and put his hands on her hips trying
to get her to dance with him, Jack could see her trying to move his hands away
but he was insistent, She had somehow gotta separated from the rest of the team
and they couldn't see what was going on, Sarah twisted round to face the man
and pushed him away gently but the man just moved closer towards her, Jack
could just about make out Sarah's terrified expression as he lept from the
chair he was sat at and ran towards the man, his fist connecting with his jaw
as soon as he was close enough causing the man to fall to the floor.
"You OK?" Jack asked Sarah gently looking into her scared eye's
"Yea, Yea I'm OK" Sarah answered shakily
Seeing Jack punch the guy the rest of the team rushed over to see what was
wrong and Jack rounded on the man.
"Go near her or any other woman like that again and I'll make you wish I had
only broken your jaw" Jack threatened his whole body radiating with furry.
"I just wanted a dance" The man spat before scurrying away to find whoever he
came with.
"Come on we'll get you home" Jack said to Sarah all signs of his anger gone and
replaced with concern.
***** Hacker *****
Hacker
The next morning Sarah woke up still feeling a little shaken from the night
before, she kept reminding herself that nothing really happened and it was
stupid to still be feeling like this but she still felt sick and a little on
edge. When she got up to get breakfast she realized Jack wasn't around, Sarah
assumed that he was still in bed hungover, So she showered dressed and ate
breakfast in silence and hated it every tiny noise made her jump and in the
shower she had to keep one eye open at all times. Aliens she could deal with
stick her in a room full of Daleks and she'd find away out, drunken men however
are another story they strike fear into her soul that's hard to shake.
Getting fed up of her own thoughts , Sarah decided to start work early try and
take her mind of it. She headed to the hub but when she got there the whole
team were already there. Martha was carrying some weird slimy looking thing in
a jar towards the medical bay, mickey was typing on his computer and Gwen and
Jack were talking in the middle of the room.
"Ah sleeping beauty awakes at last" Jack laughed spotting Sarah coming into the
hub.
"What time is it?" She asked really confused she was sure it couldn't have been
late enough for anyone to have been here but its hard to tell when you live
underground.
"10 o'clock. could I see you in my office Sarah?" He asked sounding serious and
leading the way. Sarah followed pretty sure she was about to get a telling off
for not having her gun last night.
Jack's office looked not too different from  a typical office, he had a large
wooden table laden with stacks of paper on one side, a  half full coffee mug
sat just beside them that Jack picked up and took a drink off, shuttering when
he released it had gone cold while talking to Gwen before sitting it back down
again leaving yet another watermark on his desk. He had a golden name plaque
with "Captain Jack Hardness" on it that Gwen had gotten him as a joke one
Christmas. Behind his desk was his large brown leather chair similar to the
ones the Doctor kept aboard the TARDIS, a smaller chair sat in front of the
desk and a small sofa sat against the opposite wall with Jacks coat slung over
it. the rest of the office was full of bookcases and shelves of alien objects
and books. Jack moved his coat of the sofa and hung it on the coat hanger that
sat beside it before sitting down on the sofa, gesturing for Sarah to do the
same.  
"How come you let me sleep so late?" Sarah asked hoping to avoid the telling of
for as long as possible
"You seemed to have had a bad night, I heard you screaming and shouting in your
sleep" Jack said sounding concerned.
Sarah looked down embarrassed, her face going slightly pink. She had had
nightmares all night last night about her childhood but she hadn't released she
had screamed in her sleep and now Jack knew.
"Everything OK? Do you want to tell me anything, you can talked to me Sarah"
Jack spoke softly touching her cheek.
Sarah could feel tears forming in her eyes and she blinked a few times to try
and clear them "I'm fine Jack honestly, just nightmares" Sarah answered
sounding stronger than she felt
"Last night at the club you were terrified more than most people would be" Jack
started to talk
"I'm fine I can handle work if that's what you are worried about, it wont
effect it I promise, Aliens I can handle men not so much" Sarah interrupted
panicking a little thinking Jack was going to fire her
"Because of Stephan right?" Jack asked, Sarah stiffened at hearing his name the
panic rising in her again. "you kept saying his name asking him to stop last
night" Jack explained  
"Yes but I'm not ready to go into that yet. A lot of bad things happened to me
before I met dad some I've dealt with some I haven't but none of it will effect
my work" Sarah explained not wanting to go into details, she knew she could
trust Jack and all off the team they where old friends of her dad's so she knew
they were safe but she just wasn't ready for them looking at her different or
treating her different after they found out especially not Jack.
"After taking down that weevil last night believe me I have no worries about
your work but you do have to remember to take your gun with you at all times
some day you won't be able to stop what ever is coming at you and will need to
shoot it before it kills you" Jack warned Sarah seriously  
"Sure" Sarah answered unconvinced "Can I get back to work now?" Sarah asked
suddenly realizing just how close Jack was to her and finding it hard to
concentrate, their knees almost touched and she could feel his heat radiating
off it.
"Sure think Mickey was looking you" Jack answered standing up and holding his
hand out for Sarah. She took it and her hand seemed to tingle where it touched
his, the contact making her feel bit giddy and light headed
"Thanks Jack" she manged to stutter out before leaving the room and heading
back down to the team.
"Sarah there you are. challenge for you!" Mickey said excitedly
"Alright what is it?" Sarah replied still feeling a little out of it.
"laptop basic of basic programming on it, see if you can hack the newest
security software" Mickey explained pushing a laptop into Sarah's arms
"Oh your on" Sarah laughed forgetting all about Jack and what happened the
night before, she had a challenge now.
"I'd like to see you get past this one, its alot harder than the last few"
Mickey boasted
"It better be a 5 year old could have got past the last 2" Sarah teased sitting
down at her desk and opening the laptop. "Bet I can do it in less than 20
minutes"
"Do it in less than 15 and the laptop is yours" Mickey goaded Sarah sticking
his hand out for Sarah to shake.
"Done" Sarah smiled taking his hand
"If you loose your on weevil cleaning duty for a month" Mickey teased
"Guess you better get suited up Mickey Mouse because your on duty tomorrow"
Sarah sassed typing frantically on the keyboard.
Jack had come down from his office and was helping Martha to translate some
medical notes they found on a crashed tula ship the other day, Sarah was right
in his eye line every time he looked up, her face a perfect picture
concentration a small frown on her forehead as she chewed on her bottom lip,
her fingers going inhumanly fast against they keyboard as she worked though
firewall after firewall of mickey's newest software. Jack couldn't help but
stare at her every time she bit her lip, he had visions of crashing his mouth
to hers and tugging her lip between his teeth as he made love to her over and
over again. Eventually he couldn't take it any more excused himself from Martha
and walked over to Sarah who was still chewing on her lip.
"Keep biting that lip of yours and I'm gonna have to bite it for you" Jack
whispered in a low growl right in Sarah's ear, his mouth so close it ghost over
her skin and sent a shiver through Sarah that went straight to her sex arousing
her instantly and breaking her concentration from her task instantly.
"Amm.. right... OK... won't happen again" Sarah spluttered unsure how to react
to the hormones going off in her body.
Jack chuckled in her ear before walking back to his office "The Doctors
daughter she's the doctor's daughter" echoing round in his head. Sarah was left
sat at her desk feeling slightly flustered and really not sure what to do "He's
your boss nothing more he wouldn't even want you once he knows" repeating over
and over again in her head. Sarah shook her head before getting back to her
task, she had 3 minutes left to beat Mickey's system or she was shovelling
weevil poop for the next month.
2 minutes and 43 seconds later a photoshoped picture of Mickey's head on a
baboon's dancing bottom appeared on all the screen's in the Torchwood hub.
"And that Mickey Mouse is how you hack Torchwood" Sarah announced triumphantly,
leaning back on her desk chair
***** Broken Glass *****
A/N some bits may be disturbing theres no discription of it but still you've
been warned
An hour later Jack was sat in his office still chuckling at the look on
Mickey's face when Sarah hacked the system and trying to get on with some work,
he had left the blinds on his window open so he could look out over the team
not so he could watch Sarah no not at all she was out of bounds even if he did
long to run his fingers through her long hair and feel her lips against his,
the time after the virus just wasn't enough not now that she was here the
temptation dangling infront of him all day everyday smelling of the raspberry
shampoo she loved so much. Jack watched Sarah as she set about reprograming the
security to be unhackable, biting that lip of hers again, he swallowed loudly
as arousal coursed through him at such a simple act of hers, Sarah's fingers
florished over the keys on the keyboard making Jack long to feel them
interlocked in his. His mobile phone started ringing pulling him from his
thoughts, he quickly looked at the caller id before putting it too his ear.
"Clara Oswald, Eyes of the universe, what can I do for you" Jack greeted
slipping into his flirty persona
"Is Sarah with you?" Clara asked seriously over the phone
"She's in the hub yea why?" Jack asked standing infront of the large window now
watching Sarah walk over to the coffee table and pick up a glass of water.
"Make sure she doesn't see the news reports until I can get there in a few
hours please" Clara answered sounding hurried
"What? Why?" Jack asked confused by the request. He watch as Sarah walked
passed Gwen's station say something to Gwen and Marth who were gathered there
looking and something before she stoped and staring straight at the computer
screen her hand over her mouth. Jack struggled to see what it was on the
screen.
"Just please do it I'll explain when I get there" Clara answered sounding like
she was running.
Jack watched as the glass in Sarah's hand slipped out of her grasp and crashed
to the floor sending shards of glass over the floor, Sarah fell too her knees,
her hands clutching her head landing straight in the glass.
"Shit! Clara I think she's seen it" Jack shouted down the phone as he raced
from the room and down towards Sarah.
"I'm phoning the Doctor we will be there in a second" Clara said sounding
paniced just before the phone cut off Jack tbrough it to one side not caring
were it ended up as he ran to Sarah.
Sarah was on the ground shaking her head violently shouting "no, no, no, no"
over and over again, tears streaming down her face as memory after memory
flashed before her, being raped over and over again, being held down aged 10
while they injected something into her arm being beaten her whole life being
stabed with a broken bottle at 15. All her memories from the age of 6 until she
was 16 raging to the surface fighting to be remembered first making Sarah feel
sick and shakey, she hadn't even noticed the shards of glass that had cut
through her jeans and dug into her skin mixing blood with the water that had
been in the glass.
"What happened?" Jack asked using his "captain" tone to Gwen and Martha who
were trying to get Sarah to move away from the glass without getting cut
themselves
"I dunno we were talking about the news and then this happened" Gwen answered
sounding slightly paniced
"What was on the news?' Jack asked scooping Sarah up in his arms and carrying
her to the medical bay. Sarah tried to push Jack away from her in a panic and
begged him not to hurt her her flashbacks becoming so intense she couldn't tell
what was memory and what wasn't.
"A pedofile was found dead in his cell this morning" Martha explained following
Jack
Jack laid Sarah down on one of the beds in the medical bay and she stoped
fighting him and curled up into a ball on her side sobbing to herself. Jack sat
on the chair beside her.
"It's ok Sarah you're safe I promise" Jack soothed realising what was wrong he
tried stroking her head but she flinched and moved away from him her breathing
becoming more rapid.
"We need to calm her down so I can check her over and sort out those cuts"
Martha said gathering all her equipment.
"Sarah it's ok its me Jack open your eyes" Jack encouraged.
"Jack?" Sarah choked out her breathing still far to fast.
"Yes see you're in Torchwood we need you to calm down you're hurt" Jack
answered daring to put his hand to her head again she didn't move away this
time but she didn't calm down either. "Why don't you try sitting up" Jack
suggested helping Sarah to sit.
'Sarah!" Clara shouted as she rushed into the room and straight over to Sarah
and pulling her into a hug. "Are you ok? Gwen said what happened. I'm so sorry
you had to find out that way. I was on my way up to tell you" Clara rambled
placing on Sarah's cheek. Sarah's breathing had started to calm down since
Clara came in and was almost back to normal.
"Give her a chance Clara" The Doctor half heartedly scolded her entring the
room.
"What- What are you two doing here?" Sarah asked breathlessly
"We heard the weather was good" The Doctor shrugged trying not to let Sarah see
how worried he was.
"It's ment to be raining" Sarah answered sounding annoyed even tho she still
couldn't breath properly
"Ah see you're fine, arguing back already. You take that after your mother" The
Doctor exclaimed pointing a boney finger at Sarah.
The reminder of her Mother was the wrong thing to say as more flashbacks hit
Sarah causing her breathing to speed up again. She pulled her knees up to her
chest and wrapped her arms around them causing the glass to dig further into
her legs and cause cuts on her inner arms but she didn't feel it. Memories of
being forced to preform oral sex on her mother plagued her mind as her arms
were pulled away from her by Clara.
"I think we better get your legs and arms sorted before you do more damage"
Clara said to Sarah using her best soothing teacher voice "And you stick insect
sit over there and don't talk again" Clara scolded the Doctor pointing to a
chair on the other side of the room. The Doctor huffed but done as he was told
"My arms and legs?" Sarah asked in a shakey voice looking down at her blood
soaked jeans with pieces of glass sticking out of them "Oh" came her reply
before she fell back on the bed unconcious.
"Sarah!" gasped Clara
"She's fine just fainted" Jack reassured Clara while tugging a stray piece of
hair behind Sarah's ear as gently as he could, A gesture not missed by a
watching Doctor.
"Clara stay up by her head she seem's to be calmed by you. I'll start working
on her legs" Martha instructed turning to grab her tray with everything she
needed on it.
A/N sorry for any mistakes my keyboarded packed in again so writting this on my
phone directly onto wattpad and my spelling is awful lol
***** Liam *****
HUGE BIG FAT WARNING on this one deals with drug use rape abuse all sorts so
might be disturbing or upsetting doesn't go into detail tho.
Liam
Martha had just finished stitching and bandaging her legs and had left the room
with Jack when Sarah started to wake up.
"Hey you" Clara smiled at Sarah
"He's really dead isn't he? Liam he's dead" Sarah asked naming one of the other
men involved with Stephan as silent tears running down her cheeks.
"Yes really properly dead" Clara answered. Sarah started crying harder then
frowning as she did. "That's a good thing isn't it? he can't hurt you anymore"
Clara asked softly
"Yes, No, Maybe I don't know" Sarah answered frowning
"Well that makes plenty of sense" The Doctor tried to joke but he just sounded
grumpy as he stood up.
"Oi you thought I said to keep quiet" Clara scolded but they both knew she
wasn't annoyed because she was still smiling at him.
"Sorry boss" The Doctor mock saluted Clara sitting back down again causing
Clara to roll her eyes at him.
"Now tell me whats up. why might it not be good?" Clara asked Sarah concerned
"I loved him" Sarah mumbled just barely loud enough for Clara to hear her. "At
lest I think I did, I'm not sure anymore" Sarah added thinking of Jack she knew
she didn't love Jack yet but she'd never felt this way with Liam.
"I don't understand, he hurt you in the worst way possible" Clara said really
confused
"Stockholm Syndrome" The Doctor answered simply. he had been in Sarah's mind
but he had not seen this or maybe he had but dismissed it as something else.
"No it's not" Sarah snapped angerly at her father "He was nice to me. kind. He
told me he love me" Sarah explained sadly.
Flashback
Saturday night in the Smith family meant party night, this weekend it was being
held at Stephan's house despite being with Sarah's mum for 10 years Stephan had
never lived with them, he said he liked to have his own space which was
something Sarah was very glad off except when it was his turn to host the party
at his house there was nowhere for Sarah to get away from it all for a few
minutes. She pulled out the package that Stephan had handed her earlier that
day with instructions to wear under her clothes to the party which she was to
take off as soon as she got there. Opening it up she seen it was a hot pink
bikini with a picture of a cat on one cup of the top part and "birthday girl"
written on the front of the g-string bottoms. Sarah looked at it in surprise
she had forgotten it was her 15th birthday this week not that it matter this
would be the closest thing she got to a birthday present anyway.
The bikini was very revealing once put on the top just about covered her B cup
sized breasts and was literally just held together by a few strings to tie at
the back and around her neck. easy access Sarah noted. the g-string bottoms
were no better the small triangular front just covered her private area that
she had been instructed since puberty kicked in to shave bare. Sarah looked in
her full length mirror and hated what looked back at her, she looked like a
child playing hooker which she supposed essentially she was, her blue eye's
were completely void of any life or happiness, bruises and red marks dotted her
stomach and tops of her legs from the beating Stephan had given her the day
before for not greeting him as soon as he walked into the flat, even though she
had been in her room doing homework and hadn't heard the door open and close.
Her long dark hair went down to the middle of her back now but she would have
to plat it before going to the party, Stephan liked her hair that way. Refusing
to analyse herself any longer Sarah pulled on a pair of her mum's old jeans
that she had been given the jeans feel down on her hips slightly too big for
her small frame and a part of her knee was exposed by the tear caused by her
mother falling over drunk a few months ago and pulled her worn red t-shirt over
her head and slipped on the pair of heels she knew she was going to have to
wear all night instantly making her feet burn in pain being too small for her
size 5 feet.
"Sarah come on we are going now, Stephan will be waiting" Sue Sarah's mum
shouted from the other room.
Sarah and her mother spent the taxi ride to Stephan's in silence, it was always
quiet they never spoke to each other unless it was instructions for Sarah to
carry out, Sarah used to watch the other boys and girls being picked up from
school by their mum and how excited they were and how they would chat excitedly
about their day. She envied them she wasn't allowed to talk unless asked a
question, She still has to be told its OK to speak or Stephan gets angry. Sarah
busied herself in the taxi by plating her hair the way Stephan liked it while
avoiding any questions the taxi driver directed at her terrified that her
mother would tell Stephan she had told the driver something that would get them
in trouble.
Stephan lived in an estate that had long been abandoned by any proper policing
and care, the outside of the flat blocks were cracked and covered in graffiti,
a large "Bad Wolf" sign covered most of one of the ground floor walls, for some
reason Sarah had always liked that phrase. Stephan lived at the top of the main
flat blocks, his flat had originally been 2 but he terrified the old man that
used to live next door into moving it out so he could join the two together to
create one large flat. "fit for a king" he had said. Music was blasting from
Stephan's flat and could be heard all around the estate but everyone was too
afraid to say anything about it, Stephan and his men ruled this estate and
weren't above a friendly gun shot to the knee or whatever it took to keep
people quiet.
Fear started to creep up on Sarah, she had no idea how many people were going
to be there or who they were, hoping beyond all hope that tonight she would
just be a show piece, walk around in the bikini all night speaking only when
spoken too and fetching Stephan his drinks, Sarah stepped into the flat after
her mother instantly the smell of whiskey and drugs filled her nose and made
her feel sick. Her mother went of in search of some drink without even a
backwards glance at Sarah, leaving Sarah in search of Stephan, she hadn't been
looking long when her plat was pulled roughly from behind and she was dragged
into the bathroom.
"You're late! and your not even properly dressed yet!" Stephan spat before
slapping Sarah hard across the face, a large red hand print appearing instantly
on her cheek and tears sprung to her eyes because of the pain.
"I'm Sorry Sir I was looking for you first" Sarah explained timidly
"You obviously weren't looking hard enough now get undressed! I promised the
lads a sex slave tonight and you wouldn't want to make me break my promises now
would you?" Stephan asked threateningly stepping closer to Sarah so his body
was flush against hers and she could feel his whiskey smelling breath on
against her face, her blood ran ice cold and her entire body froze in fear, she
couldn't even release the tears that caught in her throat out of fear of
angering Stephan more. She shook her head. Seconds dragged by and felt like
hours as he continued to tower over Sarah glaring down at her as if he wanted
nothing more than to either throw her to the ground and fuck her or beat her
half to death. eventually he gave a breathy laugh in her face instructed Sarah
to undress and left the bathroom. Sarah's whole body relaxed in relief once he
had left the room and tears started to flow. She knew Stephan would be waiting
near by to make sure she had come out so he only allowed herself a minute of
crying before she pulled herself together took her jeans and t-shirt off and
fixed that fake smile she was so good at now before exiting into the flat
again.
As the night went on more and more people arrived until you could barely move
within the flat, music was still blasting giving Sarah a horrible headache the
air was thick with smoke from both tobacco and drugs. Sarah's feet were sore
and blistered from the high heels and she had lost count now of the number of
men and woman she had been past around. Now she was back with Stephan in his
private room with around 15 others and he was running his hand up and down the
inside of her leg. Sarah had to fight the urge to slap his hand away. She was
sore and swollen from repeatedly being raped and her whole body ached from
being grabbed at, hit, punched and even bit she just wanted to go home and go
to bed so she could cry. Stephan's hand traveled further up until it brushed
her pants and Sarah felt panic and tears rise up in her she couldn't take
anymore tonight.
"I've a present for you" Stephan whispered wickedly in Sarah's ear smiling.
Sarah's heart stopped and dread filled within her. It was never good when
Stephan acted like this. He pulled out a piece of rubber string from his
pocket. "Oi Josh bring it here" He shouted over the music and a curly haired
teen of around 18 appeared with a container. "I think your going to like this
its a new blend" Stephan smiled evilly. Sarah knew exactly what that means, it
was untested. Sarah tried to move away from his, she didn't want it, she didn't
want to be drugged especially not an untested one but Stephan grabbed her arm
and pulled her back down onto the sofa. "Josh hold her" Stephan barked. Josh
scooped Sarah up and sat on the sofa pulling her onto his knee and holding her
with a death grip around her chest and wrapped hi legs around hers so she
couldn't move at al.
"No please! Stephan don't" Sarah begged crying she remembered last time he
tried a new blend on her she had ended up close to death and then got a beating
for throwing up on the floor.
"Hush" Stephan commanded pulling a scarf out of his other pocket and tying it
around Sarah's mouth to shut her up. Sarah tried to struggle by Josh's grip was
too tight she couldn't move' she was completely trapped. completely at her
mercy of the name who had beaten and rapped her for the past 9 years. Stephan
held her arm out straight and tied the piece of rubber around the top of her
arm just above her elbow.
"Oh Sarah, Sarah, Sarah how lucky you are to be my girl" Stephan whispered
seductively before placing a kiss on the inside of her elbow. Sarah felt sick
to her stomach at his touch. Someone handed Stephan the needle but Sarah
couldn't tell how it was through her tears.
"Wait! A voice shouted from the back f the room "I haven't had my turn with her
yet and I'd like to do it with her fully aware" the man who the voice belonged
too walked over the Stephan, Sarah could make out his blonde wavy hair and blue
eyes but that was it, she was in too much fear to notice anything else her
heart was beating o fast she was sure it would jump out of her chest and she
felt like she was going to be sick.
"I haven't seen you here before" Stephan said sounding like an accusation
"This is my first party but been a member of nighthawk for 5 years now, Liam"
The man explained
"Ah yes I forgot you were coming tonight, If you want me to stop, its gonna
cost you extra" Stephan answered.
"This enough?" Liam reached into his pocket and pulled out two 50 notes
throwing them at Stephan
"Bedroom's through there" Stephan said pointing towards the small box room
reserved for customers. Josh released Sarah instantly and she let out a breath
she wasn't even aware that she was holding, she didn't even care that she was
about to be raped again she was saved from the drugs and she as thankful for
that.
let me know what you think. too much? does it need toned down a bit?
I hate Sarah so much for making me write this I was happy with giving her a
normal childhood but she insisted this be her background story so I apologise
xxx
***** Home *****
another 18+ warning on this one
Home
"Can I see the TARDIS now?" Sarah asked in a small voice after recounting her
memory to the Doctor and Clara.
"Sure" Clara answered with a smile.
The three of them left the room, The Doctor still not talking just staring
ahead caught up in his own thoughts, seeing it in her memories he was able to
deal with but actually hearing it come out of his daughters mouth made it real
and impossible to forget. Anger built up in him and he wanted nothing more than
to go back and kill that lowlife Stephan, he was working a plan through in his
head when Clara slipped her hand into his. Clara his anchor, his reminder that
all will be OK, she is what kept him grounded and level headed when all he
could see was red.
"What do you think? We could show Gwen some stars" Clara asked looking into his
eyes, obviously he had missed a conversation while lost in his own thoughts.
"Sure yea" He answered gruffly.
"I'm coming too I wanna check if I left something in my room" Jack announced.
Half an hour later Sarah stood in the shower of her room on the TARDIS, she
needed time to think and this was the best place, she felt like she was whole
and complete on-board the TARDIS, no matter what the TARDIS was always going to
be home. Sarah turned on the water and instantly warm water just the right
temperature came out of the shower head, hot but not too hot it burned. She let
the water run down her body over her shoulders dripping of her breasts and
across her stomach before falling down her legs, like a waterfall, steam filled
the bathroom quickly as Sarah scrubbed  her skin using the passion fruit body
wash she loved so much, she scrubbed hard and fierce like she could scrub away
the feeling of all those men and woman's hands on her, she scrubbed as if she
could make it so it would never have happened but of course no matter how hard
she scrubbed no mater how red and angry she made her skin, it would never go
away it was always there crawling under her skin, in the dark parts of her mind
clawing and grabbing its way into her thoughts, one wrong move, one dark
thought and she's gone slipped into a pool of despair and sorrow. Where men
used her just as a play thing to be picked up and used as they wished and woman
were no better.
Sarah turned the temperature of the water up higher using the touch screen on
the wall, making the hot water bite at her skin as she washed her hair using
the apple shampoo, her hair came down passed her bum when wet and was so thick
she had to use half of the bottle to wash her hair, wringing it and scrubbing
it too take the non-existent smell of smoke out of her hair and the stale beer
that had been spilt by her head in her memories. She scrubbed and scrubbed at
herself, her body her hair her sex, increasing the temperature of the water as
she scrubbed until she could take no more and sunk down onto the shower floor
curled up in the corner and cried.
Sarah cried for herself, for her past, for Liam, for James, for Wyatt and
lastly for Jack, the only person that she wanted to be with and couldn't be
because he would never want to be with her now that he knows how disgusting she
is, what she's done in the past and she didn't blame him how could anyone want
to be with someone who has been used as a play thing for a decade.
Eventually Sarah grew cold even with the warm water hitting off her skin, that
the TARDIS automatically cooled down when she started crying and got out of the
shower wrapping a fluffy white towel around her that just about covered her
bum, her wet hair tickling the tops of the back of her legs. Sarah quickly
brushed her teeth out of habit from getting out of the shower and went into her
bedroom. Standing in the middle of her room looking confused was Jack.  
"What are you doing in here?" Sarah asked a little sharply than she meant out
of shock
"I was looking for my room" Jack answered back , his eyes wondering over
Sarah's practically naked body, he noticed how the water shined just above her
breasts and she breathed in and out.
"This is my room" Sarah pointed out nervously
"Yea, mines a bit more pink than this" Jack joked with a flirty sort of smile.
Sarah held tighter onto the top of her towel  waiting for Jack to leave but he
stood there staring at her, He watched as the towel ghost over the tops of
Sarah's legs as she wiggled her toes into the soft cream carpet nervously
knowing that if he just brushed his hand under the towel he'd be able feel her
cunt, he eyed the part of the towel tucked into its self wishing he could go
over and pull it away so he could marvel at Sarah's naked body finally he
looked at her mouth, she was biting her lip nervously and that's all that it
took before he knew it Jack had reached Sarah and cradled her head in his
hands, his lips capturing hers, Kissing her passionately, he didn't even
register Sarah begin to kiss back he was too lost in the feeling of her soft
lips against his, he bit her bottom lip gently tugging it between his teeth
before pulling away slightly his lip's close to Sarah's but not touching.
"I told you I'd do it for you if you didn't stop" Jack whispered breathlessly
Sarah didn't answer him instead she timidly and nervously reached up and kissed
Jack shyly, her arms coming up to wrap around his neck, Jack kissed back and
before they knew it they were kissing passionately on the bed neither of them
remembering how they even got to the bed or were Jack's jacket had gone.
"Tell me to stop and I will" Jack said kissing Sarah's neck
"Don't even dare" She growled pushing Jack's suspenders of his shoulders and
starting to undo his shirt. Jack bit down gently on Sarah's neck causing her to
let out a moan so new to both their ears. Out of all the times she had found
herself in bed with a man this was the first she felt the fire kindle in her
belly and the desire tingle through her sex. Sarah pulled of Jack's shirt and
threw it away lazily not caring were it landed. The lock on the bedroom door
locked not that either of them noticed. Sarah ran her hands over Jack's chest
feeling the muscles that laid there and the slight shiver that Jack gave as her
hands slid over his nipples her hands travelling further down finding his belt
and throwing it away as soon as it was undone.
Jack opened Sarah's towel as his kisses got closer to her breasts, one hand
reaching to grasp her left nipple between his fingers rolling and rubbing it
while his mouth explored the other sucking and licking it, making Sarah moan
with pleasure and whisper his name seductively halting her attempts to undo his
trousers for a moment too over come by the new sensations. Jack kicks his own
shoes off and his trousers quickly follow, unsurprisingly Jack isn't wearing
any  underwear.
Jack pulls back and sits up on his knee's between Sarah's legs to drink in the
image of her laying naked on the bed, eye's dark and aroused, lips red and
swollen from their passionate kissing, a small red mark on her shoulder from
where he had bitten her. He memorised every curve of her body, the way her
breasts moved up and down with every breathe she took.
"You are beautiful" Jack whispered his voice dripping with desire. Sarah looked
down feeling self concious and embarrassed. Jack knew instantly that she didn't
believe him and vowed to prove it too her. He began kissing up the inside of
her leg slowly and gently Sarah wriggled the further up he got and he had to
hold her hips still with his hands
"Wait no don't" Sarah shouted in a panic as he held her hips down in place,
feeling pinned down and trapped brought memories flooding to the surface.
"It's OK don't worry I'm not going to hurt you but for this to work you need to
stop moving so much" Jack reassured letting go of Sarah's hips instantly. She
relaxed again her trust in Jack increased just by that simple act. Jack
continued kissing up her leg reaching the top and burying his nose in the hair
he found between her legs inhaling the musty scent of her arousal. He flicked
his tongue over her clit causing Sarah to jump at the pleasure that shot
through her, giving Jack a better angle to lick and suck at her making Sarah
moan and shout out Jacks name. Sarah's mind reached out and entered Jack's both
their minds full of colour, pinks blues and golds swarmed together until it was
impossible to tell who's was who's. Sarah tensed up in fear he didn't know she
could do this and it was strange and unfamiliar
"It's OK relax it's just your telepathic powers joining our minds together"
Jack's voice echoed in Sarah's mind, she had thought at first he had spoken out
loud but his head was still between her legs licking and sucking her rapidly
toward orgasm. Jack's voice sounded different in her mind, he still had the
american accent  but it was twined with something else just below the american
one too subtle to detect when he spoke normally but inside his mind it was
their, this was Jack's true voice.
Jack pushed a single finger into Sarah and begun thrusting it in and out of her
before following if with another one, two finger's pushing Sarah closer and
closer to release she didn't know until this moment she desperately needed.
Sarah could feel Jack's own desire and arousal radiate of him through their
joint minds, she could feel how he enjoyed being the one to make Sarah call out
and moan his name as he continued to thrust his fingers in and out of her and
lick her clit drinking up her desire. He knew through their connection that
this was the first time she had experienced being pleasured and was rapidly
speeding towards her first orgasm. With one last flick of his tongue Sarah's
mind explode in a wave of pleasure, screaming Jack's name her core clenching
around Jack's fingers as he continued to thrust them into her riding out the
waves of pleasure with her, he could feel her shock and wonder at how intense
it all was. Jack crawled up the bed till he was laying on top of Sarah Kissing
her lovingly and tender. Sarah wrapped her legs around Jack's hips pushing him
closer to her till his erection was just outside of her entrance.
"We don't have to" Jack spoke out loud
"I want to" Sarah answered showing him her desire in their minds.
Jack entered Sarah completing their joining, the mental connection became
stronger until it nearly over whelmed both of them, neither of them really
aware who was who as they both began thrusting intensely into each other. their
bodies moving in perfect sync, lips never leaving the other's, pleasure
building up like a firework flying up into the air, fast, passionately and
noisily. Both whispering word in their native language, Sarah in Gallifreyan
and Jack in boeshane, languages sounding both foreign and familiar at the same
time both meaning the same thing over and over again. Love. The firework
exploded within their minds and body's pulling them both over the edge each
other's true name falling from the others lips in a unknown bonding, joining of
their souls and minds, one that could never be broken through out all of time
and space and neither of them were aware of it.
a/n you've no idea how glad I am to finally get these two together it's been
the plan since the first chapter of the Secrets of Sarah Smith its been a long
44 chapters lol xxx 
also my internet is off at home so updates will take longer but im still
writting xxx
***** Comfort *****
Comfort
Jack and Sarah laid tangled together in the bed for some time both in a light
sleep before the TARDIS started to make alarming and irritated sounds. Waking
them with a bit of a start.
"Shot Dad's wondering where we had got too" Sarah said slightly panicking as
she picked her towel up to wrap around her while she looked for clothes in her
wardrobe.
"How do you even know that? She just could be in a mood" Jack shrugged pulling
his trousers on.
"I speak TARDIS" Sarah answered non chantry searching through her wardrobe for
her jeans and t-shirt but the TARDIS was being a pain again and was only filled
with dresses and tights "Oh come on mother please! if you want me out there to
stop dad freaking out you need to give me my clothes not Clara's" Sarah
demanded agitated, the only response she got was an encouraging beep. "Ah
fine!" Sarah shouted in frustration grabbing a blue flowery dress and black
tights, the TARDIS had at lest let her keep her blue converse.
"I wouldn't object if you went out in just your towel" Jack purred in Sarah's
ear kissing the curve of her neck tenderly
"I'm sure you wouldn't but the rest might" Sarah smirked.
"Seems a shame to cover up a body like yours" Jack purred in Sarah's ear
standing behind her, his harms rubbing up and down the tops of her arms.
Sarah had a small flash back of Stephan doing and saying the exact same thing
before her first party and she had to squash down the fear that built up in her
and remind herself it was just Jack. Jack must have sensed something in their
lingering mental connection because he quickly left go off her and stepped back
slightly. "I'd never hurt you like that Sarah" Jack said slightly hurt.
"I know, it's just I spent so much of my life being afraid of men and touches,
it's just gonna take me a while to get used to it not meaning something bad"
Sarah explained sitting down on the bed not looking at Jack "I understand if
you don't want to have to deal with all this, I wouldn't want too" Sarah
whispered a small tear leaving her eye.
"Oh believe me I'm far to gone to back out now. I want you Sarah, all off you
that includes your past' Jack reassured Sarah kneeling in front of her and
lifting her face up to look at him.
Although Jack could feel Sarah's sadness and fear in their connection it broke
his heart to see it reflected in her eyes, she looked so lost and defeated that
he couldn't help pulling her against his chest and wrapping his arms around her
as tightly as he could, Sarah wrapped in nothing but a towel and he in just his
trousers and under shirt. Jack shifted and pulled Sarah down onto the floor and
sat her on his lap. She curled in as close to him as possible as she let go and
sobbed into Jack's chest clutching at his t-shirt as if her life depended on
it. Jack stroked her hair and whispered comforting words in her ear, soothing
her both physically and in their joined minds until she had calmed enough to
fall back to sleep as gently as possible Jack laid Sarah down on the bed
leaving a small kiss on her forehead before getting dressed and heading back to
the console room in case the Doctor came looking for them.
 
a/n sorry for such a small chapter but wanted to get something posted and it
was important to show that a bit of sex doesn't magically make it all better
lol xxx
***** Different *****
Different
The Doctor was fiddling with one of the many knobs on the TARDIS console, it
had become a bit sticky and hard to move when flying her so he was oiling and
polishing it with a soft yellow cloth, making it as good as new. He looked
around the console room Mickey and Martha were sat down on the lower level
playing a game of cards, he felt a twinge of guilt when he remembered how badly
he treated them both in his tenth incarnation, he didn't realise of course
until well after he was too caught up on Rose at the time but he was glad they
found what they were looking for in each other. Gwen was sat on the upper level
with her legs tangling over the edge looking around her, she had coped pretty
well when he had shown her Earth from above and the dinosaurs better than most
pudding brains would have, she would have made a great companion for another
face this one just wanted Clara who was sat on his leather arm chair that she
had been told repetitively not to sit on because she disturbed the indent he
had left on it. She reading he couldn't see what it was from here but he
guessed it was probably another Jane Austin book, she had become obsessed with
those after they had gone to visit her last year.
THe Doctor loved just watching Clara read, he loved the expression's she made
when she came to certain parts in the book confusing sorrow furry and
happiness. She would gush for hours and hours after about the characters she
read about sometimes making the Doctor jealous of the way she spoke about men
in the book but she always reassured him with a small kiss and a laugh that he
was the only man human or not for her.
There's a tale back on Gallifrey that every regeneration has a one true love
and if your extremely lucky you'll have the same one for them all. For
century's the Doctor believed his first wife back on Gallifrey to be his one
and only love, she was the girl he married had five wonderful children with and
the woman he buried before running away. He was one of the lucky ones and then
Rose that little 19 year old pink and yellow human ran into his life and
captured the hearts of his 9th and 10th regeneration, the parts in his mind
reserved for them still ached with longing for her, one of the hardest things
he had ever done was leaving her on that beach but she softened his hardened
heart made him capable of loving again and then River came along all fire and
hair, she was dangerous and flirty how could his 11th self resist? Clara came
along and his past self fancied her and wanted her all to himself but his
hearts belonged to River and then he regenerated and Clara was the first face
this face saw, all wide eyed and perfectly sexy she stole his hearts instantly,
his first love of this cycle and he knew instantly that she was engraved on his
soul forever just like his first wife, Rose and River faded with the
regeneration but those two never would for as long as he lived.
The Doctor looked away from Clara and finished working on the console cleaning
and polishing all the buttons, switches levers and knobs.
"You're tickling her you know and she doesn't like it" Sarah's voice called
from the door that leads to the rest of the TARDIS. The Doctor looked up at her
and frowned in confusion, there was something different about her he could
sense it but he couldn't figure out what it was and not for the first time he
wished that Sarah had grew up with him, he would have had a telepathic bond
with her is she had and he would have been able to tell instantly what was
different but he couldn't and it annoyed him, She was wearing Clara's clothes
but he was sure it wasn't that, although why the TARDIS gave her Clara's
clothes instead of her own was a mystery.
"She's never minded before" The Doctor shrugged watching Sarah as she strolled
passed him giving him a quick kiss on the cheek on her way to sit with Clara.
She looked different, happy almost which just confused the Doctor, he didn't
know much about woman of any species but he was pretty sure she wasn't meant to
be happy after today but he wasn't sure. Maybe he should consult that manual
Clara got him after all.
Sarah sat down on the smaller black chair opposite Clara, the one that was
meant to be Clara's chair and waited for her to finish the page she was on.
Sarah could still feel JAck's mind connected to hers as he fiddled with one of
the round things below her, it wasn't as strong as when they were together but
he was still there just on the edge of her mind, She could feel his happiness
about what they had done but also his nervousness of what the Doctor would say
or do if he found out. A few seconds later Clara stuffed a makeshift book mark
of a piece of random paper into her book marking her place before turning her
attention to Sarah.
"You OK?" Clara asked frowning
"Am I think so yea, I need to ask you something tho can we go to your room?"
Sarah asked nervously
"Sure" Clara answered puzzled.
The pair entered Clara's bedroom on the TARDIS, it wasn't used as much any more
she would usually just sleep in the Doctor's bed. They sat down on the large
double bed with it's golden silk cover. Sarah looked around the room nervously,
nothing had really changed since the last time she was in here over a month ago
everything was still all neatly put away her make up and cosmetics all set out
on top of the dressing table in size order with all the labels pointing
outwards. Clara Oswald forever the control freak.
"What did you want to talk about?" Clara asked concerned
"I need you to promise not to tell Dad and not to get angry" Sarah answered
shyly
"Is it something I'm likely to get angry about?" Clara asked cautiously pulling
her bottom lip into her mouth
"I dunno Dad will which is why you can't tell him"
"Sarah you're really putting me in an awkward position, your my best friend and
I love you but if its something your dad needs to know I'm not sure I can keep
it from him" Clara answered honestly reminding Sarah of how Aidan spoke to her
all those years ago.
"Please Clara I really need your help" Sarah begged
"alright how about I promise not to tell him unless I really have too" Clara
relented
"OK, well ammm basically I had sex with Jack " Sarah explained nervously
scratching her forearm along the scars from were she used to self harm.
"You did what?" Clara roared
"Hey you said you wouldn't get angry" Sarah protested making Clara feel guilty
she took a deep breath and forced herself to calm down and then a sickening
thought came to her.
"Sarah I need you to tell me the truth right now, Did he force himself on you?"
Clara asked carefully but forcefully
"What? No! Jack would never do that" Sarah answered shocked. Clara visibly
relaxed instantly, she didn't think he would have but if what happened to Sarah
has shown Clara one thing it's that you never know what people are capable off.
"So you've properly had sex now" Clara grinned sliding straight into gossiping
best friend mood "Was it good?"
"It was amazing, I didn't know it could feel as great as that" Sarah laughed
smiling wildly
"Details details! Where and When?" Clara asked excitedly bouncing on the bed
slightly as she got more comfortable hugging a pillow into her.
"My room about a few hours ago" Sarah answered slightly embarrassed
"Best not tell your Father that one he'll go Scottish" Clara laughed with a
playful frown
"Yea" Sarah laughed dully
"But that's not all you wanted to say is it" Clara said more like a statement
than a question. Sarah took a deep breath this was going to be embaressing
"Whenyouanddadhavesexhowlongdoesittakeforthelinktodiedown" Sarah muttered
quickly
"Didn't catch any of that" Clara laughed "Slow down"
"When you and dad have sex how long does the psychic link take to go away"
Sarah asked her cheeks red with embaresment
"You psychic linked? Sarah that takes a lot of concentration and energy to do,
we don't manage it very often but when we do its gone straight away" Clara
answered shocked and slightly impressed
"It does? It kind of just happened, I didn't even know what it was until Jack
told me" Sarah shock her head her face still slightly red
"Hang on you said how long does it take. which means it's still active" Clara
asked pacing up and down in front of the bed her hand up by her mouth thinking
"The link only works for us if he's touching my head, which means this isn't
just a normal psychic link, this is something else" Clara said getting excited
as she started piecing together the puzzle.
'What?" Sarah asked confused. She was getting slightly scared and could feel
Jack tense in her head in response to her fear meaning he could feel her.
"I dunno" Clara answered honestly "I think we are going to have to ask the
Doctor"
"Can we ask him without telling him about me and Jack because he will freak out
and I know Jack can't die but Martha told me about the family of blood, I don't
want dad thinking creatively" Sarah rambled in a panic
"It'll be harder to get an answer that way but OK, what are we going to tell
him we were talking about? because you know he'd going to ask"
"Tell him we were talking about Liam, I need to ask him about that anyway"
Sarah said quietly she instantly felt sick saying his name
"What do you need to ask him about?" Clara asked frowning
"I want to go to the Funeral and find out if he was James dad"
***** No No absolutely not *****
No No absolutely not.
Sarah and Clara were talking back to the console room laughing and gossiping
about everything they had missed in the 3 days since there last phone call.
Sarah was so caught up in the story Clara was telling her about the three
headed merpeople that she didn't realise Jack was heading in their direction.
"Fight you for him" Clara joked nodding in Jack's direction making Sarah blush
and smile shyly.
"Ah what about my father who you are meant to be hopelessly in love with" Sarah
teased back, she loved how easy it was to joke with Clara no matter what was
wrong or what had happened Clara always made her feel better.
"He can join in too, not like we haven't shared before" Clara shrugged
"Eww gross, did not need to know that" Sarah complained scrunching her face up
in disgust and lightly back handing Clara's arm.
"Ouch, was that necessary" Clara faked hurt rubbing the spot Sarah had hit.
"I could ask you the same thing" Sarah huffed
"You're just jealous you won't get to join in on the crazy hot sex" Clara said
in a sing song voice as she skipped.
"Crazy hot sex, I hope you're talking about me" Jack flirted with a wink in
Sarah's direction.
"You'll never ever know" Clara flirted back playfully
"Well I need to burrow Sarah is that OK?" Jack asked Clara with a grin
"Burrow her sure" Clara answered in a suggestive tone walking away "Don't
forget protection" she called over her shoulder laughing, making Sarah's face
go red in embaressment
"Told her then" Jack smirked raising an eyebrow at Sarah and resting his hands
on her hips pulling Sarah closer to him so his pelvis was pushed against her
stomach.
"Yea I needed to ask her about the mind link thingy" Sarah answered shyly
trying to ignore the butterfly's that had just erupted in her stomach "she has
no idea by the way why its lasted so long other than its something else" She
added in a rush with her head down looking at Jack's chest unable to met his
eye.
"I only bite in bed you know" Jack whispered lifting Sarah's head up by her
chin. Their eye's met and Sarah's breath hitched as she stared into Jack's baby
blue eye's all her worries and past evaporated in that moment as she lost her
self in him. She unconsciously bit her lower lip as her mind became flooded
with not so innocent thoughts threw their mental link.
"You shouldn't share those kinds of thoughts Mr Harkness" Sarah whispered as
their faces subconsciously came closer together.
"Oh no that is all you Miss Smith, I can't project my thoughts like that" Jack
breathed against Sarah's face their lips millimetres apart, Sarah blushed
realising they were her own thoughts and bit her lip again making Jack let out
a low moan almost like a growl before crashing his lips to hers in a heated
kiss.
A door suddenly appeared beside them and Jack kicked the door open guiding
Sarah inside never breaking their kiss. It was a large cupboard with just
enough room for them both to stand. It would have to do. Jack spun Sarah round
so her back was too him and placed rough kissing up her neck leaving one or two
marks as he bit and sucked some of them making Sarah moan. Their movements
became filled with urgency as their mental connection became stronger again and
they fed of each others arousal making them both almost frantic with need. Jack
pushed Sarah's tights down quickly and forcefully causing them to rip slightly
and he plunged his fingers into Sarah's core hard making her gasp out.
Flashbacks suddenly forced their way into Sarah's mind making her freeze in
terror. She remembered Liam pushing her to the ground her face held down into
the dirt, She could taste the dirt in her mouth and feel the bugs crawling on
her face. Liam pulled the leggings she had on off of her and ripped her pants
with his bare hands. His entire body vibrating with anger.
"I told you you weren't to tell him about our little secret, now look at what I
have to do, If you had been a good girl like you promised I wouldn't have to do
this" Liam spat at her, his whispered voice dripping with venom and hatred his
mouth right by her ear so that she could hear ever word of what he was saying.
"I-I didn't I swear" Sarah begged but she knew it wouldn't matter, she knew he
wouldn't believe her.
"Don't lie to me" Liam roared lifting Sarah's head up by her hair and slapping
her across the face so hard tears formed in her eyes before dropping it back
down to the ground again. "Now this is what bad little girl's get for telling"
Liam sneered before forcing his entire fist inside of her roughly causing her
to cry out in agony, the dirt turning to muck underneath her as tears and blood
soaked into it. Liam clamped his hand over her mouth to muffle the noise as he
slammed his fist into her a few more times.
"Please please stop" Sarah cried weakly. Liam removed his fist and Sarah
relaxed slightly but the burning pain was still unbearable. He placed a small
kiss on Sarah's cheek as her moved away the hair that had fallen over her face
before he trailed his hand down her t-shirt clad back and massaged her bum
gently.
"Oh Sarah you are so beautiful, how could I ever resist" Liam whispered sweetly
in her ear before unzipping his trousers with one hand releasing his hardening
member and thrusting it into Sarah. He thrust himself into her over and over
again until he found his release while Sarah bit down hard on the inside of her
mouth and gripped tightly into the grass beneath her as she tried desperately
not to cry out in pain, she knew if she did the punishment would be so much
worse than what she was experiencing now. Once he had finished Liam lay down on
the ground beside Sarah and bundled her up in his arms, holding her close while
she cried.
"Shh shh Sarah I'm sorry I had to hurt you, I really am but you know Stephan
can't find out about us and telling him you seen me yesterday will just make
him suspicious" Liam whispered lovingly into Sarah's hair placing a small kiss
there
"I'm sorry, I-I didn't think" Sarah apologised even though she hadn't said a
word to Stephan about Liam one of the other men had spotted them and told
Stephan not her but she knew it was better just to agree with Liam and
apologise.
"It's OK I forgive you this time. I love you Sarah" Liam said placing a small
kiss to Sarah's lips
"I love you too" Sarah whispered kissing Liam again.
Jack pulled away from Sarah quickly as the memory hit them both, he felt the
pain she felt when Liam hurt her and it made his blood boil that anyone could
enjoy inflicting pain like that on someone else especially when that someone
was Sarah. Sarah sunk to the ground sobbing.
"I'm sorry Jack I'm so so sorry I can't I-I just can't" She sobbed.
Jack didn't know if she meant she couldn't have sex or couldn't control the
mind link or that she couldn't face the memories or maybe even all three but he
didn't care. He just sat down beside her and bundled her up in his arm's like
he remembered doing to Alice as a little girl.
"He wasn't always like that, he could be sweet and caring and he liked to take
me out for dinner and buy my presents, he wasn't a complete monster" Sarah
explained to Jack although she wasn't sure who she was trying to convince more
Jack or herself.
"Come on why don't we go to the kitchen and I'll make you a hot chocolate
because I'm way to tall to be sitting down here like this" Jack suggested
jestering to his legs that were pulled up almost to his chest so he could fit
in the remaining space of the cupboard.
"Not a contortionist then" Sarah laughed weakly as Jack helped her to her feet.
"No although I did spend a while travelling in a freak show, man! the
contortionist there could get into positions I could only ever dream off her
beard came in handy for a few things too" Jack laughed with a suggestive tone
only Jack could pull off.
When they arrived at the kitchen they were surprised to see The Doctor and Gwen
sitting round the table chatting. They both looked up as Jack and Sarah
entered. The Doctor giving Sarah a confused look when he seen her red eyes and
puffy face.
"You alright sweetheart" Gwen asked as she got up to hug Sarah who just nodded
in response.
"This looks like an emotion thing shall I go get Clara?" The Doctor asked
confused pointing a thumb towards the kitchen door.
"No I wanna talk to you about something, You too Gwen cause I'll need your
help" Sarah said nervously as she sat down at the end of the 4 seater table
with The Doctor and Gwen on either side of her. "I want to go to Liam's
funeral"
"No, No absolutely not" The Doctor protested crossly "Why would you even want
to go near him again? dead or alive"
"I need closure on it Dad and the only way I'm going to get that is by going to
the funeral and I need you to come with me. I want you to scan him and find out
if he's James dad" Sarah explained in a rush.
"Are you sure you always said you didn't want to know because you didn't, want
to think of him and think of what his father did" The Doctor asked biting his
thumb
"I just want a yes or no answer if he's Liam's I can cope with that if he's not
then I don't want to find out who" Sarah explained looking down at the hot
chocolate Jack had sat down in front of her, it had whipped cream mini
marshmallows and a flake just the way she liked it and she gave Jack a small
smile to say thank you.
"You've got him well trained" Gwen laughed nodding towards the hot chocolate to
Sarah
"Just taking care of my team" Jack said cheerfully.
"Well then I expect you to make my coffee Sir" Gwen teased
"Get divorced then we'll talk" Jack flirted.
"Want Rhys all to your self now" Gwen smirked from behind her cup of luke warm
coffee she made earlier.
"He wishes" Jack snorted laughing.
"What do you need my help for?" Gwen asked Sarah ignoring Jack's last comment
"I need you to use your connections with the police to find out where and when
the funeral is and get me in"
"Already done, I knew you would want to go so I made the calls while you were
sleeping, after we seen the dinosaurs that is" Gwen explained proudly with a
small smirk.
"I still haven't agreed you know" The Doctor frowned going Scottish.
"But you will Daddy" Sarah said sweetly kissing the Doctor's cheek.
***** Caught *****
Caught
After a bit of arguing and begging the Doctor gave in and agreed that Sarah
could go to the funeral he wasn't happy about it but there wasn't much he could
do when Clara came in and started teaming up with Sarah, one set of puppy dog
eyes he could have put up a fight with but two he was powerless against. The
oncoming storm, the Dalek predator, the great warrior turned into a powerless
idiot when his daughter and lover fluttered their eyelashes at him and pouted.
Jack was right he really was whipped.
"Ah Sarah could I talk to you about the arrangements for your time off?" Jack
asked as everyone started to head back towards the console room.
"Am sure" Sarah answered slightly confused
Jack waited until he thought everyone would be a safe distance down the
corridor before cupping Sarah's face in his hands his thumbs stroking along her
cheeks.
"I want to come with you down to London make sure you're alright" Jack
whispered.
"You know you can't Dad will be suspicious and besides the team need you here"
Sarah whispered back as Jack rested his forehead against hers
"I know, I'll miss you" Jack smiled
"I'll miss you too Captain" Sarah smirked
"You've no idea how much I love hearing you call me captain" Jack said in
suggestive voice
"Oh Captain, my Captain" Sarah flirted and Jack crashed his mouth to hers with
a moan kissing her passionately backing her up to the kitchen counter and
lifting her up to sit on it. Sarah opened her legs so Jack could step inside
them,their tongues dancing in each others mouth. Sarah moaned into Jacks mouth
making a bulge appear in his trousers. Jack ran his hand down Sarah's back
unzipping her dress as he did causing Sarah to shiver in pleasure. Timelord's
backs are the easiest way to turn them on. Sarah began to unbutton Jack's
shirt. She was just about to push it off his shoulders when the door to the
kitchen opened again.
"Oh my god!" Gwen exclaimed clamping a hand over her mouth when she spotted the
couple "How long as this being going on for?" She laughed
"Not long" Jack answered with a chuckle as he started to do up his buttons
again as Sarah hopped down of the kitchen counter her face red with
embarrassment.
"Took you both long enough well, Mickey owes me a fiver" Gwen laughed again.
"No you can't tell him. Mickey can't keep a secret like this to save his life"
Jack pointed out
 
"Alright fine then you owe me a fiver" Gwen pointed at Jack
"Do you not think paying your wages is enough?" Jack joked
"Nope" quipped Gwen.
"Can you zip me?" Sarah asked Jack brushing her long hair over her shoulder and
exposing her back to him. Jack slowly zipped the dress back up placing a small
kiss on the nape of Sarah's neck when he was finished
"I think you might stand a chance of actually taming him" Gwen told Sarah
sounding impressed "Oh and The Doctor sent me to tell you we were back in
Cardiff now" Gwen announced before leaving again.
"Better get back then" Sarah sighed starting to walk towards the door but Jack
caught her wrist gently stopping her and pulling her back to him.
"I meant what I said before, I love you ever since that first kiss" said Jack
looking into Sarah's eyes
"So did I, I love you too." Sarah smiled "I don't think my dad was too happy
about that kiss though" She laughed
'I'm not talking about that one" Jack winked before leaving the kitchen.
"Then what one?" Sarah called after him frowning and very confused.
"You'll see" Jack called over his shoulder laughing.
 
a/n sorry its so short been crazy busy but Gwen wanted to bust them lol so had
to write this, the next chapter will be up by Monday and will finally be the
funeral xxx
***** Preparing *****
a/n ok so it wasn't before Monday and it's not quite the funeral but hey its an
update!
An hour later, after dropping everyone else off at Cardiff The Doctor, Clara
and Sarah arrived at Clara's London flat. The familiarity and comfort washing
over them all as the stepped outside of the TARDIS onto the carpeted floor of
Clara's bedroom, Sarah was shocked to see that although most of the room
remained the same orderly fashion as the last time she was here, the bed was
unmade and a few articles of clothing were flung around the room. It wasn't
until Sarah spotted a pair of her father's boxer's on top of the lamp that she
realised what The Doctor and Clara had been up to the last time they were here
and she shuttered at the thought.
They gathered in the kitchen while Clara busied around making tea for herself
and the Doctor. Sarah was quiet deathly so as she sipped on the fanta Clara had
handed her. The reality of why she was here rushing back to her Liam was dead,
really dead and she wasn't sure how to react to that.
"We'll need to leave in about 2 hours to get to the funeral parlour before the
funeral, Gwen managed to arrange viewing the body so I can scan it" The Doctor
said taking a drink of his tea with 7 sugars in it.
"Him, He maybe dead but he's not an it" Sarah corrected the Doctor her voice
sounding hollow and empty as she spoke.
"Sorry" The Doctor apologised quickly was a small smile, he really had no idea
how to react to his daughter's grief. He didn't understand emotions at the best
of times never mind in a situation like this. The Doctor shot Clara a pleading
look, She'd know what to do. Clara always knew.
"Come on that gives us enough time to get you showered and changed" Clara said
brightly with a smile pulling Sarah out of the kitchen
"I already had a shower on the TARDIS" Sarah deadpaned
"I know but it'll give you something to do and maybe help clear your thoughts a
little" Clara said turning on the shower in her small bathroom and fetching
Sarah a large fluffy towel from the hot press in the hall way. "I'll just be in
the other room when your done" She said leaving Sarah alone to shower.
Sarah peeled of her clothes and thought back to the last shower she had only a
few hours ago, the one that leaded to having sex with Jack and their mental
link connecting. She could still feel the connection open and it helped to
comfort her as she stepped into the shower and under the warm water but she
couldn't feel his emotions or presence, she guessed they were just to far apart
to feel him properly. Sarah began rubbing the body-wash over her skin, smiling
when she noticed Clara had kept her favourite body-wash for her after the month
they had spent living here when the TARDIS had been damaged and stranded them
here. Sarah started washing her hair again and her thoughts drifted to Liam and
the second time they had met.
Sarah was 14 and walking home from school, usually her mum or Stephan would met
her at the school to make sure she didn't talk to anybody but they must have
been either too hungover or high to pick her up today so she walked home alone,
Her old uniform hanging of her small frame and backpack she had used for the
past 3 years slung over one shoulder because the other strap had been broken
the day before by one of the girls in her class. Sarah walked with her head
down looking at the ground and her battered school shoes as she kicked small
stones out of her way.
"Oh look who it is Silent Sarah" Came the sneer of Robbie Rundle one of the
older boys in Sarah's class, he had came up with that nickname back in
reception class 11 years ago and now all the kids used it to pick on her. "What
don't I get a hello?" He said in mock offence as Sarah ignore him and continued
to walk on not even raising her head to look at him. "Oi look at me when I talk
to you" Robbie shouted grabbing Sarah's arm and turning her round to look at
him. He scowled at her and tried to look intimidating but Sarah wasn't scared
she had come face to face with much scarier men everyday of her life. Sarah
still didn't say anything terrified in case someone Stephan knew had spotted
her talking to Robbie and told him, he would instantly think that Sarah had
told him about nighthawk and she would be beaten. This angered Robbie more and
his grip on Sarah tightened hurting her but she still remained looking down at
the ground refusing to make eye contact with him.
"What does Silent Sarah think she's too good for the rest of us? Silent Sarah
with her slapper of a mother and deadbeat dad" Robbie smirked earning two
snickers from his cronies Thomas and George who were stood behind him one on
each of his sides. Sarah still didn't say anything, what could she say? Her
mother was a slapper and she didn't even know who her father was probably some
drunken one night stand her mother now seriously regrets. "No that's not it,
Everyone is far to good for Silent Sarah, You're nothing but a piece of trash
no one cares about not even your own dad" Robbie spat at Sarah, Sarah didn't
even blink at his insults she was so used to the verbal abuse all day from her
mother and Stephan that she was numb to it now. Sarah's lack of response
angered Robbie even more as he swung back his hand to slap Sarah across the
face but the painful blow that she was expecting didn't come instead Robbie was
pulled away from her.
"Touch my niece like that again and I'll break every finger on your hand, got
it" The blonde haired man from the party at the weekend, Liam she remembered
his name as snarled in Robbie's face as he had hold of the back of his uniform.
Robbie's face paled in fear and he nodded weakly. Liam let go of Robbie's
uniform and tossed him away as if he was a bit of rubbish he had been carrying.
"You OK?" Liam asked Sarah as the boys ran away. Sarah just nodded in response
Liam had only been to one party so he wasn't trusted enough yet for Sarah to be
allowed to talk to him. "My car is just down here if you want I can give you a
lift home I'm heading to yours anyway" Liam asked pointing a thumb over his
shoulder towards a red Seat Leon St.
Sarah was torn she knew Stephan didn't trust Liam completely yet but he would
also be really mad if Sarah was late home and thanks to Robbie she was already
running late as it was. After debating internally for a second Sarah nodded her
head, better to be yelled at for being with Liam than beaten for being late.
Liam guided Sarah towards the car opening the passenger door for her and
closing it again once she was sat inside.
"How come your dad didn't pick you up, thought he always did?" Liam asked once
he was in the car and they were on their way towards Sarah's flat.
"Stephan's not my dad" Sarah said in a small voice, she'd rather have no dad
than call Stephan her dad.
"Oh sorry I just assumed" Liam apologised shocking Sarah, no one other than her
Gran had ever apologised to her before.
"Thank you" Sarah said honestly
"For what" Liam laughed
"For saving me from the drugs the other night, From Robbie, For the lift home"
Sarah smiled the first proper smile since her Gran died 3 months before.
"You're Welcome" Liam smiled back making his whole face light up and his blue
eyes sparkle. Sarah's smile grew wider, he looked really attractive when he
smiled
Sarah's thought's were interrupted by a knock on the bathroom door. "Sarah are
you ok?" Came Clara's muffled voice from the other side of the door.
"Yea sorry coming out now" Sarah called back wiping away the few tears that had
fallen from her eyes and turning the shower off before stepping out of the
shower and wrapping the large towel around her self like she used to do with
Wyatt. Her bare feet padding along the floor Sarah entered what was now her
bedroom in Clara's flat and unsurprisingly found Clara sat on the bed waiting.
"I found the dress I wore to Danny's funeral if you want to borrow it, its the
only black dress I have" Clara said pointing the simple black dress laid out on
the bed beside her.
"Thank you" Sarah whispered the words getting stuck in her throat as she
thought back to Liam in the car. Clara just smiled in response. Sarah set about
dressing not even in the lest bit fazed by Clara being in the room, They had
seen each other in various stages of undress countless times over the past year
that it was considered normal now. Clara had seen all her scars from years of
self harm as well as the ones from punishments.
An hour later Sarah was dressed and Clara had done her hair and make up for her
because she couldn't stop her hand from shaking long enough to do it herself.
They were gathered in the living room, Clara and the Doctor were arguing about
how they were going to get to the funeral home.
"If we take the TARDIS it will be quicker" The Doctor protested
"Yes but if I drive then we wont risk UNIT finding her" Clara pointed out
"Doesn't matter if they find her they will never get into her" The Doctor
scoffed. UNIT was still a very touchy subject with him after he had found out
what they had done to Sarah as a baby, he had even quit from his position and
withdrew every line of communication he had with them. Essentially making
himself an enemy of UNIT.
"You don't know what they have been up to since we left UNIT they may have
found away, are you willing to risk it? to risk her?" Clara asked knowing she
had won.
"Maybe you should drive Clara just in case" The Doctor stated as if it had been
his idea all along causing Clara to roll her eyes at him
"Yes dear" She said kissing his cheek.
***** The Funeral Home *****
The funeral.
As soon as Sarah stepped outside of Clara's car nerves began to gnaw at her.
Did she really want to know if he was James dad? How would she react when
seeing him? She didn't even know if she would be happy or sad. Her emotions
kept flip flopping from being relieved that she was safe from him and
devastated that he was dead and the more and more she remembered being with him
the more confused she got. She could remember how he lovingly creased her face
and whispered how much he loved her in her ear but she could also remember how
that affection was usually triggered by the harsh slap of his hand against her
face or how he painfully raped her. She knew any normal person would hate him
after what he did to her but she just couldn't bring herself to hate him, she
had loved him back then and although now she knew her heart belonged to Jack
Liam had been her first love and possibly the father of her son it wasn't as
simple as being able to hate him.
"We need to see ID" A man's voice broke into Sarah's thoughts. She hadn't even
noticed that just inside the funeral home's doors stood two police officers.
one male one female. Sarah panicked slightly she hadn't thought to bring any,
she didn't think she would need it.
"I got it" The Doctor said passing the policeman his psychic paper.
The policeman's eyes widened as he read the psychic paper "Sorry Miss Smith
they told us you would be coming but in all honestly usually victims change
their mind last minute so we didn't expect you, I'm Officer Balding and this is
"Officer Redbarns, She'll accompany you to see the body" Officer Balding said
with an apologetic smile.
Officer gave a warm smile towards Sarah and gestured for them to follow her
down the corridor. Sarah guessed she hadn't been n the force too long because
she looked to still be in her twenties and hadn't lost the sparkle and
excitement in her green eyes yet all the older police Sarah had to deal with
over the years had lost theirs the more harrowing things they saw working on
cases. Sarah could still remember going over details of some of the abuse she
suffered with a young police woman and the look of pure horror on her face when
she realised what the men and woman were capable off.
"How come we need ID?" Clara asked curiously
"There's a lot of people who want to make sure Mr Evans really is dead, What he
did what they all did has made people really angry" Officer Redbarns said with
a sympathetic look towards Sarah. "Here we are" She said sadly stopping in
front of a simple wooden door with "Mr Liam Evans" written on the small white
board attached to the wall beside it,
Panic suddenly gripped Sarah and she could feel her chest become tighter as she
struggled to breathe in properly, her hands became sweaty and her hearts were
beating out of control, the room began to swim as she felt light headed and
dizzy as she was bombarded with memories one after the other until it felt like
she was drowning in them, her breath was coming out in short sharp gasps.
"Sarah? Sarah! you're OK, He can't hurt you any more, your safe" Clara tried to
reassure Sarah.
"How do you know? He promised. Stephan promised. If I ever told anyone he would
get me. What if this is just some plan to get me here? Oh stars! What if he's
not really dead? what if he's just waiting? Clara I can't do this. I can't. I'm
terrified. I'm really really scared" Sarah rambled breathlessly her eyes wide
with terror frantically looking around every were as if expecting someone to
jump out from some were at any moment.
"Sarah calm down. You're just panicking, No one is going to get you and even if
there was do you really think your Dad and I would let them?" Clara asked Sarah
softly looking her in the eyes so she knew she was telling her the truth
"You don't know them like I do. You don't know what they are capable off!"
Sarah stressed her breathing becoming harder to control and she feared she
would fall into a full blown panic attack.
"Sarah you need to calm down. You don't need to go in there but if you don't we
can't find out if he is James father or not and all of this would be wasted"
Clara reminded Sarah knowing that mentioning James would bring Sarah back to
her senses and it did Sarah's breathing and heart rates slowed down and the
dizziness started to pass.
"Ok, I can do this" Sarah said more to convince herself than Clara.
"Course you can, You're Sarah Smith Mother Of Earth, you can do anything" The
Doctor smiled looking very uncomfortable and nervous unsure how to handle his
daughters emotions.
Sarah took a deep breath and stepped into the room it was small and basic with
plain magnolia walls, there was only enough room for three so Officer Redbarns
waited outside the room. Sarah's breath caught in her throat when she seen the
coffin sat against the far wall, it was just a plain wooden coffin nothing
special about it. Laying inside it she could see Liam's body, he was thinner
than she had last saw him and his blonde hair had started to turn grey, He had
been dressed in a simple back suit with a white shirt and black tie.
Sarah took a few tentative steps towards the coffin her stomach felt full of
butterfly's and as if it had fallen through the floor. She wasn't even aware of
what she was doing but before she knew it she had reached the coffin and had
placed her hands on his chest. She was met by an eerie stillness, no heartbeat
thumbed underneath her hands, there was no raising and falling of his chest.
There was just nothing. Sarah let out a breath she didn't know she had been
holding as relieve flooded through her. He really was dead, this wasn't a
trick. Guilt hit Sarah next, she had been relieved a man was dead. She snatched
her hands back in disgust not at him but at herself. Life was precious no
matter who's it was, she had no right to be relieved that his was over. She
felt a hand touch her shoulder and looked round to find it was her fathers.
"Do you still want to find out? it's not too late" He asked softly. Sarah just
nodded looking back at Liam, no matter what he had done, she owed it to him as
well as herself to find out the truth. THe Doctor took out his sonic and waved
it over Liam's body.
"I reprogrammed yours and James DNA earlier so it should only take a second"
The Doctor explained and just on cue the sonic bleeped to show it was done and
The Doctor studied it.
"Are you sure you want to know? Once you know there's no going back" Clara
asked Sarah
"I need to know" Sarah answered sounding almost like a beg.
'It's positive, Liam is James dad" The Doctor said manner of factly
Tears began falling from Sarah's eyes as she looked at Liam's face again, this
time she noticed there were bruises on his cheek and jaw and he seemed to have
a black eye underneath all of the make up they had put on him. which made her
wonder how he had died, in all of her confusion and grief she hadn't thought to
ask how it had happened. unconsciously she frowned and her hand ghosted over
the bruises on his face.
As if he had heard her thoughts the Doctor spoke "He was beaten to death
according to the scan, My guess is some Inmates got together and gave him what
they thought he deserved" THe Doctor said with a shurg.
Sarah's hands began to shake. Beaten. Just like all those times he had beat
her. She thought she should feel like some sort of justice had been served he
finally knew how she had felt all those years but instead she felt sick and
angry that someone would hurt him like that. Now when she looked at him she
didn't see all the horrible things he did to her, she saw the father of her son
laying dead because she had told someone what had happened.
"Sorry Miss but the undertakers need to take the body to the service now"
Officer Redbarns said softly opening the door.
"You two go on I'll only be a second" Sarah nodded to The Doctor and Clara
"You sure?" Clara asked
"I just need a second" Sarah answered with a small smile.
Sarah looked back at Liam as her Dad and Clara left. Her heart tugged as she
realised this would be the last time she would ever see him, the last time she
would ever get the chance to say what she needed to say to him so she took it
and bent down to whisper in his ear.
"I forgive you" and which that she placed a small kiss to his temple before
straightening up again and feeling as if a huge weight had been lifted from
her. She knew now that she would be able to move on with her life away from the
hold Liam had over her.
***** The Service *****
"Are you sure you want to go to the service? that was pretty rough" Clara asked
as Sarah stepped out of the room.
"I'm even more sure now than I was before" Sarah answered her voice full of
determination.
"OK then lets go" The Doctor said giving Sarah a strange look as he tried to
work out how she was feeling and how she was coping but as usual his daughter
gave him no clue which made him wonder if it was just the two women in his life
that were so hard to figure out or was it all females, he was pretty sure his
past companions weren't this hard.
The funeral was being held in the funeral home in the little chapel place just
down the hall. It was filled with about 30 different rows of wooden pews. vases
of flowers were scattered about the room as if they would help to make the
grieving family and friends feel better, it saddened Sarah to see them though
because she knew Liam would have hated the flowers he had bad hay fever and
always complained about flowers making it worse. The chapel was empty except
for a man stood at the front who must by the one conduction the funeral and 4
people in the front row they must have been Liam's parents and brother and
sister,
They had their back to Sarah as they sat down in the very back row but Sarah
could see that his sister had the same shade of blonde hair as Liam did and his
Dad had the same build as Liam although his hair was completely grey with a
large bald patch on top of his head and Sarah could just make out the end of
the legs of his glasses sticking out from behind his ear. Sarah could see his
mothers shoulders shaking and noticed her reach a tissue up to her eyes, she
must have been crying. Sarah's heart broke for the woman who had never done
anything wrong but because of Sarah's actions had lost her son. It took
everything she had not to walk up to the woman and tell her how sorry she was
but she knew that right now was not the time. Right now the woman needed to
grieve for her son.
The door's behind them opened and two undertakers who looked to be in their
late 40's early 50's came into the room pushing the coffin down the isle on
what reminded Sarah of one of those tea service trolleys that her Gran used to
have. The man who was stood at the front went over to the other two men and
between them they lifted the coffin up onto the alter. Seeing the coffin closed
brought back memories from her own Gran's funeral as well as her mother's and
it reminded Sarah of how much she had lost. Her Gran, Mum, James, Wyatt and now
Liam. She could live to be thousands of years old how many times would she have
to face this loss again? Sarah looked to Clara beside her and realised that one
day she would have to say goodbye to her best friend and suddenly she felt like
she couldn't breathe properly. Sensing her discomfort Clara reached out and
took Sarah's hand in hers squeezing reassuringly.
The officiator starting talking halting any more of Sarah's thoughts as she
tried to pay attention to what he was saying.
"Liam Evans loved his family dearly and I know he would be so glad to see his
dear Mother sat here today, Liam doted on his mother he was described as a real
Mummy's boy by everyone who knew him, he would have done anything for Marigold.
He was also incredibly close to his Grandfather who sadly passed when Liam was
21 the grief of which led to many of his bad choices in life but today isn't
the day to remember Liam for that today we remember the teenage boy who carried
his sister Alice 3 miles to the hospital because she broke her leg learning to
roller skate. We remember the kind man who donated 10% of his company profits
to different charities every year"
Sarah tried to listen to the man's speech about Liam's life but she found her
mind wondering off the time she knew Liam.
Flashback
15 year old Sarah was sat on her bed working on her English homework "Write a 3
page essay on your family life" She had been sat staring at the empty sheet of
paper for 20 minutes now, how on earth was she supposed to do this? she
couldn't write the truth but she also couldn't make the whole thing up, she had
no idea how a normal family works. Sarah was contemplating not doing the
homework and telling her teacher she lost it or something when Liam opened her
bedroom door.
"Hey" Liam greeted sitting on the bed
"Hi" Sarah said shyly "Sorry I'll just put all this way didn't know you were
coming round today" Sarah said slightly panicked and shoving things into her
school bag as quick as possible if Stephan found out she hadn't been ready for
Liam he'd flip.
"I wasn't but I needed to ask Stephan something so thought I'd call in and say
hi before I go" Liam answered sweetly flashing Sarah one of his dazzling
smiles.
"Oh OK" Sarah said trying to hide her sense of relief, She really liked
Liam,loved him even she would never tell him that though but Stephan threw a
mid week party the night before and she was still incredibly sore and really
needed to get her homework finished soon.
"I have a charity ball on Sunday night at my company and I'd like you to
accompany me" Liam asked
"I don't think Stephan would be too happy about me going out anywhere" Sarah
answered for the first time ever being thankful for Stephan not letting her out
anywhere apart from school unless he was there, She was always left alone on
Sundays her mum and Stephan were always to hungover to care about her and she
liked the peace and time to recover.
"That's what I came to ask Stephan about, had to pay him a few grand but he
eventually agreed" Liam said smugly
"I wouldn't have anything to wear" Sarah said she was clutching at straws now
and she knew it.
"I'll have a dress delivered to the house on Saturday morning" Liam said in a
steel tone and Sarah knew there was no getting out of it.
"OK" Sarah muttered looking down at her fingers that were sat in her lap.
"OK? that's all you've got to say, I've just paid three grand to Stephan and
I'm going to buy you a new dress and all you've got to say is OK?" Liam asked
angerly making Sarah flinch
"Sorry Liam, I'm just still tired from last night and it was a bit of a shock
that's all, Thank you, Thank you very much" Sarah said in a rush preparing to
jump back if he decided to slap her again.
"Well yes I suppose it was a bit unexpected" Liam admitted reluctantly "If you
want to make it up to me you know what to do" he said looking down towards his
crutch. Nodding her head meekly Sarah got of the bed and sunk to her knee's in
front of Liam preparing herself for what she would have to do.
The night of the ball arrived and Sarah was stood in front of her full length
mirror in her bedroom which it had a large crack the whole way down it from
Stephan throwing her into it a few weeks ago. Sarah was looking over her body
she was wearing a long black strapless ball gown with full arm length white
silk gloves to hide her cuts and bruises, Her waist length hair had been curled
and swept over her right shoulder kept in place by a large diamond butterfly
clip. For the first time in her life she felt beautiful.
"You better be on your best behaviour tonight one foot out of line and I will
make sure you wish you had never been born. Understand me?" Stephan threatened
from the bedroom door.
"Yes Sir" Sarah answered turning to look at him with her head down.
"And remember he's paid for your company not sex. If I find out and I will that
you let him have sex without paying more I will have to remind you exactly who
you belong too" Stephan snarled stroking the side of Sarah's face threateningly
"Or maybe I'll give you a little demonstration of that now before you leave"
Sarah's blood ran cold, She could smell the alcohol on his breath and could see
how wide his pupils were so she knew he was high as well and that made he very
dangerous, She was terrified of him when he was like this. Stephan spun her
round and pushed her against the bed before pulling her dress up. Sarah's heart
hammered in her chest and tears started to form in her eyes already. Stephan
started to undo his belt when the door bell rang. Liam had arrived. Stephan
groaned in frustration as Sarah collapsed against the bed relieve flooding her
system unknowingly Liam had saved Sarah once again.
"You know the rules make sure she doesn't speak to anyone, Tell people she's
your god-daughter from out of town and Don't cause a scene" Stephan told Liam
gruffly obviously annoyed he had been interrupted.
"She won't leave my site all night I promise you" Liam answered with a nod
"See that she doesn't. And You" Stephan snapped rounding on Sarah "I find out
you've put a toe out of line your in trouble and incase I forget your not going
to school tomorrow we've a new shipment of girls arriving and they will need
trained"
Sarah's heart sunk, she had forgotten about the girls arriving. she hated when
new girls arrived. Every few month Stephan would get 5 or 6 new under-age girls
to work for him and it was up to Sarah to make sure they knew how to please
whoever wanted them. Last time Stephan got a 6 year old and it made Sarah sick
to the stomach to watch her pleasure Stephan and hear her screams as she was
raped but she had no choice, It was that or be forced to kill her and she
couldn't do that not again.
When they got to the ball, Liam took Sarah straight to the dance floor, she had
confessed her love for dancing to him a few weeks before and Sarah had to admit
it was wonderful getting to dance again even if it did bring up painful
memories of dancing around the living room with her Gran and the tears of joy
her Gran shed every time she won a contest. She danced with Liam most of the
night and even managed to laugh for the first time since her Gran's death. They
were doing a waltz when Liam's eyes caught hers and looked at her as though she
was the only creature in all of creation.
"I love you" He whispered sweetly in Sarah's ear making her smile brightly
"I love you too" Sarah whispered back.
end of flashback
Sarah was shaken from her thoughts again as Clara and the Doctor stood up
beside her. The officiator had stopped talking and music began to play
signalling the end of the service and the Coffin being lowered down to be
cremated. Panic started to swell in Sarah again, this was the last time she
would be near him. After this she would never see him again never hear him
whisper "I love you" in her ear and She wasn't sure how to feel about that.
Sarah felt Clara's hand tremble in hers and she looked at her in confusion.
"I don't like cremations" Clara whispered in response and Sarah thought no more
off it.
Once the Coffin had fully descended the officiator walked over to Liam's family
and shake their hands and before Sarah or anyone else had time to react, his
family turned round and spotted them sitting at the back. Sarah had hopped not
to be noticed and be able to slip out of the church without his family ever
knowing she had been here, it wasn't until now she realised how stupid that
idea had been. Liam's brother started marching towards Sarah with a determined
look upon his face.
***** Meeting the Parents *****
Meeting the Family
"Do you not think that my poor mother has been through enough with out the
likes of you poking their nose in? If you want a good story go somewhere else"
the man roared at the trio
"Sorry we'll just" Sarah started to apologise but was cut off
"I don't know who you think you are sunny but my daughter has just as much
right to be here as you do, your relative made her life hell and from some
reason I don't even begin to understand she wanted to come and pay her respects
and say good bye. So if you've got a problem with that your just as bad as he
was" The Doctor shouted back as he pulled himself up to his fall height
towering over the terrified looking man.
"Dad it doesn't matter just come on" Sarah tried to pull the Doctor towards the
door tears forming in her eyes again.
"Wait! you're Sarah aren't you?" Liam's sister asked coming to stand by her
brother. You could really see the family reassembles between the three of them
they all had the same striking blue eyes and the same shaped jaw. Sarah just
nodded in response to scared to say anything in case his sister started
shouting too. Liam's sister stared at her for a moment before throwing her
arm's around Sarah and pulling her into a hug making Sarah freeze in shock, she
expected anger not a his sister to hug her and start crying on her shoulder.
"I'm sorry, I just can't believe everything he did to you and I wanted to thank
you. If you haven't have spoken up and told someone what was happening then my
daughter could have been next so thank you" The woman said pulling away from
Sarah and whipping her eyes.
"Your daughter's Sophie right?" Sarah asked remembering Liam mentioning his
niece
"Yes how did you?" THe woman frowned confused
"Liam mentioned her a few times, he doted on her he would never have hurt her"
Sarah reassured her.
"Sarah I know this might be a bit upsetting for you but we are going to the pub
down the road for some lunch, Why don't you join us? We have a few things we
would like to discuss with you, If you wouldn't mind that is" Liam's father
asked joining in the conversation.
"amm yea sure" Sarah answered nervously
"Excellent, well we just have to go and speak to a woman first but how about we
met you there in about half an hour? The pub's called the rose and crown"
Liam's father said with a warm smile
"OK see you there" Sarah half smiled back before pulling The Doctor out of the
room who was still glaring at Liam's brother.
"Are you sure its a good idea to have lunch with that man?" The Doctor asked
obviously still angry at Liam's brother
"Yes I owe them that at lest" Sarah answered looking straight ahead of her as
nervous bubbled away in her stomach again.
"You don't owe them anything" The Doctor snapped
"Yes I do! If it wasn't for me Liam wouldn't have gone to prison and he
wouldn't have died" Sarah shouted exasperated
"That is the biggest load of nonsense I've ever heard! he hurt you! That could
have been you in that coffin" The Doctor said running his hands through his
hair in frustration. He was angry angrier than he could ever remember being.
How dare some pudding brained pervert make his daughter feel like it was her
fault he ended up dead. He didn't usually condone violence but right now he'd
love to congratulate whoever killed Liam heck he'd even go back and do it
himself.
"OK calm down both of you, doctor why don't you go back to my flat fiddle with
the toaster or something and I'll take Sarah to met with his family" Clara
suggested trying to calm the pair down.
"Fine! but you call me as soon as you leave and don't be too long" The Doctor
huffed before marching off.
"He is right you know, it's not your fault" Clara spoke softly as she and Sarah
walked towards the pub at the end of the street.
"Feels like it is" Sarah muttered quietly
"Just think that by you speaking up and telling Adrian the amount of girls you
saved from going through the same abuse as you did" Clara smiled trying to
remind Sarah.
"Not enough, I could have saved so many more if I had spoken up sooner before
Liam got involved" Sarah retaliated. She knew what Clara was trying to do but
it wasn't going to work. She may have forgiven Liam for everything that he had
done but that doesn't mean she had forgiven herself.
"You really are your fathers daughter" Clara laughed "Nothing you do is ever
good enough in your own eyes, you can always do better"
"something like that" Sarah muttered sitting down in one of the booths in the
pub they had arrived at.
It was warm and cosy with original Victorian features. The three of them had
been a few times when they were staying at Clara's and the staff were friendly
and well known in the area, The pub had been in the family since it opened in
the early Victorian times and pictures of the older family members hung on the
walls giving the place a very family friendly feel. Clara and Sarah loved
coming here but the Doctor wasn't too keen on it said it reminded him of
something he'd rather forget.
"Despite the misplaced guilt, how are you doing?" Clara asked
"I've just been to my son's father's funeral and I'm about to have a
conversation with his grandparents, not to great to be honest" Sarah admitted
placing her head in her hands with a groan. She was starting to get a headache
and just wanted to be back in Cardiff curled up in bed with Jack and not deal
with anything.
"Your Son's what?" a shocked voice came from behind Sarah.
Sarah snapped her head up and turned out with wide eyes looking at Liam's
family all of whom look just as shocked as she felt.
"Nothing! Just ignore that it's been a long day" Sarah lied badly trying to
force a bit of a laugh but she ended up sounding slighty manic
"No you said your son's father. I have a grandson" Liam's mum Marigold smiled
"No no you don't" Sarah said quickly how on earth does she explain to them that
their grandson died at birth when they have just buried their son, She shot a
pleding look towards Clara who immediately came to the rescue
"Why don't we all sit down and order before we explain everything. I'm Clara by
the way" Clara said cheerfully holding her hand out to Liam's dad.
"George and this is my wife Marigold, Daughter Alice and son Robert" George
said taking Clara's hand clearly he was used to making the introductions. "And
this is our solicitor Jane" George gestured to 50 something year old woman with
long grey hair who had just came into the pub.
"Solicitor?" Sarah asked really confused now
"I told you we have things to talk about especially now in light of your recent
revelation" George said sounding very business like Sarah could tell straight
away he was used to being the one in charge and handling business interactions
"I don't want any money of you if that's what you are thinking. I turned down
the option for compensation after the trail" Sarah explained
"I know you did, we aren't here to talk compensation but first please explain
about your son" George requested
"There's nothing really to explain, I had a son but he-he died" Sarah whispered
looking down at her lap a lump raising in her throat and tears threatening to
spill over. Clara reached over and squeezed Sarah's hand.
"I'm so sorry to hear that, I can't imagine how difficult that must have been"
George said sympathetically
"And he was definitely Liam's?" Marigold asked carefully.
"Yea" Sarah whispered still not able to look at anyone in fear of bursting into
tears.
"How did he die?" Robert asked casually like he was asking about the weather
earning his a punch on the leg from his sister who was sat beside him.
"Stillborn" Sarah croaked out wiping away a few tears that managed to escape.
"Stillborn. wait didn't they at the trail you had a baby?" Robert asked
"Yea there was a mix up I left the hospital with the wrong baby I only found
out a year ago" Sarah explained fiddling with her neckless made from James
ashes that she never took it off, tears flowing more freely now
"What was his name?" Alice asked softly trying to to upset Sarah anymore than
she already was.
"James his name is James" Sarah whispered with a sob. Clara instantly came to
Sarah's side and wrapped her into a hug. She knew how hard it was still for
Sarah to talk about James especially after a day like today.
"I'm sure you have lots of questions but she's upset can we please leave them
for another time?" Clara asked the family.
A waitress came over to the table then and took every ones lunch order. Sarah
didn't really feel like eating any more so just ordered a drink which was
immediately shot down by Clara who ordered Sarah the same as her despite
Sarah's protests of not being hungry.
"OK so maybe we should get down to business" Jane suggested once their lunch
had arrived. "Miss Smith I'm sure you know Mr Evans was quite a well off man"
"I guessed as much I know how much Stephan charged him but what does that have
to do with me?" Sarah asked confused
"Everything Miss Smith" Jane smiled pulling out a stack of papers from her
brief case. "This is Mr Evans last will and testament he left everything to
you"
"W-why why would he do that?" Sarah stuttered completely stunned
"To be honest I'm not sure I tried to talk him out of it but he was adamant
that it all went to you" Jane shrugged sounding a little disappointed as she
passed the documents over to Sarah "As you can see you inherit both his
companies his house in the country, his flat in London, his cars, bikes, all
his belongings and 15 million pounds"
"I'm sorry how much!" Clara exclaimed
"15 and a quarter million pound to be exact" Jane answered smugly
Sarah just stared at the documents in front of her unable to take it all in.
Why on earth would Liam do this? Didn't he realise that this would just make
moving on from everything so much harder? She didn't know the first thing about
running a business, She couldn't drive, all she was really good for was running
up and down corridors being chased by or chasing monsters. What on earth was
she gonna do?
"All you have to do is sign the bottom of the paper and in a few days
everything will be in your name and all the details will be sent to you" Jane
said handing Sarah a pen.
Sarah just stared at the pen, unsure if she should sign it. Her life was in
Cardiff now with Jack and Torchwood, She would have to move back down here in
London for the companies if she signed it. Her mind was whirling with all that
could go wrong. She would be closer to UNIT, people would notice she wasn't
ageing like they were, If she wasn't good at running the companies people could
lose their jobs. Stephan could easily find her. So much could go wrong but if
she took the money she could help people. She needed time to think.
"Can I get back to you?" Sarah asked shyly
"Of Course but I'll need to know as soon as possible" Jane answered shocked
that someone would even consider turning something like this down.
"I just need a few days to think this through" Sarah explained
"Of course, How about I start getting everything ready so if you say yes It
will be sorted that day and if you say no well no harm done" Jane suggested
"sure" Sarah agreed not really feeling like she could have said no about that
anyway
"Ok well just leave me your phone number and address and I'll sort everything
out" Jane smiled passing Sarah a blank piece of paper
"I don't have a phone" Sarah said apologetically
"Here put mine down, you can stay with me for a few days to sort all this"
Clara offered writing her number down on the piece of paper
"OK well my number is on the top of the letter there give me a call when you've
made up your mind" Jane said shaking Sarah's hand before shaking everyone
else's.
***** Coffee *****
Coffee
Clara woke up and noticed it was still pitch black in her room a quick peek at
the alarm told her it was 4:00 in the morning, groaning and running a hand over
her face she realised her throat was sore and dry so she decided to get up and
get a drink. The Doctor was sleeping peacefully on the other side of the bed.
quietly so not to disturb him Clara wrapped her dressing gown around herself
still naked from their love making and headed for the kitchen. She passed
through the living room stumbling over on of the Doctors shoes in her half
awake state not even noticing the small amount of light coming from her laptop
on the coffee table.
"Clara!" A voice shouted as soon as she switched on the kitchen light. Clara
jumped and grabbed the closest thing to her which happened to be her folder
containing year 9's poetry essays and raised it up ready to defend herself
against what ever had just tried to pierce her ear drums by shouting her name.
"Clara! Clara! Clara!" The voice excitedly exclaimed over and over again.
Clara's half asleep brain finally caught up with her surroundings to find Sarah
stood in front of her in a pair of navy pyjama bottoms and a fluffy pink
dressing gown tied very loosely around her so it was almost fully open
revealing the Harry Potter t-shirt she had stolen from Clara. Sarah's hair had
been pulled up into a very messy bun with stray hairs falling out everywhere
and she seemed to have posted notes stuck randomly on her, In her hand was a
blue mug with steam coming out of the top.
"You scared the life out of me! thought you were going to attack me" Clara
scolded in a loud whisper so not to wake the Doctor
"So you thought you'd fight me off with some grading?" Sarah laughed not
bothering to keep her voice down if anything she seemed to be talking louder
than normal.
"Keep your voice down you'll wake your father, What are you doing awake at this
time anyway its 4 in the morning?" Clara staged whispered.
"It is? I should really get to bed soon" Sarah muttered to herself before
taking a drink out of her cup.
"You haven't even been to sleep yet? what have you been doing? and how are you
even still awake?" Clara asked filling a glasses up with water before taking a
drink
"Oh lots of stuff! been busy! lots to do! lots to plan! yes yes lots!" Sarah
answered sounding almost manic "Coffee's disgusting did you know that? but very
good at keeping you awake" Sarah practically bounced in the spot.
It was then that Clara looked at Sarah and noticed the almost manic look in
Sarah's eyes with dark circles under them and how her entire body seemed to
practically vibrate with access energy.
"How much Coffee have you had?" Clara asked shocked
"I dunno! lost count! maybe10 maybe more" Sarah shrugged starting to bounce
slightly on the balls of her feet.
"10! Sarah! you'll kill yourself! give me that cup" Clara exclaimed snatching
the cup away from Sarah
"Hey! My Coffee! Give!" Sarah protested reaching for the cup. Clara took a gulp
of the coffee before pulling a face and dumping the rest down the sink.
"Nooo!!! that was evil!" Sarah shouted dramatically
"That was disgusting how many sugars are in that?" Clara asked her face full of
disgust
"6" Sarah shrugged "Any less and I could still taste the coffee" Sarah
shuddered as if remembering a horrible event.
"Why on earth did you drink it then if you don't like it?" Clara asked pinching
the bridge of her nose. reminding herself to breath in and out calmly, having
the conversation at four in the morning was pushing her patients to its limits
"I told you stuff to do! things to research! plans to make!" Sarah answered
excitedly with a huge smile all thoughts of her wasted coffee gone.
"What plans?" Clara asked tightly this conversation was going no were and she
wondered if it was a Timelord thing not to give her a straight forward answer
or just a family thing.
"Ah its a secret! I can't tell you just yet" Sarah teased smiling wildly
"Fine! I"m going back to bed" Clara muttered turning to leave.
"No come on why don't we play a game, twister! scrabble! that game with the
elephants! no wait that's not a game that was a planet. Oh hmm! I know! truth
of dare! That's always fun. Well I've never played it but I've heard it is"
Sarah rambled excitedly and loudly causing Clara to rub her temples with her
finger tips.
"No we are not playing truth or dare while you are in this state, we'll end up
abseiling the building or something" Clara
"OOO now that's a good idea! I'm sure dad has rope and stuff in the TARDIS!"
Sarah exclaimed leaving the kitchen and headng towards the TARDIS
"Were are you going?" Clara called after her
"To the TARDIS" Sarah called back
"NO!!! Don't go in my room!" Clara shouted wide eyed as she remembered the
Doctor was still in there fast asleep and naked. Clara heard a high pitched
screech and raced towards her bedroom.
She expected to find Sarah in shock and the Doctor grumbling about while
getting changed but was shocked to find the Doctor laying the bed clutching the
sheets to him as closely as possible, eyes wide and full of shock and Sarah
laying on the floor rolling around in silent laughter as tears rolled down her
face from laughing.
"He...Screamed...like....a....little.....girl" Sarah gasped out between
laughter.
"Are you gonna get out of here so I can get dressed?" The Doctor snapped.
"Yea Yea sure" Sarah laughed struggling to get up of the floor from laughing so
much and ending up crawling out of the room into the hall.
"It was not even that funny" The Doctor huffed making Clara roll her eyes.
"I know but she's had way to much sugar and coffee this morning" Clara
explained.
10 minutes later The Doctor was fully dressed and went to the living room to
find Sarah sitting on the sofa tapping away on Clara's laptop her fingers going
almost inhumanly fast as she bounced slightly on the sofa.
"Where' Clara?" The Doctor asked more for something to say than actually
wanting to know. He knew she wouldn't go far.
"Breakfast" Sarah answered simply pointing in the direction of the kitchen.
"What are you working on?" The Doctor asked sitting down on the chair in the
corner of the room.
"I'll tell you once Clara comes out apparently I need something to soak up the
caffeine what ever the heck that means" Sarah laughed
"If you concentrated you could just expel the caffeine out of your system" The
Doctor told Sarah as if it was the most obvious thing in the world
"Yep" Sarah answered excitedly popping the "P" "But its much more fun to be
hyper and annoy Clara by making her think we're gonna abseil down the building
and besides I already did it when she went into the kitchen hence the bouncing
my foots twitchy"
"She's gonna kill you you know that" The Doctor chuckled imagining his cute
little Clara blowing up in anger at Sarah. She looked so adorable when she was
angry except when it was aimed at him of course then she was just truly
terrifying
"Who's gonna kill her?" Clara asked entering the room carrying a tray with
three full English breakfasts on it and sitting them down on the coffee table
much to Sarah's annoyance because it meant she had to move the laptop.
Thanks love" THe Doctor said reaching for his own plate.
"Gwen she'd kill me for making her miss out on the abseiling" Sarah answered
Clara's question in way to chipper and happy voice. "Maybe I should suggest a
team building exercise to Jack" Sarah added absent mindedly nibbling on a piece
of sausage.
"Eat your breakfast, I think id prefer to see you drunk than this" Clara
scolded
"Nah don't drink, bad memories" Sarah retorted
"ok so whats this all about?" The Doctor asked
"Well i"ve decided to take Liam's money etc but I wanna do something with it
soo" Sarah eplained dragging out the last word "Met James Place" Sarah smiled
turning the laptop round to show Clara and the Doctor.
On screen was a huge white house it had 4 stories and looked easily three times
as wide as the flat block Clara lived in. Most of the windows looked as though
they were floor to ceiling and it had a white stoned porch help up by columns
over the large red front door. The house was surrounded by a huge well kept
garden.
"That's the house Liam has left me, it has 15 bedrooms 3 living areas, a huge
kitchen and loads more, I want to turn it into a refuge for abused girls
especially those who have ended up pregnant because of the abuse" Sarah
explained her voice sounding a little sad.
"It's a wonderful idea but Sarah you wouldn't know the first thing about
running a refuge" The Doctor pointed out
"That's what I've been doing all night, figuring it all out. I'll have
counselling, anger management, day care facility's and everything they need to
be rehabilitated. As well as round the clock security" Sarah explained proudly.
"You've put a lot of thought into this" Clara said sounding impressed
"Yep and I've booked an appointment with Jane later on today to get started"
Sarah smiled
"Its 6 in the morning! you shouldn't be ringing people that early!" Clara
scolded
"That's exactly what her husband said only it was 3 in the morning then" Sarah
said sounding confused but she was only messing with Clara she had phoned Jane
last night to arrange the appointment
"You're getting as bad him" Clara pointed an accusing finger at the Doctor
"I don't phone you at 3 in the morning" The Doctor defended a piece of bacon
hanging from his mouth as he ate.
"No but you park your bloody TARDIS in my bedroom at 3 in the morning which is
worse"
"That was one time!" The Doctor defended again
"It was more than one time and you know it" Clara snapped.
Sarah rolled her eyes they had this same argument every time morning wake up
are mentioned "Any way back to my amazing Idea, what do you think?" Sarah asked
trying to steer the conversation away from an argument that would result in her
father sleeping on the couch again.
"I think its a great idea and you'll be brilliant at it" Clara smiled warmly at
Sarah
"Me too" The Doctor answered cautiously unsure if that was the right thing to
say relaxing slightly when Clara gave a small nod.
***** Gran *****
Chapter Notes
     This might be abit upsetting and triggering for some readers
Gran
Sarah spent the rest of the day in and out of meetings and drawing up her
proposal for the home and by the time 11 o'clock came round that night she was
ready to sleep, she may be a child of the TARDIS but she still needs to sleep
for a few hours every night and missing that last night left her exhausted.
Sarah showered and changed into a pair of pyjama bottoms and a tank top crawled
into bed not even bothering to plat her hair which she knew she would regret in
the morning when she tried to brush it. Sarah sighed contently snuggling down
under the covers. Sarah's eyes were drifting closed just about to fall asleep
when she heard it, a giggle. Not just any giggle, Clara's flirty giggle. She
lived with them in the TARDIS long enough to know exactly what that giggle
meant and as if to prove the point her fathers throaty moan reached her ears
seconds later making Sarah cringe. She really wished they wouldn't be so loud
when she was around not only was it embaressing and awkward having to lay in
bed listen to your father and best friend go at it like bunnies across the hall
it also brought back painful memories.
Flashback
12 year old Sarah sat in the living room with her mother Sue and Stephan who
were both sat rolling and smoking joints one after another as if they were
tobacco. Usually when they started doing this Sarah would escape to her room
and do homework or practise her dancing but earlier she had asked Stephan to
wait a second while she finished her homework before getting him s beer. He had
dragged her out of her bedroom by her hair in a rage before throwing her onto
the floor forbidding her from going back into her room until he said. So she
was stuck here until he said she could go to her room or he got so stoned he
passed out which ever came first.
"Let stick the TV on" Stephan suggested before turning it on to some car show.
Sarah's mood lifted at this she was never allowed to watch TV at home and was
usually sent to her room when they wanted to watch it. She eagerly awaited the
dismissal from Stephan but after 15 minutes she gave up and decided to just
enjoy getting to watch the TV for a change that was until a few moments later
Stephan got bored of watching cars and switched the adult channel on. Two girls
were laying on a bed with nothing but a pair of high heels on, one of the girls
had her head between the other ones legs and was licking and sucking at her
private area, the noises they were both making made Sarah cringe more desperate
than ever to escape to her room.
She turned away from the TV to ask if she could go back into her room hoping
Stephan would say yes to find that her mothers skirt was off and Stephan was
taking great pleasure in rubbing Sue's clit while he used his other hand to
free his hardened member. Not even waiting to ask Sarah got up to leave, she
would take what ever punishment he decided to giver her later over having to
sit and watch Stephan and her Mother having sex.
"SIT!" Stephan roared at Sarah pulling away from Sue
Sarah felt all the blood drain from her as fear flooded her system. Stephan
rarely shouted he didn't need to he was scary enough without shouting so when
he did it was never good. Gingerly Sarah sat back down on her seat. Her mother
throwing her daggers for interrupting what Stephan was doing to her.
"You know what I'd love. To have a real life showing of that" Stephan smirked
nodding to the two girls taking it in turns to give the other oral sex.
"I can phone Isla if you want she's usual up for that sort of thing" Sue
suggested sounding irritated
"Why bother? Sarah's here" Stephan smirked looking straight at Sarah. She knew
he wouldn't let her get out of this, this was her punishment, unless her Mother
refused to do it. Surely for once she would stick up for her, She was her
daughter she couldn't do anything like that to her daughter surely.
"Sarah? you want me to do it with Sarah?" Sue asked shocked
"I would be so hot watching my two girls tongue fuck each other" Stephan moaned
at the metal image he gave himself his erection twitching in anticipation. .
"Alright" Sue smiled clearly turned on by the effect it was having on Stephan.
Sarah's eye's widened in horror. No! Her mother couldn't possibly do this.
Sarah was dragged by the arm into her Mothers room which she was slightly
thankful for because it meant she could leave after and not wait for them to
leave her.
"Sarah lie on the bed naked, Sue I want you to do it to Sarah while I fuck you
from behind then I want you to switch. Sarah needs to learn how to give oral to
women It'll make us more money" Stephan instructed removing the rest of his
clothing.
Sarah started undressing slowly she felt in a daze, she couldn't believe her
mother agreed to this. "Hurry up or you will feel my belt over your ass"
Stephan threatened Sarah impatiently making Sarah jump and disregard her last
few bit of clothing as quickly as possible before laying on the bed.
Sarah thought that the first day that Stephan raped her on her sixth birthday
was the worst day of her life but she was wrong she was so so wrong. This was
so much worse. Feeling her mothers tongue licking her private area while
listening to her and Stephan have sex felt so wrong dirty and sick. Sarah had
to bite her lip to stop the sob that wanted to escape. She tried so hard to go
to her happy place in her head imagining going out shopping with her Gran after
school tomorrow getting take out for tea and playing board games until bedtime
same as every Friday night but it didn't work not this time.
After Sarah ran straight to her room not even bothering to pick up her clothes
and took the hottest shower she could scrubbing her skin until it bled but it
didn't feel enough she still felt dirty and unclean. Spying the bleach beside
the toilet Sarah jumped out and grabbed it pouring some onto her scrubbing
brush and cleaning herself with it. holding back screams of agony as the bleach
burned the cuts all over her, She scrubbed and scrubbed over and over again at
her private parts trying despratly to burn away the feeling of her mothers
tongue. The pain of the bleach becoming unbearable Sarah collapsed against the
shower wall. sobs racking her entire body making it difficult to breathe. She
could still taste her mother in her mouth no matter how much water she used to
rinse it out as she sat on the floor of the shower. She used the bleach to
gargle in her mouth the taste disgusting and burning her mouth blisters
instantly forming in her mouth but she didn't care she needed the taste away.
Sarah swallowed the bleach to clean the back of her throat making it feel like
it was on fire and making Sarah throw up before she blacked out.
End of Flashback.
Sarah sat up on her bed wiping the tears of her face. She couldn't stay here
any longer not with Clara and the Doctor's moans getting louder. In abit of a
panic Sarah jumped out of bed threw her light grey jumper on over her tank top,
shoved her feet into the new ugg boots she bought today lifting her new phone
and racing out the front door not even caring she was still wearing her pyjamas
and lifting her coat on the way out. She didn't know were she was going to go
but she need to be anywhere but in Clara's. Once she was out of the flat block
and in the cool night air Sarah felt slightly better she decided to walk round
for a bit.
It was near midnight by now so there was no one else around the street was
quiet with only the noise of distant cars, nearly all the lights in the flats
were off leaving only the soft yellow light from the street lamps to light the
way. Pulling her headphones out of her coat pocket Sarah plugged them in and
started listening to Christmas songs, It was February so not really the time
for Christmas songs but she loved them they reminded Sarah of dancing around
her Gran's kitchen singing at the top of their voices as they made cookies and
biscuits. Her Gran loved Christmas and everything to do with it, it was one of
the many things she missed when her Gran died, Christmas no longer excised, She
continued the tradition with Wyatt for the two Christmas's she had him. She
could still remember how his little face light up at the lights on the
Christmas tree. Sarah was so caught up in her thoughts she hadn't been paying
attention to were she was going until a hand wrapped around her arm making
Sarah jump in fright and quickly pull her ear phones out of her ears turning to
face who ever had grabbed her.
"Sarah are you OK dear?" Clara's Gran asked concerned. Sarah sighed in relief
at seeing the elderly woman stood beside her. Sarah must have walked here
automatically while lost in her thoughts.
"Gran you scared the life out of me. What are you doing out here so late?"
Sarah ask Gran with a small smile.
"I could ask you the same thing" Gran laughed
"I needed to get out of the flat. Clara and my dad were being a bit loud
tonight" Sarah answered
"I see. Come on in dear you can stay here tonight if you want, I can only offer
you a sofa mind" Gran smiled warming heading back into her flat.
Sarah had gotten really close to Clara's Gran when they had stayed at Clara's
that month and still kept in contact with her. The first time Sarah had met her
she had instantly insisted that Sarah called her Gran claiming every one else
did, She had even gone as far as to stick up for Sarah when Clara's step mother
Lynda had started on Sarah for having a son at 16 that day. Sylvia was warm and
kind the sort of person who would do anything for her family and protected them
fiercely.
"Hot Chocolate to warm you up dear?" Gran asked once they were both inside the
flat.
"Please" Sarah smiled sitting down on the sofa, she knew better than to offer
to help. The first time Sarah offered to help Gran had lightly hit her hand
saying she was old not dead and could manage perfectly well by herself. Gran is
clearly who Clara gets her stubborn streak from.
Looking around the living room, it clearly hadn't changed much since the last
time Sarah was here apart from more updated photo's of Clara's cousin's
children, Sarah smiled imagining the conversation between Clara and her Gran
when she would have got the photo's asking Clara when she was going to be
giving her photos of her great Gran baby, most likely with The Doctor there who
would go bright red and get all flustered.
"Jessica doing well then?" Sarah asked taking the mug of hot chocolate off Gran
which was in Sarah's favourite spotty mug. "Thank you"
"Yes she started Pre school last week, Colin says she loves it" Gran answered
taking a sip of her tea in a small china cup.
They spent the next half an hour or so catching up on everything that had
happened since they last spoke. Gran was the only one out of Clara's family who
knew about the TARDIS and that the Doctor being an Alien making Sarah half
alien, So Sarah didn't need to lie or change details in her stories as she told
Gran about all that she had been doing with Torchwood, she briefly told her
about what all had happened at the funeral but didn't want to really talk about
it and Gran never pushed Sarah, She also knew all about Sarah's past so knew
how hard it was for her to talk about it. Gran was just telling Sarah all about
one of the women in her knitting group who had just had her 25th grandchild
when Sarah's phone rang. Seeing Clara's name pop up Sarah answered it quickly
thinking something was wrong.
"Thank god Sarah! where the hell are you?" Clara demanded using her teachers
voice down the phone as soon as Sarah had put the phone to her ear
"I'm at Gran's I needed some air" Sarah explained
"At midnight?" Clara asked
"You were being a bit loud" Sarah answered sheepishly she hated having to admit
when it bothers her to Clara.
"Oh right sorry" Clara muttered sounding embarrassed "Are you coming back?"
"No I'm going to stay with Gran tonight clear my head" Sarah explained
"Sorry I guess we just got too caught up and forgot. Are you okay?" Clara asked
sounding concerned
"I'll be fine don't worry, Gran's taking care of me" Sarah answered smiling
over at Gran as she mentioned her.
"She better be. Send her my love okay and we'll see you in the morning" Clara
laughed
"See you in the morning bye" said Sarah
"Bye Love you" Clara said in the same a sing song voice they always end a phone
call with
"Love you too" Sarah laughed.
"I'll go get you the sheets dear" Gran said standing up and taking to cups
away.
A short while later Sarah is laying on the sofa with Gran's spare quilt around
her listening to Gran's soft snores from the other room and finally drifting of
to sleep
***** Sickness *****
Sarah had just returned from another day trip down to London, She had been
having a lot of them since she returned to Cardiff a month ago while she set up
and organised her refuge, there was a lot more paperwork and remodelling to do
than she had realised so she ended up taking a trip to London sometimes about
to 4 or 5 times a week thankfully the Doctor had given her a vortex manipulator
which made it much quicker.
Sarah had landed in her bedroom and ran straight towards the toilet and threw
up the contents of her stomach the bile burning her throat on its way up. She
felt a hand on her back and someone pulling her hair out of her face and place
a kiss on top of her head.
"Vortex manipulator is a bit of an ass right?" Jack joked
"Yea I don't think that's the reason I just re-met my lunch" Sarah mumbled
wiping her mouth and sitting down on the tiled floor exhausted.
"What do you mean?" Jack frowned
"Well since the time on the TARDIS I've been feeling this other presence in my
mind but I just put it down to the link between me and you but being down at
Clara's our link wasn't has intense and I was able to feel it properly" Sarah
started to explain before looking up at Jack with tears in her eyes "I think
I'm pregnant Jack"
"Really?" Jack smiled excitedly
"I'm not sure there's no thoughts just a presence, a link that's not to you or
anyone else I know off and I've been feeling sick my boobs hurt and I feel like
I wanna cry all the time" Sarah explained in a rush sighing at the end.
"That's amazing! Sarah we're going to have a baby!" Jack grinned laughing with
excitement
"Is it? I don't know for sure but if I am. I don't know if I can be a mum again
I messed up so badly last time" Sarah answered laying her head down on Jack's
shoulder
"You will be a great mum. what happened the last time wasn't because of you"
"Oh really because I'm pretty sure that leaving my dead newborn in a field and
the forgetting him was me and then leaving my 18 month old on a ship surrounded
by strangers who turned him into a warrior was also me" Sarah snapped
"None of that was your fault, you know that Sarah, look I tell you what since
we don't know for sure how about I go get Martha and we could find out
together" Jack suggested wrapping his arms around Sarah to try and comfort her
"No! don't tell Martha or anyone else yet I do not need this getting back to my
dad yet" Sarah panicked
"OK no Martha. I could go buy some tests?" Jack suggested unsure. He didn't
really want to leave Sarah when she was this upset but he knew they needed to
know
"Yea that's good idea" Sarah whispered snuggling in against Jack again.
Jack picked Sarah up of the ground and carried her into the bedroom laying her
down on the bed before tucking the covers around her.
"I'll be back as quickly as possible just you stay in here. I'll tell the team
your feeling ill and to leave you alone. I love you" Jack whispered placing a
soft kiss on Sarah's forehead
"I love you too" Sarah muttered back as her eyes fluttered shut.
Jack left the room soundlessly before racing down the corridor that connected
the living quartets with the main Torchwood hub quickly checking the cctv that
there was no one but the team in the main section Jack opened the door that was
hidden behind what looked like apart of the wall in the main hub and stepped
out.
"Finished saying hello to the Mrs then" Mickey teased as soon as Jack stepped
out.
"Yea, she's not feeling to well so she's laying down for a bit can you just
make sure no one disturbs her. I gotta go do a thing" Jack asked Mickey
"A thing?" Mickey asked looking up from his computer and raising an eyebrow
"A thing yea" Jack answered
"Alright sure" Mickey answered after a while of staring at Jack suspicious
Jack shouted out a thank you before racing out of the hub and up into the
streets miles above them to his car. The whole drive to the shop Jack could
barely contain his excitement. He was going to be a daddy again! He was sure of
it and this time he wasn't going to mess it up. As soon as he arrived at the
shop Jack jumped out of the car not even bothering to park it properly. He
headed straight to the medicine isle looking for pregnancy tests and was met by
a row full of different kinds, digital, one step, kits. He had no idea which to
get.
"Come on this was so much easier last time I did it!" Jack groaned in
frustration picking up one of each kind in his hands and turning them over
reading the packaging. He was still confused by it so he decided to get one of
each and Sarah could decide. After lifting some ice cream and chocolate he
headed towards the checkout when something at the end of one of the isles
caught his eye, he picked that up too and paid for everything before going back
to the hub.
"Sarah sweetie" Jack gently called waking Sarah up.
"Did you get one?" Sarah asked sleepily rubbing her eyes as she sat up in the
bed. Jack passed her the bag with the pregnancy tests, she laughed seeing how
many he had bought before picking out the digital one and heading to the
bathroom. She came back out a minute or so later with the opened test in her
hand.
"Well?" Jack asked impatiently while grinning
"You gotta wait 3 minutes Jack its not instant" Sarah explained with a laugh
"Right 21st century tests I forgot. You OK?" Jack asked
"No, I really can't do this Jack" Sarah whispered her eyes filling with tears
again.
"Yes you can I know you can" Jack soothed pulling Sarah onto the bed with him
and cuddling her.
"NO I can't I was rubbish at it the last time" Sarah cried into Jack's neck
"That's not true and you're forgetting something important. Last time you where
on your own, this time you have Clara, your Dad, Martha, Gwen even Mickey and
most importantly you have me and I swear to you Sarah, I'm going to make up for
all the mistakes I made with my other children" Jack promised with a small kiss
to Sarah's head.
Sarah was about to speak when the timer went of on her phone, letting her know
It was time to look at test. Her heats pounded in her chest and it felt like a
million butterflies just erupted in her stomach and not in a good way making
her feel sick again. Jack's hand snaked round Sarah's that was still clutching
the test between their two bodies, they both locked eye's before Jack gave the
smallest of nods and Sarah turned the test over in her hand, Both of them
staring down in silence at the one word staring right back at them.
Pregnant
 
a/n sorry its a short one and its been so long but kids are off for Christmas
so its hard finding time to write. also I had thought of making this really
long but I've decided I'm gonna wrap this story up within the next 10-20
chapters and do an epilogue (Which i've all ready written and made myself cry
at) and then that will be Sarah's story done except with possibly the odd one
shot every now and again.
***** Confessions *****
A few days later Sarah was stood leaning against the railings of Cardiff bay
harbour, it was late at night so it was completely dark outside except for the
light bouncing of the still water from the full moon. The stars twinkled above
like a million diamonds high in the sky. Sarah stared up at them trying to
imagine which one her dad and Clara would be off saving right now and then she
thought of Wyatt and how he would be up there training to become the great
warrior who could destroy so many planets and take so many life's before
realising the error of his ways and becoming a force for good, Wyatt the
saviour of the universe he would become known as, pride swelled within Sarah,
her boy that small little 18 month old little boy would save the universe in a
few hundred years and she had the privilege of being called his mummy for a
short time. Her thought turned to James. The son she never got to know, the son
she failed to save.
"James?" Sarah whispered into the nigh air "I know you probably can't hear me
but if there is any chance you can please just listen" Sarah sighed tears
prickling at the corner of her eyes. "I miss you every single day there's not a
single day that goes by that I don't think of you and wonder what you would
have looked like or sounded like, what your favourite food would have been, all
those little details that make up you, that made me your mum to know them. I
failed you so so badly and I'm sorry. If I had known maybe I could have found
away out sooner and you could have been safe but I didn't and I'm sorry, I'm so
so sorry" Tears started to flow down Sarah's face freely as she spoke.
"I'm scared James and I don't know what to do. I'm pregnant, you're going to be
a big bother and I don't think I can do it. I already lost you and Wyatt, I
couldn't take it if I lost this baby too but how could I possibly not? I know
I'm being punished for things I done for Stephan, the universe is getting back
at me. Taking the people I care most about away from me, it took you and then
Wyatt, This baby is next I know it and that terrifies me" Sarah confessed
staring out into the harbour.
Sarah was too lost in her own world talking to James that she didn't notice the
figure stood in the shadows by the wall listening to her talk, she didn't hear
the click of his shoes against the ground as he walked up behind her, she
didn't feel the slight breath on the back of her neck as he got closer to her
not until he reached up a hand silently and placed it on her shoulder spinning
her round to face him. Sarah let out a small yelp of surprise as her hearts
hammered in her chest and fear clouded her mind. She looked up into the face of
the man who had terrified her.
"Jack!" Sarah breathed out in relief "You idiot you sacred me to death!" Sarah
scolded him hitting his arm that was still holding onto her shoulder.
"Did you really mean what you just said?" Jack asked searching Sarah's face for
something what she couldn't tell
"That you scared me? yea" Sarah answered hoping to avoid answering his question
properly
"Sarah you know what I mean, there now when you were talking to James"
jack snapped impatiently, she obviously wasn't going to get out of this one.
"Yes, I meant it" Sarah whispered looking down unable to meet Jack's eye
"Why? why would you even think that? you're not being punished, you're the most
perfect person in the universe you've nothing to be punished for" Jack asked
cradling Sarah's face and forcing her to look at him, both of them had tears in
their eyes.
"I'm not perfect Jack I'm far far from it, I've done things, horrible things"
Sarah started tears falling again
"And you think I haven't?" Jack interrupted his voice breaking with unshed
tears. He hated seeing Sarah cry when he couldn't fix it.
"Everything you have ever done was for the greater good" Sarah answered
"And everything you've ever done is because you've had no choice" Jack stressed
to Sarah looking straight into her eyes
"Not everything Jack" Sarah replied in a tone that left no room for agruement
"How about we talk about this inside?" Jack suggested as a group of drunk
teenagers passed them.
Sarah nodded and followed Jack inside the hub. They headed straight to the
living quarters even though everyone else had gone home for the day, it felt
more private and comforting to talk in their own kitchen. Jack instantly set
about making Sarah's hot chocolate and his coffee just like he did every time
they came in here. Sarah sat down at her place at the table, head in her hands
staring of into space completely lost in her thoughts so much so that she
jumped slightly when Jack set her hot chocolate with cream and mini
marshmallows down in front of her.
"Sarah I've seen everything in your mind when we have sex I can see into your
memories everything and believe me there's nothing in there that you'd be being
punished for" Jack said taking a sip of coffee.
"Not everything there's something that I keep locked away, even from you" Sarah
explained in a deadpan tone "When I was 15 we got a shipment of new girls in
like we did every few months, It was my job to get them settled"
flashback
"Alright Tony, Chris, Ryan get those weapons from the truck and put them in
that one so we can move them" Stephan ordered "Sarah! girls are over there"
Stephan snapped as soon Sarah stepped out of the car into the large warehouse
they used for deliveries. 3 large wholesale trucks were parked side by side at
the far end of the warehouse while men unloaded the contents from the back.
Sarah knew from experience that the crates they lifted out could contain
anything from fish and pencils to heroine and guns, what ever it took to get it
transported from from country to this one.
"Sarah! girls now!" Stephan roared across the warehouse when Sarah didn't move
as soon as he told her too.
Sarah walked towards the area Stephan had pointed it was a far corner with some
hay bales stacked up to create a private area where the girls are always placed
before being moved to another warehouse or sold on to someone else. Peering
inside Sarah saw there where 5 Tanned skinned girls covered in dirt and small
amounts of blood their clothes ripped in places and their hair stuck to their
heads with grease. The five of them stunk of sweat and urine and Sarah had to
force down the urge to retch at the smell. They looked terrified.
"Its OK I'm not here to hurt you I promise" Sarah said with a genuine smile
reaching a hand out to the oldest looking girl. the girl looked to be a bit
older than Sarah maybe 17 years old. sensing that they didn't trust Sarah which
was understandable she pulled out a chocolate bar from her jacket pocket opened
it and held it out to the girl who instantly took it but much to Sarah's
surprise didn't eat it herself, instead she handed it to a little girl Sarah
hadn't noticed before hidden behind the other five girls was a toddler no older
than about 2 or 3 years old with huge big brown eyes and a toothy grin. Sarah
looked at the little girl in disbelief. there must have been some sort of mix
up, as horrible as Stephan was there was no way he would have taken a toddler.
Sarah got up and ran towards Stephan.
"There's been a mix up with one of the girls there's a toddler there" Sarah
explained breathless
"There's no mix up now go and get them ready for tonight" Stephan snapped
"I'm not training a 2 year old I can't!" Sarah refused feeling brave for once
"You have your orders Sarah and if want to keep breathing then I suggest you
follow them you never know someone might pay more for her than they do for you"
Stephan practically growled at her.
"But she's a baby Stephan please don't make me she'll probably die first time
anyone has her anyway she'll be no use after that it's pointless just let her
go" Sarah begged
Stephan lost his temper at this point he hated anyone talking back to him
especially any of the girls and slapped Sarah hard around the side of her face.
A huge red hand print appearing instantly and making tears well in Sarah's
eyes, the sound of the slap echoed around the warehouse causing everyone to
stop and look at what was going on.
"Don't you dare talking back to me!" Stephan roared at Sarah his face red with
anger and spit flying from his mouth.
"I'm Sorry Sir" Sarah apologised her voice breaking slightly as she held back
tears, her hand touching the side of her face Stephan slapped
"You have 2 options get her ready, drug her what ever it takes to keep her
quiet so I can rent her tonight or kill her, your choice" Stephan smirked
knowing he'd gav Sarah an impossible choice to make as punishment for speaking
back to him.
Later that night Sarah had made her choice, all 6 girls had been cleaned up and
given new underwear for the night. Everyone had been moved from the warehouse
to Stephan's flat were the party was taking place. Sarah, the 6 new girls and 2
other regular girls were sat in a small box room waiting to be lead out.
Tonight's party was different to the ones they usually have. Normally the girls
would walk around the party and whoever wanted them just grabbed them paid
Stephan and done what they wanted but tonight 4 of the new girls were up for
sale so they had to wait to be presented to the party and the ones for sale
were bided on followed by the ones for rent.
The room was silent apart from the toddlers cries for her mummy each one
piercing Sarah's heart all over again. She was sat in Sarah's lap cuddled up
close to her while Sarah stroked her hair and tried her best to calm her down.
One by one the girls were taken out of the room until it was just Sarah and the
little girl left. Sarah began to sing to her a lullaby she remembered her Gran
singing to her when she woke up from having nightmares.
"Hush, little baby, don't say a word.
Grandma's gonna buy you a mockingbird
And if that mockingbird won't sing,
Grandma's gonna buy you a diamond ring
And if that diamond ring turns brass,
Grandma's gonna buy you a looking glass
And if that looking glass gets broke,
Grandma's gonna buy you a billy goat
And if that billy goat won't pull,
Grandma's gonna buy you a cart and bull
And if that cart and bull turn over,
Grandma's gonna buy you a dog named Rover
And if that dog named Rover won't bark
Grandma's gonna buy you a horse and cart
And if that horse and cart fall down,
You'll still be the sweetest little baby in town."
Sarah sang softly while rocking the little girl and eventually after singing it
a few times the little girl settled down and feel asleep cuddled in Sarah's
arms her breathing even and shallow the slightest snore mixed in with each
breath she took. Sarah watched her for a second stroking her soft dark brown
hair away from her face. She looked so peaceful and innocent free from worries
and pains. Sarah's eyes welled up at the thought of the life this poor little
girl would have being beaten and raped daily living on very little food and
water having drugs pumped into her system against her will and that's only if
she survived the first time. Sarah knew there and then she had made the right
decision.
Quietly and carefully so not to disturb the little girl Sarah pulled out the
small hand held gun with a silencer Stephan had given her for the job with only
one bullet in it. With shaking hands and tears rolling down her face Sarah
placed the gun on the girls back right were she knew her heart would be.
Closing her eyes tightly and taking Sarah's fingers tightened around the
trigger. The bullet flew out of the gun and into her chest sending splatters of
blood everywere, trenching Sarah in the warm sticky substance.
"I'm so sorry" Sarah whispered "Please forgive me" tears flowed down Sarah's
face making with the girls blood as Sarah leant down and pressed a kiss to her
forehead "I'm so so sorry" Sarah clutched the little girls body to her as she
cried and rocked back and forward muttering "Sorry" over and over again.
Grieving for the girl she didn't even know the name off.
end of flash back.
"For hours I sat there with her before some of Stephan's men came to clear it
up and take her body away" Sarah whispered her head in her hands tears
splashing of the table top as she cried.
"You did what was best for her" Jack reassured Sarah rubbing his hand up and
down her arm.
"Make me forget Jack" Sarah pleaded as she looked up at him her eyes full of
sadness and sorrow and guilt.
Jack did the only thing he knew to make her feel better and crashed his lips to
hers in a passionate kiss. pulling her up of her chair and backing her into the
counter, his lips pressing into hers as hard as he could without hurting her.
it was all lips and teeth and tongues as they worked each other into a hormone
filled frenzy. Jack picked Sarah up and set her on the counter. His kisses
trailing down her neck biting and sucking as he went along. Sarah tore off
Jack's shirt and t-shirt.
"Shit Sarah" Jack moaned grinding his already hard member against Sarah's core.
"What the hell do you think your doing to my daughter!" The Doctor's voice
bellowed from the kitchen doorway.
***** The oncoming storm *****
Chapter Notes
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     new years present. hope you enjoy xxx
"DAD!" Sarah shouted in shock pushing Jack away from her and hoping down of the
counter.
"Don't make me ask you again. What. do. you. think. you are doing to. my.
Daughter" The Doctor said in a menacing tone stalking towards Jack.
"Now Doc remember you can't kill me" Jack said standing behind a chair trying
to use it as a barrier between himself and the Doctor not entirely sure of his
immortality at the look the Doctor was giving him.
"Doesn't mean I can't try" The Doctor roared swinging his fist at Jack's head
knocking him to the ground unconscious.
"Jack!" Sarah exclaimed rushing to Jack's side and putting his head on her lap,
checking his pulse. "You idiot! you could have killed him!" Sarah shouted at
the Doctor
"He can't die anyway" The Doctor scoffed
"It still hurts him" Sara shouted annoyed by er fathers attitude
"good" The Doctor exclaimed
"What is going on in here? what's with the shouting? and why is Jack on the
floor?" Clara asked in her teacher voice as she walked into the room.
"Ask him" Sarah spat turning her attention back to Jack stroking his head
"I punched him in the head" The Doctor shrugged as if it was nothing
"You did what?!" Clara shouted "Why on earth" Clara started before turning to
look at Sarah "You told him didn't you?"
"Not exactly he walked in on us" Sarah answered sheepishly
"You knew!" The Doctor rounded on Clara angerly
"Of course I knew I'm her best friend you idiot" Clara defended.
"That's it you're coming home Sarah. Enough of this silly idea of you being in
Cardiff and us flying off. Clearly Jack can't be trusted to look after you
without keeping his hands to himself" The Doctor demanded calmly pulling Sarah
to her feet.
"No. I'm staying here. I like living here" Sarah protested
"I don't care I'm your father your coming with me" The Doctor demanded
"Doctor behave" Clara scolded The Doctor
"Oh I am behaving its captain flirt over there who can't behave having his
hands all over my daughter like that" The Doctor said in disgust screwing his
face up.
"I'm 19 I can decide were I go and who's hands I want on me, now get off!"
Sarah argued trying to pull her wrist free of the Doctors grip
"No Sarah you can't! you think you can but you cant!" The Doctor roared at
Sarah towering over her his grip on her wrist getting tighter.
The Doctor terrified Sarah at that moment and she had flashes of Stephan and
Liam standing over her shouting and spitting at her before slapping her which
make Sarah flinch away from the Doctor scared he was going to hit her. The
Doctor noticed her flinching and instantly dropped her wrist realising that he
had scared her, he was horrified with himself.
"Sarah I'm so so sorry" The Doctor apologised pulling Sarah in to a hug "I
didn't mean to scare you I'm sorry" he muttered into her hair as he kissed the
top of her head.
"It's OK it's fine" Sarah whispered pulling back from the hug and wiping away
the tears she hadn't realised had fallen.
"I still stand by what I said though, you're coming with me no arguments" The
Doctor said in a forceful tone.
"That's her choice don't you think? not yours" Jack's voice came from behind
them. Sarah whipped her head round and ran to Jack pulling him into a hug.
"She's my daughter I can decide" The Doctor snapped at Jack his anger building
back up again at Jack.
"She's 19 and an adult she can decide for herself" Jack reminded the Doctor
"Not on Gallifrey she's not she's still not much older than a toddler" The
Doctor argued
"But we're not on Gallifrey Dad" Sarah pointed out.
"What do you think about this teach?" The DOctor asked Clara hoping she would
back him up
"I think Sarah is more than capable of looking after herself and making her own
decisions. If Jack makes her happy then you should be too, Rassilon knows she
deserves to be happy" Clara answered slowly reaching a hand up to stroke the
Doctor's cheek as she spoke, her eyes full of love and understanding for the
Timelord.
"And when Jack breaks her heart, which he will, who's going to be there to pick
up the pieces? its better we put an end to this now before its too late" The
Doctor insisted grabbing Sarah's hand and pulling her away from Jack.
"Dad! I'm staying here you can't make me leave!" Sarah shouted as the Doctor
started pulling her towards the kitchen door.
"I can and I am" The Doctor shouted back.
The room descended into ciaos, with Sarah Jack and Clara shouting at the Doctor
for being unreasonable and rediculas, the volume becoming too much even for the
Doctor to stand before he lost his temper.
"Give me one reason why I shouldn't pick you up kicking and screaming into that
TARDIS right now?" The Doctor roared over the shouting.
"Because I'm Pregnant" Sarah shouted back before covering her mouth quickly.
The room feel deadly silent the three other pairs of eyes fixed on her. She
hadn't meant to say that, she didn't want him to know just yet especially not
like this in the middle of an argument. Her mind tied to think of a good way to
back track to take it back but she came up blank. The Doctor's face went red
with anger his eye brows went straight into attack mode. The full anger of the
oncoming storm had hit and Jack was the focus of it. The Doctor punched Jack in
the face again, This time he hit him so hard he broke Jack's nose and he fell
to the ground unconscious. Sarah bent down to check on him and found no pulse
or breathing.
"You killed him!" Sarah shouted at the Doctor in outrage
"Oh please he'll be up again in a minute" The Doctor scoffed clearly annoyed
that he couldn't really kill Jack.
"OK lets just everyone calm down" Clara instructed "Doctor go stand over there
away from Jack, immortal or not you can not go around punching people to death"
Clara demanded pointing to the furthest corner in the kitchen away from Jack.
"Sarah is what you said true?" Clara asked gently
"Yes we found out a few days ago" Sarah whispered
"OK well then all this stress is not good for you or the baby you need to calm
down and come sit on one of the chairs" Clara instructed calmly as she led
Sarah to her chair and made her sit down. "Now we are going to talk about this
like grown ups, no shouting and no punching" Clara said directing the last bit
towards the Doctor who mumbled something that sounded like "no promises"
Jack let out a loud gasp as he come back to life again and Sarah let out a sigh
of relief no matter how many times he died and came back in front of her she
always worried that his luck would run out and he'd not come back this time.
"There's nothing to discus I'm staying here with Jack and having a baby" Sarah
said leaving no room for arguments.
"No you are not we are going to the TARDIS and going to get rid of that thing"
The Doctor said pointing towards Sarah's stomach.
"Like hell we are! you do not get to come in here and lord it over me and
decide what I do with my body and my baby" Sarah shouted at the Doctor standing
up from the table that fast she knocked the chair to the ground.
"its not a baby its barely more than a bunch of cells thrown together, a bunch
of cells I might add that could kill you" The Doctor shouted back.
"Both of you calm down now!" Clara shouted over the two of them
"What do you mean that could kill her?" Jack asked worriedly coming over to
stand beside Sarah and lacing his fingers with hers.
"Children of the TARDIS aren't meant to have children its dangerous, a part of
the TARDIS lives inside them so when they are pregnant that part of the TARDIS
lives inside the baby as well but once birth happens the TARDIS can't live
inside both, it can't be split but neither can live without it because its
apart of them so during the birthing process the mother and baby's bodies fight
for the piece of TARDIS most of the time the baby wins because of the survival
instinct is much greater in a baby and the mother dies" The Doctor explained
sadly.
Jack pulled Sarah close to him and kissed her head "I'm so sorry Sarah I had no
idea, your dad's right we can't keep this baby I'm sorry" Jack whispered.
"No I know I wasn't thrilled at the idea of the baby but there's no way I can
just kill our baby because I might die and besides I'd just regenerate right?"
Sarah asks her dad hopefully
"No, no regeneration, why do you think me and River never had children? we both
wanted them but it was too dangerous" The Doctor answered.
"You wanted children with River?" Clara asked shocked and a little hurt any
time she had brought up the topic of having a child he changed the subject or
just completely ignored her.
"Of course, I was married to her" The Doctor shrugged
"So that's what it takes then" Clara said rolling her eyes clearly annoyed now.
"I'm sorry but can you guys have this little domestic later so we can focus on
Sarah dying" Jack snapped making the Doctor very confused, he wasn't aware they
were having a domestic, Clara looked annoyed or hungry when he looked at her
though so they might have been, he wasn't sure.
"I don't care I can not kill my own child I'm sorry but I'm not I'd rather die
myself and besides you said most of the time I might not" Sarah said annoyed
waving her hand's around as she spoke.
"Which means the baby will only one of you can survive this there's only one
piece of TARDIS in you" The Doctor explained
"Then you'll fix it, you're the Doctor its what you do" Sarah said her voice
breaking and tears filling her eyes at the thought of her baby dying.
"If there was a way don't you think I'd have found it for River?"
"No because River wasn't pregnant there wasn't an end goal, it wasn't life or
death there was no danger just a desire" Sarah answered her voice full of
determination and faith in her father.
"You just have to know you're going to win" Clara added with a smile.
The Doctor sighed in defeat his girls really did know how to rap him around
their little fingers how could he ever say no to either of them? of course he'd
have to to. There was no other option but to win.
"Guess we better win then" The Doctor answered with a quick half smile
 
 
"
***** Domestic *****
Clara and the Doctor were sat in the common room of the Torchwood living
quarters. Jack and Sarah had gone out to get dinner for everyone, leaving them
alone.
"Why didn't you tell me you planned on having kids with River?" Clara asked
acussingly
"It wasn't important, it wasn't possible so there was no point" The Doctor
shrugged
"Not important? of course its important! you planned on having children with
another woman!" Clara snapped starting to get angry
"Why are you mad? it was when I couldn't remember you. I was lonely  and we had
24 years on a planet together" The Doctor explained getting defensive
"Why am I mad? because Doctor I've been trying to get you to talk about having
a baby together for ages and you just change the subject every single time and
now I find out you planned a baby with your ex wife. Why is she more important
than me?"  Clara shouted standing up from the sofa she was sat on.
"I wonder whats taking Sarah and Jack so long?" The Doctor wondered out loud
trying to change the subject.
"No Doctor don't you dare! so help me if you change the subject this time I
will slap you so hard you'll regenerate" Clara threatened tears starting to
form in her eyes.
She felt so angry and hurt that the Doctor wouldn't even talk to her about it.
they were ment to talk about everything together.
"Fine Clara lets talk about it. Tell me how do you plan on us having a baby
together? Our baby will be in constant danger! Races from all over the universe
will want to kill or kidnap the baby. UNIT will want it and do exactly what
they did to Sarah. I can't settle down on earth theres so many people and
planets out there that need my help. The TARDIS is too risky for a baby! So
come on then tell me! tell me how!" The Doctor demanded shouting just as loud
as Clara.
Clara stared at him for a moment shocked at his out burst, tears starting to
fall from her eyes before her anger welled up again and she slapped him across
the face.
"Don't" Clara whispered angerly. "Don't you dare treat me like a child of
course I know all off that! but I also know that we would protect our baby at
all costs" Clara shouted
"You don't know that! I've failed at it before I will most likely fail at it
again" The Doctor responded souding defeated as he sat back down and put his
head in his hands pulling at his hair.
Clara softened instantly seeing the Doctor look so vunrable and defeated. She
sat down beside him, pulling his hands away from his head and giving him a
small smile.
"I'm sorry" She whispered softly placing a lingering kiss on his cheek were she
had hit him. "You've never failed tho Doctor and you never will"
The Doctor scoffed at that knowing just how much he had failed over the years
"Oh Clara how I wish that was true. I have failed so many times no so more than
as a father" The Doctor sighed.
"Everyone makes mistakes Doctor than doesn't mean you've failed" Clara assures
the Doctor.
"All bar one of my children are dead because of me and the one thats still
alive went through hell growing up and now trusts me so little thats shes gone
and got herself pregnant by an immortal paradox causing walking inuendo" The
Doctor snapped putting his head back in his head.
"You never said you had more children" Came Sarah's voice from the door way
making the Doctors head snap up quickly "And Jack's not that bad you need to
give him a chance. You used to like him" Sarah pointed it.
"You never asked if I had any other children" The Doctor answered ignoring her
comment about Jack.
"Didn't think you'd tell me even if I did" Sarah shrugged sadly placing the
food on the coffee table infront of the sofa.
"Your right I probably wouldn't" The Doctor mumbled earning a glare from Clara
"But I'd show you, Both of you if you wanted" he offered
"How?" Sarah asked excitedly her curiosity ignited now.
"Three way psychic link I can project my memories to both of you" The Doctor
explained with his "trying to impress smile"
"Won't that take alot of effort and energy?" Clara asked concerned
"Not if you're both awake I can use some of your energy even it out abit" The
Doctor shrugs.
Clara and Sarah both agree and soon they are all conected in a circle. Each
with fingers pressed on the other two's temple. The Doctor instructed them to
breath evenly, and slowly Sarah felt both her Dad and Clara's essense press
into her mind. She became aware first of the colours of their aura. Clara's
warm with oranges and pinks like a sunrise with little flickers of dark blues.
The Doctor made from darker colours of black and navy blue flickered with
whites and silver like a nights sky, a warm circle of light in the middle like
the moon that held the love he felt for Clara and Sarah. Sarah felt the colours
of her own mind a complete mishmash of colours like a childs painting
splattered blobs of paint all over the place with a dark blob in the centre
made from mixing reds and black together, love and grief she held for her sons
and worry for her unborn baby.
She felt her Dads shock at the bond between her and Jack, She felt rather than
heard the explaination that she and Jack were bonded for life now something not
even regeneration could break and Sarah's colours grew brighter with happiness
at that.
The Doctor lead Clara and Sarah through his mind, Flashes of his past flying
past them. Sarah caught glimpses of past companions his past faces and her
heart constricted when she caught a glimpse of her mother when he knew her. Her
dark clurly hair bouncing as she threw her head back laughing, her eyes
shinning with amusement and youth. She looked so much younger and happier than
Sarah had ever seen her and she knew why her Dad had fallen for her she was
beautiful. Sarah only remembered her for how she looked as the drugs took
control of her. Preaty yes but lifeless frail and dry. She also felt the
Doctors guilt for not coming back his wish that things could have been
different.
The Doctor urged them on right through all his faces until they came to his
first face. The grumpy old man with long white hair and plaid trousers. He led
them past his adventures on the TARDIS, past the day he stole the TARDIS were
Sarah caught a glimpse of a echo of Clara's in gallifreyan dress.
They came to a stop on a hill top covered grass, red as if the ground it self
was bleeding. The sky above them was a burnt orange siginaling that it was
night and making the sandy area bellow them glow with an amber light. Tucked
away in the corner of what lookes like a sandy vally in the middle of a mountan
stood a large cottage with a thatched roof and stone bricked walls covered in a
purple vine. A woman stood outside the opened front door dressed simply in a
floor length brown dress with a white apron over the top reminding Sarah of
what you would see woman wear in old westeren movies, The womans hair was white
and cut very short, she had a squared jaw and even from here Sarah could tell
she was pretty. She felt the love the Doctor had for this woman and knew
instantly she was his wife.
"Look over there" The Doctor pointed off to the left of the cottage. Far off in
the distance was a large domed city that stood high above the valley. "That's
Gallifrey's main city" The Doctor explained to Sarah his tone a strange
combination of fondness and anger.
"That's where we were?" Clara asked sounding slightly afraid.
"Yes but don't worry this is way before all that and just a memory you're safe"
The Doctor said squeezing Clara's hand reasuringly.
"I still don't understand how you managed to remember and unfreeze me" Clara
murmmered more to herself than anyone else.
"The important thing is I did" The Doctor smiled bringing Clara's hand up to
place a small kiss on to their entertwined fingers.
"Hey look someones coming!" Sarah pointed to a figure approching the cottage.
As the figure came closer Sarah realised it was her father in his first face,
his hair long and white, his long legs sporting the plad trousers she had seen
his latest face wear on occasion. He walked with great confidence and a hint of
arrogance as he held onto his lapels but it all faded away as he approuched is
wife, His arms instantly wrap around her and he places a small kiss on her lips
in greeting before a hand rests on the small bump prodruding out from his wife
that Sarah hadn't noticed before.
"I was abit full of myself then, thought I knew everything like we all do when
we a young" The Doctor critised himself earning a sharp "ssshhh" from both
women beside him.
"How are you my dear?" Sarah felt rather than heard the first incarnation of
her father ask.
"Much better now your home" His wife answered with a smile before kissing the
1st Doctor again.
"Her name translates as Elaine into english" The 12th Doctor offered
As they watched 4 more figures walk towards the cottage 3 females and 1 male
and greet the 1st Doctor and Elaine warmly.
"My children their names roughly translate as Lilly, Jacob, Nemo and Jasmine"
The Doctor explained nodding towards his grown up children
"Nemo?" Clara asked curiously
"It's a rough translation" The Doctor shrugs in response.
Sarah was transfixed at the scene below her. Growing up all she wanted were
parents that loved her and maybe a sibling to play with and right in front of
her was the family she wished for. She watched as the girls teased Jacob over
something she didnt hear as her father and his wife cuddled together watching
them laughing at their children. They all looked so happy and care free. Sarah
could feel the love and fondness from the memory.
"What happened to them?" Sarah asked suddenly.
"They died. Elaine and the baby. Anthony. Died during the birth. The other four
I assume all died in the Time war" The Doctor explained sadly
"Assume?" Sarah asked
"Yes well I didn't see them when I was fighting but I can't feel them here
anymore" The Doctor answered pointing to his head. His face crumbling as grief
for his children and wife hit him.
"As that why you ran away? because she died?" Clara asked gently
"Yes" The Doctor answered his voice rough with emmotion. He cleared his throat
before speaking again "Come on I've one more to show you" He said his composior
once more back in place.
They pulled out of the memory and moved to the next one but Sarah was to
distracted by her thoughts about her Dads first family to notices the flashes
of other memories as they went past. Before she knew it they were in the next
memory.
They were stood in the corner of a infirmery this time, in the middle of the
room was an alter like bed and laying on top of it was a a blonde haired woman,
her eyes closed as if asleep but the lack of movement in her chest showed she
was dead. The womans hand was clutched in a pervious version of her Dad's hand.
this one had a blue suit on and brown hair spiked up. Sarah recognised this one
as one Jack knew. Stood behind her dad with one hand on each of his shoulders
was a young Martha and a red headed woman.
"Her name was Jenny she was created by a machine, took me ages to accept that
she really was my daughter and by the time I did it was too late she was shot
and died in my arms trying to protect me" The Doctor explained sadly his eyes
not leaving Jenny.
Clara wrapped her arms around his arm and rested her head against it in an
atempt to try and comfort him.
"How come Martha knew about her and never once told me?" Sarah asked slightly
annoyed
"You'd have to ask her that but I'd guess she didn't think it was her place"
The Doctor answered.
"I think we should come out now, You look exhusted Doctor" Clara suggested
standing on her tip toes to place a small kiss on his cheek.
"Yea you're right" The Doctor agreed and he slowly started pulling them out of
the memory and then out of each others mind until the three of them were sat in
a circle in the common room once more.
 
A/N this was written on my phone so sorry for spelling mistakes i can't spell
for toffee on my own lol xxxx
***** Medical *****
The next morning The Doctor had explained everything to Martha and the pair of
them were huddled up in the medical bay disgussing tests and theorys.
"You know if she wasn't married I'd be slightly worried about how close they
are sitting" Clara joked sitting down beside Sarah at her work desk and placing
a hot chocolate in front of her as she craddled her own cup of tea.
"Nah you're safe hes not young and flirty anymore" Sarah laughed
"Did she used to fancy him?" Clara asked frowning
"Didn't he tell you? When she traveled with him yea but he was young, had
sticky up brown hair and was very flirty and charming apparently" Sarah
explained trying not to make it seem like a big deal.
"So the complete opposite of how he is now?" Clara laughed
"Exactly so you're safe. You're probably the only person in the universe that
would want him now" Sarah laughed
"You only think that cause he's your Dad but hes really quite hansome and
charming in his own way" Clara explained with a smile taking a sip of her tea.
"Sure, sure what ever helps you sleep at night" Sarah said sarcastically with a
mouth full of hot chocolate.
"That would be the mindblowing sex" Clara smiled making Sarah choke on her
drink
"I did not need to know that" Sarah groaned once she'd finished choking
"Jealous? Jack not good enough?" Clara teased
"Oh trust I am more than good enough. I'll show you some time if you like" Jack
answered with a wink appearing behind Sarah leaning down to kiss her cheek.
"Vedo Jack" Sarah said rolling her eyes.
"Aw thats no fun" Jack mock pouted
"She's my best friend and practically my step mum" Sarah explained with a groan
"What's going on?" Clara asked curiously
"She gets to vedo people I'm not allowed to flirt with" Jack explains with a
shrug
"Only because you flirt with anything that moves and even some that don't"
Sarah teased
"That's what happens when your a 51st century guy" Jack said proudly
"So we are all walking innuendos in the future. Great" Sarah said sarcastically
"Alright enough bantering you two. Who's all on the list" Clara asked laughing
"ammm so far you and a purple squid like creature we found last week. Rhys and
Mickey keep asking me to vedo Martha and Gwen but its too funny watching the
men squirm" Sarah explained with a laugh.
"Ok I gotta ask. Purple Squid thing?" Clara asked with a confused frown
"Oh he was beautiful 6ft 7 strong musculer tenticals that could crush you in an
instant if you got on his wrong side" Jack gushed
"Not to mention highly poisonous if you touched him" Sarah added
"Yea but that just adds to the fun" Jack winked at Sarah
"You're deranged do you know that?" Sarah laughed
"Only for you" Jack flirted kissing Sarah softly "It feels great being able to
do that in public" He smiled making Sarah smile back at him.
"And you complain about us. You two make me feel nausious" Clara screwed up her
face.
"Now who's Jealous" Sarah laughed
Clara was about to retort to that comment when the Doctor's voice called out.
"You three come here" he demanded
"I feel like I'm being called into the principles office" Sarah muttered
"Now thats a whole other fantasy" Jack said wiggling his eyebrows at Sarah
causing both women to groan at him.
"Hey, So we thought while its quiet here today we could start on doing some
tests and exams check everythings ok so far" Martha explained as soon as they
walked in.
"Sure what do you want me to do first?" Sarah asked feeling nervous. last time
she was in here was when she found out Liam had died and the memory left her
feeling uneasy.
"Put this on and then sit up on the bed" Martha asked cheerfully handing Sarah
a hospital gown.
Sarah groaned internally no one liked wearing these things but at lest the back
wasn't open in this one. She dissapeared behind a screen in the corner of the
room and began taking her clothes off.
"You need to take everything off underwear included" The Doctor called from the
other side of the screen.
Sarah groaned internally again this did not sound like it was going to be fun
but she did what she was told and stripped naked before slipping the gown over
her body and exited from behind the screen heading over to sit on the bed.
"Ok so we're going to do the basics blood tests, ultra sound, some questions,
full body scan etc etc" Martha said absent mindly as she looked through
something on her clip board.
"Ok so why do I need to be naked underneath this?" Sarah asked confused
"Everybodys naked underneath" The Doctor said his eyes catching Clara's as the
pair of them remembered his previous face saying the same thing.
"Gross" Sarah said at the same time Jack said "Sexy"
"The ultra sound is gonna have to be internal sorry" Martha explained ignoring
the Doctors comment and getting everything she needed for the blood test first.
Sarah spotted the needle and started to feel panic raise within her. She hated
needles. She hands became sweaty and started to shake as her breathing started
getting faster. Jack instantly felt her panic and crossed the room to be beside
her, holding both her hands in his.
"Whats wrong? you ok?" Jack asked concerned
"When you get pinned down and forced to have drugs injected into your body
againt your will. Its hard not be afraid of needles" Sarah answered with a
shakey laugh to try and make light of the situation.
"It's ok no one here is going to hurt you I promise" Jack reassured Sarah
kissing her forehead earning him glares from the Doctor.
"Just distract me so I don't think about it" Sarah said quickly closing her
eyes as tight as possible when she felt Martha tie the rubber around her arm.
"Ok well I can't kiss you without being punched in the face again" Jack joked
making Sarah laugh slightly before wincing slightly as the needle went in and
tighting her grip on Jack's hand.
"Do you remember the time the Doctor threatened to shot that prince on
Ryamithon because he kissed you?" Clara asked laughing slightly at the memory
"The green haired one?" Sarah asked trying to remember
"That's the one. We ended up running for our lifes and spending nearly an hour
trying to walk through mud up to our waists. wreaked my new dress" Clara pouted
slightly remembering about her dress.
"I replaced that dress" The Doctor pointed out grumpily
"I'm not sure what you bought counted as a dress im not even sure it counted as
a slip" Clara giggled
"I can always cheek it out and tell you" Jack flirted with Clara
"Vedo!" Sarah shouted amused "You seriously can't help your self can you?"
Sarah laughed
"Sorry. Sorry Doc" Jack appologised with a small smile to Sarah even tho her
eyes were still closed tight.
"I'm not a rabbit. Its Doctor. In fact Mr Doctor to you" The Doctor snapped at
Jack
"Mr Doctor?" Clara whispered to the Doctor
"Mr thats what boyfriends get made to call the dad's when they don't like them
right? or have I made another error?" The Doctor whispered back sounding unsure
now.
"Yea its Mr but Jack's your friend" Clara pointed out while rolling her eyes at
the Doctors pettiness. The Doctor just scoffed in responce.
"All right done!" Martha anounced taking out the needle from Sarah's arm.
"Swing you're legs round onto the bed and we'll do the ultrasound now" Martha
instructed walking away with the tray of Sarah's blood samples.
Sarah did what she was told excitment building in her now at getting to see her
baby. She never had a scan with James so it was exciting getting to experience
it for the first time. Jack looked excited too and beemed down at Sarah even
the Doctor who had been grumpy all day so far brightened up at this
Martha returned a minute or two later pushing an ultrasound machine with her
and placing it beside the bed.
"I need you too put your fists under your bum, bend your legs keeping your feet
together and opening your legs"Martha said while setting my the machine
"Ahh dad? could you move?" Sarah asked awkwardly. The Doctor was stood across
the room leaning against a bench.
"What? why? im out of Martha's way over here" The Doctor asked confussed
"Yea but you're also able to see up from over there" Sarah answered which just
made the Doctor even more confused
"Oh for earths sake Doctor just move" Clara shouted exasperated which made him
move preaty quick.
"This might be abit uncomfortable" Martha warned appologetically as she
inserted the internal scanner. She wasn't wrong either Sarah had to take a deep
breath against the pain of it.
"How come you're not just doing a normal scan?" Clara asked
"We need a much more detailed look at the baby than a stomach scan can give"
Martha explained moving the scaner around alittle to get a picture of the
screen. "Ah there we go. say hello to your baby" Martha beemed at Sarah as a
slightly fussy white baby shape appeared on the screen wriggling around.
"That's it? thats our baby?" Sarah asked in disbelief
"That's it" Martha confirmed.
Sarah laughed and her eyes flickered up to Jack who had his hand on her
shoulder, his eyes transfixed on the screen, his mouth pulled up into a huge
smile. Sarah quickly looked back at the screen not wanting to miss a second of
seeing her unborn baby. She couldn't believe something to small and perfect
looking could be growing inside of her and a few tears unknown to Sarah slipped
out of her eyes. Sarah's thoughts were pierced by a loud thump thump thump
thump noise in the room.
"What's that?" Sarah asked
"That is your baby's heartbeats" Martha smiled
"Two hearts?" The Doctor asked
"Two hearts" Martha confirmed "And as far as I can tell both are completely
perfect"
Martha began taking different measurements and things of the baby on screen as
everyone else just stared at it in awe.
"So going by this you are measuring around 11 weeks but Gallifreyan pregnancies
grow quicker so your probably more around 8 weeks pregnant earth time with
conception being around 6 weeks ago" Martha explained
"So when will I be due?" Sarah asked
"Thats hard to say we don't know if this pregnancy is going to be more
Gallifreyan or human so anytime between the middle of september and the start
of December is my best quess at the moment" Martha explained appologetically
"Human pregnancies are 9 months but Gallifreyan's are only 7" The Doctor said.
"lets hope for closer to 7 months then" Sarah joked.
"We'll be able to tell abit better once we get the DNA analasis"The Doctor
reassured Sarah
"Which is next on the list and your not gonna like it sorry" Martha appologised
taking the probe out and wiping it down.
"why?" Sarah asked causiously
"I'll need to insert a long thin needle through your stomach and into the
amniotic fluid to take a sample of it" Martha explained.
The blood from Sarah's face drained as the Doctor brought over the tray
containing the needle. A blanket was placed over Sarah's bottom half and her
gown was pulled up so Martha could see her stomach.
As soon as Sarah caught sight of the long needle she lost it. Her breath came
in short sharp panicked breath's, her heart rates went through the roof as fear
engulfed her and tears flowed freely from her eyes. Memorys came flooding back
to her and she kicked and screamed to get them away she was no longer sure what
was right now and what was a memory.
"No! No! Get off! don't put it in me please!" Sarah shreaked in a paniced
state.
"Sarah! Sarah! its ok. Its Martha you're ok" Martha tried reassuring her as she
paniced but Sarah couldn't even hear her over her own panic.
Jack was beside Sarah trying to stroke her hair to calm Sarah but it just made
her panic more. She didn't know who it was touching her. Jacks calm exterier
was breaking the more Sarah paniced. He couldn't stand to see her like this,
She seemed broken and lost like a child completely over come with fear.
Mickey ran into the room hearing the screaming and tried to hold Sarah down so
Martha could inject her with a smal seditive but it made Sarah panic more
feeling trapped and terrified sarah bite Mickey's hand so he would leave go.
Clara and the Doctor ran to the TARDIS in the corner of the room and ran back
out carrying a gas cilinder and mask. Quickly placing it over her face made
Sarah breathe in the gas and within seconds stopped trashing and feel
unconcious.
"Dream gas from Humprilica the sleep experts of the galaxy" The Doctor
explained sounding slightly out of breath.
"She's asleep but still panicing her breathing and heart beats are far too
fast" said Martha removing her hand from Sarah's neck were she had been
checking her pulse.
"You!" The Doctor shoutedd clicking a finger at Jack "Stop panicing and project
calm thoughts to her"
"How's that gonna help?" Mickey asked nursing his bleeding hand
"They're telepathically conected what he feels she feels" The Doctor explained
like it was the most obvious thing ever.
A few minutes later Martha was able to collect the amniotic fluid sample while
Sarah was still asleep from the gas and would be for a few hours according to
the Doctor.
***** The Red Dress *****
Chapter Summary
     excuse the terrible spelling writing on my phone without spell
     checker. will edit once tablet is fixed xxx
The Doctor and Clara had left over a week ago leaving Martha to continue the
work on her own performing daily full body scans and weekly blood tests on
Sarah to check the growth and hormone levels. Sarah had been banned from going
out on missions unless completely nessasary and already was getting completely
fed up with it how she was going to cope with this for the rest of the
pregnancy she didn't know she was already bored.
The rest of the team left on some mission a few hours ago leaving Sarah only
with the instructions to hold down the fort and relax alittle which was nearly
impossible, not to mention frustrating. How could she relax when whatever
mission they were on required all four of them four hours and counting to
achieve and they wouldn't tell her a single thing about it which meant that it
was dangerous and they didn't want her worrying which just made her worry. She
needed something to take her mind off of it.
Setitng down her hot chocolate on the table beside her computer Sarah set about
her daily security check and the best way to make sure your security is up to
scratch? Make someone hack it. Sarah pulled up UNIT's official page and began
hacking into their system. She had done this so often she could do it with her
eyes closed, they never bothered to update their outer layers of security and
Sarah was quickly able to get into their internal messaging. Typing out a quick
message Sarah hit send waiting for the panic.
"Hello boys. Miss me? ;-)" appeared on all the screens on UNIT's IT department.
Within seconds Sarah's screen began lighting up with notifications of were UNIT
were trying to hack into her system showing Sarah where all the weak points
were on the system. She was able to quickly build up the firewalls and kick
UNIT out of the system
"oh come on boy's give a girl a challenge" Sarah sent the IT group who still
hadn't managed to kick her out of their system.
This went on for about an hour or so Sarah hacking into UNIT. UNIT despritely
trying to kick her out and figure out who she was to no avail and eventually
she got bored of that and pulled out of their system with a "See you later boys
;-) xxx". Just as she had logged out she heard the door to the hub open and in
steped a very stressed looking Jack carrying a large black gift bag. As soon as
Jack saw Sarah his stress melted away.
"Hey hope you havn't been up to anything whilst I've been gone" Jack teased
walking towards her.
"Well I did go sky driving and climbed a mountion, got chased by a hungry
mountion lion, feel off the mountion and then went swiming with the fishes"
Sarah answered sarcastically
"So same old same old" Jack said kissing Sarah lightly
"Same old same old" Sarah groaned her bordem getting to her.
"Well I've a present for you that might cheer you up" Jack smirked showing
Sarah the bag "But I need a proper kiss first" He teased as Sarah went to take
the bag.
Sarah rolled her eyes playfully before wraping her arms around Jacks neck
pulling him down to her as she stood on her tip toes, Their mouths meeting in
the middle. Jack tried making the kiss slow and teasing but Sarah was having
none of it. If he wanted a proper kiss he would get one. She kissed him roughly
and passionatly sending waves of desire and arousal through their mental
connection making Jack moan against her lips and begin kissing her back just as
fiercely. Sarah pushed Jack backwards so he was leaning against the wall
without once breaking the kiss. She could feel Jacks lower regeans responed to
the kiss and she smiled in triamph before running her hand over his shoulder
and down his arm sensually before grabbing the bag and pulling away, turning
and walking towards the living quarters. Leaving a stunned Jack panting against
the wall.
"Two hours! you've two hours to get ready before we go out" Jack shouted after
Sarah breathlessly.
Sarah desided since she had so long to get ready she would try having a bath
rather than a shower and read some of the book Gwen had given her. Sarah ran
the bath with some lavender bubble bath to help her relax. While it was running
she peeled of her clothes and caught sight of her stomach in the mirror She had
a little bump! it wasn't overly noticeable but her stomach was deffinatly more
round than before and stuck out alittle bit. Sarah grinned as she ran her hand
over the small bump imagining the tiny baby inside of her growing and wondering
what he or she will be like. Sarah hoped they would look like Jack, She
wondered brielfly if they would look like James before realising that hurt to
much to think about.
Sarah turned of the taps grabed her book and got into the bath. It took her a
while to relax and remind herself she was safe. She had developed a fear of
baths after Stephan tried to drown her a few times in a drunken rage but
eventually with the help of her book she managed to relax enough to enjoy it
even if her eyes did keep flickering over to the door just incase.
Nearly an hour later Sarah heard a knock at the door. "You in there?" Jacks
voice called from behind the door.
"Yea be out in a minute" Sarah called back getting out of the bath and jumping
in the shower quickly to wash her hair and rinse her body.
Sarah exited the bathroom and into their bedroom with a towel wrapped tightly
around herself to find Jack sitting up against the headboard on the bed.
"I will never get bored of a view like that" Jack said in a husky voice that
sent shivers down Sarah's spine right to her naked sex. 
"I wouldn't keep talking like that you're sending my hormones highwire" Sarah
answered throatly
"I won't say a word then" Jack smirked while projecting his arousal to Sarah.
Sarah quickly crossed the Room and stradled Jacks thighs kissing him longingly.
30 minutes later Sarah was sat at her dressing table applying her make up while
Jack dressed behind her, She noticed him pull out his best trousers and shirt
which made her wonder what they were doing that was so special it called for
his good clothes.
"You never said, What do you think of the dress? Jack asked curiously
"Havn't looked at it yet was waiting for you to catch your breath and join me
but we got alittle distracted" Sarah flirted
"I'm here now" Jack stated setting the bag infront of Sarah who smiled before
looking inside.
"Oh Jack its beautiful" Sarah praised pulling the dress from the bag it was a
red silk floor length evening dress it had only one strap that was decorated
beautifully with large red silk flowers each with a dimontie centre "I love it
thank you" Sarah said placing a small kiss to Jacks lips
"Glad you like it now hurry up or we will be late"
A little while later Sarah was dressed in her beautiful gown, her hair was
pulled up into an elegent bun and she wore a pair of black heels on her feet.
They had arrived at their destination but where that was Sarah had no idea Jack
had blindfolded her before the left the hub and refused to tell her where they
were going, he even took wrong turns and double backed on himself just to throw
her off. Jack guided Sarah out of the car and into a mystery building. He had
one of his hands on her hip and the other on her shoulder his body pressed
against her till there was no space at all between them. Sarah could feel every
breath of his against the side of her head. Her whole body felt electrified and
every tiny movement of Jacks against her caused tingling to errupt on that
area.
"One step up and then we are going in a lift" Jack breathed huskly into Sarah's
ear his lips just brushing against her flesh making her desprate for more.
When they stepped out of the lift the soft carpet that had been under her feet
when she stepped into the building changed to a solid wooden floor making her
heels click as Jack lead her further into the room. When they got far enough in
Jack stoped Sarah and turned her round so she was facing him, His body still
pressed closely against hers.
"I'm going to remove your blindfold now" Jack said his breath brushing against
Sarah's face making her desprate to kiss him, to taste him.
Jack slowly reached round the back of Sarah's head to untie the red strip of
silk his face so close to Sarah's his lips just ghosting against her skin. Jack
removed the blindfold and for a long moment Sarah just looked into Jack's eyes
full of love desire and excitement. Music began to swell from beside them
slowly and beautifully a violin followed by a chello that was soon acomplied by
a whole orcrastra. Sarah tore her eyes away from Jack's and her eyes went wide
and her hand snapped to her mouth.
They were stood in the most beautiful ballroom she had ever seen with a high
ceiling covered in the most beautiful paintings. The wooden floor was polished
bright. A large stage with thick red velvet curtains and gold railings stood at
the top of the room with a full orgrastra playing on it.
"May I have this dance?" Jack asked holding a hand out to Sarah.
"It's been a while but always for you Jack" Sarah answered taking Jacks hand.
Jack brought her hand up to his lips and left a soft kiss there before placing
his other hand on Sarah's hip. The pair started dancing around the room and
much to Sarah's surprise she still remembered the dance perfectly. As the pair
danced the whole world just melted away, It was only the two of them left in
the entire universe as they glided around the dancefloor, The music encasing
them in their little bubble. Sarah had never felt happier and more at peace as
she did in Jack's arms staring into his eyes feeling her hearts pump in her
chest not from fear but from love.
All too soon the music came to a stop and they were pulled back to reality.
Sarah was breathing heavily no longer used to dancing her hearts banging
against her chest but she couldn't stop laughing.
"Thank you Jack this is amazing" Sarah smiled gestering all around her.
"I didn't do all this just for a dance" Jack smiled back before turning serious
"Sarah I have loved you right from that moment oh so long ago that I first laid
eyes on you. That first kiss we shared was the best kiss I've ever had and I'm
so glad that you choose to come back to me because I was dead without you in my
life. Sarah I love you more than I could ever tell you and I will never stop
loving you. Will you place do me the honor of be coming my wife?" Jack pulled a
blue velvet box from his pocket and opened it to reveil a silver ring with a
light blue stone in the middle and two diamonds either side, just like her
neckless.
"Jack" Sarah breathed tears in her eyes "Have-Have you thought about this
properly? I may die having this baby you'll be a widoer" Sarah asked her voice
breaking
"I've thought of nothing but this since we first met. I know you may die but I
will regret it for the rest of my excistence if I wasn't able to call you my
wife even if it's only for a short time but I hope it will be forever" Jack
said smiling.
"Yes" Sarah replied simply
"Yes?" Jack asked smileing
"Yes-Yes I will be your wife" Sarah laughed tears falling from her eyes this
time from happiness
"Yes! She said yes!" Jack celebrated lifting Sarah into the air and spining her
around causing her to let out a squeil. His lips capturing hers in a pasionate
kiss as soon as he set her back down. A round of applause and cheering came
from the back of the room as well as on stage. Sarah looked to the back off the
room and spotted Her Dad, Clara, Martha, Mickey, Gwen and Rhys making there way
towards them. Jack took Sarah's left hand and slipped the ring onto her wedding
finger before bringing it up and kissing it.
Jack hadn't even put Sarah's hand down before she was pulled away from him and
into a tight hug.
"Congratulations Sarah!" Clara practically screamed in Sarah's ear.
Sarah was passed around everyone recieving hugs and congratulations until it
was only her father left. He stood back alittle from the group his face still
and unreadable. They stared at eachother for a moment before The Doctor smiled
slightly and pulled Sarah into a ridget hug.
"Congratulations Sarah" He whispered in her ear his voice rough and croaked
from what Sarah wasn't sure. "You better take care of her Jack she's very
important to me" The Doctor warned Jack as soon as he let go of Sarah
"You have my word" Jack promised sincerlly pulling Sarah to his side one more,
where she belonged.
***** The Morning After *****
A/N bit of a pov change in this one. from 3rd person to 1st person
The next morning I woke up with Jacks naked body molded around my own, Our legs
intertwined together, Jacks hand resting over my tiny bump and I had never felt
happier as my eyes landed on the ring now gracing my hand.
Last night had been perfect we danced and laughed until the early hours of the
morning everyone drinking non alcholic champagne and when they got home Jack
and I spent hours exploring eachothers body and minds as if it were the first
time.
I was laying thinking about the night before in complete bliss when my little
bump decided to make themselves known and I was over come with the urge to be
sick. Jumping up out of bed I raced to the bathroom locking the door behind hme
just in time to empty the contense of my stomach into the toilet. A few seconds
later a small knock came at the door.
"You ok Sweetheart?" Came Jacks sleepy voice even while throwing up that voice
still turned me on alittle. damn hormones.
"Yea I'm ok just go back to sleep sorry for waking you" I answered back
inbetween being sick.
There was no other responce so I assumed he had done what I asked and went back
to sleep so after being sick one last time I brushed my teeth and jumped into
the shower feeling all sweaty and gross from throwing up.
After my shower I went back into our bedroom and noticed Jack was gone, A stab
of dissapointment shot through me I was looking forward to snuggling back in
bed with him this morning. I dressed comfortably in a pair of leggings and
Jack's shirt from yesterday inhaling his scent that was so typically Jack. I
smiled stupitly as I remembered how impatient Jack had got last night when he
just pulled the shirt over his head after I had undone a few buttons.
After pulling on a pair of fluffy socks and putting my hair up into a large
messy bun which looked almost bigger than my head but I couldn't be bothered
telling with it down today, I headed towards the kitchen in search of Jack.
I stood at the kitchen door admiring my new fiance, He wore only a pair of low
slug blue checkered boxers and a white t-shirt, He had the radio on low so it
was barely audable and his hips were swaying from side to side to the music as
he busyed himself making breakfast. My hearts skipped a beat when he turned and
flashed me a smile.
"Morning my gorgeous fiance" He greeted me
"Morning" I smiled back kissing him softly on the lips. No matter how many
times I kissed him he still made me catch my breath and hearts thud in my chest
from even the smallest peck and I smiled in satisfaction as I felt him react
the same way in my mind.
"I'd love nothing more than to kiss you all day and continue what we did last
night" Jack started to flirt as we pulled away "But the baby needs to eat" He
laughed
"I think baby can wait alittle while" I flirted kissing along his jaw. These
damn hormones! I'm never usually even awake enough in the mornings but since
being pregnant I can't get enough of Jack any time if the day or place.
Jack let out a growl as I kissed the spot between his jaw and ear, the
vibrations vibrating of my own chest making me let out my own moan.
"Sarah I love you and I never thought I'd see the day I'd say this but food
first sex later" Jack whispered each word sounding forced from his chest as he
pushed me away slighly.
"Fine" I answered back alittle hurt and trying hard not to cry as a lump formed
in my throat. Another thing to thank my hormones for everything makes me cry
now.
"I love it when you wear my shirts its so sexy" Jack smirked sitting a
breakfast of toast grilled bacon scrambled eggs and mushrooms down in front of
me, it smelt sooo good and I instantly tucked in
"In a few weeks the only thing that will fit me is your shirts" I half joked
inbetween mouthfulls.
I was looking forward to watching my bump grow but I was also alittle scared I
never had a bump when pregnant with James so I had no idea what to expect and I
also didn't want Jack last memories of me to be me being huge.
"I'll look forward too it. You should wear one to our wedding" Jack said in his
flirty voice flashing me a smile
"Speaking off we should start planning it" I said seriously
"Not without me you don't" I heard Clara's voice as she came in to the kitchen
heading straight to the coffee machine
"I didn't realise you guys were still here" I said shocked
"Yea your dad wanted to look over Martha's work rerun some tests and stuff"
Clara muttered waving her hand around she was clearly still half asleep.
"So anyway your wedding" Clara asked excitedly as she took a large gulp of
coffee and sat down beside me
"Just incase I want it as soon as possible I want to Mrs Harkness for as long
as possible" I clarified firmly
"We can get a registrey office in 4 weeks" Jack suggested with a shrugg
"Oh No no no no. You don't want a registrey office. What if the Doctor can't
fix this do you really want Jack to remember your wedding as a quick trip to
the registery office then out for some chips? No we have to do this properly"
Clara rambled as her control freak side came out.
She was right tho if I didn't survive I want Jack to have a good day to
remember and if I did I want a good story to tell the baby
"How long will it take to plan a proper wedding?" I ask nervously hoping it
wasn't going to take too long
"A few months? August maybe" Clara said as she thought about it.
"What do you think?" I asked Jack who was being quiet just drinking his coffee
"As long as I get to call you my wife at the end off it I really don't mind"
Jack smiled kissing me lightly on the head. Even the small contact sent my skin
on fire and left me feeling slightly unvocused.
"amm yea August sounds fine" I spluttered out
"You alright there Sarah?" Clara smirked at me over her coffee cup
"mmm? amm yea, yea fine" I shooke myself out of it stealing a few glances of
Jack out of the corner of my eye. I still can't believe he's mine and he
actually loves me back. I clear my throat to properly bring me back to reality
"You'll be my maid of honour right?" I asked Clara
I watched as a huge smile broke out on Clara's face and her whole body
stiffened in excitement before she controlled herself and gave me a sharp nod
"Yes of course I will" She answered with a small smile before breaking her
control and launching at me pulling me into a bone crushing hug.
"Clara. Baby. Can't breathe" I croak out
"Sorry sorry" She apologised letting go of me.
"Come on you we've work to do" Jack chuckled grabbing my hand and pulling me up
to stand and down to the Torchwood hub.
 
A/N so what do we think? worse? bad? ok? better? im really nervous doing 1st
person but I keep hearing the next few chapters in 1st person so thought id
give it a try.
***** Rapunzel *****
Later on it was getting close to dinner time and baby was protesting and
demanding a pastie. I was imagining the taste of it when I bit into the hard
batter and my mouth watered with want as I finished up messing with UNIT today
again.
"Clara your on the dinner run tonight. chippy" Jack called from the desk
station opposite me. I've never been happier to hear the word "chippy" in my
life.
"I'm his companion not your's. What did your last slave die off?" Clara said
pointing her thumb behind her at the Doctor sounding slightly annoyed but
mostly amused
"She didn't she's just pregnant and besides she's going with you" Jack laughed
"Oh sir are you actually letting me down from my lonely tower?" I said in mock
shock walking over to Jack and ignoring the slave comment for now.
"Oh Rapunzel Rapunzel let down your golden hair" Mickey shouted from across the
room dramatically atempting to do some weird accent
"Shove off Mickey, and Im brown not blonde" I shouted back and he just laughed
in responce.
Mickey was like my annoying older brother we annoy each other and bicker
constantly but we love each other really and always have each others backs when
its important.
"Yes Princess because if I have to listen to you obsessing over a pastie any
longer Im going to chew my own arm off" said Jack.
"I can't help it if the baby wants it" I pretend to pout which just made him
stand up and nip my lip between his teeth, I inhaled sharply desire instantly
pooling in my stomach before pressing my lips to his in a passionate kiss.
"Alright I get enough PDA at school come on Sarah. Jack text me the order"
Clara light heartly scolded pulling her Jacket on.
"See you later Princess" Jack said with a wink once we had pulled away.
I just groan in response. Im gonna really regret that repunzel refrence I just
know it. Clara pulled me by the hand out of the hub and we walked hand in hand
towards the chippy. It wasn't that far away but it was nice to get to spend
time with my best friend with no one else around.
"Lets play 20 questions wedding style" Clara suggested with a laugh
"Alright but you gotta answer them too. Just incase dad ever asks you" I
answered pointing at her.
"Never gonna happen but ok Ideal wedding venue?" Clara asked
"Right at the front of the bay where I go to talk to James" I answered sadly
"Why's it never gonna happen? have you guys talked about it?" I asked Clara
"Thats two questions you only get one but I'll let you off since you're
technically two people" Clara laughed "No we haven't talked about it but it
took me 4 years, dying, being extracted from my death, him forgetting me then
remembering me and unfreezing me somehow a few more years and a deadly disease
to get him to kiss me. I'm not sure I would survive what it would take to get
him to marry me" Clara explained with a laugh but I knew it upset her that she
couldn't see much of a future with dad so I didn't push it.
We continued taking turns to ask questions as we walked towards the chippy. We
where just walking down an empty side street when we could hear a hissing noise
like gas escaping from a pipe. I looked around everywhere but couldn't see
where it could be coming from. The noise got louder and louder until it sounded
almost like words and then I realised it was words.
"Do you hear the whispermen?
The whispermen are near
Once you hear the Whispermen
Then turn away your ear
Do not hear the Whispermen
What ever else you do
For once you here the Whispermen
They'll stop and look at you"
The rhyme repeated over and over again, surrounding me. It made my head hurt. I
could no longer tell if it was around me or inside my head anymore. I clutched
my head in agony, it felt like my head was on fire, like it was about to
explode. I was vaguly aware of Clara shouting my name telling me to keep moving
to run but my legs wouldn't co-operate. I was glued to the spot in agony. My
vision started to become blurry as images attack my mind, My gran laying on the
floor, men in suits with creepy white cloth like faces and a victorian man. the
images became stronger and stronger and I scream in pain colapsing onto the
ground. My entire world went blank.
*3rd person pov*
"Sarah!" Clara shouted as Sarah went down and she ran towards her. Clara felt
for a pulse and found a very faint one she was breathing but it was shallow and
uneven.
"Step away from her" A mans voice came from the shadows.
"Who are you?" Clara demanded
Simeon stepped out from the shadows flanked by three of his whispermen who were
hissing at them.
"Step away from her now" Simeon repeated menicingly
"As if I'd do anything you tell me" Clara laughed faking confidence when in
reality she was terrified.
"You will if you value your life" Simeon threatened
"Go on then kill me. I dare you! but remember this The Doctor will hunt you
down and he will find you and when he does you are going to regret every single
thing you have ever done" Clara shouted standing up to face Simeon her body
flooding with adrenaline.
"Thats exactly what I'm hoping for. The Doctor will find me and he will watch
as my men rip his daughter's hearts out. After shes delivered the baby of
course. We've other plans for the child" Simeon explained sounding cold and
menesing
"Men stop her heart" Simeon comanded with a snap off his fingers.
The Whispermen approched Clara slowly with confidence. Everything in her body
screamed at Clara to run but she couldn't leave Sarah here she was unconcious
and needed help. Clara prayed Jack could tell something was wrong and appear
any second now to save them both but he never. The Whispermen plunged their
hands into Clara's chest and she fell to the ground beside Sarah. Her body
sprawled out exactly how it had bee on trap street.
"Prepare the vessel" Simeon demanded
The whispermen gave one last angry sounding hiss towards Clara's body before
turning their attention to Sarah and stripping her of her ring bracelet and
neckless breaking the chain as they yanked it roughly frim around her neck.
Simeon stepped forward and towered over the unconcious Sarah.
"You are going to bring about the distruction of the Doctor and finally give me
my revenge" Simeon snarled before crutching down and attatching a teleport
bracelet to Sarah's arm. Pressing a button on his cufflinks, Sarah, Simeon and
the Whispermen disapeared leaving behind only Sarah's possesions and Clara's
broken body
***** search party *****
Chapter Summary
     So sorry I forgot to upload here xxx
Jack, Mickey and Gwen where playing a free for all round of basket ball in the
hub while Martha and the Doctor watched from the side lines laughing at the
cheating going on between the three of them.
"Come on babe you shoot this one for me" Mickey smiled grabbing Martha's hand
and pulling her into the middle of the hun where the game was taking place
"No! Mickey no! I can't shoot anything Im a Doctor not a basket ball player"
Martha laughed half heartedly fighting Mickey off
"Oo come on Martha lighten up old grumpy drawers over there is starting to rub
off on you" Jack teased throwing the ball towards Martha.
Martha joined in the game and the team played for a few more minutes before
Jack dropped the ball and fell to his knees clutching his head.
"Jack! you ok?" Martha asked running towards him their game now forgotten as
the team gathered round their leader
"Its Sarah! theres something wrong with Sarah. Her head, her head feels like
its on fire" Jack explained through clenched teeth.
Martha looked up at the Doctor panic flooding through them both. They both knew
what that ment. She remembered.
"Jack this is important is she wearing her sonic?" The Doctor asked urgently
"Yes! yes she never takes it off" Jack said sounding like he was in alot of
pain.
"Ok good good" The Doctor muttered fiddling with his sonic
"Its stopped Doctor its stopped" Jack said paniced as the pain dissapeared in
his mind and he stood up
"Thats good isn't it? she's ok" Gwen asked
"No, our connection is gone" Jack explained gravely
"Ah got it! come on we can track Sarah" The Doctor anounced as if he hadn't
heard their conversation.
"You put a tracker in her sonic?" Jack asked shocked following the Doctor out
of the hub
"Oh don't sound so shocked you put one in the ring" The Doctor grumbled
"How the hell do you know that? and besides she's torchwood I'm allowed to"
Jack asked shocked
"I'm a helecopter parent. I scanned it before you gave it too her" The Doctor
shrugged.
"I'm not sure what I'm more shocked at the fact that you know what a helecopter
parent is or that you know you are one" Gwen called from behind Jack as they
ran following the signal from the Doctors sonic.
"They should be just up this street" The Doctor anounced pointing up an alley
way.
It had gotten dark now so they couldn't see anything but they all ran up the
Alley shouting Sarah and Clara's name.
"I found Clara!" Jack shouted to the rest of them "Martha hurry! she's not
breathing"
Martha raced to beside Clara beat only by the Doctor who craddled Clara's head
gently.
"Come on Clara don't start these sort of games again" The Doctor ordered Clara
his voice breaking as he took in her pale cold skin the pulse that usually beat
under his fingertips gone.
"Doctor I need you to move out of my way I'm gonna have to shock her" Martha
instructed opening the med bag she had grabbed on her way out of the hub.
Martha ripped open Clara's blouse exposing her chest, Clara was going to be
really annoyed at that it was her favourite and now it was ruined the Doctor
thought as he watched Martha place pads on Clara's chest.
"Clear" Martha shouted as she pressed a button on the defibulator machine from
her med bag. The Doctors hearts twisted as he watched Clara's body jerk as the
electric shocked her body, Her hair falling down over her eyes The Doctor
quickly moved it away knowing she hated it in her eyes before Martha shocked
her again.
"Come on Clara stop being so stubborn!" The Doctor whispered against her temple
tears prickling at his eyes but he didn't let them fall Clara didn't like it
when he was upset. "For me please just come back" he begged as another shock
went through her body.
Martha checked Clara's pulse for the 4th time and still nothing. "I'm sorry
Doctor but she's gone she's been out here to long her heart wont restart"
Martha explain sadly placing a hand on his shoulder.
"No! No!" The Doctor shouted "No! She isn't gone! we havn't been through hell
together for her to leave me now!" The Doctor continued to shout pulling
Clara's limp cold body into his arms and rocking her "Come on Clara one more
time, please for me. Just one more impossible thing. Come back to me Clara" The
Doctor begged hugging her body close as if he could pass his own life force
into her if he held her tight enough. Tears running down his face and landing
in her soft chocolate brown hair.
"We need to take her back to the hub Sarah's not here Doctor Jack found her
bracelet ring and neckless but shes not here" Martha spoke softly
Mickey appeared beside Martha carrying a body bag to put Clara's body in which
made the Doctor furious.
"No! You are not putting her in there! We are going to take her back to the hub
and you are are going to find away to restart her heart OR WHAT IS THE POINT IN
YOU!" The Doctor roared standing up with Clara in his arms.
"Ok Doc I think you need to calm down we wont put her in the bag I promise but
I don't know if we have anything that would help her you have to accept she's
gone and focus on helping us find Sarah" Jack said firmly
"You don't know Clara like I do she'll come back" The Doctor snapped at Jack
making it sound like a threat.
Mickey had brought the car round and the drive back to the hub was painful and
awkward the Doctor insisted on holding Clara on the way back, he refused to let
go off her even for a second. When they got back to the hub Martha tried
everything she could think of to restart Clara's heart but nothing worked she
lay motionless and unbreathing on the table.
The Doctor's hope fading little by little until he lost it and began smashing
up the medical room screaming and shouting as he kicked, punched, threw and
pushed anything he could get his hands on. Martha tried stopping him but he
didn't even register she was there he just continued in his rage.
"Doctor stop!" Jack shouted standing infront of the Doctor taking an accidental
punch to the stomach that knocked the wind out of him.
"Jack! sorry!" The Doctor appologised at once his anger dissolving and turning
to concern and guilt for Jack.
"So you should be! Not for punching me but for this tandrum you have been
throwing! Sarah is missing and you are in here throwing things when you should
be helping me find My fiance, YOUR DAUGHTER" Jack shouted at the Doctor his
patients worn out he had never shouted at the Doctor like that before and he
could tell it shocked the Doctor that he had but Sarah was missing and that was
more important than anything in the universe to Jack right now.
Sarah's POV
My eyes slowly opened feeling heavy and gritty, raising my hand to rub my eyes
I hissed in pain as something around my wrist rubbed and pulled at my flesh, I
sleepily looked down at my wrist and seen that I was handcuffed to a wall. I
snapped awake properly pain shooting through my spine as I sat upright.
"Clara?" I whisper shouted my voice sounding rough as if I hadn't used it for a
while. I got no responce. I was on my own.
I looked around me to try and figure out where I was. The room was dim but not
completely dark meaning it was either early morning or early evening and it
looked like a cellar with bare brick walls and a concret floor with straw
scattered around it. There was one small window on the opposite wall too small
for me to climb through.The was a large wooden door on the wall on my left and
I could hear water dripping from somewhere but couldn't quite place where but
it was making my dry mouth feel even drier.
I felt movement in my stomach and looked down to find my bump had gotten
bigger. Where ever I was I had clearly been here a while and that scared me.
Why hadn't Jack or Dad come for me? Where was I? and Why was I here? I felt a
few more little kicks and couldn't help but smile my little baby was ok.
Carefully I placed a hand on my bump where I could feel the kicks and the baby
gave a hard kick in reponse.
"It's ok baby everything's going to be fine" I reassure my squirming baby but
really I was terrified
"Yes everything is going to be perfectly ok. For me" A woman's voice came from
the shadows by the large wooden door.
***** determined *****
The Doctor looked past Jack in shame. He was right, He had been so wrapped up
in his grief for Clara he had forgotten all about his own daughter. Clara would
have slapped him if she could for forgetting Sarah. He sighed closing his eyes
and taking a deep breath in. He remembered Clara's last words on trap street
and repeated them to himself over and over in his head "Let me be brave, Let me
be brave, oh please for her, for Clara let me be brave"
The Doctor sucked in ragged breaths repeatly to try and stop the tears that
threatened to spill but not now, no he couldn't let it over take him now. He
had a job to do, a daughter to save and damn it if the universe cared just one
damn bit about him he was going to do it right and get her back. He squared his
shoulders. Head up shoulders back time to show the universe what hes made off.
"Ok what do you know?" The Doctor asked demermined sounding every bit in charge
as he usually would.
"Not a lot to be honest The used a short range teleporter but that doesn't mean
they are near by they could have teleported into a ship and warp drived outa
here before we even got to the alley" Jack explained feeling frustrated at how
little they knew.
"If only we knew who they were we could track them easily" The Doctor grumbled
"Clara would know" he added saddly looking over towards Clara's body laid out
on the hospital cot looking as if she was just sleeping peacefully. Thats when
he noticed it. The little black device he had seen Strax use on multible
occasions including to restart hearts! The Doctor launched himself towards it
picking it up in his hands.
"What are you doing? That's just an old medical thing we recovered from
torchwood 1 they've had it since victorian times it doesn't work anymore" Jack
asked
"It does work its made to last a millenia but it only responces to Sontaron dna
but if I just reprograme it alittle bit" The Doctor explained excitedly taking
out his sonic and using it on the device.
"Ah ha!" The Doctor cheared in delight as he got the device working he pointed
it at Clara sorted the settings the pressed the button Clara's body gave
another jolt but his time instead of falling back lifeless Clara sat up casping
for breath.
"You're ok Clara, breathe. Breathe Clara Breathe" The Doctor instructed
sounding almost giddy as a craddled Clara's paniced head in his hand placing a
kiss to her forehead.
"You ok?" He asked once her breathing had returned almost to normal
"That-That was not nice" Clara answered breathlessly
"Tell me about it. You died again. You're getting as bad as Rory" The Doctor
tried to joke
"Rory? big nose? sandy blonde hair? I called him Nina?" Clara asked
"Well that was Oswin but yea" The Doctor laughed unable to let go of Clara.
Suddenly Clara's eyes widdened and panic flashed on her face. "Where' Sarah?!"
She asked looking around
"We don't know she was already gone when we found you" Jack explained his heart
twisting again knowing Sarah was out there somewere without him.
"It was Simeon" Clara said before going into a full explaination of everything
that happened in the alley way.
Sarah's POV
The woman stepped out of the shadows her heels clicking on the concret floor.
She looked middle aged and had brown curly hair that was piled up ontop of her
head, Her make up looked over done and she wore a tight black womans bussiness
suit with a skirt, basically she looked like a scary version of the women you
see on make up counters in chemists.
"Who are you?" I asked nervously wrapping my hands over my bump protectively
ignoring the pain from the cuffs.
"I'm the woman who's going to take your baby" The woman answered smuggly her
red lipstick covered lips over exaggerating each sylable. My blood runs icecold
at that and I tighten my grip around my bump the guffs digging further into my
skin breaking it and drawing blood.
"Oh don't scare the puppy now we don't want her going into early labour now do
we? would be awfully messy" A shrill voice called opening the large wooden
door.
"Missy?" I asked in disbelief taking in her purple victorian style outfit
piercing eyes and her vicious looking smirk.
"Oh we've met have we? life of a timetraveler, gets a bit muddled up sometimes
deary" Missy shrugged
"I don't understand whats going on? she says she wants to take my baby why?" I
asked tears forming in my eyes and my voice cracking
"Oh do keep up" Missy sighed "I thought you were supposed to be clever. Its
simple really. We want your baby, so we are going to take it" Missy explained
as if she was disgussing the weather
"Why? What's my baby got to do with you?" I cried I couldn't lose another baby
I just couldn't.
"You don't listen do you? Child of the universe with blood of Gallifrey and of
Earth. Power of the Vortex, her destiny since before times birth. Time must
obey her, The rules are hers to make. Time and space are forever at stake. The
Timelord Victorious shall rise forever more. Conceived behind the blue wooden
door" Missy resighted
"It was hardly talking about you, a silly broken child of the TARDIS so
pathetic even your own Mother didn't want you" The woman sneered trying to get
a raise out of me but I knew she was right My mum didn't care why should she
have? I was the result of a quick fling and nothing more so I never even
flinched at her words. "but A child of the TARDIS of a Child of the TARDIS oh
the power she will hold will be unmeasurable" The woman finished her mouth
twisting into a cruel smile. I just stared at her in shock she really was
insane
***** Rescue Mission *****
Torchwood
The next few days at the Torchwood hub was full of activity everyone running
back and forth trying to figure out where Sarah could be. The Doctor had gone
back to the alley way and scanned the area with his sonic and was now reading
through the data trying to figure out where they could have teleported to. Jack
was using the Torchwood scanners to try and pick up any trace of a ship near
by. Mickey was monitoring all incoming space transmissions. Martha and Gwen
where cross referencing any information Jack and Mickey found with places on
earth and Clara was checking historical records for anything incase they had
traveled back in time although that seemed unlikely and was quite a hard task
concidering they had time traveled into the past before for adventures.
"Ah this is hopeless they could be anywere in time and space! how are we ment
to find her?!" Mickey complained slaming his hand down on the desk in
frustration
"Hey! if it was Martha would you give up?" Jack snapped
"I'm not saying give up I'm saying we need a new plan its been 3 days and we
are still no were close to finding her" Mickey pointed out
"Well if anyone has any other ideas I'm all ears" Jack shouted sounding
stressed and on the verge of breaking
"Look why don't we all take a break get some rest we've barely slept for 3 days
Jack I doubt you've slept at all" Martha suggested
"You lot do what you want I'm looking for my fiance" Jack dissmissed them.
Everyone left the hub to catch up on some sleep or to eat apart from Jack, The
Doctor and Clara, the three of them still searching for a way to find Sarah
again. After an hour of staring at the same webpage over and over again Clara
felt her eyes get heavier until she feel asleep at her desk, her head hitting
off the keyboard.
"I better take her to bed on the TARDIS she'll end up sore sleeping there and
trust me we do not need a grumpy Clara" The Doctor said on hearing Clara's head
hit the keyboard. He stood up and walked over to her picking Clara up and
craddling her like a baby enjoying to feeling of her snuggling into him as she
slept. Then it hit him and he had no idea how he didn't think of it before. It
was so obvious.
"Jack can everyone back! I know how we can find Sarah!" The Doctor shouted
excitedly
"You do?" Clara asked sleepily having been woken up by the Doctors shouting
"I do" The Doctor laughed before kissing Clara lightly still craddling her in
his arms.
It didn't take long for everyone to get back to the hub and they all gathered
looking alittle sleepily in the TARDIS control room.
"Are you going to tell us your plan yet?" Jack asked impatiently
"Not yet we are going to need a little help first" The Doctor said before
setting the TARDIS into flight.
"Victorian london?" Clara asked looking at the screen
"Where else would we find help?" The Doctor asked mysteriously
A few short moments later there was a knock at the door, followed by the loud
bello of Strax
"Exit this TARDIS for the glory of the Sontaran empire!"
"Strax just open the door" Madam Vastra ordered
"Oh for crying out loud" Jack complained before marching over to the door and
ripping it open "Hurry up and get in we've things to do" He snapped at the
stunned people in front of him.
"I see this regeneration is nicer on the eyes but the attitude is still the
same" Vastra remarked stepping into the TARDIS
"I'm not that bad am I?" The Doctor asks Clara
"Doctor! I apologise I didn't realise, I assumed your companion" Vastra began
"Yes yes we know, this is my team Gwen Mickey Martha now can we please go get
Sarah" Jack grumbled
"Wait hang on your a salurian ?" Gwen asked
"I prefer lizard from the dawn of time but yes and this is my wife Jenny"
Vastra introduced
"And that's Strax don't worry he's mostly harmless" Jenny explained in her
strong London accent.
"Doctor I swear if you don't tell me your plan right now I will throw you into
the nearest supernova" Jack threatened very bored and frustrated by everything
going on he just needed Sarah back and everything would be ok again.
"Yes an explanation as to what we are doing here would be appreciated" Vastra
agreed
"Sarah was kidnapped, She's pregnant and they want to use the baby to get to
me" The Doctor explained quickly
"Another one?" Vastra asked shocked
"What do you mean another one?" Jack demanded of the Doctor
"Amy, River's mother was taken when she was pregnant by the silence and Madam
Kavaran the wanted to turn River into a weapon to kill me almost succeeded too,
If River hadn't realised she loved me I would have died when she poised me" The
Doctor explained with a side ways glance at Clara. He knew Clara was slightly
jealous of River.
"And you didn't think to mention this before?" Jack shouted
"It was irrelevant! River is a child of the TARDIS. Sarah's to old to be turned
into a weapon and the baby wasn't concieved in the TARDIS" The Doctor shouted
back
"What if it was?" Jack asked his skin paling as he remembered.
"What if it was what?" The Doctor asked dangerously
"First time we had sex was on the TARDIS when we found out about Liam" Jack
admited
"What?!" The Doctor roared stepping towards Jack readying to strangle him and
put his immortality really to the test but Clara stood in his way, her hand
gently placed on his chest she was barely even touching him but it was enough
to stop him. she always was.
"This is not going to help, you two can fight about it later but right now your
daughter needs your help. she is alone and probably scared. it's been three
days let's not keep her waiting any longer ok?" Clara said gently looking into
the Doctors eyes knowing he would never refuse her when she did.
"Shall I take care of him sir?" Strax asked aiming his large gun at Jack
"Think about it and I'll turn you into mash, potato head" Gwen threatened
"No Strax that won't be nessasary" Clara said with the Doctor muttering "yet"
under his breath
"Very well boy" Strax answered Clara lowering his gun.
"Now Plan you said you had a plan. What is it?" Clara asked the Doctor
wondering round to the other side of the console knowing he would enjoy showing
off his brilliant plan.
"Ah plan yes! I'm surprised you hadn't thought of it already Miss Oswald you're
slipping" The Doctor said with a smile excitement radiating of him as it always
did when he got to show of. "Remember when Danny died?" He asked his eyebrows
raised as if no one else was in the TARDIS but them
"Vividly" Clara answered
"Remember how we managed to find the mosaliam?" He asked pointingly expecting
her to catch on to his plan
"Telepathic interface. brilliant!" Clara answered proud of herself for catching
on.
"Jack come here put your hands in this" The Doctor instructed pointing to the
squishy part of the TARDIS console
"It's not gonna kill me or anything is it?" Jack asked Clara nervously "I know
I can't die but it's still not nice"
"No its safe. She might bite alittle tho" Clara shrugged
"Your and Sarah's timelines are strongly linked, The TARDIS will be able to
pick up on that link and take us to where ever you're most likely to meet
again" The Doctor explained as Jack cautiously pushed his fingers into the
squishy substance.
"You're now plugged directly into the TARDIS and please for the love of
Galifrey don't think anything rude incase it appears on the screens. I need you
to think about Sarah imagine her laugh how it sounds, her smile, how she smells
everything. Let everything that is Sarah overwhelm you consume you and then ask
one question. just one. Where is Sarah now?"
Jack did as the Doctor asked he thought of the sound of Sarah's laughter how it
made his heart soar especially when he had been the one to make her laugh. He
thought of her smile that brightened even the darkest of his days. The feeling
if her arms around him all small and fragile feeling but with enough power to
take down anyone who stood in her way. He thought next of the feeling of his
lips against hers how they felt smaller against his own, cooler than his human
ones he remembered how he loved the sound of his name tumbling from her lips as
he drove her to orgasim her back arching up towards him. Then he remembered he
wasn't ment to think anything rude and tried to redirect his thoughts but he
couldn't his mind was stuck on the feeling of being between her legs, her
thighs tight around his hips. the smell of her arousal when he nestled his head
between her legs and licked and sucked at her sex. jack was just remembering
the sound of her orgasim when he felt their mental connection snap into place
and the noise of the TARDIS taking off into flight.
Jack removed his fingers from the TARDIS and looked up to find everyone looking
in all different directions and looking very uncomfortable.
"Told you not to think anything rude" The Doctor muttered
"It worked didn't it? I can feel Sarah again, This is were she is?" Jack asked
unsure
"Possibly. It's most definitely where your timelines reconnect" The Doctor
explained.
"Ok so plan. Plans are good. You have a plan right?" Clara asked suddenly
unsure of what was going to happen next
"Yes. I have a plan" The Doctor answered uncomfortably
"Your plan is a things going to happen isn't it?" Clara asked annoyed as she
folded her arms over her chest
"it's worked every other time, almost every other time" The Doctor defended
"Your whole plan is a thing will happen? We have to risk our life's and get
Sarah back based on a thing will happen?" Gwen asked angerly
"In all fairness it's always worked before" Mickey shrugged
"Jack?" Gwen asked frowning
"I'm not that keen on the idea either but we don't know enough to make a better
plan and I'm not wasting anymore time" Jack answered
"We keep guns drawn tho right?" Gwen asked Jack
"Always" Jack answered with a smile ignoring the Doctors protests.
"No absolutely not! I will not have anyone on my team with a gun" The Doctor
shouted walking over to Gwen Towering over her his eyebrows pulled into attack
mode
"Yea well I'm Torchwood" Gwen sassed back pulling out her gun and readying it.
"Clara talk to them!" The Doctor demanded
"I know you don't like it but maybe it's a good idea we have no idea what's
outside those doors" Clara pointed out
"I'm afraid I have to agree with Clara, Doctor, whoever has Sarah is not going
to let her go easily and we do not want another demon's run incidence were we
get tricked into thinking we have her when we don't" Vastra pointed out
reminding the Doctor of the heartbreak Amy and Rory had to face when he
couldn't get River back.
"Alright fine but only shoot if you have to" The Doctor relented.
The mix matched group exited the TARDIS and found themselves in a long white
corridor abit like in a hospital with pale green doors spaced out along the
walls. It had a high ceiling with bright lights hanging down.
"Uv lights sterilising anyone who walks through" The Doctor explained pointing
towards the lights.
"I say we split up. Gwen you with the Doc, Clara with me, Victorian lesbians
and potato head you three stay together" Jack instructed slipping into leader
mode.
Now he knew Sarah was alive and close by he started to feel less desperate and
less like he was ready to explode. He was almost back to his normal self.
"I'm the one in charge here" The Doctor scolded "like he said Paternoster gang
stay together, Clara with Jack. Mickey with Martha and Gwen with me I wanna
make sure you don't get trigger happy"
they split off and began searching the rooms. Most of the rooms in this
corridor were empty hospital rooms that looked like they hadn't been used for
years. A thick layer of dust lay over every surface and none of the lights were
on inside the rooms so the light from the hall cast shadows around the rooms
making each room feel threatening.
It wasn't until they turned into the next corridor that they were met with any
sign of life within the hospital. A short half bald man with a large belly
dressed in a security guards uniform exited one of the rooms at the far end of
the corridor he carried a donut in one hand and a batton in the other. The
group stopped their movements realising they were too large to just sneak into
any of the rooms near by they waited to be spotted and just follow the Doctors
lead but they never were. The security guy never looked once at them and just
carried on walking down an other corridor of to the right swinging his batton
and eating his donut.
"Remind me never to hire anyone like him" Jack whispered once they began moving
again.
"He would not be a worthy aponent to have in battle" Strax commented
The more corridors they went down the more people they saw and Gwen and Jack
had been forced to shoot a few of them much to the Doctors distaste but the
desire to find his daughter override his anger and disgust of it. they were
searching down their 7th corridor when Gwen shouted out.
"Jack! I FOUND SOMETHING"
Jack ran to were Gwen was closely followed by The Doctor and Clara. the room
they entered was dimly light with very little in the room just a small table
with an uncomfortable looking chair but the wall opposite them was a large
window and through it they could see Sarah laying on a hospital bed in a bright
white room.
***** Treatment *****
Sarah's POV
I don't know how long I've been here or how long I will be here for but one
thing I do know is sooner or later Jack and my Father will come for me.
They moved me a few days after I woke in the cellar place. I'm not sure how or
where too. They filled the cellar with gas that made me sleep and I woke up
here. Here being a large room with a bright light, everything was white the
walls, the ceiling, the floor even the few bits of furniture that dotted around
the room. A chair, a table with a tray full of medical instraments and the bed
that I'm laying on. Even the pyjamas they have changed me into are white. One
wall was almost completely made up of large mirror, I knew almost instantly
that it was 1 way glass like they would use in police stations, why else would
you have a mirror that big?
I was laid on the bed with my wrists and ankles handcuffed to it. It wasn't
very comfortable but I've gotten used to it now. Every so often either Missy or
the woman who I've learnt is called Madam Kavaran will come into the room and
either lower or raise the top part of the bed. I learnt pretty quickly that
lowering it means they are going to make me sleep again. I never know how long
I'm asleep for but I can guess it's a long time because my bump is bigger each
time I wake up.
I don't like sleeping, sleeping is when the nightmares come at lest I think
they are nightmares, I'm not sure. Simeon is there, always Simeon. Telling me
things, whispering them in my ear. I'm worthless, I'm no good. I don't deserve
my baby or anyone. No one cares about me. Not Dad not Clara and certainly not
Jack. I was just easy sex for Jack why would someone like Jack want me? He
shows me things aswell. He shows me what they have been up to in the months
that I've been missing. Laughing smiling dancing. Jack with countless other
women, It's those dreams that hurt me the most seeing Jack kiss women
passionately moaning their names as he cums inside them. They shatter my very
soul, ripping my hearts out of my chest and feasting on them.
The door beside the mirror opens, it's the only thing in the room that isnt
white instead it's this horrible pale green colour that reminds me of vomit. I
can't see the door from were I'm laying but I ear the clicking of Missy's heels
against the tiled floor she has a slow predatory walk that would make even a
lion run in fear. I close my eyes just listening to the sound of her walk.
"Now now puppy I know you're awake, I always know" Missy said threateningly
"it's breakfast time!" She cheers raising the bed.
My view of the room becomes more strategic when I'm sat upright. Missy is stood
by my head and there's a woman stood by the end of my bed holding a bowl in her
hands.
"Come on dear your never going to be able to feed her from there" Missy purred
dangerously
The woman shuffled towards the top end of my bed stopping when she came level
with my waist. With shaking hands she picked up the spoon from the bowl and
guided it towards my mouth. I have no idea how long it had been since I last
ate but my stomach felt so empty and hollow that even the cold salty porridge I
was fed felt like a feast. Missy sat on the bed beside me one arm draped over
the bed to play with my hair on the other side.
"Now there's a good puppy eating your breakfast nicely you won't bite this
one's fingers off sure you won't?" Missy cooed as if she were talking to a
baby.
I never bite anyone but I didn't say that I just kept silent. I always stayed
silent.
"humpf nothing? No protest of innocence? Your boring puppy" Missy pouted
standing up of the bed.
the woman finished feeding me before scurrying off as quick as she could, the
porridge feeling heavy and hard in my stomach like I had swallowed bricks and
making me feel sick. Missy however stayed beside me running her hand over my
large bump.
"You know I'm quite looking forward to having a little time tot again they are
awfully fun to mess with" Missy teased watching me out of the corner of her eye
waiting for a reaction but I continued to stare straight ahead, ignoring her
taunts.
Missy gave up after that and left with a huff releasing gas into the room once
the door was tightly closed. The colourless odourless gas leaked in from a vent
on the opposite side of the room from the door the only reason I was awear it
had been released was by the long hissing noise like a snake stalking it's
prey. The gas filled the room within in seconds and I was asleep seconds after.
I stood in the middle of a long white corridor that seemed to go on forever.
Everything seemed distorted the white too white, the corridor too narrow. My
body didn't feel real I looked down and seen I was in a hospital gown with soft
white slippers on my feet. Something was missing but I wasn't sure what just
yet. I took a few heavy steps down the corridor running the tips of my fingers
along the wall at either side of me, it felt warm and squishy. I felt rather
than heard someone step beside me, I turned to look at who it was. A man with a
top hat black gloves and Victorian suit. Simeon.
"Nice to see you again Sarah, keeping well I hope" He asked charmingly
"I-I I think so" I answered him feeling confused I wasn't quite sure who I was
never mind how I was.
"Don't worry it's always abit confusing at first you'll be fine" He reassured
me. "let's go for a walk" He asked smiling offering me his arm not entirely
sure why I linked my arm with his and we began walking down the corridor
together.
After a few steps I notice a door to my right open and the noise from within
drift out to us, there's the sound of laughter, the clinking of glasses and
what sounded like an old record player playing in the background. I peek
through the door way and the sight makes my breath catch in my throat. The room
didn't look like a hospital room at all. The light was dim coming from only a
few oil lamps placed around the room, the walls were covered in heavy red
velvet drapes, The floor was covered in a rich carpet, in the middle of the
room stood a small round table covered with a red silk table cloth with black
lace the table was littered with empty glass decanters and an over filled ash
tray.
Over against the wall was what made Sarahs breath catch. Sat on a deep red
caise lounge was Jack his hair a mess as if someone had been running their
fingers through it, blue shirt unbuttoned showing his white undershirt his
shoes had been kicked off and his belt undone and sat inbeteeen his legs with
their back to him leaning against his chest was Clara dressed in a red and
black corset that was pulled so tight and high her breasts where nearly falling
out of it black lacey knickers with stockings and suspenders and a pair of
black shinny high heels. Clara was sipping whiskey out of a glass in one hand
and sucking on a cigarette in the other leaving a bright red lip stick stain on
the but.
"I can't believe she fell for it! Who in their right mind would want her she's
damaged goods" Jack laughed taking a sip out of his glass of whiskey.
"I know poor little nieve stupid Sarah" Clara laughed taking a drag out of the
cigarette before reaching behind her and offering Jack it he reached his head
forward and sucked on the cigarette not taking his free hand of Clara's upper
thigh.
"and asking her to marry you genius! She doesn't suspect a thing" Clara praised
turning her body slightly so she could pull Jack into a passionate kiss their
tounges dancing together. My heart shattered at the image, it felt like someone
had just pulled the carpet from beneath my feet, I felt sick to my stomach and
was so sure I was going to be sick but I couldn't make myself look away from
the love of my life and my best friend kissing, Clara had turned round
completely now and straddled Jack as they deepened the kiss, both of them
moaning in pleasure as Clara began rocking her hips against Jacks.
"Shes right you know you are damaged but I can help you fix that" Simeon spoke
pulling me away from the scene.
"How?" I asked my voice cracking as tears fell from my eyes.
"You see that door at the end? Just open it for me" Simeon explained pointing
to the door at the end of the hall way that had somehow got alot closer now it
was only 10 or maybe 12 steps away from us.
"What happens when I open it?" I asked frowning
"You won't be damaged anymore you'll get Jack back and live happily ever after"
Simeon answered simply.
I don't know why I stepped forward maybe it was the scene from the room still
playing in my mind or the feeling that this has all happened before but slowly
step by step I walked towards it until I was stood right in front of the door.
"Go on open it I promise you I'll make all ok if you just open the door" Simeon
incouraged
My hand lifted up almost as if on its own accord hovering over the door knob.
My broken hearts wanted nothing more than too open the door and have everything
be ok but something prickled in the back of my mind making me hesitate. My eyes
began filling up with tears again making the room swim in and out of focus. It
wasn't until Simeon spoke I realised it wasn't my vision the room really was
going in and out of vocus.
"No! Not now! I didn't tell them to wake her! I was so close. No!" Simeon
shouted angerly before the room completely disappeared.
This time when I woke I knew it had been asleep for longer than normal. My
entire body felt weak my head hurt, my mouth and throat were dry and felt like
sand paper and my lips were cracked and sore. I let out a groan of pain as I
tried to open my eyes they felt all gritty and stung like I had huge amounts of
sand in them.
"Sarah!" I heard my name exclaimed seconds before lips came crashing down onto
mine. The person pulled away still craddling my head in their hands and their
face swims into vocus
"Jack?" I ask not believing what I see my voice is weak and croaky from months
of not being used.
"It's ok sweetie I'm here I've got you" Jack said as if soothing a baby.
"What are you doing here?" I whispered wincing slightly at the pain it caused
my throat
"Rescuing you from your tower of course, rapunzel" Jack flirted flashing me a
smile. "Doc screwdriver" He shouted over his shoulder.
A few seconds later I heard the whirling of the sonic before my restraints came
away leaving my joints screaming in agony after months of being in the same
position blood flow rushing to my hands and feet making them feel like they
were burning. Jack scopped me up in his arms and ran from the room. I was
vaguely awear of gunshots and bangs, people shouting orders and screaming in
pain as Jack ran as fast as he could with me in his arms. I felt him kick open
a door after what felt like forever and was greeted by the sound of the TARDIS
but he didn't stop running he ran with me into the med bay and laid me gently
down on a bed, I just had time to register the pain in my back before being
pulled into darkness again.
***** Four Knocks *****
Sarah's POV
I woke to the sound of people talking and it took a moment or two to place who
the voices belonged to, it had been so long since I heard any of them.
"I don't understand she was only a few weeks pregnant 4 days ago how can she be
a month and a half of giving birth now?" Gwen asked in hushed tones.
"The TARDIS must have taken us too far forward in time" Dad said sadly and
altho my eyes were still too tired to open I knew he would have put his face in
his hand.
"I dread to think what they were doing to her she's so malnourished, dehydrated
and she's lost far too much wait" Martha said sympathetically
"Why would anyone do that to some one? she looks so pale and lost" Clara
sighed.
Hearing Clara's voice brought the image of her and Jack together and bile
raised in my throat. I bolted up in the bed and leaned over the edge just in
time to throw up all over the floor making everyone in the room jump into
action.
"Your ok don't worry just get it up" Martha soothed as she thrust a bin in
front of me to be sick in.
"I'll get Jack" Gwen announced before leaving the room
"Running a scan" Dad said
I felt Clara reach out to rub my back but I flinched away as I remembered
seeing those hands run through Jacks hair as she kissed him making a wave of
nausea roll over me as I was sick all over again. I don't even know how I was
sick it had been so long since I last ate anything but still it kept coming
until I feel back onto the bed exhausted tears prickling my eyes and my throat
burning from the acid in my stomach.
"Sarah you ok?" I heard Jack ask in a panic as he ran into the room.
Seeing him made my head burn and I had flashes of long white corridor, seeing
Jack with other women. Seeing Jack with Clara wrapped around him and I sat up
quickly again ready to be sick but there was nothing left to bring up making me
gag painfully. Jack sat beside me on the bed and started rubbing my back but it
just made me feel worse and my head started swarming with images, Simeon's
voice echoing round my head "He doesn't love you not really, why would he? Open
the door and I can make him love you I can make it ok" A door appeared in the
front of my thoughts I was so tempted to just give in and open it. My arm
reached up to open it and then I was pulled back into reality by something I
hadn't felt in a long time, a huge kick to the inside of my stomach. The force
made me hunch over and gasp. Jack instantly put his hand on my bump which made
me recoil in horror
"Out! Out now! And her!" I shouted pointing at a stunned looking Clara as more
images flash before my mind, Jack and Clara naked rolling around on a bed
kissing and laughing at how stupid I had been. My head feels like it's on fire
like it's about to explode. Jack try to comfort me to make it better but hes
just make it worse. "NOW" I screamed at them as the pain in my head becomes
unbearable.
"I think it's best you do as she says" Martha told Jack and Clara firmly "We
will figure this out Jack I promise" She added softly, gently placing a hand on
his arm. "We are going to need to run some tests ok Sarah? So just sit back and
relax" Martha said once Jack and Clara had left the room
"The baby! Is the baby ok?" I panicked. Now that Jack was away my headache was
better and the images had stopped l began to realise what had happened.
"Baby's fine we checked while you were asleep it's you we are worried about
now" Martha explained
"Dad where's dad?" I asked trying to sit up again but I felt dizzy so had to
lay back down.
"I'm here Sarah don't worry" I heard my father's voice call from across the
room
"What happened to everyone? Simeon Missy and Madam Kavaran?" I asked
"Jack shot Kavaran on sight Missy escaped as usual but we couldn't find Simeon
but we're working on it, Mickey's trying to track him now Jack and Clara will
probably be helping him" He explained
"Don't say their names!" I growled as even the mention of their names made my
headache worse and images flash before my eyes.
"Why Sarah? What's so wrong with Clara and Jack?" Dad asked me sounding like a
therapist.
"It hurts, it hurts so bad" I moaned clutching my head as the pain got worse.
The door was in my head again as well as Simeon's voice "just open the door
Sarah everything will be ok again if you just open the door"
"What's behind the door?" I shouted through clenched teeth
"What door?" Dad and Martha both asked confused
"The door in my head! He says if I open it it will all be ok again but what's
behind it?" I cried tears beginning to fall down my cheeks at the pain.
"Who said that? It's important Sarah who told you that?" Dad asked urgently his
hands on either side of my head stroking his thumbs along my hairline to try
and calm me.
"Simeon! He said! Ooo daddy it hurts I need it to stop! If I open it it will
stop!" I shouted tears freely flowing now as I began screaming in pain.
"Sarah you're ok. I promise you, you're ok but do not open that door. This is
very important do not open that door. Do you understand me?" Dad instructed
"Yes but please Daddy it hurts" I begged as it felt like my head was being
pulled apart and set on fire.
"Don't worry sweetheart I'm gonna help you sleep and when you wake up we will
fix it ok?" Dad said in a soft voice
"No! Don't make me sleep. I don't want to go back into the corridor!" I yelled
my eyes wide with panic as I struggled to breath through fear
"You won't I promise. Trust me. You trust me don't you Sarah?" Dad asked. I
nodded my head desperately. "Ok then" Dad whispered before pressing a finger to
my forehead and I fell into darkness.
3rd person POV
"Dad skills" said The Doctor before placing a kiss to Sarah's forehead.
"What do you thinks wrong with her?" Martha
"I need more information, the TARDIS should be finished scanning her by now"
The Doctor said stamping over to the scanner on the other side of the room.
The screen was full of Gallifreyan writing and Martha hadn't a hope in
understanding any off it so she just waited for the Doctor to finish watching
closely for any indication of the diagnosis but he remained motionless bare the
flickering of his eyes over the screen, his face completely void of everything
but concentration. He was so still and unresponsive that Martha started when he
suddenly banged his fist down on the table and stormed out of the room
muttering "No" under his breath over and over again. Martha quickly following
him out of the corridor.
He stomped the whole way down the corridor towards the control room which was
filled with Jack, Clara, Gwen and Mickey. Grumpily without even saying a word
he began typing things into the monitor with more force than nessasary, his
face full of thunder.
"Doctor you ok?" Clara asked slowly but getting no response apart from him
banging the buttons even harder than before. The Doctor pulled a couple of
levers and sent the TARDIS into flight.
"Where are we going? What's wrong?" Clara asked softly putting her hand to the
Doctors cheek forcing him to look at her. His stormy blue ones so full of anger
and sorrow looking into her large chocolate brown ones full of concern and
adoration. How could he ever feel angery when looking at her she made his whole
universe feel safe and whole and he just melted every time.
"Where's Sarah is she ok?" Jack asked his voice steady but his face showing the
fear he felt.
"She's ok. She's asleep" The Doctor answered
"Why did she react like that?" Asked Jack
"That's what we are finding out" The Doctor answered as the TARDIS landed.
The Doctor stared at the door for a minute trying to gather his thoughts he
must do this next bit carefully and without lossing his temper, it was going to
be hard. No one else dared to move first not knowing what could be out there.
The Doctors thoughts interrupted by four knocks on the door.
"I hate four knocks. It never means anything good" Clara muttered.
The Doctor gingerly opened the door to the person waiting on the other side.
His hearts filling with dread as he took them in right from their hat right
down to their boots and umbrella.
"Hello" He greated huskly
***** Sleeping Beauty *****
"Here to sulk about your little pet deary?" Missy pouted mockingly as she
sultered into the TARDIS without a care in the world swinging her umbrella
looking ever bit of a mad Mary Poppins. "Oooo look the whole gangs's here" She
sang.
"What have you done to My fiancé?" Jack roared stalking towards her stopping
right in front of Missy trying to intimidate her.
"Oh look the pretty puppy barks" Missy teased looking Jack up and down like a
lion sizing up its prey while pushing him away from her using the point of her
umbrella.
"Missy! just answer the question" Clara groaned.
"I didn't do anything to her, I helped her" Missy answered sounding proud of
herself
"Missy this is not a game! Tell me what happened to my daughter" The Doctor
demanded
"Like I'd tell you" Missy scoffed plonking herself down on the pilot chair
dramatically.
"We had a deal never to evolve family in our battles, you broke that deal Missy
now tell me what you did or I will go and get your daughter" The Doctor
threatened
"No you won't that's the trouble with you, your too sentimental" Missy
restorted in a bored tone.
"You hurt my daughter another week or two like that and she would have died so
don't dare tell me what I would or wouldn't do cause right now even I don't
know how far I will go!" The Doctor spat at Missy, anger building up in him
again as he opened and closed his fists by his side to try and regain control.
"You would never kill an innocent no matter how angry I know she's safe so
knock yourself out go get her" Missy shrugged
"I won't kill her no but I will bring her here and show her what kind of things
you've been up too" The Doctor threatened
"She already knows I'm a bananas queen of evil what difference will it make"
Missy said with a dismissive wave of her hand
"All the difference in the world when she finds out Sarah is her sister" The
Doctor smirked knowing he had got her.
"You wouldn't" Missy growled sitting up straight in the chair.
"Tell me what is wrong with my daughter!" The Doctor shouted
"Wait! Missy's daughter is Sarah's sister. You and Missy have a daughter
together?" Clara asked confused and slightly shocked
"Oh do keep up dear" Missy moaned clearly bored by the little humans stupidity
"I'll explain later, that's not important right now. What is important is my
daughter is laying in there in a telepathically induced coma because of
something you did or helped do and I need to know what right now so I can fix
it!" The Doctor rambled getting louder and louder until he was shouting at
Missy towering over her as she sat on the chair looking every inch composed
except her eyes the Doctor knew Missy better than anyone and right now he could
see in her eyes that she was terrified.
Missy sighed, stood up and walked towards the TARDIS doors. "It's a simple mind
take over helped by an hallucinagenic" Missy droned before exiting the TARDIS.
Jack made to go after her but the Doctor stopped him. "We'll worry about her
later right now we need to vocus on saving Sarah" The Doctor instructed
"You better not be saying that just because you shagged her" Gwen threatened
"I'm not my daughter is my number one priority" The Doctor grumbled before
marching out of the console room and back to the medical bay, leaving a very
confused and very hurt Clara behind.
A few minutes later Martha found a very irritable and grumbling Doctor wearing
a pair of thick rimmed glasses lunched over one of the monitors in the medical
bay annalising more of the results. In the few minutes she gave him to calm
down he had taken a blood sample from Sarah which he was now looking through
the results off, set up a constant body temperature scan and a EEG to keep an
eye on her brain function aswell as a heart monitor on both Sarah and the baby.
"Any clues?" Martha asked stepping into the room
"She was gassed to put her to sleep the hallucinagenic was in the gas, her body
temperature is getting lower but the coma is stopping Simeon getting into her
mind completely" The Doctor explained sadly taking his glasses off to rub at
his eyes.
"Well that's good isn't it? You've stopped him" Martha asked
"For now yes but as soon as I wake her up he's gonna get in there, Simeon needs
ice to survive long term that's why her body temperature is so low he's turning
her to ice" The Doctor explained pointing to the monitor with Sarah's body
temperature which read 5 degrees.
"How is she even surviving that?" Martha gasped steeping closer to the monitor
in disbelieve "Her vitals are all perfectly fine, she should be dead at that
low"
"Not human remember, she can survive much lower than that. Don't you.even
remember our trips? I told you on that ship with the living sun" The Doctor
explained sounding slightly offended
"Sorry I kind of only really remember being terrified and trying not to burn to
death" Martha pointed out "Oh and those stupid questions"
"how do we save her?" Jack's voice came from the door way. He had been stood
there the whole time and had heard everything the Doctor said.
"I don't know yet" The Doctor admitted
"Well then get out from behind that screen and figure it out, your missing
something obvious so find out what it is" Clara instructed in her teachers
voice coming into the room and pulling the Doctor to his feet.
Jack had gone to Sarah's side and took her hand in his cupping it between his
two larger ones in the hope of warming it up, the skin had turned blueish and
had swollen slightly from the cold. Jack wished with all his heart that it was
him going through this and not her. Sarah didn't deserve anymore heartache and
pain in her life, she had had enough. She deserved the best of everything and
Jack swore if she made it through this and the delivery of their baby that's
exactly what she would get. Only the very best for his Sarah.
The Doctor watched as Jack sat by Sarah's side clutching her hand as if she was
his anchor to the world, his very own point of gravity. That's when it hit him.
Sarah was Jacks anchor but deep down he knew Jack was Sarah's.
"CLARA YOUR RIGHT!" The Doctor shouted cheerfully flinging his arms in the air
before kissing Clara swiftly on the lips
"I usually am but what am I right about this time" Clara laughed
"I was missing the obvious. JACK! You are the answer!" The Doctor explained
smiling clicking his boney fingers in Jacks direction.
"Doctor explain" Clara demanded rolling her eyes she knew he'd keep talking in
riddles if she didn't stop him now.
"Oh right yes sorry" He apologised sheepishly "It's simple really we need to
overwhelm the psychic connection with Simeon with another over powering deep
connection one that creates a huge chemical reaction that can only come from a
bonded connection"
"Still not getting it" Clara sighed
"I do, a kiss from someone she truly loves" Martha smiled
"True loves kiss? I really think your lossing it Doc. I may have called her
repunzel but this isn't a fairy tale" Jack snapped sceptical
"Actually it was sleeping beauty and snow white that were saved by true loves
kiss but your missing the point! It will set of a chemical reaction within her
hormones kick the mental bond you two have up a notch enough to push Simeon out
and she's fine again" The Doctor explained drawing a diagram on a piece of
paper that no one would ever be able to work out.
"You think this will work?" Jack asked Martha still not convinced
"It might. It's worth a shot don't you think? It's better than doing nothing"
Martha answered.
"Alright so what do I just kiss her?" Jack asked standing up ready for business
"Pretty much yea" The Doctor shrugged
Jack stood over Sarah and lend down to press a soft kiss to her pale lips
before pulling away and waiting. His last shred of hope burning with need. He
needed this to work, he needed his love back. The whole room fell silent as
they waited for any change but none came.
"I told you it wouldn't work" Jack grumbled
"No wait look her temperature went up to 7 it did something" Martha pointed to
the monitor
"Maybe she needs to be awake?" Clara suggested
"Gonna be hard getting anywhere near her if she's awake look how she reacted
last time" Jack said sadly not taking his eyes of Sarah's sleeping form.
"We need to try" said The Doctor in a way that left no room for arguments
before walking over to Sarah "Ok she's gonna resist alot bite kick punch hit
you name it she'll do it be prepared" The Doctor warned Jack
"It's a good job I like them fiesty then isn't it" Jack tried to joke.
The Doctor touched his finger to Sarah's forehead and her eyes fluttered open.
She felt very foggy and confused until her vision cleared properly and she saw
her father staring down at her.
"Hey" She whispered sleepily
"Hey, listen we figured out how to stop Simeon and right now your not gonna
like it but you need to trust me ok?" The Doctor explained quickly
"Ok" Sarah responded instantly too sleepy to really think about what the plan
might be.
The Doctor stepped to the side crossing his fingers behind he's back. Jack
stepped into Sarah's field of vision and instantly the burning in her head
started up again and new images flashed in front of her. Jack with Martha
wrapped around him kissing him, his erect member in her mouth as she sucked and
licked at him, Jack taking Martha from behind as she screamed out her name.
Suddenly there were lips against her own. Sarah opened her eyes that she didn't
even realised she had closed to find it was Jack kissing her. Her face cradled
in his hands as he kissed her softly but she could sense the desperation, she
was about to kiss back when something snapped in her. Her entire body was
filled with anger and rage and she began clawing at Jacks arms to get him to
let go of her, she kicked him between the legs and bite down hard on his lip
enough to fill her mouth with his blood but Jack just used it as an opportunity
to snake his tounge into her mouth and twist it with her own. Sarah was about
to bite down on his tounge when a loud animalistic scream tore from her throat
leaving it feeling raw and burning. The anger filling her turned to love and
passion and she desperately kissed Jack back. Grabbing his jacket by the lapels
and pulling him towards her Jack was unprepared for the force and he ended up
laying ontop of her. Sarah felt their mind link fill her and felt relief
desperation and love coming from Jack.
"Ok she's back you can stop with that now" The Doctor instructed ruining the
moment between Sarah and Jack
"True loves kiss huh? Does that mean your my prince charming" Sarah teased when
they pulled away
"And you my sleeping beauty" Jack teased in return with a wink
***** Bad News, Good News *****
After a few days of rest and fluids Sarah was feeling pretty much back to
normal. She no longer got the images or hear Simeon's voice, both the Doctor
and Martha assured her that Simeon was gone from her head. She still got tired
very easily which frustrated her concidering she spent most of the last few
months asleep and she was finding it hard to eat more than a few mouthfuls at a
time but she was alive and back with her family which all that she really cared
about.
Jack came striding into the med bay in Torchwood, that Sarah had been moved to
the previous day. He was carrying two plates each with a full Welsh breakfast
on it from their favourite cafe that they have breakfast in every morning.
"Joe sends his love and said you have to hurry up and get better so you can
pretty up his cafe again apparently he's fed up looking at hairy fishermen all
morning" Jack laughed after pressing a quick kiss to Sarah's lips and then
sitting on the chair beside her bed before tucking into his breakfast.
"I don't blame him those men don't half stink of fish" Sarah laughed taking a
bite out of the still warm toast.
"Still think there's something sexy about those life jackets and huge nets"
Jack said with sausage in his mouth
"Do you really have to say that with sausage in your mouth? it's a little
pervy" Sarah teased
"Oh is my Sarah developing abit of a dirty mind now" Jack teased back with a
raised eyebrow
"Don't have a choice being around a walking innuendo everyday do I" Sarah said
poking Jack in the ribs.
Jack flicked a bean at Sarah in revenge which triggered a full on food fight
between the pair of them. Toast egg tomato sausage and bacon all went flying
around the room as the pair fell into fits of laughter. Jack reached over Sarah
to pour beans in her hair when he slipped on some egg yoke on the floor and
feel ontop of Sarah. His hands on either side of her head and his face just
hovering over hers. They stopped laughing instantly as they made eye contact
just staring at each other for a moment before Jack lent down and captured
Sarah's lips in a passionate kiss. Sarah responded back with just as much
passion and desire. Before they knew it the kiss had deepened and they had
started lossing layers of clothes until they were both naked under the hospital
blanket. Jack slid into Sarah and they quickly became a symphony of gasps and
moans as they drove each other to their climax.
They were laying on the bed cuddled up together enjoying the after glow of
their climax when the door to Sarah's room opened and The Doctor stepped in.
Sarah shrieked and pulled the covers up further around herself while Jack sat
up in the bed.
"Doc don't you ever knock?" Jack asked he wasn't bothered by the Doctor walking
in but he knew Sarah was he could feel the embarrassment radiating of her.
"What the hell do you think you two are doing? She's not well enough! Do you
not think your hormones have caused enough damage without making her even
weaker!" The Doctor shouted at Jack his face contorted into furry
"Dad! Stop it's not like he forced me to do it I wanted too" Sarah shouted back
"I don't care! Dont you understand Sarah your going to give birth in a month
and a half and your too weak to survive! There's nothing I can do to save you
and it's all his fault!" The Doctor shouted angerly realising too late what he
had said.
"There's really nothing you can do?" Jack asked in a pained voice pulling Sarah
closer to him.
"No" The Doctor answered rubbing his eyes with his thumb and forefinger.
"And your sure?" Jack asked not wanting to believe it.
"Am I..? Of course I'm bloody sure! I've spent the past few days doing nothing
but try to find away to fix the mess you made Harkness" The Doctor snapped
"Don't shout at him it's my fault too you know" Sarah shouted
"Oh I'm sorry did you crawl ontop of yourself and get yourself pregnant then?"
The Doctor yelled sarcastically
"What is going on in here? Sarah is ment to be resting not shouting" Clara
scolded walking into the room and taking in the sight of Sarah and Jack only
covered by a blanket, The Doctor in full protective father mode, Jack looking
like his entire world just got pulled out from under his feet with his arms
wrapped tightly around Sarah. "You told them then?" She asked
"Yea" The Doctor sighed defeated. He felt like he had just got his family back
after over a thousand years of thinking he was completely alone and now it was
being ripped away from him again all because Jack couldn't keep his hands to
himself.
"Why don't we leave them to get dressed and then we can all talk about it ok?"
Clara suggested gently pulling The Doctor out of the room.
Jack dressed quickly not even sparing a glance in Sarah's direction his mind
too full of self-loathing, the Doctor was right it's his fault Sarah was dying,
if he hadn't have got her pregnant Simeon wouldn't have came after her
weakening her even more before Simeon she stood a chance now she had none and
it was all his fault. He should have been more careful, He shouldn't have let
her go out to the chippy and he should have got her back sooner.
"Will you stop? I can hear your thoughts you know and they aren't true it's not
your fault. It's just something that happened" Sarah said barely more than a
whisper breaking the icy tension that had built in the room.
"Of course it's my fault I got you pregnant" Jack snapped frustrated. Why must
she always try and be so nice to him when he didn't deserve it?
"Hey! Hey. Of course you deserve it. I love you" Sarah chastised Jack softly
taking hold of his hand as he went past her to pick up his coat.
"I love you too more than anything and I completely screwed up. I didn't think
it was possible to find someone I could spend so long with and in less than a
year I manage to screw up so badly I loose you" Jack explain kneeling down on
front of Sarah who was sat at the edge of the bed in only her underwear.
"This is not a screw up" Sarah said softly placing Jacks hands over her bump
the skin stretched tight over their unborn child. "This is the greatest gift I
can give you if I can't be here forever. The baby will regenerate and be as
close to immortal as I can give you, please just be happy about that" Sarah
begged tears in the corners of her eyes
"I am Sarah, I promise you I am I want our baby I do. I just wish I wasn't
lossing you" Jack answered kissing Sarah's hands that were clutched in his.
"Your not lossing me not completely the part of TARDIS that is in me will be in
our baby" Sarah explained wiping a tear that fell from Jacks eye.
"What did you just say?" Sarah asked after a moment of silence
"I didn't say anything" Jack answered confused
"Yes you. Oh my stars it's the baby. I can hear the baby" Sarah exclaimed
excitedly both hands coming to rest on her bump
"You can? Whats the baby saying?" Jack asked eagerly
"I love you, She's saying I love you" Sarah answered with a lump in her throat
and tears in her eyes.
"She?" Jack teased
"She. We're having a girl!" Sarah smiled kissing Jack deeply on the lips.
"We're having a girl" Jack repeated in a whisper as if he couldn't believe it.
"She likes your voice" Sarah said listening to her little girls thoughts.
"Of course you do, your going to be daddy's little princess aren't you little
one" Jack cooed at Sarah's stomach before placing a kiss to the top of her bump
earning him a large kick in response.
"You're gonna be one kick ass alien hunter aren't you" Jack laughed as the baby
continued to squirm around inside Sarah.
The pair moved to lay up on the bed on their side, Jack cuddled in behind Sarah
with his arm wrapped around her resting on her bump as they talked to their
unborn daughter and delighted in feeling their move around. Soon Jack realised
he was the only one talking and Sarah's breathing had evened out. She had
fallen asleep. There was a knock at the door and a sheepish Doctor walked in
with Clara trailing behind him.
"Shhh she's asleep" Jack whispered as the Doctor opened his mouth to talk.
"She looks so peaceful at last" Clara whispered sitting on the edge of the bed
by Sarah's feet. The Doctor sat down on the chair by Sarah's bed not saying a
word.
"She's so relaxed and at peace with the whole thing" Jack whispered looking
down at Sarah's sleeping face.
"How are you doing with it" Clara asked worried about Jack
"Not so well. It's all my fault no matter how much Sarah tries to convince me
otherwise" Jack admitted
"There's no way you could have known this was going to happen. What matters now
is making the most of the time you have left" Clara tried comforting Jack.
"There's not much time do you think we could organise a wedding in time?" Jack
asked with a sneaky smile
"Your forgetting who your talking to of course I can" Clara replied with a smug
smirk.
"is this a good idea? The stress won't be good for Sarah" The Doctor pointed
out
"Then we won't tell her. It'll be a surprise" Clara smile excitedly
"Clara your in charge of planning it I'll give you my credit card charge
everything to it. I don't care about the cost just make it perfect for her"
Jack said pulling his credit card out of his pocket and handing it to Clara.
"I will I promise" Clara smiled taking the card her mind already buzzing with
ideas.
***** Memory Lane *****
The Doctor was bent over the console absentmindedly flicking a few of the
levers not really caring what they were doing altho he was pretty certain the
TARDIS had made sure to shut them down so they weren't doing anything.
He was thinking, Clara would say brooding if she had been here but she had gone
off too book some human to do the wedding for Sarah and Jack so he was alone
with his thoughts. He looked up at the chalk boards sitting on the upper level
full of different ways he had thought of to try and save Sarah all of which
ended the same way. Failure.
The more he looked at the chalk boards the more they seemed to mock him,
taunting him, screaming down at him that he was a failure until he could take
it no more and stormed up the steps to get to them. The Doctor began angerly
rubbing the chalk of the board unable to look at his failings anymore, the
wooden block eraser slipped from his hand and fell to the ground with loud bang
that echoed around the console room. That small failure of being unable to keep
hold of the eraser made The Doctors anger and frustration bubble over and he
began hitting and punching the board as hard as he possibly could, his knuckles
becoming swollen and bloody but he didn't care he needed to let his emotions
out he punched faster and harder. "Stupid, stupid Doctor" He cried with each
slap of his knuckles against the hard slate. Cracks appearing along it
completely unnoticed by the angerly timelord until finally his hand went
straight through the slate and punched the TARDIS wall behind it. The Doctor
cried out in pain as he felt something in his hand break. Instead of stopping
him the break just fueled his anger and he picked the broken pieces of the
chalkboard up and threw them over the the side down to the main part of the
console room with a loud and angry scream.
As the broken pieces flew through the air the door to the TARDIS opened and
Clara Oswald stepped inside narrowly avoiding being hit by the projectile. She
let out a small screech of surprise as it landed at her feet with an almost
deafening bang!
Eyes wide and heart thumbing wildly in her chest Clara scanned the room for the
Doctor. Her eyes landed on his standing on the upper level, his grip on the
railing turning the none bloody and swollen parts of his knuckles white, his
face full of thunder despite the tears unnoticed to the timelord that had ran
down his cheeks making them wet. His breathing was heavy and erratic adding to
the powerful and scary image he was projecting. Why Clara did not know. Clara
stepped over the broken chalk board and raced to her Doctors side, throwing her
arms around him as soon as she got close enough.
"Come on let's get you patched up" Clara said softly leading the Doctor softly
towards the med bay by his elbow, surprisingly he didn't even protest he just
followed behind her silently looking more and more vulnerable the further away
from the console room they got.
Clara lead The Doctor to one of the Chairs in the med bay and lowered him down
on it. The Doctor continued to just stare ahead giving no indication that he
was awear they had even left the console room. Carefully and delicately Clara
set about cleaning and bandaging the Doctors hand using supplies she found sat
on the bench waiting. It seems the old girl felt sorry for her injured thief.
"I'm sorry" The Doctor whispered just as Clara was finishing wrapping the
bandage around the Doctors purple and swollen hand. They had both been so quiet
as Clara worked that she jumped slightly when he spoke.
"You could have been hurt and it would have been my fault. I'm so sorry Clara"
The Doctor apologised cupping Clara's face with his uninjured hand his voice
corse and thick with emotion.
"It's ok you didn't know I was there" Clara reassured him putting her hand over
the one on her face and leaning into his touch.
"Doesn't matter I shouldn't have lost my temper like that I'm sorry" The Doctor
grumbled ashamed of himself.
"Why did you loose your temper?" Clara asked gently as she tucked the last bit
of bandage in and lifted the Doctors hand to her lips, placing a light kiss to
each of his bandage covered knuckles.
"I failed. Sarah trusted me to find away to save her and I failed" The Doctor
sighed his throat feeling tighter.
"She knew there was a chance you couldn't fix her and she seems ok with it"
Clara tried to comfort the timelord cupping his face in both of her small
hands, her thumbs stroking along his jaw.
"It doesn't matter, She's the only family I have left" The Doctor shrugged his
eyes filling with tears again.
"You've got me and you'll have the baby when she's born" Clara tried to
reassure him "And you've got your other daughter Shaharia" Clara tried prying
for information.
The Doctor scoffed. "Shaharia doesn't even know I exist"
"What? How? You told Missy you'd tell her about Sarah" Clara asked unable to
hide her shock and confusion.
"And I would have but she doesn't know I'm her father, she doesn't even know
Missy is her mother. She still thinks she's human" The Doctor explained somely
"I'm still abit lost as to how Missy could be her mother, wasn't she a man
before?" Clara asked
"You know some male Gallifreyan's can bare children but this isn't the first
time Missy has been female. The first time She regenerated back on Gallifrey,
it was my fault but she regenerated into a female. We where still just kids
really only 100 years old" The Doctor explained absent mindedly
Flash back.
"Koschei come on catch up!" The young Doctor yelled over his shoulder as he ran
down the side of the mountain. They were skipping class again and sneaking out
of the academy for the day.
"Not my fault you've got longer legs Theta! I swear when I regenerate I'm being
taller with much longer legs" Koschei shouted back grumpy he hated being bested
by anyone.
"Good luck with that" Theta laughed.
They ran and laughed until they where half way down the mountain near where
they would meet the Shobogans for drinks some nights. Koshei had managed to
catch up with Theta and cheered with Joy as he raced past him running as fast
as his shorter legs could carry him completely unaware that Theta had purposely
slowed down to let him win.
"Who's the slow one now Theta" Koshei taunted looking over his shoulder at his
friend too distracted to notice the canyon that was in front of him.
They had never come down this way before so where unprepared when Koshei feel
down the Canyon looking to Theta like he had been swallowed by the rocks. Till
the day he dies Theta will never forget the scream that tore from his friends
throat as he plummeted to the ground. Theta ran towards the opening falling to
his front to look over the edge.
"Koshei! Koshei!" Theta yelled as loud as he could his throat burning as he
yelled over and over his voice becoming horse and still no answer. A plan began
forming in his mind. It was at lest a 100 foot drop almost always deadly even
for a timelord but any chance of Koshei being alive he was gonna take it. Rocks
stuck out from the canyon wall, he could use those to climb down to his friend.
Theta slowly lowered himself over the edge searching for a foot hold. He placed
his foot on the first rock he found and it crumbled beneath his weight nearly
sending him plummeting to his death eventually after a few more close calls he
found one and began his decent.
Theta climbed down slowly lossing his footing plenty of times but the closer he
got he began to pick up on the haggard breathing of Koshei, the sound spurred
him on. Making him determined to save his friend. About 50 feet from the bottom
the rocks became too unstable to climb anymore so taking a deep breath he
jumped down the rest of the way. Landing with a "ooaf" a few feet from an
unconscious Koshei.
Theta shouted out in pain as he went to run towards Koshei, he had twisted his
ankle jumping. Deciding he needed to do a check on him self he discovered his
light clothing was covered in dirt and grime and torn in a few places. His
hands and knees where scratched and cut from the climb down and his ankle was
now very sore and swollen but all in all he was ok.
The same however could not be said for Koshei who's breathing had become very
shallow and slow. Theta knew he wasn't gonna make it. His breathing wasn't
strong enough and his limbs and neck were all at odd angles.
Koshei groaned in pain as an orange glow began to seep out of his very pores.
Theta was momentarily blinded as a burst of regeneration energy blasted from
Koshei. His screams filling the cave as every cell in his body repaired and
changed. Theta curled into a ball as tightly as possible pressed up against the
wall to try and escape the regeneration energy last thing he wanted was to get
sick from regeneration poisoning.
Eventually the screaming stopped and Theta could no longer feel the burning on
his tightly closed eye lids.
Opening his eyes slowly and carefully Theta was slightly taken back by what he
saw in front of him. Stood where his best friend had been laying and in his
clothing was a girl around his own apparent age with long blonde hair green
eyes and a sprinkling of freckles across her nose. Theta stared at her mouth
hung open.
"Theta?" She asked her voice quivering with uncertainly and fear "wow that
sounded weird, high pitched" Koshei whispered before looking down at his body,
his eyes landing on the two mounds sticking out of his chest.
"I'm. No! Yes! I'm I'm... Female" Koshei explained jumping from horrified to
excited. She slid her hand under the waistband of her trousers and between her
legs
"Oh my! Deffinatly female. Ooo that feels different" Koschei moaned as she
stroked and rubbed between her legs with one hand the other reaching up to
pinch her nipple over her torn shirt.
Theta watched with wide eyes as Koshei threw her head back in pleasure he had
to admit he found the sight quite erotic he'd never seen a woman pleasure
herself before and it was doing strange things to his reproductive system that
he didn't understand. Theta watched as Koshei brought herself to orgasim with a
loud scream of pleasure.
"Well now that was certainly something" Koshei smiled once she had caught her
breath again.
Koshei looked over to Theta her pupils blown and cheeks flushed. "Enjoy the
show?" She asked cheekily with a seductive wink when she noticed the bulge in
Theta's trousers.
Koshei walked towards Theta swaying her hips seductively, her entire body
oozing sexual confidence. She placed herself on Theta's lap bucking her hips so
her core rubbed against his crotch before kissing him as hard as she could.
Before Theta had time to make sense of what was going on Koshei had removed
their clothing and was sinking down onto him and riding him like the world was
about to end.
They laid on the ground side by side afterwards and panic began building as
they both sensed the moment their child was concieved.
End of flashback
"Koshei took a year out of the academy after that, her parents took her to
earth where she gave birth to our daughter and left her on a church door step.
The timelords never knew, it's a crime on Gallifrey to have sexual relations
during the academy not to mention the ridicule for the child to be born out of
breeding pairs. It was for the best" The Doctor explained sadly
"Doesn't make it hurt any less tho does it?" Clara tried comforting the Doctor
with a hand on his shoulder.
"No no it doesn't" He whispered as a tear fell from his eye.
***** Secrets and Confessions *****
"Snap!" I shouted triumphantly slamming my hand down on the small pile of cards
sat on the bed between Jack and I. We had been playing cards for a few hours
now and I had won nearly all of them.
"Your cheating you have to be!" Jack chuckled as I picked up the pile of cards
leaving Jack with only 2 more of his own.
"I've just got quicker reflexes than you that's all" I smiled placing a new
card down on the bed.
"Should have make this strip snap, winner has to remove clothing" Jack flirted
"I think you'll find the rules say it's the Loser that has to do that" I teased
leaning closer to Jack
"I invented the game so I can change the rules" Jack whispered seductively
moving even closer so our breath mingled together
"You did not invent strip poker" I said in disbelieve leaning back from Jack.
"A gambling game that requires the looser to undress and more often than not
leads to sex? do you really think it could be anyone other than me?" Jack said
quirking an eyebrow
"I don't know if I should take you serious or not when you say things like
that" I laughed
"Hey I'm always serious" Jack protested in mock offense
"Name one thing your serious about" I challenged throwing a card at him.
"You" Jack replied looking me straight in the eyes completely seriously. The
intensity of his gaze make me blush as he leaned in and kissed me softly.
"Jack! Emergency Martha and Mickey need our help out at the quarry" Gwen said
bursting into my room, completely ruining the moment.
"Is Clara back yet?" Jack asked as he sat up and pulled his boots on.
"No not yet" Gwen answered
"I'll be fine, Dad's just in his TARDIS if I need anything" I reassured Jack
when he stopped lacing up his boots and turned to look at me.
"you promise you won't get out of bed? And call your dad if you need anything?"
He asked reluctantly
"Cross my hearts. now go be a captain, your team needs you" I said pushing him
towards the door.
"I won't be long, promise" Jack said giving both me and my bump a quick kiss
before running out the door with Gwen.
I waited the standard 10 Minutes before getting out of bed and heading towards
the main hub as quickly and quietly as a heavy pregnant woman who hasn't been
out of bed in months could. I headed straight for my desk and waited for the
desktop to start up drumming my fingers on the desk impatiently. I needed to be
quick, Clara could come back any minute. Finally, the desk top loaded up and I
began to work quickly putting up firewalls so the guys out on the field
couldn't see that had logged on or what I was doing. I needed a train ticket to
London for as soon as possible.
I was just about to check out when I heard voices. I quickly opened a new tab
for mothercare just as my Dad and Clara appeared round the corner.
"What are you doing out of bed?" Clara scolded
"I've a baby due in about a month and nothing for her so I'm shopping" I lied
with a smile
"You could have asked for a laptop" Clara pointed out
"I was bored and needed out of that room before I went insane!" I retorted
slightly dramatically
"You're lying" Dad accused "And don't try and deny it, I can tell"
"Don't be silly why would I lie?" I laughed nervously.
"No idea but you are. I'm your father I know these things" Dad said stubbornly.
I looked at dad trying to decide if I should come clean or not as he continued
to stare back at me his eye brows in attack mode and his jaw set determinedly.
I could see why monsters turned and ran from him he looked quite intimidating.
I looked down unable to keep eye contact when he looked at me like that and was
just about confess when I noticed his bandaged hand.
"Oh my Gallifrey! What happened?" I exclaimed jumping of my chair and waddling
towards him as fast as possible, gently cradling his bandaged hand in both of
mine.
"I may have punched through a chalk board" He answered sheepishly.
"What? Why?" I asked confused
"Your father has something to tell you. Don't you Doctor?" Clara said raising
an eyebrow at dad leaving him no room to argue.
"Now? you want me to tell her now?" Dad panicked
"No time like the present" Clara chirped
"What's going on? Dad you can tell me. I'll not get upset. You've already told
me I'm going to die can't get much worse than that" I said trying to joke but
dad's heartbroken face made me regret it instantly "Sorry bad joke" I
apologized
"Do you remember the time I told you about your brothers and sisters?" Dad
asked sheepishly
"OOO my stars?! Are you two having a baby? Am I going to be a big sister? Ooo
our babies can grow up together that's so cute!" I rambled excitedly completely
forgetting for a moment I'd never get to meet the baby.
"What?! No, no, no, no. No babies here! I can promise you that" Clara exclaimed
looking terrified.
"It does involve you having a sibling. Do you remember Missy?" Dad asked
"The woman who kept me captive and drugged for months making me miss most of my
pregnancy and the times I was awake threated to take my baby? Yea think I
remember her" I replied angrily folding my arms over my chest.
"You know she wasn't always that bad. She used to be nice" Dad explained
"You're not gonna tell me she's my sister are you? Because that might be worse
than the whole dying thing" I asked suddenly worried
"No! and would you please stop treating dying so casually. It's not! You're
going to leave a little girl without her mother and the rest of us heartbroken
that you are gone and to you it's just one big joke. Like you're just gonna die
and everything will be ok, we will all just get on with our life's like nothing
ever happened because that's never gonna happen Sarah! We may not have been in
each other's lives very long and we may not always get along but you gave me
something that I never thought I'd be capable of having again, a family and now
it's all going to be taken away from me just like that and you don't even care!
Well I care! And Jack cares and Clara cares the whole of bloody torchwood
cares! So why can't you!!" Dad shouted getting louder and angrier as he went
along.
"I'm sorry ok, If I act like it's a big deal then it becomes a big deal and I'm
just not ready for that. I don't want to leave her without a mother or Jack or
any of you guys but its's me or her and she deserves it way more than I do. The
jokes help make it seem less real to me. The only thing getting me though this
is not taking it seriously and knowing that she will be safe and I'll get to
see my Gran and James again but I'm sorry I'll stop, I never stopped to think
how it would affect you guys and I am sorry" I said trying to hold back tears,
I felt really bad about how I was treating all this and going to London was
just gonna make it all worse for everyone.
"What the hell do you think you are doing!" Jack shouted across the Torchwood
hub from the street entrance
"I'm going back to bed now don't worry" I called back feeling very tired
suddenly.
"Not that. London! What the hell are you doing going to London!" Jack demanded
marching towards me.
"What!" Dad and Clara both exclaimed together.
"How did you know that?" I asked cautiously knowing there was no point in lying
about it this close he'd pick up on my emotions and know I was lying.
"When your account went live then disappeared a few seconds later I was worried
someone had broken into the hub so rushed over and you were broadcasting quite
loudly about London" Jack explained sounding very annoyed.
"I have to go to London just for a day or two, I've got to sort stuff out for
James place I've a few legal things to sort out. I've already got 3 meetings
booked" I explained nervously.
"There is no way you can go to London Sarah, your due to give birth in a
months' time" Clara protested
"And that's a guess you could go any day now; we just don't know" Dad pointed
out.
"I really need to go. I need to sort this out and see a friend one last time
before I go" I begged. "Please"
Jack looked at me determined to say no until I started pouting and giving him
my best puppy eyes and making him feel just how desperate he was though our
connection. I felt him cave before he even said anything and smiled
triumphantly.
"Fine! But I'm going with you" Jack agreed reluctantly
"Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" I squealed jumping into his arms excitedly.
***** London *****
"Remember this is for emergencies only! You drive down and back, only use this
if you really have to. Time travel without a vehicle is rough and we don't want
to risk premature labour" Dad warned for the millionth time while sonicing
Jack's vortex manipulator so it would work again.
"Yes dad we know; trust me we don't want to risk losing any time together" I
said sincerely hooking my arm around Jack's
"And that's another thing. I know you like to have relations but it's too
risky" Dad warned going pink with embarrassment
"Is that true?" I asked him raising an eyebrow
"Well ah you know it's mostly true" Dad spluttered embarrassed
"What he means is yes its true but if your gentle and not at it all the time,
it should be OK" Martha laughed.
I stuck my tongue out at Dad before hugging everyone goodbye and getting into
the car. Jack had decided it was better to drive down that way we wouldn't need
to rely on public transport in London and I wouldn't have to walk any further
than necessary, which frankly I thought was a bit over kill but it was that or
not go.
By the time we had finished the 2 and half hour drive, I was exhausted and very
uncomfortable, my hips clicked as I waddled up the steps to the hotel Jack had
booked and my back felt like it might snap at any moment.
"So I have a bit of a surprise for you" Jack said excitedly "I've booked us in
here for 5 nights not 2, call it a bit of a pre-baby holiday and I've booked
you a full pregnancy pamper day that you can use whenever you want"
"Really?" I asked getting excited
"Really" Jack confirmed laughing
"Thank you thank you thank you" I cheered pulling Jack into a hug with
difficultly thanks to my ever growing bump.
"No problem princess" Jack laughed "Captain Jack Harkness" Jack flirted with
the woman behind the reception desk who instantly became a blubbering mess and
I just rolled my eyes I was so used to Jack flirting with everyone and
everything it didn't bother me, it's just who he is.
I used the opportunity to look around me. The lobby looked like it belonged to
a really expensive hotel, the floors where made from marble making it a little
slippy under my feet. A huge chandelier hung from the ceiling in the middle of
the large open lobby it was made from thousands of tiny little crystals and
reflected the light around the room. The walls where painted a rich cream
colour with large expensive looking paintings in gold frames dotted here and
there. Directly opposite the reception desk was the golden elevators.
I looked back at Jack and noticed him now flirting with a dark skinned man with
a shaved head dressed smartly in black trousers and a white shirt with the
hotel logo on and a name tag saying his name was Lorenzo.
"I'll be back in a moment princess just going to get our luggage" Jack smiled
kissing me on the head before leaving with Lorenzo.
"It's so nice to see a father take interest in his daughter a lot of men I see
come in here don't really care they just want to get their leg over the
prettiest 20 something year old they can find" The woman smiled, she had long
blonde hair that was tied up in a plat and large brown eyes her name badge read
"Ashley"
"He told you the baby was a girl?" I asked confused
"No he never mentioned the baby" Ashley frowned sounding just as confused as I
was.
"Then what- wait you think Jack's my father?" I laughed "Jack is my fiancé this
is his baby" I explained pointing down to my large stomach
"Oh. Am. I-I'm so sorry I didn't mean to cause any offence" Ashley stammered
embarrassed
"Ready to go up Princess?" Jack asked coming back with Lorenzo pushing a bell
trolley with our bags on it. Jack lent in and kissed me quickly before grapping
my hand and leading me towards the elevator.
As soon as the doors of the elevator closed with us all in it my mind became
filled with images of Jack pressing me up against the wall and kissing me
fiercely, his hands running all over my body and under the waistband of my
leggings, playing with me. The image was so strong it sent a shiver down my
spine, I shot a tentative look over to Jack who was looking straight ahead his
face completely blank of emotion until he noticed me staring and gave a small
cheeky wink out of the corner of his eye. He was doing it on purpose.
"What are you playing at?" I asked him through our mental connection which had
gotten a lot stronger over the past few weeks.
"Just showing you what I would be doing if we were alone, unless of course you
wouldn't mind an audience, he might even want to join in" Jack responded even
in my mind I could hear the cheeky edge to his voice.
The images he sent changed to being in-between Jack and Lorenzo as they both
kissed me, Jack's hand rubbing me through my leggings and Lorenzo's in my pants
fingering me roughly. I couldn't help the small moan I made despite it all just
being in my head and I couldn't decide if I wanted to pin Jack against the wall
and kiss him or slap him right now for it. I saw Lorenzo out of the corner of
my eye shift uncomfortably and thankfully the elevator chose that moment to
arrive at our floor and I practically sprinted out of it before I did something
to embarrass myself even more. I was half way down the corridor when I realised
I had no idea where I was going and Jack and Lorenzo had gone the other way.
Hurrying to catch up with them is not easy when you have what feels like a
bowling ball under your t-shirt.
"Figured out you were going the wrong way then" Jack chuckled
"Shut up" I muttered embarrassed taking his hand in mine so he knew I wasn't
mad.
"And here we are, the mermaid suite, please let me know if you need anything at
all, room service is available 24 hours a day. I hope you enjoy your stay in
the Marbella's hotel" Lorenzo said with a smile opening the door for us.
He wasn't wrong when he said it was a suite, it was huge! There was a sitting
area with an expensive looking sofa and two chairs in front of a light fire,
was a door to the left hand side which looked like it led to the bedroom.
beside one of the chairs was an ice bucket with what looked like champagne sat
in it along with a tray full of marshmallows, chocolate covered strawberries,
squares of chocolate and biscuits.
"Did you organise all this?" I asked Jack with tears in my eyes.
"I wanted it to be perfect for you, think of it as our honeymoon before the
wedding" Jack answered cupping my face in his hands.
"Thank you" I said as a tear fell from my eye we both knew what was unsaid in
that sentence. We needed to have our honeymoon now because I wouldn't be alive
for one after the baby was born.
Jack wiped the tear away gently before leaning in and kissing me softly. It
always amazes me how he can go from the sex crazed flirt to the most sensitive
and caring man in the world at the flip of a switch and it always makes me fall
in love with him more. Jack guided me to sit down on the mat in front of the
fire as Lorenzo left us alone before he opened the bottle of champagne and
poured us both a glass.
"Don't worry its actually just sparkling apple juice" Jack said as he handed me
a glass.
Back in Cardiff the Doctor and Clara where also enjoying some time alone. They
were laid on an old blanket on top of a grassy hill hidden behind a bush but
still with a clear view of the sunset. Their hands were intertwined between
their bodies. The Doctor was currently mid-way through a long speech about why
they sky turns red during a sunset and how on some other planet far away Clara
couldn't remember the name of the sky turned a violent shade of green at sunset
when Clara leaned over and kissed him passionately rolling so she was
straddling his hips, their hands still intertwined together.
"What was that for?" The Doctor asked bemused not quite meeting Clara in the
eye
"This is nice, just the two of us enjoying a sun set, no monsters, no aliens,
no daughter to walk in on us. It's nice" Clara smiled kissing the end of the
Doctor's nose
"You said it's nice twice, why are you repeating yourself? Are you ill?" The
Doctor asked sitting up and trying to check Clara over.
"I'm fine Doctor I promise, I'm just happy" Clara laughed pushing him to lay
back down.
"Well the impossible has happened then. Clara Oswald is happy" the Doctor
teased earning him a swat on the arm from Clara.
"Hey I'm not that bad I'm mostly happy" Clara defended herself with a frown
"Yes mam" The Doctor laughed before leaning up and kissing Clara again.
They deepened the kiss quickly Clara still straddling the Doctor. One of his
hands tangled in her hair the other running up and down her back stopping every
so often to cup her bum. Clara had unbuttoned the Doctor's waist coat and shirt
leaving them laying open as she ran her hand over his chest and down over his
soft belly. She was just about to reach for his belt when the shrill ringing of
her phone broke through the air. Groaning Clara rolled of the Doctor to reach
her phone and opening the text she received.
"Is it Sarah?" The Doctor asked worried sitting up
"No just some wedding stuff the reception venue wanting to confirm numbers, now
were where we" Clara grinned climbing back on top of the Doctor kissing him
passionately.
"Would it be more work for you if we turned it into a double wedding?" The
Doctor asked between long hungry kisses.
"I wouldn't think so why? You have another daughter I don't know about" Clara
joked
"I don't think so" The Doctor answered frowning before kissing Clara again.
"Then why would we need a double wedding? wait You do realise that a double
wedding means two couples right" Clara asked sitting up and narrowing her eyes
at the Doctor.
"Of course I do and I was thinking maybe we could get married" The Doctor
suggested shyly "Only if you wanted to of course" He added quickly.
"You really want to get married?" Clara asked as a huge smile broke out on her
face backing her eyes sparkle and the dimple on her chin show.
"Yes, I mean it's not that big of a deal I have been married 4 times before"
The Doctor answered with a shrug
"I'm just gonna ignore that you said that because I love you and I'd like you
to be alive on our wedding day" Clara said dryly
"So is that a yes?" The Doctor asked tentively
"Yes it's a yes, you idiot" Clara laughed before kissing the Doctor one more
time and this time she managed to get his belt off.
***** Breakfast *****
Breakfast
Sarah woke the next morning feeling better than she had in a long time, there
was no monitors bleeping to keep her up or whispered conversations between her
Dad and Martha. It was just Sarah, her bump and Jack pressed up against her
with his arm wrapped round her resting on her bump, both of them completely
naked but incredibly comfortable and warm. She had lost count how many times
they had ignored her father's advice and gone at it last night enjoying being
able to be in each other's company without someone walking in on them of course
they had been careful but it was the best night of Sarah's life by far knowing
that she was loved so deeply by a man like Jack who was as old and every bit a
lonely god as her father was. She still stared in disbelief at the hand laying
on her stomach the one that should someday adorn a wedding band from her even
only for a very short time. She placed her own left hand over his and stroked
his ring finger lightly so she wouldn't wake him up. Her heart swelling with
love and adoration for him that brought tears to her eyes because she couldn't
believe he could love someone as broken as she was, someone who still couldn't
talk about most of the things that went on in her past, who has had to say
goodbye to two son's and was now going to leave a little girl without a mother
and guilt washed over her as she thought of her daughter never knowing what it
would be like to have her mum put her too bed and read a story or plat her hair
none of the things she had always planned she would do with her own daughter.
Things that her own mother was too drunk or out of it too do and now she wasn't
even going to be here for her little girl at all.
"You're thinking very loudly" Jack mumbled kissing Sarah's bare shoulder.
"Sorry, go back to sleep" Sarah apologised her voice thick with emotion.
"Hey, hey what's wrong?" Jack asked softly turning Sarah so she was facing him.
Sarah buried her head into his chest while Jack wrapped his arms around her
shoulders pulling her even closer as she burst into tears. Jack whispered
comforting words in her ears and kissed the top of her head while Sarah cried
into his chest. Eventually her sobs turned to sniffles before disappearing into
small hiccups.
"Are you ok now princess?" Jack asked wearily not wanting to set her off crying
again
"Yea sorry, I didn't mean to cry on you like that, you should go back to sleep"
Sarah answered wiping her face and sitting up in the bed about to get out of it
but Jack pulled her back into the bed.
"It's ok you're allowed to cry you know, hormones and all that" Jack tried to
joke but Sarah shot him a dangerous look. "Alright not hormones then" Jack
defended with a bit of a laugh "How about breakfast?" He suggested brightly.
"Ok but I gotta shower first, I'm a little sweaty after last night" Sarah
answered switching from crying to flirty quicker than Jack could blink.
After a quick shower and changing into a pair of leggings and one of Jack's
blue shirts Sarah joined jack in going downstairs for breakfast. It was while
they were half way through their English breakfast which Sarah decided was not
a patch on the one they got from the café around the corner from the hub that
Sarah's phone ran with an unknown number.
"Hello?" Sarah asked once she had answered
"Hello Sarah?" The voice on the other end answered
"Yea, who's this" Sarah answered uneasily
"Oh sorry it's Hannah, sorry completely forgot I'm phoning of Terry's phone"
Hannah answered cheerfully and Sarah instantly relaxed "Listen I know we are
supposed to have dinner tonight just us and the kids but my mum's turned up,
could we do lunch instead? Mum wants to have the kids for a few hours and it
would be so great to have lunch without children talking over us" Hannah
explained the noise of children playing in the back ground getting louder as
she spoke.
"Yes of course. Same place?" Sarah asked
"Yes same place say around 12:30?" Hannah suggested before shouting for her
daughter Emma to get down of the counter.
"Great see you then" Sarah answered, just as she hung up she heard a Scottish
voice in the back ground say "oh, dear poppet you really are in trouble now
aren't you?
***** Lunch with a Show *****
Lunch with a show.
Sarah and Jack arrived at the place they were having lunch a few minutes
earlier after a very emotional shopping trip to mothercare to get a few
essentials for the baby and ended up buying enough to completely fill the car
not including the furniture which was being delivered to the torchwood hub in a
weeks’ time. It was while picking out Babygro’s that Sarah became quite
tearful.
“What’s wrong? The Babygro’s aren’t that ugly that I picked out are they?” Jack
asked in genuine confusion as Sarah stared down at this tiny pink sleepsuit
with “Mummy’s little Princess” written on it.
“I just realised, that I’m never going to get to see her in these, I don’t even
know if I’ll get to see her face” Sarah cried clutching the sleep suit to her
chest as tears rolled down her cheeks.
“You’ll see her face I promise and she’s always going to see yours I’ll have so
many pictures of you up for her it won’t even feel like you’re gone” Jack
promised pulling Sarah into a side hug, it was the only way he was able to hug
her properly these days with the huge bump in the way.
“It’s not the same though is it? A little girl should have her mother. My mum
may have been sick and twisted but at least she was there, what sort of a
mother can’t stay alive long enough to raise their baby?” Sarah asked painfully
as the guilt and grieve that had been building up in her since she found out
her fate started to raise to the surface and tears flooded out of her eyes
quicker than she could wipe them away.
“You didn’t choose to die, it’s not your fault, you’re doing the most selfless
act anyone could ever do and putting someone else’s life before your own” Jack
tried to comfort her, the words twisting in his throat making it hard for him
to breathe. He didn’t want to think about Sarah’s death, he didn’t want to
think about their little girl growing up without her mother and he didn’t want
to think about spending the rest of eternity without Sarah.
“But it’s not though is it? Not only am I leaving her without a mum but I’m
leaving you do to it all on your own” Sarah cried burying her face into Jack’s
chest, inhaling the scent that she never wanted to forget one that made her
feel safe and secure and completely at home.
“I won’t be completely on my own, do you really think Clara is going to let me
raise a child single headedly? She barely trusts me with you. I’m not going to
be able to get rid of her once the baby is here” Jack tried to joke but he
ended up choking on his words.
“Clara would be a good substitute mum; she’s still vetoed though for life”
Sarah warned
“Trust me I think you father would find a way to kill me indefinitely if I even
tried” Jack chuckled for real this time.
In the café Sarah and Jack where shown to a table and waited for Hannah to
arrive. Sarah clutches her back nervously the reason she is here hidden inside
of it. After a few moments a woman with blonde hair down to her shoulders, dark
brown eyes and a dusting of freckles over her nose sat down at the table in
front of them out of breath and looking slightly dishevelled.
“Sorry I’m late, got off at the wrong stop” Hannah apologised breathlessly as
she practically threw herself down on the seat before picking up the menu to
decide what to eat without even looking at Sarah or Jack.
“So what’s new with you? How’s Wyatt?” Hannah asked not looking up from the
menu.
Sarah looked at Jack uncomfortably, this was still a sore spot for her and
quite complicated to explain. “I haven’t seen him in a while, there was a mix
up he wasn’t really my son so he had to go back to his family, I hear from him
every now and again though. My son, James died” Sarah tried to explain going to
play with her neckless only remembering it wasn’t there once she had nipped her
neck by accident
“Oh I’m so sorry” Hannah offered sympathetically finally looking up at Sarah,
her eyes went wide at the sight of her large bump “But you’ve clearly been
busy” She teased looking over to Jack.
“Captain Jack Harkness” Jack flirted “Ouch” he protested as Sarah punched him
in the arm, hard.
“Veto, we have been through this no friends or family apart from the gang”
Sarah scolded Jack jokingly
“But come on she’s hot” Jack protested half-heartedly he was only teasing
Sarah, he secretly loved watching her get jealous sometimes.
“Still Vetoed do you really want to upset your heavily pregnant hormonal
fiancée?” Sarah teasingly threatened
“Yea probably not” Jack admitted remembering the last time he had pissed her
off she had made him sleep on the sofa.
“You two are so cute do you know that?” Hannah laughed “At least now I know my
husband is safe again” she teased
“Only because Jack would want to join in” Sarah muttered.
“You tried to steal her husband?” Jack asked sounding impressed
“No of course not, It’s a joke between the two of us that I fancy her husband
Terry” Sarah explained just then the waiter came over to take their order
before long they were eating and swapping stories of what they had been up to
in the past 2 years, Hannah telling Sarah how her children Jack an Emma were
getting on and Sarah ghosting over the details of her travels with her dad and
Clara and her job at torchwood telling her she was an IT expert for the
government. It felt just like old times to Sarah and she couldn’t believe she
had waited so long to reach out to her old friend again.
“actually there was a reason I wanted to meet you” Sarah started to explain
“I thought there would be why else would you get back in contact after 2 years”
Hannah sighed
“There’s no easy way to say this, I’m dying I’ve a genetic problem that
basically means that I won’t survive the birth of this baby and I have a favour
to ask of you” Sarah explained.
“A genetic problem? But you survived Wyatt’s birth or James’” Hannah asked in
disbelieve
“It wasn’t triggered then but it is this time” Sarah explained “The point is I
set up a charity in James’ name to help other victims of rape and abuse that
have ended up pregnant, it’s a home where they can get all the help and support
they need and be able to keep their babies when I die I need someone to take
over it for me. Jack is going to be too busy with work and the baby and I
thought you’d be ideal, there’s already a large sum of money in the account
that will keep it going for a while so it just needs someone to oversee it and
make sure everything ticks over ok and the girls are looked after”
“Wow you really have been busy setting all this up. I’d be honoured to do it
for you I really would” Hannah said in amazement
“I sense a but coming on here” Sarah laughed
“but it would depend on where it is. If it’s in wales, then I couldn’t uproot
Terry and the kids” Hannah said apologetically
“oh no sorry I forgot to say it’s here in London” Sarah added quickly.
“Oh well in that case yes I would love to do it for you” Hannah smiled. “Why
don’t we go back to mine afterwards and tell the kids, they have been dying to
see you again”
“Yea that would be great” Sarah smiled she had missed Jack and Emma, they had
been like her own children before Wyatt had been taken and she hadn’t seen them
in 2 years now.
The three of them finished lunch and Jack paid despite Hannah’s protest that
she could pay for her own. They decided to go in Hannah’s car and just come
back for their car later. Sarah was so excited on the way over she could barely
sit still. She couldn’t wait to see Jack and Emma again and practically ran
from the car to the front door when they arrived.
Hannah opened the door but instead of Jack and Emma, a woman stood in the
middle of the hallway. The woman who made Sarah’s blood run cold and a wave of
fear to come over her. She looked like the Mary Poppins from hell.
“Oh well done dear, you managed to bring the puppy and her sexy little toy back
with you” Missy spoke in an overly bright voice.
“Of course I did Mother, I said I would” Hannah smiled kissing Missy on the
cheek.
Sarah and Jack made to turn around and leave but Missy pulled out her device
and the door closed and locked behind them.
“Deadlock seal dears, you’re not going anywhere” Missy smiled
***** Mother of the Year *****
Mother of the Year.
Sarah woke up to find she was bounded to a chair, her arms behind her backs and
feet tied to the legs of the chair. She recognised the room instantly, she was
in Hannah’s attic surrounded by piles of boxes filled with old toys and baby
stuff, the Christmas tree box and decorations stood against the wall opposite
Sarah, the small skylight she knew was just behind her and casting a mid-
evening glow around the room. Sarah quickly looked down at her bump terrified
she had been unconscious for a long time but her bump didn’t look any bigger
and she could still feel the baby wiggling around and she sighed a sigh of
relief. She looked to her left and saw Missy and Hannah stood with Jack laying
on the floor his eyes where closed but she could make out the rise and fall of
his chest so knew he was knocked out and her heart sunk, if he was dead he
could come round at any minute and help her but knocked out meant he could be
out for as long as Missy wanted.
“Ok so this is dull. Can’t you just pop the sprog out and we can go?” Missy
asked dismissively.
“I’m not even due for another 4 weeks” Sarah said trying to draw her knees up
to her stomach to protect her unborn child.
“Well this is just going to get incredibly boring then” Missy sighed “How about
a story? I’m sure you’re probably dying to know what your dear friend Hannah
here, has to do with all of this? I could tell you, you know but you have to
say please” Missy smirked.
Sarah did want to know, she felt hurt and betrayed, Hannah was the one who took
her and Wyatt in when they had nowhere to go, Sarah had babysat for Hannah
while she went to work. She couldn’t make sense of it. Why had her best friend
suddenly changed? She needed to know but she didn’t want to give Missy the
satisfaction. So, she sat quietly not saying anything. Personal problems can
wait now was about survival and keeping her baby safe.
“Say please or I’ll disintegrate your little toy here” Missy threatened
pointing her silver device at Jack annoyed at Sarah’s refusal to answer “He may
be immortal but I don’t think even he could come back from that. Although I
don’t get what you see in him, he’s pretty but he’s all wrong doesn’t he just
make your skin crawl?” Missy said pretending to shiver “Too many paradoxes”
“Fine! Please” Sarah shouted in a panic, Missy was right she had no idea if
Jack would come back from being disintegrated, he had survived being blown
apart but only just and he said it had been very painful. She couldn’t risk it
just in case.
“You could have been a bit nicer about it but I’ll take it” Missy grumbled
rolling her eyes “It’s a pity I’d like to see if he would survive it or not,
maybe I’ll do it anyway after the sprog is here” Missy said looking down at
Jack and kicking him slightly with the toe of her shoe.
“Well I’m sure even your little half breed brain could figure out that Hannah
is my daughter, the daughter that I lost so very long ago. Have you ever
wondered why I spend so much time trying to take over this silly little rock? I
was looking for my daughter” Missy explained walking around Sarah like a
predator stalking her prey, her heels clicking on the wooden floor boards.
“Of course it had the bonus of annoying your Daddy dearest” Missy smirked
picking up a small section of Sarah’s long brown hair and twisting it around
her finger. “He never could stand my schemes and plans, don’t think he ever
guessed my real intention or maybe he just didn’t care enough” Missy sounded
slightly sad as she said this before shaking herself and twirling around the
small attic space. “So! I’ve got my girl back now I just need your little sprog
and then she can pop back change it so I’ve never lost her and then pop back
here again and no paradoxes to deal with” Missy said cheerfully placing her
hands-on Sarah’s bump and closing her eyes as if she was able to sense the baby
within.
“No one could change that no matter what there would be paradoxes” Sarah
protested trying to move away from Missy but her bounds where to tight.
“Oh dear, you still don’t get it do you?” Missy asked in mock sympathy “Child
of the universe with blood of Gallifrey and of Earth. Power of the Vortex, her
destiny since before times birth. Time must obey her, the rules are hers to
make. Time and space are forever at stake. The Timelord Victorious shall rise
forever more. Conceived behind the blue wooden door” Missy recited, Sarah was
really getting fed up of hearing that stupid prophecy.
“It means that your precious little mutt will be able to rewrite the rules she
can give me back my daughter without my own timeline disintegrating, of course
it also means that she can rewrite the whole of the universe leaving me Queen”
Missy laughed victorious.
“What makes you think that she would do any of that? She’s just a baby” Sarah
shouted fear for her unborn daughter overwhelming her.
“Exactly that dear. She’s just a baby which makes her perfect to be moulded and
shaped by her Auntie Missy, into the perfect weapon” Missy whispered the last
bit into Sarah’s ear while stroking her bump almost lovingly.
“She’s not a weapon she’s just an innocent little baby” Sarah protested tears
forming in her eyes.
“For now and besides what do you care? You’re going to be oh so deliciously
dead by then” Missy gloated
“My dad won’t let you do it. He’ll stop you, you know he will and Jack” Sarah
said determined deciding to try a different tactic.
“Oh please I could keep your little toy over there unconscious for centuries,
long after my plan has succeeded” Missy scoffed “As for Daddy dearest well he
wouldn’t hurt the mother of his first born, would he?” She said innocently.
“Oh he hasn’t told you has he?” Missy laughed seeing the confused look on
Sarah’s face “Hannah is your sister”
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