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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Togainu_no_Chi
  Relationship:
      Shiki/Rin
  Character:
      Rin_(Togainu_no_Chi), Shiki_(Togainu_no_Chi)
  Additional Tags:
      Incest, Underage_Sex, Canon-Typical_Violence
  Stats:
      Published: 2012-05-04 Words: 1084
****** Cutting Bonds ******
by yhibiki
Summary
     Rin and Shiki share a bond that nobody else understands. Until the
     day that bond is severed.
Rin notices Kazui shift uncomfortably the moment Shiki is gone.
"He's your brother, yeah?" he asks, rubbing his neck.
Rin nods and waits for Kazui to continue.
"It's just-- is that normal? The way he looks at you?"
"How does he look at me?" He thinks back on Shiki's visit, but nothing seemed
out of the ordinary. Just Shiki checking up on him, giving him a few updates
and training him a bit.
It takes a moment for Kazui to answer. "The way I look at you."
That's a strange response, Rin thinks, because he doesn't quite see the problem
with it. Isn't that how brothers are supposed to look at each other?
--
Later that night, Rin opts to go to Shiki's apartment instead of staying with
Kazui. It's good to spend time with family, after all.
Neither of them is a good cook, so they buy food and eat it straight from the
box in the living room. Shiki doesn't say anything, but then, he rarely does.
Rin fills the silence, talking about Bl@ster and his team and how Kazui has
really been teaching him a lot of things.
When they are done with the meal, they set the cartons on the living room
table. Shiki looks at Rin, his face as expressionless as it always is, but Rin
knows him well enough to be able to read it. It's the same expression as almost
every night they spend together.
Rin moves down along the sofa until he is practically sitting in Shiki's lap
and rests his head against Shiki's shoulder. Shiki's arm comes around to lie on
Rin's back. This is something they always do, they've always done, when they're
alone together. Shiki doesn't speak much with words, but his actions take care
of it for him.
It's soothing. Rin feels himself growing slightly drowsy as Shiki strokes his
back.
"Have you considered going solo?" Shiki asks. His voice sounds odd, but it
could be Rin's sleepiness.
Rin leans back so he can look Shiki in the eyes. "Why would I do that?"
"Because you're better than the rest of your team. You don't need them to win
in Bl@ster."
It's very flattering of Shiki to think so. Part of Rin wants to agree
immediately, because if Shiki values Rin that highly -- but truth be told, Rin
doesn't care about winning. He wants to be together with his friends.
There's no point in trying to argue with Shiki though, because it would only
put Shiki in a foul mood.
Instead, Rin grins and pecks Shiki's cheek. "Hey, let's do fun things instead.
I didn't really come here just to talk about Bl@ster."
Shiki snorts. "You and your one-track mind."
There are no further words between them, not really. Shiki does this quietly,
as he does almost everything. He is efficient in divesting them both of their
clothes, and he is efficient in making Rin feel good. It's different from
Kazui, who likes taking his time, but it's a good type of different. Rin likes
being overwhelmed, and he likes knowing that Shiki understands him so well.
The couch isn't quite large enough for both of them to lie on it, but it's fine
for Rin to sit on Shiki's lap and loosely embrace him. Shiki keeps him close
even as he wraps his hand around both their cocks and starts stroking.
The only sounds are the slide of skin against skin and their breathing -- it
feels like Shiki is breathing right next to Rin's ear, loud and heavy, proof
that he's as much affected by this as Rin is. And Rin knows -- he knows,
completely -- that Shiki never does this with anybody else. This is something
reserved for the two of them.
Rin scrambles to kiss Shiki when he feels himself nearing the edge; he mouths
Shiki's name against his lips as he comes.
Nobody else can share this bond of theirs.
--
Shiki leaves before Rin wakes up, as usual. Rin doesn't worry, just showers and
gets dressed. He'll see Shiki again soon, whenever Shiki feels the need to
check up on him.
He's in a good mood when he heads to Pesca Corsica headquarters, already
smiling and calling out to them before he's entered the building.
Silence greets him.
Silence and blood, splattered across the floor at his feet.
Rin's hands shake. He can't-- he can't take another step. If he takes another
step, he knows what he will see. He doesn't want to see it. He's terrified of
the possibility. As long as he goes no further, everything could be fine.
He stands, petrified, for ten minutes. For half an hour. Rin isn't counting the
time. But, finally, he manages to take that first shaky step. Another, another.
The first body makes him throw up.
Rin heaves and rests, and tries not to think that everything he is smelling
right now is blood. He forces himself to breathe through his mouth, and once he
thinks he can't smell anything anymore, he crawls forward.
His knees scrape across the concrete floor and smear the blood.
And then he sees Kazui.
There is no moving forward anymore. Rin slumps down against his body, and the
first real sob shakes him. His cheek rests against the long cut along Kazui's
chest, and his tears mingle with the blood.
"I'm sorry," Rin whispers. He doesn't know what he's sorry for. Would things
have been different, had he stayed? Would Rin be another stain in the concrete?
Rin clenches his fist and cries, loud and messy. He cries until the tears don't
come anymore, until his breathing is too shallow to sustain another wail of
sorrow.
And once he is done, he knows what he has to do. He has to avenge them. All of
them, but especially Kazui. He has to kill the person who murdered his family.
He has to kill...
Rin traces the ridge of Kazui's wound. A long, sharp sword did this. His
fingers clench and his heart, already broken, seems to shatter further.
He has to kill Shiki.
"You hear that, you bastard?" The rage starts building. Rage is better than
sadness, is better than indifference, Shiki always told him. Well, Rin intends
to put that lesson to good use. "I'm going to kill you. I'm going to fucking
kill you!"
Whatever bond they had last night, Shiki severed it with his actions. Rin
intends to burn the remainder, so they can never be tied together again.
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