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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Smallville
  Relationship:
      Clark_Kent/Lex_Luthor, Lex_Luthor/Original_Male_Character
  Character:
      Clark_Kent, Lex_Luthor
  Additional Tags:
      Angst, Teen_Angst, Past_Abuse, Romance
  Series:
      Part 2 of Clue_Series
  Stats:
      Published: 2001-07-20 Words: 15552
****** Clued Up ******
by hergerbabe
Summary
     Clark and Lex continue to have problems and Lex's past catches up
     with him
Notes
     Reposting old fic by request :)
                            ****** Clued Up ******
===============================================================================
Pairing: Clark/Lex
Rating: NC-17
Category: angst, romance
Sequel/Series: Sequel to Clueless, starts the day after Clueless finishes
Archive: list archive
Notes: Anything after the episode Hug does not exist in this fic, except for
parts of Leech, which I’ve seriously messed about with.
Warnings: underage sex, rape, violence
Disclaimer: nope, still not mine
Summary: The past catches up with both Clark and Lex
For Christine and Caroline, thanks for the encouragement :)

Clued Up

“Clark?”

Clark rolled over in his bed and sighed. “Coming, Mom,” he called, feeling a
distinct lack of enthusiasm. When they’d got in the previous night, Clark had
already gone to bed, and he’d been glad of the day to himself, despite it
giving him too much time to brood.

Only the fact that he had a weekend’s worth of chores and that he didn’t know
when to expect his parents had stopped him from just running over to Lex’s. Of
course, his chores had taken all of ten minutes, so he’d cleaned the entire
house, twice, done the laundry, fixed every single inch of fence that could
possibly need fixing and still he’d had far too much time to brood.

“Clark! Come on, your breakfast is getting cold, honey.”

“Sorry, Mom, be right down.” Clark sighed again and zipped through showering
and dressing, before hurrying down to the kitchen. His mother and father looked
at him curiously and he plastered a smile across his face. “Hey, Mom, Dad, did
you have a nice weekend?”

“Yes, Clark, it was lovely, thank you,” Martha smiled up at him and he leaned
down to kiss her cheek. “Did you have a nice time?”

He grinned genuinely at her, hearing the underlying question, “Yes, Mom, don’t
worry, I learnt my lesson after last time. I just spent the night in the loft,
watched the stars.” Clark trailed off, managing to keep his smile in place as
he remembered the only stars he’d seen were behind his eyelids each time he and
Lex had made love.

He sighed, staring down at his breakfast.

Martha and Jonathan Kent exchanged confused, slightly concerned glances.

“Clark?” Martha asked gently, “Did something happen?”

“No!” Clark exclaimed, then winced as he realised he’d spoken much too fast and
far too loudly. “I mean, nothing weird anyway.” They were still staring. Clark
sighed. “I had an argument with Lex, and it’s just… I *know* I’m right, but he
just won’t listen.”

“Oh, sweetheart. Sometimes friendships are like that,” Martha started.

“Yeah, especially with a Luthor.” Jonathan mumbled, getting glares from both
his wife and his son. He rolled his eyes and stood up. “I’m sure he’ll get over
himself when he remembers you’re the only friend he’s got,” he said as he left
the house.

Clark sighed again and shoved his breakfast away. He’d lost his appetite, his
father’s comment just reminding him how irrevocably things had changed.

“Sweetheart?” Martha frowned in concern.

“I’ll be fine, Mom,” Clark assured her hurriedly, he didn’t want to answer any
awkward questions, “I’ll go see him tonight, okay?”

She nodded warily, “I’m sure you’ll both sort it out. I mean look at you and
Lana after the problems with Kyle.”

“This is a little more serious, Mom,” Clark said quietly, leaving the house.

Martha sat back in surprise. If it was more serious than an argument with
*Lana*, then it must be really serious. She wondered a little worriedly if it
had anything to do with Clark’s gifts. She knew Clark hated lying to his
friends, and he considered Lex his best friend.

Quickly, she got up and hurried after him, but he’d already gone.

@>*~

Lex was up and dressed even earlier than usual. Hardly surprising considering
he’d barely slept. It wasn’t easy to get thoughts of Clark out of his head when
every time he moved, he could feel a slight, pleasant burn in his ass from
having Clark inside him. And every time he felt it, he vividly remembered every
touch, every kiss, every sigh.

But unfortunately, the world didn’t revolve around his heartbreak and he didn’t
have the luxury of brooding. Hopefully, the satisfaction of today’s meeting
would take his mind off the rest of his life.

And hopefully, his father’s pleasure at the coming success would offset the
coming confrontation. After all, he wasn’t so naïve as to believe Jeff wouldn’t
go running straight to his father.

Lex forced himself to sort out his paperwork then made a phone call to book a
suite at a hotel for the night. There was no way he could face staying the
night in his apartment, not yet. His bag was packed and already in the car and
with a sigh, he drove away from Smallville again. He tried to ignore the
feeling that he was running away. After all, the meeting had been scheduled for
two weeks.

@>*~

Clark stood and stared at his open locker blankly. It had been a very long day
and he’d been constantly preoccupied thinking about Lex. It had been hard work
not to go over that weekend again and again in his mind; not to imagine Lex
moving against him, in him, him in Lex. But the fear of getting a hard on in
school had helped.

It hadn’t stopped him from worrying about Lex, and what he was going to say.

“Okay, what gives?”

“Huh?” Clark blinked and turned to see Pete and Chloe staring at him.

“You’ve been staring at your locker for ten minutes,” Chloe raised an eyebrow.

“Yeah, and you’ve been acting weird all day, man,” Pete nodded.

Clark sighed, “I just have a lot on my mind.”

“What, more than usual?” Pete chuckled. Clark shrugged.

“Nothing to do with the lovely Lana?” Chloe asked, only slightly sarcastically.

“No,” Clark answered tightly, “Not everything revolves around Lana.”

“Oh, you do surprise me,” Chloe snorted.

Clark stared over their heads, trying to calculate how long it would be before
he could see Lex again.

“Clark, man, what is up with you?” Pete frowned at him, then glanced at Chloe
who shrugged.

“I’m fine, really,” Clark tried to assure them.

“Is it Lex?” Chloe asked.

“What?!” Clark snapped, “Why do you say that?”

“Geez, pardon me I’m sure,” she raised her hands. “Process of elimination. If
it’s not Lana, and I’m pretty sure it’s not us, well, Clark, you don’t have any
other friends.”

“Oh gee, thanks for that,” Clark grimaced.

“Oh, come on, Clark, I didn’t mean it like that,” she said apologetically.

“Whatever,” Clark shook his head and slammed his locker shut. “Look, I gotta
go. I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?”

They nodded, staring at him like he’d grown a second head. He could feel them
staring after him as he walked away, and he couldn’t bring himself to care.

@>*~

Lex watched a triumphant Sir Harry Hardwick and a slightly awkward Victoria
leave the meeting room before he let himself smile. Did they really think he
was *that* stupid? Sir Harry was just far too arrogant, an indulgence he and
his father rarely allowed themselves. Well, Sir Harry would quickly find out
the penalties of trying to cross the Luthors.

The victory was a little hollow though. He couldn’t help comparing Victoria and
Clark. Actually, there was no comparison. Someone like Victoria could never
hope to compare to Clark.

Lex sat down, wiggling slightly, allowing himself just a second of pleasure
from the action. Dear God it was going to be hard keeping Clark at a distance.
His friend was just so stubborn. It felt wrong not to confront his problems,
but in this case he was just going to have to avoid Clark as much as possible.

You didn’t enter into a battle you knew you couldn’t win, and Lex knew this was
one battle he had to.

If only they hadn’t run into Jeff, he might have been able to persuade his
father to let him leave Smallville. But then of course, if they hadn’t run into
Jeff, none of this would have happened. And try as he might, Lex couldn’t bring
himself to regret it.

@>*~

Clark speeded through his chores, even for him, and avoided his parents. They
looked as though they wanted to talk and he couldn’t face that right now.

He popped into the house long enough to say he was going over to Lex’s, but not
long enough for them to object. As quickly as he could, he ran to the castle.

He was let in by the new housekeeper. “Good evening, Mr Kent, I’m afraid Sir
isn’t in.”

Clark blinked disbelievingly, “What?”

“Sir, had a meeting in Metropolis today, he is not expected to return until
tomorrow evening,” she informed him.

Clark wasn’t sure whether to laugh or cry. He simply couldn’t believe that Lex
was avoiding him. Quickly, he scanned the entire house, but she was telling the
truth.

Clark sighed, he really didn’t know what to do now. “Um, do you know if it was
a business meeting? I don’t want to phone him and disturb him if it is,” he
asked, hoping it was. Hoping Lex wasn’t avoiding him.

“I believe Sir was meeting Ms Hardwick.”

Clark froze, his chest clenching painfully. “Oh okay, thank you. I’m sure I’ll
see him tomorrow,” he said on full automatic pilot. He walked stiffly out of
the building. Lex was with Victoria. *Lex* was with *Victoria*.

Bile rose in his throat and his breath started to hitch. He couldn’t quite get
his head round it. Lex was with Victoria. With a small cry, Clark ran home.
When he got there, he stopped outside the house and stared at it blankly. Lex
was with Victoria.

He stumbled and fell to his knees. Dropping his head back, Clark screamed as
the pain hit him. His chest hurt, his heart hurt, his brain hurt, *everything*
hurt. Oh God, how could he?

Clark was vaguely aware of his parents talking to him as his screams dissolved
into tears, trying to comfort him. He let them lead him into the house and
buried himself in his mother’s arms, his sobs racking his body.

“Clark, Clark, please, what happened?”

As he calmed a little, Clark managed a reply. “He wasn’t there.”

Martha frowned questioningly at her husband. Jonathan shrugged. Both of them
were desperately worried and they definitely didn’t understand how or why Clark
was so upset.

“You can talk to him tomorrow,” Martha said quietly, hoping to comfort him.

Clark stiffened, then pushed her away. “No,” he whispered in a haunted voice,
“He made his choice, and it wasn’t me.” His voice broke and Clark ran up to his
room, flinging himself onto his bed.

The full force of his heartbreak and Lex’s lies and betrayal hit him again and
he buried his face in his pillow, crying until he fell into a fitful sleep.

@>*~

“I just don’t understand,” Martha frowned with almost terrified concern, “How
could he be so distressed, if Lex wasn’t even there?”

“I don’t know,” Jonathan shook his head, wrapping an arm round her shoulders
comfortingly. “I think I need to pay Luthor a little visit.”

“Are you sure that’s a good idea?” she asked quietly.

“I want to know what he did that could hurt Clark like that, don’t you?”

She nodded reluctantly.

@>*~

“Clark, you sure you’re okay?” Chloe asked her silent friend.

“Sure,” Clark answered automatically.

“Cool, let’s go then,” Pete nodded enthusiastically.

“Sure,” Clark repeated. He wasn’t sure how the hell he’d made it through
school. His mother had tried to persuade him to stay home, but he just
couldn’t. He needed something to take his mind off the pain. But school hadn’t
helped. He couldn’t get the image of Lex with Victoria out of his head and it
made him feel physically ill. It was even worse than the meteor rocks.

He had truly thought that above all else, Lex was his friend and he wasn’t sure
if it was that betrayal that hurt the most. That Lex could just lie to him and
use him like that and then run straight back to *her*.

He’d believed the words, could still hear the words ringing in his head; ‘Yes,
Clark, I love you too’.

He sighed and followed his friends without really seeing them. As they walked
into the Beanery, Clark knew he’d made a mistake. Lex was there, almost as if
he’d been waiting for him. He did the only thing he could do and keep from
either bursting into tears or losing his temper, he ignored Lex.

@>*~

Lex sat in the Beanery trying to pretend he was there for bad coffee and to
finish up the paperwork for the Hardwick take over. He allowed himself a small
smile as he remembered the meeting that morning, Sir Harry’s anger, Victoria’s
confusion and humiliation. He definitely wasn’t there to check on Clark, using
a public place so nothing could happen.

But when Clark did appear, Lex was shocked by the flash of pain in Clark’s eyes
before he turned away and ignored him. Whatever Lex had expected, he hadn’t
expected  Clark to ignore him. He was getting some odd looks from Chloe and
Pete, so he decided he should at least say hello.

He nodded at the pair who watched him warily, then turned his attention to
Clark. “Clark?”

Clark tensed. He couldn’t believe the nerve. How dare Lex come over and act as
if nothing had happened? “Lex,” he smiled tightly.

“Everything okay?” Lex asked with a frown. He’d thought he was the one with,
well not regrets exactly. But maybe now that he had had time to think about it,
*he* regretted what had happened. Lex had to bite back a gasp at the pain that
thought caused him.

“Sure, whatever,” Clark said, coldly polite. “Have a nice *meeting*?” he asked
sarcastically.

Lex frowned in confusion, “Well, yes actually. It was very satisfactory.”

Clark’s chest clenched and he stood abruptly, shoving Lex back in anger. “You
fucking, lying bastard,” he hissed and ran out.

“Clark?” Lex ran after him, ignoring the startled looks and gasps from the
other patrons of the café. “Clark!” He glanced up and down the street, but
Clark was already gone. Turning, Lex nearly walked into Chloe and Pete.

“I don’t know what the hell you did to him, but you better stay away from him,”
Pete growled.

“If it’s any help, I have no idea what I did to upset him like that,” Lex said
quietly. He was completely confused. Lex went back into the café to get his
things, refusing to hurry, despite feeling uncomfortable under all the curious
stares.

He drove home fast, trying to work out what Clark had meant. Hurrying inside,
he didn’t quite manage to avoid the housekeeper.

“Sir, Mister Nixon is waiting for you in your office. Oh and young Mister Kent
came to see you last night,” she told him.

Lex stopped on the stairs and turned round. “What did he say?”

“Well Sir, when I informed him of your absence, he enquired as to whether you
were in a business meeting because he didn’t want to phone and disturb you if
you were,” she explained.

Oh. “And what did you tell him?” he asked, trying not to squeeze his eyes shut.

“That you were meeting Miss Hardwick, Sir.”

Damn. “Thank you, that will be all.” She nodded and he continued up the stairs
slowly. Damn it! Clark must have thought he’d been *with* Victoria. Damn.

Lex paused at the top of the stairs. Maybe… maybe it was for the best. It was
quite possibly the only thing that would stop Clark from trying to continue
what they’d had together.

It hurt though. It hurt him badly that his only friend would believe him
capable of that betrayal, but… it was for the best, no matter how much it hurt
either of them.

Lex barely listened to Nixon talk. When he’d finished, Lex knew he had to stop
the investigation before anyone else found out and got curious. Before anyone
found out what Clark was truly capable of.

“Impossible,” Lex said quietly.

“But it’s the only explanation that fits all the parameters,” Nixon insisted.

“And it’s impossible,” Lex repeated, “Clark’s just an ordinary kid. He can be
hurt, I’ve seen it.” Emotionally at least. “The investigation ends.”

“But…” Nixon started.

“It ends now. Destroy the data, it’s useless.” Lex raised an eyebrow when Nixon
looked as though he was about to complain. Sensibly, Nixon nodded. “Good,
here’s your payment. Good day.” Lex dismissed him by turning away.

At the very least, Lex could protect the one person he loved.

@>*~

Clark was on the edge of losing it completely. Ever since he’d got home, his
parents hadn’t let up, trying to get him to talk, giving him worried looks. In
the end he’d retreated to his room.

He lay on his bed watching the darkening sky, going over and over the
confrontation at the Beanery. He wasn’t entirely sure now, what had happened.
Surely Lex wasn’t so vindictive as to rub it in like that, to want to hurt him
*so* badly? Then there had been that brief, flitting look of pain in Lex’s
eyes, that Clark had almost missed. And the look of utter confusion when he’d
shouted at him.

Surely Lex wasn’t so oblivious of how much he’d hurt him. How could he *not*
know that going straight from him to Victoria would hurt him? Had he got it
wrong?

Clark rolled over, clutching his pillow tightly, trying not to shred it. It was
just too hard, too confusing and painful. He just didn’t know what to think
anymore.

@>*~

A knock at the door startled him. “Come.”

“Sir, Mister Kent is here to see you.”

Lex tensed, trying to pull himself together. Why would Clark come and see him
now? “Show him in.”

Lex didn’t know whether to laugh or cry when Jonathan Kent walked into his
office. “Mister Kent,” he said warily.

“You’ve got some explaining to do, Luthor,” Jonathan growled.

“Really?” Lex drawled, adopting his usual manner easily.

“What the hell did you do to my son?”

“Mister Kent, I believe that’s between me and Clark. We had a disagreement, and
believe me, you would certainly take my side,” Lex smirked.

“Simple disagreements don’t leave my son in pieces, Luthor,” Jonathan stalked
closer.

Lex shut his eyes briefly. He wasn’t sure if he could hear how he’d hurt Clark
and not confess everything. Not to his father, but to Clark. “Believe me,
Mister Kent, it’s for the best.”

“Look, it’s no secret I dislike you, Luthor,” Jonathan grimaced slightly, “But
Clark considers you his best friend. And whatever this is, it’s killing him.”

Lex sighed, his heart clenching painfully. “It was never my intention to hurt
him, Kent, but I have. I don’t think there’s any way to get past it that won’t
end up hurting him more in the long run.”

Jonathan frowned in confusion. “I don’t understand.”

“I know, and I can’t explain. But it’s better for Clark if he believes the
worst of me,” Lex sat back in his chair with a sigh.

“I need you to explain,” Jonathan insisted, “I can’t help my son if you don’t.
If you care about him at all…”

“It’s because I care about him that I’m doing this,” Lex interrupted him. “It’s
for the best and that’s all I’m going to say about it.”

Jonathan clenched his jaw, trying to keep a hold on his temper. “You better
hope so.”

He stalked out and Lex dropped his head on his desk, relieved and exhausted. He
wasn’t used to so much happening to him emotionally in such a short time. And
he still had his father to deal with.

@>*~

“Well? What did he say?” Martha asked her husband anxiously.

“A lot of nonsense that didn’t make any sense,” Jonathan sighed, sitting down
heavily, “Whatever happened between them, he isn’t talking.

“What didn’t make sense?” she asked quietly.

“Something about it being best for Clark that he believed the worst of him. He
actually said if I knew what the argument was about, I’d take his side, can you
believe that?”

Martha sat back with a sigh. She’d had her suspicions, now they just seemed
more concrete. “Maybe.”

“Maybe what?” Jonathan asked.

“Maybe you would take his side.”

“What?” Jonathan was doubly confused now.

“Jon, don’t you think Clark’s reaction was a little extreme for someone arguing
with a friend?” she commented.

“Well, yes, but…”

“In fact doesn’t it strike you as a little extreme even for someone losing a
friend?” she continued.

“What are you getting at?” Jonathan frowned questioningly.

“Haven’t you ever noticed the way they look at each other?” Martha asked
quietly.

“What?!”

“I think Clark’s acting like someone who’s just had their heart broken,” she
whispered.

“Are you saying…”

“No, I’m guessing. I’m guessing they have feelings for each other and I’m
guessing they talked about it and Lex said no,” Martha looked at her husband,
trying to gauge his reaction.

“I, but,” Jonathan shook his head, “But he didn’t even see Luthor last night.”

“I know, but something happened. Something to make Clark believe the worst of
Lex, maybe?” She raised an eyebrow.

“I, I don’t know what to think anymore,” Jonathan sighed. “What are we going to
do?”

“What can we do? Is Lex right? He’s hurting Clark, but would a relationship
with Lex hurt him more? He’s only fifteen, Lex is twenty one. I want our son to
be happy, but which choice is the right one?” She sighed heavily.

“I don’t know, Martha, I don’t know.”

@>*~

“… so well done, Lex, I’m very pleased.”

“Thanks, Dad.” Lex tensed, waiting expectantly.

“Now, the small matter of your behaviour this weekend,” Lionel continued.

Lex snorted, “*My* behaviour? You should tell your pet to keep his hands to
himself.”

“Lex, I thought I’d made my position quite clear the last time,” Lionel
started.

“Don’t get on my case because I was dancing with an old friend,” Lex sighed.

“Really? I didn’t think you had any friends, Lex, at least not old ones.”

Lex froze, “What do you mean?”

“’CK’, Lex? You’ll have to do better than that.”

Shit. Shit, shit, shit! “Like I said, I went dancing with a friend,” he said
tightly.

“You’re trying to tell me, you took a fifteen year old to that club, just to
dance?” Lionel sounded more than a little disbelievingly.

“Yes,” Lex replied tersely.

“That’s not how Jeff tells it.”

“Clark was just being protective,” Lex said quietly. His mind was racing, how
much did his father know? He could never quite tell.

“You pay this boy an inordinate amount of attention for just a friend, Lex.”

Damn, he knew his investigations would attract attention. “Well, as you so
kindly pointed out, I don’t have many friends.”

“We’ll see,” Lionel said obtusely. “Expect a visitor tomorrow, see that you
treat him with the proper respect.”

“What?” Lex snapped. “Dad!” There was no answer but the sound of the tone.

Shit!

@>*~

When Clark woke up, his first thought was surprise that he’d slept at all.
Although it didn’t feel like he’d slept. He felt drained, emotionally,
physically, and damn, everything still hurt so much. He forced himself through
his morning routine on automatic, not really caring about anything.

At breakfast, his parents were giving him odd looks and it made him feel even
worse. Thankfully though, they didn’t try to ask him what was wrong. When his
father had gone back out, his mother turned towards him and Clark waited
expectantly.

“You know, the most important part of friendship is trust,” she said quietly.

Clark frowned, “I know that.”

“And you trust Lex, don’t you?”

“I did,” Clark clenched his jaw and blinked away sudden tears. He didn’t want
to have this conversation. “He betrayed it.”

“Did he?” Martha asked her son gently. She wasn’t sure if she was doing the
right thing, but she couldn’t bear that haunted look in his eyes any longer.
“Whatever it is you think he’s done, you haven’t spoken to him about it, have
you?”

Clark shook his head warily.

“Well, don’t you think you should? He’s your friend, Clark, don’t you think you
owe him that much?”

“There’s nothing to talk about,” Clark snapped, almost at his limit.

“There’s always something to talk about, even if it’s just for closure. If you
care about him, don’t make assumptions, believe in him until you know for
sure.”

Clark felt the colour drain out of his face. “Mom, what are you saying?” Was
she saying she knew? That she knew his feelings for Lex?

“I’m saying you should talk to him,” Martha repeated quietly. “You’re going to
miss the bus.”

Clark stared at her in confusion, then hurried out of the house. She couldn’t
know, surely? She couldn’t know and still encourage him to talk to Lex. Surely?

But it brought his train of thought back to where he’d ended up the previous
night. Why would Lex be *so* cruel? Why had he looked so confused. *Had* he
jumped to the wrong conclusion?

Maybe he should go and see Lex. But… but what if Lex *had* betrayed him? What
then? Clark wasn’t sure if he could take it again. But what if he was wrong, if
Lex did love him… he couldn’t stand not knowing for sure, now that he had all
these doubts.

@>*~

“Darling!” Jeff walked into Lex’s office like he owned it.

Lex grimaced, “Go away, Jeff.”

“Why, Lex, I’m so hurt. And here I was thinking you’d realised the error of
your ways,” Jeff drawled, sitting on the corner of Lex’s desk.

“This isn’t Metropolis, Jeff, I’m in charge here,” Lex sat up straighter in his
chair, refusing to give into the fearful anticipation he was feeling.

“And I’m sure you’d rather the locals didn’t know what you get up to with their
sons, Lex,” Jeff smirked, “Corruption of minors, Lex? I’m shocked, I really
am.”

“Fuck off! You’ve got nothing on me,” Lex snapped.

“Oh, I beg to differ. Your father has some very interesting footage from the
club security cameras.” Jeff laughed and Lex struggled to control himself.

“Are you going to share that delicious piece of teenage ass, Lex? Or are you
really *exclusive*?”

“You stay the fuck away from him!” Lex stood abruptly, anger overwhelming his
fear. Jeff lifted his hand and trailed a finger down Lex’s cheek. Lex forced
himself not to shudder.

“Well, now. If you’re *very* nice to me, I might be persuaded,” Jeff whispered
suggestively.

Lex clenched his jaw and swallowed convulsively. “Get out,” he hissed.

“Oh now, I don’t think that’s an option, do you? Your father wouldn’t be very
pleased if I didn’t earn my pay. And besides, I do so love my job,” Jeff
laughed.

Before Lex had a chance to say anything, Jeff smashed him in the face. Lex felt
his head connect painfully with the wall and everything went black.

@>*~

“You coming, Clark?” Chloe asked, sharing a worried look with Pete. After what
had happened yesterday, Clark was even more quiet than he’d been the rest of
the week. And neither of them could get him to talk about it.

“No,” Clark shook his head. He knew they were worried, but what was he supposed
to tell them? “I have to see Lex.”

“Are you sure that’s a good idea, man?” Pete asked quietly.

“I have to. I didn’t even give him a chance to talk,” Clark tried to explain.

“Okay, but, you know we’re here for you, right?” Chloe said earnestly.

Clark managed a tiny smile, “Yeah, thanks guys.”

Clark walked slowly to Lex’s instead of running. He still needed to think. What
was he going to say? Was he doing the right thing? Yes. Yes, he was. He had to
know one way or the other.

When nobody answered the door, Clark got a little worried. All of Lex’s cars
were in and even if Lex wasn’t there, the housekeeper should have been. After a
split second of hesitation, Clark forced the door and went inside, quietly
looking round.

The eerie silence was shattered by a muffled scream and Clark ran to Lex’s room
as fast as he could.

@>*~

Lex came around again, wondering if, hoping it was over now. His head hurt and
his vision was still blurry from where he’d hit the wall. Breathing was
difficult, he was pretty sure a couple of ribs were broken. Trying to move, he
hissed with the pain from the numerous welts on his back, ass and thighs. The
dried blood felt sticky and uncomfortable. But worst of all was the searing
agony from his shredded ass. He couldn’t hold back a moan of pain and froze
when weight shifted on the bed.

“Lexie, awake at last,” Jeff purred. He prodded the gashes on Lex’s ass none
too gently and Lex choked back a sob. “Ready for another round? I must say, I
missed your sweet ass.”

Lex tried to brace himself as he felt Jeff move round behind him. When Jeff’s
cock shoved into his body, tearing him again, Lex bit down on his pillow and
screamed. Jeff pulled back without pausing and rammed into him again. Then the
door exploded and Lex lost consciousness as Clark flew into the room.

@>*~

Nothing could have prepared Clark for what he saw. Lex tied down to his bed,
black and blue, blood everywhere and that bastard pushing into him roughly even
as blood trickled from Lex’s ass.

With anger and hatred he could barely control, Clark grabbed the surprised Jeff
round his neck and pulled him back. Then he threw him across the room, so hard
he heard the plaster crack when Jeff hit the wall. Jeff was unconscious and
Clark managed to stop himself from going to finish the job.

Lex. He had to help Lex. Barely managing to hold back his tears, Clark crawled
onto the bed and gently untied his unconscious friend. Sniffing and wiping at
his eyes, Clark hurried into the bathroom to get water and look for something
he could use. In the end he gave up, he didn’t have time to look. His heart was
pounding painfully and his eyes kept blurring up with tears.

Clark hurried back to the bed and wiped away as much blood as he could. As
gently as possible, he wrapped Lex up in a sheet and picked him up. He took him
to the only place he could. Home.

@>*~

Martha and Jonathan were startled when Clark burst in. They took one look and
hurried over to help. Jonathan took Lex from Clark, who looked on the point of
collapse, and Martha helped her son follow them upstairs. Clark sat down on the
floor of his room dazedly, silently watching his father gently lay Lex on his
bed.

“On his front,” Clark whispered.

“What?” Jonathan glanced at his son worriedly.

“Put him on his front,” Clark said agitatedly.

Jonathan didn’t understand why. Until he carefully unwrapped the sheet. “Jesus
Christ! Clark, what happened?” he exclaimed.

Clark didn’t answer. He crawled up to the bed and knelt beside it, laying his
head on the pillow to stare at Lex’s battered face. He reached out and gently
stroked the smooth, unblemished skin of Lex’s forehead.

“Please wake up,” he whispered tearfully.

Martha swallowed back her own tears, her heart breaking at her son’s pain and
the terrible sight of Lex’s broken body. She knelt down beside Clark and
carefully stroked his hair. “What happened, honey?”

“My fault,” Clark sobbed. It was all his fault. If he hadn’t persuaded Lex to
go out, if he had trusted his friend, if he’d only been there.

“Clark,” Jonathan said quietly, staring in horror at Lex’s injuries, “How can
it be your fault?”

“Punishment,” Clark whispered, “For being with me. His father…”

Martha gasped, “His father did this?”

Clark shook his head, “Jeff, his father’s thug. Oh God, it’s all my fault.”
Mechanically, Clark went to the bathroom and got some cloths and antiseptic and
went back to his room to gently clean Lex’s wounds, before pulling a clean
sheet over him.

“Clark, he needs to go to the hospital,” Martha said quietly, glancing
pleadingly at her husband. Jonathan just looked stunned. Neither of them could
quite believe someone could do this to their own child, even Lionel Luthor.

“No!” Clark lifted his head, “He wouldn’t want that.” He tried to pull himself
together enough to think.

“Lex,” he whispered, leaning over to gently kiss Lex’s forehead, not caring
that his parents were present. “Lex, please, you gotta wake up.”

“Clark?” Lex croaked. Was he dreaming? He still hurt all over, but Clark’s
voice was soothing.

“Oh, Lex, oh god, I’m so sorry,” Clark whispered.

“Not…” Lex swallowed and tried to moisten his lips, “Not your fault.”

Clark blinked against a fresh wave of tears, trying to concentrate. “Lex, you
need a doctor. How do I contact Toby?”

Lex tried to clear his head. “555-4237,” he whispered.

Clark lifted his head again. “Mom, please phone. Tell Toby it’s for Lex and
it’s urgent.”

“Who’s Toby?”

“Just, please, do it.”

“Clark,” Lex whispered. He could hear the distress in Clark’s voice and he
couldn’t bear it. “I’m okay.”

“Shh, Lex, just rest,” Clark said quietly, stroking his forehead again. “Dad,
could you please get some water?”
  
Jonathan stared at his son and how gently and tenderly he was touching Lex.
Martha was right. Only he wasn’t so sure Lex *had* said no. At least not
initially. He sighed and nodded, heading for the kitchen. He passed Martha on
the stairs and gave her a quick hug. She gave him a tiny smile and hurried back
to Clark’s room.

Martha stared helplessly. Clark had climbed onto the bed next to Lex and was
crying silently as he gently stroked Lex’s face. Tears came to her eyes again
as she watched a broken, barely conscious Lex try to soothe her son. Jonathan
returned with a glass of water and silently handed it to Clark. He wrapped
Martha in his arms and they stood watch over the couple while they waited for
the mysterious Toby to arrive.

@>*~

Jonathan opened the door. “He’s upstairs.” He stared curiously at the long
haired, casually dressed man, carrying a black, leather bag. Toby nodded
silently and followed him.

When he saw Toby, Clark got off the bed and let his mother pull him into a hug.
Toby pulled back the sheet and sighed.

“Jesus, Lex, not again,” he muttered.

“Yeah, I know,” Lex said weakly.

“Again?” Jonathan exclaimed.

Toby ignored him. “Why are you here?” he asked Lex.

“Jeff’s at the castle,” Lex whispered.

“That son of a bitch?!” Toby shook his head, “I’m surprised he’s still alive.”

Lex laughed bitterly, then winced. Clark went round to the other side of the
bed, needing to be closer to Lex. He took his hand and Lex managed to squeeze
it, trying to reassure him.

“How badly did he tear you?” Toby asked, kneeling down to open his bag.

“Feels pretty bad,” Lex whispered.

“Tear him?” Martha asked in total confusion.

Lex shifted his head to glance at the Kents as best he could. “Blood makes the
best lube,” he said brutally.

“Oh God!” Martha gasped and took a step back into Jonathan’s arms. “Oh Lex, I…”
She couldn’t continue.

Toby went into the bathroom to wash up, then pulled on some latex gloves. Clark
sat on the bed and watched him work. It seemed to take forever and every wince,
gasp and cry from Lex hurt him. Eventually Lex was sewn and taped up and Toby
asked the Kents to leave while he examined Lex’s torn anus and rectum.

Clark refused to leave.

“Okay, Lex, ready?” Toby asked gently.

“Do it,” Lex managed to whisper. He clung tightly onto Clark’s hand as Toby
probed his ass as gently as possible.

Toby sighed, “Okay, thankfully, you don’t need stitches this time.”

“Yeah, well, he’d only got to round two,” Lex grimaced with pain.

Clark closed his eyes against tears. Why the hell had he walked? If he’d run to
see Lex instead, maybe he could have prevented this.

“Clark,” Lex said quietly, “I can feel you guilt tripping. Stop it.”

“But I…”

“Stop it, please,” Lex sighed. Clark was certainly not to blame. He may have
been a little thoughtless in taking Clark to the club, but it wasn’t his fault
either, it was his sick fuck of a father and his bastard thug. A sharp burst of
pain shot through him and he gasped. “Jesus, Toby!”

“Sorry,” Toby grimaced. He was trying to apply an antiseptic and antibiotic
cream to the anal tears. Finally he was finished and he pulled the sheet back
over Lex. “Get some rest, Lex.”

“I’ll get you your usual payment as soon as I can,” Lex whispered, closing his
eyes. He was exhausted.

“This one’s on me, man,” Toby said quietly. “Clark, was it?” he looked at Clark
and Clark nodded. “Come downstairs, I need to talk to you and your parents
about further care, okay?”

“Okay,” Clark answered. “I’ll be right back, Lex,” he whispered, dropping a
gentle kiss on the top of Lex’s head.

“I’ll be here,” Lex laughed a little bitterly. It wasn’t as if he could get
anywhere.

Clark sighed and followed Toby downstairs to where his parents were waiting.
Toby sat down and stared at them seriously.

“He’s going to need a lot of care, especially over the next few days. Are you
okay with that?” he started. Clark looked at his parents pleadingly and smiled
in relief when they nodded. “Okay, good.

“He needs the wounds cleaned and dressed everyday and antibiotic cream put on
them. I’ll leave a broad spectrum antibiotic, three a day, make sure he
finishes the course. He’ll need antibiotic cream applied to the uh, anal
tearing twice a day. For tonight, wake him every couple of hours, check to be
sure he’s responsive. He’s got a mild concussion, but he should be fine.

“Plenty of water and soup, go easy on the solids for a while. And make sure he
stays in bed for at least a week. He’s stubborn but he needs to rest.”

Clark nodded, “That’s fine.”

“Good,” Toby stared at him for a moment, then nodded, “Good. You have my number
if you need me.”

Clark nodded again, “Thank you.”

“No problem, you did good kid.” Toby got up and left them to it.

Clark turned his attention back to his parents. “I… Mom, Dad, thank you,” he
whispered.

Martha got up and went to hug her son, holding him tightly when he started to
cry quietly. “It’s okay, sweetheart, we can talk about it tomorrow. Are you
going to watch Lex tonight?” she asked.

Clark looked up and wiped his eyes. “Can I?” He glanced at his father
nervously.

Jonathan stood up and squeezed his shoulder gently, “Yes, son.”

Clark hugged his mother, then stood and hugged his father tightly. “Thank you.
I love you guys,” he whispered. Then he hurried upstairs.

Jonathan sat down beside his wife, “Dear God, Martha, that poor boy.”

“I know, Jon. But he’s not alone anymore,” she said quietly, “He’s got Clark,
and he’s got us, right?”

Jonathan smiled and kissed her gently, “Damn right.”

@>*~

Clark lay beside Lex and watched him all night. Every couple of hours, he woke
Lex up and made sure he was okay. The rest of the time, he tried desperately
not to torture himself with what if’s.

But it was hard, really hard. No matter how many times he went through it,
everything, all of it was *his* fault. He should never have asked Lex to take
him to Metropolis in the first place, let alone a club, any club.

Why couldn’t he have just asked Lex to come over and watch a video, or stargaze
in the loft? No, he just had to try and push things, act different than he was.
What chance did they have now? Clark suspected that Lex didn’t blame him now,
but when he’d had the chance to think it over… how could he expect Lex to
forgive him?

Clark hadn’t realised morning had come, until his parents knocked quietly and
came in. They stared at him for a little while, and he really didn’t know what
to say to them.

“Come on, son,” Jonathan said eventually, “We need to talk.”

Clark sighed and nodded. He followed them out of the room with a last, longing
glance at Lex. He sat down opposite his parents, clasping his hands together
tightly. He wondered how much they already knew.

“Clark?” Martha gave him a tiny, reassuring smile.

Clark sighed, “Lex and I went to Metropolis at the weekend. We went to a club.
I’m sorry, I just, I just wanted to spend some time with him away from here. I…
I…”

“Clark, we know you have feelings for him,” Martha said quietly.

Clark nodded slowly, “We have feelings for each other.” He paused at his
father’s sigh and glanced at him.

Jonathan met his gaze, “It’s okay, Clark.”

Clark took a deep breath. “It didn’t come out until after we ran into Jeff. Lex
was scared of him. I’ve never seen Lex scared. He told me… he told me his
father had used Jeff to punish him, r-rape him, to keep him away from men.”

Martha sighed and shut her eyes briefly. She was overwhelmed with sorrow and
horror for Lex.

“He admitted he had feelings for me after, after I told him that I love him,”
Clark continued.

Martha and Jonathan exchanged a glance, knowing Clark wouldn’t say the words if
he didn’t mean them.

“But, he said we couldn’t be together, that we had to forget about it.” Clark
shook his head, “I told him I wasn’t going to give up, until… well, I thought
he’d been with Victoria, now I’m not sure.

“I knew I had to talk to him, that’s why I went over yesterday, how I, how I
found him,” Clark’s voice broke and he had to swallow against the lump in his
throat. He blinked rapidly. “Jeff must have told his father.”

Martha moved over to hug him tightly, “Oh Clark, I’m so sorry. But you mustn’t
blame yourself.”

“There’s no one else to blame,” Clark whispered tearfully.

Jonathan leaned forward, “Clark, what did you do to Jeff?”

Clark blinked, “I uh, threw him into a wall. He was unconscious when I left.”
His face hardened, “I wanted to kill him, I should have killed him.”

“Clark, no!” Martha gasped.

“I’ve never wanted to hurt someone so much in my life, not even Phelan,” Clark
continued oblivious.

“Clark, you can’t kill him. Clark!” Jonathan said firmly. Clark met his
father’s eyes, “Promise me, you won’t kill him.”

Clark stared stubbornly for a moment, then with a sigh, he nodded, “I promise.”
Jonathan sighed in relief and sat back.

“Clark, why don’t you take Lex his first pill and use the cream on his, uh, on
him,” Martha suggested, “I’ll look after him while you’re at school, okay?”

Clark shook his head in shock,” School?” Going to school just seemed wrong.

“It’s probably best if things seem normal,” Jonathan agreed.

Clark sighed, “Fine.” He grabbed the antibiotics Toby had left and hurried
upstairs.

Clark knelt by the bed and stared at Lex’s bruised face for a moment, then he
reached out and gently stroked his head. “Lex?” he whispered, “Lex, time to
wake up.”

Lex resisted the soothing voice. He hurt, he wanted to sleep until it all just
went away. But the voice didn’t stop and the gentle touch to his scalp was too
compelling. 

“Clark?”

“It’s morning, Lex,” Clark said quietly.

Lex groaned and peeled his eyes open, taking in Clark’s concerned face. “I need
the bathroom,” he grimaced.

“Okay.” Clark very carefully helped Lex up and almost carried his dizzy friend
to the bathroom. Lex groaned again, pain slamming through his head and ass.
Clark helped him relieve himself and he couldn’t even find the energy to feel
humiliated.

Clark got him back onto the bed as quickly as he could, careful not to jar Lex
at all. “You need to take this.” Clark took a pill out of the bottle and helped
Lex lift his head so he could drink some water with the pill.

“Uh, dizzy,” Lex grimaced, happy when he was lying flat again.

Clark bit back a sob. He couldn’t stand seeing Lex this way, he felt so
helpless. “Lex, I have, I have to put some cream on the tears,” Clark said
quietly, biting his lip.

Lex closed his eyes, “It’s okay, Clark, I’d rather you did it.”

Clark nodded. At least his x-ray sight would come in handy, he could see
exactly where the cream needed to go. Lex was surprised at how quick and gentle
Clark was. It didn’t hurt nearly as much as he’d expected. Still, he was
panting and sweating by the time Clark was done.

“I’m sorry,” Clark whispered, close to tears again.

“Clark, please don’t. It’s not your fault, okay?” Lex breathed out heavily.

Clark shook his head, “No, you’re hurt because of me.”

“Not because of you,” Lex insisted quietly, “Don’t argue with me Clark, it
hurts my head.” He felt a little bad trying to guilt trip Clark, but he had to
try and get it through his friend’s thick skull.

Clark stared at him. “Sorry,” he whispered again. “I, I have to go to school,
but my mother is going to look after you.” He got up and went to the door.

“Clark,” Lex whispered. He really needed to hear that Clark loved him, that
someone loved him, but he couldn’t quite ask, “Tell me…”

Clark smiled sadly,” I love you, Lex.” 

“Clark… it was just a business meeting.” Lex met Clark’s startled gaze, “I do
love you.”

Clark’s breath hitched. Despite everything, just hearing that made him feel
better, like he could cope with a day at school, away from Lex. He crossed the
room again and dropped a soft kiss on Lex’s forehead.

“I’ll see you later,” he whispered as he left.

Lex stared at the door until a dizzy spell forced him to shut his eyes. He
wished that Clark loving him, and him loving Clark was enough. But even without
his father, all his original arguments still stood. Clark was fifteen, underage
and untouchable. There was no happy ending for him. Life wasn’t fair and Lex
had always known that.

@>*~

Lionel Luthor stepped out of the helicopter and strolled unhurriedly to the
castle. He wandered up the stairs to Lex’s room. He wanted to see his son. By
now, Lex should be nicely malleable. Lionel was very curious about the Kent boy
and he wanted to know what Lex knew.

He was surprised to find Jeff unconscious on the floor. Lionel frowned as he
stepped closer, examining the crack in the wall. What could possibly throw a
6’6”, 300lb man against a wall with such force.

Well, well. Nixon might not be the raving lunatic he seemed. Lionel smiled in
satisfaction and headed out again, leaving Jeff without a backwards glance.

@>*~

“Why are you doing this?”

Martha stopped dressing Lex’s wounds for a moment and stared at him. “I’d be
doing this for anyone in the same situation,” she said quietly, “But I’m doing
it for you because Clark cares about you, and I know you care about Clark.”

Lex frowned, “You don’t mind?”

“What I mind, Lex, is you breaking my son’s heart by trying to decide what’s
best for him,” she said tartly, “Clark’s fifteen, but he's not…”

“Not human, I know,” Lex interrupted.

Martha raised an eyebrow, “I was going to say, not a kid.” She sighed, “He told
you then.”

Lex nodded, “I had suspicions already. Missus Kent, I think we may have a
problem.”

Martha froze at Lex’s tone, “What do you mean?”

“I was… I was having Clark investigated,” he started.

“What?!” she gasped.

“After this weekend, I stopped the investigation but,” Lex sighed, “I think my
interest in Clark attracted my father’s attention. He hinted that he knows
something.”

“Oh God,” Martha breathed.

“I, I’m sorry,” Lex whispered, “I never meant to hurt Clark.”

“I know, Lex,” she sighed, “But what the hell are we going to do?”

“I don’t know.”

@>*~

Clark felt weird, but not in a bad way exactly. The field trip had actually
been kind of fun, until he’d had to pull Eric up from the dam and the lightning
had hit him.

But right now, all he wanted was to be home with Lex, not at the Beanery with
Chloe and Pete, pretending things were normal. Or what passed for normal in
Smallville.

After listening to Chloe’s latest wild theories for a while, he couldn’t stand
it any longer. “Listen guys, I’m beat. I’m gonna go home.” He stood up and they
nodded and smiled. Thankfully, they hadn’t pushed him that day, accepting his
need for space. He smiled back.

He’d only been walking for a minute, lost in thought, when someone stepped in
his path. Clark looked up and sucked in a shocked breath.

“Surprised to see me?” Lionel Luthor smirked at him.

“What do you want?” Clark snapped, taking a step back.

“To see you,” Lionel’s smile grew wider but no less unpleasant. “To see why my
son would risk annoying me just to prove some outlandish theory.”

Clark glared at him, “ What do you mean?”

“Lex will go to extraordinary lengths to find out what he wants to know.
Obviously, his investigations are limited without proof. What better way to get
it than to manipulate the subject into talking.” Lionel laughed at Clark’s
expression.

“You don’t know what you’re talking about,” Clark hissed, trying to keep calm.

“Oh, please. You don’t think he cares about you, do you?”

Clark turned away but Lionel caught his wrist, “Did he tell you he was
investigating you?”

Clark tried to hide a wince, but not before Lionel caught it. The older man’s
grip was… was hurting him. Lionel frowned.

“You’re lying,” Clark snapped, trying to pull away.

“Am I?”

“Let go of me!” Clark wrenched his arm away, stumbling slightly. He walked away
hurriedly, his throat was tight, his chest was tight. He felt like he couldn’t
breathe. And his wrist *hurt*.

As soon as he was out of sight, Clark started to run. Then he stopped and tried
again. His speed wasn’t working. Damn it! What the hell was happening to him?
He didn’t need this, he needed to see Lex, confront him. He tried not to jump
to conclusions again, but damn it, he couldn’t help it.

Clark ran home at human speed and hurried indoors.

“Clark,” his mother started.

“Not now.” Clark ran upstairs to his room.

“Clark?” Lex opened his eyes and was surprised to see Clark pacing agitatedly.

“I saw your father,” Clark snapped.

Lex sighed, “Ah.”

“So, you found out what you wanted to know, congratulations. What now? Your
father takes over?” Clark said angrily. He’d worked himself up so much he
wasn’t thinking about what he was saying.

Lex clenched his jaw. He was starting to remember why he didn’t have friends;
they were the people who could hurt you the most.

“Sure, whatever, Clark. You’ve obviously got it all worked out.”

Clark stopped pacing and dropped his head onto his chest. Somebody else might
have missed it, but the pain in Lex’s voice penetrated Clark’s chest and lodged
in his heart. He dropped down beside the bed and put his head on the pillow.

“I’m sorry, Lex. I… I didn’t mean it. He was just so…” Clark squeezed his eyes
shut.

Lex sighed, giving in immediately, from the despondency and self loathing he
could hear in Clark’s tone. “I know,” he whispered. He lifted his arm carefully
and stroked Clark’s thick hair. “Clark, why are you so quick to believe I could
hurt you? You believed in me when we were just friends.”

Clark sighed, his breath hitching. “I just, I don’t want to lose you, Lex. And
I keep getting scared, and I can’t think straight. You drive me crazy, you keep
pushing me away,” Clark stopped, shaking his head. It was too hard to explain.

“Clark, I *was* investigating you, but only because I knew you were different
and I was curious. I also hate being lied to, but I can’t blame you for that.
Unfortunately, my interest in you was a little too obvious,” Lex said quietly.

Clark sighed again, “Why is this all so hard, Lex?”

Lex laughed a little bitterly, “*Life* is hard, Clark.” His voice dropped,
“Especially for people like us.”

Clark stared at him and frowned. “My mother says anything worth having, is
worth fighting for.” He reached up to touch Lex’s hand. “I think you’re worth
fighting for,” he whispered thickly.

Lex’s eyes blurred again, but with tears this time, “Clark, please don’t do
this to me. Nothing’s changed, you know that.”

“I know,” Clark nodded, staring at him stubbornly, “I’m still not giving you
up, and it’s still not over.”

“Clark…”

“No,” Clark whispered. He cupped Lex’s face and moved closer, gently pressing
his lips to Lex’s mouth. Lex sighed quietly, his eyes sliding closed as he gave
himself up to Clark’s soft exploration of his mouth.

Even though his lips hurt a little, it felt so good. Funny how he’d missed this
touch in such a short time. But he wasn’t in any condition for the physical
reactions Clark was arousing in him, so he gripped Clark’s wrist and pulled
away. Lex was about to speak when he noticed Clark flinch.

Clark sighed when Lex broke the kiss far too soon, but his friend caught his
wrist and it hurt.

“Clark?”

Clark frowned and pulled his shirt sleeve up. Lex stared at the purplish marks
on Clark’s skin in shock. “Clark, is that… how?”

Clark stared at the bruises and shook his head, “I don’t, I… your father
grabbed me, but I, I didn’t realise. Lex… it *hurts*.”

Lex would probably have laughed at Clark’s expression, if it had been anyone
*but* Clark. But this was serious.

“Clark,” Lex managed to push himself onto his side and up slightly, “Clark, get
your parents.”

Clark blinked, still stunned, and nodded. He got up and walked to the door.
“Mom, Dad, can you come up please?” he called.

He sat down on the floor next to the bed and leaned his head back onto the
mattress. Lex gently stroked his hair, rolling back onto his front, with a
slight wince from the jolt to his ribs, so he could get a little closer.

@>*~

There was utter silence. Clark glanced at his parents first, then twisted his
head to look at Lex. They all looked concerned. He sighed and turned into Lex,
so he could nuzzle his cheek, needing the contact.

Lex looked at the Kents uncertainly. It was one thing to know your son had
feelings for another man, quite another to see him being physically
affectionate. Jonathan looked uncomfortable and Martha was giving them a
reluctant looking smile.

He was relieved, he wanted to be able to provide some sort of comfort to Clark.

“Maybe it’s just temporary,” Jonathan started, “If Eric was holding meteor
rocks like you say, maybe they did something when the lightning hit.”

Clark shrugged, he was still a little shell shocked, “Maybe.”

“What if it isn’t?” Martha asked.

“They can’t have just gone,” Jonathan frowned, trying to think. “They’re part
of him.”

“Excuse me,” Lex interjected, “Permanent or temporary, Clark without his
abilities is useless to my father.”

“Gee, thanks, Lex,” Clark laughed.

“You know what I mean,” Lex raised an eyebrow, “He’ll know why I was having you
investigated and he’ll want to know if I was right. Now there’s no proof.”

“Except if they come back,” Jonathan pointed out.

Lex grimaced, “True.”

“Well so far being normal sucks,” Clark commented.

“Tell me about it,” Lex muttered.

“Lex, oh I’m sorry, here I am moaning about a bruise.”  Clark turned round to
face the bed and cupped Lex’s face, “How are you feeling?”

Lex tried to smother a smile, “Fine, considering.”

“Did you eat anything? Mom, did you change his dressings? Did you remember to
give him his pill?”

“Clark, you’re babbling,” Lex chuckled, “Your Mom’s a great nurse.”

“Thank you, Lex,” Martha smiled, shaking her head at her son.

Clark flushed, “Sorry, I just…”

“I know,” Lex whispered.

Jonathan and Martha glanced at each other, suddenly feeling like they were
intruding.

“I’ll make some more soup. Clark, why don’t you give Lex his pill and use the
cream,” Martha suggested.

Clark nodded, “Okay.”

Left by themselves, Clark felt a little awkward. Quickly, he helped Lex take
his antibiotic, then he pulled back the sheet. He sighed, at least the bruises
weren’t quite so vivid anymore.

“This is probably going to hurt more than this morning. I can’t use my x-ray
sight to help me,” he said quietly.

Lex blinked, “You have x-ray sight?”

“Had, yes.”

“Wow, ow!”

“Sorry,” Clark winced.

Lex took as deep a breath as he could and tried to relax. “It’s okay, just go
slow.”

“’Kay.” Clark tried to be as gentle as possible.

“Oh.” Lex’s eyes widened and he shifted.

Clark stopped. “What? Did I hurt you?” he asked anxiously.

“No, it’s just… that felt nice and that’s just weird.”

“It’s better than pain though, isn’t it?” Clark asked quietly.

“Yeah,” Lex whispered. He tried to concentrate on relaxing. “So, you’ve got
strength, speed, x-ray vision and bullets just bruise you, anything else?”

Clark sighed, “Sometimes I wake up floating.” It felt a little weird talking
about his abilities when he didn’t seem to have them, and when he had a finger
inside Lex. and despite everything, he was feeling a little turned on. And
*that* was weird and selfish. He bit his lip, unconsciously rubbing Lex’s
prostate again.

Lex sighed, his shock at Clark’s statement distracted by the cross between pain
and pleasure from Clark’s gentle caress.

“Clark, what are you doing?” he whispered.

Clark froze, then gently withdrew his finger, covering Lex up again, “Sorry.”

Lex twisted his head to look back at his friend, observing the look of guilty
shame. “Clark, you… want me?” Lex was more than a little surprised, especially
when Clark nodded and refused to meet his eyes. “But I look like shit.”

“But you’re still you,” Clark whispered. “I’m sorry… selfish.” Clark was
mortified. Only a day away from being brutally raped and beaten and here he was
forcing his attentions on Lex. he hurried to the door.

“Clark.” Clark stopped but didn’t look round. “Clark, it’s okay. Just you
kissing me turns me on. I’m just not up to it right now. You touching me is
nothing like… like what happened, okay?” Lex tried to reassure Clark.

“It was still wrong,” Clark whispered.

“I wish I could say you touching me is never wrong, but it is, just not for
that reason,” Lex said quietly.

Clark finally looked at Lex, still feeling uncertain, guilty.

Lex sighed, now he felt like he’d kicked a puppy. “Come here… Clark, come here,
please.” Clark approached the bed nervously. “How do you do this, Clark?” Lex
whispered, “I try to be strong and then you look at me and all I want to do is
kiss you. But nothing changes the facts, Clark. I want you, but I can’t have
you.”

Clark knelt back down beside the bed. “And I get no choice? No say?” he asked
quietly.

“In the eyes of the law, no,” Lex whispered.

“Then the law’s wrong,” Clark said stubbornly.

“The law is there for your protection, Clark,” Lex sighed.

“Lex, we could argue about this forever. The fact is, we love each other, and
we’ve already broken the law so the point is moot,” Clark pointed out.

“Turning counsel on me?” Lex smiled softly.

“Can I kiss you?” Clark ignored his question.

Lex sighed and gave in, “Please.”

Clark leaned in and gently licked his lips. Lex sighed again, parting them
under the soft probing. Clark pressed his mouth against Lex’s and the kiss
deepened slowly as they tasted and explored each others’ mouths. Only the door
opening made Clark pull away reluctantly.

Martha blinked, slightly surprised that the sight of her son kissing Lex so
tenderly just made her feel touched and a little sad. Sad that Clark was so in
love and in such a difficult situation.

“I, uh, I brought some soup. Lex, would you prefer it if Clark helped you?” she
asked quietly.

“Thank you, Missus Kent,” Lex smiled up at her.

“I think you can call me Martha, Lex,” she said, putting the soup down on the
bedside table.

“Thank you, Martha.”

“Thanks, Mom,” Clark said, flushing slightly, glad she hadn’t said anything
about catching them kissing.

“Dinner will be ready in half an hour, Clark, okay?” Martha bent down and
kissed her son on the cheek.

“Okay, Mom.”

“Your parents are being very understanding,” Lex commented when they were alone
again.

“I know,” Clark smiled, “But then I’ve never been normal. The circumstances
*are* a little unusual.”

“I guess.” Lex had to wonder if they’d be so supportive if they knew
everything. He couldn’t quite see any parent being pleased that their fifteen
year old child was in a sexual relationship. Had been in a sexual relationship,
he corrected himself.

“Don’t,” Clark said quietly, as he helped Lex into a sort of sitting position.

“Don’t what?”

“You know what. I can see it on your face.” Clark sat on the bed and picked up
the bowl of soup, holding it so Lex could eat. Lex didn’t say anything.

“Do you want anything else before I go downstairs?” Clark asked quietly.

“I could use the bathroom again,” Lex replied equally quietly.

It wasn’t quite as effortless helping Lex without his strength, but Lex was a
little more steady this time. He carefully helped Lex back into bed and pulled
the sheet over him.

“Sleep, I’ll be up later.” Clark bent down and kissed him softly.

“Okay,” Lex sighed quietly. He was worried. Worried about Clark’s loss of
powers, about his stubbornness and about his parents. But he was more worried
about what his father might do. If only he wasn’t so helpless.
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                           ****** Clued Up 2 ******
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Lionel Luthor sat in his son’s office contemplatively. He was aware of Jeff
shifting nervously. The day hadn’t exactly gone as planned.

“You are sure it was the same boy?”

“Yes, Mister Luthor,” Jeff nodded vehemently.

“And yet when I confronted him today, he seemed to have a little trouble
getting away from me,” Lionel commented quietly.

“He must have been faking it. You saw what he did, and what he did at the
club,” Jeff protested.

“Maybe. Watch him.”

Jeff nodded.

@>*~

Clark ate his dinner quietly. His parents kept staring at him and he was
waiting for the inevitable talk. Only, he wasn’t sure which one he’d get, or if
he’d get both. Hopefully the one involving his relationship with Lex would be
put off for now because of his loss of powers.

“What are we going to do?” Martha finally asked.

“Act normally,” Clark shrugged, “If I’ve lost my abilities, I have to start
getting used to it.”

“But…”

“What else can I do?” Clark sighed.

“I think you should maybe check on Eric tomorrow,” Jonathan suggested.

Clark blinked, “Yeah. I didn’t really think about that.” He got up.

“Clark.” Clark turned back. “You and Lex,” Martha started. Clark sighed. “It’s
not that we disapprove, or that we exactly approve… just, take it slow, okay?”

Clark blinked. He hadn’t expected that. Although the warning to take it slow
was a little late. He smiled, “Thanks.”

He went back upstairs and got ready for bed, even though it was still early. He
felt a little guilty for not doing his chores, but his father hadn’t said
anything so he assumed it was okay.

Quietly, he got into bed, sighing happily when Lex turned and shifted closer,
putting his head on his shoulder and an arm round his waist.

Clark kissed the top of Lex’s head. “Good night,” he whispered.

“Good night, Clark,” Lex muttered sleepily.

@>*~

Clark was exhausted. First, his father had got him up early to do his chores,
which had taken forever without his strength and speed. He’d had barely enough
time to apply Lex’s cream and say goodbye before having to run for the bus.

Then gym class had been so hard. He’d gotten his first ever muscle cramp and a
nosebleed. To top it all, Eric seemed great, fine, although he’d been acting
weird.

How people coped with being normal, he had no idea. Clark supposed he’d better
get used to it.

He’d also had the strangest feeling of being watched all day. He had to wonder
if Lionel Luthor had anything to do with that. Lex was right; not having his
gifts was probably a good thing right now. But he had no protection and
couldn’t protect Lex.

“Clark, you awake?” Chloe asked with a grin.

“Huh? Yeah, just really tired,” Clark replied.

“How are *things*?” she asked quietly.

“Complicated, but better, “Clark frowned, “Well, sort of.”

“Hmm, cos that made a *lot* of sense,” Pete raised his eyebrows.

“Sorry, like I said, it’s complicated,” Clark shrugged.

“Okay, we won’t push.” They walked out of the Beanery together.

“I’ve got to go,” Clark sighed, “Horribly large amount of chores today.”

“Really?” Chloe looked sceptical.

“Really. I didn’t even get finished this morning,” Clark answered honestly. He
waved as they turned in opposite directions.

“Hello ‘CK’.”

Clark froze, “Jeff. What the hell do you want?”

“Honestly? To kill you, but I’ll settle for a piece of your ass.”

Clark shoved him, but it didn’t have much effect.

Jeff laughed, “I’ve been watching you, you’re just some weak assed kid. I guess
it must have been a fluke before.” He grabbed Clark’s arm and dragged him into
an alleyway.

“Get off me!” Clark struggled against him.

“Oh now, be nice. You owe me. You interrupted my time with Lex,” Jeff sneered,
pushing him up against the wall. Clark struggled helplessly, whimpering in
horror when Jeff started to work on his pants, grinding his crotch into his
ass.

Suddenly Jeff was pulled away from him and thrown across the alley, hitting the
wall with a thud. Clark blinked in shock.

“Clark, you okay?”

“Eric?” Clark gasped.

“Are you okay? Geez, who is that guy, what the hell was he doing?” Eric
frowned.

“Uh, you don’t want to know,” Clark said shaking his head. “Eric, can we keep
this between us, please?”

Eric stared at him, “Yeah, okay. Are you sure?”

“Very,” Clark nodded vehemently.

“Well, okay,” Eric smiled, then abruptly vanished, knocking Clark back with the
gust of wind.

@>*~

“Well, so we know what happened to your powers then,” Jonathan frowned, “What
are we going to do? You grew up with your abilities, how is Eric going to
adjust?”

“He seemed to be managing just fine,” Clark said quietly. He was even more
tired now. After the day he’d had and another two hours of chores, he just
wanted to go to bed.” I’m gonna head up,” he said.

“Don’t forget Lex’s pill,” Martha said quietly.

“I won’t.”

Clark got ready for bed, stripped down to his boxers and slipped into bed with
a sigh of relief.

Lex put his head on his shoulder again. “What happened?” he whispered, sensing
the tension in Clark.

Clark sighed. “Jeff tried to attack me and Eric saved me, apparently he’s got
my abilities,” he said quickly, closing his eyes as his emotions threatened to
overwhelm him.

Lex lifted his head, staring sorrowfully at his distraught friend. “Did he hurt
you?” he whispered.

“No, he didn’t have the chance.”

“Clark… you don’t have to be strong for me. Let it out.” Lex gently stroked
Clark’s cheek. He could see how much everything was affecting Clark, even
though he tried not to show it.

Clark sniffed and his breath hitched as he finally let go of the uncertainty
and worry, the pain. He cried quietly, burying his face in Lex’s neck. Lex
petted his chest gently, letting him cry himself out. He lifted his head and
wiped away the tears on Clark’s face.

“Lex,” Clark whispered.

“Shh.” Lex leaned up and kissed him, all his arguments flying out the window
when confronted by Clark’s need. They kissed deeply, Clark’s hand coming up to
cup the back of his head. Clark moaned into Lex’s mouth and he shifted. He was
hard and he didn’t want Lex to notice. But Lex was already slipping a hand into
his boxers.

“Lex?”

“Shh,” Lex repeated, “Let me.”

Clark sighed, unable to speak as Lex wrapped his hand round his aching cock and
started to stroke slowly. Clark let his head drop back and his eyes slid closed
with the sensations Lex was creating. Lex started to kiss him again and he
kissed back urgently, rolling his hips for more speed.

“Please, harder,” he whispered, his need becoming steadily more desperate.
Clark writhed, trying not to jolt Lex too much, but Lex just tightened his grip
and pumped him harder and faster, until he couldn’t control his movements.

Lex felt Clark becoming frantic as he thrust into Lex’s hand and he tried to
accommodate him, needing  to feel Clark’s release himself, despite the pain in
his ribs and back. Clark’s mouth on his was more than enough to counter the
pain.

Clark felt the tension building in his belly, pleasure coursing through his
veins. His heart was pounding and he was sweating, all new sensations for him
with exertion. His body was moving out of his control and his lips consumed
Lex’s mouth as he felt his body release with a jerk of pleasure.

Clark shuddered in his arms, his seed spilling onto Lex’s hand. Lex continued
to kiss him, softening the kisses as Clark slowly relaxed against him. When
he’d recovered his breath, Clark got out of the bed to quickly clean himself up
and brought a tissue back to wipe Lex’s hand.

He slipped back into the bed and pressed a gentle kiss to Lex’s lips. “Lex?”

Lex shifted to lie on Clark again, “Yes, Clark?”

“I love you.”

Lex sighed, “I love you too.”

@>*~

“You idiot. I told you to watch him,” Lionel Luthor said with cold menace.

“I did, he’s just an ordinary kid. He couldn’t fight me off at all,” Jeff
protested fearfully.

“I didn’t tell you to touch him.”

“But… after what he did?!” Jeff flinched back in his seat when Lionel stood up.

“Fool. In the meantime, you didn’t even *see* who stopped you!” Lionel paced,
his one concession to the agitation he was feeling. The thought that his son
might actually care about the boy was unacceptable. Yet, possibly useful. He
couldn’t allow his son such a weakness, especially with a Kent. They had far
too many morals for good business. That kind of influence was not a good thing
for Lex. He was sure the club security footage would put paid to that little
liaison. He smiled cruelly.

There was one last matter to attend to. Where was Lex? the hospital had been
checked, the locals discretely questioned, but no one had seen him. It was
pointless contacting Toby to see if he knew anything, for some reason the man
was loyal to Lex.

With a couple of quick phone calls, he’d arranged for someone to find Lex, and
the video footage to be sent to the Kents, before he left with a very subdued
Jeff.

@>*~

“But Clark…” Lex sighed, it was difficult arguing when you were naked in a
bath, with the man you loved washing you so tenderly, and at the same time
trying not to ‘show an interest’.

“I’ll be fine, Lex. I have to go. If Jeff’s around, things have to seem normal,
I don’t want anyone knowing you’re here. Not till you’re a lot better,” Clark
raised an eyebrow while he helped Lex wash. “Do you?”

“No,” Lex conceded.

“Anyway, I have to talk to Eric if I can. Hopefully he didn’t say anything to
anyone about yesterday.”

“Do you think he would?” Lex asked a little worriedly.

“No. He’s a nice guy, but he doesn’t exactly hang out with anyone. And his
dad’s an ass,” Clark shook his head, thanking God for his parents.

“Sounds familiar,” Lex muttered.

Clark clenched his jaw, trying to control his murderous instincts at the
thought of Lex’s father.

“Clark, you’re hurting me,” Lex said quietly.

“Shit, sorry,” Clark loosened his grip on Lex’s arm.

“I appreciate the thought though,” Lex smirked.

Clark sighed. “If I’d had my strength, I’d have crushed your arm, Lex,” he
whispered, overwhelmed with guilt. He really had to get himself under control.

“Well you haven’t, so don’t worry about it.” Lex gently patted Clark’s hand.

“Lex…”

“I’m clean. Can I go back to bed now?” Lex continued, ignoring Clark,
determined not to allow him to guilt trip again.

“Sure,” Clark sighed. Carefully, he helped Lex out of the bath and sat him down
on the toilet seat so he could start to dry him off. It was awkward and he
tried not to linger over Lex’s crotch.

Lex sighed at the contact, it felt good, but he really wasn’t up to it, even if
he would allow it. Oh, who was he kidding? Damn it, Clark didn’t even have to
ask, and he couldn’t help himself. As evidenced by the previous night.

He was sure they’d gotten a very odd look from Jonathan Kent when he’d come in
to check on them and wake Clark. They really needed to be more careful. No!
They needed to stop. Period!

Clark helped him into the bedroom and back into bed. He felt a hell of a lot
better, but still stiff and sore. At least his pale skin never seemed to scar,
he wouldn’t have any physical reminders of the punishment inflicted on him.

“Clark!”

“Yes, Mom?”

“Come downstairs when you’re done, there’s something you should see.”

“Okay, just a sec,” Clark called. He gently covered Lex up. “I’ll come say
goodbye before I go.”

“Okay,” Lex nodded. He shifted in the bed, trying to get comfortable. So far
he’d slept a lot, but he was starting to get seriously bored. “Will you get me
something to read in town?” he asked.

Clark smiled, “Sure, any preferences?”

“Something long,” Lex smirked.

Clark grinned and shook his head. He stole a quick kiss before Lex could object
and headed downstairs.

@>*~

His parents looked worried.

“What is it?” They pointed at the TV. “What happened?” Clark looked at the
scene of devastation being played out on the local news.

“Eric attacked some kids. He’s out of control, Clark,” Jonathan said quietly.

“Damn.” Clark sat down. “Mom, Dad, I have to try and stop him.”

“He’s dangerous, Clark, and he has your gifts. What can you do?” Martha asked
worriedly.

“Try to talk to him. Try to stop him if I can,” Clark tried to think. “Maybe
the meteor rocks will have the same effect on him, that they did with me.”

“We don’t exactly keep them around, Clark,” Jonathan pointed out.

“I know where I can get one.” Clark stood up and gave his parents a hug, “You
know I have to try.” They nodded reluctantly. Clark smiled tightly and headed
back upstairs to say goodbye to Lex.

@>*~

Lex picked up on his tension immediately, “What is it?”

“Eric’s out of control, I’m going to try and stop him,” Clark said quietly.

Lex blinked, his heart skipping a beat from fear and worry, “Are you insane?
Clark, he could hurt you… kill you!”

“I have to try, Lex, it’s who I am. Besides, I’m not going unprepared.” Clark
knelt by the bed and stroked Lex’s smooth scalp, “I’ll be okay.”

“Can you promise me that?” Lex whispered.

Clark sighed and shook his head, “I promise I’ll try my best.”

“Clark, don’t do this, you don’t have to,” Lex grasped Clark’s hand.

“Yes I do,” Clark pulled his hand away gently, “They’re my gifts, my
responsibility.”

Lex sighed. He knew he wouldn’t be able to stop him. Clark wouldn’t be Clark if
he didn’t try to help or stop Eric. It didn’t stop him being scared though. He
couldn’t have Clark, but he needed his friend alive to stay sane, to have the
slightest chance of not turning into his father. “Clark?”

“Yes, Lex?”

“Kiss me.”

Clark smiled softly and leaned forward to kiss him gently. Lex fisted his hand
in thick, black hair, pulling Clark closer, kissing him hard, desperately. When
he pulled away, they were both panting.

“I’ll definitely be back for more of that,” Clark said with a tiny smile. Lex
choked out a laugh. “Goodbye Lex.”

“See you later,” Lex said emphatically, “And don’t forget my book.”

Clark nodded and left the room.

@>*~

“Hey Lana.”

“Clark!” Lana looked up in surprise. She hadn’t seen much of Clark recently,
“How are you? Where have you been?”

“Around. Things are… complicated,” Clark smiled ruefully.

“Yeah,” she nodded, “You seem a little more, uh, serious than usual.”

“You think I’m serious?” Clark asked.

“Sort of. More like you’ve got the weight of the world on your shoulders,” she
smiled up at him.

“Yeah, I guess,” Clark laughed, a little hollowly.

“So what’s up?” she asked, sitting down and patting the seat next to her.

Clark sat down with a sigh, “Love, life, take your pick.”

“Love?” Lana was a little surprised. She knew Clark had had a crush on her, but
it was clear he was talking about someone else. Which, she supposed, was a good
thing.

“Like I said, it’s complicated,” Clark sighed.

“It’s not… Chloe, is it?” she asked quietly.

“Huh? Oh God no!” Clark laughed, “Believe me, it’s way more complicated than
that.”

“Oh,” Lana blinked. She couldn’t guess who he meant then, and apparently he
wasn’t sharing.

“Listen, this is going to sound weird, but, can I borrow your necklace?” Clark
asked.

Lana frowned, “Sure, okay.” She took it off and handed it to Clark, “Can I ask
what for?”

Clark sighed again, “It’s…”

“Complicated. I get it,” she smiled reassuringly.

“I promise, you’ll get it back,” Clark smiled back.

“I know.”

@>*~

Clark watched the ambulance leave with Eric. He felt bad for the other boy.
What chance did he have with a father like that? Then again, Lex had had it
worse. But then, who was to say what was worse. Lex was pretty strong.

“Come on, kid,” Jonathan wrapped an arm round Clark’s shoulders.

“Do you think he’ll be okay?” Clark asked.

“I don’t know, I hope so. He’s a good kid at heart. He just wasn’t prepared to
deal with that kind of power,” Jonathan replied honestly.

“And he doesn’t have my parents,” Clark smiled.

Jonathan smiled briefly, “Come on, Clark.”

Clark frowned, “What is it?”

“We have more things to worry about.”

@>*~

Clark watched the video. It was nothing incriminating, just him and Lex
dancing. But very obviously together.

“What do we do?” he asked quietly.

“Well obviously, Luthor doesn’t approve. I assume this is supposed to provoke a
reaction,” Jonathan commented.

“Except that you already know,” Clark said.

“Yes. I don’t think he’ll have expected that,” Martha nodded. “But, it’s a
problem, Clark. Now you have your gifts back, we can’t have him maintaining an
interest.”

Clark clenched his jaw stubbornly. “I’m not giving him up.”

“Clark…”

“Let me talk to Lex, please?” Clark asked quietly.

“Okay,” Jonathan sighed.

@>*~

Clark ran upstairs. He hadn’t actually said hello yet and he knew Lex would be
worried. “Hey.”

Lex turned onto his side and looked up at the slightly guilty looking Clark.
“You forgot my book.”

Clark sighed, “Yeah.” There was an awkward silence.

“How’d it go then?” Lex asked eventually.

Clark sat on the bed, “I got my powers back. Eric, hopefully, will be fine.”

“But?” Lex could tell something else was coming.

“Your father sent my parents video footage from the club.”

“Shit!” Lex swore. He closed his eyes and sighed. It was well and truly over
now. No more dreaming, no more stupid hopes. “That’s it, I have to go home.”

“No!”

“Don’t be stupid, Clark, it’s a threat. We have to stop this now,” Lex frowned
at Clark.

“Why?” Clark asked frowning back.

“He sent the tape as a message to me. The fact that it’s supposed to make your
parents forbid you to see me is just a bonus to him,” Lex tried to explain. “It
means he thinks I truly care about you and he can use that against me. Hurt
you, hurt your family.”

Clark shook his head, “And if you push me away, you’ll just confirm his
suspicions.”

“What?”

“Think about it, Lex,” Clark said earnestly, “If you didn’t care about me or my
family, then his threats would be meaningless. Why would you stop seeing me?
Especially if it annoys him.”

“Clark, I don’t think…”

“I don’t think you’re listening to me,” Clark interrupted, “You stop seeing me
and he’ll know for sure that you care about me. Don’t react, think.”

Lex blinked. Clark made a sort of sense, but not enough. “It changes nothing,
Clark,” he tried again, “It does more than annoy him. What’s to stop him
sending Jeff again? Or telling the police. It’s still illegal, Clark.”

Clark sighed and lay down on the end of the bed. He was starting to get just a
little pissed off, not to mention upset. “You know what, Lex? Never mind.”

“What?” Lex asked, startled.

“I don’t want to push something onto you that you don’t want. It’s obviously
too difficult, easier for you to just run away. So fine, go.” Clark made a
vague gesture towards the door.

Lex stared at him. “You little bastard. I’m doing this for you!” he yelled
suddenly, hurt by Clark’s abrupt renouncement of the argument.

“Are you?” Clark sat up and stared hard at him, “Or are you just pushing me
away with all these excuses because you’re scared?”

Tears sprang to Lex’s eyes, “I…”

“Lex, you don’t have to be scared,” Clark whispered, “I’m not going to hurt
you, I’m not going to let anyone else hurt you either. Don’t you get it yet? I
love you.”

Lex reached out for Clark tentatively, and his breath hitched in relief when he
was enfolded in a tight embrace.

“I’ll fight for you, every step of the way, Lex,” Clark whispered, rocking him
gently, “But I need you to fight for me too.”

“I’m sorry, Clark, I’m so sorry,” Lex sobbed, “I love you so much, I can’t bear
the thought of losing you. Anyone I ever loved, I lost.”

“Lex, you won’t lose me, not if I have anything to say about it,” Clark
whispered. “Please don’t give up on us, please.” He was crying himself, heart
broken by Lex’s words, feeling now even more than ever that he was going to be
there for the man he loved.That he had to be there.

Lex tried to calm himself. As always Clark was here, saving him from himself.
He didn’t think he had the strength to give that up. The one person who loved
him, no matter what. He needed that, to fill the emptiness that had always been
inside him. Maybe it wasn’t selfish to want that, not when Clark seemed to have
the same need.

“Clark,” he said quietly, “You’re worth fighting for.”

Clark’s breath hitched and he smiled happily, “Oh, Lex.” He pulled Lex closer,
lifting his chin so he could wipe away the tears and kiss him gently.

“Clark, I need you,” Lex whispered against his lips, nervously rubbing his
hands down Clark’s arms.

“I know, but it’s too soon,” Clark stroked his cheek soothingly.

“I don’t care,” Lex tried to pull Clark down on top of him, but his friend
resisted. He blinked up at Clark, a little hurt and confused.

“But I do. I told you I wouldn’t hurt you, Lex,” Clark raised an eyebrow at him
and Lex sighed.

“I’m sorry. I wasn’t really thinking, I just… I need you so badly, I didn’t
think about how selfish that was,” Lex sighed again. How could he ask Clark to
do something like that? It would hurt both of them and not just physically.

“It’s okay. Lie back, let me take care of you,” Clark whispered. Lex smiled at
the familiar words, then his eyes rolled back and he gasped at the soft, warm
breath across his groin.

“Oh, Clark,” he breathed.

Clark glanced up briefly and smiled gently at the sight of Lex lying back with
a sigh. He pushed Lex’s legs a little further apart and shifted round for
easier access. Inhaling deeply, Clark nuzzled against Lex’s groin, rubbing his
cheek against his friend’s hardening cock.

“This is better than memories,” Clark whispered.

Lex opened his eyes and lifted his head so he could meet Clark’s loving gaze
and he nodded. “Yeah.”

Clark smiled gently and bent his head again. He slowly licked up the length of
his cock and Lex gasped quietly. “Please,” he whispered.

“Shh,” Clark hushed him, breathing softly over the tip of his erection, before
tasting the drop of pre-come starting to flow. Clark wanted to take it slowly,
gently, but he wasn’t sure how much this might still hurt Lex, so he swallowed
his cock and sucked hard.

“Oh God,” Lex yelped in surprise. Almost sitting upright until a slight pain in
his ribs forced him back down.

Clark took the hard length as deep as he could, working the silky skin with his
tongue. He gripped Lex’s hips gently, feeling the toned muscles moving beneath
his hands as Lex started to writhe under him.

The edge of pain from his ribs and back was more than compensated for by the
hot, wet pressure sucking pleasure from deep within his body. Lex thrust
uselessly against Clark’s strong grip as he tried to feel more.

Clark reached up and briefly brushed a finger over his lips before clamping his
hand on his shoulder. Then that wonderful mouth took him deeper and throat
muscles squeezed around the head of his cock.

“Clark, not going to… Oh God!” Clark started humming and that was more than Lex
could take. The sensations overwhelmed him and it was all he could do not to
cry out as Clark swallowed his release.

"Clark,” he whispered. Clark sat up, licking his lips, and he shifted up the
bed to take Lex in his arms. “What are we going to do?”

“I don’t know,” Clark answered in a worried tone, “But don’t give up.”

“I’ll try.”

@>*~

Martha and Jonathan backed away from the door a little guiltily, exchanging
worried glances. They’d hurried up when they’d heard Lex shout, but had been
stopped at the door by the sound of Clark soothing a sobbing Lex. when the
conversation had turned to that of lovers, they hadn’t been able to move.
Although both of them felt that they ought to be stopping the couple or at
least leaving them in peace.

Back downstairs, Jonathan sat down heavily. “That was more than I needed to
know. Martha, I don’t think I can deal with this.”

“I know.” It was one thing thinking that your child might be in a sexual
relationship, but to observe, or rather overhear, it firsthand, that was… well
odd was an understatement. And Clark was only fifteen, yet he seemed to be the
one dealing with it better. Martha supposed Lex hadn’t had a lot of experience
with love.

“But it’s not like we can forbid Clark to keep seeing him, Jonathan. That’s
just a sure-fire way to push him straight to Lex and stop him from talking to
us.” She sighed, “What can we do, except trust him?”

“He’s too young for all this,” Jonathan said firmly.

“So were we, Jon,” Martha smiled ruefully at her husband, “Remember?”

Jonathan sighed, swallowing his disapproval, “Yeah. But things weren’t nearly
as hard as it’s going to be for them.”

“I know.”

@>*~

“I probably should take you home,” Clark started.

Lex nodded, “I know. Have you got any clothes that will fit me?”

“Um, probably not,” Clark grinned ruefully. He got up and dug out some clean
boxers, his tightest t-shirt and the jeans he’d worn at the weekend. “These
might work." Clark carefully helped Lex dress.

“Clark, can I have your shirt?” Lex asked quietly.

Clark stared at him for a second, then smiled, peeling off his shirt and
helping Lex ease it on. It drowned Lex’s slim form, but Lex just wrapped it
tightly round him and sniffed it.

“Smells like you.”

Clark nodded, “I hope that’s a good thing.”

Lex smiled, “Very.”

Clark lifted him into his arms before he could object and carefully carried him
downstairs. His parents looked up at them and Clark hesitated, staring at them
a little worriedly.

“I’m taking him home,” Clark explained.

“Are you coming back tonight?” Martha asked quietly.

Clark bit his lip uncertainly, “I, uh, I don’t know. Is that okay?”

“If we said no, would you come back?” Jonathan asked. 

“I don’t know,” Clark answered honestly.

“It’s okay, but, just, be careful,” Martha said quietly, “We know you still
have things to work out, but we need to talk too, okay?”

“I know, Mom,” Clark nodded.

“I’m sorry about all this,” Lex sighed, “I really do love your son.”

“We know. We… trust you not to hurt him,” Jonathan said with difficulty.

Lex smiled softly, “Thank you. I’ll endeavour to be worthy of that trust.”
Jonathan nodded curtly.

“I’ll see you tomorrow,” Clark gave his parents a tiny smile, “Mom, Dad…
thanks, I love you.”

“We love you too, Clark,” Martha smiled gently.

Jonathan and Martha watched Clark leave with Lex in his arms a little
regretfully, a little scared, but hopeful that their son would be happy.

@>*~

Clark gently lay Lex on a guest bed and undressed him.

“Clark?”

Clark ignored him for a moment, stripping down to his boxers before sliding
into bed beside him.

“You’re going to stay the night?”

Clark nodded, “If that’s okay?”

“Yeah. I don’t relish the idea of being here on my own,” Lex sighed. “I wonder
what happened to the housekeeper.”

“Lex, it’s going to work out,” Clark said quietly.

“Is it? Clark what if next time the video shows us having sex?” Lex shook his
head, “I don’t think your parents would be too happy.”

“They already know,” Clark whispered a little nervously.

“What?!” Lex stared at him in confusion.

“They heard us earlier. They were outside.”

“You knew they were there?” Lex gasped. Clark nodded. “And yet you…”

“You needed me,” Clark said simply.

“But I… Jesus, Clark,” Lex lay back and shut his eyes, “Is that what that
convoluted conversation was all about?”

Clark nodded, “They aren’t happy, I know, but they know they can’t stop me.”

Lex sighed, “I don’t understand your parents. Just remind me never to be alone
with your father.”

“He wouldn’t hurt you,” Clark smiled gently.

“Don’t be so sure,” Lex sighed, then smiled back. “Well my father would never
expect your parents to be so supportive, neither would I.”

“But it helps right?” Clark asked hesitantly. They’d already made progress that
night, but Clark wanted Lex to agree completely. “We’re together, your father’s
bluff is called and my parents know so that’s not a threat either.”

Lex couldn’t help but smile, “Yes.” He wasn’t going to resist anymore. He’d
never experienced so much love and understanding; never had someone fight for
him before.

“He can’t hurt us, Lex, not unless you let him,” Clark whispered hopefully,
sensing the change.

“Clark, why do you love me so much?” Lex asked quietly.

Clark smiled, “Other than your sexy body, you mean?”

Lex laughed, “Be serious.”

“I am,” Clark grinned. Lex poked him in the ribs. “Okay, okay. I love being
your friend, I love that you trusted me enough to show me more than the cold,
calculating businessman. I love your real smile and the way you look at me when
you think I’m not looking. I love the fact that you’re so strong despite what
you’ve been through in your life. I love that you need me as much as I need
you. Is that enough?”

Lex blinked back tears and swallowed hard. “Yeah. Yes, it is. I love you too,
Clark.”

Clark smiled and pulled Lex into his arms. “Good. No more objections?”

“No more objections. Just that we still have to be careful, okay?” Lex settled
comfortably against Clark’s body and looked up at him.

“I can live with that,” Clark smiled, lifting his head so he could kiss Lex
softly.

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