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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      F/M, M/M, Multi
  Fandom:
      Supernatural, destiel_-_Fandom, Dean_x_Castiel_-_Fandom
  Relationship:
      Destiel, Alfie/Castiel/Dean_Winchester, Castiel/Dean_Winchester, Gabriel/
      Sam_Winchester, Asa_Fox/Jody_Mills
  Character:
      jack_supernartural, Castiel_(Supernatural), Dean_Winchester, Sam
      Winchester, Lucifer_(Supernatural), Samandriel_(Supernatural), Alfie_
      (Supernatural), Gabriel_(Supernatural), jo_supernatural, Asa_Fox, Jody
      Mills, Garth_Fitzgerald_IV
  Additional Tags:
      Destiel_-_Freeform, Bottom_Castiel/Top_Dean_Winchester
  Stats:
      Published: 2018-03-02 Words: 3421
****** Cigarettes after Sex ******
by ravenyoung
Summary
     Castiel and dean started to have casual sex for 5 years now . Even if
     they say they are not a couple Sam and castiel’s brothers think
     differently . Castiel wants more than just cigarettes after sex; he
     wants a real relationship; someone to come to when he feels lonely or
     insecure . When Alfie Castiel’s new coworker invites him on a date he
     finally see a light in the end of the tunnel .
     When Dean arrived at Cas’s place with beers and popcorn he saw
     Castiel getting extremely well dressed ‘’ didn’t know we would do
     some role play tonight ‘’ he said while already taking of his jacket,
     Castiel looked at him and simply said ‘ I’m going on a date Dean , a
     real one , clean up before you leave.’
     Dean was always sure that he had Castiel for himself, but he was
     scared of how society would react . Would he just lose Castiel for
     his pride and how society saw him. Or would he abandon the straight
     facade life he knew to finally come out and give Castiel the love he
     deserved ?!
Notes
     Hi guys this is my first Destiel fanfiction please be gentle with me.
     Also english is not my maternal language, i learned it alone , sorry
     if there's any mistakes or lack of more researched vocabulary.
     Punctuation is kinda my weak spot .
     Thanks for reading
After so long I could finally get some time out of work and meet my friends at
this local bar ‘’ the apocalypse ‘’ everyone was here my brothers Gabriel and
Luci, Jody with her boyfriend Asa Fox, Garth and of course Sam and Dean
Winchester.
We all were having fun as usual talking about daily problems, Sam and Gabriel
talking about the last episode of that tv show they watch about two brothers
who hunts monsters, I was just drinking my beer observing Dean try to get some
random waitress number as usual. Sam noticed I was watching him and he just put
a hand on my shoulder ‘’ you know , he might be a womanizer but in the end of
the day he always comes to you ‘’ Sam said with a kind smile realizing he kinda
made the situation more uncomfortable ‘’ Yes I know Sam , I’ve known that for 5
years now ‘’ What am I doing to my life ? Sleeping with a man whom I don’t even
know if he has feelings for me or not; my life dilemma.
While the stupid Dean Winchester show was going on I just kept drinking trying
to place a joke here and there as the alcohol kicked in, when suddenly a
bartender tapped on my shoulder and handed me a drink ‘’ It’s from the
gentleman over there ‘’ he pointed to a man with deep blue eyes and dark hair
wearing a jeans jacket the man nodded at me and I could read his lips saying
cheers as he turned to the bar in front of him and kept checking on his phone
‘’ Yo little brother, seems like someone hit on you go talk to him ‘’ Gabriel
almost screamed for the whole bar to hear as if he was proud someone finally
hit on me ‘’ He just offered me a drink nothing much, everybody does that ‘’ I
played with the straw in  the blue colored cocktail and took a sip I then
looked over the man once again , he was extremely handsome and a few steps
behind him I could see a drunk Dean kissing the blond waitress who served us
earlier. I don’t want to live all my life as Dean’s Winchester hidden mistress.
I am an out gay male who has a very good journalistic career and I’ve been too
damn long in this one sided relationship. I did a one shot with my cocktail and
decided to go chat with the mysterious man sitting at the bar .
 
‘’ There flies my little angel brother ‘’ I could hear luci say from behind me
followed by a few laughs, I approached the man who instantly looked me in the
eyes , his piercing blue eyes taking over mine ‘’ Hi my name is Castiel, thanks
for the drink. Why don’t you order something on me.’’ The men looked at me from
head to toe and smirked ‘’ I know who you are Castiel I watch the news, My name
is Michael. Very pleased to meet you ‘’ This Michael guy looked like a pretty
decent person we talked about politics and he asked me questions about how did
it feel to be an anchor on one of the biggest news channel, I asked him about
his job as a surgeon and how it felt to have lives in his hands. For once I
could forget about the world, about the sickening news I had to read everyday ,
about gun control and natural catastrophes and most importantly I didn’t have
Dean’s face in my mind, I didn’t have those deep green eyes haunting my
thoughts. ‘’ Cas, can I call you that? , I’m really enjoying my time with you
why don’t you come to my house I have some  96’ Red wine that I am sure you
would love’’ I knew what this invitation meant, it wasn’t about the wine, he
wanted what I couldn’t give no one else but Dean, ‘’ Yeah sure I’ll go say bye
to my friends why don’t you wait me by your car I’ll join you in a second ‘’ He
nodded with his head giving me a big sweet smile and just before going out he 
kissed me, a deep French kiss pulling my body closer to his, my mind became
blank and I enjoyed the kiss until our lips separated for oxygen ‘’ See you
soon Cas’’ he said before living .
I went back to my previous table with my head on the clouds, I could see Dean
had joined them but had his arms around the blond waitress who should probably
be fired. He didn’t look very happy but when does he. ‘’What the hell was
thaaaat, I told you to go check the guy not make a porn scene in front of
everyone ‘’ Gabe was being dramatic as always and forced me to tell him
everything before I could leave, ‘’ I am gonna piss ‘’ Dean said while
finishing his whiskey I decided to not pay attention to him since for the first
time I would have a night with someone else than him.
‘’Well little brother, just don’t forget your condom , I am not ready to be an
uncle ‘’ I facepalmed mentally with what Luci said I had the dumbest brothers
on this earth and even after all those years I still didn’t understand how they
became man of excellence when it came to their careers. I finally managed to
slip out of the table and go meet Michael outside but just as I was about to go
out I could see him entering his car and I ran to his direction. ‘’ Hey sorry
for making you wait , my brothers kinda don’t stop talking ‘’ He looked at me
with anger in his eyes ‘’ GET THE HELL AWAY FROM MY CAR ! DON’T EVER APPROACH
ME YOU ASSHOLE! ‘’ as he said that he left with his car making a loud engine
noise. What the hell was that, a few minutes ago the guy was all over me and
now he just insulted me? Just when I think my luck is about to change… every
time I finally find someone to flirt with it always ends the same, I just
wonder if a witch hexed bagged me or something. I must be cursed. I redid our
conversation on my head to see what I did wrong to make the man run like that,
how was that even possible after our kiss?
I came back into the bar and could see my friends were all about to leave Asa
and Jody holding a passed out Garth, my brothers laughing with Sam and Dean who
was now alone as I approached the table and explained what happened they
accepted to stay a little longer with me in order to take a few more shots we
said goodbye to the couple and just sat down again, this time Dean came closer
to me and hugged me from the side looking really drunk and he rested his face
on my shoulder I could feel his warm breath close to my neck and his arms
hugging me tight ‘’ I must be cursed, every time I finally think I found
someone who I could go on with is as if someone suddenly make them change their
mind. ‘’ Dean laughed under his breath and Sam simply patted my back ‘’ Well
maybe he’s your curse? ‘’ and went into the door’s direction followed by my
brothers who couldn’t leave before making some jokes about me ‘just wanting the
D’ and pointing to Dean. For God’s sake.
After everyone left I was alone with a drunk Dean and a pissed off blond
waitress ‘’ Get this dude out of here, my first night in the job and I almost
got fired because of him’’ the blond waitress who’s name tag read ‘Jo’ was
almost kicking us out, and I am sure if the owner didn’t know us for so long he
would probably really have fired her.
 I took Dean out and called an Uber, I was too drunk to drive and well he was
almost passed out. As we waited for the Uber outside he hugged me tighter
‘cold’ he mumbled, I looked at his arms around my waist he was now hugging me
from behind ‘ Dean Winchester, what am I going to do with my life if you keep
doing this to me ?’ I held his hands with mine I noticed some purple bruising
most probably from his boxing classes and closed my eyes feeling his warm
breath on my neck. The one whom I couldn’t run from, the one who knew
everything about me, my weak spots, my deepest desires  ‘Damn, I love you Dean
Winchester’ I said so only I could hear.
I ‘came out of the closet‘ since I was a young teenager and I was known for
being the first news anchor to be openly gay . Dean is a Ceo for a beer company
who’s known for being the next ‘’ Hugh Hefner’’ since every week he has a new
woman around his arms but what no one knows is that almost every night I am the
one who sleep with him, he always says such secret would spoil his image and
according to him none of us both would want that. Clearly he doesn't know what
I actually want. 
 
When we arrived at my place around 3am, I directly laid him on my bed and went
to the kitchen drink some water as I was filling my cup I felt him hug me tight
from behind, startled I dropped my cup into the sink as my legs went numb with
his kisses on my neck, he turned me around and stared at my lips I could see
the desire, the lust all over his face , the face I couldn’t resist . I Held
his face on my hands and kissed his lips so hard I could feel all the ecstasy
running through my body. My trench coat now on the floor he started to take off
my tie and unbuttoned my white chemise with his eyes closed, after all that’s
what he has been doing for the last 5 years, I took his black t-shirt off and
finally could feel his warm torso against mine, he took me on his arms and
placed me on the kitchen counter I moaned louder and louder when he started
tracing a route on my belly in direction to the growing erection inside my
pants , he removed them like an animal who’s life depended on matting at this
exact moment, I had lost control of my body Dean could do whatever he wants
with me and I would gladly moan his name a thousand times . He started to
masturbate me an placed two fingers in my mouth in order for me to suck on them
and when he felt it was moist enough he introduced it into my asshole, I could
feel his fingers inside me, fucking me slowly at first and then rapidly showing
me how he actually wanted to fuck me , fast and hard as the pleasure consumed
me I noticed Dean use spit on his hard thick dick and stroke a few times and
slowly started to insert his dick inside me ‘’ Cas you’re so tight’’ he said
moaning ‘’ as always, no matter how hard I fuck you, you always stay so damn
tight ‘’ I didn’t pay attention to what he said I just felt him , inside me ,
banging harder and harder . We lost track of time probably due to the alcohol
in our blood, we fucked on top of the kitchen counter then we moved to my room
moaning loud and embracing each other’s sweaty bodies. This is my curse,
desiring this body is probably what makes me not have an actual relationship.
An actual boyfriend whom I won’t have to see in some celebrity magazine for
dating some model for a week.
 
I drank some orange juice to try to take the cum taste out of my mouth as I
came back to my room, Dean was smoking his cigarette ‘’ always smoking
cigarettes after sex huh ‘’ I said joking as I took a shirt from my wardrobe
and putted it on, ‘’Well Cas you’re always the one who can actually give me
pleasure ‘’ he patted the bed and I went lie down next to him placing my head
on his strong chest ‘’ Well Dean it’s been already 5 years don’t you think we
should make our relationship evolve ? I am tired of this friend with benefits
crap. ‘’ He turned off his cigarette and placed it on the ashtray next to the
bed which was only there because of him. ‘’ Huggy bear we already talked about
this, I can’t just destroy my imagine. the beer company is all I can leave to
Sammy when he stops that bullshit about being a public attorney.’’ I sighed and
just closed my eyes. Always the same answer I didn’t even bother anymore. I
just closed my eyes and tried to sleep, I felt his lips kissing my forehead I
was almost dozing off when I heard a distant voice say ‘’ I am sorry castiel.’’
 
 
 
The next day I woke up around 8am as usual , and of course Dean wasn't here
anymore . Even if he liked to party and get drunk he would always wake up at
6am to go to his company '' family business'' he always says if he wants his
workers to follow the example he should be the first to arrive and the last to
leave . I went to the kitchen and my clothes weren't on the floor anymore now
placed on the counter where we had sex the previous night were pancakes and
black coffee, not my naked body . there was a note on it '' See you in about a
week cas, business trip to Germany''  nothing else , no i love you no i'll miss
you but then i am probably just being dramatic . I ate the deliciously cooked
pancakes and took some pills for the growing hangover, i finished my coffee and
went take a shower to go to work . I have a long journey ahead .
I arrived in my office around 10 am, today's news script already placed on my
desk . I sighed to myself as i read it.... blood over blood. The world just
seemed to become worst everyday, it was then when i heard a knocking on my door
'' Come in ' i simply said while putting my tie on place '' Hey Cas, as you
know Bela is on her maternity leave so we gotta introduce a new anchor for the
time being the big bosses decided it will be that new reporter Alfred
Samandriel '' Charlie my secretary handed me a file with Samandriel's resume he
was a new promising reporter but from that to become anchor was quite a jump 
'' How come he hasn't been working for long with us and he already has a shot
at being an Anchor? '' I questioned Charlie, she always made sure to have the
smallest information on the tip of her tongue she knew every small piece of a
puzzle mattered. '' Well Cas, He's Crowley's nephew . But despite that the kid
looks quite promising '' I asked her a few more questions to be prepared to
meet my new temporary co-host. 
As i entered the news room Samandriel was the first to come great me '' Hi
Castiel Novak , such pleasure to meet you. I am a huge fan '' he shook my hands
rapidly and i stood there awkwardly '' Hi Samandriel it's nice to meet you
too.'' i gave him a bright smile his aura was totally different from Dean's he
looked like a happy puppy who just got the best toy out of the store if he was
an angel he would most certainly be ' the most adorable of heaven' as he
finally let go of my hand i laughed and before i could say something else he
said '' You're a hero to me, thanks to you i could come out to my family and
follow my dream of being an Anchor like you . '' Don't put it like it or you
will make me fell old '' we started having small talks he asked me questions on
how he should behave or if i had any tips for him , when the staff announced we
should get our make up retouched and we would be live on 5 minutes i could see
he started trembling, he was really nervous i held his hand from under our
news  desk and mouthed at him '' it's gonna be okay '' he held my hand tight ''
LIVE IN 3, 2, 1 '' .
The week went quite smoothly and we were having great view ratings, Alfie as
Samandriel preferred to be called was doing a great job and some of the public
were actually making a petition online for him to stay as a main host. As i was
taking a break on my office i got a message from Dean, who didn't give any sign
of being alive for the whole week
 
From: Dean W.
Arrived . 'll drop by later . 
3:52pm
This is the real  Dean Winchester sometimes i just wish i could know what 
happens inside his mind how can he just disappear for a week then come back as
if nothing happened as I was about to text him back i heard an almost silent
knock on the door '' Excuse me, it's me Alfie , are you awake Castiel ?' i
turned my chair that was facing the big glass wall to his direction  '' yeah
sure come in Alfie. Is there anything you need ?'' he looked me in the eyes but
then returned his sight to the floor '' Well... this week has been amazing ,
the job, the staff but most of all is being an amazing experience because of
you Castiel , so in order to thank you i wondered if you would like to go on a
date with me ?''  I stared at him for  while in shock, He was around 6 years
younger than me and i would lie if i said it didn't make me uncomfortable, ''
Do-doesn't need to be a date ha-ha - he said nervously- we can just go grab
some drinks '' the poor fella was sweating i could see, when i was about to say
no to him and explain i saw him as a little brother another beep came into my
phone 
From Dean W.
Let's netflix and chill huggy bear 
4:05pm
I hid my frustration, I am tired, tired of hiding myself, i didn't come out for
this . Tired of being in this secret mess. Maybe Alfie could help me out of it.
Giving a shot at this wouldn't kill me and Alfie is an adorable person . If i
show Dean he doesn't own me maybe i will finally break my curse and for once
feel truly accomplished in a relationship . 
'' You know what Alfie ? Let's go on a date . I am single and so are you .
Where should we go ?'' i stood up from my chair and came closer to him he gave
me the biggest smile he could and all the nervousness seemed to have vanished ,
as he started talking about his favorite restaurant and something about a book
he likes being on cinema i listened to him... even if the only thing my mind 
could really focus on were those damn green eyes that never abandoned my
thoughts . 
Dean P.O.V 
When I arrived at Cas’s place with beers and popcorn I saw Castiel getting
extremely well dressed ‘’ didn’t know we would do some role play tonight ‘’ I
said while already taking of my jacket, Castiel looked at me and with an
indifferent look he said ‘ I’m going on a date Dean , a real one , enjoy your
netflix with one of your 'official exes' and clean up before you leave.’ He
took his wallet and left without another word answering his phone as he went
out '' Hey Alfie i'm almost down stairs just wait me one sec.'' 
i had lost my words... Cas was going on a ' real date ' which probably meant
something public, a restaurant or something not something between his house
walls . But it's impossible that in one week he already met someone; i made
sure to punch some sense into the last asshole who dared ask him out . 
Who dared ask him out, this situation made me so angry without noticing i threw
the beer bottles on the floor breaking them .
'' Who's this son of a bitch ' Alfie '? '' .                         
 
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