Posted originally on the Archive_of_Our_Own at https://archiveofourown.org/ works/13142829. Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Underage Category: F/M, M/M Fandom: Teenage_Mutant_Ninja_Turtles_(TV_2012) Relationship: Leonardo/Raphael_(TMNT), Casey_Jones/Michelangelo_(TMNT), Karai/ Donatello, Donatello/April_O'Neil Character: Leonardo_(TMNT), Raphael_(TMNT), April_O'Neil_(TMNT), Michelangelo_ (TMNT), Casey_Jones, Splinter_(TMNT), Donatello_(TMNT), Karai_(TMNT) Additional Tags: Christmas, Kisses, Fluff, Love, Romance, First_Kiss, First_Time, happiness, Presents, Turtlecest, Angst_with_a_Happy_Ending, Heartache, Eggs, Intersex, Mpreg, Miscarriage, Grief Stats: Published: 2017-12-25 Updated: 2018-03-18 Chapters: 8/? Words: 16064 ****** Christmas in the sewers ****** by KerryAnne Summary Raphael's madly in love with Donnie and seeks Leo's advice on how to court him. Leo gives it and says he's happy for Raph, but is he or does he harbor a secret love for him? And will Donnie return Raph's love or does he want someone else? Love and complications arise. Notes See the end of the work for notes ***** December 21 ***** Leo's 16 Donnie's 16 Mikey's 16 Raphael's 15 Raphael lay back in his hammock, on December 21, hands clasped behind his head, a dreamy expression on his face, as he thought about his crush. He loved everything about Don: his slim olive figure, his hazel eyes, his gap tooth, his adorable little tail that dropped down when Don was totally relaxed, his firm ass and his toned legs and his gentle, easy nature that was the opposite of his. Don could soothe him, like nobody else, with just one word, unlike Leo, who drove Raphael insane with his pomposity. Don never made him feel like he was stupid or a brute or that he and his opinions were worthless. Don always knew what to say when Raphael had had a bad day. He knew when to leave Raphael alone, unlike Leo, who was always up his shell about something. Donnie was goodness personified and never raised his voice. He made Raphael want to be a better turtle and he made him feel things he'd never thought he'd feel: love and happiness, as well as warmth pooling in his groin whenever Don was around. But his hormones aside, Raphael mostly wanted to take Don in his arms, hug and kiss him and tell him what he meant to him. He'd been tempted many times when they'd worked together on mechanics, a mutual interest, but every time he'd tried to confess his feelings, he'd frozen. He'd had the same feelings for Leo a few years prior, but of course, he'd been unable to tell him too, thinking Leo would never return the same feelings. Leo was the perfect son, unlike him, and while Donnie was also perfection, he seemed to enjoy Raphael's company, which Leo didn't. Leo seemed to find Raphael's presence an annoyance, so the temperamental turtle no longer spent time with him and rather spent it with Donnie. Leo was gorgeous with his mesmerizing sapphire eyes, slender frame, cute butt and incredible legs, but Leo was out of reach and too self-righteous. Donnie was down to earth and attainable. He'd been in love with Donnie for about six months now and he knew he had to confess his feelings, but how? He wasn't good with words. Actions were more his thing. He had to do something, but what? He couldn't ask Mikey for advice, because he'd scoff at him, the macho turtle, for falling in love and would endlessly mock him. He couldn't ask his dad. It would lead to another uncomfortable talk about sex, so his only options were either April or Casey. No. Scratch Casey. He was a Neanderthal about emotions and love too. The poor guy had tried to hit on April and woo her by asking her to a wrestling match, so no, he wasn't the best person to ask. Raphael wanted to tell Donnie the next day and if everything went well, who knows, maybe he'd have some fun in the bedroom with his new mate at Christmas. That would be the best Christmas present. He smiled at the idea. Then he remembered that April was away and would only be back on Christmas Eve. Which meant Leo was the only one he could ask. It was ten p.m., but he knew Leo would be awake. He rarely went to bed before midnight, usually waiting up for Raphael and meditating. The emerald skinned turtle scowled. It would be humiliating asking Leo, especially if he laughed at him, but there was no one else he could ask, so he had to ignore his ego and suck it up. Raphael got up and tapped on Leo's door. "Fearless, it's me. Can we talk?" "I'm kind of busy, Raph." "Too busy for yer favorite little brother? Open the damn door or I'm gonna kick it down!" "Since you ask so nicely," Leo said dryly. "I'll open it." He did and added, as Raphael entered, "You're not my favorite little brother. I don't have favorites." "Whatever. I need some advice." "What kind of advice?" "Uh, love," Raphael said, his cheeks reddened. "My hotheaded brother's in love. Wow," Leo teased. "Who's the lucky girl? "I need yer help and stop pokin' fun at me. It's hard enough askin' ya without bein' mocked," Raphael snapped, his green eyes blazing. "All right. What do you want?" "How do ya woo someone?" "You take them on dates and buy them gifts and stuff. Compliment them. Do things for them. Flowers and gifts are always winners. Make them meals. Do things from the heart. Tell them how much they mean to you and when you have their heart, never treat them badly. Respect them, cherish them and love them. I think it's great you're in love, Raph, and I hope you meet someone, who fills you with joy and gives you the love you deserve. You think you're not worthy of affection, but you are. So very deserving and anyone who has your heart is extremely blessed. I think you're incredible. I'm so happy for you and hope it works out," Leo said in a voice that was a strange mixture of elation and sadness. Raphael's plastron swelled in pride. Leo had said he was incredible. Was Leo flirting? And Leo's tone. He sounded disappointed. Why? It wasn't like Leo liked him more than a brother, so Raphael shoved the flirting idea to the back of his mind and said, "Thanks. Ya've helped me think of ideas now. I know exactly how ta woo Donnie now." "Yeah? Donnie, huh?" Leo said, trying to hide the pain in his voice. "Yeah," Raphael said, his green eyes shining in happiness, as an idea hit him. "Thanks, Leo. And I hope ya meet someone too. Ya can be a big pain in the shell, but yer also pretty cool sometimes and deserve love. I'm gonna knock Donnie's shell off. Make him a romantic meal and compliment him and tell him how I feel. Hey, if I need more help, can I ask ya?" "Sure, Raph," Leo said, trying not to cry. Raphael didn't see the gloomy expression on Leo's face when he turned around and left and he didn't see Leo collapse onto the ground in a flood of tears. XXX Raphael woke up early the next morning and went into the kitchen. Leo was drinking his tea and Raphael began to prepare Donnie's coffee. "Mornin', Leo," Raphael said breezily. "Ya look buggered. Didn't sleep?" "I'm fine," Leo lied. "You seem chipper." "Yeah. I have a feelin' Christmas is gonna be extra special this year," Raphael said and winked. "I'm happy for you, Raph," Leo lied. Donnie entered the room and said, "Hi, guys." "Hey, Donnie," Raphael said, pouring Donnie's brewed coffee into a cup and staring at Donnie adoringly. "I made yer coffee." "Thanks, Raph. You're a lifesaver," Donnie said, accepting the coffee. What would I do without you? You're the best. Hey, Leo. You don't look so hot. Bad night?" "I'm fine!" Leo hissed, rising to his feet. "I'm going to meditate. I'll see you later." "What's his problem?" Donnie said. "Not like Leo to be crabby, even if he had a bad night." "Leo's probably pissed he lost one of his borin' books or somethin'," Raphael said. "He'll get over it. I wanna ask ya somethin'." "What, Raph? I need to go to the lab in a minute. I'm way behind with my work!" "Ya wanna spend time with me later?" "I'm not sure I can. I'm so behind, Raph. I'm sorry and April's coming over to watch movies." "I thought she was only comin' here on Christmas Eve." "Plans change. I'll see what I can do, okay? I want to make sure the thing I'm working on is finished by Christmas. It's a secret, so I can't tell you what it is." "Yer workin' on somethin'? Yer in love, huh?" Donnie smiled and said, "I am." "Do I know the person?" "Yes," Donnie said and smiled mysteriously. He placed a hand on Raphael's shoulder, sending tingles down Raphael's spine, and said, "I have to go, Raphie. Thanks for the coffee. You know, you're really sweet when you want to be. I like that." Raphael's plastron swelled and he blushed and said, "It's nothin'." He called me Raphie, Raphael thought and sweet. He likes me as more a brother. It's obvious. I'm gonna tell him how I feel and then I'll cook for him. "Hey, Raph, I appreciate what you do. Thank you." "Only a pleasure, Donnie." I think he's makin' me somethin' for Christmas, Raphael thought excitedly. Wow. Donnie likes me too. But why was Leo actin' so weird? Stupid Fearless is probably just jealous. Yeah. That's it. Typical Leo. Never happy for anyone else! XXX Leo's heart had broken when he'd seen the loving looks Raphael had cast at Donnie and he'd made a decision. He couldn't stay in the lair and see his crush hook up with someone else. It would be too painful. Leo knocked on Splinter's door and said, "Sensei, can we talk, please?" "Come in, Leonardo." Leo entered and said, "I need to talk to you please." "What's the matter, Leonardo?" the aged rat said. "You look distressed." "I am. It's about Raphael." "What about him? Is he sick?" "He's love-sick, Sensei." "Isn't that good, my son? I don't understand." "It is and it isn't. Raphael's in love with Donnie and while I'm happy for Raph, I'm heartbroken. I've always liked Raph and now I can never tell him." "Does Donatello feel the same way about Raphael?" "I'm convinced he does. They spend so much time together and Donnie often tells me how wonderful Raphael is." "Perhaps there's another reason why Donatello mentions Raphael's attributes. Not because he's interested in Raphael himself, but so that you'll consider Raphael as a mate." "I sincerely doubt that, Sensei. I believe Donnie feels the same way about Raphael and is madly in love with him. I can't be here if they're a couple, Sensei. It would be too painful. I'm asking permission to go away for an extended period of time. I'm hoping my love for Raphael will diminish to that of fraternal affection only and I'll be able to be happy for them. I also feel I haven't been as good a leader as I can be. Send me to the Ancient One and I can hone my skills. Maybe two years away. That'll be sufficient." "And who'll lead the team?" "Raphael can lead in my absence. It's not forever, Sensei. Please. I need to get away," Leo beseeched. "Very well, Leonardo. I'll make preparations with the Ancient One and you'll leave shortly after Christmas." "Thank you, Sensei," Leo said and bowed. He left Splinter's room, his head lowered, and collided with Raphael, who was on his way to Donnie's lab. "Whoa, Fearless. Watch where yer goin'!" the red clad turtle said irritably. Leo said nothing and strode to his bedroom, banging the door so hard behind him; it nearly fell off of its hinges. Raphael blinked in surprise. Leo was pissy, but not this pissy that he'd slam his door. Leo was the master of self-control and never did that. What the hell's upset Fearless so much, Raphael thought? He decided to give Leo space and talk to him later that day after he'd spoken to Donnie. ***** Karai's plans ***** Chapter Summary Karai has special plans for Raphael. Chapter Notes See the end of the chapter for notes The past few days had been exceptionally busy for Karai. She’d been baking up a storm, setting up her Christmas tree and decorations in her new apartment, finished all of her Christmas shopping, and transformed her apartment into a cozy love nest, which also included a love seat. She’d also gone to town buying gifts for her secret crush. She knew he’d love the fancy new gym equipment, the red leather jacket and matching gloves, red helmet and the cute his and hers matching red silk robes she’d found in Japan when she’d visited there two weeks prior. He’d also love her lingerie collection, which included everything from bustiers to teddies to thongs and she had a wonderful toy box containing a variety of sex toys that included dildos, whips and chains and her personal favorite the cock destroyer, a rather lethal cock ring with spikes. She had a feeling Raphael was into BDSM and that he was kinky. She couldn’t wait to show him everything. He’d be one happy, satisfied boy. She imagined Raphael’s thick, huge purple rod plowing into her and she felt herself grow wet. He was probably a virgin and would be a bit nervous, but she’d coax him and praise him and he’d calm down and do what she’d been craving for months ever since she’d accidentally walked in on him when he’d been in the toilet. The moron had left the door open and needing a pee, she’d walked in and seen him naked and frantically masturbating, his eyes closed, his hands pumping his gigantic, engorged cock and moaning something she couldn’t make out. She’d quietly left without him realizing her presence, but but the image had been imprinted on her psyche. Raphael was a gorgeous specimen with his mesmerizing green eyes, his ripped body, his firm ass and stunning legs. She’d also seen his tail once when he’d casually dropped it when they’d been watching movies. He’d been sitting next to Leo and she’d been on the opposite sofa, but had seen it. It was short and very cute and it had wagged a little before Raphael had curled it back up. Karai couldn’t wait to touch it and to play with it, knowing it was one of the erogenous zones a turtle has. The others being their dicks, slits and plastrons. Karai had no doubt he’d be an incredible lover once he gained more experience. Long term plans? Karai wasn’t sure if they’d work out, but she damn well wanted to try. They had similar personalities, but if they communicated and there was love, they could make it work, right? Raphael wasn’t the brightest spark, she thought, but she didn’t exactly want him for his intelligence. No. She wanted to see how the sex went and then the other pieces would fall into place. Wasn’t that how it always went? Raphael would live with her. Screw what his pesky brothers thought. They’d be together 24/7 and she’d be his universe, like he’d hers and they’d play, date and have fun without his brothers’ interference. Or maybe she and Raphael would move to Japan. Maybe have kids. She adored kids and she knew she’d be a great mom. Raphael would be a wonderful daddy. He was gruff, but beneath his gruff exterior, she knew he was a softy. She’d seen flashes of it when his brothers had been injured and when Chompy had been sick. Raphael had never left his brothers’ or Chompy’s bedsides until they’d recovered. Raphael was a bit arrogant and sarcastic and he could be a live wire, but Karai knew that was due to his insecurity. He felt like he was worthless and didn’t deserve love. Well, she’d prove him wrong and would shower him with so much affection he’d never look back and he’d be reassured and he’d love her back and their sex would be mind blowing and she couldn’t wait any longer to reveal her feelings. He must feel the same way. How could he not? She was beautiful and had all the right parts and…. Her thoughts were interrupted by her ringing cell. She glanced at the caller ID and saw in surprise that it was Raphael. He never called her, so something had to be up. “The guys okay, Raph?” she said, trying not to let her nervousness at hearing his voice show in hers. “Yeah.” “So, what’s up then?” “Um, can I pop ‘round? I kinda need some advice.” “Now?” “Bad time?” “No, no. Uh, just was washing my hair. Sure. I’ll…” “Ya don’t gotta look smart for me. I’ll be ‘round in a few. “ Shit, Karai thought, as the line went dead. He’s coming over. I was going to tell him how I felt at Christmas, but today, the twenty first, will have to do. Karai went into her bedroom and ensured she looked breath taking. Operation seduce Raphael was in progress. XXX Karai was in her bedroom, when Raphael leaped in through the open window, nearly scaring her out of her wits. “Geez, Raphael. Give a girl a heart attack, why don’t you?” she said snappily. Raphael sat down on her bed, eyed her fur coat and boots and said, “Goin’ out?” “No. I’m just cold, so I wanted to stay warm,” Karai said in an odd purring tone, looking at Raphael intently. Her gaze unsettled him and he cleared his throat before saying, “I need advice.” “What kind of advice?” “Well, I asked Leo for help earlier, but he was very vague. Guy ain’t exactly an expert in the love department.” “You’re in love?” “Yeah. Sure am. Have been for months.” “Me too.” “Uh, cool.” “I bet you’re really cold and need some warming up,” Karai said seductively, stepping closer. “Huh?” Raphael said. “What are ya talkin’ ‘bout?” “Come on, Raphael. Even you can’t be that dense,” Karai said, removing her fur coat and revealing a figure hugging red teddy that made Raphael’s eyes pop out of his head. “Uh, Karai….” Raphael stammered, before Karai launched herself at him and began aggressively kissing him, while undressing him and throwing his trench coat onto the floor. Raphael was frozen in shock, as she continued kissing him, her hands moving down between his legs, stroking, caressing, touching, but when they settled on his tail and gave it a playful tug, Raphael recovered and shoved her off, rubbing the lipstick off of his mouth and glaring at her. “What the fuck, Karai?” he demanded furiously, his green eyes blazing. He quickly dressed and added, “Have ya lost yer mind?” “I know you like me, Raphael! That’s why I dressed up for you; I got my apartment ready for you. It’ll be our love nest and we can become mates and have babies and…” “Babies? Yer one delusional, psycho bitch!” Raphael spat. “I don’t want babies. Least of all with ya! I’m gay! Fuckin’ gay! I came over ta ask what ta get….Forget it!” Raphael hissed. “You’re not gay, Raphael. You love me,” Karai said, stepping closer and before he could move away, she aggressively kissed him again and wrapped her arms around him. Raphael’s face darkened, he shoved her away so hard that she fell back onto the bed, and he yelled, “Yer a crazy bitch! Don’t come near me again or I’m gonna…” Karai smiled and said, “I know you’re playing hard to get, Raphael, but I’ll win your heart and you’ll lose your virginity with me and we’ll have adorable babies!” “GET SOME FREAKING HELP, YA DELUSIONAL PSYCHO! I AIN’T FUCKIN’ INTERESTED IN YA AND IF YA COME NEAR THE LAIR, I’LL…” “You’re a pretty boy, Raphael, and I can make you happy. Stop being silly and come to bed.” “Bat shit crazy bitch! I’m warnin’ ya. Stay over from me!” Raphael roared and leapt out of the window. Karai grinned. He’s just playing hard to get, but I will win his heart and we’ll be together eternally. Just wait and see. I’m going to visit him tomorrow and bring him a special gift. Yes. He’ll love the sex toys. I can’t wait to show him. Chapter End Notes A/N Thanks for the kudos. There will be babies later on, so will Raphael remain adamant about not wanting any or will he change his mind? Belated Merry Christmas to everyone. Hope you all had a fantastic time. ***** The charade ***** Chapter Summary Raphael plots to win Donnie, roping Leo in to help him. Chapter Notes See the end of the chapter for notes Raphael arrived home and almost collided with Leo, who’d left his room to brew some tea. “Whoa, Raph!” Leo said, holding up a hand. “What’s the urgency and why do you smell of...? Is that perfume?” Leo sniffed the air and added, “Is that lipstick on your cheeks?” Fuck, Raphael thought. Now I’m gonna be grilled by Fearless. As if things weren’t bad enough. Raphael was about to growl and snap that it wasn’t Leo’s business when his eyes fell on Donnie and April sitting on the couch together. They were holding hands and making out. Raphael felt like he’d been kicked in the gut and his heart shattered into a million pieces. He clenched his fists and closed his eyes, a mixture of jealousy, rage and sorrow etched on his handsome face. Before Leo could comment, Raphael recovered himself, cleared his throat and said, “Ya know this is a public place. Get a room!” Donnie and April looked up. The genius’s cheeks were flushed, as he said, “Sorry, guys. We kind of got carried away. We’ll go to my room. Come on, April.” “Ya been together long?” Raphael asked, trying not to sound jealous. “Six weeks,” April said and stared adoringly at Donnie. “I see,” Raphael said and his eyes shone, as an idea hit him. He grabbed Leo’s hand, planted a kiss to a stunned Leo’s cheek and said, “A few weeks longer than me and Fearless. We hooked up a month ago. It was pretty romantic, wasn’t it, love? Ya wrote me a poem and declared yer love. Kinda sudden, but so right, ain’t that right, Fearless?” Raphael said, staring at his brother almost pleadingly. Leo understood. Raphael was hurting and he hoped to make Donnie jealous by saying he was with Leo. The leader thought the plan wouldn’t work, because Donnie was so besotted, but he didn’t want to upset his little brother and make him look like an idiot and liar. Leo smiled, kissed Raphael’s hand and said, “That’s right, my takara.” “That’s so wonderful!” April gushed. “We can double date. I’m so thrilled for you two. Aw. You make such a handsome couple. How come you never told us you were an item before?” “Yeah,” Donnie said. “I’m delighted for you guys and have no doubt you’ll have a fantastic life together. Probably the same reason as us, April. We’re private people, but we couldn’t control ourselves tonight. Anyway, I’m thrilled that Leo and Raph have finally confessed their feelings. I always thought the tension between them was due to sexual frustration and chemistry.” Raphael wanted to punch his genius brother for saying that. Sexual frustration and chemistry between him and Fearless? As if. Leo smiled and said, “You’re absolutely right. It just took us a while to figure that out. Takara, why don’t we have a quick shower before bed? Night, April and Donnie. Have fun.” “Night, guys,” April and Donnie said in unison. “Have fun,” Donnie said and winked. Leo dragged Raphael to the bathroom and shut the door. XXX “Thanks, Leo,” Raphael said, turning his back and undressing. “I appreciate what ya did.” “No problem. What are brothers for?” Raphael turned on the faucet, closed the shower curtain and said, “Ya can stay there.” “Now you don’t want me to see you?” Leo teased, trying to cover up his awkwardness. He hadn’t been alone with Raphael in the bathroom for years. Not since they were kids. “Very funny. We’re pretendin’ ta be a couple, Leo, so ya don’t gotta see me naked! This is just until Donnie realizes what a mistake he’s makin’ and gets with me. How he can fancy that bitch is beyond me,” Raphael hissed, soaping himself. “April’s not a bitch, Raph. She’s sweet and caring.” “Whatever. I’m a better fit for Donnie. Why can’t he see that?” “He’s in love, Raph.” “It’s lust. Not love and it’ll never last. He’ll see we’re made for one another. Just see.” “What will you do if that doesn’t happen?” “Stop bein’ a pessimist. It’ll happen. Come on. I’m sexy and I’d be better in bed than April.” “You’re also male and…” “Shut up, Leo. Yer such a…” “I’m a realist. This plan of yours might fail and then what? Will you still continue the charade?” “It will work!” Raphael snapped. “So, want to tell me what happened and why you smelled of perfume?” Leo asked, changing the subject. “Karai has this weird idea that I’m in love with her and she tried ta seduce me. I mean, really. Why would I want that skank? I’m gay and even if I weren’t, she ain’t the kinda girl I’d pick. I’d want someone decent and affectionate and sweet. It was horrible, Leo. She kissed me, pushed me back on her bed, undressed me and was kissin’ me. I hated it! She stole my first kiss, ya know, and it was awful. Hey, this charade will kill two birds with one stone. She’ll back off and I’ll get Donnie. I’m such a genius!” “Nothing like self-praise,” Leo said dryly. “What ‘bout ya, Fearless? Ya like anyone?” Raphael asked, turning off the faucet and opening the shower curtain. “Keep yer back turned, Leo. Don’t look,” Raphael said, as he reached for his red towel on the rail. “I did, but he didn’t feel the same way.” “That sucks, man,” Raphael said and wrapped the towel around himself. “Wait. Yer gay? Golden boy likes guys? Wow. I’m shocked. I always thought ya would like chicks.” “No.” “Well, chin up, Fearless. The right guy will come along. Ya just gotta be patient.” “I suppose. You finished?” “Yep,” Raphael said, picking up his gear. “I’m gonna go ta bed. I’ll see ya in the mornin’.” “Our story will be more believable if we share the same room.” Raphael whirled around and said, “Us share a room?” “That’s right. You can remain dressed and I’ll do the same if it makes you feel less uncomfortable.” “Yer a genius too, Leo!” Raphael said happily. “I’ll see ya in a few. Just wanna get a few things.” Leo dragged a hand down his face, as he watched his brother head to his room and thought, what the hell am I doing? I love him and it’s not pretend to me, but it’s all pretend to him, so I’m letting myself in for heartache. Still, I’ll be gone in a few days, so I can do it for Raph until I leave and pretend it’s a game on my part too, right? XXX Ten minutes later, Leo was in bed when he saw Raphael enter. The hothead was dressed in red boxers and carried his red pillow and a small suitcase. “Just a few things,” Raphael said, setting down his case “I’ll pack them away in the mornin’. I’m exhausted. Ya better not steal the covers.” Leo pulled the bedspread back and said, “I don’t. As I recall, Mikey always did and I relied on you for heat. You were always so warm.” “Whatever,” Raphael said and climbed into bed, pulling the covers over himself. “This is weird.” “What is?” Leo asked, trying not to tremble. He was so nervous with Raphael in such close proximity and he could smell Raphael’s intense musk scent. It was intoxicating and… “Why are ya nervous?” “I’m not.” “Yer tremblin’.” “I’m fine!” “Ya ain’t aroused, are ya?” “Excuse me?” Leo said in astonishment. “Outside the bedroom, Leo, we’re mates, but here we’re just brothers and I don’t wanna smell yer arousal or see ya naked, okay?” “I get the message, Raphael.” “Wonderful. And there won’t be any screwin’ either.” “I said I got the message, Raph,” Leo said testily. “Cool. Anyway, it’s kinda strange sharin’ a bed with ya. I hope ya don’t mind, but I do snore.” Leo shrugged and said, “I’m an early riser. I’ll try not to wake you.” “Thanks. This room is kinda sparse. Ya mind if I bring more of my stuff in here, like my weights and so on, so I can make it more like home?” “How long are you planning on staying?” “I reckon our plan will work in a week tops, but I just wanna make it feel like my place too.” “Fine. Any other requests?” “I wanna redecorate. Hang some posters. The walls are kinda bare and I don’t like that painting,” Raphael said and pointed at a bearded Japanese warrior holding a severed head in his hands and grinning maliciously. “I don’t care if he’s yer idol. He gives me the creeps and I feel like he’s watchin’ me. And I’ll bring Chompy of course. He was asleep when I went ta my room, so I didn’t wake him, but I’ll bring him tomorrow. Can I get rid of the painting now?” “If you want,” Leo said, trying not to show his exasperation. “Cool,” Raphael said. He jumped out of bed, took down the painting and placed it on the desk. “That goes ta the Dojo tomorrow. I only want happy things in here.” Leo sighed. His brother was being demanding for someone, who was only pretending to be his lover and Chompy would be a handful too. He’d hardly get any rest. “Anything else?” Leo asked. “Let’s see. How ‘bout we paint the walls cream or beige? White’s borin’ and maybe we can change the bedding?” “It’s not necessary if it’s just for a few days!” Leo protested. “Honestly, you’re acting more like a chick wanting to decorate her boyfriend’s bachelor pad to make it more like her home than you are pretending to like me.” “Whatever. I just wanna feel like at home. What’s so wrong with that? It’ll make it more believable if we do that.” “Fine. Go ahead, Raph. Anyway, in a few days you’ll have Donnie and I won’t be here, so I don’t care.” Green eyes met sapphire and Raphael said, “What do ya mean?” “I’m leaving. I talked to Sensei and I’m leaving shortly after Christmas.” “Why would ya wanna leave? Don’t we matter ta ya?” “I need to find myself, Raph. I’m not as good a leader as I can be and I have some personal shit to deal with.” “Wow. Ya said shit,” Raphael mocked. “Yer halo’s gonna…” “Don’t ridicule me!” Leo snapped. “I have some stuff I’m dealing with and I need to leave.” “But that’s BS. Yer a good leader and a good brother and ya can’t. We need ya. Hey, is it because of that guy that yer leavin’? If it is, I can knock some sense into him. Is it Mikey?” “What?” “Well, let’s be honest, Leo. Humans don’t dig us, so ya have ta like Donnie, me or Mikey. I know it ain’t Donnie or me, so it’s gotta be Mikey. Ya want me ta talk ta the knucklehead and knock some sense into him?” Leo’s eyes flew wide in horror and he said, “No!” “Why not? Yer just gonna walk away and let the person ya love be with someone else?” “That’s exactly what I’m going to do! Leave Mikey alone, Raph. He’s happy and that’s all that matters to me.” “Yer so noble, Fearless,” Raphael said, still determined to talk to Mikey. “It’s not about being noble, Raph. When you love someone and they don’t feel the same way, you set them free….” “And if they love ya, they come back ta ya. I know that quote, but whoever said it is dumb, Leo. If ya love someone, ya fight for them and don’t give up. I think yer stupid, but whatever. It’s your life. I think yer makin’ a mistake by walkin’ away and leavin’. I’ll miss ya.” “You will?” Leo said in surprise. “Of course. Yer my big brother and it’ll mean that I’m leader now. Thanks a heap for that. Now I’ll have less time ta myself. Yer so selfish, Leo.” “No, Raph. I’m not and I wish you understood," Leo said miserably. Raphael turned his shell on his brother, not wanting to talk anymore, and to his immense surprise, tears filled his eyes. Why am I sad, he thought? Fearless is leavin’, but so what? I should be glad he is, so he’ll be offa my shell, but I feel… I don’t love Leo, do I? No. I love Donnie. No. Leo can’t go. He has ta stay. Leavin’ shortly after Christmas is too soon for our plan ta work. We need longer, because Donnie’s in the honeymoon period with April. I just need Leo here for three more weeks and Donnie will be mine. I gotta convince Leo ta stay longer. I know. I’ll get sick or somethin’ and Leo will be wracked with guilt and will postpone his trip. Raphael fell asleep, unaware of his brother silently crying next to him.   Chapter End Notes A/N Will Raph's plan work? ***** Misunderstanding ***** Chapter Summary Mikey tells Casey some surprising news. And convinced Mikey cheated on Leo, Raph teaches him a lesson for breaking his big brother's heart. Chapter Notes See the end of the chapter for notes Mikey slipped out of the lair at 11 p.m. and ran through the tunnels until he came to the manhole that wasn’t far from his destination. He went up it and ran to the house on the corner. Knocking twice on the door, he said, “It’s me.” Casey opened the door seconds later, dragged him inside, closed the door and smashed his lips onto Mikey’s in a spine-tingling kiss and wrapped his arms around him. Mikey churred in appreciation, as hands roamed and clothing was quickly shed. Still kissing, they moved to the black haired teen’s bedroom and Casey placed Mikey onto the bed, looking at him lovingly. Casey broke the kiss and said, “I missed you, Mikey.” “So did I. Fuck me.” Casey chuckled and said, “You don’t have to ask me twice. Man, you’re an eager turtle, aren’t you?” “Hurry. We only have a few hours before I need to get home and I want to make the most of it. Your dad’s not here, is he?” “No. At his girlfriend’s.” Casey crawled between Mikey’s legs and lapped at Mikey’s slit, until the sea green turtle dropped down with a low growl, his cock semi-erect and leaking precum. He stuck two fingers into Mikey’s slit, prepping him, as his own cock dropped down and throbbed with desire. He felt blessed. Mikey was adorable with his blue eyes, freckles, muscular body, toned legs, firm butt and he had the cutest tail. He loved Mikey’s intense musk scent too and the fact that he was the sweetest in temperament. Kind, affectionate, he gave just as much as he took, was passionate, loyal, understanding and never made him feel worthless. In fact, he made Casey feel like he was special and deserving of love. He’d never felt like that, having always had a tumultuous relationship with his livewire, alcoholic and brutal father, who often beat him, especially when he was drunk. Casey had never known his mom, who’d died of a heroin overdose when he was a month old and she was twenty. His father never spoke about her either and all Casey had of her were a stuffed teddy, two photos of her as a younger woman and her engagement ring. Judging Mikey ready, Casey lined his dick up at Mikey’s entrance, thrust inside of him and began pounding away, soon forming a steady rhythm and making Mikey groan, as he fisted the bedsheets, his eyes rolled back in ecstasy. They’d been lovers for two months and had lost their virginity with one another. They’d met a year earlier and it had been love at first sight, but too shy to say anything, they‘d kept their feelings hidden. Then one month prior, Mikey had plucked up the courage and asked to talk to Casey alone. He’d then told him how he felt. Leo knew about them and was cool about it, but the other brothers didn’t. They hoped to tell Donnie and Raphael at Christmas. Casey accelerated the pace, his own eyes clouded with desire, as he watched his mate flush in pleasure, as Casey repeatedly stabbed his prostate. Casey thought Mikey was the most perfect being he’d ever known. He was a turtle, sure, but he didn’t see that when he was with Mikey. He saw him for who he was and not what he was. Mikey was a teenager, just like him, and the missing piece. His ying to his yang. His everything. And he couldn’t imagine being without him. Casey sped up more, thrusting harder and deeper and a deep rumble rolled up Mikey’s throat. The black-haired teen studied his mate, thinking how adorable Mikey’s sounds were. He loved pulling them out of him and knowing that only he was able to do that. Casey was a bit worried about what Donnie and Raphael would think of their union, but Mikey had assured them they’d have the seal of approval, because Casey was like family and loved by them. And his brothers would do anything to make Mikey happy. If Mikey loved Casey, they’d accept it. And Mikey had reasoned that Donnie had April. He’d seen them kiss, unbeknownst to them. And he was going to ensure Leo and Raphael got together too, thinking that if everyone had mates, they wouldn’t meddle in his life. A few minutes later, Mikey churred and said, “I’m going to cum. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Casey!” He climaxed, spraying his lover white with his milky and salty essence and panting, his cheeks still flushed. “Mikey!” Casey yelled, as he too came, filling his lover with hot jets of cum. Casey pulled out, kissed Mikey’s lips and lay down, pulling Mikey close to bask in the afterglow. He’d never loved snuggling before, thinking it silly and girly, but since he’d been with Mikey, he loved it. Sex was always fantastic, but cuddling with Mikey was wonderful too. Mikey made him feel okay to tune into his softer side and to be more open with his feelings, instead of always bottling them in. He felt warm and gooey, a pulling in his chest and butterflies whenever he was around Mikey and he was positive their love would last forever. Basking in the afterglow, Mikey said, “I love you so much, Case.” “Love you too, honey.” “Being with you has brought purpose to my life and I know we’ll always be together, unless…” “Unless what, Mikey?” “You couldn’t handle my secret.” “What secret, Mikey? You’re alarming me. Did you cheat?” “Of course not, but I’ve been feeling sick and throwing up a lot for a few weeks. I think I’m gravid, Case, and if I am that means…” “We’ll be parents,” Casey said in amazement. “Are you sure? I thought you were a male? How can you lay eggs?” “I believe I’m intersex if that’s the case. I’ve kept my condition a secret from everyone and I wanted to tell you, but I was so afraid you’d hate me and would leave me and…” Tears filled Mikey’s eyes and he said, “I understand if you don’t want this. It’s a lot and I…” “Are you kidding me?” Casey said and smiled. “It’s a shock, Mikey, but I want the babies and I want you. I’ll never stop wanting you.” “Really?” Mikey said and beamed through his tears. “Absolutely. I know it’ll be challenging, but we’ll get through it together.” “Maybe you can move in with me. I’ll talk to Sensei. Would you?” “I’d go anywhere with you, Mikey,” Casey said and kissed him. “Our babies are going to be so cute, especially if they take after you. I’m such a lucky guy.” “I could burst with joy,” Mikey said happily and kissed him. “I never dreamed I’d find love and would be a dad.” “Me either. You complete me, Mikey, and I’d be nothing without you.” “Ditto. You’re my dream come true and I more than love you. I adore you and I always will.” Casey kissed him tenderly and rested his head on Mikey’s plastron, inhaling his musky scent, and they soon fell asleep, both confident they’d have a long and terrific life together. Mikey rose at four a.m. Casey’s dad sometimes returned home earlier than expected and he didn’t want him to see him, so he’d leave. He quickly dressed, smiled at his sleeping lover, left and headed home, elated that Casey had been thrilled with his news. He wasn’t sure how his family would take it, but they’d have to accept it, because he wasn’t going to give his baby or Casey up. XXX Raphael got up to pee just after four fifteen and was on his way to the bathroom, when he collided with Mikey, who’d just arrived home and who was heading to bed. “Where the heck ya been, Mikey?” Raphael demanded. “Out. I don’t have to tell you where,” Mikey said evenly. “Step aside, Raph. I won’t let you intimidate me.” Raphael sniffed the air and Mikey froze, knowing his secret was about to be revealed. He’d wanted to tell them at Christmas, but Raphael had had to spoil his plans, like he always did! “Why do ya smell of Casey?” Raphael hissed, his green eyes flinty. “Ya bangin’ him?” “Not your business, Raph. Focus on your own life,” Mikey said frostily. Raphael’s blood boiled, his eyes went white, he raised his fists and aimed a sucker punch at an unprepared Mikey’s jaw, sending him sprawling to the ground and holding his aching jaw. “What the hell, Raph?” Mikey shouted. “Are you crazy? Rhetorical question. You’re insane!” “That’s for breakin’ Leo’s heart,” Raphael raged, his green eyes flashing. “How could ya fuckin’ cheat on such a kind and lovin’ person like Leo with Casey of all people? Yer a fuckin’ asshole, Mikey! Mikey suddenly understood. Raphael thought he and Leo had hooked up, but where had he gotten that ridiculous idea from? He and Leo had never been anything other than brotherly. “Leo’s…” Before Mikey could comment, Raphael punched him again, his face twisted in anger. “You have the wrong end of the stick, Raph!” Mikey said. “I don’t think so! Ya fuckin’ cheated on Leo with Casey and broke his heart. How could ya be such a callous prick?” Raphael yelled and kicked his brother hard in the ribs. Mikey grunted in pain and said, “Raph, you’re wrong. Stop!” “What the hell’s going on here?” Leo demanded furiously, entering the room. "I heard raised voices." Taking in a sobbing Mikey, who was holding his side, as pain coursed through him, Leo said, “Mikey, what the heck happened? Raph?” “I’ll tell ya what, Leo,” Raphael said. “I taught the bastard a lesson for breakin’ yer heart. He’s been messin’ ‘round with Casey! I know we have our difficulties, Leo, but I still watch out for ya and I’ll defend ya, ya know that. No one hurts my big bro and gets away with it…” Leo’s eyes flew wide in horror and he said, “You’re wrong, Raph. He never cheated and Mikey and I were never together. He’s been with Casey for two months and they’re madly in love.”     Chapter End Notes A/N Now Leo has some explaining to do. lol. How will he get out of this mess? ***** Tragedy ***** Chapter Summary Mikey suffers a tremendous loss. Chapter Notes See the end of the chapter for notes Mikey suddenly let out a blood curdling scream and clutched his stomach, tears streaming down his cheeks . “Get Donnie,” he wept. “I think I’m having a miscarriage.” “Baby?” Leo and Raphael said in stunned unison?” “NOW!” Mikey roared. “Get him. Oh, my sweet baby. Please hold on.” “I’ll stay with Mikey, Raph,” Leo said, rushing to Mikey’s side and grabbing his hand. “You get Donnie.” “I’m on it. Hey, Mikey. I’m sorry, bro. I…” “Now, Raphael!” Leo said in his most authoritative tone and Raphael left the room. “Sh, Mikey,” Leo said. “You’re going to be okay. You and your baby. I promise. Donnie’s going to ensure it. How far along are you and I thought you were a boy?” “I’m intersex. A few weeks. I told Casey tonight and he was stoked. We both are….” Mikey shrieked, as a stab of pain of pain hit him and Leo saw blood between his legs. “Try to stay calm, Mikey,” Leo said, swallowing down his panic. He knew he had to be strong for his little brother. He stroked Mikey’s face and said, “Donnie will be here soon. Breathe. Everything’s going to be fine.” “It hurts, Leo!” Mikey wailed. “Make it stop. Please. I can’t bear it. And do whatever you can to save the baby.” Donnie appeared with Raphael and April and said, “We need to get him to the infirmary fast. Hopefully, we’re not too late.” Leo nodded and he and Raphael lifted a sobbing Mikey up and carried him into the infirmary. XXXX Mikey lay on a stretcher, holding his belly and sobbing uncontrollably. Donnie said, “Raph, you get cloths. Leo, stay with Mikey, okay?” “No,” Mikey said sharply. “I don’t want Raphael here. He’s the reason I’m this way and he’s to blame if my baby dies. I only want you and Leo here!” “I’ll be outside,” Raphael said sadly. “I’m sorry, Mikey. I really am. I thought ya hurt Leo and ya know I’m protective of him and that I sometimes get the wrong end…” “FUCKING GET OUT!” Mikey yelled, his face darkening. “I hate you!” A guilt ridden Raphael silently left, his shoulders slumped and his spirits low, followed by April.   XXXX Leo fetched a damp cloth and wiped Mikey’s forehead when he returned. “How are you feeling, Mikey?” Donnie asked. “How is my baby? I need to know. ARGH!” Mikey screamed. Donnie peered between Mikey’s legs, looking at the blood loss, and said miserably,“Mikey, you’re having a miscarriage. I need you to push. I’m sorry, but there’s nothing else I can do. You have to push.” “I’m here, Mikey,” Leo said gently and gripped his hand. “You can do this, my brave brother. I’m here for you. I love you. It’s…” “My baby’s dead?” Mikey wept, tears in his eyes. “No! That can’t be true. You have to do something….You’re making this up, right? The baby’s fine and I…” “Mikey,” Donnie said softly. “I’m not kidding. You need to push. I’m so sorry. I really am.” “I want my baby,” Mikey cried. “I want my baby. It’s all Raphael’s fault. Me and Casey were so… Oh, Casey. He needs to know.” “I’ll get Casey,” Leo said. “But you need to push, Mikey. You can do it. I got you. You’re not alone.” Mikey nodded glumly and pushed, letting out an anguished sob, his heart shattered. He’d been so looking forward to his kid and now the baby was dead. It was all Raphael’s fault and he’d never forgive him. Raphael was a murderer. Mikey pushed for twenty excruciating minutes, before a large white mass exited his body. “It’s out,” Donnie said. “I’m so sorry, Mikey. I really am. I know you’d have been a fantastic dad.” “I’m so sorry, Mikey,” Leo said, patting Mikey’s shoulder. “I agree. You’d have terrific. I’m here for you. We both are and we’ll all get through this, okay?” Mikey gazed at the mass in a mixture of disbelief, grief, shock and rage. His baby was dead and there was nothing he could do. Nothing. “I want to be alone,” Mikey said in a broken voice, his gaze not leaving the mass. “I don’t think you should be, Mikey,” Donnie said. “You’ve just experienced a traumatic event. You need someone with you.” “I said I want to be alone!” Mikey shouted, picking up the vase on the bedside table. “Get out, both of you. I want to be alone with my baby!” “We need to discuss funeral arrangements when you’re ready,” Donnie said. “And I need to check your other injuries…..” “I SAID GET FUCK OUT! NOW. LEAVE ME AND MY BABY ALONE. YOU’RE NOT TAKING HIM!” Mikey said and threw the vase, which narrowly missed Donnie, and crashed into the wall, smashing into smithereens. “I’ll be back later to check on you,” Leo said. “I love you, Mikey.” “OUT!” Leo and Donnie left and a traumatized and heartsore Mikey said, as tears fell down his cheeks, “I’m so sorry, my precious baby. Daddy loves you and will never forget you. I love you so much and I always will and I’ll get justice for you. I promise, my sweet baby. Raphael will pay.”

XXXX   Raphael and April had barely spoken and hovered in the passage outside of the infirmary. He was too wrapped up in his own thoughts and she was a bundle of nervous energy, continuously pacing to the point of irritating him, but he’d resisted the desire to snap. He’d already hurt Mikey and possibly caused a miscarriage. He didn’t want to hurt anyone else.

  xxxx  Don and Leo appeared. Raphael looked up and asked hopefully, “Is Mikey okay?” “No,” Donnie said. “I’m afraid not. He miscarried the baby and he won’t let me examine his other injuries. I have to! He won’t let anyone touch him.” “He miscarried?” Raphael said in horror, his green eyes wide. “That’s right,” Leo said sadly. “He was a few weeks along. The baby’s lying on the stretcher with him. I need to call Casey. Poor Mikey.” “It’s my fault,” Raphael said despondently. “I caused him ta. I’m such an asshole. I…” “You are,” April yelled, her blue eyes flashing. “Poor Mikey. Now he may never be a dad. You should be ashamed of yourself, Raphael.” “Raph didn’t know Mikey was gravid,” Leo said. “He wouldn’t have hurt him if he’d known. You know he loves Mikey. He was jealous and honestly believed Mikey had cheated on me and that Mikey was competition. I know it’s nuts, because I’m with Raph and I love him, but…” “It’s sweet of you to take your mate’s side,” April said sarcastically. “But nothing excuses his behavior, Leo. He must have been extremely brutal to have caused a miscarriage. I wouldn’t forgive him if I were Mikey. Raphael deserves seppuku. That if he’s not banished from the clan for his despicable actions!” “SILENCE!” A male voice boomed. Everyone turned around to see Splinter tapping his cane on the ground, a stern expression on his face, his brown eyes flashing. “What’s going on? I get up to get water and find you arguing like kindergarten kids.” “I’m sure Raphael can fill you in, Sensei!” April hissed. “Isn’t that right, Raphael?” “Raph’s already feeling like shit. He doesn’t need you attacking him as well,” Leo said furiously and grabbed Raphael’s hand. “It was a horrible tragedy and Raph regrets it. Look at the pain on his face. He’s suffering.” “Cry me a river, Leo!” April said heatedly. “It’s nothing compared to what Mikey’s going through.” “I’m sorry for Mikey too,” Donnie said. “But arguing, who’s to blame isn’t going to help the situation, April.” “So you’re taking Raphael’s side, Donnie?” April demanded acidly. “SILENCE!” Splinter roared. “Raphael, what happened?” Raphael squeezed Leo’s hand, thanking him for his support. Then he nervously rubbed the back of his neck and said, “I lost my temper, because I thought Mikey had cheated on Leo and could be potential completion. I mean, want Leo back. Me and Leo have been together for a while and I’m still insecure ‘bout things. I attacked Mikey and I’m so sorry. I never woulda if I’d known he was gravid,” Raphael wailed, tears running down his cheeks. “I love the kid, even though he ticks me off. Ya know I do. I love all of my bros. They’re my universe. And Mikey suffered a miscarriage. It’s my fault. I’m so sorry, Sensei.” He bowed his head and said, “I deserve seppuku. My actions have been dishonorable and I’ll understand if ya order that. My only request is that I get one last night with Leo.” Splinter blinked in surprise and said, “You and Leonardo are a couple?” “Yep. For a while now and we’re happy. I’m so sorry, Sensei. I know I don’t deserve forgiveness.” “I need to meditate on things. Leonardo, I would like you to join me.” “Hai, Sensei.” “Is that it?” April snapped. “You’re just going to meditate, while Mikey mourns the loss of his child?” Splinter bristled and said firmly, “I am the clan leader and patriarch. You are merely dating Donatello, Miss O’ Neil. I think you have overstepped your place in this family. I do not have to explain my actions to you and it is not your place to question me. It is not your business and is a family affair. Please remember that. Leonardo, you will come with me. Raphael, you will go to your bedroom and remain there….” April whirled on Donnie and shouted, “Are you going to let him talk to me that way? I’m your damn girlfriend and he’s telling me this isn’t my business. Of course it is. I love Mikey and…” “Dad’s right. I know you love Mikey, but Dad doesn’t have to explain himself to you. He wouldn’t have to, even if we were married.” “You’re a wimp, Donnie!” April seethed, removing her promise ring. She threw it at him and said, “You’re such a wuss for always letting your dad tell you what to do and for never sticking up for me. I’m done!” April glowered at them all and stalked off out of the lair. Donnie watched her leave, his eyes filled with tears, misery etched on his face. “I’m sorry, Donnie,” Raphael said. “Not your fault, Raph. Anyway, the priority is Mikey.” Splinter nodded and said, “I am sorry about Miss O' Neil. We'll discuss that later, but Michelangelo's the priority right now. I want you to be with him, Donatello. Who is the father of Michelangelo’s baby?” “Casey,” Leo said. “I’m supposed to call him. “Call him. Then join me in the dojo. Raphael, you’ll stay in your bedroom until I summon you.” “Hai, Sensei.” Raphael watched the others go to their various destinations. Then he went into his room and curled up into a ball in bed, weeping bitterly. I’m so sorry, Mikey, he thought. I really am. I hope ya can forgive me. I deserve seppuku. I’m gonna take it like a man if Dad tells me he agrees. I’m a murderer and nothin’ will ever wipe the blood offa my hands. Chapter End Notes A/N Will Mikey ever forgive Raph? How will Casey react to the news? ***** Raph's punishment ***** Chapter Summary Splinter craftily comes up with a punishment for Raphael that he hopes will keep Leo at home indefinitely. Chapter Notes See the end of the chapter for notes Leo dialed Casey’s number and said, “Casey, I need you to come here pronto. Mikey needs you.” “What happened, Leo?” Casey asked worriedly. “I don’t want to discuss it over the phone.” “Something happened to the baby, right? How’s Mikey?” “I’m so sorry…” Casey let out an anguished wail and said, “I’m on my way. Tell Mikey I love him.” Then the line went dead. Poor Mikey and Casey, Leo thought. Casey’s going to go mental when he learns Raph caused the miscarriage. Shit. Christmas is supposed to be about love and joy. Instead, it’s bringing heartache and tragedy. And what if Sensei agrees with Raph? We can’t lose our brother. I can’t lose him. I know he did a shitty thing, but his death won’t change anything. He’s still our brother and we need him. Time to face the music and to see what Sensei thinks, Leo thought dejectedly and went into the dojo. XXX Splinter was sitting on the tatami mat and said, “Sit down, Leonardo.” Leo sat and waited for his dad to speak. “How long have you and Raphael been mates?” “We aren’t really. It’s a charade. Raph likes Donnie and wanted to pretend to be with me to make Don jealous. I suppose that’s over now, because April’s gone. And life can go back to normal or whatever normal is. I helped him, because I didn’t want him to look foolish and a liar in front of April and Don when he said we were dating. No harm caused. Raph can move in on Donnie and I can leave as planned.” “So even though it hurt you, you still went ahead with the charade. That says a lot about your character, Leonardo. Always noble and looking out for your family, even at the cost of your happiness.” “It’s no big deal.” “But it’s not a charade to you, is it?” “No,” Leo said and blushed. “My feelings for Raph are strong, but he’ll never feel the same way. He’s crazy about Don. It doesn’t matter. I’ll be gone soon and my time away will lessen my feelings for him. I’m positive." “I’d like you to fetch Raphael. I’ve made a decision.” “You’re not going to agree to what he said, are you?” Leo asked fearfully. “Now, Leonardo,” Splinter said. Leo left and Splinter thought, I don’t want Leonardo to leave. I have a plan. I hope it’ll work and will convince Leonardo stay indefinitely. Leo arrived with a frightened looking Raphael a few minutes later. “Kneel Raphael and Leonardo,” Splinter said. “I accept whatever punishment ya dish out, Dad,” Raphael said bravely, his eyes lowered to the ground. “I killed Mikey’s baby and the only fittin’ punishment is death. I…” “Silence, Raphael, and look at me, both of you.” His sons raised their heads and Leo said, “Dad, please don’t let Raph commit seppuku. Let me. I’ll take his….” “Silence, Leonardo,” Splinter said. “It is noble of you to take your brother’s place, Leonardo, but I don't want death. I have a different punishment in mind. Raphael, your brother has informed me  you have feelings for Donatello and are pretending to be mates to make Donatello jealous.” “Yeah, but we don’t gotta do that no more, Sensei. April’s outta the picture, so I can woo Donnie. Hear that, Fearless? Me and Donnie will be bonded when ya return from yer trip.” “Leonardo’s not leaving yet, Raphael. I’ve been informed that the Ancient One has plans and won’t be able to help Leonardo until February at the earliest. Now for your punishment. You’ll carry on your charade with Leonardo, you’ll share a room together, will…” "What the hell?” Raphael roared, his green eyes flashing. “I just told ya I like Donnie, Sensei!” “Raphael, be quiet. You’ll eat your meals together, will train together and you’ll spend all of your free time together.” “What a fuckin’ buncha crap!” Raphael hissed. “I woulda preferred sepukku! I don’t love Fearless. Why do I gotta spend all of my time with him? Shit. Life ain’t fuckin’ fair! Fearless, why ain’t ya complainin’? It ain’t like ya dig me either!” “I respect your decision, Sensei,” Leonardo said and bowed his head. “Language, Raphael!” Splinter said sternly. “While a tragedy happened and my heart breaks for Michelangelo, I do not think it warrants your death. You’re dismissed. I hope your mate can drum some…” “He ain’t my damn mate!” Raphael snapped. “How long do I gotta spend time with him?” “As long as I wish,” Splinter said dryly. “But, Sensei,” Raphael said, throwing himself at Splinter’s feet. “Leo’s a snooze fest. I’m gonna be bored shitless. All he does is meditate and read his damn war books! Please don’t make me be with him! He’s an uptight…” “You might find there’s more to your brother than you think. Please stop grovelling. It’s not dignified.” “Like what?” Raphael demanded, raising his head. “I wanna be with Donnie. Sensei...Fearless, say somethin’, besides agreein’ with Dad!” “You’ll share Leonardo’s room and will meditate with him too. Your brother’s a fine warrior and….” “Borin’,” Raphael said heatedly, sitting back on his heels. “Dad, this is a lame punishment. I’d rather….” “There’ll be no topside for six months. You’re dismissed,” Splinter said and closed his eyes, signalling the end of the conversation. Raphael rose to his feet and stormed off to the room he shared with Leo, slamming the door behind him. Leo sighed and said, “Thank you for not letting sepukku be carried out, Dad, but Raphael isn’t going to handle his punishment very well. Expect arguing.” “I’m positive he won’t, but I do not care. He is lucky I am a benevolent Sensei. Others wouldn’t have been as lenient. Good luck, my son.” “Dad, do you have an ulterior motive with the punishment?” “Not at all,” Splinter lied. “I merely hope some of your attributes rub off on Raphael.” “How long is the punishment for?” “Like I told Raphael, as long as I wish.“ "Oh. Well, it’ll be tough being around Raph, but I’m sure I can keep my feelings to myself. I have done for years. It’s not like he’ll ever like me back.” “You’re dismissed.” “Hai, Sensei,” Leo said. He bowed his head and left. Yes, Splinter thought. I believe Raphael will love Leonardo for real when he spends time with him and Leonardo will then not want to leave. And with Raphael in close proximity all of the time, I believe Leonardo won’t be able to hold his feelings back either. They’ll be mates for real and will have a long and happy future together. XXX Leo found Raphael in his bedroom packing his things away in the cupboard. “Can ya believe it, Fearless?” he said irately. “Donnie’s now single and we still gotta do the damn charade! Fuckin’ blows. Fuck it. Now I gotta spend all of my time with ya. Dullsville.” “I’m sorry I’m so boring, Raph,” Leo said sarcastically. “And that you hate spending time with me. It won’t be easy for me either with your bitching. You whine incessantly about everything.” “Because I got reason ta moan. At least Donnie does somethin’ . All ya do is meditate.” “That’s not all I do, Raph. I also enjoy Kanji, tending my bonsai, reading…” “Yawn.” “You’re not exactly fun either. All you do is lift weights, bitch and work on your bike.” “Hey, hey!” Raphael said crossly. “There’s more ta me than that and ya make me sound like a drama queen.” “If the shoe fits. The punishment will end soon, Raph, and then…” “Not soon enough,” Raphael huffed and threw himself onto the bed. “Just my luck. Donnie’s single and I still gotta be with ya. What’s Sensei tryin’ ta achieve? He better not think I’d fall for ya. I mean, yer not even my type. Donnie…” “I get Donnie ticks your boxes,” Leo snapped. “You don’t have to keep reminding me and how awful I am.” “Jealous?” Raphael said and smirked. “Hardly,” Leo said and climbed into bed. “You’re not my type either. You’re brash, rude, sarcastic, temperamental…” “There’s more ta me than that. I got a tender side.” “Really? Could have fooled me. Why don’t you show it if you have one?” “Why don’t ya express yer feelings?” Raphael retorted. “Why do ya always repress them, like an uptight chick?” “You first.” "Maybe I’m scared people will think I’m weak and unmanly if I show it.” “Me too. I’m the leader. I’m not supposed to. I have to be cool, calm and collected. I can’t let my feelings cloud my judgement. It could spell trouble in battle.” “And yer hormones. Ya repress that too. I sometimes think yer a hundred and one instead of a sixteen-year-old. Sheesh.” “I often think you’re just a brute,” Leo said tersely. “I ain’t. Look, how ‘bout I’ll show ya a little of my tender side, seein’ that we’re still doin’ this charade? And ya will show yer emotions more and let down yer guard. I don’t wanna just bicker with ya. It’ll be unpleasant.” “You never had problems with arguing before.” “Yeah. But I could go ta my room. We’re stuck together for goodness knows how long. Least we can do is try ta get along. I’m willin’. So, what do ya say?” “Okay.” “Cool. Hey, how’s Mikey doing?” “Not good. Donnie’s with him. Casey’s on his way.” “Do ya think he’ll ever forgive me?” Raphael asked sadly. “Mikey’s not one to bear grudges, but this…I have no idea.” “I shoulda died. I killed his baby. I’m an asshole,” Raphael said despondently. Leo placed a hand on his arm and said, “Raph, you didn’t know Mikey was gravid and were sort of being protective of me. It was a tragic accident.” Still,” Raphael said, tears in his eyes. “I killed the baby, Leo. I’m a monster. I…don’t think I can ever forgive myself.” “You’re not a monster,” Leo said, removing his hand and squeezing Raphael’s hand. “It was a tragedy. It’s gut wrenching and we’re all very sad, but none of us think you’re a monster. We love you and we always will.” “Mikey don't and Casey will hate me too. He has every right. I took away his chance ta be a dad. I’d be mad if someone did that ta me. Not that I’m ever gonna be a dad, but….Leo, what am I gonna do? I love Mikey and I’m sorry. I wish I could take back what I did. I wish I could make it better,” Raphael said desolately. Leo looked at his inconsolable brother and said, “There’s nothing you can do, but wait and give Mikey space until he’s ready to talk. He might find it in his heart to forgive you, but you have to let him be. He’s a wreck understandably.” “Yer right. Do ya hate me?” "“While I’m saddened by what happened, I don’t hate you. How could I? You’re my little brother and I’ll always love you. It’s a terrible tragedy, Raph. We’ll get through it and I hope you can forgive yourself in time.” “Thank ya. I appreciate it. It’s almost Christmas, Leo, and I fuckin’ spoiled it. Mikey was so lookin’ forward ta it and…” Leo took his hand and kissed it, making Raphael blush, and said, “Stop beating yourself up. We’ll get through this. Have faith…” “Why did ya kiss me?” Raphael demanded, pulling his hand away. “I was trying to comfort you. That’s all.” “That better be all, because I still love Donnie and only want him. Leo, look, we may be sharin’ a room and spendin’ time together, but I’ll never love ya the way ya want. So if ya got any ideas of bein’ with me, forget them.” “I assure you I don’t have. I was trying to be a big brother, Raph. That’s all. I’m sorry.” “This touchy feely thing ain’t me either. Ya can say things without touchin’. Keep yer paws and lips ta yerself, okay?” “I bet you wouldn’t have a problem if Donnie did that,” Leo said jealously. “Course not, because I love him.” “He’ll never love you. He’s straight.” “Bah. I can turn him. One night with me and he’ll forget all ‘bout women. Yer soundin’ bitter and jealous, Fearless.” “I’m not. I was just…” Leo said, lying down. “Anyway, pointless if ya are. I love Donnie and I’m still gonna woo him. He’ll come ‘round and we’re gonna have the best life together. Ya will see. I’m gonna tell him my feelings at breakfast. I'll ask him out and tell him this was all just a game and I gotta do it as punishment for a while longer. Then we can be proper mates and become bonded.” Leo lay down, turned his shell to his brother and thought gloomily, as tears streamed down his cheeks, I can’t do this. I can’t do this charade any longer. It’s killing me. I have to leave. I love Raph so much, but all he has is utter contempt for me. I can’t stand listening to how wonderful Donnie is and that they’re going to have an awesome future together. I can’t stand being in the same room as Raph and not being able to hold him and kiss him. I wish he’d tell me he loved me, but I know that won’t ever happen. As soon as Mikey’s better, I’ll leave and will forge my own path. Chapter End Notes A/N Will Splinter's plan work? ***** Resolved ***** Chapter Summary Mikey and Casey discuss the loss of their baby and Mikey's determined to make Raphael pay for it. Chapter Notes See the end of the chapter for notes Casey arrived at the lair and made a beeline for the infirmary, fighting back tears, as he thought about his cherished mate and the anguish he must be feeling. He entered the infirmary and saw Mikey sitting upright on the stretcher and staring at a white mass in front of him. The eggs, Casey thought despondently. Our eggs. Oh, Mikey. My beloved Mikey. Donnie stood nearby, sadness and helplessness etched on his face. He glanced up and seeing Casey said. “Mikey, Casey’s here.” Mikey said nothing, his gaze still transfixed on the mass. “I’ll let you talk,” Donnie said. “I’m outside if you need me.” He patted Casey’s shoulder and left the room. Casey stood, feeling awkward and at a loss for words. Something he’d never felt around Mikey before. They’d always felt relaxed around each other and able to talk about anything. But this was a different ball game. Grief did that. Made things hard and tragic and so unbearably awkward. Casey remembered the root canal he’d had the previous year. That had been awful, but this…This was significantly worse. A tooth was easy to deal with, but a miscarriage? Some people never dealt with it and it sometimes lead to the dissolution of marriages. The couples unable to cope with their grief and it tearing them apart. His own grief was raw, but it must be tenfold worse for Mikey, who’d been carrying their baby and only mere hours before had lovingly stroked his belly and declared how thrilled he was to soon become a daddy. Casey felt like there was a great void between him and Mikey and that nothing he could do or say would bridge the gap, but he’d fucking try. He’d do anything to get Mikey to talk and to smile. They had to communicate and be there for one another. They needed one another more than anything now and needed to deal with it together. Not separately. He cleared his throat, sat down on the edge of the stretcher and tried to hug Mikey, but he pulled away, still focussed on the white mass. “Mikey, we need to talk,” Casey said despondently. “Baby, please.” “There’s nothing to discuss. I want to be alone with our baby, who Raphael murdered.” “Raph what?” Casey said and blinked in confusion. “He caused my miscarriage by kicking me when he assumed I cheated on Leo. Raphael must die for his sins. The baby deserves justice.” “Whoa. What?” “I want you to kill Raphael! I don’t care if he’s your pal. He must die!” Mikey said coldly, his gaze shifting to meet Casey’s. “You’ll kill him if you love me. An eye for an eye. It’s the only way Raphael can atone. His life for my baby’s.” “Mikey, I understand you’re traumatized, but Raph’s your brother! I can’t do that. Revenge isn’t the answer, my love, and this isn’t you. You aren’t a vengeful person. Come now. We’ll get through this together. We’ll fix….” “Fix?” Mikey shouted, his blue eyes blazing and clenching his fists, his shoulders shaking in rage. “Nothing can fix this, Casey! Nothing can bring our baby back and while revenge may not be the answer, it’ll fucking make me feel better! He killed our baby. Our sweet baby. Don’t you fucking care? Why aren’t you pissed, like me? Or maybe you didn’t really want the baby and are happy he’s gone!” Casey’s blood boiled at the insult and he took a deep breath to calm himself down. Mikey had been through hell and snapping at him would only worsen things. That’s the last thing Mikey needed. He needed love and comfort and tenderness. Casey held up his hands in a soothing gesture and said, “Mikey, I wanted the baby and I’m also devastated, but murdering Raphael’s not the solution. You know that deep down. I know you want to lash out at someone, so lash out at me. I can take it. Punch me and yell at me if you need to.” “Why are you so fucking protective of Raphael? Do you love him?” Mikey said jealously. “I’ve never liked Raph that way, baby. It’s only ever been you!” Casey said and grabbed Mikey’s wrists. He kissed them and said, “Only you. I swear on my life. Yes. I’m mad and I’m heartbroken, but I know revenge isn’t the solution. It was a tragic accident and due to miscommunication. Communication and love will help us through this and we’ll have more babies when you’re ready. Tons of them. Baby, I love you so much and it pains me seeing you this way. My sweet, loveable Mikey. You mean the world to me. Let me in and let us deal with it together. So many couples break up when this happens and I don’t want that to happen to us. I don’t want to lose you.” “I love you too. I was so excited,” Mikey said, tears filling his blue eyes. “And now there’s nothing. What if we never have more babies?” “We will my life. I promise, even if we adopt. Dry your tears. Things are going to be all right,” Casey said and pulled Mikey into a hug. Mikey allowed himself to be hugged and sobbed, tears streaming down his cheeks, and thought, Casey and I’ll get through this, but I won’t allow Raphael to get away with this. I will avenge my baby’s death somehow. Casey cried too and his tears intermingled with Mikey’s and they held on to each other tightly, cocooning themselves in their love, trying to comfort one another. Mikey raised his head and whispered, “I won’t kill him then, but I doubt I’ll ever forgive him. How could I? I know they say hatred gnaws at you like cancer and forgiveness is good for the soul, but I can’t forgive him. I doubt I ever will. I loathe Raphael. I fucking despise him. I’ve always been the gentlest brother, but this experience makes me want to rip Raphael’s head off! I want to inflict pain on him and see him suffer, like I’m suffering. Do you understand?” “I do. It’s understandable you feel that way. I’m distraught too, but violence isn’t…” “I know. But what if there was a way of making Raphael pay without resorting to violence. Would you do it, knowing it would make me happy?” “No. Mikey, I love you, but I don’t believe that’s the right path to follow. It’s natural you can’t forgive Raphael now. The pain’s too fresh, but it’s possible that you could someday. You’re brothers after all and he loves you and you love him. No matter what, he’s still family and still my friend. I’m furious, but I’m praying that I can find it in my heart to forgive him, because I know that I need to. Hatred is a horrible thing to carry around and is like a millstone weighing you down. I don’t want or need that and you neither. Pray with me. I find that helps when dealing with difficult situations. Come with me to Church, okay? We’ll go now. Get your disguise.” “I’d rather just be here with you and maybe you have a point. I’ll try to forgive Raphael,” Mikey lied, still determined to make his brother’s life hell. “But right now all I want is you. I love you so much. We need to bury the baby.” Casey lifted his head, kissed Mikey on the lips and said, “We will. We’ll have a special ceremony and bury him in my garden outside my bedroom window. I’ll erect a small headstone with their name and say it was a cat or dog, who’d died, so I won’t arouse suspicion in my dad.” “I’d like that,” Mikey murmured, his eyes brimming with fresh tears. “What would you have named our baby?” “Jacinda for a girl and Nathan for a boy.” “I love those,” Mikey sniffed. “I like Esmeralda and Luke.” “Terrific. We’ll name them Jacinda and Luke then. How’s that?” “Perfect,” Mikey choked out. Casey kissed him again and Mikey heatedly thought, yes. Raphael will pay. It’ll be a pleasure making him suffer. Chapter End Notes A/N What has Mikey in mind for Raph? Will he actually do it or will he forgive his brother? ***** Heat ***** Chapter Summary Raphael tries to manipulate Leo and has the table turned on him. Smut and fluff. Chapter Notes See the end of the chapter for notes A woman’s voice called from the entrance of the lair, “Hello?” Recognizing April’s voice, Don went to her and said, “What do you want?” “To apologize. I love you, Donnie, and I was out of line,” April choked out. “Yeah. You were and it’s not the first time. You have to understand… I can’t do this anymore. I’m fed up of fighting about my family. It’s clear you despise them and I can’t be with someone, who does…” “I’m pregnant!” April lied, fearing she was going to lose him. The color drained from Don’s face and he stammered, “What? How?” “You know how, silly boy. It’s yours and I’m five weeks pregnant. I hadn’t been feeling well. I did a pregnancy test and it was blue. I’m stoked, aren’t you? You said you wanted kids.” “Uh, yes. Give me a moment to digest this,” Don said and sat down on a sofa. She’s pregnant, Don thought. Shit. I can’t dump her now. I’ll look like an asshole. I have to stay with her. Maybe things will change. She said she’s sorry, right? I’ll try again with her for the baby’s sake. “You’re not happy, Donnie?” April asked, her eyes filling with tears. “I hoped you’d be. That’s okay. I can raise the baby on my own. We’ll be fine. I’m sorry for bothering you.” Donnie immediately stood, cupped her face in his hands, kissed her tears away and said, “No, baby. We’ll raise the baby together. I love you and I couldn’t be happier.” The genius bent down, wrapped his arms around her and passionately kissed her. Now I really have to get pregnant, April thought, as she eagerly returned the kiss. XXXXXX Raphael went into the kitchen a couple of hours later to grab something to eat. Leo was meditating in the dojo. The emerald skinned turtle was astounded to see April sitting at the kitchen table with Donnie. “She’s back, egghead?” Raphael said, failing to hide his dismay. “Thought the bitch was gone for good!” Donnie’s face darkened and he growled, “Don’t talk about my baby’s mom and my bride-to-be like that, Raphael! “Huh?” Raphael said and blinked in confusion. “Baby? I don’t understand.” “Let me explain,” April said snidely. “Couples fuck and the woman becomes pregnant when the male fertilizes her egg. I’m a few weeks along and we’re so happy. You’re going to be an uncle, Raphael.” Hurt, disbelief and rage flashed on the volatile turtle’s face. Unable to contain his escalating temper, Raphael yelled, “Have ya fuckin’ lost yer mind, Donnie? I thought ya liked me. Ya said...” “Come again?” Don said in amazement. “Us? Are you smoking something, Raph?” “Must be,” April said. “Because Donnie’s never had the hots for you, Raphael. He’s straight and loves me.” “But ya said ya were gonna build somethin’ for the person ya love, Donnie,” Raphael said, blinking back tears. “And give it ta them at Christmas.” “Yes, but it wasn’t for you, Raph. I’ve never felt more than brotherly love for you and I never will. I’m sorry. Aren’t you with Leo anyway? I’m confused.” “Yeah. I am. I just thought ya liked me.” “No. I wish you and Leo well, though. No hard feelings?” Sure,” Raphael forced himself to say, as his world crumbled. He feigned nonchalance and said, “I gotta do somethin’. Bye.” Raphael left the kitchen, forcing himself not to break down. Then his shoulders slumped and his heart shattered, he rushed to his bedroom, as tears streamed down his face. XXXXXX Leo had left the dojo and was sitting on his bed reading a book, when the door opened and Raphael barged in, his face streaked with tears. Leo glanced up and taking in his miserable brother said, “What happened, Raph?” “Fuck off,” Raphael snarled. “Don’t wanna talk ‘bout it.” Leo stood up, went over to him and said, “You told Donnie, didn’t you and it went badly?” “I fuckin’ said I don’t wanna talk ‘bout it,” Raphael growled. “Leave me the fuck alone. Don’t wanna hear ya gloat.” “Why would I gloat, least of all when you’re hurting? You’re my baby brother,” Leo said and wrapped his arms around him. Raphael’s natural instinct was to pull away. He detested close intimacy, but he didn’t pull away. Instead, he allowed his brother, who’d always been able to soothe him, comfort him, and he openly cried on his shoulder. Heart breaking sobs that wracked his body and pierced Leo’s heart. Leo hated seeing his brothers, especially Raphael in distress. Why don’t I wanna pull away, Raphael thought? I usually do. Leo’s strong musk suddenly assaulted his nostrils and he thought in disgust, that’s why. Leo’s scent and his presence. They always calmed me when I was a kid and they’re doin’ that now and I feel safe and warmed and loved and a yearnin' in my groin. Fuck. Why? Does it mean I’m attracted ta Leo? I ain’t, am, I? I love Donnie. I fuckin’ love Donnie and I will win him! He don’t want April and is just with her ‘causea the baby. He wants me and I’ll make him so insane with jealousy, he’ll realize that and will want me. Yeah. I could never love Fearless. He’s so borin’! But maybe I can use Fearless ta win the genius. Raphael raised his head and kissed his brother on his lips. Leo’s eyes flew wide and he said, “Ra….” “Hush, Fearless,” Raphael said, trailing a hand down Leo’s plastron and making him shiver. Raphael nibbled Leo’s lower lip and thrust his tongue inside of him, tasting him and thinking he tasted of mint. Must be all the mint tea he drinks, Raphael thought. Exotic and surprisingly delicious. I like it, but that ain’t why I’m doin’ this. I wanna make Donnie riled. That’s all! Fearless also smells enticin’ and I can smell his arousal. Fuck. Raph, focus. This is ‘bout gettin’ Donnie ta love ya, okay? Not pleasin’ Leo. Stunned by the kiss, Leo tried to pull away, but Raphael yanked his mask tails and pulled him closer. Then gazing into Leo’s mesmerizing blue eyes, Raphael thrust his tongue instead of Leo’s mouth, while running a hand down his body. He settled it on Leo’s tail, gave it a playful tug and Leo emitted an undignified squawk. Raphael wanted to guffaw at it, but he knew that’d kill the mood, so he pressed his plastron against Leo’s, which created a wonderful, sensual friction and caused deep rumbles to roll up their throats. Raphael was embarrassed and flushed. He’d never thought he could make those noises, but now wasn’t the time to dwell on that. He had to conquer Leo. Look on the bright side, Raphael thought. It may be with Leo, but least I won’t be no virgin no more. A flustered and equally mortified Leo tried to pull away, but Raphael quickly captured his lips in a sweet and tender kiss. Then he thrust his tongue inside of him and nibbled on Leo’s tongue Turned on and with heat pooling in his groin, Leo returned the kiss. Their tongues danced together, as Leo’s hands roamed over Raphael’s body. He finally settled it on Raphael’s rump and gave it a loving squeeze. Raph’s a good kisser, Leo thought. And tender. I thought he’d be fiercer. This is good, but we should stop. We should. He’s probably only doing this to spite Don. I wish he wanted to for real. I should, but I can’t tear myself away. So much for being Mr. In Control, but then I was never able to refuse him anything. Leo’s a great kisser, Raphael thought, as he put in all his passion and soul into the kiss. I never thought he would be. If things were different, maybe we’d… No. This is ‘bout winnin’ Donnie. Seduce Fearless, fuck and let Donnie see the love bites and smell our lovemakin’. Leo better not think he’s gonna top, because I sure as hell ain’t bottomin’! Raphael suddenly pounced on his brother and pushed him back onto the bed. He planted little kisses down Leo’s plastron and kneed his legs apart, but Leo was having none of that. I’m not bottoming, Leo thought irately. Raph started this game. He can! Leo flipped them, so he was astride his brother, who struggled futilely, as Leo pinned him down. Raphael's green eyes glowered at his big brother, rage written all over his face. “Let me fuckin’ go!” Raphael snapped. “This ain’t funny, Leo.” “But you were fine about screwing me, right? Settle down, Raph. This’ll be fun. You want this, right? To pay Donnie back? That’s what this is about, right? You don’t love me.” Raphael’s cheeks flamed in shame and he said, “Yeah. I admit it. Let me go and we’ll never talk ‘bout it again!” Leo lowered his head and nipped at Raphael’s collarbone. The emerald skinned turtle shrieked in astonishment, but Leo ignored him and started stroking his slit. “I don’t wanna,” Raphael said in dismay, trying to wriggle away, but Leo’s hold was firm. “Stop that. I don’t want this.” Leo swiped a long lick across Raphael’s neck, which made the hothead tremble, and said, “I know you do, Raphie. You want this so badly. Come out and play.” Raphael pressed his tail as closely as he could to his body and said, “Let me fuckin’ go now, Leo, and I won’t tell Dad ya tried ta rape yer little bro.” “Rape?” Leo said in disbelief. “This isn’t rape. You wanted sex. You’re just sore it’s me topping and you’re the damn uke! You’ll get what you want. We’ll screw. You can try and make Donnie jealous, but it’ll only happen if I top. Do you understand?” “Fuck ya,” Raphael hissed. “Tick-tock.” I don’t got mucha choice, Raphael thought despondently. Ignore yer pride, Raph, and let Leo have his way. Ya’ll still get Donnie. “Fine,” Raphael said through clenched teeth. “Ya win, Fearless.” He dropped his tail, parted his legs and said, “Go easy. This is my first time.” “Mine too,” Leo said. He nipped all over Raphael’s body, leaving multiple red marks he knew would be visible. Love bites that mean he’s mine and I claimed him, Leo thought. Raphael groaned and warmth pooled in his groin again, as Leo’s leathery tongue licked its way down his plastron . That feels kinda nice, Raphael thought. But I’m gonna pretend it’s with Donnie. Fuck Fearless and fuck him for manipulatin’ me. Ain’t gonna let him think I like this! Leo reached into a dresser, withdrew a bottle of lube and Raphael’s eyes widened in amazement. He hadn’t expected Leo to have that. “How come ya got that, Leo?” Raphael asked. Leo shrugged and said, “I thought I might have a shot with Karai. She seemed to like me.” “Haha. That psycho prefers yers truly, but ya can…” Raphael’s words trailed off, as Leo stroked his slit. Raphael hummed in appreciation, the soft cartilage in his slit parted and his semi erect cock, which leaked precum, dropped into Leo’s waiting hands. “You’re huge,” Leo purred. “Guessing seven inches?” “Ten at full mast and get this over with!” “So impatient and needy. You sure you’re not a girl?” “Leo, stop bein’ a fuckin’ prick and get on with it!” “Keep your shell on,” Leo said and squeezed some lube onto a finger. Then he inserted it into Raphael’s hole. Stunned by the sudden penetration in his rear and by the strange feeling, Raphael hissed and glared at his brother. Bastard, Raphael thought. Don’t like that! Leo gently moved his finger in and out of Raphael and his finger soon hit Raphael’s prostate, causing the temperamental turtle to churr at the pleasurable sensation. He rocked back and forth on Leo’s finger, closed his eyes and thought, I like this. Feels incredible. Leo removed his finger and Raphael was disgusted at himself when he whined at the sudden loss of warmth. Leo pressed his face against Raphael’s, beamed and said, “Miss me, huh? Going to fill you up with my seed. You smell terrific, Raphie. I love your scent and you’re gorgeous beneath me. Right where you belong, ninja wanna be!” “Fuck ya, Splinter junior,” Raphael yelled, his green eyes flashing. “Just wait until….” Raphael’s words trailed off, as Leo thrust his eight inch cock inside of him. The hothead stifled a scream at the burning sensation. Not wanting to give his brother the satisfaction of knowing he was in agony. “You’re so tight. Am I hurting you?” Leo asked, his voice laced with concern. “What? Tough me hurt by yer small dick? Hardly,” Raphael scoffed. “Come on, Fearless. I’m ready if ya think ya can plow me, assumin’ yer not afraid. Maybe ya got doubts ‘bout how good ya’ll be. I can take whatever ya can dish out.” Leo smiled and said, “If you say so.” He sped up the pace and thrust in and out, soon forming a steady rhythm. Pain soon turned to pleasure for Raphael, as Leo repeatedly hit his prostate. He fisted the bedsheets, threw back his head in ecstasy and churred in appreciation, his cheeks flushed and his hole widening to accommodate Leo’s girth. Leo looked at his flushed brother and thought, he’s so beautiful. If only he really loved me. I’d give anything for that, but it won’t happen. I’ll soon be elsewhere and Donnie will maybe accept Raph. Mustn’t forget that. Leo kissed his brother and said, “You’re so amazing, Raph. So perfect. You’re….” “Yer makin’ my shell itch with the sappiness. Just fuck me.” “As you wish.” Leo thrust in even harder and deeper and churred, feeling like he was on cloud nine. I love this, Leo thought. Being with him. Feels so right and like we were made for one another. I love his sexy noises, his cute little tail, his butt, his stunning green eyes. I love everything about him, even his cockiness. He’s sheer perfection. Raphael growled lowly, reached up and dug his blunt nails into Leo’s arms, as they continued their love making and rocked as one. United and pleasure and warmth coursing through theor bodies. Leo’s tender, Raphael thought and such a givin’ lover. Fuck. This is heavenly. I wanna cum so bad. Feel so fuckin’ fantastic. Who’d have thought my first time would be with Leo? Ain’t life unpredictable? Leo pumped Raphael’s cock and it wasn’t long with the double stimulation before Raphael climaxed with a loud growl, his sticky seed splattering his plastron. Leo came soon after with a loud churr and filled his brother with his essence, some of it leaking out of Raphael’s hole. Then panting, he pulled out and flopped down beside his brother. “Donnie’s gonna be jealous now,” Raphael said smugly, trying to ignore his throbbing ass and tail. “Ya’ll see.” “I hope you’re right.” “I’m always right. Hey, Fearless? Ya nailed me good.” “I hope I didn’t hurt you.” “Turn ‘round. Wanna talk.” The last thing Leo wanted to do was talk. He wanted to sleep and to forget he’d allowed himself to fuck his brother when he knew it wouldn’t go anywhere. He’d lost control and he was revolted with himself. Leo turned around and was amazed to see Raphael reaching out for him. “Couples snuggle in the afterglow of sex,” Raphael explained, seeing Leo’s astonished gaze. “We aren’t a couple and you don’t snuggle.” “I know, right? But I wanna,” Raphael said almost shyly. “Please.” Leo sighed and cuddled with Raphael, wishing a hole would swallow him up. It was incredible being so close with him, but at the same time he wished he was somewhere else, because it wasn’t love. It’d been just sex and a ploy of Raphael’s to get who he wanted. Donnie. Leo felt cheapened, but wasn’t it his fault? He could have stopped it, but he’d willingly bedded him and had in fact taken the lead. He sucked as both a brother and a leader. He’d been mad at his brother for being manipulative, but he was worse, wasn’t he? He should have…. Raphael’s beak affectionately nuzzled Leo’s cheek and the leader stared, open mouthed in shock. Raphael hadn’t been so loving since he was a kid and only reluctantly accepted hugs once in a blue moon. Is he sick, Leo thought? “I just wanna say. Thank ya, Fearless,” Raphael said and smiled. Not a smirk, but a genuine smile that caused butterflies in Leo’s chest. “I liked it and I know it’s gonna make Donnie crazy ‘bout me. He’s gonna flip when he sees my bites.” “Sure.” “Ya know, ya were kinda good. I’m sorry I insulted yer virility and stamina. Hey. Wanna go another round? I’ve recovered.” “I’m tired, Raph.” “Maybe later?” “Like me, huh? You like your big brother stuffing you good?” Leo teased. “Later ain’t good enough,” Raphael said with a smirk. Raphael rolled onto his brother and pinned him down. Leo tried to break free, but Raphael nipped at his collarbone, asserting dominance, and said, “No. It’s my turn ta top! Don’t fret, Leo. It’ll only sting for a minute and then ya’ll be in heaven.” “Raph!” Leo said fearfully. “I don’t want…” “Ya scared? I took it and didn’t whinge. Surely a noble and fearless warrior like ya can?” “I’m not scared. It’s just….” “Ya got a virgin hole, huh? I also did. Don’t worry. I can be tender and gentle, okay? I’m gonna make ya see stars.” Raphael licked his plastron, causing Leo to groan. Then he turned his attention to Leo’s slit and rubbed it. He grinned when the leader soon dropped down, his forest green cock oozing precum. Raphael licked the shaft, making Leo shiver. Then he lined his cock up at Leo’s entrance and said, “I’m goin’ in. Brace yerself.” Unable to stop himself, Leo whined, as Raphael thrust his cock inside of him. It burned like hell and he hated it. “Ya sore, Fearless?” Raphael asked anxiously. Leo gritted his teeth and muttered, “Fine. Just stings.” “It’ll stop soon. Relax and let yerself go. I promise I’ll be gentle. I ain’t no savage. Well, not always.” Raphael picked up the pace and gently thrust in and out, soon building a steady rhythm and repeatedly hitting Leo’s prostate. The forest green turtle churred, his lips parted, his cheeks flushed, as pleasure coursed through him. Raph’s cock hurt at first, Leo thought, but now it feels wonderful inside of me. I like it. Leo looks so cute, Raphael thought. Fuck. Did I say cute? This is just sex and meant ta get Donnie, Raph. Don’t fall for Leo. Don’t. He don’t like ya. Remember that. Raphael pumped Leo’s cock and gave a final thrust into him. Leo climaxed first with a loud churr, his essence painting his plastron white. Raphael came with a loud growl a minute later and shot his essence deep inside of his brother. Then he pulled out, rolled off of his brother and lay down, feeling spent and satiated. “Ya okay, Fearless?” Raphael said breathlessly. “Fine.” I’m not fine, Leo, thought. I fucked my brother. Not once, but twice. We can’t do it again. Maybe I can ask Dad to let me leave sooner. How am I supposed to hide my feelings after this? I have to try. I can’t leave now. Mikey needs me. I’m so… “So,” Raphael said, turning around. “Look at me.” “Why?” “Just do it.” Leo sighed and turned around. “Happy now?” “Yeah. Sex makes ya glow, Leo. Ya look soft and beautiful. I like it.” “Are you sick, Raph? You said something sweet.” “Maybe yer rubbin’ offa me,” Raphael said and chuckled. “I’m serious. Anyway, I liked the sex and I hope I didn’t hurt ya too much.” “I’m fine. Just want….” “We gotta keep fuckin’. This can’t be a one-time thing, else Donnie won’t believe us. We got a date tonight and then fuckin’, okay?” “Ever to the point.” “I did say date. I didn't just say fuckin'. I can be romantic, because we gotta have romance and not just fuckin’ ta make it believable.” “You’re right,” Leo said and yawned. His butt and tail hurt, but he forced himself to ignore it. “Now cuddle me. Need ya scent all over me, so Donnie can smell ya.” I hate this, Leo thought, but I also love being with him. Fuck. I should never have agreed to the stupid charade. Way to go, Leo! You always get yourself in trouble. I’m going to talk to Dad and ask his advice about this. Raphael wrapped his arms around his brother and thought, Donnie’s gonna be all over me when he finds out we banged. Then we’re gonna have a bondin’ ceremony and we’ll be happy forever. Fuck April. I bet that bitch ain’t even pregnant and is tryin’ ta trap him. Gonna look into that and try ta get a sample of her DNA ta check. Raphael soon fell into a deep slumber, unaware of his big brother's inner struggle.         Chapter End Notes A/N Will Leo leave earlier? Will Raph love him for real? 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