Posted originally on the Archive_of_Our_Own at https://archiveofourown.org/
works/493116.
  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Supernatural_RPF
  Relationship:
      Jensen_Ackles/Jared_Padalecki
  Additional Tags:
      Alternate_Universe, Underage_Sex
  Stats:
      Published: 2012-02-28 Words: 6420
****** Can't be what you want ******
by alycat
Summary
     With his body changing, Jensen is no longer sure he can be what Jared
     wants. When a new person enters their lives, everything between them
     changes.
Notes
     Original notes and warnings from Livejournal:
     Pairing, rating & kinks: J2 - NC-17 - underage, age difference
     (Jensen 12-14/ Jared 30-32), size kink, fingering, blow jobs,
     barebacking, angst.
Two Years Ago
- - Jared --
Jared looked down at the boy stretched out on the bed, fast asleep. He couldn't
help but smile at the sight of Jensen's naked body, one hand tucked in under
his cheeks and soft pink lips slightly parted. His skin was still flushed,
sticky with both sweat and come and it took all of Jared's self control to not
walk over and leave more marks on the boy's body. Just when he was about to
gather himself back together, wondering if he should wake Jensen up or not, the
boy shifted on the bed, bending one leg, and the new position gave Jared a very
good look of Jensen's tight little ass, pink hole looking incredibly inviting
where it was still shining with the lube he had used while finger fucking the
slender body.
Reaching down Jared pushed against his rising hard-on, willing it to go away
because he knew he didn't have time to play more with the boy on his bed, he
needed to get him home before the boy's parents began wondering where he had
gone to. Their time together was stolen moments, a year of hidden away hours
that were hard to come by and Jared sighed, pushing his arousal to the
background he walked over to wake the boy up.
"Jen," he whispered, leaning in to press a kiss to the boy's temple. "It's time
to wake up and go home."
Jensen stirred slightly, blinking up at Jared with a slow smile on his lips.
"Jared," he mumbled and reached up to wrap his arms around Jared's neck, trying
to pull him into a kiss.
"No, Jen, we don't have time," Jared protested but he still leaned in, covering
Jensen's small mouth with his and licking into the wet heat, tongue sliding
over full lips.
The moan that left Jensen's lips was the most delicious thing Jared had ever
heard, a wanton sound that should sound so bad on a eleven year old boy's
tongue. Before he could think too much about it Jared reached down, letting big
hands grab Jensen's slender hips as he fitted their bodies together until he
could grind down into Jensen's small but already rock hard dick.
"Jesus Christ, baby," Jared groaned when he felt the friction against his own
erection. "You need to get home or... god..."
"Just... please Jared," Jensen moaned. "More... little bit more..."
His soft voice sounded thick with want and Jared could tell from the way he was
breathing that his sweet little boy was already close to coming and knowing
that Jensen's parents were about to take the whole family for a road trip it
would be at least a week before he would see the boy again. With that knowledge
he gave in to the desperate need pulsing inside him and he slid down Jensen's
small frame until his mouth was hovering over the boy's pretty little cock.
With the first lick over the pre-come slicked head, Jensen's whole body arched
off the bed, straining for more and Jared chuckled softly to himself.
A high pitched keening rang out in the room and it even though he loved to
tease Jensen, to bring him right to the edge and then back again, Jared wanted
just as much as Jensen did and he leaned forward to suck the cock into his
mouth. Still so young and small, it wasn't hard to fit the entire length into
his mouth and Jensen cried out in pleasure, pushing up once more. Jared smiled
around the hot flesh in his mouth when he felt slender fingers tangle
themselves in his hair as Jensen was clearly trying to reach his release, too
eager to just lay down and let Jared give it to him. It was one of the things
Jared really liked with Jensen, that turned him on like nothing else. He had
never expected the young boy to end up in his bed, and even less for Jensen to
be so damn eager about every thing they did.
"Want you to...god...please Jared. Please take me, please...I need. God, I just
need."
Jared knew full well what Jensen was begging for, the young boy always asked
for the same thing and it was the one thing that Jared refused to give to him.
For all the parts of Jensen he had felt under his hands, all the parts he had
tasted with lips and tongue, he had never fucked the young boy. It was a weird
limit to have, but it was what little morale he had left. Luckily he knew just
how to make Jensen forget all about what he was begging for, he could play the
slender body beneath him like the finest of instruments.
He gathered up some of the saliva and pre-come dripping down Jensen's cock,
wetting the tips of his fingers before he lowered his hand to push a slick
finger against the still swollen little ring of muscle. A sharp cry left
Jensen's lips and the next second Jared's mouth was filled with hot bursts of
come, painting his tongue, and his own cock twitched at the perfect taste.
Jensen didn't taste like anyone Jared had been with before, his come not as
bitter as most men and Jared couldn't really get enough of it.
He sucked at Jensen's cock at the same time as he worked the pads of his
fingers over the boy's hole, not even needing to push inside to have Jensen
falling apart beneath him, and he didn't withdraw his fingers until Jensen was
whimpering softly and trying to shift away from Jared's touches. Carefully he
draw back, dragging his tongue over the slit once more to gather the last drop
of come and then he practically slithered up Jensen's body to allow the boy to
taste himself on Jared's tongue.
"Want to touch you," Jensen mumbled. "Your cock...so big in my hands. Please
Jared, come for me. Come on me."
When Jensen's small hand closed around his cock there was no way for Jared to
hold his own orgasm at bay and he came with a deep groan, silencing it against
Jensen's soft mouth as Jensen jerked him through the orgasm, Jensen’s hand
feeling very tiny where it stroked over his cock.
"Jesus fuck, baby," Jared sighed and flopped down next to Jensen on the bed.
"You're so fucking good at that. Such a quick study."
Looking over to the boy at his side he could see the satisfied little smile on
the boy's lips and he couldn't stop himself from pulling Jensen close, kissing
him breathless while his come slowly cooled on Jensen's soft little belly.
"I need to get you cleaned up, baby," Jared said, dragging his fingers through
the come staining Jensen's body. "Can't have you going home to your family with
my come all over your tiny little body."
A slow blush crept up Jensen's cheeks and Jared knew that the boy was a bit
self conscious about being small for his age but Jared couldn't help it, he
loved how tiny Jensen was, even more so pressed close to his own big frame.
He let himself relish in the feel of that small body for a few more moments
before he finally managed to drag himself away and push Jensen towards the
shower. A year spent with Jensen, getting to know the way his body moved, the
sounds he made when Jared pushed his tongue inside him, there was no way that
Jared could pass on the opportunity to get to see Jensen in the shower. One of
the perks with his young lover was the refractory period and Jared followed him
into the shower, eager to get the kid to fall apart for him once more.
-¤-
Now
- - Jensen - -
Jensen looked at himself in the mirror, taking in each angle of his face and
trying to catalogue every change he seemed to be going through on a daily
basis. He knew that he was a bit behind his fellow classmates, but it seemed
like he had finally hit his growth spurt. And he hated every second of it. With
a sigh he tugged at the sleeves of his shirt, trying to get them down below his
wrists and cursing low under his breath when they just slid back up the second
he let them go again.
"Jensen!" he heard his mother call, no doubt waiting by the door. "Get going
already, you promised me you would help with the grocery shopping today. And I
mean today."
It really wasn't something Jensen looked forward to, his mom had a tendency to
take far too long considering the pros and cons with every thing she touched in
the store and Jensen would much rather sit at home and mope but apparently that
wasn't an option for him.
"Coming, mom!" he shouted before pulling on his new black coat, one of the few
things that actually fit him, but despite the perfect cut of it made him feel
ever worse.
Wearing the coat he looked older and that just wasn't something he was aiming
for, despite all the issues he used to have about his height, his too pretty
features, he knew what Jared liked and he was seeing those things fade away
with each passing day.
"Finally," his mother said with an eye roll when Jensen emerged from his
bedroom and came to join her in the hall, putting his shoes on without saying
any of the remarks that were lingering on his tongue.
His mother just ushered him outside before locking the door to their apartment
and Jensen followed her down the stairs and across the parking lot towards
their car, blinking a few times as his eyes got used to the bright light
outside, sunshine reflecting off a thin layer of snow.
"Winter, great," Jensen muttered.
Winter meant it was getting even closer to his birthday, just another day to
point out the way things were changing.
"I thought you liked winter," Donna said but she didn't even wait for him to
answer, instead she quickly changed the subject. "Oh, did you see that there
are new neighbors across the street? They seem to have bought that old house
next to Mr. Padalecki."
Jensen almost tripped over his own feet at those words and his gaze snapped up
to look across the street to where apartment complexes gave away to comfortable
bungalows with small, neat gardens.
"Sometimes I feel bad for that man," Donna said. "No girlfriend and living in a
neighborhood with so many children, not the best place for a bachelor but that
house of his is a gem. Oh the neighbors, they apparently have a son a few years
younger than you. Maybe you'll see him at school."
"Probably," Jensen muttered, not really knowing why he should even want to meet
some little kid.
Donna kept on talking a mile a minute, going from topic to topic during their
short drive to the store and Jensen gritted his teeth together at how often the
new neighbors or Jared came up in the discussion, neither was something that
Jensen particularly wanted to talk about
"Oh well talk of the devil," Donna said when they stopped in front of the
grocery store. "Look, there is Jared and I'm pretty sure those are the new
neighbors he are talking to. Now isn't that a coincidence?"
Jensen had been sitting fiddling with his phone, longing to text Jared, but at
his mother's words he looked up and it wasn't hard to catch sight of Jared, as
always he was towering over the people surrounding him and even more so when
the person next to him was a young boy who couldn't be a day over eleven.
Looking at the soft smile on Jared's face, the way he was looking at the boy in
front of him, Jensen felt something break apart inside of him.
"That's...our neighbors?" Jensen asked, thankful that his mother would most
likely credit the break in his voice to puberty and not emotions.
"Yes," his mother said with a smile. "The son is...I think it was eleven? What
was his name... oh... Jason? Jeremy? Something like that."
Without saying a word Jensen watched as Jared knelt down in front of the boy,
saying something that made the kid grin wide, and in that moment Jensen was
quite sure he had lost Jared for good.
- - Jared - -
Jared looked up in time to see the car stop in the parking lot and it was a car
he had seen often enough to be able to place it right away. When the passenger
side door opened he felt his heart race at the sight of the boy stepping out
and he was just about to smile and give Jensen a small wave but the boy didn't
look at him, instead his gaze was locked on the ground as he followed his
mother towards the store. Donna clearly recognized him though and waved,
smiling brightly at both Jared and the new neighbors that he stood talking to.
The boy in front of him, Jeremy, tugged at his sleeve, clearly trying to get
Jared's attention back and when Jensen still ignored him Jared looked down at
the small boy in front of him with a smile.
Jeremy was even smaller than Jensen had been at that same age, tiny body that
was still rounded with baby fat and Jared expected to feel the tug of desire
deep his belly but to his surprise it didn't come. He only paid half his
attention to what the boy was actually saying, eager stories about some
football game, while Jeremy's parents were smiling indulgently at their child.
"I'm sorry," the father said quietly. "He's a bit eager about this and
sometimes it's a bit hard to get him to not talk."
"It's okay," Jared smiled, ruffling Jeremy's hair. "I love kids, I did actually
consider going into teaching myself but numbers and economy is where my heart
truly lies. And talking about that, I need to get back to the bank, my break is
almost over but it was really nice to see you again. Don't hesitate to come by
my place if you have any questions while settling in."
Watching the family walk towards the grocery store, following the same path
that Donna and Jensen had taken, Jared stayed watching them, trying to realize
what had changed. He looked at the young boy walking between his parents, still
waiting for the urge to rise within him but while he could feel the interest it
wasn't the desperate need he felt with Jensen. Something was changing, but
Jared couldn't put his finger on just what and with a sigh he turned to walk
back towards his place of work. Walking he pulled his phone out of his pocket,
sending off a message to Jensen.
:: Jen. Saw you at the store, but you seemed distracted. Coming over tonight?
::
Hours later, when he got off work, he still hadn't gotten an answer and he
realized that Jensen ignoring him had very much been a planned thing, but he
didn't know why. He shrugged it off, trying to not think about it but a nagging
sensation had taken up residence in the back of his mind and it wouldn't leave
him alone.
It only became worse when days passed by without a single word from Jensen, the
boy clearly avoiding even walking by Jared's house because he hadn't seen him,
not once, and Jared had a hard time focusing on anything at all no matter how
much he tried. The fact that his own libido seemed to have abandoned him only
served for Jared to be in a less than good mood by the time the weekend rolled
around but he was grateful for two days away from work at least, he really
planned to spend them doing as little as possible. Unless he could get a hold
of Jensen that is. He was just about to head to the store, pick up some movies
and beers, when he heard the sound of a childish voice somewhere on the other
side of the fence surrounding his backyard.
"It'll be fun, please? How can you not like it? It's football!"
The eagerness in Jeremy's voice had Jared smiling for the first time in days
and he moved closer, curious to see who the kid was talking to but he only got
a few steps before the answer was given to him.
"Leave me alone," he heard Jensen answer, sounding angrier than Jared had ever
heard him before.
"But it's football, it's so much fun and I'm sure we could have so much fun
together. Don't you wanna have fun? Oh, I know! We could ask Jared... I mean
Mr. Padalecki, to join us. I talked to him the other day and I'm sure he would
want to play with me. Please, Jensen."
Jeremy was talking so quickly he almost tripped over his own tongue and Jared
thought it was a weird blend of adorable and annoying the way he barely stopped
to breathe. The words seemed to have a different effect on Jensen though
because Jared could hear the sharp intake of breath from where he was standing.
"Oh go to hell you little vermin," Jensen snarled, so much venom in his voice
that it made Jared stop in his steps, his eyes going wide. "You really think
you're all that? I'm sure Jared wants to play with you but I fucking don't.
You're just a stupid little kid and I wish your family had never moved here.
Everything would be so much better if..."
"Jensen!"
Jared called out the boy's name just as he opened the half hidden door in the
fence and stepped outside, taking in the scene in front of him. Jensen spun
around, looking up at him with wide eyes that were full of of surprise, fear
and a hint of guilt. There was something else in his eyes as well, something
that Jared couldn't place but before he could think about it too much he found
himself with his arms full of a sobbing Jeremy, slender arms wrapping around
his waist.
"Jensen," Jared said, trying to sound a bit softer. "That was a horrible thing
to say."
Jensen didn't answer, instead he looked at Jeremy with a scowl on his face,
crossing his arms over his chest and for a moment all Jared could think of was
how different Jensen looked compared to the small boy he had first gotten to
know, muscles starting to grow where before there had only been coltish limbs,
gracefulness slowly replacing the clumsiness of early teenage years.
"I'm not taking it back," Jensen snapped suddenly, pulling Jared's focus back
on the present time.
"Why doesn't he like me?" Jeremy mumbled, face hidden against Jared's chest.
Jared was just about to ask the same when he looked up from the boy in his arms
and caught a glimpse of something he was quite sure Jensen hadn't intended for
him to see; the boy was looking at him and Jeremy with so much hurt and sadness
in his eyes that it took Jared's breath away but before he could say anything
the look was gone, replaced by another scowl.
"Because you're taking what's supposed to be mine."
The words were spoken so quietly that Jared doubted Jeremy heard them, he
wasn't even sure Jensen realized that he had heard them. With a last half-
mumbled curse Jensen spun around and disappeared around a corner, leaving Jared
to stand there with a sobbing kid in his arms and no real clue what the hell
had just happened.
-¤-
The movie was halfway done but Jared hadn't really watched any of it, it was
just playing as a background sound to the thoughts tangling together in his
mind without him having any real idea of how to untangle them. His beer sat
forgotten on the table, slowly going from lukewarm over to completely
undrinkable but he didn't think much about that either. Instead all he could
think of was Jensen, and that did surprise him quite a bit. Having stood with
Jeremy in his arms, slender body pressed up against his, Jared would have
expected his thoughts to be about the little brown haired boy but instead all
he could think of was green eyes and freckles and the completely broken look he
had seen on Jensen's face for the briefest of seconds.
His thoughts were interrupted by the sudden chime of his doorbell and Jared
sighed and got up, not bothering to stop the movie as he went and opened the
door without checking who was on the other side. Jensen looked up at him, fists
clenched together at his sides and once more his eyes were full of some emotion
that Jared couldn't really place.
"Jensen, what are..."
He didn't have time to finish the sentence before Jensen was pushing past him,
walking into the living room and reaching down to push the mute button on the
remote control. For a moment Jared stood frozen in place but then he closed the
door and followed the boy, frowning when he saw Jensen standing on the middle
of the floor, looking quite ready for a fight.
"Jen, what's..."
"You could at least have told me," Jensen said, voice so full of pain and anger
that it made Jared's own falter away. "Three years. Three fucking years, Jared,
and you couldn't even tell me to my face?"
"Tell you what?" Jared asked, feeling more confused than he had at any time
during the past week.
"That you've... I mean, it's quite obvious. I saw the way you look at..."
Jensen said but it didn't answer any of Jared's questions.
"The way I look at what?" Jared asked, taking a step closer only to have Jensen
flinch away.
"At Jeremy!" Jensen spat. "Look, I know I'm not what you want anymore but... it
hurts, okay? I thought that maybe, just maybe, you would have... It's not my
fault."
Jared could only stare in shock as Jensen sobbed and stumbled over to the
couch, sagging down on it and hiding his face behind his hands.
"It's not my fault I'm growing up."
The words were spoken so quietly that Jared almost missed them but the second
he heard them a lot of small pieces clicked together. Jensen was very much
different from what he had been when Jared had first brought him to his bed,
but in that moment he looked like a child once more, shoulders shaking with the
tears he couldn't hold back and Jared felt something inside him shatter into a
million sharp pieces.
"Jensen..." he breathed out.
On the couch, Jensen flinched when he heard his name being spoken and the sight
made everything hurt because Jensen had never moved away from him before.
"I shouldn't have come here," Jensen said, getting up from the couch. "I'm... I
hope you... I'm sorry I can't be what you want anymore."
Moving wasn't something Jared thought about, he just knew he had to stop Jensen
before the boy walked out the door. Spinning Jensen around until he could see
his face Jared wasn't surprised when he found Jensen red eyed, wetness catching
the light and the boy tried to get away.
"Just let me go, please."
"No," Jared said, lifting one hand to cup Jensen's face, holding him in place.
"Why not?" Jensen said, voice rough with fought back tears.
Realization hit him in that moment, looking into Jensen's eyes and seeing all
the emotions he hadn't been able to put a name to before, suddenly it was clear
to him just what those emotions were and how much of them were mirrored in
himself. It was a weird time to realize he had fallen in love with a fourteen
year old boy.
"Because I love you," he said, unable to keep the words back once he knew them
for real.
Jensen froze in place, his eyes going even wider as he stared up at Jared and
his full lips were slack with surprise and shock.
"What?" Jensen gasped out.
"I love you," Jared repeated, amazed by how good the words felt on his tongue.
"But I'm..." Jensen started, having to swallow thickly before he could go on.
"I'm getting old, I'm not..."
"You're gorgeous," Jared said truthfully. "Fuck, Jensen. You're perfect."
Jensen tried to twist away from him but Jared refused to let him go, couldn't
stand the thought of Jensen walking out his door because he was sure that if
that happened, the boy would never return.
"I saw you," Jensen protested, still struggling. "Outside the store, the way
you looked at Jeremy. He's what you want, not me."
"I thought I did," Jared agreed. "I looked at him and expected to feel what...
what I've always felt but... I didn't."
A low scoffing sound left Jensen and Jared leaned in to press their lips
together, feeling how Jensen shivered under his touch but at least the boy
didn't pull away.
"I only feel like that for you," Jared said. "The way you look now, I still
want you so damn much. All of you. I don't mind you growing up, baby. I'm
looking forward to it."
He didn't know what it was that made Jensen believe him, but he could see the
very second it happened and then he found himself with Jensen clinging to him,
soft lips pressing kisses all over his face and still slender arms wrapping
around his neck.
"I love you," Jensen breathed out against his lips. "I thought you... At first
you didn't want to sleep with me because I was too young and then... I just..."
"Oh Jen," Jared gasped, tugging the boy in closer. "I always wanted to sleep
with you, it drove me insane to keep from doing it."
Jensen pulled away then and looked up at Jared, licking his lips slowly and
Jared's gaze flickered down to track the movement, groaning at the way that
pink tongue wet full lips.
"So stop fighting it," Jensen said. "Please. I want you inside me, make love to
me."
Having it phrased like that swept away the last vestiges of self control and
Jared lifted Jensen up easily, hands cupping his ass, and Jensen wrapped his
legs around Jared's waist. Jensen's body pressed up so close to his had always
been slightly breathtaking, but it was even better now, knowing full well what
would happen once he got his boy to the bedroom. When he truly allowed himself
to think about it, he also had to admit to himself that part of it was knowing
that he loved Jensen, that what was between them had turned into more than he
would ever have expected. Any thing even resembling coherent thoughts left his
mind when Jensen pressed his lips against the shell of Jared's ear, sucking
softly before he whispered words that sounded even more filthy spilling from
the lips of a fourteen year old boy.
"Want you inside me, Jay, fuck... dreamt about it. Longed for it so damn much.
Put my fingers inside, imagining it was your cock but it just wasn't enough.
Need more. Need you to fuck me, stretch me so good. Please."
Jared thought he should get a fucking medal for not dropping Jensen when the
boy just kept mumbling filth into his ear, slowly rolling his hips against
Jared in search of friction and Jared could feel how hard the boy was.
"Jesus fucking Christ," he groaned, stumbling through his bedroom door and
falling down onto the bed with Jensen still tangled around him. "Do you have
any idea what it does to me, hearing you talk like that?"
Looking down at Jensen he was quite sure the boy knew exactly what it did to
him if the self-satisfied little smile on his lips was anything to go by. A
smile that Jared leaned in to kiss away until he could hear Jensen gasp for air
beneath him, body trembling slightly and hands coming up to clutch at his
shoulders.
"Jared, please," Jensen whimpered.
There was no need for Jensen to explain just what he was pleading for, Jared
knew and wanted it just as much as the boy did, but despite all that they had
done, every intimate part of Jensen that his tongue had tasted, he didn't want
to rush anything. He wanted to take his time to truly savor the gorgeous boy on
his bed. Jensen didn't seem on board on the plan however, he whined when Jensen
pinned him to the bed and pressed soft kisses down his neck, feeling the heated
skin under his lips and smiling when a flick of his tongue made Jensen shiver.
Despite the muscles that Jensen had gained since the thing between them had
first started, it was easy for Jared to hold Jensen in place, keeping the boy
from arching up no matter how much he wanted to.
"Fucker," Jensen gritted out between clenched teeth.
Jared didn't answer, instead he let his teeth scrape over the sensitive spot
where the skin was stretched over the boy's collar bone and he felt Jensen
strain to arch up against him, soft moans of please and more spilling from his
lips. Carefully Jared stripped the slender body from its clothing, revealing
softly freckled skin, turned golden by the summer's sun, and he only pulled his
lips away for long enough to tug the shirt free and throw it down beside the
bed.
"Patience," he mumbled against the soft skin of Jensen's belly.
"I've had patience for three years," Jensen protested. "Now I kinda really want
to get fucked."
Bolts of pure want shot through his body and Jared wondered just how long he
would be able to tease the boy before he himself had enough, and he was sure he
would break before Jensen did. That thought was confirmed when Jensen looked up
at Jared, eyes almost black with lust and his pink lips smiling up at Jared.
"C'mon, don't you wanna show me how much better the real thing is to the toys
I've tried?"
The thought of Jensen working a toy into himself, the sounds he must have made
when it spread him open, was enough for Jared to give up on control and quickly
strip them both of all remaining clothes until it was sweat slicked skin on
sweat slicked skin and Jensen was trembling beneath him.
"What do you want, baby?" Jared asked, pressing kisses over Jensen's chest and
up his neck. "Tell me."
Jensen's hand slid up Jared's arms and shoulders, tangling into his hair and
Jared wondered if part of the reason he kept it so long wasn't because of the
way it felt when Jensen tugged at it. The thoughts slipped away when his lips
found Jensen's, their tongues sliding together and when Jensen pushed his hips
up Jared groaned into the kiss.
"Want... god... Jared... Want your tongue on me," Jensen mumbled. "Your fingers
inside me. Just... get me ready for you."
Refusing to pull away from Jensen, Jared reached out and managed to get his
hand around the bottle of lube, fumbling slightly in his attempts to slick his
fingers before putting one big hand on the soft skin of Jensen's thigh and
pushing his legs apart. There was no resistance, Jensen just let his legs fall
apart and pushed his hips up to give Jared better access.
"God, I love this..." Jensen mumbled.
Jared smiled and stroked slick fingers over the tight muscle, feeling every
ridge and fold against his fingertips, he knew just how much Jensen loved to
feel Jared's fingers work him open and when he pushed one finger inside he was
rewarded with the most delicious of moans.
"Yeah," he groaned, sliding down to press soft kisses and bites over the skin
of Jensen's hips, pale where where shorts and swim trunks had protected it from
the sun. "God, I can't believe I haven't done this before."
Another moan left Jensen, a desperate edge to it, when Jared's finger found the
spot inside that always made Jensen writhe and push himself down on Jared's
fingers.
"More, please," Jensen whined. "I can take it, wanna feel... oh... oh..."
His words drifted off into moans and whimpers when Jared pushed a second finger
inside, angling it straight for the boy's prostate at the same time as he
leaned in to drag his tongue over the hot skin of Jensen's dick. When he
wrapped his lips around the crown, sucking at the same time as he pushed the
tip of his tongue against the slit, Jensen let out a little cry and the next
second he was pulsing his release into Jared's mouth. Jared felt it when Jensen
practically melted down into the bed, tight muscles slowly relaxing their grip
around his fingers but he didn't leave the boy any time to relax, instead he
twisted his fingers, pushing a third one in and working them deep inside until
Jensen was keening, cock hard once more.
"Jesus," he mumbled, pulling his fingers free, unable to take his gaze away
from where the small hole was still open, like it was just waiting for Jared's
cock to push inside.
"Take me," Jensen mumbled, looking up at Jared from under heavy eyelids.
Jared lay down beside Jensen on the bed, pressing soft kisses to full lips at
the same time as he reached for the lube once more, slicking his bare cock. He
hadn't been with anyone else since the thing with Jensen started, and looking
back he thought that maybe that should have been a clue to his feelings for the
boy, and there was no way he could stand the thought of anything between them,
not even a thin layer of latex. He was about to push Jensen over on his belly,
but his movement stopped when Jensen was on his side, lean backside presented
to Jared and he slotted himself in close, fitting them back to chest until the
full length of their bodies were pressed as close together as possible.
"Jared?" Jensen asked, trying to roll over further.
"No baby," Jared said, pressing a soft kiss to Jensen's neck. "Just like this.
Want you like this."
He shifted until the slick head of his cock was pressing against the inviting
heat of Jensen's asshole, feeling the muscle slowly spread around him when he
inched himself forward.
"Jay, Jared..." Jensen whimpered, trying to push back against Jared. "Please
please."
"Love you," Jared mumbled, his lips pressed against the boy's neck, feeling him
shiver under the touch.
The words seemed enough to make Jensen relax and Jared used the opportunity to
push forward, feeling Jensen's body open to him. He knew Jensen must feel the
burn of Jared's cock pushing inside, but it didn't seem to bring him discomfort
if the low moans coming from him was anything to go by. That thought was
confirmed when Jensen shoved back hard, making Jared slide all the way inside
and causing them both to groan. Looking down at the boy pressed so close to
him, connected in a way they had never been before, Jared felt the love swell
inside of him and he wrapped one arm around Jensen's waist, holding him still
while he slowly pulled out again, holding still until Jensen was straining to
push back.
"Fuck, please get back inside," Jensen pleaded. "Need to feel you!"
Jared didn't answer, instead he pulled Jensen back on his cock, feeling the
tight ring of muscle around his cock until he was buried deep inside his boy
again. Jensen moaned, his head falling back and soft lips searching for Jared's
and even with the slightly awkwardness of the position Jared couldn't stop
himself from claiming the boy's mouth.
Slowly sliding in and out of the perfect heat of Jensen's body, Jared's hands
roamed all over his skin, needing to touch every part of him and Jensen's own
hand came back to curve over Jared's hip, pulling him closer. Their bodies
found the perfect rhythm, sliding together and Jared knew when he hit that spot
inside of Jensen because the boy's mouth went slack under his, the kiss turning
into sharing breath.
"Yeah...yeah... god... so good, Jared... so good. Longed for this so much..."
"Love you," Jared gasped when Jensen's lips fell from his. "You're mine now."
"I was... always... yours..."
The simple words, all the emotions tangled with them, made everything so much
better and even though he wanted to stay inside Jensen forever he knew that he
wouldn't last long, not when he felt the perfect tightness around his cock. He
started moving faster, holding Jensen in place and fucking with deep, hard
thrusts that had the most delicious sounds spilling from Jensen's lips.
"Yes...god...so...close..."
Jared let his hand trail down over the boy's flat belly, curling fingers around
his hard cock and Jensen cried out, whole body locking down around Jared as the
boy came. The added sensation of feeling Jensen lose it around his cock pulled
Jared over the edge and he came hard, face buried against Jensen's soft hair.
"I love you," he breathed out, holding Jensen close to his body.
He didn't want to pull out, instead he pressed Jensen's hips even closer to his
own, enjoying the slick feel of Jensen around him and he smiled when Jensen
melted back against him.
"I love you too," Jensen said, voice thick and sated. "I'm... really happy we
did this."
Silence stretched out between them and Jared wasn't really all that surprised
by how damn comfortable it was to lay in his bed, sheets rumpled beneath them
and Jensen fitting so perfectly against his own body. The mere thought of how
close he had come to losing this made him pull Jensen even closer.
"You don't need to be jealous anymore," he promised the boy. "I'm sorry it took
me so long to realize, but you're it for me. Not letting you go."
He saw Jensen smile, the boy reaching down to tangle their fingers together and
Jared started drifting off to sleep just like that, bodies tangled together and
and the warm smell of them filling the room.
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