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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      F/M, M/M
  Fandom:
      Newsies_(1992), Newsies_-_All_Media_Types
  Relationship:
      Spot_Conlon/Racetrack_Higgins
  Character:
      Racetrack_Higgins, Spot_Conlon, Kid_Blink, Mush_Meyers, David_Jacobs,
      Jack_Kelly, Other(s)
  Additional Tags:
      Child_Abuse, Foster_Care, Group_Homes, Child_Neglect, Alternate_Universe
      -_Modern_Setting
  Stats:
      Published: 2014-07-15 Updated: 2017-03-12 Chapters: 10/11 Words: 33493
****** Break Me Down and Build Me Up Again ******
by websters_lieb
Summary
     After 17 years of neglect and abuse from his father, Antonio
     "Racetrack" Higgins never expected that he would actually get pulled
     out by CPS. Now he lives in a group home, all too aware of what it's
     like to live a hard life, but sometimes you gotta make the best out
     of a shitty situation. His roommate Sean "Spot" Conlon might be able
     to help him with that.
***** When The World Falls Apart *****
The punch was no surprise to a certain Antonio “Racetrack” Higgins. He was used
to being smacked around, it was simply a part of life to him, nothing special,
just how the world worked. If he broke a dish: smack. If he burnt some toast:
smack. If he was to loud: smack. If he was too quiet: smack. Sometimes it
wasn’t for anything, just because Gennero Higgins had had a bad day at work -
though Race wasn’t really sure if dealing and pimping could be considered a job
- he would get a smack.
Sometimes it was left at that, just a painful hit to the head, and then back to
normal business. But sometimes, when his father had had a bad day, or was more
drunk than most people could think humanly possible, it wouldn’t stop for what
seemed to be hours. Hit after hit would strike Race’s small frame, and at first
he might defend himself, fight back or try to run, but it never seemed to work.
He would always eventually be dragged down - fighting tooth and nail mind you,
he wasn’t one to give in without a fight - and then all he was ever able to do
would be to cover his head and curl into the fetal position as punches turned
to kicks and angry grumbles turned to almost inhuman sounding howl of
accusations.
Today was different though. The look in his father’s eyes was one that
Racetrack had never seen before, it wasn’t the usual angry coals still hot from
a red hot fire, it was the fire. Gennero’s eyes were burning like a star that
was about to supernova. Race’s heart seemed to gallop like a horse that had
just been let out of its starting stall, before it seemed to stop in his chest.
His father was holding up the one thing he had been stupid enough to keep in
the house that even slightly displayed his sexuality. It was an old porno mag,
which he had hidden in an old school binder on a bookshelf he had in his room,
thinking that there was no way that his father would ever look there. He didn’t
have a fucking clue why his father would be looking through his old school
shit, but he didn’t have time to think about it before the first punch sent him
reeling backwards.
“Ya little queer! I won’t have a goddamn ass digging fag for a son!” His father
spat each word like it caused him physical pain, spraying his son’s face with
spittle, before he pulled his fist back again.The second hit was worse than the
first, making his head feel like it was being split in two slowly and painfully
by a blunt ax as hit after hit assaulted his cranium. He kicked his legs
wildly, trying to get his father off, and managed to nail the larger man with a
hit to the stomach. He tripped over his own feet as he scrambled up and
stumbled backwards, before turning tail and running as fast as his feet would
carry him away from the madman still screaming obscenities at him as he ran
after his terrified son.   Race’s hand was on the doorknob, and he was about to
throw himself out of his shitty little house in Southeastern Manhattan when his
father grabbed the back of his shirt and pulled him back so fast that he choked
as the collar pulled around his neck. His father’s hands moved from his shirt
to the back of his neck, and he smacked Race’s head into the wall to the left
of the door, bringing a scream of pain out of his son. The impact caused
Racetrack to slip down the wall as he tried to gather his thoughts after the
impact of
His father’s hands moved from his shirt to the back of his neck, and he smacked
Race’s head into the wall to the left of the door, bringing a scream of pain
out of his son. The impact caused Racetrack to slip down the wall as he tried
to gather his thoughts after the impact of head against wall, but before he
managed to gather his thoughts, he felt a kick to his stomach, knocking the
wind out of him, and by the feel of it, cracking a rib. He looked up at the man
who had raised him for the last 17 years of his life, and saw nothing but
hatred. He hadn’t loved his father in the entirety of his living memory, but he
had never felt truly hated by the man. Disliked, yes. Unwanted, definitely. But
never outright hated. But the way he was looking at him now, Race was sure that
his father could kill him and not bat an eye about it. He looked right at his
older counterpart, whose face was read with anger, and almost in slow motion,
he saw the fist come back, then rocket towards him with intent, and he did what
any scared kid - because he was really just a kid - would do. He screamed.
He screamed until his throat was raw and the screams wouldn’t come anymore, he
screamed like he had never screamed before, calling for help from anyone, but
even then the hit’s to his body didn’t stop, again and again he received blow
after blow until suddenly he heard the sound of a door busting open, and
someone shouting. He stayed conscious just long enough to feel the relief of
his father being pulled off of him, before letting the pain take over, and
letting everything go black.
 
===============================================================================
 
When Race woke up, his mouth felt like it was filled with cotton balls, his
head hurt like a motherfucker, and he felt like he was about to throw up. He
had just enough time to turn onto his side before he upchucked, the puke
luckily ending up on the floor, instead of in the bed with him. He groaned and
dug the heels of his hands into his eyes, rubbing away the sleep, and proceeded
to survey his surroundings. He appeared to be in a hospital, he shared a room
with an empty bed, but someone clearly was staying there, as there were
pictures put up on the walls nearby. Besides the few pictures, the walls were
pretty clear, there was some sort of box near the door that seemed to hold
medical supplies. He closed his eyes tight for a second, trying to clear his
head, before surveying his own body. He had what appeared to be a brace on his
left leg, and he could feel tight bandages around his ribcage when he took a
deep breath. He sighed and leaned back onto the pillow. So that really had
happened, it hadn’t been some sort of crazy fucked up
He closed his eyes tight for a second, trying to clear his head, before
surveying his own body. He had what appeared to be a brace on his left leg, and
he could feel tight bandages around his ribcage when he took a deep breath. He
sighed and leaned back onto the pillow. So that really had happened, it hadn’t
been some sort of crazy fucked up dream that his subconscious had created to
scare the living hell out of him. What was he supposed to do now? He wouldn’t
be able to go back to his father, but maybe he would be able to sneak into the
house while the old man was on a drug run and grab some money and clothes. But
where would he go? He didn’t know of any other family to take him in, his mom
had died when he was barely 9, and she had no siblings he knew of. He didn’t
have any friends with good enough home lives that he could stay with them.
To be honest he didn’t have many friends at all, just two whom he had known
sense he had been in diapers, David and ‘Blink’. It wasn’t that David came from
a bad family, Esther was a sweet amazing Jewish mother who doted on David and
his friends, but they had their own problems, the Jacobs were dirt poor with
three children and a father who was on disability due to a work related
incident, which didn’t pay as well as they had hoped it would. And Blink, well,
ever sense his mother had caused the car crash that killed her husband and
daughter and blinded her son in one eye, she had been... Well.... Off. Like she
would talk to people who weren't there, set 4 table places instead of two, and
when her son would say anything about his father and sister in the past tense
she would freak out, she was barely fit to take care of Blink, and probably
wouldn't tolerate a non-family member taking over the room that her daugther
had once slept in.
So where was he supposed to go? Surprisingly enough for someone in his area, he
hadn’t dropped out of school yet, he assumed it was probably because of David,
who was kinda like the overportective Jewish mother Blink and Race had never
had. Now there seemed to be no choice but to let his education go by the
wayside if he was going to work enough to get a place to live. Then again, all
he had was a shitty part time job at a grocery store, and who was going to let
a 17 year old kid that looked like he'd had the stuffing kicked out of him work
full time?
He thought back to the last thing he remembered before blacking out, trying to
draw details from the foggy pain filled memory. A door breaking open, a shout,
someone grabbing his father. He tried to pull some details about the man who
saved him, but nothing would come to him, except that the man seemed to be
wearing some type of uniform. He thought about that for a minute before it
clicked in his head. Hospital, uniform, someone actually caring enough to help
him. The man must have been a police officer, which certainly changed things.
Even if he felt like an old soul, he was in fact still under the age of 18, and
if a cop had walked in while his father was in the process of beating the shit
out of his own son, then his father must be going to jail, and he would be
going into foster care.
Well, shit.
***** Bruises, Bad Jokes, and Best Friends *****
Chapter Summary
     Now to add some characters in, who doesn't love Crutchy? What about
     David and Blink? Because they love you!
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
What felt like hours later, a man wearing scrubs walked in, followed by a boy
sporting a crutch and a smile. Upon seeing that Race was awake, the man smiled
and walked over towards him.
“And how are you feeling Antonio?” It took a second for the question to
register in Race’s still slightly foggy brain before he looked up at the man
and answered,
“Okay, I guess, I’m just not entirely sure on what happened...” He rubbed his
eyes again and trailed off.
“Has nobody been in to speak to you?” The man - Was he a doctor? A nurse? -
questioned, and Racetrack shook his head no, then peered over at the boy with
the crutch, who had sat on the empty bed, and was looking quizzically back at
him, they made momentary eye contact before Race averted his eyes and instead
looked back at the man, who had been speaking to him without him realizing it.
“-so I’ll be right back and bring your social worker with me” Race nodded
again, though not really sure what he was agreeing to, and watched the man walk
out, and picking at his hospital gown, painfully aware of the other boy in the
room.
“My name’s Crutchy,” Race’s head snapped up as the other boy - Crutchy - spoke.
“Crutchy?” He asked, incredulous that someone would really go by a name about
their disability. Then he remembered that he called Ryan ‘Blink’ for basically
the same reason.
“Well, Charles, but I like Crutchy better, I figure it's easier to embrace the
facts than try to hide from them” ‘Crutchy’ had a giant smile stretching across
his face and he was looking at Race like he expected him to say something.
“Oh, oh yeah, I’m Racetrack” He smiled as he introduced himself under his
nickname,
“I’d shake your hand but I appear to be immobile” He gestured down at his
recently injured leg.
“Join the club” Crutchy held up his crutch, but kept the giant smile on his
face.
“That what you here for?” Race questioned, nodding at the crutch.
“Well, kinda, born premature, so I ended up with a foot not fully formed, and a
ticker that needs some assistance.” He tapped his chest, the smile still in
place, it seemed that not even a lifelong illness could keep this guy from
smiling.
“Well, I was born on time, but somehow I still got a brain that needs
assistance” He smiled a little as he said it, and Crutchy let out a nasal
laugh, his smile stretching impossibly larger.
“Do you know how long you're here for?” Crutchy, he started to notice, had a
surprisingly strong accent for someone born in the 21st century, he sounded
like he was from 1900s Queens or something, saying ‘heah’ instead of here, but
then again, it agreed with what Race could sense of his character so far.
“No clue, just woke up, don’t even know how I got here,”
“Well, at best guess, ya got the snot beaten outta ya, you gots some nasty
bruises on your face,” Crutchy gestured to the left side of his own face,
pointing out where the worst of it must be, and Race felt his cheekbone
tenderly, really feeling the beating for the first time.
“That bad huh?”
“You looks like you’ve been trampled by a horse,” Crutchy’s smile faded just a
little bit as he assessed the damage. “But if ya didn’t even notice it, then it
must not be as bad as it looks!” And the smile was back again, Race was sure
that he couldn’t pay the guy to keep a straight face for more than two minutes.
“But if ya didn’t even notice it, then it must not be as bad as it looks!” And
the smile was back again, Race was sure that he couldn’t pay the guy to keep a
straight face for more than two minutes.
“Yeah, it ain’t too bad” He muttered absentmindedly, moving his hand up a
little bit to his temple, and finding a couple small bandages there, so there
must have been broken skin, but it really wasn’t as bad as it could be.
“Doctah Johnson said he was getting your social worker before he left, so are
you an orphan too?”
“You’re an orphan?” He looked up at Crutchy, surprised by how open he was about
it, he wouldn’t want people to know if his parents were dead, he couldn’t stand
pity.
But Crutchy didn’t look upset, he just nodded, still smiling.
“Yep, never knew my parents, but are you one? They’se got a habit of putting me
in with other orphans like we’se supposed ta bond over not having parents or
something like that. Cry it out, hug a little, and become emotionally stable”
Crutchy rolled his eyes and let out that nasally laugh again.
“I don’t really know, my head’s still foggy on details,” Well that all but
confirmed his earlier conclusion that he must be going into the foster care
system. While he had not had a happy home-life in the least, he had heard
stories from old friends in the system, about how you didn’t get food
sometimes, how some parents would beat you, how some of the really twisted
fucks would rape the children they were supposed to be taking care of. While he
had often wished to get out, to get away from his father, he had never wanted
to end up in the system.
Suddenly, the door burst open again, and the man in scrubs from earlier,
Crutchy had called him Dr. Johnson, came in, followed by a man in a crumpled
suit. The man in the suit came forward to introduce himself,
“I see that you’re awake Antonio” Race nodded.
“Yeah, I’d noticed, now I just wanna know what the hell happened,” He stared at
the man, who appeared to not have slept much, and didn’t seem to happy to be
talking to Racetrack.
“Why don’t we go for a little walk?” He asked, though it didn’t appear to be
much of a question, as he gestured for Dr. Johnson, who walked out of the room,
and returned a second later with a wheelchair. Before he knew exactly what was
happening, he had been picked up and relocated to the chair, and was being
wheeled out the door.
“You know I’m not a baby, and am completely capable of getting into a chair
myself,” He snarled, he hated being picked up, it just reminded him that he
looked young for his age, and was only 5’2” tall.
“I know,” The social worker said absentmindedly
“So,” Race prompted
“What exactly happened?” The man sighed and nodded, started to wheel Race down
the hallway, then proceeded in a sad, yet matter of fact voice.
“Last night, a man walking through your neighborhood heard a disturbance - you,
screaming - and called 911, he remained on scene until the police arrived, and
will be a witness at your father’s hearing. Anyway, when the police arrived on
the scene, they could hear the sounds of a fight, and used that as probable
cause to enter your house without a warrant, Officer Blake entered the house
first to find your father assaulting you, and arrested him to be processed on
charges of child abuse. You passed out shortly after and were brought
immediately to the hospital to be treated. You have a minor fracture in your
leg, three cracked ribs, and a concussion. You will be at the hospital for one
more night to make sure that everything is in order, then you will be going to
live in a group home until your father’s hearing. We would like you to testify
against him and ensure that he will be sent to jail for a long time, but if
you’re uncomfortable with that, we will be able to make a case without your
testimony. I’m your social worker, my name’s Riley Feldt” After the long speech
there was an even longer silence as Riley continued to roll the younger man
down the hallway.
It was taking a while to absorb all he heard. His father in prison? A group
home? So he wouldn’t be fostered? He wouldn’t have to live with a strange
family in a strange place? How the hell had he even managed to break his leg? A
trial? How was he supposed to testify against his own blood? He had learned all
his life that family is all you’ve got, and you have to fight for your family,
even if they do horrible things to you, blood is strong, and if you have to,
you lay down your life for your family. To testify against his own father? For
smacking him around? His father’s side of the family was large, and they were
tough, and if someone sent their brother to jail, well, let's just say that
they would be going on a little trip to the bottom of the ocean. No, there was
no way he could testify, let them do it themselves, he wouldn’t turn on his own
blood.
“I won’t do it” He finally said, looking up at Mr. Feldt,
“I won’t testify,” The man gave him a resigned look,
“If you testify, it will ensure that your father won’t see daylight for years,
if the jury see’s the victim, their often more willing to pass a harsher
sentence, it would be-”
“I. Won’t. Do. It.” Race said very slowly, staring straight ahead, Riley didn’t
get it, not only did this go against everything he believed in, it would end up
costing him his head if he did it. The taller of the pair sighed, and turned
the wheelchair around, heading back towards the room in silence.
 
===============================================================================
 
Luckily enough, Crutchy was fairly easy to get along with, he laughed easily,
he didn’t pry into things that weren’t his business, and he was a pretty cool
guy if a little annoying at times. They spent the day exchanging jokes, Crutchy
seemed to be able to tell that he was on edge, and was using stupid humor to
make him feel better. He replied with his own brand of sarcastic jokester.
“Where do animals go when their tails fall off?”
“I dunno, the vet?”
“The retail store” Race snorted and brought his hand up to his face, most of
these jokes were so stupid that they were actually kinda funny. He was about to
reply with a joke of his own when the door opened and two teenagers came in.
One was slightly taller, with brown curly hair and wide brown eyes. The other
had shaggy blond hair, with a brown eye patch over his left eye, and an
irritated expression on his face. David looked at Crutchy apprehensively before
glancing at the other bed and seeing Racetrack. Blink walked right up to him
and said,
“You little shit! You get yourself sent to the hospital and don’t even call?
What's wrong with you?!”
“I think that we’ve established that it’s a lot Blink, seeing as the idiot left
us to figure out whether or not he was dead. He's a real asshole.” David added,
then proceeded to pull up a chair, while Blink took a seat in the wheelchair by
his bed.
“Well, excuse me if I was too busy being hospitalized to think of your whiny
face,” Race mock glared at Blink before they both broke into wide grins.
“So what’d Mussolini blame you for this time? Or was he just in one of his
moods” Blink wrinkled his nose around the word. David and Blink knew full well
how his father treated him, and they had long been trying to get him to do
something about it, to get his father busted on a drug run or something, but he
had always adamantly refused, and then changed the subject, he hated talking
about it.
“Found that dirty mag you gave me last month” Race replied, keeping his tone
light.
“No shit? Where did you put it? He must have gone fucking insane!” Blink had a
slightly guilty expression on his face, it had been his magazine.
“You mean more than usual?” David chipped in.
“Yeah, never seen him so angry, good thing some people in the world aren’t as
shitty as my neighbors, some guy walking through the neighborhood called it in,
I’m going to a group home tomorrow” Blinks jaw dropped, and David’s eyes
widened a little bit.
“Wow, never expected that to happen,” Blink said, doing a wheely on the
wheelchair.
“Well, what did you think would happen, the state would let a 17-year-old go
skipping off into the sunset after years of abuse?” David interjected.
“I never really thought that far ahead,” Blink muttered, his cheeks reddening.
“Why am I not surprised?” Race stated dryly and snapped Blink’s eyepatch
against his head. Blink straightened the patch and huffed in annoyance. Race
glanced over
towards Crutchy, to find the boy observing the scene with an almost wistful
expression.
“Oh yeah, sorry, guys, this is Crutchy” He gestured towards the other bed
“And Crutchy, these are my friends Blink and David, I think you can figure out
who’s who.” He smirked at the end of the statement, and Crutchy nodded.
“Hiya guys,” Crutchy said with his usual smile, and David reached over to shake
his hand.
David and Blink took to Crutchy immediately - which was to be expected - and
needled Race for a bit longer about his lack of communication during such an
important time, before David finally decided to cut him some slack, and Blink
stopped glaring at him through his good eye.

After that it was back to usual business, with Race and Blink teasing each
other while David struck up a conversation with Crutchy. It was strange how
easy it was to fall back into the ease of his friendships after how fucked his
life had gotten over the last twenty four hours. He'd never admit it to them -
at least not willingly - but Blink and David were constants in his life, they
calmed him, and he honestly didn't know what he would've done if they hadn't
been here to distract him. He had a vague suspicion it would have involved him
beating his head against a wall.
The rest of the day went by fairly quickly. About a half hour after David and
Blink arrived, Race had been taken to get his leg brace replaced with a cast,
which would have to stay on for just a week, and he was given a set of crutches
to use until then. 
When he came back to the room, his leg encased in plaster, he told Crutchy he
might be stealing his nickname for the time being and the boy had seemed to
find that exceedingly funny, snort-laughing in a way that would look idiotic if
it wasn't so endearing. A few hours later, David and Blink had to go, visiting
hours were over, and it was back to just him and Crutchy.
Crutchy fell asleep quickly once they were alone, which was unsurprising. The
over the last couple hours he had gotten less and less responsive, not so much
suddenly dropping off to sleep as slowing sinking into unconsciousness.
Race laid on his back staring at the ceiling. In just a few short hours, he
would be going to a group home, he would be a foster kid, he would truly not
have a family. Or at least, not a family that gave a damn about him. He had
never felt much love towards the family he had, but they had been there, he had
been a part of something. And so what if being a part of something had involved
getting beat up and doing drug runs with his dad occasionally, that was just
the cards he’d been served. He may not have loved his old man very much, but he
was who taught Racetrack to gamble, which horse to bet on at the sheepshead,
where he had spent most of his time growing up. Now that was gone. What was he
supposed to do now? Who was he supposed to be?
He rolled over and closed his eyes, deciding that he would leave that for the
morning. Come what may, he couldn't make himself ready for it by freaking out
in a hopsital bed.
Chapter End Notes
     Hi there! So I think the story's going okay so far, if a bit slow,
     but hang with me, I just gotta get everything set up before I can get
     into the main plot. I tried to not make Crutchy's accent too strong,
     because I know nowadays nobody talks like that anymore, but I needed
     someone to sound like they do in the movie, and I just couldn't
     imagine Crutchy with a different voice, It's such a part of his
     character. Anyway, comment please! Good day!
***** Home is Where the Heart is *****
Chapter Summary
     Saying goodbye to old homes and moving into new ones.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
The next morning went by weird. Time seemed to rush, and then slow down to the
point where things seemed to all but stop moving. At least thats how it was for
Race. After what felt like hours and minutes at the same time, he was being
helped to a car that would take him by his old house - how weird it was to
refer to it thusly - to retrieve clothes and school supplies and such, before
heading off to the group home where he would be temporarily living. He was told
that he would be retrieved in a week to return to the hospital to have his cast
removed and to check up on his wonderful little assortment of injuries. He
nodded and smiled at the doctor before hauling himself into the front seat of
the car and drumming his fingers on the hand rest, before Riley got his ass
into the car and they set off.
As they walked through the shitty house in a shitty neighborhood, Racetrack was
hit by an odd sense of nostalgia. This was where he had lived for all his life,
where his mother had lived, where he had hung out with David and Blink after
school when he was little, where he had become who he was. And now what was it
going to be to him? Just a memory? His old home? It was so weird to him, and it
didn’t feel quite real yet. He hobbled his way through the house on his
crutches while Riley strode behind him carrying a duffel bag for his clothes
and assorted other shit. When he got to his room, it looked no different than
it had three days ago, or a week ago, or a year ago, or so on. Bed stuffed into
the corner, a small table beside it. A bookshelf cluttered with years of life,
A dresser with the bottom left hand drawer handle broken off. The floor almost
unseen under clothes papers. The walls covered with posters and mindless
doodles.
It was all the same. Every last bit of it. But at the same time, everything was
different. This was no longer his room, where he would sleep and sketch and
listen to music. This was no longer his own little safe haven from life. He
stared around for a minute, before making his way to the dresser, leaning his
crutches against it, and mechanically opening drawers and removing clothing. He
took the majority of it, leaving a few too small T-shirts, a pair of jeans that
he should have thrown away years ago, and 5 socks with holes in the toes.
He picked up his backpack from the floor and filled it with binders, folders
and any pencils he could manage to scrounge up, then looked around the room
again. He grabbed a set of headphones from the bedside counter, and his iPod
from the drawer, his sketchbook and some random knick knacks that he didn’t
even actually use that much. He picked up the picture on top of his dresser,
his favorite picture of his mother, and put it into the bag, then put on his
backpack, gestured at Riley to get the duffel bag, grabbed his crutches, and
headed out of the room, down the hallway, and straight out of the house,
getting into the car, and not looking back
 
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The group home looked like a rather short apartment building from the outside
and was set up on the inside like dorms you might find in a boarding school.
When you walked in, there was a common area, with three worn couches spread
about, two of which were in front of a relatively large television, while the
third sat in front of a beat up smaller one. There were bored games spread
about on the carpeted floor, and two tables, one of which held a few teenaged
boys were playing what appeared to be rummy.
There was an open door that lead to what looked like a dining room - two long
tables with chairs around them were all Race could see in the room - on the
righthand wall, and another closed door a bit farther down on the same wall.
There was one door on the lefthand side of the room, and one on the wall across
from the entrance, both looked like they were able to be locked. Riley led him
over toward the door on the left side of the room, and knocked on it.
A grumbling voice sounded from the inside of the room, and a minute later the
door was unlocked and opened by a man who looked about 5’10” tall, with hair
that was mostly grey, but with bits of dark brown thrown in. He looked to be at
least in his 70’s, but might be even older.
“Are you the new boy?” His slight difficulty understanding Crutchy was nothing
compared to how this man sounded, and he had to think hard to understand what
the man had said, it sounded more muffled then accented. Luckily, his social
worker seemed to have understood just fine.
“Yeah Mr. Kloppman, This is Antonio Higgins” Riley nodded at the old man, who’s
name was apparently Kloppman, and put his hand on the space between Race’s
shoulders.
“Oh, well, come on in, come on in.” This time he listened with more
concentration as the man spoke, and followed him into the room. It seemed to be
made up like a small apartment. There was a tiny kitchen off to the side, a
couch and a couple soft chairs in the middle of the room, facing the oldest
version of a television Race had ever seen. Kloppman walked over to another
room, opened the door, and gestured them inside. It was a small room, with a
desk in the middle, Kloppman sat behind it and waved his hand at the three
wooden chairs on the other side as if telling them to sit down. They sat, Race
leaning his crutches on the third chair, and then Kloppman looked up at them.
“So you’re Mr. Higgins are you?” Race nodded a yes, and Kloppman got out a
piece of paper.
“You’re gonna be in room 2c, I’ll get another boy to show ya where that is
later. This is an all boy’s group home for teens. We eat breakfast from 6:30 to
8:00 and you’se will be expected to get up by then. Curfew is at 8:00, and
you’se gotta be in your room at 10:00. Lights out is at 11. After that I lock
you’se all in the dorm part of the home for the night. There are bathrooms on
every floor, and that’s the only reason you’re allowed to leave your room past
10:00. Mr. Wiesel makes lunch at noon, but most of da boys make themselves food
anyway. Dinner is at 6:30, and everyone is expected to be there unless the told
me in advanced they would be somewhere else. Besides that, you just gotta sign
out and sign in when you come and go. Did I cover everything?” Kloppman looked
over at Riley, who nodded for a second then added,
“You can bring friends, but they can’t go to the rooms without Mr. Kloppman’s
permission, they gotta stay in the commons.” Kloppman nodded, and looked over
at Race.
“You got dat?” Race, who had just been trying to figure out what words were
coming out of Kloppman’s mouth, stared for a second before responding.
“Yeah... Yeah I think so.” He would have to figure out the rest of it later.
“Good, here’s your room key, I’ll have Jack show you up, you wait here.” He
shuffled out of the room, leaving Riley and Race sitting in the chairs
silently, Race holding a
keyring with three distinctly different keys on it.
“If you have any problems or anything... Here’s my card.” Race looked over at
Riley, and took the card that he was handing him.
“I’m pretty sure I’ll be okay. But thanks, I guess.” He shoved the card into
the back pocket of his jeans, fairly sure already he wouldn’t use it, and
waited for this ‘Jack’ to arrive.
Kloppman walked back into the room about 5 minutes later with a tall boy, who
Race assumed to be Jack. He had shaggy brown hair that he had pushed back off
his forehead, brown eyes, and a smile on his face. He had on worn jeans and a
baggy long sleeved shirt with a button up collar, and a bandana around his
neck. The sleeves were pushed up past his elbows, and he stood with his hands
in his pockets. He spotted Race and held out his hand.
“Jack Kelly, I’m supposed to show you around.” He greeted. Race shook his hand
and responded.
“Tony Higgins, good to meetcha” He stood up and grabbed his crutches.
“I’ll go get your stuff and bring it up to your room in a little bit Antonio, I
got to talk to Kloppman about some stuff first okay.” Riley told him, and then
smiled at Jack, who led Race out of the mini apartment.

When they entered the living room area, which Race assumed would be the
commons, Race found himself being stared at by the boys who had been sitting at
the tables playing cards when he had walked in.
“Who’s the new guy Cowboy” one of the boys said. Race looked over at them. The
boy who had spoken was tall and skinny, with blond hair parted in the middle
and falling on either side of his glasses. The boy next to him was slightly
shorter, but not by much, and had hair that seemed like he must constantly run
his hands through it, He had brown hair and brown eyes, and was twirling a
pencil in his hand absentmindedly. The third and final boy who was currently
downstairs had moderately dark skin, brown puppy dog eyes, shortish curly brown
hair, and was about the same hight as the second boy.
“His name’s Tony” Jack’s comment snapped him out of his own staring, and he
raised his right hand slightly while still balancing on his crutches.
“Hi” he attempted a smile, but suspected that it came out more as a grimace.
The boys all waved a little too.
“I’m Mathew,” the mocha skinned boy said, then gestured to the boy next to him,
“This is John, and that’s... Well..... God, Dutch, I don’t even know your real
name!” The blond boy smiled at 'Mathew'.
“And if I have my way, you never will. I’m Dutchy, and nobody calls either of
them Mathew or John. This little jerk’s name is Mush, and the one that looks
like he’s about to jump out of his skin is Skittery. As you can see he was
aptly named by yours truly.” This was true, as John/Skittery had started biting
his nails, but stopped when Dutchy spoke, then whacked the taller boy upside
the head. Dutchy glared and whacked him back
“Okay, lets get on with your tour before they kill each other.” Jack said, then
walked around Skittery and Dutchy and Skittery pounced on the blond and toppled
him over. Race hobbled his way around them and followed Jack into the other
room while Mush held his head in his hand and sighed.
The first room he was shown was in fact the dining room, which was connected to
the kitchen, which led back out into the commons, where Dutchy and Skittery
were still fighting while Mush tried to pull them apart, after that Jack led
him over to the door on the back wall. He stopped for a second and pulled out
his keyring, and put the black ring into the door handle and unlocked it.
“Black keys for the dorm room, Silver’s for the home itself, and the white one
is for your room.” He said as he opened the door. They walked into a hallway
with doors on the wall they were facing, labeled 1a, 1b, 1c and so on. The
ceiling was lower in this area than in the rest of the home. Jack walked over
to the one door that had no label on it, opened it, and found that it led to a
staircase. They went up, and came out into another hallway almost exactly the
same as the one below it. The only difference being that the doors were labeled
with a 2 instead of a 1. They walked over to the door that read 2c.
“Well this is your room, and where I leave you, bathrooms are at the end of the
hallway on the ground floor, If you need anything, I’ll be down in the
commons.” Jack said, before ruffling Race’s hair, an action that made his
glare, and heading back downstairs. He took his keys out of his pocket, and
found the white one, which was labeled with his room number, and put it into
the door handle, turned it, and opened the door.
The room was small, with two desks against the far wall, the two sides of the
room were virtually identical in design, each with a twin sized bed closer to
the door, and an armoire between the bed and the farther wall. The big
difference between the sides of the room was that the left side had posters on
the wall, clothes on the floor, and the desk was covered in papers. There was
also a boy sitting on the bed. His eyes were closed, his back leaned against
the wall, and he had headphones in his ears. He was skinny, and not
particularly tall, but taller than Racetrack. He had slightly feminine
features, with high cheekbones and nice lips. His hair was blond and pushed
back, kinda like how Jack’s had been, but it was slightly shorter. Racetrack
cleared his throat as he walked into the room, and the boy opened his eyes,
which were a startlingly blue color. He observed Racetrack for a second, taking
him in, before saying with the same amound of tact as a pissed off hedgehog,
“Who the fuck are you?”
Chapter End Notes
     WE FINALLY MET SPOT (Kinda)
     Also, sorry this chapter took me so long to write, I ended up making
     a whole plan for the next 5 chapters, and I kept on deleting what I
     had already written an rewriting it. Anyway, sorry that this one
     kinda sucks, I promise it will get better, and we'll get some Sprace
     soon! (You guys help me decide, do you want some sexy times sooner or
     later?) Anyway, thank you muchly for reading, and I promise I'll
     write more soon!
***** Does Anyone Have A Normal Name? *****
Chapter Summary
     Conversation with Spot, poker, and discovering that literally
     everyone in this story has a nickname.
“Who the fuck are you?”
Race stared for what felt like a full 10 seconds before the boy raised his
eyebrows and he replied.
“I’d have it a guess at your new roommate, I’m Tony. And who the fuck are you?”
He smirked a little at the irritated look on the taller boy’s face, and stepped
forward proudly, before noticing that it was difficult to appear impressive
while you’re on crutches and that the boy’s expression had changed to slight
bemusement.
“My names Sean. Now fuck off.” And Sean put his headphones back in, and leaned
back against the wall. Race opened his mouth as if to say something, but Sean
raised an eyebrow and he closed it again, confused out of his mind, and feeling
like a dumb-ass. He made his way over to the bed that he supposed would be his,
and sat down on it. It wasn’t very comfortable, but no worse than his old bed,
and it squeaked as he sat. He tapped his good foot against the ground
uncomfortably, the silence seeming to stretch around the room and smother him.
He glanced back up at Sean to see him openly staring at him, and unreadable
expression on his face.
“Take a picture, it’ll last longer.” he said, cocking his head to the side
slightly.
“You’re a little guy, aren’t you?” Sean stated, looking at him like he could
see right through him, the smirk playing on his lips. “What are you, five feet
tall? Five foot one?”
“I’m five three, and you can fuck off yourself, you’re not that tall either.”
“Taller than you, shorty.” The skinny boy was openly smiling now, as if he
found Race’s lack of hight to be hilarious, Racetrack glared and opened his
mouth to respond, when he heard a knock on the door. He grabbed his crutches
and started towards the door.
“Wow, those really aren’t helping your height problem,” Spot commented as he
grabbed the door handle. It was Riley, who was holding his duffle bag and had
his backpack on. The older man walked into the room and put both bags onto the
bed. He clasped his hands together then looked over at Racetrack.
“Okay, that should be everything you need, but if there’s something you forgot
or something, then just call me okay?”
“Yeah, I got it.” 
“I’ll be back to pick you up in a week.”

“Okay” Race nodded at Riley, who stood there for a second, then held out his
hand awkwardly. Race took pity on him and shook his hand, then watched with a
slight smile as Riley walked out the door. The guy had warmed to him a little
bit. The smiled wained when he remembered that Sean was still in the room. He
was still watching him like a hawk, which was getting a little unnerving.
“Seriously, what is up with the staring thing?”
“I’m a people watcher.” Sean shrugged
“It’s creepy.”
“Do I look like I care?”
“You look like a woman.” Race noted. It wasn’t really true, Sean had feminine
features, but they suited him, and didn’t make him actually look like he was a
girl. To be honest, it was actually kinda hot, but Race shook that thought
away, this guy had way to many assholish qualities to be someone he could ever
be attracted to.
“Yeah? Well you look like a 12-year-old.” Sean snapped, apparently taking
offense to his previous comment. Race bristled, he hated people who thought
that his hight and young features were a fun thing to comment on.
“I’m 17 dickweed, and you don’t look much older.”
“At least I look like I’ve hit puberty.” Race gaped, this guy would just not
let up, but it was kinda fun to have someone to talk to so he could make sure
that his sarcasm wasn’t getting rusty.
“You are such an ass.”
“I know, It's great” That goddamn smile played on Sean’s lips again, Race
wasn’t sure if he should laugh or punch the dude, as it would be a pain in the
ass to hobble over to where Sean was sitting, he decided on the former option.
Sean laughed a little, a real laugh, it was a pleasant sound, one that made
Race want to say something funny so he could hear it again, but he needed to
get all his shit in place by the end of the day, and he knew that if he didn’t
do it now he would never get it done, so he sighed and turned to his bag,
before emptying it onto the bed, opening up the armoire and getting to work.
 
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45 minutes later, he found himself laying on his bed, bored out of his mind.
Sean appeared to have fallen asleep, or at least was good at faking it, and
Race felt like he was about to jump out of his skin. He was one of those people
who always had to be doing something with his hands. Normally that was holding
a hand of cards or a lit cigar, but he had a feeling that this place wouldn’t
approve cigar smoking, and he didn't have his cards with him. He swung his keys
in circles with his finger, then decided that he might as well see if anyone
around here was worth talking too. He stood up and glanced at Sean, who still
appeared to be sleeping, then exited the room and attempted to get down the
stairs on crutches.
As it turns out, going down stairs on crutches is a lot harder than going up,
and requires more balance and skill than a clumsy Italian with two left feet
had, and he nearly fell face first more than five times while going down. When
he got to the bottom he smiled triumphantly and went into the commons.
He had figured that there might be a few guys hanging around in the room, but
he had not expected what he saw. About fifteen teenage guys were in the room,
most of them huddled around the table, while 5 of them were sitting. He
recognized two of the sitting boys as Jack, and Dutchy while Mush and Skittery
stood behind them. The other sitting boys included a Hispanic fellow with messy
brown curls, a very young looking black boy, and a white boy with curly brown
hair and glasses. Everyone was talking at the same time, and nobody had noticed
him come in. He moved towards the table and ended up standing between Mush and
a tall kid, and watched as Jack dealt the cards. He glanced over his shoulder
and saw Race, then grinned.
“I see ya survived Spot, we’re playing poker, you ever played?” Race smirked,
asking if he had ever played poker was like asking genius if he knew what the
pythagorean theory was.

“Once or twice.” He responded, slightly louder than he would normally have
spoken due to the din of the place. Jack nodded, then pushed back his chair,
stood up and raised his voice.
“Hey fellas listen up!” he said with authority, then, when it had gotten
slightly quieter,
“This here's Tony, he just got here today, and he’s rooming with Spot, so I
figure he’s got enough on his plate already, go easy on him okay.” Jack smiled
as he spoke, and a few of the boys laughed, but Race wasn’t sure if he was
kidding or not, and was momentarily confused by Jack calling Sean 'Spot,' but
shook it off. Jack turned to address him “Anyway, seeing as you’re the new guy,
do you wanna play, promise we’ll go easy on ya. It’s five card draw.”
“Sure, what's the ante?” Race asked, thinking of what Blink would do if he
could hear what Jack had just said.
“A dime” Jack responded, and pulled up another chair directly beside him.
“That all?” Race asked, and fished a dime out of his pocket, and threw it in
the pot before taking out some more change and putting it on the table.
“Hey, I’m poor enough as is, can’t go betting all my money away” Jack replied,
and started to deal Race in.
“So you loose a lot, huh?” Race smirked, and Dutchy, who had apparently been
listening in laughed.
“Yeah, he sucks.”
“I do not!” Jack glared at Dutchy indignantly and picked up his cards, then
glanced at Race and said “Oh, yeah, you don’t know people yet.” He glanced back
down at his cards and made a strange expression, then added distractedly to the
other boys at the table.“Introduce yourselves” The teens glanced around at each
other, then the black boy shrugged and said,
The teens glanced around at each other, then the black boy shrugged and said,
“I’m Boots, don’t ask why, long story.”
Dutchy smirked, then wiggled his eyebrows and stage whispered to Race “He’s got
a strange fetish” Boots looked offended
Boots looked offended “Okay, that’s just plain untrue Dutch, and a truly
disturbing look into your mind. In fact, I don't know if we can be friends
anymore. Go away.”
“It’s totally true” The brown haired boy with glasses stated offhandedly, then
added. “Oh yeah, I’m Specs, and if you can’t figure that one out I fear for
humanity.” and
touched his glasses.
“And that’s Itey, no idea why we call him that, don’t even think its a word.”
Dutchy mused.
“Well Iteya is a town in Ethiopia.” ‘Itey’ commented.
“Why do you even know that?!?” Dutchy questioned, eyebrows raised.
“I read it somewhere.” Itey shrugged
“Itey, my friend, you need to get out more.” Dutchy stated.
“And do what exactly?”
“I dunno, things that people do!”
“What do people do Dutchy?” Boots asked
“People stuff,” Dutchy responded definitively, nodding at his own answer.
“What kind of people st-”
“Okay, lets start playing before we make Dutch question the meaning of life and
start writing shitty poetry again.” Jack interrupted, there was a short
silence, then he continued, “Nobody want’s Dutchy to start reading his poetry
to us again right?” he questioned.
It was generally agreed that Dutchy’s poetry reading had been about the worst
thing in the history of the universe, Dutchy glared at everyone for a minute,
and the round began.
Race easily slid into the game that he had been playing for most of his life,
and looked down at his cards. he had a pretty good hand, nothing great, two
jacks, two eights, and a king. He looked up at the other players, he didn’t
know their betting patterns yet, so it was best for him to read their physical
tells. Itey had moved his hands closer to himself, and was tapping his right
index finger on the table. The tapping could mean he was either excited or
nervous, but he had moved back towards himself, which would suggest a weak
hand. Never the less, he called. Dutchy was sitting back, but didn’t look
uninterested, which could go either way. He raised the bet a nickel. Specs was
smiling easily, but also was messing around with his cards, which contradicted
himself, he called. Boots cracked his knuckles and raised another nickel, but
bit his lip slightly at the same time, which looked like it would be a nervous
tic. Race called, and threw a dime into the pot. Jack sighed and folded. Itey
stared at the pot, then back at his cards, and called. Dutchy raised yet again,
throwing a nickel into the pot. Boots folded, and Specs called and pulled at
his ear. Race called, ending the betting.
Race discarded his eights and his king, hoping for the best, and watched as
Itey discarded 2 cards while Dutchy only did 1. Specs took a minute, carefully
considering his options, before getting rid of 3 cards. Jack dealt them
replacements, and the round began again. As it turned out, It was worth
discarding his second pair, as he picked up another jack and two twos. A full
house. Itey called, seeming more comfortable with his new hand. Dutchy raised
again, which led race to suspect that he had a pretty damn good hand. Specs
folded unhappily, and Race raised, putting a dime in the growing pot. Itey
stared at his cards, glanced at Dutchy then Race, and called, adding his money
to the pot. They showed their cards. As it turned out, Dutchy had bluffed quite
well, he only had a three of a kind, while Itey had a flush, which wasn’t half
bad. All the same, Race’s full house beat them, and he took the pot with a
smirk.
As the game progressed, Race did pretty well. Jack truly did suck, with obvious
tells and really terrible bluffing. Dutchy was pretty good, and he won quite a
few rounds. Itey was okay, if a little nervous, and he won once or twice. Boots
was about as good as Itey, and Specs was good, but overly cautious. But in the
end, Race ended up on top.
 
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“Once or twice my ass!” Jack said to Race an hour and most of his betting money
later.
“Must be beginners luck.” Race shrugged innocently.
“I like him, he kept Dutchy from getting all my money,” Itey commented
“You still lost all your money in the end.” Dutchy pointed out.
“Not all of it.”
“Okay then, most of your money.” Itey wrinkled up his nose and glared as Dutchy
pocketed the change in front of him on the table.
“I feel your pain” Jack patted Itey’s shoulder
“How did you even manage to loose that much Jack? We’re playing with spare
change!” Specs laughed as Jack whacked him upside the head.
“It takes skill if you ask me.” Boots nodded, and Jack whacked him to.
“Why do I even play with you guys?” He questioned.
“No clue Jacky, you suck,” Dutchy said, and Jack pouted.
“What is it, national make fun of Jack day?”
“You do it to yourself.” Mush, who was one of the few people who was still
standing around the table, said. He then looked at Race and commented, “Well,
if you’re gonna hang out with us, you got to have a stupid nickname too.” The
boys nodded, looking at him.
“Well you look Italian, so we’d call you Itey, but this Mexican fucker already
got that,” Dutchy said, and ruffled Itey’s hair.
“He could be Poker face?” Specs questioned.
“No, no, no, Specs that's actually horrible.” Jack shook his head, then looked
at Race curiously. Race, not wanting to risk a terrible nickname, commented on
it.
“Well, my friends call me Racetrack.”
“Why, do you have a thing for Nascar?” Itey asked, interested.
“Nah, I spend half my life at the Sheepshead, betting on horses and playing
cards.” He smirked as he said the last bit, and Jack raised his eyebrows.
“So not beginners luck then, Racetrack”
“Nope, years of practice, you really do suck Jack.” Dutchy laughed.
“Yep, he fits right in, teasing Jackass and everything, I like him.” He then
stood up and held out his arm, then mimed knighting him. “Henceforth you shall
be known as Racetrack.” Race laughed at the pure idiocy and internally glowed
at the concept of having friends like these guys.
They slipped back into easy banter as the afternoon progressed into early
evening. Race nodded at Sean as he came downstairs about a half an hour later
and pulled up a chair beside Dutchy. As the sun got a little lower in the sky,
Race headed outside for a smoke. He leaned against the wall, leaning his
crutches against the wall, and lighting a cigarette. He preferred a good cigar,
but had left his last one back at the house, and he was pretty sure that Riley
wouldn’t drive him back just to get a cigar. He took a long drag, and exhaled
through his nose, closing his eyes and leaning back, letting a soft breeze blow
on his face, and just listening to the sound of the city. He stood there for a
while, finished his cigarette and reached for another when he heard a shout.
“Hey! Hey Tony, you little asswipe!” He looked over at the sound of his name,
and took in the large man walking towards him. It was his father’s older
brother, Race’s uncle, Giordano.
***** Uncle Gio Takes a Hit to The Dick With A Pimp Cane *****
Chapter Summary
     We meet some more of Race's family, which appears to be of the
     dysfunctional sort. Spot gets some use out of his pimp cane, Jack
     gets tackled, and there's just a shit ton of pizza.
Chapter Notes
     Hi there, I just wanted to say thanks to everyone that has kept on
     reading up to here! You get to learn about some of the guys'
     childhoods in this chapter.
See the end of the chapter for more notes
"Hey! Hey Tony, you little asswipe!" Race looked over at the sound of his name,
and took in the large man walking towards him. It was his father's older
brother, Race's uncle Giordano.
Race's eyes widened in surprise as his uncle Gio progressed towards him. It had
only been two days sense his father had been sent to jail. He had figured that
his uncles might come after him, but he had thought it would have been at least
a little bit later on. His leg was still in a cast, he couldn't walk properly -
let alone fight. Never the less, he grabbed one of his crutches from where they
were leaning on the wall, and held tightly, so he could bang it over Gio's head
if need be, but leaned on it, to make it seem like he was only using it for
support.
"I heard about what happened with Gennero you piece of shit, calling the cops
on your own father like a little pussy!" Race stared, Gio obviously hadn't
spoken to his father yet, and he must have only heard from word of mouth, which
Race figured was okay, because at least he didn't know Race was gay. Then
again, it also seemed like Race had turned his father in himself, which wasn't
even kind of what happened.
"What the fuck are you talking about Gio, I didn't do anything! The fucker did
it to himsel-" Gio smacked him over his head.
"You ungrateful, useless idiot, don't you ever speak ill of your father. You
think that you can play the little victim just because he slapped you around a
little? Huh?"
"He broke my fucking leg! How in the fuck is that 'slapping me around a
little?' And if you would let me finish a freaking sentence, you would know
that I wasn't the one that called the fucking cops." Gio opened his mouth
again, but Race kept on talking, "Some yuppie walking through the neighborhood
did it, my dear poppy was shouting just a little too loud as he beat the living
shit outta me." Giordano glared, moving closer to Race so that he was towering
over him, but Race didn't break eye contact, even as his neck strained against
this new angle.
"You lying piece of crap" Gio started in a low, dangerous voice. "Even if that
is true, the dickhead probably only heard because you were screaming like the
bitch that you are. You were always a tiny little know it all brat, thinking
you were better than everyone, speaking down to us when you barely came up to
our knees, you deserved a good beating, to knock some sense into your thick
head. You are nothing-" Gio shoved him against the wall, and Race tightened his
hand on the crutch, "-but an insolent waste of space, Gennero should have
thrown you out on the street the minute that that whore you called a mother
finally bit the dust." Race was all but seeing red, nobody got to speak about
his mother that way.
"Don't you dare talk about my mother. She wasn't a fucking whore, she was loyal
to my shithead father until the day she died, and she was twice the person you
will ever be." He spat at his uncle, who looked livid.
"SHE WAS A FUCKING COCKSU-" Suddenly everything seemed to happen at once. Gio
had shoved Race against the wall, Race had gotten ready to swing with his
crutch, but before he got the chance, Gio was shoved off of him, as Race's eyes
tried to process what was happening, the boy - was that Sean? - took a cane of
sorts, and nailed Gio between the legs. Gio's roar of anger turned into a
surprisingly high-pitched scream of pain as he toppled backwards, hands rushing
between his legs. Race stared at Sean, who was standing in front of Gio,
panting slightly and holding what appeared to be a pimp cane.
"If you think beating up a kid on crutches makes you tough, then you're a
dumbass, It just means your too scared to take on someone who might beat you,
now fuck off, douchebag," Sean stated to Gio, then turned to face Racetrack.
"You okay?"
"Is that a fucking pimp cane?"
"Yeah, you're okay."
"What is this, 1902?"
"Let's go inside."
"No, seriously, is that a pimp cane?"
"Yeah yeah, come on Tony." And Sean grabbed his other crutch, handed it to him,
and started inside, leaving Race with no choice but to follow.
"Why do you have a pimp cane?"
"God, are you ever going to shut up about it, and I dunno, say thanks?"
"For what?"
"For helping you." They stopped walking, and Race sat down by the table.
"I was handling it."
"Oh, so making the big scary guy angry is handling it now? Wow, everything I
know is a lie!"
"I would have been fine on my own, I'm not a fucking damsel in distress." Race
crossed his arms, looking remarkably like a pouting child. Sean sighed,
"Just say thanks, Tony." Race glared up for a second, then looked down and
said,
"Thanks..." in a resigned tone, after a moment of silence he added,
"So you have a pimp cane?"
"Oh my fucking god. Yes, yes it was a fucking pimp cane, and I'm not gonna try
to explain why I have it, so get the fuck over it." Race smiled then looked up
and around the room.
"Where IS everyone?"
"Dinner's about to start, that's why I went out to getcha, we gotta be in there
in like two minutes." he pointed towards the dining room.
"Great! I'm starving." Race hopped down off his chair, grabbed his crutches and
headed towards the food.
The dining room had two long tables, each holding about 15 or so boys. Race
ended up sitting between Sean and Jack, who greeted him happily with a slap on
the back, and he quickly joined into the conversation, which was about whether
or not a giant spider could take over the world. He had met most of these guys
a little bit earlier, but couldn't keep half their names straight to save his
life, so he stuck with the little group he had played poker with earlier, who
seemed to be friendly with Sean, so he fit in pretty well. About five minutes
after he sat down, Mr. Kloppman walked in and took attendance, then called a
few boys over to serve the food for the day.
Jack informed him that Mr. Wiesel was the actual cook, but he hated the kids
and his food was terrible, so they didn't trust him with their dinner, and
would normally offer to make it themselves. A few in their number could make
some pretty good meals, but more often than not, they would order pizza or
Chinese and just eat on the state's dime. Sure enough, a few minutes later the
boys walked back in, one of them holding six pizzas, another holding a large
bowl of chicken wings, and the last two with a two liter in each hand. Race
smiled as the food was placed on the tables, and a second later the boys were
digging in. They ate and talked until their stomachs were full and the
conversation was all but dead.
"So, Spotty, how's having a roommate again? Gonna try to scare the living shit
outta Racetrack here to get him to move like the last guy?" Sean smiled and
shrugged his shoulders.
"Depends on whether or not he pisses me off, the last one was a pantywaste,
Tony isn't so bad so far."
"He's Racetrack now, we bonded over Jack sucking at poker. He's pretty damn
good." Dutchy told Sean with a grin.
"Oh really?" Sean looked over at Race, "I might have to play you, ya know, show
you who's boss." The blonde boy grinned at him.
"Nah, Sean, I think I'd kick your skinny ass halfway to Harlem." Sean's smile
grew wider.
"We'll see." He wiggled his eyebrows suggestively and Race let out a little
laugh before addressing the rest of the group.
"So why does everyone have a nickname?" They looked at each other, as if
questioning it themselves, before Mush answered.
"I dunno really, It just kinda happened. Jack has this thing about Santa Fe,
and he wore a stupid cowboy hat for a month straight when he got here-"
"I love that hat!"
"I know you do hon, and I'm Mush because they think I'm a 'Mushy Romantic',"
"You so are."
"Shut up Dutch. Dutchy just won't tell us his real name, so that one's easy, no
idea why Itey is Itey. And Spot here-"
"You tell him I rip your nuts off and make you eat spaghetti and mystery meat
meatballs." Sean (Spot?) interrupted, and stared right at Much who blanched a
little.
"You wouldn't..."
"Do you really wanna take that chance?" Mush stared at him as if trying to
figure out whether or not Spot was being serious, before Jack interrupted.

"I knew him when he was little, and-"
"Jack Kelly I swear to god-"
"I was six and he was five, and he used to follow-"
"I will stab you in the face-"
"me around like a puppy, so I-"
"repeatedly."
"gave him a puppy's name." As Jack finished his comment, Spot got up out of his
chair and tackled Jack onto the ground, Jack laughed as they wrestled, and Spot
glared at him. Race was cracking up with the rest of the table.
"Oh my god, that's adorable, is that true?" Spot looked up at him momentarily,
and Jack took the chance to get the upper hand.
"I was five, and I didn't fucking follow him." The blond said as he struggled
to regain his position.
"He so did, though, he was a cute little kid." Jack managed to get out between
laughs.
"Gahhhhhhhh" Spot made a strange sound as he managed to get Jack down on his
stomach, and sat on him.
"Some day, Jacky-boy, I will murder you in your sleep." Jack smiled and rolled
spot off of him before standing up.
"Whatever you say Spotty." And then he ran out of the room before Spot could
tackle him again, leaving Race and the others in fits of laughter while Spot
fumed off to the side.
Later that night, when they were required to be in their rooms, Spot and Race
were lying in their respective beds, when Spot posed a question that Race had
known was coming since the taller boy had gone to get him for dinner.
"So who was that guy?" Race sighed and hoped that Spot wouldn't be like most
people when they learned about his family dynamic. He hated the pity.
"My uncle" Spot nodded, he had seen the slight family resemblance.
"What was he so pissed about"
"He thought I turned my dad in, got him arrested." Spot stayed silent for a
minute or so before asking.
"Did you?" Race sat up and looked at Spot.
"No. No I fucking didn't." Spot looked slightly surprised at his reaction.
"I was just wondering."
"I'm no goddamn rat."
"Okay, I got it." And they sunk into silence before Spot broke it again. "What
did he do?"
Race looked over at him. "Huh?"
"To end up in jail. Your dad, what did he do."
"Well he did a lot of things, but he didn't get caught on any of the important
stuff. If he could have just kept his anger in check he'd never have been
caught." Spot sat up and leaned against the wall.
"But what did he get caught for?" Race internally glared at Spot, he had
thought that he had managed to evade the question nicely.
"Smacking me around." He eventually replied, and was shocked at Spot's
reaction. It wasn't pity, or horror, or resignation like most people. He just
nodded and stared at Race the same way he had when they had first met, which
Race realized with surprise had only been that morning.
"I thought so"
"You did, did ya?"
"Yeah, you reminded me of me." And it was silent again, Race staring at Spot,
who stared right back, he slowly leaned back against the wall, foregoing his
defensive position.
"You know how to take care of yourself, and you don't like it when others try
to help you, you hate it when people pity you, so you show them that you don't
need to be pitied. Yeah, I get all of that." Race nodded back at him, some sort
of bond forming between them. They shared a mindset fostered from abusive
childhoods, they could kinda get each other.
"Most of us here are like that, nobody's had a very good time of it. Mush's mom
left him at a firehouse when he was 5, never came back, Dutchy won't tell us
what happened to his parents, but we know it was bad and he blames himself, and
Skittery has a reason for being so on edge all the time. We all have our pasts,
Tony." Unlike this morning, the silence didn't seem to strangle him, it was
comfortable, it said things that they couldn't say with words.
"Is your dad in jail too then?" Race asked, curiosity bubbling inside of him.
"Nah, he split when I was little. My mom's in a nuthouse, though. She used to
go on benders, leave me alone for weeks when I was in elementary school, then
she would come home and act like nothing had happened, she'd bring presents and
food and shit, and then all the next day she would attack me with a steak knife
over her dinner being too cold. Fucking crazy, think they said she was severely
bi-polar or something, that she could get better, but I just think she's fucked
in the head." He said the last part bitterly, and Race nodded, if someone told
him that his dad was crazy, he'd believe them, but if they said that he could
get better, he'd laugh in their face. Some things just can't be fixed.
Race glanced at Spot "Can I be a member of the shitty parents club now? It's
actually been my lifelong ambition."
He could have sworn he caught Spot with a genuine smile on his face. "Tony,
your life goals are fucking depressing."
Chapter End Notes
     A/N: Okay, I know that I've used like five chapters for the first two
     days, but so much was happening, so I hope that you can forgive me.
     Anyway, I promise that it will be faster paced after this, and there
     may even be some Blush coming up. So stay tuned (That is totally the
     wrong Idiom...) and COMMMEENNNTTT (please?)
***** Homos Rule the World (Secretly) *****
Chapter Summary
     Well summaries aren't my thing, so I'm just gonna use a few choice
     words. Rubber chicken, Nerf battles, leg braces, Blush, and SMUT.
Race lay back on his bed, throwing a tennis ball up in the air and catching it,
whilst silently dreading the unfortunate fact that school was going to start in
a mere two weeks. Spot was sitting at his desk, with a book open and a pen in
his hand. A second later, the book was being thrown across the room, landing in
a corner by the armoire, and the pen was being slammed onto the desk. Race
glanced up at his roommate.
"They kill off your favorite character or something?" Race asked.
"Nah, it's not a novel, I gotta read and annotate some shitty book called "How
To Read Literature Like A Professor," and it's just crap. It's all about
symbolism and that shit, completely pointless." Race furrowed his brow for a
second,
"Wait, you go to Evanston Township right?"
"Yeah"
"I don't gotta annotate anything, just read a book, and I can just read the
Wikipedia page for the plot or something, you sure you're doing the right
work?" Race asked, frowning slightly and sitting up.
"I'm in one of the AP classes, we get more stuff." Race looked at him strangely
for a second.
"You're in AP English?"
"Yeah, English is easy, all we do is write papers, you just gotta know how to
bullshit some symbolism."
"Maybe easy for you, some of us can't pull papers out of our asses." Race
huffed and laid back, then added. "I don't have to annotate a shitty book." And
then he rolled over when Spot threw a pen at his head, he grabbed the pen, and
threw it back. "At least it's our last year, no more stupid ass public
education after I get my diploma, just work, and you actually get paid for
that." Spot looked over at him and shook his head.
"Maybe it's your last year, but I still got one left after this one."
"Your a junior?"
"Yep."
"I thought you said you were seventeen." Race tilted his head to the side a
little.
"I am seventeen."
"So what, your smart enough for AP classes, but you failed a year of school or
something."
"Nah, just turned seventeen like three weeks ago, and I didn't start preschool
till I was six instead of five, my mom was on oxy and she forgot how old I was
or some shit."
"So I'm like three months older than you then." Race commented.

"And yet you still manage to look about thirteen years younger, I applaud you."
Spot smirked and mock clapped.
"Hey, I do not look four, I'm at least eight, and I can pull off fourteen
sometimes. Plus I only have one year of high school left, so I'd watch what I
said if I were you, respecting your elders and all that crap." Race smiled in
victory before Spot threw a pen at his head again, and he reached for the
tennis ball he had been messing with earlier, throwing it in Spot's direction,
before Spot threw the first thing he could get his hands on back at Race, and
they quickly dissolved into throwing random shit at each other, some of which
Race was surprised to find was even in the room. He was reaching for a pair of
old socks at the foot of his bed when Spot nailed him in the face with a rubber
chicken, and he (and the chicken) squaked in disapproval, causing Spot to fall
off his bed, laughing like a lunatic.
Race watched him, a warmth in his chest. Maybe he could fall for someone like
Spot after all. 
 
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When Race came down the stairs on his crutches for lunch, he saw Dutchy and
Skittery crouched behind the couch where Mush and Itey sat innocently watching
a rerun of Law and Order SVU. Fearing the worst, as two days ago he had come
downstairs only to walk into an all out nerf gun battle, and had been used as a
shield in the crossfire, he carefully hobbled into the kitchen, trying to not
be noticed.
As he put together his salami sandwich on wonder-bread, he heard some war cry
like shouts, and then an angry yell from the other room. When he walked back
over to the commons, holding his sandwich in his mouth, he found Dutchy and
Skittery pelting an unhappy looking Itey with spit balls, while an angry Mush
calmly walked over to the corner of the room, grabbed a nerf gun that Race
hadn't noticed before, and proceeded to shoot both Skittery and Dutchy in the
head with darts, while shouting something along the lines of, "REVENGE,
BITCHES!"
It was a surprising show of violence from someone who was usually so calm, but
nobody seemed to find it unusal, so Race figured that Mush must have a darker
side to him. He sat down at one of the tables and started eating his sandwich,
as nerf darts and spit balls flew around him.
A second later, the door opened, revealing a quite sleepy Jack, who nodded at
Race, dodged a dart, and walked into the kitchen. When Jack returned, holding a
sandwich of his own, he sat next to Race and took a large bite, slowly chewing,
before getting hit in the head with a spit ball, and giving Dutchy the evil
eye. Jack wasn't exactly a scary guy, but something told Race that he didn't
like being messed with when he was tired, and Dutchy seemed to get that as
well, as he cringed back slightly and put his hands up in the air.
"I hate mornings," Jack said around a yawn, taking another bite out of his
sandwich.
"It's a half hour past noon." Race replied, and Jack checked the clock on the
wall.
"And so it is, well, I guess I hate afternoons too." Race nodded.
"You sound like my friend David, he's super punctual and stuff, but if you wake
him up before 11:00 on a weekend, he'll get his revenge in a creative and
disturbing way." He told Jack, before taking another bite out of his sandwich,
before glancing around the room and noticing that Mush had ran out of darts,
and was picking them up off the floor, Dutchy and Skittery had left the room,
probably to get food, and Itey was picking spit balls out of his hair. "That
was nowhere near as long as last time." He commented on the battle, and Jack
nodded.
"It varies by the day," He shrugged "So you got anything going on Tony?"
"I get this piece of shit off, Race gestured at his leg, which was still
encased in a bulky blue cast. "And I gotta go to work." He added dully, not
looking forward to his shitty job at Costco.
"Ouch, well make sure to tell Kloppman if you gotta stay out past dinner." Jack
picked up a dart that was under the table and handed it to Mush, who nodded his
thanks.
"Nah, I get off at 6 on Tuesdays, should be back on time." Race mentioned,
taking a final bite of his sandwich and leaning back in his chair, his eyes
wondering over to the TV, where the episode of SVU seemed to be winding down,
as a lady cop arrested a pedophile.
They sat there in a comfortably sleepy silence until the episode ended, and
Itey went to make lunch, then Race went outside for a smoke. He leaned his back
against the wall, feeling at peace. Even if everything in his life was falling
apart and he was sure his uncles weren't done with him and to top it all off he
had a broken leg, he was fairly content with his life right now. He didn't have
to worry about the little things that he might fuck up and set his father off,
it was summer, and he was gonna damn well enjoy what he got.
He finished his cigarette and was about to head back inside when he saw Riley's
car pull up, and he waved him down. As Race clambered into the car, Riley
wrinkled his nose a little.
"You know smoking will give you cancer."
"We all die someday." Race shrugged.
"Thats a... Disturbing viewpoint." Riley responded uneasily.
"It's also true."
"And on that note, let's go get that cast off, see if you can live a little
before you reach your inevitable doom." Riley smiled at Race, who's mouth
twitched a little. He was definitely warming up to the older man. As they drove
Riley tapped his thumbs on the steering wheel, keeping his hands at exactly 10
and 2, while Race stared off into space, wondering if Crutchy was still at the
hospital, and if he would get to see him.
As it turned out, getting a cast off didn't take to long at all, it had freaked
him out slightly when the man had come towards him with a small circular saw,
but he had calmed down when he was told that this strange saw somehow cut
through plaster and cast, but wouldn't even scratch him.
As the mystical device made it's way through the plaster prison that Race had
grown to hate over the last week, it tickled his leg slightly, and felt really
fucking weird, but not at all painful. When it was off, he looked at his leg
and frowned at it. In its small time stuck in a cast, it had become wrinkly,
and paler than the rest of him, in contrast to his olive skin tone. He shook it
slightly, and wiggled his toes, before scratching an itch that he had had for
the last three days. He was starting to stand up when Dr. Johnson turned around
and looked at him
"No no no no no!" He walked forward and pushed Race back into the chair, "No
normal walking yet, you have another three weeks with a brace before you come
back in and we see if your okay to walk." Race glared at the doctor, then the
leg brace in the man's hands, and then back at the doctor, who smiled
sympathetically, and gestured for Race to stick his leg out. Race did so, and
Dr. Johnson showed him how to take on and off the brace, and how walking would
be different, but that he wouldn't have to use the crutches unless he was in an
unusual amount of pain.
Race happily pushed the 'devil sticks' (as he had dubbed them) away from him
and stood up, he was a little bit off center with the brace, but he could walk
like a normal person again, and that was nice. He hadn't even gotten a chance
to ask if Crutchy had been there, much less seen the boy, and he lamented that
fact momentarily, before getting back into Riley's car, and telling the social
worker that he needed to go to work, instead of heading back to the group home.
 
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When he showed up at the shitty Costco where he worked, he was lucky that only
a couple of his coworkers asked him about his leg, and he brushed their
curiosity off smoothly, telling them that he had tripped down the stairs and
ended up cracking his leg on the bottom step, adding subtle details so they
wouldn't suspect his lie. The majority of his other injuries had faded to
something that could be believably obtained from a bad fall, and Race was
already known to be rather clumsy, so it wasn't much of a stretch. An
embarrassing cover story, but better than the whole world knowing that Race's
dad got his kicks knocking him around.
He got to work, working a check out lane for a couple hours, then bagging
groceries for another two, and when he only had an hour left, he took a short
smoke break and called David from the work phone to ask him to give Race a ride
back to the group home. When his shift ended, and he took off the stupid smock
that they made him wear and went around back to wait, he was unsurprised that
when David pulled up, Blink was sitting shotgun. He got into the car, nodded at
David, and turned to the blond boy.
"Heya Blinkie, whatcha doin here?" He feared that he already knew the answer,
as Blink smiled a little too wide for his liking.
"Thought that we might stop by the group home with ya, meet all your new
friends." Blink replied happily, ignoring Race's disgruntled look. He was sure
that his friends would get along fine with the other boys, but he didn't really
want to share Blink and David, It had just been the three of them for so long.
Sure, David and the school newspaper staff, and Blink had ... well, Blink
pretty much just had them, but that had always been separate, they had never
all befriended the same people, because to be honest, they didn't really like
other people. But nevertheless, David drove them to the group home, following
Race's instructions on how to get there, and when they arrived, they all piled
out, and Race led them in the door.
The commons were surprisingly empty for this time of night, since dinner was in
another 15 minutes or so, and the boys normally came down and hung out before
hand. Instead of the usual crowd, there were only a few boys, Mush, Jack, and
Dutchy sat on the bigger of the two couches in front of the TV, and Spot and
Itey sat on the other, all watching a drama on the TV, as he glanced at the
screen, he saw a young redheaded girl scream and beat a drunk man over the head
with what looked like a pillowcase full of butter while her family watched. He
considered just sitting down and watching, interested in the show, but then
remembered his friends behind him and took a step forward. Spot looked up
first, nodding at Race and then tilting his head in confusion at the other two
boys.
"You taking in strays, Higgins? This place is already overflowing with teenage
guys, we don't need anymore." At Spot's words, the other's looked up and took
in Blink and David, who were standing awkwardly off to the side.
"Nope, not strays, they actually have homes. And families. Who love them. Which
is fucking rude. But besides the point, this is Blink, and that's David, they
wanted to check out this hellhole." Jack's eyes flashed in recognition from the
name he had heard earlier in the day, and he addressed David.
"You're the one that hates mornings and has creative revenge tactics. I like
that. I can respect that." He stated, smiling at the curly haired Jewish
fellow. David smiled a little and looked at Race.
"Have you been talking about us, Tony?" He asked lightly.
"He won't shut up. Ever. I'm seriously considering smothering him with a
pillow." Spot commented, and Blink smiled, easing into the situation.
"Yeah, he does have this annoying tendency to just keep on talking, but
eventually you learn to ignore him. Pretend he's white noise" Race glared at
Blink, who flicked his head.
"Great, so I'm not the only one who noticed that!" Mush exclaimed, and the rest
of the boys all nodded their heads in confirmation.
"Wow. I hate you all." Race said irritatedly. Like you're one to talk Blink,
won't shut up about the fucking Yankees, I swear I wanna take that signed
baseball of yours and set it on fire sometimes." Blink stared at him, aghast,
while Mush replied to Race's comment, sounding just as flabbergasted.
"You would burn a baseball that was signed by the Yankees? Are you fucking
insane" His voice rose a little at the end of his sentence, and Blink smiled at
the comment, then looked over at Mush, and his jaw dropped. Anything that he
had planned on saying seemed to be lost, and he just stared at the mocha
skinned boy like he had found a new god. Spot seemed to notice this change in
demeanor, and raised his eyebrow, before glancing over at Racetrack, who
refused to meet his gaze, not wanting to answer any of Spots questions.
"So where is everyone, anyway?" Race questioned.
"Skittery got one of those kiddie NASCAR tracks, and they're having a racing
tournament." Itey, who had acknowledged Blink and David's presence before going
back to the TV show, replied.
"Hey Racetrack wanna place some bets on that?" Blink joked, clearly still not
thinking straight, as that was one of the worst jokes Race had ever heard from
him. And he had heard some pretty damn bad ones. He stared at Blink,
unimpressed.
"You can do better than that Blinkie, I know you can." And the boy had blushed,
really blushed, then glanced over at Mush, who was smiling warmly back at him.
As the night progressed, David, Jack, Spot, and Race ended up having a
conversation as Blink and Mush talked off to the side. Well, Mush did most of
the talking, Blink mostly said a few short comments and stuttered out some
replies, but Mush seemed okay with that. They didn't end up having dinner
(Which was buckets of fried chicken from KFC) until 7:00, instead of the usual
6:30, as the boys upstairs had talked Kloppman into racing with them. Blink and
David ate with the boys, and didn't end up leaving until 10:00, when Kloppman
herded the boys upstairs for the night.
 
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As Race changed for bed, he could feel Spots gaze on him, which was slightly
disconcerting, but he was used to it by now. Spot was a people watcher, and
while in their bedroom, Race was the only 'people' to watch, so he got stared
at a lot. He changed into a pair of boxers with little superhero's on them, and
a baggy T-shirt with moth holes, and took off his leg brace, leaving it at the
foot of his bed. He then sat on top of his mattress, before looking over at
Spot, who was still openly watching him, but with a different expression than
normal.
"So your friend, the one with the eyepatch, is a fairy then." He stated, his
face hard to read.
"And what if he is?" Race asked defensively. Wondering where this was going.
"He was acting like a queer fucking woman," Spot responded. "It was physically
painful for me to watch, what with all the flaming going on." Race narrowed his
eyes, he couldn't tell if Spot didn't like the fact that Blink was gay, or that
he was open about it, but either way, nobody got to tease Blink except him and
David.
"Stop being a fucking bigot, he's not a flamer, he just likes dick." He stood
up, making himself seem bigger than he truly was. "And if that's a problem, you
might want to find yourself a new roommate, cuz I'm as gay as they come." He
said smoothly, surprising himself. He had never actually told anybody but David
and Blink about his sexuality, and the last person to find out had put him in
the hospital, he could feel his hands shaking slightly, and he clenched them
into fists. Spot stood up and took a few steps forward, so that he was looming
over Racetrack, looked down at him, then said.
"Well, I guess the world is just full of fags then." And then suddenly Spot was
kissing him, and Race didn't know what to do with himself for a second, but
fuck if Spot wasn't a good kisser, so he responded. He grabbed the back of
Spot's neck and pulled him closer, opening his mouth a little, and suddenly
Spot's tongue was fighting with his for dominance, and he could taste Spot, and
he tasted like cigarettes and cinnamon, two flavors that went strangely well
together, and Spot's hands were pulling him closer and Race was walking
backwards and falling onto his bed, with Spot on top if him, grinding his hips
down into Race's. At that moment, Race decided to throw his trepidations out
the window, he could figure out why this was happening later, but for now, he
just wanted Spot to keep his hands on him, because his skin burned pleasantly
under the taller boys touch.
Their tongues continued to fight for the upper hand as they both moaned
quietly, and Race rolled them over, so that he was on top of Spot, kissing him
deeply and trailing his finger's under the taller boy's shirt, while Spot
worked Race's own tee up, they broke apart for a moment so that Race could tare
off his shirt, and Spot took his chance to roll them back over, pulling off his
Green Day tee before pushing Race down and sucking at Race's pulse point,
biting slightly. His heart was beating out of his chest, and Spot must be able
to feel it, or hear it, or something, because Spot was smirking at him like he
knew all the worlds secrets, then he started to lick down Race's chest, to his
stomach, as Race arched under his touch.
Spot grabbed at Race's boxers, and glanced in Race's direction for
confirmation, Race nodded and lifted his hips, allowing the offending clothing
to be pulled off his thighs, freeing his throbbing erection. And then suddenly
Spot's head moved down a little farther, and holy fucking shit that boy could
do things with his mouth. He sucked at the tip before going down a little
farther, bobbing his head, and squeezing his hands around the base, where his
mouth couldn't reach yet, and then, before Race could prepare himself, he was
deep-throating Race's cock like a pro, humming slightly, and Race bit his lip
to keep himself from moaning too loudly, while thrusting up a little into
Spot's mouth.
Spot pulled off for a second, smirked at Race, his blue eyes dark with lust,
before kissing the tip and slowly licking up the thick member like he couldn't
get enough of it, and Race was swearing as loud as he would dare, before Spot
went back to sucking and he was too far gone to talk. He made a few noises that
he would have been ashamed of if he hadn't been so damn turned on, and moved
his hands into Spot's hair as he approached his orgasm, moaning quietly, and
then Race was coming, and Spot sucked him through it, swallowing everything,
before pulling up, his face slightly flushed, and moving back up towards
Racetrack.
Spot kissed him, and Race could taste himself on Spot's tongue, but found that
he didn't mind the taste as long as it was accompanied by Spot's own signature
flavor. Race felt Spot's cock against his leg, and he reached towards it,
pulling down Spot's boxers and pulled at his cock. Spot let out a half moan,
allowing Race to flip him onto his back as he jacked him off. Race spat onto
his other hand a couple times, slicked up the younger boy's dick, before moving
his hand up and down, faster then before, watching the young man in front of
him lean his head back and arch off the bed, letting out these little whimpers
that he knew Spot would never make if he could help himself.
Spot looked down at Racetrack, straight into his eyes, and then he was coming
like Race had earlier, making a mess off the sheets and letting out a low
groan. Race laid himself down beside Spot, who sat up and wiped his cum up with
his own boxers, then threw them across the room, a mess for another time,
before rolling over and kissing the side of Race's head, then laying down on
his stomach, with his face pointed towards Race, and his right arm splayed over
his chest.
Race scooted towards Spot, snaking his arm under the skinny boy, and staring at
his clear blue eyes. He leaned forward and kissed Spot softly, not knowing
exactly what he was doing or why he was doing it, but not caring in the
slightest. He laid on his back, pulled Spot closer to him, so that the blond's
head was on his chest. He closed his eyes, smiling as he felt Spot's arms move
around his waist, and slowly fell into a dreamless sleep.
***** Gender Based Rooming Fails It's Purpose *****
Chapter Summary
     Spots a cute little bugger, Blink sucks at keeping secrets, and Mush
     may or may not be a secret psychopath. Enough said.
Antonio Higgins was in no way a virgin. He had had plenty of short
relationships over his years, nothing really all that meaningful, it was hard
to find someone who would be open about how they felt about you when you lived
in a ghetto ass neighborhood, but they would still have sex with you, or maybe
just want make out a little, and he had had one or two relationships with
people who he had actually liked. But Spot was different. So when they had
started fooling around, he hadn't been sure what to expect.
They were roommates, so it couldn't very well be a one time thing, seeing as
they would see each other every day, especially with how fucking good
everything had felt. But the morning after it had all started, Spot had gotten
up before him, had already started working on his annotations. Nothing had
changed really, they would banter like before, and they would hang out with the
other guys, but occasionally, Spot would be on him like lightning. They hadn't
actually gone all the way yet, it was mostly handjobs and the occasional sixty-
niner, Spot always kissing him like his life depended on it. It never lasted as
long as Race wished that it did, but cut them some slack, they were teenagers,
and they fucked like it.
But they never talked about it.
And Race was pretty sure he was going insane.
 
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It was a normal day, school sucked, and his pre-calc teacher decided that it
would be a great idea to assign them approximately a shit ton of homework, so
when he got back to the dorms, he grabbed a bag of chips he had been hoarding
under his bed, and proceeded to stare at the ceiling and try to think of
anything he had to do that didn't involve calculus.
After about 10 minutes of consideration, he found that he had absolutely
nothing else that needed to get done, and started having a staring contest with
his backpack instead, which was laying on the floor beside his bed. He sighed,
and was about to grab it, when the door opened, and an annoyed looking Spot
walked in. The skinny boy threw his own backpack into the corner of the room,
and gave Race a long look, before walking straight up to him and climbing on
top of him.
He didn't kiss Race though, he didn't do anything but straddle the shorter boy
and lean down on his elbows so that he was nose to nose with him. And then Spot
moved his head down just the slightest bit, so that his lips just barely
brushed Race's. This was why Race hadn't yet demanded to know exactly what the
fuck was going on between them. Because when Spot's lips touched his, it was
like fire had run through his spine, straight from his head to his toes, and
his mind had seemed to go to mush. He was terrified that if he asked Spot what
this meant, if he asked Spot if he could feel it too, then it would stop, and
Spot wouldn't ever make him feel the lightning again.
But Spot still hadn't done anything else, he was still just staring down at
Race with an expression that made him want to look away. Yet he didn't, he
stared back, and then he pulled Spot downward, moving his own head up, and
kissed the boy who made him feel like a crazy son of a bitch.
Once again, it was different. Spot kissed him back, kissed him in a way that
was distinctly Spot, but it was lazier then usual, slower, less teeth and
dominance and more lips and tongue. It felt like the type of kiss someone gave
their boyfriend on a lazy afternoon. Not like the type of kiss you give to a
fuck buddy who means nothing to you.
Yep. Spot was going to drive him crazy.
When they pulled apart, Spot still didn't try for anything more, and just
rolled over and laid himself next to Racetrack, pulling him closer and tracing
patterns onto his arm. He didn't say anything, just stared at him with that
same look in his eye from earlier, and the little Italian couldn't fucking take
it anymore.
"What are we?" Spot looked taken aback, his nose scrunching up in a way that
Race would have called cute if he had wanted Spot to hit him.
"Whaddya mean?"
"What are we, are we fuck buddies or something? Or-"
"No" Spot cut him off.
"What?"
"We're not fuck buddies." Race looked at Spot, who's expression had changed
slightly, but was still unreadable. It really pissed Race off that he was so
good at reading people, their tells, their strange habits, yet somehow Spot
still remained a mystery wrapped in an enigma.
"Then what are we?"
"More" Spot glanced over at Race, and just for a second, his eyes betrayed him.
Spot was scared, he didn't want to specify what they were because he was as
scared as Race was. In the next moment, the unreadable expression was back, but
it was too late, Race now knew what that look meant, so he did the only thing
that made sense for him to do when Spot was scared, he rolled on his side and
put his hand on the side of Spot's face. The taller boy seemed to relax
slightly at the touch, but his pride was still keeping him from letting his
eyes show anything again.
"Are we boyfriends then?" Spot seemed to wince away from the word, Race was
discouraged for a second, and started to draw his hand back, but Spot grabbed
it.
"We're together." Spot compromised.
"So we ARE boyfriends." He smiled widely, sitting up.
"I hate that word." Spot glared and sat up too.
"Too fucking bad, you're my goddamn boyfriend." Race pounced onto the younger
boy, grabbing him around the waist and rolling him onto the floor.
"I fucking hate you." Spot, who had landed on his back and seemed rather
uncomfortable, responded.
"No, you really don't, because we're dating." Race leaned his face in closer to
Spot's, grinning like the cat that caught the canary.
"That one's even worse" Spot flipped them over, so that Race was sprawled under
him, and kissed him with everything he had.
 
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When Race arrived at school the next morning, pre-calculus homework only half
done and hair still wet from a shower, he had overslept and almost missed the
bus, he was tired as fuck. He leaned his head against his locker for a second
before opening it. His first period of the day was accel Italian, which was the
easiest thing in the world for him, his mother had spoken nothing but Italian
with him when he was young, so he spoke it pretty well, not as good as a native
from Italy, but he was fluent enough. So he slammed his locker shut and walked
to class. Upon entering the classroom he saw that they had nothing of
importance going on today, and he immediately sank into a half asleep stupor,
wishing that he had thought to grab a monster or some coffee before school,
barely even noticing it when his teacher assigned three pages out of their
workbook for homework.
He grabbed the aforementioned book and opened it to the assigned pages,
scribbling in the answers, which came easily to him, before dropping his head
onto the book, turning to face the clock, and checking the time. He still had
another 15 minutes left in the class, yet it felt like he had been there for an
eternity. He closed his eyes for what felt like a moment but must have been
longer, because when he opened them again his teacher was in front of him,
giving him a stern look.
"Tony, have you finished your work?" Race blinked and rubbed his eyes, looking
up towards Mrs. Silkaitis, his Italian teacher. She wasn't very tall, yet still
had an inch or two on Race, with curly blond hair and a kind face. She was a
good teacher, not a pushover, but not an asshole either, and she always knew
how to make Race feel just a little bit guilty. She was one of his favorite
teachers, and he had just been caught sleeping through her class. He felt like
such a shit, and she was still giving him a questioning look, so he answered
her previous question.
"Sì, io sono finito" He responded in Italian, knowing that it would help gain
her approval. She looked down at his workbook to check and see if he was in
fact done, nodding at the completed work.
"Okay, now you can read, do your homework from other classes, or study for the
test next week, but no sleeping. Capisce?" He looked up at her and nodded
unhappily.
"Capisco"
 
 
When the period finally ended after what felt like another hour, though it was
only about 10 minutes in reality, he started to sluggishly make his way toward
study hall, bumping into someone, and starting to apologize before he noticed
it was Blink, smiling hugely and holding out a cup, which was covered, but
smelled like a very coffee-like heaven. Race grabbed the drink and nodded his
thanks at Blink before taking a long sip. It was still warm, which was
surprising as it was almost second period.
"Did you skip first period again?" Race asked his friend, who grinned slightly
and shrugged.
"Slept in, woke up a half hour after school started, figured that nobody really
cares about economics anyway, so I got us some coffee instead and skipped the
rest of the period." Race smiled and gripped his drink with both hands,
relishing the warmth.
"Well, you're screwing yourself, but it gets me coffee, so go ahead and keep on
bringing me shit." As it so happened, Race and Blink had managed to have second
period together, which was study hall, and they had chosen seats at the very
back of the room. The study hall room about 3 times the size of a normal
classroom, so they were quite far from the 'teacher.'
The supervisor for study hall, Oscar Delancey, was an unpleasant man, he always
picked favorites, who were normally the preppy kids who played all the sports
and did well in school, and he hated Blink and Racetrack with a burning
passion. He and his brother, who was a security guard, had been trying to make
their lives a living hell since freshman year. Race thought it was quite an
accomplishment to be their most disliked students in a school with over 4,000
other moody teenagers to hate.
Nevertheless, he could never manage to keep them from talking during the
period, as everyone else was 'sneakily' communicating as well, which pissed off
the son of a bitch, and made Race laugh his ass off. As the bell rang, Race
took out his unfinished pre-calculus homework and stared at it for a minute or
so, trying to figure out one of the problems he had yet to finish, before
groaning and letting his head fall to the worksheet.
Blink looked over at him curiously, reading the papers that Race so desperately
wanted to rip to shreds.
"Having some trouble there Tony?" He questioned happily, leaning back in his
chair and putting his hands behind his head, looking like a cocky asshole. Race
flipped him off, sat up, and took a sip of his coffee, relishing in the
bitterness, a welcome wake up call.
"My class did that stuff last week, I'm pretty sure we learned it last year
man." Blink told Race, grabbing the shorter boys papers and writing in the
answers. Race smiled at his friend, who was actually good at math, and told
him.

"If you recall, I wasn't very good at math last year either."
"You weren't just 'not very good' Racetrack, you sucked. Truly sucked." Blink
teased, and Race reached over to whack him, before seeing Mr. Delancey walking
towards him and thinking better of it.
"What the fuck did we do wrong now?" He asked Blink, who shrugged and covered
Race's work with his own.
"Mr. Higgins, as you well know, it is against the rules to have drinks in
class." The older man said, gesturing towards the board on the wall, which
listed the do's and do not's of study hall.
"Ah, so it does, but Oscar, as you can see, it also says that sleeping isn't
allowed, and this coffee is the only thing keeping me awake, so I believe that
I chose the lesser of two evils." He replied with a totally fake innocent look
and a smile. Oscar glared, grabbed Race's coffee, and glanced at Blink, who was
trying not to laugh.
"Well, having this drink is still against the rules, so I think I'm going to
have to confiscate it." And he took a long swig of the coffee, wrinkling his
nose in a way that was much less cute than when Spot did it, and added.
"Really? Black coffee? Are you even actually a teenager? Put some sugar in at
least." He shook his head, a slight smile playing on his lips, and walked away.
"I paid for that." Blink muttered, glaring at the retreating figure.
"Fucking prick." Race nodded, "I wanted that fucking coffee."
Blink looked at him sympathetically, then went back to doing Race's homework,
and he smiled.
"You are the best friend in the whole fucking world Blinkie." He exclaimed,
before remembering a conversation he had had with Blink the day before.
"So how did your second date with a certain young orphan I know go?" He
questioned, trying not to laugh at the dreamy expression that came over Blink's
face when he mentioned Mush.
"Wonderful, we went to dinner then saw Guardians of the Galaxy." Race cocked
his head to the mention of the film.
"That movie with the talking raccoon? Not exactly romantic is it?" he
questioned.
"Mathew made it romantic, I don't even know how, I mean it's a space comedy,
not romantic at all, but the whole date was just fucking amazing." Race was
slightly afraid that Blink was going to manage to split his face in half, as
his smile had grown impossibly wider.
"So I guess Mush was aptly nicknamed, he is indeed, a totally Mushy romantic."
Race snorted, noting how perfect Blink and Mush would be together.
"Oh yeah, Tony, how's it going with the mystery guy?" Blink questioned,
remembering the small bits of information Race had been feeding him for the
past week about a guy who he had recently started pseudo-dating.
"Um, pretty well I guess, we finally talked and stuff." Blink looked up at him,
surprised.
"And?! What did he say? Does he like you? Are you guys in wuvvv? Are you gonna
get-"
"We're together." Race cut him off, knowing Blink could go on for hours once he
got started.
"Really? That's great, man, are you ever gonna tell me who it is? Because if
you don't I'm gonna list all my guesses, and If I guess wrong then you'll get
all pissy with me, and neither of us wants to go through that. So, it would be
easier for everyone involved if you just tell me who it is." Blink reasoned,
and Race looked at him for a second, before responding.
"I'm not sure if that made actual sense or not, but it somehow was also
surprisingly convincing."

"What can I say? I've got a talent." Blink shrugged, grinning widely. "So, who
is it." Race sighed, knowing that he would never be left alone if he didn't
tell Blink who it was, but also really not wanting to tell Blink, who he was
sure would try for double dates and all that coupley shit that he knew Spot
would never agree to.
"If I tell you, you have to promise to not tell anyone, not even David, okay?"
He asked, staring at Blink unblinkingly, looking for any hints that he might
not be telling the truth.
"Cross my heart and hope to die." Blink promised, and Race nodded at his
friend, before running his hand through his hair nervously, looking around,
leaning closer to Blink, and barely muttering above a whisper.
"It's Sean." Blink's eye bugged out for a second, and he gaped, before firing
off about 10 questions in quick succession

"Your roommate? That Sean? The grumpy guy? So, wait, how does that work? I mean
you live together, that's gotta be kinda weird. Does anybody else know? Wait,
do you really like him? I mean I get that he's kinda hot, in a pretty boy kinda
way. I didn't know he was your type. I thought that you liked men who looked
like men. Oh my god you guys could make a really cute couple, you both act like
grumpy old men. Do you think you guys could go out with me and Mush sometime?
Because that would be really co-"
"Oh my fucking god shut the fuck up before I beat myself to death." Race
managed to get out, and Blink put his hands up in mock surrender before
grinning evilly leaning in closer, and adding.
"So how big's his dick?" and Race sighed, mimed shooting himself in the head,
and put his face down on his desk, trying to block out the laughing coming from
his left.
 
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If Race had been tired before the day began, by the end of the school day he
was about ready to sleep while still standing up. He made his way towards his
bus, the same bus that the rest of the boys from the shelter took, and waited
for it to arrive. As he waited, Mush walked up to him and smiled at him in a
knowing way that made Race highly suspicious.
"So Spotty, eh?" Race internally growled, he was going to kill Blink, then
bring him back to life and torture him, before killing him again, stealing his
money, and buying himself a cookie.
"Ryan told you."
"Oh, don't blame him, I have great powers of deduction combined with my own
special ways of getting information out of people." Race looked at the boy, who
had a sweet smile on his face, and looked about as dangerous as a bunny,
wondering if Mush was secretly an adorable psychopath, before shaking off the
thought looking in the direction that the bus would be coming from.
"Anyway, I guess I should tell you that I don't care that your gay and all that
stuff, none of the guys will either, they all know about me, and none of them
could care less who I date, only guy who ever gave me a hard time got a talking
to from Jack, never messed with me again." Mush confided in him, making Race
wonder what strange new world he had come into, he had become accustomed to the
idea of staying in the closet his whole life when he was younger. He had heard
so many stories of people who were beaten just because someone suspected that
they might be gay, so the idea of people just not caring was completely foreign
to him. He had a strange feeling in his chest, one that he couldn't name, but
it was warm, and it kinda made him feel like he was floating. Giddy might fit
it, but it still wasn't quite on the money.
"Thanks." He muttered to Mush, who smiled at him kindly and put a hand on his
shoulder, squeezing it slightly, a gesture of friendship, before the bus
arrived to take them back to the group home.
 
 
When he entered his room, he found Spot already sitting at his desk, reading a
book and tapping a pencil on his thigh. He looked up and nodded in Race's
direction when he walked in, then went back to his book, while Race emptied the
contents of his backpack onto the floor next to his bed, and stared at it for a
second, before grabbing his global studies homework and sitting at his own
desk. He read through the questions and ran his hand through his hair.
It wasn't like he had a ton of difficulty with school, he was bad at math,
sure, numbers didn't make sense to him, but he got science just fine, and he
wasn't half bad in English, but he hated busywork with a passion. He had never
been the sort of kid who could just sit down and work at something, he was
always on his feet, always thinking a way around an obstacle. He was great with
hands on things, and he had been able to talk circles around his elders since
he was 7 years old, and he had started helping his dad with some minor cons.
His specialty, however, was reading people. Because he was small and looked
young, people had never seen him as an equal at the tracks, thinking he was
naive, so he used it to his advantage, tricking them into betting way more than
they would have if they had even considered that he might be actual
competition, reading their tells like it was a picture book.
As his mind wandered away from his homework, and to some of his more fond
memories of the track, which he hadn't gotten a chance to go back to after he
had ended up in foster care, he tapped his pencil against the table
absentmindedly, not even noticing that he was doing it until Spot grabbed the
pencil out of his hand, and said.
"If you keep on doing that, I'm going to stab you with my own damn pencil."
Race smiled cheekily, glad for the distraction from the work that he hadn't
actually intended to finish.
"Who pissed in your cheerios, grumpy?"
"Shaddup, you're no better in the mornings," Spot replied while rubbing his
eyes, clearly crashing from a long day.
"I was wondering how you can be so damn peppy when you wake up."
"I didn't think that your brain could process things before 10 am."
"It can't without coffee, didn't have time to grab one this morning."
"Your own damn fault."
"Actually, I think that you could be held liable for making me stay up late."
Race got out of his chair and sat on top of Spot's desk.
"Well, you weren't complaining then," Spot replied with a smirk.
"Who says I'm complaining now." Race grinned, kissing Spot briefly before
backing away, leaving the younger man with his mouth slightly open, staring at
Race, before reaching upward and grabbing the back of Race's neck, bringing him
in for a longer kiss, one that left them both breathless.
"Hey, just outta curiousity, you're not deep in the closet or anything, are
you?" Race asked quickly, before Spot could entirely collect his brains.
"Um, not really, I mean I don't broadcast it or anything..." Spot trailed off,
looking up at Race, then standing as something appeared to dawn on him. "What
did you do?"
"I might have maybe mentioned it to Blink, who then admitted it to Mush after
suspicious circumstances. So I think that Blink might have kinda just outed me,
not sure if I'm mad about it yet." Spot seemed to consider this, tilting his
head and wrinkling his nose in a way that was very Spot.
"Well, that was pretty quick, It's usually at least a week before my boyfriends
try to out me to all my friends." Race paled a little bit, hoping he hadn't
fucked everything up, before taking note of a certain word that Spot had never
used before.
"So I am your boyfriend." Spot nodded, then added.
"And they all already know I'm a fag." And Race let out a breath he hadn't
known he had been holding.
"And it's true that nobody cares, about the gay thing I mean?"
"Nah, they're cool, plus, they know not to mess with me."
"What, they afraid of your spindly little arms." Race stood and shoved Spot
playfully in the arm.
"I'm a lot stronger than I look, and you shouldn't be talking, short stuff."
Spot stood too, showing off the hight that he had on Race.
"I'm not that fucking short! And I'm probably still growing some anyway." He
crossed his arms indignantly.
"Sorry Tony, but I think all that coffee worked against you, you're seventeen,
you're not gonna grow anymore." The younger boy stated, fake apologies in his
voice.
"Well, you're not all that tall either." Race snarked.
"Yet still a good four or five inches taller than you."
"You're probably about five eight, not that tall for a guy"
"And you're barely five-three, stop trying to convince people you're taller."
Race threw his hands up in the air, letting out an irritated noise.
"AGHHHH" And he fell, face-down, onto his mattress, covering his ears with his
hands.
"Look! You even act like a child!" Spot commented as he sat next to him on the
bed.
"You're such a shit, you know that?" Race said into the blankets
"Hypocritical much?" Spot questioned
"I hate you." He mumbled
"No, you don't" Spot stated absentmindedly, not even considering the
possibility.
"I wish I did"
"No, you don't" And fuck if that wasn't true, because Race liked Spot far too
much to hate him, Spot, who pissed him off so often, was also one of his
favorite people in the whole world, and Race couldn't even imagine really truly
hating the guy. But he would never admit that to Spot himself, so instead he
just kissed him again, kissed him until his jaw hurt, and allowed Spot to pull
him closer, slinking an arm around Race's shoulder while the short boy's head
rested on his chest. They just lay there for a second, listening to each others
breathing, before Race broke the silence.
"I don't hate you." The blond boy let out a half laugh.
"I know." Spot was one of the only people who he seemed to never be able to
read, who could be flat out lying to him and he wouldn't be any wiser, he had
perfected his ability to lie to the point that he didn't appear to have any
tells at all. But there was something about him that made Race trust him
anyway. And he knew that that should terrify him, but it didn't, and that
scared him more
***** Of Trials and Tribulations *****
Chapter Summary
     Poppa Higgins' trial is coming up, and Race is once again faced with
     the prospect of testifying against his own father.
Chapter Notes
     Okay, I have no excuses. Well, actually, I have at least 5, but
     they’re no good. I’ve been a bad story momma, and no matter how much
     homework I had or how difficult AP classes can be, there is no excuse
     for bad mothering. On the upside, this chapter is my longest yet, it
     took me so long to write, and then I had to read it to myself to see
     if it sounded right. I should probably find a beta.... but I digress.
     Oh, also, just reread EYDW, and it is still amazing, that fic just
     makes me happy.
     Anywho, My rambling is just obnoxious at this point, so lets just get
     to the goddamn story already!
Saturday afternoons were Racetrack's favorite time of the week. It was that
little golden period where you've just gotten more sleep than you have had in
the past week, and you have the entirety of Sunday to do your homework, so you
can just curl up in a ball in the coziest clothes you can find and drink coffee
and read. Race wasn't exactly a bookie person, but he could appreciate a good
read every once in a while, and he liked the quiet of his room while everyone
else was downstairs, it was like his own little world. He grabbed his coffee
off the floor beside him, where he was sitting at the foot of his bed, and took
a long sip, glancing up as a phone began to ring.
He stared around the room for a second, wondering if they even actually had a
phone in here, before remembering the shitty thing on the wall next to his
desk. He had been fairly sure that the telephone didn't work, and had given up
at trying to call David after the 6 got stuck for the umpteenth time, making
him accidentally call a Mexican restaurant for the fifth time (that day). But
it was ringing now. He put his book down on the floor and stood up, shuffling
over to the archaic thing, and picking it up.
"Hello?"
"Ah, good, Tony, I wasn't sure if this was the right number or not, Kloppman
doesn't have the best handwriting." The voice on the other end was familiar,
with a memorable uncertain quality to it.
"Riley? I thought you said it would take a while to get placed somewhere." Race
questioned, worried that they were going to ship him off to some fucked up
family just when things were going so well here.
"No, I'm sorry, you're going to have to stay there for a while, but I thought I
would tell you that your father's trial is soon, it's this Friday." While he
was relieved that he could stay in the group home, which had recently started
to feel kinda like a real home, he was also irritated at the mention of his
father, who he had been doing his best to put in his past over the last few
weeks.
"What the fuck does that have to do with me anymore, you're the one that took
me away from him, it's none of my business what the fuck happens to him." He
was momentarily distracted by the door opening and Spot walking in, holding an
apple and a newspaper. The skinny boy gave him an odd look, obviously curious
about who he was on the phone with, but shrugged it off and went to his own
desk, taking out a pen and starting on the paper's crossword.
"It's your business, Antonio, because we need your help to get a good
conviction, if you testify then your father will definitely be staying in jail
for a long time." Race shook his head slightly, not pleased with this
conversation.
"And I told you before, you can get your conviction without me, you don't
testify on family, and that's that." Spot looked up at Race, eyebrows raised
slightly, but stayed silent.
"You just said that he was in your past, that he wasn't your business, does
that really make him family anymore?" Race ran his hand through his hair,
thinking about what the rest of the family would do to him if he testified, he
knew how his uncles minds worked, and his father had been the runt of the
litter, if he testified, he would be fucked, and not in a fun way. Along with
that it had always been stressed into him that family was the most important
thing, without it, you have nothing. His father was the only family he had
left.
"We've got the same blood, and that'll never change, I already told you, it's
not happening." Spot was still staring, giving him a strange look that made
Race wish that he wasn't in the room during this conversation.
"If you would just consider-" He gritted his teeth and glared at the wall as he
interrupted.
"I. Said. No." And he slammed the phone down angrily, getting yet another
raised eyebrow from Spot.
"I see you got the phone to work." Spot stated flatly
"Yeah."
"Social worker?" The taller boy questioned as he lounged back in his chair.
"Yeah."
"Still not testifying?" Spot stared at him with a strange expression.
"Nope." He popped the p in the word and stared right back.
"So your gonna let your pops get away with beating you? Just 'cuz he's blood?
That's the biggest load of crap I've ever heard." Race looked over at Spot,
glaring and clenching his fists.
"Fuck off, you don't know shit about my family."
"Relatives are just blood. Sure, you're technically related to the fucking
geniuses who forgot to use birth control before fucking each other's brains
out, but family is what you make it. I'm sure as hell not related to my mom."
"It's more than that for me, my mom always told me family is everything growing
up. And dad was real serious about loyalty. It's more than just relatives for
us, family is always there for you."
"Look how well that turned out, where's mommy dearest now? Did she ever do shit
about you getting hit? And what about daddy? I'm sure that he was always there,
looking over your shoulder, prepared to teach you a lesson by beating you to a
pulp" Race looked up at the mention of his mother.
"Fuck you! You wanna know where my mom is? Try six feet under, you fucking
douchebag, don't you dare say shit about her." He took a step towards Spot as
he raised his voice, ready to punch Spot if he said anything else similar to
his last comment, but Spot's eyes widened slightly, and he stared at Race for a
second before replying.
"Shit, sorry, it's just you don't really mention her, so I figured she split
like my dad. Fuck, I didn't know, shit." Race, who was losing steam fast,
unclenched his fists, staring at the floor for a second, realizing who he was
talking to, and what had been said.
"Fuck, you had no way of knowing, that's on me, I shouldn't have freaked out,
but I just... I can't testify, okay? It just goes against everything I've ever
known, even if they're really not my family anymore." Spot nodded, stood up,
and simply pulled Race into a hug, with Spot's right hand on the back of the
shorter boy's head, and left on the small of his back. Race tentatively reached
his own hands up and put them around his boyfriend's skinny waist, relaxing
into the hug, and feeling himself calm down, glad that the conversation was
over, and that Spot knew not to push him anymore, or at least for the moment.
And that moment was perfection.
 
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Later that afternoon, Race found himself sprawled across the smaller of the two
couches, with Mush on the other one, watching a Queer as Folk rerun. He wasn't
exactly sure how this had happened, as he had come downstairs with every
intention of actually doing something with his life, but he had been distracted
by an episode of Law and Order, and had sat down, only to have Mush change the
channel after the episode ended, and he had just been too cozy to consider
getting up again at that point. One rather unnerving fact about the situation
was that he was getting way too interested in the episode.
"So Brian kicked out Justin because he knew Brian had cancer?" He asked Mush,
who smirked at the comment, clearly feeling successful in pulling Race into the
show.
"Yeah, guy's got some serious issues, but he's hot, so he gets away with it."
Race, smiled, and looked around as the door opened, revealing Blink and David
standing in the doorway.
"Ryan! I didn't know you were coming by today!" Mush exclaimed, and got up off
the couch to go greet Blink enthusiastically.
"Hey Dave" Race nodded at David, who had walked past Blink and Mush and
proceeded to move Race's feet so that he could sit down. "Whatcha doin here?"
"Blink called me, we were both bored, and we figured there's always someone
around here," David replied, leaning back on the couch.
"Yeah, it's a full house, but I've been watching Queer as Folk for the last
twenty minutes or so, so I need you to amuse me right now, because I might be
gay, but this-" He gestured at the television "is not happening." David smiled
at him and stood up, walked over to the TV, and finagled with the controls
until he had switched the input from the cable box to the beat up Nintendo Wii,
which somehow still worked, despite missing part of the white outer covering.
Blink and Mush, who had finished their hello's and were standing behind the
couch, made their way over to the larger of the two couches, and Blink put an
arm around Mush, and held a hand out to catch the remote as David threw one at
him. David simply handed remotes to Mush and Race, before going back to the
couch, and setting up to play Brawl.
"Hey Dave, have I ever told you that you're one of my favorite people in the
whole wide world?" Blink looked over at David as he chose his character for the
game - Samus was his favorite, that chick is badass. David glanced over at
Blink with a bored expression.
"What do you want?" Blink put on an obviously fake look of offense.
"What makes you think that I want anything? Can't I just compliment one of my
best friends on his attributes as a human being?" David raised an eyebrow,
glanced at the screen and selected Kirby as his character, then glanced back at
Blink, who's facade crumbled. "Could I copy your answers from that economics
packet we got the other day? I swear we didn't actually learn half the shit on
it."
"No, we learned it, you're just always 'sick' first period, I swear to god if I
have to explain the entire unit to you for every test like I had to last year I
am going to get angry." David shook his head as he spoke, pinching the bridge
of his nose.
"Will I not like you when your angry, Bruce Banner?" Blink replied with a
smirk.
"You are so infuriating," David stated, looking thoroughly through the
different possible arenas. He was so intent on his search for the perfect
stadium that he hadn't noticed when the door had opened and Jack had walked
into the room.
"Who's infuriating?" He questioned, and David's head whipped around so fast
that Race was surprised that he didn't get whiplash.
"Blink."
"Ah, well, I don't know him too good yet, but-"
"Well," David interrupted, "You don't know him too well."
"Yeah yeah, whatever. So I don't know him too well yet, but he seems like a
kinda annoying guy so far." Jack smiled cockily as he finished his sentence,
and Mush threw a pillow at his face.
"He's perfect." The chocolate-skinned boy stated, then stuck his tongue out at
Jack, who threw the pillow back and clambered up to sit on the back of the
couch, behind David. Blink, who had only been minorly annoyed by Jack's
comment, looked over at David.
"But I can copy your packet right?" David rolled his eyes.
"Yeah, sure, where would you be without me?" He questioned with a grin.
"Blink would probably still be in the 5th grade." Race stated, grinning like a
Cheshire cat at his friend, who flipped him off.
"I would at least be a 7th grader, gimmie some credit Racetrack, and David
would you pick a goddamn arena already, I wanna kick some ass." Blink grabbed
at the Wii-mote in David's hands, trying to choose a course quickly.
"I want to figure out which one it is that I play better on," David argued,
yanking the controller back and staring at the screen.
"Does it really fucking matter, you always come in last anyway." Race
commented, "You gotta face it, Dave, you suck ass at video games."
"Hey, be nice to Davey, he's still innocent," Jack interjected, holding his
hands over David's ears while the Jewish boy whacked at his arms.
"Innocent my ass, the guy's some sort of conniving genius." Blink disagreed
giving David a suspicious look, "I'm pretty sure he's always the mastermind
behind all of our escapades, and yet only Race and I ever get in trouble." Jack
looked down at David, who was laughing quietly.
"Hey! That's true! Have you been setting us up?" Race questioned, just
realizing himself that he had never remembered David getting busted and ending
up in detention with him and Blink.
"Well, you could see it as me setting you up, or just face the reality that you
guys aren't as good as me at talking yourself outta situations," David replied,
finally choosing an arena of his liking.
"So you're some kinda walking mouth." A familiar voice said from the doorway.
Spot was leaning against the doorframe, smirk firmly in place as he looked at
David curiously.
"Spotty! I didn't notice you come down." Jack smiled at Spot, who nodded at
Jack in recognition.
"That's 'cuz you guys were talking loud enough for half the city to hear. Oh,
and in case you haven't noticed, the round already started Mouth, Samus just
pushed you off a cliff." David looked over at the TV to find that he had indeed
been murdered, and immediately hit Samus with Kirby's hammer, sending him
flying out of the arena as well.
"Woah, got some repressed anger over there buddy?" Race joked, and David glared
at Race, then went after the Italian boy's character, Pikachu, with his hammer.
 
Fifteen minutes and two rounds later, Race handed his controller to Jack, who
had been whining about not being able to play, and headed over to the kitchen
to get some snacks. He found some microwave popcorn and a two liter of off
brand lemon-lime soda, then tried to grab a family-size bag of Doritos, only to
find that he couldn't quite reach them. He glared at the bag, and jumped a
little, making a snatch at it, only to find that it was out of his reach by
barely an inch. He groaned internally, cursing his short stature, and made
another leap for it, missing again. He heard a chuckle from the other side of
the room, and he froze. He knew that chuckle. He also very much wished that he
hadn't heard that chuckle, but as he turned to face the entrance to the room,
he found an amused looking Spot staring at him and leaning against the
doorframe.
"Having some trouble there Tony?" The taller boy asked innocently.
"Fuck off." Race glared, then glanced at the Doritos, then back at Spot.
"You know, you could try jumping again, that might work, third times a charm
right?" Spot started towards him, doing nothing to hide the laughter in his
voice, and Race wasn't sure if he wanted to punch him or kiss him.
"Why don't you grab 'em then, you ass." He snapped, but Spot just smiled and
replied smoothly.
"Why should I?" Race glared, then grabbed the younger boy by his shirt,
dragging his head downward so that their lips met. Spot responded immediately
as Race slid his arms around the taller boy's neck. Their mouths moved together
in sync, a battle for dominance that neither had any intention on losing.
Spot's hands moved into Race's hair, pulling him impossibly closer before
removing his mouth from the dark haired boy's lips and kissing along his
jawline. He ran his tongue along Race's earlobe before moving down towards his
clavicle, sucking - biting - on the smooth expanse of skin where the shorter
boy's neck met his torso.
Race's eyes were closed, and he was holding onto Spot like his life depended on
it, letting out the occasional half moan, but trying to stay quiet because of
the people in the next room. Wait, people who he went to grab snacks for.
Snacks. Right, they were in the kitchen, and no matter how much they both
wanted to, he couldn't do this with Spot in the middle of a kitchen they shared
with a couple dozen other boys. He pulled back slightly, but still not letting
go of Spot, and whispered in the blond's ear.
"Now go grab me those chips." Before walking over to microwave the popcorn,
leaving Spot with a half bemused half disappointed expression. He heard the
rustle of the chip bag and smiled as thin arms wound their way around his waist
loosely from behind. Maybe his height wasn't such a misfortune after all.
 
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A knock on the door interrupted them from their fourth game of go fish, and
Race was more than happy for an excuse to abandon a game he had branded 'The
Biggest Waste For A Deck Of Cards In The History Of The Universe.' Well, he was
happy for the interruption until he opened the door. Riley was standing at the
threshold, and Race spotted his car parked on the curb. He looked straight into
the social worker's eyes and stated flatly.
"No." Then moved to close the door, only to have the older man stick out his
foot to keep him from doing so.
"I'm not gonna ask you that again, okay? I just want you to talk to someone."
Race looked at him suspiciously, then glanced back over his shoulder towards
the boys, who were all staring back with confused expressions. Spot nodded
slightly, and Race sighed.
"Who?" Riley smiled, taking that as a sign that he was at least considering it.
"Bryan Denton, he's the man who called the police the night we removed you from
your father's home." Race thought that was a rather delicate way of saying 'the
night your dad tried to murder you with his fists'
"Why do you want me to talk to him?" Race questioned, running a hand through
his hair distractedly.
"Uh, to collaborate your stories." The man didn't sound all to sure of himself.
"Something makes me think that that's not quite legal. Not sure if its the
unfortunate phrasing or the shaky voice." Riley smiled sheepishly but pushed on
nonetheless.
"So will you meet him?" Race looked over at Spot again, knowing he would get
shit about it if he refused, sighed at his long-suffering, and turned back
towards Riley.
"Fine." He muttered, waving his goodbye to the other boys as Riley positively
beamed, put an arm around his shoulders and walking him towards the car while
Race looked up at him with a pinched expression.
"Could you not?" He said, shrugging out from under the taller man's arm and
walking beside him, but Riley just smiled again, unlocked the car and gestured
for Race to get in.
"Your Majesty," He said with a slight bow.
"I find that the more I get to know you, the weirder you get." The Italian
commented as he got into the car, watching as Riley walked around driver's
side, taking a seat and starting the engine before responding to Race's
somewhat insulting comment.
"Oh, I'm reeling it in, scare off one too many kids and they stop giving you a
Christmas bonus." Race snorted and put on his seatbelt.
"Well, that's just plain unfair."
They met Bryan Denton at a relatively empty Starbucks on the outskirts of the
city center. The man was sitting cross legged on one of the comfy chairs in the
back of the shop and sipping at his tea while reading the entertainment section
of a newspaper. He was middle aged, probably in his late thirty's, with brown
hair and kind eyes. He was wearing tan pants, brown shoes, and an unbuttoned
tweed vest over a plain white dress shirt, and a truly horrible tie was
fastened neatly around his neck. As they walked through the door, a small bell
chimed over their heads, signifying their entrance to Denton, who looked up,
saw Riley, and smiled, rising out of his chair to shake the younger man's hand.
He looked over at Race and held out his hand politely while introducing
himself.
"Bryan Denton, and you must be Antonio, good to meet you." Race shook the
extended hand, nodded and mumbled,
"Uh, you too" before looking back over to Riley for help, but the older man
just clapped him on his back and said he would be back in a bit, then proceeded
to leave Race with a stranger in a coffee shop. He wasn't exactly sure what he
was supposed to do in a situation like this. There wasn't really a norm for
these circumstances, was he supposed to say thank you? Buy him a drink? Discuss
the night that he had tried so hard to put into the past? He once again
wondered why this man would want to meet him.
"Would you like something to drink Antonio? You strike me as a coffee drinker
yourself." Race wrinkled his nose at the overuse of his full name, and fiddled
with the fraying hem of his shirt, wishing that he could have a cigarette.
"It's Tony. And yeah, I am, but you don't gotta pay, I got my own money."
"No, no, no, I insist. Now, what would you like?" Race wondered why the man was
so nice, but glanced up at the menu anyway, he wasn't going to turn down some
free coffee if the guy was really offering. They ordered his drink - just a
plain dark roast coffee - and stood to the side while the girl brewed it.
"I guess you're probably wondering why I wanted to talk to you." Denton said,
even his goddamn voice sounded like it was grinning.
"Yeah, I kinda was, I mean I don't even know if your supposed to talk to me at
all before the trial. Couldn't this mess all this shit up?" Denton smiled a
little at his comment.
"Well, I'm no lawyer, so I'm not sure about all that, but I do know that if you
don't testify then your father may get off anyway." Race snorted.
"My father was found literally on top of me, the police officer had to pull him
off, then my wonderful daddy punched a cop in the face. He's going to prison."
Denton nodded, but replied all the same.
"That will get him some time for sure, but it could be less than a year, the
city of New York has varying laws on this type of stuff. You need a strong
testimony to get someone put away for years." Race narrowed his eyes slightly,
but Denton kept on talking "We have proof for one account of child abuse, and
no testimony, beyond a few suspicious X-rays, of any past abuse. Tony, I am
fully aware that I don't know anything about you or your family, but I'm fairly
certain that you would prefer to have your father in jail for as long as
possible. Your testimony could put him away for a long time." Race was leaning
over his coffee with his head leaning on his right hand as he contemplated the
older man's words.
"I dunno Mr. Denton, it ain't really an easy decision, even if he can be a real
asshole, he's still the only family I got left." Denton nodded with
understanding.
"But if someone treats you wrong, if they don't respect you and love you no
matter what, then they aren't really your family. Sure, you've got the same
genes, that's a connection you can never change, and you may still care about
them, but family is what you make it. Now if you can look me in the eye and
tell me that man is really your family, then I won't push it, but if not, I
want you to at least consider testifying. And please, call me Bryan." He didn't
sound like he was lecturing Race, like Spot had earlier in the morning, he
appeared completely earnest, and - as far as Race could tell - he wasn't lying.
So he looked straight into Denton's eyes, knowing that he could flat out lie.
He could say that his father was his family, and the man wearing that
ridiculous bow tie would never know a thing, but for a reason he couldn't
explain, what he said instead was.
"I'll think about it."
 
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When Racetrack got back to the group home, he had one of those moments when you
put your hand on the doorknob to open it, only to find that there's someone on
the other side who opens the door before you, leaving you both standing there
staring at each other for a second. Once Kid Blink had shaken himself out of
his surprised confusion, he smiled broadly and put an arm around the smaller
boy.
"Race! You won't believe what happened while you were gone! Remember Charlie,
the kid with the crutch from the hospital?" Blink said this all very quickly
while leading him through the doorway, and Race glanced around at the
commotion. The relative emptiness from earlier in the day was gone, and it
appeared that almost every boy was now downstairs chattering happily. At the
center of the group was a familiar tall boy sporting a wooden crutch and a
smile, which only got larger when he saw Racetrack. "Tadaaaa!" Blink exclaimed
happily, before slapping him on the back and walking over to stand next to
Mush.
"Hiya Tony! I was wonderin if they had sent ya to this place, it's good ta see
ya again." Crutchy's smile was as wide as ever, and he made his way over to pat
Race on the back, moving surprisingly well for someone with a gimpy foot.
"It's good to see you too, have you been in the hospital all this time?"
"Yeah, I got this real simple heart surgery, I was s'possed to be out a few
weeks ago, but it got an infection or somethin and they had me stay a little
while longah, I think they just wanted the state to keep on payin 'em.'" The
tall boy's optimism in the face of a bad deal in life amazed Racetrack. Crutchy
was 17 years old and his heart was worse then the average 60 year old's, yet
somehow he was always smiling, always joking around, it was remarkable. In some
twisted way, Race was jealous of Crutchy. He pushed the thought out of his mind
and joined into the conversation between Crutchy and Jack, the good mood of the
room infecting him. He spotted Spot off to the side and went over to stand by
him, politely excusing himself from the two other boys first.
"So where did the guy take you." The skinny boy asked without any greeting.
"To see the guy that called the police on my pops." Race admitted, and Spot
shot him a questioning look.
"What the fuck did that guy want?"
"For me to testify. Seriously, what has gotten into people lately, I get it
already, testifying will get daddy dearest stuck in jail for a few more years."
Spot smiled a little at Race's annoyance, and that just made him more
irritated.
"So are you gonna?" Spot asked, and Race glared.
"We had this conversation earlier." He replied moodily, not feeling like
discussing it again. Spot shot him a very knowing look.
"You're avoiding the question." He stated, smirking slightly, and he leaned
forward a bit. "So I'm taking that as you're going to, but you're to prideful
to admit that someone got you to change your mind." Spot's face was inches away
from his, his smile as wide as his ears, it was the expression he got when he
knew he was right, and Race kinda hated it. But he kinda loved it too.
"Shut up." Race replied, but couldn't help smiling as well. Spot moved
impossibly closer, and whispered lowly.
"Make me." And then Race moved without thinking, pushing his lips against
Spot's, cupping the back of the taller boy's head as his whole body seemed to
light on fire. Spot responded to the kiss enthusiastically, his own hands
winding into Race's hair. It didn't matter that they were surrounded by people,
to them they were the only two in the room, because nothing else mattered right
now besides the feel of Spot's lips against his own. At least, until a wolf
whistle came from his left. He froze momentarily, opening his eyes and glancing
around, only to see Blink smiling wickedly.
"Whoooooo! Get some Tony!" He hollered rowdily. Race smirked at the sight, then
stuck out his tongue before replying.
"Go get laid and leave me alone, ass." And then he turned back to Spot, grabed
his shirt, and pulled him down into a fierce kiss, all while flipping Blink off
over his shoulder.
 
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The trial was nothing like Race had expected. It was in your average courtroom
with a bored looking jury, but beyond that, he hadn't really known what to
anticipate. Over the past few weeks, his father had become this huge idea in
his head, even when he was where he could no longer attack Race physically, his
memory still had his son shaking in his boots, but somehow in reality he seemed
smaller then Race remembered. He was still frightening, with a scowl on his
lips and something in his eyes that would make a weaker man run screaming, but
he was no longer the living nightmare that Race had shared a house with for
seventeen years.
Another surprise, for Race at least, was that he was pleading guilty. He
guessed that it must have been the lawyers idea, as he knew full well that
Gennero Higgins would never have pleaded guilty without the knowledge that he
had no other choice, but it was still a shock nonetheless. Along with this, the
trial was nothing like the court cases you see on television. It was rather
boring, with no surprise twist or outburst halfway through, and Race found
himself staring at the wall while dreading going up to the witness stand.
All three of his father's brothers were there, and that's what scared Race
most, because maybe he could put his father away, but what was he supposed to
do about the bastard's siblings? They all stared at him angrily as he wiped his
sweaty palms on his pants when his name was called. There was no backing down
now.
 
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The time after the trial felt like some strange out of body experience, and he
found himself walking into Blink's house at 11:00 at night without any clear
memory of how he had gotten there. He made his way towards the basement, and
opened the door, hearing soft chatter from below. As he walked down the stairs,
the talking stopped, and when he made it to the bottom, all eyes were on him.
They had agreed the day before to meet here, partially so they could drink, as
Blink had had a feeling that Race might need a beer after seeing his father
again, and partially so David and Blink could be involved, they had gotten
special permission from Kloppman to stay out for the night at Blink's place.
"So?" David asked tentatively. "How'd it go?" The silence was deafening as Race
took a deep breath, then he smiled broadly.
"Eight years." There was a quiet for a second as the news sunk in, "He got
eight years." Then Blink cheered, and the rest of the boys joined him, jumping
up and nearly smothering him in a group hug, and he exclaimed unhappily, trying
to get them off him, but Blink actually went so far as to pick him up,
something that Race had always hated.
"Okay! OKAY! Goddamit Blink! PUT ME DOWN ALREADY!" He shouted as the blond spun
him in circles happily, then reluctantly put him down.
"Jesus." He muttered, running his hand through his hair, but still smiling
hugely. A finger tapped his shoulder and he turned around to find Spot grinning
his signature grin, the younger boy kissed him quickly, then handed him a
Budweiser. Race smiled and took a long swig, almost groaning at the taste of
the liquid.
"You know, I haven't had a beer since I've been at the group home." He
remarked, savoring the taste of the first sip of a cold beer after a long day.
"Well we're gonna have to fix that then." Spot replied with a mischievous spark
in his eye. "Drinking contest?" He asked, holding up his own beer.
"Drinking contest." Tony nodded, and they knocked their cans together and threw
'em back.
Two hours and eleven beers (each) later, they found themselves sitting on the
couch, smushed in together next to David, Mush, Jack, and Blink, who were
discussing who would win in a fight between Voldemort and Darth Vader. The
other boys were scattered around the basement, talking and laughing merrily,
and Race could honestly say this was the happiest he had been in a long time.
He leaned his head on Spot's shoulder and grinned, they were both fairly drunk,
and had given up at trying to outdrink each other, now just sipping their beers
slowly as they listened to the other boys talk. Spot shifted slightly beside
Racetrack and put an arm around his shoulder.
"You know what Tony? You're pretty fucking amazing." Race's eyes snapped to
Spot, unsure if he had heard correctly, but yes, It must have been Spot,
because he was still looking at Race with an expression that made him feel like
he was being pulled and held together at the same time, He tucked his head back
under Spot's chin, curing in closer to the skinny boy who made him so
exhilaratingly blissful, and whispered, "You are too."
***** Your Past Follows you Like A Shadow; Always Right Behind You, Dark and
Distorted *****
Chapter Summary
     Bad dreams, an irrational fear of teddy bears, a couple giant italian
     men, and general pandemonium all around.
Racetrack Higgins had loved his mother like nobody else, she had been fierce
and independent and protective and full of life. Josephine Duro-Higgins had
been eternally youthful, with silky black hair that floated down past her
shoulders in light waves, defined cheekbones, olive skin, and chocolate brown
eyes that almost seemed to melt as you looked into them. She had been
unarguably beautiful, and had remained so even as she had faded away, even with
all her hair gone, even with her skin pale, she had never lost her beauty. She
had been a true momma bear, loving both her son and her husband passionately.
She had only been 19 when Race was born, barely beyond childhood herself. She
was 28 years old when she died.
 
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Race was leaning back in his chair, balancing on the hind two legs while
watching a short women move across the kitchen gracefully. She glanced in his
direction, her soft brown eyes hardening slightly as she caught sight of what
he was doing.
“Antonio Luciano Higgins! What did I tell you about doing that? Ti farai male!”
Race grinned the smile of a child who had been caught doing something wrong.
“Rilassa! I was being careful mamma, Non preoccuparti.” The women pursed her
lips and shook her head slightly.
“It does not matter if you were being careful. I said no, capisce?” She looked
straight at him, and he nodded sullenly.
“Capisco.” She smiled her approval, but then her expression changed to one of
alarm as she heard a bubbling, turning to see the pasta water boiling over. She
rushed back to it, turning down the temperature and stirring the water before
pouring more salt in. A man walked into the room. He was tall, with short dark
- almost black - hair, dark brown eyes, and a lined face. He looked about as
young as she was, but more tired, less lively. He saw the women and walked
forward, smiling, before gabbing her by the waist and pulling her close. She
laughed as he did so, her melodic voice yelping out.
“Gennero!” She smiled turned her head to give him a peck on his cheek, before
disentangling herself from his arms and going back to her cooking. “You’re
late” She stated good naturedly, and he sighed a little bit, his shoulders
seeming to slump as if someone had set a weight on them.
“Some asshol-”
“Gennero! Not in front of Tony!”
“Sorry darling, Some jerk decided not to pay up, so I had to pay him a visit.
I’m happy I got back in time for your delicious food.” He smiled as he said the
last part, and she grinned shyly, before grabbing some oven mitts and draining
the pasta water, and telling Race to set up for dinner. As the night proceeded,
everything seemed so wonderful, but not quite right. His parents seemed to love
each other. Well, not seemed, Race knew they had meant the world to one
another, he knew that, but he couldn’t seem to place what was wrong. Wait, they
did mean everything each other. Not had. They did.
When they were finished, Race looked over at the man, still not sure what was
so wrong with this. Why was he not content with this? He was happy, everything
was good, so what was wrong? When he made eye contact with the man, it all came
into place. Those dark orbs were so cold, nothing like they had been earlier
when he had been speaking with the women. They were cold, and they seemed to be
steadily growing angrier.
Race glanced around the room for the women, hoping that she could placate the
man, but she had disappeared, the dished uncleaned, the faucet still running.
She had simply vanished without a trace, and all the happiness that had
appeared to emanate out of her had dematerialized with her. He looked back at
the man, who was beginning to stand, his eyes no longer cold, they looked dead,
in contrast to the rage that the rest of his face was showing. Racetrack took a
step backwards, the man seemed to have grown exponentially in size in the space
of time it had taken Race to look for the women, and although he had been much
taller then Race when he had first walked in earlier, he now towered over the
small boy. Race felt as if he was shrinking as the already gargantuan man grew
even larger, taking another step towards the now shaking boy.
“What are you just standing there for? Do you think that you can do nothing for
me and still live in this house? Do you think that I let useless queers eat my
food? I don’t know why I even keep you around, you can’t do shit.” He took
another step forward, and Race once again skittered backwards, fear coursing
through his entire body, making him clumsy, and he tripped over his own feet,
landing on the ground with a painful thud. His father’s eyes came alive as he
fell, reviving in ferocity as he lunged forward.
“YOU USELESS SACK OF SHIT! YOU’RE NO SON OF MINE! I TELL YOU TO MAKE YOURSELF
USEFUL AND YOU TRY TO RUN AWAY? WHEN I SPEAK YOU LISTEN! YOU HEAR ME?!” Gennero
grabbed his flailing son, picking Race up by the collar of his shirt and
slamming him against the wall. Race cried out in pain, wincing away from the
man who was supposed to protect him as he was slammed against the wall again,
before Gennero’s left hand moved to his throat, while his right smashed into
his stomach. He was screaming now, screaming for help, screaming for his father
to stop, screaming for everything, for anything. But he was loosing the ability
to breathe, loosing the ability to think, and his whole body was aching as he
heard a voice shouting at him.
“Tony! Cmon, get UP! Tony! Jesus fuck, TONY!”
His eyes snapped open and he struggled in his father’s grasp, still shouting,
landing a blow and hearing a soft oof as his father was thrown from the bed.
Wait, bed? He stopped screaming, his throat raw from exertion, and he took in
deep breaths, pushing himself into a sitting position as his attacker stood up
and moved forward slowly. Except it wasn’t his father, it was a skinny boy with
messy blond hair and a petite face. He sucked in another deep breath as the boy
moved closer, climbing into the bed with him and tentatively touching his knee.
“Hey, it’s okay, you’re okay.” The boy muttered as he slowly moved his other
hand up to cup Race’s face, his thumb stroking across his temple.

Race took another breath. He was in his dorm room. He was with Spot. It had
just been a nightmare, he got those a lot, even if they normally weren’t so
vivid. He was fine. And Spot was stroking his face, something that was so out
of character that he felt certain he must have been screaming before he woke
up. He looked into the skinny boy’s eyes - he had such nice eyes- and leaned
into the hand, signaling that he had calmed down some. Spot moved forward more,
moving to kiss Race’s forehead, then his lips, then his cheek, and holding onto
him. Race relaxed at the feel of Spot’s arms around him and held onto his
shoulders with shaking hands.
And they just stayed there for a bit, holding tightly onto each other as if
they feared that someone would come and try to tear them apart. Race’s head
fell into the crook between Spot’s neck and shoulder, and he breathed in the
combination of cinnamon and cigarettes that seemed to be Spot’s signature
flavor. Once his hands had stopped shaking, and his breathing had become
smooth, Spot moved back.
“Do you wanna talk about it?” He questioned with a strange calm that had
already infected Race, who shook his head. Spot moved to get out of the bed, as
Race was calm and his job was done, but Race grabbed his arm.
“You... You don’t have to....” Spot looked at him questioningly as Race
searched for the right words. “Stay here with me.” He muttered quietly, and
Spot, although he showed no outward emotions besides the soft calm, moved back
by Racetrack. He grabbed at the tangled covers and smoothed them out, before
pushing Race on his back, and laying both himself and the covers over them.
He kissed Race slowly and deliberately, using physical action to say something
that words could not describe, something that he was almost scared to believe
was real. Spot moved his head over, grabbing onto Racetrack and whispering. “Go
back to sleep Tony.” and Race closed his now heavy eyelids, his head laying
directly under Spot’s. Just as he was falling back to sleep, he felt a hand
move slowly through his hair.
This time he didn’t dream.
 
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When Race next awoke, it was in a refreshingly nonviolent fashion. He blinked
awake slowly, reaching up to rub the sleep out of his eyes. When he opened them
again, he took in his surroundings, Spot was lying on his back, eyes closed and
head tipped to the side, appearing frighteningly young and vulnerable in sleep.
Race had been laying his head on Spot’s chest, and he blushed slightly as he
notices the tiny bit of drool he left there. He leaned forward and kissed
Spot’s forehead, and he wondered if he could possibly skip out on school and
spend the whole day just laying here in this separate peace. However, a second
later his stomach grumbled, basically saying ‘fuck you’ to his plans of truancy
and sleep.
He quietly shifted himself out of bed, being careful not to wake up Spot, who
was still sleeping soundly, and then proceeded to tip-toe his way out of the
room. He made his way down the stairs and towards the kitchen while
contemplating his dream, which he could still remember with alarming clarity.
Nightmares weren’t all that
uncommon to him, but he hadn’t woken up screaming in ages, and he hadn’t had
one with his mom in it since a year after she had died. He wasn’t the type of
person to get freaked out too easily, but he’d be lying if he said that the
dream hadn’t shaken him a little bit.
He nodded at Jack and Itey, who were eating cereal while sitting on the kitchen
floor, and went to pour himself a bowl. Jack looked over at him, and swallowed
a giant bite of cereal he had had in his mouth.
“Hey Tony, you have any idea where all that shouting came from last night? It
sounded like it was coming from upstairs.” The ‘cowboy’ questioned, scooping up
more lucky charms into his mouth.
“Oh, uh, that was me.” Race admitted sheepishly, wondering how he could get out
of this without sounding crazy. “I had this really fucked up dream, something
about being chased by a giant teddy bear, I don’t even kinda know, anyway,
sorry about that.” he babbled, wondering how that made him sound any saner then
what actually happened. Jack raised an eyebrow.
“You’re scared of teddy bears?” He asked, incredulous, and Race’s head snapped
up.
“What? NO! What the hell, of course I’m not.” He exclaimed, and Jack grinned.
“Then why were you screaming.”
“Fuck if I know, I have some weird-ass dreams sometimes, but I am NOT afraid of
teddy bears.” He defended, seriously regretting his excuse of choice. Jack was
smirking like a Cheshire cat, and seemed like he was about to start laughing
has ass off.
“Whatever you say, Racetrack.” He nodded, still grinning, and Race groaned and
grabbed himself some cheerios and a bowl, internally cursing himself while Jack
laughed. Itey gave him a sympathetic smile, and batted Jack lightly upside the
head, and Race smiled a little, pouring milk in with his cheerio’s and taking a
seat across from Itey on
the kitchen floor.
They struck up a conversation, talking about anything and everything as they
ate their breakfast. Soon the other boy’s started to trickle in, and because of
Jack, the conversation always ended up back at the same point when the boy’s
walked in.
“Race is afraid of teddy bear’s,” Jack exclaimed as Dutchy walked into the
room, and Dutchy raised his eyebrows as Race groaned from the umpteenth time
that morning.
“Really, Race, Really? Teddy bears? Is that even a real phobia, because people
can be scared of all kinds of things, but I didn’t think that it was even
possible to be scared of adorable stuffed animals.”
“I’m NOT, Jack’s just being a dick about this weird-ass nightmare I had last
night-”
“Were you the one screaming? About teddy bears? Oh, god, that's so freaking
funny I can’t even express it with words.” Dutchy choked out, laughing by the
end of his statement and Race huffed angrily.
“I hate you.” He told Jack, who grinned back cheekily.
The kitchen was relatively full at this point, with a surprising amount of boys
who would rather sit on the floor then go into the dining room, and chatter
filled the air. Not long after Dutchy came downstairs Spot made his way into
the kitchen. He was wearing a plain black shirt, which was about three sizes to
big, and green and black plaid flannel pants. His hair was messy, and he was
rubbing a hand against his eyes, and Race smiled at the pure cuteness that was
his boyfriend. He didn’t smile long though, as Jack kept with his method of
informing literally everyone who came into the kitchen of Races new found
‘phobia’.
“Hey Spot.” Jack chided.
“Fuck off,” Spot replied, going directly towards the fridge while flipping Jack
off.
“Your boyfriend-” Jack started, but was promptly interrupted.
“I said fuck off, Jacky-boy, I need food before I can deal with your
shenanigans.” The blond stated flatly, grabbing the milk out of the
refrigerator and walking over to the cupboard to look for some cereal.
“Tony’s scared of teddy bears.” Jack said very quickly, and Race shot a glare
at him.
“I am going to fucking kill you.” The Italian muttered lowly as his boyfriend
looked on with a strange expression on his face.
“... What the fuck?” Spot asked, glancing between Jack and Race.
“Your boyfriend. Tony. He’s afraid of teddy bears.” Jack informed him, and Race
leaned over to smack him upside the head while Itey and Dutchy, laughed.
“Really Tony, teddy bears?” Spot asked, and Race flipped him off before
smacking Jack again.
“I know, It’s a strange phobia right?” A slightly abused Cowboy stated before
smacking Race’s arm back as he went to smack him again.
“I think I’m a little ashamed of you now.” Spot added, shaking his head back
and forth in mock disappointment while he poured his food into a bowl and
joined them on
the ground.
“I think we need to help him get past his fear.” Dutchy chimed in, grinning
evilly while Race groaned.
“I hate you all.” He stated, but was ignored by the entire room.
“Should we just fill his entire room with teddy bears?” Dutchy asked.
“You do that and I will kill you.” Spot replied darkly, but Dutchy didn’t seem
phased.
“Stop taking the fun out of everything Spot.” Specs added from across the room.
“What if we just fill his side of the room with them” Mush mused thoughtfully.
“That might be okay” Spot amended, smiling at Race, who stared back resignedly.
“Where will we get the teddies, though?” Dutchy continued.
“I think Mush has a couple, we can scrounge” Itey, who had not spoken for a few
minutes, informed Dutchy. Race looked over at him with a pout, and Itey smiled
innocently back.
“You guys suck.” Race muttered darkly, crossing his arms across his chest and
looking quite a lot like an unhappy child.
“We’re trying to help you Race, stop complaining.” Mush stated offhandedly.
“I’m not afraid of teddy bears!” Race told the room for what felt like the
thousandth time. He really needed to get better at cover stories.
“Whatever you say, Tony” Mush sighed, then glared at the other boys, “Now,
about my teddy bears. You can’t touch them.” Causing Dutchy and Specs to
exclaim unhappily while Race leaned back against the cabinets, knowing that
this could take a while.
“If you want to get blown by me ever again then you better knock that smile off
your face.” He told Spot, who was in fact grinning.
“Like you could manage that even if you wanted to,” Spot replied, smiling wider
than ever.
“Your such a dick.” The brunette replied with a mock-glare.
“I know, so are you.” Spot agreed, and he couldn’t help but grin as he scooped
up cereal from his almost empty bowl.
“But I’m a nice dick.” Race countered.
“That doesn’t make any sense.” The taller teen pointed out, and Race huffed.
“Your face doesn’t make any sense.” He replied with annoyance.
“Really, Tony? That's like the worst insult in the world.” Spot raised his
eyebrows and moved a hand up to his temple snorting in derision.
“It’s morning, my brain isn’t functioning yet.” Race defended, but it came out
almost questioningly.
“Excuses excuses.” The blond stated, sounding like a teacher who’s student had
missed an assignment.
“I hate you.” Race pouted.
“Nope, you really don’t.” Spot countered, his smile still firmly in place. Race
really loved it when Spot smiled, he looked like a freaking model, and so much
happier than he normally was.
“You don’t know everything.” He stated, still pointedly ignoring the teddy bear
argument happening around them.
“But I know you,” Spot replied easily.
“Oh really?” Race questioned curiously.
“Yeah, I have become an expert on all things Anthony Higgins.” The blond
grinned at the Italian, who sniggered a little bit.
“Well, then it’s a good thing my name isn’t Anthony Higgins.” Race replied, and
Spot’s eyes widened slightly in surprise
“Bullshit, then what the fuck is it.” He inquired interestedly.
“Antonio Luciano Higgins” Race replied with a formal Italian accent.
“Close a-fucking-nuff, you Italian bastard.” Spot vindicated himself
vehemently, and Race laughed.
“Not a bastard,” .He pointed out, “my parents were in looovvvvveeeeee”
“So they must have fucked a lo,” Spot responded cockily.
“WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT?” Race all but shrieked at the younger teen.
“Because it’s true.” He replied innocently, and Race narrowed his eyes.
“You’re parents did too.” He pointed out.
“Nope, I was a one night stand. At a concert, no less. Plus, my mom was
basically the town slut, so I’ve come to terms with her sex life.” Spot stated,
picking at his nails,
while Race tried to get the idea of his mother having sex out of his head.
“Well, my mom was the Italian equivalent of the Virgin Mary.” He replied, happy
with that explanation.
“So that makes you Jesus.” The taller boy questioned dubiously.
“Yep.” Race nodded definitively.
“Wow, you’re shorter then all those religious nut-cases seem to think. But then
again, that's what they say about paintings, ‘the camera adds five pounds, the
brush adds five inches’.” Spot stated sardonically, and Race huffed.
“Really? The jabs on my height are getting a little bit old now, aren't they?”
Race commented, glaring at Spot, who snorted and flicked Race in the nose.
“I don’t think they’ll ever grow old. Much like how you will never grow.” The
blond boy commented as Race rubbed his nose and continued to glare, looking
quite a lot like an offended puppy. Just as Race opened his mouth to speak, a
screeching shout made everyone’s eyes snap over to Dutchy, who was staring at
the microwave clock.
“ITS ALMOST SEVEN OH-CLOCK!” The shaggy-haired teen shouted, pointing at the
time. There was a moment of silence while everyone wondered what exactly Dutchy
meant by his seemingly-random outburst, and then a moment of realization that
their bus would be there in ten minutes, and next there was a collective
movement of everyone standing up and running towards the door.
The next few harried minutes were spent in a hurry of taking quick showers and
changing clothes and stealing of towels as the boys rushed to the bus stop.
When Race got to school, hair still damp from the fastest shower he had ever
taken - partially because Spot had quite literally kicked him out halfway
through - he was tired, but in an overall good mood. He was walking along side
Jack, Mush, and Spot as they headed towards the main doors of the school when
he glanced across the street and stopped in his tracks.
His uncle Giovanni was leaning against a tree on the other side of the road,
smoking a cigarette and staring at him with such ferocity that Race could
barely stand to keep looking in his direction. He stared, mouth agape, at Gio
as the man grinned slightly, a cold smile that he had often seen on his
father’s face, and gave him a little wave. He was so focused on his uncle that
he didn’t notice his friends staring at him until Spot flicked him in the ear.
“Hey, you alive in there, Tony?” He glanced toward his boyfriend, bringing his
hand up to his ear while glaring at Spot.
“Yeah, I’m fine, just spaced out.” He muttered, and glanced back at his uncle,
who gave him a thumbs up. He felt a shiver down his spine that had nothing to
with the slight chill of the mid-September air. The blond boy looked at him
dubiously, then in the direction that he had been staring. Slight surprise
registered as he saw Race’s uncle, then he looked back at Race, his face once
again impassive. Spot glanced over at Jack and Mush, who both looked curious.
“Mush, find your boyfriend. Jack, fuck off.” He said flatly, and Mush appeared
startled, but nodded and waved goodbye at Race before walking in the direction
of Blink’s bus stop, while Jack narrowed his eyes.
“Why the fuck do I-” He started to say, but was promptly interrupted by Spot.
“Just fuck off before I make you fuck off.” The younger teen stated, crossing
his arms and raising his eyebrows as the taller boy stared back at him. There
was a moment of silence before Jack conceded.
“Okay, but you’re explaining later.” He stated, pointing at Spot as he started
to walk away.
“Like hell I am.” Spot huffed, turning to face Race, who was alternating
between looking at Spot and glancing towards Gio. As soon as Jack was safely
out of ear shot, he addressed Race, “Why the fuck is you’re creepy ass uncle
watching you from across the street?” He stated quietly but seriously, and the
Italian boy finally stopped looking at his uncle and gave Spot his full
attention.
“I don’t freaking know, maybe he just wants to talk or something.” He started
evasively, but Spot raised his eyebrows.
“Yeah, sure, the fucker came over to have a freaking tea party. He can’t be
here for anything good, so what are we gonna do about it?” The blond
questioned.
Race knew that he should have felt comforted by the fact that Spot had used
‘we’ instead of ‘you’, but his head was filled with bad dreams and insane
family members who probably wanted him dead, and he didn’t want Spot anywhere
near that shit. He felt his chest tighten at the mere idea of getting Spot
hurt, he didn’t think he would ever forgive himself if he let his boyfriend try
to help him with his own goddamn problems and got him hurt for it. So he looked
Spot in the eyes as he spoke, making sure that the younger boy knew that he
meant what he was saying.
“I’m gonna need you to butt the hell out of this okay? It’s not you’re problem,
and I can do fine on my own. So you deal with you’re shit and I’ll deal with
mine. Sound good?” He stated, then looked back over towards Giovanni, who had
his eyes fixed on Spot instead of Race now, making him take a hasty step
backwards, not wanting Gio to think that Spot was as important to him as he
really was. Spot, however, was glaring at him.
“Why is it so goddamn hard for you to accept help? I mean, I get not wanting to
be dependent on anyone, but that’s different from keeping yourself from being
in physical danger. What’s it gonna take for you to get that I actually care
about what happens to you?” The taller boy uttered heatedly, and Race wished
that Spot could have said this shit at a better time, because it would have
made him glow inside if it hadn’t been for the fact that Gio was watching them
and if his uncle knew that Race was gay then he could know what Spot was to
him, and then Spot could be used as leverage against him, and he just couldn’t
handle that right now, so he couldn’t be having this conversation in plane
sight of a homophobe who had beef with him. His hearth throbbed against his
ribcage and his throat seemed to compress against his windpipe, making his
breathing feel forced.
“Just back off about it. I’m doing what’s best here, you just have to trust me
on that.” Race replied, a slight pleading note coming into his voice as he
vocalized the last part of his sentence. Spot opened his mouth to speak, but
before he could Race interrupted him. “I gotta get to class, see you back at
home later okay?” He rushed through the words and gave Spot a little wave
before hurrying in the opposite direction, leaving a very confused, skinny boy
behind him.

He knew full well that Spot would be a little pissed at him later for being
such an ass, but he could make it up to him then, when he wasn’t having a
borderline panic attack with a huge Italian man watching him from afar. He
gulped in a few breaths and focused on slowing his heartbeat, glancing yet
again in his uncle’s direction, only to find that he wasn’t there anymore. He
looked around frantically for Spot, spotting his face in a crowd of people
walking through the main doors, and after making sure that he was okay, he took
another deep breath. He was starting to calm down when he felt a hand on his
shoulder and he just about jumped out of his skin. He spun around so fast that
he cricked his neck and he held onto it as he started up at his uncle.

“What the fuck do you want, Giovanni?” He questioned, trying to make himself
seem taller, which was difficult on a good day for him, much less one where
everything seemed to be such utter crap.
“Just figured I’d see how my favorite nephew is doing. Was that you’re boy toy
back there?” Gio replied, his nose wrinkling in disgust when he mentioned Spot.
“No, he’s just a guy from my group home, now get the fuck out of here, or are
you gonna try to assault me with over a hundred witnesses to see?” Race stated,
speaking with so much false bravado that it was almost tangible, but his uncle
didn’t seem to care.
“I dunno, pretty women seemed fairly faggy to me. Maybe he should get a beat
down too, huh, knock him ‘round till he ain’t so pretty anymore.” Gio reached
into his pocket and pulled out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter as he spoke,
lighting one nonchalantly and fixing Race with a piercing stare. Race forced
himself to stay calm. He knew full well that Gio was trying to get a reaction
out of him, the man was an expert on intimidation, and always the guy that his
dad had sent in when somebody thought they were tough shit and didn’t want to
pay up.
“Funny, I seem to remember him knocking you on you’re ass last time you came
around.” He replied with his signature snark, trying to keep face as he saw
Gio’s right hand tighten into a fist in his peripheral vision.
“I’d keep my mouth fucking shut if I were you. In case you’re brain cells got
scrambled in the hospital, I’m gonna remind you that the family doesn’t take
too kindly to
narcs, and that’s exactly what you are, so you might want to keep your smartass
mouth to yourself, and keep both eyes open, because this is not gonna be
something that you walk away from, you here me boy? Watch yourself.” And before
Race could gather his thoughts, Gio threw his cigarette onto the ground and
turned around swiftly, leaving Race with a cold feeling spreading throughout
his body like poison.

He was going to die.
 
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The school day seemed to pass like a dream, coming in and out of focus, the
clock alternated between moving sickeningly slow, and so fast that it made his
chest seem to compress around his lungs. He knew that he had spoken to Blink at
some point throughout the day, but he had no idea what had been said, and his
chemistry teacher had called him out for not paying attention, but he couldn’t
force himself to care. He had thought, no, he had hoped, freaking prayed, that
the endless feeling of terror would stop once he was free of his father, once
he didn’t have to be worried about getting a black eye for every little thing
he did wrong, but he realized now that it would never end. Not for him anyway,
not while he was still breathing. It’s not even that he was scared of dying, or
getting hurt, it was the fact that he had actually almost believed that life
could be good. That his life could be good. That he could have friends, and a
real home, and that he could be happy for the first time since his mom had
died. But it was never meant to last. He would always have to sleep with one
eye open, always have to glace behind him as he walked down the street. Always
have to keep the people he loved at arms reach.
After school, he decided to go to David’s house, figuring that his uncles would
be expecting him to go straight home, and that this might throw them off. But
once he got to his friend’s house with David and Blink, it was difficult not to
be infected by their carefreeness, and he pushed away from the feelings of
despair temporarily and let himself relax.
They were in David’s basement, Race and Blink sprawled across the couch, Blink
taking up most of it while Race kicked at his legs, and David was setting them
up to play Mario Cart on an almost-new Wii that he had managed to find at a
thrift store the month before. Dave was one of the only people that Race knew
that had a basement that was actually livable, not that Race had many friends
who actually lived in homes to compare this too, but he thought it was pretty
cool. The room was relatively big, and some piping stuck out in the corner that
had been converted into a semi washing room, but the rest of it had a
distinctly cozy feeling, with a beat up couch in front of a coffee table, and a
cozy red armchair to the left of it, all facing a TV set. As the game turned
on, David tossed two remote’s in Blink and Race’s general direction and went
over to sit in the arm chair.
The nice thing about having friends like these guys was that they all got
really into games like this, and soon Blink was shouting profanities at David,
who smirked and said, “Eat my dust, bitch.” as he cruised past him, making Race
laugh so much that he crashed his own car into a tree and fell back three
places. They played more rounds then they could count, and just as he started
to get hungry, Race glanced at the clock, only to see that he had to be back to
the group home in just over half an hour, so he quickly said his goodbye’s, and
started to go home.
It was dark when he got outside, and there was a slight chill in the air that
made him walk faster than he normally would have. It wasn’t all that far to go,
but it could take a little while to get there on foot, so he momentarily wished
that he had a cell phone or a watch to check the time on, before compromising
and walking even faster then he had been before. When he was just over half way
there he felt a pricking sensation on the back of his neck, the kind of feeling
you get when someone is watching you, and he glanced around him. There was a
lady walking in the opposite direction a block away, but she didn’t look
dangerous, so he started walking again, telling himself that he was being
paranoid.
As it turned out, he was completely correct in his paranoia, because he had
barely walked a block when he was suddenly pushed roughly down to the pavement.
A large pair of hands dragged him into an alleyway as he struggled fruitlessly,
and he was sent flying to the ground yet again, this time catching himself and
wincing as he felt scratches form on his hands and arms. He could only assume
he was bleeding, but it was too dark to tell, and he was more focused on the
shadowy man walking towards him. The man’s face was momentarily illuminated by
a ray of moonlight, and he stumbled backwards as Gio moved towards him, only to
have his back come in contact with another man’s chest. He threw himself to the
left, away from both men, and backed up against the cold brick wall of the
alley as he caught sight of his father’s younger brother, Vincenzo. Gio blocked
the way that he had entered the alley, and he frantically looked in the other
direction, only to find himself staring at a fenced-off dead end. He tightened
his hands into fists and took up a more defensive stance.
If he was going to go down, he would go down fighting.
***** You Can't Run Forever *****
Chapter Summary
     "Well, I guess we better show them who the fuck they’re dealing with,
     because you’re with me now, and I’ve never ran from anything in my
     life"
Chapter Notes
     Okay, so I knew it's been a few years since I updated this, and this
     wasn't the chapter I initially invisioned, and it's short as hell,
     but I'm back, and I've got plans. Feel free to pester me into
     updating, guilting me works really well, just saying.
     Oh, also, I've fixed some of the mistakes and bad phrasing from
     earlier in the story, so if you wanna reread, there are a few minor
     changes.
See the end of the chapter for more notes
Race’s fists were sweaty, his breath shallow, the dark swirling around him like
fog. For a few seconds, it was dead quiet, his own heartbeat drumming out a
steady rhythm inside of his chest, and then Gio spoke.
“You cheeky little fairy.”
The words made him recoil as if he had been stung. He looked towards Vinny
desperately, then back at Gio. Both of them wore perfect masks of indifference
and anger, and he knew why. He wasn’t human to them anymore. Before, when Gio
had shown up at the group home, he hadn’t known that Race was gay, and that
might have been part of what had been keeping him alive for the past few
months, the fact that he hadn’t known, but someone - probably Race’s father -
had told him.
He knew how his family saw ‘fags’ had experienced first hand the way that the
idea of gays being less than human was forced into their minds. It was almost
like brainwashing, nobody was safe from it. Back when he had been figuring out
his sexuality, Race had been a budding homophobe himself. He hadn’t gone fag
bashing or anything, but he had definitely been on the fast track to violence.
Luckily for him, he had had Blink and David there for him, and he had sorted
himself out. His uncles had never even questioned it.
Vinny moved towards him, and Race stepped away instinctively.
“You think you can turn on family like that, Tony?” He asked, continuing
towards Race until he was barely a foot away from him, leering down at him
menacingly.
Feeling movement behind him, Race ducked, and Gio’s fist when sailing over his
head. He stared up at his uncles for less than a millisecond before he shot
away from the wall, attempting to dodge under Gio’s arm, but Vinny grabbed at
his collar, pulling him back and pulling his shirt against his windpipe in the
process.
He sprawled onto the pavement, narrowly avoiding smashing his head against the
stone wall, and his thoughts swam with dizziness. By the time he had regained
his senses, he saw a boot flying towards him and had just enough sense to
protect himself with his arms before the impact came. It hurt like a bitch, and
he knew it would feel worse later, but at the moment he had no time to whine
about it, no time to even think before he made his next move. He kicked out at
Vinny’s legs, knocking his knees out from under him, and pushed himself up off
the ground. Gio lunged at him, and Race stood his ground this time, throwing a
calculated punch at the larger man’s diaphragm.
It wasn’t enough to stop him, but it did slow him down. Gio’s arm barely
clipped Race’s nose, and the momentum of his arm threw him into a stumble
towards the wall just as Vinny was pushing himself to his feet. In that second
of momentary safety, Race took off. He was out of the alley before his uncles
had even started after him, and he careened around the corner, letting his legs
carry him as fast as they could as he headed towards the group home.
He wasn’t all that far away, but he was considerably smaller than his uncles,
and probably didn’t stand much of a chance against them if one of them got
close enough to grab him. Not for the first time, he cursed his small stature,
but fortunately, he was a surprisingly fast runner. Maybe it was because he had
less weight to carry than others, or that he had spent a large portion of his
summer the year before running away from cops, but for now he was thankful for
the fact that he could push himself to keep on moving, even as his legs
screamed in protest. He could hear the thunking noise of his uncles’ shoes
slapping against the pavement, could all but feel their ominous presence
gaining on him, and he could have cried with relief when he tore around the
corner and saw the group home barely half a block away.
It was late, and there was a very real possibility that the door would be
locked, but the handle of the door turned when he reached it, and he was into
the building in the blink of an eye, slamming the door behind him and locking
it. He leaned against the wall, his legs wobbly and his lungs fighting to force
oxygen into his burning lungs. As he regained his senses, he noticed that there
were people in the room, Jack, Mush, and Crutchy, all of whom were gaping at
him.
“Don’t open that door.” Race panted out, shaking his head in an attempt to
clear it.
They all stared at each other for a second, and then Jack spoke up. “You’re,
uh, bleeding a little, Race.” Motioning towards his own nose.
Race touched one of his nostrils with his fingers, feeling a wet warmth there.
When he pulled his hand away, the tip of his finger was stained red, and he
nodded at Jack. “I suppose I am.”
“You okay?” Crutchy asked, his concern etched across his face.
“Yeah, yeah.” Race affirmed, waving a hand dismissively. “I’ll just, uh, be in
my room.”
He started to walk towards the door leading up to the stairwell, but stopped
himself short. “Seriously, don’t open that door.”
Three heads nodded simultaneously, and Race attempted to smile, though it must
have been more than a grimace, and walked into the stairwell. He clutched the
railing as he ascended the stairs, wanting nothing more than to sprawl across
his bed and sleep for a good five years, but when he entered his room, he was
greeted with two reasons his plans were impossible.
The first was a giant teddy bear, which lay tucked into his bed, it’s head on
his pillow and it’s feet sticking out from under the duvet, and the second was
Spot, who sat cross legged at the foot of his own bed, reading intently.
For a second he wondered if he could back out of the room without Spot noticing
- he could get very focused on his reading - but that idea was also ruined as
Spot
glanced up in his direction.
“Tony!” Spot exclaimed, “Mush got a present for y-” He started, but frowned as
he studied Race’s face.
“What the hell happened to you?” The taller boy questioned, standing up and
moving toward Race as he closed the door.
Race shrugged, attempting to get around Spot only to have his boyfriend grab
him by the shoulders and examine his face.
“Nothing.” He attempted weakly, and the younger boy glared at him.
Spot’s voice was all but coated in sarcasm when he next spoke. “Yeah, right,
okay then, I guess I’ll just ignore your bloody nose and go back to my book.”
“I’m fine” Race insisted, knowing that his words were futile.
“Bullshit, now you sit the fuck down, and I’ll go get you some ice for your
face, and then you tell me everything.” Spot told Race, maneuvering him so that
he was sitting on the edge of Spot’s bed, and then backing towards the door.
Before Race was able to reply, Spot was gone, shutting the door abruptly behind
him. Race leaned back, allowing himself to stretch across Spot’s bed
comfortably, and he felt at his nose. It definitely wasn’t broken, but it was
starting to ache and the warm heat of the blood told him that it wasn’t quite
done bleeding yet. He groaned in annoyance, tipping his head back further in a
feeble attempt to staunch the flow of blood, and stared at the ceiling. There
wasn’t really a way that he could lie himself out if this, even if he really
didn’t want Spot to know, so he resigned himself to to truth.
By the time Spot came back into the room, carrying a bag of ice and a towel,
Race had come up with a story that minimized the worst of the truth without
strictly lying, but the story died on his lips as Spot gently pressed the ice
pack against Race’s nose while dabbing at his lips and chin with the damp
towel, wiping away the worst of the blood and assessing the damage.
Race leaned into the touch, the gentleness a relief after the afternoon’s foray
into the violence that had once been the usual in Race’s life. The effort of
lying to Spot, of pretending things were okay, of avoiding the truth, it all
suddenly seemed too much for Race to handle, and before Spot could even try to
needle the truth out of him, the whole story came pouring out. He told Spot
about his uncles and how afraid he was and how he felt like he could live his
whole life running from his past and even then he would never be safe.
Spot, the goddamned asshole, listened to the whole thing, and didn’t interrupt,
or try to run off to attempt murder. Instead, he waited until Race was done
talking, nodded, and said, calmly, “Well, I guess we better show them who the
fuck they’re dealing with, because you’re with me now, and I’ve never run from
anything in my life.”
Chapter End Notes
     Race's uncles don't know what's coming at them
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