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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      F/F
  Fandom:
      Victorious
  Relationship:
      Tori_Vega/Jade_West
  Character:
      Tori_Vega, Jade_West, Holly_Vega
  Additional Tags:
      Gratuitous_Smut, Fingerfucking, Finger_Sucking, Marathon_Sex, Groping,
      Mating_Cycles/In_Heat, Fisting, Blindfolds, Awkward_First_Times, Subdrop,
      Face-Sitting, Alpha/Beta/Omega_Dynamics
  Series:
      Part 2 of Animals_and_Prizes
  Stats:
      Published: 2016-05-31 Chapters: 5/5 Words: 18409
****** Animals and Prizes (The Dirty Version) ******
by Alsike
Summary
     Bonding changes everything, but it doesn't change people. Tori and
     Jade have a lot of things to work out before they can manage a
     functional relationship. And really, with those two, will any
     relationship be functional?
Notes
     The Smutty Stuff: really, it's an A/B/O fic. What is the point of A/
     B/O without the smut?
***** First Base *****
Jade's father got away with it.  Of course he did.  He was Hadrian West.  But
Gavin went to prison for attempted rape of a mated omega.  And Jade moved in
with the Valentines.
"You and me," she told Tori, "we are separate people, okay?  Remember that. 
I'm not going to just glom onto you like you're a fucking katamari."
Her mom had saved some of her stuff when her dad had decided to burn it.  That
was something at least.  And to her annoyance, David Vega had become her
responsible alpha, because there was apparently no way for her to not have a
responsible alpha.  Fucking double standards.
Sometimes Jade hated the fact that she was mated.  And no one really got it,
that it was worse than if she had ended up as Gavin's property, because she had
had a choice, she had said, yeah, okay, I'll be your bitch. 
But she hadn't wanted to say no.
It was her choice.  Tori had made certain it was her choice, and who else was
going to give that to her? 
But really?  Was that all there was that went into deciding?  Gratitude? 
Escape?  The possibility of training Tori to be the sort of alpha that she
could deal with?
Jade hated the fact that she was mated, but she hated herself more.
School was utter shit.  She had warned Tori, "I am not cuddly, I am not mushy,
and if you hug me at school in public I'll bite, okay?"
Tori, who had suddenly decided to grow a backbone had responded, "oh please,
you were always all over Beck."
"I was all over Beck because of you."
And, of course, Tori grinned like she had said something sweet, when it wasn't
sweet at all.  Tori had made her crazy,and angry and insane, and clearly now
she belonged in a mental institution because she was with her.  And everyone
knew.
People scented the mating bond and then the gossip flew around the school until
everyone was gaping at them like they were animals in the fucking circus.
Jade was not having any of it.  She had her largest, shiniest, sharpest pair of
scissors out and she made Tori stay three feet away from her at all times.
But that just made the gossip worse.  And some of it struck unpleasantly close
to home.  Cat, because she was genetically incapable of keeping her goddamn
mouth shut, had made it obvious that Jade was staying with her family, and
stupid rumors started going about about Jade using Tori to get out of a bad
situation.  The most detailed ones had her drugging herself and manipulating
Tori fight for her like some weird gladiator.  And it made her furious.  She
had done everything she could to not get Tori involved, to keep her safe, keep
her away.
It hadn't worked.  Tori was really not that easy to manipulate.
But apparently mated pairs were supposed to be inseparable, with like,
emotional telepathy or some shit, and just because they weren't joined at the
fucking hip, Jade had to be taking advantage of her.
Jade had had enough.
Another alpha decided to accost Tori in the middle of the hallway.  He cast a
suspicious glance over at Jade, who was at her locker, and raised an eyebrow at
Tori.  "Hey, did you really mate that bitch?"
"Don't call her that," Tori replied, in a tone that was mostly bored.  "It's
both dated and prejudiced."
"I didn't say it because she's an omega."  He grinned, as if he thought he was
clever.  "It takes balls to risk your knot around that kind of... girl.  But
have you even got a knot?"  He was way too close, as if he was going to check
with his hands, and that was NOT okay.  "Maybe she'd be less of a... girl, if
you fucked her proper."  His hand went to cup Tori's shoulder.  "Need some hel-
" his words ended in a squeak.
The tips of the scissors made a slight dent in his skin, and a tiny prick
caused one drop of blood to well up.
"Step away," she said softly.  "Step back and get the fuck out of here before I
grind your knot into hamburger."
"O-okay."  His eyes widened in panic, hands quivering.  Awkwardly and off
balance, he swiveled and fled.
Tori laughed softly.  "You know I can handle this on my own," she said.
Of course she knew that.  She probably had to do it three times a day, when
Jade couldn't see her, because Jade was too freaked out about this situation to
do anything useful.  But that was over now. 
"You don't get to anymore."  Jade narrowed her eyes.  "Not on your own."
Tori's stupid face was the problem.  She couldn't help but look nice and
unthreatening.  And the other problem was, well, her.
Fine, she was pissed off most of the time.  She had a right to be - getting
kicked out of her house, having her stuff burned, having to live in close
proximity to Cat's crazy brother.  But she wasn't going to sit back and let the
gossips wonder if they had faked the whole thing.  "How could they be mated and
not even look at each other?"
"Fine!"she snapped.
Tori looked confused.  "Huh?  Fine what?"
Jade ignored her and grabbed her hand, dragging her toward the asphalt cafe. 
She climbed up on one of the tables and pulled Tori up after her.
"Hello, everyone!"
"Jade!" Tori hissed at her.  "What are you doing?  I'm having really bad
flashbacks right now!"
Jade rolled her eyes and ignored her.  "As pretty much everyone knows, Tori
Vega and I got mated a week or so ago."  It was ten days, ten difficult,
painful days, of dealing with cops and lawyers, sleeping on sofas, ending up in
what was essentially a walk in closet at the Valentines'.  All she had had that
felt like home was the ability to lean into Tori's chest and breathe in her
scent and let the idiotic chemicals in her brain do their best to calm her
down.  It worked, and Jade hated that it worked (but loved it at the same
time).
"And you all probably have some questions about, say, why and how this
happened?"  Jade narrowed her eyes.  "It's none of your business.  'Why' is
between us, and 'how' you can find out on Wikipedia.  There is just one thing
you need to know.  Tori is my alpha.  And that means everything it's supposed
to mean."  Her hand slid around the back of Tori's neck. 
Tori's lips quirked with amusement.  "What are you trying to do?"
Jade rolled her eyes, leaned in, and kissed her.  She nipped at her lower lip. 
Tori squeezed her ass and kissed back, firmly.  Kissed her like she wanted her,
wanted her enough to take her, enough to never be sure that she owned her.
"Oh, and by the way," Jade added.  "You douches who are obsessed with knotting
- " She gave a slight flick of her eyebrows.  "Let's just say, you wish you had
a knot like she does.  It's like double your best, and she can tie for fucking
forty minutes."
Tori's jaw dropped.  "Wait- what?"
The hoots and catcalls doubled in volume.  Jade pursed her lips in amusement
and dragged a reddening Tori off the table and to the janitor's closet.
"Oh my god!  Why did you say that?  They're going to-" She waved her hand,
gesturing to essentially her entire body.  Jade smiled and let her eyes run
over it.
"So what?  Now they'll stop asking."
"But they'll think I've got, like-"  She made a face.
"You've got what I need.  Okay?"
"Okay."  Tori laughed, covering her face.  "We haven't even..."
"None of their business.  None of it is their business."
"Then why did you decide to tell everyone?"
Jade rolled her eyes.  "Because I've had enough of them judging me for not
wanting you enough."
Tori's eyes widened.  "Jade - what-"
"They think I'm using you."  She spat the words.  "And maybe I am.  But it
isn't their business.  I chose you.  I chose this.  They don't get to tell me
that I should have chosen differently."
"But what does that have to do with telling them that I have," she wrinkled her
nose, "a knot the size of a cantelope.  Which I don't, in case you were
wondering."
Jade snorted in amusement.  "Well, I had to give them some reason why I had
picked you above all of the other alphas, and it's not like they're going to
believe that it's because..."
"Because what?"  Tori reached out, cupping her chin and tipped it up, lifting
Jade's gaze until it met her own.  She was worried and curious, needy in a way
that Jade doubted she could manage to sate.  Jade sighed.  "Because you make me
look you in the eye.  And you're the best thing I've ever had."
Tori gave her a half-puzzled grin.  "The best thing?"
Jade sighed and stepped into her, initiating a hug, burying her face in Tori's
shoulder.  Tori's arms tightened around her in just the way she had wanted them
to.  "That doesn't mean you're all that high ranked.  My life has been pretty
shitty.  And it's probably the mating hormones and the fact that you're an
alpha who doesn't revolt me, but you make me feel like... like things can be
okay, and I've never felt like that before, in my entire life."
Tori's hand cupped the back of her head, stroking her hair.  "Really?"
"Not for a long time at least."  Jade pulled back, shaking her head.  "It
doesn't mean anything.  Feelings don't mean anything.  They're just stupid
chemicals fucking around in your brain.  None of them are natural and none of
them are real, they're just-"
Tori kissed her, cutting her off.  "Just enjoy the illusion for a little while,
okay?"
She kissed her again, and Jade sank into it, parting her lips when Tori's
tongue darted out to test her.  The goddamn chemicals flooded her system,
lighting her fingertips on fire, purring in her chest like a happy lioness. 
Tori's scent surrounded her, seeping inside, drawing her out, toward her, and
opening her up.  Tori's kiss went rough and Jade's fingers wound into her hair,
pulling tight.  Tori hissed, then bit at her lower lip.
Fine.  Fine.
It might all be an illusion, but it was one that was far too good to leave.
***** Second Base *****
Being in an alpha pack was great... and yet it was also pretty awkward.  They
didn't really have boundaries.  And Tori was cool with being an alpha, but she
didn't want to be anywhere in the room when there was a knot measuring contest
going on.  One was just starting up, and she snuck out to lurk in the kitchen
of Doug's house and miss the exhibitionism.
"You know some guys are just obsessed with knotting," said Pete, one of her new
alpha buds.  "But they don't get it.  You get it, I'm sure.  You couldn't not,
with that girl you call your mate."
Tori (Tor, in the pack, or sometimes Vic, if the alphas were being particularly
lighthearted.  They disapproved of more than one syllable names.) forced a
smile, her eyebrows slightly tweaked in confusion.  "Uh, get what?"
"Tits."
Tori froze.  "Uh, um.  What about them?"
"That they're fucking amazing!"  Pete seemed rather astonishingly thrilled by
the concept.
"They are?"
Pete's jaw dropped.  "You mean you don't-  you haven't..."  He gave a pitiful
sigh.  "Yours aren't quite enough to get the real experience, but your girl -
now she's got a set on her, and you haven't felt it up?"
Tori knew she should probably have blushed herself out by now, but apparently
there was no helping it.  "We haven't... I mean, we're just getting to-."
Pete grinned.  "You're in for a treat.  Man, they're just so soft, and they
feel so good.  And if you play it right you can make her scream."
Tori swallowed.  "I, uh, it sounds good."  It sounded a little too good.  Tori
squeezed her thighs together and breathed through her nose.  Damn it.  Why did
alphas have to talk about sex so much?  Apparently there was an art to making
omegas hot between heats, which Tori always paid attention to and wished she
didn't.  There was also an art to knotting betas that didn't make them cry and
kick you out of bed forever.  Tori tried to avoid instruction in that
particular art, but she had managed to hear the basics enough time that she
doubted she'd ever forget them.  (1. Take it slow; 2. Fingers first; 3. Lots of
lube; 4. Don't let them get bored!)
But it didn't matter what they were talking about, hanging out with alphas
always meant talking about sex.  And talking about sex meant thinking about
Jade.  And thinking about Jade meant trying not to double over at the tightness
in her gut.
It also made her feel like a perv when they were together.
Because Jade really clearly wasn't having these problems, or if she was she was
a lot better at not showing it.  And she was being all weirdly formal and old
fashioned about things.  At the first chance she got she moved into the
Valentines', and then she wouldn't just come over and hang out.  She expected
dates. 
Tori complained about this to her mother who just raised an eyebrow at her. 
"Do you just want to be friends?  Or are you actually making an effort here?"
Tori tried not to jump up and down in annoyance.  What was the difference
between having a friend that you really, really wanted to make out with all the
time and being in a relationship?  No one had satisfactorily explained this to
her, and when her dad tried it seemed pretty obvious that it boiled down to
someone being the dude and paying for things.  Since Jade didn't have any money
anymore, of course Tori was going to pay for things, but whenever she did it
was obvious that Jade hated it, and whenever she acted like the dude, Jade
hated it.  Essentially, dating just wasn't working out.
But it had to work out.
And then Tori figured out that she was being stupid.  She got a hundred dollars
from her mother - who grinned widely in approval when she heard the idea - and
stuffed it in an envelope.  On the front she wrote, "Take your girl out, on me,
okay? She expects flowers and for you to look super hot."  Then she stuffed the
envelope into Jade's locker.
"What the hell is this, Vega!" Jade smacked her in the face with the envelope.
"It's your turn!" Tori snapped back.  "You're sick of being the omega all the
time, and I'm sick of it too!  I like being an alpha but it would be nice if
someone noticed I was a girl also!"
Jade looked shocked, and Tori took the opportunity for a diva storm out. 
During Sikowitz's class she got the text she had been waiting for. || Friday at
7? || Tori grinned and glanced over at Jade, slouched in her chair in the back
of the room, and gave her a happy thumbs up.
|| Dork.||  But she also got a slight flick of her kitty-cat smile.
Trina tried to advise her on what to wear and Tori very carefully rejected
everything she approved of.  She ended up in a short black dress, because Jade
liked black, and because Trina wrinkled her nose at it like it repelled her
utterly.
She wasn't quite finished dressing when the doorbell rang and she nearly fell
down the steps, trying to get her second shoe on as she went.
Jade stood outside, looking bored and checking her watch... in a fedora, a vest
over an open white shirt and pinstriped trousers... and she shoved a purple
dahlia in her general direction.  "You ready yet?"
Tori just gaped, unable to find words.  "You..."
Jade made a snapping motion with her hand.  "Speak."
Tori laughed, taking the flower.  "You're the worstboyfriend ever.  Be less of
a jerk."
Jade raised an eyebrow.  "Too much of a jerk for you to date?"
Tori shrugged.  "You're hot enough to make up for it."
Jade let her eyes drag all the way up Tori's body from foot to head.  "You'll
do, Legs."
Tori shoved her arm goodnaturedly and then hooked their elbows together. 
"Jerkoff."
Jade gave her an eyebrow raise and half a grin that was almost like a 'thank
you.'
Tori felt a little bit like one of those girls who would protest and protest
that their boyfriend was the sweetest guy around even when everyone else knew
he was a jerk and told her that she could do better.  But she couldn't help
being stupid and giddy about the whole thing.  It was Jade, looking amazing,
and looking at her, like she knew that Tori was hers and was glad of it.  She
didn't expect Jade to say nice things, but she did nice things, like getting
the door for her and pulling out her chair, though she did it all with a
lackadaisical disinterest, as if it was obvious something she should do.  Tori
watched her critically.  It didn't feel quite like she was playing a role, or,
if she was, she was taking it very seriously.
"Do you like this?"
Jade raised an eyebrow.  "It's better that time you tried to take me to get
pizza."
"I like pizza!" Tori protested.
Jade gave her a look, then waved down the waiter.  "I'm ordering for you."
"Seriously?"
Apparently she was serious.  Tori wasn't sure what she was supposed to feel
about that.  It was kind of offensive, and it was kind of nice - a little
risky, since Tori didn't know half the words that Jade was using to order - but
exciting too.
Jade's eyes flicked to her when the waiter went.  "You look... fine with this."
Tori rested her chin on her hand.  "I am.  I like trying new things.  I trust
you."
"You trust me?  I gave you garbage coffee."
It had been pretty good coffee.  "I guess... I'd drink garbage coffee again. 
If you gave it to me."
The look that crossed Jade's face was unreadable.  "I guess," she said slowly,
"that I don't trust you."
That hurt.  Tori looked away.  Why was this so hard?
"But tonight you've made it so I don't have to.  You gave it up - gave up the
control.  And maybe that makes me trust you a little more."
Tori cocked her head and offered a slight smile.  That wasn't what she had
expected from this, but it sounded like a good result.  She wasn't sure what
she had expected, but Jade in a fedora saying she maybe trusted her a little
was a start.
It was more than she had gotten on all the other dates.
"Look," Jade said.  "I'm not good with blind trust.  I like boundaries.  If I
don't have boundaries, I push until something pops up.  So I will do more and
more outrageous things to find out where they are.  You didn't mind me ordering
for you - and I would have pitched a fit.  So what would make you angry?  If
you tell me the boundary, I don't have to go looking for it.  Because I know
looking for it will piss you off."
Now that was useful information.  Tori chewed on her lip, considering it.  "I'm
not really sure.  I mean, I wouldn't like it to become a habit - you picking
things for me, or making me do only what you want me to do."
"I hate it when you sit like that.  Don't slouch over the table.  Sit up
straight."
Tori flinched back.  "That!  Don't do that!  You aren't my parent."
Jade grinned.  "Well, there's one boundary."
Tori breathed out again.  Okay, yeah.  It was better to state the boundaries
right out or she was going to cut someone on accident.  "I don't-  I don't like
it when you disapprove of me, like I'm not good enough.  If you really don't
like something, I want you to tell me.  And I don't care if you don't like my
clothes or my dancing - I mean, I care but I have enough confidence in some
things to go with what I like.  I don't need to please you all the time." 
"I hated your bird scene."
"I thought it was awesome."
Jade laughed a little, nodding.  "You trained a bird.  It was hilarious."
"You have no idea how much work that took!"
And suddenly Jade's expression changed again.  "It took the right amount of
work," she said.  "You took the assignment seriously, if not... originally."
Tori swallowed.  This was way too intense a conversation, but conversations
with Jade were always intense.  Intense and... intimate, in a weird way.  "I
like the way you throw yourself into the assignments.  Even if they're the most
stupid things, you're deadly serious, and never... self conscious."
Jade watched her, frowning slightly.  "How serious are you about this life?"
"What?"  Tori frowned.  What life?
"About performing.  Are you really serious about wanting to make a living in
the arts?  You're not going to like, decide to be a doctor or something idiotic
like that, right?"
"What?  I..."  Tori hadn't really thought about this.  "I don't know.  I mean,
I like it.  I really like it."  It gave her a high that probably should be
illegal.  "I'd like to do it if I can."
"I'm going to drag you down.  You're not going to be a popstar as a female
alpha with an omega mate."
"Says who?" Tori shot back.  "I can do whatever I want to do."
"You really believe that?  You're deluded, Vega."
"I can try."  Tori took a breath.  She was probably right.  "It doesn't
matter.  I don't need to make it big to be happy."
"Of course it matters!" Jade's voice was harsh and rough.  "You don't think I
would do whatever I could to succeed if I had the opportunity?"
"You do have the opportunity," Tori said.  This wasn't about her at all, was
it?  "And do whatever you could?  What does that mean?"
Jade froze.  Then she narrowed her eyes.  "You wondering if it means casting
couch?  Would it piss you off?"
"I might kill someone."  Tori said, then looked down at her cute dress and was
like seriously?
Jade leaned back and laughed.  "Maybe I'd like to see that."
"Uh, no, you wouldn't.  Dad said that if I had hit Gavin anywhere else with the
lamp or any harder I might have cracked his skull.  There could have been
brains everywhere."
Jade pressed her lips together.  "I wouldn't have minded."
She remembered more of what had happened.  She would probably know best.  Tori
nodded.  "But if you chose it, I'd feel bad about killing the guy."
Jade looked down.  "I wouldn't do that.  I couldn't stand it."
"You know," Tori said slowly.  "Me killing someone - that shouldn't matter." 
Jade's gaze came up and her brow furrowed.  "I don't want to be policing your
behavior.  I shouldn't be able to.  Me killing someone has nothing to do with
you.  I need to control myself and your actions aren't relevant to that."
"What do you mean?"
"I have to decide what to do.  If you sleep with someone to get ahead and I
kill him, I've fucked up because I let my crazy get the better of me."
"And I fucked up because I put my career ahead of you?"
"No," Tori said.  "You never promised me anything like that.  We're mated, not
married.  You never promised me anything."
"Except hugs."
Tori nodded.  "Except hugs."
"You're nuts," Jade said.  "So I could cheat on you because I never promised
not to, and you couldn't be pissed?"
"I'd be hurt.  I wouldn't be pissed.  I don't have the right."
"Why the hell not!"
"Because I don't own you!  That's what I'm trying to show you here!  I'm not
just letting you off your leash for a romp in the park.  You need to figure out
what you want from me, because I only want two things from you.  I want you to
care about me, and I want you to be happy with me.  That's all.  Those are the
only dealbreakers."
"The only dealbreakers?  Are you serious?  Gavin and I had a three page
contract that detailed exactly what my obligations and rights were."
Tori swallowed.  A contract?
"I was allowed to finish high school.  I was allowed to go to college, if it
was nearby and if I studied something reasonable.  I was obligated to bear him
either a male alpha heir or five children.  I was obligated to-"
"I'm not Gavin!"  Jade shut up, but her eyes flared with anger.  "I'm not going
to take control of your life!  I don'twant to take control of your life!  I
want you to do what you want to do, do what you love, do what makes you happy. 
If staying mated to me makes you happy then I want to, but if it doesn't, then
don't.  I don't want to be the one to ruin your life!"
Jade was silent for a long moment.  "Ruin it?  You gave me one."  She sighed. 
"That can't be all you want from me.  You can't... You deserve more.  I owe
you-"
"Nuh-uh!  You owe me honesty, okay?"
"Honesty?"  Jade stared at her, and sank back into her chair.  "Honestly, I
will drag you down.  I will make your life harder.  I can keep you from getting
what you want."
"I want to be happy.  That doesn't mean impressing the whole world.  I don't
have to be a star."
"I thought I did."  Jade stared at the table.  "If I had a big break, I thought
maybe my dad would think I'm special - not just a cheap-ass bargaining chip.  I
could bring in the cash and he would love me as much as he loved money."
"You're worth more than money."
"Don't be a sap, Vega."
Tori grinned.  "Sorry."
Jade glanced up at her, and then her eyes darkened.  "Honesty, you said?"  She
shrugged lightly.  "You look really hot in that dress."
"Oh!"  Tori felt her cheeks heat up.  "Um, thanks."
"Have you considered investing in a push up bra?"
Tori covered her face and laughed.  "You're the worst!"
"What?  I like to look at you.  And I can't say I'm not pleased when you get
stares from beta guys that you will never want as much as you want me.  I'm
good with handfuls, but if you look less like a beanpole they'll be even more
jealous of me."
"You like that?"
Jade shrugged.  "People get weirded out that you're an alpha, but you're a
girl, too.  I like that.  Maybe if you make it more obvious, I'll freak out
less over you being an alpha."
"So, a push up bra would help with your psychological issues?"
Jade smirked.  "Better than pills."
The waiter put a plate down in front of them.  "Your ceviche."
Tori looked at the bowl and wrinkled her nose.  "What on earth is ceviche?"
"Raw seafood," Jade said blandly.
Tori narrowed her eyes.  "This isn't garbage coffee, is it?"
Jade picked up a miniature fork.  "No," she said, and took a bite, giving a
waggle of her eyebrows as if to say, 'do you dare?'
Tori dared.
About halfway through the third rather peculiar course a funny looking beta man
came in, waving over at a table of other diners.
Jade froze, looking astonished.  "Fuck.  Is that Tony Kushner?"
"Who?"
Jade narrowed her eyes.  "Seriously?  You don't know who Tony Kushner is?"
"No," Tori tried not to feel entirely humiliated. 
"He's a playwrite.  Jeez.  What do you do with your life?"
"I'm not-"  Tori bit off her words.  "Look.  I'm not a drama geek.  I didn't
obsess about being in the movies or on broadway or whatever since I was two. 
That was Trina, and I really, really tried to not pay attention when she
spoke."
Jade cocked her head.  "That's reasonable."
"What?"  That was not the response Tori had expected.
"But if you are serious about performance, you should know Tony Kushner.  He
does some really interesting things.  He even wrote the book for a musical that
made me want to try it."
"You... want to write a musical?"
Jade tensed.  "Is that-"
Was she asking if it was okay?  Gavin and her dad were not allowed to haunt
this relationship.  She would be supportive 'til it killed her. "That sounds
really cool, but - a musical?  Like, a horror musical?"
Jade rolled her eyes, but she relaxed, settling into the comfortably dismissive
posture that Tori had decided to think of as male beta Jade.  "More of a
psychological thriller.  I'm thinking of making Andre work with me on it."
"I'll audition!"
Jade gave her a long considering look.  "Learn to cry on cue and we can talk."
"Um, sure."
Jade pulled a notebook out of her pocket and flipped it open.  She wrote a name
down on the first line.  "Okay," she said.  "Let's see what other gaps in your
performance education we need to fill in."
"You're making a list?"
Jade cocked her head and almost smiled.  "You're a long term project."
"I'm a project?"
"You work on me and I'll work on you."  She tugged the brim of her fedora and
smirked.
Did that count as working on her?  She looked happy - and when she paid for
dinner she looked even happier.  So maybe it did.
Jade pulled up outside Tori's house and walked her to her door.  Tori ducked
her head and tucked some hair behind her ear.  "This was fun."
"You admitting that I'm a better date than you are?"
"You took it really seriously!  Next time it's my turn, and I'm going to be the
best date."
"What?  You weren't taking me seriously before?"  Jade's eyes glinted, and Tori
felt a slice of excitement cut through her belly.
"Maybe I thought it would be easy."
"You thought I would be easy."
Tori laughed.  No, never that. "I've never done this before."
"What?  Make an ass of yourself pursuing a girl without figuring out that you
want to bang her, accidentally mate her, and then pull some stupid hero hijinks
to save the fucking day?"
Tori winced.  Well, she had never done that before either.  "I mean date
anyone, try to have a relationship.  Movies make it seem easy."
"You need to watch better movies."  Jade flipped open her list and added
another name to it.  "And most things are a lot more difficult than they seem
in the movies.  Consider jumping from the roof of a moving car onto a train. 
In the movies, easy.  Don't try it at home."
"Well, when you put it like that..."
Jade stepped closer to her, putting a hand possessively on her hip.  Tori's
mouth shut.  "I've never done it either."
She leaned in and kissed her.  Tori sighed into it.  Her alpha purred.  Somehow
it felt just as good to have Jade be the one pressing her against the door and
cupping her jaw firmly to turn her head as did the reverse.  Maybe belonging to
someone was a lot more of a symmetric relationship than most people assumed.
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On Saturday Jade showed up at 10 am with a stack of DVDs.
"Hey, cancel your plans.  You're getting educated."
Tori couldn't help but grin.
They sprawled out lazily on Tori's bed and Jade gave her a short lecture on
Cary Grant and the New Alpha before sticking in the first film and curling up
against her.  Tori loved the way Jade smelled, and the soft curve of her hip
under her hand, and even the elbow to her ribs whenever Jade thought she wasn't
paying attention.
After a while she stopped getting the elbows, but she stopped noticing, because
the dynamic in the movie had pulled her in.  A spoilt and bitchy omega
struggling for independence, for control, that ended in submission to a
dominant, casually cruel, sexually powerful alpha.  Jade's body was tense under
hers, but not in the way she expected.  It hummed slightly, rough pants high in
her chest, and Tori noticed that her hand had kept sliding over Jade's hip,
down her leg and back up, throughout the film.
"Do youlike this movie?" Tori asked softly.
Jade rolled over to look at her.  Her eyes were slightly dilated, lips red,
cheeks pinked.  "Not... intellectually.  But, it's-"  She hesitated, and Tori
leaned in to capture her lips.  Jade fell back, arching slightly, pressing her
hips up.
"It turns you on?" Tori inquired.  It was a two hour movie.  That was some
effort there.
"Not usually." Jade grinned.
"Do you... want it?"
"Want what?"  An inquisitive eyebrow suggested an available option.
"Want to be topped?"  Tori winced.  "Because you hate being controlled."
Jade stared at her, blue-green eyes wide and shocked.  "Yeah," she said.  "I
hate it, in real life.  But in bed... I could go for that.  Sometimes."
"Oh."  Tori felt herself stiffen.  She wasn't sure whether the thought was more
exciting or more terrifying.  "I don't know if I can do that."
Jade leaned into her shoulder, biting down lightly.  "You're an alpha.  Do what
comes naturally."
Did any of this really come naturally?  Kissing her did.  Kissing her was like
jumping off a cliff - the run up, the terror, and then finding out you could
fly and you never wanted to land.  The skin of her neck was smooth and warm and
Jade made little submissive whimpering sounds when she kissed and licked at
it.  Tori found herself on top, Jade warm and firm under her... and soft.
Tori shifted backwards until she was sitting, and pulled Jade up, propping her
against a stack of pillows when she seemed disinclined to stay upright.
"What?" Jade mumbled.  "That was going fine."
"Yeah."  Tori leaned in and licked the hollow of her throat, not letting her
eyes drop, but spotting the reddening mark she had left high up under Jade's
jaw.  It was a kind of possession, a vivid splash of it.  And Tori felt a rush
of arousal following.  Oh, that was what she meant by coming naturally. 
Wanting to pin Jade's wrists against the wall, bite and suck to leave more
marks, hold down her hips and hear her beg.
She so wasn't ready for any of that.
But... Tori's eyes flicked down.  Maybe she was ready for one thing.  She
leaned in for one more kiss - open mouths - wet - tongue.
"God," Jade leaned her head back, gripping the bedspread until her knuckles
went white.  "I'm not going into heat for another week.  You shouldn't be able
to make me this hot."
Tori breathed, her chest tight, shutting her eyes to try to regain control. 
"Can I..."
Jade's eyes were dark and heavily lidded.  The corners of her lips quirked up. 
"Do what you want to me."
Tori leaned in and pressed her lips against her neck.  Tentatively, hesitantly,
she let her hand slide up to cup Jade's left breast.  It was so... soft, like
just risen dough, and heavy, far more so than her own.  Her thumb brushed over
Jade's nipple, and she hissed. 
"Oh, I'm sorry!"  Tori jerked her hand back. 
Jade glared at her, furiously.  "Don't you dare stop.  Take my shirt off and do
it again!"
Tori's mom could walk in at any moment, and if she even passed by she probably
would.  Anyone within smelling distance of the room would know what was going
on in here.  But the chance to see Jade topless, and to do more than just
see...
Tori's gut clenched.  Oh no, it wasn't just for the bragging rights.
"Oh yes please," she squeaked.
Jade snorted in amusement.
Hurriedly she wrestled a laughing Jade out of her shirt, and then fumbled
helplessly with her bra.  It wasn't fair.  She was supposed to be able to
manage that part!  But getting a bra off of someone else and getting one off
yourself were not quite equivalent. But then she got it and it popped open,
dropping down, Jade's breasts tumbling free.  Jade shrugged it off, and leaned
back, smirking, confident. 
A tight hot throb between her legs made Tori flinch.  She reached out, cupping
the smooth curve of skin, rubbing her thumb over the puckered areola.  Jade
gave a strained little gasp, arching her back, just slightly - enough to press
her breast harder into Tori's hand.
The rush of heat and power made her light headed.  Tori licked the pad of her
thumb and brushed it across Jade's nipple.  Jade's hips jerked.
"Fuck, Tori."
Tori pinched the nipple between her thumb and forefinger and rolled.  She
leaned in and caught the other with her lips, licking and sucking, moving her
weight to press down on Jade's writhing hips.
"Tori, god, Tori - I need you.  I need you in me."  She bit.  "Fuck!"
"OH MY GOOOOOOOD!"  Trina's shrill tones broke through the fevered heat.  Tori
pulled back and looked over.  Trina slapped her hands over her eyes.  "I've
been scarred for life!"
"Trina, what?"
"I've seen my little sister's knot!"
Tori and Jade exchanged a puzzled glance.
"These are my tits," Jade said flatly.  "I know they might look a little
impressive compared to the ones you've seen, but no knots are out right now."
Trina took her hands away from her eyes.  "I know what tits look like," she
said.  She eyed up Jade a little more than Tori was comfortable with.  "And
mine are bigger."
"Trina!" Tori yelped.  This was too much.  She scrambled up and hustled Trina
to the door.  "Get out!  And stop ogling my girlfriend's breasts."
"It's your fault for taking them out during daylight hours!  Put a sock on the
door handle, damn it!"  Trina flounced down the hall.
Tori shut the door and leaned back against it.  "So, that killed the mood, I
guess."
Jade snorted.  "If Trina walked into an orgy it would wilt."
Tori sagged.  Jade's breasts were still right there.  She hadn't wilted
completely.
Jade rolled her eyes.  "Get over here and we can snuggle.  You can even feel me
up, if you're that desperate.  I'm putting on the next movie."
Tori pouted.  "I'm not that desperate."
Jade raised an eyebrow, then started reaching for her shirt.
"Nonononono!" Tori leaped across the room and looped her arms around her,
pulling her into her chest.
"God, you're a dork!"  But Jade turned toward her, grinning, and kissed her
lightly on the cheek.  She reached out and hit the spacebar on the laptop and
then lay back, letting Tori curl around her.  "Now this is a really good one,
and there's going to be a quiz afterwards, so don't get too distracted or I'm
putting them away."
Tori nuzzled into Jade's hair and let her hands side up until she held what she
wanted to.  "I'll have you know that I am an excellent student."
And Suspicion was an excellent movie, though ever after, Tori could not discuss
it in public without turning the color of a tomato.  And when she saw Pete the
next afternoon she totally got a high five.
***** Third Base *****
After the date, Tori had started to wear more skirts - not to school, or for
hanging out with the alphas, but at other times.  It was impossibly tempting. 
Jade had always been so good at not looking, not touching, not caring in
public.  She wasn't one of those omegas who had no independent existence
outside of her alpha.  But ever since that date where Tori had essentially
slapped her in the face with the fact that she was a girl and wanted to be
treated as one - on occasion - Jade felt like things had opened up.  The place
inside of her which was nothing but struggle and hatred, fighting against
herself, against her submission, against the desperation that drew her to
alphas - now only to this one specific alpha, the one who now was the target of
all the hate and desperation and fear - that place could still.  She could
rest.
She had another option.  She didn't have to be the omega all the time.  She
didn't have to cling or submit.  She could possess.  Not that she wanted Tori
hanging off of her either.  That happened often enough as it was and it was
suffocating.  But when she wore skirts, Jade let herself look. 
She was subtle about it.  She looked without turning her head, but she let her
eyes linger on legs and hips, and the slight curve of her ass.  She could tell
Tori noticed, and was pleased by it.  And Jade thought she might be okay with
that. 
On those days she stayed nearby, always slightly to the rear, and close - close
enough to step between Tori and anyone else who might be sidling a little too
far into her personal space.  And occasionally, when they were forced into
tight proximity, she would rest her hand on the small of her back, or a little
lower.  Though what she really wanted to do was cup the bare skin of her leg
and slide up.
As her heat grew nearer and nearer it took more and more effort to not scoot
her desk right next to Tori's and do it during class.
But she was being good.  She would be good until Friday night.  Or, well, that
had been the plan.
Somehow, Jade had managed to get wrangled in to going to the movies with the
whole crowd on Friday.  She had been planning on going on a date - but no.  Cat
wanted to see the new Bond, which looked to be absolutely terrible, and Andre
and Robbie and Beck were all enthused.  Worse.  Tori was enthused.  Jade got
pissed, and shouted at her when she said she wanted to go.  But then Cat had
tugged on her arm and pouted, saying, "Mom will only let me go if you drive
us."  And so, Jade was forced into playing chauffeur. 
As Jade drove down Tori's street, Cat bopping along to a song beside her, she
spotted her alpha waiting on the sidewalk, and her knuckles on the steering
wheel went white.
Tori had worn a skirt - a short skirt.  And there was only skin underneath.  No
nylons, no fishnets, just showing off her Californian tan to the sky.  It was
clearly to get back at her for the shouting.  (How did Tori manage to figure it
out, damn it?  She knew just what had caused the outburst and how to make it
six times worse!)
The three goddamn beta boys were going to be a pain about this.
Jade pulled up right in front of the curb where Tori was waiting and leaned out
her rolled-down window.  "Looking for business?" she inquired.  "I've got
twenty bucks."
Tori rolled her eyes.  "Don't be a gank," and then she leaned down and kissed
her.
Cat shrieked in excitement.
Jade smiled.  Tori wasn't going to make her pay for her outburst.  This movie
just might be worthwhile.
However, Jade totally hadn't overreacted.  The skirt was actually that short. 
All three boys did a double-take, though Beck was the most subtle about it.  He
grinned at Jade though and gave her a subtle thumbs up.  Jade just glared.  She
hadn't forgiven him for going after Tori, even though finding out she was an
alpha and then the whole mess ending with them mating and being a couple was
probably enough punishment.  Andre catcalled.  Robbie turned purple, and Jade
grabbed Rex and threw him over the wall into the dumpsters before he could
comment.
"Hey!"
"You can fish him out after the movie!"
Then she grabbed Tori's hand.  Tori looked at her, rather surprised.  Jade
pulled the twenty out of her pocket.  "Here," she said.  "You're bought for
tonight.  No moonlighting."
"Jade."
Jade quirked an eyebrow in response. 
In the theatre she scanned the audience.  It was an early showing, not too
crowded.  There were a few open rows near the back.  The group went for the
first one, but Jade dragged Tori to the last one.
"What?  We're not sitting with everyone?"
"You can talk to them about it afterwards.  I want you to myself now."
"Okay."  Tori offered her dumb 'you're being nice to me' grin again.
Jade shook her head and forced her to sit.  "Tell me when you're sick of it."
"When I'm sick of it?"
"I've been training you.  This movie is shit.  You should be able to tell.  Let
me know when you've had enough."
Tori looked surprised, but intrigued.  Then she settled in to watch the movie,
and Jade watched her.
It hurt a little, to watch her.  Because here, breathing her in in a dark
theatre mostly on their own, she couldn't focus on all of the shit that had
happened.  She couldn't make herself hate it.  She couldn't even make herself
hate herself.  She was the one who had failed to fix things, impress her
father, fight back, figure out that Gavin was the worst.  But it didn't matter
now.  Tori had done nothing wrong.  Tori had saved her from her own failures. 
And now she was here, and she almost felt like it was okay.
She couldn't hate Tori for saving her.  Not anymore.
It still wasn't fair.  Tori was cute and nice and considerate and everything
that Jade didn't deserve and shouldn't get.  But if it was on offer, Jade was
going to take it.  She would take her.  And if she wouldn't specify anything
she wanted in return, Jade would have to figure out what she could give. 
Jade leaned over until their shoulders brushed.  Tori gave her a surprised
glance, but didn't move away.  She looked back up at the screen, watching the
endless previews involving fast cars, explosions, hard-bodied alphas, half-
dressed female betas, and omegas in danger - there was possibly a pit of snakes
involved in one.  Jade let her hand slide down and twist into Tori's.  Tori
squeezed her hand.  It was kind of humiliating exactly how comforting that
was.  But comfort hadn't been the intent.  These idiot movies could be
absorbing, even though they were bad.  She had to remind her that there was
something more interesting on offer.
When the first super-shiny bond car came on the screen, Jade started rubbing
her thumb up and down over Tori's hand.  A slight tension ran through her, but
then she relaxed, leaning into her, her scent warming.  At the first explosion,
Jade rested her head on Tori's shoulder.  At the third explosion, Tori yawned
and started rubbing her hand back. 
"You're right," she whispered.  "This is pretty bad."
"Good girl."
Tori grinned, shaking her head slightly.  Jade moved in to kiss her.  Tori
kissed back and sighed when Jade sucked lightly on her lower lip. 
"I really don't look like a hooker in this skirt, do I?"
If that wasn't an invitation, what was?  Jade put her hand on Tori's thigh,
smooth warm bare skin.  Her thumb played with the hem of the skirt.  "If I was
your alpha and I thought you wore it for anyone but me, I would be seriously
pissed."
"Only if you were an alpha?  I thought Beck would really like it."
Jade sunk her nails into Tori's leg.  Tori squeaked and batted her away.  "You
know I wore it for you!"
Jade leaned in and pressed a harsh kiss against her mouth.  "Yeah.  I know."
"Shhh!" someone hissed.
Jade whirled and readied to savage them.  But hands caught her wrists and Tori
pulled her back toward her. 
"Leave them alone," Tori whispered.  "I want you to pay attention to me."
Jade shook her head, looking up through her lashes with a slight wry grin.  "I
can totally do that."
The next kiss lingered, sweet and slow and lazy.  Jade cupped Tori's hip, with
one hand, the fingertips tracing up her side, over her ribs.  Tori twitched and
giggled into her mouth.  Then Jade's hand was at her breast and pressed into
it.  Tori squeaked and her nipple hardened, tight against her palm.
"Bite your tongue," Jade murmured into her ear.  "Or they'll throw us out."
Tori dug her teeth into her lower lip and nodded hurriedly. 
Jade tugged up her shirt and let her hand curl around soft hot skin.  She
pressed her lips against Tori's throat,   She could feel her larynx jerk as she
strained not to make a sound.  Soft  whimpers echoed in her throat.  Jade
nipped and sucked and licked, testing her control.  The heat was rising in
her.  Two days - three at most, and she wanted Tori like she would want water
in the desert.  Two - three days, and she would beg to be fucked.  But right
now she still had some control.  Tori was panting under her.  Jade let her hand
slip between her legs, letting her fingers caress her inner thigh.
Tori stiffened.  "What are you-"
Jade kissed her to shut her up.  She didn't move her hand forward, just
petted.  Teasing, soft and easy.  She was sure that Tori would freak if she
pushed it too fast.  But the warmth between her legs was getting hot, and she
was kissing back - if only tentatively.  Jade broke the kiss.  Tori looked at
her, eyes wide and brown and limpid.
"Thoughts?" Jade murmured, raising an eyebrow to emphasize the need for a
response.  The movie was too loud to be heard over at the moment, helicopters
and rock music, but communication was occurring.
Slowly, Tori took a breath, and nodded.
"Good girl."  The scent of arousal that those words released made Jade grin
like a pussycat.  Tori was better at lip reading than she had thought. "Very
good."
And Jade extended her fingers, drawing them up the damp crotch of Tori's
underwear.  She didn't look away, and Tori's eyes stayed fixed on hers.  She
could see the slight widening, hear the tiny little gasp.  Fuck, it was
beautiful.  Jade's gut was tight with desire - and not the widespread
receptivity of heat, but active, needy, fired-up desire that meant if she
didn't have hands on skin and an arm full of panting alpha in five minutes, she
was going to explode.
She walked her fingers up that strip of cloth, and felt it get wet.
Tori's breath was rough, but her shoulders were shaking, with something
restrained - fear?  Her eyes kept flicking to the rest of the audience, their
heads all turned toward the screen, but still there, so close.  Jade crawled
right into her lap.
Movie theatre seating was designed so this wouldn't happen.  It was a tight
squeeze, but Tori had annoyingly skinny hips and Jade straddled her lap, her
hand nestled in the tight vee of her thighs.  Tori lurched toward her, wrapping
her arms around her like strangling vines, burying her face in her shoulder. 
Jade twitched the cloth aside and felt the vibrations as Tori groaned into
her. 
(She loved that.  She loved that Tori wasn't the sort of girl who just crossed
her ankles and nibbled at her lower lip as she got fingered in a movie
theatre.  She loved that she knew she was the first here - the first one ever
to touch her like this.  And Jade wasn't going to let anyone else have a shred
of her innocence.  She was going to take every damn scrap.)
Jade dipped in, just a taste - tight and wet.  Fingers slippery, she slid
upward, finding the nub of her clit.  Tori seized in her arms, and Jade felt it
emerge from the hood.  Sothatwas what an alpha girl felt like down there. That
was solid.  You could do something with that.  (Not distinct from a beta female
her ass, but, of course, girls didn't measure.)
Jade dipped back down to moisten her fingers.  Tori's nails clawed into her
back.  Her body was shuddering.  Jade teased with going in farther, just one
finger.  Tori's grip tightened.  Her chest heaved - the roughness vivid even
though Jade could only feel it, and not hear it.  She was going to fuck this
girl, bend her over and break her - for the first time - and she was going to
love it.  But not now - wait until she could let her scream.
With wet fingers she circled her clit, glad to be pinning her down, keeping her
hips from jerking.  She teased her, teasing out one rough pant after the next,
tightness, a moan of discontent. 
"God, Jade.  Please?"
Tori's eyes were wet, mascara running - what wasn't already rubbed off on
Jade's shirt.  The girl didn't know what she was asking for.  Jade kissed her,
just a light chaste kiss, and then let her fingers twitch - once, sliding up
and rubbing right over her.  And Tori arched, lips parting, and gushed.
Jade's hand filled, thick and wet and sticky.  A tremor shot through her in
response - an orgasm.  "Shit,"she hissed.
Tori's eyes flicked open.  She started to struggle.  "Oh god, I'm sorry.  I
don't- I don't always do that,not like that-"
Jade cocked her head inquisitively.  What was she on about?  Was she
embarrassed about... coming that much?  "Shh," Jade whispered.  Then she slowly
extracted her cramped hand from Tori's crotch. It glistened in the light from
the screen.  A trickle was slowly dribbling toward her wrist.  Jade extended
her tongue and licked from her wrist all the way to her fingertips.  Tori's
eyes went wide.  Jade sucked on her fingers.  Then she grinned.
"Salty."
Tori breathed out - very slowly.  Then she smiled.
Jade just sat on her lap and grinned like an idiot back at her.
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Some random alpha gave Tori a not-so-subtle low-five on the way out, and there
were a bunch more looks, mostly from clearly alpha-omega pairs, that varied
from annoyance to confusion.  The whole theatre kind of stunk like them.  They
really should probably have remembered that.  Oh well.  Luckily their beta
friends couldn't smell it, but the way Andre's eyes widened when he saw Tori's
face, made Tori spin, grabbing Jade's hand and drag her away.  "Bathroom!"
Jade leaned against the wall and watched as Tori scrubbed her eyes and fixed
her make up, and then straightened out her skirt and underwear.  Then she
glanced over at Jade.  "Aren't you going to wash your hands?"
Jade examined her hands.  "No.  I don't think so."
"What!"
"Maybe never again."
"Jade!"  Tori grabbed her and struggled to tug her over to the sinks.  "You
wash those hands or you aren't ever putting them on me again!" 
Jade just laughed, bringing them to her face to breathe them in one more time. 
"Someday I'll make you into a filthy girl."
"Yeah, yeah.  Soap."
Jade glanced over at her and got distracted by the mark on her neck.  "Oh," she
said.  "I gave you a hickey."
"What!" Tori squeaked.  She looked, and felt it, and prodded it.  "Oh no."
"Better get used to it, good girl.  You belong to me."
"Oh yeah?" Tori said, leaning over to get a little extra height to try to look
down at her.  "You sure?"
Jade purred.  Their scents mingled, the omega in her so ready to be bossed, the
Jade in her completely amused by the fact that she was trying it in that
skirt.  "Yeah, totally.  I paid twenty bucks."
***** Interlude *****
Holly looked up from her papers as Jade emerged from the upstairs level and
started down toward the kitchen.  She looked a little rumpled and sleepy, and
smelled like... shenanigans.  When she spotted Holly she flinched a little. 
Holly carefully glanced back down at her work.  "Hello Jade."
"Um, hey."  Jade came down and stood awkwardly in front of the table.  "Is
there - can I have something to eat?"
Holly glanced up.  She shouldn't be this awkward about asking for food.  God,
what had her parents done to her?  "Sure.  Go scrummage in the fridge.  You can
eat anything you want here, you know.  Whenever you want.  You don't have to
ask."
Jade cast her a suspicious look over her shoulder from the fridge.  "Thanks."
"Though I'd avoid anything on the bottom shelf in the door.  That's Trina's,
and... well.  I'm not responsible for the side effects."
Jade's eyebrows lifted.  "I will steer clear."
"What's Tori up to?"
"Sleeping."  Jade made herself a sandwich and came to sit at the clear end of
the table.  "Apparently she's not a fan of Anguish."
Holly wrinkled her nose.  "That's a terrible movie.  Why'd you show it to her?"
"I needed to check if she actually was interested in what I was showing her or
if she was just faking it to maintain access to my tits."
Holly laughed.  "Got your answer?"
Jade smiled.  "Yep."
"How are things going, generally?"
There was a slight dart of Jade's eyes away that worried her, but then the
corner of her lips quirked up slightly.  "Pretty good, I think.  I mean, I'm a
jerk a lot, but she's stubborn enough to not let me get away with it.  Or,"
Jade frowned.  "Sometimes it seems like she likes it.  I'm not sure why."
"Probably because she likes you."
Jade looked at her, looking anxious and a little upset.  "Why?"
Holly shrugged.  "Probably the same reason she likes the color pink, and
singing."
"Oh."  Jade sounded resigned.  "Endorphin high."
"No, Jade.  Because she likes it.  Not everything is reducible to just
chemicals."
Jade eyed her with stubborn resistance.  Logic - that was what was required. 
Logic her out.  Holly pulled up a picture of Tori on her pearphone.  "Look at
this."
Jade's lips twisted, just slightly, in something that might have been
revulsion, but really wasn't.
"You think she's pretty?"
Jade darkened slightly.  "Yes."
Holly glanced at the picture.  Tori had just dropped something and was looking
surprised.  It was not one of her most alluring photographs.  That was...
good.  She zoomed in on the photo until the image went pixilated and
unrecognizable.  She showed it to Jade.  "Do you think this is pretty?"
Jade scowled.  "Of course not.  It's just brown pixels."
Holly zoomed out one degree.  "Pretty?"
"No."
The next.  "Pretty?"
"No."
"Pretty?"
"No."
"Pretty?"
Jade hesitated.  "No," she said, but it was more slow.
"Pretty now?"
It had almost resolved.  Jade nodded slowly.  "Yeah, I guess."
"Now?"
"Mhm."
"It's all the same picture, right?  Yet when it's broken down into blocks of
color you don't feel a certain way about it.  When it resolves you do.  You
can't explain everything based on its basic components."
Jade made a face.  "Well, no.  But there's perception, and recognition, and
association, and..."
"There's a lot that goes into it, right?"
Jade nodded.
"Just think how lucky you have to be for all those things to come together and
be focused on you.  Think about how that makes you special."
Jade was quiet for a long moment, staring down at her half eaten sandwich. 
"Okay," she said finally.  "Okay."
Holly leaned back in her chair.  That had gotten a little unexpectedly heavy. 
"So, 'access to your tits'?"
Jade choked on her sandwich.  When she had finished coughing and swallowing she
glared at Holly.  "You know, I recall you mentioning something about not taking
your little girl's virginity on the porch because of future humiliation, and
that you knew from personal experience, and you never explained that."
Holly grinned.  "Oh you want to know?"
Of course I want to know!"
"It's not actually all that exciting.  Just, back in my day we didn't have the
daily heat suppressants with the slow build hormone resistance.  We had to take
high strength ones right at the right time, and if your cycle changed or you
miscalculated, sometimes you ended up unprepared."  Holly grinned.  "And,
imagine, if you've just recently broken up with your douchebag alpha boyfriend,
and you've decided that you're in love with your best friend, instead of going
home and taking your pills, you decide to go to his house."
Jade laughed and covered her face.
Holly laughed.  "Well, his, his parents', his grandmother's, and his six
brothers' and sisters' house.  Of course it was his grandmother who opened the
door.  She took one look at me and one sniff and then yelled up the stairs,
'David!  Your girlfriend's here!'  He tumbled down the stairs, fresh from the
shower, utterly confused because he didn't have a girlfriend.  I kissed him on
the porch, and... lets just say things got rather heated.  I dragged him up to
his room and we barred the door. 
"Unfortunately, after three days in his room we had to actually come out and
face his family and apologize to his brothers who had had to sleep on the
floor.  They were nice about it, mostly, but there has not been a single
Christmas when I haven't been teased about it.  And it's been, what, twenty
years?"
"Oh, come on!" Jade exclaimed.  "That was like nine people!  Who would have
teased me if I got off on the porch?"
Holly pointed her thumb at herself.  "That would be me."
Jade glanced away.  "It's nice," she said, "that you got to pick him like
that."
"Yeah, because we omegas always make such great decisions when we're horny." 
Holly shook her head.
"Do you regret it?"
"No.  Of course not.  But the going to his house and sleeping with him wasn't
choosing him.  It was... being an omega.  Choosing's what you do after that. 
Choosing's telling your family, and getting thrown out, and getting adopted
into his, and deciding to get married.  You choose little by little for a long
time until you've made a choice, and then you keep choosing, because you can
always change your mind."
"You got thrown out?"
Holly looked at Jade, at her high tension, her whitening knuckles.  She
sighed.  "I don't talk to my parents anymore.  They weren't like yours, they
didn't try to sell me, but they did want final approval over my alpha.  They...
made suggestions.  I did not really like any of their suggestions."
Jade sagged slightly, staring down at her hands.
"I got knotted early, by one of their choices, and I had liked him, until
then.  But afterwards he turned into a controlling asshole, and he didn't want
to let me leave him.  I had to get another alpha to fight him off, and then I
had a series of shitty guys.  Not all of them were bad.  Some were fine, but I
only knew they were fine when I said I wanted to break up and they didn't start
screaming.  David was different because we were friends first.  And he was so
self-effacing, because he thought I was out of his league.  That's what my
parents thought too.  They were wrong."
"Why'd they think that?"
"Because his family was poor, and he was a cop, and he was Puerto Rican, and a
bunch of other stupid reasons.  Because they thought that my alpha was supposed
to take care of me, and not that we could help take care of each other.  They
just... never came around to it.  So we don't talk anymore."
Jade leaned against the table and sighed.  "You know, I'm so angry with my
parents for doing what they did to me.  But... but I miss them too."
"Of course you do."  Holly moved and hugged Jade.  "Of course you do."
"I hate my dad for what he did, and for getting away with it, but my mom, she
never fought for me, and she never gave me any support, but she never abandoned
me either, even though she thought my dad was right and that I was being a
selfish and ungrateful omega brat.  But Tori said that she let her in - that
she looked at her, and smelled her, smelled what she was to me, and let her
in."
"You know she loves you."
Jade flinched.  "I don't know that.  I don't know if it had anything to do with
me.  Protecting me, helping me.  She didn't do that.  But she was very into the
mating thing.  Your mate's the one you stick to.  And I suppose it doesn't
matter how it happens.  Your mate's your mate, and Tori was mine, and she had
rights or something."
"That would be perfect reasoning, except that most people who think that way
also think female alphas are demons.  But she let Tori in."
Jade sighed.  "Yeah.  She let Tori in."
She was too sad.  Holly pulled her out of her chair and onto the couch,
wrapping her arms around her.  Jade leaned into her chest, resting her head on
her shoulder.  "It's not like I can get in contact with her.  I can't even ask
what she was thinking.  If dad found out..."
Holly tightened her grip.
"Thank you," Jade murmured.  "Thanks for looking out for me, like you did.  No
one did that before.  It... kind of freaked me out."
Looking out for her?  Not letting Tori make an idiot of herself by bringing an
omega into her bedroom?  Breaking it up when there was uncomfortable touching
going on?  Honestly.  That was theminimum.  "You know," Holly said.  "I'm not
your mother, and I'm never going to be your mother.  But, regardless of whether
I end up as your mother-in-law, I want you to feel safe here, with me.  You
will always be safe here, and always welcome, all right?"
"Even if I fuck up with Tori?"
"Even then."
"I don't really believe you."
"You won't know for sure until you have to try.  But... if you need to,
remember to try, and I'll remember that I made you a promise.  Okay?"
"Okay."
Jade didn't let go.  Holly rather liked it.  After the whole 'well, the reason
you like cuddling is actually kind of embarrassingly sexual and you're an
alpha' debacle, Tori got skittish about being clingy, and Trina had never felt
a lapse in confidence enough to need a hug, so it had been a while.  She
wondered if it was unfair to Tori, making this promise.  If Jade broke her
heart, as threatened, and as was entirely possible, having her to family
holidays and looking after her might be considered a betrayal.  But Tori would
have to live with it.  Holly didn't have any omega daughters, and Jade didn't
have any supportive parents.  Why leave that gap unfilled?
"I don't know if I can't believe it because I don't trust you, or because I
just can't visualize any sort of way my future could be.  I've been looking one
sort of future in the face for so long, and now it's gone, and I don't know
what I'm supposed to fill it with."
"You know, you don't have to over-think it.  Sometimes it's all right to just
take things day to day and see how they turn out."
Jade sighed and leaned into her.  "Maybe," she said.  "Maybe."
It was a couple of minutes before a blinking and yawning Tori emerged from the
upstairs and frowned at her mother and her girlfriend curled up on the couch. 
She wrinkled her nose.  "Should I be worried about this?"
Holly laughed.
Jade gave Tori an ironic eyebrow raise.  "Would you like to worry about this?"
Tori turned red.
"Don't worry about it!" Holly told her.  "Just come over here and you can give
us both a hug."
Tori's expression brightened and she crawled onto the couch, looping one arm
around her mother's neck and pressing her nose into her girlfriend's shoulder. 
Jade huffed lightly.  "Hug-slut."
***** Stealing Home *****
Chapter Notes
     WARNING: This is not your usual happy little sex scene, okay. (First
     of all - it is freaking long), and second, remember that this is A
     KNOTTING universe. And that basically normal sex for alpha/omega
     couples is extreme sex for Betas Like You. So. Extreme sex. Some
     hurt/comfort. Awkward biological happenings. NO g!p. Read the Tags.
When Tori got home on Monday her house was in uproar.  There were suitcases
everywhere, and Trina was having a nervous breakdown in the kitchen.
"What?"  Tori looked around, horrified.  "What's going on?"
Her mom swooped by with a pile of underwear.  "We're going out of town for a
few days.  Trina has an audition."  Then she turned.  "David!" she yelled. 
"Last chance to talk to your daughter!"
"What?"
Trina turned to glare at Tori.  "Don't think I'm not grateful for the
opportunity, little sis.  But you had better open all the windows when you're
done.  Maybe I can't smell heat, but I can smell sweaty sex.  And keep it to
your room!  No kitchen sex!  And don't you dare go into mine!"
Tori still had no idea what was going on.
Her mom squeezed her arm.  "The fridge is stocked.  Energy drinks under the
sink.  Remember to stay hydrated.  And avoid caffeine.  It's better just to
wear yourselves out and then sleep.  You won't be as hungover afterwards."
David thundered down the stairs.  "Tori!"  He caught her up in a bear hug. 
"I'm so... so proud."
"What is going on!"
"Oh."  Holly looked at her.  "Jade's going into heat, so we're giving you the
house.  Honestly, you're both my little girls, and I don't need to hear that."
"We're both..." Tori wasn't sure what was more confusing.  "You're giving us
the house?"  Then she frowned.  "Why didn't I know?  Why did all of you know? 
Why didn't she say something!"
Holly raised an eyebrow.  "You haven't noticed anything?"
"I'm not thatunobservant!  She doesn't smell like heat yet!  She just..."  Tori
frowned.    She just smells aroused more frequently.  Tori didn't say this. 
And she got me off in a movie theatre.  Tori refrained from mentioning this
either.  And today at lunch with the gang she had sat in Tori's lap, completely
unexpectedly, and stayed there until the food came.  And she smelled...
wonderful.  "Oh," Tori said in a suddenly small voice.  "She's going into
heat.  shit.  She's going into heat."
"David," Holly instructed.  "Your turn.  I'll get the suitcases out to the
car."
Tori had frozen in horror.  Jade was going into heat.
Her dad led her to the couch and sat her down.  Tori didn't really notice, she
was too absorbed in the sudden panic that filled her mind.  The other alphas
talked about heat sex like it was the best thing ever, but they also kept
mentioning how much work it was.  It was three days of stamina.  Some of the
guys trained for it - like workout style training.  Omegas were supposed to me
the most demanding during it that they ever were.  And they expressedtheir
dissatisfaction.  And it was Jade - who had gotten through her heats with Beck
for years.  And it was Tori, who had never had sex with anyone, and who was
supremely disadvantaged in that she didn't have a knot.
Fuck!
"Tori.  Tori!  Breathe!"
Tori finally gulped in huge heaving breath and looked at her father.  "What am
I going to do?"
Her father hugged her.  "Oh, baby girl.  You're going to love your mate.  You
know that."
"But - but how?"
Her father raised an eyebrow.  "With your body."
"That doesn't help!"
"So, you're saying that you've spent this whole month not doing anything?"  He
sounded incredulous.
"No!"  Tori frowned.  "I mean, we did some stuff.  But it was... for me stuff. 
LIke, I got to..."  Oh god.  How much of this could she say to her father? 
"Nothing below the waist... on her."
David chuckled.  "Look.  I am going to give you one tip about heat-sex with
omegas.  It's not one most of the guys talk about, because they're mostly
interesting in competing with each other - do they compare the number of times
they knot their girls?"
Tori nodded.  She thought the record was maybe fifteen times for one heat.
"That's about them, not about their omegas.  After four times, or so, the omega
gets so bruised and sore that even though they're still aroused, they can't
really enjoy it.  The trick to it is the slow build.  Omegas want to get
knotted, but they also want your attention, they want to feel safe and looked
after.  Just be together.  Make love to her.  And delay orgasm as long as you
can, then, afterwards, when you're tied, talk to her, and keep her close.  And
even after you slip out, do the aftercare.  Omegas - even the stubborn ones -
like cuddling."
Tori liked cuddling too.  But cuddling wasn't this issue here.  "But, how am I
supposed to knot her?"
David looked surprised.  "Huh?  I just figured you'd use your hands."
Tori looked down at her hands.  "What?"
He put one of his next to hers.  It was rather larger than hers.  "Mine are a
bit big.  But you're just about optimal."  Then he frowned and dug around in
his pocket.  "Here," he said, and handed Tori an eight ounce bottle of lube. 
"It's her first time getting knotted, right?   This might come in handy."
Then he grinned at his incidental pun.
Tori couldn't stop looking at her hands, possibly even more horrified than she
had been to start with.  Holly leaned over the couch.  "This is from me," she
gave Tori a box.
"And this is from me," said Trina, grumpily.  "Happy first heat orgy, or
whatever."
Trina's gift was a scented candle.  "It's the strongest smelling one I could
find.  Use it."
"Um, thanks."
Her mom's gift was a pack of silk scarves in a variety of colors.  Tori stared
at them, not entirely sure what they were for.
"Talk about that before you use them," her mom suggested.  "Communication and
consent are very important."
What?  Tori stared at the scarves for a long time.  Then suddenly it clicked.
"Restraints?  You got me restraints?"
This was possibly the most embarrassing day of her life so far.  But she had a
sudden inkling that tomorrow was going to be worse.
Her mother patted her shoulder.  "Just... consider it."
"Oh my god," said Trina.  "The candle is just to burn off the sex smell, okay? 
If you use it for kinky sensation play stuff, I'm never going to forgive you."
Tori very seriously considered seppuku.  Her parents kissed her cheeks and then
headed for the door.  "Do try and keep a window open a crack," her mother
said.  "And the laundry's open if you need to do a few loads."
"Showers are fun, but if you're tired, run a bath," her dad suggested.  "You
can use the one in our bedroom.  Less chance of injury."
"Oh god," Trina mumbled.  "Can we leave now and stop talking about Tori's
suddenly emergent sex life?  Yes, yes, it's wonderful that you're like, coming
of age, or whatever, but if I have to think about my sister's sex parts for
another minute, I'm going to puke."
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Tori woke up the next morning, and got ready for school by herself.  It was
actually kind of depressing.  The set of utterly humiliating gifts was on the
coffee table still, and Tori tried not to look at them as she ate toast in the
dim room.  She got to school and hovered in sight of Jade's locker, hoping that
she would show up.  But the bell rang, and she hadn't yet, so Tori shuffled off
to Sikowitz' class.  Tori was twitchy, and a little upset.  Cat was there, but
where was Jade?  She didn't like it when Jade disappeared.  It had only ever
meant bad things before.  Beck was in class and she glared at him for a while,
before he raised an inquiring eyebrow and she flushed.  She had no reason to be
pissed, just because he had... put histhingin her mate... 
No.  Tori hated him, and went back to glaring.
Then she started to smell it.  It was familiar - and so, so much stronger than
it had been last time - and last time it had made her knees collapse.  Tori
couldn't move.  She couldn't breathe.  If she looked over her shoulder she was
pretty sure she would fall out of her chair.  The door swung open and a stack
of papers landed in Tori's lap.  "Hey you," Jade murmured in her ear, and Tori
got wet.
"Hey," she managed, automatically.  Jade's eyes were bright and alive with
amusement and interest, her lips quirked in a far too pleased with herself
grin, and Tori couldn't help moving in to kiss her.
"AhhhhhHem!" Sikowitz announced.  "Although I am entirely in favor of young
love, I have tragically been forbidden by the school from encouraging nakedness
in my class!  So if you are planning on starting up the horizontal tango
marathon today, you're excused."
Tori felt herself go red.  Jade grabbed her arm.  "Thanks, Sikowitz," she said
and started tugging Tori toward the door.  Tori made a desperate grab for the
papers on her lap and her backpack and stumbled out after her.  Cheering
followed them.
"So, wait wait wait," Tori trailed after Jade down the hall.  "You're in heat
now?"
Jade raised an eyebrow.  "You can't tell?"
"No!  I mean, of course I can tell, now.  But you didn't tell me.  And we're
missing school?  And my parents took Trina out of town so we could have the
house."
"Yeah," Jade said.  "I talked to your mom."
"You didn't talk to ME!"
Jade blinked.  She pointed at the papers.  "That's your homework for the rest
of the week.  FYI, I'm in heat.  I'm going to be fucking you for the next
couple days.  Enjoy."
She turned and headed for the parking lot.
"Jade!"
"God, Tori.  If you're really that pissed about it, you can spank me when we
get home.  Okay?"
Tori froze and just gaped.  Jade looked at her and started laughing.  "God! 
Your face!"  She leaned in and kissed Tori's cheek.  "This is going to be fun."
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Jade - who had driven - strode into her house and immediately started
unbuttoning her shirt.  Tori, who had been left with both backpacks, entered
the house to find Jade - all skin and lace - her shirt dropping to the floor,
and dropped the bags, shut the door, and locked it.  "What are you-"
"Baby," Jade said, shaking her head.  "We are not going to read novels and eat
pizza for the next three days.  And you've seen me topless before."
"Yes, but-"  But not when she smelled like this.  Not when Tori felt jumpy and
scattered and desperate and embarrassed all at the same time.  Her underwear
was already sticky and uncomfortable, and Jade was way too composed and
gorgeous and Tori felt that she hadn't quite gotten the message through that
she didn't know what she was doing.
Then she noticed that Jade was frowning.  "Why is there a bottle of lube on
your coffee table?"
Tori groaned.  "My dad..."
Jade moved toward the selection.  "And... oh man.  Your family.  I kind of love
your family.  She tugged a black scarf out of the pack.  "Awesome."  Dangling
it from her hand, she sauntered over to Tori, who couldn't move.
"What are you-"
"You need to relax and trust me, okay?"
That was really asking a lot, especially since Jade merely moving closer to her
made Tori's fingers tingle and her gut tighten.  Jade leaned in and placed a
soft wet kiss on her neck just below her jaw.  Distracted, Tori reached out,
putting hands to skin, and hardly noticed the silk brushing against her face as
Jade wrapped the scarf over her eyes.  She tied it.  "You good?" Jade murmured.
Tori blinked.  She could see a little - mostly light and dark.  "Why?"
"To help you focus.  There's too much input and you're freaking out."  Jade
took her wrists and moved Tori's hands to her hips.  "Now follow me.  You're
going to get to know my body with your hands first.  Then you can goggle at me
naked."
"Oh, okay."  That sounded... kind of amazing.  Tori hooked her fingers into
Jade's belt loops and let herself be led up the stairs into her room.
Jade stopped when they had crossed the threshold - it smelled slightly
different in there, so Tori could tell - and Tori let her hands slide up to cup
Jade's sides.  She leaned into her back, nestling her nose in her neck, her
face buried in her hair.  "You smell wonderful," she murmured.
"And you totally jerked off last night," Jade replied.  "I can smell it in your
sheets."
"Hey!" Tori yelped.  She took a step, her foot tangling in something on her
floor, and she lost her balance.  Jade gave her a shove and she went sprawling
onto the bed.  "Hey," she repeated, more weakly.
She felt a weight settle over her knees.  Her hands were pinned, and Jade moved
over her, blocking out what little light she could see.  "You know, if Beck
didn't change his sheets, that would have been a dealbreaker."
"Um, sorry?"  This was why she would have liked a little lead time!  So she
could have freaked out in peace and then overprepared! 
"Meh, it's kind of hot.  Were you thinking about me?"
Tori was desperately grateful for the blindfold - because seeing the wryly
inquiring eyebrow would have made her utterly unable to speak.  "Yeah."
"What in particular?"
Oh god.  It had been late, because she couldn't sleep, and the house was empty,
and she had been freaking out about today, and there might have been a weird
little fantasy that involved Jade in a low cut wench dress, being tied to a
mast, and...
"Pirates?" she offered. 
Jade's weight thudded down on top of her, and she laughed.  "God you're weird."
"It's not my fault!  I was talking to Cat, and-"  Jade's hand pressed down
firmly over her mouth.
"Shut up."
There was something unfair about this, Tori realized.  Jade wasn't wearing a
shirt, and she was on top of her, pressed right against her, and Tori's shirt
was blocking any skin-on-skin contact.  Tori slid her legs apart, then trapped
Jade between her knees, and flipped her.  There were some flailing elbows that
she couldn't see, and one of them hit her in the face, but it was worth it. 
Jade was under her now, and Tori felt her way up her body to cup her face, then
leaned down and kissed her.  Jade opened under her.  "Want to top me, baby?"
she murmured.  "Ready to tie me to the headboard and have your wicked way with
me?"
"Um," said Tori.  Carefully, she pulled off her shirt, not disturbing the
blindfold, and felt Jade go still under her.  "I want to touch you," she
added.  "Is that all right?"
"Yeah," Jade said, her voice rough.  "Totally."
Tori lowered herself until they were skin on skin.  She nuzzled into her neck,
then kissed her way down to Jade's collarbone.  She nipped at it lightly, and
heard Jade suck in a harsh breath and arch under her.  But she kept going,
hands, lips and teeth, lingering on the tops of her breasts, burying her nose
in her cleavage and breathing her in.  A light kiss under the bottom strap of
her bra.  She ran her hands down her smooth sides, sucking on the skin just
below Jade's bellybutton, and Jade's hips jerked up into her.  "Tori!  You're
such a-"
Tori's hand found the button of Jade's jeans.  "May I?"
"You don't want to watch?"
Tori swallowed and settled back to sit on her heels.  Slowly she lifted the
blindfold.  Jade lay against her pillows, splayed against her sheets, face
flushed, chest heaving, a glistening track of kisses and lovebites marking a
snaking path over her pale skin.  Tori dug her nails into her palms.  She
swallowed, shifting slightly, to try and grind herself against her heel.
Jade felt her moving.  "No," she snapped, narrowing her eyes.  "Me first."
The demand made Tori flood with arousal.  "Okay."
She reached down and unfastened Jade's jeans, then slowly, carefully, worked
them down her hips.
The scent was nearly overwhelming.  Black lace stood out sharply against the
pale skin.  Jade's cool blue-green eyes watched her intently.  Tori swallowed
and climbed off the bed to finish pulling them off.  Jade propped herself up on
her elbows and worked her way back to lean against the higher pillows and
watch.  "Now you," she said.
"Huh?"
"Strip."
Tori reddened, but hurriedly started pulling off her skinny jeans.  One foot
got stuck and she lost her balance, falling over with a thump.  She jerked them
the rest of the way off and hurled them toward the laundry basket.  She
scrambled up and back onto the bed.  Jade was grinning, covering her face with
her hand.
"Sorry bout that."
Jade shook her head.  "No," she said.  "It's good."
Tori lay next to her, watching her intently.  She reached out and brushed a
lock of hair off her cheek.  "It's good?"
"Yeah," Jade said softly.  "When I close my eyes and just smell you, I smell
alpha.  I can't not.  When I'm in heat it's just alpha, alpha, I want that, all
the time.  And I hate it.  You being a dork reminds me that you're Tori.  And I
don't hate wanting Tori."
Tori knew she was grinning like an idiot, but couldn't help it.
Jade gave her a look.  "Dumbass."
Tori rolled on top of her and kissed her.  Jade moaned into it, opening for
her, hot and wet.  Her hips jerked up, hitting Tori right where she needed it,
and Tori gasped.  Jade's hands snaked around her, unfastening her bra, and then
moving around to cup her breasts.  Tori whimpered, letting Jade pull her up so
she could get her mouth on her breasts.  Her knees interlaced with Jade's and
then slid in.  Jade was so wet that it coated the insides of her thighs, and
when Tori's leg made contact with black lace, it squished.  Jade hissed in a
breath and ground against her.  Tori fumbled with her bra, unfastening it,
letting it drop, and then burying her face in her cleavage.  Jade arched as
Tori found her nipples, rubbing and pinching, and making her thrash. 
Then, she caught Tori's head and pulled on her hair to make her look at her
face.  "In." she said stiffly.  She caught Tori's hand and turned it, looking
at her nails.  "They'll do.  Take off your underwear and put your fingers in
me.  Okay?"
Tori nodded furiously.  She didn't bother to get up, just got to her knees and
pulled her underwear off.  Shame had left the building.  Jade smiled wickedly,
her eyes intent.  "You're never going to be a stripper, darling."
"Shut it."  Tori made a face at her and then hooked her fingers into the
elastic of Jade's black panties and started pulling them down.  Jade lifted her
hips, and they slid down, exposing damp curls, leaving her sticky and
glistening and ready.  Tori balled the underwear in her hands, swallowing, and
not sure what to do.  The scent was overwhelming, and delicious, and she kind
of wanted to taste it.  And she kind of knew she would make an idiot of herself
if she tried.
"Don't just stare and jerk off.  It's not a movie, Vega."  Jade reached back
and grabbed the headboard.  "You said you wanted to touch me, so get to it."
Breathing shallowly, Tori settled between her legs.  She reached out
hesitantly, brushing soft flesh, and then having her fingers shy away.
"Don't be a fucking tease, Vega." Jade hissed through gritted teeth.
Tori swallowed.  "Just, let me know if I do anything you don't like."
"I'm in heat," Jade snapped.  "I'd like it if you shoved your foot into me. 
Get your ass in gear."
Tori tangled her fingers in wet curls, then dragged her thumb slowly up Jade's
lips.
Jade made a noise that was half a moan and half a snarl, as if she wanted her
to just get to it.  But seriously, Tori needed to take some time with this. 
She parted her swollen lips and stroked once more, arousal flooding her
fingers, moistening them.  They moved easier then, and she slid her fingers
back up, rubbing her thumb over Jade's clit.
This cry was more like a groan.  "Just fuck me, god.  You don't need to turn me
on.  I woke up this morning soaked, after dreaming of you fucking me from
behind.  If you had kissed me in Sikowitz's class, I would have ridden down on
you right there, okay?"
"Okay."  Tori's skin flushed with heat and sensitivity at her words, and she
tentatively slid her middle finger into the sweet pool of wetness, up to the
second joint. 
Jade went still.  "Oh," she said, quietly.
Tori withdrew and pushed in again.  Jade squirmed and bit down on her lower
lip.
All Tori could feel was thick wetness.  It was nothing like touching herself,
where even one finger caught against a tight ring of muscle that twinged -half
pleasure, half pain- when she pushed inside.  Jade was open and aroused and
could take more than that.
Tori looked down at her hand and swallowed.  Taking more and taking that were
not the same thing.  It wasn't a knot.  It wouldn't wait until she was inside
to swell and tie.  Maybe she hadn't had a lot of time to prepare, but she had
had enough time to read a few horrifying stories on the internet about just how
badly she could fuck this up.
She shook it off.  Jade was whimpering and giving her filthy looks for being a
fucking tease, and she didn't have time to freak out again.  "Your omega needs
you," Doug had said to her, patting her shoulder.  "That's the best thing about
heats.  You're not this useless oversexed social blow-up doll anymore. 
Everything you can offer is everything she wants.  You can really make her
happy, even if its just for a couple of days."
Tori slid two fingers down Jade's slit and in one quick motion pushed both into
her - up to her knuckles.  Jade's back arched.  She ground into Tori's hand. 
"Fuck."
Tori's chest clenched at the sight of it, and the feel of it.  Jade was so hot,
so wet, so soft inside.  She could feel the slight stretch from her entrance,
and just how deep, just how open she was.  Tori drew her fingers out slightly,
and then shoved them in again, forcing another gasp from Jade, her knuckles
whitening on the headboard. 
Her hand getting wetter, Tori found a rhythm, two thrusts, then a pause while
she spread her fingers wide inside Jade and rotated her hand.  Each pause got a
choking desperate little noise from Jade.  Her eyes had filled, mascara runing.
"More," she managed.  "Nother finger."
Tori nodded, lacing three fingers together and pressing them in.  It was tight
at the base, near her knuckles and Jade gave a little gasp and bit down on her
lower lip.
"Does it hurt?"
Jade nodded.  "Do it harder," she managed.  "Feels good."
Tori went more carefully, long slow thrusts, Jade growling out a long groan of
frustration, her hips rolling every time Tori stretched out her fingers
inside.  Tori's eyes darted to the nightstand - Jade had brought the lube
upstairs (and the scarves, and Trina's scented candle.)  She went to snag it. 
Jade was slick and soaking, but it was still hurting her.  Tori fumbled with
the cap, trying to get it open with one hand, then drizzled it over her
knuckles and pushed in.  They moved against Jade easily, too slick to catch. 
Jade relaxed.  The tightness around Tori's knuckles relaxed.  "More," Jade
whimpered.
"More?"  Tori glanced down at her hand.  More meant she was getting close to
trying to push the full breadth of her hand inside, and the thought made her
stomach flutter with bat-winged panic.  She really didn't want to hurt her. 
"Not yet."
Jade blinked a few times to clear the tears and looked at her.  "I need you to
knot me," she snapped savagely.  "I need to be stretched and full.  I need you
fucking me from the inside, okay?  I need it.  And I don't care,if I bleed.  I
don't care if you fucking shred me to do it.."
"I am not making you bleed," Tori snapped back.  "I am not going to hurt you. 
I am never going to hurt you."  She slid her fingers out and scooted backward
on the bed.
Jade dropped the headboard.  "No - Tori!  No!  Please-"
Tori doused her hand in lube, working it over and between her knuckles and the
back of her hand, to make sure she didn't miss any spots.  Then she fucked two
fingers back into Jade, making her hips buck.  She scissored her fingers open
to test how open she was - Not nearly enough to take her knuckles, but she had
been more open when she was relaxed, she'd keep going.  But she was going slow.
She rubbed her hand over Jade's abdomen, kneading at her, then moving up to cup
a breast and tease her nipple lightly.  Jade made a purring sound, her eyelids
fluttering shut.  Tori parted her reddened swollen lips and slid in, stroking
inside, feeling her calm and relax.
"I don't havea knot."  Tori said.  Three fingers now.  Pistoning, steady and
even.  Jade's breath was coming in shallow pants.  "All I have are my hands." 
Four fingers.  The pinky seemed like nothing, but it led straight to the bredth
of the knuckles, and Jade gave a little mewl of pain when she went too hard. 
Tori winced, there might have been a little vengeance in that.  She scooped up
the lube bottle and went for it again.  "And my fist is basically double the
size of an average knot.  You've never taken any knot.  So we are going to do
this my way.  We are not going to make it hurt any more than it has to.  You
are not going to be injured from this.  Because I'm kind of planning on doing
this to you a couple of times every month, and we don't need to have any more
trauma to get over, okay?"
Tori pressed her thumb against her fingers and slid all five into Jade.  She
was swimming in lube, but Jade was still so tight around her knuckles.  She
couldn't... do this.
"Yes," Jade whimpered.  "Yes."  She bit on her lower lip, and then pressed her
hands against the mattress.  "Wait," she said.  "Let me...."
Slowly, carefully she rose, Tori kept her fingers pushed deep into her pussy. 
Jade brought her leg over and got on her hands and knees.  Tori swallowed,
presented witht he firm perfect slope of Jade's ass.
"More lube," Jade instructed. "Keep your hand steady."
Tori obeyed, coating the back of her hand, and then held it stable.  Jade
pushed back against it, pushed, and with a slick squish, Tori's knuckles slid
past her entrance, into deep wet heat.
Holy shit. 
Tori's hand had gone, Jade's entrance had consumed her like a mouth.  Her lips
were closed around her forearm.  Jade was sobbing roughtly.
"Oh god, does it hurt?"  Tori could feel her, the walls bearing down on her,
her fingertips brushing against a knot of flesh - her cervix?  Fuck.  Tori
clenched her thighs together.  This was hottest thing that had ever happened to
her in her life.
Jade shook her head.  "I just..."  the sob broke it off.  "I never thought it
would actually feel like this, like they said it would."
"What... what does it feel like?"
"God, you are kinky," Jade forced out.  "It feels like... like, god, like I'm
not empty anymore.  Like I'm not alone.  Fist it, okay?  But be careful.  Don't
scratch."
Tori gently tucked her fingers in, drawing her hand into a loose fist, doing
her best to keep her nails away from Jade's velvety insides.
"Fuck me?" Jade murmured.  "Just a little.  I'm right on the edge here.  Shit,
this is like..."
Tori, with her free hand, rubbed a small comforting circle over her back, and
then started, very gently, moving her hand, tiny, tiny thrusts, like
millimeters.  And Jade was making strangled sobbing gasping sounds, her
knuckles white where they gripped the pillows.
Then she sucked in a harsh breath.  "One more.  Little harder."
Tori pushed, and Jade screamed.  It was a short, ragged wail, and her muscles
clenched down tight on Tori's wrist, locking her in, tying her.  Tori soaked
herself.
Fuck.
The alphas always talked about tying like it was something they did, like it
was their awesome knots, like it had anything to do with it at all.  But this
was tying, so deep inside her that it felt like a different world, and Jade's
cunt clamped tight on her arm, Jade sobbing and gasping, desperate and needy.
"Stay in me, stay."
Tori made out the choked words.  "Hey, hey," she said.  "I'm not going
anywhere."
Jade made a soft hmm of acknowledgement, and then slowly started turning on
Tori's arm, turning to lie on her back.  Tori squirmed until she was lying
between her legs and then rested her head on Jade's thigh.  "Fuck," she
murmured.  "I love you."
"Love you too,"  Jade murmured.  "Always loved you."
She reached down and found Tori's other hand.  They tangled their fingers
together and held on tight.
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Tori felt the muscles begin to relax.  Jade's breathing was even and regular. 
Slowly, she started to draw her hand out.  Jade made a small noise when the
knuckles breeched her.  Tori's fingers slid out and she cupped her.  Then she
wriggled up the bed and curled around her.  She examined her hand.  Stickiness
stretched between her fingers as she spread them.  A tiny trace of red threaded
through it.  Tori winced, then pressed a kiss against Jade's hair.
Jade made a small sound.  "Water."
Tori gave her a pat on the arm, then slid off the bed.  Her knees wobbled, but
she caught her balance, pulled on a t-shirt and jogged down the stairs.  The
kitchen was quiet, afternoon sunlight making it glow warm.  Tori snagged a
water bottle from the fridge and a gatorade and retreated back upstairs.
"Tori?" Jade was half sitting up, eyes wide, looking kind of panicked.
"Hey!  hey, I'm right here."
Jade spotted her and a litle of the tension slipped away.
"I just went to get water."
Jade avoided her eyes.  "I thought you were gone."
"I'm not going anywhere.  You asked me to stay, remember?"
Jade nodded.  She looked far too small and vulnerable.  Tori climbed back onto
the bed and pulled Jade into her.  Jade leaned on her shoulder and took the
water bottle.  She shuffled a little, looking for a comfortable position.
"You feeling okay?"
"No," Jade muttered.  "I feel dehydrated and sore and an emotional mess.  I
hate feeling messed up like this.  I never felt messed up like this before." 
Tori pulled her in more tightly.  Jade buried her face into her shirt.  "Don't-
" Tori tried, not sure what she was supposed to say.  She didn't want Jade to
close up on her, not after that.  "Don't get scared about this."
"'M not scared," Jade growled into her shoulder, and didn't move away.
Tori rubbed her hand up and down her bare back.  "You want to talk about it?"
"No."
Tori swallowed.  "If it's something I did-"
Jade's fingers dug into her arms.  "You fisted me, goddamnit!"
Tori froze.  "I-  I just, I couldn't knot you, and I thought-"
"Fucking alphas!"
"Jade!  You wanted me to.  You told me-"
But Jade was crying now, properly crying.  "And then youleft."
"Jade!  I don't-  What do I need to do?"
Jade looked up at her, eyes wet.  "Hold me."
Tori pulled her into a tight hug.  Jade sniffled on her shoulder. 
"Was it okay?" Jade murmured.  "Was I okay?"
Tori rubbed her back and petted her hair and made soft comforting noises into
her ear.  "You?  You were amazing.  You were so beautiful, and you felt so
good, and you tied me so tight that I kind of, er, you know."  Jade chuckled
weakly.  "And I wouldn't have left, you know, if I knew.  I shouldn't have." 
Next time - water and stuff was going in the bedroom.  if there was a next
time.
"It was just," Jade swallowed, turning her face into Tori's chest so she
wouldn't have to look at her.  "It felt crazy hot while it was happening.  But
it was your fist.  Like - you've punched out people with that, and you were
fucking me with it, and it was in me - all the way in, bigger than a knot,
tight and hard in my cunt, and I felt kind of like a puppet, floppy and
useless, and nothing without you driving me and controlling me and making me
scream."
"No way," Tori hissed in her ear, holding her tight.  "No way.  You're
everything.  You were tight and hot and wet, and you took me inside you.  You
were the one who made me desperate and horny, and all I wanted was to obey you
and make you happy, and if I fucked it up-"
Jade sighed into her.  "Didn't," she contradicted.  "Thank you.  Needed to hear
that."
"I meant it," Tori said.  "I mean it.  You take me - all the time.  I see you
or I smell you and I'm gone."
Jade lifted her head up and kissed her, briefly, chastely.  And Tori considered
just how unchaste of a kiss she could give her - openmouthed, tongue extended
deep between her legs - and then wished she hadn't, because she was so totally
turned on again, and it was not the time for it.
Fucking alphas indeed.
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Vulnerable.
It was a word she hated, but Jade couldn't help feeling that way.  She supposed
it was a normal reaction to being fucked to within what felt like an inch of
her life.  It had finally - finally - been enough.  Not just an orgasm, but a
full-body explosion, like she wanted to trap Tori inside her and keep her there
forever, so she would always feel like this, feel like the ragged hole that
lived inside her was filled.  Then of course she had slipped out and
disappeared while Jade was still totally out of it, and when she woke up alone
it felt like everything had been wrenched out of her, and the hole was fresh
cut and bleeding, and that it would never fill up again.
Stupid sex feelings.
She traded sips of water and Gatorade with Tori and let herself rest against
her chest, listening to her heartbeat.  The desperate panicky feelings were
mostly gone now, Tori's fingers in her hair seemed to stroke them out.  Her
bare thighs, pressed against Jade's ass, made the heat warmth begin to curl
through her again, coiling and settling in her gut.  But it wasn't necessary
and insistent.  It was different, as if she had got what she needed, and now
she was just interested.
God, Tori.  For someone who was totally freaked out about sex, she had managed
to take over and make it fucking-amazing.
Her fingers were twitching on Jade's neck, stroking her.  And Jade could feel
the slight muscle spasms as she tried to control her hips.  And her clit was
totally hard.  Jade could feel it pressing into her ass. 
Jade rolled her hips, pushing back against her.  But even that slight motion
made her cringe in pain.  Tori had been totally sweet, and she was still so
sore.  And exhausted.  You didn't get a hand up there for cheap.  She turned
into Tori, tugging down the collar of her shirt and kissing her throat.
"Hey,"  Tori murmured.
"Hey," Jade responded.  "I'm... better now.  The crazy needy post sex hormones
are cooling off.  Though I'm not going to be moving again for like an hour."
"I didn't hurt you, did I?"
Jade laughed.  There was no way she was telling Tori she felt like she had been
fucked with a spiked mace.  Because she was so looking forward to getting
fucked like that again.  "You were perfect.  Kind of... annoyingly perfect."
Tori grinned at her.  It was her happy - post performance high - grin.  Jade
shook her head.  If this girl ever became a popstar it would all be because of
that smile.
"And now I'm feeling guilty because you had to do all the work."
"I'm kind of okay with that."
Jade moved into her and kissed her gently, slowly.  "Take that stupid t-shirt
off."
Tori had gotten pretty good about whipping off the clothes.  Jade kissed her
again, this time open mouthed, with tongue.  Her tits were sweet, soft and
small enough that Jade thought she could probably get one all the way in her
mouth.  She moved down to give it a shot.  She was so soft and tender, there
would be teeth marks all over her in the morning.  Tori's fingers tangled in
her hair, and she squirmed.  Jade tried to roll onto her, but it hurt, and she
flopped back.  "Fuck," she said.  "I'm not moving.  Get up here and kneel over
my face."
"What?"
"Tori."  Jade slid her hand between her legs and cupped her.  Tori gave a
little squeal of surprise, and Jade felt a light press against her palm.  She
spread her fingers, catching her clit between two of them, and then tightened
her grip.  "I want to suck you and fuck you and make you come so hard you
forget your name, okay?  But you fucking destroyed me, so you're still going to
have to do some of the work.  Now sit on my face, kay?"
More awkward and hesitant than usual, Tori started crawling up, and they
shifted around until they found something manageable.  Jade couldn't quite take
a breath. Tori was a mess.  She totally had come while shoving her fist into
Jade and Jade could smell it.  She reached out with her tongue, sliding it up
Tori's pussy lips, and she could taste it too.
At that slight touch, Tori whimpered, her hips shuddering.  Jade reached up to
cup her ass, give her a bit of support, and then extended her tongue, and
dragged it up until it reached the base of her clit.  God, that cry.  Jade
spread her legs and dug her heels into the mattress.  She was not going to get
distracted by how much Tori turned her on.
Her clit was long, full and quivering, and Jade licked her lips, then moved in
to suck it into her mouth.  Tori bent forward, grabbing the headboard, hips
jerking like she was trying to fuck her face, and Jade dug her nails into
Tori's ass.  Tori froze and swallowed hard.
"Sorry," she murmured.
Jade sucked hard on her clit, and Tori made a pained squeal.  She was dripping
already, arousal running onto Jade's chin and neck.  Jade, from the back,
started to finger her perineum, stroking the base of her lips, and teasing as
she soaked them  too.  Fuck, the heat of it, the way it smelled.  Jade loosed
her clit and pushed Tori's ass forward so she could dip her tongue right into
her entrance - her sweet, tight entrance, that gushed salty cum onto her tongue
and into her mouth.  Man, this was so hot.  For a moment she recalled her
contract with Gavin - no oral - she had said.  That would nevermake it onto a
contract with Tori.  The way she tasted, the way she squeaked, her hard,
amazing clit.  Jade moved back up, using her tongue to tease her way around the
swollen, erect nub.  Her fingers slipped in from behind, one pushing into
Tori.  Tori keened and pushed back, then Jade pressed in the second one.  She
was tight enough that it would hurt, and Jade licked her way up the shaft of
her clit, then teased the head, and Tori was rocking back and forth, looking
for penetration and tongue and panting and gasping and desperate.  Jade pulled
her clit right back into her mouth, and sucked, and fucked her fingers in and
out of her, and Tori arched her back and clenched her fingers into the sheets,
and came.  She pulled out of Jade's mouth, pulled off her fingers, and squirted
cum all over Jade's forehead and eyes and cheeks and mouth.
Tori gasped, realized what she'd done, jerked back, then clenched and did it
again on her tits.  It was hot and sticky and clung, and Jade felt her hips
buck, and her own tight, white-hot orgasm rip through her.
"Shit, I'm sorry.  I'm sorry.  I'm sorry."
"You have noidea how fucking hot that is," Jade murmured, cum trickling into
her mouth as she opened it.  She licked her lips.  "Fuck."
She squinted slightly, not wanting to get any in her eyes, and saw Tori staring
down at her, her mouth slack, as if it was seriously just as hot from the other
side.  Then, slowly, Tori shuffled, moving down her, and then leaning in.  Jade
shut her eyes again, wondering if she'd be kissed, but instead she felt the hot
lap of a tongue cleaning off a streak of cum from her cheek.  Bit by bit, Tori
licked her clean, licking even across her eyelids and then down over her
breasts.  She got distracted by sucking them, and their legs interlocked.  Jade
groaned as Tori worked her tits thoroughly, and ground against her thigh,
squeezing and kneading at Tori's ass.  She came, and felt Tori come against
her, smearing her thigh with more cum, not that it wasn't sticky enough down
there already.
They lay there, quiet and still, until Jade tried to open her eyes and realized
that her eyelids were a little stuck together.  "Fuck," she muttered.  "I need
a shower.  You've totally drenched me in cum and spit and lube and I feel
totally disgusting."
"You up to that?" Tori murmured.
"Not really."
"Bath?"
"Mmmm, sounds excellent."
"Can I... go run it?"
Jade paused.  Was she going to be an emotional mess again?  "Kiss me first,"
she said.  She felt Tori smile against her skin, then move up slightly to kiss
her.
"Love you."
"Don't be annoying."
Tori laughed and slid out of bed.  "Back in five," she said and sloped off. 
Jade stretched out on the bed and dozed off.  She was going to totally made
Tori carry her to the bath, because she so wasn't walking anywhere on her own.
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