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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Major_Character_Death, Rape/Non-Con,
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      IT_-_Stephen_King, IT_(2017)
  Relationship:
      Richie_Tozier_&_Stanley_Uris, Eddie_Kaspbrak_&_Richie_Tozier, Patrick
      Hockstetter/Richie_Tozier
  Character:
      Richie_Tozier, Eddie_Kaspbrak, Beverly_Marsh, Mike_Hanlon, Ben_Hanscom,
      Stanley_Uris, Bill_Denbrough, Georgie_Denbrough, Robert_Grey, Pennywise_
      (IT), Patrick_Hockstetter, Stephen_King, Finn_Wolfhard, Jack_Grazer,
      Sophia_Lillis, Chosen_Jacobs, Jeremy_Taylor, Wyatt_Oleff, Jaeden
      Lieberher, Jackson_Scott, Bill_Skarsgård, Noah_Schnapp
  Additional Tags:
      Angst, Drug_Use, Rape, Implied/Referenced_Suicide, Confusion, Character
      Development, This_Is_Why_We_Can't_Have_Nice_Things, Self-Discovery,
      Depression, Richie_is_adorable, Jyatt_oml, it's_pretty_gay, Patrick
      Hockstetter_is_his_own_warning, Homophobic_Language, Heartbreak_because
      I'm_horrible, He's_a_teenage_boy_what_do_you_expect, Lots_of_sexual_stuff
      lol
  Series:
      Part 3 of The_truth_behind_the_clown_and_the_kids, Part 2 of Loser_club
      chronicles
  Stats:
      Published: 2018-01-19 Updated: 2018-01-20 Chapters: 4/? Words: 7466
****** A touch of Tozier ******
by Leggo_My_Eggos
Summary
     Richie's story from 1958 -2017 approximately.
***** Confessions *****
Richie Tozier was sweating,his glasses slid off his nose as he looks down the
well."good riddance penny-dumb!" There was an amused laugh from someone behind
him at his joke."what the fuck. We did it! "Bev said in shock. Staring down the
well,expecting the clown to jump up. They'd succeeded which meant he had to do
it. He looks at Eddie Kaspbrak, the small hypochondriac with the cutest
freckled face,the love of his life.he'd promised himself he would confess to
him in the event he was on his deathbed or when they drove back the clown.he
sighs softly,"Richie are you okay?"it was Ben "yeah! I shit my pants but I'm
otherwise good!" He grins at them and especially Eddie who smiles back.Bill was
slightly unnerved still,Richie guessed because he was literally headlocked by
the clown. As they run out of neibolt Bev says,"we should have a loser club
circle to promise each other we'll stay together!" They all link hands,Richie's
heart was pounding as his left hand had Eddie's soft hand in. His heart was
probably beating enough to be felt through their twined fingers. after a while
a flustered Richie pulls away. His face felt hot,"let's go home guys I'm
tired!" Bev said.so they all hug each other,even though they'd probably see
each other the next day. Richie sees Eddie going but he pauses.expectantly
looking at him. Shit he was leaving but he hadn't- "Hey! Eds!" The eager voice
of Richie Tozier calls out. Eddie turns back. They had just kicked ass in
Neibolt house. Everyone was tired but proud. They had decided to head back
home. But Richie had other plans.Eddie rolls his eyes and goes to the happy
mass off curls and attitude."what now Rich-" he was cut off by Richie "um.
Eddie I just have to show you something." Fucking hell Richie, can you not be
awkward for one fucking minute?Eddie raises a brow,Richie never uses his name
like that unless it's serious "what's up Richie?" Richie was looking down. His
glasses had steamed with his embarrassment,the heat off his cheeks had warmed
them up that much. Could he do it?"Eds,I-I-I um well.Shit! "He looks put out.
He was already flustered from holding Eddie's hand in the circle. He could feel
his palms getting sweaty and his pulse raising.he was panicking he couldn't-
' "Richie,calm down and try again!" Oh that angel...Eddie's cheeks were now
slightly pink."Eddie? Can you hold out your hand. The one with the cast. I
wanna show something to you." What the fuck Richie? Roll with it. He couldn't
fuck up. Not now.not after they survived this all..He watches as Eddie,adorable
Edward Kaspbrak held a small hand out. "God you have cute hands, they'd make
my-!" "Get to it Tozier before I push you down the hill!"Eddie grumbles.he
wanted to laugh at the snarky brown haired boy but knew he would probably go
off on one if he did.Richie nods"okay okay sorry gorgeous!" Eddie's cheeks were
now bright red.they went redder when Richie's hand slipped into his. And darker
red when Richie's nose was pressed against his. "Eddie spaghetti, I um,I
fucking love you, like a lot. More than I love your fat mom,and i want to um do
romance and romantic things eith you,grow up with you and-" Eddie doesn't even
give him the usual "shut the FUCK up," or"fuck off!" Especially having
mentioned Sonia. He's silent for now Richie could feel the warmth of Eddie's
body."prove it trashmouth."his voice was challenging. With that their lips lock
and they're both happy. Eddie's other arm loops around the other's neck as they
get lost in each other. When they pull away Eddie smiles "I want to do romance
and romantic things with you too faggot."Richie playfully shoves him "watch it
spaghetti boy!" Eddie looks at him With a look of love it makes him melt
inside."Let's go back." The entire time he was stopping himself for holding the
small hand,however nice his friends where he couldn't be sure.liking boys was a
bad thing and he was glad Eddie loved him back. Eddie seemed to understand but
It was obvious they wanted to snuggle so after they joined their friends and
walked them home they raced to Richie's room and lay together for hours.
Occasionally they'd share a kiss and an "I love you " giggling at comedy shows
and wondering how they'd got there after everything. It killed Richie when
Sonia came over to shout at Eddie. His parents had argued with Sonia while
Eddie anxiously listened until Richie gave up and kissed him until there was a
knock on the door. "Time to go Eddie Spaghetti. "Eddie rolls his eyes "shut the
fuck up trashmouth. "He snaps but he was smiling. They kiss briefly before they
open the door to Sonia. "Eddie Bear! " "hello Mrs. K. " Sonia smiles " Richard!
" After he leaves Richie lays back and smiles. A smile of pure happiness, much
to his parent's confusion, he was surprised they noticed him when they
questioned his "goofy behaviour. "When he offered to do the dishes.suit
themselves he thought, he was being nice! Their loss! He sat in his room and
giggled over Eddie for hours. -1 month later - Eddie spaghetti! " Richie seemed
to fly over to the door as he hugs the smaller boy tight."Richie. Hi!" Eddie
pushes him away."don't squash my asthmatic lungs."he laughs."you're as
asthmatic as I am sweetheart. " Eddie rolls his eyes "come on.get in before
someone sees." Richie grins " as your mother said." He gets a small shove in
return he smacks Eddie on the ass earning a squeal " Richie! "He covers his
back end."aw no let me see your cute ass in those whore house shorts." Eddie
gives him the finger and silently heads to the kitchen. "Want a drink?" When
there was no answer he turns to see Richie at the cupboards again " Richie!
That's private you idiot! Stop looking there!" "That's not what your mom said
last night. " Eddie drags him out of the cupboard instead Richie lands on him
and Eddie's bumps into the cupboard "for fuck sake Richie! Leave stuff alone!
"He says fondly playing With Richie's hair . Richie stays where he is, silent,
Eddie was so cute like this, in his own little world and it felt comforting
setting his mind off the urge to fidget with something. "Eddie baby?" Richie
mimics Beverly "what?" The voice was quiet "do you want to sleep? " "no." "You
sure?" "Totally" Richie strokes his cheek gently as Eddie slowly falls asleep,
his hand dropping onto his lap, it was so cute he could cry,"very welcoming
aren't you? " He gently lifts the sleeping boy up and places him on the sofa,
in his raiding of the cupboard he had found some cigarettes and proceeded to
light one, watching his sleeping partner lovingly, he loved Eddie's features,
his perfect hair, his pale face, his nose, his little mouth with perfect lips,
the slight freckle shower. His eyes wandered lower, Eddie had had a perfect ass
and in those shorts of his..fuck.. Richie was almost drooling and he was
slightly. .hard.great. He leans back ignoring his boner which eventually went
down before snuggling up to Eddie and accidentally falling asleep, he wakes up
an hour later to Eddie poking his nose, he was in a tshirt and those fucking
shorts again his little legs curled around his waist.right on top of a certain
area."Hey Richie! "He looks so innocent. Fucks sake Eddie " Goddamn it I only
just got it down Eds get off!" He looks down, curious " really? Well it's not
stayed there for long."he grins evilly, that little shit knew he had the
advantage.one move and Richie would be helpless to the brown haired boy on top
of him . Richie tried so hard to calm down but DAMN.eddie could tease "Eddieee
get offf. ." He grumbles, if he could just-' "Ah! Fuck!"Eddie purposefully
slides his hips forward as he gets off "you bad boy!" He was panting, his very
obvious erection showing. Eddie raises a brow "do you not have self control?
"Richie shakes his head " not with you, or your mom, fuck, she gets me hot
Eddie." Eddie looks unamused. His eyes hadn't moved from the tent Richie
had."hi Eds I'm over here, I know it's the size of a stallions and you want to
bury yourself in it but not right now." He notices Eddie seemingly force
himself to look up. With obvious red cheeks."hello Eddie. "Eddie was shy
suddenly " hi. ." Richie pulls him close."if you weren't so cute I would be
cross. But your ass is nice and I wouldn't be able to cope with It. "Eddie
smiles shyly, before nuzzling Richie and looking at him " I-we could sort it
out you know."Richie smiles " baby boy you're so cute and eager to jump onto
the magic wand but you're a bit young and inexperienced Right?" "And?"Eddie was
serious. Holy shit."you're serious? "Eddie smiles "when am I not?" With that he
reveals Richie's stiffness . Richie was suddenly VERY aware of his situation.
Should he even be doing this? Eddie was so young, it wouldn't-' his mind
blanked. He glances down at Eddie who was almost slavering over his cock, his
tongue running up and down, right where it felt the best, maybe he knew or it
was a fluke but Richie in particular was very sensitive at the underside of the
tip and could probably Cum from being touched there long enough which for him
wasn't very long. He trembled and bucked as Eddie worked, his tongue covering
every part of him.for a twelve year old he was good.he lifts his legs and hangs
them over the side of the couch.within minutes he was shaking and spilling into
Eddie's hand, panting. Eddie looks disgusted"eew goes to the kitchen and washes
his hands before returning for a heated makeout session . Richie would never
underestimate Eddie ever again, he vowed.the rest of the day they lounged
around eating pop tarts,drinking juice out of wine glasses making out and
watching films until about 3 am and Eddie was asleep. He grins at the sleeping
body and closes his eyes, falling asleep almost instantly, it was peaceful
sleep until he woke up to a shout "RICHIE!" His eyes open immediately, he rolls
over onto the floor with a curse or two, he finds his glasses and heads to the
door "Eds? " He calls for Eddie as he searches, worried, with a sinking feeling
at the end of his search he ends up in the kitchen, he sees a note a pool of
blood and an inhaler Words stick in his head forever especially the last on
that paper." If you try to get him back you'll float too! he's my last, how
about that for a deal? Beep beep Richie~ Pennywise. Richie screams. "Nonononono
not my Eddie! Please! "His legs give out and he falls.
***** Richie and his troubles. *****
It had been three hours since Richie had head the scream of his lover and he in
that time had been sobbing into the floor. He had no idea how to live like
this. He couldn't wait 27 years to save him. His heart was broken. He cried and
cried until he could no longer cry.he wails into the floor.thankfully nobody in
his family was home to witness his grief. Today,today they were going to out
themselves,suddenly a scream of frustration came from him. He throws the
inhaler away into something. And there he stays. He just curls into a ball for
a moment until he crawls up to the kitchen drawers and grabs the first thing he
touches. A knife, how ironic he thinks but he'll definitely go fuck that clown
up for stealing his Eddie.he grabs the note his face was right next to blood,
he didn't care though so yet again he sobs . gripping the knife tight in his
other hand.He was sobbing quietly and murmuring about Eddie," Eddie. .I love
you come back. .Please. ."another few sobs as he curled up, unaware of his
visitors, he didn't notice the balloon floating past until It pops. Richie
jumps noticing everyone and curls up. Embarrassed at his appearance. Quietly
bev kneels down and wipes his cheek. He doesn't resist. His hands
drop.immediately Mike grabs the knife, he lets it slip out of his hand as he
buries himself into the softness of Bev's body and closes his eyes, she was so
comforting, like the mother he'd wanted in life.T-the fucking clown took him!"
Richie finally speaks but he breaks down again.they all kneel down beside him
and offer their love but it's not enough "I'm going to go back for him! I can't
let eds go!"Bev pats his head  gently her fingers tracing the curls of his
hair. "There there Richie." Eventually his eyelids flutter. He was exhausted.
Against his will Richie slowly falls asleep..Beverly ruffles his hair."lets put
him on the sofa."but moving him was difficult. Richie was holding on.
Whimpering . Bev would stay with him. Richie woke up to police sirens. Huffing
richie got up,groaning, everything hurt!he was resting against Beverly marsh
who was talking to a police officer,helping with Bill's stutter,the poor boy
was struggling, Bev noticed the sudden shift and looks down."hey Rich."he looks
up at her weakly smiling,his face was tear stained still " Bevvy."he cries
again sobbing into her stomach.he wanted Eddie, he wanted Eddie to hold him
close not Beverly,but she was so sweet."Richard Tozier?"there was a voice
addressing him bit he was Richie..no reaction."hey,Richie..babe
thepoliceman.."Richie looks up at that. scared. Shit? Did they think he killed
Eddie? "I-I-I please don't take me away! Please!" His voice was full of
panic.The officer looks surprised"I only need you to state what you were doing
at the time of the...disappearance."disappearance, Richie wanted to laugh at
the politeness but instead he sobs again. He noticed his parents looking
disapproving, he understood, the time he's left alone people die. Sonia.. holy
shit.he springs up"Eddie's ma-!" Usually she was the center of his jokes,but
now.. shit.."I should've protected him..I had to..I should have stayed with
him.. I should've.." immediately the losers rush to him. All but Eddie."you
couldn't have done anything against him..you know we barely survived his
attack."this was Stan.good Stanley Uris who had called the police, stood next
to his dear mother. Police interest is immediately raised."who attacked you?"
The chidren go silent.Richie has wide eyes. His eyelashes are stuck with
tears."i'm gonna wash my face."he walks out silently. He didn't want to be
here. Couldn't he just die already? He wanted to fucking die.why couldn't
he?.He looks at himself in the mirror. How did Eddie even like Richie? He looks
down and washes his face with hot water, it burns but snaps him back to
reality, the reality that Eddie was gone. "GOD FUCKING DAMMIT YOU ASSHOLE! WHY
DO YOU HAVE TO DO THIS! WE KICKED YOUR ASS!" he throws his glasses
off.immediately there were footsteps, Bev rushes in."oh Richie,Richie baby,
shhh, look, you'll be okay, we'll get him back!" Her fingers link in his."how
can you say that? Betty and Georgie are dead! So is Patrick! He's gone!" Bev
says with him and wiped his face."you know, Eddie would hate all this snot and
germs you know."they both smile slightly and look in the mirror, they both look
exhausted."lets go Richie.."she gently places his glasses on."I loved him so
much Bev,"she couldn't stand it. He looked so sad,she holds him close."I
understand,you still do Right?"he nods as she pats his head. "Good" he looks at
her in confusion but says nothing.they head back to the lounge so he could be
taken to a station for questioning."can't you give him time?"Bev begged but
they refused so he let them carry him to the police station with his parents.
All the time of his journey he cries into his lap whilst squeezing the
retrieved inhaler. "Don't worry pet you're not in trouble. We'll find your
friend sweetheart. "He looks up and smiles weakly, if only she understood. If
only adults knew.once they got to the police station the kind lady leads him in
after patting his shoulder."chin up chicken! " he smiles but her kindness just
making more tears slide down his cheeks.he was then led to a bathroom and his
nose viciously scrubbed by an officer."such a skinny little scruff! You need
more meat on your bones!" He lifts a skinny arm up and drops it."bloody
hell."Richie accepts this torture whilst he waits as his parents got
questioned, probably lying about him. Idiots. When his parent's got out he
twitched and stared at everything in the room. The man interview him taps on
the table "hello, Richard Tozier ? Look at me please, I'm sergeant brown and
I'm going to ask you some questions. If you get distressed let me know. Richie
nods. He wanted to fidget with something. His fingers curl and he bounces his
leg. The police officer raises a brow and sighs. "Give me a moment. "He sighs
softly."what's wrong sir?"He stops twitching, looking around as the officer
goes to talk to someone outside, he hears "attentive to words and surroundings"
and "distracted." As the officer returns he apologises " I'm sorry I can't help
it."the man smiles wearily and hands him a rubiks cube . Richie looks
confuses."don't try to solve it just fidget with it. It'll distract you."he
nods and starts randomly moves the pieces."so, Richard-" "Richie. " "Of course,
Richie.so um. This is All in regards to your missing friend Edward Kaspbrak who
went missing yesterday night . I'll ask you some questions, you are currently
not a suspect. Just answer these questions for me." He nods and waits for the
questions to be asked.first of all he was asked to recount their day and so he
did, leaving out the Sexual parts and replacing them with film watching. At
this point the cube was solved much to both of their surprise. Richie then and
there prove to be more intelligent and mature than any child Derry police force
had interviewed, especially with Patrick hockstetter being one of those.after
several more questions about Eddie and his friends he was led out, the cube was
given to him by the policeman.on the way home the journey was awkward and
silent.when they arrived home Richie was dragged to his room in which Is ordeal
started.he wasn't given any food or attention whatsoever, his parents muttered
about him all day, he heard and at one point he crept out to the bathroom and
hunted for something sharp, it was a test, as soon as he felt the burn on his
skin his body relaxed, he let the blood wash away his troubles . Unfortunately
it didn't do good for his health, his lack of proper nourishment (his food was
eaten when his parents weren't away home) had led to him being skinnier than
ever.he was withering away, his parents weren't bothered, in fact they drove
his friends away when he needed them most.
***** I thought you were dead! *****
Chapter Summary
     Richie comes across something nasty in his revenge trip.
Richie heads to his bedroom door.he was heading out for the first time in
months.he takes a deep breath as he heads into his dreaded kitchen. Taking a
knife from the drawer, he heads out. The path to the barrens and the sewer link
so he heads to the cliff and sighs sitting down.he remembers when Bev jumped in
first, when all the boys,including him had stared at her because holy shit she
looked good! He smiles and closes his eyes for a minute before getting up and
leaving. He heads towards the sewers.he can distinctly remember Eddie's horror
at the water claiming it was "piss and shit" he says softly."it doesn't smell
like caca to me senõr "he stares into the tunnel before turning back. He heads
to Neibolt house, trembling, he heads to the door, ignoring the fact that this
was where he lost Eddie,he opens the door and heads inside, it's before silent.
He stabs at the wall.screaming his words of hatred.he takes a match and once
it's lit finds his way to the well and drops it down.he rejoices as he watches
the flame from above.he hoped the fucking clown burned . eventually he turns
himself away and rips up everything with the knife, trashing the house before
leaving and heading to the barrens He sits there for a moment when suddenly
he's grabbed and pulled back. He panics,flailing around before he realised this
may well be his chance to see Eddie again.'kill me then you fucking
clown!"there was laughter."why would I do that trashmouth?" His eyes widen,
that was the voice of a certain person.."Patrick? You're alive?what the
fuck?does that mean Eddie-!!"he was slammed against a rock,I don't wanna hear
about that pathetic asthmatic fool! You concentrate on me! Got it?" Richie
struggled"why should I? This is probably a trick from that clown!"there was
silence for a moment."no.in fact I switched places with your precious Eddie!"
He drags Richie by the hair. Richie doesn't fight back.he's too shocked, "you
fucking asshole! You killed Eddie!" He slumps slightly.falling."hah! That's how
it is!" Patrick was as cold as ever. He picks Richie up. Pinning him against
some rocks."you kmow what?Henry thought you would be good to play with,
trashmouth Tozier,he doesn't know when to stop,I wonder are you as dirty as you
say?"he feels teeth on his ear,biting at him.his heart pounds. He couldn't
escape..he tries to push him off"your mom would know!"Patrick chuckles.his
tongue lining his ear gently, "what about me? I want to know how much it'll
take before you break~"his voice was sadistic and his tongue found it's way to
his neck. Richie flinches,"get off me! I'll tell-" "who'll you tell Richie?your
parents hate you.and Beverly the whore is in a workhouse! The rest have given
up on you."a hand grips his ass and he was well aware of his closeness to
Patrick, he pushes against him"fuck off!I know everyone wants me but I prefer
your mom."Patrick yanks him forward " Fucking idiot! Shut up! Besides I know
your faggot side would love getting your ass filled, I can imagine~" Richie
notices a lustful glint in his eyes "Patrick go away! Please!" "Why should I?"
A finger was brushing his inner thigh slowly."because..go torture someone
else!" "Like who I wonder..Beverly? She'd like it..what about stutter boy..'s-
s-stop it! P-p-please kill me! I-I'm a f-f-faggot a r-r-rotten p-pansy! '" he
mocks. "No! They've done nothing to you! Please.."his voice trails off. The
finger is a hand.rubbing his groin"s-stop! It's not fair! Don't hurt them..I'm
not worth anything... just leave them alone."he flinches a little as he feels
pressure in his groin."stop you pervert-!"he was silenced by a hand on his
mouth."you don't want me to stop, your getting off to it! Look at you! Already
hard! Fag! If anyone touches your dick you get horny huh?do you like it?" He
starts grinding against him.pressing him back."no I don't! You're hurting me!"
He bites his lip. He was aware of the hardness pressing against him,he tries to
convince himself it's biology,he's a teenager and his hormones are awry,he
wasn't getting off to Patrick grinding on him,no way..his face goes slightly
pink and his ears warm up when suddenly he feels hands on his belt,dropping his
pants,"pathetic, you're all wet in your underwear already."Richie was extremely
embarrassed hoping the ordeal wouldn't be too long."you're fun to play with
trashmouth-"he's turned round while Patrick strips himselfsuddenly something is
rubbing against his thighs.it'sthick and fairly big.what the fuck Richie?it's
Patrick you idiot! His mind says.but everything fuzzes as he makes contact with
the cool rock he's pressed against.his breath hitches slightly with the
friction.even so tears stream down his cheek because he knows Patrick will take
everything from him.as the movement from Patrick increases the more he feels
worse,he'strying to ignore the heat in his stomach and crotch,unaware that he
was making small noises "see..if you didn't like it you wouldn't be about to
shoot a load..you fag, you're not telling me to stop are you?" Richie wanted
him to stop but he was weak. The heat was spreading in his stomach.he was
suddenly pinned onto the rock more.the pace increasing quickly. It was
unbearable.he was about to have possibly his best orgasm in a forest,to Patrick
fucking hockstetter.he lets out a small cry,half distress half pleasure as he
feels twitching between his legs,with a groan Patrick spilled onto the
rock.gripping the thin hips.the last few thrusts sent Richie over the edge.his
body twitching as he let's himself go onto the ground.as soon as Patrick lets
go of him he falls. Sobbing."stupid boy. Stop pretending you didn't like it!"he
says before zipping up.on the way home Richie tries to hide his face but people
know..of course they would! He hides near home and cries and cries into Eddie's
fanny-pack.if only..if only! As he gets home his mother acknowledges him for
the first time."Richard.we believe you must go to therapy, apparently you said
you were attacked by a clown." Richie's heart sunk. Life wasn't fair. And so it
went. He had to go and speak to a shrink.it ruined him as it went something
like this:
"So Richard, you say a clown attacked you and your friends, is this your
visuals of evil? "
Richie had sighed.refusing to talk.
"I can't help you if you refuse to help yourself. "
Richie had snapped. "What if I don't want to? What if I want to just go and die
with Eddie?"he leaps out of the chair and raced out . the said therapist had
said to his parents that Richie had too much attitude and was probably angry
for his losses . Richie said he could "kindly fuck off back up his mother's
cunt" After that Richie had gotten such a beating at home he cried for hours,
trembling like a scared rabbit.he was dragged in again kicking and screaming
himself hoarse until he was eventually quiet. Again, he was kicked and shoved
and Tearfully forced himself to cope.he started talking, much to the joy of the
adults who thought they'd tamed him.he still gave one word answers and hostile
body language.the time it took him to open up was long enough and if anything
it made him more depressed, he slowly fell out of reach from the world.
***** Richie's antics *****
-weeks later-
Richie Tozier gets up . there's banging on his door, he heads down the stairs
quietly, checking the door, it was only Bev it seemed, she sounded
frantic,"Eddie's mom is dead! They found her this morning! She must have been
suffering from her loss..."Richie's jaw drops and his heart stops for a moment.
"Shit...It's my fault. .I should have made sure Eddie-"
"There was nothing you could have done Richie. ." He looks sceptical, "i'm
serious Richie. "He sighs, "fine."if you say so." She holds him close."jesus
christ Richie! You're all bones!"She prods his ribs."this isn't allowed! You're
so skinny! They've not been feeding their baby!"She looks cross and pulls him
out of the house. They head to the local burger joint, "Bev..Eddie's mom is
dead we shouldn't be stuffing our faces."she sighs."distract yourself with food
Richie baby, it's a good policy. Besides you can barely stand Richie it's
scary. He nods, he didn't even have any tears to shed, they'd all long gone.bev
forced him to sit at a booth as she ordered food, after a while she reappears
with quite a lot of food. She slides the tray to Richie."first pick Richie. "He
ponders, he was so fucking hungry but he didn't know what to Eat. He picks up a
burger and stares at it in wonder before biting into it and holy shit, it
tasted so good, his eyes widen as he manages to chew it with his tired jaws.as
he eats it he lets out a small "mmm this is good." She grins "yeah?" He nods "
better than sex?" "Definitely! " he finishes his burger while Bev focuses on a
plate of fries.she pushes another one in front of him. "Bev no I'll be sick."
She smiles "really? But you're eyeing it up so eat a bit."he nods wearily, as
soon as he bites it he knows he'll devour that one too. Bev knew the grease
would probably make him sick later but he would have at least gotten nutrients
and energy.after Richie had his two burgers and some fries off Bev's plate they
went to the supermarket. Bev had left him at one Isle as she paid for something
and then returned as they went round to buy food.they came across Stan and Bill
buying sugar mice and stopped for a conversation. "Stan the man! Billiam! "They
look up and grin "Richie! Long time no see!"this was Stan, "h-hi R-Richie! G-g-
good t-to see you man!"he looks serious suddenly. "D-did y-y-you hear a - a-
about Eddie m-m-mom? " he nods "yeah..Bev told me."He felt horrific he really
did."poor Sonia. I know she was mean to Eddie but she loved him to bits
."so..wanna hang out for a bit boys? Maybe jump into the water again? Without
staring at me preferably. "All three boys blush, especially Bill. "S-s-sorry I-
I-I won't-" she grins playfully. "I don't care about it Bill you're all teenage
boys with raging hormones right?" Richie folds his arms."excuse me? I've fucked
my way around Derry Bev. Including all your moms. "Stan raises a brow at Bill.
"You're a fuck face Richie!"Bev playfully ruffles his hair."oy! "They play
fight for a bit until Stan separates them . eventually they get their shopping
done and to Richie's surprise Bev handed him the bag."for you."he stares in
shock."Bevvy. ." "Shush sweetie."she pats his hand gently " I should get back
before my parents figure out I'm out."she sighs "they probably won't have
noticed." He nods."That's sadly accurate. "Bev hugs him tight before walking to
the park where they hung around for hours until it was getting dark."fuck! I'm
in for it now !"he leaps up almost breaking his fingers "whoa easy tiger!' Stan
raises a brow again but adds"we'll walk you home Richie just in case." So they
did and Richie felt so loved he started crying. It was the most attention he'd
had for months. When they got to his house Bev handed him a wrapped present and
patted his head."for a special boy."she had said, which had brought Stan to
tears. "Quit crying you babies!"She remarked but hugged them all tight. They
open the front door and Richie sneaks in going up to his room, this was after a
lot of affection because hell,they didn't know when they'd next see Richie. He
knew that. In his room he opened the box gently, there was a glasses case with
some pretty fucking cool glasses frames.he stares at them before gently putting
them down. He wondered how Bev had acquired such nice frames when he saw a
note."I bought them! :p I'm not a thief :) :p" he laughs a little and picks
something else up. Some magazines similar to playboy but with men. She somehow
seemed to know he was gay. He panicked, who else knew? He puts the magazines
away hidden from sight. " good old Bev. " that'd be saved for late in the night
or when his parents had left.lately he felt as if his escape was sitting back
and letting his fingers do their work on himself. He'd gotten to do it so often
his body was craving it,he'd have to stop whatever he was doing to sort himself
out. It was an enjoyable experience he thought . He'd seemed to wake up with
sticky sheets more often too, he sighs as he sorts out the shopping and
distributes it. If his mother were to check that way his loss would be quite
small. He sits back on his bed and starts fiddling with a rubiks cube again, he
solves it.he grumbles, he wished school was easier too. He nibbles on some
grapes and sits back as he hears his parents go to bed. Unfortunately for him
it was a stressful night without sleep until of course he had a solution. It
was night time so why not? He looks around his room first,eyes nervous, before
picking up one of the magazines, he'd never thought of actual getting off to
actual porn magazines. He looks at the man on the cover. What a stud, his eyes
widen as his eyes go to his groin immediately, it was obvious he had a lot he
was hiding. Richie bites his lip as the familiar feeling from his stomach down
appears and he wonders why he likes boys, or men in this case. As he looks
through it he starts teasing himself, something he finds just as fun, somehow
for once he sees himself under someone big and strong and his legs seem to
spread themselves at the thought. His cheeks were now incredibly flushed as his
hand slips past his own length, he didn't know what he was doing until he felt
his finger slide inside himself, clearly at one point he'd been sucking on his
fingers which now meant he could guide his finger inside.his eyes widen as he
wonders what he's doing. His mind fuzzes as his finger repeatedly thrusts
inside himself, suddenly he adds another one and resists the urge to make any
sound. He carries on actually fucking himself with his fingers and his other
hand goes to give attention to his now leaking cock.soon enough he's spilled
onto his thighs and lower stomach.he lays back, panting for a few minutes until
he finally is calm again, he looks in disbelief at his legs at what he's just
done. He finds the energy to find a cloth of sorts and wipe himself down before
falling asleep peacefully. -A few days later- Richie gets up and heads to the
shower, he was best going before his parents got up.it was a weekend, his
parents would be asleep for hours yet.he was right in saying so. It was 11 am
and he was nibbling on a cupcake when his door was thrown open."Richard!!!" His
name made him cringe. He looks up and sees his mother at the door.she stares at
the cupcake wrapper in his hand."what's that? " "a cupcake ma." "So all this
time me and your pa have been eating packet macaroni you've been eating
sweets?" She snaps."have you got more food stashed in here? How have you been
getting it?" He bites his lip as he sees her go around his room. His eyes widen
as she goes to the one place he didn't want to be checked. His desk.she throws
open the drawers scattering pens paper and maths work. She then checks behind
and pulls out papers, not just any papers, one of Bev's magazines, the one he
read the other day. She stares at him in shock, her face consorts with anger .
bright red."WHAT IS THIS?"She fumes and slams her palm down.she grabs him by
the wrist which hurts as she's squeezing all the cuts."WENTWORTH!!!" She
screams dragging him down the stairs . magazine in hand. His dad looks up from
his newspaper. "LOOK!"She slaps the magazine down."look what I just found in
his room!" He feels the glare of his dad.here it comes he thought. There was
silence for a few seconds."I DID NOT SUFFER IN CHILDHOOD TO RAISE A PANSY! " he
feels a sharp slap, his face burns."Richie bites back tears. His dad yanks him
up by the hair "what have you got to say for yourself? " he could say anything,
his throat was tight with fear instead he sobs.his dad throws him Down.
"Weakling! There's no place for homosexuals in this house!" He grumbles."he's
been getting food off people too." His mother adds."begging probably! Scruffy
little monkey! "They flip through the magazine in shock while Richie sniffles
and coughs. What he hear next broke him. "It's probably that Kaspbrak boy's
fault! Delicate like a pansy that one! No wonder, probably taken for the
better! That mother of his raised him with kid boots! "His heart broke.he
murmured " Eddie. .Eddie. ."tears fall down his face again "shit up!" A kick to
his shin."or that Jewish boy! It shows that if you raise a boy out of a
christian way they become faggots! Have you seen him? Picks flowers and spends
all day cleaning his house. The way he dresses too! Honestly! His hair is all
curls and he has such a girl's face! Walks like one too, he's all mincing. "
Richie glares up at his dad " how dare you!! Stan is a respectable human being!
At least he's well dressed and brought up well!" He drags himself off to his
room and locks himself in.he sobs and sobs into his bed.he didn't want to be
gay..not until he met Eddie. .now what did he have? His mind goes to Stan,
gorgeous Stan with the blue eyes and the curls, Stan who would cooly reply to
his jokes . Stan who was trusting and loving...and very gay.it showed, fuck,
he'd seen Stan staring at him and Bill and looking so shy about it . He wished
he could Leap on top of him.his heart raced, he couldn't hurt Stan though, he'd
have to let Stan go too.he did the only thing he knew.he gets a knife and
repeatedly drives it deep into his thigh.the pain made him want to scream but
he felt a rush from it.he watches the red blood drip down his thigh.his skin
was mangled and ripped up, he passed out eventually, worn out. Richie woke up
to white, everything was white."Richie...come with me..I love you..join me and
you'll be okay. .Please. .Richie ! Richie! RICHIE!!"His eyes focus properly, so
does his brain"oww! Fuck!" He twitches."Richie baby I'm so sorry!"this was Bev,
her cheek was resting against his."it's okay Bevvy.."she was crying into him,
and nobody had seen Beverly marsh cry before.he sits up and holds her close as
they cry into each other.he runs his fingers through her bright hair."I thought
you were gone Richie. .you were out for days!" She mumbles into him."i'm here
Bev I'm not leaving. ."he feels gently fingers going across his arm."promise me
Richie. .promise me no matter how hard it gets you'll be here.." she was
looking at his arms."I - I'll try . that's a promise.""Richie I'm sorry. .I
wanted to help you..but I didn't know how..I saw and i just. .I'm so fucking
sorry!"She sighs into his shoulder. "it's okay. I love you Bev. ." " I love you
too."she smiles lovingly. His eyes widen suddenly. "Stan! " She looks behind
her at the blonde who looks shy as usual. "Hey Richie. " he takes Richie's
other hand. He notices how red his face goes. "My two favourite people! "He
smiles and they have a group cuddle before they were interrupted, right in the
middle of Richie's "I love you."aimed at them both.his eyes were locked onto
Stan's though. His mother's eyes darken."YOU AGAIN! " Richie panics " no ma!
It's not what you thought I meant! " he panics.his mother glares " you Jewish
scum! I've never liked you! Take your Jewish clap away from America! "Bev's jaw
drops and Stan's eyes widen in shock . Everyone knew Stan was quite a calm and
passive boy so Bev goes to protect him."how dare you? Stan has as much right as
Christians to live here!" Tears pour down her face, angry ones."I don't want
anything to do with you if you're going to be like that!"within moments she had
pushed Stan out the door " go! " She glares again " i'm taking your son too
seeing as you don't Know how to look after him!" She had pulled Richie out of
his bed and into her arms before leaving two shocked parents to stare after
them.once they were outside they saw bowers gang.their hearts sunk . just as
Wentworth shouted " fine! Keep him! We don't need devil's influence in here!
Live with the pansy! You're a workhouse child yourself! "Henry looks at them in
surprise as he takes in the sight."my my. The faggot club has shown up.kicked
out of home? Hilarious! "Bev glares "you'd better not do anything Henry! "
thankfully They had managed to run to Stan's house.Andrea Uris looks up as
three children burst into her house."Stanley? What's happened? "In a rush Stan
explains how Richie's parents lashed out.a look of anger flashed across her
face " I want to go give those Tozier' s a piece of my mind!" She looks at
Richie in Bev's arms."oh you poor sweetheart! Thank you Beverly for bringing
him here and protecting these boys.she smiles knowingly before wetting a
washcloth and wiping their faces gently, unfortunately for Richie he started
crying again because of her kindness.she quietly sent the other two away before
simply sitting Richie on her lap and patting his back, signs of affection he'd
never had, in that moment he got more love than he'd had since he was a baby.he
cried into her shoulder and she just let him.he snuggled unto her and made
small sounds of content, she smiled and rubbed his back more, when he fell
asleep in her she didn't mind, she patted his head and sat on the sofa with
him.when he woke up several hours later he was slightly embarrassed to find
himself resting against Stan's mother. He hastily apologised only for her to
smile."don't worry about it Richa- Richie, just take it easy for now.he noticed
she must have been reading a book over his shoulder because she had reading
glasses on.once he had managed to escape from her arms and they'd gone to
Stan's room he grins.stan just shakes his head " don't say it." His grin widens
"what can I say I'm a charming boy!"Stan rolls his eyes "as charming as a rock.
"But he was smiling. Eventually Bev had to go and Stan was left with Richie.
They sigh softly and their eyes had locked for too long " Richie I'm-" 'it's
not your fault I turned out this way. Although. My mom was right about you." He
looks confused. "immaculately dressed, neat and tidy, girl's face-hey! "Stan
had shoved him into a pillow. "I do not have a girl's face!"he pouts and Richie
feels his face warm up. He looked absolutely adorable ! "Stan. .I-" their eyes
lock again. Blue on brown.they lean closer and before anything could happen
they hear the doorbell ring.they both tense thinking the same thing. Thankfully
it's only a pizza delivery. From that moment Richie knew the Uris family were
the family he wished for year after year.
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