Addicted by: Ed Miller This is a story involving explicitly described sex. If you think you might be offended by it, or you aren't allowed by the laws of the place in which you live to read such a story, don't. If you read past this warning, any offense you take or laws you break are your problem. I've warned you. Permission is hereby given to archive this story anywhere on the Internet, so long as I'm credited as the author, it is reproduced in its entirety (including this disclaimer!) and no fee is charged to access it. On the matter of fees: I wrote this story (and others) for free, and I never expected to get anything out of it except the occasional response or critique, either good or bad. Constructive criticism is welcome, though please don't be abusive, and remember that this is primarily an attempt at a wank-story, not something aimed at a Pulitzer Prize. My point being: the only benefit I get from writing is feedback, and it seems to be tapering off in recent years. If you like it, tell me! If you don't, tell me why! Leave feedback on Fictionmania (that's best), or send email to: edmiller21@yahoo.com Put "your stories" in the subject line, or I might miss it in all the junk email I get. One more note: I've been busy with real life lately, and haven't been writing much. I took a morning off and wrote this one basically because a lot of people asked. The moral of the story is: ask and you shall receive. I might mention that I've been asking Babs Yerunkle for another installment of Planetary Agents for about a year now, but that probably wouldn't be in good taste. Addicted By Ed Miller I nearly collapsed against the door, leaning into it as I jabbed the doorbell. The door opened, and Jackie looked at me through the gap, her face obscured by the chain. "What do you want?" she asked. "You know what I need." She closed the door and I heard the rattle of the chain being removed. Then the door swung open and she let me back into the house. I glanced around the room. Nothing much had changed. If I didn't know better, I would have thought that everything was the same, that this was the house that we shared. I looked at Jackie, and I knew that hadn't changed either. I saw the same look on her face, the look of contempt. The confusion that had been mixed with it the first few times was gone now, but the disgust remained. Her body, though, told a different story. I had lived with her long enough to be able to read it. The way she stood, the tilt of her hips, told me all I needed to know. Despite the contempt, she still got off on it. I knew I'd still be able to get what I wanted. "I need it," I said again. "I can't help myself." "That's obvious," she said. "If you could, you never would have left." She was nearly sneering now, but she was also getting hotter. So was I. I could feel my cock engorged with blood, rock-hard in my pants with anticipation. "Please," I said, nearly at a whisper. "Please do it to me again." "Why should I? You're no good to me. You'll just run off again, and I won't see you until you change back and get so horny you overcome your embarrassment and come here begging me to do it again." I couldn't argue with that. She'd just described my plan exactly. But I knew I didn't have to. She'd do it. I might have to beg, but she'd do it. "You like it just as much as I do," I said, quietly but almost defiantly. "You like knowing I'm out there like that. You like knowing I'm doing... what I'm doing." She heard the way I faltered at the end, and grinned. Suddenly she couldn't hide the fact that she was enjoying the game we were playing. "That's not the way to ask," she said in return. "You have to ask me nicely." "Please," I begged. "Please do it again." "My, you want it that much and can't even say it?" I paused. "Please turn me back into a girl." My cock was straining in my pants even more now that I'd said it out loud, and I could see how it affected her. The horniness crept up from her body into her face. The contempt was still there, along with the amusement, but now it was mixed with desire. I wouldn't have to beg much more. "Why should I?" she demanded. "Because I need it. Because you need it. You love the thought of me as a girl." "If I had known how much you'd like it, I never would have done it the first time." That was probably true, but what's done is done. "You like it now, though," I said. "I know you do. It turns you on to think about it. When you're having sex with other men, with your new boyfriends, it turns you on to know how I'm doing the same thing." I was embarrassed now to be saying things this bluntly, but I wanted to get her as horny as possible. I didn't want to wait any longer. "Fine!" she shot back, seeming to get angry and hornier at the same time. "If you want to be a little slut again, that's what you'll be!" She gestured toward me, her arm held out imperiously, and I felt it begin again. It was slow. It had always been. I felt myself shrinking first and thought back to the fist time it had happened. Jackie and I had been in bed, and she'd gotten an impish grin as she asked me if I wanted to try something different. The gesture and the shrinking sensation had been the same. Now, though, it felt like ecstasy. As I shrank, I ran my fingers up and down my body. My clothes were dirty, a symptom of the burned-out existence I'd been living, but underneath them I could feel my skin softening and my body growing curves it was never meant to have. I looked down at myself, watching my ratty jeans slip down from my shrinking waist to rest around my widening hips. The corners of my vision began to fill with long blonde hair. I ran my hands down my flattened belly and over my crotch. I could feel my cock, still hard and still there, but much reduced in stature. I rubbed it, moaning with pleasure. With both hands I massaged my crotch through my pants as I felt my hard cock shrinking. I glanced up at Jackie, seeing the look of lust that had swallowed up the disgust she had for me now that she knew how much better I liked being a girl. She seemed to be growing, but I knew it was still me that was shrinking. I turned my attention back to my changing body. My hips were wide now, and I could feel my boxers stretching tightly over my rounded ass, riding up into my crack. I rubbed harder at my crotch as I felt my cock nearing its end. As I rubbed, it disappeared. I could feel it shrink to nothing and, a moment later, I could feel myself turning female again. I could feel the moistness of my wet pussy back between my legs as my hands rubbed hard against my mound. I left my pussy alone, knowing it would only be temporarily, to focus my attention higher. My hands cupped my breasts. As of yet, they were only little mounds, but I knew they'd keep growing. As my hands stroked them, my tits inflated. I could feel them slowly growing, expanding under my hands as I rubbed and moaned in my now-female voice. My fingers wandered over my nipples, feeling them tighten with the attention. They were larger now, and more prominent, sticking out through my shirt. As I played with my nipples another moan made it past my lips. I could feel my pussy getting even hotter and wetter as my breasts grew to fill my cupped hands. I massaged them, rubbing in a circular motion, as they continued to grow. I felt a shot of pleasure shoot through me as the slow growth of my titties caused my nipples to rub against my fingers. My breasts were overflowing my cupped hands now. And then it stopped. I was breathing heavily, like a woman on the brink of an orgasm, but my stimulation had suddenly ceased. I looked at Jackie. She was taller than me now, and the look of superiority had crept back onto her face, sharing it with her lust. "Is that good?" she asked. I could see what she was doing. She knew how much I liked to have huge tits. I'd told her so, the first few times when we were still pretending we could continue like that. I loved having breasts that were bigger than hers, and I knew it turned her on that I did. She liked thinking of me as a top-heavy girl. But she wanted to hear me ask for it. There was a part of me that was still manly enough to be embarrassed by asking for any of this, but bigger tits especially. It wasn't enough to stop me, though. I knew I wouldn't be happy with these little DD-cups. "No," I said, hearing the feminine tone of my voice. "It's not. You know I like to be... bigger." "Tell me what you want," she demanded, almost childishly. "You know I want bigger tits," I replied. As an afterthought, I pulled out the waistband of my jeans to look at my crotch. "And no hair on my pussy." She waved again, and I could feel the ecstasy resume. My hands cupped my breasts as they swelled larger on my chest again. They were already overflowing my cupped hands, but as I moaned and stroked them they grew even larger. My nipples ached and my pussy flowed, as my big titties grew even bigger. They were warm, soft, and heavy on my chest when they finally stopped. I was breathing fast again, almost ready to orgasm. Jackie was standing across the room from me still, gazing lustfully at my body. Neither of us spoke for a moment, but it was her who broke the silence. "Go use the shower," she told me. "You'll have to get cleaned up to get what you want." As I stripped out of my clothes in the bathroom, I knew she was right. The last few weeks hadn't been that good to me. I hadn't been paying much attention to anything except the competing drives that were telling me to stay away from Jackie and try to go on with my life, but at the same time to run back and beg her to turn me into a girl again. I was nearly out of money, and I hadn't been eating well. My clothes should probably be burned, since I hadn't been paying much attention to hygiene lately. My body, at least, was much healthier now. I could see the glow of a young, healthy teenage girl staring back at me in the full-length mirror. My face was innocent and gorgeous, and the same soft beauty extended to my whole body. As I unbuttoned my shirt and let it fall to the floor, I got a good look at my mountainous breasts. My god, they were huge. Bigger than the time before. I think this was the biggest Jackie ever made me. As I slid my pants off my hips I could see my soft pussy mound, the hairless cleft between my legs. It was so smooth and sexy that I had to slide a finger down over it, slipping it in between my rounded lips. I jumped when it slid across my clitoris. I turned around, totally naked now, to look at my ass. I was just making myself hotter, but I loved to tease myself. There it was, rounded and perfect in the mirror. I wanted to get fucked in it. I turned on the shower and got in, feeling the hot water play over my perfect body. My skin was more sensitive now, and I could feel the erotic pleasure of the droplets of water beading and running down my flesh. I soaped myself and then washed the lather away, feeling sparklingly clean. I had mostly finished my shower and was standing with the spray falling down on my big tits when I heard the bathroom door open. The shower curtain slid to the side and Jackie was in there with me, naked and wet. I knew she had been too hot to resist. "You look like you need help," she said. "I'd be amazed if you could wash those things by yourself." With that, she lathered up her hands and started to caress my breasts. I could feel her hands sliding over my large melons, so slick with the soap and water. I put my arms around her, kneading her ass cheeks as I pulled her close. My soapy tits pressed against her as I leaned my head back. She bent her neck to kiss me, thrusting her tongue into my mouth. I tilted my hips forward involuntarily, trying to get my bald pussy as close to her cunt as I could. I was thinking back to the first time she'd changed me. She had told me how she enjoyed girls, and then we'd had sex all night long. I remembered her tongue sliding over my clit as she fingered my pussy. I could still feel her straddling my head as we licked each other's clits, and my hand reaching up to grab her ass and pull her pussy down onto my face. I was brought back to the moment when she slid her hands off of my big soapy tits, along my sides. She grabbed my rounded ass momentarily and squeezed. We pulled each other close, fondling each other's ass, and then she slid one hand around to the front. To my pussy. "How long do I have?" I whispered. "Long enough," she moaned. "You can give me this before you go out to get fucked." Her finger slid into me. I was amazed again, like I had been each time, at the pleasure of having something inside me. She slid in and out of me, curling her hand so that her palm rubbed against my hairless mound, exposing and tickling my clit each time she slid her finger into my pussy. "You're so wet," she moaned. "I know. I love it." My back was against the wet tile wall now, but my hips were thrust forward and my legs were spread to give her complete access to my pussy. My hands crept back to my soapy titties, fondling and caressing the hot flesh. I grabbed my nipples and tugged on them, matching Jackie's rhythm as she finger-fucked me. "Mmm, those things are huge," she said, half to herself. "I love them," I replied. "Would you like them to be even bigger?" she asked with a grin. "Oh!" I moaned, feeling myself jump nearer to orgasm at the thought of my already huge breasts swelling even larger. Jackie smiled wider, and I could feel my tits start to grow again. The soft heavy flesh in my hands moved slowly out, away from my chest. Jackie's hand continued to work in my pussy as she made my tits blow up like balloons. I rubbed them and played with my nipples, as they got even bigger. My eyes had squeezed shut from the ecstasy, but I forced myself to open them. I looked down at my body, no longer the least bit male. The first thing I saw was Jackie's hand between my legs, two of her fingers disappearing into the folds of my hairless pussy. But I could only see that by looking between my huge, growing breasts, and my attention was almost immediately drawn to the giant melons on my chest. I couldn't believe they were still growing. They were too big already. But I couldn't bring myself to ask her to stop. I rubbed and stroked them as I felt myself reach the precipice. My orgasm swelled up like my titties and I screamed as I came, my back sliding down the slick tile wall as my knees buckled. I settled into a sitting position on the floor of the tub, my knees up on the side. My gigantic tits were resting on my thighs. Without a word, Jackie moved forward. Her knees resting on either side of the tub, she grabbed the bar above my head for support as she thrust her wet crotch into my face. I started licking her pussy without hesitation. Jackie was shaved, but not quite as smooth and hairless as I was. That didn't detract from my enjoyment, though, as I slid my tongue along her slit and rubbed it against her clitoris. I was regaining strength in my arms, and I reached up to grab her ass and pull it toward me, burying my face in her pussy. My tits had stopped growing, so there was nothing to distract me from licking her. My tongue tickled her clit and slid in between her shaved lips. I thrust it into her before going back to caressing her clit with my tongue. She was moaning now, enjoying the feeling of my face buried in her snatch. She was so turned on by seeing me as a girl again that I knew it wouldn't take long. It didn't. I felt her body tense and knew she was about to come. Her legs spread even wider as she pulled herself toward me, pressing her pussy against my mouth as I licked as fast as I could. Her hips twitched uncontrollably, and the almost violent movement set my tits jiggling. Her own breasts, much smaller, were leaping on her chest as she thrust her hips against my face. When she'd finished she let go of the bar that she'd been holding on to and slid down to rest against me, her small tits pressing against my much larger ones. I could feel her there, warm and comfortable, and it reminded me of when we'd been a normal couple. Part of me wanted to stay and remember that for a while, but I was already restless. I knew what I wanted, and she wasn't it. She was missing something that I knew I needed. Jackie watched as I disentangled and dried myself. I couldn't have said what she was feeling now. Her face was almost expressionless. I knew that later she'd be fingering herself while she thought of what I was doing, or maybe letting some guy fuck her, but right now she was satiated. She was just watching. I, on the other hand, wasn't satisfied. I'd had a fantastic orgasm, but my pussy was already wet and ready again. I needed more. I found the clothes that Jackie had brought into the bathroom for me, and started to get dressed. As I slid the thong panties up my legs and felt them settle between my ass cheeks, I knew it wouldn't be too long before my pussy soaked right through them. I caught a glimpse of my reflection and stopped cold. My god, my tits were gigantic! Huge round orbs hung from my chest, unbelievably firm and large. I looked ridiculous. Strippers and porn stars aren't this big. I could feel my pussy get even hotter at the realization that those fat titties were mine. I hooked the bra around my ribcage and then hoisted my giant breasts into the cups, reluctantly hiding them from view. I pulled on the skirt and top and then stepped into the shoes. I turned to see Jackie, watching wordlessly as I left the room, off to find someone to fuck me. It didn't take long. I wasn't sure any more how many times I had done it, since the first time my curiosity got the better of me and I sneaked off while Jackie was sleeping to find out what it was like to be fucked. Since then, I'd tended to measure time by the periods that I was female, and the periods in between had become less important as I focused only on repeating the experience. I couldn't remember how many times I'd done it, but after the first it had become second nature. A club, a bar, a restaurant, or just a guy on the street was all it took. Before I had time to think, I had found another willing partner and was rubbing myself against him while he fumbled with the keys to his apartment. I straddled his leg and pushed my tits against him, rubbing my crotch on his thigh as he struggled to open the door. He dropped his keys twice. I wasn't even sure of my partner's name. Bob? Rob? Whatever it was, I was going to let him fuck me as hard and fast as he wanted. When he finally got the door open and we tumbled into the apartment I couldn't even wait to get into the bedroom. I pushed him back onto his couch and kneeled in front of him, rubbing his crotch through his pants with one hand while I undid his belt and unzipped his fly with the other. Once released, his long stiff cock stood straight up from his crotch. I leaned forward, careful not to let myself be overbalanced by my huge, heavy breasts, and engulfed it greedily. As I bobbed my head up and down in his lap, I used my hands to unbutton my top and throw it to the floor. I licked his rod up and down while I slid the straps of my bra off my shoulders, feeling my tits settle without the support. I unhooked the bra and slid it off my arms, my breasts finally released again from bondage. "Oh my god, they're huge," my partner mumbled incredulously, between gasps. My breasts swaying with every movement, I turned my attention back to his cock. My lips slid over the hot slick flesh of his dick as I tried to get it all into my mouth. It was an impossible task to attempt to swallow the whole ten-inch monster, but I couldn't help but try. As I bobbed up and down in his lap, I was struggling to pull my skirt off. Though it was awkward to do on my knees, I was soon down to just my thong panties and heels. The crotch of my panties, molded to my hairless pussy, was soaking wet. I could feel his hips thrusting faster, and I knew this wouldn't take long. I sucked harder, moving my hands up to stroke the base of his cock while I licked the tip. I rubbed it against my face. Finally, I lurched forward and wrapped my enormous breasts around his dick. That did it. His hot load of cum shot up from between my titties to spray my neck. As his orgasm subsided, I reached up and spread it over my mounds, pressing them together to swallow his still-hard cock between them. My partner took the initiative now. He had gotten rid of his shirt at some point while I was busy sucking his dick, and now he divested himself of his pants as well. He pushed me backwards until I was laying on the floor, my huge tits lying heavily on my chest and my legs spread wide to expose my hairless pussy. Without slowing, he lowered himself over me and slid his cock up into me. Instantly, I was I heaven. As much pleasure as had gotten from being fingered and fondled by Jackie, this was what I really needed. Even the blowjob I had just given was nowhere near as fulfilling as being filled and fucked with hard, thrusting cock. I spread my legs further and arched my back, moaning with pleasure as I felt his stiff rod slide up into me again and again. My hands found their way back to my chest, and I started to rub my tits again. They felt like twin peaks on my chest, jutting upwards. My nipples ached, but the pain felt so good. His dick was hot and hard, stabbing me over and over again. Each time I felt it buried inside of my hot wet pussy I felt a little nearer to an orgasm. I pushed my crotch into his, trying to get a little more penetration each time. I wanted him deep inside me. With every stroke, his pubic bone ground against my clit. It was forceful, almost brutal, but I wanted more. I wrapped my legs around him to pull him into me even deeper and ground my crotch against his, feeling his thick cock fill me up. My clit was on fire. Each time he slid into me I could feel my climax getting closer. My hands on my breasts were getting rough now, tugging on my tits and pulling on my nipples as I strained toward an orgasm. I was frantic. At once, I felt the dam break and pleasure flooded my body. I arched even higher as I came, and the feeling of the cock still fucking me full force, not letting up for a second, extended my orgasm until I felt like I couldn't take it any more. I was torn now between stopping my partner and having him turn me over, or letting him finish so that I could feel his cum in my pussy. He made the choice for me. By now, he was so near his orgasm that I doubt I could have made him stop. He grabbed my rounded ass cheeks with both hands and buried his face between my giant pillowy breasts as he rammed his cock home into my pussy again and again. I could feel the strain as he fucked me as hard as he could, and even though I had just had an orgasm the feeling of his cock pistoning into me was working me towards another when he finally came, spilling his hot cum into my wet pussy. I didn't slow the pace, though. As he collapsed onto me I was wriggling out from under him. My partner looked up from the floor with a confused look on his face to see me, on my hands and knees with my enormous breasts hanging down. I was facing away from him, my perfect ass spread and ready to be fucked, and I was looking back over my shoulder. I wagged my ass back and forth, and smiled. "Come on," I breathed. "I love it in the ass." The exhaustion left him as he got to his knees behind me. His cock, which had wilted slightly, sprang back to a full erection at the thought of plowing the furrow between my ass cheeks. I could feel his had on my hip as he steadied himself, lining up his hard-on with my eager asshole. Then he slipped into my willing ass. The feeling of fullness was even more pronounced than when he fucked my pussy. I had to tell myself to relax as he grabbed both my hips and started to fuck me in the ass. It was uncomfortable at first, as it always was, but soon I was rocking backward with each thrust to get his cock deeper into my ass, and feeling my fat titties swaying quickly underneath me, nearly touching the floor. His hands gripped my cheeks as he buttfucked me hard. He was kneading my ass while he fucked it, pressing the cheeks together to make my tightest hole even tighter around his dick. The hot rod in my behind was driving me nearer and nearer to another orgasm, and this one felt like it would be even better than the last. As my partner fucked me harder and harder, my hairless pussy left empty while my ass was over-full, he was forcing me forward toward the floor. I was too small and weak to keep off it. I felt my huge breasts start to rub against the carpet at the bottom of each swing. My nipples caught against the rough weave and the sensation multiplied my ecstasy. Each thrust moved me farther forward, until my big tits were resting firmly on the ground. Finally I was laying flat on my stomach, my giant titties crushed underneath me. My partner hadn't stopped buttfucking me though, or even slowed down. My legs were spread wide, exposing my asshole, and his hands were spreading my cheeks even wider to give him complete access to my ass. His cock felt like it was filling me completely back there, like there wasn't a square millimeter of volume that wasn't being taken up by his hard dick every time he thrust it all the way inside me. I could feel his hot breath on the back of my neck, coming faster now, and I knew it wouldn't be long before he deposited a third load of cum in my back door. I wanted to feel him tense and cum inside me again. Although I was crushed underneath him and couldn't move much, I tried to press my ass back into him, meeting his thrusts as much as I could. Finally, he tensed up and drove his cock all the way up my ass, seeming to penetrate me six inches farther than he had with any earlier stroke. I squirmed with discomfort and pleasure to be so totally filled. I could feel his cock twitching as his third load of cum, smaller than the first two, seeped out of it and up into my ass. It felt warm, wet, and wonderful to have his cum inside me in both my pussy and my ass. My partner collapsed on top of me, and this time I didn't have the strength to even consider trying to wriggle out. I just lay there, feeling the cum seeping out of my holes. His softening cock was still up my ass, but I wanted to keep it there as long as I could. I knew that tomorrow, or maybe the next day, I'd turn back into my old self. I told myself, like I did every time, that I should make this time the last. I should leave town, never see Jackie again, and try to make a new life for myself. I should try to forget all this and start over somewhere else. I knew I wouldn't, though. I'd do what I had been doing. I'd wait, ashamed and embarrassed, until I needed it badly enough that I couldn't stop myself. And then I'd go see Jackie again. After all, I was addicted. End