Reasons Until After

Part Three

 

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The bathtub wasn't any larger than you might expect, but I wasn't any bigger than Tori and she wasn't anything but petite. She wasn't shy either, giggling happily as she got into the bathtub with me. I couldn't help but stare at her pussy.

She was smooth, completely shaven with just a furrow of pale skin rising between her thighs towards the plump swell of her mound. Tori's pussy lips were turned inward, they must have been, because I saw no sign of them. At the top of her slit there might have been a small bump, but that was all. I didn't see her clitoris or anything and I knew what that stuff looked like. I'd surfed the web before and Roger especially had quite a little collection of porn on his computer. I wasn't disappointed by Tori though, not at all, if anything I thought her pussy was the sexiest thing I'd ever seen in my life!

"Okay," Tori settled herself into the water, facing me with her legs spread like mine. "Let's start at this end!"

"I can give myself a bath," I said, but that was just for show. I didn't really mean it and the girls weren't going to listen to me anyway.

"Give me your foot…" Tori said and I just watched as the girl used a washcloth and a bar of soap to wash my left foot.

I could have cum just from that, I swear. Her slippery fingers worked around and between my toes, along the bottom and over the top. I'd never felt anything like it. A sexy naked girl was washing my foot and I had to resist grabbing my cock as it stood stiffly under the water, begging for attention. My balls were actually starting to ache, but only in a pleasant way.

"You have really small feet for a boy, Ash," Petra said and she'd sat down on the closed lid of the toilet.

"Yeah, he does," Tori agreed, holding my foot in her left hand and sliding her right hand up my calf. "What size shoe do you wear?"

"Size six," I said.

"God! I wear a size seven," Sonja said. "No wonder you have such a little dick."

"What?" I looked at her and I guess the pain in my voice must have been obvious.

"I don't mean it's tiny," Sonja said quickly. "Just, you know, it's kinda little."

"Definitely not tiny," Tori reassured me with smile. "It's just girly."

"It's cute," Petra said. "Don't listen to Sonja, she doesn't know. It's like a big clit, kinda."

"Yeah, that's what I meant," Tori nodded. "Lotsa girls have big clits."

"What, um…What do my feet have to do with…that?" I wondered and I'd never thought about how big my dick was...Or wasn't, as it turned out.

"You know," Tori answered, "big feet, big hands…Big dick!"

"Dan's got big hands, doesn't he?" Petra grinned at me.

"Big feet too," Sonja agreed. "I bet he wears like a size eleven or something."

"At least," Petra nodded. "I can't believe you didn't get at least one good feel of his cock yet, Ashley."

"Just cause it's the first thing you do!" Tori rolled her eyes and she was working her soapy hands all the way up my thigh now, both hands sliding up and down so that it felt more like a massage than a bath.

"It is not!" Petra frowned. "And even if it is, so what? A girl's gotta know what she's getting herself into!"

"What's getting into her, you mean!" Sonja laughed.

"Well, Ashley's gonna find out tonight, right?" Tori looked me right in the eyes and I swallowed hard.

"Uh, yeah," I said without much conviction. "I guess so."

"You just bring him up here to my room. I won't be using it," Tori said. "You can check him out all night long."

"Why not?" Petra asked. "What happened to Mike?"

"Nothing," Tori grinned. "But he's gotta help me watch the party. I already told him he better not get drunk."

"Mike Mathews?" I guessed and Tori nodded.

"Yeah, he's my new boyfriend. You know him?"

"I've seen him," I said. "He's kinda hard to miss."

"Yeah," Tori giggled.

"She likes 'em big," Petra said with a grin and that was understatement.

Mathews was a senior and a football player, but one of those guys they put in the front. He stood about as tall as Dan probably, over six feet easy, but he had to be almost twice as big around. I bet Mike weighed three hundred pounds and I couldn't picture little Tori with that guy to save my life.

"He is big too!" Tori giggled and she'd started washing my other foot. "Let me see your wrist."

"What?" I held up my hand and Tori grabbed my wrist, closing her fingers and thumb around it with a shake of her head.

"No. He's way thicker than that," she told me seriously.

"What's thicker than that?" I stared at her. "His dick?"

"Yeah!" she laughed. "It really hurts at first too, but that's the best part."

"The best part?" I looked down and my dick wasn't much bigger around than my thumb.

"Stretching!" Tori giggled. "I love riding a really thick dick."

"What a slut," Petra yawned like she was bored. "Tori just likes it on top, cause if she ever got on the bottom she'd be dead!"

"I get on the bottom sometimes!" Tori protested.

"Yeah, right," Sonja shook her head. "Jimmy's got a big dick, but at least I don't have go mountain climbing to get it."

She was talking about her boyfriend, another football player named Jimmy Olsen, just like the guy in Superman. He was okay mostly, but I didn't really know any of the seniors that well.

"Jimmy's dick ain't that big," Petra said. "It's like average sized."

"It is not!" Sonja made a face. "I saw a thing on the internet, it said the average dick is like five and half inches long or something."

"That's all?" Petra shook her head like she didn't believe it. "So how big is Jimmy's dick?"

"Six and a half!" Sonja said proudly. "I measured it myself."

"That's average," Petra said. "Probably that internet thing was written by a guy with a little dick."

"It was a girl who wrote it, for your information," Sonja said. "A doctor."

"There aren't any girls on the internet!" Tori laughed. "They're all guys, everybody knows that!"

"You just don't like Jimmy," Sonja frowned at Petra. "His dick is perfect for me, even if it's not oh my God huge or whatever."

"Whatever," Petra waved her hand. "At least my boyfriend's got a nice long dick and he can still see his toes when he stands up."

"Fuck you," Tori made a face. "Mike's not fat, he's just…big."

"Really big!" Sonja giggled.

"Déjà vu!" Petra said. "How about you, Ashley? You like really long cocks, or really fat cocks?"

"I like really fat ones," Tori wiggled her eyebrows at me.

"Duh! Let him answer," Petra said.

"Can't I have both?" I asked with a grin, not because I meant it, but just because I knew they'd love it.

"Oh! You're sick!" Tori laughed, splashing me with soapy water.

"God! You're just a slut, Ashley!" Petra giggled. "A serious cock slut, aren't you?"

"Heh!" Sonja was grinning at me. "I was just starting to think you weren't a fag! That's so cool, Ash!"

"He must be a serious fag," Tori said and I gasped as she grabbed my cock suddenly. "We've been talking about our boyfriends' dicks for half an hour and Ashley's hard as a rock!"

"Poor thing," Petra sighed theatrically. "Don't tease him, Tori. That's mean."

"Yeah, you should help him out probably," Sonja said.

"Help me out?" I swallowed hard and lifted my butt off the porcelain just cause Tori was squeezing my dick hard.

"Do you need to cum, Ash?" Tori asked me.

"Uhhh…" I blinked at her and I was going to cum any second if she didn't let go.

"Don't let him cum in the water though," Petra said. "That'll just be a mess."

"Use the washcloth or something," Sonja suggested.

"I'm using the washcloth to wash him," Tori said. "Is there another one? There, by the sink?"

"Ummm…" Sonja turned around, "...Toilet paper?"

"Toilet paper in a bathtub?" Tori rolled her eyes. "That's a mess!"

"Just use your mouth," Petra said. "Hurry up, this bath is taking forever!"

"My mouth?" Tori made a face. "I don't even like it when Mike cums in my mouth!"

"Nope. No washcloth here," Sonja shrugged.

"You're such a little girl sometimes!" Petra pushed herself off the toilet seat and got on her knees by the tub. "Look out. I'll do it."

"Ohhh…Fuck!" I gasped as Petra just leaned over the edge and pushed her face into the water like she was bobbing for apples!

Petra took my cock in her mouth and I lifted with my hips instinctively, shoving all of my erection between her lips. She had a mouthful of bathwater as well and she let it flow out as my cock broke the surface of the water. I held myself there and held my breath as well, just staring at this beautiful teenage girl while she sucked my dick like it was a piece of candy. I could feel her tongue moving around the sensitive head, and it was hot in there, wet too, like nothing I'd ever imagined.

"That looks so cool," Tori giggled. "Look, she's got the whole thing in her mouth!"

"He's really little," Sonja shrugged. "That's what I said before."

"Petra's got a big mouth too!" Tori laughed. "Roomy in there, I bet!"

"I'm gonna…gonna…Oh!" I was cumming, just that quick. My balls felt like they were trying to leap into my throat. My cock pulsed rapidly, shooting hard and Petra made a soft moaning sound, or a purring sound even, and we watched her throat muscles move as she swallowed quickly.

"I can't believe how much she likes that stuff," Tori stuck out her tongue.

"It's not bad," Sonja said. "Sometimes I don't wanna do it, but mostly it's okay."

"Yeah, but Petra loves it," Tori said. "She's so weird."

"Jesus," I breathed and I had my fists under my butt, kind of sitting on them while I tried to catch my breath.

"Feel better now?" Sonja asked me with a smile.

"He looks happy," Tori laughed. "Did it taste good, Petra?"

"Mmmm…" Petra lifted her mouth slowly, pursing her lips tightly closed around my cock as it slipped free. I didn't realize what was happening when she pressed her lips against mine.

My mouth was open anyway as I was panting for air and then it was full of Petra's tongue and something else besides. Cum! The last spurts of my own semen that Petra had held in her mouth and was now spitting into my unprepared mouth. I jerked with surprise, but not far as Petra had her hands on my face and she filled my mouth with sperm and spit, swishing it around with her own tongue until she was satisfied and finally pulled back with a smile.

"Go ahead, Ashley. Swallow it," she said. "I knew you wanted some."

I wanted to spit it out and I almost did, but all three of those girls were staring at me, all smiling and giggling, nodding their heads happily. I didn't have a lot of choice because the idea of disappointing them was somehow a lot more repugnant to me than swallowing the mess in my mouth. I closed my mouth and then my eyes and then swallowed hard with an audible gulp that brought a little round of applause from my new friends.

"You like that stuff, Ash?" Tori grinned at me. "Don't let the boys find out!"

"Oh, God! That was sexy!" Sonja breathed and I was just hoping I didn't throw-up right away.

"He's a good kisser too!" Petra said and the realization that I'd just experienced my first kiss ever with a girl made me forget all about what I'd just swallowed. Petra had kissed me. She'd sucked my dick too! And kissed me! Except for the part about making me swallow my own semen, that had been seriously cool.

"Let me try!" Tori said and before I knew it she was kissing me and it was even better than kissing Petra. I wasn't getting a mouthful of cum, for one thing, but for another I could actually put my arms around her.

Tori's tongue seemed smaller too. Petra's had been kind of big, not like Dan's or anything, but just…Aggressive, I guess. Tori's was light and quick, playful it seemed as she just fluttered her tongue around inside my mouth. I kissed her back too. I mean, I had to and she actually giggled as I chased Tori's tongue into her mouth with mine. She tasted sweet, like electric cotton candy, and I wanted to live there. I wanted to kiss Tori forever.

"Wow! You kiss good, Ashley," Tori said after it was over, sitting back and licking her lips while I just nodded. "You wanna try, Sonja? Oh. I guess not."

I followed Tori's gaze and saw that Sonja and Petra were kissing, like seriously making out while they knelt on the bathroom floor. Petra had a hand on Sonja's left breast, squeezing it through the other girl's top, and Sonja had both hands on Petra's ass, squeezing her cheeks and pulling the girl against her. It almost gave me a heart attack because I hadn't even imagined these girls would kiss each other.

"They're kissing," I said dumbly and Tori giggled.

"Well, yeah. We make out all the time," Tori shrugged and started washing my chest with the soap and washcloth she held. "That's not gonna freak you out is it?"

"Uh, no," I swallowed hard and couldn't take my eyes off them.

"Cool," she smiled. "Some of the other girls at school get kinda weird about that stuff."

"They do?" I forced myself to look down, to see Tori's dainty hands washing my nipples, rubbing my chest like I had real breasts or something.

"Uh-huh," she said. "We're not dykes or anything though. Well, Sonja's kind of a dyke, she had a real girlfriend before she even had a boyfriend, but me and Petra just like fooling around, you know?"

"Yeah, that's okay," I agreed and Tori was working her thumbs around my nipples hard, really pressing down on them and it almost hurt, but it felt good too.

"It's pretty fun, but I like cock too much to be a lesbian," Tori said. "You too probably, huh?"

"What?"

"I mean, you'd fool around with a girl, but you really aren't happy unless you're with a guy, right?" Tori looked at me and I winced as she pinched my nipples hard. "You got really pretty nipples, they're good for pinching. I'm into nipples a lot."

"Yeah," I breathed, arching my back because this girl wasn't letting go!

"Does that feel good?" she asked me with a giggle. "It hurts, huh? I like that stuff, but some people don't."

"Owww…Shit!" I was almost ready to cry when the girl let me go. "You pinched the hell out of me!"

"She does that," Sonja giggled and she was red faced and sucking at her lips. "Don't let her bite you, Tori's like a little Irish vampire sometimes."

"Hey, we're, uh…gonna go in the bedroom for a minute," Petra stood up slowly and she looked pretty out of breath herself.

"Only for a minute?" Tori giggled. "Don't get my bed all wet!"

"We won't get all of it wet!" Sonja laughed, letting Petra pull her to her feet.

"Hey," Tori grinned at me and I smiled back.

"What?"

"I'm gonna give you a hickey!" she said and those green eyes were all shiny and bright.

"You are?" I laughed softly. "Um…Okay."

"Two of them," she nodded. "Right…Here…"

I sighed with pleasure when Tori leaned down to kiss my left nipple. She licked it too, teasing me with her tongue and it was hard already, and itchy, I was aware of it now. Having my nipple kissed and licked was great and then Tori started sucking on it. Gently at first and then harder, making soft noises deep in her throat.

I was breathing through my nose with my teeth clenched. My fingers were in her hair and my other hand on her back and shoulders, stroking the girl's soft skin. I gasped weakly when I felt her teeth pressing into my sensitive flesh. Tori was biting me, like chewing on my nipple while she sucked at it hard. I could see her cheeks going hollow and the pressure was like nothing I'd ever felt before in my life. She was playing with my other nipple all the while too, pinching and teasing it blindly while I shivered beneath her.

After a minute of that, maybe not even that long, the pleasure of what Tori was doing started to become almost painful, but I didn't try to stop her. I just groaned loudly and arched my back. My cock was hard again and I could feel it pressing against her soft tummy as she lay on top of me. Tori spread her legs and pressed her sex against my knee and thigh, moving her hips like she was fucking herself on me, grinding that smooth little pussy of hers against my leg. The whole thing was making me a little crazy and I was moving right along with her, humping the girl's body with my stiff cock and grabbing Tori's pert little ass with both hands. We were spilling a lot of water out of that tub, but we didn't care..

I couldn't say how long we did that, too long probably as I shook with the effort to control my conflicting desires. Tori was really working on my nipple, enough so that it was so tender and sensitive that I wanted to push Tori away. I wanted her to stop and leave me alone, but holding her the way I was, touching this girl that I'd dreamt of for so long…I couldn't refuse her anything. I wanted her to do whatever she wanted with me and it wasn't going to be very long at all before Tori made me cum.

"God!" Tori breathed, lifting her mouth and staring at my nipple. "Look at that, Ashley!"

"Oh, man!" I gasped, panting for air and staring at my chest.

My left nipple was three times bigger than normal, maybe more than that. It looked like a girl's nipple, swollen and engorged with blood so that it had turned dark red instead of the light brown it used to be. I had bruises around it, my skin darkening already from Tori's efforts, and it scared me a little. She flicked it with her finger and that sent a flash of heat up my spine so that I jerked away with a sharp breath. I couldn't tell if it was pain or pleasure that I felt, but it didn't really matter, they were pretty much the same thing by the time Tori had finished with me.

"Fuck, that's sexy!" Tori decided. "I love doing this stuff! Do you like it?"

"Yeah," I lied, just because I'd have said anything to make her happy right then.

"I'm gonna do the other one too," she whispered and I shuddered with the realization that Tori wasn't finished with me at all.

Just like before, Tori started on my right nipple gently, making it feel so good I thought I was in heaven. She kissed and licked my chest, pinched my nipple between her soft lips, and made me whisper sweet nothings to urge the girl on. I swear, I was begging Tori to suck my nipple and that was just what she wanted to hear. It seemed to turn Tori on even more than she already was.

"Put it in me!" Tori suddenly said and I didn't know what she meant at first, but I figured it out soon enough as the girl reached down to take my hard cock in her fist.

She straddled me as I sat there, guiding my cock into her pussy slowly and at first all I felt was her hand beneath the water, but then something else. I could feel her pussy opening for my swollen cockhead, my cock slipping inside Tori easily as she lowered herself down upon it. I was afraid to say anything, like I'd change her mind or spoil it somehow and lose the chance of a lifetime. I was going to have sex with Tori! My first time with a girl and it was her! In a bathtub!

Tori's pussy was hot inside, I noticed that right away, but not really tight like I expected. I thought girls were always tight inside, but she wasn't. It felt hot and watery, sorta, but still good. I wasn't gonna complain, that was for sure! Tori watched my face while she did it too, pushing herself down once she was satisfied I was inside her, and then she was just sitting on me, with my cock buried to the hilt inside her pussy.

"Is it all in?" she asked, like there was some doubt and then Tori reached behind her, leaning forward while she felt my balls and then the base of my dick.

"I think so," I said, wondering if this was as bad as it sounded.

"Yeah, I guess so," she giggled and then shrugged. "That's okay, Ash. This is just girl fun anyway, right?"

"Uh, yeah," I nodded, thinking that was definitely not a good sign.

"It's not real sex," she decided and then grinned at me. "Okay, give me your tits, Ashley!"

I suppose part of me was a little disappointed that Tori thought we weren't really fucking, but it wasn't like I'd know the difference anyway. So far as I was concerned, fucking was exactly what we were doing. I had my hands on Tori's soft, round hips while she went to work biting and sucking my right nipple, determined to make it just as big and sensitive and red as the left one. All the while she was grinding her pussy down on my cock too, not really the in and out kind of sex I'd expected, this was just…Grinding. She never let my cock go, but held me there, balls deep inside her pussy and that felt pretty good for me anyway.

I did try though; a couple times I let my hands slide down to her small round ass, grabbing Tori's cheeks and giving her a little pull upwards. Then I'd give her a thrust with my hips, like I was stabbing my cock inside her, but I don't think she really noticed. Tori was pretty busy making those happy growling sounds while she chewed my nipple eagerly. It lit another fire to match the one in my left nipple and maybe I was getting used to it because it didn't seem quite as bad as before. I actually enjoyed it, even towards the end when she had as much of my boy tit in her mouth as Tori could get, eating me like the red headed vampire Sonja had warned me about.

That could have been the way Tori was riding my cock though, too. I couldn't tell if she was cumming, but I thought maybe she was as every now and then Tori would shake a little, shiver and make soft high-pitched sounds. Her pussy would seem to get a little tighter maybe, but it was hard to tell. She was always moving, continually grinding her pussy against me like she couldn't get enough of it. And she'd bite me extra hard then, when she shivered like that, mixing up the pain and pleasure until I became desperate with the need to cum.

"I'm…Tori…I'm gonna cum…" I warned her and I'd been on edge for some time, trying to hold back, but I was losing that fight.

"Mmmm…" she sighed and I had no idea if that meant it was okay to cum inside her or not, but Tori wasn't letting go of my nipple, or trying to get off my cock, so…

"Oh Tori!" I gasped and closed my eyes, just letting it go as I came for the second time in Tori's bathtub.

My cock felt like it was exploding, like it was drawn inward for just a second and then…Pow! The first jet of semen erupted with an almost painful sensation. It was followed quickly by another, and then another. My balls were tight, contracting as I emptied myself into Tori's pussy and all she did was roll her ass in a tight little circle, grinding her pussy onto my spurting cock eagerly while she finished giving my nipple a seriously hot hickey.

"Ah, Christ! That was good," I laughed, trying to catch my breath and Tori giggled with me.

"Yeah, look! It's perfect!" She was breathing hard too, but for a different reason I think, or maybe not. She could have been cumming too, for all I knew, Tori seemed to be pretty happy anyway.

And now I had two very swollen and dark red nipples. They stuck out from my body like crimson bullets, I swear. My nipples were an inch long, easily, and around them my chest had grown swollen and puffy so that I had small mounds of supersensitive flesh. She'd given me tits! Tori plainly thought that was the coolest thing ever and she just wanted to kiss my nipples for awhile, asking me if I thought they were pretty and how much it had hurt when she'd been making them that way. The more it hurt, the more she liked it and I didn't understand the girl at all, but I didn't care either. I was pretty much in love with her, for the moment at least.

"The water's getting cold," Tori said finally. "This was a long bath."

"It was the best bath of my life," I said with a grin.

"Yeah, I love baths too," she kissed me lightly on the lips. "But we gotta get you ready for Dan."

"Oh, um…" I'd totally forgotten about him.

"I hope he likes your new tits!" she giggled.

"Yeah, me too," I laughed, but only because she was so happy.

"Hmmm…You didn't get very much sperm in me," Tori said and I saw that she was fingering her pussy under the water. "That's cool. I'm on the pill anyway, but Mike always gets his so far in there! I swear, two days later and it's still coming out sometimes."

"I guess that would be kinda annoying," I nodded sympathetically.

"Yeah," she giggled. "You'll find out anyway, or do you guys use condoms?"

"Um…I don't know," I made a face and I was pretty sure I didn't want to find out.

"Bareback is better," Tori said. "I mean, what's the point if you don't get all messy at the end?"

"I don't know," I shrugged and watched the girl stand up slowly. God! She was gorgeous, not really beautiful, but cute. That's the word. Small and sexy and unbearably cute. I wanted to marry her.

"Yeah. Sex should be messy," Tori told me seriously. "Come on, standup…We'll shave by the sink, it'll be easier anyway."

I looked down at my now flaccid cock and balls with a little frown. I'd forgotten about the shaving part too and I wasn't sure I wanted a razor touching me there. It had taken me fifteen years to grow hair someplace other than the top of my head and I'd been kind of happy when it happened. Like having pubic hair made me a man or something, but that was dumb too.

Tori toweled herself off quickly and then gave it to me. Sharing a towel with Tori, Jesus, I couldn't wait to tell Roger. He was gonna go crazy when I told him about all this stuff. He'd never believe me, not in a million years, but he'd know I wasn't lying too and…But I'd lied to him, I remembered, and that made me frown. I might never get to tell Roger about any of this. That would suck.

A wave of unhappiness washed over me and it was made all the worse because I'd been having the best time of my life all afternoon. I tried to push it away, since there wasn't anything I could do about it. Roger would have to cool off for awhile, all weekend probably, and then Monday I could apologize and straighten it all out. By then I would have finally talked Dan out of being my boyfriend and…

That made me stop and I stood there with the towel in my hands while Tori was getting out her Lady Bic shaver and some shaving cream. If I wasn't going out with Dan, if Tori and Sonja and Petra didn't think I was gay…What then? I'd be just another boy, wouldn't I? Just plain old Ashley again, the one they'd never noticed before in their lives. Things would go back to normal and that was what I wanted, wasn't it? Yeah, but not completely normal. Not the normal where I had to lay in bed and jerk off thinking about girls from school until I had blisters on my hand. That normal sucked compared to whatever was going on now.

But…I tried telling myself that we were friends now. Me and these three girls. They liked me. Petra had sucked my cock and I'd fucked Tori, so they liked me. I was in Tori's house, alone with them. They must like me, we were friends. I could go back to being my normal, not gay self and we'd still be friends. Maybe. Possibly. I frowned. No we wouldn't. They thought it was cool that Dan was my boyfriend. They thought I was a fag, a pretty fag who was dating the new quarterback. That was why I was in with them. The only reason. Girls like these didn't have regular ordinary friends and everybody knew it. They'd dump me five minutes after I dumped Dan.

That was the truth and even if it wasn't…Would I risk it? I started wondering just how much something like this was worth. What would a sixteen year old boy give to spend his afternoons with Tori, Sonja, and Petra? To have girl fun with them? To have sex with them? To get invited to the really good parties and have the football coach fix it so it so the boy would get straight A's and no homework? What would that be worth?

Would it be worth being a girlfriend for a guy like Dan?

He was big, strong, good looking, and really nice. He'd kicked Billy Felder's ass in a heartbeat and when I'd told him no at the lake, Dan hadn't forced me to do anything. He respected me. He listened to what I said and when I wasn't thinking about it, I'd liked being with him. He wasn't a bad guy to be with, not at all. Would it be so terrible if I had to let him kiss me a little? I wouldn't want to go all the way with the guy, but kissing? He'd kissed me twice and it hadn't killed me. In fact, it had felt kinda…

"…ready?" Tori was asking me and I blinked at her.

"What?" I grinned sheepishly and started drying myself off again.

"I asked if you're ready," she giggled. "What were you thinking about?"

"Ummm…" I swallowed hard and told her the truth. "Kissing Dan."

"Mmmm…You got it bad, don't you?" Tori sighed happily. "You're so cool! You shoulda told us you were gay a long time ago, Ashley."

"Yeah, I know," I agreed, and that wasn't a complete lie either.

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"Hi, Mom?" I said over the phone in Tori's bedroom. "I'm, uh…I was wondering if it's okay if I can hang out with some friends of mine tonight?"

"Ask her if you can sleep over!" Tori giggled and Sonja frowned at the girl.

"Shhh!" Sonja put her finger to her lips.

"Huh? Oh, I'm at Tori's house…Yeah, from school…She's a cheerleader…" I made a face and it was kind of hard to concentrate because Petra was rubbing some baby oil on my balls.

"Uhhh ah…Yeah! I know…You don't know her, but…" I closed my eyes and Petra had my nuts in her hands, her warm, gentle hands.

My pubic hair was long gone already, Tori had shaved me smooth, and now my skin was pink and soft, like I was brand new down there. The baby oil felt good too, like it was hot almost, and Petra knew how to massage a boy's balls, that was for sure. She'd obviously done this before! Petra held my nuts in her right hand, kind of rolling them around like marbles, squeezing them carefully and maybe giving my sack a little tug every now and then. It was crazy how good that felt!

"You're so pretty," Petra said softly and I shivered, turning my head away as if that might keep my mom from hearing what the girl was saying. "Dan's gonna love your balls!"

"Petra!" Sonja whispered. "Shush! He's talking to his mom!"

"W-What, Mom?" I sorta gasped. "Yeah uh…She's here…Oh…You want to talk to her?"

"She wants to talk to me?" Tori blinked at that and I covered the mouthpiece.

"She wants to talk to your mom!" I whispered.

"My mom?" Tori almost laughed, but it wasn't funny. Her mom was in Hawaii with her dad, gone for a week to celebrate their twenty-fifth anniversary.

"Uh…Hold on a sec, Mom," I said. "Tori's, um, getting her."

"What are we gonna do?" I frowned, because this wasn't gonna be good at all! Once my mom found out that Tori's parents weren't home, she'd never let me stay over. Mom had rules about this sort of thing and even though I was sixteen, I still had to live by them.

"Here," Sonja said and I stared at her. "Give me the phone."

"What? What are you gonna say?" I asked and Sonja just shrugged and Petra laughed, giving my balls another pull and that made my erection jerk upward for some reason. Petra thought that was really cool.

I was standing in Tori's bedroom, naked as a jaybird with my swollen cock sticking straight out. I was covered with baby oil, my dick and balls, and all around them. Petra had even oiled my butt a little, just rubbing her fingers around my anus and between my buns. I'd been worried that she'd try and stick her finger in my ass, but she didn't. Petra just teased me with her fingertip mostly and it had felt kinda good, in a confusing sort of way. I'd never thought having my butt played with would be cool.

The girls were kind of naked too. Mostly naked, I mean. Tori, the sweet little red headed girl, was just wearing a thin bathrobe, green like her eyes and falling open everytime she moved. Petra was wearing Tori's sleepy-T with Minnie Mouse on it. It was probably big on Tori, but Petra was tall and her tits were a size or two bigger, and that t-shirt barely covered her perfectly heart-shaped ass when Petra stood up. Sitting on the floor in front of me, it rode up the girl's thighs and I could see her bald pussy. All the girls were shaved down there, which was why they'd shaved me. It was an initiation rite, Tori had said, and it seemed a small price to pay for being in their little club.

Now Sonja, wearing just her pink panties, took the phone out of my hand. While Petra was tall and dark, with black hair, brown eyes and an olive complexion that made you think of someplace far away and exotic in the Mediterranean, Sonja was tall and light. Her hair was blonde and long like mine, pretty wild too after having a good hour of girl fun with Petra. She had pale skin, like Tori's, but Sonja had to be like five foot ten, I bet, with one of those perfect bodies. Not thin, not fat, she was curvy and soft and her tits…Just like I'd always imagined they'd be! They weren't large, but firm with bubble gum nipples that pointed out and up and…

"Hi, Mrs. Collins? I'm Nancy Westerlund, Tori's mom…" Sonja said and I blinked because she did kinda sound like a mom, "…I understand completely, we can't be too careful these days…"

Petra was practically turning red as she covered her mouth, stifling her laughter. I just stared at Sonja and Tori was grinning at me and nodding, like she'd known Sonja could pull it off the whole time.

"No, it's fine, Ashley's a very sweet boy…I know he is and I'm sure he'll behave himself…" Sonja smiled at me, lifting her eyebrows playfully, "…Well, Tori is having some friends over tonight, some kids from school, and we were hoping Ashley could stay…Oh, don't worry, my husband and I will be here all night…"

"See?" Tori whispered. "We're gonna have so much fun, Ash!"

"Shhh…" It was my turn to shush her and my heart was going a mile a minute listening to Sonja talk to my mom. I didn't like lying to her, but this was kind of important, you know? I had to stay!

"That's great…Yes, it was so nice talking to you too…He's right here. Okay…Goodbye…" Sonja held the phone out for me. "Your mom wants to talk to you again."

"Uhhh…Mom?" I said, trying to ignore Sonja as she stood close to me now, reaching down to take my cock in her hand. She started jerking me off slowly, smiling into my eyes while I spoke with my mom.

"Yeah, you're going to be a good boy, Ashley…" Sonja whispered and my cock might not have been very big compared to her boyfriend's, but I doubt that guy had ever gotten as hard as I was right then.

"Y-Yessss…I'll be good…" I swallowed hard, pushing out with my hips just because it felt too good not to. Sonja was sliding her fist back and forth around my oily cock, rubbing her thumb over the head and making me stand on my tip-toes.

"Make him cum while he talks to his mom!" Petra whispered from the floor. She was laying flat on her back now, legs spread with her dark pussy plainly exposed so she could rub it with her fingers.

"No…Uh! Mom? What…Oh! I'll call later…" I closed my eyes, trying not to think about what Sonja's hand was doing to my cock. She wasn't just stroking it though; she was squeezing it too, like milking me for the sperm boiling in my balls. I felt my tummy knotting up and I shook with the effort of controlling myself.

"He's gonna cum!" Sonja giggled softly, using her other hand now to hold my balls, massaging them much like Petra had done before.

"I don't kno-oh! I'm…I got the hiccups…Uh!" I gasped and I seriously doubted that had sounded much like a hiccup at all.

Sonja had slipped her left hand lower, her fingers between my thighs and suddenly shoved her middle finger in my butt! I felt a split second of discomfort and then she was inside me, her long slender finger pushing into my rectum easily with her palm pressed against my balls. It seemed like she was trying to lift me up with that one hand and I groaned as the girl wiggled her finger around, exploring the tight confines of my ass. Sonja didn't stop jerking me off either, she worked my cock hard and fast with her right hand, trying to bring me off before the conversation with my mom was over. I'd never felt anything like this before and I only lasted about three seconds!

"God!" Tori gave a gasp of her own as my cock jumped in Sonja's fist, the first spurt of cum shooting out far enough to splash against the blonde's flat stomach.

I was spraying my semen on Sonja's tummy and she didn't care at all, if anything the girl got even closer to me than she already was. She even pressed my dick against her panties, those silky pink ones that barely covered her perfect pussy. I was spilling my orgasm on the hottest girl in school, and Sonja rubbed the head of my cock all around her barely covered mound, deliberately spreading my creamy load around until she had a big dark stain of it over her pussy.

"Oh…I gotta go, Mom…" I breathed, "…Yeah, I love you too." I turned off the phone and my whole body just went slack, like I was going to collapse. "Oh God!"

"What did your mom say?" Tori asked me and I just grinned at her.

"That was so cool!" Petra was grinning too. "Jerking Ash off while he talked to his mom. You're kinda sick, Sonja!"

"So?" Sonja laughed and stuck out her tongue. "I like it. Ashley liked it too, didn't you?"

"Yeah," I giggled. "My mom asked me if I was feeling okay."

"She told me I have to make sure you behave yourself," Sonja said, letting go of my cock finally. I was soft again and messy with cum. Sonja was messy too, with sperm clinging to her skin and especially those pink panties she wore.

"No more jerking off though," Tori said. "You gotta save some energy for Dan!"

"No doubt," Petra agreed. "He's gonna be disappointed if Ashley's too tired to fuck."

"Oh, I don't think…" I started protesting because being worn out by these three girls sounded like a pretty fine idea to me.

"I know, you're never too tired to fuck Dan," Petra said and that hadn't been what I was gonna say at all. "But that's enough girl fun anyway."

"Yeah, we gotta get ready for the party," Tori agreed. "We gotta get Ashley ready too!"

"You have to look nice for Dan," Sonja said. "When he gets here, I wanna see his eyes pop out of his head!"

"Definitely," Tori agreed. "If you're gonna be the quarterback's girlfriend, you have to be hot!"

"Really hot!" Petra grinned. "All the guys are gonna want to fuck you!"

"But don't let them!" Tori giggled.

"Oh no," I frowned.

"What?" Sonja narrowed her eyes, perhaps thinking I was going to try and resist their plans again.

"I forgot," I said. "Dan's supposed to pick me up at my house tonight."

"What? So?" Petra laughed. "Call him!"

"I don't know his phone number," I said, biting my lip.

"Don't worry, I do," Tori smiled and I looked at her. "Don't get jealous! God! I'm not like stealing him!"

"Huh? Oh…" I shook my head and I hadn't been thinking that at all.

"I got his number when I invited him, in case of an emergency," Tori explained.

"Like this one!" Petra laughed.

I smiled and I guess I should have been relieved, since Dan showing up at my door would have been sorta bad. If I was there I could just say we were gonna hang out or whatever, but by himself? Dan could say anything! He'd probably start telling my dad how much he loved me or something and that would be like the end of the world. Yeah, this was definitely an emergency, I thought.

On the other hand, I really did want to protest the idea of dressing me up pretty for my big date. I knew what the girls had in mind; they'd been talking about it off and on all afternoon. A little makeup, a little hair styling, and Tori's spare cheerleader uniform…Yikes! Everytime I tried to tell them I wasn't gay they just assumed I meant that I wanted to be a girl and didn't think of myself as a boy. It was crazy and I couldn't understand why the girls wouldn't just listen and take my words literally.

In the end, I really didn't have much choice. I wanted to be with these girls more than anything. They were insanely fun, outrageously sexy, and living on some other planet so far as I could tell. They were aliens and I'd been abducted, that's how it felt. I just couldn't say no to them, that was the bottom line. I might hem and haw and try to make my weak excuses, but none of it worked. Life hadn't prepared me for girls like this and I suppose I should have been happy about that, but I was actually starting to worry.

"…so the first time, I was just a kid, you know?" Petra was giving me a pedicure, filing my toenails and planning to paint them pink. "It hurt a lot too. I mean, Todd has a really big dick. Not thick or anything, but long, you know?"

"Uh-huh," I nodded.

"He got me really wet though, so that was cool," she shrugged. "And we were on that couch downstairs, the one in Tori's rec room? You'll see it; anyway, I was laying there, feeling all dizzy cause Todd made me cum already, which was way nice."

"You bite your fingernails, huh?" Sonja frowned and I looked at her. "You can't do that anymore! It looks bad."

She'd decided to give me a manicure, her and Tori both. Sonja had my right hand and she was trying to give my short nails some shape. They were going to be pink too and I'd tried to talk the girls out of that and I'd almost succeeded, except Tori was all out of clear fingernail polish and so we had to use a real color. Like pink. That was the way my luck was going, hot and cold.

"Todd got between my legs, and…I mean, I didn't really know what was going on at first. He was kissing me and telling me he loved me…"

"They all say that," Tori told me. "Don't believe a word of it!"

"Boys lie," Sonja agreed and I swallowed hard.

"…and he was rubbing his cock up and down my pussy, you know? Just rubbing it slowly, making it feel good. God! That felt really good too and then he started pushing his dick inside me, really slow. Todd knows how to fuck, believe me. You should try him, Ashley."

"No you shouldn't," Sonja shook her blonde head.

"Don't even talk to my brother," Tori nodded. "He's a slut."

"He put just the tip in at first and I was scared, but it felt okay, and then he pushed a little harder and a little deeper, just the head mostly, I think. He found my cherry right away, it wasn't very deep or anything, and that was like a pinch, sorta. A cramp, you know? Cause he was pushing and I wanted him to stop, but I didn't say anything. I just closed my eyes and then he did it."

"He did?" I looked at her and Petra giggled.

"He pushed really hard and that hurt a lot! God! I thought he was killing me. I was slapping his shoulders and telling him to stop…"

"You were thirteen, what did you expect?" Sonja rolled her eyes.

"She's still thirteen," Tori giggled.

"…But he didn't stop. He just kissed me and pushed really hard and that was it," Petra said. "He got all the way in me and I cried a lot, but I liked it too. I knew he loved me back cause he was doing it. He was making me into a woman."

"See? I told you my brother was an asshole," Tori shook her head.

"He is not," Petra frowned.

"Tell Ashley the rest of the story then," Tori said. "About how Todd wouldn't even talk to you for a week afterwards and when he did, all he said was…"

"He couldn't see me cause I was too young," Petra said. "He said he had a girlfriend and maybe when I was older, you know…We'd be together and everything."

"Yeah, and then you got older," Sonja laughed. "And older and…Shit, you're gonna be eighteen in January."

"Oh, be quiet!" Petra said. "He's gonna love me someday, you'll see."

"You're so hopeless Petra," Sonja sighed. "He just wanted to fuck you. He said whatever he had to and you believed him. You gotta grow up, girl."

"Yeah, maybe," Petra didn't look up and I felt kind of sorry for her. She was so pretty though, I figured this Todd guy must be a serious idiot.

"It hurt the first time for me too," Tori said, deciding to change the subject.

"It always hurts for you!" Sonja laughed.

"Yeah, well, I like that," Tori looked up from my fingers with a grin. "It doesn't really hurt anyway, I just have to get used to it everytime."

"How old were you?" I wondered.

"I was sixteen," Tori said. "You remember Dale Winters? That's the guy, he was like my first boyfriend, except not really. We didn't go out or anything, we just kinda hooked up sometimes."

"Hooked up?" I grinned at her. "Like what? Just meet so you guys could have sex?"

"No, not like that," Tori smiled. "Like I'd go to a party and see him there and we'd just…hook up!"

"He was fat too!" Petra said. "Tori's got serious size issues."

"I do," Tori wiggled her eyebrows at me. "I like big guys cause I'm so little."

"Yeah, I know how that feels," I said, meaning the being little part, but they took it wrong, as usual.

"Yeah, you like big guys too, huh?" Tori nodded at me. "You'd like Mike then. God! His cock is so thick, it's like everytime we do it I'm a virgin again. I love that."

"Well, I don't know…" I cleared my throat.

"Anyway, the first time I did it with Dale, I was on top…"

"As usual," Sonja giggled.

"…And I swear, it took like half an hour to get his cock inside me. He kept saying it wasn't gonna fit, but I just pushed down a little and then I'd lift up and take a deep breath…"

"The little engine that could," Petra giggled. "I think I can! I think I can!"

"Heh!" Tori grinned at her friend. "Yeah, just like that! But once he was in me that's when I came. I mean, it hurt, yeah, he broke my cherry good, but it wasn't like I was screaming or crying or whatever. I liked that part of it, like I'd never forget how it felt, you know?"

"You wanted it to hurt?" I asked.

"Oh yeah! He thought I was too small, like I was just a little girl or something. I thought I was too small too for awhile there, but I wasn't!" Tori said proudly. "I fucked him, he didn't fuck me. I gave him my cherry cause I wanted to, Dale didn't take it from me."

"Oh," I nodded and I didn't totally understand the difference, but Tori did and that was all that mattered.

"It didn't hurt at all my first time," Sonja said. "It just felt good mostly."

"That's cause he had a little dick!" Petra laughed and Tori was nodding.

"He did not! It was average sized," Sonja protested. "Anyway, I don't need a big fat cock anyway, I need the guy it belongs too, you know?"

"Her first time wasn't even with a guy," Tori said. "Don't listen to her. It didn't hurt cause she wasn't a virgin."

"And the guy had a little dick," Petra grinned at me.

"Who was your first time with?" I asked. "I mean, when you were a virgin."

"One of my camp counselors," Sonja giggled. "Her name was Cindy and she was so cool."

"A camp counselor?" I grinned at the girl. "What camp was this?"

"Camp Iwannafuck!" Petra laughed.

"Shut-up!" Sonja laughed too. "No, it was a YWCA summer camp thing when I was fourteen. I used to go every summer, that was my last one. It was fun, you know, we went swimming and hiking and made crafts and stuff."

"Yeah, I went to camp before," I nodded.

"Cindy popped her cherry," Tori said. "Wouldn't that be weird? Giving your virginity to some girl?"

"Well…" I grinned cause Tori had taken my virginity, except she didn't think of it like that.

"It wasn't weird at all," Sonja said. "It was perfect. We were on a hike and me and Cindy were in the back, sorta walking slow because we were talking. Eventually, everyone else was way ahead of us and we were alone, so we sat down in this meadow, you know. It was beautiful and up in the hills…"

"Then Cindy started singing the Sound of Music and it was all over but the crying!" Petra giggled.

"And there wasn't a whole lot of that either!" Tori laughed and they gave each other a high five.

"Yeah, yeah…" Sonja blushed a little, "…No, she just…Kissed me. I wanted her to. I mean, I was waiting for it and looking at her. She kissed me and we just tried everything together."

"Sonja ate her pussy!" Petra nodded happily. "She's good at that!"

"So?" Sonja shrugged. "I licked her pussy, yeah. Cindy licked mine too, we didn't know what we were doing, at least I didn't, but it seemed like the right thing to do, so I did it."

"She's got 69 tattooed on her thigh too," Petra said.

"I do not!" Sonja frowned. "It was a ying-yang thing, one of those costume tattoos. It only lasted a week."

"Too bad you don't have a pussy, Ashley," Tori said. "Sonja would go down on you for an hour, I bet!"

"It looked like a 69 thing," Petra rolled her eyes, but Sonja was ignoring her.

"I'd go down on her for two hours," Sonja stuck her tongue out. "At least! Ashley's hot!"

"So, you're a lesbian or something?" I asked slowly, hoping it wouldn't make her mad.

"Me?" Sonja giggled. "No, I just like girls."

"A lot!" Petra said.

"Yeah, I like girls a lot," Sonja agreed. "But I like guys too, so I don't know. Bisexual, I guess. A lot of people are. You are too, right? I mean, you love guys like Dan, but girls are okay sometimes, right?"

"Uh, I guess so," I said, resigned to the fact that I wasn't going to change their minds about my sexuality.

"Tell Ashley how she popped your cherry," Tori said.

"What? She just used her finger," Sonja shrugged. "My hymen was right there, you know it isn't like all the way inside a girl. It's kinda close to the front usually, so we were making out, seriously making out, and Cindy had her fingers on my pussy…And then one went in my pussy…and then *POP* I felt a little stretch maybe and it was done. It didn't hurt or anything."

"Were you bleeding?" Petra wondered.

"A little, but I didn't even notice until later when I saw some spotting on my panties," Sonja said. "At the time, I didn't even know she'd done it. I thought I was still a virgin until we got back to the camp."

"That musta been weird," Tori decided.

"Kinda, yeah," Sonja said. "I found Cindy and told her I was bleeding. I was just fourteen though, like barely fourteen, so I made it sound like I was dying. She looked at me and it wasn't anything and I felt pretty dumb after that."

"Did you keep seeing her?" I asked. "After the first time?"

"Oh yeah, like only everyday!" Sonja giggled. "All I wanted to do was make out with her after that. But like two weeks later camp was over anyway. We had each other's addresses and wrote a couple letters, like love letters, you know, but I never saw her again."

"That's kinda sad," I frowned.

"A little maybe," Sonja shrugged. "I had a crush on her, I guess, but I knew I didn't love her. I wasn't gonna marry her. It was okay, as soon as I got home I made out with Petra anyway."

"God!" Petra laughed. "Just out me!"

"Yeah right," Sonja giggled. "Petra's not into girls at all."

"You're not?" I looked at the dark haired girl. "But you guys were, um, you know…On the bed…"

Sonja and Petra had been fucking for an hour on the bed while Tori took care of me in the bathroom.

"I'm just into Sonja," Petra said seriously. "And Tori too, except she likes to bite too hard!"

"Tell me about it!" I said, looking down at my swollen nipples, puffy and darkly bruised by Tori's loving attentions in the bathtub.

"Hey!" Tori frowned. "It felt good, right?"

"Yeah, right! Sure!" I rolled my eyes and the girls laughed.

"Well, so what? You have pretty tits now, so don't complain," Tori said and she was painting my fingernails pink.

"I'm not!" I said. "I loved it."

"Really?" she looked at me and I nodded.

"Yeah. It was pretty awesome, Tori," I told her seriously and that made the girl smile.

"See? Ashley likes it!" Tori made a face at Petra and then looked at me. "We're gonna have a lot of fun this year, Ashley. Sonja and Petra are always girl fucking, now I have somebody to fuck too!"

"Ashley and Tori, sitting in a tree…" Sonja started singing.

"Eff you see kay I en gee!" Petra giggled. "Tori's always fucking us too, don't believe her."

"She's greedy!" Sonja grinned. "It's that whole thick cock, big fat guy, biting vampire thing."

"What?" Tori laughed. "What does that mean?"

"Are you done with that polish yet?" Petra asked. "You're so slow, Tori!"

"Yeah, yeah…Almost," the red head sighed. "They're always picking on me."

"It's cause you're so little," Sonja giggled.

"See?" Tori smiled at me. "They'll pick on you too, believe me. Tall people are bullies."

"Hmmm…" I smiled, thinking I wouldn't mind at all being picked on by Sonja and Petra. There were worse things in life that could happen.

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We had microwave lasagna for dinner and it was weird for a lot of reasons. First off, none of us were dressed any more than we'd been up in Tori's bedroom, except I was wearing a pair of Tori's shorts. They were cutoffs with frayed edges and dyed pink. They fit me pretty good, actually, and I'm not kidding when I say Tori and me were the same size. Her hips were a little wider and obviously she had those wonderfully small, firm tits, but we were almost exactly the same height and close to the same weight.

So eating dinner with three mostly naked cheerleaders was weird. Wearing a pair of girl's shorts was weird. Everytime I noticed my hands I paused because I now had a real manicure to go with my pedicure. Pink fingernails. It's amazing how just that could make my hands look so…Feminine. I had girl hands, no doubt about it. Delicate and small. They freaked me out a little. So did my feet, but I didn't have to look at my girlish toes very much.

Another thing that was strange was my hair. I was wearing curlers, like old fashioned grandma curlers. I'd really, really tried to get them to leave my hair alone, but my three new friends were determined to make me beautiful. My boring old straight hair was to be replaced with thick, bouncy, wavy hair…But still blonde at least. They'd decided they didn't need to change that part of me. Curlers are uncomfortable, I'll tell you. They were tight in my hair, so it felt like I had ten people pulling my hair in every possible direction. That was seriously annoying at first, but I guess I got used to it.

Dinner, if my friends had their way, would be the last time I even remotely felt like a boy. For the evening, I mean, not forever. The truth was that it was awfully tough to feel like a boy as it was. I'd already been changed.

"Shoot, the guys are gonna be here pretty soon," Tori was looking at the wall clock in her kitchen. We were cleaning up after dinner.

"I'm surprised they're not here already," Petra said.

"They had a long practice today, I bet," Sonja said. "Coach thinks if he works them extra hard, the guys will be too tired to party all night."

"Yeah, right," Petra grinned. "He could work them until sunrise and they'd want beer for breakfast."

"The guys are coming soon?" I asked.

"Our boyfriends, yeah," Petra nodded. "They're bringing the kegs and food and I dunno…Kegs and food."

"Don't worry, they won't see you like that!" Tori grinned at me, thinking that's why I was nervous probably.

"Oh, I know, yeah…" I swallowed hard.

I was nervous because I didn't really want any guys to see me at all. Not like this, not dressed up, not anything. I was wearing pink fingernail polish! I'd known the party was coming but I hadn't really believed it, you know? I'd been in denial or something and now I was starting to understand that all the fun I'd had that afternoon was going to come at a price. I had to be the girl Tori and her friends wanted me to be and I could do it, so long as it was just the four us…But a party? Every jock in school was coming! I was gonna be dead! How could I have been so stupid?

There wasn't any way out either.

"Wow! Look at you!" Tori was standing behind me as we sat in front of her dresser, using it like a vanity.

"Uh…" I stared at myself, at my hair especially. Tori had taken out the curlers and now she was brushing my hair. It was thick and wavy and yeah, it was bouncy too. She brushed it back from my forehead and down to a few inches below my shoulders. It was nice hair and it had been nice before, everyone liked it, but it had looked like long blonde boy hair. This was definitely girl hair.

"I love your hair," Tori said. "Red hair sucks, it gets all frizzy and goes everywhere. Your hair is perfect."

"It looks a lot different, doesn't it?" I said and Tori was pinning it back so it would stay out of my face.

"Do you know how to do makeup?" Tori asked and I made a face. "I didn't think so. Okay, I'm gonna show you…"

While Tori made up my face, Petra and Sonja were taking showers, or a shower, since they were in there together. I would have liked to have seen that, actually. They were going to get changed and dressed and ready for the party, put their boyfriends to work downstairs and all that. Tori would get ready after she was done getting me ready, and then I was supposed to hang out and wait for Dan, so I could surprise him, along with everyone else of course. The girls were really excited about that for some reason. Maybe it's a girl thing, I'm not sure, but I thought it was probably just them. My new friends were definitely out there in space somewhere.

"See? You have one of those less-is-more faces, Ashley," Tori was saying and she'd finished my face. "That's perfect. Covergirl!"

I still looked like me. A little azure eye shadow and some pink lipstick wasn't going to change that. I had a little bit of coloring on my cheeks, some light pink highlights there that you couldn't even see, except it made my cheeks a little…more…somehow. I don't know. It wasn't a drastic change. I wasn't magically transformed into a supermodel. I was still me and I was still pretty and the makeup really was perfect. I looked like a girl.

I mean, I looked like a boy because I saw myself, but someone who'd never seen me before, never met me? They would think I was a girl. The hair did it as much as the makeup. My manicure too. But those things were just window dressing and if I hadn't already looked like I did, none of it would have worked. I'd have looked stupid probably, like one of those female impersonators you see on television. Girls who are obviously boys, but that wasn't me and I found it made me very uncomfortable suddenly.

"Ashley?" Sonja was looking at my reflection and her smile could have lit up California. "Oh my God!"

"Pretty good, huh?" Tori was understandably proud.

I didn't say anything; I just really wanted to understand why this was working. I hadn't considered it before, how good or bad I would look. Maybe I'd assumed it wouldn't work at all. I know I hadn't expected it to work this well. I remember a teacher told me once that every experience tells us something, everything we see and do and hear, it reveals something about ourselves as much as it does the world around us. I wasn't sure I believed him at the time, but now I did.

I was learning that I wasn't supposed to be a boy. That was the lesson in the mirror and it scared me. I started to doubt who I was.

"Let me see," Petra said, coming into the room and she was fully dressed like Sonja was, both of them wearing their blue and gold cheerleading uniforms.

"Better lock up your boyfriend, Petra," Tori grinned.

"No shit!" Petra stared at me and then grinned big. "I knew you were gonna be hot! Didn't I say that? Ashley's gonna be hot, that's what I said…Jesus Christ, I hate being right all the time!"

The attention was making me blush, but mostly I wanted to go home just then. I wanted to wash my face and hair and get that nail polish off and just lay down and think and be alone. I wasn't a girl, I knew that. So why did I look like one? Even without all the makeup, I knew. I'd always known, my parents too. My dad loved me, but I wasn't ever his son. Not really. Mom talked to me like I was her daughter. She hadn't even batted an eye when she saw me flirting with Dan, she just…

Flirting with Dan. I closed my eyes and it felt like I was gonna cry. That would have been just too perfect.

"What's wrong?" Tori asked me. "You don't like it?"

"Are you okay, Ashley?" Sonja touched my shoulder.

"I look like a girl," I said, swallowing hard and trying not to sound as frightened as I felt.

"Well…" Tori looked a little confused, "…you are a girl."

"No," I shook my head. "I'm supposed to be a boy."

"You think Dan won't like you now?" Petra asked, missing the point entirely, I thought.

"I don't know," I sighed and I knew there wasn't anything I could say to make my friends understand what I was feeling. I didn't even know what I was feeling, except like I'd been betrayed somehow. By God or Fate…Somebody. My parents? Me? Had I done it to myself?

"You're scared, huh?" Sonja asked me and I looked up at her.

"Dan's not going to dump her," Petra said, but Sonja ignored her.

"You didn't know you looked like this, did you?" Sonja was looking into my eyes. "This is how we all see you. All the time, Ashley. You're always beautiful, don't you know that?"

"No," I blinked rapidly.

"You just never noticed before, that's all," Sonja smiled. "All your friends, the kids at school, they never noticed either because they see you every day. They grew up with you."

"I don't know…" I shook my head.

"Dan never saw you before in his life and this is what you look like to him," she nodded towards my reflection.

"I don't think he was gay until he met you, Ash," Tori laughed lightly and I blushed at that.

"And now you see yourself and you're scared because this isn't who you thought you were," Sonja continued. "You wonder if you're still the same, if you'll have the same friends, if your parents will still love you."

"Yeah," I agreed. "Something like that…I guess."

"They will," Tori said. "Parents are weird that way."

"Shut-up!" Petra laughed and that made me smile.

"What you have to remember is that we all went through this," Sonja told me. "We all had to grow up. We were all sixteen and changing from kids into adults…"

"Except for Tori, she's still trying to grow," Petra said, earning a little shove from her friend.

"…None of us were happy about it. All of us were scared sometimes," Sonja said. "We know how you feel, Ashley, believe me. The changes you're going through are just a little more drastic and now you're seeing them all at once instead of a little at a time, that's all."

"What if I'm not happy being a…a girl?" I wondered.

"Then you figure it out," Sonja shrugged. "That's what's really scaring you, isn't it? That if you accept this, if you really give in to being a girl, you might not like it?"

"Yeah," I nodded. "I think so…Maybe." But what if I did like it? Would that be even worse?

"All you can do is try it," Sonja said. "You won't know for sure until you do it and if you never know, I don't think you'll ever be happy."

"Yeah," I took a deep breath, trying to be brave and tired of the worrying. "That makes sense."

"So what's going on?" Petra wondered. "Are you gonna be at the party or what do you want to do?"

"I'll try it," I said slowly. "I'm just…God, what if I'm wrong? I mean, what if…I don't know."

"It's hard, isn't it?" Sonja smiled. "I know. But hey, we're gonna be here. Dan's going to be here. Nobody is going to laugh at you, I promise."

"That's a fact!" Petra agreed.

"You'll be okay," Tori said. "We're gonna make you a cheerleader, right? Everybody loves cheerleaders."

"Yeah," I laughed and tried to push my fear away, hoping I knew what I was doing and knowing I didn't.

"Ashley," Sonja touched my face. "Whatever happens, we'll always be friends, okay?"

"Yeah, all of us," Petra nodded.

"I wanna be your best friend," Tori said and her green eyes were bright and serious. "Or one of them anyway, okay?"

"Yeah," I smiled and I was crying then, just a little. Not cause I was a girl, but just...The confusion and doubt and fear wouldn't stay in. I wanted this all to be over, one way or the other.

"Don't do that!" Tori giggled. "See, now I have to fix it again."

"Sorry," I giggled too and just then the doorbell was ringing, like thirty times really fast.

"You're gonna make me late for my own party," Tori rolled her eyes as Sonja kissed my cheek and Petra was already on her way downstairs, yelling for whoever it was to relax or she'd kill him.

Tori fixed my makeup again and that didn't take long. We didn't say anything, just listened to the muffled voices coming from downstairs. Petra was taking charge and it was kind of funny.

"Sonja's pretty smart, isn't she?" I said.

"Yeah," Tori nodded and she was getting her spare cheerleading uniform out of her closet. She had two of them. "She pretends like she isn't just because everyone assumes she's a dumb blonde cheerleader, but she doesn't get straight A's just cause of Forbes, believe me. I've known her since I was six and she always got good grades."

"Why does she pretend?" I wondered.

"I dunno. Because nobody wants a smart cheerleader?" Tori giggled. "Ask her. I think it's cause she likes the lifestyle, you know. All the fun, none of the responsibility. All we do everyday is nothing."

"Heh!" I grinned at Tori cause she was just poking fun at herself then and I got the feeling she wasn't very dumb either.

"Or maybe she's just really happy being who she is," Tori looked at me. "That's all we want, right?"

"Yeah, that's all I want."

"That and a pair of panties, blue or yellow?" Tori was holding up some underwear with a big grin. "You can't have both."

"Uh…" I swallowed hard, "…Blue."

"Good choice," Tori tossed me a pair of baby blue bikini panties with a little white bow on the front.

"She reminds me of my mom," I said, pulling the panties up and I felt really weird doing that. At least my dick was soft, more or less. It was kinda tough watching Tori pull her panties snug against her pretty pussy and not feel a little something down there.

"Sonja?" Tori snapped the waistband of her panties against her pale skin.

"Yeah, Sonja. What she was saying, like she knows how I feel? That's how my mom is too."

"She's like your mom?" Tori giggled. "I thought it was just us, me and Petra."

"What do you mean?" I asked her.

"We tease her, like if we need a mom, Sonja's there, you know?" Tori shrugged. "If something's bothering us or whatever, we can't figure something out…I mean, I can't go to Petra cause she's just weird. She'll laugh at me, but Sonja…"

"She knows, huh?" I bit my lip and reached inside my new panties, trying to arrange my cock and balls. Tori's underwear was kind of comfortable, except my butt felt naked.

"Yeah, she knows," Tori nodded. "Lucky for us, ain't it? Are those panties okay?"

"Yeah, I think so," I agreed. To both of her questions.

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I didn't say anything, I just stood in the middle of Tori's bedroom. I was dressed now, with a tight knit top and matching skirt, pleated in blue and gold. No cheer shorts underneath, just blue panties. Some ankle socks and a pair of Tori's white Skechers. They were 'virgin' as she called it, having never been outside. My hair was brushed, my face made up perfectly once again. Outwardly, I was as much a girl as I could be just then, but inside I was the boy I'd always been. Awkward and insecure and wondering why I'd never been comfortable with who I thought I was supposed to be. Maybe now I'd find the answer.

I'd been too afraid to go downstairs, despite my friends' urgings, and so they'd brought it upstairs to me…Him, I should say.

"Ashley?" Dan opened the door and when he saw me finally, the look on his face told me everything I needed to know.

He wasn't disappointed, but I didn't expect him to be. No, the important thing was that he wasn't surprised. He just smiled and looked me up and down, but it was plain to me that he'd been expecting me to look like I did. Not because Tori or someone had told him, I was sure they hadn't, but because Sonja was right. Dan saw me like this all the time, from the first day he'd set foot in his new school. I hadn't changed at all for him. The hair and makeup, the clothing, none of that affected his vision of who I was.

That understanding lit a fire in me like you wouldn't believe.

"Hi," I smiled and I felt shy suddenly. I hadn't ever felt shy with him before, I'd been too busy being mad or embarrassed, but now I was shy.

"Hi," Dan was smiling back. "You look great. I didn't know you're a cheerleader."

"I'm not," I laughed and probably blushed a little. "It's Tori's outfit, she's just letting me borrow it."

"Well, you oughta be," Dan said and then he gave me a playful grin. "Um, so…What's the rules?"

"Rules?" I tilted my head, brushing some blonde hair out of my eyes just for him.

"Yeah, you know. Can we hold hands? Can we sit together, do you think?" Dan asked and I rolled my eyes. "Can I whisper in your ear?"

"I'm not telling," I giggled. "You'll just have to take your chances."

"Okay," Dan said, walking closer and we just looked at each other as he put his hands on my hips. "I'll take a chance."

"Right now?" I turned my face upward so I could look into his eyes.

My arms went around his neck and I swallowed hard, feeling my heart ready to burst. I was going to find out once and for all who I really was. I was surrendering, not just to Dan, but to the girl in the mirror. I had to know if she was really me.

 

        The End