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Tuesday, May 1st

What would I ever do without J. I have bee so intensely horny recently. I suppose that's a lot to do with focusing so much on completing Part 8. It's taking me a while to write it, because I'm drawing from so many different experiences. The first part was harder than the second is, though. It should be done soon I hope. J is as encouraging as ever- always bringing me back down to earth again!

Wednesday, April 25th

Well, it's been a long week. J and I spent the week with J's parents and we managed to produce plenty of new material for me to write about. One of the greatest moments of that week was of course (and J will kill me for telling you this) the moment when we were getting heavy in J's car and a security car went by. My cry of 'He's not turning in, don't worry, he's not turning in....HE'S TURNING IN!!!!', followed by a mad dash for the front seat and driving like maniacs before we got caught keeps reducing J and me into fits of giggles whenever we mention it.

Now that I'm back, I did, of course, bump into both Philli and Victoria. Philli asked me how my trip was, though I'm not sure how she knew I was going away, and proceeded to smile radiantly when I told her I had a good time. Victoria has apparently also been away, playing in concerts. She is a very good musician and often seems to take time out of hours to pursue it. They both looked stunning, of course. My head is currently filled with thoughts of J, so I'm not looking as much as I normally do. I'm sure that will pass, though.

Tuesday, April 10th

I haven't seen Victoria or Philli for a few days, and I think I'm in withdrawal. I really miss watching Philli's face when she smiles, or the way the sun shines off Victoria's hair, making it even brighter than usual. I hope you like the new graphic of my eye that J did. Hopefully it will be the first of many.

Saturday, April 7th

It's bad enough being tormented by day, but at night as well!! I dreamt about Victoria last night. I dreamt that we were out walking together and talking, and she told me that she wasn't straight. I think it was a big part wishful dreaming. She was radiant in this dream, I can't remember how her hair was, but I know that it was that glorious red colour, and that it shone like silk. She is completely out of my league, she would be even if she wasn't straight. It's so unfair! But I guess there are a lot of people who aren't in my league either. I just wish that Victoria was more... approachable. I'll tell her one day, and then I'll go home to J. I know I can't have her, I don't even really want her. I just wish she wasn't so damn attractive!

Thursday, April 5th

I know every single part of Philli's face. I can see her in perfect detail. I must have spent half an hour staring at her today. It's not often that I'm in a position to do so, so I made the most of it. I want to know what her skin feels like, her face has flawless skin, all smooth and creamy. I found myself looking and imagining what it would be like to be behind her, kissing her neck, kissing her sweet, sensuous mouth. You can totally tell I've been thinking about this! It's a nice daydream, but I prefer the reality that waits for me at home.

Tuesday, April 3rd

Victoria. Seeing her for fifteen seconds with her hair down is the most incredible thing I've seen (except J's ass) in my life. She is so beautiful, and she doesn't even know it. Alan told me today that he would like to see me and Victoria together, and I don't think he was talking about the male fantasy point of view. I would love to be with her, but I have J, and that's what I need. Although I love to stare and fantasise. I didn't see Richard or Philli today. Just Victoria.

Monday, April 2nd

Today was a nice day. Bright sunshine, beautiful women, who could want for more? I was talking to Victoria for a while today. She had an 'interesting' birthday. Seems that she and some of her other friends went to a restaurant and got a bit rowdy! I hope there's good photographical evidence! I have a friend called Alan, who I constantly winge to when I like someone that I have no hope of getting, and he caught me staring at Philli today, although I'm aware that he sympathises with my dilemma. She really does have a fantastic ass. I could close my eyes and relate to you exactly what both Philli and Victoria were wearing today. When I spend time near them, or even just see them walking along somewhere, I'll instantly take in every  detail. I don't know why. Odd, isn't it? Other things to note- saw a tall woman with curly black hair walking down some stairs. Very attractive. If I ever see her again I'll have to find out who she is. I know it's a look-no-touch thing, but looking is a hell of a lot of fun!

Friday, March 30th

Today was an interesting one. I accidentally walked in on a publicity stunt performance of a band called Bardot, who won the Australian Popstars contest apparently. I thought my tongue was going to hit the floor when I say two of these gorgeous girls. One was a blonde, I think called Sophie (don't quote me on that). Brilliant tits, and very nice ass. The other was called Sally (again, don't quote me, I wasn't exactly paying attention to that), and she had reddish brown hair, and was wearing a little black top with a meshy thing over it. She could dance, she could sing, and it was 'want at first sight'. I knew that some people would hang around afterwards to get into the publicity photo, and I suppose I could have done, but I had no idea what I would say, and I knew it would be complete torture. It was nice to look though. It was as though everything in the room dissolved except these two of the five girls on stage. I recommend you keep an eye out, their singing wasn't too bad.

Today is Victoria's birthday, though I didn't go and wish her a happy one. I saw her watching the performance as well. As nothing else happened, a little more about her. She's about 5'6". She has shoulder length red hair. Not as red as mine... a bit blonder, but she's still lovely. Her talent is music. Apparently she plays an instrument. I think it's violin. I was first attracted to her I suppose when I attended a mutual friends birthday party and she was there. She was wearing a gorgeous little halter top. I was feeling bold and talking to her a bit, and a song came on that I wanted to dance to. I pulled her backwards and her halter nearly came off! I was
embarrassed, but she laughed it off. Then I ran into her at a club and she was chatting to me, and a song came on that she wanted to dance to, and she grabbed my hand and held it while we walked to the dance floor. I know she's straight, so it's a no gain thing. I made the mistake of telling someone that I liked her, and he told her this that fact. I doubt she's homophobic, but I suppose that it must be strange finding out that someone of the same sex fancies you.

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