I was too curious to wait until 9. As soon as Carol sent me my ID (“sexfantasy”) and password (“iluvu”) I signed onto the website. All I got was a notice saying “Wait until 9:00 p.m” and a clock that gave the time. I checked it against my watch, signed off, and settled down to wait. I didn’t know what my wife was up to, but I was sure it would be some sort of fun. I was surprised that she could set up a website like that, but figured she was just showing off some of the technology she had mastered in some workshop at the conference. I tried to get some of my own work done, but her choice of ID for me kept me trying to imagine what was going to happen.
Promptly at 9 I signed in again. This time a new page appeared. Below a big, red “Welcome to Your Fantasyland,” was a picture of Carol’s smiling face. Below that it read, “This is your Fantasyland. If you choose to go on, you will activate a videocam that will enable you to see, live and in real time, a picture of my room. You’ll be able to control the camera with your mouse. Moving the curser in any direction will turn the camera in that direction. Left click will zoom in, right click will zoom out. After you’ve had a few minutes to master the camera controls, the action will start. At some point, it will stop and you will be given a choice of what happens next. At every such choice, one option will be ‘End the fantasy.’ If you choose that, all action will cease, the computer will bid you farewell, the screen will go blank, and that will be the end of our little game. Once you make a choice, you cannot revoke it.” At the bottom of the screen, there were two boxes I could click on. One said “Continue to the videocam of my room,” the other said “End the fantasy.”
Naturally, I chose “Continue” and, after some downloading time, I was presented with a full-screen image of a part of a hotel room. I right-clicked and the camera zoomed out until I could see most of the room, a bed, a night table with a laptop on it that I had never seen before, a dresser with some of Carol’s things on it, a closet, a door to what appeared to be the bathroom, another door, probably to the outside, and, just at the right edge, part of a chair on which was seated a woman. With my mouse, I turned the camera to the right and was able to see that it was Carol sitting there. She smiled at me and waved.
I fiddled with the controls a bit and, after exploring the room some more, returned to Carol and zoomed in on her, trying to read the expression on her face. Although she was smiling, she didn’t look overly confident, as if she wasn’t sure if her game was going to work.
After a moment more, she got up and walked to the outside door. She opened it, revealing a moderately tall man with dark, wavy hair, wearing a blue blazer and a light blue shirt, opened at the collar. She then fumbled with something in her hand, which I recognized as her PDA, and the video image disappeared from my screen.
In its place was another screen that said, “This is Roger.” “ROGER!” I thought. Below were two choices. “Invite him in,” and “End the fantasy.”
This brought me to a halt. I knew what the name Roger meant to us, and she wanted to invite him into her hotel room! I took a deep breath and wondered where this was going. Then I realized that she was playing with me. Of course she’d call him Roger, she knew what images that name would bring to my mind. However, I figured I knew her game and was pretty sure nothing serious would come of it. Besides, I was sufficiently curious that I wanted to see what she was really up to. So I decided to “Invite him in.”
Still....who was this Roger? He was, I noticed with some modest concern, rather good looking.
They had been chatting there in a rather friendly manner, with a lot of touching of each other, which I knew was just to get my attention. When the video went blank again, the next screen said, “I’m pretty sure Roger wants to kiss me.” This time I had three choices, “Kiss him back, tongue and all,” “Let him kiss your cheek and then move away from him,” and “End the fantasy.”
Alright, I thought, if she wants to play that way, go ahead and kiss him. I would play her game, at least for a while. I’d get a chance to see what it would be like to watch my wife french-kissing another man. If I didn’t like what I saw, I could always end the fantasy at the next screen.
A few seconds after the video came back on, they were kissing. They had their arms around each other, their bodies pressed against each other, their mouths locked in what looked to be a serious kiss. Roger’s hands stroked Carol’s back and she seemed to be gripping the back of his blazer. This was not just a friendly kiss. They looked like they really meant business.
And it excited me.
After a while Carol pulled back and fumbled with her PDA. The video blanked out and the next screen said, “Wow! That was really nice. Now, I’m sure that the next step will be a little groping.” My choices were, “Let him grope away,” “Just restrict it to kissing for the time being,” and “End the fantasy.”
Did I want to see this Roger grope my wife? Rubbing her ass, caressing her tits, maybe even her crotch? At this point I was getting nervous about how far this would go. But yes, I did want to see his hand on her tits. This was part of my fantasy and, I was confident, Carol wouldn’t let it go too much further. In some sense, it was a game of chicken, who would stop first, and I felt that I could surely go on further than she was likely to. In any event, I wanted to watch her expression as she felt a strange hand on her tits.
Well, I was seeing my wife’s expression as a strange man fondled her tit. It was an expression that I had seen before when we fucked, but had never seen on her face with another man. I realized that this was not just a show for me. There was no doubt that she was enjoying the action, indeed, was heavily into it. I zoomed in on her tit and could see her hard nipple protruding through the cloth of her blouse as his thumb rubbed it round and round. Moving up to her face, I could see that heavy lidded, sightless gaze. After a moment or two, a subtle change of expression caused me to zoom back out and see that his hand was now pressing against her skirt, rubbing her cunt. Carol’s hips seemed to push forward, to increase the pressure, and even to grind a bit. Oh, she was enjoying this. And, with feeling of butterflies in my stomach, I realized that I was enjoying it, too. I was suddenly conscious of my hard on.
Carol pulled away and looked around, a bit confused. Eventually she found her PDA on the foot of the bed, where she had dropped it, and the video was replaced by a new screen. “I hope you’re enjoying this as much as I am,” it said, “The next step should be even better.” It offered me the choices, “Let him delve under my clothes, and grope him back,” “Let him continue to explore over my clothes, then back off for a while,” and, as always, “End the fantasy.”
A pang of fear kicked me in the diaphragm. Up to now, it had been dance-floor groping. I didn’t know for sure, but believed there had been parties when she had had too much to drink and one of our “friends” had taken such liberties. At least I liked to fantasize that. But now she was proposing something more, something that I didn’t believe she had done with anyone else since before we started serious dating. And she was proposing that I give her the go-ahead!
I really should stop it, my rational brain told me. But my stiff cock said otherwise. It wanted me to see that thumb rubbing my wife’s naked nipple. It wanted to see her writhing with passion as his fingers slipped into her cunt. And it wanted to see her responding. This was the stuff of our fantasies, the scene that I had envisioned over and over again as we fucked. Only now it was more than fantasy. There was a real, live Roger there fondling her.
My rational brain conceded defeat. After all, this was still only rubbing. Her gynecologist had probably taken at least that many liberties with her. At least now I could enjoy it. She knew I was watching so, as much as she seemed to be enjoying it, she wouldn’t let it go too far. I clicked on the “under my clothes” option.
When the video came back on, Roger was working on the buttons of Carol’s blouse. It didn’t take him long to get them opened, and a moment later he had opened the front snap of her bra. I could clearly see her lovely, naked tit.
And then I saw Roger’s hand moving across it.
My heart was pounding, my insides felt hollow. As I watched Roger pushing his hand under my wife’s skirt, pressing at her crotch, I felt an internal shiver, as if I had just entered some strange and sinister room and the door had shut behind me. I knew that expression on Carol’s face, the look that had lost contact with the outside world, that was concentrating on sensations of her body. My cock was throbbing and, almost without realizing, I opened my pants to let it free.
My eyes were riveted on the scene. I was not conscious of how long it went on. Seeing my wife riding on another man’s hand, her own hand clutching at his crotch, felt like the first time I had ever touched a woman’s cunt - the thrill, the fear, the excitement. I was in another world.
When they stopped, I was disappointed. It jolted me back into the real world. While they were looking around for the PDA, which Carol had dropped on the floor, I took a series of deep breaths. This had gone far enough, I thought. The kiss on the nipple did it. I really have to stop it now.
The new screen that replaced the image of them almost tore me apart. It said, “These clothes are getting in the way.” There were only two choices, “Take them off,” and “End the fantasy.”
A part of me, the sensible, sane part, said, “End the fantasy.” Things had gone far enough. If they continued like this, without clothing, could there be any stopping? Where would it end?
But the other part of me, the animal part, the part that had pumped the blood into my turgid cock and then wrapped my fist around it, was saying something different. It was telling me how exciting it was to watch Carol being stimulated by another man; that the clothes were, in fact, getting in the way, preventing me from seeing her cunt while he finger-fucked her; reminding me what a thrill it was when we had gone to the nude beech and she had taken off her bathing suit. Let him see her naked, I thought, then you can watch his finger going into her cunt, see her hand stroking his prick. It’s just heavy petting, only with a better view for you.
As I started to move the cursor, I felt as if there were some living animal in my chest, stomping on my diaphragm, driven by my pounding heart. It took an effort to make myself click on “Take them off.”
When the video image reappeared, they were standing there, Roger looking intently at my wife and she looking in the direction of the laptop. They were both motionless. She looked stunned. Had I given the wrong response?
After a seemingly eternal pause, Carol turned her head toward Roger. They stared into each other’s eyes a moment. Then they came to life. Carol dropped the PDA again.
There was my wife, naked on the bed with a stranger, fondling his hard prick only inches away from her hungry gaze. His face, in turn, was scarcely at a greater distance from her cunt, which he was avidly finger fucking. Was I crazy to have allowed this? What was wrong with me that I would actually derive an intense erotic pleasure from seeing my wife so completely engaged in sexual play with another man? Yet I did, indeed, derive an incredibly intense erotic pleasure. I had dropped my pants and was pumping away on my stiff cock with my fist, watching a video display more exciting than I ever could have imagined.
God! In my most intense fantasies I had not anticipated the thrill that these erotic images, coupled with a surging fear, could instil in me. It was like a wild amusement-park ride, where you allow yourself to be thrust to the very limits of terror in order to savor the thrill. It was dangerous. It was insane. Yet I watched it with an unrelenting passion that my rational mind could not bring under control. Like the roller coaster fanatic, I wanted more.
My choices now were “Oral sex” and “End the fantasy.”
I realized now what was happening. My wife was forcing me to decide, to lead her. She would only go ahead if I told her to. If she was going to pursue my fantasies, it would have to be with my explicit approval and encouragement. I couldn’t just wander in and find her cheating. If I wanted to see her blow some other guy, I’d have to tell her to do it, explicitly, step by step. She was making me steer the ship. I could have no recriminations later.
Did I want her to go ahead? It all seemed so natural. The image of the two of them, their faces so close to each other’s naked and engorged sex organs, was vivid in my mind. I wanted to see her put her mouth on that prick, lick it, take it in. Yes, I wanted to see him bury his face between her legs, force his tongue up into her cunt. I was completely out of control and didn’t even hesitate as I clicked on “Oral sex.”
It was fantastic. Seeing her gobbling up his prick, kissing it, licking it, sucking on it - it was wild. I had imagined such a scene many times, but it was nothing like this. This was the real thing. I was watching my wife blow Roger, swallowing more and more of his cock until she had the entire length of it in her mouth. In and out it went. I was watching another man fuck my wife’s mouth. And I was stroking my own cock in time with it.
Then, when he began lapping her cunt, his tongue doing all sorts of tricks, I watched close-up for the first time the expression on her face as she fell under the spell of a thorough cunt-sucking. Of course, whenever I was eating her, my face would be between her legs. I couldn’t see the expression of ecstacy that had so captured her face. I couldn’t see until now that I zoomed in on her face how every plunge of the tongue was reflected in the curl of her mouth as the tension built up within her. She was going to come. I knew that expression. I saw her face begin to tighten into a grimace. Any second now.
And then it stopped. Her look turned to one of puzzlement. It was only when I zoomed out that I saw the cause of her consternation. Roger had stopped and pulled his head away from her cunt. He was kneeling between her legs, reaching across her towards the PDA on the night stand. And then he must have pressed it, because the video image vanished.
In its place was a screen that said, “This is your final choice. It is your last chance. You must irrevocably decide.” The choices were “Fuck him” or “End the fantasy.”
The starkness of the choice brought me back to reality. This had gone far enough. I had been delirious with sexual excitement during it all, but it had to stop now. She was my wife. I had been thrilled out of my mind to watch her play with and suck another man’s cock, to see her on the verge of orgasm from his finger fucking and cunt licking. But I couldn’t have her actually fuck him. That would be going too far. Fantasy was one thing, but this was reality. I knew that I was the only one she had fucked since we had married. She was mine alone and I wasn’t about to yield that privilege. It was time to end the fantasy. Confidently, I moved the cursor and clicked on my choice.
Sometimes we are not fully in control of what we do. Whether it was the excitement of the moment, the nervousness of the decision, the finality of my choice, or a misreading of the words, for whatever reason, as I had begun to make my ultimate choice, as I was moving the cursor to end the fantasy, I had somehow clicked on the WRONG CHOICE! I had clicked on “Fuck him.”
“No!” I screamed aloud, “That’s not what I meant. You know I wanted to end it here! Stop! For heaven’s sake, STOP!” But it was all too late. The screen came on again to show Roger lowering his cock to her cunt, rubbing the tip across her glistening cunt lips.
What had I done?!
THE ENDHow could I have hit the wrong choice? Was this somehow what I really wanted deep down inside? At first I didn’t want to look. I closed my eyes as if that would somehow erase the scene from reality. But I had left my wife naked, her legs spread, offering herself to Roger’s stiff cock, which was nestled up against her cunt. And I had told her to fuck him! I had led her to this moment, created the fantasy, nursed it, nourished it, and step by step led her into the reality of it. And now she was going to do it.
When I opened my eyes, Roger was lying on his back, his stiff cock sticking up in the air, and Carol was mounting him, positioning herself above his cock, taking it in her hand and placing it in her cunt. She slowly rocked herself down on it, and then she was fucking away.
This was the image I had long had in my mind, the one I had conjured up in my fantasies, which I had shared so many times with Carol. Seeing her pumping up and down on that stiff prick, seeing it go in and out of her, watching her ass hump, her tits swinging with her motion, her hair flying, this was what I had fantasized seeing, this was my ultimate dream. And while I was screaming “No!” I was eagerly watching her fuck and fisting my cock. My heart was pounding in my chest, my stomach surging, and my eyes were glued to the screen. I watched her face. I saw passion in it, I saw pure sex, I saw it distort in what in other circumstances might look like pain or anger but here instead showed uncontrolled passion and lust. There was the tightening of her face muscles, the screwing up of her features, the grimacing and clenching of her jaw. And then there was the stiffening and the sudden wild tremor as if the dam had burst. It was all there before my eyes and I was watching it and ejaculating, my cum splattering on my hand, my legs, and even on the keyboard in front of me. I watched Roger give a final thrust and knew he too was ejaculating, however his cum was shooting up into my wife’s cunt.
There was a period of calm for all of us. I sat there, my cock slowly softening and shrinking in my fist. Roger moved first, rolling out from under Carol, getting up and dressed, giving her one last kiss, and leaving. With the camera, I followed him until he had closed the door behind him.
When I turned the camera back to Carol, she had lifted her head and was looking around. She looked toward the camera for a moment and then I saw her reach for the laptop. She typed in a few words, then picked up the PDA. Suddenly the camera started turning and I had no control over it. She had taken control finally. The camera rotated around the room, zooming in on her clothes on the floor, then up to the rumpled bed, and finally back to her. By the time the camera got back to her, she had rotated her body around so that her feet were pointing toward the camera.
Slowly she spread her legs apart and the camera zoomed in, aimed at her cunt. Closer and closer it came until her cunt almost filled the entire image.
This is what she wanted me to see. She was showing me her swollen labia with Roger’s semen slowly leaking out from between them.
After a minute or two, the screen went blank. Then a message appeared, letter by letter. “I’ll see you tomorrow. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING.”
I would have to wait until tomorrow to tell her how much I loved her.