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�Why did you re-do the nursery?�
Dakota demanded
�I decided to let you have your
own room and Lourdes can have this room.�
�But it has a crib!�
�Yes, but as you know Lourdes has
been feeling very scared in her bed. You know that her
mind is not developed as yours is. She is still a
toddler in her mind. That�s why she will sleep here.
If Lourdes is to grow up, it is important that she
feels secure, loved and comfortable. This Nursery will
give Lourdes the opportunity. When Lourdes is ready,
she can get furniture and things that big girls like
you have.�
�She is the same age as me, have
you forgotten that we are twins?�
�She is not mentally the same age
as you, and this is affecting her body. You know she
has a problem in bed. Now she will feel safe. Yes, I
know it�s a crib. But Lourdes will get better and she
will be ready for a bed.�
�Maybe she is not a baby. Maybe
Lourdes is just a retard.�
Lourdes noticed that her mother
and sister were talking about her as though she was
invisible. She thought the room was pretty, even
though it was a baby�s room. She also knew that she
was afraid of falling out of the bed and she has been
feeling like a baby lately. Now she knew her mother
could see it too. Lourdes did not want the two too
fight and said that she will sleep in here. She added
that she would be ready to be in a big bed soon.
Dakota screamed at the top of her
voice, �You two are embarrassing me! Did you even
notice that the little baby has started to lisp?
What�s next? A Baby Bottle?�
Dakota did not speak with her
sister or mother the rest of the day. Lourdes was
happy in her bedroom. She spent most of the day with a
doll house. At supper, Lourdes was sitting on the
highchair. Dakota did not even bother teasing her.
Things were out of control. She just ignored her crazy
mother and babyish sister. She noticed that Lourdes
was lisping more, and even dropping some of her food.
It didn�t surprise her that her mother just smiled and
put a baby bib around Lourdes neck. Dakota didn�t even
say anything. Her mother was crazy and her sister was
a baby.
Cassie could see her daughter�s
faces after dinner. She knew that Dakota was disgusted
in what was happening. Her twin sister was acting like
a baby, and even considered herself one. Dakota was
watching a DVD about some boy band called One
direction. Dakota was admiring the boys, saying how
cute and good they were. Cassie smiled at Dakota. She
was proud of her daughter. She was getting good grades
at school and she had lots of friends. She was popular
with the boys, which was starting to worry Cassie. She
knew that Dakota was very fashion minded, and knew
what was expected of her by the others at school.
Dakota was on her way to becoming a teenager. This was
scary for Cassie. In a way she did not want her
daughters to grow up. She did not want rebel
teenagers. While, she was thinking this, she heard
Dakota teasing Lourdes. Dakota was asking Lourdes if
she was wet� if she wanted her baby bottle� and
teasing that her daughter was lisping more and more.
Cassie looked at Lourdes�. Poor
Lourdes. The good thing about Lourdes was that she was
not influenced by others. She was a happy girl. There
must be a reason why she was regressing more and more.
Sure it could be something like she had her little
sister�s soul in her. But there could be a more down
to earth reason. The whole thing was weird if you
thought about it. An 11 year old girl thinking that
she was a toddler and happy about it� was this the
reason that she was so small, that she wet herself,
and was comfortable using baby things? Cassie even
noticed that she sometimes lifted Lourdes around the
house. There was a problem was school. She was
teased for the babyish clothes she wore and how
babyish her hair looked. The fact that she started
lisping didn�t help. The truth was that Lourdes had
nothing to talk to the others about. They did not want
to hear about colouring books, cartoons and about
dolls. Lourdes did not dare admit that she used
diapers at night, ate in high chair, and used
pacifiers. It
was good that she did not wear diapers at school.
Cassie sighed as she wondered if her daughter should
see someone that was professional. But shrinks usually
make small problems to big problems and this means
that people visit them for years and years. Lourdes
regression could be a short stage. Cassie heard
Lourdes cry. She ran into the new nursery. Lourdes
could not climb in the crib. Cassie smiled as she
lifted her daughter in the crib. Lourdes was
sniffling, and a bit confused to how she could cry
over such a small thing. Cassie sat down on a chair
and started reading a book that she read to her
children when they were 3. Lourdes lisped and reminded
her mother to show her the pictures. Cassie smiled and
looked around and wondered why Dakota had no smart
comments or insults. When Dakota came, she gave her
little sister a baby bottle with milk saying it was
annoying listening to her crying. Lourdes fell asleep,
with one hand cuddling her teddy and another holding
the bottle.
The next day was hell for Lourdes
at school. Those that did not simply ignore her teased
her. Lourdes had no friends, except her dolls. She was
so happy to get on the bus to go home. She
walked towards Dakota, but could see in Dakotas� eyes,
that she did not want her sister to sit close by her.
Lourdes looked at her sister, and could see that
Dakota was ashamed of her and did not want her babyish
sister to be sitting next to her and her friends.
Lourdes could feel tears in her eyes thinking the way
her sister looked at her. A boy sat beside her.
Everyone called her princess. They say that he wore
his sister�s panties and even her dresses. Lourdes was
not going to tease him, as her secret was worse.
Lourdes looked out the window thinking that her sister
must be so embarrassed with her. She knew she was
crying as she was staring out the window with the
thumb in her mouth. The princess boy poked Lourdes
shoulder and said that he stopped sucking his thumb
when he was little. Lourdes was going to say something
smart, but he got up as it was his stop. It was good
in a way that he got up as Lourdes could feel it
getting wet between her legs. She didn�t understand
why she wet herself. Sure, she had a few accidents
during the day before, but it was at home, not where
50 children could see her wet panties. Lourdes could
feel her heart beating fast, as it felt like it would
come out of her chest. She could hardly breathe until
she felt Dakota poking her, telling her it was time to
get off the bus. Lourdes eyes were red with tears as
she pointed down, which made Dakota sigh and tell
Lourdes to wrap her coat around her waist. Lourdes did
this and rushed out of the bus. She knew that no one
could see how wet she was, but could they smell it?
The two walked in the house where Lourdes mother was
smiling until she seen Dakota fly past her in a
temper, saying that this was the last drop. Lourdes
ran into her mother�s arms and asked what was
happening with her?
Cassie took Lourdes into the
bathroom and starting giving her a bath. The tears
quickly disappeared as she was playing with the
bubbles and a duck. Dakota came in and asked Lourdes
how she can even let her mother give her a bath? Had
she no modesty? Dakota looked at Lourdes and teased
that her breasts were still flat, while Dakota had
small bumps. Dakota also boasted that she was now
taller. Cassie told Dakota to get out. It was right;
she still had the body of a 6 year old, while Dakota
was developing... unless she was using high heels and
tissues. Cassie was also worried that Lourdes wet
herself in public. It would be very disastrous if she
wet herself at school. At least they had the weekend
to see how things went.
It did not go better all weekend.
At first Lourdes went to the toilet every second time
and wet herself the other times. It seemed to get
worse on Sunday, when Lourdes could not control
herself at all. At the start, she would hold her doll
with tears coming down her eyes while she said, �I wet
myfewf�. By the time Sunday came, there were no tears.
It was as if she accepted it.
Cassie did not know what to do.
On Monday, she woke Dakota up. Then told Dakota to put
something on that did not show that much skin. As she
walked into Lourdes room, she thought she did not have
this problem with her. She took Lourdes to the
bathroom and helped her wash herself and brush with
her teeth, as Dakota looked on disgusted thinking that
she could do it herself. Cassie told her daughter to
lay back on the bed. This confused Lourdes, as she
only did this at night-time when she got her diaper
on. There was no time to play baby now. The school bus
was coming. Cassie didn�t say that much but gave
Lourdes a bottle of milk and lifted her legs. Lourdes
spit out the bottle and said that it was a school day.
Lourdes started kicking, crying and screaming. She was
not wearing pampers to school. Cassie pinned her legs
down and looked in her eyes, �You have been wetting
your pants all the time the last few days. Do you
think that will stop? Which is more embarrassing,
having wet clothes or a wet diaper that they cannot
see? I am not being a bad mother. You said yourself a
few weeks ago that you feel like you are a baby. It is
obvious that your body now thinks that too.� Lourdes
calmed down and sobbed. Her mother was right. Wet
clothes would mean that she would be teased non-stop.
Her mother put some baggy bright pink pants on her
with lace and a cardigan with a kitten on it. Her hair
was as usual put in pigtails. It was time to go to
school. Lourdes was very aware that she was now
wearing a big bulky diaper and hoped that no one would
notice it. As Lourdes and her sister walked out the
door, Dakota tapped her bum and looked disgusted and
whispered in Lourdes ear, �You are 11 years old, and
you are going to school with a diaper on. You are
embarrassing me. You are my sister. I don�t want
people to think I am like you. You are not a baby.
Wake up and face reality. Grow up or I will make you
regret you think you are a baby!�
Luckily, no one found out that
Lourdes was wearing a diaper at school. She was teased
as usual about the way she looked and when her thumb
went into her mouth. However no one noticed the big
bulge in her pants and the way the diapers crinkled
every time she moved. However her mind was thinking
about Dakota�s threat. In a way, she understood the
way Dakota was thinking. They were both twins and they
were 11 years old. However Lourdes knew she was acting
more and more like a baby. However she could not help
it. She did not piss herself on purpose. Maybe she
could give up the crib. But she slept well in it and
she felt safe. Maybe she could get rid of the dummies
and pacifier. These must have been a habit. Dakota was
right. It was definitely not normal for a girl her
age. Dakota was afraid what her sister would do if she
did not act like an 11 year old, but deep down, she
couldn�t stop thinking why she felt like a baby.
On the way out to school, Dakota
stopped Lourdes as Lourdes was about to get on the
bus. She was surprised that Lourdes did not even see
her mother waiting in the car. Both girls ran to the
car where their mother said they were going shopping.
This made Dakota happy, as she thought that it meant
that she would be getting make up. She rolled her eyes
when Lourdes was being put in a baby seat in the back
of the car, and half the school looking. She sat in
the front of the car and put a face on so everyone
knew she thought her mum and sister were being weird.
On the way to the shop, Cassie asked her daughter if
she was wet. Lourdes said, �Yef, forry, I didn�t feew
it when I had to go. It juft came out� Dakota teased
her sister, saying that they would need a translator.
However she did not laugh when her mother opened the
back seat of the car and laid her sister on the
backseat and started changing her. Up to now, this
baby stuff has been kept at home, and now her mother
was changing Lourdes in the middle of a parking place.
Dakota was shocked as her sister just let her mother
take off her clothes and show her privates to the
whole world. Her mother even said that it was good
that she had no hair down there, as that would smell.
Dakota wanted the earth the swallow her up. What if
some perv came by and stared? Lourdes would probably
not even notice. What happened next was that her
mother took out a stroller. Lourdes sat in the
stroller and put a pacifier in her mouth. It didn�t
seem to bother her that she might be seen by
classmates. She reminded her sister that she was 11
years old, sitting in a baby stroller with a diaper
and a pacifier in her mouth. At first she could see a
worried look on Lourdes face and then Lourdes smiled
and said that they were here before and no one noticed
her. Lourdes sucked her pacifier and just sat
comfortable in the stroller. Dakota looked at her
mother asking for an explanation. The answer was that
it was easier.
�Mummy can I have a new cowouring
book and crayonf and an onfie to wear?� Lourdes asked.
This was too much for Dakota. She warned her sister to
act her age or she would get some revenge. The fact
that Lourdes is worse since the warning was enough.
Dakota knew that her plan was to make her sister
younger. But she had not thought the plan out so well.
She never expected it to go this far. People would
think she was just as weird as her sister. She looked
down at her sister asking in toddler language if she
can buy a colouring book and not crayons, and not make
up. She was now being pushed in a stroller and wearing
a diaper, not to mention the pacifier. Dakota knew
what she had to do. She took out her cell phone and
took a lot of pictures of Lourdes. This continued
home. At night time, Dakota looked at the pictures she
took. She liked the ones of Lourdes in the highchair,
crib and being changed best. Dakota felt a tear as she
knew her plan was wicked. The whole plan to make
Lourdes wear diapers was her plan. It was evil, but
how could she know it would end up with her sister
being a baby?
The next day, Dakota was in
another world thinking if she would go ahead with her
evil plan. When she seen her sister with a shirt that
only a 4 year old would wear and her hair in pigtails
and a pacifier in her mouth. Plus she could hear the
diaper crinkle. Dakota decided to go ahead with her
plan.
It was an ordinary day for
Lourdes. No one spoke with her on the bus. No one
spoke with her at school, except when they teased her
for looking like a toddler. Lourdes knew that she
promised herself to act older. But when her mother
changed her and later put her in a stroller, she knew
that it harder than she thought because deep down, she
felt like her mind was still in the baby stage. At
least the school didn�t know how much of a baby she
was. She was careful that they didn�t see or hear
about it. Lourdes often wanted to put a pacifier in
her mouth, but she just accepted that she had to suck
her thumb.
At Lunch time, Lourdes was
sitting in a corner of the playground watching her
former friends smile and play. She wanted to hug her
teddy bear. Then a group of girls came up to her and
asked her if she slept in a crib, used a high chair,
stroller and used diapers. Lourdes whispered that she
was not a baby. Then they showed Dakotas cell phone.
It had pictures of Lourdes as a baby. Lourdes didn�t
know what to say. She just ran out of the school. She
lived far away from school, but still she ran and ran,
even though that was hard because she had a diaper on.
When she came home she ran past her mother, that was
wondering why she came home from school. Lourdes ran
into her nursery and sat in a corner as she cried.
Cassie tried to speak with
Lourdes, but her daughter was in such a state, that
she could not speak. The only thing she said was that
�"They aww know about me".
When Dakota came home, Cassie
asked what the problem was. Dakota explained as
innocent as she could that she forgot to take her cell
phone with her during the lunch break, and she must
have pressed the wrong button so it was showing the
pictures. Another girl took the cell phone to give it
to Dakota, and noticed the picture of Lourdes being
changed, and then they saw the others. This made
Cassie's heart beat a few extra times in pain, as she
now knew why Lourdes was in despair.
Cassie went into Lourdes and sat
down next to her, �Lourdes, I know what happened
today. This has been a hard time for you as you a
baby.You feel that you are a baby. As I said to you,
there must be a reason why you regressed. Look at the
bright side, that now you have no secret from others.
Having a secret is extremely hard to live with, living
two lives is hard with. I am sure that the others at
school will accept this, and I will explain it to the
teachers. They probably know already, especially after
your speech has become more like a toddler. I promise
you that if school becomes hell, we will find a
solution�
School was worse for Lourdes.
Everyone knew that she was an 11 year old baby. They
would tease her that she slept in a crib, and used
other baby things. They would ask if her diaper was
wet, and if it needed to be changed. Some would even
lift her skirt so her diaper would be flashed for
everyone to see. Lourdes was so sad and hated going to
school.
As for Dakota, Things could not
have been better. It seems as when Lourdes was teased
and humiliated, that people felt sorry for Dakota for
having such a strange sister. They no longer
considered them as twins. The difference was between
them was obvious. Dakota was 11, and knew about
fashion, music and was pretty. Lourdes on the other
hand was supposed to be 11, but was just a baby in an
11 year old body. It made Dakota sad that her sister
was experiencing hell at school. On the other hand
Dakota was one of the most popular girls at school.
This was the price to pay. Lourdes may not have liked
it, but she was happy at home and if she didn�t want
to be teased and humiliated, then she could just grow
up.
Cassie was worried. She was wrong
when she thought the school would understand Lourdes.
They just made her life at hell. It broke Cassie�s
heart to see her daughter in so much pain. She had to
do something as a mother. She visited the head
mistress, which was a stern old lady.
�I think I know why you are here,
�The head mistress started saying, �It appears as if
Lourdes is having a hard time at school. She is
wearing diapers. We suspected this something was wrong
when she was sucking her thumb and her grades dropped.
We became worried when she first started lisping, and
then started baby talking. Now we know she wears
diapers. There are even rumours she sleeps in a crib
and uses high chairs. It�s good that you came. We need
to talk about this�
�Yes, it�s true. Lourdes brain is
like it has a baby brain. She considers herself a
baby. Yes, she is different. The question is what you
will do about this. She is being teased.�
�The question is what you will do
about this? You are her mother. You must admit that it
is not normal for an 11 year old to consider herself a
baby. It is easy for others to tease her.�
�You do not condone that she gets
teased and humiliated and degraded because she is
different�
�Being fat is different. Wearing
glasses is different. Acting like a baby is totally
off the scales. Of course I understand why she gets
teased.�
�It is not her fault that she has
regressed.�
�Did you find out why she has
regressed? There is usually a reason for it.�
�I don�t know if it�s a late
reaction to my daughter�s death. She died when she was
a Toddler. Dakota thinks that it is my daughter�s soul
that possessed Lourdes. Since she said that, Lourdes
has believed it was true I suppose. First it affected
her mind and now her body is reacting�
�I think she needs a
psychiatrist�
�No. This is just a phase.�
�I will advise you to help her
through this phase. If she really thinks that she is a
baby, then treat her like one in every way until it
gets out of her system. I can tell you we cannot stop
the treatment she will get here. Children can be so
mean. I have been doing some research and spoke with
one of my friends I spoke with. She has a private
school for children with special needs. Most are
retarded, but she said she has a boy that is going
through the same as Lourdes. She said that your
daughter can start there. I think this is the best
solution�
The meeting went on for a bit. It
was decided that Lourdes would start at the special
school, although the head mistress did not understand
that she had money for that, but not a shrink.
A few days later, Lourdes was
walking out of the school where she seen her mother
was waiting for her. Her mother then put a toddler
leash on her where everyone could see. Lourdes wanted
to hit her mother. It was bad enough that she was the
teasing stock at school. But this would only make it
worse. Her mother put her in the baby seat. Lourdes
was thinking why Dakota was allowed to take the bus,
while she was being collected. It didn�t really matter
as it was better than being teased in the bus. Cassie
told Lourdes that this was the last day she would be
going to the school. She would be starting in another
school where she would be accepted. Lourdes smiled.
When Lourdes came home, she was
put in a playpen that her mother bought her that day.
At first Lourdes thought it was a punishment. Why was
she being punished? Then her dolls and other toys were
there. She soon became occupied and didn�t notice that
the time went by.
A few days went by. Lourdes
noticed that Dakota was now being nice to her. It
seems like everyone got what they wanted. Dakota was
popular at school and Lourdes was now living as a baby
at a new school. Dakota heard the ice cream truck. She
thought it was strange because the ice cream truck
never went by their house. She asked her mother if she
could go out and buy ice cream. She was given
permission, as long as she took Lourdes, and make sure
that Lourdes wore the toddler leash. This didn�t
bother Dakota at all. She took her little sister out
to the ice cream van. It was only Dakota and Lourdes
at the van. So they got their ice cream.
�Why is your sister on a leash�
He asked
�She is just special�
�I can see that. I can see she
wears a diaper. It must be hard for your twin to be
wearing a diaper.�
�How did you know we are twins?�
�I just do.�
�She is more like my little
sister. She lives and thinks like a baby. You know
with diapers, pacifiers, bottles. She even has a crib,
highchair and stroller.�
�.. and a leash. Still it must be
hard when she was once normal. I suppose you feel bad
that your plan worked. You wanted your sister to be
younger. You wanted her to wet herself. You did not
want a twin sister. You wanted a little sister.�
�What?�
�You wanted her to wet herself,
and look what has happened. Now she has regressed to a
baby. It looks like everything has worked out for you.
You are now very popular. But remember your plan was
evil. Let�s hope that something evil does not strike
you back. It probably will.�
Dakota was white. He turned
around and looked at Lourdes who didn�t hear a word
that was said, because she was eating her ice cream
and was admiring a butterfly. Dakota went into the
house and ate her ice-cream wondering how that man
knew.
Lourdes life changed that day. At
home, she was was treated like a baby. She was now
living as a toddler, and thinking like a toddler.
Lourdes did not question when she was put in the
stroller, crib, high chair. When she was outside, she
was either in a stroller or the leash. At home, she
spent most of her time in the playpen. Lourdes didn�t
think about these things as it became just daily life
for her. She liked her new school. The children did
have special needs. Lourdes didn�t like the word
retard. They were just slow. At any case, they were so
nice and quickly became best friends. Lourdes was now
getting good grades again.
A few months later�.
Cassie went into Lourdes nursery
to take her out of the crib. Her heart jumped as
Lourdes was not there. Was she kidnapped? Cassie went
through the whole house looking for her. Lourdes was
in the shower. She was smiling and told her mother
that she woke up dry and she went to the toilet
herself.
Dakota came into the bathroom
crying and in despair. She told her mother that she
wet the bed.