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Some people are
born smart. They know the answer to everything. Some
people are born dumb, and they have trouble all their
life. I don�t know why I was born dumb. I really
didn�t think that I was dumb. I just thought about
simple things and not big things. I wondered why does
all the tasty food like chocolate and coke taste good
and healthy food taste bad? I wondered why
people killed insects. Why do people hate each other?
Why are people so mean? I was simple as
a child. I didn�t care if I was wearing fashionable
clothes or if my Dad had the best job. I didn�t
care if I had 20 friends or was the best at sports. To
be honest, all I wanted was to be happy. I didn�t say
anything smart. I wasn�t very talkative. I was honest
though. I remember a girl that asked me was she ugly.
I told her she was the ugliest thing that I ever seen.
Needless to say that she slapped me across the face
and told me that I was very mean and rude. That
experience meant that I was cautious around girls. I
hardly said anything to them and when I did, I
protected my face afterwards. Everyone thought
that I was dumb. Some even called me retarded, just
because I couldn�t understand everything. It�s not
that my brain didn�t work. It wanted to understand how
things worked. My answer to everything was that God
helps us. It makes sense. He is the boss of the whole
universe. So when the teacher asked me how babies are
made, I just answered that God does it. The whole
class laughed and shouted that I was dumb, which I
didn�t understand. In my mind I wasn�t dumb; I just
understood that God has the power to do anything. One of my
classmates lived next to me. Her name was Jenny. She
was very pretty. I would visit her as often as I
could. She thought I was dumb, but she liked me
anyhow. I would sit on her bed while she told me what
she did with her friends. She also would tell about
the boys that she fancied. I didn�t understand much of
what she said; I just liked listening to her voice.
She was the only one that didn�t remind me I was dumb
all the time. Now you know a
bit about me, It�s time that I tell you what happened
to me one summer when I was 11 years old. It was the
last day of school. I sat next to Jenny on the bus. In
the back of the bus, there were old boys that wanted
me to come down to them. I wasn�t that dumb. I knew
what they wanted to do. They wanted to lift me up by
my briefs and give me a wedgy. I wasn�t that dumb. I
pretended that I didn�t hear them and sat closer to
Jenny. I knew that she would protect me from the boys,
Even though she was busy speaking with her friends. When we came to
our bus stop, we went out. Jenny had a friend with her
and they were chattering about summer holidays and
what they would do. I didn�t say much. I never said
much. It always got me in trouble. I always said
something stupid and it was embarrassing to hear from
others how dumb I was. I usually looked down at my
feet while we walked. I wondered how my brain could
remember to put one leg in front of the other. How do
we remember to walk? Then I saw a
flower. It didn�t know what it was called. It had blue
bell flowers on it. Jenny and her friend didn�t notice
the flower. They nearly stepped on it. That got my
brain working again. Do flowers feel pain if we stand
on them? I didn�t know the answer to that. Sometimes
being dumb is hard. The flower must feel pain, as it
is a living thing. The flower was also in a bad place.
It was next to the road, where dust and exhaust from
the traffic would hurt the flower. This means that the
flower couldn�t get fresh air. I rushed back to
the flower and went on my hands and knees. I carefully
dug around the flower, so I wouldn�t damage the roots.
I now had the flower in my hands. I rushed back to
Jenny and her friend. They asked what I was doing with
a flower. I said that it was dangerous where it was.
They laughed and said that it was only a flower, and
how dumb could I be? I said the flower was in a
dangerous place and I wanted to put it in a safe
place. I walked to Jenny�s driveway and planted the
flower in a flowerbed where tulips were. I tried
explaining that the flower was happier where it was
now. The two girls chattered together, with a smile on
their face. I couldn�t hear what they were talking
about. Jenny invited me
to play with her and her mate. I didn�t have much else
to do, so I said Ok. She had a pretty room. It was
pink and red and white. It had a red rug in the middle
of it, and pink walls. Her bed was an old fashioned
canopy bed with white sheets and nice curtains. I was
surprised at the amount of Teddy bears that Jenny had.
I had my favourite teddy, but I would like a lot more!
Jenny was so lucky. I sat on her bed and took some
teddy bears up and started to play with them Then Jenny asked
me do I want to play a game. I said fine. I was a bit
shocked because no one ever asked me to play a game
with them, not even Jenny. She would just talk and
talk. Now she wanted me to play! She gave me a
bunk of clothes and told me to go in the toilet and
take off all my clothes and put these clothes on. I
would need them to play the game. I went in the toilet
and quickly took my clothes off. Then I looked at the
clothes that she gave me. There must have been a
mistake. There were panties and tights and a frilly
dress. They were girl�s clothes. I was a boy, so why
did I have to wear these? I was so confused. I was
about to protest but I thought if I did, then they
wouldn�t let me play. I quickly took
the panties that were white and pink. They were so
tight against me and so soft. I looked in the mirror.
They looked strange on me. I then took the tights and
spent some minutes trying to figure out how to put
them on. I decided to stick one foot down in them and
carefully pulled them up. It was the strangest feeling
I ever had. It was like fresh air hitting my legs. I
finally managed to put both my legs in them and once
again looked in the mirror. I started laughing. My
legs looked like girl legs. The last thing I took was
the dress- It was yellow and had frilly edges. They
were made from lace. I stood there with the dress in
my hands. How do you put on a dress? Do you step in it
or do you put it over your head? I decided to put it
over my head. That was fun because I couldn�t find the
sleeves, so I was struggling with a dress on my head.
It was like a tent was on my head. Finally I found the
sleeves and let the dress slide over me. When I looked
in the mirror, I couldn�t believe in what I saw. It
was a girl that was looking back. I looked like a
girl! What was I doing? How was I going to show Jenny
and her friend? I just sat on the toilet trying to get
some courage to go out to them. After a few
minutes, I went out to find them. I couldn�t find
Jenny in her room. I went to the sitting room. No one
was there. Finally I went in the kitchen. Jenny and
her friend were standing next to the stove. I could
see them stirring a pot of bubbling water. �Oh there you
are. Wow, you look so pretty in the dress� Jenny said �Thanks� �What does it
feel like wearing a dress?� �Err; I can feel
the breeze go up my legs� �I think that
you look very pretty as a girl.� �Thanks� �My friend and I
were thinking that it�s bad that everyone thinks that
you are stupid. Don�t you ever get tired when someone
calls you stupid?� �I suppose I
do.� �Do you think
that you are dumb?� �I don�t know,
but if anyone says that I am dumb, then it must be
true� �I want to give
you a present. It will help you.� �What is it?� �It�s a
necklace. I will tell you the truth. We are making a
magical potion. We have to put the necklace in the
potion. After we do this, it is yours.� I was a bit
confused. Why did it have to be put in a magic potion?
It must have been part of a game and the girls must
have been playing that they were witches. What did I
know? The necklace was
put in the bobbling water and a light came from the
pot. It was like a light we see coming through the
clouds on a wet rainy day. Then a sound came. It was
like angels singing. I thought that Jenny was a
genius. I could never boil anything like this. Jenny
lifted the necklace up. It was shining. She put it on
the table and told me to wait until it cooled down.
The necklace had a blue stone which sometimes
flimmered red. It was so pretty. I walked back and
forth while I was waiting for it to cool down. Nobody
has ever given me a present, except for my parents. �Now you can
wear the necklace. Be sure that you never take it off.
Not even when you sleep or take a bath. Don�t worry it
won�t break and if you really think it�s pretty, you
would wear it.� I asked if it
was only girls that wore necklaces. Jenny said that
boys could wear them too, and anyhow, I was in a
dress, so I looked like a girl. I put the necklace on.
I could feel a ticklish feeling going through my body,
and then a cold chill went down through my body. I
started shaking as the feelings were hitting my body.
After a few minutes it was over. I wanted to
play. So we agreed that I was their daughter and we
would play mum and daughter. Jenny�s friend would make
a film of it. So she was going around with her cell
phone and taking small videos and taking a few
pictures with it. I didn�t even notice that she was
filming Jenny was
playing with me, although she was speaking to me like
I was a child. I
didn�t care. Somebody was playing with me. I didn�t
know that playing with teddy bears and Barbie dolls
could be so fun. Jenny taught me how to change Barbie
clothes and she said that the clothes had to match.
She also taught me how to sit on the floor with a
dress on. I had to keep my legs closed, otherwise boys
can see my panties, and I didn�t want that, did I? We were playing
with the teddies and Barbie�s for some time. I still
felt a weird sensation where the stone on the necklace
was, but I played. Don�t laugh at me for what I am
about to say. But I was happy playing with girls toys.
When Jenny called me a girl, I didn�t get mad. I just
answered. I was pretending to be Jenny�s little sister
and it was fun. Besides I looked like a girl, with a
dress on. I even had panties on. I could see that
Jenny and her friend were laughing while they were
looking at the cell phone. I went over to see what
they were doing. Jenny�s friend has sent a picture of
me in a dress to everyone she know. This included my
class. I could feel a tear coming to my eye. How could
she be so mean? I knew that I couldn�t show my face in
school again. �You�re so
dumb,� she said, �You could have said no about the
dress, but you put it on. You even put panties on.
You�re just a dumb sissy. It is only common sense that
I send your sissy picture to everyone that we know.
Why are you crying now, little dumb baby?� I could feel my
eyes swell up. I knew I was about to cry. Maybe I was
dumb. Maybe I did put on a dress. But I thought that
Jenny was my friend. How could she be part of this?
Friends do not embarrass other friends. I was not that
stupid to realize that. I looked straight in Jenny�s
eyes. I could see that she stopped laughing. �Don�t worry.�
She said, �By tomorrow people will forget how funny
this picture is and they will not laugh when they see
it. I promise that from now on, nobody will make fun
of you� What was she
saying? I ran out of the
house as quick as I could. I didn�t even bother taking
the dress of. I ran into my house. My mother was
shocked that I was wearing girl clothes. I didn�t
answer. I ran to my room and locked the door. I took
off the dress and tights and panties and kept the
necklace on. I jumped on my bed and turned on my
Madonna CD. Suddenly it got
very dark. There was thunder and lightning. The
necklace was shining. I started getting pains in my
shoulders and legs. It hurt so much. It was like
someone was pressing them. I cried for help, but
nobody came. I tried concentrating on Madonna music.
It didn�t help. I was in so much pain, that I thought
I would die. I started turning around in bed and
curled myself into a ball as much as possible. It seemed that I
had pains for hours. Then I started getting pains in
my privates. It was like someone was kicking me in
there. I was now in tears. I couldn�t stand this
pain. It seemed like every time there was
lightning, that it came through my window and hit the
necklace. I was afraid. The last thing I
remember feeling was my hair. It was like someone was
pulling my hair. I didn�t understand why my Mum wasn�t
coming. I was crying and screaming. I passed out.
The pain was too much for me. When I woke up,
I was happy. There was no pain. I was lying in my bed
when I noticed that the sheets were pink. Mum must
have changed them. Then I noticed that there were
teddy bears on my bed. When I looked around, I saw a
desk and a dolls house. My floor was the same as
Jenny�s. I got up to pee.
My hair was over my eyes. I brushed it back. I didn�t
understand how I suddenly got long hair. It went down
to my shoulder. I rushed out to the toilet and started
peeing. I got another surprise. It was running down my
legs. I looked down. My �thing� was gone. I had girl�s
private parts. What was happening? Why was I now a
girl? I went over to
the mirror. I could see that I was much shorter than I
should be. A girl was looking back at me in the
mirror. I couldn�t believe that I was a girl. I rushed back to
my room. All my boy clothes were gone. I only had
dresses and panties and other girl clothes. I put a
pretty dress on and rushed down to my mother. �How is my
little daughter today?� �Err you don�t
have a daughter. I�m your son!� �You are so
funny. Of course you�re my daughter. You have been for
7 years now!� �Am I only 7
years old?� �What is the
matter with you? Of course you are. You�re becoming a
big girl now.� I ran out and
ran over to Jenny�s house. She was smiling. �It
worked. You are a girl now! Nobody will ever tease you
because you are a pretty young girl� I walked out Jenny changed my
life. No one will remember me as a boy and they will
think I always have been a girl. I could play with as
many girl toys I wanted and could wear all the pretty
dresses that I wanted. I am sure that I
would be happy when I got used to the ideal. I saw the
flower that I planted yesterday. I hope it was happy
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