
September 10
Hi diary,
My name is Barbie.
Everyone calls me Barbie because I am small and I
have long blond hair. I am the smallest in my class.
My real name is Ashley. Before you ask, I do not
like Barbie's. I never played with them. I suppose
when you have hair down to your shoulders, then
people think you look like a girl and call you
Barbie. I am eleven years old.
I got this diary
today. So I might as well write in it. It is a
purple one with a bear and heart on the cover. It
has a lock on it. I might as well use it. It could
be fun reading about it a year after. It does look
like a girl’s diary. Maybe boys don't write diaries.
I got the diary from
my new step mum. My mum died when I was young. Now
dad has got married again. He didn't ask me. We have
to move to step mums new house. She has a daughter
that is 9 and a son that is 16.
They got married
today. It was OK. I sat there thinking that I had a
new mum. But I'm not going to call her mum. I have
one mum. It’s not my fault she’s dead. After the
wedding and party we came home to their house. It
was now going to be my new family and house. I was
no longer the only child. I even had to share a room
with Isabella, who was 9. I would much prefer to
share a room with Alex, but Stepsie (I call step mum
that) said it would be better with Isabella.
The room was pink
with some red. The ceiling was cool though. It has
clouds and a rainbow. Otherwise everything was pink.
There were 2 beds and her toys were all over the
place. Mine was still in boxes. Her bed was a girl’s
bed too. It had Hannah Montana on it. At least I had
my Spider man sheets. Anyway, I was too tired after
the long day, and I didn't care where I slept. Wow,
see how much I wrote. If my teacher seen this, she
would think that I could write any essay. I will say
goodnight.
September 11
Hi Diary,
Last night was
strange. I like Isabella. She speaks a lot. Last
night I could hardly sleep because she kept on
talking and talking. That's the good thing about
writing to a diary. You can't talk back. She put her
nightie on and looked at my pj.
"Those are so ugly,"
she said, "my nightie is much prettier."
"It would look ugly
on me," I tried to say. It was a joke.
"No I don't think
so."
I thought she was
weird. Who ever heard of a boy wearing nighties? I
bet you think that was weird diary. But wait to I
tell you what happened next. As we lay in bed, I
looked over at Isabella. I couldn't believe my eyes,
she was sucking a pacifier. She was too old to be
using a baby’s thing.
"Isabella, why are
you sucking that?"
She looked at me and
if it wasn't that dark, I suppose I could see that
her face would have been red. However I did notice a
smile and she said,
"Because I like it."
"Yeah, but you look
like a baby."
"It helps me to
sleep. I'm not a baby and don't call me that
anymore."
I just lay in my bed
and thought she was weird. Then she came over to me
with a dummy and placed it besides my pillow. "Try
it; you will also fall asleep much easier." She also
gave me a fluffy care bear. No way was I going to
use a dummy. I was 11 years old.
As I looked around
the pink room, I thought why Dad didn't tell them
that this was also a boy’s room, and boys shouldn't
be in pink rooms. Then I thought of my Mom and
needless to say I started to cry silently. I don't
know why I did it, but I hugged the care bear and
sucked on the pacifier.
Maybe it reminded me
of when my mom was there. Isabella was right, I
slept so well.
September 12
Hi Diary,
The next morning I
woke up, something was wrong. I wet the bed. I
couldn't believe it. It has been years since I wet
the bed. I was sitting in the wet bed thinking how I
was going to sneak everything out when Stepsie (step
mum) came in. She told us to get up. Isabella was as
chirpy as a bird and told her mum that she helped me
go to sleep by giving me one of her pacifiers. I was
so embarrassed. I wished that the ground would
swallow me up. Still I hid under the covers while
Stepsie found clothes for
Isabella.
"Now it’s your turn,
Ashley."
"I can get dressed
myself, I can wait to you go out"
"Nonsense," she said
as she pulled the bed sheets back. She noticed that
I wet the bed and despite the fact that I tried to
explain it never happened, she just was silent as
she started to undress me. Isabella couldn't keep
her mouth shut, "Mum, he called me a baby last night
because I use pacifiers."
"I-I-I didn't call
you a baby. I said that only babies-"
"Well, who looks
like a baby now?" said Stepsie as I layed there in a
wet bed and a pacifier in my mouth. I quickly spat
it out.
Stepsie gave me a
hug and said it was probably because of the changes
in the family and maybe it was just for one night.
"If it is the same tonight, we can use Isabella's
old protection so you won't be so embarrassed."
Protection, what
could that be?? I got dressed and didn't think about
it all day until I went to bed. After saying my
prayers, I layed in my bed thinking about this new
family and then I thought of my Mum. I started to
cry silently. Stepsie came in and noticed I was
crying and didn't say a word, she just put a
pacifier in my mouth and kissed me on the forehead.
"I bought you six
pacifiers today, as you shouldn't be using
Isabella's."
I layed in my bed
and starting writing this. It's a good thing that
you have a lock on because I am about to write a
secret. I really don't mind pacifiers. They sooth
me. Make me sleep better. To tell you the truth I am
getting to like pink too.
September 13
Hi again Diary,
the next morning was
the same. I woke up with a wet bed. Isabella was
nice about it but I could see that stepsie was
annoyed. She took of my wet pj. I stood there naked
and I must have gone red all
over. "Mum, isn't
Barbie a boy?"
"Yes sweetie, why?"
Stepsie asked Isabella.
"Look at his
thingie, it's so small," she laughed
"Yes," Stepsie said,
"He could nearly be a girl. Who knows?"
The she put me over
her knee and started spanking me. This hurt like
anything. It was more embarrassing that I lay over
her knee half naked while Isabella could just see
me. And Isabella thought I looked like a girl. As I
screamed and cried, I thought that it would never
end. The stepsie told Isabella to slap me 5 times. I
didn't understand why my new half-sister also should
spank me. Even though she has a small hand, it hurt.
I was then told that
I shouldn't wet the bed. As I layed on her I cried.
Stepsie put the
pacifier in my mouth and calmed me down. I noticed
that the pacifier was pink and white!!!
Then Stepsie said
that we will have to do something with the bed
wetting. Maybe a plastic sheet would help I thought.
I knew that a girl from my class used them when she
was younger.
That evening when I
came home from school, Stepsie called me into my
room. Or should I call it the pink princess room.
She told me to lie down on my bed. I thought I was
going to be spanked for talking in class that day.
However she told me
to lay down on my back. Isabella came in and she
knew what was going to happen. I could see it on her
face, and let’s face it, she knew her mom better
than I did.
Stepsie started by
taking my trousers down. This was embarrassing, once
again my privates was shown for everyone to see. I
should have fought it and ran as far as my 2 legs
would take me. But I just layed there. Then the
surprise of my life came when Stepsie came with a
diaper. A pampers baby diaper.
"We have to protect
the bed and you will find it easier sleeping in the
with a diaper on."
"I am not a baby!" I
protested.
"Well, only babies
wet their beds. It makes no difference. Every day
when u get home you will wear a diaper."
"Why can’t I wear it
just before I go to sleep?"
"Because this is the
rules, as your new mum, I decide."
By the time we
finished arguing, I had a diaper on. It was big and
I felt like an 11 year old baby. They put my pj on
and then I started doing my homework. After a bit I
forgot that I was wearing a diaper.
That was until I
came down to watch TV. Isabella was very nice about
it and didn't tease at all. But then John, my new
step brother came in and noticed my big bum while I
was lying down on the floor.
"Are you wearing a
diaper?" he asked
"Sod Off. None of
your business," I retorted
"OMG, we have a baby
in the house. A Diaper boy. This is so weird."
I hated being
teased, and could feel a tear flow down my cheek.
Isabella ran out of
the room and just stuck a pacifier in my mouth
again.
I started sucking.
What was happening to me?
September 16
Hi Diary,
Sorry I didn't write
to you sooner. I have no excuse. I am wearing the
diaper every afternoon when I come home from school.
The funny thing was that I started to wet the
diaper. I don't know why, but I think it's because I
waited for the last minute and when I tried to get
to the toilet, then it was too late. Maybe I was
lazy. I most likely was. Today when I came home from
school and I was getting the diaper on. As my legs
were pointed in the air, I started thinking that it
is not that bad. My heart started to beat faster
when I had to admit that I liked having diapers on.
I no longer minded them. What was happening to me?
Am I now a baby? I was no longer a big boy. I was
lying down getting a diaper on and I didn't care.
When the diaper was
finally fastened, Stepsie came with a nightdress. It
was new with white and pink arms with a picture of
the Little Mermaid. Again she just slid it over me
and did I put a fight up? No. I just accepted it as
if it was normal. Then the thought hit me. I was
wearing a girl’s night dress!!!
"This is for girls,"
I said.
"I know, however it
will be easier to change you before bed."
"But I look like a
sissy!"¨
"Maybe, but a cute
sissy."
I hate being called
cute.
September 18
Dear Diary,
when I was doing my
homework, I started to think that I felt like a
girl. With my hair down to my shoulders, I mostly
looked like a girl. This was strange. You know what
the problem is, I sort of liked it. It made me feel
different than the others. Here I was a 11 year old
boy sitting doing my homework dressed in a girls
nightdress and a diaper, and I allowed it!
Stepsie shouted up
if I was wet. I was of course wet, but I didn't want
to get changed. I wanted to get my homework
finished. She came up and asked was I sure that I
was wet and I said no. I really hated her.
She came up to me
and lifted my nightie and seen the wetness. She
lifted me to the bed to change me. This was
embarrassing. I know I was small for my age, but I
could walk.
Then she said,
"Since you can't tell me when you're wet, you will
be checked. Otherwise you will get a rash. What are
you afraid of; I will see your thingie? Let me tell
you this much, there is not a lot to see."
I told her to shut
up. She went out with a smile on her face. I know
that my thingie was small, but she shouldn't tease
me about it. She shouldn't even talk about it!!!
Later that night, I
got a shock. Isabella came in when I was playing a
computer game. She asked if I was wet. I didn't
answer. Then she pulled up my nightie. She said that
she will tell stepsie that I was wet. I sat there in
shock. I felt like a baby.
September 21
Dear Diary,
Remember when I told
you that I didn't play with Barbie's. Well that is
not true now. I have started playing with Isabella's
things. Her dolls and dollhouse. It is actually fun.
I like it. I like when I play with her. We have
become very close friends, even though she calls me
sister. I suppose when I am sitting in a nightdress
that I do look like a girl.
Isabella still
checks to see if I'm wet. I don't mind that anymore.
I think she likes it as sometimes she does take her
time checking me.
Anyhow tonight
Stepsie came into our room when we were playing and
said, "It's time girls for your bath." Isabella
jumped up and ran out to the bathroom. I just sat
there; she did say that it was a girl’s bath.
Then stepsie came up
and took my hand and dragged me out to the bathroom.
It was now that I was certain that stepsie was
starting to consider me as a girl. Isn't this
against the law???? I suppose it didn't matter. It
was only a nightie and a girl’s bath. It was only
girl’s toys and long hair. I am still a boy. I
think.
It was strange
sitting in the same bath as Isabella. I know she has
seen me before, but this was freaky. What if my
mates at school heard? They would think that I
fancied Isabella. All these thoughts went through my
head while stepsie was washing me. What would my
friends say to that? My step mum was washing me.
They would think I was weird. At the end Isabella
and I played in the tub until we were told to come
out because our skin will be wrinkled as an old man.
While Isabella put her big girls clothes on, I was
put in my nightie and diaper with a Pacifier in my
mouth.
September 23
Hi Diary,
let's hope that no
one can read this. If people knew that I was an
eleven year old that wore diapers at home and
nightdresses. If they knew that I liked pacifiers
and girls toys. Then they would lock me away for
life. They would ask why I don’t say no. It would be
hard to explain that I really don't care. I kind of
like it.
I was now bed
wetting every night. I could not control it. Every
morning when I woke up I would have a wet diaper.
The same when I was wearing a diaper after school. I
started noticing that I could not get to the toilet
on time.
Today at school, I
just made it to the toilet. But as I was taking my
trousers down, I started to pee. Some of it could be
seen in my trousers.
It wasn't very wet,
but I got scared. I told Stepsie that when she was
putting me in a diaper when I came home from school.
She said that she had thought that this would be a
problem and it would be better tomorrow.
I smiled as she
found my pacifíer. Things were going to get better.
Maybe she would give me medicine or potty train me.
September 24
Dear Diary,
When I woke up, I
was of course wet. Stepsie came in and started
changing me. She had my school uniform ready. Then
she took pull-ups and explained that it was
underwear but it had padding in it in case I had
the same accident as
yesterday. She said she bought pink and white ones
with Minnie mouse as a fairy because she thought
they were so cute. It looked like girls panties,
just a lot thicker.
As she started
putting it on me, I started thinking if I should
protest.
One thing is being a
baby at home, but wearing diapers to school could
ruin my life. And if they found out they were pink,
then I might as well hide myself.
I didn't protest.
The Pull-up made my
butt look very big under the trousers. I was sure
that someone at school would notice.
However no one did
and it was good that I had it on, because the same
think happened as it did yesterday. I didn't make it
to the toilet on time. No one noticed, but I was
afraid all day that it would leak, that someone
would see it or something else.
Stepsie told me that
she had a solution to that.
September 25
Dear Diary
Today is the second
day where I would be wearing a pull-up to school.
Stepsie told me that she had bought me something
that would keep me warm. I wasn't cold. I just
wanted to make sure that my friends didn't find out
about the diaper. Now I had something else to worry
about.
After Stepsie put
the pull-up on me, she put an undershirt. But it was
obviously a girl’s one. It had straps around the
shoulders and a little pink ribbon. This was not the
worse. She started putting tights on me. They were
white and not that thick. They felt funny against my
legs.
Lucky I got my
uniform on. I was a boy on the outside and a girl
hidden under.
September 26
Dear Diary.
You are now my best
friend. There is no one else I can write about the
weird things that is happening to me. I told you
about yesterday. Step put me in Pull-ups and tights
and a girlie undershirt. When she did it, I didn’t
care. I mean my school uniform was over it, and that
was still a boys uniform. No one would know, would
they? I didn’t even think about until I came to
school.
But when I was in
school. I went past a trophy case. I could see my
refection in the glass. Oh my gosh, my butt was so
big. I stared at the reflection for a few minutes
thinking if anyone else could see the big butt. My
best friend Philip laughed and told me that I look
nice, even with my long blond hair.
We had maths
afterwards. I hate Math’s. I really do. In the
middle of the class, I could feel that I was getting
wet. I could feel a tear coming to my eye. I tried
to wipe it away and control myself from crying. I
didn’t want Philip or anyone in the class thinking I
was crying like a little girl.
But I was a little
girl. Look at my hair. It was down to my shoulder, I
always had long hair. I was wearing tights and a
girl’s undershirt. I was even wearing a pull up
because I could no longer get to the toilet on time.
What was happening to me? It can’t be normal. It
can’t be normal that I didn’t even say no to these
things that Stepsie was putting on me. It can’t be
normal that I didn’t tell her that I wanted to be a
boy.
But do I want to be
a boy? Maybe I like the attention that Stepsie is
giving to me. I miss my Mum so much that I really
don’t mind her fussing over me. I don’t mind being
treated like a little girl. Well, I didn’t when it
was at home. But now I am slowly turning to a girl
at school.
Dear Diary, when I
started writing this, I could feel the tears once
again. Now I am crying like anything. Without even
knowing it, I have put the pacifier in my mouth. I
have decided that I will no longer be a girl. I am a
boy. I will say no to Stepsie and I will get dad to
help me. But how, he is always at work.
Did he just get
married so someone will take care of me? Does he
really love me? Does he not see what is happening?
I
have to go to sleep now.
Barbies Diary - Part 2 |
September 27
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Barbies Diary - Part 3 |
October 14 |
Barbies Diary - Part 4 |
Court
Case
Number
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Transcript of Prosecutions last statement
“Ladies and gentlemen
This lady here is accused of Child abuse and Killing
her husband. It is one of the worse cases that I
have ever prosecuted. It is an easy case. Ashley's
diary and his home page is evidence enough to put
this evil woman away for life.
The first question we have to ask ourselves is did
Ashley want this treatment. Did he want to be
humiliated, teased, forced to be a girl and later os
a girl half his age. Forced to be exposed to
thousands of people on the web, the answer is
no.
Maybe he wanted to be a girl. We have heard
testimony in this case that he could have had a
gender disorder. In other words where he was
feminine. If his new step mum was compassionate and
loving, she would support this in small steps and
guide him. Ashley must have been confused if it is
true that he felt like a girl in a boy’s body. This
is an important part of the case. Was Ashley met
with love and compassion? No he was met with abuse
and brainwashing.
His experiences that we all read in his diary were
driven by one thing. Revenge. Testimony from this
case shows that his step mum went to school with
Ashley's mother. Like in many schools, there is
teasing and bullying. The Step Mum was bullied by
none other than Ashley's mother and my heart goes
out to her here. It must have been a horrible
experience. But I will remind the jury that this was
not Ashley's fault. There is no excuse for the
revenge we have seen. Two wrongs do not make a right
especially when it affects an innocent boy.
When we see the evidence, we can see the tools that
Ashley's step mother used. Slowly but surely she
brainwashed the boy. We are lucky we can see his
most inner thoughts through his diary. At the
beginning he was confused and upset about the
humiliation, the teasing and the feminisation of the
boy. Through the diary we can see that he accepts it
and becomes happy with it. As he accepts it, even
the drastic transformation into a young child. His
step Mum is being nicer as he accepts it. The more
he accepts his situation. The more she is
nicer.
Another part of this complex case was the
incontinence of Ashley. Doctor reports show that he
has a small and weak bladder. This means that Ashley
using diapers at night-time would have happened
anyhow. But his step mother also managed to use this
as a means of subduing Ashley and punishing him. Was
there any reason why he should wear diapers when he
did not need them? Was there any reason why he
should use baby things? The reason that Isabella
used them is not an excuse. By using diapers more
and more, he became more dependent on them. This can
only be described as one thing. Using a medical
problem and making it worse. It is evil.
This is a tragic case. But there is more. Ashley
lost his mother. He lost his room. He lost his pride
by being humiliated. He lost his gender. He also
lost his father. Step Mothers revenge and hatred
knows no bounds. What is the greatest thing she can
take away? First she makes Ashley's father lose all
respect for his son. Ashley needed his father to
stop this. Now she had one further plan. To make
sure he had no father. Evidence showed that she has
poisoned his father and in fact murdered him. Does
her revenge and cruelty know no answer?
We have seen that this abuse has not been private.
It has been documented on the Barbie boy home page.
Thousands of people have seen this and followed his
degradation. Step Mum made a fortune on this. She
profited from a boys abuse. Can things become
worse?
The family moves to another part of town, where no
one knows them. In other words no one knows Ashley
is a boy. Here he is humiliated once again. He does
not even get his own room. He is forced to sleep in
a crib. Forced to lie there and see Step mums many
boy friends in action. Words cannot express how evil
this is, especially when Ashley paid for the place
through his web page.
I know all this is hard for you jury members to
understand in your heads. It is important to think
that Ashley lived through this and will for the rest
of his life.
Ashley is forced to go to a school. Investigations
have led to that this school was the worst kind
there is. Girls were taught how to be submissive.
They were taught how to be objects. This could be
seen with Ashley. He made many new friends there. A
bright light in his new life was the many new
friends.
Last, it is like seeing a sci fi film, when we see
what the doctor did. I was shocked when I read that
this could even be done. The tragedy is that this
doctor, inventor and chemist used his knowledge to
create such things. Making a twelve year old into a
child for the rest of his life.
There is one answer for this case. Pray for the
victim and put the evil step Mother away for life
“
Few days later the prosecutor held a press
conference
Reporter: Do you think the father let Ashley
down? Prosecutor: Yes of course, think if it
was your own son. Would you not do something? I
think if his father was alive, he would also be
tried for neglect. Remember those that looks on and
does nothing is also a part of the problem.
Reporter: Who else can we blame?
Prosecutor: I think that his old school should be
blamed. They must have seen something. The fact is
that they have chosen to look the other way is
disturbing.
Reporter: What has happened to Isabella? His
step sister?
Prosecutor: She is also a victim. She would have
been just as evil as his mother. She is now in a
foster home and gets some counselling. She still has
contact with Ashley, but is more like a sister than
she was. I think she deep down feels sorry for the
boy.
Reporter: What about Ashley?
Prosecutor: Ashley is now a girl. Unfortunately they
were unable to reverse the changes so he will be a
girl for the rest of his life. He is being given
medication so that he can grow. He will never be
that tall or his body may not develop as much as it
can. Ashley is also getting counselling. He does
think boys are cute. He still sees Philip and they
are very close. I will not say how close they are.
Let the boy have some privacy. Ashley is now in a
foster home. They are very kind to him and I hear
that he wants to sing in the Church choir. He is
also happy for ballet. The good news is that he is
very happy. He considers himself a girl and is happy
that the bad times are over. The great news is that
he no longer wears diapers during the day. He wears
them at night and his new parents say that he still
likes the dummies. Maybe it’s time I stop calling
him him. Ashley is now a girl. The journey was an
evil one, but the future is looking good.
Reporter: What about the school?
Prosecutor: The staff of the girl’s school has been
fired. Now a group of Nuns are running the school.
Ashley still goes there. This is a good thing
because he had many friends there.
Reporter: Can we expect more
prosecutions?
Prosecutor: The Step Mum has received life for
murder and abuse. The doctor is expected to get a
lot of jail time. The Shop keepers where he got his
girl clothes from case are pending. His old school
is under investigation. The spider web of justice is
falling and justice will prevail.