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Chapter 26
Chapter 27 � An evening with Pledge Ken
The rest of the day passed uneventfully. The pledges from both the
fraternity and the sorority were escorted together to their classes
while Lisa continued working for Ruth Burnside and attending her summer
classes for the Economics Department. On Thursday night following
dinner, Tracy told her pledges and Ken to gather up their study
materials and follow her to the library. Any fun that Lisa or Bernadette
had planned for the evening was canceled, because time was quickly
passing and the pledges had to start thinking about their midterms.
Also, everyone needed to get to bed early to make up for the 4:00 run
that morning. There would be no sexual play with Ken that night: just
studying and sleeping.
The women and Ken sullenly walked in single file to the library, ordered
not to talk so they could concentrate on how best to utilize their time
studying. It turned out the silent walk was beneficial, because it gave
the pledges an opportunity to clear their minds and think about their
academic problems. For the next three hours they sat quietly in a
conference room, catching up on several homework assignments and reading
for class on Friday. As soon as they returned to the sorority Tracy
ordered everyone to clean up and get in bed. To make absolutely sure
nothing got between her group and sleep she waited with crossed arms
until Ken was lying on his cot and the women were settled in the guest
room.
Tracy had learned that Ken had fallen way behind in his coursework as a
result of his week at the sorority. Undoubtedly the same was true for
his fellow pledges, which she perceived as a serious problem. She
resolved to get all of the pledges, male and female, a few hours to
dedicate to their coursework over the weekend. The sorority would have
to ease up on �Hell Week� and give the guys some time to study.
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Friday morning, following PT and clean-up, Tracy and her group made
their normal trek to the university. The Pledge Mistress left the
freshmen in the custody of a sophomore who would escort them to class,
because she wanted to ask Ruth Burnside if she could borrow her office
for a study session on Sunday. Because she was walking alone with the
Pledge Mistress, Lisa realized she had a chance to talk to her in
private, even if it was just for a few minutes.
She explained her doubts about her behavior towards Ken, and that she
needed to talk to him and �resolve some issues�. The problem was the
lack of any opportunity to be alone with him. Bernadette always snatched
him for a round of sex and Lisa was faced with the problem of what to do
with Kathleen. What she needed was to be alone, truly alone, with Ken
and not face the prospect of being interrupted.
Tracy was well-aware of Ken�s inner struggles, although she considered
what he had told her confidential and not to be shared with Lisa. She
did agree, however, that her pledge needed an evening alone with her
ex-boyfriend. The Pledge Mistress calculated that Ken would tell Lisa
many of the secrets he had told her when she confronted him about his
feelings towards Jason. He just had to have some time to think through
what he wanted to say and how he would say it. Yes, she needed to make
sure Lisa had an opportunity to talk with him.
�Pledge Lisa, I can take care of Pledge Bernadette and Pledge Kathleen
and keep them away from you and Pledge Ken. I�ll simply bring them back
to the library after the Friday night meeting. They need to study
anyway, which, by the way, is something you to do as well. You�ll get
your time alone with him. I�ll make sure about that.�
�Thank you, ma�am.�
�In exchange for what I�m gonna do for you, I want something back.�
�Yes ma�am?�
�I want some responsibility out of you. I want you to think about how
what you do with Pledge Ken is going to affect Pledge Kathleen, and how
what you do with Pledge Kathleen is going to affect Pledge Ken. That�s a
lot to worry about, and doesn�t give you much time to worry about
yourself. Their needs come before yours.�
�Yes, ma�am.�
Lisa said nothing more as they entered the Economics Building. Upon
entering the back office, she took off her clothes and assumed the
position of submission in front of Burnside�s desk. For a couple of
minutes she was left standing with her legs spread and her hands behind
her head while her two mentors chatted about freshman classes and the
midterm schedule.
Finally Burnside ordered Lisa to prepare some tea, which she set on a
tray and served after going to her knees. Lisa no longer felt strange
about serving tea while naked and kneeling because it had become part of
her daily routine. Anyhow, she had no right to object, because her plan
for Kathleen was to have her spend her life doing the exact same thing.
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Following the Friday night dinner, President Alexandra announced that
the anticipated hike had been postponed until the following weekend
because the Triple A pledges needed to complete �Hell Week�. Lisa
realized that Tracy already must have known about the change, because
she and her companions had not yet started breaking in their hiking
boots.
That Friday there were two �birthday girls�, a sophomore and a senior,
who had been required to spend the afternoon in the nude in anticipation
of their birthday spanking. There was the usual �Happy Birthday�
celebration, followed by a spanking over the lap of the chapter
president, and finally the birthday gifts, a necklace for the sophomore
and a ring for the senior. As always, the celebration ended with group
pictures and plenty of posturing with reddened bottoms for the cameras.
Immediately after the meeting Tracy fulfilled her promise to take
Cherine, Bernadette, and Kathleen out of the house so Lisa could spend
the evening alone with Ken. She ordered three very disappointed freshmen
to pack their book bags and get ready to spend the evening at the
library. When confronted with sullen glances, she forced them to do
several sets of pushups. She poked each freshman in the chest with her
index finger and snapped:
�Look, as far as I�m concerned your grades suck! We�re gonna fix that!
If I don�t see some improvement, your butts are gonna be spending some
quality time with our newest heavy-duty leather strap! We need to break
it in, and you ought to be grateful I�m giving you the chance to not be
used as target practice!�
The threat worked. There was no hint of any further objection to
spending Friday night at the library.
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Once the Pledge Mistress and the three freshmen had departed, Lisa
sought out the Tri-Alpha pledges and separated Ken from the others. He
quietly followed her into the guest room and sank to his knees. Lisa
closed the door and unceremoniously stripped off her pledge uniform.
Once her body was uncovered, she did something the surprised him. She
knelt next to him and took his hand.
�I�don�t wanna do any S&M tonight. But I do want to spend some time with
you.�
Ken nodded, unsure how to respond. Lisa continued.
�And�I wanna tell you�that I�m sorry�for all that shit I said to you�you
know�what I told you a couple of weeks ago�when we were at the pool.�
�You don�t need to apologize, Lisa. You were right to be pissed off at
me. I was the one who screwed everything up between us.�
�You can�t help being who you are. I mean�if you�re gay, you can�t help
that.�
�I don�t know that I am. That�s the problem. I really don�t know whether
I�m gay or not. I mean�all of it�s just a bunch of fantasies. And I�m
not just talking about�you know� I mean, whenever I�m having sex, what�s
going on in real life is completely disconnected from what�s going on in
my head��
He took a deep breath:
�I�m a lot more fucked up than I realized. I was hoping that it might be
something simple, that I was just gay and needed to find a relationship.
But that�s not it. That�s not what it is.�
�Maybe you just haven�t met the right person yet��
�No! That�s not it! There�s no such thing as the �right person�. Not for
me. No such thing. That�s what I�ve found out since joining the Triple
A�s.�
�So you haven�t seen anyone who interests you?�
�No. At least not in the fraternity. I mean, there�s a couple of guys
who�ve had their eyes on me and I know they�re gonna want to play once I
swear in, but I�m not interested. I�m not attracted to them. I thought I
would be, but I�m not.�
�Maybe you just gotta give it some time.�
Ken shook his head.
�That�s not it. It won�t make any difference. I�m gonna have to say �no�
to them. I�m just not attracted. They�re not what I want.�
�Well, if you�re still worried about Jason, you�ve got to knock that
off! You can�t spend your life obsessing about Jason! You can�t keep
thinking about him, because he�s gone! You�ll destroy yourself if you
don�t get over him!�
�I know that. There�s something else I know, and this is what really
scares me. I was never in love with him. The real Jason, that is. I was
in love with my own fantasies. I was in love with something that never
existed. And the problem is, it�s not the first time that�s happened.
I�ve been doing the same thing all my life.�
��and you just realized that?�
�I realized it when I talked to Pledge Mistress Tracy. We started
talking because she got interested in what�s going on with me. I mean�we
started talking about Jason�and� we talked about Cecilia, and what�s
going on between them, and�I mean�a whole bunch of other stuff too.�
�So, did you resolve anything?�
�Sort of. Tracy made me realize that what happened with Jason is sort of
a pattern for me. It happened a couple of times in high school too.
Always the same set-up��
With that Ken repeated what he had learned from talking to Tracy, that
the only males he had fallen in love with were ones he had no hope of
ever seducing. Always the same type of guy, and always one with a
girlfriend. To Lisa it was very clear that Tracy was right. What
attracted Ken was not the real-life person, but instead a fantasy that
focused upon converting a real man into a fictionalized one.
The conversation switched to Ken�s fantasies towards women. He haltingly
confessed his attraction for Tracy and his disdain for Bernadette and
Cherine. He repeated what he had discovered by talking to Tracy, that
only a specific type of woman attracted him, just as only a certain type
of man attracted him. As Ken continued examining his own life, Lisa
realized that being able to put into words the separation between his
sexual fantasies and what was really going on around him would be hugely
beneficial.
Lisa felt sorry for Ken, because she realized that for him to find what
he was looking for in a partner would be extremely difficult. The
closest he had come to fulfilling any of his desires was his
relationship with Lisa, and even that had not worked out because she had
not understood what he truly needed. He felt the need to surrender
himself to a lover who could both dominate and protect him. Lisa mistook
his desire as simple masochism, but the truth was that Ken�s needs went
way beyond simply being punished. As the spring semester progressed,
Lisa�s whippings did not satisfy him because she did not demand control
over his life. He needed to be dominated and guided, much in the same
way Jason had surrendered his life to Cecilia, and much in the say way
that Kathleen was surrendering herself to Lisa.
Suddenly Lisa realized that Ken�s needs and Kathleen�s needs were very
similar. Tracy�s words �you really don�t know what�s going on with Ken.
None of us do,� and �to keep an open mind� came back to her. Several
thoughts ran through Lisa�s mind simultaneously. She felt a surge of
regret over the lost opportunity of enjoying a long-term relationship
with her companion. Had she understood what Ken needed, she could have
given it to him and satisfied many of her own psychological needs as
well. She needed a male sexual partner and realized that, of the all men
she had known so far, Ken was by far the most compatible. She wondered
if she could re-start sexual contact with him, even if the possibility
of a romantic relationship had passed.
She checked herself, realizing that concentrating on sex was precisely
why the relationship between her and Ken failed in the first place. What
he needed was a combination of sexual surrender and psychological
control. For a relationship with him to work, it had to have both
elements. How strange! Lisa could perceive the need in Kathleen within
days of getting to know her, and yet could not see the same need in her
boyfriend, after having known him for nearly a year!
Lisa�s thoughts drifted from Ken�s desires to her own. Part of the
reason she had wanted some time alone with him was because she was in
the mood for sex with a male partner. As much as Lisa cared for
Kathleen, her sexual orientation had not changed and throughout her life
she would need to break away every so often to indulge in sex with guys.
She was grateful for Ken�s presence, because in spite of all the changes
that had transpired over the past month, he still was the guy with whom
she preferred to have sex. It was with him that she felt a familiar
presence in her life. There was another issue pushing Lisa to make love
to Ken. Because he was an important part of her past, he was the one
person with whom she could have sex and not feel guilty about cheating
on Kathleen.
At that moment Lisa still considered Ken as her �ex-� and planned to
treat him as a casual sexual partner. However, her instinct to exert
control forced her to consider what changes she might want to make in
their sex life so she could begin controlling him psychologically. Her
desire to control him was not out of overt hope that she might reclaim
him as a long-term boyfriend, but instead a subconscious desire arising
from the dominating instinct in her personality.
Ken fully expected Lisa to grab an implement, order him to bend over,
and start beating him. He assumed there was plenty of pent-up aggression
in her and was afraid. As always, the fear sexually aroused him and his
penis was quite erect. However, Lisa�s treatment of him that night would
be very different from what he expected because of what she had learned
over the past week. She did not want to punish him, but instead to
seduce him and control him.
She grabbed his penis and stroked it a couple of times before getting on
her elbows and knees. She spread her legs and turned her bottom up,
completely exposing her shaved pelvis and bottom-hole to his eager gaze.
The old erotic desire returned as Ken touched her and explored her most
private area with his fingertips. He realized he was very aroused by
Lisa�s posture, partly because she unknowingly had assumed the same
position Tracy had taken several nights before. Ken pushed in and thrust
very hard. For the first time in a while he was able to concentrate on
the person with whom he was making love at the moment, realizing how
much more he preferred making love to Lisa over making love to
Bernadette.
Once Lisa climaxed, she sat on the sofa, spread her legs, and ordered
Ken to get a wet washcloth and clean her off. To comply he had to get on
his knees, which was what Lisa wanted. Once she was adequately clean she
ordered him to lie over her lap so she could inspect the marks from
Heather�s caning earlier in the week. The bruises were gone, but Lisa
spent a long time gently running her hand over his bottom, enjoying the
chance to touch and explore his skin at her leisure. It was obvious Ken
was enjoying the attention as well, because Lisa felt his penis
hardening and pressing against her thigh.
�I really think you could use a spanking. That�s what you want from me,
isn�t it, you naughty boy?�
�Yeah�It�s what I want��
�Such a naughty thing to want from me. So, if I give you your spanking,
what do I get in return? Hmm? What do I get out of it?�
�I�ll do whatever you want�please. I�ll do whatever you want.�
�That�s a good boy. ��whatever I want�. That�s what I need to hear.�
Lisa was fascinated by what was happening between her and her former
boyfriend. She was talking to him in a kind, but condescending tone of
voice, very different from the usual yelling and insults that had
accompanied their love-making before the beginning of the summer. She
discovered that if she talked to him seductively instead of roughly, he
seemed much more submissive, as opposed to simply being obedient. Lisa
realized there was an important difference between submission and
obedience. What she wanted from him was total submission and complete
psychological surrender. She wanted to actually control his thinking.
She began spanking slowly and softly, using the same technique on Ken
that had worked so well on Kathleen. She took breaks from the slapping
to fondle and massage his reddening backside, occasionally reaching
between his thighs to tickle his testicles. He turned his bottom up,
seeking her fingertips against his exposed skin. Lisa realized that
Kathleen had reacted in exactly the same way the last time she spanked
her.
Ken kept his legs spread and settled comfortably over Lisa�s lap. He
loved the helpless child-like feeling and the surrender she was asking
of him. At the same time he was very aroused, partly because never
before had Lisa been so gentle and patient with him.
After nearly 30 minutes of slaps, massage, and fondling, Ken was
desperate to relieve his desires inside Lisa a second time. She knew the
session over her lap had reached its climax and now it was time to
reward herself with another exquisite orgasm. Lisa ordered Ken to lie on
the floor on his back. She straddled him, grabbed his penis to guide it
inside her body, and lowered herself. She rocked back and forth as she
felt him pulsating inside her, aroused not just by the feeling of her
lover�s erect organ discharging into her body, but also by the feeling
of being in complete control over their time together. He was doing what
she told him to do. He was under her control, even if just for the
evening.
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Lisa went to bed early, anticipating the need to get up at 4:00 for
another streaking session to the stadium with Tracy and her fellow
pledges. Sure enough, at 4:00 a.m. the guest-room rang out with Tracy�s
familiar:
�OK, sleeping beauties! UP-UP-UP! Let�s go�Let�s go�Let�s go!�
The women put on their shoes, stretched, and were out the door within 20
minutes. There was a calm, familiar feeling to the early morning run,
especially for Lisa and Kathleen. Even Bernadette and Cherine felt much
more relaxed running naked on Saturday than they had Thursday, given
that it was not their first streak. As before, Heather�s friend was
waiting with her camera, and as before, Sergeant Polk was standing by
Gate 4 to let the women into the stadium.
On the stairs Kathleen sprinted ahead of the others, while Cherine
managed to keep up with Lisa and finish running all six flights of steps
non-stop. Bernadette�s time was only slightly improved over her
performance from Thursday, which meant the group would have to return to
the stadium Monday. That was fine with Lisa, because she truly enjoyed
having the opportunity to run naked, even if it was at a very strange
hour in the morning.
As the Four-Betas exited the stadium, Polk stopped the group to chat
with Tracy. Lisa could tell that her Pledge Mistress was very nervous
about being forced into a �casual� conversation just so the security
officer could have a few extra minutes to study her body. She felt that
she needed to come to Tracy�s rescue by somehow distracting Polk and
make him too nervous to continue chatting.
Lisa remembered how she had distracted the clerks in the shoe store by
turning her back to them and bending over to tie her shoelaces. She
decided to repeat that performance for the benefit of the security
officer. She began with stretching exercises, but then pretended to
notice that her shoestrings were loose. She calmly turned around, spread
her feet and turned them inward, and bent over to completely expose
herself. As she fiddled with her shoes, she glanced between her legs to
notice Polk staring at her with wide eyes. Obviously what Lisa was doing
was far more interesting than continuing to chat with his fellow
Reservist. The teasing calm vanished from his voice as he stammered and
totally forgot what he wanted to say to Tracy.
Lisa flexed her body to expose herself even more as she casually pulled
off a shoe and dumped a pebble out. She was totally shameless and loved
the feeling of absolute exposure. Even more, she was fascinated at the
thought of controlling Polk�s emotions by doing something as simple as
showing off her body.
The distraction allowed Tracy to break off the conversation and order
her group to �move out!� She wasn�t sure whether Lisa�s performance had
been deliberate, but was grateful for the interruption and the chance to
tactfully escape from the security guard. Of course, Monday morning
they�d have to show up naked yet again, but the Pledge Mistress could
worry about that in two days.
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As the weekend progressed, the Tracy became increasingly worried about
the newcomers� academic performance. On Saturday afternoon, following
house clean-up, she rounded up her group, ordered them to pack their
book-bags, and marched them to Ruth Burnside�s house in the stifling
afternoon heat. The young women undressed in the living room and spent
the next eight hours hunched over their books, while Tracy made herself
available to answer questions and help them get caught up with various
homework assignments.
On Sunday night Tracy planned another study break, one that would
include the males. She announced that immediately after dinner both
groups of pledges were to pick up their backpacks and go with her to the
university library. They would study from 6:30 to 10:00 before returning
to the sorority house. Upon getting back, the women would go straight to
bed, while Tracy would take the men back to the Tri-Alpha house and
release them back to the fraternity.
Tracy�s plan caused resentment among the other members of the sorority,
because she was shortening �Hell Week� and taking the Tri-Alpha males
away from their duties to pleasure the women. She also was taking the
Four-Beta pledges away from their clean-up responsibilities. However,
Tracy sharply rebuked her peers as she held up a copy of the Pledge
Manual:
�Any of you who don�t like what I�m doing had better take a good look at
what�s in this manual. I am responsible, first and foremost, for the
academic success of the pledges. It�s been this way since 1946, and I
think you�d better remind yourselves why that rule was written. If those
pledges fail their classes, it�s my ass! So guess what? Tonight they�re
gonna study, and then they�re gonna sleep, because tomorrow�s a school
day! That�s my decision, and if you don�t like it, tough shit! If enough
of you have a problem with that, then go right ahead and elect
yourselves a new Pledge Mistress while we�re gone!�
As soon as Tracy left with Pledge Master Arnold and the nine pledges,
Sergeant-at-Arms Heather made a very unfortunate miscalculation. She
expected that the resentment against Tracy was enough to have her voted
out as Pledge Mistress and called an emergency meeting of everyone
present in the sorority house. Because she was an officer, she had the
right to call an instant meeting, even without the prior approval of
President Alexandra.
Heather laid out her case against Tracy, that she was overly-protective
of the pledges and taking her duty as Pledge Mistress way too seriously.
The position had made her combative and unwilling to cooperate with the
other members of the sorority. One problem with the way Tracy was
handling the pledges was that she was not letting the other sorority
members participate in their hazing and preventing anyone else from
having the opportunity to get to know them.
�I don�t know what�s gotten into her. She�s got no respect for any of
the rest of us, and to be quite honest, she�s really starting to piss me
off! Maybe she�s taking her Army shit too seriously or something.
Anyhow, you�ve heard my thoughts. We ought to get rid of her, before
things with the pledges go any further!�
President Alexandra took a deep breath. She liked Heather a lot more
than she liked Tracy. They had been friends since they were pledges and
Alexandra had been expecting that Heather would succeed her in the fall
as chapter president. However, the Sergeant-at-Arms had just made an
enormous mistake by calling the meeting, because the other officers
disagreed about the need to replace Tracy.
Yes, it was true that none of the seniors really liked Tracy. Yes, it
was true that Tracy was uncompromising and obnoxious. However, Four-Beta
tradition mandated that her behavior was what was expected of a good
Pledge Mistress. Tracy�s job description not only required her to be
tough on the pledges, but also tough about protecting their interests,
watching over their well-being and willing to confront other sorority
members if necessary. Being Pledge Mistress was a difficult and
unpopular assignment, not one suited for a member interested in being
friends with everyone else.
Alexandra had nominated Tracy to be Pledge Mistress precisely because
she had the character traits that best suited her for that job. She was
not particularly gregarious, somewhat aloof from the other members, and
did not care whether she was well-liked or not. Of all the women in the
sorority she was by far the toughest and most inflexible, and also the
one most obsessed with learning and following rules and traditions. She
most certainly had a unique style of handling pledges, but so far it had
been successful. They were doing quite well and it looked like none of
them was going to drop out of the program.
Heather had the shock of her life when only one person, the junior who
was her best friend, seconded her motion to remove Tracy as Pledge
Mistress. The other seniors and many of the juniors may not have liked
Tracy, but very few of them thought anyone else was better suited to be
Pledge Mistress. It turned out that the grumbling about the pledges
being out on a study break did not translate into any desire to replace
her. Heather glanced at Alexandra, silently pleading for help.
Alexandra�s look gave Heather her answer. Sorry Heather, I can�t support
you on this. You shouldn�t have called this meeting without talking to
me first. You�re on your own.
Heather�s face turned white as she realized that she had just totally
humiliated herself. Lacking support from Alexandra, the Sergeant-at-Arms
knew better than to proceed with a formal vote. It was clear there was
almost no support among the others for her effort to remove the Pledge
Mistress. In fact, the meeting had achieved the exact opposite of what
she wanted by making the juniors and sophomores who supported Tracy
realize that plenty of others in the sorority felt the same way.
Heather, who up until that moment was guaranteed to be elected chapter
president in the fall, had just placed her ambitions in jeopardy. Now
that the rivalry was out in the open, many of the younger women began to
wonder if Tracy would actually make a better leader than Heather.
Heather retreated from the meeting, unsure how to handle the rebuke. Had
she been able to put the incident into perspective, she would have
realized that the best way to deal with it would have been to do nothing
and let it fade with the passage of time. However, she saw the sorority
presidency slipping away from her, which distorted her thinking and her
perception of her duty as a Four-Beta officer.
Heather needed to figure out how she could undermine the Pledge
Mistress. If she didn�t, Tracy would become the next chapter president.
No, that could not be allowed. Somehow, Tracy had to be stopped.
The Pledge Mistress - Chapter 28
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