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Chapter 23
Chapter 24 � Pledge Ken�s illusion
After he was cleaned up, Ken knelt in the pledge room to await further
orders. Bernadette went upstairs to fetch Lisa, figuring that probably
she would want to go next. However, given that it already was close to
10:00 p.m. Lisa decided that it was time to put Ken to bed and enjoy a
good night�s sleep in the guest room. As much as she wanted to enjoy Ken
and encourage Kathleen to enjoy him, Lisa figured that a good night�s
sleep was more important and that her time with Ken could wait until
Tuesday night.
Lisa approached Tracy, knelt, and requested permission to release Ken
and go to sleep. However, Tracy had other plans:
�You four are going to sleep, but he�s not. Have Pledge Ken go to my
room, because I�m gonna want to use him before he goes to bed.�
�Use him�� Tracy�s saying it like he�s an appliance, thought Lisa to
herself. She felt bad for Ken, but knew better than to argue. She
replied �yes, ma�am� and went downstairs to fetch her ex-boyfriend. Lisa
escorted Ken to Tracy, and knelt alongside him.
�You are dismissed, Pledge Lisa. Pledge Ken, you will accompany me to my
room.�
�Yes, Pledge Mistress Tracy.�
Ken followed Tracy up to her room, not sure what awaited him. He
suspected he was about to suffer the same sadistic treatment that his
companion undoubtedly was enduring from Heather, but fortunately what
Tracy wanted from him was very straightforward. She ordered him to
unfold a massage table and cover it with a sheet. Meanwhile she stripped
off her clothes and jumped on top.
�How much do you know about giving massages, Pledge?�
�I�I did some with Pledge Lisa��
�OK, then you�re doing me. Concentrate on the souls of my feet, my
calves, my butt, and my neck. I�m gonna want you to give me an orgasm
later on, but the first thing I want you to do is relax me.�
�Yes, ma�am.�
As Ken massaged Tracy, occasionally she gave him instructions to press
harder or change the direction of his strokes. He expected her to tell
him when she wanted him to move from one part of her body to the next,
which she did. He spent over 30 minutes on the backs of her legs alone,
and another 20 minutes on her bottom. He was surprised by how thoroughly
she wanted her bottom massaged, first by having her muscles pressed
hard, and then by having her skin stroked and caressed. Finally he
worked his way up her back to her neck and shoulders, spending another
15 minutes on that section of her body.
When Tracy flipped on her back, her attractive body was exposed to Ken
in its entirety. She wanted him to massage her thighs, arms, and
breasts, but she also was curious to see if touching her would arouse
him. She ordered him to pay extra attention to her breasts and lightly
touch her nipples until they were erect. Finally she ordered him to
explore and massage her vulva. She slowly became wet as she became
aroused, but then surprised him by flipping over on her stomach again.
Tracy wanted additional attention to her bottom. At first what she
requested was more deep tissue massage, but then she instructed him to
begin slapping both sides of her bottom in rapid succession using both
hands. Ken started gently at first, but Tracy told him to slowly
increase the force of his slaps and keep increasing until she told him
to stop.
SLAP-SLAP- SLAP- SLAP- SLAP- SLAP
Ken nervously landed rapid blows as the shade of pink in the Pledge
Mistress�s bottom turned darker and darker from the ongoing barrage of
quick smacks. He continued for what seemed a very long time, slowly
increasing the force of the rapid swats. Tracy took a deep breath and
held onto the massage table as the barrage continued.
SLAP-SLAP- SLAP- SLAP- SLAP- SLAP
Tracy�s bottom became red, but she held her position and continued
to lie quietly on the table. It was obvious that she was enjoying the
sharp stinging from Ken�s efforts and wanted the slapping to continue.
Her bottom began to swell as her skin took on a deep shade of pink and
Ken�s hands became tired, but still there was no sign from her that she
wanted him to stop.
Tracy never felt the need to submit herself for physical discipline or
face reprimand, and under no circumstances would have allowed a partner
to strike her in anger or with an implement. However, while she was
hazed as a pledge she discovered that she enjoyed the physical sensation
of a stinging bottom. What she sought was a nice even burning, spread
over her backside as it slowly intensified and approached the line
between pleasure and pain. She wanted the stinging prolonged as much as
possible at a very specific intensity, which was why she liked her
partner to start gently and slowly build up to what she desired. Ken had
found that ideal level of stinging, and for a very long time Tracy was
content to lie quietly and enjoy what was happening to her.
SLAP-SLAP- SLAP- SLAP- SLAP- SLAP
�Ohhh�Ohhh��
Tracy�s body broke out in perspiration as she arched her backside,
exposing it even more to the ongoing barrage of slaps. She reached
underneath to massage her clitoris. Finally she was stimulated enough to
want�
The Pledge Mistress suddenly rolled off the massage table and got on her
elbows and knees, spreading her very red bottom-cheeks and placing
herself on lewd display. For the third time that evening, Ken was
confronted with the sight of a woman�s naked backside, but the emotional
turmoil he felt was much greater than what he had felt when satisfying
Bernadette and Cherine. He was deeply afraid of the intimidating
sorority officer, and he found that fear extremely erotic. What made his
situation even more erotic was the contrast between her dominating
personality and the sight of her spanked bottom and submissive posture.
Fear mixed with sexual arousal as he quickly became hard. He gently
touched Tracy�s wet vagina to stimulate her even more, then grabbed her
thighs and pushed in.
Ken thrust vigorously as confused fantasies swept through his mind. He
was excited by the thought of spanking and entering his fierce
companion, but also the ongoing physical sensation from his own caning
continued to stimulate him as well. His fantasies wandered to Jason,
then to Lisa, then to himself, and finally back to Tracy. When he
climaxed, his sexual fantasies were right where they started, focused on
the person with whom he was making love at the moment.
The normal tension in Tracy�s personality subsided somewhat as she
climaxed. Her muscles were relaxed from the massage, her bottom
stimulated from the slapping, and her sexual drive temporarily satiated
by the pledge�s vigorous thrusts. She led Ken into the sorority
officers� bathroom and into the shower. She instructed him to turn on
the water and soap her body, making sure that she was completely clean.
She placed her hands against the wall as she spread her legs and ordered
him to soap and clean her still-reddish bottom and sweaty vulva. She
toweled off and ordered him to clean up and return with her to her room.
Tracy quickly put on a pair of shorts and a Four-Beta T-shirt while Ken
knelt. Once she was seated in an armchair, she returned to her role as
Ken�s superior.
�Pledge, do you understand why you�re here? In my room with me?�
�I�to satisfy your physical needs, ma�am?�
�That�s part of it, but there�s more. First of all we need to get
something straight. What we just did, you will keep to yourself. The
sorority has an agreement with the Triple-A�s that if an officer of the
sorority requests a favor from a fraternity underclassman, that
underclassman is not allowed to talk about it. If you ever tell anyone
about the details of our encounter, you face expulsion from the
fraternity. Do you understand that?
�Yes, ma�am.�
�OK, now let�s move on to you. I�d have to admit that Lisa was right
about your sexual performance. You�re pretty good. You certainly
satisfied me. Once you get going, it�s hard to imagine all those
hang-ups you�re dealing with.�
�Uh�thank you, ma�am.�
�Now, here�s a question for you, Pledge. When you were inside me, what
were you thinking about?�
�To be honest, my mind kinda wandered��
�Wandered in what way?�
�I�you know�like�fantasize about different people�and��
�Did you fantasize about Pledge Lisa?�
�Yes, ma�am. For a little bit��
�What about me?�
�Yes, ma�am. I was thinking about you too.�
�What about Jason Schmidt?�
�Him too, ma�am.�
�What about any other guys besides Jason? I mean, right now?�
Ken paused for a moment. He realized he hadn�t fantasized about anyone
else.
�No, ma�am. It was just Jason.�
�Another question. Do you find yourself fantasizing about Lisa and Jason
at the same time?�
�Yes, ma�am.�
�Has that ever happened to you before in your life, where you�d
fantasize about a guy and a girl at the same time?�
�Uh�it happened to me in high school, ma�am. Same thing, really. I was
dating this girl, but there was a guy on my tennis team (I played tennis
in high school), who used to wear a jockstrap whenever he played or
practiced. He was the only guy on the team who wore one. And every day
he�d strip down, change into that jockstrap, and then go weigh himself
and get a drink of water at the fountain. And I really wanted to touch,
you know, his bare ass. But I never did. I never really got the chance.
But I thought about him all the time.�
�Was he in a relationship with someone else?�
�Yes, ma�am. He was dating a cheerleader. That�s why I never said
anything.�
�OK, now tell me about Jason Schmidt. What was it about him that you
liked so much?�
Ken thought for a moment. Why did he like Jason so much? To start, Jason
was very pleasant to look at, with his young face and attractive
runner�s body, which usually was on display. Ken was used to seeing
Jason running around naked, because he only got dressed if he had to
leave the male wing of his dorm�s floor. Whenever Ken went into Jason�s
room or ran into him in the bathroom, he was sure to find him completely
undressed. He had seen Jason uncovered in public plenty of times as
well, modeling for art classes, speaking at nudist promotional events,
and above all, during his very public performance winning the previous
fall�s Tri-Alpha nude 10-K run.
During his first year in college, Ken spent as much of his time as he
could with Jason. What fascinated him was Jason�s determination to be
naked whenever possible. Jason was more than just a nudist; he was
something of an exhibitionist and loved being naked around other people.
At first Ken simply enjoyed looking at his friend�s body, but as time
went on, he became very attracted to him. Ken usually took off his
clothes in Jason�s presence, not because he was a nudist, but because
eventually he hoped to seduce him.
The problem for Ken was that Jason was totally oblivious. Jason Schmidt
was not the brightest person he had ever known and had a very passive
personality. Had they been alone, Ken believed that he would have easily
seduced Jason, but unfortunately Cecilia Sanchez got to him first.
Cecilia needed a boyfriend she could control, and found that in Jason.
Within days of meeting him, she zeroed in on him and completely took
over his life. Ken had no hope of fulfilling his hidden desire, because
Jason�s entire existence revolved around keeping his sharp-tempered
girlfriend happy. Apart from that, it seemed that Cecilia rarely let him
out of her sight and carefully watched anyone around him.
Ken ended up with Lisa for the same reason that Lisa ended up with Ken,
by default. The couple discovered that Ken�s sexual drive was released
if he was afraid or subjected to physical pain. Lisa knew how to make
him afraid, and in doing so got really great orgasms out of him. The
orgasms were so satisfying they were addictive, but at the same time
Ken�s desire for Jason only increased. By the end of the spring
semester, he still was making love to Lisa, but fantasizing about making
love to Jason.
Tracy interrupted him:
�In other words, what happened between you and Jason Schmidt is a repeat
of what happened to you in high school. You see a sexy guy without his
clothes, and you want him, but you can�t have him. Right?�
A repeat of his experience in high school. Ken hadn�t thought about it
like that, but he realized the Pledge Mistress was right. His experience
with Jason mirrored what had happened two years earlier with his
teammate in the school�s locker room.
�So, in other words, you�ve never actually done anything with guys, just
fantasized about it?�
�Yes, ma�am. Just fantasy�so far, at any rate.�
�Another question. Are you attracted to any of the guys in the
fraternity right now?�
�No ma�am. The only guy I really want is Jason. I�m just hoping he�ll
come back, and maybe��
Tracy�s mouth fell open and she rolled her eyes.
�Hoping he�ll come back? What are you talking about? There�s no way
Jason�s coming back! Haven�t you been following the news? Don�t you know
what he�s done?�
�Uh�no, ma�am. Pledge Master Arnold hasn�t given us any time for stuff
like checking the news.�
Tracy let out a disgusted sigh and stood up to grab a news magazine
sitting on her desk. She handed it to Ken. The cover featured the
televised image of a well-dressed middle-aged man with very short hair,
under the title:
America�s black eye
Ken did not recognize the man in the picture until he read the caption:
Danubian Prime Minister Vladim Dukov
Ken opened the magazine and thumbed to an article featuring a photograph
of Jason Schmidt speaking into a microphone. Ken read:
Damning evidence: a corporate son seeks atonement for his father�s sins
- Surprise prosecution witness sinks Mega-Town�s hopes of acquittal
- MTA suffers a humiliating defeat as coup conspirators are convicted in
Danubian court
- �It can�t get much worse than this. It�s going to completely shut us
down over there.�
Ken skimmed the article, which answered his question why Jason and
Cecilia had left the United States in such a rush in the middle of May.
According to the article, Jason had traveled to Danube City to testify
about sensitive information he had snuck out of his father�s house in
Wisconsin while staying there over Spring Break. The purloined items
detailed a coup planned against the Danubian government sponsored by a
group of investors and executives from Mega-Town Associates. Apparently
it was Jason who first alerted Prime Minister Vladim Dukov about the
coup, and it was only because of his information the scheme failed.
The Danubian military moved against the coup plotters on April 21, only
48 hours before the takeover was scheduled to take place. There was no
doubt the coup plot was a very serious effort to take over the country,
because the Danubians captured hundreds of mercenaries and local
collaborators, three CEO�s from the corporation itself, piles of stashed
weapons, and worst of all, volumes of documentation and military maps.
The Danubians were quick to scan all the documents and dump them on the
Internet, to ensure the world knew in detail what the U.S. conglomerate
wanted to do to their country. The arrests, the capture of all those
sensitive documents and their release to the public, and the trials of
the conspirators took place so quickly that the company did not have
time to effectively counter the disaster.
Jason Schmidt�s testimony in the trial was crucial because he was the
person who connected the evidence captured in Upper Danubia to the
original conspiracy in the U.S. He openly testified that he was the one
who first warned the Danubian government and thus was the person who
ultimately prevented the coup.
Jason Schmidt might have won the hearts of the Danubians and anyone else
who disliked Mega-Town�s business practices, but he had just made plenty
of very influential enemies on Wall Street. He single-handedly disrupted
a plan worth hundreds of millions of dollars, and was responsible for
additional financial losses resulting from the scandal�s fallout. One
financial analyst estimated that Jason�s actions might have cost U.S.
corporate investors as much as 20 billion dollars.
�I hope that kid realizes what he�s done to the American investment
community, because he�s dead meat. If I were him, I wouldn�t be getting
much sleep right now.�
Tracy took back the magazine.
�I think you�d better forget about Jason Schmidt. You�d better forget
you ever knew him. I can guarantee you won�t be seeing him anytime soon,
so how about moving on?�
For a long time Ken knelt quietly, not sure how to respond. Tracy could
tell that he was deeply saddened by the news she had just given him.
Finally, impatient at his prolonged silence, she continued:
�Pledge, I got a question for you. I�m wondering if you were ever really
in love with Jason Schmidt. I mean the real Jason�the one who testified
in Danube City and is dating Cecilia Sanchez. Maybe that wasn�t the
Jason you fell in love with. Maybe the Jason you fell in love with is
nothing more than an illusion, an idealized fantasy that you created for
your own psychological needs.�
�I�I don�t know��
�That�s fine. You don�t know. But at least you�re willing to admit
that�s a possibility?�
�I �spose it could be, ma�am. Maybe I didn�t know him as well as I
thought��
�Well, that�s something for you to sleep on.� Tracy glanced at her
clock. �It�s 11:15. Almost lights-out.�
�Yes, ma�am.�
�PLEDGE, STAND-UP!�
With that Ken was released, and his first day at the sorority house came
to an end.
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While the female pledges slept in the comfortable beds of the guest
room, the male pledges and their disgraced Pledge Master slept on the
open cots of the Four-Beta pledge room.
The feeling in the room was a combination of fatigue, resignation, and
relief. What probably was the worst day out of the week had come and
gone. The males knew that what the women could do to them was restricted
by the fact the group had to progress with their studies, which meant
that they had to have enough rest to be alert in their classes. It was
true they would fall behind somewhat in their homework and term papers,
but would be expected to catch up once their internment ended and they
returned to the fraternity.
With the exception of the pledge under the control of Heather, the young
men had a very good chance of avoiding any further physical punishment,
apart from the constant �hurry up� smacks they got on their bottoms. All
they had to do was obey the whims of their mistresses, which was
something they already were conditioned to do at the fraternity. For the
most part their duties included constantly giving full body massages,
rubdowns with soap in the shower, foot rubs, and oral sex. Some of the
women liked having their toes, breasts, or bottoms kissed and licked,
but the rule was that if a sorority member wanted attention to any part
of her body; her body had to be thoroughly washed before she approached
the pledge. Mostly what the women wanted was to have the males comfort
them and attend to their various physical needs.
A few of the Four-Betas also wanted to use the male pledges for regular
sex. The women who wanted intercourse were the ones with hidden sexual
needs like Tracy, were between relationships, or simply wanted a casual
orgasm to relax. The pledges soon learned that the women who wanted
normal sex were in the minority, given that most of them were in
relationships either with members of the fraternity or other members in
the sorority. Thus the pledges were able to accommodate their
mistresses, because obviously a single male would not have been capable
of having a dozen orgasms every night for six days. Typically the Triple
A�s needed to service two or three women over a 24-hour period,
something all of them were capable of doing.
Although he was under only five women, Ken expected to be kept very
busy. Bernadette planned to have sex with him at least once each day and
also have him massage and perform oral sex on Cherine. Lisa would want
sex from him as well, and try to get Kathleen to experiment with him.
That meant at least two orgasms per night, and possibly three.
As for the Pledge Mistress, Ken suspicion she would want nightly rounds
of sex turned out to be unfounded. Tracy was satisfied with her
experience, but she had no desire to climax every night. Tracy figured
she would use Ken one more time, perhaps during the weekend. Apart from
that her attitude was to let her pledges have him.
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Ken had trouble getting to sleep, in spite of being horribly fatigued.
His evening�s experience did nothing to set his mind at ease, because
his thoughts raced between two women, Lisa and Tracy, and his
increasingly vague and confusing thoughts about Jason Schmidt.
Precisely because Jason was so completely out of reach, Ken wanted him
more than ever. However, Tracy�s blunt and stinging words continued to
echo in his mind:
�I think you�d better forget about Jason Schmidt. You�d better forget
you ever knew him. I can guarantee you won�t be seeing him anytime soon,
so how about moving on?�
How about moving on? Yes, he had to move on. He could either try to hold
onto an increasingly distant fantasy, or he could move on. Those were
his choices.
Was there anyone in the fraternity who might replace Jason in Ken�s
desires? Would it be possible for Ken to explore that side of himself
with another guy? Ken thought about it and came up with a surprising
answer, no. He had to confront a very strange truth, that at least at
that point in his life, he was not really attracted to other men apart
from Jason. Over the past couple of weeks he had been touched, bathed,
and masturbated by other men, but had not found the experience to be
nearly as pleasurable as he had anticipated. There was a practical
exercise coming up the following week that would encourage the pledges
to explore anal sex, but Ken realized he really was not looking forward
to having to deal with entering another man or having another man enter
him. As for kissing another guy, that was not something he really wanted
to do, except for Jason.
Out of his confusion, Ken realized that his desire to explore intimacy
with other guys was limited to Jason Schmidt. He badly wanted to hug
Jason, massage Jason, kiss Jason, and seduce Jason. But Ken�s lust for
Jason did not extend to lust for other guys. Any desire he felt when
looking at any other man�s naked body was not really desire directed
towards the guy he was looking at, but the fantasy of Jason morphed into
his thoughts.
Ken�s mental wanderings moved to the women who surrounded him at the
moment. He dismissed Bernadette and Cherine, because they did not appeal
to him in the least. However, much to his surprise, he found the
Four-Beta Pledge Mistress very desirable. Her dominating personality and
know-it-all attitude, coupled with her surprisingly submissive style of
lovemaking, totally fascinated him. To Ken, Tracy was even more
fascinating than Lisa, because of the contradiction between her behavior
in public and her secret sexual tastes. Another part of Tracy that
fascinated Ken was the seriousness of her personality. There was not a
hint of playfulness in Tracy, not a hint of anything �extra� in her
character. Her life consisted of her studies, her position in the
sorority, physical fitness, and her military obligations.
Tracy�s treatment of Ken fit her overall character and her disdain for
�extras� in her life. The sexual encounter and the way it took place
indicated that she did not have time to dedicate to a regular boyfriend.
She had sexual cravings, but only satisfied them if she could do so
without incurring any obligations to her partner. It was obvious that
she wanted to spend time with Ken for one purpose, to satisfy a physical
need. There was no hint of any relationship once that need was
satisfied.
However, as unadorned as Tracy�s own emotional life might be, she took a
professional interest in trying to make people understand their own life
circumstances and recognize self-defeating attitudes and their resulting
behavior. Once she was finished satisfying herself with Ken, she wanted
nothing more to do with him socially, but still took an interest in his
confused sexual identity. She did not judge him for his treatment of
Lisa and desire for Jason, but she did want to ensure he realized that
Jason had no relevance in his life. She also wanted to make sure he
began the process of understanding what was his sexual identity and how
to make his desires a positive part of his existence instead of a
negative one.
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As he lay awake, now irritated by the snoring of one of his group mates,
Ken realized that his sexuality did not fall into any particular
category. He certainly was not gay, because he felt attraction towards
Lisa, and now Tracy. He was not really bi-sexual, because he did not
feel a general attraction for other guys. His sexual craving for other
men was limited to three people so far; his tennis teammate, Jason, and
another classmate in high school who happened to look a lot like�Jason,
and�also�his teammate.
Suddenly Ken realized he had made a connection between his love
interests and now understood why his attraction to other guys was very
limited. To trigger his desire, a guy had to have a very special
combination of personality traits, appearance, and life circumstances.
All three of the guys he liked were thin and athletic, had passive
personalities, were uninhibited about exposing their bodies, and above
all, �straight�. All three of those guys had girlfriends at the time Ken
became interested in them. In all three circumstances he fantasized
about seducing his target and taking him away from his girlfriend. Ken
now realized that if a guy did not have that combination of life
circumstances, he would not be interested in him. The problem was that
the fantasies were inherently self-defeating, because the guys he wanted
were precisely the ones he knew he never could have. With Jason, Ken was
pursuing the impossible, and that was precisely what made Jason so
desirable. Ken wanted Jason because he knew that he couldn�t have him.
As his thoughts dwelled on various girls he had liked (and dated), Ken
realized that it also took a precise combination of characteristics to
make him interested in a woman. She had to be very tall, athletic,
studious, serious, and not silly or rowdy. Above all, she had to be
intimidating. He had to fear her and respect her to be attracted. That
explained a lot. For example, it explained why Ken felt no interest in
Bernadette and Cherine, even though most men would find them very
attractive. According to his tastes, they were too short. Apart from
that, Bernadette�s rowdy playfulness and Cherine�s shyness were big
turn-offs. Those two freshmen were not serious and intimidating like
Lisa and Tracy. It also explained why Ken found Tracy somewhat more
desirable than Lisa. Tracy matched Ken�s ideal woman in her purest form,
because her no-nonsense character was even more extreme than that of
Lisa.
There was one significant difference between Ken�s desires for potential
male and female partners. His relationship with Lisa and his encounter
with Tracy made him realize that his sexual taste in females could be
satisfied. The combination of what he wanted in a male made the fantasy
completely unattainable. It also explained why Ken failed to appreciate
his relationship with Lisa as he dwelled on his fantasy with Ken. Lisa
was part of his daily routine, while Jason was distant enough to allow
Ken to idealize him.
Because he had enjoyed a sexual encounter with her, in one way Ken
already had fulfilled part of his fantasy with the Four-Beta Pledge
Mistress. However, she had asked him to make love to her precisely
because she wanted sex, not any type of commitment. From the outset Ken
understood that, as a partner, Tracy was every bit as unattainable as
Jason. Still, image of her stern face, lovely body, and spanked bottom
was burned into his mind and his fantasies. He fervently hoped that he
could make love to Tracy at least one more time before his internment
ended.
That was progress for him, because for the first time in several months
Ken�s thoughts were not focused on Jason Schmidt.
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