"A" Is For Awakening
(FF Oral 1st)

I suppose I should begin with the basics. My friends call me SuzyQ. I'm 21,  5' 5", 110 lbs. dripping wet (which I often am!), and 34B/23/34. I'm a natural blonde, and I work for a fairly small company in Los Angeles (I'm sure you've never heard of it!). I'm aiming at becoming a professional actress in Hollywood, and lest you misunderstand me, I mean a -legitimate- actress, nothing XXX or anything like that. I've never gone that route, and I never will, thank you very much. I'm also a little picky about my friends, both male and female. That's not to say that I'm a prude, or anywhere near that!

A little more background is in order here. I was born and raised in the midwest. I didn't exactly grow up on a farm, but not in any big city either. I was known as a kind of tomboy. I was the girl who would race the boys on my bicycle, and I would never back down to anybody, no matter how big they were. I played baseball with the boys, and I was pretty good, too. I was the first girl to ride a motorcycle, and I bought my own as soon as I could afford one (a used Shadow). This doesn't mean that I was ugly or something. I went out on dates starting when I was 14, and there were a lot of boys trying to get into my pants even then. I just said 'no', and if they got too pushy, well, that was it for them. I guess you might think that I was a lesbian or something, but I wasn't then, and I'm not now. Having said that though, my very first real sexual experience was with a girl. (I don't count playing 'doctor'!) I think I should explain how that happened.

I was at what we called a 'cornfield party'. I was a little over 16 then. I went with two guys (we were just pals, not a real date). Anyway, some of the older guys went and bought beer for everybody (there were about twenty people there). We had a CD player and some pretty good speakers, and we were blasting away with the music (We were pretty far away from town, or even the nearest farm). We were all drinking beer, and we had a campfire we were roasting corn on and grilling hamburgers. After we ate, we were all pounding down the beer pretty well. I wasn't drunk, but I was feeling no pain. So were a lot of other folks. We were laughing and joking around a lot, and the conversation swung to sex. I had been dancing with a couple of the guys, but they were all getting more into the beer than anything else, so I was dancing with this girl (her name was Bobbi) who was in the class behind me. We were really into the music, and we were doing the 'Bump'. You know, where you bump asses? Well, that was driving some of the guys nuts, and a lot of them were whistling and cheering and clapping - telling us to 'go for it' and all that. When the song ended, Bobbi wanted to go sit down and have a beer, which I thought was a good idea too!

As I said, the guys were all talking about sex, and I guess Bobbi and I helped that along, too. The drunker guys all came flocking around, mostly to hit on me, though Bobbi wasn't bad looking either. I just flat said 'not interested', and I told this one guy in particular that I wanted to stay a virgin. Bobbi also said she didn't want to fuck either. I don't know what made me say it, but I blurted out, "I think I'd rather have a girl." I suppose I thought that I'd said it to stop the guys from ragging on me, but I know now that there was an inner reason for it.

There was one guy, though, who didn't want to take 'no' for an answer. "Come on," he said, "You know you're as horny as you can be right now, aren't you? I was watching you two out there. And I also heard what you just said. Come on, be honest." Well, I'm always honest, and especially when I feel as if I have to defend myself somehow.

I said, "Sure, I'm horny as hell, but I'm not going to get laid tonight, and neither are you." He wouldn't give up though.

"OK," he said, "How about you and Bobbi?" He quickly put up his hand in a 'stop' signal. "And before you answer me, we'll give you fifty bucks each   if you two will give us a little show. Don't forget. I heard what you said about girls before."

I  almost said 'forget it' immediately, but something made me stop. I looked at Bobbi, who was holding my hand, and she said, "I don't want to. I really don't." I knew the money was very important to her though. She looked very nervous, and I could tell she was thinking hard. Finally she bit her lip and said, "I will if you will, I guess." I was thinking fast. I'll be honest, I was thinking about saving money for that Shadow, and I'll be honest again: I'd wondered more than once about what sex with another girl might be like. I was really worked up with the dancing, and Bobbi had a really nice body too.

I squeezed her hand, and I said, "OK, let's do it!"

The guys (and girls too) all cheered, and they put a couple of blankets and an old quilt down for us to lie on. Bobbi and I walked over, and she whispered to me, "Have you ever done this before?" I admitted that I hadn't but we both knew what we were supposed to do, and the beer took away most of the modesty we had. We stripped down, and then we each took each other's bra off. She really did have nice breasts. I was a little surprised at the tingle I was feeling. I'd seen pictures of naked women, and I enjoyed looking at them, but I never really thought I'd ever be with one. We laid down on the quilt, and Bobbi whispered "You first." That was fine with me. I started to pull down her panties, and I almost didn't hear the cheering that was going on. Bobbi was having second thoughts. She grabbed my hand when I reached for her, and she tried to back away from me. She was covering up her titties with her other arm, too.

"I'm scared," she said, "Can't we just kind of, you know, like pretend?" I'd already made up my mind that I was going to do this, because, well I wasn't really sure why. I just knew I wanted to right then. I kind of hissed at her. "Come on! If you want that money, we have to! Come on, now." She was still trying to pull away, but not too hard. I knew she was thinking about the money. I saw her resolve melting a little, so I made my move and pulled down at her panties. She let go of them, but she turned her head away from me. I knew she was trying to pretend that this wasn't her doing. It was the very first time I'd ever seen a girl's pussy so close to me. (Not even in the girl's locker room at school). I was kneeling between her legs, and I was only about a foot away. I didn't know what was compelling me, but I felt the strongest urge to do what I was supposed to do. My  pussy was tingling, and I hadn't even touched it.

I didn't know anything about technique, or even what I wanted her to do to me. I just bent forward and tried to kiss her pussy. She twisted her hips away from me, and she dug her fingernails into my wrist. She really was scared, I guess. I didn't care by then, because I'd made up my mind. I held her hips with both hands, and I bent down and took a really good look at her pussy. I bent down and kissed it. She seemed frozen by that action for just a second, so I kissed it again. Then I started to lick it. I didn't hear a sound from the crowd now. Maybe they were cheering, or maybe they weren't. I didn't notice. She was really trying to get away from me now, twisting and turning under my hands. Her pussy tasted different than anything I'd ever tasted. Not bad at all, in fact. I kept on licking her, and after a while she started to wriggle and writhe around even harder. I knew she was cumming. I was very excited by this. For the first time in my life, I made somebody cum!

Now it was her turn. By the expression on her face, I could see that she was very embarrassed. I hissed at her again, "Come on, take my panties off! Come on, they're waiting. Don't think about them. Think about the money." I was very turned on by what I'd just done, so I was already wet when she pulled my panties down. I just wanted her to get started on me. She finally bent down between my legs and started kissing me, but everywhere except where I wanted her to! I think she wanted to just make it look like she was doing me, and I guess she was doing a good job of it, because I heard the crowd cheering now. I tried to pull her head into me, but she put her fingers over my pussy and licked them instead of me! I was so frustrated that I put my own hand down there and frigged myself silly until I came.

I don't think anybody there except Bobbi and me had any idea that she had faked it. I felt a little self-conscious walking around nude while everyone else was fully clothed, so she and I got dressed again. We split the money, so it wasn't a total loss.

One of the guys offered me twenty bucks if I'd suck him off, and I might have, but I was pretty pissed off or frustrated I guess, and I said I wouldn't do it. I'd never done that before either, and I didn't want to have two firsts in one night. The guy didn't turn me on at all either. Bobbi acted like she didn't even know me for the rest of the night, so I had too many beers and got a guy to drive me home. Straight home.

That was the first time I ever had sex with anyone, so it was very memorable in that sense. Still, I wasn't satisfied. The next few days and weeks,  I found that I was frigging myself every day. What was I thinking about? Licking Bobbi's pussy. It excited me no end to think that I'd done that. On the other hand, she wasn't into it at all, and I wondered if anyone was. I wanted to try being with a girl again. I just had to. I knew that I needed to. After all, Bobbi was so scared that I didn't really experience what I had hoped for.

I knew that an important part of me had changed, or rather I had just discovered an important facet of my personality that I'd never suspected was there. I'll have to tell you more about that at another time.