Jessica listened to the provided messages she downloaded on her phone overnight, planning to eat breakfast first, but then remembered to open the next session as soon as she woke up and decided breakfast could wait. She took off her night shirt before her feet hit the floor, but then realized that the lessons are too important to wait, so she could just put something on after. She then booted up her computer and started the next lesson.
“Welcome to Lesson 2 on Making Friends in a New Area. If you started this session first thing in the morning then you did a good job, but if you didn’t, then you need to remember and do better. If you listened to the recordingyou did a good job, the recordings are important, but if you didn’t, then you need to remember and do better.”
Jessica felt pleased with herself when the computer said she did a good job, of course she remembered, the lessons are too important to wait.
“Tonight you will be recording and listening to your own voice, and today's session will be about phrases to record. After this session, remember to repeat it, then talk to the person who gave you this CD, they will want what is best for you and should be counted on. After you eat lunch, repeat this session, then talk to the person who gave you this CD again, they will know what is best for you and should be counted on.
You must remember that the goal of your recordings is to change everything about yourself, so your phrases should include things like ‘I will change the way I dress’ and ‘I want to change myself’. When you talk to the person who gave you this CD, you should take their suggestions, they know what is best for you. Remember the name of this session is “Making Friends in a New Area”, so other phrases you might want to include are things like ‘I want to make friends’ and ‘I want to make people happy’. You could also combine them into things like ‘I want to change myself so I can make friends’ and ‘I will change the way I dress to make people happy’. A good self reinforcing idea to add would be along the lines of ‘It feels good when I make others happy’. When you talk to the person who gave you this CD, ask them what would make them happy, and listen to what they want. The ideal number to record is 10, but if you don’t come up with 10 ideas, simply repeat some of them with different phrasings until you have enough.
This marks the end of this session, remember to repeat this session once, then go talk to the person who gave you this CD. Remember to repeat this session after lunch. When you feel you are ready, remember to record what you want to say. Remember to open the next session first thing in the morning. Start an additional course any time, taking multiple courses is good. Repeating previous sessions helps, so it is advised that you repeat this and future sessions often, and at least once right before you go to sleep.”
Jessica thought it was odd how much the lessons said she should talk to the person who gave her this CD, of course her parents know what is best for her. She repeated the session as instructed before going to the dining room for breakfast, but after finishing forgot it only instructed to repeat it once, and repeated it again.
After realizing that she didn’t need to repeat the sessions anymore Jessica went to her dresser to pick some new clothes out. As she wasn’t far into puberty, she was starting to develop somewhat of a figure, but she didn’t like it so she hid it under bulky and concealing clothes. She put on her usual cargo pants over simple white panties and sweatshirt over baggy long sleeve shirt over simple white training bra. Looking in her full length mirror, she thought about how she didn’t really like the clothes she was wearing, but she didn’t like showing off her body more. She remembered how the selection screen said there was an “Improving Self Image” course, and improving her self image wouldn’t hurt, so she decided she should talk with her parents about it and start it after breakfast.
When she met her parents at the table she apologized for being so late to breakfast, but they said they knew how important her lessons were, and had her sit and talk to them while her mom fixed her some pancakes. While they talked Jessica's father said “I wish you wouldn’t wear so many layers of clothes, it would really make me happy if you would stop hiding and show more skin”. She remembered that her parents know what’s best for her, and that she should listen to what they want.
Her mom brought her some eggs to eat and they talked some more. Jessica told them about the recordings she would make that night, and that she wanted their help. They said that if the CD gave her any suggestions she should follow them word for word, so she decided to repeat the session after they were done talking and write them all down to record later. She also said that because her dad had said he wanted her to stop hiding behind so many clothes, she would record one saying “I will stop wearing so many layers and show more skin”, which her parents both said was a wonderful idea. As she finished her eggs she remembered she wanted to ask her parents about the “Improving Self Image” course, and they told her she should take as many courses as she’s interested in, and that if she needed help with anything, no matter what she thought about it, it would make them happy to be able to help. When her parents said they were happy about her ideas she started to tingle all over, she loved the feeling she got from making them happy.
Jessica couldn’t remember much after the tingling started, she vaguely remembered agreeing to go shopping with her mom, but even that was a bit fuzzy. After they were done talking she went back and repeated that mornings lesson again. This time through she payed close attention to the suggested phrases, writing them all down and numbering them, then repeating it again to make sure she didn’t miss any and adding the one her parents helped her come up with.
1. I will change the way I dress
2. I want to change myself
3. I want to make friends
4. I want to make people happy
5. I want to change myself so I can make friends
6. I will change the way I dress to make people happy
7. It feels good to make others happy
8. I will stop wearing so many layers and show more skin
After finishing the list she went back to the course selection screen and clicked on “Improving Self Image”. This course started similar to the first one, with a dialog box and a narrator reading it to her, but with a slightly different opening dialog. Being used to how it worked by now, she just sat back and listened.
“Progress shows you have already listened to Lesson 1 and Lesson 2 sessions a total of 8 times, you will now listen to the “Revised Opening” for this course, to ensure you maximize learning time.”
“Everyone goes through self image issues at one point or another, some fix themselves quickly, while others never feel better about themselves. The only way to really fix your problem, is to change yourself until you enjoy the way you look. One way to go about this is to drastically change your wardrobe, this will force you to come out of your shell and experiment with yourself. You should talk to the person who gave you this CD about what new clothes you should get, they should always be counted on so remember to get their input when shopping.
One big obstacle people face with self image issues is their past. Many people keep remembering times they were picked on because of their clothes or bodies, which can cause them to be self conscious without even knowing why; Even if they weren’t picked on, many people feel invisible, which can have the same effect. There is often times someone, or a group of someones, that the person saw as beautiful, and thought they would never look as good as, which lead to their problem. The key to getting over your past, is to forget your past, or more specifically to forget what you don’t like. Instead of remembering how you were picked on or couldn’t meet the standard, try for something better.”
Jessica thought back to her old school. She couldn’t remember why she was upset about leaving, she hadn’t had any reason to stay there. She remembered how everyone there had either picked on her about her clothes, how ugly she was, or had completely ignored her. It felt like she must have had friends at some point, but it felt so long ago she decided she had imagined them. She wished she could forget, her old school had been a nightmare. This time she wanted things to be different, this time they would be better.
“As with all of the courses, this has a series of recordings you need to listen to. Like the others, this course comes with pre-recorded phrases that will automatically be added to your current list. Tomorrow you will record some phrases you would like to use, these will replace the pre-recorded phrases just added to the list. For the rest of the day you should remember this session, and think of phrases you would like to use for tomorrow’s recording. If you have any trouble thinking of things to record, you should talk to the person who gave you this CD, they want what is best for you and should always be counted on. Remember that the phrases should focus on changing yourself, drastically changing your wardrobe, and experimenting with yourself to try for something better.
This marks the end of this session, remember to repeat this session once, then go talk to the person who gave you this CD. Remember to open the next session first thing in the morning. Start an additional session any time, taking multiple sessions is good. Repeating previous sessions helps, so it is advised that you repeat this and future sessions often, and at least once right before you go to sleep.”
Jessica was a little nervous about drastically changing her wardrobe, but she wanted to feel more comfortable about how she looked, and she knew she couldn’t come out of her shell if she was still wearing such unflattering clothes. She wanted to fix herself and enjoy the way she looks. She automatically restarted the session, and started thinking about what to discuss with her parents when she went to talk to them once it was done.
When she went out to talk, she said her dad got called into work, but she would be happy to talk while she folded laundry. Jessica started by showing her mom the list she had written down and talking about the ‘Improving Self Image’ course. She didn’t know anything about clothes, always having dressed in the most concealing thing she could find, so she asked her mom for input on what to shop for because she knew her mom could always be counted on.
Her mom smiled and said “It makes me so happy when you count on your father and I and ask for our advice. This list looks wonderful, and I’m glad you’re taking these courses seriously, they can really help you. As for what knew clothes we should get you, it might be a big leap, but a cute crop top might be exactly the kind of drastic change you’re looking for. Why don’t you add “I will try on any clothes my parents give me” to your list of recordings, so you can get more used to me picking some clothes for you when we go? If you don’t feel up to it when we go, we can just get you some skirts and short sleeved shirts to start you off with.”
Knowing her parents know what’s best for her, Jessica immediately wrote down ‘9. I will try on any clothes my parents give me’. When her mom saw her write down the idea, she pulled her into a tight hug, and smiling down at her said “I’m happier than you can understand that you’re listening to my advice like this, I hope you always come to me like this. I should go fix us something to eat now, why don’t you go repeat one of your sessions again and come out when it’s done?”
Jessica felt a warm tingling sensation start in her chest and run through her body every time her mom said how happy she made her. She got the strongest sensation when her face was forced into her mother’s large breasts for the hug, but they felt nice and soft, so she hugged her mom back and enjoyed it. After her mom released her from the hug, she went back to her desk and restarted that mornings “Making Friends” session.
After she finished listening to it she realized that she could make the 10th phrase she needed by modifying the 9th on her list, and then she would be ready to record the new phrases. She thought for a minute then wrote down ‘10. I will wear any clothes my parents ask me to’, before opening up the recording section.
The instructions said to speak in a calm, natural voice and press the numbers on the screen to start recording that number phrase. She did as instructed, and calmly began recording “I will change the way I dress. I want to want to change myself. I want to make friends. I want to make people happy. I want to change myself so I can make friends. I will change the way I dress to make people happy. It feels good to make people happy. I will stop wearing so many layers and show more skin. I will try on any clothes my parents give me. I will wear any clothes my parents ask me to.” Once she was done recording it repeated the recordings back to her so she could make sure they all sounded correct, then said it was ready to download onto a device. She downloaded it onto her phone then put in some earbuds so she could listen throughout the day.
When she came out to the table, her mom gave her a sandwich that she knew couldn’t have taken a whole session to make, but she ignored that and sat down. When she sat down she took out her earbuds, because she knew it was rude to ignore people at the table, but her mom told her she didn’t need to stop listening, and to put the earbuds back in. Jessica put them back in and resumed listening to her own voice saying “-change the way I dress to make people happy. I want to make friends.” A few times she looked up to see her mom staring at her, but her mom just signaled for her to go back to what she was doing. Once she was done eating she went back to the computer and repeated the session again, because it had said to repeat it right after lunch.
After listening to the session again, Jessica went to talk to her mom like the session said. Her mom was still sitting at the table and they talked about the courses some more. She played the recordings on speaker phone so her mom could listen too. Her mom said they sounded wonderful, and that she was proud of how much effort she was putting into them, especially that she had come up with the tenth phrase on her own. She couldn’t remember the rest of the conversation because the warm tingling was distracting her, it felt good making her mom happy.
The rest of the day she sat on her bed, reading a book and listening to her recordings until it was time to eat. When she went out to eat, her dad was home and talking to her mom at the table. She was surprised to see him because he usually comes to see her when he gets home, but he said he didn’t want to interrupt anything she might be doing, and that she should just ignore him and her mom for the rest of the night. Supper went about the same as lunch, she ate and listened to her recordings, occasionally looking up to see one or both of her parents staring at her and smiling. She wasn’t used to people looking at her this much, but if they were smiling they were happy, and it felt good to make them happy. It wasn’t as overwhelming as it had been earlier, but whenever she saw her parent’s smiles she felt a familiar tingle in her chest.
Her routine that night was roughly the same as the previous day, with a few minor changes. Once she was ready to go to sleep, she took her phone out of her pocket and set it to speaker phone so she could keep listening as she got ready for bed. She was out of her normal clothes and trying to decide weather to put on pajamas or a big nightshirt, when her recorded voice said ‘I will stop wearing so many layers and show more skin’. She realized the best time to get used to that was when no one could see her, so she decided to start wearing less than she normally did at night, meaning wearing nothing to bed. Once she had nothing else to do she sat down at her computer and listened to both of that day's sessions once more before going to sleep.
Whenever she heard instructions that she had already finished, she felt proud of herself and the tingles would start in her chest again. After the first couple times she started to absent mindedly rub her chest, and she soon realized that rubbing her exposed breasts made her feel really good, so she started focusing on rubbing them while she listened. After the first session was over she continued to rub herself for several minutes before remembering she needed to start the second one. Once that was done she hopped into bed and fell asleep listening to her recordings and lazily rubbing her breasts.
