The Journalist by Tantra As British Airways Flight 171 began its descent into Heathrow airport, all Asher Gray could feel was weary relief. For two weeks he had been in Pakistan, trying to get the story on al Qaeda and the fate of Afghan refugees on the mountainous border. Law and order was at best a theoretical concept in that corner of the world, and gangs of militant thugs added their witless and arbitrary cruelty to the chaos of warlordism, tribal infighting and rampant corruption. Beaten once, threatened as a spy countless times, and nearly broke from bribing police and local officials, he was numb. Weeks of constant wariness and worry whether any given moment might be his last had worn him down. Odd now that he was being pampered and cosseted in the luxury of business class on a 747, on his way to the safety of London, and his change of planes for home. On the ground in Heathrow, he e-mailed his office to send his work. A lot depended on this trip, and many of his pictures could be very lucrative indeed - he'd gotten some satisfying shots he knew would market very well. After sending the followup message, he boarded his connecting flight, and sat down heavily in the aisle seat. Next to him, a voice inquired: "Asher?" He swung to see who could know him so far from home. "It's me. Live and in color." He knew immediately. "Challys? God, how are you? It's been so long -" "Longer than I care to think about," she said. It was Challys Kendall, a friend - and a brief fling - from years back, from their sex-drugs-and-disco days. Back in the eighties, they had been very young photojournalists. They met on the road, and together they became party animals, crawling from one coke or ecstasy score to the next, showing up at as many naked parties as they could get into, invited or not. She was a self-admitted sex 'freak', as he was, and for years they indulged themselves fully in the orgy scene, exploring their limits - and not finding them. It was a heady time, and it came and went as all periods of wretched excess must. After takeoff, they got their cocktails and filled each other in. Asher had stayed in the business, following his love of travel, adventure and photography - a risky, on-the-edge life that carried as much adrenaline as combat; she followed her deep love of sex into erotic rituals, Pagan mysticism, and Goddess worship. Sensuality had become a religion to her, rooted in ancient practices, and she believed the beauty of the group experience was a sacred sharing of sexual pleasure. She was the author of several books, which had bought her a comfortable life in a country retreat in Big Sur. Her skill with a camera had won her a parallel career in erotic photography, which she sold through an elegant website that featured her philosophy as well as her pictures. She was heading home from a vacation on Ibiza. "So, you're a breakout success now?" Asher asked. "Only after fifteen years of work, then you could say it was overnight," she replied with irony. "I know what you mean," he said, stirring his cocktail with a swizzle stick. "What's your erotic photography like?" "Hah!" she barked. "I guess you'd categorize them as a woman's idea of dirty pictures. They're art - I think they're beautiful - but they don't hold anything back when it comes to being explicit." "Really?" Asher mused, "So, who poses for you?" "Oh, a variety of people. I know a British girl who loves being in front of the camera with her clothes off, showing it all, and - " she reared back to assess him - "frankly, you two would be a striking couple. You'd make some beautiful pictures together. You look like you're still very much in shape." "Well, I'm still in the gym a lot," he replied, "Too vain to let my body go." "That's wonderful," Challys said, "How would you like to pose for me with her?" Asher was surprised. "Imagine me shy!" he laughed nervously. "I mean, she'd be a total stranger. I don't know -" She made a dismissive gesture. "Asher, I always knew you to be the most dependably randy man I knew while we ran together, but you had the uncommon quality of really, truly appreciating women, which softens it. The combination made you devastatingly sexy." "Well, thank you." "I think you'd be wonderful with Julia - there'd be real chemistry between you posing for me. Come on - stay a few days. Prurience can be art, believe me - besides, the food and the bunk is on me while you stay." He could scarcely argue. "Okay, but this Pagan thing - where it that coming from?" "Okay," she said resignedly. "Since you'll be steeped in a rather mystical world, you should know where Pagan sexuality springs from." She settled back, reclined her seat a few inches, kicked her shoes off, and began. "I did some digging to find out why some people - like me - are more deeply into sex than other people. We're almost outcasts in these neo-Puritan times, rap videos and shock movies notwithstanding. My deepest, most secret fantasy has always been to be the High Priestess of a cult dedicated to fucking. I knew a lot of people secretly shared this idea, so on a whim, I decided to find them and gather a kind of support group about me. A New-Age bookstore had several volumes on Pagan religions in the Near and Middle East. There was an ancient Sumerian deity named Anaiitis, the goddess of fertility and sensuality. Later Babylon knew her as Ishtar, the Greeks saw her in Diana, the Romans in Venus. Babylonian farmers were given a coin as payment for bringing in grain to be stored by the priests against famine or hunger, and this coin could only be used to pay for sex with Temple priestesses during spring celebrations, festivals of Ishtar - we have inherited the word as Easter. The priestesses' sexuality was considered sacred; since it was the final payoff for plentiful harvests, the act itself was worship of the Goddess. We get the word 'prostitute' from 'priestess' via this very connection. Noble families dedicated their daughters to be Temple harlots to serve Her, and being a Priestess - a Sacred Whore - in Her service was considered the highest honor. Anaiitis was the very personification of carnal desire - bordellos had shrines to Her; 'pleasure houses' - secluded homes of the gentry built exclusively for sex parties - were arranged around an atrium court dedicated to Her. She was the original Great Whore of Babylon.. I loved Her immediately, and decided that the Sensualist movement needed a symbol - She was it, and I wanted to be a Priestess." "Wow! Kinky!" Asher ventured lamely. "Oh God, yes, it is," Challys answered. "But I wanted to finally pull out all the stops, to make the retreat a haven for erotic mystics - and we have a growing group of select couples who come, to be naked and sexually free to explore together, and share that - that energy that makes Sensualism so intensely special." Asher exhaled. "Whoo! This is hot stuff." "Amen to that, Challys said. She continued. "Now, the Sensualist movement has a very slick, tasty website designed to attract the more educated, sophisticated audience the movement needs to be successful. That means erotic art. Mainstream pornography doesn't do it - it's become a sleazy, cheap, desperately sad cartoon of real sensual joy and exploration. My photography certainly could be called pornographic - Lord knows it's explicit enough - but I try to capture that beautiful, hot energy in sex that got lost in all the tacky pictures. And you'll find no contrived situations, gold chains, fake boobs, troweled-on makeup, mohawk pubic thatches, or empty-faced bimbos in platform shoes in any photograph I make - just natural, beautiful people doing wonderfully lewd things to each other. This is not 'Penthouse' magazine we're talking about." "And we just plunge in, in front of the camera?" "Oh, no," she answered. "You - and Julia, when she arrives - must be in a mood to follow my directions as I shoot, posing and moving in graceful ways that 'speak' to the those who view the website, awakening them to the art of the erotic, and expressing that we are above and beyond 'swinging' or free love - it's a hard thing to pin down, especially on film. Julia knows this well. We're depicting the ideal that Sensualists draw out the pleasure, extend the gift, don't indulge the 'performance' mindset of pushing for orgasm, suffuse the sensation throughout the body by meditative sensuality. When climax finally does come, it is like a glimpse of the Infinite - the French call it petit mort, or 'small death.' Now, imagine going beyond one couple, but sharing and playing with a select group of couples. People have told me just being among the fucking, listening to the pleasuring around them, and knowing they were a part of this - this thing of writhing, celebrating flesh, was almost too beautiful to bear for them. It is a mystical, Pagan thing. That's the essence of Sensualism.." "Okay. I'll come." "Oh, excellent," she exclaimed with delight. ------------------------------------------------------------ Challys' retreat was a secluded hundred acres, well away from civilization. The parklike setting was crowned by a redwood-beam house of almost futuristic architecture. Artfully placed rocks set off garden paths and meandering streamlets, and the house itself posed heroically at the prow of a small hill. The perfect place to wander and meditate in calm and silence. "I spend a lot of time naked here," Challys kidded him fondly. "I can see why," Asher answered, "and it's a dream setting for being naked." "I knew you'd like it here," she replied. "I called Julia this morning. She's running her usual five miles this morning, but she'll be here for early cocktails. You don't mind her coming so soon, do you? I'd like to get going." "Oh? Well, I guess not," Asher ventured. "I'd like to meet her sooner rather than later. So, she really runs five miles a day?" "Every day, rain or shine," Challys answered, "and she's a dancer." "I feel outclassed." Challys laughed uproariously. "Of course you aren't, you goof. "She's just very fit, very smart, and very sexy - you two will get along nicely, I just know it. Don't worry about it." Challys was right. Julia dropped in around one, and she was marvelous. She was of medium height, slender, and obviously athletic. She wore minimal makeup. Small breasts topped a beautifully formed body, and light brown, shoulder-length hair was swept to one side in the manner of an active woman to whom hairstyles were of secondary importance. Her eyes were smoky gray, and danced with amusement. She was funny. She was quick. Asher liked her immediately. Julia knew it. And she liked it. The three of them enjoyed alfresco gin and tonics on the terrace, joined later by a pitcher of perfectly mixed margaritas. "I've posed for Challys' camera many times," Julia told Asher as they sipped their drinks. "I confess, I like my body and I'm a bit of an exhibitionist, I guess. Well, a lot more than a bit," she giggled. "You enjoy being naked?" Asher asked. "It doesn't embarrass you?" Julia looked at Challys, who smiled knowingly. "Uh, you might say I prefer my clothes off rather than on, and no, I don't mind it you stare - I like it." "I'd like it too," he cracked to their amusement. "But, how about the sexual side of Challys' pictures?" Asher ventured. "All her ideas spoke to me," Julia answered frankly. "I love the idea of posing very explicitly, turning people on, making them hot, just by being free with my own body. I'm a dancer, but a trained modern dancer - I couldn't work in a strip club. Challys presented me with tastefully done lustiness. I studied it closely, and the Sensualist movement makes sense to me. Highly sexual people are widely misunderstood - shunned in many cases, so we need a supportive group that allows us to be free to be ourselves. Most sex movements are for crass gluttony - Challys has formed this wonderful thing around gourmet sexuality. It is spiritual, respectful, and, well - I think it's art." "Why, thank you," Challys stammered. Asher could swear she was blushing. They talked into the warm afternoon. Gradually, the three of them became as old friends, and Asher basked in their warmth. Julia smiled a great deal, laughed at his jokes, and seemed to like what she saw when she looked at him. He certainly liked her. Challys delighted in regaling Julia with stories of her and Asher's sexual adventures, and Challys took special pleasure in details. Far from being offended, Julia seemed interested, even fascinated. Finally, the magnum bottle drained, Challys smiled. "We've had enough gin and tonics and margaritas, enough to get loose, don't you think?" Asher grinned back. "Oh, I'm feeling very loose right now," he said. Julia assented. "Mmmm. I'm ready to do anything you'd like," she said. "Oh good," Challys replied to them. "How would you two like to get naked for me now?" Julia said, "Well, finally! I thought you'd never ask," and abruptly stood up, shucking her shoes and beginning to disrobe. "Well? Asher?" Challys admonished as she set up the cameras. Asher was already slightly tumescent, and as he dropped his slacks Julia observed, "Well, we won't have to wonder about his being ready, do we? Let's take some pictures." She was now naked, and she walked about, as if she were drinking in the freedom of being without clothes. She clearly loved it. Asher was emboldened, and stood to his full height, his erection proudly waving before him as he stood next to a grinning Julia. "Oh, you two look splendid," Challys said. Challys used Nikon D1x digitals, just as Asher did. As she picked out the equipment, she enthused to him about the new technology. "I hate darkrooms, and digital photography is a miracle to me, it really is. No film to load, and Photoshop does more than I could ever do in the darkroom," she said. "And there's no enlarger, no chemicals, no guesswork." Julia was impatiently toying with her crotch with errant fingers. "Oh, you can talk shop later. Please, let's get started - I'm really into showing off today," she begged. Challys looked at Asher. "Well! She certainly seems ready. How about you?" she suggested. He turned to Julia, making sure he had her attention. "With a partner like this, how could I not be?" he said. Julia became low and smoky. "You just get close," she purred, "and we'll burn the film right out of the camera." "God, I believe it," Asher whispered, his cock now fully erect. Challys said, "Okay, I have the cameras and lenses I need. Come on, you two, let's get out of the sun." She led them indoors, to the master bedroom, and deliberately set about pulling the bed linens into disarray. As she unfolded her tripods and took light readings, she said, "Okay, you two. Get onto the bed and relax, I'll tell you what to do in just a few moments." Asher luxuriated on the huge bed, and Julia spread herself nearby, coming up on one elbow to watch him. "Nice body," she said quietly. Very, very fit." "Thanks," Asher replied, "you're beautiful too." "And you have a very pretty dick," she interrupted him. "I love nice dicks." "Uh, thanks," he managed. "It'll look great on film," Challys interjected from behind the camera, her face hidden behind the viewfinder. "Now, kneel together, face to face, and ju-u-u-ust touch." Julia knelt, and Asher faced her. Her taut nipples grazed his chest lightly, and he felt the warmth of her skin. Challys snapped away. "Yeah, that's great. Just a few more frames..." The motor drive whirred away, and the whole time Julia stared into his eyes, her breasts playing with him. His erection was growing. "Wonderful," Challys said. "Now Asher, stand up. Julia, put your mouth very close to the head of his cock, but stay a half inch away, okay?" He stood as requested, and Julia smiled up at him, then leaned forward, blowing her hot breath on his sensitive glans. His erection twitched, and she giggled playfully. "Great, people," Challys said, the motor drive firing away. "Keep it up. Julia, get even closer to it - extend your tongue, but don't quite touch him." "Not yet," Julia whispered to him, and she licked at him, not making contact. Julia's tongue hovered within a centimeter of Asher, and its tip found a pearly drop of his lubrication at his opening. As she withdrew, the viscous fluid formed a string that glistened in the backlight from the bedroom window. Asher was transfixed. "Hold it," Challys commanded, "I gotta get that." She grabbed another camera, and worked it handheld, climbing onto the bed, getting closer, closer, the motor firing. "God, that's so hot," she whispered to them, "So damned hot." Challys backed away. "Whew," she breathed, "that looked wonderful. Beautiful. Now Julia, raise your left arm. Asher, come down on your elbow and very, very slowly, kiss Julia in her armpit. Do it with love." Asher relaxed, sinking to the bed. Julia hovered near him, and raised her arm. A dark tangle of curls greeted his eyes - she did not shave. The scent of her sweat found his nostrils, and she smelled pungently of sex. He was by now agonizingly turned on, and he knew Julia was also - the tang of her arousal was washing over him. He buried his mouth in her armpit, and licked her reverently. Julia whimpered, her breath ragged. "Oh God, you two are the best I've ever shot," Challys said, her voice hoarse from her own aroused state. She was still in control, but she licked her lips and her breathing was ever deeper as she worked the cameras. Julia was moaning very softly, and Asher's lips strayed from her armpit, tracing kisses delicately along her left breast toward the nipple. Challys kept shooting, not directing, letting them find the magic. Asher lay back, and Julia hovered her breasts above his mouth, letting him kiss them as they swept past him in exquisite slow motion. "Uh, ok-okay, you two," Challys managed weakly. "Julia, stay on your hands and knees. Asher, I want you to come in behind her. Kiss her ass - very slowly, so I can get a variety of shots to choose from." Julia took a pillow, putting it under her chest, allowing her arched back to thrust her smooth buttocks proudly upward. Asher groaned with desire at the sight of her from behind. "God, I could worship that," he whispered. "Oh Asher," Challys said, "that's exactly the flavor of this shot - you have captured the mood of Sensualism precisely, and it will find its way into the pictures. Go ahead, worship her." Asher planted a kiss on Julia's left buttock. Suddenly, Challys said "Oh what the hell - wait a minute," and as Asher waited, gently caressing Julia's perfect ass, Challys put the camera down, rose from the bed, and hurriedly stripped off her clothes. "I think the mood would be even hotter if I were naked too," she said. "I don't know if it could be any hotter," Asher replied, "but I love your being naked with us. You're still as beautiful as ever." Challys climbed back into bed, picked up the Nikon, and put it to her eye. "Now," she said, "start kissing Julia again. Move toward the middle, and take your time - lick as well as kiss as you go." Asher was in a trance of reverence, his face so near Julia's vagina, the scent of her arousal overwhelmingly pleasant, her opening slick with juices. Challys kept shooting. "Slower, Asher. Slower. Let me get everything," she chided him gently. As he kissed the top of the crack of Julia's ass, Challys moved in above, deliberately brushing her own breasts along his back. Her nipples were stiff with excitement, and now a different odor was in the air - Challys' womanly scent was mixing with Julia's. Asher felt as if he were in a cathedral of pleasure, and he manfully worked to restrain himself, giving Challys a chance to create. "Oh, you two are so beautiful," Challys murmured as she shot. She was one-handing the camera now, using her other hand to caress the back of Asher's shoulders. Julia was nearly beside herself, her vagina soaked and open, nearly begging Asher to eat her. Challys swooped low, lying on the bed, shooting from underneath. As Asher's tongue found one of Julia's delicate folds, Julia shuddered, and Challys reached under him and began fondling his cock. Asher nearly went over the edge. "I have to touch you, I have to," she said plaintively. She put the camera down. "I'll pick it up again in a minute," she said hoarsely, and dove beneath Asher to take his erection deeply into her mouth, whimpering as she sucked him. "Oh God," Asher cried out, "that's too good -" Challys abruptly stopped, picking up the Nikon again. "Sorry, that thing dangling there had me mesmerized." "It's -it's okay," Asher managed, but I really have to taste this woman." "I need it, I really need it badly," Julia's muffled voice came. Challys said, "Okay, but eat her slowly. Eat her the way you used to love eating me. God, you were the best ever. No man even came close.. Julia, open yourself to him - he adores that." Julia reached back with both hands, and pulled her cheeks wide apart. Challys knew what this did to him, and she egged him on. "Isn't that the most beautiful sight in creation, love? Go ahead, worship her pussy, Asher - revere it." Challys watched from inches away, and the juices of her excitement were now running down the insides of her thighs. The camera whirred, and Asher dove into Julia, full-face, from behind, directly into her spread buttocks. Julia went over. "Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... my... GODdddddddd!!!" she cried out as her lithe body heaved, sobbing, into a seismic climax. Asher kept his face deep in her, drinking in her juices, wallowing in the musk of her, not allowing himself to be bucked off by Julia's flailing orgasm. As she quieted a bit, Asher withdrew, his face slick with her. Challys took a few frames of his face, then lowered the camera and tongue-kissed him slowly and wetly. "Mmmmm, you taste like pussy," she grinned, "and I've got plenty of frames left. Show me some technique. I'm willing to bet you can get her off again." "If - if I can take it," Julia whimpered, a sheen of sweat on her skin, her little fists grasping the bed linen into swirled knots in her grasp. "That was - incredible." "I'd love to do you again, if the photographer insists," Asher kidded. "Can you put up with me for a bit?" "Oh, well - " Julia smiled weakly, "anything for - for art, y'know." He ran his hands appreciatively over her back, her hips and thighs. "Good, brave girl, grit your teeth." He smiled, bent forward to repeat the performance. "Toy with it, Asher," Challys requested. Show the camera how good you are. I already know, Julia's finding out, and my pictures will tell the world's online Sensualists the rest." Asher found his way in again, flicked delicately at the slack pink folds of Julia's vagina, then ran his wetted tongue around, and into, Julia's anus with expert movements. Julia whimpered, winced at the almost-too-personal invasion, then relaxed when she realized she liked how it felt. "Oh my, do that to my ass again," Julia encouraged him. "Make that part of the tour, if you don't mind." Asher didn't mind. He lapped at Julia's sensitive anus, wandering down into the sweet folds of her pussy, lapping the area between, all the time being shot at close range by Challys' Nikon. Challys herself could scarcely believe she was able to document the pleasures Asher had given her so many times, and she thoroughly enjoyed the pictures she was getting. As he worked into Julia, Challys one-handed the camera again, using the other to stroke Asher's erection and caress them both. Julia shuddered, and surprised herself by coming twice in quick succession. She was on a roll, and Asher was only too happy to give her all the climaxes she could take. Finally, Challys said, "Now, the wonderful stuff. We can't cover all the ideas we have in one day, but Julia's ass in the air gives me the chance to get a shot I do want badly for the website." "Don't interrupt the man while he's doing me this good," Julia hissed playfully. "Oh, I know," Challys answered. But there's a tradeoff. How would you like that nice cock of his sinking into you at long last?" "Okay, I'm sold," Julia replied immediately. "Just direct us." "Asher, get up behind Julia. You'll be doing her dog-style - her favorite. But this must go incredibly slowly, and I know you're pretty tortured, with all the self-control you've had to muster. Well, you're about to be rewarded for it." Challys put down the camera, lay on her back, and put her knees up into her chest. "Asher," she commanded, "Just fuck me for a few strokes, then pull out and get up behind Julia. You'll then be fully ready for her." Asher braced himself above her, and Challys opened herself wide for him. He sank in half an inch, and she whispered, "Asher, do you remember this?" and she put her bare feet into his face. "I always marveled at how much you loved that," she smiled. "What a gift - oh, thank you, Challys," he murmured, sinking deeply into her, kissing and licking the soles of her feet and toes. Julia picked up the camera and began shooting pictures as he stroked into her. "God, how sweet this looks in the viewfinder," Julia exclaimed as she shot. "Fantastically decadent." She reached in between them, caressing Ashers's cock as it slid in and out of Challys' open vagina. "This is so damned hot," she said under her ragged breathing. Challys was breathing hard as well, close to orgasm. "Slow, Asher," she urged, and pushed him gently away. "Now take Julia from behind - I want to see that." Asher mounted himself behind Julia, his penis of almost oaklike rigidity. "Now, don't go all the way in," Challys ordered. She raised the camera, and said, "Now, put your beautiful cock - oh how beautiful it is - just at the opening, go in maybe half an inch." Julia helped by spreading herself again, and Asher stopped an inch in. He pulled out a bit, his fully visible penis resting in the moist nest, slick with juices. Challys was there, camera whirring, as the glistening penis rose out of Julia's vagina. "Ah, that's pretty," Challys murmured as she worked. "Slow - now, go deeper a bit." Asher sank again into Julia, who was writhing with pleasure again, her heated lusts moving her toward yet another climax. This time Asher could not slow down; his need was simply too great for him to be stopped. Wisely, Challys realized it. She had had all the pictures of the half-buried cock she needed anyway, and now it was time for her to join in fully, to joyfully play with them at the peak of the afternoon. She slid under Asher again, taking a pillow with her. Placing it under her head, she could reach up and lick Julia's clitoris from below as Asher slowly fucked her from behind. They rode the intense pleasure together, enveloped in the decadence of the languid afternoon. Asher's cock detected the contractions of Julia's orgasm - she could not take the clitoral stimulation and the deep penetration for very long. As she shuddered toward her climax, Asher's cock flushed with the beginnings of his own, and with one free hand he grasped Challys' breast, fondling Julia's buttocks with the other. As his penis emerged from Julia, Challys would lick the wet shaft with her tongue before it disappeared into the open slit again, and she would redirect her attention to Julia's clitoris and lips, slurping away at the joined organs in a dance of pleasure, at the sane time fingering her own vagina. Julia brushed her hands aside, and dipped her tongue into Challys. Julia tasted her, savoring as Challys devoured her from below, and all the time Asher's hardness was sliding into her from behind, plumbing Julia's depths as Challys pleasured her wet folds. Finally, Julia cried out again. "God, I'm - I'm - oh, oh... sweet God!" and she sweated and bucked in her fourth orgasm. The violent contractions of Julia's pulsing vagina seemed to suck Asher into her, and he erupted in a volcanic climax that sent gushing jets of what seemed to be his very soul roiling into Julia's pussy. His cock fell out, dropping into Challys' mouth as residual semen continued to spurt from him. Challys drank her fill, then lifted his penis with her tongue to guide it back into Julia. Challys bucked her hips up into Julia's face wildly, and her own orgasm joined theirs as she whimpered her pleasure. Their ragged breathing subsided into murmurs of affection, light kisses, then stillness. Asher was the first to move. He stood, a bit unsteadily, and took in the beauty of the resting forms of the two women. So beautiful, he thought to himself as they lay together. He leaned down and kissed their feet, enjoying the softness of their soles and toes, kissing insteps, then knees, hands, breasts, and finally, their sweet mouths. They smiled at him as he lay down between them, and they snuggled against him affectionately. In those languid, loving minutes, the three of them drifted off to exhausted sleep. ------------------------------------------------------------ "Asher?" "Challys? Oh, hi. Good to hear from you. You have a crappy cell phone though - you're cutting in and out." "I'm on the freeway, and there's a lot of underpasses. Listen, the shots were a success. I just had to tell you." "Really? How do you know?' "Website hits are up forty percent, everyone wants to join the group, a lot of people want a book of erotic photography featuring Julia and you, and Julia herself says she'd follow you anywhere. Would you call that successful?" He smiled to himself. "Well, I guess that beats being an accountant, now doesn't it?" "Asher, I have a proposal." "I'm listening." "You move in here, join this group, do some photography of your own - you're every bit as good as I am - and let Julia have the pleasure of your company. Come in from the cold, learn our secrets, enjoy the pleasurable life, and get to know the Sensualist movement. With the coming influx, I need help running the retreat, planning seminars, and teaching gourmet sexuality. What do you say?" "Let me think about it." "Asher, you won't have to go to Pakistan or Northern Ireland any more to make a buck. Isn't it time to stop risking your neck twice a month?" "Like I said, let me think about it." "At least it wasn't a flat 'no.'" Two days later he was packed. He moved to the retreat the following week. There are times one has to make sudden, almost quixotically impulsive changes, and he had made his. The suffering and violence that was Asher Gray's bread and butter had drifted into his past. He was home. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- This story is copyright 2002 by Tanta. Further reproduction is prohibited