Monday, February 25 2002

I finally have some time to sit down and write. It's been a couple of weeks of madness around here but we all had a great time too. First off, Ella has moved to my home and is living with me now which is great! We're having so much fun together and it's always nice to have someone live with me. I don't feel alone as I used to. Ella is really a great friend and more. We're in love and it's nice to have a sex life again! She moved in with me about a week ago. We've been very close for all this time and I'm really really in love with her. She now studies here and goes to University which is not too far from my place. Then in the afternoon we make dinner together and then do whatever we want. We often go out to the movies or with friends or when we stay at home we surf the net or watch movies on TV. Ella's doing her first year at the University so she has to study a lot most of the time. She's using my computer too so I won't have as much time to surf the net as I did before.

When we talked about her moving in with me I told her about Nikki. I didn't tell her everything, just that I sometimes look after her and that we're good friends. She didn't have any problem with that and she wanted to meet Nikki so I arranged to pick up Nikki one day after school and take her and Ella out for lunch. We went to a little café and just talked with Nikki about Ella moving in to my apartment. I think Ella really loves her because they talked a lot about computer games. She even promised Nikki to buy her something for her birthday. So after that we all went home. Ella had to do some assignments for her class while Nikki and me talked about what we'll do for her birthday. I wanted to take her out someplace but I didn't know where, and we could do it only the day after her birthday because she had a party for her friends on that day. Later Ella and me went out to buy presents for Nikki. I bought her a book and something called a "hair wrap" which is a toy for girls with lots of beads and ribbons for styling their hair. Ella bought her a Toy Story action game CD.

The following day was Nikki's birthday. She was having fun with her friends so I decided not to go there and also because we said we will have our time together the day after. Instead I called her on the telephone and we spoke for a long time after everyone had left the party. She was so sweet because we kept sharing kisses over the phone and Ella who was nearby said we were both funny for doing that. I really missed Nikki that night because I hadn't seen her on her birthday which was what I really wanted. I think Ella could see I was sad or something because she kept asking me what's wrong until I told her I missed Nikki. I told her I love Nikki just as much as I love her but I don't think she thought I meant this in a sexual way. Anyway, it was great to have her by my side because I felt less lonely and she's always so nice.

On Saturday morning me and Ella went to a food market to buy some groceries. I like doing things like that with her. She's also very funny and makes up jokes all the time and I can't stop laughing. I like her accent too which is a little asian but her speach is almost flawless. Her accent is so cute though. When we came back home I called Nikki and told her I would be at her place soon with her birthday presents. I felt bad because Ella had to stay at home and study while Nikki and I were going to have fun together, but before I left she assured me she was fine and had to stay at home to finish her assignment.

It was around noon when I arrived to Nikki's home and she couldn't wait to see her presents so she took me to her room where she opened them. Her favorite was Ella's computer game. I was expecting it but she liked my presents too and then she stood on her tiptoes and put her hands around my neck and kissed me! I kissed her back and we hugged each other. I told her how much I love her and she said she loved me too. I didn't want to let her go because we hadn't been alone with each other for a few weeks and I missed our cuddles and kisses; but I had promised to take her to the movies so we had to go or we would miss the movie. I helped her dress and we said bye to her mom and dad. Before we left, her mom said I should bring her back before 10 pm and I said we will be back sooner than that.

I took her to see Lord of the Rings which was very good. We both liked it a lot but it's quite a long movie so Nikki became a little bored at the end and she needed to use the toilet too. After the movie we went for a walk along the beach and we watched some people fly kites there. Nikki said her school was organizing a trip to one island in two weeks time which is pretty close to the place where we went last summer. Anyway, we were just looking at the kites when she asked me about Ella. She asked me if Ella would live with me now and I don't think she liked my answer because she grew quiet. I said it doesn't matter if Ella stays with me or not because we will still see each other like before and we'll spend time together, but then she said that Ella will be there too and it won't be fun anymore. She asked me if I love Ella and I told her that I love them both. Then she frowned as if not believing me. I wanted to make her feel good because it was her birthday so I said what I really believed. I said if I had to choose between them I would choose her instead of Ella, but because we couldn't live together yet, I liked having Ella with me. I told her Ella is my good friend but I've known her for only a few weeks and not three years like I've known Nikki. I think it made her feel better again because she took my hand and pressed her face against me. I think she was jealous but I was expecting it to happen. She's still only a little girl.

It was now getting late so we went to eat something. We went to a little restaurant close to the beach just when it started to rain. It gets dark here around 5 in the afternoon when it's winter so we had nothing else to do outside anymore. After we ate our dinner we decided to go back home and try to install her birthday computer game. She has an old computer at home which her Dad uses most of the time for his work but Nikki also keeps her games on it. So it was about 6pm when we came back and it was nice to be in a warm place again because the wind at the beach was very cold and we were freezing! I think Nikki's mom was surprised to see us so early back home but we told her it was really cold outside. Anyway, we went to the room where they keep their computer and turned it on. I'm not an expert in computers so it took us a while to work out how to install the game but at the end it all worked well. Nikki loved the game and so did I. It looks like Super Mario Bros but it's different too. It's just an arcade game but a pretty good one. I think we played it for hours and we had so much fun Nikki's parents came to see why we were laughing so much!

At 11:30 Nikki's dad came around and said it was getting quite late. I think Nikki's mom was already in bed by then. I couldn't believe it was so late, maybe because we enjoyed playing the game, but then something really unusual happened. He asked me if I would like to stay at their home overnight so I didn't have to go back out in the rain. Then before I could answer Nikki started yelling yes! yes! and jumping up and down. I didn't know what to say because I felt really awkward and I wasn't sure if he was serious. Then finally I said I wouldn't mind staying to which Nikki added I could sleep in her room. I think I blushed but I didn't mind at all where I would sleep and her dad seemed to have nothing against it. I thought, gosh is this really happening? Her own father will let me sleep with his little girl. I think it was my lucky day. Not because I've never slept with Nikki before but because her parents knew about it and let us go along with it.

So after that her dad said goodnight to us and told us to be quiet, meaning we shouldn't laugh as we did when playing computer game or we will wake up every person in the building. Then he went to his bedroom and we went to Nikki's little bedroom. I've been in her bedroom many times before but honestly, I never expected I would spend a night there with her. It's a little room with her bed and wardrobe and her desk where she does her homework. She keeps all her toys there too so it's quite crowded in there. I had do compete for a space in her bed with two stuffed teddy bears! I've never seen Nikki so happy, she was glowing with joy! Then I offered to undress her and put her in her warm jammies. She wore her best dress so I carefully took it off of her and folded it over her chair. Then I took her little white socks off and unbuttoned her shirt while she giggled all along. Once she was in bed I took off my clothes and joined her under the covers. We were very close because it's just a little bed but all the better. I held her next to me and kissed her shoulder. She said she wasn't sleepy so we talked about things we would do if we lived together. Her favorite fantasy is to be an archaeologist and travel around the world with me and explore ancient temples. Actually I wouldn't mind living like that, just me and her travelling around the world and having a good time. It was so beautiful to be there with her just talking about things and feeling her right next to me. I could feel her breath and it felt so good. But then I remembered Ella was alone and she didn't know where I was. She was expecting me to come home and I didn't tell her I was staying with Nikki. I got out of the bed and called her quickly on my mobile phone and told her where I was. I think she was a little puzzled with everything and I hoped she wasn't going to question me about it in the morning.

It was still raining outside and it was past midnight but neither Nikki nor I felt sleepy yet. I sat next to her in bed and hugged her to myself. I just felt like telling her how much I loved her and then she would say "I love you more" and I would just add after her "No, I love you more" and it went on and on until she started laughing again. I thought she will wake up her mom and dad and they will be mad at us so I tried to quiet her down but it only made her more hilarious. Finally, after some time I managed to calm her down and she settled next to me. I slowly rubbed her back and she went all quiet. I thought she fell asleep but then I saw her eyes were open and was smiling. I don't know why but I just felt like touching her and kissing her. I wanted to feel her all over so I pulled up her top slowly and rubbed her bare tummy with my palm. It was soft like silk. I touched her chest and her little breasts and she even turned on her back to let me do this. We looked at each other's eyes and I don't remember being so much in love with anyone before. She was still smiling but I could see my touching had made her sleepy and after a few minutes she closed her eyes too. What I did next was new to both of us and I don't know where I found the courage to do it. My hand slid down from her tummy to her crotch and I held it there between her legs. I didn't dare move it anywhere else or do anything to her but I could feel her squeeze her legs around my hand when she turned on her side and fell asleep. I slept throughout the night with my hand trapped between her legs holding her warm little mound. I'm sure she liked it too because she adjusted a few times and squeezed my fingers with her thighs. It was quite an experience for both of us. We've never been closer in a sexual way before this night but it felt like heaven and I kept thinking how happy it could make us if only we could be this close more often, if we could sleep in each others arms every night.

I think my little beauty dreamt sweet dreams because she woke up with a smile on her little face. It was quite late in the morning because we fell asleep some time after midnight. Her hair was all ruffled and messy and I tried to make it look decent while she dressed herself. Then Nikki's mom called us for breakfast and we hurried to the kitchen. I felt out of place there because I've never been in a situation like this before. They never said anything to me or Nikki but I could feel they talked about it between themselves. It was strange but I felt welcome too. I don't think they would have let me stay if they thought something bad about me.

After breakfast, I packed up and got ready to leave. Nikki wanted me to stay but I really had to go back home. We kissed on lips and I thanked her for everything. She said she will call me on the telephone that afternoon and then we waved goodbye. When I came home, I tired to explain everything to Ella while avoiding some crucial moments that would make us both uncomfortable. I still don't feel like telling her everything. I kind of hope she will see it for herself one day without me having to explain everything but I don't know if it will happen that way and how she will react to it.

And so that's how it was. There's really nothing more important to tell. I haven't seen Nikki since then because we're both busy but we speak on the phone almost every day and we share kisses on the phone which makes Ella laugh every time.